Just trying to write a prompt and feeling like a bad writer, like I just feel like everything that I write sucks and I don't have any chance as a writer. Like back in the day I'd write 2000 words so fast and would love it but now....

The worst part is that I really want to write a book and publish it as an independent author but I feel so hopeless right now

This is me trying to vent, sorry

Trying to create a rpg adventure is something I never thought would give me so many emotions lmao

I just found out that today is pansexual visibility day.

So I wish all pans a big hug, cause we're just valid as any other identity in our community.

I found out that I was pansexual this august. And as someone with a really low self-esteem, this is one of the few things about myself that I am proud of.

Even with all the challenges that still exist it's important to look at all the achievements that were made and remember how beautiful being pansexual is. 💖💛💙

I don't what else to say, but I wish to everyone that read this short silly message take it to your heart.

Yesterday the university that I want to enter just posted an ebook to help study for the entrance exams. To get it you needed to fill in a Google form. So the third question was about your gender it included a lot of options like nonbinary and trans and I felt so happy.

So I went to another and wrote agender and send it.

I know it was just to know about the target group but it was my first time filling something as a queer person. And I know most forms especially in my country aren't inclusive.

But it made me so happy for some strange reason.

A haunted kitchen

It was weird at the start, you admitted it. Like how you started to lose the remote control frequently, making you watch whatever was going on and getting up to turn off the tv ( I mean who even does that!!!). But you should started to suspect over the fact that it was always a cooking show, instead you were too worried getting addicted to these programs. It was even on your routine: watching Gordon Ramsey tell to the stupid cooker how the wellington is still raw while you ate the instant noodle you almost failed to make.

Things went a little bit far when your kitchen started to become a mess when you were at work - like you knew the whole flat was a bit messy, but the kitchen was far from normal. And even after cleaning it, the next day it came to the same state as yesterday. To annoy you even more, some ingredients started to disappear or appear at random places.

You knew that you should move from that horrible flat - your parents told you that every time. You just needed more months until you get more stable financialy and get out of there. Specially when you found out that you were not alone at all.

At 3 am a sound of pans started and every time you went to check things were normal. It kept going for an hour and your patience were gone, making you blow up in the kitchen. You started to swear and open all your drawers looking for a mouse or something. Complaining about how life was suck for you, work was suck, college was suck, self-esteem was suck and the last thing you wanted was annoying sounds.

Then you noticed a sob. Then another and another. You turned around and saw no one here, but you blood froze from those sounds. It took you the strength of a beast to grab a knife and go walk around while holding the phone ready to call 911.

That's when you met him: Chupchip. He was a ghost and a sensitive one. He lived in your apartment because he died there - he never told you the cause of his death. The thing is he dreamed of opening his own restaurant - guess he was inspired by Ratatouille. Since he didn't get to fulfill his wish and got a deep attachment to Earth, he became a ghost.

Normally ghosts want revenge or just a way to free their anger, and it is easy for it to be done and the spirits finally rest in peace. That was not the situation for Chip (the nickname you gave him). Building a restaurant would be impossible because he is a ghost. But he practiced here at home: by watching shows, by trying to cook something.

And that's what you are doing here: you promised to help him fulfill his wish and give him a proper afterlife. You just didn't know how to explain to him that you were both poor and horrible at cooking. But you knew you'll find out: after all that's the promise you made to your best friend.

So, I was wondering (and sorry if it's just me being dumb) but this scene from Young Justice: Targets #6 just makes a lot of questions in my head and people are not talking about it.

Like, it's the scene where the Justice League threat Lex because Perdita is family. But to intimidate Lex, Kaldur says "Him return" (or would it be "return him"?) in backwards and this sentence it's driving me crazy.

Who is returning?

My first thought is Darkseid. Because he is planning to fight for Earth (cause of the deal he made with Savage) so he technically would be returning to conquer Earth. Besides Darkseid is the only one I can think that would make Lex Luthor worried like that. But then things start to not make sense: why Kaldur said that as a threat to protect Perdita? During season 3 we find out that the Light avoids at any cost harming the families of the heroes in order to avoid the wrath of them, and by this scene in Targets the heroes are somehow aware of that. Does the League know about the deal between Darkseid and the Light or anything about his plans and him? Cause they have an idea about the anti-life equation and it's danger and are also involved in the new gods thing, but do they know about what actually is coming for them? Also how does this even explain why they shouldn't harm Perdita again? Like do not hurt her or Darkseid will come to get you?

Unless they are talking about another person. And that's where my brain fails, I can't think of anyone that would make Lex or the Light scared or worried about. There's also the option of it being "Return him". But return who to where? Would it be Lex or Savage or anyone in the Light? And to where??? It could also be a secret code to something that we don't know yet.

Considering that we don't even know if we're going to have a season 5, this question might be never answered. Or maybe it's really just me missing something and acting dumb.

Anyway, just sharing my thoughts and hoping to hear a few from you.

Hello world!

This is the first time I'm going (at least properly try) to be "active". During my life I was so scared of posting anything (still am) on the internet. But I made this so I could get more comfortable and even get less shy.

So what you should know about me:

Berri is not my actual name, but I've been wanting to have a second name (more like a nickname if you think about it) so gonna go by Berri now

English is my second language, so might make a few mistakes sorry

I'm pansexual and agender. My main pronouns are she/he/they (although in english I feel more comfortable with he/they) and also feel like trying some neopronouns

Any type of phobia and hate won't be tolerated. This is a safe blog folks.

I still don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe just normal posts and maybe some writing.

Just gonna write in the tags a few things that I like (like it's that how it supposed to work right?), might update it cause keep forgetting what I like lmao

Enjoy it!