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Aaaaand more very quick stream doodles. This one shot was so fun to watch, it’s so sad that it had to end already. But oh well, let’s not dwell on that and let’s enjoy the good time we had, like disguised tiefling gale being both Karlachs and astarions type, wyll and gale having a spa day, bing bong in general (rip king, you will be missed), and of course the 8 strength fight for magic items <3 thanks to the cast for the chaos, I enjoyed it thoroughly
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#astarion ancunin#gale dekarios#shadowheart#wyll ravengard#karlach#lae'zel#bloodweave#bc I say so#>:3c#I also refuse to draw gale without the beard sorry#I’m so happy we got to see more Tim being chaotic. he’s like the eye of the storm. calm and unassuming while commanding the chaos#around him#the gale wine mom moment was literally so real I nearly cried from laughter when Tim mimed eating the cucumber slices from his face mask#god I wish they could do a whole campaign I would watch that back and fourth#everything I draw that includes them is bloodweave bc I love them dearly. same goes for shartzel (still love that ship name)#I just have not yet drawn actual ship art outside of this of them so I feel less comfortable tagging it as such 🥹
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Is it bad that a part of me wants to see Kuina (who beat Zoro at fighting over 2000 times, training to be the greatest swordswoman, acutely aware of what people say about her gender and how it impedes her dream) meet Sanji (refuses to fight a woman just because they're a woman), just to see what type of trainwreck ensues. I feel like it would either be awful or absolutely hilarious.
#look i like sanji but sometimes his views about women makes me a little angry#speaking this as a woman myself#and i know it partially stems from trauma from the vinsmokes and then also what zeff said which i don't blame him for#but i wish he would at least be self aware enough to know that about himself#and not assume instead that the way he thinks is just how everyone should think#so anyway kuina meeting sanji would be quite funny to me#and i love zoro so i refuse to let him be dead in this au nah#he's in the background drinking sake and watching the show#to be clear i'm not shipping kuina and sanji tho#i'm still a zosan/sanzo shipper at heart#so in my mind this is a zosan au with kuina and zoro sibling supremacy#one piece#kuina one piece#sanji blackleg#roronoa zoro#zosan#sanzo
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Why doesn’t Starboy!? If Disney doesn’t want him, I do! and let’s make him gay while we’re at it
#I like pretty colors#the fact he was scrapped is a crime#first time coloring textured hair#if u have any tips lemme know!#starboy#disney wish#I actively haven’t watched the movie and refuse to#wish 2023#wish star#disney#I suppose
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Might be too busy to upload the video I mentioned so Imma yeet some doodles I made at school
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These are very cursed Eddie doodles because why not?
#eddie gluskin#outlast#yes I know outlast#and yes I got traumatize when I first met Eddie#Bro was a whole different level of delulu damn#he scared me so much I spent the entire day remembering those moments#he's such a horrifying character but he's so horrifying that he's such a great antagonist#I applaud to the writers of Outlast knowing how to freak people out#outlast whistleblower#outlast fanart#Ngl I refuse to look at Eddie content ever since my first time seeing him but then pademic happened#I got bored and decided to watch playthroughs of horror games#next thing I know I cope with making shitposts about the game so I can sleep easy adjfnadfkjnadskfjn#The third pic finding the hilarity that a misogynistic cop had three wives and the misogynistic groom had none ajdsnfjkadfns#man I wish I have Outlast Trials to play with friends#horror games#my art
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thinking about how both tfa (2015) and rogue one (2016) came out post-disney's acquisition of lucasfilms (2012) and both those films live on so fondly in my heart but have also, somehow, been earmarked in my head as the last true additions to star wars canon to have come out ever since
#personal#like even if i enjoy watching things that aren't those two movies post-disney it's like#for whatever reason. my head files it as ''haha that was fun. glad that's not canon''#WHICH IS ADMITTEDLY. A WILD THING TO THINK. LIKE THOSE TV SHOWS AND CARTOONS ARE DEFINITELY CANON#but my brain REFUSES to acknowledge them as such#obviously half of it is ''some of this reads like absolute bullshit''#but the other half is ''i straight up enjoyed this. this was fun to me. but also it's not canon <3''#wish i could just unequivocally like everything but alas my standards are hard to parse even for me#the person who has them#AUGHHHH#don't ask me how tcw fits into this as it's in a weird middle ground#tcw in my head is like...... jedi apprentice.... or the comics...... in that it's canon except it isn't except it IS.#i CANNOT elaborate. my thoughts are an enigma unto myself.
