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dosemakesthepoison · 4 months
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Watching troy for the first time and I am absolutely losing my mind over the choice to have Hector kill menelaus. What the fuck.
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streets-in-paradise · 9 months
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It may be absolutely unfaithfull to the true characterization, but I love Troy version of Agamemnon. As a villian he is fucking hilarious, just check on this:
The inside of the throne room of his palace in Mycenae
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and now look at the inside of his tent in the greek camp
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It looks literally the same, he made it be copied in every detail ... Even the fucking throne.
His throne is right there, i can't get over that. It is unclear if the motherfucker has a replica or may have ordered the original be carried away to Troy with him
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It has come to my attention that some are not aware of the double bat teen titans elseworlds run. [Post Here] made by @saturnsickle
So I'm here to explain a bit to everyone.
When was the series?
From September 1st 2001 to March 1st 2005, an elseworlds Teen Titans run started.
The series was 43 issues plus a 2004 annual.
Line-Up
Yara Flor (Wondergirl)
Jackson Hyde (Aqualad)
Cassandra Cain (Batgirl)
Jason Todd (Robin)
Roy Harper (Arsenal)
It was a bit out of nowhere, seeing as the lineup featured two brand new characters, a newly established character, a then considered dead character, and a former teen titan turned titan.
Retrospect
In retrospect, this series can be seen as a world building series as well as a device to introduce more heroes within a similar age group and adding more younger heroes into the mix, bridging the gap between the titans of Dick Grayson and Donna Troy and the younger generation of young justice soon teen titans Tim Drake and Cassie Sandsmark.
This series also reintroduced Jason Todd to a reader base that had known him as dead at this point. Adding new characterization that would be later used in the Batman: Hush storyline and lead into the Batman: Under the Red Hood series.
Interestingly, we see that this series of Teen Titans ended the same month that Red Hood's identity was revealed to Batman in Batman #683.
That is no coincidence. Fans have long since known that the series ended when Jason Todd was introduced back into the main line story.
However, while well planned, this left the elseworld's Teen Titans run to end abruptly and feel incomplete in some places.
Features
Some features of this series were a phenomenal number one cover that would later inspire the cover art for World's Finest: Teen Titans #1, an interesting dynamic between Batgirl and Robin that wouldn't show in mainline stories until New 52, and Roy in another mentorship role that we had been starting to see become more prominent at the time.
The introductory arc in the story (issues 1 through 4), where we were introduced to the characters in their separate contexts and got to see them come together in a way that explained how they got to that point, instead of just showing us them together as a team. It was also interesting to see Joker used as an introductory villain instead of someone else. It really set up the idea of a larger world outside of Joker and the scale of threats that would continue to increase throughout the series.
One of my favorite subplot that continued throughout the series was the character and moral conflict between the two bat characters (Cass and Jason) and their views on Justice, superheroing, and the right way to go about it. Although Jason's characterization is not exactly the same as his pre-death in the family personality, it provided a good sense of transition that got us from PreDitF to the UtRH personality. Cass and Jason often found themselves at odds with each other throughout the series. Cass, who believed in redemption and was stark and steady in her belief that no one should die, contrasted Jason's harsher view on crime and how to handle it.
It was also nice to see Cass on a team of people similar to her age. Although we got to see her work on the Justice League: Elite team, the elseworld's teen titans run got to show her in a more light-hearted run where she got to learn to be herself. Mirroring her then running solo series, we got to see Cass start to form a life and connections outside of the suit, and meet people who tested her belief in the symbol, this time with her peers.
Her growing friendship with Yara was really fun to read even at its worst writing. I especially enjoyed issue 25 and 26, where the two of them teamed up with the elseworld's version of Starfire and Donna Troy in a timeless issue of powerful female heroes.
Some of the negative from the run was the forced upon romantic subplot from 27 to 36, where it took up too much space on the panels and caused unnecessary character drama in a style that hadn't been seen in the run up to that point.
By the time of issue 40, there were three issues to wrap up the plot of the story before the run would come to a close. The story structure was there, but it was rushed and needed a couple more issues to really dive into the plot. The team disbands after Jason Todd/Robin murders one of the lesser villians they were fighting and caused the team to split ways to deal with the events of the arc. It culottes perfectly into the reveal later that month in the main books.
There was a top heavy focus on the two bat characters, which left less room for the other's. That didn't mean that the others didn't have central arcs throughout the run. It is just meant by the proxy of having two bat characters. Their drama was brought up the most.
Arcs
Issues 1 through 4 Jason focused introductory
Issues 5 through 8 was a Yara focused arc
9 through 12 was a Roy centric arc
16 through 19 was a Cass centric arc
20 through 22 was a Jason centric arc
23 and 24 was a Jackson centric arc
25 and 26 was Cass and Yara
30 through 34 was another Roy centric arc
The annual plus 36 was a Jackson arc
37 and 38 was another Yara centric arc
40 through 43 was extremely focused in Jason with Cass as a close second.
Conclusions
It was a really interesting story to read, and it was fun to see what having Batgirl on a team does to the dynamics of a normally Robin only sort of line-uo. It's interesting that Jackson was the first of the two original characters to make the jump to mainline comics (2010) and Yara was later in 2021, having been the last of the team brought into the main timeline. It would be nice to see them come back together for a special crossover again, fill the niche group of fans that follow the limited fan material on this series.
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4K Ultra HD Review: The Toolbox Murders
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The Toolbox Murders is a rare instance in which a horror remake is more well-known than the original. While neither version is particularly celebrated, the 2004 redux is remembered for being directed by master of horror Tobe Hooper. Incidentally, the 1978 original would have never existed were it not for Hooper; the unexpected success of his The Texas Chain Saw Massacre inspired the producers to make their own horror movie.
Taking a cue from the 1974 classic’s based-on-a-true-story marketing angle, The Toolbox Murders writers Neva Friedenn, Robert Easter, and Ann Kindberg - per the end title card - purport that they dramatized actual events that took place in 1967. Trading the rural Texas sun for an urban Los Angeles apartment complex, the proto-slasher implements a host of weapons - from hammer and screwdriver to nail gun and power drill - to claim victims.
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Toolbox feels like two different movies split down the middle then stitched together, which doesn't do the pacing any favors. The first half is a loosely connected series of lurid murder set pieces. More concerned with sensationalized violence than plot or character development, a particularly exploitative sequence sees a woman (adult film star Kelly Nichols) pleasure herself in a bathtub before being violently murdered with a nail gun. The latter half is still grimy but in a different way; it shares more in common with Lifetime melodramas than slasher flicks. The downbeat finale goes full bore into exploitation.
The through-line is Laurie (Pamelyn Ferdin, The Beguiled), a 15-year-old girl who's kidnapped by the killer, Vance Kingsley (Cameron Mitchell, Blood and Black Lace). (The killer wears a ski mask to hide his identity but there's little mystery given the body type, which may explain while the reveal is handled so matter-of-factly in the film.) When the police fail to act, Laurie's brother Joey (Nicholas Beauvy) and Vance's nephew Kent (Wesley Eure, Land of the Lost) team up to take the investigation into their own hands.
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Mitchell almost single-handedly elevates The Toolbox Murders above its sleazy underpinnings. Not only does he lend gravitas to the picture, he fully commits to the role. Removing the ski mask about halfway through the 93-minute runtime allows the veteran actor to really chew the scenery. Although tonally incongruous, he veers into camp territory as he erratically exposits his religious mania. The other saving grace is director Dennis Donnelly, marking the only feature among a successful TV career helming the likes of Hawaii Five-O, Charlie's Angels, and The A-Team. It's clear that he has a vision, regardless of whether it connects with viewers and in spite of the low budget.
The Toolbox Murders has been restored in 4K from the uncut original negative with Dolby Vision HDR and Dolby Atmos, 5.1 DTS-HD, and 1.0 DTS-HD audio options for Blue Underground's 4K Ultra HD/Blu-ray release. Like the company’s recent restoration of Maniac - another movie that intertwines serial killer motifs, slasher tropes, and a dramatic character piece (albeit far more effectively) - the inherent grain and grit are retained.
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In a new audio commentary, film historians Troy Howarth and Nathaniel Thompson analyze the picture and in the process make a strong argument that it's a giallo as much as it is a slasher. An archival track from the 2002 DVD finds Ferdin (watching the movie in full for the first time!), producer Tony DiDio, and director of photography Gary Graver (The Other Side of the Wind) being surprised by the fan base, praising Mitchell, and sharing their fond memories.
The Blu-ray disc has four new interviews: Donnelly enthusiastically recalls his excitement to make a horror movie; Eure explains how he had to beg the Days of Our Lives producers to allow him to take the part and the effect it had on him; Nichols details her career trajectory, from King Kong to adult films; and film historian David Del Valle remembers Mitchell, tracing his friend's unique career trajectory, attributing his work in The Toolbox Murders and other late-career B-movies to his IRS debt.
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Film historian Amanda Reyes, teaming with director Chris O'Neill, delivers a video essay exploring the film's notoriety and themes of grief with a personal spin, as the on-screen emotion resonated with her own experience. Other special features include an archival interview with Nichols (covering much of the same ground as the new piece), the theatrical trailer, a TV spot, two radio spots, and a gallery of posters and stills.
The Toolbox Murders is available now on 4K Ultra HD/Blu-ray via Blue Underground.
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Friday Special #13
March 12, 2021
Hello friendos, and welcome back to another Friday Special!
Since this is the infamous number thirteen, why not take a look into what is considered to be one of the most cursed video game franchises of all time?
For today’s topic, we will be focusing our attention to the EA Sports franchise of Madden NFL, perhaps the most famous football franchise of all time and how it spawned the notorious “Madden Curse”.
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So let’s start with the franchise’s history.
The very first Madden NFL game was released all the way back in 1988 under its original name John Madden Football. It was named as such as EA’s Trip Hawkins approached John Madden himself in 1984, hoping to use his name and likeness to create a line of football games. Madden agreed only if the game be as realistic as possible to the actual sport, hence why it took four years to produce. Problems arose when hardware limitations would cause the systems to crash and it got so bad that they even hired Bethesda Softworks (yes, that Bethesda) to help with the project at one point, however they later quit after a year and a legal battle ensued between EA and Bethesda Softworks over the failure of producing new versions of the latter’s Gridiron! football game, which added on to the delay and production costs to make the game. The game John Madden Football was finally released on  June 1, 1988 for the Apple II, MS-DOS, and Commodore 64 and 128.
All of the pain that the development team went through paid off as John Madden Football (or Madden ‘88 as it’s known today for distinguishing itself) went to be a very popular title for home computers. It was so popular that it was released for the SEGA Genesis two years later. John Madden II was released back on MS-DOS in 1991 before going back to console with the Genesis, starting a trend where the games would be flipped back and forth depending on the market and consoles available. The last time that the games would be called John Madden Football would in 1992 as John Madden Football ‘93 was the last one. The reason for the name change to the famous Madden NFL name that we’re familiar with is because EA bought the rights to use official NFL teams and players.
Every single year since, like clockwork, a new Madden NFL would be released for the current generations of consoles and PC.
This would a rather normal sports franchise had it not been for the “curse” that surrounded the franchise since its very conception.
So when did the “Madden Curse” become a thing?
So in the early 2000s, John Madden retired from football, which left the door open for EA to see about making a few changes to the product design of their Madden NFL games, most notably being the cover art. In 2000, Eddie George of the Tennessee Titans was chosen for the cover of Madden NFL 2001, representing the new change.
Nothing to see here.
It wasn’t until the next year that things started to get a little spooky when Daunte Culpepper of the Minnesota Vikings was put on the cover of Madden NFL 2002. His career started going south when, after achieving 4,000+ yards 33 touchdowns and landing on the cover, suffered bad turnover rates, bad interceptions and lack of touchdowns before a back injury took him out in the 11th game of the 2001 season.
At the time it was seen as a coincidence.
Atlanta Falcons quarterback Michael Vick was featured on the cover of Madden NFL 2004. That following season, he fractured his right fibula during the game against the Baltimore Ravens. He then only played in the last 5 games after acquiring the injury which caused the Atlanta Falcons to lose enough games that they missed the playoffs, coming out of the 2004 season with 5-11.
The rumor mill regarding the “Madden Curse” started to gain traction but it wasn’t until the third incident when the media started taking it seriously reporting on it.
Shaun Alexander of the Seattle Seahawks was chosen for the 2007 edition of Madden NFL and, before being given that honor, had one of the best seasons as a player during the 2005 season with 28 touchdowns and 1,880 yards. After being on the cover however, his luck ran out when he fractured the 4th metatarsal in his foot causing him to miss six starts (he had only missed one out of 64 starts previously before his cover appearance) and missed the 1,000 mark for yards for the first time since the 2000 season. His stats continued to plumment until his eventual retirement. He has been quoted as saying “Do you want to be hurt and on the cover, or just hurt?"
The “Madden Curse” would kick in again for Troy Polamalu for the 2009 edition, who played for the Pittsburg Steelers at the time during the 2009-2010 season and suffered from a torn ACL, which caused him to miss the majority of the season. His counterpart on the cover, Larry Fitzgerald of the Arizona Cardinals, fared much better but we’ll get to his side later.
Two years later for the 2012 edition, Peyton Hillis was chosen because of his breakout season with 1,117 yards and 11 touchdowns in 2011. After his appearance however, in the next season, he only played in 10 games and started 9 due to several injuries such as a sprained hip, strep throat, and hamstring injuries. He ended the season with 3 touchdowns and 577 yards. 
The latest in negativity surrounding the “Madden Curse” was in the form of Rob Gronkowski of the New England Patriots for the 2017 edition. Gronkowski first dealt with a hamstring injury that caused him to sit out of the first few games of the season that progressively got worse as the season went on. A blow from Seattle safety Earl Thomas III pulled him out of the game and he never recovered enough to bring him back in to play. There is a positive end to the story in that his team the Patriots went on to win the Super Bowl LI that year so he had the honor of being the first cover athlete to win at the Super Bowl. 
Despite the mystery and fear surrounding the “Madden Curse”, there were several instances that resulted in counterexamples.
Larry Fitzgerald back in 2009 was picked to be on the cover alongside Troy Polamalu for the 2010 edition. Unlike Polamalu’s bad luck, Fitzgerald played in all 16 games and caught a league high of 13 touchdowns, naming him to the Pro Bowl. The “Madden Curse” did catch up with him a little as he suffered a rib injury that caused him to miss the Pro Bowl. 
For the 2013 edition, Calvin Johnson of the Detroit Lions was picked for the cover because of his stellar record All-Pro Season in 2011 with 1,681 yards, 16 touchdowns and another Pro Selection. Unfortunately, the next season was not as great as he admitted to playing with broken fingers (ouch). 
Tom Brady was selected for the 2018 edition representing the New York Patriots after Rob Gronkowski represented the same team the previous year. Brady had the honor of being the oldest MVP on record and 4,577 yards and 32 touchdowns as he led the Patriots to a 13-3, allowing another Super Bowl win. 
Patrick Mahomes is the most recent counterexample for the 2020 edition where he first suffered a dislocated knee in Game 7 of the 2020 season, remaining out for three weeks afterward. Despite the setback, he still maintained a decent season with 26 touchdowns and 4,031 yards before guiding the Kansas City Chiefs to winning Super Bowl LIV against the San Francisco 49ers 31-20, winnning the title of Super Bowl MVP.
When will the “Madden Curse strike again? Only time and fate can tell at this point. 
Thoughts From The Head
So I’m gonna be real with all of you, I never cared much for sport-themed video games besides the Mario and Sonic at the Olympic Games series and Wii Sports. Sports is not really my thing. I do get fascinated, however, when stuff like this pops up because how much it impacted both the video game industry as well as the sports entertainment industry. For crying out loud, the media continues to hype it up every time an incident happens despite it being played off as a hoax. This “curse” in question has even made quite a few players weary of it, but there have also been others that have passed it off as a joke. It’s even gotten so serious that even fans have petitioned for their favorite players not to get picked, fearing the worst. 
