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cowboybuckleys · 11 months

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i didnt like hearing mack call kim “mom” so soon in 9x15. i think it would have made more sense if she called adam “dad” before she called kim “mom” because she already had a mom she was close to before and she never had a dad.

idk if these are from the same person or i’ve blogged something that ppl are just now seeing and ppl are genuinely curious about my opinion on a super similar topic.. but the messages came in nearly back to back, so i’m gonna answer both here :)

i’m probably the only one who feels this way, but i disagree that Adam should’ve gotten dad first or that it was too soon for Kim to be called mom because she remembers her mom and didn’t really have a dad. fwiw, my family is dealing with a similar issue with my niece trying to understand how to address her step dad now that he’s adopted her and my nephew. everyone in this fucking family seems to have an opinion without asking the kids what they want and it's honestly fucking dumb but that's a whole other story lol. i would say to Mack what i said to her— a new parent in your life doesn’t cancel out the love or memories you have of the parent who has passed away, but you can also call multiple people mom and dad at the same time. hell, if all your parents are alive, you can call as many people mom or dad if that’s how you see them. if anything, having extra people to love and care for you and make you feel safe and happy is what the parent you’ve lost would have wanted. it's what any parent wants. and there’s no timeline or goalpost on when you should start calling someone mom or dad. and anyone who tries to force you to say something one way or the other is gonna get to have a not so fun conversation with me about respecting your decision and your boundaries on the subject matter.

and well, yeah that last part doesn’t apply here obviously cos it’s all opinion in fandom and that’s totally fine and valid lol, but i would gladly say that to anyone who is wrestling with something similar in their own life. the argument of ‘well she had a mom but didn’t have a dad, so—' doesn’t hold up for me. it's not a statement i love hearing when talking about blended families cos there's no common qualifiers for how or why someone decides those things and lumping all situations like that under one umbrella is not my favorite thing that fandoms do.. it's actually one of my biggest frustrations with how blended families are talked about in a lot of fandoms.. but my headcanon that they all celebrated BOTH of Mack’s moms for mother’s day is accurate until the show explicitly tells me otherwise because i can't fathom that Kim would be mad about that.

i do think, narratively, where they had Mack call Adam dad was pretty fucking perfect. for a show that gets relationships wrong A LOT, this one was always a safe spot for me. i knew that Mack would look at Adam as her dad and i had hoped we’d eventually get burzek on good terms again, but to hear her say it like for her it was never and has never been in question felt like the right choice. it was not a throw away line, it was very much meant to mean something doing it in that moment in that way. because it sure as shit was in question for all the adults in the room and i think that it needed to be addressed. i don’t necessarily think it needed to be said sooner because it was always just a matter of when Mack would say it. thank god that poor kid didn’t have to parent trap those two idiots tho lol.

my only real expectation for that moment was that it had to be during this season. for all the build up, for all the arguments, for all the pushing each other away, that moment had to be before the season ended. and it had to be Mack's doing. i would like to hear Kim say something like "you're her dad", sure, but for me it was always about when Mack would say it.

#anonymous #chicago pd #ooh boy its a long one i apologize but i have THOUGHTS #and this is why i dont listen to fan pods for one chicago tbh xD #mostly cos i dont have the patience for the waffle of tv show pods #but also cos i think it would make more sense to talk bigger picture stuff when you have the whole damn picture

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lily-174 · 1 year

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can i request a jay halstead with prompts 3, 5 & 10? very insecure reader going through some mental health troubles 🥺 i need comfort 😂

we all have bad days, even bad weeks. - jay halstead x reader

overview: jay had noticed the difference in your behaviour at work when he shows up to your apartment you finally open up to someone about your mental health.

requested: ‘hold me please’ ‘don’t you see i’m trying’ and ‘i’m afraid i’m not good enough for you’

trigger warning: anxiety, depression, mentions of alcohol and bad self image.

a/n- i hope you enjoy and this fic brings you some comfort, if anyone’s having a bad day and needs someone to talk to i’m here <3

this is a bit of a short one, i really don’t know if i like this. please let me know what you think anyway i hope you enjoy <3

i just realised i should’ve made the reader a little more insecure, i’m sorry this isn’t my best fic. if you have any other requests please let me know :)

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depression and anxiety. they weren’t new to you. you’d struggled before even in your teen years. but after joining the police department you found ways to deal with it and it rarely ever bothered you. of course you still had bad days, but you could manage it.

but that one bad day, had turned into a bad week. so much so the days were blurring together, a feeling you were all too used to. you’d tried to distract yourself write in your journal but this time it was just a little more difficult to rise above.

you’d tried spending time with your new boyfriend jay, he was a blessing. you’d only recently made it official after seeing each other for a few months and keeping it a secret from everyone in intelligence. but you were so socially drained you couldn’t even bring yourself to spend time with jay after work.

jay noticed the change in your behaviour first at work, nothing drastic just you staring into space consumed by your own thoughts, then the bags forming under your eyes which was paired with you drinking almost double the amount of coffee you normally would. then he’d noticed the way you would try to stay away from big groups of people.

he’d already asked you multiple times if you were okay only for you to brush off his concern which only made his worries grow. he asked before you both left work if you wanted to stay at his and he’d make dinner in an attempt to make you feel better but you declined his offer feeling like sitting on your couch alone with a glass of wine and your favourite tv show playing would be a better idea.

so that’s exactly what you did. sat on the couch your hair tied up dressed in jays hoodie and a pair of shorts with a blanket wrapped around you and a glass of wine in your hand as you stared at the tv. you couldn’t pinpoint what had triggered you to feel like this, the crippling anxiety, the dislike you had for yourself as a teenager rushing back, and the amount of doubts you had about yourself and your relationship. you tried thinking back to if it was a case that could’ve triggered it but you couldn’t put a finger on it.

consumed by your own thoughts you sat sipping from the glass of wine, did jay really love you? where you good enough to be in intelligence? the only thing that brought you back to reality was the loud knocking on your door. sighing as you placed your glass on the coffee table you got up from your comfortable position on the couch and walked to the door, your slipper clad feet slowly walking you over to the door.

opening the door you were shocked to see who was stood on the other side. jay. there he stood with a six pack of beer and a plastic bag full of snacks with that cheeky smirk on his face. he could instantly tell you weren’t feeling yourself just from the look of pure exhaustion on your face.

“what are you doing here?” you asked a part of you kinda upset he’d invaded your alone time but another part of you telling yourself he could distract you from your thoughts.

“i came to find out what’s wrong and not let you just sit alone and be all tired and sad.” he spoke making his way into your apartment, you watched as he turned on the lamp making the darkness disappear and he put the bag and the six pack on the coffee table next to your glass of wine.

“i’m not sad” he turned to look at you with a look on his face as if to say i know you’re lying. he wasn’t stupid, he could tell when something was wrong especially when it came down to someone he cared about.

“if you’re gonna lie put some effort into it, for me” he smiled his cheery voice making a slight smile show up on your face as you walked back over to the couch. you knew jay wouldn’t leave until you gave up some reason as to why you were acting differently.

“jay seriously i’m good” you huffed returning to your warm blanket curled up on the couch. he shook his head and sat next to you one of his arms going around your shoulders so he could pull you into his chest. as soon as he did you felt that familiar feeling of security and safety that jays arms always provided. he was your safety blanket.

“y/n i know you’re not. you can’t keep avoiding everyone and drinking 5 cups of coffee every morning. you can’t let yourself give up” jay wasn’t stupid, that bad day had turned into a bad week and a part of you was starting to believe you wouldn’t be able to get yourself out of the hole you were digging.

“can’t you see i’m trying? i don’t want to feel like this jay” he gently pulled away from you so he could look into your eyes, his face laced with a look of empathy and concern as his beautiful eyes looked over your face admiring you. his freckled face you loved so much inches away from your face you could almost feel his breath.

“feel like what baby? you gotta talk to me that way i can help you” the soft tone of his voice warmed your heart, butterflies fluttering in your stomach as you looked up at him. you didn’t understand how you got so lucky to have a man as perfect as jay halstead. he was perfect in every way.

you contemplated telling him, you didn’t want him to think of you any differently. you knew he’d understand having he’d opened up to you a little bit about his ptsd. but your brain liked to play tricks on you and trick you into thinking he wouldn’t care because his problems were worse. that’s the thing about mental illness, it’s competitive. but the look in his eyes made you feel so safe and loved, maybe you could tell him without the fear of being judged. so that’s what you did. you told him.

