tfw you, as a mind reader, have to team up with a man who thinks too much

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i think its because laudna is such a physical character, she exaggerates and emotes with her hands and face and hair so much, that i think she just. contains all of this emotion until she physically cant anymore. laudna cant sit still or else she explodes. she plays with her hair or makes cats cradles out of ichor, she grooms pates gross ass fur and tries to braid the long ichor-hair of her hound until they fade into nothing. laudna sways on her feet like she still hangs from a tree

as a thank you for 10k, i am holding an art raffle!! ✨✨

the rules are simple: you must be following me (hyolks) and please tell me a strange dream you've had!! thats it!!!

i await to hear your weird dreams o7 you have until december 1st!!

Michael never really fit in anywhere. Maybe that's part of why i like him so much. Or maybe i'm just projecting lol – but hear me out.

Michael Shelley maybe really didn't have a purpose in life. Maybe doing research on his trauma was all he had. He was too good, too pure for his human life - a life that probably just wasn't great in general.

Now other people without other purpose in life than supernatural trauma reasearch become happy fulfilled avatars, like Mike Crew. But Mike Crew chose to serve his entity. Michael, on the other hand, was sacrificed to an entity that didn't fit him, that was the opposite of him. He was naive and kind and would never lie to anyone, and the Spiral is the incarnation of gaslighting and lies. Which means the Spiral wasn't good for him, but he also couldn't become a good Spiral avatar vessel. Helen seems to be able to coordinate humanity and inhumanity. Michael wasn't, because Michael Shelley wasn't made for becoming this.

In general - i'm still thinking about how Gertrude stopped the ritual by making Michael the Distortion. Maybe it was just because it disturbed the ritual and it needed to get used to its new identity. Or maybe it was because Michael just wasn't a good distortion. He wasn't strong or talented or spirally enough to complete the ritual. God, i made him tragic.

I gotta say: This seems to contradict what i’ve said before, but i’m only talking about Michael and Michael Shelley as one person to simplify this. What i really mean is the Distortion could never be good at being itself while having Michael’s mind.

Can you imagine? Not only being tied to the embodiment of your failure, but still being your failure. Thinking with a mind that represents the opposite of what you are, that contradicts your very essence. That stops you from living up to your full potential, that stops you from being good at being you.

talk about kinoga. NOW.

GAH I JUST THINK THEY ARE SO............. well first of all. they are so cute and handsome. look at them right now

Second of all I have one million feelings about them and it's barely an exaggeration. For those who aren't familiar, Kinoga is one of my beloved splatoon ocs and I think about them all the time. Originally made when I tossed a "what-if" idea about Trito, my first splatoon oc, who was once part of the octarian military, if he runs into one of the old squad members on the surface, and Kinoga was born with the help of @igneouskit. Brainworms ensue. its terminal. check out their toyhouse

(extremely brief rundown for those unfamiliar with splatoon lore the relevant bits are as follows: some octolings are part of a military that were forced underground after a war with the Inklings over land due to rising seas. At some point during the plot, the song Calamari Inkantation is sung by the two idols, which is apparently imbued in the DNA of all creatures and compels octolings to see the surface. In the splatoon 2 DLC, octo expansion, some octolings are recruited by a shady company called Kamabo Co, which entices participants to enroll in tests through a deep sea metro, and offers the "promised land" as a reward. Completing the tests entails collecting parts of a blender, and the "reward" is getting blended into sludge. This sludge can get injected into other octos which causes them to lose their will and consciousness ("sanitization").

timeline-wise much of their story takes place between splat 2, through octo expansion, and is currently in the splat 3 era. When they were still in the military, they ended up hearing the Calamari Inkantation like Agent 8 did. Kinoga and their squad were incredibly close to each other. Unwilling to just up and leave the underground but wanting to give their squadmates a better life, Kinoga hears about Kamabo's "promised land" and wants to seek it out, so they leave the squad to embark on the metros and promises to return. They do not <3 Some of the tests make them encounter sanitized octolings and they begin to question what's really happening in the metros. Their tipping point is when they run into Agara, one of their squadmates that decided to enter the metros to look for Kinoga and ends up being sanitized. Kinoga, facing the crushing realization that their squadmates had followed them, unaware of the danger, narrowly escapes being killed by Agara and eventually makes it to the surface.

