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The harder I cry for help, the louder the silence when no one does
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I so love watching other people my age earn degrees, get married, buy houses (or at least rent their own places), get new jobs, get promotions, and just generally move forward while I spend every day trying (and failing) to at least stop myself from getting any worse and going backwards on any progress I’ve made
Can’t fucking believe after all this time, my brain is still a war zone and my body is still the battleground.
It’s pathetic, truly. What a damn waste.
#tw depression#tw sui ideation#tw sui implied#tw sh implied#tw trauma#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#depressiv
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I don’t know how to hold this much rage and this much sadness
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not everyone gets what it’s like to always carry sadness within you. even when you’re happy a part of you is grieving, constantly
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I’ve lost myself and I don’t know where to look
#depressiv#depressing shit#sad thoughts#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#tw depression#depressing quotes#depressing life#tw sui ideation#feeling alone#alone with my thoughts#always alone#loneliest
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“Sometimes you just need someone to tell you you’re not as terrible as you think you are.”
— Unknown
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I wish that I really mattered. I wish that someone would actually look at me instead of past me or through me.
Im tired of being a ghost when i havent even died yet.
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Please please PLEASE can yall send me something to make me smile? I am in so, so, SO much pain right now from my back injury flare up and my Ed brain is going so wild and I’m so sad and I’m so lonely oh my god please
#anamia#aneroxic#aneroxix#disordered eating#eating disoder#pro only for myself#notpro#depressiv#anerxic#it's not as simple as just eating#ana thoughts#anarecia#anarexx#tw ed stuff#disordered eating tw#tw depressing thoughts#chronic pain#anerexic#not pr0 just for me#only pro for me#feeling alone
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I want my old body back
#anamia#aneroxic#aneroxix#disordered eating#eating disoder#pro only for myself#notpro#depressiv#anerxic#it's not as simple as just eating#tw ana trigger#tw ed descussion#tw ed implied#tw ed sheeran
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I dont care what anyone says about my ed because it was there when they weren’t.
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I am so lonely. And so isolated. I can feel the life just being sucked away and the light inside fading and I cannot keep doing this day after day after day. Sure I’ve got a couple people I text with but it’s not the same. It hurts to the core of my soul.
He texted me again today. And I’ve spent the last 3 months yearning and wishing things were different. Just wanting to give in and let him hold that space in my heart again. But the few remaining long distance friends say I need to let go of it all completely.
Someone who’s been burned as many times as me should know better, I know. But I can’t help wondering if this is going to be the time I don’t have a hammer taken to my glass heart. I don’t need a commitment to forever, but I do need someone to be with me here and now. Can’t that be enough of a reason? Yes, it’s complicated. Yes, there’s a lot of trust that would have to be built and maybe it’s never going to work. But if we don’t try again, then we never get a chance to do better than before.
Why do I have to be alone when someone is trying to love me, but just doesn’t quite know how? Aren’t I allowed to believe that people can know I’m complicated and learn to love me anyway?
Don’t I deserve a chance at this life too?
#relationship issues#feeling alone#alone with my thoughts#stressy and depressy#tw depression#sad thoughts#loneliest
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If the mental illness doesn’t get me, these digestive issues will omfg I’m sick and tired of this 😑
#anamia#aneroxic#aneroxix#disordered eating#eating disoder#pro only for myself#notpro#depressiv#anerxic#it's not as simple as just eating
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Here’s the deal-io bestie— you’re awesome and I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come. Please reach out to me or someone you’re comfortable talking with if you want help working through things.
I just discovered my inbox not being empty omg idk when this was sent but it made my evening today :)
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I just don’t know if I can keep holding out hope that anything will get better, or that I will hurt less. I don’t want to keep staying strong for the sake of everyone else. I am tired to my core and I just want to be held for a while, and then set free
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I just keep thinking
If I lost the weight they would love me again
If I lost the weight they would be proud of me again
If I lost the weight I could feel semi attractive again
If I lost the weight people would listen to me again
If I lost the weight I could be that girl again
If I lost the weight it would erase the past 3 years
If I lost the weight I could still rewrite my future
If I lost the weight everything would be different
If I lost the weight…I’d still have a chance
#anamia#aneroxic#aneroxix#disordered eating#eating disoder#pro only for myself#notpro#depressiv#anerxic#it's not as simple as just eating#tw body insecurity#ed ana#ana and mia#anerexic#fat ana#ed not sheeran#not pr0 just for me#ed not sherran#ed no sheeran#n0t pr0#i need to lose so much weight#i want to be weightless#i wanna relapse so bad#restrictive ed#eating problems#disordered eating thoughts#tw ed stuff#ed relapse#ed disorder#disordered eating mention
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I’m just so tired of everything hurting all the time. I’m trying so hard to have faith and trust, but how can a God who is supposed to love me leave me here, like this? I have never been so alone. In so much physical pain, and mental anguish. I’ve never felt so pathetic. Worthless. Waste of a life.
#depressiv#stressy and depressy#tw depression#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#sad thoughts#loneliest#feeling alone#alone with my thoughts#chronic pain#trauma
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