“i just, i don’t know what it is. i feel stupid.. i just this week everything i used to struggle with it’s all just come back. i know how to deal with it, i really do it’s just these feelings are so strong this time” you explained in a way that didn’t let up too many details, you watched his face as he listened intently to you words. he seemed to really care about what you were saying, the eye contact remained strong as you spoke proving the fact he was listening to your every word. as he listened he was mentally coming up with strategies and ways to attempt to help you.

“what are you feeling? i can try and help” he offered as he looked down at you one of his hands reaching for yours as he interlaced your fingers with his, the pad of his thumb gently rubbing against your hand in a way that just made you feel cared for. he had that effect on you. he could make you feel safe and cared for in minutes.

“my anxiety jay, i can’t sleep, i feel this constant pit in my stomach. i have doubts about everything and i was learning to love myself, my body everything just sometimes it’s harder to accept what i look like and i just look at myself and pick at things no one else would notice” jay listened nodding as you spoke, taking in every word, you hadn’t ever felt so listened to in your life. jays heart stung thinking about the fact you’d be struggling and as your boyfriend it’s taken him a week to intervene, he felt as if he should’ve said something sooner.

“i’ll stay here tonight, you can have a shower i’ll cook and i’ll do what i can to help you get some sleep. i know what i say isn’t going to change the way you look at yourself or the way that you feel, but y/n you’re breathtaking. i love everything about you.” jay whispered softly rubbing the back of your hand with the pad of his thumb in an attempt to comfort you. his words almost brung tears to your eyes, he was perfect. there wasn’t one thing you would change about jay. he was everything you ever needed.

“can you tell me what you have doubts about?” he was so careful with his words, it confused you how he was so emotionally intelligent. most guys didn’t care for anyone but themselves but jay. he was the most selfless man you’d ever met.

“us, work anything i’m just afraid, i’m afraid i’m not good enough for you” you answered his question and he pressed a kiss to your forehead before pulling you back into his chest and hugging you gently rubbing your back as he did. those words made him sigh, he loved you. and he felt as if you were too good for him, like he wasn’t good enough for you, he loved everything about you, from your looks to the way you made him feel.

“you have nothing to worry about with me y/n, you’re more then good enough for me. i love you. a lot” that was the first time he’s said those three words and it sent a shiver down your spine, you looked up at him in disbelief and he pressed a kiss to your lips which you gratefully returned, the kiss full of love and admiration.

“i love you too” he smiled at your words bringing you into his chest again, the conversation making tears brim to your eyes, that had been the first time since high school you spoke to anyone about your anxiety and the fact jay was so understanding made tears fall down your cheeks as you felt the relief of finally getting everything off your chest.

he noticed you crying and laid down on the couch pulling you gently down on top of him, he rubbed your back as you softly cried into his chest as he whispered sweet words into your ear, words that made your heart flutter, he wanted to help he wanted to make you feel okay.

“is there anything else i can do?” he asked softly his free hand interlacing your fingers with his, while his other hand rubbed your back as tears fell from your eyes that you’d so desperately tried to hold back but you couldn’t help them falling.

“just hold me please” that’s all you had to say and jay would stay there and hold you all night. he would do anything to make you feel better. and you knew he would, he pressed a kiss to your head as he held you against him whispering sweet words into your ear.

you’d lost track of how long you’d been laid there on top of him, staining his shirt with your tears but he didn’t care, when you finally stopped crying your eyes felt heavy, you focused on jays breathing and the beating of his heart as you felt his hand still gently rubbing your back before your eyes closed giving into sleep. when jay noticed you’d finally fallen asleep a small smile raised on his lips as he hoped you would finally get a good nights sleep. he didn’t stop rubbing your back he stayed doing the same and he wouldn’t dare move in fear of waking you up. he loved you and wanted the best for you.

he spent the next hour planning ideas in his head for what he could do to make you feel better, anything that he could do to reassure you to make you feel loved and appreciated. he planned out a few ideas knowing you’d scold him in the morning when he presents his ideas to you but he didn’t care. a few dates to bring your spirits up sounds good to him, and gave him an excuse to spoil you.

#chicago pd #chicago pd imagine #jay halstead x reader #jay halstead imagine #jay halstead #one chicago x reader #i love jay halstead #jay halstead oneshot #jay halstead fluff

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acewritesfics · 6 months

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⚠️ I (@rainydayteacups) NO CREDIT FOR THESE FICS. ALL CREDIT GOES TO ACEY (@crazyformfics). She has entrusted me to repost her fics on here. She decided to take a step back from writing for these fandoms (interests do change). After we talked because I didn't want to see the fics she already had written go, she asked if I would like to take over and she'll send the fics she hasn't reposted yet to me so I can repost them on her behalf.

CHARACTERS:

Tommy Shelby - Peaky Blinders

Arthur Shelby - Peaky Blinders

John Shelby - Peaky Blinders

Alfie Solomons - Peaky Blinders

Jay Halstead - Chicago PD

TV/MOVIES:

Stranger Things

Top Gun: Maverick

MISC:

SUPERNATURAL:

All a Fantasy - Dean Winchester x Reader

Crossroads Deal - Dean Winchester x Reader

This is Your Mess - Winchester Bros x Platonic!Reader

SONS OF ANARCHY:

Baseball Bat - Jax Teller

Beautiful - Jax Teller

OTHER:

Mood Boards

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tomboy014 · 1 year

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I’m mostly going off of fanon when it comes to Constantine, so bear with me, but after all the times Constantine has complained to the JLA for dragging him into whatever problem they’ve managed to bumble into, Batman and Oracle have started looking for alternative occult and supernatural consultants, but it’s not like they can just look someone up in the phone book… right?

Except that’s exactly where Oracle finds Harry Dresden, Professional Wizard.

There aren’t many records Oracle’s able to pull up, and what she does find is a mixed bag. He’s got a fairly decent record working as a consultant with the Chicago PD, but he’s also worked with known criminal organizations. There’s a pending lawsuit with TV studio over some wrecked equipment, good reviews from his former landlady, and a mix of dissatisfied and very satisfied customers, but it seems like, for the most part, he gets results.

Plus, his rates are reasonable and he’s willing to travel; might as well bring him in on a trial run.

Nothing big at first. Break up a new cult, disprove a haunting, all much smaller and easier than what he usually deals with back in Chicago. He’s even managed to not burn down a building or two while he’s been here. And while his methods can be… unorthodox, he can hold his own in a fight using both magical and mundane methods. He’s a good detective and can work a crime scene. He’s a hell of a lot more personable than Constantine. Most importantly, he’s willing to teach. Giant dork that he is, he’s eager to explain the magical theory behind his methods.

After a few months, Batman asks if Dresden is willing to be brought on full time, so to speak, and work his first “big” case.

“Only if you can provide a babysitter.”

…What?

The Carpenter’s are on their family trip, and he doesn’t really have anyone else who can watch his kid. He can only help if they can get him a babysitter.

Not what any of the Bats were expecting, but Batman can call in a “favor.”

Cue Dresden rolling up to Wayne Manor with little Maggie and her trusty sidekick, Mouse, in tow.

Alfred gets Maggie and Mouse settled in, and once she’s out of the room, Dresden turns to Bruce Wayne and casually asks if he gets to see the Batcave.

Dresden is aware he’s not always the brightest crayon in the toolshed, but he’s still a damn good detective, and he knows people. It didn’t take him long to puzzle out that Bruce and the kids are vigilantes. Bruce isn’t happy, but it does make things easier going forward.

Other than Tim, the Birds take to Dresden quickly. He’s good with kids, never talking down to them, and is full of dorky movie and book references. He can sling almost as much sass and sarcasm around as Steph. Maggie is tiny and adorable and looks like a mini-Cass they can all coo over. And Damian cannot get enough of Mouse who is just so large and fluffy and so much dog! Tim doesn’t want Dresden to come anywhere near him; he shorts out every tablet and has to stay at least 20ft from the Bat Computer to keep it from shorting out.