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I went on tiktok to just watch some silly Odysseus videos but then I mostly saw people going like "Yeah, maybe Odysseus cried on Calypso' island every day but honestly he had that coming after what he did Achilles and Patroclous/Circe!!!" and "Everything that happens in Odyssey is deserved cuz he took Patrochilles to war!!!" and "I feel so bad for Circe and Calypso and Penelope, they deserved better!!!"
For fucks sake I beg you, read anything different from Millers bs and like educate yourself- And please stop goddamn saying that rape victim. deserved it.
Circe probably didn't give a flying fuck, Calypso is a rapist and abuser and Penelope deserved everything she wanted and SHE WANTED ODYSSEUS
I think I've had enough internet for today, imma go wash my eyes with bleach. Anyways sorry for ranting here, i hope you don't mind it lmao
It's alright. I absolutely understand the vents about the whole thing. :'D No one deserves to be a victim of such a thing no matter WHAT they've done. I hope your eyes are okay after the bleach
Like Odysseus does so many fucked up things but Calypso and Circe? He is the victim. Period. It's very clear that Odysseus is in extreme distress on Ogygia. And Circe wasn't some sort of FwB situation. There's fear and numbness in the language he uses when talking about it. There's so much victim blaming and it SUCKS.
While back then it probably wouldn't be considered SA but now? It clearly is.
Even then, Odysseus' journey was kind of about "temptation" or just straight up "Die or get out of my sea." From Poseidon. "I don't want you in my waters so I'm gonna try and give you things that will keep you on land or just kill you."
Immortal goddesses wanting you would be many people's dream come true but not for Odysseus. And I think that's the point. His determination, how he clawed his way back into the arms he never wanted to leave in the first place, is incredible. Many people would've given up and just started a new life but he never would because no life he could ever create would compare to the life he had before. Even if it's different, it's what he's always wanted.
He literally tells Calypso "I'm not stopping until I'm home. I don't care if I suffer more until I do. I'm going home."
“Mighty goddess,
do not be angry with me over this.
I myself know very well Penelope,
although intelligent, is not your match
to look at, not in stature or in beauty.
But she’s a human being and you’re a god.
You’ll never die or age. But still I wish,
every moment to get back to my home,
to see the day of my return. And so,
even if out there on the wine-dark sea
some god breaks me apart, I will go on—
the heart here in my chest is quite prepared
to bear affliction. I’ve already had
so many troubles, and I’ve worked so hard
through waves and warfare. Let what’s yet to come
be added in with those.”
(Book 5, Johnston)
Circe's a goddess and what happened is nothing like Dionysus and Ariadne and Apollo and Hyacinthus for example. Circe never gave Odysseus a crown of stars and he would never go out of his way to kill 120 people for bothering her. They did not love each other and he can't refuse as she's a goddess.
If you interpret them sleeping together the entire year,(It's only explicitly said that they had sex once so that's what I go with personally.) that doesn't mean he was happy with it! Even then, the whole situation is not what a healthy FwB should look like! I'm asexual and even I know that no one in a FwB situation should have to BEG in any way that basically says "Please let me go or kill me" with supplication!!! The fact that he leaves so quickly he forgets one of his men? The fact that during Elpenor's funeral, he doesn't greet Circe himself? He was avoiding her. Wouldn't he want to get "one last night together" during Book 12 if they were fwb? 🙄
It's bonkers to me that people hate him for being a "cheater" when A.) having multiple lovers wasn't uncommon in Ancient Greece, and B.) the two people he is explicitly said to have "cheated" with, weren't his choice. He wasn't actively searching for pretty women either!!!
