Genuinely being a single woman in my thirties, living alone, is such a mixed blessing sometimes. I do love my house and when I'm here I literally never want to leave. But on the other hand, I do get tired of leaving to go hang out with people, even though I love seeing them. Especially because I have such a great group of friends but they live all over the place, geographically, and therefore most of them don't know each other. And I actually really love hosting? But I never have people in my house because logistically it's always more practical for me to go to them than vice versa.

But sometimes I buy new old dishes and wanna just have a little fancy wizard party, but all my guests are far away. Please may I have the teleport spell. Or a high-speed commuter rail system.

I have thoughts qTubbo's death & qPhil's reaction to it

I think q!Phil just laughing it off was because he doesn't rly think of death for humans as permanent. immortal who spent most of his life around other immortals and with hazy memories from before the island -bc long life = memories fade- and that, plus he's seen Tubbo come back from worse than a squabble with Richas. so at first he sees Tubbo's body lying there and he like does a kick flip over it and tell other people with a laugh because qTubbo can just pick himself up, the guy is being dramatic. or so goes Phil's thought.

Also hes got this big romanic connection with death id we're consiering Kristen semi cannon and Missa being a reaper. Death isnt a thing that stops people from being and it certainly isnt perminant. its just like going into another room

CELESTE APPRECIATION post

I raerly see anyone mention her but i love her sm yes this is mostly like 98% hc shes only got like 5 lines in hole game what more do u want from me

anyways, my sweet sweet barely domesticated celeste :

-"Why did my husband come back with a child ,a dog ,a living skeleton, a man who can throw him around like he weights nothing and a knight(derogatory)" -Cahara's so wiped 4 her and honesty i would to if that was my wife, she def pegs him 2 btw i mean just look at him, my point exactly.

-gets along with Enki the most 2 everyone's surprise, there paper wight besties. & share a worrie for Cahara they will never verbalise as well a dislike for D'arc- i mean knights.

-celeste is d'arces first (and only) female friend, much to clestes own dismay.

-d'arce thought she was a gold digger at first, as you can tell they had a grate first impression of each other

-only trusts people about as far as she can throw them (rip rag , he can still man handle the group whore with ease tho so good for him)

-can not hold a convo with a child 2 save her life , the length of her mertanl intents extend to bringing the child 2 Cahara .

-she is not mother material but for some reason they're trying to keep a baby with a high infant mortality rate its funny

i think celeste probably didn't have great parents or a good role model, deadbeat drunkard parents that kicked her out and kind of left her to fend for herself & close of to the world and that's why she has such a disillusioned take on parenthood + where her own approach to children comes from but uh oh !! cahara wormed his way into her heart ! and who's to say his clear and utter devotion to this little girl cant win her over either i dont think either her or Cahara were going out of their way to get pregnant - it's like an unfortunate by-product of the nature of Celeste's career, and Cahara's love for her being what led to him being so willing to step up. i don't think either of them ever really thought about having kids, or at least didn't think they'd be good parents, but celeste getting pregnant or cahara bringing back a child is just the way life ended up going. it's the renaissance era, abortion methods are on par with childbirth in terms of deadliness anyway. she's just not going to have to keep risking her life via pregnancy if cahara goes out, gets enough coin to support them both, she's not going to be like every other peasant woman who's forced to become a broodmare because every 1 in 2 children fucking die before they turn 5. clesest being pregnant is just what ended up happening. the love in that is to do with their RELATIONSHIP, not their love for some idealistic family life. i think cahara wanting to give it a try is something celeste would think is really sweet and admirable, but she'd probly keep a lot of her more cynical thoughts to herself on the matter.

saying that i think they both have a lot of cynical thoughts about it really, but i cahara goes so quickly into "this is my wife, this is our future baby" because otherwise what's the point in taking on such a risky mission in the first place ? but if he's got a noble cause, then it might seem worth it, right ? it's that extra push of encouragement for him, even if it comes with a lot of scary things like the responsibility, being a parent, maybe settling down witch is a scary thought for someone whos always so used 2 being on the move

as for celeste ; she doesn't even know if she's going to make it through the pregnancy, or if the baby will. it's just another mouth to feed at the end of the day. she doesn't care about carrying on a legacy, or raising a child into greatness like so many others beg and plead of god to bestow upon their children. she knows she'd be a shit mom and she's hardly a loyal partner at the moment. but she loves cahara, and seeing that fear in his eyes when she told him, but also that spark of light, that little bit of joy, made it at least worth holding on for.

