Don’t get it twisted, I’ve always been an emotional little baby. But my art professor just sent me an email telling me she’s happy I’m in her class, she’s impressed by my work ethic, and that I’m doing good this semester. And that’s the story of how I cried for the third time today. 🥹

I’ve been struggling mentally for a solid week now, and I think I’ve figured out the source. I’m gonna talk more about it with my therapist tomorrow, but… I think it’s because of TBB.

I don’t have time to go into all of it rn, but with all the doom and gloom both in the show and in the fandom, it’s definitely affecting me in a negative way. I’m not giving up on the show yet, but I might need to step away from the fandom until the show is over…

again, I’ll talk with my therapist about it, and I won’t suddenly disappear without notice either. just know that I might end up going silent for the next few weeks, or at least not be as active until the finale.

hey autistics

why don’t you like the Big Light

i hate ambient lighting. it hurts my head, and i’m LESS able to see than i would be with the lights off. it’s the stuffy version of light. just turn the lights on. turn them on or turn them off. why are we turning them halfway on. why are we almost illuminating a room. cowards /j

Chocolate and Anastasia are dating now btw. Sorry you had to learn it like this.

MOOOOOOOOOOOM! The people in my phone are shipping my Pokémon!

OH now I get why Master!McCrystalSkull could exist. Cus obviously if Martin!Doctor is from the ‘Master’ base, that frees up the ‘Doctor’ base to be ‘The Master’, and if that is using the space-tentacle-TARDIS-coded-child-creature at least in part, then an apparent species-shift to TARDIS Crystal Person is perfectly within reason.

Hmm have you check the codes to see what appears? Kinda wonder if it is a computer issue that is crashing snd making your dash be christmas lights. But doesn't make sense for the battery to be draining

Well my dash isn’t doing the Christmas lights thing anymore. It was before I got the battery replaced but it’s not right now. It’s just the fact that my car still won’t turn on all the way 😅

I’m extremely lucky to be able to work from home for a company that lets me work at pretty much any time of day, and I still feel like I need a solid month off of work to have the energy to consistently do anything besides work right now.

Edit: To be fair, I think having been very recently (in the past week or so) removed from a very bad situation at work that I’d been sort of fixated on for the past year (it wasn’t actually that bad but it was affecting me badly, it was all I could think about, and I’d get so paralyzed about it that I couldn’t work and then would have to put in more time to make up for it until I finally exploded a month ago and talked to someone about it) is definitely going to help.

The trouble with priory of the orange tree is I want to spend the entire day reading it

My eyeballs hurt because I’m sweating and hot and covered in sun cream so the sun cream has melted into my eyeballs

I leave for Belize tomorrow night!!

I was supposed to go this trip two years ago so it’s hard to believe it’s actually here. I’m also not feeling as excited about it as I was originally hoping too. I don’t know if it’s because I still don’t believe it’s really happening, or because there’s still so many little things to take care of (turns out it’s difficult/expensive to get a bunch of cash when you don’t have a local bank available), or because I’m now realizing that most of the other people on this trip are WAY younger than me. The tour is for 18-30 Partly that’s going two years later, but I also think that the timing of early June resuming a bunch of people in college going right when school ends. I maybe would’ve had more older people if I went in November like my second and third reschedules were. It’s also going to rain at least a little basically everyday we’re there BUT I stupidly left my raincoat in Colorado so now I don’t have it. I think I’ll go buy a pinch which in some ways will be better, easier to pack and less hot, but I am still annoyed. And I’m going to miss the next two frisbee practices which is annoying because they were gonna be the first ones after I accepted my roster spot so now I’m worried no one will no I’m actually on the team and I won’t get invited to anything. I also don’t have any cards with good/cheap access to atms in Belize which is annoying because they apparently basically only take cash there. So I’m worried about all the logistics and expenses nd that I won’t get along with the people on the tour and that going will set me back socially for here.

It SHOULD be such a good trip and I’m excited about all of the things I’m supposed to do there. But I feel like all I can see right now is the negatives and it’s almost making me wish I wasn’t going. Which is crazy because I’ve been trying to go on this trip for two years! But I was also in a different place two years ago and I definitely wouldn’t have booked this trip this past February(my original timing) so maybe that’s the heart of it. It will still be a good time I’m just super bummed that I’m not as excited as I want to be especially because they say anticipation is half the fun!

happy early birthday, I hope that your stress goes away 🎈

Thank you!! 💕

buying cold medicine in Korea and i’m pretty sure I just ended up with crack in capsule form but I feel fantastic 🤩

I don’t know what to get my family for xmas in a few days especially so close to the day also we all have been so busy and occupied with other shit idk how we’re gonna do xmas this year 🤔

I’m finally feeling semi better (was sweaty hot but am now icy oh gdi) anyways I wanna draw but for the life of me I can’t think of what to draw

Thinking about how Diavolo’s feelings transcend time and how in the Nightbringer UR+ card Demon Lord’s Castle Tour this conversation happens.

When asked, “Do you wish to see your father?”

Diavolo responds:

“I suppose I do . . .” isn’t the typical reaction to how a child would feel about wanting to see their parent. Especially when said parent has essentially been in a coma for a year.

Along with how Diavolo describe his father.

It makes more sense why when you learn in Lesson 56 how Diavolo was treated by him growing up.

Diavolo can tell when others are lying but is unable to understand his father’s intentions.

Diavolo mentions that he lived a very sheltered life growing up. That from a young age his father never allowed him a chance to talk to anyone outside the castle.

His childhood friend was Mephistopheles. A demon literally RAISED to be his friend. Putting a barrier between the two because Mephistopheles would put Diavolo on a pedestal.

The isolating childhood he experienced riddled with his strict father constantly scolding him.

Despite everything MC is so important to him he wants to see his father again so we can meet.

We love having bills and absolutely no money

and then more bills and more bills and more bills and more bills and more bills more bil-