This results in them experiencing a good amount of crushing guilt about leaving, they never knew it would lead to the possibility of dooming their whole squad that followed after them because they were loved and trusted. Kinoga had no way of letting the rest of them know that they should turn back and it's so. AAUGH. They have no choice but to continue on, finding life on the surface and eventually making it to splatsville with the belief that the rest of the squad may be gone. Agara and Trito end up running through the metro, Agara gets sanitized and Trito survives, albeit without getting a nasty scar from an accident that nearly got him sanitized.

Trito makes me insane also. he's my funny silly rabbit. I care about him so so much. trito goes through the metros, to maybe catch up with kinoga or meet them at the promised land, trusting that it was worth leaving if Kinoga decided it was worth it for all of them too.

Trito, upon learning about The Horrors in the metro later, realizes what could have happened to Kinoga and Agara and is unwilling to return to the rest of the squad with this knowledge, struck by the possibility that they're both gone. <-also has to realize that these horrible things have been happening to all the octlings that left to go do the metro tests. He too, eventually escapes to the surface and makes it to Inkopolis.

Years later, Trito, on a day trip to Splatsville, encounters Kinoga on the streets, and they lock eyes. and. fuck. They thought they were dead and had dealt with the grief and accepting that they were gone, effectively pushing those thoughts aside, and now they're physically in front of each other and they have to deal with it again. they make me SICK. Kinoga knowing that trito went to the metros and followed them and made it out also. Trito knowing that Kinoga experienced the horrors as well and survived. Neither of them able to return to tell the rest of the squad but they're both here, alive on the surface and aarrghhhhhhh. now they have to cope with this. they hastily exchange contact information, having to leave each other again, and end up meeting later to really catch up.

I'm so normal about kinoga and their relationship to trito post-domes. They don't even realize that they miss each other so much because they accepted that they were already gone. Seeing how much the other had changed. Being each other's only tie to their previous lives and it dawns on them that they never can move on from this. Kinoga struggles to tell Trito that they couldn't bring themselves to go back, not knowing if they could escape a second time, not knowing if any of their teammates were still left, already dealing with occasional spurts of being wracked by grief. Trito feeling the same, wanting to forget the terrible things and find happiness on the surface, but disheartened when learning that Kinoga also couldn't bring themselves to go back to look (though now that the both of them are together.....they do eventually muster the courage to go back to the domes to look for their old squadmates). It like. sucks so bad. They didn't intend to abandon their squad, but they were given circumstances where they just could not, and none of the other squad members could have known and suffer for it. aarghhhhh.

They end up at Trito's place, Kinoga and Trito end up being very affectionate towards each other after reuniting, definitely Trito being clingier...Compelled to hold onto each other and not let go, not after feeling so much regret about leaving in the first place. It's like. they left once before and terrible things happened out of their control, so they're allowed to hold each other as close as they can so it doesn't happen again (THE DEMONS) (GRIPS). it's irrational for Trito especially to think that he'll never see Kinoga again when they have to leave, since they live in separate cities and have to go in the morning. and kinoga knows it's irrational and they do their best to comfort him anyways because. who could blame him for wanting to keep them there after being gone for so long and so unexpectedly. The slow, crushing experience of not fully registering that someone could be gone and it creeps up to them until it hits. auuuuugh. they have to be so tender with each other, not really knowing where to take things afterwards but relishing in the moment of having each other there. riding the high of each other's comfort. fuck. this post is just getting worse as it goes. Trito breaking down in Kinoga's arms because he's had to hold in his grief and having nowhere to put it and then finally being able to release it. just being able to feel Something again. kinoga feeling so heartbroken to see trito like this, remembering that he was always so outspoken and smiling and having him curled up against them unable to say anything. holding him as tightly as they can. Feeling the need to take good care of him. They aren't his squad leader anymore but they still feel compelled to look out for him because then they can feel like they're doing at least something right. whatever. you guys get the gist. I'm way too much of a sucker for like...............pained intimacy. I'm down terrible. I think both of them deserve a little kissy and more. again. very touchy and affectionate with each other, I guess theyre still like "friends" (A WARRIOR'S BOND. OR WHATEVER) and are not "together" like a couple but here are words from igneouskit who put it better then I could ever. they love each other so much and they make me blow up. worlds most situationship

