So, Chapter 112 is out.

We don't exactly get much of explanation or distinction from S5 ending ep.

Mori, he really just glued in the fangs for FUN! What even is the Mafia! (Plus, Dazai Laughed!) We had old man Yaoi. I am not going to talk about it as we already know what went down there. We got Kunikida, Atsushi and Tanizaki. And Gogol man being sad (it broke my heart again to see his reaction). Ngl, even i would be sad if someone killed my Situationship But not Chuuya calling out that Situationship, lol (That was my exact reaction when a friend of mine told me she was in one and how it works) SKK bickering, still. And Fukuzawa being handed the greatest responsibility.

All in all, everything we had seen so far, only an added reaction here and there.

Next chapter will most likely also follow through the rest of the episode. But nothing much is left, so chances are that we may get new content. Or latest by April.

This all seems well and good, but I'm suddenly feeling anxious about how things are going to progress further.

I've said time and again, BSD takes 'it can't get worse than this' phase and just proves it wrong again and again. We reach new rock-bottoms every time.

So, things looking up now, gives me anxiety that something is going to go horribly wrong. (Cue the flashback of the 'Two hours later' bit)

All things that can horribly go wrong:

Everything with Soukoku at Meursault. I find it so weird that we are not getting detailed explanation of how things are proceeding there. We have seen Dazai and Fyodor play mind games for so many arcs now, there is always an explanation at the end of each one. But this doesn't have that 'satisfactory' level of explanation yet. Yes, Chuuya again came to Dazai's aid, but how? How did Dazai knew that the Vampires were turned in his favor. Would killing Fyodor (if he actually is dead) really be wise? How is he sure that it was Fyodor plan all along to get killed and he played right into it? You know when things are kept ambiguous, as most things related to Prison break arc are, it means there will be some facts that will come in light later. And that's what I'm scared of because it can be anything! It does not help that Dazai is yet to take that antidote! What if it doesn't work? What is Nikolai goes for revenge? Since he love's loosing himself and that's why he fought, so what if he continues? Can Chuuya's gravity manipulation even be effective against someone like Gogol? He can just go from one place to another, dodge all of Chuuya's attacks. We also know he can use his ability with Dazai as long as he isn't touching him. What is he takes the antidote form the case before Dazai can take it? That makes him such a kryptonite for Soukoku.

Then we have,

The Shin soukoku's battle against whatever that (Fukuchi) was. Two hours, if you think about it is not a long duration of time for things to start fucking up suddenly. There must be something already laid in waiting for it to start going shit when time comes. We are yet to get the details of how the Vampirism is going to wear off. Because it does, Akutagawa was back to normal when he was fighting with Atsushi. Sskk teaming up is well and good, but can they stand against that being? They had a hard time dealing with Fukuchi only a while ago, this enhanced being will be much tougher than them. What if this also is set for failure? only for the world to be purged into more chaos? Maybe i'm being a bit to pessimistic, but i've lost confidence in the mangaka's they always do the unexpected and kill everyone's favs, fr.

That also makes me think

Will taking on the role of Mankind's leader, lead to Fukuzawa on a deeper end? We know he struggled earlier, before founding agency, with his assassination work. He had refused to work in the war for a reason. Won't this be undoing everything he's worked for so many years? Also, taking in that honor from their government (or officials, i don't exactly remember what it was. I'm talking about the appreciation symbol of katana'?' they received at the beginning of S4) that basically led them to take on that case that declared them terrorists. Won't taking the role of Mankind's Leader also make Fukuzawa susceptible to be declared as the Mankind's Enemy? This seems similar to that previous situation. Reminds me of how Ranpo called this responsibility, or last wish, a curse. And Ranpo is always right, so there's that. Maybe that's how they are going to introduce the next adversaries?

Too much uncertainty and what-ifs.

I have become comfortably numb…

Love finding old youtube comments of mine

Younger me really had no filter back then 😭💀💀

my eye post-crying, 2020 - lorde story “rebirth”, 2024

god grant me a friend group like I had when I was a teenager

Now I know why people say they wish they knew then what they know now. At the breakfast table, I would give you my egg yolk. My new shirt. My blue notebook. We were just kids then, with no foresight of oceans coming between us. It feels like yesterday we went to school in the same car, and now it takes years before we’re all in the same room. If I knew this, I would grab my shoulders and shake myself at every small fight: None of this is bigger than them. There is no time to waste. Say you’re sorry. Please, relent.

Just had a dream where I found a long dragon in the woods. It gave me a big lick and it felt so real I woke up.

not sure anything was happier than the 2015 star wars release

hello you were at the vegas night 2 show??? how did we not put this together!!!

no way im just seeing this now!??? sorry!!! yes i was at vegas n2!!!!

scrolled through the yuri on ice tag and got depressed 😐

I want to wake up.

I want to open my eyes and see you in front of me. I want to see the bus turn the corner and have my heart flutter as I fix my hair for you in the door's reflection. I want to look for you in the hallways. I want you to kiss me, hug me so tight that it's hard to breathe. I want to sit across from you at lunch, making sure you eat today. I want to hold your hand one last time. I want to open my eyes and see your wrinkled face looking back at me. I want to hear your laugh as I tell you a dumb joke. I want to hold your head against my chest as we lay in bed. I want to make you breakfast in the morning. I want to look into your beautiful blue-green eyes. I want to live happily ever after with you.

It feels like I'm living a dream since you left and changed.

I want to wake up.