🌈 ― aesthetically pleasing blog

⭐️ ― convincing portrayal of a canon character

💻 ― excellent writing

🌼 ― creative headcanons

🎙️ ― great to talk to

📚 ― nice threads to read

🎀 ― all-around kind person

🥇 ― well-developed oc

😍 ― admiring from afar

📌 ― a staple on the dash

🏆 ― 10/10 blog, would recommend

Yeah fuck you, ilu bitch (:<

🐝  *  ―  𝑺𝑯𝑶𝑼𝑻-𝑶𝑼𝑻𝑺 𝑶𝑭 𝑨𝑾𝑬𝑺𝑶𝑴𝑬𝑵𝑬𝑺𝑺.

🏆 ― 10/10 blog, would recommend

── For this I've decided to talk a little about @bells-of-black-sunday because he deserves it and also because his blog is just generally an all around treat that excels in multiple areas!

🌈 ― aesthetically pleasing blog

── While they've recently gone dash-only, their carrd (or one of three - he's working on more because he's insane) is wonderfully put together, and so is his pinned post!

⭐️ ― convincing portrayal of a canon character

── Spük has a really amazing way of writing Tarhos and Danny in ways that both treat them as humans but also does not dance around the atrocities both of these characters have done. Both of these characters are expanded upon in a realistic way that fits both of their personalities. It also ties together loose strings for their lore - particularly in regards to Danny's lack of mother and Tarhos' complicated relationship with violence.

💻 ― excellent writing

── This goes without saying, if you're on my blog you've seen Spük's writing at least a few times a week LOL - his writing is really inspirational to me and is a big part of the reason I write so much. He has a very blunt way of writing which I appreciate, but there's a good bit of prose sprinkled throughout that really makes it enjoyable and easily understood for me and my dyslexic ass.

🌼 ― creative headcanons

── THISSSSS!!! Spük and I talk so much about their muses and headcanons about their lore and each one is like a gourmet meal served on a silver platter for me. This semi - relates to the point I made above about how he can tie together loose lore really well, Danny's lack of mother turning into abandonment issues and Tarhos' violence being a coping mechanism because its the only constant in his life? MAN - GOOOOOD fucking food all around. Don't even get me started on Karthus - LJFDGNFK HE'S SO ... SO ... Look I just love the entire idea of corruption through religion -- also modern verse being this bored asf British Ghost who smokes weed is the funniest shit to me idc.

🎙️ ― great to talk to/🎀 ― all-around kind person

── We legit talk from morning to night about everything, not only as a writer but as a person Spük has a wonderful personality. He's very kind and genuinely one of the most understanding, sweet people I've been lucky to meet. He's always eager to help flesh out other people's muses and plot too! I definitely recommend speaking to him ooc - he's just such a sweetie pie.

📚 ― nice threads to read

── Spük puts so much effort into each piece of writing he does, and it really shines through in how his long - form threads read and connect together. I won't lie and say that I don't ocassionally re-read our threads and kick my feet like a schoolgirl but thats besides the point. Each interaction on his blog is thought out beautifully and carefully, and they genuinely have some wild twists and turns throughout.

🥇 ― well-developed oc

── He has quite a few OCs on his blog, but Aita and Yijun are so wildly creative to me and they're both such deep, yet funny, characters. Aita's story is such a relatable tale for many of us, and I feel connected to him in how he feels in relation to his family and life's pressures. He just feels like a very realistic train-crash of emotions that have gathered up over time and I genuinely hope he can heal. Yijun on the other hand is a bitch and I also love them - the idea of turning a demon into a snake oil salesman that uses TikTok and social media as a way to form a pseudo cult is so fucking SMART and such an innovative way to explore demonic intentions. Plus he's just so ... mean? It's comical how bitchy he is - plus his relationship with Abel!!! AAAA!

😍 ― admiring from afar

── Not me peepin his blog daily for any missed updates -

📌 ― a staple on the dash

── Probably embarrassing to say but Spük is one of the first people I look for on my dash, they're such a huge part of it and I'm so invested in everything they make that I can't really imagine it without them on it. At that rate I'll just delete - NJKDHKJG this is a joke obviously but I really cannot picture the dash without him on it. He's so sweet, caring, has great writing and amazing art - how could I NOT want to see him popping up on my homepage everday? His content is a BUFFET.

🍅 🍦 🔪 🍄 for writers truth or dare pretty please!

🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

For Leon and Luis (Resident Evil)! Who else is it going to be, I haven't had much else inspiration beside those two lately lol

Luis never got his drivers license. Or rather, not techniquely. Growing up where he did, in rural don't-believe-in-modern-technology Valdelobos, who was going to teach him? Once he got to college, he could either walk or take the bus. Sure, he had friends teach him how to drive, and Sure, him and some other children were taught how to drive farm trucks at maybe too young an age (because prior to the cult taking over, they had to get supplies sometimes) but Luis never learned legally.

When he was on the run, he was very careful to never break any road laws.

In AU's where Luis lives, he moves to the states and when they set up an ID for him, they ask if Luis knows how to drive. He says yes. It's not his fault no one asked any details. So he drives around even though he never actually took a drivers class or passed any test.

And he would never, ever, ever tell Leon. Leon wanted to be a cop. I don't think there are a lot of things Leon would loose his cool over, but this is one of them. Driver's classes are literally there to protect other people from crashing in a metally, horrible death. And Leon, who's primary character trait is literally wanting to protect people, would loose his mind. It doesn't matter Luis is the just the most careful driver that's ever been. Its the principle.

Along the same lines as Leon wanting to be a cop, people head canoning Leon as a stoner makes me laugh. I think it's because they look at older versions of him and assume personality wise he smokes (which is still fun, btw).

But look at this baby. Resident evil 2 Leon has never broken a law in his life. This guy still thinks weed is a hard drug. He would leave a party if people were drinking underage. I don't care if he was only a cop for one day before that illusion got shattered, he doesn't touch a joint until he's at least 25. (You can convince me RE4 Leon smokes though)

🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

Back when I was actively writing my gravity falls fic monster falls, I had a wonderful idea to have a chapter set in town. I thought it would be cool if I had readers send me their OC's to fill up the background. I will. NEVER. do that again. It was fun, but that fic was so popular I got so many submissions and so many monsters I had to research to describe properly, because god FORBID I not research every monster people sent into me. Werewolves and shark mermaids were easy. But some of you..... some of you beasts (said with love) sent me the most obscure fucking folklore. To this day I know one of them had to be from an anime I still don't know

People who just sent me there fursonas and called them were-whatever animal still make me smile

🍦 ⇢ name three good things about a character you hate

God damn you. Fuck. Okay. I don't usually hate characters (dislike? yes, but they usually fit well in their world so I don't hate them) so I had to dig into the recessive of my brain for this one.

This is Sentinel Prime from transformers Animated. I haven't watched this show in probably... ten years? But I fucking hate him. Seethingly so. I got angry writing this. I hate him.

Great antagonist. Show sets him up as an annoying glory hound and makes the audience believe he will likely be due down the line for a redemption. Instead, his power hunger drives leads him into becoming a literal dictator being puppeted by the actual primary villian of the show. Don't be fooled- Sentinel is just as much a powerful antagonist in his own right. In my opinion, part of the reason Transformers Animated is remembered so fondly is because characters like Sentinel starting as irritating but almost allies. The irritating tendency to lie and cheat is treated as a character flaw and nothing more, and it ends being the very thing that throws their planet back into all out war.

Consistent. In a flash back, Sentinel ditches series protagonist Optimus and charcter Elita in the mines when they get attacked. Upon finding out Elita survived, albeit disfigured, instead of being relieved, Sentinel calls her gross to her face, even though his actions (or disactions, really) are what left her that way. For a second I thought this was going to be his moment of self reflection, but it absolutely was not. He's so buried into believing his own false retelling of the past he doesn't comprehend any of this as his own fault (at least, not out loud). And honestly, it's a great move. The writers really commit to the fact the Sentinel makes up his own truth, and once he does, he does not relent.

A very fitting critique for military nepotism babies? This was something that I didn't fully grasp as a kid, but as an adult looking back, the animated team really did a great job on Sentinel. He rose through the ranks through nepotism, making others take the fall for his mistakes, and funding war criminals to move him ahead; and it worked. The series was sadly cut short before their final season due to licensing issues, I would have loved to see the end of Sentinel's arc.

🍅 ⇢ give yourself some constructive criticism on your own writing

To start using an outline and then actually use the outline. But I should be realistic here. I think I would benefit from shorter piece lengths. I feel like I focus so much on the actions I want characters to take that I miss out on the opportunities to really describe feelings, environments.... sometimes, things just feel flat. My personal goal this year is to focus more on descriptive language and not just direction. Maybe now that I wrote that down I'll hold myself to it...?

Grif

For the character ask! Sorry this took me a while, I can't copy and paste on mobile, so I waited till I got on desktop tumblr! Thank you so much for asking about him, I could go on forever lol so this is gonna be fucking LONG. Please, anyone, feel free to ask about any other character, too. These are fun.

Why I like them: Grif is, for lack of a better word, complex. On one hand, it's like, okay he's just a funny comedy character. But on the other hand, he's like every all of my favorite archetypes of a character. He's crafty but stupid, selfish but selfless, antisocial but friendly, the straight man but the dramatic guy, he's snarky but oddly caring: the reluctant hero. It's kind of paradoxical, and I feel like not only do I relate to him, but I just really enjoy him overall. Whether it's because he's a good brother, being a complete dickbag because he doesn't know how to handle emotions, being a complete cynic on the battlefield, or being hyperactive and snappy, it's just... ah. He. Everything in his life just happens, and he has to deal with it, and yeah he'll kick and pout and probably eat everything but in the end, he's gonna choose his family and he cares deeply... even when he can't really show it.

Why I don’t: I see this a lot in myself too - the fact that he's impulsive and inherently negative when he speaks specifically. his words don't match his actions. He often doesn't hesitate when it comes to making negative comments because they are easier than saying something nice, but what his intentions are are completely different. in other words, he's a jerk, lol. Especially in season 15. I know people felt bad for him because he was partially right and went insane on Iris, but he lowkey deserved it. He said he hated his friends, and even his closest friend. He didn't want to admit that he was a good person just because he didn't want to help. yeah, it was valid, but he needs to learn how to make a case without fucking everyone emotionally and being so clammed up. >:/ sometimes it feels like he regresses in character, as much as he's matured. i guess that's realistic and just the writers making comedy, but also the way he handles Doc specifically irks me. so mean spirited for no reason, as funny as it is.

Favorite episode (scene if movie): OH MY GOD, okay, literally, every single episode with Grif starring as a main is fucking gold. I think for this I'm going to say, uh, This One Goes to Eleven. Even though it's not Grif-centric, it's the episode that's my favorite overall because it introduced me to RvB and made me like Grif right away, simply because he was attacked so much and I felt so bad for him. Another great one that sticks out right now in my sleep deprived state, is Grif does a Rescue. Augh. And the episode where Grif and Simmons get stuck underground in the caves.

Favorite season/movie: Season 8 (shotgun!!!, hyperactive ai grif), Season 11 (hanging in the canyon with simmons), Season 4 (the tank and blue simmons w/ grif), Season 5/6 (kai and rat's nest), Season 12/13 (the recruits, grif building the snowmen), Season 14 (backstory with simmons, Room Zero), Season 15 (you know why)

Favorite line: OK, don't make me choose. There are SO many that are good!!! I think one of my most favorite things that Grif says is "yoink!" It's so adorable! I also really enjoy "BLUEEE TEAAAAM SUCKKKKKS" with his epsilon double, the whole "invisible nap" scene, "what are we, on a date?"/"I can tell you what we weren't doing", "no one made me, I made me", "WERE GONNA FUCKING DIE" when charging at the meta, "that's a figure of speech?" [when carolina says im so hungry i could eat a horse is a figure of speech], "dexta grif he who shall not be messed with!"... I'm sure I'm missing a lot, he has SO many snarky funny lines, but these are some off the top of my head.

Favorite outfit: LOL THIS IS SUCH A FUNNY QUESTION BECAUSE THIS IS RVB. HAHAHA. Uh. Season 6 probably. I just like Halo 3 Graphics. Also s14 Room Zero because THEY DREW HIM FAT CANONICALLY. THANK YOU.

OTP: I'm with the majority of people in the fandom who like Grimmons! I think Grimmons is the only ship that I really vocally ship with my whole heart besides OC ships. I just very much enjoy their dynamic -- it's very angsty, dialogue full, intimate yet so unspoken. It's just a really good pair to write about and see the development of through canon. And, not to mention... season 15... hrk...

Brotp: I really REALLY want grif/tucker, grif/church, grif/locus BROTP. SO SO SO BAD. I've always seen grif and tucker as bros, grif and church are HILARIOUS together and we were ROBBED of more time together, and grif and locus are fucking adorable.

Head Canon: I have a lot of headcanons about Grif, but one of my favorite ones is that he has half-lidded eyes, like he's always sleepy. I also headcanon him as bisexual, though I think that is a popular headcanon!

Unpopular opinion: I dunno if I have super unpopular opinions about Grif... maybe that I think that his labryinth wasn't as bad as it seems at first? A lot of people seemed to think that though, yknow. Like if you look deeply into it, it's actually kinda fucked. But I feel like we should have gotten the Hawaii scene anyways. Hm. I also didn't like how they altered the canon so that Grif wasn't drafted. I think it does add something to his char that he chose to go, but I always really liked the aspect that Grif didn't control that, and yet he still did this on purpose. He was good on purpose.