and also one bit I forgot to mention is that Trito has a huge scar on his chest that he hates talking about, it just brings back the fear and pain felt when he got it, and by association reminds him that he's alone from his squad who may never see again, so he's very protective of it. Upon getting back to kinoga, they do find out about the scar accidentally, and Trito lets them. like auuuugh they were so familiar with each other and now get to see what's changed since the last time. exploring eachother's bodies. whatever

Kinoga also ends up feeling really guilty at some point for Trito being immediately so affectionate towards them, they harbor thoughts that they don’t deserve it after having him go through that pain, and trito having to tell them that he made his own decision, nobody was forcing him to go, and besides, did it to see kinoga and now that they’re right in front of him he can give him all the love he’s been holding for them. Auuughhhh. Like don’t worry about feeling guilty for it. It wasn’t their fault. What matters to him now is that they’re both alive and with each other. I feel like blowing up

Even after Kinoga goes back to splatsville the next day trito is still aches about them......like a few days of reunion could never be enough to compensate for the years that they spent apart. every time they meet up after that trito jumps in kinoga's arms and kiss them like it was the first time they'd reunited

anyways. they eventually go back down to the domes to find the others. By that time, Agent 8 had dismantled Kamabo, the Sludge shit was no longer in operation, and octolings have started going to the surface. Kanu, another squad member, left the domes to find Kinoga, Agara, and Trito(jilon was another squad member who left for reasons I haven't decided yet). Denchu, the last remaining member, stayed behind, holding on to the hope that the missing members would someday return (denchu is a whole other can of worms. theyre everything to me and I feel so terrible for them <3). Trito and kinoga meet denchu, they update them on everybody else, leaving agara unaccounted for. Kinoga, who was the only one to see Agara firsthand, knowing that she might be completely unsalvageable, hesitates to bring it up, but Trito insists on going to look for her. aughhh. kinoga wants to spare trito the pain of seeing her dead or unconscious. They do eventually find her </3

She is alive, but not doing well at all, Kinoga desperate to maybe find some way to undo sanitization and restore her to full health, knowing full well that it may not be possible. They take Agara back with them to the surface and Kinoga spends a lot of time agonizing again over having caused this, feeling that agara's state is somehow their fault (ITS NOTT they're beating themselves up so bad for this because they feel responsible for the squad. aughhh).

I think thats all I have for kinoga. for now. obviously there are more thoughts I can get into but currently my brain has just latched so hard on trito and kinoga's fun situation and I love them so much. didn't think I'd get attached to them this bad but here we are </3. I hope everyone who has read this far also enjoys them as much as I do

never lay down in bed right after eating. don't think about staying on your phone for nearly two hours in that position. don't sleep either. acid reflux is real and i hate that guy

Hey so you know how in the Izuru-Fuyuhiko conversation, Izuru assumes Fuyuhiko intends to use Izuru for his talents? And Fuyuhiko refutes that like right away. Based on the recent art you made, do you have any thoughts on Izuru making himself useful (as a meat shield apparently) anyway? Izuru usefulness complex vs. Fuyuhiko 'people arent tools' complex or something like that? Sorry if this is a strange ask to get out of the blue haha I am interested in the narrative.

