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hismercytomyjustice · 7 days

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I spent 95% of the day today writing. I’ve finally hit 35k, but the last 3k were a STRUGGLE. I think they turned out okay, but my god I had several moments of “fuck this.”

I think the issue was this was a way more research heavy chapter and I didn’t feel as confident about writing some of the side characters. They don’t have much screen time in the game, which made it all the more stressful.

I desperately want to finish this fic. I don’t want to have made it this far only to give up. I s2g the Cardcaptors fic that I wrote that was almost twice as long as this didn’t give me NEARLY this much trouble. Maybe because I was more familiar with the source material?

I did get a really sweet comment on it recently though that I still need to reply to. I’m always baffled and pleased when folks take the time to read my older stuff.

I want to say I’m around 75-80% done with this fic now, though I still have no idea how the hell I’m going to end it.

…especially since I still haven’t finished the game…

I’m like 250+ hours in, but I still need to kill Orin and Gortash, save Lae’zel, get the Wyrm, fight Raphael, find Minsc… I’m sure I’m forgetting something. I know I could just power through to the end but I’ve been enjoying thoroughly exploring everything. I’ve also kind of worn myself out in the process though. There is just SO MUCH in Act III, it’s overwhelming.

Work has been hella busy again the past week or two too, which doesn’t help. I’m kind of dreading tomorrow because I have so much I need to do. I am getting desperate for a break and our next holiday isn’t until Memorial Day at the end of May. I’m probably going to have to take some PTO or at least a mental health day at the rate I’m going. The burnout is hitting HARD.

I love my job as much as one can love a job, but my god it is exhausting and demanding. Thankfully it isn’t like this all the time, but the periods where it is SUCK. Things will quiet down in another month or so, at least for a good chunk of the summer. I hope.

I think when I’m done writing this fic (please god in the next few weeks or so), I’m going to post it a chapter at a time like I did with my Cardcaptors one. Maybe a week apart to give myself time to edit each chapter. Pretty sure that’s the only way I’ll be able to trick myself into editing.

It’s just been so nice to have something I’m excited to write about again. This is the longest thing I’ve written in literal years. I feel like I’ve grown a lot, or at least I hope I have.

I’m also hoping that by writing more fanfic, I’ll be able to strengthen my writing for original stuff too. Right now I’m just trying to be happy with whatever I put out, so long as I’m writing something. Even if I don’t finish it.

I spent so many years struggling to get a word on the page because I spent so much time learning about writing through cons, books, podcasts, etc that I was hypercritical of everything I did. I stopped enjoying the process and I felt like a failure. I knew enough now that I knew what I did wrong or where I had skill gaps, but I had no idea how to fix any of it, so I just stopped creating. I forgot why I loved writing so much in the first place.

A book that’s really helped me view writing in a much healthier way is The Actor’s Life: A Survival Guide by Jenna Fischer. Yes, it’s geared toward acting, but the advice she gives is just as relevant to other creative fields.

She talks a lot about giving yourself permission to do the thing, about not having to be at the same level as your idols to pursue your dream, and about how important it is just to create.

It’s so important to enjoy the process because, otherwise, what’s the point? So long as I’m having fun, it’s worth doing. Even if I never reach a wide audience with original stuff I do in the future, I have to remember I’m doing this first and foremost for myself. I’ve found I enjoy that type of content more too, where the creator takes risks and unashamedly throws their passion into their project.

Yes, this is just a fanfic I’m working on, but I’m honing my skills through it. It’s a lot less terrifying to play in someone else’s sandbox and it’s so much easier for me to get out of my own way while I do it.

But at the same time DAMN I AM SO READY TO BE DONE haha.

Fingers crossed I will be soon!!!

#fanfic #ancient books and horror stories #writing #life things

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shelovescontrol91 · 3 years

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Between a starring role in Cinderella, live performances, and a forthcoming album, it would appear things are business as usual for Camila Cabello. But there’s a difference: Before the pandemic her work was leaving her drained, anxious, and insecure. Now she’s found a way to be a pop star on her own terms, and everything—from the music to her relationship with her body—has fallen into place.

By mid-September, Camila Cabello was feeling burnt out. In the span of three days she had performed at the MTV Video Music Awards, attended the Met gala with boyfriend Shawn Mendes, and shot the first-ever global cover for Glamour. So when she finally returned home to Miami, rest wasn’t just desired—it was essential.

But rehearsals for New York’s Global Citizen Festival loomed. Before jumping back into pop star mode, Cabello put on a yellow bikini and headed to the beach for two hours of blissfully uninterrupted downtime. She sank into a chair and cracked open a book, her favorite pastime. The salty air enveloped her; waves crashed in the distance. This is why she lives in Miami, her hometown, as opposed to a showbiz hub like Los Angeles: more privacy.

Or so she thought. Somehow the paparazzi found out where she was for those 120 minutes. She didn’t see them at first, but there they were, snapping away.

“I didn’t consent to those pictures,” she tells me over Zoom, camera off as she drives in Miami. (At one point she says to someone on the road, “Why are you honking at me, bro?”) “I got my period on the beach. I’m in a bikini and on my period, so I don’t know if I have a fucking period stain and that’s going to be everywhere. I didn’t sign up for anybody to be taking pictures of me in a bikini.”

Cabello has developed methods for dealing with invasive situations like this. She’s had to. The 24-year-old—born in Cuba, raised in Miami—has been in the public eye since 2012, when she competed on The X-Factor. She auditioned as a solo artist but was later matched with four other girls to form the pop group Fifth Harmony. They released two albums before Cabello embarked on her own—and achieved mind-boggling fame. Her singles “Havana” and “Señorita” (with Mendes) topped the charts worldwide. She’s earned three Grammy nominations, become a face of L’Oréal, and tried her hand at not just acting but starring in a feature film: this year’s Cinderella remake on Amazon Prime. Her third studio album, Familia, is due out later this year.

By all accounts it’s a lot. Careerwise it’s the closest things have felt to prepandemic times, when she was working constantly, arguably to an exhausting degree. As COVID-19 shutdowns went into effect last March, Cabello was able to realize just how tired she was.

“I by no means am trying to complain,” she says, “but it was such a thing of, ‘I have to get onstage tomorrow and I’m performing at this big thing,’ or whatever. ‘I want to do a good job. How do I do that when I feel nervous?’ I did this without being like, ‘Am I even happy right now? Do I even feel healthy?’ I didn’t have the space to ask myself those questions. I’m still working a ton now, but after quarantine I’m able to be like, ‘You know what? Right now I’m just not happy. I need to change something.’”

Therapy helped her see the changes she needed to make. Cabello tells me she’d experimented with therapy before the pandemic, but it was always situation focused—quick fixes to help her tackle the next performance or songwriting session. But with time at home, she dug deeper: “Because I wasn’t stressed about all the things I needed to do the next day, I was able to slow down and have enough stability to look at my stuff.”

Cabello doesn’t expand on what that “stuff” is. She does, however, explain why she decided to switch therapists as her internal work continued. “I wasn’t feeling like I was progressing in the areas I wanted to progress,” she says. “But when I switched, I found I was able to apply what they said in a way that benefited my mental health.”

One lesson she’s learned is the power of saying no. Two hit albums under her belt give Cabello the freedom to do things her way. Now she always has one day off a week, minimum. And when time came to start work on Familia, she forwent the standard pop music factory for a more intimate approach. The new album was made with just a handful of collaborators she could be open with. If Cabello was feeling anxious or nervous in a session, she had the space to address it. As a result, she says, it’s her best work yet.

“It’s the most grounded and calm I’ve ever been making an album,” she says. “I worked with people I wanted to have dinner with, and I was like, ‘I’m not going to write every single day for months, but write a few days a week and have time to gather experiences and be a human being.’”

Shawn Mendes is one of the people she’s gathering experiences with. The two singers confirmed their relationship in September 2019, and they’ve been tabloid magnets ever since. Everything from their laughably slow pandemic walks to their kissing style is dissected with a fine-tooth comb. A clip of them getting ready for the Met gala went instantly viral.

Cabello tells me she and Mendes try to avoid the social media chatter about their relationship, but it inevitably seeps in. “When stuff that’s negative is out there, it’s going to get to you,” she says. “So yeah, that’s very, very challenging. I feel like it’s another thing therapy has been really helpful for.”

Mendes goes to therapy too. While Cabello says she and Mendes haven’t done couples therapy—though she’d be open to it—they very much work on their mental health together.

“For better, for worse, we’re very transparent with each other. I think that’s why we can trust each other so much, because it’s a very 3D human relationship,” she says. “I’ll be venting or ranting about something, and he’ll be like, ‘Have you talked to X about it?’ And I’ll be like, ‘No. I’ve got to do a session.’ And he’ll do the same thing to me. I think even just the language of being like, ‘Hey, I’m sorry that I’ve been distant with you or snappy with you. I’m just struggling and I’m feeling kind of anxious.’ That level of transparency really helps a lot.”

Mendes echoes Cabello’s thoughts. “Camila and I give each other an extreme amount of patience and understanding,” he tells me via email. “I think the truth is that when you’re struggling with mental health, it turns you sometimes into the version of yourself that you don’t like to be—and kind of loving and accepting your person through that, and being there for them through that, is life-changing. We give each other so much space and understanding and patience.”

A behind-the-scenes VMAs story perfectly illustrates this. When Cabello was nervous meeting new people at an after-party, she caught herself leaning on a habit she’s trying to break. Mendes helped her through it.

“I have this pattern of eating a lot when I’m anxious or uncomfortable,” she says. “It’s a comfort thing for me. I’ll just kind of become unconscious and zombie-eat a lot, and then I’ll feel sick. I’ve told Shawn about that. So at the VMAs party, I was like, ‘I’m doing it.’ And he was like, ‘It’s okay. You’re doing it. That’s okay. Let’s just take a breath and not do that.’ It’s really good for me to be able to talk about my patterns with someone.”

Food and body image are two things that have really been on Cabello’s mind this year. A July TikTok she posted shutting down body-shamers racked up 4.8 million likes. “Being at war with your body is so last season,” she says in the video, which she posted after photos of her running in Los Angeles made the rounds online.

That mantra is true, sure, but it’s easier said than done. Even Cabello has difficulty following it. She braced herself for what she might feel when those aforementioned bikini pics went live: “I need to work out. I need to eat better.” “Not that those things are bad,” she says. “But maybe I wouldn’t think about them as much if there weren’t people taking pictures of me.”

It’s not just the paparazzi who ignite moments of self-doubt. Cabello tells me about a time she was exercising with her trainer, Jenna Willis—who’s great, she says—and feeling insecure. “She’s the same height as me, and I was kind of comparing myself to her, because she is a lot skinnier than I am,” she recalls. “I was just like, ‘Yeah, but I’ve been working out and I look better, right? I look better, right?’”

It’s Willis who helped silence those voices in Cabello’s head, reminding her that how she feels is more important than appearances; that life is about balance and enjoying food. These are health philosophies we’ve all heard—but when you’re Camila Cabello and millions are picking apart your beach photos, it’s hard to tune out the noise. Now when she’s feeling down on herself, she just turns her phone off and goes outside.

“When I’m having negative thoughts about my body, that’s actually when I’ll want to binge-eat cookies, and then I have a stomachache,” she says. “It’s this weird psychology: The more I love my body, the more I actually want to take care of it…. As long as I’m healthy and working out and feel good, that’s the best I can do. There’s no point in trying to have another kind of body.”

By this point in our conversation, Cabello’s made it to her destination. When I ask if she’ll have time to chill and decompress, she says, “To be honest, not yet, but I will after this weekend.” There’s a calmness in her voice when she says this—a stillness, a readiness. She seems perfectly prepared for what lies ahead: album promo, performances, and undoubtedly more scrutiny about her body, her relationship, her everything. But she’ll be fine, because just around the corner is a day off. That’s nonnegotiable.

“It’s important to be on top of not just what’s making you sad or anxious, but also what’s giving you joy,” she says. “I want to be happy and enjoy my life. That’s kind of it.”

#camila cabello #shawn mendes #shawmila

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tessandscottforever18 · 3 years

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Or so she thought. Somehow the paparazzi found out where she was for those 120 minutes. She didn’t see them at first, but there they were, snapping away.

Mendes goes to therapy too. While Cabello says she and Mendes haven’t done couples therapy—though she’d be open to it—they very much work on their mental health together.

“It’s important to be on top of not just what’s making you sad or anxious, but also what’s giving you joy,” she says. “I want to be happy and enjoy my life. That’s kind of it.”

#camila cabello #interview: glamour #glamour #glamour magazine

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angeltriestoblog · 4 years

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I figured out what I want to do with my life! And made a vision board!

It came to me in a flash, really. One minute, I was watching a handpainted narration of the life and death of one of the greatest painters of all time, and next thing you know, I've abandoned it completely and started furiously typing away at my laptop about what I envisioned myself to be in five years' time. And I know I've had my fair share of false alarms in life: I thought I had what it takes to be a lawyer after seeing Legally Blonde for the first time while on my way to a school field trip, and seriously considered pursuing a career as a fashion blogger or MTV VJ because I was kind of fed up with school.

But this one just makes sense. Advising and assisting clients in producing content, collaterals, and campaigns according to their business objectives and based on collected data! It marries my love for writing, my knack for snooping around (the academic term is research!), and the specialty in technology and management my university ensures I'll have at the end of my four-year degree. i have yet to see how it’ll allow me to give back to society since that’s also a factor I want to consider in looking for a dream job but I’ll make it work. I found it hard to sleep that night, thanks to this nerdy, giddy kind of adrenaline rush I had. I broke down this big idea into smaller and smaller action steps until all I had left was a refined list of ideas and intentions, and a splitting headache.

I needed to make sure I was constantly reminded of their existence so all my choices and decisions would serve as a step closer to reaching all of them. So I caved in to the wishes of the "law of attraction" side of the Internet, and created my very own vision board! Simply put, this act of visualization is a powerful technique that can be used to manifest desires and reach goals. Our subconscious minds mainly recognize symbols and images: by merely looking at our vision boards everyday, subliminal messages are being sent to our brains, which will encourage them to work tirelessly to achieve the statements we are feeding to them. I can't find any explanation for this that's less abstract but since many people seem to swear on it and I have a lot of free time and printer ink, I figured why not, right?

It was convenient that I had this small corkboard from Daiso already stuck to one corner of my bedroom wall with several layers of double-sided tape. It used to be a year-long calendar of birthdays but I realized that I've never referred to it and often have to rely on either Facebook reminders or stock knowledge--there is no in between. All I had to do was to look at my list of goals, and compile photos that correspond to each of them, cut them up and arrange them in an aesthetically pleasing manner. You'll see below that I lacked the stereotypical luxury car and beachfront mansion with a walk-in closet and that's because I decided to focus on my goals for the next five years so it looks even a little bit more achievable.