As mentioned, while it was common for men to have many lovers, Odysseus never had any listed unlike some of the other men. (not bashing any of them. I'm just making a point in comparison.) He also has no other children besides Telemachus in Homer's works. There's no evidence of him having other lovers other than speculation. (funny enough, I once read somewhere that the reason why Odysseus is so mean is because he doesn't "bond" enough with the other soldiers. 😂)
Does that mean he didn't have other lovers? Technically, Nope! It's just never explicitly stated either way. He has slaves but none were ever said to be concubines or that he sleeps with them. He has deep bonds with his fellow soldiers but that doesn't mean he sleeps with them. That doesn't mean people can't write or talk about him doing so even though it's not mentioned! Just like it also means that someone can write him not doing so as there's nothing that says it either way in Homer's Works! :D
It's fucked up when people say "He didn't try to leave Calypso enough" or something of the like. It just tells you how A.) they didn't read the Odyssey or have piss on the poor reading comprehension or B.) ...you should probably stay away from that person...
With Circe though??? I can understand the confusion but digging deeper and looking at the text, he wasn't having a good time. Or at the very least was walking on Eggshells the whole time. I hate bringing up that essay over and over again but like...I literally wrote everything there.
I also don't like how people take Circe's morally gray-ness away from her. Let her do something fucked up to be fucked up!!! Let her traumatize Odysseus!
Idk, I kind of hate that I'm "known" for this but I relate to this idiot asshole a lot and it means a lot to me that his story, despite what happens to him, has a happy ending :'D
#Thank goodness I don't have tiktok >:)#I wish there was a way to like. have anonymous posts? because I made that PTSD post to show how him refusing to be bathed#by Nausica's maids and him choking Euryclea and was giving reference to make a point but I wish I wasn't like. Known for this???#but like... I HAVE something to say. Having specific knowledge of some things just...really makes it clear in what happened that I don't#think others have considered.#And I was afraid if I was “vague” then people would say “You're just saying that to get sympathy points” and I didn't want to deal with#that :'D plus like in his outbursts I saw myself you know?#I just kept thinking “oh shit. I KNOW what you're doing because I did it too aAAAAAHHHHHHHHh”#I relate to Helen too but in a way. The Odyssey shows her “HEALED” (which fuck yeah!!! YESSS!!!😭) it doesn't show the#PTSD in the same way as she's had many years to recover. Watching it happen in “real time” for Odysseus was...really nice.#i said it before but the Odyssey feels REAL compared to the “girlboss queen slay” shit. Him tryiing to force himself into normalcy#only to act out is...yeah.#save me morally gray circe#ask#anon#Mad rambles#tw sa#tw ptsd#tw sex assault#anti madeline miller#anti circe#essay
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gaming in your thirties be like, I can't play the sims because it doesn't feel productive enough
#sometimes I wish I could mentally time travel and be sixteen again#yes king play ten straight hours of sims it's for your personal enrichment#I've played the sims a good bit today but I keep feeling guilty because I could be playing something else in my enormous steam backlog#or watching an anime that I've been meaning to catch up on#brain come on it's all entertainment! it's not time wasted!#but my brain refuses to see it that way
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2005 | 2023
#'catie stop making comparison history posts' NO I REFUSE#i was gonna make fun of myself and say smth like#'person whos only fully watched 2005: wow this is giving me 2005 vibes'#BUT NO!!! NO!!!! THE PARALLELS THE PARALLELS#got p3 in both australin gps!!!!!! AAAAAAAA THE HISTORY THE PARALLELS#everyone is making comparisons to aus 2006 cause he won that but no they dont understand!!!! this is the comparison you should be making#guys you know what this means#fernando 2023 wdc-#its a sign i swear i swear!!! let me be delusional cmon#dont ask me how many random instagram posts i just looked through trying to find the same angle#yeah i wish they were both facing the same way but well what can you do#this is really really full circle bcs australia 2005 was the first old nando race i watched#and the first ever post-race highlights i ever made! and now here i am a billion posts later#so to have watched that back in january almost 3 months ago and then watch this and see him achieve the same is so meaningful for me#fernando alonso#fa14#2023 australian gp#2005 australian gp#we do a little bit of f1#f1#formula 1#formula one