A wish: A badass Grif carchase scene for the love of FUCK. We need to have him drive more stuff !!!!!!!!

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: Have him betray the reds -- i think every other red has betrayed the team at some point. please god for the love of god dont do this to grif. it really adds and says something about his character that he doesn't ever betray his team.

5 words to best describe them: (eye roll) eh. fuck it.

My nickname for them: this isn't really my nickname, since I mostly just call him grif -- but 'gif'. It's cute, and my QPP came up with it! I also really like dex. augh

hey Kip! I’m sending asks into different writer’s askboxes, inquiring about cool themes/development facts/stuff the author wants to share about their personal favorite work of their own. What’s yours? :)

Ok so this ask is old and when I first got it I was like “dang I don’t really have a lot to talk about, what should I talk about I could those revalink headcanons the Kip Cut that turned into a working fic uhh hmm maybe I’ll just make something new to talk about real quick” and then I did and now there is a 12+ chapter Revalink fic in my drafts and I’m gonna talk about that now, whoopsie doopsie [click "j" to skip]

aHEM, OK so allow me to break out the primary school white board because yeah, I have a lot of thoughts and the oxford comma has not yet made it’s home into my brain. oh and spoilers for paraphrase. for both all of Chapter one and future events in later chapters, but it’s really nothing you couldn’t surmise from the AO3 tags

so I really wanted to tell the story of Revali and Link learning and struggling to love again after the less-than-fortunate events of Botw, but I wanted a...how you say...fresher, approach on the subject? Like I know we always say that fanfic writers writing the same tropes and stories time and time again is good because we eat that shit up--but at the same time I had asian parenting as was told never to half ass anything ever, no matter what. So now I'm gay and extra and have depression maybe and oh would you look at that @motherhyrule has dropped a beautiful revalink prompt right into my lap

Great so now that we have, that, I shall take you on the step by step process on how to make a :sparkles: story. So step one is to spend at least five to eleven business days for your white board to dismantle your genre and themes and work them around your character arcs. Luckily I have prepared one ahead of time

s*breaks out those laser pointers that uni professors use* So let's start with defining genre. As define because I HATE you, fuck you. I want you to suffer and writhe on the ground, motherfucker. How dare you think that I would give you nothing but pure predictable fluff, fuck you and yours

is the set of expectations that your audience has when consuming a piece of media

And the great thing about fanfiction is that unlike movies or book where the genres are more vague like, "oh it's a noir mystery genre. so there's a crime, maybe a murder, and a detective and a criminal." or "oh it's a teen romance. so there's some white people and a morally questionable six-pack 18 year old love interest that will be painted as desirable for some reason" BUT with fanfiction HALF of the work out the window, because as soon as you see those #revalink #aro sidon #zelpha #revali is an idiot and #found family tags you already know what's up.

Now what's so great about genre and expectation? Well the fun thing about it is that

I will use it to fucking break you.

... ... ...

<3 For example! <3

In Chapter 1: Holes, you already expect there to be revalink, you already expect them to be soulmates with the soulmarks and there's angst and yadayada ya. Revali and Link have to match because thatttss what this is all about, this is about them! This is about cute, little soulmarks and romantic words!

But whoooopsie doopsie [disney channel laugh track plays] they DON'T match anymore! Link's got a different mark! The number one rule of this entire genre has been broken whoooooooooooooooops. *ba dum tiss*

You might notice with a lot of my writing that I do this a lot, this whole..."oop but there's one little thing that's different." TebaSaki sick fic? Ok cool, but what if Teba burns an irreplaceable relic of the Rito champion to fight a wizzrobe first to characterize why his dumbass clicks with Saki. Mipha deciding to persue Link? Ok what if she chases after a dragon to externalize this conflict as she pierces it's flesh for a scale. Link fighting a Lynel? Ok but what if it's actually a sidlink angst fic in disguise and it's also world building on how Link deals with the bloodmoon that erases all of his efforts which is sort of similar to how his existence was erased from Hyrule 100 years ago mwaahahaha! Ok now that I say this outloud I think I just have a pattern of using fight scenes to externalize character growth. I like fight scenes...anyways.

I think another great thing about the realm of fanfiction is that with the tagging system, I can basically use a chekhov's gun sort of deal, without doing any writing. You know I'm gonna use that gun marked "soulmates" but you don't know when I'm gonna shoot it, and you SURE as hell don't know how.

And huzzah! One of the main points of conflict both drives the tension between Revali and Link, solidifies the unique genre and setting of this world, while also creating a new mystery that will carry over for the next few chapters.

Is Revali right in that Link's rebirth makes him destined for someone new now? What will Link do with the information that his soulmark has changed? Why did it change? Did Revali's change as well? How does anything fucking work right now?

And sure, you might be able to tell where things will end with them, but you sure as fuck will not know how because I HATE you. Fuck you. I want you to suffer and writhe on the ground, motherfucker. How dare you think that I would give you nothing but pure predictable fluff. I am not your goddamn fairy godmother, I will do as I fucking please. You will suffer as you fucking deserve, fuck you and your little tiny--

/j

Oh! But you might have noticed on my little planning whiteboard thing that there was a little T-Chart! For Revali and Link! That's because the next important thing besides plot (and in a lot of cases, including this one, it's argued to be even MORE important than plot) is

~CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT~

[to the tune of that history of the world video on youtube]

So yes, it's a little T-Chart outlining their character views in relation to the themes. And the great thing about themes is that they're not something you can necessarily predict in the same way you can with the genre and plot.

But now see, I'm very lazy so I'm just gonna plagiarize @hyrule-kingdom-updates thingy [that you should read btw] because they said my point quite clear enough

Now I don't really need to care about those points about bond and relationships and being understood, because I'm dealing with already established canon characters. I'm not some NERD who dabbles with entire casts of ocs who even cares about ocs not me that's for sure ahaahahaahahahahahaahahahahahAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH *cries in my orphaned WTTU fic* AHAHAHA*sobs*DONT FUCKING LOOK AT ME THAT WAY I SWEAR--

/j I love ocs

But the points I do wanna focus on is the idea that characters provide new perspectives on the theme, and that characters growth can be tracked based on their wants, lies, and needs.

So see, themes can be predicted the same as genre/plot because while you can have the same fanfic plots and tropes, theme will always vary!

Sometimes it's a journey of selfworth with Revali! Sometimes it's an exploration of trauma with Link. Sometimes it's about how you deal with the vulnerabilities of love with Mipha. Sometimes there's straight up NOOOO theme, and people just be fucking, and kissing, and baking, and having a good time. And that is totally fine too!

But I'm not a fucking coward.

I'm gonna weave in themes with my plot, because I fucking can.

I'm not a weakling like you.

Do you hear me, 2019 Kip? Do you hear me Demmers? Do you hear me Quill? I'm coming for your ass. You think you're so great, but I'm coming for you. Rest assured that your graves will be as deep as your sculptured pride--

Heeeere is that T-Chart again, plus more!

yyyyyYou might notice that Revali and Link are quite parallel, to paraphrase. Ayoooo, see what I did there? *dabs* I'm a genius. Anywho

They both start off the same way: 100 years ago they were in love and happy. Basically the equivalent of childish naivety. For the first time in their lives, life is whimsical and charming, and they make each other happy. In fact, it's almost a flaw with how they perceive this happiness. But don't worry! It doesn't last long!

You know what happens.

I think the chart is pretty self explanatory. Revali builds walls fast enough to give a republican a wet dream. Meanwhile Link makes every aromantic in the chat groan with his doubled down sentiments in the idea that his chances of being truly happy again are gone.

Now, I can't exactly describe the full on process of the inbetweens, and where Revali and Link are gonna go from here, because...you have to read it for yourself! Heehee...but something I did think was fun was how these character views on the themes are revealed. Because you'll notice that, I never give exposition. Ever.

Ok well, let me rephrase that. I never give exposition scenes. I will never give you a big LOTR fancy wizard scene explaining the ins and outs of a character's question or the world's magic or whatever. I'm a very impatient Kip, and I value efficiency. Nonono, it's all about multi tasking, baby!

Chapter 1: Holes is divided into three parts.

Post 100 Years - Medoh (Establishes Ghost Rev/Bonk Head Link's view)

100 Years Ago - Flight Range (Establishes old Revalink views)

Post 100 years - Mark (Develops Ghost Rev/Bonk Head Link's view in contrast to who they once were)

I think the way that you structure flashbacks is incredible vital, as it's a very quick way to characterize people without having them say stuff like "I used to be like you, until I took an arrow to the knee" or whatever.

And with the main structure of the chapters and the fic as a whole is focus on their characters, that means I can hide whatever other stuff I want in those scenes, becuase you're too busy absorbing the fun character stuff to realizing I'm giving you boring exposition. Like for example:

Post 100 Years - Medoh and Mark

Foreshadowing for the end of the fic

Set up connection to Medoh with Revali

Link has defeated Windblight

Link has been visiting Revali every night for the past few days

Link has already met Kass and presumably Teba

Link doesn't have the Mastersword

Revali's Gale is still an ability that needs master and practice on Link's end

And that's just some of the stuff.

And see, the only reason I can efficiently give all of this information regarding character, and even exposition, is because of the theme. The themes make everything relevant, and everything circles and encompasses one another, so there's absolutely no wasted space. I mean don't even get me started on how it's gonna be to characterize the other characters around this

I don't wanna talk about the other characters too much either because that's spoilers, but you can probably take a gandar based on my notes.

And oh my god this is just on the theme of the faults that come with "soulmates" and "true love" and all that, and how even magical destined relationships still require work and effort, and that no one thing or person solves all your problems. And that's not even TOUCHING the shit on trauma and scars. I didn't think it was even possible for me to talk about botw without touching on that, ha. Ah well, I've been talking for too long.

Revalink has a lot o' writing potential so das pretty cool yeah, I am excite

OC Asks 3. How did you choose their name?

Also asked by @captainderyn​

Hahahahaha… okay, the short answer?: I’m an idiot. I didn’t realize I was going to love this game or this character as much as I did.

The long answer, well, I’ve alluded to it once or twice in the past, but I guess I should actually delve into it for real. But under a cut, because it’s probably going to get long.

I’m not sure if this should come with any kind of warning, but it’s kind of long and does delve into some personal stuff. So hopefully that doesn’t bother anyone!

Okay, so, when I first heard about this game in 2011, I had been out of fandom for several years, and had played a few MMOs here and there, but never really got into them for very long, mostly because I got bored very quickly with how repetitive they were. And then I read about this supposedly story and character-driven MMO, and I was intrigued. I was talking to my sister-in-law at the time about it, and ultimately realized I’d never be able to play because I didn’t have a PC capable of running it, and I was heavily into debt because of medical issues, to the point where I was having a difficult time affording my car payment, mortgage, and groceries.

So then Christmas rolls around, and my family has just about finished all of the presents when my brother and his wife go and bring in a special gift they’d been working on for several months: a frankensteined gaming PC that had one game installed on it, with several months of a subscription pre-paid: Star Wars the Old Republic

Needless to say, I was kind of bawling because no one had ever done something that nice to me before. And like? It’s kind of hard to describe what that previous year had been like without having a long, long side story but… it was difficult. It kind of sounds melodramatic to say it was hellish, but looking back on it? It kind of was. I was barely doing anything besides surviving, much less having fun. And here my sister-in-law had actually listened to a one-off conversation about how I was interested in this game but probably would never be able to play it, and like… took it upon herself to make that happen.

So of course the first thing I do is hook up my brand FrankenPC, load up the only game on it, and create a character! But it’s a MMO – and even though it’s billed on being story and character-based, I kind of don’t really believe it? Or at least don’t think my character is going to matter. So I do what I did with every other MMO, I used my online nickname to make a character (Greyias) so my friends can recognize me if they’re in-game, create a character that vaguely looks like me, and get to adventuring! 

The last name came when they rolled out legacies, and hey, I used “Highwind” for my short-lived Pirates of the Caribbean MMO toon. It’s also the last name for one of the main characters in my abandoned steampunk novel series, but that’s another story for another time.

(And then after about three days of learning the mechancis, re-roll said character on a different server, because OOPS! That wasn’t the server my brother and sister-in-law had started their guild on. She looked a little less like me this time. Probably should have changed the name, but I just wanted to see how the story turned out and eventually quest with my fam)

I realized my mistake around Coruscant when Kira joined up as a companion and I went “…uh oh.”

Because I’ve started to recognize I get a certain feeling when I like something, really like something to the point when I get… ideas. Story ideas. Character conversations and wondering “what if”. Of course, this is still in the open beta period, the game hasn’t even launched yet, there’s still long queues to log in and the grind is real, and I just want to see where this story is going and what Darth Angral is going to do, and why is this character so damn sincere and genuine and I don’t like characters that are the literal embodiment of sunshine, I like snarky snarksters and–oh. No I actually do like the Sunshine Jedi. A lot.

Now, a few of you may be like “I really don’t see what the problem is” – this is kind of an old school thing, and something that seems to have thankfully gotten a lot of pushback in the time since I had left fandom and the time since I rejoined it, and that is: The Dreaded Mary Sue

From about the time I had started writing fic when I was in my early teens and onwards it had been drilled into my head that Mary Sues were a bad thing. And self-inserts were worse. Especially if they were *gasp* FEMALE CHARACTERS. (We can’t have those girls having characters they identify with now, can we?) And like, those very relevant discussions aside, I was kind of… ashamed? That I had made a self-insert without realizing it? Despite the fact that like, the character that resulted from my playthrough was very much not me. Like, a significantly different person.