Ok so this is a FANTASTIC question and it took all my restraint not to send back an entire essay lmao💛💛💛 (correction^ I wrote 544 words of this so, maybe a LITTLE bit of an essay)

So, here are my thoughts on Izuru and Fuyuhiko's potential relationship in DRS:US:

I feel like the reason that Izuru may in fact stay with Fuyuhiko in this scenario (I mean, he outright says that if he were told to be free without orders he would probably just disappear overseas and cut contact,) is Fuyuhuko’s resolve not to use Izuru for his talents. I think that, in one way or another, this wont sit right with Izuru, who can easily reason out the fact that he’s a passive force until acted upon, and if acted upon (or used) for the good of humanity, that would have an overall better net benefit to the world than valuing his independence and letting his talents go to waste. As little as Izuru seems to care about anything, the thought process behind letting him do whatever he wants and not like, idk, make him cure cancer, is an absolutely atrocious error in judgement and has to be the fault of some under-developed moral code of Fuyuhuko’s. I think this intrigue is part of why Izuru would want to stay with Fuyuhuko: to see how long it will take for Fuyu, given ample opportunity, to abandon his personal code and start using Izuru (weather for humanity’s benefit or his own).

Note: I also think this is why Izuru would “make himself useful” (like the meat shield incident). By showing how much he could benefit Fuyuhiko when his talents are used, he’s subtly testing his resolve to keep refraining from doing so.

On the FLIP side we have Fuyuhiko, who’s honestly got a point. He’s definitely not thinking of it in the same big moral strokes that Izuru is, but he is thinking of the basic gist of it: What should you value more, a person’s freedom or the good they can do? In his (learned) opinion, the value a person’s life has and the potential they have for good aren’t exclusive, but that person needs to do the good on their own for it to have meaning. His relationship with Peko comes to mind hard here as someone who has been given a role and carried it out perfectly, denying their own free will in the process. Fuyu doesn’t go through the same lesson in the same way as DR2, but it’s clear that he’s coming to similar conclusions about valuing Peko’s free will in their DRUS interactions. I feel like, similarly, Fuyu would just want Izuru to start giving a damn about being used by people and stop treating himself like a means to an end.

So, does this turn into a genuine friendship? Something more?... Maybe??? I see a lot of interpretations of Izuru’s character were he’s an unfeeling machine, which I personally really dislike. I mean, the man has enough emotion to be bored by being unable to be surprised by anything anymore. He does Cry, even if he doesn’t know why. In my eyes, Izuru is mentally incredibly developed, but emotionally underdeveloped because of his emphasis on learning and usefulness since his ‘creation’. So, these two’s relationship is both ambiguous and up for interpretation, but I do think it has room for Izuru to come to understand Fuyuhuko’s thinking and maybe even start caring for him eventually. Honestly it’s all up to your personal interpretation of Izuru’s character!

But yea, those are just my thoughts! Let me know Your own interpretation!! I love these characters and always wanna hear other people's thoughts on them!!! 💛

It is easy to forget,

Easier to lie and tell myself,

That water is good.

Ignoring the fact that water

Can be far more destructive than fire -

Like torrential rains cannot bring a castle to ruin,

A rogue wave won't wash away the entire shore,

Rivers will not eventually slice the land

And turn glass to sand.

Even when expected,

Floods will continue to devastate

And all it takes is a small puddle to drown in.

Fire is rapid, it's hot, it is apparent.

But water will always gradually win,

There's hardly appropriate precaution.