So, Dresden finally works with the Justice League on some big, world-ending doomsday case, and yeah, this is unfortunately the speed he’s used to working at. And, of course, a building burns down, but it was mostly not his fault! But, everyone comes out more or less in one piece, the day is saved, and a bruised and beaten Dresden drags himself back to Wayne manor to recover before heading back to Chicago.

Just a normal day for Harry Dresden, professional wizard and supernatural consultant for the Justice League of America.

Still a much better deal than he’s used to getting. The pay is good, and he doesn’t have to constantly watch his back against his own teammates. Perk of working with superheroes; they’re generally good guys.

But the biggest perks have been the positive effects on his daughter, Maggie. It’s no Chez Carpenter, but the Manor and all the bat kids have a strong and warm family vibe of their own. They’re (worryingly) good at helping talk her down from panic attacks and PTSD episodes. They’ve got a lot of parenting advice to give, too.

And Maggie can finally get the therapy she needs from Black Canary without Dresden worrying about her being thrown into a loony bin for talking about the literal monsters she’ been exposed to. Harry, too.

This is the best Harry and Maggie have been doing in a long time.

John Constantine, on the other hand, is getting worried. The JLA have gone a suspiciously long time without getting themselves into trouble, and despite the way he acts, he does care in his own way, so he goes to check on them. And who does he find they’ve invited into their house? Harry Blackstone Copperfield Dresden, apprentice of Justin DuMorne, son of Margaret LeFay, fiancé to Lara Raith of the White Court of Vampires, and the right-hand goon of the Dark Faerie Queen herself, Mab. For Dresden, he can’t believe John Constantine, renegade warlock, necromance and black magic practitioner, just walked in. He’s been on the Warden’s list for years.

Both parties are trying to make their case about why they shouldn’t be using the other; they’re evil! But the more Dresden and Constantine yell and argue with each other, the more they realize that they’re both working outside boundaries, but generally in the direction of good. The two end up in positions that require them to work together, and it goes surprisingly well. Their knowledge and experiences complement each other’s, and they make a well-oiled, if reluctant, duo.

#dc #john constantine #dresden files #harry dresden #dc crossover

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bi-bard · 1 year

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Maybe There's No Answer Here, At Least One We're Ready to Hear - Jay Halstead Imagine [Chicago PD]

Title: Maybe There's No Answer Here, At Least One We're Ready to Hear

Pairing: Jay Halstead X Reader

Based On: In the Meantime

Word Count: 913 words

Warning(s): mentions of separation

Summary: Jay and (Y/n) planned for forever. However, no one can plan for everything. Now, Jay begs for one night of normalcy before everything falls apart.

Author's Note: This is super short, but I think it gets the job done.

Part One of "April" [Release Date: 5/3/2023]

Part Two of "April" [Release Date: 5/5/2023]

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Endings were always hard to accept.

Good or bad, there was always a small sense of denial that something was finally coming to a close.

I wish that my ending was good.

I had let myself believe that it was going to be.

I got comfortable. I got comfortable calling Jay's place home. I got comfortable waking up next to him, cooking with him, doing chores with him. I got comfortable being loved by him.

And now, I was forced to watch whatever future I imagined with Jay crumble in front of me. All of the broken pieces now sat in cardboard boxes and various bags. And suddenly, the ending was far more real than it had ever been before.

I heard the floor creak behind me. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

Jay and I had been largely silent while I packed. It was rare for our place to be so quiet. No talking, no music, no TV show playing in the background. Nothing to distract us from the inevitable.

"Kim's coming by tomorrow morning to help me get everything out," I muttered.

I didn't want to spend another night there. It was simply my only option at this point. I had been planning to sleep on the couch for the night. I had been for a while at that point. Jay complained about it, but I didn't care. Not at that point.

"Do you want some dinner," Jay asked.

"I'll eat later," I replied.

"(Y/n)-"

"You don't need to take care of me, Jay," I stopped him, turning to face him properly. "I can feed myself. I don't need your supervision-"

"It's not for you," he snapped. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. "It's for me."

I had to bite back the urge to say something along the lines of "at least you can finally admit that."

"Tomorrow... everything's going to be... different," he explained. "I just... I want one more normal night before that. I don't want to try to fix everything or convince you to stay or anything. I just want to have one more night where I don't have to think about living without you around."

He had spent a long time in denial. So had I.

Does anyone ever easily accept that a relationship is ending? Or that it ever needs to?

"Fine," I mumbled. "What did you have in mind?"

His shoulders dropped a bit before he replied, "I can order something."

"You know what I get from our usual places," I said. "I'm fine with anything."

He just nodded and walked off.

I sat down on the couch as he called whatever place he chose. I took a moment to look around the room.

It was strange. It was still the same place, but it looked completely foreign to me. There were empty spots on the wall where my stuff had been hanging up. There were movies missing from the shelf. There were throw blankets that were now tucked away in one of my boxes, mainly guarding my mugs.

It all felt so... wrong. Like seeing your face flipped in a photo. Still the same but not how you were used to seeing it.

Jay came out to sit with me a few minutes later.

He looked different too.

He looked tired. Weighed down. I wanted to believe that after this, he would go back to the way he had been before. The same man that had left that cup of coffee on my desk. Our relationship had become a weight on both of us. Too heavy to hold onto without hurting ourselves. No matter how much we both wanted it.

"Wanna watch a movie," Jay asked, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Sure," I nodded.

I don't remember what movie we picked that night.

I don't remember paying attention.

We stayed up pretty late that night. We didn't talk much. Mostly small comments about what we were watching.

We watched a few movies.

We ate dinner side-by-side on that couch.

When that was done, Jay grabbed some ice cream from the freezer for us to share.

It was so strange.

We hadn't experienced such a calm night like that in a long time. It felt like it had been months since we had a night end with no argument or snarky comments.

I'd like to believe that we both pushed any negative thoughts away for the time being. We were mourning the loss of whatever we had; there was no reason to disturb that by yelling at each other.

After Jay went to bed, I spent ages staring up at the ceiling of the apartment.

I felt my eyes fill with tears.

I knew that I couldn't stay.

Not right now. Nothing would change if I stayed.

We were at different points in our lives. We had different needs than what the other person could provide.

And avoiding that was going to hurt both of us in the long run.

But I could handle the avoidance for a night.

Maybe Jay and I spent that night trying to ignore the reality of the situation. Maybe neither one of us wanted to think about all of the reasons that our relationship fell apart the way it did.

But maybe we didn't need to.

Maybe we had been through enough fighting and yelling and talking.

Maybe it wasn't a state of denial. It was just the first step towards acceptance.

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adri-2022 · 2 years

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It's Time

Fandom: Chicago PD

Characters: Jay Halstead x FemReader/ Will Halstead/ Kelly Severide/ Hailey Upton/ Christopher Hermman

Warning: Slight swearing/ creppy comments/ denigration

Word count: 1512

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A/N: Hi guys, hope everyone is okay. Here is a request from the beautiful @andreahalstead24

[I took some insipiration from the movie "The Hollars"]

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You had met in the most chaotic way; it was back when you were celebrating your 22nd birthday. You had decided to go to a bar you hadn’t gone before, and just sit and drink by yourself and in your name, but then a guy you didn’t know approach you, apparently his name was Chad -big red flag for you-. He was being weird and a bit handsy since he started talking to you. Safe to say you were very uncomfortable and wanted out of there.

“So, I’ll have to talk to your parents and tell them they did a great job with you” the guy said trying to flirt but you were having none of it. You kept your head looking forward and rolling your eyes, this catch the eye of the bartender, and slightly older man. Tired of the constant flirting, and Chad not getting the memo you were about to lose your shit.

“I think I should leave. Long day tomorrow” you lied with a fake smile, but at this point you just wanted to be home and eat ice-cream in front of the TV. You were regretting your decision to come alone, right about now.

“Oh, c’mon baby you know you want it” Chad said, grabbing your forearm,

“Excuse you” you answered with a disgusted look. You didn’t want him to approach you, he did that on his own.

“You heard me bitch” he said tightening his hand around you a bit, this made you sit back down having him release the grip.

“Hey woah. You got a problem buddy” another voice interrupted in the conversation from the bar stool next to you, a couple of ‘woah’s’ accompanying it. You turned slightly to look over your shoulder, you were met with the most gorgeous green eyes, a red head guy sitting beside him and a blue-eyed guy at the end of the bar.