But I was starting to get story ideas and snatches of character bits, and like, I hadn’t written in so long, I hadn’t been inspired in so long. And honestly I just loved this little do-gooder goober, in all of her naive, happy-go-lucky glory. As well as her red-headed sidekick and this amazing dynamic that I had only really seen depicted between male characters previously. And so I promised myself if I got a story idea, I’d write it out and… just change Grey’s name to something else. So no one would know my secret crime, and I would be free, freeeee to scribble in the margins of canon.

It was a great plan, except, I had been playing with subtitles for the game on, so every time Grey would speak, her name would appear above it. And wouldn’t you know? I associated that name with that face, and well, I didn’t get that story idea yet, so it was. Fine I tell you. FINE.

I kept playing the game. In fact, I played the game a lot in the middle part of 2012, because wouldn’t you know? I had another round of medical issues that put me on short term disability and I actually had to retrain my body to sit in a chair for long periods of time (look, it’s a really long story, and this post is long enough as it is). So let’s just say… I got really attached to my little Sunshine Jedi who could go out and save the galaxy when I could barely walk a hundred feet.

And continued to play it off and on over the following years, until finally, finally the devs removed the grind wall in preparation for KotFE, and I was able to finish the Jedi Knight storyline and see where her story ended up. Then I played the next expansion on Makeb. Which was fun. Then I made the mistake that we all know I was eventually going to make: I played Shadow of Revan.

And met Theron fucking Shan. And my perfect little Jedi suddenly fell in love and oh crap. I’m escaping out of cutscenes to rewatch them. Like rewatching them an absurd amount of times. And as I’m going to sleep I’m like, getting entire bits of narration and brand new scenes and fic ideas in my head, and oh god. It finally happened. I try and resist the pull, but I play up through KotFE and I have no more story to stall any more. And the snippets just keep lulling me to sleep every night and… okay.

I probably need to rename this character now. Like, there’s an actual ability to do that in-game so I should get to it. Chop chop.

Nothing works. Nothing at all works. This should not be that hard, she can have any name, no one will know. Why can’t I think of a different name? I go to every single name site known to man, and none of them are her. Besides the fact, that’s her name, and I’m starting to feel kind of guilty for taking it away from her. Poor girl has been through so much in canon and now I’m taking away her name? What kind of monster am I? Okay, fine. I roll up a different Knight during the Dark vs Light event, gave that one an actual name that was not my online writer name just to see if I could trick my brain into writing about them.

Nope.

Maybe I’ll change my online name? “Let her keep the name Grey and I can just have a different name and…” – at this point I’m starting to realize I might be getting slightly neurotic over this whole thing.

Completely annoyed with myself for spending nearly a year trying to come up with a new name I’m starting to get desperate, thinking up ways to maybe just… write around it and not let people know her name until they maybe fall in love with her and hopefully just forget how it’s weird. That can work right? Okay, whatever at least I’m writing and it’s shutting these two up, and it’s all going good for several stories in and then suddenly I get to a scene that has more than one female character and I’m like “Shit… the jig is up.”

Meanwhile, I’ve started up a Dragon Age Origins playthrough, and like a dumbass, DO THE EXACT SAME THING with a female Cousland, and start whining to poor @for-the-flail on Twitter, on my fainting couch about how I can never write this character’s name because I named her after myself, and, bless her heart, she’s just like: “…um. Why?”

And I’m like “Because… we share a name… and that’s weird for people…?”

She goes “It’s not that weird. Why don’t you just write your stories? People will like them or not.”

And sheepishly, I realized she was right, and stopped being so diligent about hiding poor Grey’s name, and eventually, because you are all such lovely and encouraging people, eventually embraced it. (Come to think of it, I never did wind up writing about poor Cousland!Grey. Oops.)

So! That’s the long and ramble story of how she got her name and why it never changed despite my best efforts.

In summary: I’m an idiot 🤷‍♀️ but I think you guys love me anyway?

what are some under used marvel female characters youd love to see in the rpc?

HMMMOkay, so I’m trying to think OBJECTIVELY here and not just rattle off the female characters that I personally like, and more “I’m surprised that there’s not more blogs for this character, whether or not I personally am a fan” ....because I missed the “you’d love to see in the RPC” bit because I’m dumb, and then I wrote this whole list without regards for that part. So this came out as less “female characters I personally want” (who would all be stupidly obscure and irrelevant anyway) and more “female characters I think the RPC should give some more love to, whether I personally am into them or not”:Definitely ALL the girls in the New Mutants and Generation X! I see a fair few blogs for Magik and Jubilee, but I really don’t see any for the others. I get why Magik is going to be more popular---she’s in more stuff, she’s currently much more relevant in the comics, and her backstory is so goddamn compelling---but that doesn’t mean the others shouldn’t have ANY blogs out there. Wolfsbane, Magma, Karma, and Moonstar are all extremely complex and compelling characters with their own struggles and triumphs too, and I think they deserve just as much love. Likewise, I get why Jubilee will naturally get more blogs than Husk, Monet, and Penance (depending if you count Penny as a separate character or not...) due to her being in more stuff, having bigger arcs, etc. But it still surprises there’s NO blogs around for those ladies! I know there was that Monet blog awhile ago, and @badmusesdoitwell had an Amara that’s now part of their multimuse, as well as a Rahne, but that’s still nowhere near enough love in the RPC for these Junior X-Ladies, in my opinion. Speaking of Generation X, I’m also a bit surprised no one has picked Cordelia Frost up, given that we’ve got plenty of background canon for her via Emma’s history yet Cordelia herself has LOTS of room to go nuts with headcanons, like it’s just the perfect opportunity! And I’m sure lots of Emma blogs, of which there are MANY, would love their little sister around for some family threads. Fuck, I would pick her up myself if I were more into Emma and the Frost family as a whole. She’s hardly the most relevant, recent, or even interesting character around, she’s done very little and shown up very briefly, but the fact she’s related to Emma Frost makes me think SOMEONE would have an interest in her.Madelyne Pryor, for sure. Like, I love Maddy, but it’s not just my favoritism talking here. I think she’s pretty decently well-known in the comics fandom, and she’s a tragic villain, which usually pulls people in big-time. She’s got a grudge against the good guys, and it’s actually more legitimate than most, which I’d think would also attract people, since a lot of villains fans like to blame the good guys no matter what and THEY’D ACTUALLY HAVE A GOOD ARGUMENT HERE? Plus she has very strong connections to other, more popular canons, with a ton of fodder for angst and drama threads, which people just LOVE. I have seen a few Maddy blogs pop up in the past, and I always get so excited, but they never seem to last very long :CDr. Moira MacTaggert deserves ALL the love and respect in the world/fandom! She’s been a staunch supporter of mutants since day one, she’s a total badass, she’s super smart, she calls Xavier out on his shit ALL THE TIME, she’s the survivor of an abusive husband, she had to make terrible choices about her son that no mother should ever have to and then live with the consequences of those choices, and SHE GOES AFTER A KELPIE WITH A GODDAMN MACHINE GUN! She’s been a part of the X-Men comics for such a long time, and is very significant in them, it really surprises me that I’ve never seen a blog for her besides just ONE and it was for the XMCU sexy American CIA agent Moira, who is NOT Moira in my book and NEVER WILL BE. Speaking of, Moira will ALWAYS be human to me, I think making her a mutant all along REALLY undermines a big part of her character as just an unyielding mutant ally. Though I think her being human, combined with being an older female who isn’t anyone’s love interest (unless she’s, gasp, getting in the way of CHERIK aka the ultimate fandom sin how dare she the harlot -.-), is probably WHY she’s so damn ignored -.-Frenzy hasn’t been in THE most recent stuff, but she’s still been relevant recent enough that I think one or two blogs around would have happened if she weren’t black. Yeah, I hate to be THIS person, but any black character who isn’t Storm doesn’t get love, for all that the RPC likes to yell about being diverse and progressive. Remember all the Captain America and Iron Man and Hulk and Quicksilver blogs that popped up after their movies? Yeah I saw like ONE T’challa blog after Black Panther came out. Then again, I’ve yet to see blogs for Pixie or Firestar either, who are white, and I feel like they both were fairly interesting and well-known in fandom? Same for the Academy X girls like Sofia Mantega, Mercury, and Wallflower. Luna Maximoff FOR SURE. It SHOCKS me I haven’t see more than a couple short-lived blogs around for her, just given her family connections. Now, I don’t think a character deserves love just because of who they’re related to---in fact it annoys me when a characters gets a ton of attention and it’s very obviously just for that---but Luna has SO MUCH going on? The problems between her parents, her mother being absent so much, her father exposing her to the Mists, dealing with her powers, being a child of two very different worlds and cultures, it just goes on and on. Luna has had to grow up so fast, she’s such a strange and stoic child as a result, and though her situation is very fantastical, having to be the mature one at an early age because all the adults in your life won’t be is something a lot of people have to cope with and I think would find relatable; I especially love how she lives in this world where there’s no bad guys, like neither Crystal nor Pietro were the villains in her situation, just hurting messed up people, which she also recognized in Magneto and maybe also even Maximus . And there’s so much that could be explored with her too that hasn’t been in canon yet---for instance, her choice to identify with her Inhuman heritage and why that is, and the journey of identifying with your heritage but also looking at the horrible things in their history, I think that’s a story that a LOT of people from MANY backgrounds can relate to. It surprises and frustrates me that both writers and fandom don’t really seem to care about her or remember she exists; one the only two blogs I ever saw for her seriously got someone asking them “why would you make such a weird OC” like SERIOUSLY! Luna needs more love, big time. Any female Avenger that’s not Wanda or Natasha. I don’t read Avengers, I’m just an X-Men fan, but I know they exist and they shouldn’t have to be in a movie to get love. Ditto for She-Hulk, I’m not a Hulk reader but I know she’s a prominent character who has been around a long time and has a very developed personality and stories of her own, yet I’ve only ever seen her on @getreadytosmash‘s multi. I’ve also never really read Alpha Flight, but its main ladies ---Snowbird, Aurora, Vindicator---all seem awesome in their own different ways. Alpha Flight isn’t very popular to begin with, of course, so I don’t expect them to have as many blogs as, say, major X-ladies, but I think one apiece or so would be very justified.KWANNON!! I actually get why we didn’t have any blogs for her BEFORE now, because we knew NOTHING about her, she was just a very tragic prop for Betsty’s body-swap plot and a way to give her insta-ninja-skills, but now she’s come back and has HER OWN NEW SERIES in which we’re finally learning who she is and her background, I hope to see a blog or two around for her eventually!Destiny aka Irene Adler. Like. Do I even need to explain WHY? I think people just don’t want to play an OLD woman, especially one whose primary/only ship is going to be with another woman.Maaaaybe Clea Strange? I don’t know shit about her, never read Dr. Strange, but like, people make blogs for Sigyn literally just because she’s Loki’s wife, and Clea at least seems to like...DO stuff? IDK, not sure on this on, but figured I’d make an honorable mention.Siryn, Boom Boom, and Dr. Cecilia Reyes are all X-Ladies that I really don’t know much about. Like I know basic things like their powers but I don’t know their story arcs and such. But as with Clea and the Avengers ladies and She-Hulk, I just have a HUNCH there’s a lot there getting ignored by fans.Silhouette Chord is a longtime member of The New Warriors, and, like Alpha Flight, New Warriors doesn’t really have a fanbase on Tumblr to speak of, so it’s not surprising to me she’s not got any love here. And even within the pages of her own comics, she’s generally pushed aside, underused, and underdeveloped compared to the other characters, generally more a prop for her boyfriend’s stories than anything else. But she DOES have a personality, a REALLY cool backstory, and she’s like...look, the RPC claims to love diversity and representation and all that, right? Silhouette is a mixed-race WOC (half Black, half Cambodian, and I have NEVER seen another Marvel character of Cambodian heritage who wasn’t connected to her) who is also very visibly physically disabled, her legs are completely paralyzed and she is never without her braces/crutches, yet she still fights PHYSICALLY (something very rare for physically disabled characters, they usually are more like Oracle or Prof X) and is depicted in a sexual relationship, and there’s never any kind of fuss or angst about it or anything treating her as delicate or less than or anything like that. She’s just completely adjusted to it in a way that’s very rare in media. And like I said, she’s not a flat character, I’m not saying she should be more popular just for ticking off the diversity boxes, she manages to be really intriguing to me despite how little focus the writers give her, and I think that she and the other New Warrior girls (Firestar and Namorita) have a lot to offer the RPC. But I have to give a special shoutout to Sil since she’s my fave, as the neglected ones alway are.Meggan Puceanu is probably most familiar to folks here as Kurt’s love interest in Age of X, but she’s been around since the 80s. She’s a longtime member of Excalibur, and she’s just...fascinating. She’s a Romanichal mutant (though often hinted to have magical/mystical heritage too, perhaps fairy like Pixie) who has empathic, elemental, and shapeshifting capabilities. However, her empathic and shapeshifting tend to overlap, so she changes her form (and her mind) according to the feelings, fears, and desires of others. So for instance, there’s this one time where a group of men are checking her out, and she feels that “They love me...I want...to love them in return!” and she morphs into this sexxed-up version of hersef on the spot. This isn’t played for kinkiness or laughs either; Meggan’s identity struggles are a HUGE part of her character. She has no idea who she is because her powers make her reflect and respond to the feelings of others around her, internally and externally. She doesn’t even know what she actually really LOOKS like because of this; her powers were present since birth, causing her to grow fur instantly as an infant due to it being winter. This caused her parents to keep her locked up in the camper trailer, where she was raised alone with the TV (she’s also illiterate, which causes her to feel dumb a lot) and as more and more people around her spread rumors about the monstrous child inside, she psychically absorbed those beliefs and her physical form changed to reflect them, making her more and more monstrous as she got older. She didn’t know she was a shapeshifter, she just really thought she was a hideous monster. And even when she found out the truth, she STILL didn’t know what she really looked like, as the beautiful form she took on (basically Pamela Anderson with elf ears) was to please her boyfriend Captain Britain (whom she is really unhealthily dependent on starting out because of her situation)Meggan is insecure, she doesn’t know who she is, she has to cling to a man in order to have anything because no one else has ever loved her, she easily becomes jealous of other women near him, she gets made fun of for being a bimbo and she often feels she is because she can’t read or understand “clever words” due to her isolated upbringing...and she gets through this! She develops! She becomes STRONGER and she becomes SECURE and she gains CONTROL of her powers and SHE KICKS ASS and she FORMS AN IDENTITY!  And then Meggan SACRIFICED HER LIFE to buy time for Captain Britain, Psylocke, and Rachel Summers to repair the tear in reality caused by House of M. She ends up lost between dimensions and TRAPPED IN HELL, where she uses her empathy to rally the lesser demons against THE LORDS OF HELL ITSELF and wages a war IN HELL for which her demon followers dub her “Gloriana” and she forms a sanctuary there called “Elysium” where souls can escape torment!  AND THEN SHE FINDS HER WAY HOME!THIS WOMAN KICKED ASS IN HELL AND WON!! Like she just goes through SUCH an arc, and I admit I have not read it myself yet, she’s on my list of characters to read EVERYTHING on and I’m still only familiar with her very insecure Excalibur days (which I love a lot, I just feel so much for Meggan and her struggles, I think she’s very much a reflection of a LOT of real-world issues, ranging from mental illnesses to just EXISTING as a woman) but I already have a ton of feelings about her and I think she’s more than prominent and accomplished enough to merit more attention in the RPC. And this is less of an “actually has reasons the RPC should love her” character, because really there’s no reason they should, she’s not prominent or relevant or or anything, but more an interesting “did you know”---did you know there was a “young female Wolverine clone” in the comics BEFORE Laura Kinney? Avery Connor! She pre-dates Laura by a year and has a VERY similar story, yet she never took off in popularity and very few people know her. You can read about her HERE on my Marvel blog. Again, would not say there’s actually any reason she’s earned love from the RPC like, say, Meggan or Luna, but I just thought I’d toss that in as a tidbit for the Logan family fans, as I know there are many.(Also, cheating because these are dudes, but: I’m not a Banshee fan but I am surprised I’ve never seen a blog for him, nor for Sunfire. Or for 616 Pyro. Or...)

