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oso-nan · 8 months

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gunna go on a hiatus indefinitelyyyyy ummnnnnnmnmbmnnmn feel free to talk 2 me thru discord on my pinned 😋

#im js gnna take a break from posting #yk what tho #im probs still gonna scroll thru tumblr tho #love tumblr #would never delete this app i love you mutuals #twitter n ig got my brain melting tho idk #tiktok too kind of

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skitskatdacat63 · 9 months

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Boy King Seb :D

#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333 #he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today #this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!!#can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant #i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am'#this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!!#i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;;#okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH):#this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved)#its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph?#but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010)#its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves #seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his #so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better #whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it)#not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh #anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO #its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation #pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!)#i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #f1 art #formula 1 art #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art.#*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such #boy king au

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louisisalarrie · 4 months

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ALRIGHT SO I was reminded of this today by a lovely mutual when we were discussing the crazy times of early larry. This… well… this was a great time to be in the fandom. It was chaos. I’ll link the original post I found of this back on my blog from 2013 as well, but I want to add my commentary throughout this post just to explain to all you newer larries what the HELL happened here (and that original post is missing one VERY important picture…)

So… if you think we are excellent detectives now, back then we were constantly finding things because there were so many things happening. The boys and their mothers used Twitter as a place to openly chat and talk shit and Jay and Anne were always tweeting each other about larry and everything… but, these tweets were still in the public eye. It just was a different time, and larrry content was still high on Twitter.

However, there were many more platforms available that the boys could use without being directly in the fandom’s eye. This included Pinterest / Blogspot.

Now, we only ever found Harry’s, and we searched for the other boys ones but couldn’t find anything and I doubt they had them. It was very on brand for Harry to have a Pinterest, so, let’s have a little look, shall we?

I screenshotted the first picture below today. This is Harry’s blogger account. This is still up, although the account hasn’t been active since 2013.

The below photo is from the original post about this whole Pinterest thing. We all clicked on it. It was verified and I saw it with my own eyes. It’s not photoshopped

So anyway, let’s start with his blog before we jump into Pinterest. His blog is adorable! There are more articles than just the one below (screenshot taken today, the link to this blog is here)

So anyway, back in the day, he really didn’t receive many comments or anything. It was a pretty quiet little blog, that sadly, didn’t last that long.

So let’s have a squiz at his Pinterest, shall we?

It was lovely to find his Pinterest. Seeing all the things that he liked, that sparked joy for him… it was truly lovely and such a cool way to connect to our boy. Obviously, by the follower count, it was a little more well known when this screenshot above was taken. However… the earlier screenshots from his Pinterest were a… a time to be alive. When we first found it, we went through his boards, and some photos he’d uploaded and pinned. Have a look…

And so… we were all kind of like okay. Wow. What if this is really him? But…. There’s nothing proving it’s him. And then, we got this photo (which I never see floating around anymore, and we hadn’t seen it prior to this). AHEM WHAT IS THIS SIR THIS WAS TRULY WILD

We lost our minds. There was so much stuff on his profile, a picture of a curly haired kid in suspenders, a lot of pride and larry and Louis stuff in a folder called “be happy”, but alas, the mobile app will only let me post 10 pics. But, there was also this little cheeky dig at you know who, which I loooooove

And oh!!! Remember louis’ black tie 21st that Harry threw??? THIS was one of his boards before Louis had turned 21. There was no way a fan guessed he’d be having a black tie 21st.

BUT everything Louis related, whether it be his 21st or that chihuahua or the photo of them together, got deleted soon after we found it. Obviously we freaked out, tumblr had a meltdown, we had some pretty solid larry evidence on our hands. But the old stuff and anything related to Louis or Harry’s sexuality, got deleted and Harry continued to use it for a little while after. Then, the whole acct was deleted. Which… interesting… why would you bother deleting the whole acct? There wasn’t just larry stuff, there was a heap of things that Harry shared and pinned and loved and it was really cool. Would have been a nice little archive. But the larry evidence was too strong. So it got deleted and we only have screenshots, unfortunately.

But, I can assure you, we all clicked on that Pinterest link and we all saw it with our own eyes. It was verified. It was him. This was real. I scrolled through all of those photos. We also found a tumblr very similar, under the same username, but it disappeared around the same time too.

However, the blog didn’t have anything larry on it, so it’s still up. But yeah. There you have it. Some more larry lore that I forgot about until today. Hehe. Original post with some more commentary from my tumblr in 2013 here

#larry lore

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newtkive · 4 months

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pixels [newt x reader - modern text au]

ch. 4 - agoraphobia and burger king on 5th street

summary: a personal experience provides a way for newt to connect to y/n.

warnings: strong language, mental health talk, depression, medication (its my literal prescription i mention oops this is like a self insert fr), mutual pining, none really.

➥ m.list

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THE GLADE

[ 10:52 am ]

y/n: it’s official yall

drugs saved my life

tommy: huh??

minho: same

newt: wow, i’ve never seen your name on my screen before 12 pm

y/n: shut the hell up bitch

newt: ouch, touchy

minho: woah

touchy 👀

are yallll..?

y/n: you’re sick

tommy: are we going to ignore the drugs statement??

like hello are u ok ??

newt: you’re annoying minho

minho: yea <3 😊

notice how they didn’t say no

y/n: you guys just don’t understand how a girl like me needs beauty sleep..

and no we aren’t

gally: all that beauty sleep and ur still walking around with that mug.. yikes.

y/n: 😑

i hate you i haete you i dhateoyifu

minho: great she’s having a fit

y/n: no one cares about me

and you think i’m ugly

this is so sick

and you don’t even care that i’m on drugs

☹️😭😭😭😭 done.

newt: no one said that love

gally that was rude

minho: BRUHHHHH

here she goes

tommy: I CAREE????????