Especially when it comes from within.

https://open.spotify.com/track/14UiJ7VaTWsG41YYAs6uha?si=O_wQSPfvRgexvWahmsbcng floyd song

I struggled a bit to figure out what song you sent because I don't have spotify and sometimes these links don't want to open ksjbdvb. but YOOOOO Floyd in the bottle song, hell yeah, thank you anon! you are strong, floyd, we love you

Please take my own (bipolar, ex bandmates au) Floyd in the bottle song, where he's going a bit mental from being trapped and having to think about his life 🤲

A friend of mine practically asked me if I'm still into dst since I haven't been posting as before I absolutely fucking am It's just that my brain is faster than my hands so I've not been satisfied with what I've drawn

Well... I like some stuff but I'm not posting them here (nor in the nsfw twitter)

— souviens-toi des jours passés // des chansons qu'on a chantées

happy barricade day <3

the kevjean dynamic is morally right and good bc you really truly can stick your fingers in them and do sooo much yknow. sometimes i want to write them mourning each other sometimes i want a tense reconciliation sometimes i want to visit their past where they’re tragic or their future where theyre boring and old and codependent (or never speak). they’re pretty little dolls :3

here's the thing about kevjean that people don't often look into when the general consensus for them is so bleak: they are not tragic. yes, they've had a pretty rough time both individually and as a pair, and yes, there is so much baggage between them that it might feel as if a future together in any capacity is unachievable and improbable. but what attracts me to them as a pair, what makes them the prettiest little dolls to smush together and kiss, is the fact that they were able to find friendship and camaraderie in a place that actively denied them both the grace, the humanity really, of finding connection with other people.

i disagree when people say jean's friendship with kevin was a measure of survival first and foremost. i think getting close to kevin was the opposite of a survival tactic: it was directly harmful. they were putting a lot in danger by being as close as they were, by using a language forbidden and beloathed by riko, by breaking the status quo. the fact of their friendship in the first place was dangerous. but that's the point, isn't it? it wasn't about that. kevin and jean created a relationship in a place that desperately wanted to keep them apart and as competitors, and that could never be tragic. it's the opposite. it's proof of both their humanities; it's a humbling reminder; it's the tried and true idea that we want to be kind to each other when it matters. i'm not really sure yet where i want to go with this, but it feels like this is something that should be more prevalent in kevjean content: when it mattered, they were kind to each other. they were the best of each other's days. how could that be tragic?

tl;dr: the sheer fact of kevjean's relationship is a crack of light between two eternities of darkness. that it happened at all in the most unlikely of places with the most unlikely of circumstances is some kind of star-crossed miracle. they will never experience love like this again

Will Dee marry me 🥺🥺💍💍💍 I’ll treat him right and you know it

DONT IGNORE ME YOU MOTHER FUCKER

NO LEG NO TOO BAD‼️‼️‼️

Bakugou will definitely start getting psychic abilities like telepathy, claircognizance and psychic healing after years of dating you and having tantric sex with you

THEY WAY YOU GOT MY BRAIN RUNNING WITH THIS! i read the ask like 5 times before actually answering cus this is actually driving me insane.

i’ve experienced tantric sex before and it���s truly a wonderful thing and the time and trust that goes into it is just something otherworldly. and being the one to introduce katsuki to that has me melting.

i imagine him already having these claircognizant abilities even before you introduced him to all your practices because he is very observant. and he would know all the small things about you that you don’t notice about yourself, but he knows them and memorizes them like the back of his hand.

and deeper into the relationship he already knows what you need without even having to ask. specially during sex, this man knows every nerve, every sweet spot and exactly what to do to have you seeing starts under his touch.

just picture the first time you introduce him to the idea. bodies bare against each other as you’re both focusing on your breathing until they match. before laying him down on the bed and straddling him as you start to rub your fingers along his muscular arms. trailing up to scratch against his scalp while he pulls you towards him, soft lips pressed against yours before breaking apart and exchanging slow pecks.

his tongue rubbing across your bottom lip before slipping it past your lips. soft moans escaping your chest as his tongue explores your mouth. his fingers tangling with the hairs behind your scalp, beckoning your tongue to play with his as you grind your hips down on his twitching cock. making sure to still keep your breathing steady while passion begins to drip between each other.

tongues wrapped together before breaking the kiss, trailing kisses down his neck and on his chest before giving his nipples a few licks while staring up at him, noticing how his breaths picks up at the action as you coax him into steadying his breath back down.