Unpopular Ben 10 Opinions (Warning: Very Unpopular)

- UAF!Ben was boring. He had no personality besides being mature, and then the writers gave him back his old flaws to make him more interesting it failed

- UAF!Gwen was also pretty boring. She had no temper or quirks to play off of Ben anymore and she acted like a mom more than a teenager

- The humor in UAF was painfully average and nowhere near the levels of genuine hilarity like the OS and OV

- Both Maltruant and Aggregor are Villain Stues.

- Ma Vreedle is a Creator's Pet. Never got any actual comeuppance, somehow treated as a bigger threat than Vilgax, oh and she made him cry. Vilgax had to be made OOC just to make this alien redneck look like a competent villain

- The Vreedle brothers should have remained good

- I'm annoyed with the fact that Kevin was the only villain to get a completed redemption arc

- Turning Will Harangue into an alien was a pretty shitty move. Now I don't like the guy at all, but altering someone's DNA permanently just to prove a point is just fucking awful. Remember the DNAliens? That's exactly what they tried to do in AF, and they were the Nazi allegory.

- There should have been a team called the Substitute Plumbers (consisting of minor characters)

- There should have been a new version of the Negative 10, and not just with old members but with new characters

- OV!Sunny's design is one of the most laziest in the series

- Green Lantern was the wrong choice for Ben's opponent in Death Battle.

- AF should have stuck with the original idea of Ben and Gwen training the next generation of heroes.

- There should have been focus episodes of other characters

- There was a missed opportunity to add Gwen's brother as the normal one of the team

- Cooper should have been the one to cure Elena. Think about it, he has technokinesis, it was a perfect opportunity to give him more development as well as a way to show how she got cured

- Speaking of Elena, I feel that her sudden Yandere was both OOC and done solely to make Julie look better in comparison

- Julie was bland. Even her mechamorph had more personality than her. But she was leagues above Kai

- I regard the OS (Ken 10) future as different from the OV future

- Herve gets too much hate

- Alan Albright would have made a good main character

- I ship Clyde Five and Nyancy Chan because of an idea I had for my Jo/Ben fanfiction

- OV!Ben should not have been dumbed down to make Rook more competent

- Yes, my OC would make a better romantic partner than Kai

Update: MORE OPINIONS!! 6/10

- When I read that Derrick J Wyatt wanted to do a Blukic and Driba spin-off, I cringed and nearly barfed because those two were obnoxiously annoying

- There's nothing wrong with Ben 10k being muscular. Nobody got on Goku's case when he got buff. I've been seeing a lot of backlash over 10k's muscles lately, saying that it doesn't fit an Adult!Ben. Leave 10k alone! He's hot and sexy okay? Honestly I'm tired of grown-up characters looking and acting exactly the same as their younger selves. Just let me fantasize w/o shame!

- Ben 10 on DeviantArt is more of a cesspool than Sonic fanart. I'm sick of having to go through someone's old Gwen child porn just to find good and creative fanart that doesn't involve sex or a weird fetish

- Humungosaur was lame

- Four Arms should have been the one to die by Malware's hands since he was canonically Ben's favorite; would have left way more impact

- The Ultimate Kevin arc was terrible

- I never liked the idea of Ben having a harem

- I'm indifferent to Omniboyfriends (Ben x Rook)

- The Tumblr side is way more mature than the Forum side of the fanbase

- Rook should have been the one to get Excalibur

- Even though I'm a die-hard fan, I can barely remember Ben's aliens through memory

- I'm sad that I never get any asks 😢

- Vilgax should have been OV's endgamd villain, not that overgrown Easybake Oven

- Hex's Redemption arc was lazy because it wasn't actually an arc

- I see Charmcaster as Chaotic Neutral if she ever gets any redemption arc

- The reboot isn't that bad

- Reboot!Michael is a much more intimidating villain than his classic self

- I don't mind UA!Ben 10k

- Ben 10 isn't the type of cartoon to be dark and edgy, but at the same time not overly sugary like a preschool show

- I find Articguana's voice cute in the OS and OV; yes his OS voice is adorable

- OV!Devlin is a Gwevin kid and his Osmosian and Anodite heritage cancel each other out

- Argit being president would be fine if he wasn't such an obnoxious Creator's Pet

- I would sacrifice my life to save Xlr8

- Alien X isn't that powerful.

- The worst character imo is Collectimus

- OV!Zak Saturday was my senpai*

- Transformers Animated takes place in the same future as OV!10k due to having the same creators

- There should have been a couple of episodes exploring Ben's school life

- I would let Four Arms punch me and I will say thank you

- Ghostfreak wasn't that scary to me as a kid but I still wouldn't let him in the house as an adult

- Ben looks good in red. He wears too much green

- The Andromeda Five needed more screentime

- Animo was one of the better villains and funny too

- The coolest or prettiest alien designs imo are: XLR8, Benwolf, Ultimate Echo Echo (think that's his name), Swampfire, Cannonbolt, Pesky Dust, Big Chill, Feedback, Waybig, and Xylene

- Xylene should have been a recurring mentor character; she was one of the most wasted characters on the whole show

- The OV!Saturdays are fine. Though I wish they'd kept Mrs. Saturday's hairstyle

- Julie's OV design is ugly because she looked like an Asian caricature. All they needed to add was a cone hat. 🙄

- On the other side I liked Elena's OV design because they didn't whitewash her like UAF and retained her cool designs aesthetic than generic science lady

- Pierce's death should have been handled better

- I would have loved to see more magical and mutant characters for world-building purposes

- If I'm gonna be honest here: who actually ships BenKai? 🤪

- I would like to say thanks to all the people who like my Ben 10 posts, and who like my Jora Holiday concept. You guys are awesome

- Okay the title is kinda click bait because I know I would get more views for opinions that actually aren't unpopular 😂

Five@Five: @kaci3po

As a part of our author spotlight, we’ve asked each writer to highlight 5 fics and tell us a little about their experience writing (or reading) them.

Modified Aspect Ratio by @sabrinachill

“So how is this possible? This is supposed to be 1960s America and we’re…” He trips over finishing that sentence, over saying the word married to Eliot.

Eliot has no such qualms.

“No one at the office thought our marriage was strange at all. Apparently the monster is as tired as we are of seeing predictable, homophobic bullshit on TV.”

“Huh.”

“Yeah.”

This fic made the hiatus bearable and we are blessed as a fandom to have it.

spring sooner than the lark by @greywash

Eliot stares up at the ceiling. Silent.

He is peculiarly aware of his heartbeat. Its warm, trembling instability under his skin. Quentin is so warm, so solid, so present beside him: his one perfect, compact little anchor.

"You're not—stuck with me, Q," he says; and Quentin barks out a laugh.

"Oh, I—definitely am," Quentin says, "but if you think that's why I asked you to—why I've been. Fucking all in, on you and me, for the past—God, ten fucking years, while you—helped me raise our son and fell in love with my wife—I'm not pining for Earth, Eliot, I'm in love with you."

I admire the hell out of this style of writing. It's so punchy and says so much with very tight, compact sentences. Plus it's turned out to be weirdly accurate to canon since 4x05.

Make a list of things you need by @longnationalnightmare

“What’s wrong?” Eliot said as Quentin was contending with that startling vision. He smirked and added, in a slow, condescendingly jokey tone, “Do you not think I’ll be a good fake husband? Because I promise—”

“Shut up,” Quentin finally actually said, and couldn’t follow it up with anything else because his breath was caught in his throat. He wished he could explain it: why it was so horrible to watch Eliot lean placidly against a wall and smirk in the face of marrying someone he didn’t choose.

The way Eliot looked right now—it was the same way he looked when he said things like, “Some people need their families,” ashing a cigarette in a careless, supercilious way that screamed, not me, of course, thank God. Eliot was like that with everything: acting as if it were better to make a joke about the impossibility of having something nice than it was to say, simply and plainly, I wish I could have it. I deserve it.

This fic is so lighthearted and fun. Eliot and Quentin have to get married Because Fillory which is one of my favorite tropes. This fic is a joy to read.

Shell Game by Giddygeek

“This is like a fairy tale,” Eliot said. “The sleeping prince, alone in his curse’d bower.”

Quentin’s body lay in Quentin’s bed. He wasn’t in the pose of a fairy tale prince, peacefully on his back, arms at his sides like a corpse in its coffin—like Sleeping Beauty. He was on his stomach, one leg drawn up, his face mashed blankly into his pillow. His pillow had a drool spot. The room was dark, and too warm, and everything seemed entirely normal, except for the fact that Quentin had never been outside of his body watching it sleep before.

It was enough to make Quentin sit down hard on his one uncomfortable chair. Dust rose around him. He bent forward, his elbows on his knees, and tried to take a deep breath.

“I’m in a coma,” he wheezed.

Eliot poked his shoulder. “A magical coma. There’s always a way out of those, Q. Maybe you just need true love’s kiss or something.”

“True love’s kiss.” Quentin sank lower, forehead almost on his knees. Eliot’s knees. He missed having his curtain of long hair to hide behind. “I’m a goner.”

This fic is so good. So very, very good at mixing humor and genuine emotion. I love everyone in this story, from the main characters down to the background OCs. It's just so well done and put together.

All's fair in love and war by @numinousnumbat

“Hi, I’m Eliot,” the man said standing in front of Quentin. He was wearing a suit with a flowered vest. It wasn’t what Quentin thought an epic quest outfit would look like exactly, but it was closer than his own getup. If only he owned more than black pants and t-shirts.

“Hi,” Quentin said, looking up at Eliot. He glanced to his right where the two new women were doing the magical equivalent of pulling pigtails against Julia and Alice.

“I did not flirt with a librarian to let you have our key,” Alice yelled.

“I’d flirt with you so hard that you'd forget what you were looking for,” said the other woman, who was somehow walking on sand in heels.

Quentin turned back to Eliot. “We should probably just let them figure it out amongst themselves, right?”

“Yeah, I’m wearing vintage cufflinks, so I’m avoiding magical battles today,” Eliot said. He reached out and brushed some coconut off Quentin’s shoulder. Stupid exploding locator spell.

This fic is such glorious, hilarious crack. It's an AU where half the characters don't know each other and keep running into each other and having meet-cutes while searching for the keys. I re-read this fic often when I just want to have a good laugh after a long day.

 Hello everyone! Yui here, with today’s special feature, DDLitG Behind the Scenes: What’s the deal with Ako?