DO I NEED TO COMEGET YOU????

y/n: yes 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

before i do something crazy 😭😭💣

minho: THE BOMB IS WILD

tommy: stay where you are

i have your location

newt: uhhh

y/n: pause what

minho: tommy why would you admit to that

tommy: im On my way! what’s the issue

sorry autocorrect

y/n: WHY DO YOU HAVE MY LOCATION????

gally: can you guys shut the fuck up

minho: the drama queen is here 😍

gally: stop

alby: I have it on Life360, I imagine Thomas does as well. In fact I have all of your locations.

y/n: oh

i forgot about that app..

minho: i didn’t. i get a notif that newt’s phone is at 5% all the goddamn time

even tho he said he deleted it

newt: just turn it off then

i redownloaded it don't track my app intake

minho: no it makes me feel less lonely

y/n: awwwww

idk how you do that newt

newt: do what?

y/n: not charge your phone

if my phone gets below like 15% then the monsters will get me

tommy: omg me tooo 🥹

newt: i was about to say you sound like tommy.

tommy: don’t say that!

she’s on drugs i don’t want to sound like an addict 😔

newt: she isn’t on drugs thomas

tommy: she literally said she is newt :/

5 mins and i’m there y/n

y/n: are you actually fr

thomas..

we live very far away sweetie

newt: i mean

if you were in trouble you don’t think we’d come get you?

tommy: ^^

but life360 says you’re at the burger king on 5th

minho: no that’s me LOOOL

y/n: NEWTTT ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

tommy: wtf

i’m the one who’s coming to get u

why does he get the credit

minho: no tommy you’re coming to get me

tommy: oh yippee i get to see my friend 🤗

newt: ewwwwww

y/n: EWWWWW

tommy: OH STOP IT

y/n: why burger king of all places min

minho: why drugs of all things y/n

gally: she’s not doing drugs are you guys fuckin insane

y/n: yes i am

it’s 10 mg of fluoxetine 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

ONCE A DAY!!!!!!

IM ADDICTED

newt: no you aren’t, 10 mg is the smallest dose

minho: told y’all she was on drugs

y/n: ???????

minho: over the year

you’re too hyper to not be on some crack shit

tommy: oh stop that’s not nice.

newt: it’s not drugs like that minho stop.

tommy: uhoh he brought out the . at the end

y/n: it’s just for anxiety cuz i can’t leave the house without going into a breakdown

minho: she got acrophobia

told y’all she was mental

newt: what the fuck are you talking about

tommy: oh i know that word

fear of spiders 🕷️

minho: wtf no

fear of outside

y/n: i’m not afraid of outside

newt: that’s agoraphobia you fucking dumbass

y/n: 😍

i did NOT mean to send that lol oops

newt: ??

oh, okay

minho: when he’s a know it all 😍

when she’s agoraphobic 😍

y/n: when he’s at burger king on 5th because he has no food in his fridge and can only afford a $1.99 whopper with the coupons from the newspaper 😍😍😍😍

minho: 😒😑

newt: LMFAOOOO

GOOD THAT

minho: british people be so annoying

saying shit like gormless minger and good that be sooo real rn

newt: i have never said gormless minger in my whole 26 years of life.

y/n: you just did bro

newt: call me bro again

y/n: bro

brosive

brother

stepbro

minho: laughed until i saw the last msg :/

newt: 😑

y/n: ok youre the perverts

minho: cant you take your prozac and turn back to normal now

y/n: so you DO know what it is..

gally: wym 'back to normal' like there was smth before this??

y/n: real i been like this for life

tommy: i got whopper and two large fries and mozzarella sticks

newt: wow

y/n: wow just call him a fatass newt.

newt: i would never, stop

y/n: 2 large fries is kinda crazy tho

tommy: i have to get enough to share with my friend

minho

gally: surprised you have friends

tommy: yeah you are not one.

gally: RUDE?

y/n: WELL LMFAO

minho: i literally already ate also gally ur not my friend either

newt: same

alby: same

gally: well why tf am i in here

y/n: well you're my friend!

gally: great.

y/n: not with that attitude..

tommy: y/n you're ok though right??

y/n: yes tommy im fine sweetie

go eat your food

tommy: okay i wish you could share these fries with me

y/n: me too :(

minho: i don't

big back would eat em all

y/n: i actually hate you

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newt

[ 11:45 am ]

newt: hey

y/n: hiii :D whats up??

newt: idk why but this feels like secretly texting you across the room at a party

y/n: actually tho

picture me giving u a look from across the room

newt: you would blow our cover immediately

i just wanted to let you know if you needed any like,, advice or something with your new medicine i'm here for you. i take the same stuff on top of lexapro

y/n: oh really?

newt: yeah i do

y/n: newt :( thank you

i am a bit nervous to start it tbh

newt: i understand, i was too

but hopefully it'll change things for the better

y/n: i hope so

i didn't realize you dealt with anxiety n stuff

newt: more than you know

you aren't the only one and you aren't alone w it

y/n: you're sweet newt, thank you

newt: don't mention it :))

sorry the smiley was creepy

y/n: lmao no i like it

if you need to talk or anything too i’m always here

newt: yeah?

y/n: of course ): you’re my pookie

newt: one day you gotta let go of that word lmao

y/n: but you love it tho

newt: you tell yourself that

actually are you free rn?

y/n: yeah! i’m just about home what’s up?

newt: i’m bored so pick up the phone

y/n: NEWT LMAO

ok fine 😒

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moonjxsung · 3 months

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STAR IM DEVASTATED so i have a priv twt acc right w some irls and this stay from stayville req-ed me a long time ago and i was soooo happy that i was mutuals w someone from stayville and i THOUGHT everything between us was cool? but today they unfollowed me and removed me as a follower and im devastated i dunno why they did that :((( i don't think they had a problem w me saying nsfw stuff cuz they previously tweeted things like "cancelling someone over saying smth nsfw abt an adult is stupid" and also ive seen them interact w nsfw minsung posts so i dunno if me tweeting smth like "i wanna suck flxs cock sooooo bad" couldve made them wanna break the mutual??? i dmed them too and i was like "heyy is there a reason you don't wanna be moots w me anymore </3" and not even minutes later they turned off their message perms and im devastated. its STUPID bcs they'd barely interact w me Sure but it felt nice to have a stay be my friend on my priv twt that's usually just for my irls and i </3 it's ironic that they did that too bcs just earlier today (before they broke the mutual) i noticed that my followers went down (i have a very low amt already. like. 25. not even joking) and i tweeted "yall dont wanan be friends w me anymore </3" bcs like. my followers are QUITE LITERALLY only my irls + a skz writer so i was (i think rightfully??) alarmed that the number went down!!!! man im just Sad about it and SIIIGH i know i shouldnt care so much bcs at the end of the day they're just a person online but the least they could've done was dm me back and explain why and GHFSDDSJHFKJADDSDSAAAAA you get me!?!! also im sorry i dropped this on you randomly feel free to ignore LMAAOOAOAO can i be 💫 anon? thank yew <3

(Adding 💫 to the anon list!!! Also fun fact that’s my favorite emoji of all time. Slay)

I feel like I’m the LAST person who should be giving advice abt this bc one of my mutuals and a very good friend of mine who I’d been talking to every day randomly blocked me on everything this week after me literally being there to console this person for every little thing and playing into this pretend homoerotic friendship we had even though she was clearly looking for another boyfriend and would get mad if I even called another girl pretty (???) I wish nothing but the absolute best for her but like…. The double standard is WILD. to not provide closure to a months-long friendship is just genuinely a very mean spirited thing to do imo.