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him saying this in the same episode where he lets martha in and takes her on as a full-time companion makes me want to turn to dust. i just. God. [shakes ten like a soda can really hard] YOURE INSANE. YOURE SO INSANE. it's the push-and-pull of "i am so tired of living and i don't need anyone bc if the loneliness is inevitable then what's the point" and "the loneliness is KILLING me and this person so clearly cares deeply about me and is there any harm in acknowledging to her (and myself) that she's so much more than just an acquaintance" i just. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. like it isn't him thinking martha isn't good enough or getting mad that she's replacing rose it's his indecision, it's him attempting to prevent any more heartbreak by being alone but caving to his loneliness and what martha does for him but then also remembering that he's supposed to be isolating himself and in doing so he fucks up the friendship they could've had together and god i need him to explode. EXPLODE
#tenth doctor#dr who#ten and martha#TENMARTHA YOU DRIVE ME FUCKING NUTS . AND GOD I WISH YOU WERE EXECUTED BETTER. AND THAT PEOPLE UNDERSTOOD YOU#IT'S NOT JUST ROSE IT'S THE GRIEF FROM THE TIMEWAR THAT HE WAS IGNORING THATS COMING BACK TO HIT HIM W A BASEBALL BAT#IT'S HIM OFFERING DONNA TO COME WITH HIM BEFORE SHE REFUSES HIM AND HE REMEMBERS WHO HE IS (UNLOVABLE DANGEROUS DOOMED TO BE ALONE)#'IS IT WORTH IT TO LOVE ANYONE' VS 'I NEED LOVE SO FUCKING BAD. HI MARTHA WATCH ME KILL MYSELF IN FRONT OF YOU'#SERIES 3 TEN I NEED TO THROW YOU INTO THE SUNNNNNNNNNN#10 era
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Also, since I am teen wolf-posting anyway:
Did anyone else spend the entirety of season 5 waiting for Derek to show up, give Scott a hug, tell him everything will be fine and then, like, Idk, beat up all the bad guys for him? Or was I the only one this naive?
[this is a shipping post, not a platonic one. also, if you try to make it about St*l*s somehow I am going to steal your kneecaps.]
#teen wolf#scott mccall#derek hale#scerek#I guess I sort of got my wish in s6 😆#which I ironically refused to watch when it came out because I was sick of this fandom's bullshit and of the show's questionable writing
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Dune time #6
#watching it in imax one last time#since they refuse to release the imax version outside of theaters#number 5 in imax + 1 in Dolby#still wish I watched it in imax laser I even emailed them but alas#still don’t get the 70mm gimmick#I think this is officially the most times I’ve watched a movie in theaters#I think I watched force awakens 5 times
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"how many times have you watched this?"
"yes."
by chernobyl.flowers on tiktok.
thank you so much @blunailz for sending it to me!
#jared harris#big boy#sza#it's cuffing season#video#im so mad that this motherfucker was in morbius. i still refuse to watch morbius#even if jared makes me morb all over the place#chernobyl.flowers#wish i could get it to embed properly i don't know why it wont
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sister & brother in law have adopted the phrase 'bakugou doing bakugou things' while watching mha and honestly my only thoughts on this week's chapter are: bakugou doing bakugou things
#good <3#i haven't read the chapter i just skimmed the summary#bakugou katsuki#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#manga spoilers#liza watches mha#liza blather#q#honestly i wish i could watch this show w them bc my sister will call me after something happens and give me the play by play#of their thoughts and it is always so funny#my sister (judgmental) and her boyfriend (refuses to suspend even a fraction of his disbelief) watching mha: a comedy#thought i was going to have to fight the bf over mic but we're slowly bringing him into the cult it's all good
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”I don’t want to give Jehovah’s organization a black eye so I have to suffer in silence. Oh the pain! The pain!”