celeste: it's probably not going to make it anyway, i either risk death in childbirth or death in abortion methods, so. celeste: its getting me enough bank rn to keep myself healthy so we'll just see what happens i guess celeste watching cahara bring home an entire child:

okay cringe time over. i wont go into 2much detail about her relationship with the others though i think its a very slow process of her learning to tolerate get along with the creatures friends cahara brought back -as soon as celeste meets d'arce her mild suspicion and distaste for ragnvaldr will be replaced with her disgust for d'arce -think celeste would be pissed she wouldn't be able 2 pull cahara out of ragnvaldrs grip unless she stabbed him or something, witch shes both angry about it but also relieved since it probably kept cahara out of trouble in the dungeon (because lord knows her husband is a magnet for trouble) inside me there are 2 wolfs ; one is mmm hot stong wife carry cahara like a sack of pataos , the other is screaming at me that this is the 1600 and she would be starving and poor. so to compromise with myself im going 2 say : - physical speaking celsest is probly stronger then most women in her profession and could probly drag an unconscious cahara around then againg i also think cahras way ligher then someone of his build&carear should be shes stronger then enki (then againg who isnt) but cant match d'arces physical strength. saying that modern au Celeste would beat d'arce in an arm wrestle.

in-refence 2 my last post; celest is a child darkness, she has a barbie killer husband,there for. she deserves to be as much hater as she likes d'arce: you two are the healthiest couple i know who still have an avid sex life cahara: ASSUMPTIONS ! celeste: we're the only couple you know.

acholic wise i think celeste could out drink d'arce (and at least keep up with ragnvaldr for a little bit)

celeste: d'arce is a pain in the ass cahara: :confustion: :stress_smile: she means well babe cmon celeste: im gonna beat her with a stick cahara: ,, babe,,

cleseste is not payed enough 2 be d'arces therpist or help d'arce figure out she likes women (shes not payed at all actuly,she is simply trying 2 tolrate her husbands new freinds becuse she loves him but also only has so meny braincells she can lose in a day and conversing with d'arce seems 2 kill all of them)

celeste hears d'arce talk about jeanne once and instantly starts going "wow you loved a girl wow that girl who was like you in every way wow that girl who like. shared your morals. or something. wow tell me more about that girl" (stab stab stab metaphorically stab stab stab)

(about cahara getting arrsed and taken by the police) rag: you lack of concern,,, concerns me. are you not worried ? celeste: dogs always find their way back home.

- d'arce and cahara make the same enamoured and light-blush expression whenever celeste rages btw - celeste :handshake: enki taking the piss out of knights + a generally more cynical outlook on life & being cold bitches that secretly care about cahara a lot

(first time they all stayed the night) enki learning hes the favorite for once and he thinks its just the most hilarious thing to fucking happen local woman-lover put out by being rejected by hot scary wife, local berserker intimidated by what scary wife might do if she finds out what he did to her precious boytoy local shadow wizard ? on the floor ugly laughing because scary wife reluctantly asked if he wanted the guest bedroom.

celeste: YOURE NOT STAYING HERE PERMANENTLY. but youre allowed to stay overnight. enki: is this (gags) kindness ? oh my god. revolting. celeste: is that a yes or not you fucking worm enki: yesplease

▪️if you ever need anything, please don't hesitate to ask someone else first.

A hug would fix so many of my problems rn

Caio, Xavier and Dwayne 🤭

i started playing miitopia again and the vampire outfit spoke to me

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sometimes i feel like a proud mother. and i dont even want children

One day I will learn, that just because the bottle is low, does not mean I need to finish off the bottle.

doodling them in between writing my dissertation on fps games

Venigni is Absolutely putting things together in WaGLaB btw he finds out that A) the puppet is a perfect replica of Carlo*, and B) that Geppetto resurrected a grown ass man (Romeo) into a puppet

And he has a BAD FEELING ABOUT THAT. HE DOES NOT LIKE WHERE THOSE TWO ARROWS ARE POINTING.

I’ve been sitting here for 3 hours about to be 4..

