Kayla Update

Our alter Kayla and us are achieving better conversation more about her. For a while none of us could really access her and we don't know what she does when she fronts. We are learning about her slowly with trust and I figured I'd update you all on that. Kayla needs time to be comfortable with all of us. She'll make an introduction eventually. She might start going by a different name, but thats unknown rn.

Jack (front) and Mabel (co-con)

-protector and host-

Me as a kid thinking dissociation was a cool trick to distance myself from any pain when in reality-

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Lol someone was like "we all have a little DID"

Telling someone you have DID..

“Everyone has different selves in different situations. I completely understand!”

Oh my

WARNING!!!!

People, please be careful. There are also people tracking children and people and putting bids on them based on their profile pictures on whatsapp, tracking and kidnapping them. Especially young children, so please be cautious, especially parents who have their children as their profile pictures.

Please pass this on to everyone so that they are aware of the danger. I don’t how it is all around the world but I know it can’t just be here so please please spread the word. Thank you.

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me, thinking about abuse event and not feeling much about it: hm does this mean I’m okay with it? or am I just dissociated from it?

me, having a nervous breakdown abt it later: it was the dissociation

I'm reallly scared of us ending up on

R/DIDCringe

one day.

-Aaron.

Why did no one help me?

Carson

I probably need to go to a psych ward but no one will take me

Kayla

I feel the same way!!! That's why I don't really reblog posts like that but I feel bad I don't. It just seems like a chain mail thing.

Hey, some people I follow pass around “reblog if your blog is safe for nonbinary people” or “reblog if you hate fascists” or whatever posts. My initial reaction is these are manipulative and serve no positive function. If anyone reading this has a different take on this and thinks there’s some positive aspect to “reblog if you hate fascists” posts, I’m open to hearing it – it is possible that I’m missing something important here, and if I’m wrong I’d rather know. Concerns: Basically it’s a type of negging, yeah? Prove that you’re not stuck up, that you’re not chicken, that you’re not a fascist sympathizer. You either have to do whatever the initial poster wants you to do (reblog the post – even if you have issues with the wording or the concept or any of it) or else risk getting seen as something you really don’t want to be seen as. (Specifically with the nonbinary one, I’m pretty sure there’s a bit more to making sure you’re blog is actually safe for nonbinary people than just having positive intentions, you have to actually pay attention to your language and make sure you’re not conflating genitals with gender or talking as though men and women are the only two genders all the time, so the apparent purpose, letting nonbinary people know what blogs they can follow without triggering dysphoria or whatever, doesn’t even get accomplished.) (And the suicide one. Yikes? I kind of don’t want to discourage people who are suicidal from ANY form of reaching out for reassurance or emotional support. I want suicidal people to get help, all kinds of help including non-professional help, and to live. And also…that is a pretty manipulative way of reaching out. What’s wrong with just asking for reassurance directly? In a way that respects other people’s boundaries and allows them to say no? …thing is, it can be really easy for someone who’s suicidal to genuinely NEED more than the person/people they’re reaching out to can give, so part of that is it’s really important for people who are being asked for help by people who are suicidal to be extremely clear about their boundaries. Both to stave off the “what if I’m being a burden?” brain weasels in the suicidal person, and also to not hit the point of “this person asked for too much, and I think they should have known it was too much, so now I’m going to push them away (and act like me not setting boundaries is their fault.)” And when possible, the suicidal person should ask for help in a way that acknowledges that their need does not create an obligation in anyone else – in a way that respects other people’s boundaries.)

Im sitting in the bath crying rn

Reblog if you want a shitty summary of your blog in your inbox.

Always

Zoom Therapy Sucks

Especially with trauma therapy!!!

This was a very educational post. Wow! This helps us feel a bit better.

~Laura Apple

So I benched our Primary Protector from the front since he is a bit new to the emotions of annoyance and frustration and calming down from it, but he was reading a bit of the *real* DID community drama that he apparently managed to find, and while we do not want to bring further light to it, I did want to highlight a misunderstanding in the DID diagnostic criteria that he pointed out during one of his long internal vents while he was “calming down” before I had to remove him from the front to properly relax.

With DID, there is a call and criterion for “dissociative amnesia between parts”. It seems a lot of singlets and some people interpret that part of the diagnosis to mean “complete amnesia between parts”. While sometimes that is the case, it is not always the case.

Dissociative Amnesia does not mean 100% complete amnesia and it also comes in various forms. Sometimes it can be even a strong distance / foggy memory of something a normal person would otherwise remember easily. [ISST-D x]

“Localized amnesia involves being unable to recall a specific event or events or a specific period of time; these gaps in memory are usually related to trauma or stress. For example, patients may forget the months or years of being abused as a child or the days spent in intense combat. The amnesia may not manifest for hours, days, or longer after the traumatic period. Usually, the forgotten time period, which can range from minutes to decades, is clearly demarcated. Typically, patients experience one or more episodes of memory loss.

Selective amnesia involves forgetting only some of the events during a certain period of time or only part of a traumatic event. Patients may have both localized and selective amnesia.

In generalized amnesia, patients forget their identify and life history—eg, who they are, where they went, to whom they spoke, and what they did, said, thought, experienced, and felt. Some patients can no longer access well-learned skills and lose formerly known information about the world. Generalized dissociative amnesia is rare; it is more common among combat veterans, people who have been sexually assaulted, and people experiencing extreme stress or conflict. Onset is usually sudden.

In systematized amnesia, patients forget information in a specific category, such as all information about a particular person or about their family.

In continuous amnesia, patients forget each new event as it occurs.”

https://www.merckmanuals.com/professional/psychiatric-disorders/dissociative-disorders/dissociative-amnesia

Dissociative Amnesia does not always mean 100% memory loss, and as a result - even without innate healing, it isn’t odd for some alters to remember some parts or a fog of what was going on before hand when they switch with DID. 

There is an entire conversation about how “no memory shared between parts when switching” entirely invalidates that communication and non-fusion integration is part of recovery for DID and that by having such a sentiment promotes the non-recovery within the community.

TLDR; Dissociative Amnesia between parts does not have to be 100% complete amnesia and it is a bit annoying to see people claiming one person to be faking because “their alters seem to have only a bit / minimal amnesia when they front”

-Ray (Gatekeeper); Riku (Host) helping me format this in a semi-logical format