(If she’s reading this, best of luck with everything and I hope you know I cared for you a lot more than you think I did. I distanced myself because you were clearly looking for someone to fill a void in your life that I could simply not fulfill, and I didn’t want to lead you on, nor be kept around like I wasn’t allowed to talk to other girls either. Regardless, I hope you know I used to sleep with my phone on full volume in case you called, and I deleted a page worth of poetry in my notes app for you I meant to deliver on your birthday. I also deleted your number so I have zero way of contacting you, but I will always be here if you need me. Take care and I love you always, I hope you still see me when you look up at the moon)

It’s not the first time I’ve lost an internet friend to the magical world of blocking, but fortunately the attitude I’ve developed towards it is that none of this is real!!! These are people on the internet miles away you’ve never met irl and they have no real impact in your life whether they remain following you or not. I’ve lost internet friends nearly a decade ago that I don’t even remember anymore. Better ones will come along!!! Especially stays! This fandom has so many beautiful remarkable people who are actually worth following and they wouldn’t cut you off like that. Sending so many positive vibes your way and I KNOW that the universe will send you some better mutuals. In the meanwhile I will be your internet bestie and I would never unfollow you for nsfw content or without some form of an explanation. And I also want to suck Felix’s dick. 🩷🫶

(I love you, don’t be so hard on yourself!!!! You’re wonderful, angel 🩷 anyone would be lucky to be moots with you)

#💫 anon #ask

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imjustherefortheshipping · 4 months

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Wolfstar Dating-App Meet-Cute

Sirius and Remus match on a dating app

Sirius is very into the frail, “hot” nerd look

Remus is very into Sirius’s everything, but thinks there’s no chance in hell he ever has a shot with the guy. He just stares at his profile and fantasizes. He can’t bring himself to swipe it away, scared that it’ll be the last time he ever sees those beautiful tattoos and the silky black hair and the cute earrings paired with that confident smile… sigh. And he can’t just take a picture and moon over that, that’d be totally creepy!

So whenever he opens the app, it’s to Sirius’s dating profile which in consequence means he can’t swipe anymore.

Oh well, he didn’t really think this dating app thing would work to begin with.

Until- on the third day of opening and closing the app he accidentally gives the guy a superlike!

Remus is mortified! This is so embarrassing! Now Sirius will think he actually believes he has a chance! Only weirdos give superlikes! Ahhh! He screams into his pillow.

He’s so distracted in fact that he doesn’t notice the app telling him “It’s a match!”. At least not until he gets a notification! From Sirius!

Because, meanwhile, Sirius has been absolutely elated that the cutest guy on the app has given him a superlike! Jackpot! Of course he’s going to text him immediately!

Remus can’t believe his eyes. This must me a dream.

But he obviously can’t ghost the guy! He deserves better! Who is Remus to make him upset!!! No one’s probably ever ghosted Sirius! And he will definitely not be the one to start!

So they talk.

And they bond over their mutual love for dogs and political activism.

Turns out there’s a LGBTQIA+ demo in their city in a few days!

And Sirius wants to go with him!

And if it’s for queer rights Remus can’t possibly say no, right? It’s for the greater good!

So they meet. And Remus is extremely shy at first because Sirius in real life is a thousand times prettier and cooler than on his profile. How is that even possible!

Luckily Sirius thinks Remus’s initial nervousness only makes him cuter!

And Sirius is excellent in bringing people out of their shell. Remus doesn’t even need much coaxing!

He accidentally starts heavily flirting with Sirius after only a few minutes. He just doesn’t realize that’s what he’s doing. He’s only saying what’s on his mind! Sirius deserves to know that the color of his eyes looks lovelier than the summer sky!

So Sirius falls. And Remus does to. How could he not?

They fall madly in love with each other and after a few months they move in together. Then they adopt a dog. They go to every queer and human rights rally in their vicinity.

And obviously they delete the dating app. They will never need it again.

A few months in, Remus comes clean about the accidental superlike and three-day-pining over Sirius’s pictures.

Five minutes later, Sirius is still laughing.

“Did you ever wonder why my profile was still there, even after 3 days?”

“Um, no? What do you mean?”

“If I hadn’t liked you, you wouldn’t have been able to see it anymore!”

“Oh.”

#wolfstar #just a silly thing cause I thought #what would be the most boring idea for a fic #and then I tought meeting over a dating app ofc #and it spiraled #cause wolfstar somehow make everything cute??#remus lupin #sirius black #remus x sirius #marauders #fanfiction #writing #meet cute

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legacygirlingreen · 6 months

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Personal incoming …

I swear this app sometimes really gets me…

Im sitting here in like actual tears just going through a package and I don’t have a lot of words. I always felt like a weird kid growing up. I didn’t have a lot of friends, and most of the time they met more like acquaintances. It’s so rare for me to find people who speak MY language. who get ME. Quirks, flaws, positives, negatives, etc. People I can talk to without a filter and they respond with equal engagement or interest. I used to POUR myself out for people who couldn’t care less if I was there or not.

When I got back on this app months ago, after taking such a long break from it and deleting my old blogs, I truly planned to only post some work, see how it did, then forget about it. I used it as a distraction from how horrible I was doing after surgery and a space to vent during my masters program. I never intended to really meet people or obtain another line of mutuals. In fact on tumblr way back when, I always kept more to myself and just viewed things like a ghost.