Freaky stuff but that’s sports for ya.
So do y’all think about all of this? Share your thoughts in the comments!
Thank you for reading!
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THE MOVIES MADE ME DO IT By Lorry Kikta
Those Richard Linklater Before movies ruined me forever. All this unlikely romance tied up in a handsome Ethan Hawke bow. It led me to believe that all things are never finished. I hold onto so many people, holographic distorted totems of a past that was painful, yet somehow transformed to endearing and wonderful with the glow of nostalgia...
In real life, has anyone ever really objected at the “speak now or forever hold your peace” part of the wedding ceremony? I haven’t even been to a wedding where that sentence was said, maybe to save everyone from an expensive stupid disaster. I have to admit that I have often times wished something like that would happen at a wedding I attended because weddings can sometimes be really damn boring and too long. If you know me and you’re reading this, of course I’m not talking about YOUR wedding.
Ultimately I wish that my stubborn memories would only highlight the negative aspects of certain people so I wouldn’t constantly wonder what this one person I kind of dated in 2004 is doing and whether or not he still “can't stop thinking of me” like he said on the phone six years ago. Or if the guy who got married is now divorced and if he is, what happened? Why do I care? I can only point to one source, a brain that was molded from a very early age by movies and television. I’m not attempting to be the Tipper Gore of the motion picture industry and blame movies for anything. I enjoy believing in fairy tales, until I get reminded continuously that they’re not reality.
Honestly, who cares? I love my boyfriend and we are in a solid relationship, but I have never been in a solid relationship prior to this one. I’ve always fallen in love with musicians that suffer from “emotional problems”. I’ve waited years for overgrown teenagers to come to the conclusion we were meant to be together forever.
It took me a very long time to realize that three types of movies exist for one sole purpose. There could absolutely be more but mostly these three. The teen movie or TV show where everyone is extremely mature and witty and everyone gets together with the unlikely objects of their affections (Pretty in Pink, Gossip Girl, etc. forever). Then there’s the romantic comedy where “the one who got away” returns and it’s all happy ever after (There’s Something About Mary, Reality Bites <Damn it Ethan Hawke>, etc.), or the one where the protagonist falls in love with someone who’s with someone else, and it never fails that this “someone else” is HORRIBLE (Titanic, Wedding Crashers, etc.)  
The sole purpose is (except in rare cases where these people actually lived these fantastic lives, in which case they can go fuck themselves, because really, ugh) the writer of the script regrets the way they handled a situation in their actual life. Well, this is my theory, but I think it’s pretty legit. I had this idea the other day when I started watching The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina. I mean, there is a lot of fantasy involved in that show, but what I picked up on is how intelligent and well put together these kids in the show are. There is a part where they’re all seated at Dr. Cerberus’ Bookstore and they’re debating whether or not David Cronenberg’s The Fly is about body dysmorphia or STD’s. I 100% can’t imagine having that conversation at 16. I was too busy trying to be the punkest person on Earth at that time and all I talked about was boys and which musical guest was going to be on Late Night With Conan O’Brien.  Did I just lead a different life than these people, or am I onto something here?
Now, let’s talk about “the one who got away.” I’ve had plenty of ones that got away and it’s probably a damn good thing that they ended up leaving and staying gone, and yet I still harken back to basically any Ethan Hawke movie from the 90’s and think, well, I should see what ole so and so is up to just so I can fulfill my cat-like curiosity and then dwell on it for one-hundred-thousand hours.
When I was growing up, my parents got divorced twice. Well once for real, and then the second time it was a common-law divorce. Additionally, my mom would often take back men she had previously written off because she wanted to give them a second chance. At some point in my teen years, I vowed I would “never” do that because I saw how it never ended up working out for my mom and seemed to be a waste of time.
However, I gave many people who probably didn’t deserve it multiple chances, maybe because it’s true we all turn into our parents, or because I believed that just like in Reality Bites, some Troy Dyer would come stand at the foot of my driveway and tell me he loves me after doing some gloriously fucked up thing that drove me to do something that is the equivalent of running up a huge phone bill with a psychic hotline. I never had the advent of a seemingly perfect Ben Stiller as Michael in my life, until recently.
It’s weird when you go through a certain amount of hoops to get into a relationship with someone. The beginnings of any romantic entanglement are so cinematic and lyrical, but I was never told how to stay in a relationship once you get into one. I grew up where all relationships ended abruptly or seemed alien and weird grown-up things that I didn’t care about. I thought that living with someone and being in love was the end-all-be-all of existence but guess what, that’s dumb. I was over 30 when I figured out this was not the case…. arrested development is not just the name of a band and a TV show, y’all. Relationships take work, and they don’t make problems disappear. They make them easier to deal with, but it’s not all wine and roses. There are some movies that touch on this reality, but not enough.
Instead of telling us how to stay in a long-term relationship, movies often teach us that if our partner has some quality that doesn’t live up to our expectations, some perfect hero is going to appear out of nowhere to rescue us from the bad choice we made. Hello, Billy Zane in Titanic!
The thing is, that in reality, Rose would’ve concocted this entire fantasy of Jack in her head, while staying right by Cal Hockley’s side and trying to remember how awesome it is to have a rich, handsome fiancé, even though he’s an asshole. Jack would have lived because he would’ve found the floating door. Rose and Cal would’ve got on the first lifeboats and they all would’ve lived miserably ever after. This story doesn’t win Academy Awards however. Also to touch on Wedding Crashers, in what world except for the fictional one set before us in this film would Owen Wilson get the girl over Bradley Cooper? Anyway….
Basically, movies are not typically touchstones on how to live your life, which I wish I could’ve figured out before I had so many failed relationships. There are some that are incredibly inspiring and have great messages, but more often than not, they’re fantasy scenarios that people wrote because that’s what they wish they could’ve done. If my theory is correct, I guess I have plenty of my own extremely unrealistic screenplays to write, so I’m going to go ahead and get to it.
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dosemakesthepoison · 4 months
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Troy (2004) is barely even recognizable as a retelling of the iliad. What was happening in 2004. This movie had literally nothing in common with the poem besides the names.
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streets-in-paradise · 6 months
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Concealed Fighter - Hector x Wife!Reader/ Achilles x Captive!Reader
Troy (2004) Oneshot
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Warnings: Manipulative woman twisting the power dynamics of captivity while her master tries to seduce her.
Summary: Reader is the wife of Hector ( they got married after he returns from Sparta) and she sacrifices herself to protect Briseis. As a captive of the greeks given to Achilles, then stolen by Agamemnon, she takes the only advantage of the situation she has to actively assume a role of destabilizing agent and wreck the enemy from the inside.
However, the life on the greek camp also leaves its effect on her putting the self assumed mission at risk when the persuation tactics turn against her due to the awakening of desire in his original captor. Achilles refuses to fight for the greeks because of her, but if he gets her back he will try anything in his power to convince her of willingly staying with him.
Tags: @thorssweetheart ( I wrote this one for you. It's not completely dark, but I mixed a bit of my tone with yours here.)
Glossary of homeric terms: Atreide - Means son of Atreus, a way to reference either Agamemnon or Menelaus.
Scaean Gate - Name of the main gate of Troy
When your father in law instructed you to follow Briseis for the religious rituals that morning, it was out of the pure intention of helping you adjust to the functions expected of royalty in your cultural context. Freshly made a princess through a blissfull marriage to his eldest son, you were starting to get comfortable in that role and wanted to impress him in order to make your husband proud. His cousin was the high priestess of the family, but that wasn't an excuse excempting you from the obligation of participating in particular occasions that were regarded traditional for any future queen. Desperate times required of commited attention to that sort of thing, but none of you imagined you would reach the bottom of desperation during the very same action.
The prayers were forever silenced with the arrival of the greeks, dreaded moment unleashing the war taking place at the worst possible timing as you were trapped in the middle of a carnage that was also an obscene act of profanity. Despite the quick reaction of the troops, the temple never stood a chance against the enemy. Myrmidon soldiers had slaughtered the priests, only Briseis and you remained alive as shocked observants in a temporal hidding place that you knew won't stand much longer.
You were a princess of Troy, the queen of Hector's future reign, and you had came to that temple under the purpose of acting as such in the first place. To show your subjects you would do anything to protect them, first you had to start saving your family.
Context demmanded you to act quick, so you came up with a risky plan that you explained to Briseis in whispers while cleaning her tears.
" I'll clear the way for you, run and find Hector. Don't waste time turning back, they will get you."
The pragmatical, almost cold sounding way in which you phrased the idea ruined her nerves even more. She didn't want to leave you behind, Briseis would never accept it no matter how logical you were trying to be.
She refused nodding negatively, too afraid to take the risk of speaking.
" Do it, there is no other way. If we stay together, then we are all doomed. There is hope for only one of us, and I rather it will be you." You insisted, attempting to give further reasons to your sacrifice that would make her feel less guilty. " They will pay for this, I promise you. "
You grabbed her arms like a wake up call before continuing.
" Briseis, I'm giving myself willingly because it's the only way to get one of us inside the camp. Do you see what they can do? Traditional means will not be enough to defeat them, someone has to discover how. "
Fear was starting to make your voice tremble as you thought of your city, your family ... your husband.
" Tell Hector, tell him I'm loyal and I'll return to him with the secret to destroy the greeks ... Tell him I love him and I will do whatever it takes to help our cause."
After a brief, emotive farewell she accepted to execute the plan according to your guidance. The distraction turned out successfull, since the soldiers rushed to take you while she sneaked under their noses given all the fuss you were making. The next thing you knew was being tied up alongside piles of stolen gold inside the recently settled tent of who you guessed was one of their captains.
The master didn't make you wait for long, finding you as a surprise of his men for him when he arrived to clean off the traces of the fight in his appearance. Strong first impressions were his thing, he was standing naked in front of you apparently careless for your presence. The spectacle didn't obtain any reaction, even when he asked for your name.
" You will pay for what you did. " Was your bitter reply inconected to the question." Hector will make you regret the day you were born. "
The grim warning made him chuckle.
" I think your prince is afraid of me, he sees there is no hope for Troy if i charge into battle. "
With one simple mock he had made you aware of everything.
" You must be Achilles … Lucky of mine, I'm being handed to the worst of the savages. "
" My well earned prize. " He confirmed while getting dressed, barely tying a long piece of black cloth arround his hips. " It was either me or Ajax, we were the ones winning the battle. I have obtained greater glory, so I got the ríght to keep you. "
" Shouldn't that be a privilege of the higher commander?" You taunted him, questioning in a poisonous tone. " … He is not going to like it."
The provokation hitted in the ríght spot to make him itch.
" Then he should have won the battle by himself. " Was his cocky reply, given while walking towards you. " … You are too precious to be given away. "
You could tell where the talk was leading, it was a complete twist of the provocative intentions into a territory you weren't allowing him to cross.
" The only priestess inside that temple ran away, i'm a married woman. "
The clarification didn't mean much to him.
" An eye for an eye. " He simplified, twirling your hair in his fingertips. " The trojan prince took Helen, so it's fair for me to take you. "
Achilles was dangerously close, sniffing the scent of your locks.
" She left her husband willingly. " You clarified on purpose. " Paris won her favors."
He caressed the side of your cheek while looking for cuts.
" After a while with me you won't want to leave. " He purred seductively, then proceeded to untie you. " … I like your perfume, it seems he pays for the expensive ones. "
" High nobility, my father is a general of Priam. " You bitterly clarified. " … And i'm married to a mighty warlord. "
You would have wanted to brag about that saying loud and clear that you were the wife of Hector. If it wouldn't be so dangerous, you would have seeked to humilliate him showing your love for your man.
" He failed to protect you, maybe he was not the right for you. " He mercilessly teased you, sitting ríght next to you. " What's your name? "
You had to give him an answer, but you were incapable of being honest. The greeks couldn't possibly know already of your marriage. Their access to news was blocked at the time of your wedding, they were planning the war while it happened.
Briseis escaped to tell the story, Hector had to be aware by then so you didn't need the greeks to bring him the news. Keeping your identity as a secret was safer and a good strategy. As a couple, your husband and you would get the upper hand working against them from outside and inside.
You gave him the very first name that occured to you, a female variation of the name of your father.
" Glauce. "
Achilles had his full attention on you, his eyes were roaming your features with interest.
" Well, Glauce. I'll take care of you better than him. Your safety is granted with me. "
It sounded like a promise, you could tell he didn't want you to fear him. Being perceived as a careless monster by you wasn't as satisfying as the fear he awakened in your countrymen.
The first impression played in your favor, he was Interested enough to seek winning your simpathy. There had to be some sort of limit to his brutality and it seemed to play out in his approach to women. Achilles preferred seduction to coercion, trusting in his looks and charm to do the trick. Softer on the surface, he would rather win you over than force himself on a tied up defensless woman.
At least in that, he was a safer bet than many others. Your chances to keep working on the reading of the greek commanders presented that very same day, when your initial guesses turned out to be truth and his promised was challenged.
Agamemnon felt insulted because his rebel soldier ignored him on purpose and didn't even consider him at the time to divide the profits. His heralds came to take you using the advantage of a distraction the king created by himself to keep Achilles away from you at the moment. They were very impressed to find out you were following them willingly.
Not only it was a matter of principles to never show weakness in front of the enemy, but you were also considering the greek King of Kings was a privileged source of information. There was no better tent to infiltrate if what you wanted was to figure out the patterns of the political relationships within the militar fractions of his army. For so, your entrance managed to exceede any expectations. The soldiers taking you there were disconcerted following your arrogant steps.
Behaviorally wise, you looked like a queen that was heading to negotiate instead of a living object being dragged from one place to the other. Agamemnon was slightly dissapointed, probably hoping the guards would have seen themselves forced to mistreat you in front of Achilles to enrage him even more. However, the visual did manage to surprise him. The taunting smirk didn't fade, only changed its target.
" Wonderfull reward … Even in disgrace her majestuosity remains intact. " He commented, praising you in a menacing tone. " … Woman fitting for a king. And since you aren't one, Achilles. I think you are not going to need her. "
It unleashed the killer beast.
In a matter of instants the whole place got surrounded by guards that Agamemnon called as soon as Achilles merely pulled out his sword, what to you was a measure against the feared quickness of his lethal strikes.
You were still smiling to yourself, thinking of how accidentally accurate the words of the mycenaean have been in what concerned you given Hector was the next king of Troy in the line of succession.
The myrmidon claimed so quickly and pridefully that your husband lost you because he wasn't strong enough to protect you, yet he couldn't keep you for one full day. Delightfully humilliating irony, even if the man missing you inside the city remained faceless to him. At that moment Achilles was measuring himself not only with Agamemnon's power, but also with the memory of the man you loved.
He wanted you to watch him murder greeks in cold blood for you, to prove his point of being the superior man that would cross límits no trojan would.
For as much as you would have loved to see enemies being sacrificed at your feet, you were Interested in something better.
Playing with their minds, taking advantage of the situation and subtly lead the discussion while making them feel in control the whole time.
" I've seen you are a gifted killer, they may have the numerical advantage but those men are trembling. " You stopped him, actually walking towards him with the courage the mycenaean soldiers lacked of. " Before you will unleash another carnage, let's revisit the situation. Shall we?"
Agamemnon was amused by your irreverence, mostly because it was being directed towards his polítical rival.
" I come from a militar family, so i'm not ignorant to the codes of war. " You kept talking as if you would be back in Troy discussing with Hector about the resolutions of the city's council. " Spoils of conquest shall be distributed equally among the warlords, but the commander chief has ríght to a bigger share. "
" Precisely what I'm reclaiming. " The mycenaean agreed. " I'm in command here. "
Unimpressed by the statement, you were ready to throw the web.