In this special update we’ll talk about her character in general, design, her place in the story, and more! So get comfortable in your seat, get yourself some good snacks, and let’s delve into the background of DDLitG’s 1st-ish original character~

Who is Ako?

Ako, formerly known as “female student”, was originally one of the many NPCs used by the game’s engine to fill its world with nondescript background characters, so as to make it feel less empty. However, Sayori took a special interest in her, and decided to befriend her, following the steps of a young MC who befriended Sayori in a similar situation and ended up saving her life. This would in turn allow Ako to grow as a character beyond her 1 line of coding and get her own sprites, as well as being able to interact with the world. She would later go on to fall in love with Sayori and shenanigans ensue.

Ako was created with the purpose of telling the story of the Friendship arc.

Designing Ako.

Let me make one thing clear: I’m not a character designer. I don’t know jack about it besides the very basics. But I did try to make someone who looked mildly original and, most importantly, different from the other girls.

Originally, she was going to be the image of a shy, fragile girl who Sayori befriended out of pity, more than anything. Based on this initial idea, I made this beta Ako design on one of my copybooks when I should’ve been working:

As you can see, her very first sprite was the one where she’s shyly looking away to avoid eye contact (and to seem annoying, but more on that later). I was happy with the pose but not with her face, as it looked super unoriginal. She resembled Ochako Uraraka from My Hero Academia a bit too much, so I tried to change her hair to make her stand out more. Here is her second iteration:

This time, I felt like I cranked it up too much to the other side. Now she stood out TOO much. Her hair felt like it came more from a protagonist than someone who’s supposed to be a background character. I adopted a new philosophy after seeing this result: she had to look as bland as possible. She had to be the kind of character you see all the time in the background of an anime - those simple, unassuming designs you’d never look twice at because you’re too focused on the protagonists with candy-coloured hair. In DDLitG’s canon she’s a filler NPC brought to the forefront, and her design had to reflect that more than my desire to make her look “cool”.

With this in mind, we come to Ako v0.3

As you can see, this is much closer to her current design. But this was still a sketch (even the drawing above is very much unfinished). As you can see, I got closer to her 0.1 version with the hair, but changed the eyes to make them look more unique, giving her that more neutral, “nothing” expression. Having finally found some ground I was comfortable with, I redefined her design a little further, gave her some more details around the hair and clothes, adjusted the proportions of her body (because apparently I draw heads huge), and made her finalized design.

I was happy.

What’s with this sassy... monochrome child?

If there’s one constant to be found in the pictures above, is that she was always meant to be black and white. There are plenty of reasons, which I’ll list because, honestly, there are a lot.

1. I didn’t want to look her like the rest of the cast at fucking all. She is an OC introduced in a story with already established characters made by a much more talented writer. She’s an outsider, someone who doesn’t belong with this cast of colorful characters, and I wanted readers to be able to tell that at first glance. No, she’s not like the other girls. They don’t belong in the same place. She is not a member of the original DDLC cast, and it shows.

2. I know I can’t draw as well as Satchely, so trying to copy DDLC’s art style would just end up looking awkward and wrong. I had no choice but to do my own thing. And if I’m doing my own thing, why not take it all the way? I already gave myself artistic freedom, I might as well go crazy with it~

3. I just adore characters in a fictional universe that look different from the rest of the cast or have some strange design choice for literally no reason. Like Krillin from Dragonball, with his eyes that make him look like he belongs in an entirely different manga...

...or even Jotaro Kujo, whose hat merges with his hair because why not!

I live for dumb crap like that.

4. A huuuuuge inspiration for me while writing (besides my own uninteresting life) is music. Many times I listen to a specific track or imagine situations with specific background music to make them seem more real, and be able to better portray the feelings of a scene when writing [For example, I listened to My Chemical Romance’s Welcome to the Black Parade a lot while writing Monika’s Death].

Ako’s creation was no exception. Her appearance was partially based on the cover for not only one of my favorite Vocaloid albums of all time, but one of my favorite albums period: Wowaka’s glorious Unhappy Refrain.

I’ve been writing stuff based on this album alone for years because it’s just so damn striking to me. The picture of the faceless schoolgirl falling into the unseen abyss, the background uninterested characters that imply they are used to seeing fellow girls suffer, the distorted world they live in, the album’s way to explore teenage depression, the freaking name of the album, EVERYTHING! IT’S SUCH A GOOD EXPLORATION OF THE DIFFICULT LIFE TEENS FACE THAT OFTEN GOES UNNOTICED!! AAAAAAHHHH IT’S SO GOOD.

5. Ako was also based on a previous design I made for another character meant for an original visual novel I was writing and I’m probably never going to finish, who was also going to be monochromatic to reference this album (in that context it made more sense though cuz every character was a musical reference).

This character, in turn, was based on Monoko from Yume Nikki, which is more obvious because of her crying eye and extra arm.

So basically at this point it would’ve been weird if I hadn’t made her monochromatic.

Naming Ako

This was one of the most difficult parts, ngl.

As I mentioned, Ako was originally going to be a fragile, shy girl. Based on this, her original name during the design face was Moromi, which is one more letter than “Moroi”, which Google translate promises me means “Brittle” or “Fragile” in Japanese.

However, after the philosophy change that happened during her conceptual stage, “Fragility” was no longer at the core of her character, as it was now “Nothingness/Blandness”. Because of this, I changed her name to “Ako”.

Many people have submitted their interpretations of the name, ranging from its meaning “To teach/to learn”, and “To yearn for”, which all fit better than the original tbh.

The intended meaning is for “Ako” to be read as “A-Ko”, which is a way by which Japenese media often refers to filler characters, as it translates to “Girl A”.

Examples of this can be seen in Super Danganronpa 2, where a character in a videogame is called “A-Ko” to hide their identity...

...and in a movie called “Project A-ko”, which was a parody of the anime tropes from the time, so they gave the protagonist the most generic name ever. The antagonist and side character, by the way, are called “B-Ko” and “C-Ko” respectively. This movie is fucking awesome.

This name also made sense in the context of the story, because we already had a character named “Student A”, so this goes to show that the game just gave Ako the default name it had stored for female NPCs.

Blinded Ako, or How I Learned to Convey Emotion Through Ahegao

When I came up with Ako, she was meant to have most of her character revolving around her infatuation with Sayori. She was, after all, written in the story with the purpose of falling in love with her, and nothing else. Her character, personality, likes/dislikes, and hobbies came afterwards. As the story progressed, however, I decided that she should have a personality separate from just being in love with another character. So to separate the actions she committed under the influence of her passion, I did a little design change in the middle of the arc: Blinded Ako.

In this version, Ako has been literally blinded by love and stops being rational. This is represented by the hearts covering her eyes, and clouding her judgement. This was done not only with the purpose of representing she was past her breaking point, but also to differentiate the Ako that makes mistakes with the Ako that was introduced in the beginning of the arc. Almost so as to make them two different characters, so when she is reintroduced as a regular character after Friendship, readers could think “oh, she’s not going to do dumb stuff again, she’s not blinded by love anymore.”

Many people compared the above panel with “ahegao”, a trope in hentai manga where a character does a silly face to represent them breaking from enjoying themselves so much. This was done partially on purpose. The main idea was to represent Ako being blinded by her infatuation for Sayori, not to equate her sate of being with anything sexual. It DID end up looking more hentai-esque than I expected though, as, well, Ako is in black and white, and the heart eyes are also a trope in ahegao. And she’s sweating. And she’s saying that she’s about to break....

.....

....well at least I drove my point home.

Ako’s musical influences

Above I mentioned how music was a big part of my inspiration, and how I listened to Welcome to the Black Parade while writing Monika’s Death, so the question in no one’s mind is: what music did Yui use as inspiration for Ako’s character and the arc? 🤔

Well, hypothetical reader, the answer is that since Ako was meant to be bland and flavour-free, her original depiction is not based on a song or anything. Her desperation towards Sayori and Blinded Ako, though, are based on TRONICBOX’s 80′s style remix of Ariana Grande’s Into You. And yes, this 80′s remix in specific. Not the original song. I highly encourage you to give it a listen and pay attention to the lyrics if you want an insight into how Ako was feeling during her breaking point.

Also, as a side note, no one has asked me this, but I imagine Ako’s voice to sound like the vocals of Panty and Stocking’s ending, Fallen Angel. It’s a truly beautiful song, and once again, I highly encourage you to give it a listen and pay attention tot he lyrics if you want an insight in Ako’s current feelings towards Sayori.

Ako’s reception

This is more something personal than an explanation of the character, but it’s something I want to share nonetheless.

Remember when I said Ako was meant to be annoying? Yeah... xD

When I decided to add a new character I did so under the idea that everyone was going to hate her, because it’s a purposefully boring OC made by some insane person with the sole purpose of being added to an already interesting and loved cast of characters just to fuck everything up.

The first scene I ever wrote for Ako was the part where Monika asked if she had hurt Sayori, and she said “Not intentionally...” while looking away, which is why her first sprite ever was in that position. She was meant to make people feel frustrated over this girl just looking away from her problems and avoiding responsibility, while also telling Monika to her face that she had done something bad to Sayori. Readers were expected to hate her. That’s why in the beginning she says she doesn’t like literature, to assure you that she’s not joining the literature club. That’s why there’s a scene where she gets punched in the face. That’s why she looks so extremely out of place.

YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO DISLIKE HER!! omg I’m still surprised at how warm the reception was, you guys are just too nice for me~ ❤️

Because of the unexpected reception I had to change some parts of the arc, which were originally going to be much crueler towards her [I even questioned adding the punch at all, but it was an important part of Monika’s development so I felt it]. I also established her as a recurring character in spite of her dislike of literature, and did my best to make her less hate-able than she was originally going to be, even cutting some planned lines of dialogue that made her pretty irredeemable. Looking back, I am glad I did those changes, we ended up with a well-liked and pretty nice girl because of it~

Final thoughts

The introduction of Ako and writing Friendship in general was a very intense experience for me. It was very difficult to balance Ako as being both relevant to the story and moving the plot forward, but not make her the sole focus of everything and have her obscure everyone else, because OCs in established pieces of media tend to do that.

This arc also got a LOT of mixed reviews, some people liking it, some hating everything I did. This made me really question what I was doing and at many points even regret I was writing Friendship at all. At a certain point I lost almost 50 followers in a single update.

I also had trouble writing some parts because they were too sad. And that’s not my style! I like writing happy people being good friends, damn it, not everyone crying and hating each other.

But when all is said and done, I’m happy I wrote both Friendship and Ako into the story. I’ve received many wonderful, supportive messages telling me how much readers enjoyed it. Even some people saying they had been in a similar situation to the one depicted in the story, and were glad to see a story that showed a positive outcome.

Will I write more OCs into DDLitG?

Meh, who knows. I love writing more original stuff and expanding the world of DDLitG, but I also feel like if I introduce yet another OC, people will crucify me and hate me for flooding the story with too much stuff that’s irrelevant to the DDLC they’re used to. That being said, writing this blog is my first, and very possibly last chance to expose my stories to such a large audience. And seeing people like what you do not only because you’re riding the coattails of a recognizable brand, but because they like what you do with it, makes me pretty darn happy. Being completely honest, I’d like to add another character. But just one. And only if it’s something that will push both the story and the girls’ character arcs forward. Not just adding OCs for the sake of it.

Thanks for sticking until the end of this BTS, and I hope you found it an enjoyable read, or at the very least I made you a little bit less bored~ ❤️

Next time, in DDLitG Behind the scenes: What’s the deal with The Perfect Yuri?

Remembering Mortal Instruments and a story I might revive

Okay so... this is going to be random as fuck but I just realized that the story which has the worst fucking canon pairings in my opinion EVER is Mortal Instruments. Yeah I used to be a fan... Like... Every fucking one of them is the most annoying teen fiction stereotypes you could imagine. The kind of you root for solely because they are the canon. Not because they have actual chemistry or complexity. Clace? The jock and the hot nerd. Sizzy? The hot chick and the goofy nerd. Malec? Sparkly bi and closeted gay. JUST GET THAT SHIT OUT OF MY FACE. Clace was by far the worst of them, I guess because Clary, Isabelle, Simon, Alec and Magnus were at least kind of cool characters by themselves. Jace?.. To me he was such an unlikeable prick I just wanted him to meet most gruesome possible demise and evaporate into molecules so he could never be brought back.

Now to (maybe) more interesting part...

To be sincere in this whole universe I tended to genuinely fall in love with only minor characters. Most notably archangel Raziel (weird for a satanist, but really I called him Raz). I actually used to roleplay as him a while ago... I have no idea why I loved him so much a he was an absolute dickhead to everyone around him. I guess I simply felt connected to him, since in my head I grew him and elaborated him and nurtured him as a character, in a way making him my own.

I even had started a fanfiction with him as one of the main protagonists (and yea it was Clary/Raziel because they were my OTP) that I am kind of considering bringing back and actually publishing because of how weird and messed up it actually was.

Basically if an angel or a demon trapped in a circle of runes can ask for something in return if the wish they are supposed to grant is bringing back someone dead. Raziel’s condition was that Clary becomes his queen (for the reason that she had more celestial blood and was strong enough to bear the offspring he wanted. His desire to become a father was the hidden reason why he created the nephilim in the first place, but as in his eyes they were a failure, he wanted to have actual children with an actual partner. Yes, Clary was sixteen but remember both angels and demons are ancient thus have different morals regarding those things). Desperate to reanimate her stupid little crush, Clary agreed and from there, shit actually goes nuts... Raziel proves what “great husband material” he is upon, after their wedding night, for whatever reason he returns to Heaven for a a time while sticking Clary with his demonic side of the family (and an adoptive part of it - Clary’s long lost cousin Aida who hates her guts. I told you this story is a mess) in Purgatory...