So it’s crazy to me that just a few crazy months later I’d be sitting in my childhood bedroom on the floor feeling more love in a friendly capacity than I have in over 20+ years on this planet. I swear that recent trend of “if only 17 years old me knew _____” this would be mine.

I know the world works in mysterious ways - albeit a higher power if you believe in that or simply happen chance if you don’t - but god I’m not used to feeling this much.

I wish I had a more poetic way of explaining I really did. I did my masters thesis on fandom for Pete’s sake, and here I am seeing such a beautiful side of it that I never thought I would experience.

@strawberrypinky I swear I don’t know how many weird things happened for that invisible string to reveal itself but I am so thankful. You truly have brought such a joy to my life I never expected or anticipated in the slightest. And I wish I wasn’t so bad at understanding and explaining my emotions sometimes but I just feel so incredibly thankful to this app, this silly little wizard game, and this space for bringing me such joy. I am so truly blessed by your friendship and taking an odd chance on talking with me, meeting me, and being my friend 💚

As for everyone else on here I’ve spoken with, other mutuals, collaborators, etc - I am so thankful for you as well. This place has brought such joy to my life I can’t thank you all enough.

So anyways, that’s emotional hour for you all, back to writing about a silly little wizard soon enough, but I just needed to get out all the thankfulness I feel for this place.

- M

#hogwarts legacy fandom #personal #im such a sad bitch sometimes #but like also happy in ways I can’t process #fandom is a beautiful thing sometimes

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rockitmans · 1 year

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Blaine Anderson Vs. Valentine's Day (4/14)

Summary: Blaine drunk posts on his Instagram asking for a date for Valentine's Day. He gets one.

Notes: Written for the @klaineccfanficlibrary Valentine Challenge. Today's song is I'll Never Not Love You by Michael Bublé

Be sure to also check out the collection on AO3 and Stick Season by @blurglesmurfklaine I'm finding it so fun to write as part of a community event. Seeing other people post theirs really keeps me on track. And all the lovely comments of course!

Read on AO3 or below

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He can't just leave it like that. Hi. What was he thinking? He quickly taps out a follow up without letting himself doubt it too hard.

Blaine: Bold tactic to assume that poem would get my attention and not just end up being deleted

He immediately throws his phone face down on his bed and paces around the room several times, trying to breathe. He can do this. He can talk to other humans. Even ridiculously gorgeous ones that for some reason seem interested in him.

Barely a minute passes before his phone chimes and he tries to tell himself to be chill and not answer straight away but the anticipation is killing him. He grabs his phone.

Kurt: And yet here you are. Interesting.

God. He actually answered. And he's so cool . It's going to take him less than thirty seconds to realise how lame Blaine is. Blaine doesn't have game. He doesn't usually even realise when people are into him. He's fallen into every relationship he's had so far fully because the other person has spelled it out to him.

This was clearly a mistake. A horny error in judgement. He's half tempted to just delete the app right now and pretend this never happened. The Philippines is nice this time of year.

But then his phone chimes again and Blaine grins stupidly as he reads the message.

Kurt: It was a gamble. I'm happy it paid off.

Blaine: Well. It was helped by the fact that I am very interested in these claims that you can pick me up.

Kurt: Oh no. That was my roommate's suggestion. She's going to be insufferable now.

Blaine: Your secret's safe with me

Kurt: Thanks. But she's also much cooler than me if I'm being honest. I may prove to be a disappointment. Flirting with strangers on the internet is all fun and games until they actually reply 😅

Blaine blinks. He hadn't thought about it that hard, but if he had, he would have assumed that this was going to turn into sexting, getting off, and then mutually agreeing to never speak of it again. Or at least he assumes that's the way this sort of thing goes. He doesn't really know.

But maybe that isn't what this is. Interesting.

Blaine: And do you make a habit of flirting with strangers on the internet?

Kurt: I want to be really smooth and be like 'only the cute ones 😉' but fuck it. No I don't usually. I'm like an honest to God Broadway romantic. I need at least dinner before I can consider getting my dick out.

Kurt: And I realise a simple no would have sufficed

Blaine huffs out a laugh. Okay. Definitely not sexting then. He's kind of relieved. It would have just been a way to let off steam after the emotional bomb that was Sebastian's betrayal. He hasn't really had time to sort out his feelings about Sebastian yet. Sam's solution to the problem was to get him spectacularly drunk and there's been little time for introspection since then. And that's mostly been on purpose.

He knows if he starts to think about it, it will bring every scrap of his hard earned self worth under a magnifying glass. He'll sort through all his insecurities for the reasons why Sebastian might have cheated and probably invent some new ones just for fun. He doesn't want to be terrified to love again. He doesn't want to lose his ability to love quickly and generously and all in. He doesn't want this to break him.

And right now that means chatting to a cute guy that doesn't want to just get off with him. And regardless of anything else, it will be a funny story to tell Tina later.

Blaine: Ah yes that well known Broadway hit, "Dinner for dick." We all know it

Kurt: Say what you like about Barrett Wilbert Weed but she smashed that one

Kurt: Listen you don't have to keep talking to me. I understand my mouth was putting out checks that my ass can't cash. Literally.

Blaine: I want to keep talking to you. A gorgeous guy that's into Broadway and fashion? Maybe that wish journal I kept when I was thirteen really did have magical powers after all

Blaine: Although I'm still not a superhero so perhaps not

Kurt: I never had a wish journal but I did have a hope chest. I cut up magazine pictures to compile my perfect man and it obviously looked outlandish and not like you at all

Kurt: But I am pretty sure I made my perfect man a musician

Blaine: Well thank God I have that going for me at least

Kurt: You have a lot more going for you than that

Blaine: And I thought you said you didn't flirt with strangers on the internet 😉

Kurt: You're right

Blaine gets a jolt in his stomach, terrified that Kurt is about to promise to cut out the flirting or even stop talking to him all together. But then the next message comes through.

Kurt: Maybe we should become not-strangers so I can flirt with you without fear

Blaine bites his lip against a smile, feeling the flush creep all the way to his ears. Who even is this guy?

Hopefully he's going to find out.

Blaine: Sounds perfect

#fic: ba vs valentine's day #klaine fanfiction #klaine fic #my fic

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lincolnchristie · 10 months

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I could never be a gravedigger

I can’t go to the fast food joint the one next to the old Blockbuster that is now a mattress store.