“relax baby, i got you”, you whisper to him before going back to trail kisses down his abdomen. your hands reaching to find his as you bring his warm palm towards your lips. placing kisses on it while trailing up towards his fingers.

a gesture that he grew in love with shortly after you two started dating. feeling insecure about his hands before out of fear that he could hurt you or you’d shy away from his sweaty palms. proving him wrong after worshiping them, telling him how they were one of your favorite parts of his body. the hands that were the source of his power, the same hands that would wrap around you and make you feel safe.

wrapping your lips around his thumb as you gently suck on his digit, his eyes never leaving yours as you trail back down to his palm. placing another kiss on his wrist before lowering yourself between his legs. giving his cock the same treatment as you open his eyes to new levels of intimacy between each other.

later on, he is the one initializing them. taking control and making sure both of your sexual energies are aligned as he gives you the same treatment.

worshiping your body and laying kisses all over your skin. your body on fire as he brought you closer to the edge with his ministrations.

sucking and tugging at your breast before diving in between your legs. edging you for hours before bringing you to the brink. showing you the same passion like it was your first time all over again.

soon he’s the one that’s cooing you into relaxing while he takes care of you.

your legs wrapped around his thighs while his hands caress your hips. his thrusts are slow and calculated as he rubs against your sweet spot. staring into each other’s eyes while soft pants escape your lips.

your eyes fluttering from the overwhelming pleasure roaming through your body as you sneak a peak in between your legs where your bodies are connected. a gentle hand immediately wrapping around your throat, not applying pressure but just focusing your attention back to him.

vermilion irises staring deep into your glossy ones as he presses his forehead down on yours. holding you close while hot breaths mix in with each other as he picks up his thrust while still maintaining a steady pace.

wrapping your arms around his broad shoulders as he buries his face in the crook of your neck. arching your back, pressing your chest into his as your mouth falls open in a silent cry. ropes of cum filling your insides while you cum around his cock. a muffled cry escaping his lips as he buries his face deeper into your neck while you cling to him.

tears spilling from your eyes from the intensity. euphoria coursing through both of your bodies as you revel in each other’s embrace. noticing the tears staining his cheeks as well when he presses his forehead against yours again.

caressing your cheek with his thumb while pressing his lips against yours. smiling against each other’s mouths as it feels like time has stopped. nothing else mattered when you guys were in this state of bliss. the mixture of love and lust, compassion and trust wrapped around the both of you as you guys continued exchanging kisses before drifting off to sleep.

Hello I like BJ because I like the moustache and the Evil Gay thoughts that he barely conceals

idk why you felt it was appropriate to put a secret transmitter in my head that beams my thoughts as anonymous asks into my own ask box, but okay, sure /j

FUCKED UP 4HALO MY BELOVED!!!!

I think Forever should keep asking Bad about the marriage. And then, Foolish convinces Bad to go through with a fake marriage and they'll blow it up to kill Forever! Something goes wrong. They're at the altar, Bad messaged Cellbit to set off the tnt but nothing was happening. Forever doesn't even notice how distracted Bad seems because everything is perfect! And then they kiss and they're married. ^_^

YESSSS i love the thought of the plan fucking up so they end up Married For Real and then we get the angst of bad in a position of semi-power because theyre married now!! :D if bad wants 200 mines placed around the server because it will make everyone happy, what sort of husband would forever be to say no? <3 and then we get a little arc of bad going mad fueled by guilt and disbelief at the nightmare he’s living in and he should really take advantage of the vulnerability to kill forever- (sleeping in the same bed, modicum of trust, access to all of forever’s resources). But. then forever smiles something small and sweet and asks bad if he would like a very big drill, against the regulations special just for him to make him happy because he’s done so much for the island, and bad can’t bring himself to do it. gift giving is his love language. he could cause many many problems with this gift. he is already a problem. forever has the reason of drugs but bad just has the excuse of grief but he still accepts the drill and swears he’ll murder forever tomorrow