Here's the finished product, along with explanations for each picture, to make this how-to more personal and to also hold myself accountable.

Make my girl Jenna Rink and everybody at Poise proud by writing for a magazine | I had listed a specific one at the time, and if you follow me on Twitter and Instagram, you already know what it is and how this endeavor turned out - but on this blog, I'll shroud it in a little cloud of mystery for now and talk about it more in a future post. I'm very happy producing content for this space of mine and have no intention of stopping any time soon. But at the same time I know that I'd be missing out if I didn't take the chance to be part of a community that leads me to like-minded individuals, allows me to grow even more in my craft, and "gives creators a space to speak their minds and push the limits of their artistry, without imposing any restrictions or expectations", as I stated in my application form.

Be active in three organizations next school year | (I had to blur one of them out because I'm not a member yet and I don't want to jinx it.) I know it's bold of me to assume that we'll be returning to school any time soon, but if we are ever lucky enough, I want to outdo myself when it comes to the orgs I'm a part of. I have been a good follower throughout my first two years of college but now I believe it's my time to try my hand at leading a group of people and being more involved in the conceptualization and execution of projects.

Go on a trip to Europe | Not even just a specific group of countries anymore (I used to be a France, Italy, Spain supremacist)--I mean the entire continent! (But then again, with its rich history and culture, picturesque tourist spots, diverse cuisines... even the sheer adrenaline rush that comes with being in a land completely different from the one you come from, how could anyone not want to go?

and 12. Get the job of my dreams | I actually nicked these photos from the website of a cooperative I want to work for once I graduate from college. I know that I can't plan out the rest of my career trajectory as early as now: things are bound to change at some point, but I hope that I stay in a field that combines creativity and business strategy to craft campaigns, create meaningful content, and market solutions to brands.

Expand my network | I acknowledge how knowing people who know people who know people can open windows of opportunities that I wouldn't have been able to have anywhere else. But I also look forward to building genuine connections with people from all sorts of industries. Talking to the same circle of friends can sometimes feel like you're trapped in an echo chamber: there is certainly much to learn from others' viewpoints.

Volunteer to teach kids | I don't think the written word could have changed my life as much as it did, had it not been for the presence of English teachers who believed in the power of the language to shape the minds of the youth. I guess this is just me trying to give back and help the next generation express their ideas and bring them to life by channeling my inner John Keating.

Maintain a clean workspace that is conducive to productivity | Especially during these days, I spend a solid 18 out of 24 hours sat at my desk, trying my best to make magic happen. It's very important that I keep it a constant and active source of inspiration, free from any distractions, and at the right level of comfort. Although it's not as minimalist as I hoped it would be and my table is about an inch too high for my liking, I'm still pretty satisfied!

Document memories consistently, be it through a physical or online journal | Speaking of clearing out my room, I recently found around 20 notebooks I had filled up over the years. Though maintaining them must have been such a hassle especially as I got older and reading through them was a distraction from completing the task at hand, I am thankful I painstakingly chronicled everything going on in my life and kept them in good condition. Seeing the goals I had set for myself all those years ago and how I achieved most of them without making a conscious effort has inspired me to do my older self a favor by putting in the work now so she can reap the rewards. (While I'm on this note, can anyone recommend a good app for journaling? I keep all my current entries in my Mac's Notes app because even though I am more of an analog person, I seemed to have lost the patience and persistence required to keep a physical journal. But at the same time, I'm scared of my laptop suddenly cr*shing and wiping out everything I had stored)

Stay focused on my work always | I didn't know how to show this without having to spell it out in words so I Photoshopped my face onto the head of a woman working in a cafe because those who study in coffee shops along Katip always look like they're getting stuff done.

Keep learning about the world even when I'm outside of the classroom | And this is not limited to frequenting the nearby museum, although that does sound like a great idea right now. This could also mean attending seminars, workshops, and talks, buying books and binge-watching documentaries or YouTube videos about a topic that I find interesting, engaging in discourse with someone (plus points if they have a different viewpoint!)

Write my own book | Before I even found out that humans were destined to pick a career and work until they died, I already knew that I wanted to spend my days as a writer. Specifically, I wanted to see my name on the cover of a book: By Angel Martinez. (Please refer to the 4:32 of this video and look at how far this dream actually goes back.) But once I realized that I wanted to enter the world of business, I thought I would have to give this up altogether. Thankfully, I now know that one's ability to get published is not reliant on their career--I mean, even beauty gurus get book deals these days. I'm not really sure what it's going to be about but I'd honestly be down for anything: even if it's just a compilation of my best entries on this blog.

13. Go all out when I take myself on self-care dates | I'm talking about picnics at the beach, with a basket full of fruits, a posh looking hat, and a good piece of classic literature! Or fancy dinners for one complete with as many glasses of red wine as I can down! People watching at Downtown Disneyland like my paternal grandmother in hand, with a plastic bag of souvenirs on one hand and a cream cheese pretzel on the other! (The possibilities are endless and I'm already mapping most of them out.)

14. Be financially stable enough to re-enact that one scene in Pretty Woman where Vivian Ward struts down the streets of Beverly Hills in a chic white dress and black hat, an endless number of shopping bags in tow | The part where I humiliate a sales lady who snubbed me the day before because she didn't think I could afford what she was selling by saying, "You work on commission, right? That's right. Big mistake, big, huge." is entirely optional.

I also included some two inspirational sayings that were originally laptop wallpapers from The Everygirl. I feel like they perfectly sum up the attitude I want to have as I forge my own path and accomplish everything I have set out for myself. If I was somehow able to convince you that this activity serves as the perfect springboard for all your dreams and aspirations, here are a couple of tips that could hopefully help you make yours!

Be ready for some intense introspection | Though it may look like a simple arts and crafts activity at the surface, making an effective vision board simply cannot be achieved if you're not willing to do some much needed reflection and watch it balloon into a full-on existential crisis. Identify which areas of your life are most important to you and how you would like to see them evolve over a period of time.

Specificity is key | The trick is to make your goals as concrete as possible, then translate them into visual elements. I know some people who wanted to get into particular universities, who have Photoshopped their names onto acceptance letters and pinned those to their corkboards. As stupid as that may sound in retrospect, I reckon it's an elaborate way of claiming something that's right within your reach.

Design it any way you want | Don't feel pressured to make it look like it's worthy to be on someone else's Pinterest because that's exactly how you lose sight of why you're doing it in the first place. The only person your final output has to resonate with is you.

Don't get discouraged | Although a vision board can attract positive energy and manifest your intentions to the universe, one thing it isn't capable of doing is granting your wishes in an instant. Don't be upset if what you have cut out and stuck on has yet to happen: I truly believe in the saying that the more you look for something, the more it seems to avoid you. Instead, continue to work hard and focus on the progress that you have already made.

Have you made a vision board of your own already? How has it turned out, and how many of the things you had put up have come true? I know you may be a complete stranger from the other side of the world but I'd be happy to hear from you anyway! Wishing you love and light always, especially during trying times such as this. Wash your hands, pray for our frontliners, and check your privilege!

#recs #personal #quarantingz #angeltriestoblog #vision board #goal setting

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minami97 · 5 years

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Princess Freya - Loki x Reader

A/N: My finals and May-Aug Semester id FINALLY OVER I AM A FREE PERSON. This is the final installment of my Loki and Children miniseries. In this part, the time jump is 2 years into the future. If you want a prequel story to this entire series, don’t be shy to inbox me about it. I shall work on the requests next ~

Part 1 and Part 2 <---- Read them here Masterlist Right here

Y/n had been sick for weeks since the last party Tony unnecessarily threw to celebrate Peter’s inauguration of joining the Avengers. Natasha noticed how sickly she looked; Loki was not around to console his lady love so Nat involuntarily became her caretaker.

“Do you need to go to the med bay?” Natasha asked while leaning at the door of the toilet.

“No. I do not need to go to the med bay. It’s probably some bad seafood I ate from Tony’s party for Peter.” Y/n replied with a sluggish voice as she threw up in the toilet.

“I’ll call your sister, she may be able to help.”

“Please don’t disturb Jenna.” “She’s Bu-” Before the h/c woman could continue, she puked into the toilet bowl for the Nth time.

“Yeah… I’m calling Jenna.” Natasha replied while typing Jenna’s number on her phone.

-Somewhere in Queens-

“What’s up Natasha, did something happen to Y/n?” Jenna answered her call.

‘Y/n had been sick for weeks and she refused to go to the med bay for a check up.’

“I’ll be at Manhattan by evening with Jesse.” She hung up on Natasha and went down to the pharmacy to buy all the pregnancy tests she could find.

-Back to the Avengers Tower-

“For the last damn time Nat, I’m not really sick!” Y/n shouted from the toilet bowl that she was vomiting from.

“Yeah, keep denying that. You’ve been by the toilet bowl for the whole day.” “And. I’ve already called Jenna, she’s coming here by evening.”

Y/n had been vomiting what she ate back into the toilet; Nat made Steve to buy liquid food for Y/n.

“Where is Loki? Isn’t it his job to take care of you?” Natasha grumbled as she gently patted the back of the hurling h/c woman.

“He’s in Asgard with Thor.” Y/n replied.

"Wow… such a gentleman." Natasha sarcastically replied.

By evening, Jenna and Jesse arrived at the tower. Natasha brought her to see Y/N who have not left the toilet the entire day.

"Nat, take Jesse to play with Steve. I need to be alone with my sister." Jenna calmly told her.

"C'mon little guy. Let's go make fun of uncle Steve. " Nat took Jesse's hand and led him to the living room.

Once they were out of sight, Jenna handed her a bag full of instant pregnancy tests.

"Jen… I assure you, I am not pregnant." Y/n told her sister with a disbelief tone.

"Do the test and then we will talk." Jenna told her sister with a nonchalant tone.

Ten minutes passed, Y/n came out of the toilet holding a test that indicates a positive sign.

"Jen… I am pregnant." She let out a squeak.

The older L/n pulled her sister in a tight embrace, “You’ll be a great mom, Seeing how you interacted with Jesse.”

“Who is the father though? Please don’t tell me it’s Tony.” “I’ll kill him if it is.”

“Jenna. I assure you, it is not Tony." She calmly assured her sister.

“who is the father then?” “It's... Loki.”

There was a loud thud of a hammer making impact on the floor; both of them turned their heads toward the source of the noise. Y/n had a horrified look on her face.

“Thor! Get back here!” She called out to her future brother-in-law.

The Asgardian ignored the distressed calling of y/n and skedaddled to where his friends were at.

"Let's just pray he didn't break the news before you." Jenna spoke with a surprised tone.

-With the others and Jesse-

“Why is Jesse here? It's not Winter break yet.” Tony asked as he observed the 7-year-old.

“Jenna brought him over. Y/n had been sick lately.” Nat replied with a casual shrug.

Everyone got invested with the statement Nat gave; before Steve could ask for more information, Thor ran in with the dumbest grin he had.

“Friends! I have discovered something!” Thor excitedly exclaimed.

“Did you discover how to travel from here to Asgard without ruining the patio?” Tony asked sarcastically.

“No, not that. It’s about lady y/n!” He replied with a toothy grin.

“Thor, may I warn you if you spread something false about Y/n. I will hurt you without hesitation.” Loki warned.

“It’s nothing false brother. It’s good news.” Thor replied.

“Do tell pointbreak. I’m curious. We all are.” Tony chimed in with sheer curiosity.

“She’s…” “Thor! Don’t you dare!” Jenna shouted at the blonde oaf.

“What the fuck is wrong with Y/n?” Tony screamed in frustration.

“Language. There is a child present.” Steve shot back with his signature catchphrase.

Everyone started arguing, Jesse was still minding his own business with his new toy set that Tony got for him. The argument got louder and it irritated both Y/n and Jenna; the younger L/n looked over to her sister for the approval to break the news. Jenna nodded her head to stop the ongoing argument.

“If you guys want to know so badly… FINE! I’M PREGNANT! You guys happy now?!” Y/n shouted which cause everyone to be completely silent.

“So… Who did you fuck?” “TONY!” “LANGUAGE!” “THERE IS A CHILD HERE!”

“He is the love of my life.” Y/n replied.

“Darling, do you mind if we talk in private?” Loki asked.

“Oh sure. We’ll go to my room, so none of them could interrupt us.” She replied with a smile.

After both Loki and Y/n left to discuss the big news drop, the rest went on meeting mode while multitasking on making sure Jesse did not get hurt or touched something he should not touch.

“Shall we plan a baby shower or wedding first?” Tony asked without hesitation.

“Baby shower? I’m pretty sure Thor wants to plan the wedding.” Natasha replied while glancing at a really happy Thor.

“Let’s not make it a really big baby shower. Will have it just all of us.” Jenna suggested.

“Of course. I’ll handle that. No media, no paparazzi.” Tony replied with a grin.

Everyone was throwing suggestions here and there, Thor wandered off to find his brother and future sister in law.

-Loki and Y/n-

“Darling, you’re pregnant? When?” Loki asked as he placed his hand on her stomach.

“It was around Peter’s inauguration party. We had sex.” She replied with a smile.

“I was planning to tell you after Jenna made me take the test. Thor overheard it …”

Loki watched his lady love and he decided to shut her rambling by kissing her gently, assuring her he was not mad.

“Are we having a boy or a girl?” He asked eagerly.

“I don’t know yet. We should have a doctor’s appointment to have a consultation.” She replied Loki hummed softly.

“Shall we look up on names?” Loki asked while caressing her stomach.

“I am thinking Freya or Frea if we’re having a girl. Sigurd or Fenrir if we’re having a boy. Although Sigurd is a better name.” She rambled, Loki just looked at her with pure love and affection.

Unbeknownst to the lovers; Thor eavesdropped on their conversations while letting out a small smile knowing Loki would be a good father. While the first nine months of Y/n’s pregnancy was hell for Loki as she had all the weirdest cravings at midnight and eats the weirdest food combination ever.

“Love, are you sure you want mango slices drizzled with chocolate? Cause that is the most absurd thing I’ve heard.” Loki asked while giving Y/n a weird look.

“Yes. Our child wants it, so please go get them.” She begged.

Loki gave in and went to get the food she requested; everyone at the tower was competing to be the godparent of the unborn infant. It was amusing for Y/n to watch her friends trying to one-up another.

“Sooooooooo, Who’s gonna be the godparent of your little spawn?’ Tony asked as he slid in to sit next to Y/n.