" … Considering Achilles has beheaded a monumental golden statue of Apollo. How can you both be so convinced i'm the biggest share of the treasure? You can buy at least fifteen women for that statue only. I have to admit it's flattering, your altercate implies i'm either worth for fifteen women or you greeks are terrible traders. "
The rational observation embarrased them. Achilles had putted down his sword and Agamemnon didn't have enough recovered honor to point it out.
" It's simbolical value. " He attempted to come up with a quick answer for what trully was nothing more than a battle of egos. " You are the first enemy woman in our power, captive of a war started by my brother's wife. "
" If she wouldn't have jumped on board, you would have instructed servants to charge spartan reliques in that ship so you could frame us and invade anyways. " Was your fearless comeback. " Maybe your provincial soldiers believe that, but trojans know you well. "
If they wouldn't know better, they would have feared the goddess of wisedown transfigurated in a slave was lecturing their behavior.
" Theorically, once you finish arguing over who is meant to own me the winner can do whatever he wants with me. The problem is what you should do in order to serve best your personal interest. Achilles is willing to slaugther your men to save me from you. Can you afford that, King of Kings? "
Agamemnon was frankly shocked, not even his royal advisors would have been so direct.
" Who are you? "
" That's not important, what matters here is that i'm aware of what you both want from me and why you won't get it." You cleverly deviated. "For instance, you want to force yourself on me to give your rebel soldier a lesson. I see it in your eyes, sense it in your voice. He made you feel powerless watching the beach battle from afar, so now you are taking me as payback. Fortunately, that's going to take you nowhere. "
Going back to the warrior like a caged beast pacing from one point to the other, you challenged him with the same ferocity.
" As it could be said of your attempts to present yourself as my savior. " You concluded for him. " Legends fail to acknowledge Achilles as a protector of helpless women and it's not hard to wonder why. You aren't acting out of the kindness of your heart, what you want is to keep me reliant on you in order to win my trust so I will eventually give in. "
At that point, despite it would have been wiser to keep silence, no one could have stopped you.
" Keep the sword down, i'm not spreading my legs for this. I despise you and that won't change simply because you are the less of two evils standing in front your pig of a king. "
The comparison had affected him as much as the self perceived unfair claims.
" He is not my king … and i'm not who you think I am. "
" Prove it. " You insisted. " Untill then, you are just the same to me. "
The provocation worked better than you could have expected, discovering there that what Achilles hated the most was being compared to Agamemnon. It carved over the fresh wound of the anger he was already feeling about the desestimation of his efforts in the war.
A fierce lion had turned into a meowing kitten when the master he reluctantly followed took away his slave, humilliation you wished you could have shared with your people as perfect payment for the destruction of the temple. From then, his efforts were focused on showing the greeks that he wouldn't accept being controlled while proving to you that he was the better man. The special weapon of the enemy had opted for inaction as a form of protest, refusing to fight untill Agamemnon would come back crawling expecting he would beg to him ... expecting to get you back.
Coldess of mind was your best weapon against them, their fates were already on your hands. Agamemnon was too haunted by the warning you made him to actively seek to fullfill the full punishment, since Achilles was being completely serious about his thirst for revenge and for having you. The little glimpses of yourself he managed to figure out from your brief talk and the interventions you have made in their fight weren't enough, his interest only had escalated since then.
Without him, greeks lost, and they lost badly. Hector deprived them of two leaders during the course of the same battle, one of them being the husband of Helen whose cause gathered everyone. They were running out of excuses, starting to point fingers at each other attributing blames where those didn't necesarily belong. On his part, Agamemnon saw the warning you have made him the day before becoming real and sensed something almost supernatural in it. Of course, he was completely unaware that the crushing lost was a result of his own stubborness and the team work of the heir couple of the trojan throne.
Even trojans themselves weren't completely aware that Hector and you could sometimes become your own separated fraction operating underneath the obstacles presented by the local politics. No matter what the council presided by his father would dictaminate, you would allways have his back to do what you knew was right. Even while being so far away from each other, the combination of your strikes was making the greeks bleed despite you haven't had any ocassion of discussing the course of action. You knew each other too well, in a fair world you would have been designing strategies with him in front of the army and not against their backs.
Hidding your adoration while overhearing the feats of your husband as you poured wine for the kings was your main challenge during that post battle night among the greeks. They were already discussing rendition, all thanks to the fear that he inspired. It was clear that you would have to handle yourself finding a scape way if that would happen, but you were amazed seeing your goal at the verge of fullfillment. Agamemnon recklessly kept you there as a symbol of the only victory they had achieved, showing you off to the commanders in an attempt to tempt them to stay exciting their greed. He presented you as a promise of future wealthness, if they would pass the hardships every chief would have one like you.
Odysseus was completely careless for that and trying to make the myceanean come to his senses was hard even for his audacious mind. At that hour of the night, only him and Nestor remained in the Atreide's tent and only one particular moment during his long callout catched your attention.
" Hector is ONE man ... Look at what he did to us today! "
You were forced to hide your flusterred smile full of pride for your man and you did through a humble gesture bowing the head.
They kept arguing for a while, two against the stubborness of one.
" Even if I could make peace with Achilles, the man won't listen to me! " Agamemnon reminded them with frustration, the wine you were serving him non stop starting to hit him. " He is as likely to SPEAR ME as to SPEAK TO ME! "
You chuckled briefly and Nestor noticed it while awaiting or Odysseus' resolution.
" ... I will talk to him. "
Once that part got resolved, the old king reminded them of you.
" He will want her back."
The mention gave you a proper space for according intromission.
" I will pack my things ... I mean, just the blue dress I was wearing when you kidnapped me. " You mordaciously commented. " Can I change back into it or your plan is to send me looking like this hoping I would have the kindness of whoring myself to save you? "
The taunting ask pointed at the uncomfortable suggestive dressing the king forced you to wear for his visits.
" I haven't touched her! " Agamemnon excused himself to his friends. " Take her back to him or I will give her to the men, the whore is cursed and I will not take the risk. "
He refused to explain further, but you did for him.
" His brother made a curious joke last night when we meet. He said that it would be his right to go first because he was the one that trojans had ofended, now he is dead ... And how about Ajax? He was the second in line who could have got me as reward, if the glory of Achilles wouldn't have outshined him. I think Apollo is using me to pick the victims of Hector, maybe desecrating the temple of a god we both worship wasn't a brilliant idea after all. "
The macabre warnings upsetted the myceanean king.
" Take her now, Odysseus. If he wants her still, she is all his. "
The king of Ithaca didn't wait any longer, instructing you to only pick up your dress and put on a cloak he handled you in order to comfortably follow him to the tents of the myrmidons.
As soon as you were out of sight the tries on guessing you began.
"These are not virgin robes. " He cassually commented about the clothes you were carrying. " It means you are not a priestess, so what were you doing that morning in the temple? "
" Pouring thracian wine to the priests. " You sarcastically mocked him. " Isn't a bit obvious I was witnessing a religious ceremony? "
" Obligation of female royals in times of war, women are commaned to pray while the men prepare to fight. " He quickly replicated. " Wives of royalty preach with the example. "
You stopped walking right away.
" What has given me away? "
" Your smile, the way your eyes shine with pride when we talk of Hector. It's true that any trojan gets excited hearing of him, but you don't look like one more of the people who worships him as the city's hero. " He began to explain you. " The eyes of Penelope shine the same way when I tell her my stories after coming back home from a long journey. "
The melancholic husband couldn't be forgiving you out of the kindness of his heart and a mere parallel with his wife.
" Why aren't you warning them? "
" Because I know Agamemnon wouldn't have agreed to return you and right now, all we need is to have Achilles back." Was his simple reason. " If you want my honest advice, girl? Your husband should have came with a ransom by now. He hasn't, and to me it feels he is letting you go because he can't stand the shame. Even if he does love you and would rather have you by his side, the city may have resolved it that way. The heir prince, the bastion of Troy ... he can't come back home with a marked woman. "
He was good, doing an excellent job at sowing doubts.
" Your stance here has stained you, people would look at you wondering how many greek generals had laid their hands on you. Even when we know that no one has touched you, they will never believe it back in Troy and Priam's dinasty is in crisis. It would be easier and politically safer for him to arrange a new marriage for Hector."
" The same king that's sending him to fight so Paris can keep his wife won't do that to me. " You snarked back, clinging to what were your certainties. " They may be religious hypocrites, but I know my people better than you. "
" Adjust to your new life, princess. " He grimly warned you. " The prince may never come to save you and the myrmidons could use a clever girl keeping their hot headed mess of a leader grounded. "
You spat on the ground, right at the side of his feet.
" He will rot in his tent and Hector will set your ships on fire to rescue me. "
A young lad gave you the welcome, warning your master of the arrival.
Achilles smiled at you, but responded to Odysseus with the same carelessness he had dedicated to Agamemnon days before.
" Whatever you have to say can wait untill the morning." He told him in a cold tone. " I want to speak with her ... alone. "
Not wanting to make a fuss that could ruin the mission, the ithacan king acceded to his demmand.
" Understandable, I will be ouside with Patroclus so the walk won't be in vain. " He mocked him. "I could use a drink now, and hear some positivity. The last time I was in Phtia I have seen your cousin is great at that. "
The young man chuckled and accompanied him outside, presumably for a chat arround the campfire of the night watchers. Before they left, Achilles ordered him dinner would be served to you and he called two other myrmidons to arrange it.
You didn't seem mistreated and that was encouraging for him, so he gesturally invited you to sit in front of him and served you by himself.
" Eat."
" Mind to tell me the reason for this? " You cutted off his attempt of soft approach. " Agamemnon didn't touch me, I think it's fair to say he is slightly afraid of me. You don't have wounds to tend, no need to fake kindness."
" I'm just trying to be a decent host." Was his vague reply. " You are my guest tonight."
" Odysseus was your guest, and you had kicked him out. I'm your prisoner. " You reminded him. " I had enough of your games, Achilles."
" Such a shame, I'm very into yours. " He teased you. " What do you think of all of this? One day has passed and they already brought you back to me. I'm feeling destiny playing a move here. "
You began to eat so you wouldn't have to reply him right away.
" Why do you care ? I'm a nobody. "
" You are not under the orders of Agamemnon, you are the onlyone besides from me with the courage to stand up against him. "
The facts were conveniently twisted and you knew of that.
" I also stood up to you. "
" And i don't forget that. " He corrected you. " ... Trust me, I had plenty of time alone to think about you."
The provocation was not going to disarm you.
" I believe it shows how desperate they are, and that you would be a fool if you stop now. The mycenaean king is not at your feet yet, he stil sends heralds to make his apologies. Make them wait some more, it will give us time to get to know each other."
He smirked and you couldn't tell which part of the answer made it.
" You are good, diligent little snake. It almost makes me want to take the advice just to see how far you can go to keep me away from your husband. "
He offered you a goblet to drink, making it reach your mouth with the movement of his hand so he could have an excuse to stare at your lips during the first sip.
" Why trying so hard? Have you considered he could be dead by now? "
" He is the kind of man you find once in a lifetime, I would remain loyal to him even after death simply because he worths it. " You explained him. " I don't expect you to understand it, your world is seducing war captives. Maybe you have never thought of that, having a wife to love for the rest of your life. Form a family, somewhere to belong in."
Your blow hitted, even when he won't admit it and opted for strike another one.
" Is he alone with the children now? "
" We didn't get time for that, he was part of the crew that travelled to Sparta and we got married once he came back." You vaguely admitted, being carefull of not giving any revealing clue. " It was the happiest moment of my life, even despite we knew what was coming. The city was cheerfull for a while right before all of this got to happen, our wedding party was the last time. "
For an instant he took the effort of imagining you on your wedding dress heading inside the temple of Hera. He had no idea of how trojan weddings were like, neither knew their fashion trends for brides, so he pictured it the greek way.
Lucky of the man that got to experience that. To remove your veil and find a smiling face at the other side, to kiss your lips ... To find you laying naked on the thalamus knowing you were waiting for him after the maidens holding torches guided you inside to be beautified for him. Asian scents flooding the air, your body of trembling virgin craving to be explored.
" I have been in Sparta, if he was a guest of Menelaus let me tell you that he cheated on you. " He interrupted you out of spite. " The hipocrite that reclaimed his cheater wife actually encourages it on the men visiting him and the dancers of his palace perform amatory wonders. "
A challenging smirk showed how little you cared for his disruptive opinion.
" My man is not like that. He would NEVER cheat on me. "
He chuckled with skepticism and you wished you could have smacked him.
" How sweet! You really are convinced he is different. "
It enerved you to the core.
" You don't know him like i do."
He was enjoying your rage, even when directed against him.
" You don't know Sparta like I do. "
You wanted to him to spite him for real.
" My husband is a hundred times the man you will never be. "
The peak of the altercate was something you wouldn't expected he would dare to say.
" Your husband will never touch you like i would."
Angry as you were, you lost control and slapped him. Fear of his reaction made you back off inmediately: it was the first moment of weakness he had ever witnessed from you.
" You are fierce, I like that. " He commented, careless for the hit. " Was he really that good? Or is it just that you can't compare? "
" You will never compare to him. " Was your quick comeback. " From no point of observation, he is simply the best. "
Even when he didn't know who the mysterious man was, he already hated him. Achilles was genuinely jealous of your love for him, he would have killed for someone like that.
To calm the hostile enviroment he decided to torture himself making you talk more.
" Really? Tell me about him … How did you meet? "
" Our parents are best friends, so we have known each other for a lifetime." You began to narrate. " I think I realized I had a crush on him when I was ten and it followed me all my life. As a young lass I used to believe I could never be the one, wasted so many years thinking he could only want me as a friend. He would never make a move, thinking that was not what I desired for the same reason and we kept each other single untill an unreasonable age. Then, a suitor with great chances of success came to the city soliciting to marry me and the situation forced us to be honest with our feelings. He came to my home with a huge treasure as dowry, told me he couldn't live without me, and kissed me in front of everyone. If you would know him, you would understand that was a huge gesture coming from him. He is a private man in terms of affection displays … "
" The term you are looking for is repressed. " Achilles mocked you. " Why making you wait for so long? "
" These are dangerous political times we are living in and you greeks aren't our only enemies. " You corrected him. " He was always fighting, life was too bussy to think of romance. "
" … And it seems like that hasn't changed. " He added before taking a long sip of his wine, then keep questioning. " How do you deal with it? How would you receive him when he just came back from battle? "
It was a strange ask,but for once you didn't mind indulging him.
" With a warm bath and all my love … Although I must clarify we haven't live wartimes as a married couple yet, since you kidnapped me at the start of one. If I was back in Troy with him, as I desire, that's what I would do. "
There was no intention of playing with him, you were telling the truth because you were starting to feel comfortable and he realized of that.
It only made him more envíous.
" Lovely, so lovely. " He whispered, talking to you but sounding as if he was talking to himself. " My tent isn't as big as Agamemnon's, so you must be aware your only option tonight is sleeping by my side. Why don't you start by taking off that ugly cloak, now that we are more relaxed ? "
If that was what he wanted, you were going to give him a taste of his own poison.
" I must warn you: the old pig dressed me to his taste. " You answered as you stood up to remove the long cloth. " What do you think? Do I look like one of those girls you claim my husband has cheated with prior to the wedding? "
Achilles watched you in silence for an instant.
" Way better. " He concluded, then gifted you a smirk.
You were ready to hear whatever lustfull comment that would occure to him, but that wasn't what he ended up delivering.
" I don't want a concubine, I want that trojan's wife. She sounds wonderfull, and looks wonderfull in her cute blue dress. "
Surprisingly sweet, it trully caught you out of guard.
" You are out of your mind, or have drank too much and it got to your head. In either case, you need to rest so the morning will bring you clarity of thought. "
His teasing became a bit childish.
" Come with me … "
You couldn't take him seriously.