You turned back around to where the ‘child’ was. Grabbing your freshly served drink you threw it on his face, glass clicking on the bar as you brought it down, couple of ‘oh’ from the guys behind you. Not taking your pissed off face away from his, he wanted it to go down then it would go down. When he had processed what you had done, he stood up looking down at you trying to intimidate you.

“Go ahead. I’ve dealt with more bigger, bad, and drunker” you said looking directly at his eyes raising your chin. He raised his hand, and you were so ready to take the slap, but men, he had to prepare himself for what would come after. But that didn’t happen, instead the green-eyed guy, well the group of guys that were sitting behind you were immediately on their feet, making a slight circle around you.

“You touch her. I break your hand. Your choice” the green-eyed guy was standing in front of you but slightly to the side. Just in case Chad tried something he could intervene, the way he said it brought chills to your skin. Chad looked around the bar noticing all eyes were on the situation, there wasn’t too much people but the ones that were there, were prepared to stand as well.

“She was asking for it. I’m just giving” Chad said with a smug look on his face, it wasn’t going to keep being there if you stood up.

“Asking for it? YOU were the one who approached her. Quite frankly it’s a YOU problem bud” red head guy said from behind you, you raised eyebrow at the creepy dude.

“You should leave, before a throw this glass at your ugly face” the cute green-eyed guy at your side said. Now was his turn to smile smugly.

“Or what?”

“I’m gonna throw hands. Want to see?” you said raising your hand,

“I would like to see you try bitch” before anyone could say something on your defense, you stood up throwing a punch straight for his nose, shaking your hand after the contact, pained look on your face.

“Fuck, that hurt. Totally not like movies” you muttered. Unknown to you Chad tried to grab you but didn’t get far when green-eyed guy pulled you behind him by you waist. Before it escalated more a new voice spoke.

“Or you’ll get your ass kicked by, doctors, firefighters and cops” an older man from behind the bar said, -maybe the owner, looks like an owner- you thought. With a last look you way he marched out of the bar, you released a relieved sigh before turning to the group.

“Thank you for that” you smiled at them, most of them dispersed except, the four of the guys, so you decided to at least introduce yourself.

“Think you had that handled yourself” red head guy said, nodding his head with a surprised look.

“I’m Y/N” “Hermman, Kelly and Will” the cute guy introduced them, you smiled at them, receiving the same as return.

“And you are?” you asked the cute guy, who smiled at you, making your heart skip a beat -he’s trouble-.

“Jay. Jay Halstead. Let’s get that hand looked over shall we”

Then the rest is history, you had been dating for a year when you guys got married and now at 24 years-old you are expecting any day now your first baby. You had come to learn that the bar that you went was called Molly’s, that in fact the old man behind the bar was the owner, that mostly first responders went there, and you were grateful you had gone there that night. Otherwise, you wouldn’t have met the love of your life and some long-life friends.

Currently you were in Molly’s celebrating Jay’s promotion to Sergeant of the Intelligence Unit of Chicago, only first responders allowed -oh and you-, who are in fact currently studying nursing. You couldn’t be more proud of your husband, he had spend months studying for his test, you knew he had been born for this moment. You were on a table that you had come to call ‘The Intelligence Table’ given that the team was always there. Jay was right by your side, Will and Hailey sitting at the opposite side. Will was telling an embarrassing story about Jay, making the latter groan.

“You never told me that story” you said in between laughs to your husband, who was leaning against the wall a hand on his face from embarrassment.

“WE made a pact to NEVER talk about that night, Will” he said giving his brother a stern look, that had you cracking even more. Your laugh making Jay look at you smiling and shaking his head, it was contagious and music to his ears. He pulled your chair closer to his, wrapping his arms around you, caressing your belly and kissing you cheek. You closing your eyes at the contact and the slight pressure on your abdomen.

“You okay Y/N?” Hailey asked after taking a sip of her beer,

“What. Why? What’s wrong” Jay pulled slightly away so that he could see your face, a worried expression on his.

“Are you in pain?” Will said preparing himself to jump into the doctor mode. You smiled at them, shaking your head.

“I’m fine, just tired. It happens when you carry a Halstead son inside you. C’mon guys- you got to chill” you said to them, a bored expression on you face. This was a daily occurrence between all your friends, since you started feeling Braxton hicks. When Jay was about to argue with you, he was called by another voice.

“Sergeant Halstead. How about a speech!” Kevin screamed from the other side of the bar, making the entire bar chuckle. With that Jay stood up, pecking your lips and approaching the microphone in Adam’s hand. You tried to listen to what Jay was going to say but you felt a weird pain in your abdomen. Making you close your eyes tightly and groan silently grabbing the end of the table. Unfortunately not silent enough because Hailey jump from her chair making Will do the same.

“Y/N you good?” Will asked checking your pulse, while Hailey drew circles in your back to easy the pain. Not wanting to draw attention and interrupt Jay’s speech you shush them.

“No, sh. I’m good, all good” you whispered to them, looking towards Jay. Will followed your line of sight and immediately understood what you were doing.

“None of that Y/N. Hails” Will said looking at Hailey, one look and she knew, nodding.

“Jay!” she exclaimed; all the attention drawn away from Jay. When Jay saw your pained expression, he panicked rushing towards you taking you free hand in his, you squeezing it.

“Hey, beautiful. Talk to me” he said to you while kissing the side of your head. Your eyes were still tightly closed, and you were trying to calm your breathing. When you didn’t answer he continued.

“What’s wrong, Will” Jay directed the question at his brother not taking his eyes off you. Will padded his shoulder smiling, “It’s time”

#jay halstead x reader #chicago pd imagines #jay halstead #jay halstead fluff #jay halstead x y/n #jay halstead x you #fan fiction #one chicago fic #jay halstead angst

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xofeno · 2 years

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According to deuxmoi, word around Chicago is Jesse wanted out for a while. So, it might have really been his decision. Which is bad timing with the Kelli Giddish firing.

This ramble got long, so…

If it was Jesse's choice to leave, I don't blame him one bit. Ten seasons is a long time for an actor to play the same role. Especially on a show that demands as much time and energy as PD. Especially if they stick with the recent format where he gets a featured role in 2-4 episodes a year, and for the other 18 episodes gets 2 lines of dialogue. Especially if they're planning to be like Law & Order and continue for 10 more seasons. If he wants to get out and do something else while he's still young I don't blame him one bit. Even if he just needs an extended break, that is totally valid and I fully support it.

The way it was announced feels weird though. If this has really been in the works for a while, why not announce sooner and give him a full farewell season. He's not some minor character who joined for 1 or 2 years. He has held that show down for 9 seasons. Before that he helped launch it on Chicago Fire. He deserves a proper exit.

At the very least, why not announce it at the end of last season. Not 15 hours before rolling out publicity for the new season, which BTW your fave will hardly be in, enjoy!!

Plus when it's an actor's choice to leave, they usually give a reason. An actual statement. Not a small gracious thank you in a Variety article and then a retweet of said article calling it sad and again thanking the fans.

Anyway. I'm not about to trust some random unsourced submission to a gossip site as fact. The actual fact is we don't know whose choice this was. We don't know why it's happening and that's part of what makes it so hard to grasp.

Talking this through with all of you really is helping me process it though. I hope that in a few weeks we'll be healed enough to enjoy our last few moments with Jay Halstead.

And what I really hope at this point, is for Jesse to get an awesome new role on an awesome new show. If that's what he wants. Because I love him so. much. and desperately want to keep seeing him on my TV.

#answer #chicago pd #jesse lee soffer #jay halstead

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canonicallyobserving911 · 2 years

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Buck & Eddie: They’re NOT bros, brothers, friends or a bromance

Partnerships: Buckley & Diaz from 9-1-1 vs. Atwater & Ruzek from Chicago PD

Relationships: Buck & Eddie from 9-1-1 vs. Kim & Adam from Chicago PD

Some 9-1-1 viewers have posted comments on different platforms that explain how they only see Buck and Eddie as best friends, a bromance, brothers, platonic friends or as work partners. However when their relationship is compared to other platonic male partnerships from other TV shows, it’s easy to see that Buck and Eddie’s relationship is much more than any of the terms those commenters have used to define them. Let’s compare their relationship with a platonic partnership and also compare it to a romantic relationship from the same TV show.