“I’m not telling you. And, my child is not a spawn mind you.” She replied.

While Jenna and Thor came to the terms that both of them will be an equal leveled uncle and aunt to their unborn niece or nephew. Which we all know Thor would try to one-up Jenna in that sense. As for Jesse, he’ll be the big brother to his younger cousin.

-Timeskip, 9th month of pregnancy-

Y/n was sitting comfortably on the couch reading on Norse Mythology until she felt water leaking from her lady parts and screamed on top of her lungs, “THE BABY IS COMING! OH MY GOD!”

Everyone dropped their things and transported Y/n to the hospital; Natasha was tasked to contact Loki and Thor however, they were out of reach.

“Of all days, it had to be today.” Nat grumbled.

Steve contacted Jenna was staying in Queens and was on her way uptown with both Peter and Jesse on board. At the hospital, Y/n was rushed to the delivery room to be in labor. On Nat’s side after multiple ways on trying to get in touch which both Loki and Thor; she managed to contact them.

“Y/n’s is having the baby. Both of you better get your asses to the hospital!”

Both Loki and Thor made it to the hospital and saw everyone there; Tony ushered Loki to the delivery room.

“He’s the fiance of Y/n.” Tony told the nurse.

The nurse let Loki into the room after sterilizing him; Y/n was in intense labor. She reached out to his hand and gripped it like her life depends on it.

“Push Ms. L/n.” The doctor instructed her.

“I’m not letting you getting me pregnant ever again!” She hissed.

Several hours later of pain and lots of screaming; Y/n gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Both Loki and her were content.

“Little Freya. Welcome to the world.” She whispered while giving her forehead a small kiss.

“Do you want to hold our little Freya?” She asked him.

“Can I?” He asked.

The nurse took Freya from Y/n gently and placed the newborn in the arms of her father. Once Freya was in the arms of her father, she lets out a small gurgle acknowledging her father.

“My beautiful princess.” He whispered softly with a content smile on his face.

Y/n was moved to the normal ward, everyone was there anticipating the newborn.

“Is it a prince or a princess?” Tony asked curiously.

“A Princess.” Both of them replied.

“You owe me money Tony.” Natasha gleefully declared.

The nurse brought in Freya in her small bed; everyone fawned over the little babe. Jesse was being the protective big brother trying to keep everyone in line to see his little cousin sister.

“What’s her name?” Thor asked.

“Freya. Freya Lokidottir.” Loki replied.

“Well, Princess Freya’s going to get spoiled by her loving parents, aunts, and uncles.” Tony joked.

The little infant let out a snorting noise to acknowledge Tony’s statement that made everyone let out a laugh.

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Extra Ending

“If any boys her age wanted to court her, they’ll have to go through me.” Loki grumbled.

“Oh please, that’s like another 10 years down the line. Let her grow up normally first.” Y/n retorted.

“Love, I’ve seen you in your worst state because of men who aren’t me. I want the best for my princess.”

“Will discuss this again once she turns 13. For now, let her grow up happy and healthy.” She reasoned.

Freya let out a whine agreeing with her mother; which made Loki sigh in defeat.

“Once she turns 13.” He mumbled.

#Loki Laufeyson #loki (marvel)#loki fanfic #loki x reader #loki x you #loki imagine #loki laufeyson x you #loki laufeyson x reader #loki laufeyson imagine #marvel imagine #marvel x reader #tom hiddleston #tom hiddleston x reader #tom hiddleston imagine #tom hiddleston x you

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rottenwoodandwiltedsunflowers · 5 years

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Waffle and Kae Joint Recap 8/16

Hello Tumblr! We still exist! Children are hard for free time...amiright? GET READY FOR AN ACTUAL RECAP!

Waffle So we both decided that life was far too hard at the moment and it was time to give our child to the wolves for the weekend and run to NYC. (Not really, we dropped her with Gramma and Grandpa and came to down to see Noirtown) As long as we were sneaking away, why not stop by the McKittrick. We flew in Friday afternoon and had a drink at Gallow Green before heading down to queue up. There was a surprise happy hour in the Manderley so we were let in early which is always a pleasant surprise. We found some friends inside to pass the time with before the first elevator was eventually called. I have to say what an adorable and charming pair Elizabeth and Joseph make in the bar. They have great chemistry and are just a joy to watch.

Once inside, I headed to the ballroom which was in mid-scene. It was actually the only ballroom I would see in my 2 shows. Jenna’s Sexy witch did a great job of sucking me in with her creepy and seductive eye contact. I wasn’t sure where I was going to go but by the end of the ballroom, the glances and smirks had me hooked. I followed her up and got a Banquo couch duet all to myself. Jenna’s dancing is next level! This dance easily ranks in my top McKittrick dances. She quickly and gracefully disappeared behind the couch. The dance is breathtaking when done well and Jenna seemed to float through the air at every lift. When she was coming down from the bookshelf for the final kiss, she planted her foot on the couch in a way that was strong and invoked thoughts of a wild animal pouncing on her prey. She still clearly commanded the scene and Jack’s Banquo looked dopey and fooled until the final kiss.

The crowds have certainly gotten bolder and pushier the last few years. I would wager that some of it is what I refer to as the Shanghai effect. The cultural norms in Shanghai are much different than in New York. Personal space and following distances are much closer and fan culture is much more intense. The crowds certainly seem more aggressive then I remember years ago. Two shorter girls pushed in front of me when we all entered Agnes’ apartment and to be honest, I am years past the stage where I will push back at all or even stand my ground aggressively. The performers recognize people and know who is around most of the time. Sometimes that results in those people getting a 1:1 and sometimes it doesn’t. Either way, I am not in a place where I need a 1:1 to feel good about my show.

Jenna reached between the 2 and grabbed my hand to pull me in. The first half of the 1:1 was great but we hit a snag when we had a set malfunction which resulted in her not being able to open the proper door to exit Agnes’ apartment. It wasn’t for lack of trying! She gave me the jellybean before taking my hand and escorting me out to the entryway and back to High street. We watched Pil’s Fulton through the window for a while before he pulled open the door to the autopsy room. I wish I could have seen his face when there was no sexy witch waiting for him. She waited until he came back into the main office before forcefully pushing the door open and standing menacingly in the doorway. She backed Fulton up into the bookshelf behind his desk and proceeded to harass him. She retrieved what she needed then tossed Fulton onto High Street. Jenna’s bartop solo was also great like literally everything she does.

I didn’t feel like seeing the banquet so I headed up to 5. I love me a matron. I really love me a matron that is able to surprise me. I was delighted to find Ginger Kearns’ matron. The matron played a fun little game where she brought out a hand mirror and used it to watch me as I watched her. I love new, weird matron shit! I also love watching how people come and go. It’s oddly comforting watching other guests and pattens in the hotel. How there can be a mob of people and when you look up 30 seconds later, you are alone in a forest.

Tori’s Hecate is a powerhouse. She still unnerves me. She is in control of every moment that happens in the rep bar. She has a signature look she gives Agnes when she comes in looking for help. She smirks, quirks her eyebrow, and leans back in her chair sizing Agnes up. This Hecate is playing the long game and she is having the best time doing it.

I was very disappointed to find there were no red licorice bites in Paisley’s Sweet Shop. I begrudgingly settled for a fruit slice.

The other standout of the show for me was Doug’s Speakeasy. I like my speakeasy one of two ways...either a total jerk or fun and carefree. I want a puppy who either pisses in your shoe every time you come home 5 minutes late or I want the bestest boy ever! I used to call Nick Dillenburg Toolbox Speakeasy because his speakeasy was like a toolbag except also, the whole damn toolbox. I loved it. Doug’s speakeasy is mischievous and funny and adorable. He is a good boy. A loyal servant and a fun speakeasy. He did the most delightful little dance I have seen in ages during his downtime. I LOVED IT!!! He leaned back over his bar and did a little flip/roll to the other side at the start of it. Utterly charming! He also gets points for his cute little tap like dance on the pool table.

Once again, I hung back when it was time to do the shot game but he summoned me forward. I love watching the different variations on the game from performer to performer. He started with the 3 shots before laying out the cards face down. He made a show of flipping them until all the red Kings were facing up and only one card closest to us remained hidden. When he flipped it, it was a black King. He shuffled the cards before smirking and crouching down to continue shuffling while making noises consistent to hacking up a lung, presumably on said cards. I couldn’t help but laugh out loud at the ridiculous/disgusting nature of it. He came up and we all drew cards. The first person revealed a red King. Doug held out the shot and just before the person could reach it, he sent it flying over his shoulder into the wall behind him. The second person revealed a red King. Doug once again held out the shot and as the person reached for it, he slowly poured it out over the edge of the bar (probably on the white masks shoes). I revealed a red King. He held out the glass and as I reached for it, he drank it himself.

At this point, he pulled out the box with the whiskey shot. He slowly opened the top and took a big sniff of the contents. We were then invited to do the same. Round two. He narrowed it down to 2 red Kings and the black King. He reshuffled, complete with crouching and coughing. We all drew a card and when we turned them over, the man in the middle had won. He took his shot. Doug took a moment to stare at us all before reaching in and pulling out another shot of whiskey. He then reshuffled and dealt again. We turned over our cards a second time and the same white mask had won again. One game, two shots. Poor dude looked a bit ill by the end of it! We shook hands and the story moved on.

I spent a good amount of time in the bar this show because Elizabeth Lindsay is my absolute favorite. I considered going back in for the finale but in the end, decided that I was having far too much fun chatting which is a new thing for me. I wanted to close out my bar tab before the rush anyway because we had tickets to Bartchland Follies after the show. Would recommend! KaeLyn Hello, weirdos. It’s been a minute, both since we’ve been to the Hotel and since we’ve posted anything remotely resembling a recap. In fact, the formulaic recap era of SNM itself may have passed, as it seems fewer and fewer fandom posts about the show itself are being posted to the hashtag.

Also, I feel compelled to drop an explainer that we have some questions piled up in our inbox and I just want to say that we do see them and appreciate them, even if we don’t reply. Most likely if we haven't replied it’s because someone else either gets to them first (if, as it often seems, anons are sending those same questions to several old SNM tumblrs at once) or we just don’t see them for a long time because we don’t log in as much and it seems silly by the time we read them. Of course, sometimes we’re just not going to answer on principle (spoilers, rude, etc.). We are still here, queer, going to shows every few months when we can ditch our toddler for a weekend. You’re also likely to catch us at Mayfair or Halloween (Inferno VI? lol). Anyway, our flight home is delayed and we thought it’d be fun to attempt recaps while we were waiting. I imagine mine will come first because I have less to report and, well, Waffle’s recaps have always been more detailed than mine! On Friday, we checked into our hotel and set out to get a leisurely dinner at Ovest, always a good start to a long night in the Hotel. We arrived to the McKittrick around 6:00 PM for a quick drink at Gallow Green, then queued up at 6:30 PM, which I thought was aggressively too early for a 7:30 show, but lucky us–there was a happy hour! Apparently, a thing that’s happening on weekdays? So we were among the first to arrive at the bar, where we unexpectedly ran into some friendly faces from the fandom. One had snagged the corner booth already with some friends. The childfree weekend was off to a great start! It was only made better when Elizabeth (Virginia) showed up and surprised Waffle with a shoulder squeeze.

I rarely full loop these days. Especially after I passed the 100 show mark earlier this year, I have a very chill relationship with Sleep No More. I still look forward to each return, but each show is a slower burn for me and you won’t catch me running up and down the stairs. More often than not, I end up in the bar before the finale. It’s like catching up with an old friend. I find out what’s new. I reminisce on some favorite stories. I settle into a familiar pattern.

This particular night, I started at the ballroom because FOMO-motivated habits are hard to break. The night was kind of a greatest hits list, honestly, and I wish I could tell you I spent time with people I hadn’t watched before or picked up some stuff I hadn’t yet seen (like Doug’s speakeasy), but that’s not what happened. I stayed to watch Stephanie C’s bald witch (f*ck yes) and popped up to catch Nate’s boy witch at the phone booths on his way up to the pool table dance. (Maybe it’s my particular age showing, but Nate looks more like a member of a pop punk band that I definitely saw at Warped Tour in the late 90’s than Draco Malfoy to me. Either way, it works!)

So, I haven’t been lately and I just have to say that the Nick-Jenna-Stephanie witch trio is A+. Best witch coven energy I’ve seen in a while!I caught the first rave, standing near Tori’s Hecate to catch a bit of everyone’s performance (while the crowd was still light enough that I could also see the prophecy even at a distance). I popped up to five for a bit, which was obviously recently cleaned and freshened up. I actually did a full loop ballroom-to-ballroom with Parker’s porter. Then, I came out to the bar for a drink and chatted with folks out there for the duration of the show.

It was a standard McKittrick re-entry show for me, after a few months away, an all-around solid cast and show. We slid out at the end of the night to go up for the Bartschland Follies (which was superb and sexy and silly and so rad and fun and also had far more straight people who looked slightly scandalized front-and-center in the audience than I anticipated).

#sleep no more #snm recap #mckittrick hotel

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heytheregreeneyes · 4 years

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How come you gave up on 'Something Just Like This'? I loved that fic

So here’s the thing...

I haven’t given up on Something Just Like This. I actually still love that fic dearly and very much intend to finish it (and I need to do it soon before Tyler steals all of my ideas like he did with Jenna’s pregnancy reveal *shakes fist at Tyler*).

As you all know, this past year I hadn’t felt much like writing and I couldn’t figure out why... until the other night at work. I was sitting at my desk, staring off into space and thinking about dialogue for the current chapter when it hit me like a freight train why I haven’t been writing. I had had an epiphany!

My eyes literally got wide as I sat straight up, gasped and literally said “Oh my God,” out loud. It was so obvious, I couldn’t believe I hadn’t thought of it before. And the first thing I did was text @ohfrickfanfic (who agrees with me), even tho it was somewhere around 3:25 in the morning. So if you wanna hear the story behind the fic, buckle in kids, cause it’s gonna be a long one, and it’s gonna get deep.

So as you all know, I started writing Something Just Like This in July of 2017. I was 4 months pregnant with my 3rd surrobaby, who was due in December on Christmas Eve. I was writing as fast as my fingers could fly and was banging out chapters probably once a week. Sometimes twice.

December 12, 2017 - SURROBABY IS BORN! After this, chapters obviously slowed down so that I could pump milk and get my life back to somewhat normal again.