" Let me interrupt your little fantasy: i still love my husband and you are keeping me prisoner. "
" Not if i make you want to stay. " He replicated ríght away. " Paris got Helen to leave hers and their kingdom for him. "
You couldn't believe your ears. Was he really that much starved for affection? The greatest warrior of the greeks was a lonely man, a living weapon.
" That's never going to happen between us. "
After you concluded the meal he gave you proper space to change your clothes in privacy, courtesy that satisfied you given what was about to come. Once he settled the furrs on the ground to make the closest thing to a bed available in the camp, he picked a blanket and invited you to get confortable first. In the meantime, he took off his footwear and upper garments in front of you. The spectacle made you turn over to the opposite side, deviating your eyes from him completely, but that simple act of resistance didn't mean much compared with what he was about to do.
Achilles grabbed you from behind, trapping you in an embrace too íntimate for your taste. His strong arm was rou nding your waist, initially ríght under your chest. You were perfectly able to feel his firm muscles in contact with your back and the hand keeping you secure in the position he wanted started tracing your curves.
You wanted to yelp, but it was pointless. What else could you do? You were his slave, and sleeping anywhere else in the camp was even riskier.
Maybe other man finding you wouldn't be as sweet as him. Peraphs you would encounter a beast forcing you to fight for your honor.
" So beautifull. " He whispered close to your ear. " Feels really good to me … How are you feeling? "
" Strange. " You confessed. " It just doesn't feel ríght. "
" It doesn't have to. " He teased you. " It just has to feel good. "
He began to kiss the side of your neck, but kept stumbling with your cold reactions. To him it was all performance, you were holding back to feel a faithful wife for a man that from then would be just a memory because you would most likely never see him again.
" You are mine now … " He reminded you in a husky tone. " Stop pretending, I know you feel good. No need to hide it. "
You weren't giving in, but he was willing to take the challenge. Distracted as he was with you, he kept the refusal to fight still on given that his pride wasn't completely avenged and that was at least hopefull result of your sacrifice. Every single night he would try to tempt you, but you remained strong deviating the seduction tactics into night talks with no sort of filter on both sides. He would ask you all kinds of innapropiate questions, but in response he would have to tell you more about him than what he could afford to tell any enemy.
The mission became harder and harder to mantain over the course of the days. You were happy to be serving your country but wondering if the cost was actually worthy. Achilles seemed determinated to keep you, he wanted to destroy your marriage and there were moments when you wondered if he haven't already done it.
Would the love of your life want you back, knowing you were forced to share the bed of the enemy? Even if your strong resistance kept things away of sexual territory, you had to stand his caressing, his kissing … and sometimes you weren't completely disgusted by it.
It was confusing, you were the one playing with a man who fooloshly believed to have power over you, but you also felt played by the situation. Staying focused was hard when everything seemed to point out Odysseus was in the ríght. There were no signs of your people, of your husband, wanting to reach you. Could have he forgot you? Have the city gave up on you?
One particularly long night you were sitting on the shore watching the sea and the fear became so strong that you began to sob uncontrollably. Achilles wasn't coming for you yet, since in his tent more embassors of Agamemnon were trying to convince him of returning to the battlefield.
Suddenly, a myrmidon in full armor sat beside you. The helmet was on, so you couldn't see his face, but you guessed he was one of the guards of the night shift.
" Beautifull night, isn't it? " He said in a familiar voice. " Perfect for a sneakout … "
You couldn't believe your ears.
" Paris? " You questioned in whispers soft enough to not be heard by anyone else, but showing clear excitement. " How did you got here? Brother, you can't fight even to save your life. Is a miracle you are still alive. "
" I may be a terrible fighter, but i'm a master in the art of sneaking into the most unbelievable places. " He explained you. " Glaucus is so desperate that he didn't present objections to the plan, your father trully adores you. "
You wanted to hug him, but that would have been too suspicious.
" You are insane! What if they discover you? "
" I have that covered. I'm trying to redeem myself at the eyes of our people, but if the worst happens i'm going to do what i know best: cry to my brother for salvation. "
A hopefull smile made your sadness fade.
" Hector, … Is he with you? "
" Of course he is! Who else would have faith in my stupid plans?" Paris mocked himself. " He loves you soo much. He has been loosing his mind since the first day without you, but presenting a ransom to the greeks was a risk. From the moment they would be aware you are his wife, it would be over. They would have refused to return you and submitted you to all kinds of humilliations. No, with them you always have to do things by force. "
He made you chuckle.
" Any idea of how are we going to escape? "
" Working on it, just act natural and follow me. "
Your heart beated fast the whole way, since you were the one guiding Paris using your greater knowledge of the camp's structure. The myrmidons were ubicated at one extreme, what made things somewhat easier, as the naturalization of your presence there did.
A man in a mycenaean armor awaited for you, his eyes were giving him away.
" Don't, not yet. " Hector warned you, since he could read your uncontrollable excitement to the sight of him. " Danger hasn't passed. Proper welcomes should be postponed untill we are safe. "
You still dared to express a bit of your lovefull gratitude.
" I knew it! I knew you would come, I never wanted to stop believing! "
" Have they tried to convince you of that? " He wondered out loud. " I knew it had to be you causing division among them since the very first time the myrmidons didn't show up and I couldn't be prouder. "
Passing through the Scaean Gate was living again, you were at home. As soon as the walls were sheltering you Hector held you in his arms and kissed you untill both of you were feeling breathless. The wonderfull moment felt to you like a renewal of your vows, he had the same surprising lack of decorum he showed the day he asked for your hand. Instead of your happyly shocked family, his brother and some trojan soldiers were the ones left to witness it.
He would never stop amazing you, the insightfull understanding of what you have gone through that your husband was showing since your first instants of rencounter made you love him even more. Hector new that you didn't want to present yourself to your parents looking and feeling like a captive, they wanted their daughter back and you wanted to be her again.
Before presenting yourself in public, you needed to feel like yourself. To get back the identity your captors tried to strip you from. It was most likely that the citizens would overwhelm you with questions, the militar council wanting to extract every single drop of information about the greek camp that you had adquired and all of that was very important, but he cared about you the most.
Putting the princess and the spy aside, he wanted to trully reunite with his wife and help her heal before the weight of the city would fall upon her. Some of the servants of your household were awakened for the ocassion and they welcomed you quietly under the prince's recommedation of not disturbing you. They helped Hector out of what was left of his disguise and he returned to his cassual wearing for home.
Once he looked like your husband again, he turned back to face you with an adorable smile.
" Welcome home, my love. For the sacrifice you have endured it is my wish to make of what's left from this night a moment to comfort you in any and every way you desire. If you don't want to talk about the horrors, I'm willing to wait. "
" I want a bath, I stink of sand and greeks. " You joked to attenuate the tone of he conversation. " Is this how you feel after fighting? "
He chuckled a bit, taking your light talk as a good sign.
" You were a concealed fighter, peraphs the most important fighter in this war. " He lovefully praised you. " It takes courage and a great speed for decision making to come up with such insane attack strategy. You cleverly realized there was no chance for two women to get away from the temple and offered yourself to save my cousin. When we found her, she repeated me the last words you told her. Your wisedown surpasses our war council, you knew from the beggining what I'm trying to make them understand. "
" Well, I knew that as a slave girl I was going to get underestimated, but it worked even better than what I guessed. Greeks are surprisingly trustfull of their war prizes or think themselves too high for vengeances to reach them " You humbly admitted. " In me they saw an object to move from one point to the other, but never suspected they could be touring a spy arround. I poured wine for the kings while they were discussing their plans, Agamemnon found no danger in that because he considered me to be merely decorative. "
" Sounds like the riskier war feat I have ever heard of. " He added, then caressed your cheeks as he inspected your face for any signs of damage. " It seems like they trully thought they were going to enjoy of my wife's beauty for long. I can tell they were carefull. "
" They were too bussy fighting each other over who was going to keep me to ask me important questions of any kind. " You revelaed him with amusement. " Only Odysseus discovered it, but he got there too late. Achilles was already eating out of my palm."
The confession surprised him.
" Meaning you have targeted him all this time? "
" He is rabidly jealous of you." You confessed, teasing him. " I discovered that the main obstacle of Agamemnon is his fail to make him act according to his goals. His attempts to manipulate him are rational, but Achilles can only be persuaded irrationaly. "
The start of your tale wasn't worrying him the way you feared.
" Nothing really happened between us. " You rushed to clarify, since he wasn't asking. " He wanted it to happen, but i made him very aware that my husband was in my mind and heart the whole time. "
Your desperation for proving yourself to him was heartwrecking, he could tell you were so full of guilt over a situation that wasn't trully in your control. Even if you played to be, the course of action was limited to the grey zones where the control of men was weaker.
" You were loyal to my vision to the last consequencies, despite you had no guarantee of safety. " He cutted you off. " Many of the men I command claim that they would die for me, but what you did goes beyond their will of sacrifice. This is the greatest proof of love to me and to Troy. "
Tears were falling down your cheeks and he instinctively held you in his arms, as if he feared you would wreck if he didn't.
" What you did to survive is not of my concern, you are here with me now. " He reassured you, making you smile. " But if someone got to hurt you, the bastard responsible for that damage won't see the sun again."
" I think i never saw you making threats like that. " You sweetly mocked him. " It's flattering, but turns out you have been protecting me against it from afar. The two greek leaders you slaughtered a few days back ? Ajax was the second in the line of possible adquisitors for me, Menelaus threatened with taking me to satisfy his hurted honor and died the next day. "
The strange coincidence amazed him.
" I'm always with you, even if this crazy world we live in takes us apart. "
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Chadwick Reese | What about the Middle Man? The Impact of Middle Level Managers on Organizational Learning
Chadwick Reese1 & Dr. Debra Hunter2 
Abstract 
Researchers have explored the relationship between upper echelon leadership and organizational learning in certain settings, namely growth and consistency (Reese, 2006). Researchers continue to explore the various relationships between upper echelon leaders or top management teams (TMT) and organizational learning because the TMT are the people responsible for the allocation of resources and creating a culture that promotes employee training, employee development, teambuilding, and employee advancement. This research proposes a qualitative study in the health care and transportation fields of mid-level managers. The authors seek to understand what was communicated to mid-level managers during a time of change, how that impacted their attitudes, and in turn, what if any individual learning they gained during the time of change. We also seek to identify specific learning that the individual was able to share with their teams within the non- top management teams, and whether they observed those learning being put into policy by upper management. We conclude the perception of middle managers on improving organizational learning is vital to the overall concept 
Introduction and Literature Review 
Scholars and practitioners continue to argue that organizational learning is the only sustainable competitive advantage that a firm possesses. Researchers have explored the relationship between upper echelon leadership and organizational learning in certain settings, namely growth and consistency (Reese, 2006). Researchers continue to explore the various relationships between upper echelon leaders or top management teams (TMT) and organizational learning because the TMT are the people responsible for the allocation of resources and creating a culture that promotes employee training, employee development, teambuilding, and employee advancement. Further, researchers have examined the process by which strategic decisions are made (Papadakis & Barwise, 1998). These researchers assume that strategic leadership is comprised of top management or upper echelon leaders. Scholars suggest that organizational learning is a key component for firms hoping to create a sustainable competitive advantage. 
However, many fail to understand the role they play in setting the standard for the organization (Hambrick, Humphrey, & Gupta, 2013). Prior to Crossan and Hulland. (Bontis, Crossan, & Hullund, 2002) TMT and organizational learning were disconnected fields of inquiry. Following their research, an opportunity still exists to understand how strategy actively manages learning to make adjustments moving forward (Crossan & Berdrow, 2003), further demonstrating how strategic management theory and organizational learning remain disconnected. Given that strategic management involves deploying strategies that enable a firm to remain competitive (Porter, 1998; Teece, 2000), it would be interesting to know how strategic management theory could use the outcomes of organizational learning concepts to actively make adjustments when defining and redefining a firm’s position, specifically how these interactions take place below the TMT (Tsoukas, 1996). 
1 Troy University, Troy, Alabama 36082, USA. 2 Troy University, Troy, Alabama 36082, USA. 
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Some studies have focused on the impact of TMT composition and related resource deployment on firm performance (Carpenter, Geletkancz, & Sanders, 2004), while others have explored individual learning impact on organizational learning (García-Morales, Lloréns-Montes, & Verdú-Jover, 2007) and made loose connections to how negative learning that can stifle strategic implementation (Bednall, Sanders, & Runhaar, 2014; Elenkov, Judge, & Wright, 2005; Narayanan, Zane, & Kemmerer, 2011). What appears to be a gap, and has been called out by other researchers, is exploring the link between the individual aspects related to organizational learning, and how those interplay as both antecedent and result of strategic management (Hutzschenreuter, 2006). All this research builds on the well-established concept that organizational learning occurs at three distinct organizational levels, the individual level, the workgroup level, and the overall organization level, that there are seven dimensions to organizational learning, and that organizational learning can be measured (V J Marsick& Watkins, 1996; V. J. Marsick, 2013; Watkins &Marsick, 1993a, 1993b). In all that contextualization, how middle management interacts with strategic change is absent. 
Other research establishes the link between how leadership creates a climate that can foster individual and organizational learning (Berson, Nemanich, Waldman, Galvin, & Keller, 2006), and how that learning can evolve over a period of time in both positive and negative ways (Berends & Lammers, 2010). The link to how firms can use external knowledge to renew strategies, and that internal organizational learning is important to long-range planning has also been established (Jones & Macpherson, 2006), but related research shows that during times where innovation demands requires flexibility between exploration and exploitation, the application of organizational learning to strategic management is inconsistent (Rosing, Frese, & Bausch, 2011). 
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Studies to understand the nature of changing demands on organizational learning and strategic management are largely focused on external pressures like changes in business climate or merger and acquisition (Narayanan et al., 2011; OReilly, 2013; Shi, Sun, & Prescott, 2012). Research that has worked to understand how individual and team level learning translates into organizational learning have identified what conditions make that translation possible (Hülsheger, Anderson, & Salgado, 2009), but where efforts have been made to understand how that is in turn translated into actionable strategy it has been focused on team-level perceptions that prevent implementation (Huy, 2011). Much of this research points to the same opportunity. Changes in leadership behavior can cause changes in learning climate, but do internal changes in strategy trigger changes in leadership behavior, and how does individual level and organizational learning flow among non TMT team members to impact future strategy (Jansen, Vera, & Crossan, 2009). 
Conceptualization 
To sum up prior research, the notion that TMT strategic implementation creates an environment, which can be either positive or negative for individual and organizational learning, is undisputed. What hasn’t been explored is how a changing management strategy impacts organizational learning during that time of transition. In the perception of middle management, what constitutes transition, and how does that impact their learning and whether that flows into organizational learning. Strategic management is certainly an antecedent to organizational learning, but how does it affect middle management during times of change? How do those perceptions positively or negatively impact using learning during times of change to adjust TMT strategy? 
The authors seek to understand that while the TMT may allocate resources and sponsor an organizational environment that promotes organizational learning, does that commitment flow to lower levels of the organization in time of uncertainty or great change? Are employees more concerned about their own personal well being rather than the well being of the firm? If so, how, and why? If the research were extended, could we predict use of individual learning on long range planning (King, 1983), predicting innovation climate (George, Mcgahan, & Prabhu, 2012) or a host of strategic concepts (Porter, 1980, 1996, 2008). Further, the authors seek to understand whether organizational learning occurs, or why it does not occur, as perceived by non-top management team members in these organizations in time of uncertainty. 
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The researchers explore the questions, if organizational learning does occur, at what level and to what degree? It is important the firms understand the impact on employees during times of uncertainty or change in order to develop a better understanding of potential strategies to employee to continue organizational learning. 