You probably won’t be there. I don’t know why you would be. But one time we ate there together.

There’s a place in St. Louis I can never eat. There’s a store in Manhattan I can never shop. There’s a beach in California I can never go.

I can’t rewatch The Mummy. I can’t reread C.S. Lewis. I can’t return to Madrid.

You haunted me in Hawaii. Your ghost sits beside me in the movie theater. Green grapes and Havarti cheese sour in my mouth.

On a Notes app on my phone is a link to a birthday present I will never buy you. There’s a list of questions about Los Angeles that I won’t ask you. There’s an essay of things I never said because even as you stabbed me I chose to choke on the blood and swallow it rather than spit it in your face.

I saw your ex the other day don’t worry, he’s still a piece of shit. He was friendly to me. I imagined playing with his intestines as payment for what he did to you.

I wore your yellow dress to meet my grandmother for lunch she said I looked lovely.

Two days ago I texted your best friend and confessed I’m not brave I care what people think about me and I miss you because you were never scared of a fight you’d know how to tell me how to live with making people hate you.

I never really got good at accepting nobody will come back for me. I never got good at understanding nobody will catch up to me. I can’t get over the echo of my footsteps.

All around me are the empty caskets of my immoderate love that once held people

maybe someday I can delete our emails I will go back to our strip mall I won’t type your name in the search bar

maybe I’ll stop discreetly checking your social media to make sure you’re okay. maybe I’ll stop sending our mutual friend money so she can Venmo you when you need twenty bucks and you won’t know it’s from me. maybe I’ll stop asking your best friend’s husband if you’re going to therapy if you got sober if you stopped cheating.

maybe I’ll plug up the holes in the shape of you I’ll fill in the caskets someday

#lincoln writes #poetry #in honor of finally telling someone to go to hell and blocking them everywhere #have the full poem I wrote #is it good? whomst can say

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halfmoondaze · 2 years

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Hi! How have you been? Hope you have been well💕 I'm Absolutely in love with your stories there really amazing!! and I was wondering if you can do another break-up with Jack but the reader is mentally attached to him and won't let go no matter how hard she tried?

If not it's ok! I just wanted to let you know that I love your work!!💕

Wilted

authors note: when writing this fic, I thought of this as a part 2 of my previous fic Last Goodbye, however, you can read it by itself. thank u for requesting @cvamri! I hope you like it

Even though going through this breakup was a mutual decision, Y/N couldn’t help herself from feeling stuck.

Suddenly it felt like she had made a mistake as she craved his attention and being with him.

Maybe she was being needy and selfish but she couldn’t help herself. It was her fault for being obsessive and loving too hard. What she was afraid would happen when going through a relationship had finally come through.

Even though she would date around with guys, it never got to the point of lasting more than a month or being serious. So, Jack was her first real serious relationship, and to say she was scared was an understatement. They had the most couple of weeks together, and even though everything was running smoothly she couldn’t help herself from growing anxious or feeling too much. And eventually, she started to find reasons to not be with Jack and go as far as to sabotage her relationship.

She would find reasons to stay busy and cancel dates. Jack at first was understanding, but then they started arguing. Then didn’t yell, they just talked; however, Jack always felt he wasn’t being heard or understood and he would grow frustrated. It would always get to a point where both of them would have to step away from the situation to not let this escalate into a full-on argument.

But as time went by, they started distancing from each other more and more, until they had to come to terms that they had to end this before they would end up resenting each other. It was a mature decision, but that didn’t mean it was less hard.

After he left through the door, she felt her whole world crumbling down. This was when things actually got worse.

She couldn’t help herself from looking up posts from him on Instagram. What started just as being curious escalated into an ongoing need to lurk on him any time she could. She knew it was wrong, but she couldn’t help herself.

Her friends and family saw the impact the breakup had on her, and they tried to help her. But Y/N was in denial that she had a problem. Therefore, she found herself sinking more and more into a spiral.

“Ok, Y/N I think you have to stop” Y/B/F said as she found her going through her phone for the sixth time while attempting to have a conversation with her.

“What?” Y/N said confused as she looked up from her phone.

“I didn’t want to say anything, because I know what you’re going through is really hard on you, but if you want to get better you need to let go.” “I know…but I think I made a mistake-“

“Babe, you both did what you felt was right at that moment. Maybe the two of you would find their way to one another, but until then, you have to live your life”

Deep down Y/N knew she was right, but it was just too difficult for her.

“I know is hard, but maybe you should start by deleting Instagram from your phone? I can see how is taking a toll on your mental health”

“Are you sure?”

She nodded in response.

“I- I don’t think I can do that. Maybe you could do it for me?” Y/N asked handing Y/B/F her phone.

As she was about to delete the app, she got a notification. A DM from Jack.

“Hey, I know it’s been a while, but I miss you. I’m in the city, I was wondering if we could meet up sometime?”

As she carefully looked up, she realized Y/N didn’t notice what had just happened. So without hesitation, she pressed the button and just like that, the app was deleted.

#jack harlow #jack harlow x reader #jack harlow x you #jack harlow imagine #jack harlow x y/n #jack harlow one shot #jack harlow blurb #jack harlow fluff #jackman thomas harlow #jack harlow concepts #jack x y/n #jack x you #jack x reader #jack harlow fanfic #jack harlow angst #angst

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toddstool · 3 months

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Hello

I started looking into radical feminism a little over a year ago while I was rebuilding and repairing the damage to my life caused by men. It gave me a sense of belonging and made me think critically about a lot of things I had always taken for granted. I especially enjoyed how everyone seemed to encourage one another to question everything consistently. It was very good for my outlook and mental health.

Over time, the posts seemed to shift from educational to sensational. Im not saying this was the fault of the posters, I’m just saying what I experienced. It went from primarily discussing nuanced topics with no real answer which i thoroughly enjoyed since it encouraged thought, to primarily posts highlighting the depravity of men. I tried to filter these out as the thought of women being brutalized can cause me distress and panic.