Six months later, in June of 2018, I finally reached the end of my six-month contract for pumping breastmilk for Surrobaby #3 and I started working at my current job at the hospital. I am a CNA and it just so happens that this hospital is where all the surrogate babies were born IRL. I have been super lucky and I now work in that very department, which is where I have wanted to work all my life! Serious life goals, guys. But as you all know, nurses work insane shifts and long hours. I work overnights, 13 hours at a time, and so writing slowed down even more since I was now working my first job outside of the home in about 9 years. For the next few months, chapters are still being posted, but much more slowly.

Things are moving along great... I’m still writing, albeit a bit more slowly, but chapters are still being posted

April 2018 comes and my grandpa dies... my emotions took a huge hit. I had grown up very close to my grandpa and I couldn’t write happy things when I was in such a sad place. It was rough.

Writing slows even more over the summer, but I am still writing, still posting, still planning, still rough drafting, still plotting scenes, and still writing dialogue.

September 2, 2018 - I meet HIM. I don’t want to give out his real name, so we’ll just call him William. I will never ever forget that night. I wasn’t even supposed to be at work that night; it was my night off but they had sent out a text that they needed help, so I picked up an extra shift. Around midnight I got a call that they needed me to pass off my patients so that I could go down to the ER and be a 1:1 for a patient suffering a panic attack. I gather up my things, head down to the ER, get my assignment, go to his room, and...

That was that. He had been sobbing and when he looked up and saw me, he suddenly took one last big breath and stopped crying. He calmed. We got to talking over the course of the night and it was like we had known each other for millennia. We were immediately comfortable with each other, had each other's sense of humor, shared similar life experiences, you name it. This was the night I met my best friend.

He was still hardcore in the middle of a panic attack and didn’t like to be touched, but somehow I was allowed to touch. He openly admits to how much he despises hospitals and no one was allowed in the room, but somehow was calm when I was there. Do you believe in fate? Cause I do.

A week goes by and we now are either talking/texting/video chatting/instant messaging all day and all night, about anything and everything. Our phone calls go on for HOURS and often would end up talking all through the night. Turns out that he has severe anxiety and hasn’t left his house in over two years. Neither of us could believe how quickly we connected and bonded, but the new friendship was a blessing for him and me both. Because of his anxiety and tendency to call/text/message me if a panic attack hit, he earned his own ringtone, text notification sound, and custom volume so that if he called or texted in the middle of the night, or if I was out in a busy area, it would wake me up or ring loud enough so that I could stop and answer.

September 18, 2018 - Two weeks after meeting William, my world gets turned upside down. I lose my mom. She was only 52 years old and died very unexpectedly from sudden liver death. I was DEVASTATED. William was there for me throughout the whole thing, something I didn’t expect since we had just met barely two weeks earlier. In fact, one of the last things my mom ever said to me was “make sure you take care of that sweet boy”. I’ll never forget it.

After my mom died I didn’t feel like writing for a long time. Again, it’s hard to write happy things when you feel so sad and shocked.

So this past year goes by and things level to a norm. William’s depression and anxiety waxes and wanes. We’d hang out in person at his house sometimes, mostly just making fun of each other and enjoying each other’s company. We still talk and text multiple times every day, and had gotten into a habit of sleeping while on the phone.

Then mid-October this year, something changed. We still do all of our normal stuff but he had started to say that he hated not being able to leave his house, hated the way he felt, hated not being able to do stuff, felt like a failure and a coward, etc. All things he has said before, but this time was just hitting him so much worse.

The night of October 22nd is when things really changed. To me, that’s the day I had breast reduction surgery, but that’s also the day communication between us stopped. He stopped calling, he stopped texting, we no longer messaged or chatted on discord... He was gone.

Let me tell you that this felt exactly like another death. How could I lose someone I was so close to? Did I say something wrong, did I do something wrong, did I make him feel bad, did I scare him somehow... all these questions were running thru my head, constantly, throughout the days.

One night I texted him that we needed to talk so he called and sort of, got onto me. He said that I did nothing wrong, that I didn’t say or do anything, that he just couldn’t handle things very well at the moment and he would see texts but just didn’t have it in him to reply. He lacked the energy to call and carry on a conversation. didn’t want to do anything but be by himself. He told me that he loves me and that he misses me, but this is just how it gets sometimes. it just be like that.

I understood. Depression fucking sucks and it just sucks the soul right out of you sometimes. I was there for him but right now, he just needed alone time... something he hadn’t required in over a year... and something I definitely was not used to.

So there I sit this past Saturday night at work, thinking about my fic and writing dialogue in my head like I had been the last few weeks when it hits me.

‘Oh my God,’ I thought to myself. ‘I just figured out why I write fic and why I had stopped for a bit... until now.’

IT FILLS A HOLE OF LONELINESS AND LONGING!

I texted @ohfrickfanfic and she replied, “you were lacking male attention so you made up for it by writing fic but then you met William and he filled the void but now he’s not giving you as much attention so you feel you need to fill that void again.”

I’ll be damned if she’s not 100% right. I had love. I had someone who loved me, someone who genuinely cared about me and for me, asked how I was, loved my family, wanted to know what I was up to, took interest in my life, valued my opinions, asked my advice and took it to heart, called me his, called me pet names, gave me hugs and kissed my forehead.

When it suddenly stopped, ngl I cried quite a few times. I was heartbroken. I went into my own depression and that is when I got the want to start writing again. I’ve always wanted to write and finish SJLT, but now the urge is there.

Things are slowly getting better. He calls every now and then... more often all the time. He teases me and texts sometimes and sends me messages on snapchat, just not NEARLY as often as before. It’s been over a month since I’ve seen his face and I hate it, but I can see my best friend slowly coming back to life. It’s tough because I miss him so fucking much, but he’s coming around and trying to battle his anxiety.

As far as the fic goes, I NEVER gave up on Something Just Like This and it WILL be a finished fic if it kills me. As it stands now, there are only about 3-4 more chapters to go before the fic is finished, and I would like to get it out before the new year... again, before Tyler Joseph steals all of my ideas that I’ve had planned for Josh for over two years. *shakes another fist at Tyler*

I really do appreciate all of you sticking with me and the fic for this long. Allowing me to grieve the loss of my loved ones and asking for updates on the fic... it lets me know that you like it and that my work is wanted.

I won’t let you down.

#something just like this #fanfiction #fanfic #josh dun x reader #encoreo #reader-insert #reader insert #fan fiction #depression #anxiety #about me #update

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lyouna · 5 years

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Tyler and his love for his fans

On the Thank You Note of Trench album, he said ” To our fans, thank you for letting me disappear and come back when I need to. You guys mean so much to me on a level that is difficult to explain.”

Tyler is surely one of the most talented and nice people I’ve known. He always seems to care about each one of us and make sure we all doing great.

On May 2013 he posted a picture of him held by tens of fans on Instagram with this description “|My-clique/> yours”

In February 2014 he thanks his clique if feel local everywhere “Feeling like a løcal band in Europe. Favorite kind of shows. Still missing home. UK up next. Stay løcal.”

In April he posted a picture of him kneeling in front of little a girl and taking a piece of paper that she was tending him “she drew me a picture.”

On July, 8 of 2014 he posted of him and the beautiful Jenna Black (at that time) “:.:She said yes:.: I want to share ans celebrate this with all of you right now. How public or private should this be? Well, you guys deserve to see where you have taken me and I like sharing with you who I am. Who we are. We’ve always felt an overwhelming support from all of you and we can’t wait to take this next step together…and yes, that was the most nervous I had never been.”

On October 2014 he posted a picture of 24 clikkies “:.:mutant•kids:.:

On December 2014, a photo of a clikkies tag”:.:clique•art:..i seewhatyou create”

On April 2015, he tweeted about Blurryface Album telling them to “wait until your hear everything”. Few minutes later, he tweeted ” phone corrected ‘until’ to ‘unlit’ for a second, and now i’ll use that word to describe things that are great. twitter game unlit right now”.

And after that, he starts using his new word in a lot of his tweets.

He started by using that word towards one of the person he loves the most on earth, “josh is unlit“, and after that, he used that word to qualifies a lot of his shows and by it giving love to his fans.

He also posts on Insatagram “clique••art:. stay unlit, keep creating” And he posted a lot of clikkies’ art.

He always seems very thankful for everything and thanking everyone for it. ” thank you, my friends. all of you.” Later he addressed to his fans” couldn’t survive without you, friends. will you still be here on the 19th? need to lean on you that day, friends.”

I try to make everyone sure that they get noticed by him “i see you all; in one fashion or another; so thank you, my friends; my peers;” / “it breaks my heart to see that Not posting would lead some of you to believe that i do not Love and Support you. that is simply not true. any day when love defeat hate, you can know i am celebrating, just maybe not on twitter. as for the silence: through personal experience, i want to create and influence something that might help others navigate through the battlefield that is the brain. and for those who understand that terminology, you know what battle i am talking about. but while at this mental ground zero, i have found that any other influence added on, no matter how noble, becomes to heavy for me to carry. i am not strong enough. be patient with me as i grow, that some day i might be able to carry more weight. but for now, i write what i know. both josh and i mean this, with Love and Support, .tyler”

On July 2015, he said ” you all have become so important to us. thank you. now go on, git. you gon make me cry now.”

On August of that same year, he continued “my frens i appreciate you all so much. i use music. you use music. thank you for letting me be a part of that with you.” On Instagram “:newfrens:__|__:øldfens: cometogethernow”

On September, he said “gangsters don’t let their gangster frens cry but my frens and i cry all the time. bye.”

On November, he thanked his fans for making a video for his anniversary “saw the video some of you guys put together for my day of birth. got me all misty. thank you for making me feel. all you, i like all you.::” ” thank you all for the bday weesh’s my frens. now go create.” On Instagram “the German clique always puts on amazing shows. hate that i can’t be with them these next few nights. we’ll be back very soon, i promise. dang, this photo makes me all emotional roadshow.” / ” love getting clique:art at shows, especially when it creeps me out a little. took a close up of this one on my phone. sorry I didn’t catch who to credit.”

On December he posted a clique art on Instagram “i see what you guys create and it convinces me i should keep creating too. you have no idea.”

On the last day of 2015, he thanks his fans to made what he hope for possible “2thousand5teen the year i fell asleep and had one long dream. thank you |-/ “

He also said, “i wish i could have a real conversation with all of you individually.“

“and if you or someone near you needs out of the pit for an emergency, hold up your hand and point down at them. i’ll stop the show for you.“

” just drove slowly past the entire line for our show today. i’ve fallen for you guys. each one of you.“

On February 2016, he posted a photo of him “shows in europe:.:can’t wait to see you frens”

On August “i will never forget this tour. the first installment of the emøtiønal røadshow will forever be a part of who i am as an artist, a friend, a performer, a fan. you guys know how to put on a show. so if you watched from a distance, checked in online or helped hold us up in the pit: thank you. because we are “famous” now we have to do all kinds of interviews with random people but the thing that those people always ask us about is you guys. it’s my favorite type of question because i love to brag about you. i know i may have been distant online recently but i can only take that kind of break to focus on doing shows because i know you guys always hold it down, keep the fire burning, keep tending to that flame. if you guys continue to look out for each other, support each other’s art, and stay together you’ll be unstoppable. and the distance is just a season. more shows to come, more songs to write. only for you guys. |-/“

The clikkies did again a video for his birthday in 2016 and he replied” if you hurt any of these people i will hurt you. thank you frens. so much. |-/”

” . you deserve more than a :thank:you: my frens. the ones who hold this thing up. i brace for the fall but you keep on holding. . “

On February,14 of 2017 he posted 3 times, one for Jenna, one for Josh and one for us” and to you. Happy Valentine’s Day. lets all date.“

On October 2018 he said ” ok im out. i should get on here more. first show of the bandito tour tomorrow in nashville. i like you guys.” / “TRENCH ||-// out now:: tell some people you know, if you can. and if you already spread the news, thank you my fren:: josh was up all night calling everyone in his contacts” In November “hit me hard last night, where we came from, how this started. playing last night in phoenix was a perfect representation of that. thank you, frens. |-/ “

On December “you all are so weird” “and i love every bit of it thank you for making this birthday great/weird and, you know what, happy birthday to all of you, whenever that may be. because when that day truly comes around, i won’t really care that much”

“the bandito tour is very special to me, including any of you who made it to the show this year. thank you. things get quiet around this time, and i’m reminded why i write so much about the lack of sound. it’s deafening. all of the questions. is what i’m doing any good. this last album, was it good enough, what’s the point. i hate typing them out, which might be why i refuse to grant them any punctuation. but then i’m reminded of the show and the people who come. this odd theatrical convention we have landed on as a species, a concert, is somehow healing and protecting, boosting the immune system of the psyche. maybe it’s the ethereal sensation of hearing you all singing in unison, or its the natural warmth of the collective body heat from the pit billowing toward me. whatever t is, i’ve learned it can be harnessed and preserved so that the echoes of its effects can be tapped in to when needed. kneeling down in front of you during the show, i’m collecting. and now as i type this out i’m unpacking, to combat those questions that show up in the quietest of places. feels silly just saying”thank you for coming to the show” so i thought i’d explain it a little. see you at the next one |-“

I hope I made you believe that Tyler loves you because he truly does. He isn’t a singer who doesn’t care about his fans, he does love us. He wants us to stay alive, it’s not some jokes that people told because they think it would make you feel better, it’s the reality. If he learns you didn’t stay alive, it would devastate him.

Stay Alive frens ||-//

#tyler #tyler joseph #twenty one pilots #twenty øne piløts #top #21 piløts #21 pilots #frens #love #fans #fan

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PLL: Comparing/Differentiating the ‘A’ Reveals

Over the course of 7 seasons, Pretty Little Liars presented us with turns, twists, and revelations galore; all resulting in the form of 3 major A reveals throughout the shows juncture. While there’s been a myriad of differing opinions on each A and their motivations and overall storylines, each one provided a completely unique contribution to the show and a different kind of twist each and every time.

I’m going to break down each A reveal, and go into the depths of their particular strengths and weaknesses; what worked and what didn’t work; and my overall stance of each one. Mona, Charlotte, and Alex each had their own individual reasons for tormenting the girls and ‘playing the A game.’ If there is one commonality among the three, is that the game was an addiction that none of them were able to resist once the opportunity presented itself. So alas, let’s explore!

Original ‘A’: Mona Vanderwaal

There is no doubt that Mona stole our hearts as the original ‘A’ of Pretty Little Liars. It was her genius and motivation that propelled so much of what was to come on the series, all stemming from her motive to punish the Liars for the torment she endured under the PLLs queen bee, Alison, as the rest stood by and watched it happen. Not only did they watch, but ultimately they let it happen. By the time ‘Alisons’ body was discovered and the Liars were reconnecting, Mona picked her ‘A’ persona back up in order to break the girls apart, in fear of Hanna being taken away from her.