Listed below are examples of Buck and Eddie’s interactions. They’ve been compared against interactions between Kevin and Adam (partners/bros) and Kim and Adam (a romantic relationship) to illustrate the differences.

For viewers who are unfamiliar with Chicago PD, it’s a show that airs on NBC in the United States and it is included in the One Chicago franchise along with Chicago Fire and Chicago Med.

TV Show: Chicago P.D.

Partnership/Bros: Officer Adam Ruzek & Officer Kevin Atwater

Romantic Relationship: Officer Kim Burgess & Officer Adam Ruzek

Adam, Kevin and Kim are all police officers who work in the Intelligence Division of the Chicago Police Department which is ran by Sergeant Hank Voight.

Partnership/Bros

Kevin and Adam are partners, they call each other bro and they will ride or die for each other. They’ve been involved in a lot of dangerous situations that included Kevin being captured by a drug dealer, Adam’s father causing trouble for him within the police department, Adam being shot by a suspect because Kevin crossed the blue line when he told the truth about a fellow officer and the list goes on and on. Please note: Kevin was partnered with Kim while they were just uniform officers and before they moved to the Intelligence Division. Kevin and Kim are like brother and sister because when Kevin’s younger biological siblings lived in Chicago, Kim would babysit Kevin’s little sister.

Romantic Relationship

Kim and Adam had a romantic relationship with each other and Kim got pregnant. She lost the baby but her and Adam remained close even though he experienced some difficulties at work. One day they responded to a call about a little girl wandering down the street. Long story short, the girl’s family had been murdered and Kim ended up adopting her. Kim asked Adam to be Makayla’s custodian in the adoption.

Partnerships: Buckley & Diaz vs. Atwater & Ruzek

Significant others

Kevin & Adam

In season 9, Kevin slept with a person of interest but he didn’t know it at the time and didn’t find out until the team was preparing to question her. Once he learned that information, he and Adam were supposed to go talk to Celeste together but Kevin told Adam that he “knew her” and Adam told him not to worry about it because he was going to question her and come back with the information. Adam simply helped Kevin with his dilemma and he didn’t ask him a lot of questions about the time he spent with Celeste even though she was a person of interest in a case they were working. This is how bros act when they are talking about their significant others. They don’t act petty and jealous towards them like Buck and Eddie do.

Kevin, Adam & Kim

Adam and Kim have been romantically involved with each other for a while but Kevin has never acted jealous or petty towards Kim or Adam. They all work together seamlessly. Reminder, Kevin and Kim worked as partners first and they were never romantically involved with each other.

Buck & Eddie

Buck and Eddie act petty and jealous towards each other’s significant others all the time. It’s never been a one-time thing with them and they wouldn’t act like that unless they meant more to each other than just a platonic friendship or them being bros, brothers or if it was just a bromance (read blog post: “Buck & Eddie: Petty Eddie vs. Jealous Buck” for more examples of Eddie and Buck being jealous and petty).

Captured/Hostage

Kevin & Adam

When Kevin was captured by a local drug dealer in 5x12 “Captured”, Adam kept his cool until they had to kill one of the suspects who knew where Kevin was being held. Adam cried a little bit for Kevin because he was overwhelmed and they had all been working for more than 36 hours trying to find Kevin. But Adam was comforted by Kim instead of anyone else on the team after he started crying. Voight stepped in and told Adam they all had to stay focused and he got himself together really quick.

Buck & Eddie

Buck frantically worried about Eddie when Mitchell held Eddie hostage inside of the ambulance in 5x6 “Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1”. He told Athena that if they didn’t find a way to talk Mitchell down, he was going to shoot Eddie. That wasn’t the first time Buck acted frantically over the thought of losing Eddie. Actually, Buck reacted frantically every time Eddie was in danger including The Well in 3x15 “Eddie Begins”; The Shooting in 4x13 “Suspicion”; The Hostage Situation and Eddie’s Breakdown in 5x13 “Fear-O-Phobia”. Buck cried and screamed for Eddie at The Well; he crawled underneath a ladder truck, pulled Eddie to safety and lifted him into the firetruck after Eddie got shot. He panicked and ran towards the gunfire when he thought Eddie had been shot by Mitchell the escaped convict and he thought Eddie had done something to hurt himself when he broke down Eddie’s bedroom door after his breakdown. Buck’s reactions to Eddie being in danger are not the types of reactions a person would expect from someone who is just a bro or a brother. His reactions equate to someone who’s in love and their heart is hurting. He wasn’t ok until he knew Eddie was ok.

Fights/Arguments

Adam & Kevin

In 8x16 “The Other Side”, Kevin and Adam got into an actual fist fight about the process Voight wanted to use to find Kim because Adam believed it was taking them too long to locate her after she had been captured. Their fight happened downstairs in the cage area where they hold suspects and Hailey and Jay had to break them up.

Buck & Eddie

In 3x5 “Rage”, Buck and Eddie got into an argument inside of the grocery store about how Eddie couldn’t talk to Buck because of the lawsuit Buck filed against the department and Bobby. Eddie said things to Buck that had nothing to do with the lawsuit. Eddie argued, “Do you know how much Christopher misses you? How could you you’re not around” and Buck replied, “I didn’t realize that. Maybe I could come visit Christopher. The lawsuit doesn’t prevent that”. Then Eddie said, “No it prevents me from reaching out to you, I couldn’t even call you to bail me out of jail”. Their argument was not the kind of argument platonic friends, bros or brothers would have in front of their co-workers. Also no one from their team, including their captain tried to break them up. They all just stood there and watched.

Making up after their fight/argument

Adam & Kevin

In 8x16 “The Other Side”, after Kevin and Adam’s fight at the station, they didn’t have a discussion and neither of them apologized. They just got over it by putting it behind them and went right back to being bros like nothing ever happened. By the time Kevin and Jay found Kim, Kevin simply called Adam after they made it to the hospital to tell him they found her and what the doctors were doing to try to save her. Kevin and Adam stayed on the phone with each other the entire time they were at the hospital. Kevin told Adam that he wasn’t going to hang up and Adam replied, “I appreciate you, bro”. They didn’t even mention that they fought earlier that day and they didn’t hold onto any grudges against each other, they just let it go.

Buck & Eddie

In 3x6 “Monsters”, Eddie was still angry with Buck after the lawsuit kept them from being able to talk to each other. When Buck returned to work, Eddie wouldn’t say more than a few words to him because he was still upset. His responses to Buck were snappy and he kind of acted like a jilted lover when he turned his back on him.

Buck & Eddie

After Buck returned to work, he made Eddie talk to him in 3x6 “Monsters” after Eddie kept ignoring him. When Buck said, “I just want you to talk to me, even if it’s just to say that you’re still mad” and Eddie replied, “I’m not mad, I’m...”; what adjective was the audience supposed to use to complete Eddie’s sentence? Was he hurt, frustrated, dismayed? Seriously, him not being able to explain how he felt in that moment was very LOUD! Also platonic bros don’t have long conversations just to apologize to each other. It usually takes them less than ten seconds to apologize when one of them says, “You know what you did was messed up, right?” and the other one replies with, “Yeah, I know. Sorry man”. Afterwards they move on just like Kevin and Adam did after they had a literal fist fight in the cage area of the station. Buck apologized and they made up but his first apology only repaired their work partnership.

Buck & Eddie

In 3x9 “Fallout”, Buck apologized for the second time and he specifically apologized to Eddie for abandoning him and Christopher. He said, “I’m sorry I wasn’t there Eddie, you and Chris needed me and I had my head so far up my own behind with that stupid lawsuit” and Eddie interrupted and said, “We’re way past that Buck”. Buck continued with “I’m not! I should have been there. Maybe I could have talked some sense into you”. Buck’s second apology was for their personal relationship and it was filled with sexual tension. By the time they were done talking, they looked at each other like they wanted to jump each other’s bones right there in Buck’s kitchen and they might have done it if Christopher hadn’t been still awake. That’s not the type of apology bros or friends would give each other, it’s actually the type of apology two people in a romantic relationship would give each other when they are making up after an argument or a disagreement.