The biggest shift, however, happened when I expressed my opinion on female separatism. I am quite pro and strongly believe that it is one of the best things you can do for yourself and your female loved ones. I did not understand in the slightest how women who claimed to be radical feminists could marry a man while continuing to hold their beliefs and values. I expressed this. I was blocked by a few mutuals and even more radfems I had never even spoken to. I knew upon making a “radblr” account that I would be blocked by half of tumblr but I didnt think it would be by the same people preaching to question everything and have open nuanced discussions. I considered deleting then because the website became almost unusable.

Instead, i found other radfems to follow. I became less likely to express an idea i was unsure of. I started step back from radblr as a place of learning and discussion and viewed it as an anonymous social media website. I was overwhelmed with the amount of posts detailing abuse and femicide. I understand that these events need attention for things to change, but as they were it felt more dirty. Like exploiting their stories for rage bait.

So with little to no traction on posts trying to discuss nuanced feminist topics and an overflow of notes on any silly dumb argument post, I, without intending to, began to seek out more fights. I noticed that I became more prone to showing my ass by replying with what i knew would get the most attention. I am not perfect. I crave attention and community like anyone else. When I became aware of what I was doing, I deleted the tumblr app. I felt weirdly empty and only managed to stay off tumblr for about three days. After that three days I saw the “I love men” post that I showed my whole ass on.

After that interaction was done, I started getting anons asking me how I could use the “dont forget your birth control” line since it was so obviously misogynistic and lesbiphobic. This would have been the ideal type of nuanced discussion i love if that’s what it had been. Is that line misogynistic? Why or why not?

But thats not what happened. What did happen was mutuals calling me names and blocking me. Radfems talking about how they always suspected I was lesbiphobic. I guess that was the straw that broke the camel’s back. I realized that, at least for that account, everything I enjoyed about radblr was all but lost and everything I hated about the fandom/tra account I had was there. At this point I am just trying to stay off social media entirely, but it has become obvious that I am addicted to it. Pretty evident since I’m even typing this huh?

I may come back. I may not. Idk rn. We’ll see but for right now, I just wanted to tell someone why I deleted. I thought about making a post but that would be kinda dumb right? Haha.

I’d love to find a new place to discuss and philosophize but I dont think social media is the place to do it. Its not whats rewarded here.

Good luck and happy discussion, critical thought, and feminism!

-the blog formerly known as @lookupmedicalmisogyny

*for context: a while ago i made a post asking what happened to lookupmedicalmisogyny and she found it and sent me this anon :)*

not 100% sure if I should or shouldn't post this but hey it's whateva.

i totally agree that a lot of radblrs most popular posts nowadays are ragebait/sensational type posts that feel heavily focused on women's suffering or arguing with others on here, rather than educating or respectful discussions between our community. i don't really mind as I just scroll past stuff like that if I know it'll emotionally stress me out or if I find it uninteresting. these past 2 years anyway I've just used radblr to have fun with my mutuals/keep up with them and have a configurated feed to scroll made up from like-minded and or funny women. of course this works for me because I already got to experience and read well written and thought out posts when i was first getting into radical feminism. i mean one should read theory from genuine essays and books, but you can't disagree that quite a lot of girls and young women are first being introduced to radical feminism from social media ("properly" ig opposed to just thinking about it themselves). i think what a lot of women need are irl communities, and they replace that with online communities, because in person can be scary or difficult to do.

anyway kinda off topic there. i didn't see the post that you're talking about, so I'm not sure about any lesbophobic allegations. im not sure how "don't forget to take your birth control" could be considered lesbophobic according to a radblr prospective so idk 🤔 i do miss your educational posts. i remember them bringing topics to light that I had never known about when i was first getting away from liberal/capitalistic "feminism" that i was indoctrinated into as a kid. perhaps you could have one blog for writing serious/important posts for the feminist community and another more personal one that's for fun and to talk about mutuals. while I don't think online community is exactly the best, I wouldn't entirely discredit it. after all it allows us to connect with women all over the world and learn about their experiences! that's pretty awesome. and i can imagine men don't like the idea of women learning about our historical and worldwide oppression, connecting with women everywhere, and understanding intersectional feminism lol. i guess to sum it up as long as you have in person community that's involved with your local government and helping women near you, then i think online stuff is fine and actually a positive thing as well.

do what u feel is best for yourself! social media can be extremely damaging nowadays so take it easy and I hope everything gets better :·)

#trix talking #radblr #radical feminism #radical feminist community #female separatism #feminism #lookupmedicalmisogyny

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toadallytickles · 11 months

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Not to be weird and parasocial but seeing your journey making friends and finding Clay and all even when connecting with ppl wasn't easy has been reassuring cause I have this weird double bind where I've genuinely scared myself off wanting to date outside this community because of the fear of negative reactions or getting mocked makes me think I could never bring it up to a "normie" partner. Ik that sounds dramatic but it's how I feel :/ but also I'm super socially awkward &

You are definitely not weird, and this is far from parasocial! (trust me, I know parasocial-). I personally find your ask awesome and endearing. I see a lot of myself in this, and I’m warmed that you felt comfortable to share this with me! ❤️

I feel the biggest appeal of the Tumblr tickle community is that it is home to regular, day-to-day people, like you and me, that all share this one interest and are just looking for connection. It’s not play-focused, or sex-focused, or porn-focused. It’s about community, and sharing our love of tickling with one another!

This is not whiny, silly, or over dramatic- you’re allowed to feel this way, and it’s good to vent! I absolutely have felt similar, and still do spiral and feel that way some days! It is a defeating thought feeling like you won’t fit in or make the connections you desire. That is a very common feeling, I’m sure a lot of people in this community will relate to this in some way. Humans are social and connecting creatures; we thrive with love and company!

I don’t just want to say there’s hope for you, you already are worthy, deserving, and capable just by being you! And you have opportunities for getting involved and making connections! The first step is always the hardest, though stepping out of our comfort zone and putting in a little effort can go a long way! And branch into new opportunities! We don’t know the outcome until we try!