What worked: one of my favorite parts of Mona’s storyline of being the shows first A was the genuine feeling of a betrayal to both the audience and the Liars, something that was severely lacking in the following A reveals. We felt the betrayal just from the look on Hanna’s face as she discovered her best friend was the masked villain under the black hoodie who had been stalking and tormenting them throughout their junior year. You feel the emotions as the girls all huddle together in tears after Mona has just fallen off the cliff, in an attempt to recruit Spencer on the A Team goes awry. All in all, we FELT this reveal. Mona was a character who had been established from the shows pilot, and was someone’s journey we cared about. We were able to form a connection to her, and held stock in where the story took her, thus we felt just as betrayed as the Liars.

What didn’t work: while it’s liked in some ways, it most be noted that while Mona’s reveal succeeded in The Who and the why, it lacked on backstory and exploring the history of how she became A in the first place. We weren’t given flashbacks into the moments Mona had enough of Ali’s torture, and decided to take matters into her own hands. She didn’t have the intricate back stories of Charlotte, nor the long awaited twin shock that Alex Drake gave us. Mona wasn’t rooted in the deeper mythology of the show, nor connected to the Dilaurentis or Hastings family, where the true heart of all the drama began.

Alas, Mona will always be known as the instigator of the ‘A’ saga, and was first to wear the famous black hoodie. And let’s be honest, she rocked it quite well. Without her introduction as ‘A,’ there would have been no one for Charlotte to steal the game from, and then no death of Charlotte to then lead into A.D avenging her. It all began with Mona, so even without all of the intricate plot points that the other reveals had that she lacked, Mona made up for it with the simplicity of being the classic who of it all.

2) ‘Big A’ : CeCe/Charles/Charlotte

The triple name in itself shows the dynamic complexity of this character, and all of the depth that comes along with understanding the backstory, motives, and mythology of this person. When I think of CeCe, an enigma is what comes to mind. She had this allure from the first moment that she appeared on our screens. Sasha had it right when explaining in an interview before 6x10 premiered that this ‘A’ was someone who we had seen enough, but they weren’t around all the time either. They achieved the perfect balance with her scheduling, and the timing of her appearances and mentions on the show. This furthered the enigma quality of this person being so seemingly omnipresent.

What worked: Charlotte came into the show knowing everyone, and everything about them. She somehow seemed to connect into all these people, situations, and places, yet we were just now meeting her. Her Alison like persona, and striking energy made it hard to figure her out. Looking back on it, it was obvious what she was doing, but you didn’t know why she was doing it and how. Those answers were to come later, and that always only gave us enough to wanna know more about her. Her backstory was intricate and full of depth, emotion, and tragedy.

What didn’t work: the very thing that made Charlotte’s story work is also what made it not work all at the same time. Big catch 22 there. The trans twist, as shocking as it was, didn’t receive the proper care that it deserved. The death of Charlotte the very next episode only proved this point even more. As well, while her connections to everything and everyone were so important, it also created many holes and gaps in the story that needed to be properly filled in. Because the story went on for 3 1/2 seasons, and connected back to the first two seasons before her arrival, there was lots of tracks to be covered. While I commend the writers for filling in most of it with care, there were still many plot points that were left blurry or completely unattended to altogether. Many timeline and continuity errors ensued as a result. Emotionally connecting to Charlotte was also difficult to do by the time the reveal rolled around, as we weren’t made to connect with her previously on that level. They always kept her on the sidelines to keep that enigma persona up, and while that worked on one hand, it backfired upon the big reveal.

All in all, CeCe was the most dynamic reveal of all, and credit must be given where it’s do in the sense that the writers really did pull that one off. The moment CeCe turned around in that black hoodie, my jaw dropped in disbelief as it came to light she was trans, and had orchestrated all of this madness. The dollhouse was a huge milestone, and this genius of a villain pulled that off. Only in the end, we came to see what led to this damaged soul becoming villain, which made her much more human in my eyes. Even in Charlotte’s death, we continued to delve deeper into her complexity, coming to find she had a secret history with the Drakes, Jenna, Noel, and Archer. Just when you think you know her, we come to realize there’s so much more to her. Sara hit the head on the nail when saying in 6x15: “no one ever really knew all of her - Charlotte. But maybe if we put our pieces together when we can understand things a little better.”

3) ‘A.D’: Alex Drake

A.D, the third and final A of the saga, took us out with a bang, and truly landed somewhere in the middle of the spectrum; thus striking a balance needed for this type of reveal. In choosing Alex, Spencer’s secret twin, the writers gave us a reveal of someone we sort of knew with them being a twin, but not someone who was too close either. The twin twist payed homage to the book series, and thus created an even more dynamic backstory into the history of the Drakes. We learned so much more about the history of these three crazily interconnected families, and tied in loose ends that had been hanging for quite some time. The reveal was shocking, yet to the point. It was connected to the deeper mythology unlike Mona’s reveal, but it wasn’t so rooted like Charlotte’s to the point that you get lost in all the details, thus eliminating continuity errors and gaps in the story.

What worked: Unlike most, I was happy for Alex not to be connected to the pilot or beginning of the show. They tied her back just far enough to intertwine with Charlotte’s story, but not so far back that it confused the plot even more. That night was done and dusted. Much of the fan base was unhappy with the answers they were given, therefore wanted the show to create new answers to already closed cases. This would have been counter productive, and I for one am glad that they steered clear of this. Wrens involvement with this plot, and tying him into the mythology made me so happy. There were so many lingering questions surrounding him, and they really did a job well done at plugging him right into it. It was a completely organic fit.

What didn’t work: I would have preferred to have seen Alex on our screens from at least 6B on. I was pleased that we got flashbacks dating back to 4B-5A, but if we had actually met Alex initially in 6B that would’ve been ideal. We have 5 instances specifically in Season 7 that we can look back on and go “wow, that was Spencer’s twin!” - and while those were so well done, I wanted more of that! Especially since A.D took over the game right after Charlotte’s death. You can tell the writers were scrambling around in 6B with what to do story wise because the network didn’t green light Alex Drake until 6x20.

For the third A, Alex Drake delivered beyond measured. I had my small gripes, but I do feel she was the most fluid story they had presented so far in the A saga that was both rich in mythology and fact based details. It went deeper than the Mona story, but without all the clutter and messiness that Charlotte’s plot brought about. The moment Alex yelled ‘booo!’ on the other side of the glass to Spencer will forever be one of the most iconic PLL scenes! Well done, writers!

#pll #pretty little liars #comparing the A's #cece drake #charlotte #mona #big a #original a #uber a #ad #alex drake

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Roswell New Mexico Live Rewatch - Ep 2 - So Much For The Afterglow

Buckle up bitches here we go!

Rosa and choices. mmm

Truth, so much in the eye of the beholder.

Creepy Max at the cemetary

"it'll be our secret" - "another one"

no kidding

Because you don't want to leave Liz.

Liz still wants to kiss max.

"It's been ten years, you don't know me like you think you do"

The show is many things, subtle is not one of them.

Sorry, chockie bickie break.

"way in to Tolstoy, really nice handwriting for a guy"

Fuck I love that line.

"It's just a kiss, Max"

Liz, Liz, Liz, babe, it is sooo much more than that to poor Maximo

Fuck you Jesse Manes, die in a fire.

Just shut the fuck up.

Seriously, a fucking crash landing is not a "incident of agression" you souless fuck.

Fuck me Trevino's eyes of stunning.

Ah legacies.

The Valenti Code

Kyle, Kyle, Kyle even saying they're alive is uncool dude.

Red Level Threats

Even at this stage Kyle wants to tell Jesse to fuck off.

"Brooding level, teenage girl on a family vacation", No "roadtrip with grandparents"

And this was the line where I started to dig Jenna.

Cause seriously, that is spot on.

Temper, temper Max

Michael and Isobel, this is very, very uncool of you.

And the knife, Michael, very uncalled for.

Now Iz, no slut shaming

TBh, I can't really fault Max for hitting Michael here.

They were threatening Liz

probably, but still super shitty thing to do.

But interesting that the convo indicates that Max getting physical with Michael is out of character.

I don't care, I love the antenna hat. I want one. They should be the official Roswell fan uniform

Arturo is a such a sweety.

It's so sad that Liz thinks Rosa didn't love her.

Arturo advising forgiveness and moving forward. Nice forshadowing

Michael and his cool entries

Michael you cocky bastard.

And Americans should not be allowed to use berets in their military uniforms until they fucking learn to wear them properly.

Fucking just grabs his shirt and leans into this personal space.

But Alex is not having it.

Lips and tongoue

God my poor baby Michael. Deflection to cover his hurt feelings.

And Alex, why Alex? He wants you why push him away?????

"what happened, I was pretty wasted" No you fucking weren't

No Alex, you do NOT get to do a snort of disgust. No, fucking siree

God, Michael face after the santa's workshop comment and Alex walking away. He's so gone for him.

Kyle, I love you.

"mid make out abdondoment was very sophmore year"

He could't so easily have been a douche bag about it, but no, he let's Liz know it's cool between them.

It's not a bruise Kyle. you sneaky bastard

"You can trust me"

see the chemicals that made the bad choices.

"maybe I just need something else to blame" well....

And again with some damn solid and mature advice. You go Kyle.'

"don't focus on the science, focus on the memories" well doesn't that have a double meaning

Izzy and Noah

"Belt buckles as a secret metaphor for emotions"

I think someone needs to do a belt buckle analysis.

"Are you sassing Jesus"

Good one Max

Yeah, and that is such great imagery and really does sum up his character in alot of ways.

Max and his fear of what happens to miracle workers. I think it's easy to underestimate the impact of Max's powers compared to the others. In that his are more obvious and do come with more moral judgement at both their use and non-use.

And here we go with the memories part as forshadowed earlier

Rosa flash backs. They look so happy.

Totally

"if you're done praying or whatever" Don't ever change Jenna

I really need her to come back in S2

I blame Due South for my "shot of cops with great backs in well tailored police uniforms kink" which Max's totally hits as he exits the church.

You know the scene I'm talking about, am I rite?

God, I still hate VV after all these years.

But I digress

Michael and Iz. I love how they are.

Day brooding.

It's not about the job Iz

Hmm I think I'm gonna have to go Liz and Mikey

And now they are going to break my heart again.

Jesus Michael, these little fucking truth bombs he just drops. How the fuck can people not see his pain when he just fucking lays out there all the time?

It' really makes me hate them sometimes.

The foster ranch being the last place he saw his family and then gone - yet another place that felt a little bit like a home taken away from him. And they make jokes.

"maybe, maybe someone would come take me home" fucking hell. Michael

Jenna being a total badass

The way she looks Wyatt in the eye as she shots out the truck tyre!! Gold

Sorta love the way Racist Hank is impressed laughing in the background

Alex in civies!! And Maria!!

And here comes a big bunch of lies that will have big consequences.

Yes he did get kind of hot Maria.

"I hadn't notice" I was going to say that Alex is a lying liar who lies. But really he isn't because he's ALWAYS thought Michael was hot.

"I did it for attention"

Nice slip Max

Maybe but I think Alex is still too in his keep things secret/private headspace

"what night?"

That's the night she died

Ah shit is about to go down...

fake autopsy you say...

murdered by an alien

More truth bombs about to land

We're family - no we're not

He tries to play it off, but it hurt that he got left behind at the group home.

I just want to give him a hug.

Yes, there is someone Michael would risk everything for. And we know who it is

Gods, the longing on Michael's face when he looks at Alex.

I actually think it gets worse every time I see it!!

Seriously, just to solidfy how big a douche bag these guys are. Who beats up Arturo??

And a bit of political commentary

Uh oh. not good for Max. Liz is not a happy camper

Max, what the fuck!

Damn he looks good in the hat

Iz with that damn taser. You go girl!

Little bit hypocritical on the judge and jury thing there Michael.

Pod Squad moment

Who's the guy?

Museum guy

Home can be a person.

Jesus this show is good at ripping my heart out.

Yeah, they are going to have to be very careful how they repair that relationship

Weather metaphors

The handprint faded.

Don't lie max, don't do it.

Annnnnnd there is my men wearing silver bracelets kink, thanks Max

Oh that look Liz gives him. That is NOT a good look.

Please stop, I have no heart left to rip out.

The ship glass is still pretty

Oh god, there is the song starting

And the photo, and his hand

The God of Wine goes crashing..

Fuck, I'm not ready for this.

Everything about the next 2 mins is just aarrrggghhhhhhh!

Alex, baby, no he's not going to Tenessee.

Alex just looks so young and vulnerable in this scene. He looks more like a teenager here than in 1.06

Fuck, here it comes.

"Who I was, when this started, before I went to war"

Confirmation that there was a "this", that it's still something.

Jesus I don't know who does their costuming, makeup and hair but fuck me they need to win an award. Michael just glows.

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.

"I never look away, no really"

fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck

That fraction of a second where Michael thinks Alex is walking a way again.

Such a juxtaposition between Max/Jenna and Michael/Alex. Max looks pained (not in a good way) with Jenna.

But Michael and Alex do not.

Fuck, the way Michael looks like he wants to devour Alex before pushing him on the bed.

And Alex, going for his belt and pants...

And Liz and kyle.

Who did this?

"Even if it was Max Evans"

Well, that was a bit quicker than last week.

And again, we got a jam packed episode with lots of story progress.

Having the story actually move so much from week to week is so rare these days. I love it.

But those last 3 mins. That is some of the best tv

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I really hate Tumblr sometimes. Cause I know there were more appropriate gifs out there to use but this hellsite wouldn’t let me find them.

#roswell new mexico #roswellnm #roswell nm #rewatch-larenoz

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DWTS TOUR REVIEW - RADIO CITY

OK. I apologize that this is about 100 years late lmfao, but LETS JUST JUMP RIGHT INTO IT.

I started the day off at work, which wasn’t as bad as I had anticipated because I felt like I had something to look forward to once my shift was over lol. I went to a bar with a few friends before heading over to radio city because I didn’t wanna go back and forth between my house and manhattan since I was already in the city. I had a few drinks, which is probably why I was so vocal for Jenna (and valenna) cause I’m usually SUPER quite lmfao.

Once I actually met up with my sister and mom it was pretty hectic. There were SO MANY people at the show. I knew it would be intense, but I was really shocked by how packed it was. It was so packed I couldn't even take a pee break before/during/after the show. IT WAS ROUGH. On to more important things tho !!!