Mhm. Have you ever considered that Jehovah’s organization has given you not one, but two proverbial black eyes, broken ribs, and a concussion over the years; and maybe you should expose them for the abusers they are, if only enough to get yourself help to heal from the abuse you’ve experienced? You’ve got Stockholm syndrome bad, and you’re making it everyone else’s problem. You cared about your abusers so much that you abused me in their name, just because I wanted no part of their organization. Even if I didn’t seek out apostate resources, I wouldn’t have needed them to make my decision to leave because of how much you vented about them to me since I was about five years old. Did you just expect me to stay here and take the abuse like you did? I’m better than that; I’m better than you.
#exjw#ex cult#I woke up and he was venting about it to my mom very loudly so I just went “fuck that”#I could’ve went somewhere in the house to eat but I specifically chose the 20 degrees F screen room so that both of them know#I’d rather freeze than hear one more second of his venting knowing that he is still refusing to get help#Mom wants to watch the convention? Glorious. I’m not leaving my room until he’s done talking. I will not be her deus ex machina#I will not be her excuse to end the conversation so she can watch the convention with me#She can sit there and listen to it; and maybe she’ll grow some reasoning ability and realize#the religion she so piously subscribes herself to is splitting us apart and killing her husband#and maybe she’ll begin to take his triggers seriously and not make passive-aggressive remarks about how she wants to listen#to all the comments and not mute it when an elder who sexually harassed him begins speaking#and maybe my dad will grow some common sense and realize that continuing to go to meetings will ensure he is in a state of trauma#for all eternity#and maybe — just maybe — they will realize that everything they read in my diaries was right#and that they were absolutely positively 100% in the wrong for screaming at me about their contents#and apologize for what they’ve done to each other and to me#But that’s wishful thinking because [first name] “I’m more stubborn than you” [last name] will hold out until it kills him#and my mom is ex-Catholic and convinced the JWs are entirely truthful just because she prefers the possibility of death over hellfire#You can’t make this shit up#I live in a madhouse with crazy people
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So as of now, anything from Disney's recent-ish output that is worth watching? The last Disney Animated Canon film I saw in theaters was Ralph Breaks the Internet, which I found fun at first, but the first one was way better. I skipped over the films (both Animated Canon and Pixar) where there's no "real" villain, and I've heard that Wish is hot garbage at worst or forgettable at best.
The last Marvel Cinamatic Universe movie I saw was No Way Home, which I really enjoyed. I didn't watch any of the MCU movies that afterwards because I didn't see their predecessor films, not to mention there were other movies I wanted to watch this year.
And as much as I want to watch some of their animated shows, Disney barely pays them any mind, and I'm not willing to pay that much for a streaming subscription. Nor do I have a good timezone or schedule to watch those shows on reruns, (I only came across The Owl House by chance, and that was around a finale).
So yeah, what is worth watching from Disney as of now, and how easily could I watch it? Legally or otherwise.
#fuck Disney#Disney#Disney Animated Canon#Marvel Cinematic Universe#Pixar#Wish#Wreck it Ralph#Spider Man#Owl House#Also I refuse to watch the Live Action remakes
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im losing my mind waiting for my last class to start and I've just been drawing ev over and over again so. here are the best three i had all shoved over to the side
#eveline#i may as well just.#strawberryscribbles#Yeah#the a sharp-and-a-half thing is a hyper obscure reference to a video essay i watched ((and no its not the mario 64 half a press one#although i wish id thought of that earlier#umm she doesnt like winter. winter is a very hard time for her especially because the post slows down in that time + nothing in her garden-#grows. so she ends up stuck inside. running through her records until she cant stand to listen to them. and watching the snow fall#shes got some other winter related traumas but ill spare yall those details#you can imagine why she keeps the heat cranked and the doors locked and refuses to even step foot in the snow for yourself#gardening day fit eveline save me gardening day fit eveline#take a shot every time i change either her or cherrys bodytype you will be hospitalized in three hours#theres a vague idea that evie gains weight once she gets happier and that cherry looks borderline malnourished because--#of a mix of stress and a digestive system thats now used to power electronic componets which can be supplemented with. like.#standing out in the sun for a few hours .#but i have Got to make them look more consistent god damn#oh well. practice practice practice#edit i went on that whole spiel about Why Eveline Hates The Cold and then realized i didnt even include the drawing that referenced that#ok
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