We are proposing a qualitative study in the health care and transportation fields of mid-level managers. The research seeks to understand what was communicated to mid-level managers during a time of change, how that impacted their attitudes, and in turn what if any individual learning they gained during the time of change. It also seeks to identify specific learning that the individual was able to share with their teams within the non-top management teams, and whether they observed those learning being put into policy by upper management. Further, it seeks to understand whether the mid-level managers saw learning during a time of change implemented in any quantifiable way. Could they see specific feedback used by the TMT to implement specific policies or processes that improved the organization? 
Research Methods 
The population for this study will consist of small and medium firms, which carry a high percentage of turnovers. Focusing on the healthcare industry and transportation specifically due to high levels of turnover caused by frequently changing environment. Much of this change takes place at the hands of technological advancements, government regulation, and fiduciary budget constraints. Choosing a sample of firms located across the southeastern region of the United States with a similar cultural, legal and political structure allows us to analyze and identify trends while controlling for variables that may be present within other geographic areas. 
Drawing upon our current knowledge of the theory of learning, we can build upon the current model of Top Management Teams creates the strategic plan which creates learning climate, which foster individual learning. We will be focusing on middle managers as our informants, since they carry the responsibility of receiving directive from the TMT as organizational transitions occur. Mid level, managers are also charged with the task disseminating new knowledge to groups and provide supervision that facilitates individual learning. With this hands on interaction mid level can accurately assess organizational learning during periods of uncertainty better than any other level of management. 
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To probe into middle management view of learning we designed a semi-structured questionnaire to investigate how change initiated by the TMT is received and validated by mid-level manager who must then implement the process to subordinates. If middle management perceives the change as “valid change” versus “invalid forced change” are they able utilize previous individual learning? If middle management perceives the change as “invalid forced change” does the state of uncertainty and pushed effect of TMT create a state of flux, which suppresses organizational learning? 
Face-to-Face interviews were conducted with mid level managers. Managers were asked to participate in the study voluntarily. All responses were kept completely confidential and our analysis was a representative of the entire sample not individualistic. We conducted six (6) mid level managers as our sample to explore organizational learning. The interview consisted of structured and open-ended questions. The interviews took approximately thirty to forty- five minutes. At the completion of the interview/ data gathering stage, we analyzed the information for trends and use statistical data if needed. The sample interview guide is outlined below in Table 1. The introductory questions focused on the six major areas identified above are part of our study in Organizational Learning which includes’ the following areas; 1) Communication; 2) Learning; 3) Organizational Support; 4) Access; 5) Change Process and 6) Current business environment. The current business environment is the catalyst of the study given that the study is centered on an uncertain business environment. 
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Interview Question Guide 
Introductory Questions: 
1. How long have you been with the company? 2. How long have you been a mid level manager? 3. Where you promoted from within or hired outside the company to become a manager? 4. How is your relationship with the TMT? 5. How do you feel about the stability of the company? 
Organizational learning: 
1. Has the company made changes to leverage technology and implement systems that are more efficient? 2. Do you feel the company has enhanced the skill set of its employees? 3. Does this new knowledge make employees better equipped to thrive during periods of change and uncertainty 4. Would you classify the company as a learning company; constantly continuing education for development? 
5. When faced with situations where you struggle to make a decision, who do consult or seek advice from. 6. Do you rely more heavily upon peer support or TMT members when implementing changes? 
During the last 3 years: 
a. During a period of uncertainty or drastic change, do you feel you acquired new knowledge to increase individual learning? How so? 
b. Do you think you are better equipped to implement what you’ve learned during future periods of uncertainty? If yes, even during periods of forced changed by the TMT that one may feel is pointless? 
c. Did learning as you went through uncertainty reduce future uncertainty for you? 
Table 1: Sample Interview Guide 
The researchers promoted the participants to go into greater detail beyond the sample questions. This allowed the participants to elaborate on their responses, allowing the researchers to gain a better understanding of their perceptions as part of this study. Further, this process of facilitating this discussion allowed the researchers to better triangulate the data and gain a deeper understanding of what drives the phenomena discovered as part of the study. 
Data Analysis 
As part of the analysis of qualitative research, the issues of validity and must be addressed. In order to improve the validity, the researchers used multiple data sources as part of the project. The idea this that by using the multiple data sources, we would be able to address research weakness involved in using a single method, thus having different researchers and different participants would ensure a more robust and comprehensive study. 
A number of the themes raised as part of this study were consistent with what the researchers expected. The most common themes and responses centered on the different avenues and opportunities to learn during time of uncertainty. The results suggest that there is guided learning for middle manager, both actively, and informal communications that occur on a day-to-day basis during the course of the change and uncertainly. The basic concept is that more learning occurred in the paradigm of coaching and soft learning opportunities. 
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The concept of coaching or soft learning was the primary method of learning and dialogue during a state of uncertainty. The researchers were able to identify that middle managers that this form of learning was more important and more effective that formal structured learning given by the company. Additionally, the perception was that the TMT was able to get a better understanding of the middle managers’ concerns and priorities in moving the organization forward. Further, the middle managers were motivated to learn more and take on additional ownership during times of uncertainty. "I'm going to personally learn to do this thing because that change recently hurt. And I'm going to try to make it better the next time." 
The researchers also identified the phenomena of proactive learning that occurred among the middle managers, although it was a little less common of a response. One individual stated ".... I sense something strange on the horizon; therefore I'm personally going to go equip myself to handle it..." And typically those respondents were the ones who were able vocalize personal learning more specifically. The participants who were able to recognize uncertainty change on the horizon were better equipped for the change. The researchers identified this as important and separated in the answers for more probing and insight to distinguish between the phenomena of proactive personal learning and reactive personal learning. What remains outstanding is the understanding of relationship that middle managers have of TMT based upon whether they can be classified as proactive or reactive learners. 
Formal or structured training tended to favor middle manager in certain positions or who were recent promotions and recent hires compared tenured manager that preferred coaching or soft learning. The researchers failed to correlate formal training based on need, but to the availability of training being offered. Thus, the managers tended to take the training because it was being offend in lieu of understanding the current business environment. Therefore, the four learning modes tended to cluster together in terms of guided learning, learning company, personal learning, and pro-active learning as identified in Figure 1 below. 
Figure 1: Mid-level Manager Effect 
Communication as identified in Figure 2 tended to group into one or two categories. The two categories were either access the top management team and limited or access to the top management team. The negative aspect of communication very rarely had anything to do with communication was wrong, it simply had to do with communication is absent - either it was existed or was non-existent. In some cases top management teams did not grant access or were not visible to mid level managers. In these cases, it was not an instance was learning did not occur rather the mid-level manager’s created learning opportunities. However, how closely correlated the relationship of this training was to overall organizational strategy was not explored. In the case the mid-level managers provide direction and learning opportunities to front line employees without good transparency to the top management teams. 
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Figure 2: Communications 
The next area we explored was that of stability and change management. The responses suggest that there was a great deal of TMT support during times of change and uncertainty. The participants suggest that the TMT became actively involved in how their job became more complicated, and advanced the idea that did middle managers begin to take proactive steps only to create support for the change. 
Figure 3: Stability and Change Management 
There researchers were able toto connect and get a perception of support in addition to reality of support as well as access to TMT. While this may seem redundant to the communication aspect but it implies a couple of other issues such as an “open door policy” and “trust” within the company. Mid- level managers had created such a communication channel that lower level would have permission to bypass their lead supervisor if necessary in order to gain clarity. 
Figure 4: Access 
As indicated in above the concert of the “open door” policy was introduced. It relates directly to the next theme we discovered as indicated in Figure 4 above, access to TMT. Access is was also defined as a degree of transparency, top management team positive is the idea that employees felt like the things that were being told by mid management were from somewhere, not simply being created in the middle. Conversely, as indicated previously, TMT’s that denied access or were absent were categorized as negative. Therefore, if there was access and presence, it was deemed as a positive, by contract, limited access and absence was perceived as a negative. It is important that it was not characterized as good or bad, just a positive or negative perception of TMT. 
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Summary and Next Steps 
The theory of organizational learning is that there are various dimensions involved the area of organizational learning. Organizational learning takes place at an individual level, it takes place at a group level and it takes place at a system organizational level. There is a great deal of theoretical research that suggests that the organizations are built to learn, and is directly correlated to their creating a sustainable advantage in the business environment. Organizational learning primarily has two outcomes - increase in knowledge performance and increase in financial performance. Increase in financial performance is tied to your short-term plan. Knowledge performance assumes a more long-term approach in terms of creating, a sustainable advantage. Thus, organizational learning helps fill those two voids. 
The researchers looked why his concept is important and in relations to top management teams and how top management teams have influence over organizational learning. Given that TMT has control over resources, set the modes and strategies for an organization to perception of how they are perceived is important. We looked at it from the context of the middle management team and their perception of the top management team in terms of allocation of resources, creating environment, creating the structure, creating the culture that will promote organizational learning. We looked at it in terms of the transfer ability. So we looked at multiple organizations and we also looked at it across industries. 
There are a number of themes that occurred during the context of this study including while the research showed some promising results. Greater research is required in this area. The researchers work individually to advance the field and theory of organizational learning at the macro and micro level of organizational studies. One of the emerging trends was in the area of trustworthiness. As a result, future researchers should continue the dialogue and discussion of trustworthiness among middle managers and TMT during periods of uncertainty. Specifically, they should seek to address the central question of, what role does mid levels and the individual play in task master during periods of uncertainty. The ability to address this question would be a vital component to both scholars and practitioners, first to add to the theoretical foundation, secondly, it would provide insight to practitioners to consider when seeking addressing the issue of competitiveness in times of uncertainty. 
Additionally, future researchers should look to build upon this study to address the issue the issue of middle management trustworthiness and how it may dictate the employee’s willingness to learn during uncertainty. This question will seek to provide insight on the employee’s concern during periods of uncertainly, specifically, whether they are more concerned about their own well being compared to the well being of the organization. Further, the role of organizational learning during this process. If organizations seek to use organizational learning, as a competitive advantage, even during times of uncertainty, is the relationship between organizational learning and competitive advantage somehow mediated or moderated by uncertainty? The researcher would argue that under certain conditions, the relationship between the two variables would be adversely affected. 
Finally, future researchers should explore a greater understanding from a macro level of research in organizational studies. The perception of middle managers on what they believe the TMT should do to improve organizational learning is vital to the overall concept of organizational learning. Assuming that as employees acquire new knowledge, what measures could increase transferability for the purpose of improving or gaining a sustainable competitive advantage. Thus, the perception of middle manager on improving organizational learning is vital for an organization’s future success in terms of financial performance and knowledge performance. 
While the current study has concluded, the timeline for furthering the study would be a three-to-four month process. Given that, a base has been established in the transportation and healthcare industry. The researchers would bifurcate the study and focus more in-depth in to one industry. Following the initial study, the researcher would work to improve the validity of the study by focusing primarily on issues of transferability between various industries to devising a conceptual model that would undergo greater test. Thus, a mixed methods system of research, first qualitative to develop the theory or understanding of the theory. 
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The next step would allow for a larger scale quantitative study. This would allow the researchers to increase the number of participants to understand the relationships generated during the qualitative analysis. 
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March 14, 2011 SG Wannabe released their ninth album: SG Wanna Be 7, Pt. 2
SG Wannabe (SG워너비) is a ballad trio who debuted in 2004. Since their debut, they’ve been known for making beautiful, emotionally-charged ballads. Typically, they don’t appear in their own music videos and rarely do variety show appearances, but that hasn’t had a negative impact on their fanbase; if anything it’s created more interest in the trio.
Honorable Mentions: 2012 - B1A4 (비원에이포) - Ignition        They released their first album, with the single: “Baby I’m Sorry” 2013 - Heo Young Saeng (허영생) - Life         He released his third EP, with the single: “How to Get Girls” 2014 - Troy (트로이) - Green Light         They released their first single: “Green Light”
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A Personal Look at Mathías Énard’s novels, Zone and Compass
The opening of Mathías Énard’s Compass had me hooked:
“We are two opium smokers each in his own cloud, seeing nothing outside, alone, never understanding each other we smoke, faces agonizing in a mirror, we are a frozen image to which time gives the illusion of movement…”
The premise of an insomniac academic musicologist – with an encyclopaedic knowledge of European and Middle Eastern literature and music – absorbed by Pessoa’s understanding of the imaginal ‘East beyond the East’ – and pining for lost love of his academic colleague Sarah – strummed an orchestra’s worth of chords for me. The novel is a love story and a journey through the music and literature of Europe and the Orient whose gateway is Vienna.
First alerted to the novel by book bloggers via Twitter, enthusiastic in their praise, and knowing nothing more about the author or the novel, I was wary of hype. The last book that I approached from a similar introduction turned out to be very disappointing. I searched for a library copy of Compass but found none available among my usually reliable suppliers. A previous novel of Énard’s – Zone – was available. So I began reading Énard with Zone. The stylistic conceit of a book written in one long sentence didn’t really capture my imagination per se, although it is true that the structure leads a reader to flow on with the story. There are a number of interludes in the gargantuan sentence which are chapters from a fictional book by a Palestinian author that is set in the Lebanese Civil War.
The narrator of the main story is a neo-fascist who has fought for a Croatian militia unit in the Balkan civil wars. He has a cache of documents of war atrocities that he has stashed in a suitcase. He has handcuffed the suitcase to the luggage rack of the overnight train from Paris to Rome, where he hopes to ransom his information via a contact in the Vatican. The suitcase is a classic Hitchcock-style MacGuffin – even to the extent of it being on the luggage rack of a train. The novel – through the stream of consciousness of the narrator – is a sprawling journey through the Zone, the countries around the Mediterranean, where the narrator has been a soldier, and a spy for French intelligence services. The narrative is based on the chapters of The Iliad and Homer’s gods and heroes infuse the unfolding of the novel. The structure never obtrudes on the stream-of-consciousness reflections of the drunk, or half-drunk warrior, who is individually and archetypally every warrior, rapist and torturer from the time of Troy – or the birth of humankind – to the present day and into the future – albeit an extremely well-read one, who can quote Cervantes, Apollinaire or William Burroughs.
In the midst of the horror of the litany of atrocities there are also moments of genuinely hilarious black humour – especially so in the Burroughs-in-Tangier section. In general, the pace of the novel draws the reader along, and only occasionally does the narrator’s stream of consciousness become sluggish: an extraordinary achievement for a novel of five-hundred plus pages. As a reflection of the complexities of contemporary politics and the wars that still rage around the Mediterranean, responsible for the displacement of so millions of civilian non-combatants, Zone is a brightly polished mirror that reflects humankind’s innate darkness and violence.
And so, yes, I had to read Compass immediately afterward.
Franz Ritter, this narrator so dithery and neurotic, couldn’t be more different than the drunken macho neo-fascist soldier-spy of Zone, other than in his literary erudition. Perhaps Énard had to write through the atrocities of Zone to get to the point of writing Compass.
‘ “Before you can think about beauty, you have to plunge into the deepest horror and go completely through it according to Sarah’s theory,” says Franz.’
Compass has its moments of high comedy. Franz on speaking of lullabies: “Brahms, who rings out like a cheap music box… Brahms the Volkswagen of the lullaby…” Compass travels the same geographical areas as Zone but is concentrated on music and literature more than a direct approach to politics and war, although it doesn’t ignore them either. In a section set before the Syrian civil war, Sarah and Franz and Bilger, a mad academic colleague, sleep out under the stars at Palmyra, and the sense of sadness evoked by these beautiful images, knowing what has happened there so recently to the guardian of the site and the destruction of its buildings evinces a desperate sadness for what has been lost to barbarism; a barbarism that we have seen is shared equally among the forces of the West and the East, and continues to grow.