Huh, I just realized I never officially came out as asexual or demiromantic to anyone. I legit just started posting things about aroace, and that's how people online knew. As for family and friend's, they kinda figured it out when I didn't care about dating as a teen. An actual conversation when I "officially" came out to my friends on the group chat. Note: I had Covid, so I was kind of out of my mind.

Me: There's such thing as demi romantic?!? And no one told me!!!

Pansexual friend: I just thought you were a suppressed aroace. You did seem hesitant about sex and relationships.

Me: I legit told you I never cared about sex or romance. The only time I would ever find a guy attractive is if I was close friends with him. HOW DID THAT NOT GIVE YOU ANY HINTS!!! Instead, I had to find out about demi romantic through Tik Tok!!!

Gay friend: Wait, are you aroace? Or on the spectrum?

Me: There's a spectrum!!!!????

Pan friend: It's pretty complex, I can explain it to you........

Me: Nope! Just found out about on Tik Tok. Congratulations! You guys have a demiromantic and asexual friend now.

Straight girl of the friend group: 🥳 Jo's out of the closet!

Me: Dag nabbit Claudia!!! I'm still processing this!!!!

irt the favorite movie ofc it's how to train your dragon literally haven't you all watched this

something happens in my stomach EVERY TIME

Celia has dyslexia<3 pure self indulgence<3

out of her friends [Elena, Conficcare, Tesoro] she is the least academic and struggles the most with traditional learning. her dyslexia is a pretty strong case, with her massively struggling to read, letters moving around and blurring[morphing? idk how to describe it]. Reading is a headache and her writing also is jumbled and badly spelt. early on her teachers gave up on 'correcting' her handwriting and made her write in block capitals, which somewhat helped.

while Celia struggled to read and write, she has a very good grasp of language, and if text is read verbally to her she will be able to understand, absorb, and deconstruct it. most of her literature knowledge comes from Elena and Tesoro talking about whatever texts they are studying, and eventually the realized that Celia needed to hear it verbally, so they would read out loud and talk though their own analysis of it, subtly helping Celia

in terms of spoken language, Celia is excellent at learning and speaking languages, being multilingual from speaking age [with Spanish & Italian] and over the years picking up on bits of the many other languages spoken in their area with ease, especially skilled in replicating the sounds & accents of those around her. her spoken english spesificaly is behind Tesoro & Elena both [learned to a higher level in school due to being placed in better classes and then Elena learned even more] and Conficcare [learned for its use in the medical field]

[Note: this spesific paragraph about ease of learning languages is not as in line with the 'average' dyslexia, and i hesitate to link it to dyslexia, this is more of a relevant play to say it than saying its linked to dyslexia spesificaly. her struggle with grammar, reading, and writing other languages [as in her own mother tongues] is very much linked to her dyslexia though. she does have an easier time with Spanish due to its phonetic-ness [im not sure how that would apply to Italian] which is why she keeps using it very often and doesn't let that skill degrade over time]

in terms of how it affects her day-to-day, reports are given verbally or read out to her, and Tesoro is there every time paperwork, especially contracts where the nuances of wording really matter, is done. Celia is pretty good with numbers not being affected, but still double checks her own calculations & uses a calculator. her writing is block capitals, as mentioned, and she often has someone else taking notes for her when shes brainstorming.

she has a pair of 'sunglasses' that are actually coloured lenses, [red, im being nice to her so the colour that works best for her matches her colour scheme] that she uses to help her when she cant avoid reading, but those are a pretty recent development.

in an au where she lived she would love the massive selection of audiobooks available atm, but as is she has a pile of audiotapes of book readings, and its why she loves music so much- stories that are entirely verbal and audio based. she does like some of the audiobooks but will always prefer listening to someone else read it out loud [even if she wont admit that she struggles reading]

in a similar vein she listens to the radio a lot, and gets her news that way as oppose to newspapers.

she doesnt tell people she has issues reading and writing- a lot of how she manages it [other people reading things or taking notes for her] can be mistaken for shows of power, her glasses can be read as for the lookTM, so on and so forth. dyslexia is coined in the 1880s but i dont think Celia would have been aware of it being a 'thing'. Conficcare is most likely to know about it [having learned a lot about child development in his nursing course] but he makes the decision not to bring it up as Celia is notoriously touchy about it

Took a lot of work to fix up this bad boi but finally got a nice punk vest runin