I 100% relate to being socially awkward and not easily connecting with people. And there’s nothing wrong with needing extra time or needing certain needs met to make connections. It can feel lonely and like something is wrong with you when your friends, even your own romantic partner, have play partners and/or are capable of pick up play. Though I’ve learned that it is best to continue connecting with the community and putting yourself out there. People meant for you will gravitate towards you and respect your needs. Those who aren’t meant for you will show pretty early why they aren’t. I’ve been struggling to find local play partners in Ontario, everyone I’ve connected with in a play partner way I’ve had a falling out with. Clay’s been the only local person I’ve played with. Though I recently had a dress-up scene with a local friend at a party they hosted! That gave me some hope! :)

What’s helped me make friends is recognizing what I need, what I don’t need, and my boundaries. For example, I love in-person group hang outs to make connections. One-on-one is for when a mutual connection is made. I enjoy people my age or older, patient, experienced with play, and have other relationships. The pandemic did not help anyone with peopling- it’s not just you and me! When you attend a munch or a play party, you’re going to meet awkward people and may have awkward conversations! My local friends are awkward and silly, and that’s what makes them fun and charming! Also I think anyone would much better prefer to have an awkward moment than to have an uncomfortable conversation with someone who doesn’t understand boundaries or kink.. I’ve unfortunately had plenty of those, online and in-person.

Sometimes I listen to Dan Savage’s Savage Lovecast, a kink and sex podcast. He had some advice about keeping your dating profile instead of deleting it when it doesn’t go your way, because people are constantly going to sign up for that app. And you may just make a connection with that new arrival! How I made connections and friends was that I stayed active online and in-person, by keeping my kink profiles, and attending munches and play parties. Presence attracts people, putting myself out there attracted people, especially in kink communities where safety is #1; people are looking for consistency and presence. And then naturally you start to interact with people. Overtime you build rapport and connections.

I hope you find something in my answer reassuring! You are definitely capable of making the connections you want and finding your place in the community! You just need to put in some effort, have some patience, and be true to you, that’s something I’m just learning too! :)

Tips on joining the Tumblr community

How to approach people in the community

How to be approachable in the community

Find and attend tickle events

Why You Are Lonely and How to Make Friends by Kurzgesagt - In a Nutshell

#my posts #answered #ask #anon #tickle community #kink resource

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satoruhour · 8 months

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any tips for starting a new writing blog?

hello dear anon!! oh my days it’s been so long since i started mine i cant really remember.

i would say remember that the first post is always nerve-wrecking and it’s ok to be nervous!! and subsequently the lack of notes since people wont know you and your style right off the bat! it’s ok to feel discouraged when you arent getting much attention too, since you are a newly established blog. the algorithm on tumblr sometimes sucks too :/

to me its personal preference but i like to have some semblance of a theme, or rather more of a post to consolidate everything that you post, not just your writings but also your faq, introductions, links, rules, etc. i usually look at a few writing blogs to see how they format things - everyone has their own ways of organising their pinned post and you can always mix and match to how you want to organise yours but it is NOT an invitation to plagiarise directly (yes, even if you change the colours of the theme to avoid suspicion). think of it with your own ideas and whatnot!!

NEVER. NEVER write on tumblr drafts on mobile. PLEASEEEE remember this. bc notifications appear on the bottom of the screen, sometimes the keyboard will go down and your finger might accidentally brush up against it. you will lose your work. it’s very very disheartening. another instance is also getting out of the app to fact check smtg for ur fic for eg and you come back to a previous post of your own from the notif ... and ur work is gone lol. writing on drafts is easier on desktop although i would say still have a safety net on google docs / notes / ur own writing notepad.

in regards to posting, if you are looking to fully be a sfw or nsfw blog then you can ignore this but i try to plan what kind of works i plan to post. if my smut works are doing well i try my hand at posting a fluff. smut works unfortunately will always get more notes imo, but dont get discouraged from writing fluff bc its still very fulfilling but the reality surrounding these genres are very distinct.

dont be afraid to delete asks or feel an obligation to answer every ask. at the end of the day it is ur blog and u choose what to put on it. if u get trolls and spammers just delete them or if u want to entertain them go ahead too.

be prepared to write out of your comfort zone. i know i said it’s ur blog and you choose what to put on it but sometimes i dont want to write the same trope with the same character and some of the requests allow me to improve my writing with characters im not too fond of for eg. i personally am still trying to push myself more, but it’s a good way to grow!

i like to attach a good amount of tags to my writing. the max on this site is 30 tags, i like to do around 15 or below that. to me it just looks less cluttered and neater. ofc w/ masterlists i usually just tag everything but for individual pieces i dont do a lot!

the writing community is to uplift too 💟 it isnt about who gets the most notes and interactions but rather to celebrate our love for the characters, so much so that we create stories out of thin air. be respectful and kind and dont be afraid to form mutuals! ignoring all the drama and craziness on tumblr sometimes it really is one of the best places to be at the height of your fandom!! enjoy anon!

#mutuals pls chime in to help anon i cant think of any more at the moment #anon #asks

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thatonesongyouretryingtoremember · 1 year

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If I were a mutual who would like to befriend you, are there boundaries that come w that?

Fun thing about tumblr is that settings allow anyone to set boundaries within the app and website.

For example, I allow everyone to send me anonymous asks using the app settings because thus far I am okay with them :3

I don't really have anything against DMS, but I don't start conversations and I don't Isuzu hold them well, which is part of the next things.

Alot of my boundaries with social media are things I set for myself. Things like "I can set down my phone whenever I want if the vibes are off", etc, but also

I do not share personal details about my life. Pretty much the only things people know about me are that I'm a white queer from the USA and other shit they've gleaned from my posting about experiences as an [insert identity] person. I don't share things like the events of my day normally, because I like to compartmentalize tumblr and keep my safe persona here seperate. I can spend some time in this little pocket reality.

And I never ask those questions of other people either, because I consider it invasive to want to know more about others than they know of me, [but of course what people choose to share on their own blogs is their own choice <2] so I don't ask more than follow ups (eg. If they say their sister was cool in the orchestra I ask what instrument but that's it. Fake example btw)

Most of my mutuals are people who either I've spam reblogged until we started legit interacting and I've said based stuff about the niche I followed then for, or people who spam reblog me and like my art n shitposts.

Anyone can tag me in stuff regardless of whether we're mutuals or not. I might not always answer, but that is not personal it is part of my personal boundaries. "I only have so much energy to give to this app and website" and "I can block hashtags if I don't wanna see my mutual's blorbo who's source material I don't care about, it's my own damn dashboard" and such.

And I answer specific question anons like this pretty easily, but I have a more difficult time with statements like positivity anons.