In a novel that is close to five hundred pages, there are moments when the digressions of the insomniac narrator drift into areas that can cause a loss of reader-focus, but with a novel so ambitious, that drift in no way detracts from the overall genius of the work. The book, with and without irony, takes on the mantle of orientalism without negating the analyses of Edward Saïd of orientalism as imperialism, but it is a transformed contemporary orientalism that shifts the conceptual focus onto shared human values of mutual fascination with each other’s cultures, rather than an insistence on maintaining a view of a West-East relationships as that of oppressor and oppressed. Our origins, fascinations and projections onto the other arise from our upbringing in the West or the East, both of which are imaginal constructions.
“She spoke at length on the postcolonial holy trinity – Saïd, Bhabha, Spivak: on the question of imperialism, of difference, of the twenty-first century when, facing violence, we needed more than ever to rid ourselves of this absurd idea of the absolute otherness of Islam and to admit not only to the terrifying violence of colonialism, but also all that Europe owed to the Orient – the impossibility of separating them from each other, the necessity of changing our perspective. We had to find she said, beyond the stupid repentance of some or the colonial nostalgia of others, a new vision that includes the other in the self. On both sides.”
“The Orient is an imaginal construction…”
The protagonist, Franz Ritter, can be infuriating, but we can also share in his cowardice, his mawkishness, his erudition, his love and his desperate hope.
In the same way that a book set in a familiar geographical location can evoke a particular recognition, identification or nostalgia in a reader, this book’s journey through music and literature does likewise: Rimbaud, Verlaine, Lou Andreas-Salomé, Nietzsche, Thomas Mann and on and on and on…
As someone whose life was immersed in Tibetan Buddhism for thirty years, the fictional extrapolation on projection and spiritual yearning on a mystic East arouses a familiar sense of recognition, both positive and negative. Compass continues to work on correspondences with long-held obsessions – without in any way comparing my own work to Énard’s – that have also driven me to write. The protagonist of my novel Cressida’s Bed (2004) is an Englishwoman who is a Theosophist, midwife and independence-supporting woman who travels from India to Bhutan in the 1930s and becomes involved with the Dharmaraja or Shabdrung. In writing for 3AM Magazine, William Burroughs and the Dreamscapes of the Dalai Lama has a section on the naïve orientalism of the Beats. Ghosts in the Dry Bush deals with a personal immersion in the Japanese performance art of Butoh. On the meeting of East and West, the farsouthproject.tumblr.com site has an essay on Yukio Mishima being influenced by De Sade and Genet and a critical look at the biographical feature film on Mishima made by Paul Schrader.
With these obsessions as personal background, Compass, had a profound resonance for me. I’m sure that each reader of Compass will find their own unique points of connection and recognition because we have all been influenced by our own orientalism whether through reading, painting, music or other exchange between West and East. And that is part of Énard’s point. As the quote above shows, whatever culture we belong to, we share our experiences with others – we appropriate from and we offer what we have to others. And we can all discover the other in the self. Compass sets off a yearning to explore the subject more, whether through music or literature or film. His work connects with extensive reading and listening in its appreciation of world music and literature. Zone woke up memories of Christopher Logue’s War Music: another version of The Iliad. Tangentially, Compass and Zone had me searching out Pasolini’s Medea to discover, somewhat synchronously, the film’s soundtrack of Iranian, Tibetan, Indian and Japanese music; not to speak of the locations the film shares with Compass, shot as it was in Anatolia, Turkey; and in Syria before this awful contemporary war.
Compass in particular has kept on resonating in my mind for days, but each novel, Zone and Compass, complements the other.
We are fortunate to have both novels translated by Charlotte Mandell.
Both Compass and Zone by Mathías Énard are major works of twenty-first century world literature.
(Photograph from the Irish Times.)
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Harry Potter vs The Divine Principle.
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The DP is a Trojan Horse. The purpose is control – not liberation.
On initially hearing Moon’s Divine Principle we may have felt a tremendous feeling of joy and hope for personal growth, and a willingness to contribute to a noble cause. A new dawn for mankind was being ushered in – world peace was on the horizon – and we could be pioneers. Accepting the DP also meant being presented with responsibility for the ‘providence’. Gradually more and more demands were made and more sacrifices required from us.
However, the goals of personal perfection and global peace were, and are, unattainable in the framework of the Divine Principle. Why?
The Divine Principle is not what it appears to be; it is a false bill of goods. The DP is offered as a gift, as was the Trojan horse. (Soldiers crept out of the horse at night and opened the gates; the city of Troy was overcome.) To accept the gift of the DP may result in the surrender of your soul to the authority of Sun Myung Moon, who then sits on the throne of your heart.
Reading the DP, a Unification Church / Family Federation for World Peace member may think they are entering into a covenant with the new messiah, who is offering salvation. Sun Myung Moon promoted himself as the expected messiah in the Divine Principle. As a representative of God, he may be seen as having a portion of responsibility, or a duty of care, towards his followers. However, it is evident that Moon did not take responsibility for his legitimate children, or his illegitimate children, let alone his trusting followers.
Moon diminished everyone. By the time a member discovers this, years of their life may have passed.
The DP is a clever construction, but it is a work of fiction. Wolli Wonbon, written by Moon himself in two notebooks in Pusan in 1952, is largely a synthesis of the work of several authors who pre-dated him. In Wolli Wonbon Jesus was married to Mary Magdalene! A senior DP follower recently commented about this major change to the DP: “I would think the probable reason was that, in consultation with Eu Hyo-won [who was a main contributor to the 1957 DP], Father decided that this was not something that would help Christians to accept him.” 
Moon later changed that DP plot line, saying Jesus failed to marry! Some early followers, who had been to university unlike Moon, added scholarly material to the DP. The first DP book was published in Korea in 1957. (Moon did not ever go to Waseda University in Tokyo. That was always a lie.)
The Mary Magdalene as the wife of Jesus narrative has massive implications for the entire fiction that is Unification Theology.
Ultimately, what does the DP teach us? The purpose of the DP is not to educate us, but to manipulate us. This is done through our emotions. Gates are opened which allow other forces (such as the group dynamics of the Unification Church) to enter and subvert us, ultimately putting a Korean man on the throne.
Maybe we can learn more useful life tips from the fiction of Harry Potter (see below) rather than the fiction of the DP.
How does the DP work on our emotions to subvert us?
The ‘Sin and Fallen Nature’ model in the Divine Principle is based on the story of Adam, Eve and the Archangel Lucifer and the ‘fall of man’. According to Moon, everyone is full of sin (DP, 2004, page 72).
Four types of sin are described.
First is original sin … It is ingrained in our lineage and is the root of all sins.
Second is hereditary sin. This sin is inherited from our ancestors on account of their connection through lineage.
Third is collective sin. This is the sin for which we are responsible as members of a group, even though we neither committed the sin ourselves nor inherited it from our ancestors.
Fourth is individual sin, which is what we as individuals have committed.
The ‘Four Fallen Natures’
According to the DP, these were Lucifer’s wrong behaviors:
1. Failure to see from God’s point of view 2. Leaving proper position 3. Reversal of Dominion 4. Multiplication of Sin
This is how these concepts are used to control members:
1. Failure to see from God’s point of view – Man, because he is ‘fallen’ does not see things from God’s viewpoint. A follower of Moon must accept ‘God’s viewpoint’, even when it makes no sense. (‘I am a thinker,’ Moon explained, ‘I am your brain.’) If we think something is not quite right, it is because we do not understand. (Moon is different to other men. Moon lives by different rules because he is one with God.) We must crush (subjugate) any doubts we may have to reverse Lucifer’s failure.
2. Leaving proper position – We must keep the position assigned to us by God, who works through Moon, God’s central figure on earth in this age. If we leave our position, we will make a condition for Satan to invade us. We must fulfill the responsibilities we have been given, no matter what the cost. Besides the individual level, Moon has also assigned positions to nations, e.g. Korea, Japan and the USA as Adam, Eve and the Archangel (who should have served Adam and Eve), etc. Members from each nation must fulfill their responsibilities for the ‘providence of restoration’ without question or complaint. Neither individuals nor nations should leave their positions, or fail, or they will delay the providence and cause further pain to God.
3. Reversal of Dominion – Man’s sin involved a reversal of dominion – failing to respect or follow God or a superior. We must not repeat the negative feelings of the archangel and repeat that failure. According to Moon, the emotions of jealousy which Lucifer felt were again played out in the heart of Cain. God deliberately accepted Abel's offering and not Cain's – so that Cain could feel the jealousy that Lucifer had felt, and overcome it. However, Cain failed and killed Abel. We are always Cain to our leaders who have been given their Abel position by God (Moon). Even if we have greater abilities, and can see our leader is making mistakes, we must dutifully obey and accept that God put us in these positions for a purpose, to overcome our sinful natures. To overcome any Cain type feelings or natures, we must obey.
4. Multiplication of Sin – The fall involved multiplication of sin; Eve was seduced, then in turn she seduced Adam. So two people can never be allowed to establish close relationships. We must fear multiplying sin. If two members spend too much time together – being horizontal instead of focussing on their vertical relationship with God – then others must break in and split them up. This is a good reason to keep moving members around. (Deep inside, belonging to Moon’s organization can be a lonely experience.) All attachments and loyalty should only be to Moon. Bad-mouthing leaders or other members is also multiplying sin. We should remain uncritical of others at all times – and only criticize ourselves. 
The above ‘sin narrative’ is a means of control. The underlying message is to get followers to doubt their own judgement, through fear of possible ‘archangelic or Cain-type behavior’.
Moon asserted that he had authority over his followers, and he assigned them positions in his ‘providential’ drama – with himself as the central figure. Of course, in reality Moon did not have any authority. However, if a recruit or new member sees other members similar to themselves being dutiful followers, there is a strong pull for them to also accept Moon’s authority over their lives. Most of us want to feel accepted by those around us. Many thousands of years ago to be outcast by our social group probably meant death. We would find it very difficult to survive alone. To this day rejection can trigger powerful emotions.
The DP and other UC teachings present a high demand theology. It is also very hierarchical, reflecting its cultural roots in Korean Neo-Confucianism.
The concept of indemnity is deeply embedded in the DP. This is not standard Christian doctrine. It is effective in making followers feel they have a debt that must be repaid.
The DP uses the language and narratives of Christianity, but at its heart it does not reflect the teachings and ethos of Jesus.
Moon claimed authority as the bringer of the new ‘truth’ of the Divine Principle. However, the ideas contained in the DP were not Moon’s. He was a thief of the ideas, therefore he has no right to claim any authority from being the author of the DP. Neither was the DP revealed to him by God. Moon designated Hyo-won Eu and others to write the first Divine Principle which was published in 1957. It has been reported that they referenced the 1954 book of Kim Baek-moon and the teachings of Chong Deuk-eun as they put together the 1957 DP.
In reality the Divine Principle exists to grab us through our emotions – our deepest hopes and aspirations, and fears about our futures in any possible afterlife (The Principle of Creation); our fears and possible feelings of guilt about sex (The Fall); our natural feelings of empathy and sympathy for Jesus (The Mission of Jesus); our responsibility (to history / mankind); our shame about historical figures who, according to Moon, ‘failed their missions’; our dedication / love and loyalty (to the coming kingdom).
Moon claimed to be the only person in history who understood God’s heart, and who could ease God’s pain. When we hear the Divine Principle we are also reminded of all those who failed to support Jesus in his lifetime, especially John the Baptist. We are told John’s lack of support was one reason Jesus had to go the way of the cross. God was let down so many times throughout history. 
Moon had a narrative about his own incomprehensibly suffering life, and the difficult path he trod for ‘seven years’, ‘nine years’ (or more – the story is not consistent) to discover the truth of the DP. We are made to feel indebted to Moon and are drawn through natural empathy to support him in his noble cause. ‘We must not fail God again.’
Recruits or members who waver or have doubts about what is happening to them, or who want a little time to reflect, are reminded of the urgency of the present moment in history. Some are told of the terrible things that have happened to those who turned their back on ‘God’s new truth’ – disease and accidents to the person, or to a relative, etc. God’s protection may be lost. Fears and phobias are implanted in minds already thrown off balance by so many stirred up emotions. Pre-existing views of the self and the world are rocked to the core.
If we try to resist God’s ‘providence’ we might be made to feel selfish and uncaring. The trap is closing in on us.
Group dynamics are important. There are usually many group bonding exercises such as sports, games and the writing and performing of sketches.
Singing is always a big thing. Singing and music opens us up on an emotional level. This allows other newly experienced emotions to become more solidified within us. Music experienced with others bonds each to the group.
We remember how we felt. Those emotional memories transcend time and can endure for the rest of our lives, overriding logic.
Responsibility for God’s ‘providence’ looms before us. A narrative has been woven with a place for us in Moon’s drama. We are ‘special’ and have been ‘prepared and chosen by God’. We have been convinced that Moon’s providence is not a fiction like Harry Potter, but is real – however, both are fictions.
Almost all of us need to belong to a group or ‘tribe’. The fear of rejection is deep inside all of us. We want to avoid being rejected by our new companions in this ‘great cause’. Fear of losing the new ‘safe haven’ we have found in the ‘Unification family’ can be very powerful.
The Divine Principle is psychologically very manipulative. The DP narrative is crafted to lock members into Moon’s system.
The DP might appear coherent within itself, and even appear to have some logic. However, it is based on an unsubstantiated unorthodox interpretation of Genesis in the Bible. That is an allegorical cautionary tale. Historically the Biblical Adam and Eve never existed as literal people. The DP parallels of history are a stretch too far.
There is no such thing as original sin. (Did Jesus talk about it?); original sin is not passed down through thousands of generations to each of us; Moon is not a ‘sinless’ messiah (as Hak Ja Han stated in 2016); there is no true lineage that we need to graft on to;  and Moon does not have any authority from God over anyone, except the authority that we do – or do not – surrender to him.
Moon is not managing a ‘providence’ on behalf of God. Moon knows exactly what he is doing: charm, narrative sales pitches (speeches), cutting our previous social bonds, and pressure when he has got us. We then become his willing slaves. Moon is the beneficiary to our cost.
While we are in the UC, our value is not determined by ourselves, but by Moon.
He makes heavy demands on us; these are usually unattainable. He then keeps defining us as failures. Self-esteem is continually eroded. We are often sleep-deprived and exhausted. The stress this causes diminishes the brain’s ability to think clearly. A certain level of panic can set in.
No human being ever has been, or ever will be, perfect. That is another illusion to make us feel bad about ourselves.
Moon ultimately had no answers to the complex challenges of life and society.
After being in Moon’s church we are usually more alienated from society, probably more alienated from ourselves, and often alienated from God.
Can we embrace ourselves just as we are? Embrace our natural sexuality, free from Moon-induced phobias or shame. Our sexuality is an important part of our identity, and it should perhaps be celebrated – in a respectful way.
We might discover that we are better human beings than ‘messiah’ Moon ever was. And we might learn more about what it means to be human from the fiction of Harry Potter than from the fiction of the Divine Principle.
20 Life Lessons I Learned from Harry Potter
15 Important Lessons the Harry Potter Series Has Taught Me
Shock: “Ashamed to be Korean” gives a report on the Moon scam
The Believing Brain: From Spiritual Faiths to Political Convictions – How We Construct Beliefs and Reinforce Them as Truths
Conformity
Bending Truth – Cognitive Dissonance
My Time with the Family by Peter from New Zealand
The Boonville Technique
The Unification Church and shamanism. At its heart the UC is not Christian; but it presents a Christian facade.
Were Moon’s tears for himself?
Charismatic Authority (authority is not the same as power)
The Pink Elephant In Sun Myung Moon’s Unificationism
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The worst NFL teams to ever make the playoffs
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There have been a number teams that finished .500 or worse that ended up making the postseason.
The 2019 field of NFL playoff teams is a bit of a mixed bag. With two weeks left in the regular season, there are a whopping nine teams with double-digit wins. But there are also some not-so-great teams that remain in playoff contention, like the 7-7 Eagles and Cowboys. There are even outside shots for the 6-7 Browns and Raiders to sneak into the postseason.
That means there’s still a chance we see a .500 team make the playoffs.