So right before the show began it was easy to spot Mama J up towards the front. She’s super tiny in person and was grinning from ear to ear, I can’t imagine the immense pride she must have felt knowing her daughter was about to perform at Radio City (for the third time). Shortly after that I spotted Mama & Papa C strolling down towards their seats while holding hands. Jen’s mom waved at them so happily, it was pretty precious, ngl. There was an “in laws” hug exchanged and then they sat down next to each other.

Sharna was not hard to miss (red hair is easy to spot anywhere). She was sitting towards the front as well. A line for photos began quickly and ended quickly lol. She took a few and then sat down and people just began taking photos of her cause I’m sure she wanted to just chill and watch her friends kill it. No one was being disrespectful, which was awesome lol.

Lights went down and the crowd began cheering. Opening number was FABULOUS. I was living for it. The song, the red costumes. It made me feel super HYPED. Val got a lot of screams when he popped up in the little video segment before the NY dance began. I’m gonna be honest for the amount of people that were there I wanted people to be louder when it came to the cheering, BUT let me not complain.

I felt like the show (as a whole) had a decent flow to it. The NY theme felt RIGHT since we were in New York lol, but I wasn’t so crazy about all the numbers. I also wasn’t super into Country night or Las Vegas during s27... so I wasn't THAT into it on tour either. I will say EMMA IS HILARIOUS AS ELVIS (AND AS HERSELF LMFAO). So with that being said I’m just going to review the show by dancers not necessarily by dance.

EMMA: LOVE HER. When she and Sasha had their little bit about the judges and her not sharing her mirrorball with Sash, I was loling. She’s got personality for DAYS. And she always wows me with her dancing more so in person rather than on the show. She looked SO GOOD in her number with the boys. SHEESH. I also really loved her in “feeling good”.

SASHA: I feel like it’s only appropriate to follow up with Sasha lol. He’s got great comedic timing. The transition between the boys paso number and his number with Jen is BRILLIANT, everyone was cracking up. SPEAKING OF BRILLIANT !!! I love everything about his number with Jen. I was exhausted just watching it, but that foot work thooooo and those tricks ?! EVERYTHING. I loved the couples video segment, esha gave the crowd some good laughs. SPEAKING OF GOOD LAUGHS....

GLEB: Gleb and Artems couple segment was too funny. A bromance for life. They were so enjoyable in “L-O-V-E”. Gleb really took me by surprise with “You Say”. I feel like we don’t get a chance to see him do contemporary that often, but he is such a strong partner in that number. LIVE FOR IT. Gleb was also so great in “feeling good”. That role was perfect for him. Loved Val and Sash coming out at the end of the number as well lmfao. I also loved his number with Wit so much. He is so passionate when he dances. *WHEW*

ARTEM: Keeping it going with the bromace. ARTEM ARTEM ARTEM. He really does something to me when he dances LIKE WOW DOES HE! I can’t even explain it because he’s not necessarily my favorite male pro on the show, but that man can DANCE. He’s so smooth and his hands are actually to die for. He’s just so strong, but also so soft when he needs to be. Everything he does is just.... right, that is all. “Tu Sonrisa” is not only one of my favorite songs, but it was one of my favorite numbers on tour. Artem is such a great partner for Wit.

WIT: I love that Wit was on tour, I’m sure that’s so exciting for her and her fans since it’s been a min. She’s super smooth on stage and brings lots of sass. Two numbers that really stood out for me with her were her numbers with Gleb and Artem. So much passion and so clean with Gleb. And just pure fire with Artem. THAT LIFT @ THE END OF “TU SONRISA” IS MY FAVORITE. I loved that we got to see some witlo numbers on tour (even if I couldn’t see her perform them with Milo). Alan was able to bring that same energy outta Wit, which I loved.

ALAN: My mans Alan, killing it left and right. He is such a ball of energy and just good vibes, I love him. He is so strong and has such a flashy personality that you can’t help, but fall in love with him. I loved seeing him dance those Witlo numbers. He surprised me with that Charleston, but I also shouldn’t be all that surprised because he always brings so much energy to everything he does and that was great to witness live. I am a sucker for him dancing with Hayley so “I Won’t Dance” was also a stand out number for me. A pleasant surprise was his number with Britt. I hadn’t watched it before going to the show, but I loved everything about it.

BRITT: She’s looking so much stronger in her ballroom numbers and I am living for it. I never realized how much I needed her to dance with Alan lol. LET ME TELL YOU !!! THEY WERE TRULY FIRE TOGETHER. I love that she’s putting her all into her ballroom numbers, but were she really shined for me was in “You Say”. Ms Britt is a STAR. She displays soooo much emotion when she dancing, I love it. I’m so happy she’s on this tour. #BrittForPro2k19

HAYLEY: While we’re on the topic of shining in contempary numbers... HAYLEY. She’s also lovely to watch. I noticed her a lot more in the girls number this tour than last! I also felt like she really got to shine in her number with Brandon. I loved them as partners. I feel like he brings out the best in her. Their contemporary was so smooth and those lifts were challenging, but they made them look effortless.

BRANDON: I’m really happy Brandon is getting the recognition her deserves. He’s so incredibly versatile, I loved watching him in every number. He was so great as the jazzercise instructor. I was ROLLING when he said “Gleb may have two kids, but they aren’t the only ones calling him daddy.” I can’t even explain to y’all how excited I was when I learned Brandon and Jen had a number together. I loved their collab with Alan Salazar, so when I heard they had a dance together I nearly passed out. Another number Brandon had a stand out moment in was the boys paso number. He was so strong and so poised, he really held his own in that one.

VAL: Since we’re on the topic of attention grabbers, VALENTIN CHMERKOVSKIY LADIES AND GENTS... He is such an amazing performer. Maybe it’s just me, but my eyes go directly towards him whenever he’s on stage. He’s got so much charisma and such fabulous technique, truly is out of this world. His personality shined in the NY number and his strength was on another level during the boys paso, but what I love most is how gentle he was during “Girl Crush” and how smitten he looked during “Love On The Brain”. One of my favorite things about valenna dancing together is how wrapped up and lost they get in each other. When they’re partnered it almost makes you feel like they’re the only ones in the room.

JENNA: AND LAST, BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST.... my main gal, Jen. I feel like I could write an essay on what Jenna’s dancing is like live, but we don’t have time for all that... in fact, if you’ve made it this far in my review, I truly appreciate you lmfao. Jenna has such a stage presence it’s like your attention is diverted directly to her once she hits the stage. She’s got such flawless technique and such beautiful lines that everything she does looks so sharp and yet so effortless. My eyes were glued to her during “You Say”. Everything about “Whatever Lola Wants” was just pure boss lady vibes. She’s just in charge whenever she’s moving and I LIVE FOR IT. THAT’S WHAT IT’S LIKE WHEN YOU STAN A QUEEN. Everything I had mentioned in Val’s little mini review clearly applies to Jen as well. For me valenna is the “IT” couple when it comes to dancing together, they are just truly something magical.

I HAD SUCH A LOVELY TIME AND I LOVE SHARING IT ALL WITH YOU GUYS. ❤️

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actual things my teachers have said, pt. 2

part 1 here

so, in honor of school about to start again, here’s my teacher quotes from second semester last year, my freshman year of high school. enjoy.

“Day one and you’re already undressing”

“I went to college for this”

“I’ve taught one person something today”

“He looks so loose and relaxed because he’s dead”

“There was this one pope who was a total prude”

“It’s called the Great Deflowering, and they just took all the penises off the statues”

“One student said, ‘do you think there’s this basket of stone penises in the Vatican?’”

“Oh, it’s like ‘pièce’ means ‘piece’ or something”

“Do you sleep in the salle à manger (dining room)? Only if you have a very sad life”

“I don’t know why I suddenly know your restroom schedule”

“I want to get up on a ladder and touch your hair. Still sounds weird”

“And then you have Columbus or Vasco de Gama’s little ship, which looks like it’s going to be eaten by the big ship”

“Let’s go metric, which we’re crazy for not using”

“When I pass on to whatever”

“You tempt my middle finger”

“Stop talking about my coworkers in a negative way. Or positive. Just stop.”

“I almost said a word I shouldn’t”

“Nachos aren’t happening without cheese”

“We are about to learn a new tense, which will shake the foundations of everything you know and love”

“Let’s make this nice and incriminating”

“Next year I’ll have to require students to get a tattoo of their password”

“Anybody else wanna criticize my decisions?”

“Hey. Hey! HEY!...have a good day”

“After announcements, I’m going to melt your faces off, so be ready”

“It’s magic time, kids”

“I have mad babysitting skills”

“You don’t go to all this effort if you have wheat just growing in your backyard”

“The Catholic Church was into destruction”

“You really don’t wanna write it down because then you’ll cry”

“Anyone wanna help me summon the dead?”

“My mother still tells me I should’ve been a lawyer”

“Rooms and stuff, oh yeah”

“That way, when he’s an old man, people can go ‘you’re old’ and he’ll be like ‘whaaa’“

“If you’re sitting there just tapping really hard, I don’t know what your aggression is”

“I wish I had autopilot”

“I won’t make you cry”

“There were some that considered that blasphemous. Heracy. Scientific heracy.”

“The access code is cookies18 because I’m surrounded by cookies and it’s 2018″

“Thumbs down is like ‘bro why’“

“Are you having fun in art class? Stop that”

“You all think you’re gang members now”

“Something French, woman! Get it together”

“We can be like Congress and have to have a talking stick”

“Here’s a dog with three stereotypes all at once”

“I am as serious as a heart attack”

“You don’t see many of those furry little creatures around here anymore. Except raccoons. They’re everywhere”

“It’s not politics if everyone agrees”

student: “I like your shoes” teacher: “thanks, they’re killing my feet”

“Focus less on witty comments”

“If we could just hang out, I’d, like, braid your hair”

“This guy with a stick, that can’t be good”

“Spent a little too much time in the harem, if you get my meaning”

“I really do try to find anything with singing and dancing camels”

“Another creepy clown, fantastic”

“Are those flower garlands, or are they chains?”

“Oh, how progressive, that you add Hindu women to your harem”

“Probably for the release death would bring”

“Easy with the f-bomb”

“I’m gonna go ahead and mark everyone absent just because I like to mess with the front office”

“That was a pretty good airplane”

“I got too deep in a book and forgot to make your test”

“This is for your cultural education” *shows Shia LaBoef*

“You don’t know why, but you know you hate them”

“This is a holdup, pow pow pow, give me all your money”

“Screaming is the same in every language”

“Satan scares me”

“I have nothing against turtlenecks, usually”

“420, blaze it. I shouldn’t have said that, it was inappropriate”

“If you don’t know basic computer skills, you’re just doomed”

“Attacked by many animals...I can just see him walking down the street going ‘oh god not again’“

“She’s preening you”

“We don’t do midterms in here cause they’re awful”

“I love praise”

“Everything is petit pois”

“Nobody can get through the French Revolution in a day and a half except me”

“Back when the History Channel had history”

“Everyone is like ‘oh I’m so nostalgic for the nineties’ and I’m like ‘burn it with fire’“

“Feel free to email me, I won’t respond”

“Don’t hurt each other”

“She looks like a jellyfish. No! That’s so cool! I love jellyfish!”

“I felt like lying on the floor and curling up in a ball”

“Laugh. Move on.”

“Your fort should be strong, to keep the Huns from invading”

“Why are you so smart right now?”

“I have all of her anxiety and none of her skill”

“Whatever will make my parents angriest”

“What’s happening, you animals?”

“Just fractions, nothing magical”

student: *drops ruler* teacher, deadpan: “why”

“Sooner or later that bell will ring and you’ll be like ‘yo what the heck’”

“Anytime there’s chanting, just be careful”

“There’s no mentions of prostitutes in the Jamaica letter”

“I like fire, so I might burn it”

“These are in your way just to distract you”

“Don’t build your expectations up too high”

“Oh, I had alcohol”

“I want to leave with both my kidneys, thanks”

“If you would take a town out of Alabama and put it here, that’s Fortville” (we live in Indiana)

“I’m gonna start dressing like a clown to get your guys’ attention”

“Everybody needs extra money in life”

“I don’t know if you guys know this, but an essential part of living is being able to breathe”

“I’m a popcorn-aholic”

“We’re gonna do an exercise in loving yourself real quick”

“I barely even go outside”

“It’ll be terrible. You’re gonna have nightmares”

“It is a vest with fake pockets and a cape attached”

“There are very few people who are not gifted in anything”

“Please let me retire”

“If the lottery plays out on Wednesday, I might be gone by Thursday”

“Then we burnish it with a wooden spoon because I’m too cheap to buy burnishers and a wooden spoon works”

“Be mindful of when you’re leaning up against cabinets. Or get shoved into them”

“I like to touch art. Not supposed to, but I like to”

“If you go to Canada, I need you to steal a stop sign”

“I always get excited but it’s always just you, being fantastic”

(a blade from our art project went missing) “I think there are three scenarios. One, someone dropped it and just refuses to acknowledge that they dropped something. Two, someone put it in their pocket to take it home and have..fun with it later. Three, someone.....ingested it”

“You don’t steal the blades during the demonstration. You steal them during class time, when nobody’s looking”

“God, it’s snowing again”

“Can you grow poppies? Yes. If you grow 10-20 acres, the authorities are probably gonna come talk to you”

“If you had the letters for that in scrabble, that’s the whole game right there”

“Oh, Gandhi, you’re name-dropping”

“Isn’t that dog staring into your soul?”

“I’m just impressed with anyone that can wear horizontal stripes”

“It won’t be fatal drowning”

“You can have the rest of the time to annoy each other”

“We’ll cover up the ‘attack teacher’ sign so you’re not scared of me anymore”

*chalk squeaks* “sorry, forgot to oil the chalk”

“I don’t wake up in the mornings and go ‘oh, themes’“

“I am not Harry Potter’s uncle”

“If I cared, I would’ve asked”

“That’s where the Bordeaux wine comes from. Not that you’d know that, right, kids?”

“They don’t care about your happiness”

“Kay cool do stuff”

“No, I will not allow that. You cannot just eat butter”

“If I were to buy a Japanese car and drive it into my mother’s driveway, that would probably be it. She’d go toward the light”

“Since that’s all so depressing, we’ll end with a taco dog”

“I am intellectually aware that there were days when the sun came out”

“I have to get paid for this”

“I just have under a thousand dollars in my bank account at all times”

“We are French two, we are a little better than second-grade writing level”

“If you have to ask me if it’s appropriate, it’s not”

“It’s plagiarism, 100%. Don’t even care”

“For God’s sake, people, indent your paragraphs”

“It’s Morgan Freeman and Matt Damion, what else do you need”

student: “banana” teacher: “good, jenna”

*sharp intake of breath*

“Join us on the dark side of Honors English”

*shows us stick figure* “look at this detail”

“Well, that’s just magical.” minute later: “never mind”

“I’ll try to come up with a Plan D”

“In India, they love cricket, whatever the heck cricket is”

“Before I buy Shrek 2 online”

“Next thing you throw, you’re gonna eat”

“Have I mentioned your guys’ grand prize? It’s absolutely nothing”

“Nowadays you just take a selfie. This is for you. Wink wink.”