In this story, Purgatory is pretty much the Anti-Alicante - a safe resort populated by demons and downwolders and some humans. Raziel’s relative dwelling there is no other than Mephistopheles (who used to be an archangel and yes they do have a great brotherly relationship. Yes, this is a crossover). Now, this was before I developed my obsession of a trope where Dr. Faustus is female and becomes his bride in the end, so he is in fact... a house cat. Well, in reality a talking house lynx. Mephistopheles was originally not supposed to have a significant other (probably because he was fooling around town), but to make the tale even more fucked up I am actually considering changing that... into pairing him with Aida.

In original idea, Aida was the daughter of Jocelyn’s younger sister. Being illegimate, she had been left to die, however Mephistopheles found her raised her as his own (I liked the idea of a shadowhunter raised by demons and despising their kind...). What I am thinking about is very alike with original idea, only Mephisto raises Aida as an apprentice instead of a daughter, but as she matures (ancient demon, remember that... he set Faustus up with a fifteen year old in the play), begins to perceive her in a different light. Aida returns his feelings for several reasons. First, to her it has no incestous undertones because she had always seen him as a mentor and not a father. Second, she grew up in a very politics-based world, thus knew she was bound to end up with a demon of power, not a sweetheart, and instead of a random suitor she chose a man she trusted and relied on.

This idea though has other issues instead of initial intentional controversy. Aida is perhaps a year or two older than Clary. Which means she pretty much is still a teenager, and despite being wised beyond her years, she is not yet completely emotionally mature. It ultimately explains her at times irrational hatred towards other nephilim as well as her blood cousin. Now if she had recently married to Mephistopheles (or more likely still betrothed to him), that would mean she should have completed her emotional journey a lot sooner, as instead of someone in need of his guidance, she would become an equal to him and someone who compliments him. It would make her hatred towards (already pregnant,not to mention frightened and lost) Clary outrageous and petty in stead of  logically understandable.

The (perhaps) final addition not present in he original script would be... yup. The Antichrist. No, not Ophelia. However as I like to imagine them as female and often bearing a Shakespearean name... she would be Juliet. Nice touch heeding her own romantic arch. Another canon character I deeply adored was Ithuriel (that poor thing, cease torturing him already). So maybe after he was liberated from the basement, he did not actually “die” and for this reason could not return to Heaven. Juliet discovered him and, very unlikely to  her nature, took pity on him, healing him and guarding him during his recovery. Through that time period, warm feelings blossomed between the two. Neither Heaven nor Hell approved of it, for Ithuriel was a weak angel - unfitting match for the Antichrist. What captures me to have this storyline is... it’s pretty much only romantic arch based on emotion rather than rationality or gain, be it starcrossed lovers. As for Juliet’s connection to other main protagonists, people need best friends, which Aida and her would happen to be.

I realized I spoke only of relationship-based points of the story, but... those started the post anyway? Besides, those are only ones I’m up for spoiling if I go with reviving the plot. It would certainly have gore, horror, turmoil and all you may expect from me. So... do you think I should go through with reviving it? The more works in progress I have, the slower they develop, but also the more decreased is the chance of me getting a writer’s block. Not to mention fanfiction OCs at times become prototypes for OG ideas of mine... so I might want to explore Aida and Juliet a little deeper.

Thoughts on Klance?

Okay. Y’all know what. I’ve been receiving a shit ton of asks about this ship since I started occasionally posting Voltron doodles and fic a year ago.

I’ve answered this question before.

So yes. I answered about three. I tend to ignore and delete the rest, because besides supporting art and writers I like, I really don’t get involved with the fandom. I get perhaps second or third-hand vagues and salt in my dash but that’s about all the drama I get, and I usually don’t care for them.

Unfortunately I let my asks pile up for like two weeks and I’m still seeing message about this??? So I’m just gonna up and go answer some of them here and then I will not be answering asks about this ship anymore. Frankly, my inbox is a mess of doodle requests, fic and OC questions, and I don’t need repetitive asks mixing in with things I actually give a shit about. So-

I don’t hate it. I just don’t ship it. I don’t even type the word, or browse the tags. All mentions of Klance in my blog had been brought up by other people and not by me. I know some people who ship Klance, some of them long-time friends of mine, and we’ve all easily acknowledged our different shipping preferences as decent people do. When we talk about Voltron we talk about the plot and not about the ships.

I don’t hate Klance. It’s a valid ship.

Not in my opinion. The only similarity I can see is that both pairs are teenagers who are close in age and they fall under the ‘opposites’ trope. That’s it. Stingue is a ship I am very fond of, and they’ve had an established, supportive and solid partnership since day one. That is not a dynamic Keith and Lance have in the current canon.

I’ve also gotten asks like this that compare Klance to Korrasami, Zutara, etc etc… Stop. Liking one will not automatically make me like the other.

God. Ok. I don’t ship Sheith instead of Klance. It’s not that I don’t ship one because I already ship the other. It doesn’t work that way. I ship Sheith. I don’t ship Klance. It’s not necessarily one causing the other.

Which leads me to this one ask–

In canon, no. I think it’s been stated by the creators that it wasn’t even a ship they expected or something? In fics, sure, I guess. I’ve read fics that made even the rarest pairs work. So why not?

And. Fine. Frankly speaking? I don’t want it to happen. Not because I ship another ship.

You want to know what I think, and how I see this? Fine, I’ll get personal. It makes me uncomfortable: watching Keith and Lance, with their relationship that’s been portrayed in canon so far, and thinking that it’s supposed to be interpreted as leading to romance later on? Nope, not here for that. 

I like Lance, I like his character and his growth - but he had been a bully to Keith even until S3, even while Keith was so visibly mourning and under pressure.

I’m speaking from experience here. Keith is my favorite character because I can relate to him so much - and I’ve been treated like how Lance treated him early on. I’ve experienced my share of being bullied. I cringed every time Lance shot Keith down rudely, interrupted him, or mocked what Keith said. I’ve experienced one-sided rivalry, people accusing me of showing off when really I was just trying to do my thing. I’ve been in Keith’s shoes, put in a position of leadership I didn’t want but couldn’t refuse, and it hurts when you’re just trying your best under pressure but someone constantly reminds you that you’re not qualified. I’ve been a top student who failed on something I worked hard for - and it’s a fucking blow to the face when someone constantly reminds you of that failure. So yeah, everytime Lance just pointed out that Keith ‘washed out’, that one time he savagely said, “Whatever, dropout.” - those times hit me hard. More so now that we know Keith dropped out because of what happened to Shiro. This is not just my Sheith shipper talking. It’s canon that Shiro is a very important person for Keith. Imagine failing on the one thing you’re really good at because of the grief that came with losing a loved one, now imagine someone you don’t even know judging you and rubbing that failure in your face with no remorse. I don’t even know how Keith managed to keep to himself after that.

I know people change and grow. I know Keith and Lance have become closer and have come into some sort of understanding as the series progressed. I love that, really. I like their growing friendship! But that’s not enough to warrant an eventual romance. For me, I’ve moved on from the people who have treated me badly. Some of them I can even call friends now because they’ve grown too, and I can smile and laugh with them when we’re together. I’m not angry nor resentful, not anymore - but there’s a distance that remains there. For me there’s already a distinction between the friends who had once treated me horribly but changed, and my other friends who had only ever been supportive and loving towards me. If I were Keith, Lance would fall under the former category, and I wouldn’t want to be in a romantic relationship with that kind of weight.

Some fans have chosen to notp Sheith or Shidge because they’re uncomfortable with the age gap. It’s not that they think it’s wrong, but it’s just not their thing. That’s how I feel about Klance, in general. It makes me uncomfortable because of my experiences with a relationship like theirs. Do I hate the ship for that? No. But I ain’t going anywhere near it. I reserve my right to distance myself from it.

There are more asks like these, but they’re almost all the same questions and I am going to delete them all after posting this. Look, I’ve done about more than a year’s worth of sighing everytime a question like this pops up in my inbox. It’s annoying, and it’s about a ship that, at best, I don’t care for. So this will be my final post about Klance. Messages about this ship will be ignored and deleted from now on. I hope you guys understand. I’m just plain tired of it.

Have a good one, pala-dudes.

10 Shipper Questions

I was tagged by the gloriously gorey @hannibalssweaters and omgggg just answering these gave me so many shipper feels. And some questions I had about 10 answers for and sweated so hard trying to pick just one! I don’t mention Negan for these, mainly because I don’t really ship him with canon characters and prefer him with OCs. 

Here we go!:

Rules: Answer 10 questions and tag 10 people.

1. Ultimate OTP: Snape/Hermione! This was my first OTP back when I discovered the wonderful world of Harry Potter fanfiction in 2007. I got re-obsessed with this ship about a year ago and oh mah gawd, even over a decade later the feels are still so strong for these two! I just...I literally forget what happened in canon sometimes, because I’ve read so many fics of these two that I legit get confused when I remember that oh wait, Snape and Hermione don’t actually live in a cute little cottage together, utterly in love with one another and happy (and ALIVE!) 

2. Ship you’ll always love: Daryl//Beth! These two compliment each other PERFECTLY, and it almost gave me a stroke when they started to become canon...only for the writers to literally rip my heart out. I still haven’t forgiven them for killing Beth; and I don’t think Daryl’s character will ever forgive them either. I prefer my fantasy land where she’s still alive and they’re in love. 

3. Current Obsession: Heh.... *frantically tries to hide google spreadsheet with over 200 Snape/Hermione fics listed on it to read* Obsessed, who me? Never! *hundreds of Snamione fics fall on top of me and bury my lying corpse*

4. Ship you never thought you’d like: I was hesitant at the idea of Rick/Beth...until I read two fics by an author on Ao3 called Schwoozie and holy SHIT, they utterly ruined me with some of the hottest smut I’d ever encountered. Dominant, aggressive Rick with innocent ray of sunshine and barely legal Beth?? SIGN ME THE FUCK UP!  

5. Ship you liked but don’t anymore: Hmm...I don’t know that I really stop liking ships so much as I kinda just drift away from them. I was obsessed with Buffy/Spike about 6 years ago, after I binged all the seasons of Buffy and Angel for the first time (I know, I know). I remember I even cried at the thought that James Marsters would never know I existed and was obsessed with his character (which ironically became a lie because I got to meet him at comic con the very next year and oh, he noticed me ;) haha). But over the past few years I’ve kinda drifted away from reading that ship, mainly because it wasn’t long after I finished watching Buffy that I got into TWD, which kinda took over my life. 

6. Ship you think should be canon: Since they totally fucked over Bethyl shippers, I 100% want Daryl/Jesus to become canon. I think they’d be great together. And if they don’t put Daryl with Jesus, I honestly just want them to leave him as an asexual character and create some awareness on the topic. (I personally think that Daryl is demisexual, but that’s just my opinion)

7. Canon ship you hate: Ron/Hermione. I refuse to believe that she wouldn’t be miserable with him, long-term. Once the newness and the shared trauma aspects faded, we’re left with a couple who has almost zero interests in common (outside of Harry and the war). Ron didn’t even like her cat! (major red flag, girl) And he was always so rude to her and never seemed to take an interest in the things she was passionate about. I mean, how many times did the jerk make her cry in the series?? I can just picture them in the future, him laying on the couch with a butterbeer gut and talking out loud about random Quidditch facts, while Hermione races around the house chasing a bunch of ginger-haired children while trying to get ready for work and wondering how the hell her life ended up like this. *shudders*

8. Ship you’ve been shipping for years: Umm...besides the above mentioned, I also really like Lucius/Hermione...especially Snape/Hermione/Lucius

9. Ship everyone loves, but you don’t care about: Daryl/Carol (I can’t see them as more than good friends with zero romantic or sexual interest (at least on Daryl’s part))

10. Favorite rarepair: Lucius/Ginny (I really wish there were more fics of these two; they just work, in a really messed up way)

I’m tagging: @kellyn1604 @bamby0304 @wickednerdery @sunriserose1023 @jobean12-blog @daisysouthmoore @negansdirtygirl22 @sherrybaby14 @risingphoenix761 @letsby

5, 13, 14, 26, 32, 35, 45, and 50, please! ^^

From this meme :)

5. Is there any fic that makes you super happy to reread and remember you wrote that?

Most recently, Summer Rain makes me really happy to reread because I wanted it to take readers on an intense emotional journey in not that long of a story. It begins with a gut-wrenching “What If?” alternate happening, and then it brings in the romance of one of my favorite songs (story namesake) that partially inspired this fic. That, and the prompt “Dreams” ended up coming together perfectly. Side note: I’ve been considering getting a line from this song tattooed on my forearm, and I also have a SoulBates tattoo in mind I eventually plan on getting.

13. What’s the biggest change between your style when you started in fandom and today? 

Unlike when I first started, I believe I write my OTP from a lot less of a position of shock or controversy. After probably the first 2/3-ish of TBTGA, it becomes more of a given that Norma(n) are soulmates and romantically together as they’re meant to be. Any problems with it come from outside sources that need to be extinguished, and they become comfortable enough to get even more erotically adventurous. But I don’t want to spoil it any further ;) For those who haven’t read it, go do it. It’s worth it. It lays out so much context for other fics I’ve spun off it and most likely will again.