How would that stack up to the worst playoff teams in NFL history? Aside from the 1982 strike-shortened season, which had two 4-5 teams in the postseason, there have been 10 teams with 8-8 records or worse go to the playoffs in the league’s history. Some of them actually ended up winning in the postseason!
Let’s take a look back at the teams with the worst records to get into the playoffs, listed in chronological order.
1985 Cleveland Browns, 8-8
The Browns’ .500 record was good enough to finish first in the now-defunct AFC Central, and in turn, that was good enough for a playoff bid. Quarterbacks Bernie Kosar and Gary Danielson split time at quarterback for Cleveland, which was led by head coach Marty Schottenheimer.
What they did in the playoffs: Unfortunately for the Browns, their playoff dreams didn’t last long. In their first (and only) postseason game that year, they lost 24-21 to the Dolphins.
1990 New Orleans Saints, 8-8
The 8-8 Saints clinched a wild card bid during Jim E. Mora’s fifth year as New Orleans’ head coach. Saints quarterback Steve Walsh went 6-5 as the starter, and he threw for 12 touchdowns and 13 interceptions. Running back Rueben Mayes had seven touchdowns while fullback Craig Heyward chipped in with four. The Saints’ turnaround that season was impressive, too. New Orleans started the year 2-5, but then went 6-3 during the back end of the season to slip into the playoffs.
What they did in the playoffs: It was just the second time in franchise history New Orleans made the playoffs, but it couldn’t lock up its first ever postseason win. The Saints lost 16-6 to Mike Ditka’s Bears.
1991 New York Jets, 8-8
The Jets didn’t have much business being in the playoffs this season. At Week 8, they were just 4-4 with losses to the Seahawks, Bills, Bears, and Oilers. The second half of their season didn’t go much better — they lost three out of their last four games.
This team had some close games and even went 2-1 in overtime games. The Jets beat the Packers and Dolphins, and lost to the Bears in OT. Their overtime win against Miami in the final week of the season helped them secure the tiebreaker over the Dolphins, and the Jets made it in as a wild card team.
What they did in the playoffs: Head coach Bruce Coslet’s Jets lost 17-10 to the Oilers to end the season at 8-9. For a decade between 1987 and 1997, this was the only time the Jets appeared in the postseason.
1999 Dallas Cowboys and Detroit Lions, 8-8
Both of these teams earned playoff bids despite finishing 8-8. The Cowboys were the second-best team in the NFC East behind Washington, and the Lions got a wild card bid out of the NFC Central.
Dallas’ quarterbacks that year were Troy Aikman and — wait for it — Jason Garrett, though backup Garrett only started in two games. The Cowboys going 8-8 that season was rather disappointing, considering they had the likes of Aikman, Emmitt Smith, and Deion Sanders on the team. However, they dealt with a lot of injuries (especially to Michael Irvin) that started to add up.
Detroit, meanwhile, had an abysmal last four games of the season, going 0-4 to end up at .500. This year was the Lions’ first without Hall of Famer Barry Sanders, so there were understandably some growing pains that went along with that.
What they did in the playoffs: In the Wild Card Round, both teams were beaten by double digits. The Cowboys lost 27-10 to the Vikings, while the Lions fell 27-13 to Washington.
In a postseason that had the Music City Miracle and the thrilling Rams-Titans Super Bowl, these two playoff games certainly didn’t live up to that standard.
2004 Minnesota Vikings and St. Louis Rams, 8-8
Both Minnesota and St. Louis went 8-8 in 2004 — the Vikings out of the NFC North, and the Rams out of the NFC West. The Rams faced the Seahawks in the playoffs, and the Vikings drew the Packers. This was pretty interesting, given that the teams had already met twice in the regular season as divisional opponents.
The Rams beat the Seahawks twice in the regular season, the first time needing overtime to pull out a 33-27 victory. The Vikings lost twice to the Packers, however.
What they did in the playoffs: Despite both the Rams and Vikings being road underdogs, they each won their third meeting against their rival. The Vikings beat the Packers 31-17, and the Rams defeated the Seahawks 27-20. The two lost in the next round, though — the Vikings to the Eagles, and Rams to the Falcons.
2006 New York Giants, 8-8
The Giants were the No. 6 seed in the NFC in 2006, but it was looking like they’d be a much higher seed at the start of the season, sitting at 6-2 after Week 9. Then the Giants dropped six out of their last eight games to finish 8-8 in quarterback Eli Manning’s third season.
What they did in the playoffs: Unsurprisingly, the Giants lost their wild card game against the Eagles. Surprisingly, it took a last-second field goal for Philadelphia to earn the 23-20 win. Manning led the Giants to a Super Bowl win the following season, so the playoff disappointment didn’t last long for New York fans.
2008 San Diego Chargers, 8-8
This San Diego team became quite the story during the 2008 season. The Chargers closed out the season winning their last four games, including a 52-21 win over the Broncos in Week 17 to give them the AFC West title.
What they did in the playoffs: The Philip Rivers-led Chargers kept that momentum going in the playoffs, where they were able to knock off Peyton Manning’s Colts 23-17 in overtime. Then in the Divisional Round, the Chargers lost to the Steelers, who went on to win the Super Bowl over the Cardinals that year.
2010 Seattle Seahawks, 7-9
Seattle made the postseason with a 7-9(!) record during the regular season, finishing first in a down NFC West. Aside from the 1982 season that was shortened due to the players’ strike, this was the first time a team with a losing record made the playoffs. Five Thirty Eight was bold enough to call the 2010 Seahawks the worst playoff team ever:
The Seahawks are not any garden-variety 7-9 team: they are an incredibly bad 7-9 team.
First, consider the Seahawks’ point differential. They allowed 407 points during the regular season while scoring just 310, meaning that they were outscored by roughly a touchdown per game on average. Although it is quite common for N.F.L. teams to reach the playoffs with a negative point differential, none has had one as poor as the Seahawks’ minus-97.
What they did in the playoffs: It was head coach Pete Carroll’s first season in Seattle, and even with the low expectations, he led his team to a 41-36 win over the Saints in the Wild Card Round. Seattle lost 35-24 to the Bears in the next round, but kudos to this bad Seahawks team for at least nabbing one postseason win.
2011 Denver Broncos, 8-8
Under new head coach John Fox, Denver finished in a three-way 8-8 tie for first place in the AFC West. The Broncos won the tiebreaker over Oakland and San Diego, and clinched a playoff spot when the Chargers beat the Raiders in Week 17.
What they did in the playoffs: Denver’s quarterback for the postseason was none other than Tim Tebow, who helped the Broncos upset the Steelers in overtime. Tebow found Demaryius Thomas for an 80-yard touchdown pass to get the victory:
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That touchdown marked the longest-scoring play in NFL OT playoff history, and Thomas set a new Broncos franchise record for receiving yards in a playoff game (204 yards). The Broncos’ magic ended in the next round against the New England Patriots, with a 45-10 blowout loss.
2014 Carolina Panthers, 7-8-1
Like the 2010 Seattle team, the Panthers made it to the playoffs as the No. 4 seed even with a losing record. No team in the NFC South finished with a winning record that year.
In early December, Cam Newton injured his lower back in a car accident. Somehow, he only missed one game, and the Panthers reeled off four straight wins to win the division.
What they did in the playoffs: The Panthers weren’t the only ones with quarterback drama. Arizona starter Carson Palmer tore his ACL in Week 10. Then in Week 15, backup Drew Stanton also went down with a knee injury, leaving third-string Ryan Lindley (WHO?!) as the Cardinals’ starting quarterback for their playoff game against Carolina.
The Panthers beat the Cardinals 27-16 in the Wild Card Round in what was a terrible game overall:
Carolina lost the next week 31-17 to the Seahawks, who went on to lose to the Patriots in a much more entertaining Super Bowl.
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Harry Potter vs The Divine Principle.
The DP is a Trojan Horse. The purpose is control – not liberation.
On initially hearing Moon’s Divine Principle we may have felt a tremendous feeling of joy and hope for personal growth, and that a new dawn for mankind was being ushered in which would bring world peace. Accepting the DP means also accepting responsibility for the ‘providence’, and gradually more and more sacrifice is required of us.
However, the goals of personal perfection and global peace were, and are, unattainable in the framework of the Divine Principle. Why?
The Divine Principle is not what it appears to be; it is a false bill of goods. The DP is offered as a gift, as was the Trojan horse. (Soldiers crept out of the horse at night and opened the gates; the city of Troy was overcome.) To accept the gift may result in the surrender of your soul to a foreign power.
Reading the DP, a Unification Church / Family Federation for World Peace member may think they are entering into a covenant with the messiah, who is offering salvation. Sun Myung Moon promoted himself as the messiah in the Divine Principle. As a representative of God, he may be seen as having a portion of responsibility, or a duty of care, towards his followers. However, it is evident that Moon did not take responsibility for his legitimate children, or his illegitimate children, let alone his trusting followers.
Moon diminished everyone. By the time a member discovers this, years of their life may have passed.
The DP is a clever construction, but it is a work of fiction. Wolli Wonbon, written by Moon himself in two notebooks in Pusan in 1952, is largely a synthesis of the work of several authors who pre-dated him. In Wolli Wonbon Jesus was married to Mary Magdalene! A senior DPfollower recently commented about this major change to the DP: “I would think the probable reason was that, in consultation with Eu Hyo-won [who was a main contributor to the 1957 DP], Father decided that this was not something that would help Christians to accept him.”
Moon later changed that DP plot line, saying Jesus failed to marry! Some early followers, who had actually been to university, added scholarly material to the DP, and the first book was published in 1957.
The Mary Magdalene as the wife of Jesus narrative has massive implications for the entire fiction that is Unification Theology.
Ultimately, what does the DP teach us? The purpose of the DP is not to educate us, but to manipulate us. This is done through our emotions. Gates are opened which allow other forces (such as the group dynamics of the Unification Church) to enter and subvert us, ultimately putting a Korean man on the throne.
Maybe we can learn more useful life tips from the fiction of Harry Potter (see below) rather than the fiction of the DP.
How does the DP work on our emotions to subvert us?
The ‘Sin and Fallen Nature’ model in the Divine Principle is based on the story of Adam, Eve and the Archangel Lucifer and the ‘fall of man’. According to Moon, everyone is full of sin (DP, 2004, page 72).
Four types of sin are described.
First is original sin … It is ingrained in our lineage and is the root of all sins.
Second is hereditary sin. This sin is inherited from our ancestors on account of their connection through lineage.
Third is collective sin. This is the sin for which we are responsible as members of a group, even though we neither committed the sin ourselves nor inherited it from our ancestors.
Fourth is individual sin, which is what we as individuals have committed.
The ‘Four Fallen Natures’
According to the DP, these were Lucifer’s wrong behaviors:
1. Failure to see from God’s point of view 2. Leaving proper position 3. Reversal of Dominion 4. Multiplication of Sin
This is how these concepts are used to control members:
1. Failure to see from God’s point of view – Man, because he is ‘fallen’ does not see things from God’s viewpoint. A follower of Moon must accept ‘God’s viewpoint’, even when it makes no sense. (‘I am a thinker,’ Moon explained, ‘I am your brain.’) If we think something is not quite right, it is because we do not understand. (Moon is different to other men. Moon lives by different rules because he is one with God.) We must crush (subjugate) any doubts we may have to reverse Lucifer’s failure.
2. Leaving proper position – We must keep the position assigned to us by God, who works through Moon, God’s central figure on earth in this age. If we leave our position, we will make a condition for Satan to invade us. We must fulfill the responsibilities we have been given, no matter what the cost. Besides the individual level, Moon has also assigned positions to nations, e.g. Korea, Japan and the USA as Adam, Eve and the Archangel (who should have served Adam and Eve), etc. Members from each nation must fulfill their responsibilities for the ‘providence of restoration’ without question or complaint. Neither individuals nor nations should leave their positions, or fail, or they will delay the providence and cause further pain to God.
3. Reversal of Dominion – Man’s sin involved a reversal of dominion – failing to obey a superior. This is a heinous offense in the Unification Church, and even thinking critically of an immediate superior will incur God’s displeasure. We must not repeat the negative feelings of the archangel. Even if we have greater abilities, and can see our leader is making mistakes, we must dutifully obey and accept that God put us in these positions for a purpose, no doubt to overcome our sinful natures.
4. Multiplication of Sin – The fall involved multiplication of sin; Eve was seduced, then in turn she seduced Adam. So no two people can be allowed to establish close relationships. We must fear multiplying sin. If two members spend too much time together – being horizontal – then others must break in and split up the relationship. This is a good reason to keep moving members around. (Belonging to Moon’s church can be a lonely business.) All attachments and loyalty should be to Moon.
This ‘sin narrative’ is a means of control.
The underlying message is to get followers to doubt their own judgement, through fear of possible ‘archangelic behavior’.
Moon asserted that he had authority over his followers and he assigned them positions in his fictional ‘providential’ drama. Of course, in reality Moon did not have that authority. However, if a recruit sees other members similar to themselves being dutiful followers, there is a strong pull for them also to accept Moon’s authority over their lives.
Moon claimed authority as the bringer of the new ‘truth’ of the DP. The DP and other UC teachings present a very high demand theology. It is also very hierarchical, reflecting its Korean roots.
However, the ideas contained in the DP were not Moon’s. He was a thief of the ideas, therefore he has no right to claim any authority from the DP.
In reality the Divine Principle exists to grab us through our emotions – our deepest hopes and aspirations, and fears about our futures in any possible afterlife (The Principle of Creation); our fears and possible feelings of guilt about sex (The Fall); our natural feelings of empathy and sympathy for Jesus (The Mission of Jesus); our responsibility (to history / mankind); our shame about historical figures who, according to Moon, ‘failed their missions’; our dedication / love and loyalty (to the coming kingdom).
Moon claimed to be the only person in history who understood God’s heart, and who could ease God’s pain. When we hear the Divine Principle we are also reminded of all those who failed to support Jesus in his lifetime, especially John the Baptist. We are told John’s lack of support was one reason Jesus had to go the way of the cross. God was let down so many times throughout history.
Moon had a narrative about his own incomprehensibly suffering life, and the difficult path he trod for ‘seven years’, ‘nine years’ (or more – the story is not consistent) to discover the truth of the DP. We are made to feel indebted to Moon and are drawn through natural empathy to support him in his noble cause. ‘We must not fail God again.’
Recruits or members who waver or have doubts about what is happening to them, or who want a little time to reflect, are reminded of the urgency of the present moment in history. Some are told of the terrible things that have happened to those who turned their back on ‘God’s new truth’ – disease and accidents to the person, or to a relative, etc. God’s protection may be lost. Fears and phobias are implanted in minds already thrown off balance by so many stirred up emotions. Pre-existing views of the self and the world are rocked to the core.
If we try to resist God’s ‘providence’ we might be made to feel selfish and uncaring. The trap is closing in on us.
Group dynamics are important. There are usually many group bonding exercises such as sports, games and the writing and performing of sketches.
Singing is always a big thing. Singing and music opens us up on an emotional level. This allows other newly experienced emotions to become more solidified within us. Music experienced with others bonds each to the group.
We remember how we felt. Those emotional memories transcend time and can endure for the rest of our lives, overriding logic.
Responsibility for God’s ‘providence’ looms before us. A narrative has been woven with a place for us in Moon’s drama. We are ‘special’ and have been ‘prepared and chosen by God’. We have been convinced that Moon’s providence is not a fiction like Harry Potter, but is real – however, both are fictions.
Almost all of us need to belong to a group or ‘tribe’. The fear of rejection is deep inside all of us. We want to avoid being rejected by our new companions in this ‘great cause’. Fear of losing the new ‘safe haven’ we have found in the ‘Unification family’ can be very powerful.
The Divine Principle is psychologically very manipulative. The DP narrative is crafted to lock members into Moon’s system.