“Hey guys, say bonjour to my mom”

“She says sit down and shut up”

“He’s my scapegoat, his mom said I could”

if you read all of these, i hope you were amused. i certainly was. all of these are completely real. if you feel like it, send me an ask with your favorites

#this took so long to type up #school #public school #mine #teacher quotes #funny #humor #if u reblog this youre the true mvp

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flowerforaheart · 6 years

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Could you please do number 1 of the dialogue prompt thingies? Thank you!

i’m combining this with 137, for which i also got an ask!

1. “Marry me.” 137. “Okay, am I drunk or did you really just say that?”

disclaimer: it’s girl HL, but for some reason it ended up with a bit of girl ziall in there as well, so sorry if that is not your thing!

“All I’m saying,” Zayn says, glass of cheap bourbon held aloft, “is that love is dead.” She nods decisively, and takes another sip.

She’s drunk, which always makes her proclaim things with that much more gravity. She looks around at the rest of them, sprawled on the couches of her and Niall’s flat, daring them to argue. They’re all as drunk as Zayn is, really. The only difference is that they’re past the point of making grand statements.

Louis is pretty sure Liam nodded off a while ago. She’s laying on her side, clutching a pillow to her chest, breathing deeply. Louis is sat in the V of Harry’s legs, resting her head on Harry’s shoulder. She feels her eyes drooping. Harry drops a kiss into her hair and breathes her in.

Niall had been slumped against Zayn’s chest, in a similar position to Louis, content to listen to Zayn voicing her opinion on Channing Tatum and Jenna Dewan’s Epic Breakup. Now, in reaction to Zayn’s last statement, she sits up, turns her upper body slowly, and fixes Zayn with the most indignant of looks. She raises her left hand and pointedly holds it in Zayn’s field of vision, wiggling her fingers.

Louis snorts, Harry giggles, Liam hums sleepily. The energy levels in this room are truly outrageous.

“Mate,” Louis says, stretching her leg to kick Zayn’s foot in emphasis, “you realise you’re literally getting married next week, yeah?”

“To the girl who’s literally in your lap right now,” Liam adds. Oh, Louis notes absently, so apparently she’s still awake as well.

Niall points to her own face, circling it twice. “That would be me,” she says, deadpan.

Zayn’s face changes when she looks at Niall, the same way it always does, every. single. time. Louis’s been her best friend for twelve years now, and she’d never even known Zayn’s face was capable of doing that until she was introduced to Niall and she saw it happen right before her eyes.

Zayn takes Niall’s hand, which had dropped back into Niall’s lap while they were getting lost in each other’s eyes or whatever that was (pathetic, Louis thinks), and brings it to her lips. She kisses her palm and kisses her ring and leans in to whisper something in her ear. Within seconds, Niall’s lips stretch into a pleased smile. When Zayn pulls back, Niall slumps into her chest again, turns her face into her neck, and sighs contentedly.

Fiancée mollified, Zayn turns back to the others, who had been watching the exchange with equally fond expressions. “No but seriously,” she says, eyes earnest again, “if Channing and Jenna can’t make it, who can?”

Louis fully expects Niall to pipe up again, but she just nuzzles Zayn’s neck a bit more. Louis wonders what exactly Zayn had whispered into Niall’s ear just now.

“Ellen and Portia,” Liam says. Or mumbles, what with the way her face is mushed into a pillow, and her words barely come out understandable.

“David Burtka and Neil Patrick Harris,” Harry contributes.

“Blake Lively and Ryan Reynolds,” Louis says. She raises her eyebrows at Zayn and takes another sip of her drink.

Apparently Niall still has some of her wits about her, because she delivers the final blow by saying, “Zayn Malik and Niall Horan.” Knowing she’s got Zayn cornered, she smiles smugly. Louis winks at her, and raises her eyebrows at Zayn, a silent whatcha gonna do now.

Zayn just rolls her eyes, drains her glass and admits defeat. That’s another thing Louis hadn’t known she was capable of until Niall came into their lives. Niall grins and takes Zayn’s face into her hands. Zayn leans in, attaches their lips, and leans back, taking Niall with her to lie down on the sofa.

“Oh-oh,” Harry chuckles, “I think we lost them.”

“‘Love is dead’,” Louis says, as she watches Zayn’s and Niall’s bodies become increasingly entangled, “sure, Malik.”

At that moment, Liam snores loudly, as if to emphasise Louis’s statement. Niall and Zayn don’t falter, Zayn now fitting a thigh in between both of Niall’s.

Louis snickers. Turning her head, she asks Harry, “want to get some fresh air?” and nods towards the little balcony.

“Sure,” Harry says, pecking Louis’s lips.

Louis extracts herself from Harry’s limbs (they are many and they are long and she is drunk so if it takes a bit longer than it normally would, the blame is not on her) and rights herself, stretching once she has done so. Which she really shouldn’t have, because the next thing she knows, she loses her balance and stumbles face first into Harry’s tits.

On second thought, stretching is good, stretching is excellent.

For a second, she marvels at the fact that both of them are still standing, what with Harry’s sense of balance being questionable even without alcohol compromising it. Then she’s being lead outside and her eyes are drawn to Harry’s arse clad in nothing but tiny bikini bottoms. All thoughts that don’t include that arse and Louis’s hands and potentially her mouth miraculously disappear from her mind.

Once outside, Harry drops onto one of the two rickety chairs that take up the balcony, holding Louis’s hand all the while. Louis, on her part, takes no note of the second chair and plops herself down on Harry’s lap, straddling her. She winds her arms around Harry’s neck and brings her face close enough for their noses to touch.

She looks into Harry’s eyes, which is a bit hard, since there are four of them, but she tries and she manages and she asks, “so what do you think, Harry Styles? Is love in fact dead?”

Harry covers Louis’ thighs with her hands, her big big hands (god, Louis loves those hands), squeezes them once, twice a little higher. She sneaks her hands underneath Louis’s tank and places them on the small of Louis’ back. Applying the tiniest bit of pressure, she urges Louis to get closer, until their tits are pressed together and Louis swears she can feel Harry’s heartbeat.

A cool breeze disturbs the hot night air and makes the hair on Louis’s arms stand up. She shudders, and Harry winds her arms around Louis’s back. She brings her lips to Louis ear and says, voice deep, “as long as my feet walk this earth, love will never be dead, because I will stop loving you only when the sun rises in the west and sets in the east.”

Louis knows she needs to snort, or roll her eyes, or do something to tease Harry for the level of sap in that statement and the fact that she incorporated a fucking Game of Thrones quote in it. For some reason, the only thing she can do is pull Harry’s face back from where she’d started sucking a bruise into her neck, breathe “why do you say these things,” and mash their mouths together.

It doesn’t take any time at all for it to turn heated, alcohol still buzzing in their veins, any leftover feelings of tiredness long forgotten. The air is cool around them, the heat building between them.

With a wet sound, Harry detaches her lips from Louis’s some undefined amount of time later. She keeps their noses pressed together, breathing harshly. Louis tries to claim her mouth again, but Harry pulls back before she’s able to, causing Louis’s brows to pull together in a frown.

“Marry me,” Harry says, all four of her eyes wild and completely serious at the same time. Her pupils are so wide, Louis thinks if she tries hard enough she might just be able to see Harry’s soul. Then Harry’s words register and her own eyes grow big.

Shaking her head, she says, “okay, am I drunk or did you really just say that?”

Harry laughs softly. “You’re drunk. I’m drunk. They’re drunk, we’re all drunk,” she rambles. “Marry me.” She kisses Louis’ left cheek, “marry me,” her right cheek, “marry me,” her nose, her brow, her chin, her lips. “Marry me.”

For once in her life, Louis is entirely lost for words. “You’re insane,” she says, shaking her head again in disbelief. Her cheeks hurt from smiling.

“I know,” Harry nods frantically, eyes shining. “Marry me.”

“We’re drunk,” Louis says, fisting Harry’s hair in her hands, releasing some of the energy that’s building inside her. “You just proposed to me on Zayn and Niall’s balcony, in the dead of the night, while we’re drunk.” She start giggling, no longer able to keep it inside.

“I’m sorry,” Harry giggles, “I’m sorry. I had it all planned out, I promise, it wasn’t supposed to happen like this.” She rests her forehead on Louis’ collarbone, shoulders shaking with laughter.

Louis loses it. She’s drunk and she’s just been asked to marry the love of her life and she hasn’t even said yes yet and she absolutely loses it. Fuck, alcohol is weird. It takes them a full five minutes to get a hold of themselves, laughing into each other’s mouths, getting a few kisses in before one of them snorting sets both of them off again.

Still blinking away tears of laughter, Louis rakes her fingers through Harry’s hair just above her ear, over and over again. “Ask me again,” she says.

Harry takes the hand that was stroking her hair, clasps it between both of hers, and eyes steady, she asks, “Louis Tomlinson, will you marry me?”

The light on the balcony is so low Louis can barely make out her own feet, but Harry’s smile is so bright she’s momentarily blinded. She extracts her hand from Harry’s grasp and places it over her heart, feeling it beat against her palm. She nods, “I will. I want a ring and another proposal where you at least go down on one knee, but I will. I’ll marry you.”

Harry’s eyes are shining, and it’s not just with happiness anymore, a single tear making its way down her cheek. God, they’re so drunk.

“I love you,” Harry says, “until the sun rises in the west and sets in the east. Love is alive.”

This time, Louis does roll her eyes, and she shuts Harry up the best way she knows how.

#i? hope you like it?#i had not expected for this to turn into whatever this is when i started mqsdljkf #anyway yes i hope you like it i'm gonna go sleep now #my writing #Anonymous #answered #drabbles

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silvermarmoset · 6 years

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Clara Oswald’s Wardrobe: The Eleventh Doctor Years

Yeah. You read it right. I’m back, bitches.

After a brief sojourn (like...two years) into not covering such fascinating topics as Martha’s elegance, Rose’s scrappy jeans, and River Song’s backwards-forwards style routine, I’m back to discuss Doctor Who and costume design, because we all have things we’re good at and mine is yelling about hemlines! So while we all mourn Bill Potts—please come back to the show, Pearl Mackie, I beg you honest-to-god—let’s throw in a flashback to a long time ago, and play around with CLARA OSWIN OSWALD.

One nasty bit that’s kept me from getting to this post earlier is that Clara’s series 7 arc, thanks to the fragmenting-into-ten-thousand-tiny-pieces bit, is a little hard to view from a “character/costume” perspective. Do I count Oswin as part of her, despite significant differences between "our” Clara and Souffle Girl, or do I view their costume choices separately? What about the Clara from “The Snowmen”? What about the one who ran after Tom Baker in a terrible incident of green-screen-enabled acid reflux?

Lord. Her feet don’t even hit the floor.

So after a lot of debate, I’m counting them, albeit shyly, and without extending to them the same connective layer I generally use between a character’s costume choices. They’re a part of Clara, so I can’t ignore them, but I won’t assume every choice they make extends to our Clara. After all, discussing all those Claras would just be impossible, wouldn’t it?

I know. Great segue, right? Join us, pals, for a new edition of The Companion’s Wardrobe.

When we first meet Oswin, I’m falling over myself because I love her so much. Ok, no, not really. But it’s hard to fend off the charm of this first outfit—it’s a mix of Pure Sex, Geeky Cool Kid, and Perky Sixties Air Stewardess that knocks together a couple diverse style types and leaves us unsure what her whole deal is. There’s the cheeky red dress with the asymmetrical neckline, the rose she tucks behind her ear, the sci-fi tool belt and watch, the youthful-chic sneaker-heels. It goes together, but what ties these into a cohesive character?

Uh, yeah, Os, and if you’re gonna sass me the whole post you can do it in a more productive fashion. What these posts do is analyze—not assume what the designers meant, ever, but take what we know from the dress, delete from our brains our own metas and conjectures and far-flung notions, fling whether we think it’s pretty out the window except for that one rose tyler outfit. it deserved to be sassed, and try to embrace this as Character Translated Into Dress™ (while of course letting insignificant details slide because not EVERYTHING ties into your analysis, dumbass). We’re being told something, here, or else it’s just shitty costume design.

Which is always perfectly possible.

But no, Oswin’s dress is aiming for something: perfection. Everything about this dress is right, but it’s also TOO much. Too clean. Too fun. She’s polished and pretty and happy and comfortable—and none of it could possibly be real, with a Dalek just outside the door. While most of the wrecked passengers we’ve seen in past under-siege dramas have looked a little wrecked, with a dusty spacesuit or a tattered hairstyle to prove it, Oswin’s perfect bouncy curls and scratch-free outfit signal us far before the Doctor does that something is off.

Besides the perfection of this outfit, unstained by real life’s messes, there are other hints of what Oswin’s got going for her. The bright red, like a warning signal, should hit us over the head: every other companion is a mish-mash of different hues and patterns, while Oswin reads like a stop sign. The heeled sneakers I love so much are almost kid-like, if not innocent—as is much of Oswin’s made-up life, as she calls her mum and lounges in her chair. She reads as both red-hot “NO” and a perfect, happy, straight-out-of-Pushing-Daisies “yes.”

It’s no wonder we didn’t know what to make of her the first time she showed up. She was popping into every different direction, and somehow making it work.

The next time we see her, the costumes hit us over the head with how this is the same character. Because guess what? The Lady in Red is back.

Same hair, same low neckline, but a subtler shade of red this time, all over.

I honestly don’t have a lot to say about this outfit (though it’s INCREDIBLY beautiful), except that red immediately marks Clara out as bold, and vivid, and a little bit larger than life. Remember how Rose dipped into dark reds slowly, after growing out of the safer pinks she got from Jackie? Clara’s already there, wearing blood red all over, inciting the Doctor to do something.

Until she isn’t. Count me confused.

I’ve got no answers why her bland young charge picks up her red, or why Clara suddenly wears something that departs so drastically from everything she’s coded into her dress previously. Sure, she’s in “disguise,” but isn’t she closer to her true accent now? Why align herself color-wise with the ice monsters? Why ricochet between blue/green and red to further this split personality deal?