I love positivity anons ["if you're getting this it means we appreciate you", etc] but I find it hard to answer these because they are statements and because they sometimes come with instructions on how to pass them on because they are chain anons. Both of these take more energy than I am willing to spend, but I never delete them and I always enjoy getting them <2

I post a lot about Stranger Things and miscellaneous fandoms, and I welcome interaction there. Additions that add more insight or context to a post, etc. This type of conversation is easier to maintain, is something I am comfortable with, and is typical for the website and what I do here.

Of course, I usually don't shy away from conversing with others about what they choose to discuss on their own posts, with the understanding (the hope) that they will tell me if I am overstepping. And I also can drop it off someone appears to lose interest by not adding in case that is then wanting to end the convo.

Going back to asks, I accept asks of pretty much any topic, so long as they are well-intended and something I can answer well, as well as keeping with my blog's sort of "quota" (not getting too personal, relatively "family-friendly" as they say, and these are just my personal preferences, obviously, other blogs have different things going on that fit their own valid and swag preferences)

I also get asks on my sideblog @threesongsinatrenchcoat which is a music blog or either of my sthings rp blogs.

Basically, invade my space and if I haven't blocked you or confronted you just assume you are fine /hj

I hope this answered your question :3 hopefully you are already following because I don't think you as an anon will get notified so you might not even actually see this lol.

UM notice for anyone else who wants to send me anons and find them later: they are tagged as #anons, #asks, and #song spouts bullshit, which is my personal tag.

And since we're on tagging, if it is not anonymous, I tag as the full url or as their nickname and a heart. Fake example #the-real-spiderman-official-not-fake-not-flash-thompson, #petey <2,

#anons #asks #song spouts bullshit #tumblr #mutuals

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queerandom · 2 years

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I know you're not going to see this. But I just want to say I miss you. Your posts were always funny, and I liked your programming posts especially. I'm doing the internet equivalent of writing a letter to a dead person to get my feelings out, but meh. The day you seemingly deleted the app off your device was raining for me, which really adds to the sadness of it all, to me. I really hope you come back. I know you probably won't, but at least I can hope. I've learnt a lot, and this seems to happen all too often here on Tumblr. I miss you, kit. I really do.

I've been regularly checking your blog to see if you came back. But I know you won't. Denial stage of grief I suppose. Maybe this is bargaining, maybe this is acceptance. I've accepted you won't come back. This is probably the only intentionally anonymous ask on this account I'll ever send. I'm sorry for what happened. Goodbye. And if this does somehow reach you, please come back. Please. Your breakdowns are nothing new to this site, and I'm sure most of your mutuals know to take everything you say during one with a grain of salt.

It's so bizarre, to see such a formerly lively blog die, like yours has. It really hurts to know I'll never get to talk to you again, but I can't really do anything about that. Goodbye, kit.

I'm sure moss feels much the same. I don't want you to ever know who I am if you do see this. It's a memorial, of sorts. A letter lost in the mail. A journal, burnt in a fire. If you do come back, I'm sure most of your mutuals would be thrilled. I know I would.

You are not hated. You are loved, and the people here on Tumblr definitely care about you. If I could go back in time, I would. So goodbye, kit. I hope I see you again.

Goodbye for what is likely the very last time from me. I miss you, kit. Goodbye.

ok ok ok fine ill come back i guess

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Hey, I was hoping for some advice, me and my boyfriend both have bpd (his is professionally diagnosed mine isn't) and recently he has been busy due to school and exams and understand that and tried my best to not say anything and use some skills to work through it but I still felt terrible and lonely and stuff because its summer for me and I was really looking forward to spending some time with him due to the fact ik I'll be busier during the school year and he'll feel shit about it but when I finally couldn't take it anymore we had an argument and he said he was doing everything he could and said stuff like "what do you want me to do quite school" and stuff and I just tried to end the conversation and he said he wanted a break till exams end next week (I'll be in school at that point) but he knows how I feel about breaks but he said it was for his mental health cuz if he started ignoring school and spent time with me it'll affect it (I never asked him too) and send he was going to delete the app for a week and that was that and idk I've felt shity since and everyone keeps telling me that I really shouldn't cuz I was for his mental health and it makes me feel worse cuz ik he's talking to our gf still and idk sorry for the rant I just feel shity and don't know what to do also everytime I mention shit like this he's like that's exactly what I felt like a year ago tho he knows I poured every single second of time I had into (even during important shit) and that he didn't get as much time as my other partners cuz he didn't want me talking to them and him (as in texting both of them at the same time)

Hunter(I'm using this as a sign off if that's alright cuz no one on here knows me by that sorry if its a bit rambly)

Hi there Hunter,

It sounds like you have one doozy of a problem, and I'm sorry you're going through it. Relationships are hard to juggle with BPD, I should know, but they're not impossible to manage.

I know you might not want to hear this, but I believe the break is a good idea for both you and your partner. It will give him time to focus on his school work, and give you time to figure out things yourself.

Now, the both of you shouldn't be pulling hard punches on each other like "I felt the same way a year ago!" or "Do you want me to quit school?!" because it's not going to get y'all anywhere healthy. The past is the past, and he should not be putting words into your mouth.

From the sound of things, it seems as if y'all triggered each other which led to the blowout. I would start there once he's back from the break. Have a calm and healthy conversation about the argument. Preface with saying that you don't want to fight anymore and just want to figure out why it became such a battle to talk with each other.

If possible, I would suggest having a mediator between y'all during this kind of conversation. Maybe y'alls girlfriend or a mutual friend who wouldn't take sides.

Since this is a polyamorous relationship, I would also suggest establishing boundaries. It seems like there are things you can't do and things he can do that aren't matching up. Having a talk about what y'all want and don't want on the table is the best thing to do to prevent future arguments.

In the meantime, you should take this break as a time to take care of yourself. Self-care to your heart's content! I don't mean giving into any impulses, but indulging in favorite foods and taking a relaxing shower. I know those sound like 'mommy blog' versions of self-care, but they do help sometimes and who doesn't love feeling clean?

In all seriousness, Hunter, you should focus on yourself this week. Think over what I've told you, and see if that will be right for your relationship. If not, then I take no offense and I truly wish y'all the best.

Good luck!

-Bee❤

#mod bee #aab #hunter

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