14. What’s the biggest change in your taste between when you started in fandom and today?

I don’t know if my taste has changed all that much from the time I first discovered I was a SoulBates until now. Okay, I DO read large amounts of mother/son and aunt/nephew Literotica now LOL I also have a much more developed taste in BDSM scenarios, particularly with Domme Norma and Domme Emma-Christine. I never liked or wanted Norma paired with anyone but Norman, unless you count some occasional sister-on-sister bedroom fun. The two shall-not-be-named canon-show ships forced on the Bates fandom have always made me want to vomit and that’ll never change. Unlikely as it may seem, I have developed some greater empathy for Alex Romero, which stems from what happened to him in my 40-chapter epic. Much more from writing that than from his eventual fate at the end of the canon series. Actually, that seemed almost anti-climactic to me by comparison.  He next has a storyline in unfinished Belle Fleur. I don’t know his end game in that story yet. Time will tell after I pick up writing it again.

26. What aspect of your writing do you most enjoy to see praised?

I love to hear my erotic scenes are “hot as hell,” or some equivalent phrase. When that happens, I feel I’ve let other SoulBates shippers know it’s OKAY to love this pairing, that the love between these two is beautiful and meant to be. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with enjoying it, and anyone who says the contrary can fuck off.

32. Who’s the one character who shines without you even trying?

Norma Bates, undoubtedly. Before writing anything, I think about how I can capture the core of her character, no matter what the AU story is and how much I’m working to make it new and different. Her boundless love for Norman, her need to protect him, her need to feel loved and protected herself, and her desire to build a good, happy life for them both: It feels natural and flows with whatever situation I’m writing them both into. Some might think Norma’s OC sister would be this effortless, but it actually takes more effort in the story-telling to set her apart. Of course, that challenge is an enjoyable one. 

35. Have you ever written a ship into a fic without meaning to?

As amazing as it seems to me now, GSA-Dylemma started out unintentional in my first (and so far longest) fic. This would grow into a ship I love as much as SoulBates, and I’ve been told I’m not the only one there, which makes me very happy :-D Reading through especially the first five chapters, it’s fairly apparent I had an Agent Spoole/Alex Romero pairing in mind, from the way those two interact. But when Dylan shows up uninvited and unwelcome by Norma on the doorstep, it’s a game-changer when aunt and nephew meet for the first time. The more it progressed, the better it felt to me. I was learning a lot about the real life experience of genetic sexual attraction at the same time, and it felt so right to pursue this relationship between Dylan and Emma-Christine in the story. From the storm of conflicting emotions in their minds at the beginning to the explosive satisfaction when it turns physical, it doesn’t feel wrong at all. It felt right then, now, and going forward.

45. If you had to call yourself an author of a single genre (besides fanfic) what label would you give yourself?

My genre would be erotica, if I had to pick one. I’ve had beginnings of original stories in my head, and no: not all of them are of consanguinous pairings. Some are centered on age gaps, femme domme BDSM, same-sex, and other lovely subject matter. Of course with any kind of erotica I’ve written, I like to throw in a generous dose of romance as well.

50. Has writing fanfic had a significant impact on your life? Would you say it’s entirely positive?

It’s had a wonderful impact on my life. I’ve made awesome friends and long-lasting connections through this fandom, all of which I really hope will last for years to come. It’s directly tied to how I was enlightened to the reality of consanguinous love and unfortunately the very ugly prejudices against it. Writing this kind of alternate-universe fanfiction has taught me that if you love your OTP beyond reason, and you want more for them than the canon-show writers have given us: Get off your ass, shut up your whining about it, and write your own version, your own AU with a different life for them. If you have enough drive and passion for it, it can become (in a sense), your own reality for this fictional world - which is the best way I can think of to explain it. Chances are excellent others feel the same way; therefore you can end up putting something out there that’s incredibly valuable to them as fans. So I’d say very close to all of it has been positive. The end results of hours of story-crafting are such amazing feelings that any opposition feels like completely insignificant and fleeting background noise.

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RANDOM FACTS ABOUT THE MUN.

Repost, not reblog! Tag 6 muns you would like to get to know better when done!

Name: Kaitlyn! Please, for the love of god, never use it.

Nickname: Katy, Kat, variations; (Katydid, Katybug, Kitkat, etc.) But if you wanna call me something else, that’s fine too!

Age: 22! Simultaneously too old and a wee bab, lmao

Faceclaim: Not something I do! I could never pick just one, besides maybe my own face! (I’d thought about using Shuu Iwamine or Rize Kamishiro before, if that says anything haha)

Pronouns: Your highness/My liege She/Her! But “they/them” is good too.

Height: ~5’6”-5’7”; I can’t remember the last time I checked.

Birthday: Poppin’, obviously March 30th.

Aesthetic: Purple and black?? EGNautilus scientists tittering excitedly over adorable or exciting sea creatures. Omnipresent Mountain Dew cans, fast food and colorful kneesocks. 2AM adventures on clear nights in summer that last until dawn starts sending it’s first beams into the sky. Spacey FPS games and cutesy RPG and Pokemon games interspersed throughout. Weathered frames and tired eyes. ROBOTS… I have no idea, man. A lot of things!

Last song you listened to: “The Thief and the Moon” by Shawn James!

Favourite muse(s) you’ve written: kfkjdf. Sixes definitely counts,, Uhh. My first was a canon-divergent Eridan, who I’d played before Act 6 was even close to being a thing! And he was a lot of fun. Accidentally made a “do not that” meme that still sometimes plagues me to this day ldkfdk A dream-bubble/dead Karkat who’d been murdered in his timeline’s Gamzee’s rampage and only had one eye, he was a biiiig favorite. I loved having enough energy for that all; typing that much shittalk??? Was one of the most fun things I’ve ever done in roleplay, holy shit. Entire fucking PAGES of just these absolutely USELESS rants because that nubby little shit had so much passion for it. Fuck. I loved Karkat. A bloodswapped, cobalt-blooded Karkat who was also post-game for a pre-established timeline where trolls and humans co-existed on the same planet(s). He was a Thief of Blood and a massive asshole; at his worst, he was manipulative, isolative, vengeful, restless… But also, he was a really big dork??? He LOOOOOVED spy movies and probably popped boners regularly for Black Widow and James Bond or the Kingsmen. Fucking nerd. He fancied himself a spy; his best friend was a badass hacker, and they’d (F)LARP together as a stereotypical “you hack, I’ll infiltrate” team. Before Earth, he never cared about Christmas, but one year his richass neighbourhood started putting up flashy decorations and he got jealous, so he stole a shitton of them to make his own house look the best. He’s so… So stupid. I love him so much. And of course, jumping off the Homestuck bandwagon; I have Lv/Hadz! My dorky, sadsack pun machine. A (sort of, mostly) secret post-genocide Sans; the Bad Run™ had been reset after completion, but something went wrong, so he remembers it. Still, he’s been running for like, two years now! So he’s had a lot of time to go and bury all that as deeply as monsterly possible lmaooo. He’s distrusting, paranoid, and isolative himself; but he’s probably the most all-around good guy on this list. He just wants to get on with his life and never have to fight anyone ever again, lmfao. I… I also have a few OCs, but you’ll have to pry those out of my cold, dead hands. … Carefully. With lots of reassurance. (I’m very shy…)

What inspired you to take on your current muse (that you are posting this on): I like… Undertale. And I like Underfell enough that once the idea was presented to me, my mind kinda ran away with it, haha. It started with Hopper, my weird UF Sans! But it feels like every time I approach the AU I have slightly different ideas for it, pfft. I guess with Sixes, I wanted to step away from the skeletons for awhile! I was really excited about messing with Mettaton for it, because I… Really liked listening to the radio for awhile, haha. I thought it’d be kind of cool if instead of being really excited to be seen flaunting himself across a television set, he wasn’t so happy with how he turned out physically, and made his influence a little less directly visible. It fit in well with the seemingly common theme of conflict in Underfell, and things just really exploded from there! It’s hard to summarize in just a few short words. That said, Sixes probably wouldn’t have a blog at all if it wasn’t for tumblr user wibler’s- Sixes’ Sans!- mun coaxing me into giving it a shot! She has a lot of faith in my creative abilities. I dunno what I’d do without her support through the past few years, heheh. She’s neat.

What are your favourite aspects of your current muse: LOUD ANGRY ROBOT LMFAO Shit though, I dunno! I like writing a character who goes through the bipolar disorder motions, the manics and the depressives. I love watching him go hot and cold on characters as he flipflops through his impulses and subsequent regrets. I love that in his timeline, everyone knows him while he himself actually… Hardly knows anyone at all. He’s made himself untrustworthy, and in turn doesn’t trust anyone, either, so he hardly ever opens up beyond… You know. Angry screaming, or shameless flirting and flattery, ignoring personal space bubbles… I love that his Sans being absent kind of smacked him on the nose, because that was someone he was actually making a connection with, but tried to play it off like Sans was just another moment in his life so he kind of treated him like a dick lmao. Deadass knew the poor little dude had anxiety issues and scared him on purpose, made joking death threats, joked about flirting with his shittyass brother… Sixes was such a prick. Fuck. And he realizes that! And after ditching his family just to have a cataclysmic fallout with his other BFF, Alphys, Sans disappearing… It’s something he blames himself for. It kind of sobered him up a little to the way his actions affect people. AND DESPITE EVERYTHING, HE STILL USES HIS CAMERAS (THAT HE STOLE FROM ALPHYS IN A PETTY FIT) SCATTERED ACROSS THE UNDERGROUND AND HIS SHITTY TRAP ROOMS IN HOTLAND TO PUBLICALLY HUMILIATE RANDOM CITIZENS IN A WIPEOUT-ESQUE PODCAST ON THE UNDERNET. At least that assholitude earns him money, though! Fuck. I also reaaallly love how different AUs bring out different aspects of his character, but that’s a rant for another time or place! Hoo. I dunno, man. I could go on about Sixes for like, ever. He’s a really fun muse.

What’s your biggest inspiration when it comes to writing: I’m… I’m not even gonna lie, a lot of it is the positive feedback lmao. I don’t, uh. Do much these days, creatively or recreationally speaking, and I don’t really have a lot of friends IRL… Er, any, actually, if you’re only counting closehand. All my friends live hundreds of miles away, and it sucks. But this is… Simultaneously social and creative. I get to talk to people, and make friends, and toss creativity back and forth with people, and it’s really fulfilling. I love to be a part of other people’s creative processes! I love seeing what other people do with THEIR characters, and when we all??? Interact??? Mother of God, it’s such a treat! Everyone’s so creative and impressive and inspiring… And hearing/seeing us all go back and forth about what we admire in each other… I’m pretty happy with just being a part of writing, and telling other people that I love what they do! But every now and then it comes back around to me in little ways, and it feels really special. It’s hard to imagine anyone liking my stuff past a “they’re pretty cool I guess, yeah” sentiment, despite my glittering impression of a lot of the writers in the community; so when someone DOES say they like my stuff, even just by saying they like a drawing, or like the way I described something, I go OFF THE WALL LMAO. Straight up dissolve and slip through the floorboards a la Gaster style with how lovely it feels. Shucks… And, you know. Watching characters develop in general- whether they be mine or not- is really fulfilling and inspiring. A good cycle.

Favourite types of threads: Anything that feels meaningful! I love it when two characters make any kind of connection, despite the context. That said, typically “angst” and “fluff” style threads are a big favorite, but there has to be, like… you know. Meaning to it. It feels really… I dunno, cardboardy to just throw a muse into a woodchipper for no particular reason just to have them drag themselves to another muse begging for help or to have a chance to explain some kind of deep, edgy feeling or story. Baseless fluff has a lot more wiggle room lmao, but that can get really monotonous really quick if something more significant fails to spark somewhere along the line. Just so long as something’s getting achieved somehow, I guess! If it feels like nothing’s changed between the two at the end of the thread, it feels really unfulfilling and hollow.

Biggest struggle in regards to your current muse: URRRGH. IMPLEMENTING THE RADIO SHOW/PODCAST THING… On one hand, Sixes has kind of collected the idea that the multiverse is a very indifferent place towards the goings-on within his timeline! And, he supposes, that that suits him fine. Hurts his pride a little, but it’s something he’s just going to curl up and lick his wounds for, pfft. But still! I wish I knew how to make it a little more obvious and prominent- The same could go for his growing industry, too! I guess I’ve just been jobless too long to really have a feel for it like I should, oof… Additionally, drawing him is reALLY HARD… He’s in his classic box form most of the time because he’s really insecure about his EX form, and yet I draw his EX form more than anything because the box is frustrating to draw??? And despite it all, I’m still not sure I’m terribly happy with how his EX form looks!!! He’s supposed to be a little closer to a NEO design than initially planned, as Alphys fully intended him to be a KILLING MACHINE from the start without telling him! But he caught on early on, and they kind of bullied each other into compromising a bunch of things until he was just this “hideous” mess that neither of them were terribly happy with… So, you know. The indecision carried over to me too, evidently! Ugh.

Tagged by: nah! Just stole it was all. (from slobbyseconds/coolskeletonsdontcry forever ago, but just got around to now. kfjf)

Tagging: Anyone who wants to! @ me back if you do it, though; I love reading these things!

revenge... 1 to 99, added extra question: Why do you love Yuri so much?