Relationships: Buck & Eddie vs. Kim & Adam

The way they look at each other

Buck & Eddie

Kevin and Adam have never looked at each other the way Buck and Eddie look at each other (read blog post: “Buck and Eddie Look at each other with love, lust and passion” for more examples of how Buck and Eddie look at each other). Buck and Eddie look at each other with longing and passion while Kevin and Adam look at each other like their just bros. The heart eyes Eddie gives Buck earned him the nickname Eddie “Heart Eyes” Diaz.

Kim & Adam

Kim and Adam look at each other in some of the same ways that Buck and Eddie look at each other with longing, love and passion. But viewers should remember that Kim and Adam are in a on again off again romantic relationship with each other.

Guardianship vs. Custodianship

Kim & Adam

In 8x13 “Trouble Dolls”, Kim asked Adam to be Makayla’s custodian after she adopted her. Their conversation is almost identical to the one Buck and Eddie had about the legal guardianship. Also when Adam asked Kim why she chose him, she initially replied, “Because we were supposed to have a baby together dummy” and then she explained how their relationship was a lot of things but if they worked together as a family to care for Makayla, they could protect her together. She then told him he had the option to say no but he said yes and that he didn’t even have to think about it.

Buck & Eddie

In 4x14 “Survivors” Eddie told Buck when he was getting discharged from the hospital that he named him to be Christopher’s legal guardian in his will more than one year prior to him getting shot. Buck was shocked and asked him, “Don’t you like need my consent?” Eddie replied, “My attorney said you could refuse” but Buck said, “But you knew I wouldn’t” and Eddie replied, “Yeah, I knew you wouldn’t”. Eddie told Buck the reason he named him to be Christopher’s legal guardian was because no one would ever fight for Christopher as hard as he would and that’s what he wanted for him. Buck asked him why he waited a year to tell him and Eddie replied, “Because Evan, you came in here the other day and said it would have been better if it were you who had been shot. You act like you’re expendable but you’re wrong”. Their conversation is not typical for two platonic bros to have with each other but it is the type of conversation two people who are deeply in love with each other would have (see Kim and Adam’s exchange above to prove this fact). Read blog post: “Buck & Eddie: The Will & Legal Guardianship” or more information about Eddie’s will.

Hailey talks to Adam

In 8x16 “The Other Side”, after Kim had been held hostage, shot and left for dead, Hailey had to remind Adam that he was Makayla’s custodian so that he would stop being irrational and go take care of her. He wanted to keep searching for Kim with the team but Hailey was the voice of reason who reminded Adam of his responsibility.

Buck goes to talk to Christopher & The 118 already knew

In 4x14 “Survivors”, no one had to tell Buck he needed to talk to Christopher after Eddie got shot because everyone already knew he was going to be the one to do it. He was already fulfilling the role of Christopher’s legal guardian way before he had any knowledge about Eddie’s will. Also Eddie had a girlfriend who didn’t do anything but sit next to his bedside while he was unconscious. The entire 118 team knew Buck would be the one to talk to Christopher and Buck even stayed at Eddie’s house to take care of him.

Building a family

Kim, Adam & Makayla-Family Time

In 8x13 “Trouble Dolls”, Kim told Adam they were a family when she asked Adam to be Makayla’s custodian and he took his responsibility seriously. Several months later, Adam offered to buy Kim a house so that her and Makayla wouldn’t have to keep living in an apartment.

The Buckley-Diaz Family

Buck and Eddie started building The Buckley-Diaz Family during season 2 and they have spent countless hours together doing family activities. Eddie told Buck in 3x3 “The Searchers” after Buck and Christopher had been caught in the Tsunami, that there was no one in the world he trusted with Christopher more than him. He trusts Buck with Christopher more than anyone and he’s proven that fact many times over in CANON.

Buck and Eddie’s relationship is NOT a bromance, they’re not brothers, bros or just friends. They share something way more intimate with each other than the definitions that go with the terms some viewers keep using to define them. If the narrative continues, then the only option is for them to become ENDGAME (read blog post: “Buck & Eddie: Buck and Eddie are each other’s ENDGAME” for more information about Buck and Eddie being each other’s endgame). Will Buck and Eddie become a CANON couple during season 6? Only the showrunners, writers and producers know the answer to that question.

#buddie #eddie diaz #evan buckley #evan buck buckely #buck buckley #christopher diaz #911 meta #911 speculation #911 s6 #911 season 6 #911 season 6 speculation #911 on fox #911onfox #911 fox #911 #911 season 5 #118 firefam #911 spoilers #buck x eddie

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lizziethat · 7 months

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Hi Lizzie, just want to start by saying I enjoy your tv reviews! Chicago PD used to be one of my favorite shows until Season 10 when I was forced to stop watching after the writers chose to completely annihilate Jay’s character after Jesse left the show. I was wondering if you knew of an address where I can send a letter to the writers or show runner (unfortunately I do know the showrunner’s name)? I feel like sending a letter will help give me closure even if no one ends up reading it. Is there no way to send feedback to writers specifically? I know fans have made their feelings clear on social media but is social media backlash something that even gets shared with writers/the show runner?

This is a tricky question. More often than not, yes, writers/showerunners are aware of the general feelings of people on social media. I've certainly found that they have a pretty good idea of what's being said when I've interviewed them. Doesn't mean they'll listen, but they know.

As for where to send a letter - I'd say to Wolf Entertainment HQ. I don't want to post the full address here, but it should be easy to Google.

And thank you so much for reading my reviews! Hopefully we are closer to the end of the strike and having a lot of stuff to talk about again.

#chicago pd #wolf entertainment

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go-to-two · 2 years

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Thank you. One more random q because I'm curious. Jesse once tweeted a bunch of words used in tv and film here https://twitter.com/jesseleesoffer/status/1381755242182758404?t=ydW3kEMaD6oS7l7MZK50rw&s=19

I know what some words mean but can you explain grip, first, second, third, apple, apple box, gate, mark, and martini?

(screenshot for context)

I have to say, I admire your curiosity since this tweet is over a year old! This is like a fun little quiz, and some of the replies and quote tweets had me laughing. Let's do this!

1. Grip: it's a department within the crew. Grips work with the lighting and camera departments to get everything secured in the right position to get the shot. This can include stands, trusses, flags, nets, etc. for lights and dollies, car rigs, cranes, etc. for cameras.

2. First, Second, Third: this is vague, Mr. Soffer! Positions? ADs? Units? Walkie channels? First and second teams? I can explain any of these if needed, but I'm not really sure what he was going for here. Or I have more learning to do.

3. Apple: this is explained well in the replies, but it refers to the second camera setup in a scene. Let's say they are filming scene 1 for the day and the first setup is a wide shot while the second is in close. When they switch from the wider to the closer shot, they move from scene 1 to scene 1A, or Apple.

4. Apple Box: literally a box! They are usually made of wood and can come in different heights. They can be placed under props to make them higher in the frame or under an actor to make them taller.

5. Gate: an old school term from when everything was shot on film. The gate was an opening in the camera that would have to be checked for any blockages or dirt that could ruin the quality of the film. Even in the digital world, the term "check the gate" has kind of stuck around as a way to say "check the camera and make sure it's capturing what it needs to".

6. Mark: a marking (usually tape in the shape of a "T") placed on the ground that lets an actor know where they need to be in a scene. Different colors of tape will be assigned to different actors. See: Marina's instagram post from September 20.

7. Martini: last shot of the day!

#anon ask #chicago pd #jesse lee soffer #tv talk

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storiesofsvu · 2 years

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Well… that was… *something*

Law & order premier event thoughts…

Okay, here we go!

(Fuck i just realized i never did a “what i hope/wish to see this season! I’ll do it after)

oh. Okay. We’re diving *right* into things with Ukraine? 😳 jfc

Cosgrove(?)’s daughter & all this talk about gunshots is terribly foreboding

SNIPED BY DADDY BENSON JEEESUS

I just do not like Cosgrove….

Oh GOD & NOW he’s fighting with Stabler?! We couldnt have gotten through this ep without a “whos dick is bigger” contest, could we? 🙄🙄 like i was *just* gonna say how frank’s acting like stabler & then stabler shows up… ugh. Bring daddy benson back pls

Ayannaaaaaaa lookin like a SNACK as per usual!😍

This “crossover” really is more like a 3hr movie. First 30mins moved pretty slow like the OG l&o vibes… now we’re into the OC feels. Where are my svu babies? Bring them in pls.