I got no answers. Sorry, lads.

Modern Clara’s still got a touch of that “come on!” red, but it’s minimized. She’s wearing one of those light, tiny-pattern, floaty-fabric things that were SO EVERYWHERE in 2013, but that’s all we get from her. She’s a mystery, dressed in whatever’s currently in fashion, flaunting past a gravestone.

But the lady in red is never gone for long.

This is our first time with Proper Clara, and it lays out the elements of Clara’s personal aesthetic that we’ll see for quite some time. Little, adventuresome boots; black tights; a flimsy little dress with a subtle pattern; a big coat, comfortable and practical. The flying bird necklace is lovely. The skirt has the high-low hem of many skirts from this year; we’ll see one like it again. Aside from the visual shout-out to Dalek Oswin in the red dress/short boots combo, all this aligns with what little we know of Clara at this point—she’s competent at whatever she sets her mind to, she’s young, she's both adventuresome and fashionable; she’s very tidy and put-together.

I’d argue her look is still way more put-together than most normal people achieve—think of Rose’s slapdash jeans or Martha’s tank tops—but if I bite the inside of my cheeks and take deep breaths I can accept this as an outfit most TV costume designers would claim is normal, in the same impeccably-dressed “normal” vein of Iris West. It’s pretty, it’s contemporary, but it doesn’t tell me anything much.

[this briefly-seen outfit, with its cardigan and vintage-y blouse, marks Clara as a sort of pretty-librarian type, though again this look is very in with then-contemporary style.]

Which gets to the root of a problem I have with many of Clara’s outfits in Series 7. Clara is frequently accused of being “boring”—and I firmly believe this has loads to do with the way she dresses, divorced from any opinion on the writing or the plot at this point. Jenna Coleman is an engaging actress, but a lot of the costumes from this era give us a cute, ordinary woman at the expense of furthering her arc in a particular direction.

There are clues, of course. From the quality of her clothes, she’s somewhere in the middle-class range—not quite as effortlessly classy as soon-to-be doctor Martha, but not quite at Rose’s level of street style either. Clara probably reads The Guardian. Those boots aren’t cheap.

Her outfit is very well put together, though it doesn’t push any boundaries of style. Clara is always tied into contemporary fashion, from this point onwards, with her boots and jacket bringing a little frisson of tough to counter the femininity of the dress and bag. The bag’s a sharp, bossy red, and all together it kind of gives us who Clara thinks she is: perfectly turned out, girlish and flirty, tough enough to deal with a crisis, with just a small splash of opinionated red on the side.

There’s red, again, in the flashback. (side note: how young is her dad????)

“Cold War” mixes it up, though this is still Clara: there’s the slightly flared skirt we’ve seen in the past two looks, and the tough jacket firmly in evidence. I love the buttons up the front, though, and the icy shimmer is a nice departure—a little more glam than we’ve seen before from Clara. Considering Clara thought she was heading to Las Vegas, we can see what she thinks is appropriate for a night out right now: that vaguely-retro 1950s look Taylor Swift started, with a strong streak of cute, but nothing your grandmum would hate. (Amy would have had that skirt at least 6 inches shorter and narrower.) She’s girly and tough.

“Hide” runs along the same lines. (also, bless all these full-costume promo pics.) The gentle cardigan look is back, and aside from the heels it’s all quite demure. It also looks great for the spooky tone of this episode! Incidentally, this is Clara’s third blue outfit in a row, leading me to wonder when we abandoned the vivid red Claras of earlier for these calm, cool, inward-looking young ladies. It’s almost a visual rebuke to the Doctor for seeing her only as the red adventuresses of earlier—those girls were red, sir, but this one is blue, so get your head together and consider the color symbolism.

Oh. Or fuck me for trying, I guess. That works too. Who needs consistency, am I right?

Aside from me throwing myself out the window because the red keeps coming back but I can’t figure out WHY, this dress is a lot like Clara’s others. Her favorite pair of boots is back, and it’s quite buttoned-up and modest, if a little shorter than before. And the tightrope of bold-but-girly continues to be Clara’s calling card, with the minimal jewelry keeping her just on this side of not-too-dressed-up.

It’s telling that she stands out in this episode, though: she’s in stark opposition to the cold blues worn by the Doctor and his TARDIS, a visible antagonist as these two question and frighten her about her right to belong.

“The Crimson Horror” gives us two great Clara looks, which is great because holy shit look what they did to this skirt.

I can’t quite explain what happened here, because for all the world it looks like they took apart a 1910s-style hobble skirt and threw in a gradient underskirt for the solid reason of Why The Hell Not, but I love it despite it being bonkers-levels of historically inaccurate.

Then there’s this.

I LOVE THIS TOO, but character-wise I really have to grit my teeth because I don’t get why Clara, ordinary girl from the twenty-first as she seems to be, would have either the knowledge or the inclination to dress her hair in the elaborate fashions of the period. But it’s a spot-on perfect dress, with none of the historic bumbling Rose managed on her first try. It lacks the super-puff sleeves of the 1890s, but I can live with it because of those fantastic little V’s down the front. It’s perfect.

We’re back in red for “Nightmare in Silver,” and everything’s very much Normal Clara: the little heeled shoes, the slightly flared skirt, the tights and the tough jacket and the trim little collar. With stronger fabric choices, she looks more in control than ever; she’s developed slightly away from the girlishness of those high-low skirts, though that girly quality is still there in the short skirt. Her arc has not been consistently signaled so far in either silhouette or color choices, but this outfit marks Clara as being more in command than ever before.

In the finale, she’s in same silhouette as last time, but new shoes (Clara seemingly adores footwear that combines heels, boots, and little oxford-y things into one package). Compared to her first modern outfit, she’s much more visually controlled—dark-hued, geometrically patterned, no more flounce or flutter. The color scheme is much more similar to the blue/green of the governess outfit, and red’s completely vanished—she couldn’t be farther from the saucy little barmaid act in “The Snowmen.” And yet by the end of the episode, she’s shattered into her—and into a girl with spikes on her jacket, and a girl dressed like Sarah Jane Smith, and a girl and a girl and a girl and a girl.......

I can’t explain this. I’d love to say that Clara coalesces into a firm costume arc over the season, but I can’t find a clear arc without pushing my designer’s brain to untenable conclusions. Through costume, I watched Martha grow from a confident student to a warrior; I watched Rose grow from a thoughtless girl to a brave woman. River developed in ways that suggested where she was going and where she came from, despite the challenges of a plotline her costume designers couldn’t plan for. Series 7 Clara stretches my brain, and I still come up empty. Where was all that red going? Can a change so slight as “pretty girlish” to “a little less so” count as an arc? Did someone not tell Howard Burden the plot, so he couldn’t plan a clearer costume progression? What happened here????

Thankfully, Clara’s not done growing yet, though. Onto the specials!

Clara begins "The Day of the Doctor” in, again, red. I quietly scream because red can be such a dramatic and weighty color and I hate seeing it just pop up for reasons I can’t make sense of. Clara ignores my protests and hops into her adventure.

This outfit’s perfectly within the same realm as Clara’s previous gigs: heeled boots, check; black tights, check; small-print non-geometric pattern on lightweight fabric, all present sir; cheeky red and tough black jacket, reporting for duty. This outfit could have shown up any point in Series 7 and I would have accepted it. Clara’s working as a schoolteacher now (a very chic one), and the whole outfit reads as saucy and cute and just a little badass.

And then “Time of the Doctor.” Oh, I love the “Time of the Doctor” costumes. This is great. This is when Clara starts making sense.

Clara gets two outfits in this: the cheeky yellow-sweater one, and the red-plaid-skirty one. They’re both very twee and pseudo-vintage and Britishy, which is very much in Clara’s realm so far, but they take what Clara’s already had and push it—heartily, extremely, and in a way it’ll never recover from—into bold new territory.

Clara’s style has shifted in this episode. With the proud geometric plaid, the bright red hue, and the overall sharper fit, Clara has absolutely moved on from the girlishness from “The Rings of Akhaten” into something far more confident and controlled. There are significant details: the little infinity-symbols of her cardigan, the spikes on her necklace and bracelets, and the old-fashioned lace on her blouse make an unusual combo that finally distinguishes her from an H&M commercial. It’s strong and decisive, a little bit bossy, with boldness winning out over cute. Fashionable? Yeah! Modern? Always! But powerful, too, taking up the screen with tight shapes and controlled blocks of color.

The yellow sweater and leather skirt hit the same notes. The feminine flutter of early Series 7 is truly gone; without changing Clara’s style completely, the smack-you-in-the-face mustard sweater and the edge of the leather angle her away from “feminine adventuress” into “adventurer femme.” The priorities shift. It’s the signal of where Clara is going from here—into deeper, darker territory.

So, what do we take from this? Though Clara started out as a bit of a cipher—thanks to red dresses leading us in one direction, and then cute little floral pattern outfits taking us in another—over Series 7 Clara gradually came together as a bolder, more in-command character, and even started to develop a style of her own that verged beyond the norm. Where could that take us in Series 8? How will her costumes change to interact with an entirely new Doctor? Will I ever get to see that bird pendant necklace again? (yes.) Who knows! I’ll have to write a post about it!

Whatever happens, it’s going to be an awfully big adventure.

[Got thoughts & questions? Come at me! I love talking about costume, and anyway I had to edit this post extensively to even get it to post, so I couldn’t even mention things people might wonder about. LORD I LOVE COSTUME DESIGN SO MUCH.]

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Interview with S.E. Bloom

New members means new people to get to know! We've got some all new artist interviews heading your way in the coming weeks, starting with our resident vector expert, S.E. Bloom! Bold, graphic shapes paired with evenly weighted line work and delicate detailing are the name of her illustration game. This unique approach makes her work distinct among the other Square Carouselians and adds to the variety we value in our motley crew.

“Diving Lady”

Q: Sarah, your current illustration work seems to be exclusively vector, but I see you're also a skilled embroiderer, printmaker and hand letterer. Is there a favorite among these different facets of your skill set?

A: I really wish I had more time to dedicate to embroidery and other traditional methods. I really love working with printmaking the most, and I think my proclivity for repetition and sameness is what draws me toward the practice so much. I think I’ve fallen into working digitally mostly out of necessity. It lends itself well to creating things a bit faster and being able to juggle several ongoing projects at once. It’s my hope that in the coming years I’ll be able to set aside more time for the more involved methods. But, in the meantime, it has been fun for me to experiment with new digital techniques and teach myself new ways of creating the type of images I am interested in.

Q: How you think that your experience with graphic design, printmaking and/or embroidery influence your vector illustration style or your process?

A: I think working with printmaking really helped me to solidify my understanding of flat tone rendering. I used to work exclusively with relief, so I did a lot of rendering with a single color, often using some stylized mark-making. Now I feel my work is much less constrained, but I’ve still retained that understanding of how to define shapes with limited color \usage and blocking in value.

“Virgo Astrology Card”

Q: What's your illustrating process like, from start to finish?

Typically I get an idea in my head and I have to mull it over for several days. It’s rare that I am able to sketch out a concept when it is fresh in my head; that usually just ends in frustration. Once I’ve had time to really visualize it I’ll either hand sketch out something very loosely or take a bit more time working on my iPad (I use the Adobe Draw app with a stylus. Hoping to upgrade to the iPad Pro soon). Once I’m happy with a general composition, I’ll take it to my Cintique (the best thing I’ve ever purchased of the SCAD free and for sale page). From there I will essentially re-draw the basic linework several times until it is refined enough to how I like it.

The rest is just a matter of playing around until I’ve settled on the right color pallets and rendering elements. I’ve recently been using a lot of stippling with my work, so that has been really fun to play around with. Another reason I love working digitally it is allows me to try new things without compromising the image entirely. I usually have at least four files of the same composition saved with different color ways or levels of detail. Deciding when I am finished with each piece is always the hardest part.

Q: What would your dream project be?

A: I would love to do a line of calendars or some type of home planner. I love organization, and every year when I buy a new planner I imagine what I would do if I had that job. I think the hardest part for me would be sticking to a theme, but the more I work on unifying my body of work the more I look forward to trying it someday.

“Paper Crane”

Q: Favorite fruit?

A: Strawberries are delicious but I am rarely able to eat them.

Q: Is there a piece of advice or a philosophy you live by, creatively or otherwise?

A: The biggest one in both my personal life and artistic career has been not to compare yourself to others. I think it can be a big relief once you are able to recognize that every individual has had different circumstances and is fighting their own unique battles. The happiest I’ve been is when I am not worried about how I stack up next to other people, whether it be other artists or my peers.

“Squiggle Pattern no. 1”

Q: What's your favorite genre, in any medium of your choice (film, music, etc.)?

A: I’m a sucker for some good indie pop, but it has to have a good bass line. Some specific favorites as of lately are Miniature Tigers (my longtime favorite), of Montreal, Sylvan Esso, and The Virgins. I’m also really into anything influenced by Disco.

“Est. November 2, 2013″

Q: In challenge 107, we got a glimpse of a college drawing that was much more realistic in style. Is there a piece of your artwork that you remember making that was a turning point towards your current style?

A: It was honestly that challenge that was a big moment for me. I’ve always struggled with the idea of having a style. That was something that gave me the most anxiety during my time at SCAD. I knew it was something that would come with time, but I was always trying to rush it. I wish I had listened to one of my professors when she told me you just have to draw everything you see, and once you can look back on how your brain starts to understand visually what you are seeing, that is how you should work. During that challenge I was bouncing around a lot of ideas that I couldn’t really make sense of. It turned into about 10 hours of drawing different nude female figures, and out of that I kind of discovered this way of generalizing shapes and utilizing simple linework that really made sense to me.

Challenge 107: Redesign Refresher: Trichotillomania

Q: Who are a few of your favorite artists?

David Hockney, Roy Lichtenstein and René Magritte are some of my more “main stream” favorites, but I’m also a huge fan of contemporaries Ruby Taylor, Amelia Giller, Sophie McPike, Jenna Blazevich (Vichcraft), and Puppyteeth. Also countless friends who inspire my daily, especially Katie Culver And Ellen Manning (Ellenini).

Q: If you had to live in another country for 1 full year, assuming there was no language barrier, which would you choose and why?

A: I would love to go back to France! I studied there in Lacoste with SCAD’s program and loved it. I wished my time there had been longer, and I would love to be able to spend a full year there.

S.E. Bloom in her new studio space!

Q: Anything else you would like the readers to know?

A: My dog is very cute.

Thanks for answering our questions so thoughtfully, Sarah!

If you’d like to see more, visit her website at sebloom.com

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