1. What is you middle//full name?          My middle name is Ewelina. I know, very original considering that my first name is Karolina

2. How old are you? 18 and still acting like child

3. What is your birthday? 22th of July. Best month of the year X3

4. What is your zodiac sign? Cancer ^^

5. What is your favorite color? Purple! And blue as well… Maybe pink too…

6. What’s your lucky number? 4 and 9

7. Do you have any pets? Yes an 11 years old dog. Though he acts like he would be 5 years old and he’s an ass. But a lovely ass

8. Where are you from? Poland

9. How tall are you? Around 166cm

10. What shoe size are you? In European measures 39 or 40, depends

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Umn… 4 maybe?

12. What was your last dream about? Ugh, that was a weird one. I have a small crush on one of my classmates. He can be really charming sometimes and my brain apparently thought that it is a good idea to dream about a moment when he actually is kissing me in classroom. Though the strange part was that his behavior was actually Yuuri’s behavior. So a nice combination, but… My classmate isn’t that charming as Yuuri sadly. So dream stays a dream.

13. What talents do you have? Pissing off people around me, get attached to fictional characters to the point that I am caring and am worried about them like for real people, learning languages, liking hard languages, coming up with ideas for one-shots or drawing from thin air, being very grumpy sometimes… And being a no life for the most part of my free time

14. Are you psychic in any way? My intuition is usually right, and the annoying voice in the back of my head too… It is very annoying!

15. Favorite song? Just like mentioned before “Leave Out All The Rest” by Linkin Park

16. Favorite movie? "101 Dalmatians 2: Patch’s London Adventure" and this won’t change

17. Who would be your ideal partner? Considering the fact that I like well… The not so normal people… A grumpy and sometimes funny and with an edgy character boy would be good ^u^

18. Do you want children? If possible then yes, why not?

19. Do you want a church wedding? Nah

20. Are you religious?  Nah

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? Yeah, a few visits in there because of my family… I hate hospitals

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? Nope, I am an angel fake smile, *hides the huge smirk crawling up my innocent face*

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? Nope

24. Baths or showers? Showers definitely.

25. What color socks are you wearing? Fluffy blue ones. My grandma bought them for me ;u;

26. Have you ever been famous? Right now in my high school class. I am famous for the person with sharp tongue. Really, I can be such an asshole to some people…

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? Nope, I want to stay as I am. On the side, doing my own stuff without a care for the outside world.

28. What type of music do you like? Heavy metal, Neue Deutsche Härte, Nu metal, Orchiestral music, Japanese music, games soundtracks

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? No

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? One fluffy one. I love fluffy things X3

31. What position do you usually sleep in? On the right side, curled into a ball

32. How big is your house? Little flat with kitchen, bathroom and two rooms

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Eggs! I love eggs :3

34. Have you ever fired a gun? No

35. Have you ever tried archery? No, but it seems to be a lot of fun

36. Favorite clean word? Comfy

37. Favorite swear word? Fuck, but I like to use my native language meaning for this word. It sounds better

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? You do not want to be near me without something to defend yourself if I don’t sleep more than 3 hours

39. Do you have any scars? Nope

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? No, I am not that beautiful… And probably my charisma is way too original for normal people

41. Are you a good liar? Yes, a very good one!

42. Are you a good judge of character? Yes, I am usually observing someone for a long time before I am showing my true self. I don’t trust anyone, besides my friends.

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? Yes, English and a bit of German

44. Do you have a strong accent? Let’s be honest, Polish doesn’t have a very strong accent. If it comes to English than yes, I do have strong one. And about German accent… Still working on it :3

45. What is your favorite accent? Without a doubt, German

46. What is your personality type? Dunno, didn’t do that test

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? I don’t know

48. Can you curl your tongue? Yeah

49. Are you an innie or an outie? Innie

50. Left or right handed? Right handed

51. Are you scared of spiders? No that much. Just little thingies walking on their small 8 legs ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

52. Favorite food? *scratches my head*  Chicken soup with self made noodles

53. Favorite foreign food? Pizza or Spaghetti

54. Are you a clean or messy person? Clean, I hate mess

55. Most used phrased? Dunno

56. Most used word? Just

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? In the morning before school? An hour

58. Do you have much of an ego? Sometimes *sweats*

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? Suck

60. Do you talk to yourself?  A lot. And then my mom thinks that I am talking to her

61. Do you sing to yourself? Yes, it helps to concentrate on things

62. Are you a good singer? Dunno, ask my dog Dog: Woof!

63. Biggest Fear? Being left alone

64. Are you a gossip? No

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? I am not watching movies, though I came up with very dramatic au for my oc x canon character. Not gonna tell because smart me is too shy

66. Do you like long or short hair? Long or middle. They are fun to draw

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? No. I have problems with Polish map and you want me to know states of America?

68. Favorite school subject? German all the way!

69. Extrovert or Introvert? Introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? Yes, once or twice

71. What makes you nervous? Talking out loud in front of people who I don’t know. Getting involved into situation where a lot of people needs to get their voice about something

72. Are you scared of the dark? No, dark is nice and calm.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Yes because I just have the urge to do so

74. Are you ticklish? *hides my legs*  Not at all ^^

75. Have you ever started a rumor? I am not that kind of asshole

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? I think not

77. Have you ever drank underage? I hate alcohol so nope

78. Have you ever done drugs? Look at the answer above

79. Who was your first real crush? Fuck real crushes, let’s go to fictional characters. This asshole *points at Bakura*

80. How many piercings do you have? Only on ears but I am not wearing any earrings

81. Can you roll your Rs?“ No

82. How fast can you type? Fast

83. How fast can you run? Not so fast

84. What color is your hair? Brown

85. What color is your eyes? Hazel. From light blue to light green or green, to gray blue.

86. What are you allergic to? To people who have tendency to piss me off

87. Do you keep a journal? No, but if we are counting the many one-shots I wrote to keep my ideas in one place then yes

88. What do your parents do? They are old, they are relaxing

89. Do you like your age? Kinda. I would rather be older though. Be after collage and such, have work already and have my own flat

90. What makes you angry? Oh God… People who thinks they are better for whatever reason, people who thinks that it is bad to have something original in yourself, people who wants to outsmart you just because they want to dump their shit on you, people who gossips behind your back, people who… *a few hours later*  And finally people who are just sexists.

91. Do you like your own name? Yes, I do. Long names are cute

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? Fuck, Dalia do not laugh, don’t you even dare… I like the name Jörgen and if my plans go as planned then maybe I will have the opportunity to give it to my child. Maybe… Ah, dreams…

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? Neither will be good

94. What are you strengths? Hiding my true self before others, being able to cut myself off from society for most of the time, being creative

95. What are your weaknesses? Choosing favorite characters - they are dying or are suffering or are treated badly by the writers and fandom, plushies, heavy metal music - especially Rammstein and Metallica

96. How did you get your name? My mom overheard name “Karolina” on one of the parties when she was younger and she liked it so she thought of giving me that name

97. Were your ancestors royalty? From Polish side yes, but only from my dad’s side and from German side? Ich weiß es nicht ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

98. Color of your room? Purple and green. And I want it to stay like that

99. Color of your bedspread? Purple and blue for now

Your extra question: Why do you love Yuri so much?Oh… Oh God *blushes* Well…It is not only because @amiiera pulled me back into Arc V and made me make oc for Yuuri, but… He’s not only handsome and cute and adorable. His voice is perfect, like a melody for me, his behavior is charming as well and his smirks really can make me fell really weak and squeak more than I was squeaking while seeing Vector, but the thing is, I can relate to him very much. The thing about being alone, without family, without friends. I went through hell in Primary school. I was without anyone who could shake me and woke me up from this nightmare. @true-lab were - and I really hope so that they still are - my only friend at that time, but even though, I still felt alone. Now to the parents stuff… When I was younger my dad drank a lot and I don’t have very happy memories from that time. I was always closing myself in fictional world, trying to not listen to my dad or ignore him completely so yeah, childhood almost without parents is checked as well.Now to other point why I like him so much. The way writers treat him and the way fandom treats him is just awful. Not only Arc V writers are really bad, but fandom doesn’t see that abusive relationships are bad and they are - in my opinion - shipping Yuuri with the worst characters they can. And I kinda want to protect him from everything. I just… Want to make him happy even if I had to make whole new au for him and my oc. I just want to see him happy for once. He deserves it, and I don’t care what other people thinks about him. 

001 for Fallout: New Vegas, 002 for your Benny/Courier ship, and 003 for Joshua Graham!

this is gonna get long so i’m going to cut the rest under the cut

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Favorite character:

nv has so many characters i can’t choose either joshua or the generic courier six

Least Favorite character:

probably father elijah. fuck him and fuck his goddamn casino

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

veronica/christine, joshua/edward, benny/courier, arcade/boone, dean domino/courier

Character I find most attractive:

joshua motherfuckin graham enough said

Character I would marry:

swanks bc then i’d get a pretty dress and a chance to sit at the casino all day lmao (and he’s p sweet so why not)

Character I would be best friends with:

rex, bc no one would like me enough

A random thought:

you can see the lucky 38 from almost every angle of the mojave and it really makes me Emotional for some reason

An unpopular opinion:

,,, i don’t really have one?? maybe that the ncr is less functional than the legion but if you asked me to explain, it would probably take a long time to put everything in words.

My canon OTP:

veronica/christine!!

Non-canon OTP:

too fucking many benny/courier!! (all benny/courier stuff is fucking Amazing)

Most badass character:

besides courier six, probably ulysses. like c’mon dude fuckin holes up in the divide and waits for you to come

Pairing I am not a fan of:

vulpes/caesar,,, i feel they have more of a familiar relationship

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):

uhhhh,,,, jesus i’m not focusing enough to notice these things lmao,,,, 

Favourite friendship:

probably anyone w/ the courier lmao,,,, but also joshua and caesar (or at least their former friendship)

002 | send me a ship and I will tell you:

when or if I started shipping it:

well idek man, raul and jupiter is my own actual canon endgame?? but, see, i figured jupiter loved benny too, just smack fell in love w/ him during that one-night stand, so then i was like,,,, what if i made an au where she didn’t kill him and he came back and there you have it!

my thoughts:

they’re a good pair, they compliment each other: benny’s good w/ a gun, jupiter prefers melee weapons, benny has Horrible fashion sense, jupiter well Doesn’t lmao

they’re happy in this au and nothing hurts, no, not really

What makes me happy about them:

the fact they actually get married and have kids?? and kinda enforce-ish the law in vegas on certain points?? 

What makes me sad about them:

in the actual canon of mine, jupiter crucifies him, then burns him alive w/ his own lighter. that makes me Incredibly sad

Things done in fanfic that annoys me:

if we’re talking about generic benny/courier (which i also love btw), it’s probably the overuse of ‘pussycat’? i’m not sure lmao

Things I look for in fanfic:

either benny and the courier hatelove or they’re deeply in love and anarchists

My kinks:

//chinhands//

not telling

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:

for jupiter, her true endgame is raul, so there’s that. she also fools around w/ dean quite a bit, so there’s always that possiblity too. benny’s dead so lmao rip, but i wouldn’t mind some benny and swanks action!

My happily ever after for them:

they get married after benny crawls back to vegas, have three kids (dack, tiber, and callisto), run the lucky 38, and play cards at the table until they fall asleep on each other’s shoulders, dance at the tops until either of them starts kissing the other and doesn’t stop, generally just being a Happiedly Married Badass Duo!!

003 | Give me a character & I will tell you:

How I feel about this character:

joshua graham is one of the most interesting characters in a game that’s filled with interesting characters- his faults and failures are as human as they get, and the fact that he faces the challenge of comfortably slipping back into legate-mode is incredibly real. also, his ass looks nice in tight jeans and that voice has probably made a many good people’s hearts thud a little faster.

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

edward sallow/caesar (mainly!), @squeakinghiccups‘ oc, sheila o’kelly, and our shared baby, alexis, also courier six and a very tiny part of follows-chalk and ulysses

My non-romantic OTP for this character:

again, @squeakinghiccups‘s oc, vale, and daniel, but also courier six (you see my dilemma) 

My unpopular opinion about this character:

he’s much more than what we reduce him to- tight jeans, bible jokes, good voice, bandages. he’s also struggling w/ who he is, especially during hh. as legate, he did many inexcusable things: the assimilation of tribes, the rape and slavery of women, the torture of those who tend to fall into the ‘degenerate/profligate’ category, the torture and brainwash of boys who would become the next generation of legion, so on and so forth. people tend to forget that as legate, he didn’t just train troops and stand next to caesar, chest puffed and everything. to be honest, joshua isn’t the best person. he’s wise, he’s hardy, but to call him a rolemodel, especially when the courier themselves has more or less a pivotal role in his further development (ie. the ending of hh and what happens to joshua as a result), isn’t something i would do, despite how much i may love (and, sometimes, romanticize) him.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

joshua just grows old peacefully. just an old man w/ bandages and a swat vest, a lot happier than he is now. the weight of his sins still weighs heavily on his shoulders, but it’s okay. he’ll pay those fines when they’re due. right now, the sun is shining, there are children playing outside, children who have no reason to fear this already harsh world, and he doesn’t need to reload and load guns as if they’re the only thing that keeps his hands busy anymore.

everything is fine.

My OTP:

joshua/edward!!!!

My OT3:

joshua/edward/bill!!! i have a lot of feelings about those three boys who marched into the desert, and got lost among the mirages.