I cant decide whether this CI is a complete idiot or a genius.

Why are we being forced to deal with so many low neck, chest exposed outfits for stabler 🥴

Oh so we’re putting Amanda in oversized blazers this year?

Watching them do raids on l&o after watching so much Chicago pd is just pathetic. Like, they’d lose so many cops with how bad it is.

I’m sorry. But if i was going to raid a house of a very dangerous criminal… i’d put my hair up to make sure i could SEE what i was doing…

Loving this style update for Jet😍

Did ANYONE think the CI was gonna make it through the ep?? Like cmon that was obvious

There was 3:44min left on the timer & that was WAY less than that….

Are velasco & fin just like, kickin it back at the precinct watching tv or something rn?!

Yessssssss Sam is here now! 😍😍

But also hate the other ada

Wait… this perp (in pt3) has DEFINITELY been on svu before… he sold liv & elliot a baby… right?!

Sir… you are sitting like a lesbian…

WOW we just jumped two months!!

Where TF is carisi??

AMANDA ROLLINS IS ANTI TAYLOR SWIFT??!! I *NEVER* WOULD HAVE THOUGHT! Like she would be the number 1 swiftie…

FUCK.

Okay like i KNEW something like this was probable because dw wanted her killed off BUT COULD WE GET THROUGH A SEASON OPENER WITH**OUT** SOMEONE IMPORTANT GETTING SHOT??!!

Carisi’s gonna show up now, right??

UGGGHH PEEEETTEERR YOUR ACTING!!??? GOOD GOD. JUST SO SCARED & worried & 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭

Wtf is this jacket olivia has on? I cant tell whether its leather or denim or leather posing as denim??!

Liv did what was right. Putting nicole out of harms way was way better than making her testify when she’s already almost been killed multiple times.

Oh fuck you mccoy

How is NO ONE from the da’s office even TALKING about/worried about rollins?!

THANK YOU SAM!!! I KNEW I LIKED YOU BETTER THAN ANYONE ON THIS DAMN SHOW (also she’s looked *bomb* in every outfit so far..)

I feel like we might be starting to learn more about Sam’s history/childhood thanks to this ep? Or like, this might be hinting at some future character arc?

UCK. I literally just said “at least elliot’s gone” and WOW he feels the need to come back…

There are TEN mins left & we still havent gotten an update on amanda??!! Come ON

Yo, dick wolf, tell me you hate amanda rollins without telling me you hate amanda rollins 😒😒😒

ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?! The crap scenes we GOT instead of:

a panicked emotional carisi at the hospital, a sympathetic & just as worried liv who’s trying to hide it to be the bigger supporter, a worried fin who’s watched her take a bullet already!! The REUNION & relief when they’re told she’s out of surgery & going to be totally fine. The CONVERSATION between amanda & sonny, the heartfelt confessions of how scared they were to lose each other, how carisi was internally freaking out about the girls and legally who would take care of them if amanda died, and how it should be him over anyone from her family. How the only thing aside from the girls amanda could think of was that she wished she had told sonny she wanted to be with him forever, be the dad to her girls, how life is short & they’d wasted enough time already. Followed by an untraditional proposal, one that neither of them expected & sonny doesnt even have the ring, but they agree to marriage anyways. FOLLOWED by liv, fin, velasco, jessie & billie coming into the room in a big happy found family wrap up…

Brb… just wrote a one shot that was better than the wrap of this damn episode.

Ugh 🙄🙄🙄

@bookpillows here ya go

#law and order #law and order svu #law and order organized crime #law and order spoilers #spoilers #svu #law and order special victims unit #law and order svu spoilers #amanda rollins

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lily-174 · 1 year

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You are broken on the floor, and you’re crying - jay halstead x reader

trigger warning: ptsd, angst, sad jay

a/n- in a sad jay mood so i’m gonna make myself cry by writing this.

chicago pd masterlist

listen to broken while reading <3

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you sat in the common room at firehouse 51 with all your colleagues, laughing and joking around with blake and ritter, about blake’s decisions, sleeping with hermmans niece.

“sooo y/n how’s it going with halstead?” ritter smiled, and the two younger boys now looking at you waiting for you to answer. you and jay had been together for almost a year now but this past week had been different.

“it was great” you smiled but both the boys faces looked confused by the ‘was’

“elaborate please y/l/n” blake stated, you three where a trio, if something was going on you’d all talk about it.

“he’s been acting distant.. like very distant this past week. and we haven’t had sex in like two weeks. i think he’s gonna end it” you sighed bringing your cup of coffee to your lips.

“i doubt that, have you seen the way he looks at you. boy is like a high schooler in love” ritter tried reassuring you, you smiled and shook your head.

“we haven’t really spoke which is also concerning but-“ you were cut off by the bells ringing indicating you had to go on a call. everyone jumped up rushing to the trucks.

when you arrived it was a car crush and you and gallo ended up on crowd control, which was never fun. the driver was okay, and the call came to an end fairly quickly. heading back to the station you had a laugh with your friends in an attempt to distract yourself from what you thought was going to be the end of your relationship. you’d probably have to stay with blake for a while until you can sort something out having moved in with jay a few months ago.

you got back to the station heading to your bunk to try and get some sleep, thankfully you were successful and managed to get a few hours of sleep in since it was a fairly quiet shift, but you wouldn’t dare say that aloud.

you had a shower got changed and joined mouch watching tv in the common room, you sat there for a while listening to everyone talking laughing at some people’s stupid comments before your phone started ringing. you pulled it from your pocket seeing it was one of your friends calling, kevin. initially youre heart dropped noticing the time in the corner jay was just set to finish his shift what if something happened?

you got up answering the phone as you walked into the hallway, hands clammy with worry.

“everything okay kev?” you asked, jay was so accident prone you worried about him 24/7.

“i’m not sure.. i just wanted to let you know, i’m pretty sure something is wrong with jay. he made such a bad decision today.. it could’ve ended so badly. just thought it would be good for you to know.” kevin’s words worried you, maybe it wasn’t you. then it clicked, you’d been so obvious. his ptsd was probably playing up.

“i’ll keep an eye on him. you look after him at work okay?” you said, you wanted to go home, but still had 6 hours of your shift left.

“always” you thanked kev, and ended the phone going straight to bodens office, you knocked on the door and he called you in.

“chief i know this isn’t ideal. but something happened to jay at work today” he didn’t even let you finish cutting you off.

“go home, we got it here” you thanked your chief before leaving his office and heading to your locker grabbing your stuff and rushing out to your car. you didn’t even get changed, still having your uniform on you drove home.

jay wouldn’t be expecting you home for another 6 hours so when you got to your apartment you didn’t want to make him jump or scare him. you turned the key in the lock opening the door and making your way inside.

as you slowly made your way into the apartment you heard small sobs, you took a deep breath following the sound it leading you to the bathroom you slowly opened the door seeing jay sat against the wall knees up almost against his chest as his head was leant back against the wall, tears falling from his eyes, you feltyour heart drop at the sight of your beautiful jay.

“jay baby it’s me” you whispered softly as you made your way into the bathroom getting closer to him, before sitting next to him and slowly pulling his muscular body into you.

his arms wrapped around your waist tightly as the sobs that escaped his lips grew louder then before. you held him, rubbing his back as he gripped handfuls of your shirt hiding his face into your neck.

“i’m here jay, you’re safe you’re okay” you whispered softly in his ear in an attempt to reassure him, he just continued desperately grasping at your shirt. you’d never seen him this upset before, the violent shake of his body as a result of the sobs.

“they’re all i see..” he cried, he hated feeling this vulnerable, he never wanted you to see him like this. but he was so glad you were holding him, one of your hands went to the back of his head to play with the short strands of hair, he always said that made him feel calmer.

you stayed like that for a while, listening to his broken sobs as you held your beloved boyfriend on the floor. you could see the pain in his eyes. you couldn’t fathom how he’d been dealing with everything on his own for so long. and in that moment neither could he, your presence made him feel so much safer.

your heart hurt thinking about all the things jay had been through, all the things people had done to him. he was such a pure soul, he was an amazing man you loved everything about the man you currently held in your arms he was the definition of perfect. the cries echoing in the bathroom eventually slowed enough to be able to talk to him rationally.

“jay? you wanna have a shower and get in bed?” you asked and he nodded, his eyes were puffy and rimmed red, the sight brought a tear to your eye.

“you want me to stay with you” you asked as you helped him stand up, it pained you seeing him like this. but you knew this wasn’t about you. you wanted to make him feel better, make him feel safe.

“please” his voice weaker then normal, all the crying having strained his voice. you turned the shower on, making sure it was nice and warm before you and jay started taking your clothes off, you both got in the shower he stood there the sad look on his face pulled on your heart strings, so you pulled him into another hug, your naked body’s touching your arms around his waist and his arms around you as the warm water ran down both of your bodies. you could hear him sniffling and you gently rubbed the soft skin on his back.

“i love you so much jay” you whispered softly as you pulled away just enough to look up at him, a small soft smile showing up on his face he had a beautiful smile that always gave you butterflies.

“i love you too.. thank you i never wanted you to see” you cut him off straight away not even wanting him to finish his sentence.

“jay.. you didn’t understand the first time. i love you jay halstead, you are the love of my life. i’ll do anything to make you feel safe okay?” he nodded pulling you into his arms again, you stayed in his embrace fora while before pulling away and washing eachother.

once you got out of the shower you both went to your shared room, he put only a pair of boxers on before jumping in bed, you put on one of jays shirts before crawling into bed next to him. you pulled him closer to you, he laid his head on your chest his hand going under your shirt so he could hold your waist, he gently ran his thumb along your soft skin as he thanked god for giving him a woman like you.

you pulled the covers up more to keep you both warm and gently traced shapes on his back. you loved him so much, he was so beautiful. you hadn’t lied he really was the love of your life. you laid there for a while before noticing he’d fallen asleep, you gently pressed a kiss to his head.

“you’re perfect jay halstead” you whispered against his head before pulling away, and closing your eyes in hopes of falling asleep but you’d slept earlier, so you just enjoyed jays warmth and being in his arms.

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700 Word August: Day One

Title: Adam Ruzek--Guilt Show: Chicago PD Word Count: 700 exactly Summary: Generally speaking, Adam sleeps better than both of his partners. Sometimes he feels a little guilty about that. Warnings: Mentions of past abuse/abusive environments, war, nightmares and PTSD.

Sometimes, Adam Ruzek felt guilty. He’d wake in the night, and the air would feel different, or he’d hear the low hum of the TV from the living room, or he’d reach across the bed and find the other side empty, that neither of his partners were where they’d been when he’d fallen asleep, neither one of them lying peaceful beside him.

Sometimes he heard the two of them talking, quiet in the kitchen as they made tea, poured water, took painkillers for headaches, scoured the bottom drawer for sleeping tablets. And he’d lie there thinking about how he didn’t belong in these nights, these nights where Hailey or Jay couldn’t sleep, where the two of them met under gentle light of the hall, and stayed up. He wondered if they told each other what kept them awake. He wondered how they felt, if there were things they said out there in the night they felt they couldn’t bring to Adam in the day.

This, in a lot of ways, was privilege. On the surface of it, Adam and Jay ticked the same boxes. White men, not exactly wealthy, bisexual (which seemed to be misinterpreted by many as “mostly straight”). But Jay had been to war—gone through hell and brought it back with him—and as time went on he’d opened up about the other kinds of hell he’d been through, at home, school, at the hands of people Adam was sure he would kill if he ever passed them by on the street. And Hailey, who woke in the night with terrible starts, from dreams about her father, from visions of her ex, or the woman in the water, the one she couldn’t save and the man she wished she hadn’t. All these things they’d put to bed, that rose up unbidden every so often. After tough cases, or difficult talks, or simply because they were human beings and it was really just one of those things.

This was a night in the middle of summer, when Adam woke up to sickly heat, thin covers pushed down to his waist, and realised within seconds he was alone.

He’d fallen asleep next to Hailey, her back to him, the space between them big enough for Jay but the room too hot for the three of them. The air con had been broken for weeks. Now Adam was swinging his legs out the bed in this near stifling heat, standing up through the haze of fatigue, driven by love and worry, pulled deeper into the apartment by the sounds of his partners talking quietly in the kitchen, barely fifteen minutes after three.

They went quiet at the sight of him. Just for a moment.

“Hey,” Hailey said, from her spot on the countertop. Jay craned his neck to see him in the doorway, from his own spot on the floor, back pressed against the lowest cabinets, facing away from the kitchen door. They both looked at him like they loved him, like they were glad for the sight of him. They looked at him like they were exhausted. “What are you doing up?”

“Couldn’t sleep either?” Jay asked. His voice was low with fatigue. Adam reached out to run a hand through his hair as he passed. He paused at the counter to press a kiss to Hailey’s cheek.

“Nah,” said Adam. “Was sleeping fine. I just wanted to check in, make sure the two of you’re doing okay.”

“We’re okay,” said Hailey, tired eyes, small smile. Jay said nothing, glanced away for a moment.

“Well,” said Adam. “You’ll be feeling even more okay soon. Scoot over, babe.”

“What for?” Hailey asked, doing as he asked anyway, watching Adam as he opened the drawer and reached for a spatula, grabbed a pan from the overhead rack and placed it on the hob.

“Pancakes,” said Adam. “I’m making midnight pancakes. At 3AM, yes. They’re called midnight pancakes until at least five. No arguments.” He watched Hailey, watched her look at him with love, warmth. She reached out and squeezed his arm. He glanced over his shoulder, and found Jay still sitting there on the floor, smiling right back at him too.

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hey hey, so im all caught up on chicago pd atm and im looking for a new show to watch.....

all i know about 911/ls is from your blog and the way you talk about it it seems like an awesome show.......maybe convince me to start watching it ? i trust your recommendation (no pressure though !! )

(also is lone star a reboot of 911? a sequel? a same-universe-same-time crossover show ?? i tried to look it up but it didnt really make sense-)

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Hi, anon!

I did see this ask this morning when I woke up, but I didn't want to deal with fighting formatting on my phone at work, or my phone autocorrecting "Lone Star" to "alone Star" every single time (the number of times I've had to correct it is literally.... 100% of the times I've typed it), so I'm finally getting around to it now!

911, the original show, is set in Los Angeles. 911 Lone Star is a spin off show set in the same universe but in Austin, Texas. There are a few nods back and forth between the two, but only one real crossover episode (on Lone Star) that you don't really have to know much about the original for (I watched Lone Star first and I wasn't that confused, but I was already semi-familiar with the OG characters, too, so I might not be the best person to ask on that front)

I'm... still mad about last night's episode of 911. I'm trying to be optimistic that the storyline will play out better than it looks like right now. But as of 6x11, I'm not a huge fan of the original show. Everything up until this point has been really enjoyable, though. I think season 4 was my favorite for a while. Season 6a was really good! The first 9 episodes of season 6? I have very few complaints. Even 6x10, fantastic. I just...

Lone Star is really good, though.

There's a lot of great representation in it - my heart loves Tarlos (if you're following me you like Moustead, right? there's another gay police officer/former drug addict ship! and this one's canon! and getting married!) , and Paul (a black, trans firefighter), and a confirmed(?) bisexual character, too. It's a lot of fun. It's definitely the funnier show of the two, if you want to start with something lighter and see if you enjoy the universe before you get any further into it! (if you do watch Lone Star, and you're as observant as I am, Knox will jump scare you in season 1. just prepare for that. because it startled me)

Honestly, even with my issues with 911 OG right now, it's a lot of fun, too. I know I post a lot about Buck and Eddie and their relationship (not canon! it's not canon! it's queerbait and it's actually a lot of fun to enjoy the crumbs they give us if you acknowledge that! just keep your expectations reasonable and it's fun, I promise), but I love.... literally every character and every ship I've seen so far, besides the Parents? Most of the parents suck.

and Doug Kendall. fuck Doug Kendall. all my homies hate Doug Kendall.

Give it a shot! Even if you only watch a few episodes to get a feel for it, you might have some fun with it! I'm trying not to take it too seriously, because it is just a TV show. Even if it's not 100% perfect, it's something to look forward to every week during long shifts at work!

#answered #⚡ anon #alex says things

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