The DP might appear coherent within itself, and even appear to have some logic. However, it is based on an unsubstantiated unorthodox interpretation of Genesis in the Bible. That is an allegorical cautionary tale. Historically the Biblical Adam and Eve never existed as literal people. The DP parallels of history are a stretch too far.
There is no such thing as original sin. (Did Jesus talk about it?); original sin is not passed down through thousands of generations to each of us; Moon is not a ‘sinless’ messiah (as Hak Ja Han stated in 2016); there is no true lineage that we need to graft on to;  and Moon does not have any authority from God over anyone, except the authority that we do – or do not – surrender to him.
Moon is not managing a ‘providence’ on behalf of God. Moon knows exactly what he is doing: charm, narrative sales pitches (speeches), cutting our previous social bonds, and pressure when he has got us. We then become his willing slaves. Moon is the beneficiary to our cost.
While we are in the UC, our value is not determined by ourselves, but by Moon.
He makes heavy demands on us; these are usually unattainable. He then keeps defining us as failures. Self-esteem is continually eroded. We are often sleep-deprived and exhausted. The stress this causes diminishes the brain’s ability to think clearly. A certain level of panic can set in.
No human being ever has been, or ever will be, perfect. That is another illusion to make us feel bad about ourselves.
Moon ultimately had no answers to the complex challenges of life and society.
After being in Moon’s church we are usually more alienated from society, probably more alienated from ourselves, and often alienated from God.
Can we embrace ourselves just as we are? Embrace our natural sexuality, free from Moon-induced phobias or shame. Our sexuality is an important part of our identity, and it should perhaps be celebrated – in a respectful way.
We might discover that we are better human beings than ‘messiah’ Moon ever was. And we might learn more about what it means to be human from the fiction of Harry Potter than from the fiction of the Divine Principle.
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Troy (2004) Reader Insert Fanfiction / Achilles x Mycenaean Princess!Reader Precuel - Part 22
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Warnings: Thetis is being portrayed as a supportive mother. Clichés from the historical epic-swords and sandals film genre mixed with mythology.
Characters (main): Achilles, Patroclus, Thetis, Phoenix, Eudorus, Agamemnon, Hesione.
Summary: Returning to his homeland gives Achilles time to meditate on the intense experience he has lived and he intends to take drastic choices on the matter. However, the reminder of a pernicious detail leaves him in need of good advice and Patroclus convinces him of visiting the best sources available. 
In the meantime, Hesione attempts to penetrate the stubborn mind of her master hoping to persuade him using his loneliness on her advantage.
Notes: In the movie Achilles afirms to have seen the gods, implying he is the only mortal arround who had any contact with at least some of them. From this fact i attempt to add some of the mythical element into the story without changing the original tone of Troy centered in mortal actions and motivations.
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There were many silent sacrifices that Achilles accepted to endure for Patroclus since he took him in, but having to stand his new friend during a good portion of the journey back to Pithia was a very annoying one. The bard that the lad befriended in Mycenae was quite talkative and obtrusive, constantly meddling in matters that weren’t his business. He would never stop reminding him that he was a witness of his greatest crime, the only one Greece wouldn’t cheer him for. The awakening of passion in the heart of the queen among greek princesses, splendid daughter of the King of Kings, woman meant to belong with some mighty lord ruler of rich lands. The story brought forward the bard’s curiosity, seeing in it great epic potential and for so, filling the hero with unwanted advice in hopes of making him reveal more details. 
Death threats weren’t enough to keep him shut, not at least while being around them. It was most likely that Alexander knew the risk that the rage of the myrmidon champion meant for him and wouldn’t challenge it anyways, but he also wanted to have privileged access to the novelty. He would keep it secured awaiting for better times in which his songs would be an honor instead of a source of scandal. That didn’t stop him from accidentally bringing many questions to the hero’s already troubled mind. 
Her suitors and what he was going to do with them were a concerning conversational topic between them on the way. The artist was coming up with ideas on the assumption that Achilles would follow the less subtle route to obtain the lady as wife. Go directly to her father, expect the obvious negative, then do a carnage that wouldn’t leave a single one of her suitors alive and kidnap her. He wouldn’t be the first greek hero taking that path, many stories in the past were evidence of it. Other remarkable warlords before him met with the refusal of their fathers in law and resorted to war like violence. 
It would be what everyone expected of him, a typical Achilles reaction according to the brutal fame he was acquiring. He didn’t want that, their nuptial thalamus should not be stained with a bloodbath. However, the reminder brought him the realization that he was indeed capable of jealousy. Despite being completely sure of her feelings for him, the idea of returning to her city and finding out that Agamemnon betrothed her to someone else was unbearable to him. Suddenly, killing the chosen suitor in a rage outbreak didn’t seem an improbable possibility. Not even an oath like the one forced on Helen’s suitors would stop him. If he would have been in their situation he would have killed Menelaus in the blink of an eye. Except that he wasn’t even a legitimate suitor for his lady’s hand, he was only the most dreaded soldier at her father’s command. 
Reproaches about his lack of patriotism and long lasting hate were all Agamemnon had for him because he never valued or understood myrmidons like he should. Phthia grew with the frequent arrival of persecuted runaways from other greek cities, many of whom were protected during the times of Peleus, mixing themselves with the descendants of the original habitants of the land. National feelings would hardly emerge among people that were once forced to leave their homelands, mycenaean occupation didn’t change that. The king loved to insult him based on his lack of loyalty to the country ignoring that his definition of Greece was himself. Myrmidons weren’t happy with submission just to feel like belonging to a closed identity given to them by his empire, they were only loyal to themselves. 
Reclaiming political power wasn't his particular ambition like was often suspected of him only because he was from a conflictive province. The greedy king could keep the throne and place his favorite crawler general on it; all Achilles wanted from him was the princess. The way to eternal glory, he would win on his own through his actions in the battlefield. She was the only of his wishes that strictly required from the approbation of his hated rival. For her he was going to endure him, since she had the loyalty of his arrow pierced heart. It didn’t take long for him to realize he was starting to miss her, in Mycenae he got used to seeing her everyday and he underestimated how much he loved that. He wanted to wake up beside her, to see her smiles witnessing his training combats with Patroclus, to introduce her with everyone she couldn’t meet the first time she visited him. 
Remaining separated in times of war was understandable and normal, but being without her in peace was harder to accept. Something on him was changing and the people around him were noticing it. Patroclus was surprised to see him pick the lyre again, then offering him lessons with the excuse of his recently noticed strong interest in music. They had tried it before and made some good advances, but Achilles postponed those because combat training was a priority. Not only that preoccupation seemed to change, but he even catched the hero playing alone at one given opportunity. 
The song sounded melancholic, but it was beautiful, and the lad didn’t dare to interrupt until it was finished. 
“ I’m so full of jealousy, I can't believe this… I will never be as great as you. Everything you do feels epic, Achilles!” 
The man smiled for him, used by then to be the center of his admiration. It was no secret that Patroclus looked up to him and he didn’t want him to doubt himself in pointless comparisons. 
“ You are the one with the musical inclinations, I only play when I’m bored.” 
“ You know I’m not talking about musical talent.” The lad clarified. “ When a normal man falls in love, he acts like a fool until successful courting leads to marriage. When you do it, it has to become an intricate adventure for a distant maiden that is practically unreachable. Look at yourself, you are in the part of the tale where the hero mourns his longing for an impossible love because his great challenge hasn’t come yet.” 
Achilles wasn’t following the joke. 
“ Life is not an epic tale, Patroclus. If it was, I would know what happens next.” 
Seeking to help out while trying to differentiate sadness from bad mood, he sat next to him hoping to provide him comfort. Achilles would never ask for it first, especially from him, but Patroclus knew what to do when he needed it. 
“ I know exactly what would happen, her father would do something incredibly stupid that would anger the gods. They would punish him through her and you would become her only hope, so Agamemnon would be forced to let you have her in payment for saving her life. “ 
“ What worked for Perseus didn’t turn out well for Hercules. “ Achilles recalled. “ For some heroes passion leads to doom.” 
The pessimistic claim didn’t bother Patroclus in the slightest. 
“ But you are Achilles, you are greater than all of them! And your princess already loves you, which means you only have obstacles in the way because the world would not easily accept that her heart belongs to you. All the other heroes won the right to marriage before the girl’s affections … Although Andromeda is still questionable, I like to think that she liked Perseus on sight.” 
“ When the choice is marriage or being devoured by a sea monster, the bride is just offering herself as payment for the rescue.” 
The stubbornness of Achilles would have disencourage anyone else, but the boy had an inextinguishable spirit. 
“ Think of the lack of conflict due to loyalty to her family. Agamemnon is not a father, he is a jailer. From what I saw, she seems to be like a ghost haunting the palace for him. If she has to choose between him and you, he will pick you faster than Medea picked Jason… And with you she wouldn’t be making the worst mistake of her life. You would not abandon her for a younger princess once she would stop serving a purpose for your heroic journey… not unless you want to be fed a stew made with the flesh of your own children as the main ingredient.” 
The casual application of her most frequent dark joke got a chuckle out of him, on that he noticed the mark she left on his cousin. 
“ That won’t be necessary, once she would be rightfully mine I would never let her go.” 
Patroclus had a triumphant smile that gave his expression a mischievous look. 
“ What are you up to now?” Achilles inquired, knowing something was coming. “ Don’t give me that look, I know what it means.” 
“ Now that you ask, I was going to see Eudorus and I wondered if you wanted to come with me. “ Patroclus innocently offered. “ Phoenix will be there and I bet you would like to talk with him.” 
“ I’m not looking for advisors, but you can leave if you want.” Achilles concluded. “ Salute everyone on my part.” 
The harsh negative would stumble once more with infallible insistence. 
“ Achilles, I’m being serious now. I lost my father and you are the person I search for when I feel lost. Who is yours, if not the old friend of your deceased father? “ 
He had a point, Phoenix was the closest thing Achilles had to a parental figure found on father’s side. However, he was behind someone else in the matter of being a trustable source of advice. 
“ My mother.” 
It was the obvious answer, only that Patroclus didn’t consider her first in that opportunity because he thought she was already aware of everything. 
“ Haven’t you spoken with her about this? You always tell her everything and you had already visited her before seeing anyone else when we arrived.” 
There was a certain glimpse of shame in him. 
“ I didn’t tell her yet, don’t make me feel any more guilty about that. “ Achilles confessed. “ If we do what you want, would you go with me to visit her later?” 
“ We have a deal." Patroclus agreed. “  I like your mother, tables turn when we are with her. She treats me fairly and you become the little boy.” 
Their first stop was the house of Phoenix, adoptive father of Eudorus and old teacher of Achilles. The family had a modest home not too far away from theirs and have been there since the beginning of the mycenaean occupation. The countryside villages were untouched by it, an inheritance of the deposed king that wasn’t magnificent enough for the mycenaean eye. Comfortable places, but not symbols of power they cared to occupate. Those were once conceived as retirement country houses for royals of old age, but with enough patience and work put on them they were turned into suitable places for families. Phoenix took excellent care of Achilles’ inheritance while he was growing up and by the time he reached adulthood the place reserved for him was magnificent compared with its initial state. An architectural hybrid between the palace of a prince and the house of a traveling mercenary, not absolutely sophisticated nor fully rough. In contrast, the place of the old man and his family was just a homely country house. 
The disposition intended to imitate the order of things from the times of Peleus. but the space was susceptible to expansions. In times of peace Eudorus was often seen occupied in home improvement labor. Before the rushed travel to fight in Argos he was working on an ampliation to emplace a thalamus for the eventual time of his marriage. It was his wishful project for the future, so he was getting the house ready in advance of finding a woman he would want to take there. 
Achilles used to mock the sequential order of his efforts, wondering why he would bother in getting the bedroom ready before actually finding the bride. At that particular opportunity, he was the one asking about the state of the project. 
“ He has been working non-stop since he returned, it’s almost ready.” Phoenix told the freshly arrived visitors. “ The women of the argives must have inspired his purpose. “ 
The impetus didn’t come from Argos, his friends imagined it linked to his mycenaean admirer. The sweet servant girl with an obvious crush on him must have reinforced his will to work on that. 
“ We have met Helen of Sparta in Mycenae.” Patroclus innocently excused him. “ That woman is an unstoppable source of inspiration for anyone.” 
The old man was absolutely unimpressed by his implications. 
“ Those thieves are hoarding treasures from all over Greece, the least they can do with that is getting stunning wives.” 
“ … And they do, women were arguably the best thing there.” Achilles joked to soften things. “ When we’ll become truly rich, I would like to get one of those for me and one for my friend.” 
“ A mycenaean serving us would be a nice change for once. “ The man snarked, letting them see he thought the hero was talking of buying slaves. “ You know I don’t like to see you both leave knowing you will be fighting for Agamemnon, I accept it because I have no choice.” 
“ I fight for myself and your son fights for me. We only use that king to get our deserved rewards.” 
The conversation was paused to make proper libations to the gods with the wine that Polymele brought for them. 
“ And how good were those this time?” The mother of Eudorus asked. “ I’m absolutely proud of my son’s glory, but we weren’t expecting him to arrive without you. Haven’t you thought about how you were going to scare the people, Achilles?  At first sight we could have thought you were lost in battle! “ 
“ Mother, he was being honored in Mycenae for the great victory against Diomedes.” Eudorus jumped in his lord’s defense. “ The conqueror of Thebes, of seven gates, was never forced to retreat before. Achilles made him.”
The hero seemed pleased with the accurate description of the official motives masquerading his reasons for staying in the mycenaean palace more than necessary. 
“ Not easily, he is worth the fame he acquired. Diomedes is the best I have faced, just not good enough to contain me. He knew when to back down, or a deity who loves him inspired him to do it. “ 
“ Then he got his army submitted to Agamemnon, paid the tribute, and you got the argive blood cleansed from your skin by the hands of the mycenaean princess. “ Patroclus added. “ Not a bad outcome, you got honors that have never been given to any other hero during the ruling of Agamemnon.” 
“ Diomedes can still be called a King, Achilles takes the myrmidons to battle as a mere commander.” She recalled, showing disdain for the descripted situation. “ No honors can repay that, a ceremony in the palace of Agamemnon isn’t enough.” 
“ But it was a great start.” Achilles insisted, on a positive note. “ His own people are fascinated with me, Mycenae loves me against the wishes of its king.” 
The affirmation was accurate, but also an excellent metaphor. Mycenae discovered a fervor for him that Agamemnon despised, but the most special of his subjects actually loved him against his wishes. 
Phoenix seemed to have a clear position about that. 
“ A bath? If they want to vindicate you, at very least they should have let you sleep with her.” 
The joke made everyone chuckle for all the wrong reasons. He wasn’t speaking seriously, but Achilles truly had the even more delusional idea of taking the princess of Mycenae as payment for all past and future offenses when he would finally be able to part ways with the Atreide. 
“ Don’t make him wish for so, father. “ Eudorus spoke first. “ The girl is a delight, she surprised us all. Kindness like hers is rare to see in the highest royalty, especially in the House of Atreus.” 
The remark made him feel taunted and Achilles wasn’t going to remain impassible. 
“ The only one in that family that is worth something. Let me tell you something, Phoenix. That princess is splendid and her personal entourage is not far behind. Her servant girls are as lovely as her, one is very feisty but the other one is pure tenderness.”
Polymele retired to a subtle sign of her husband, understanding he was going to share things that she wouldn’t like to hear. 
“ It may seem like that, but servant girls are no game.” He strictly commented. “ Not even with the ones belonging to his own household a young man is safe. One may say that everybody does it, but things are never so simple.” 
Patroclus was weirded by the strange reprobation.
“ As long as she consents, I don’t see the problem. Those girls are often offered as part of hospitality. Why should we be the ones to beware of them and not the other way arround?” 
“ Because there will always be someone else willing to ruin your life for one of them. Servant girls aren’t prostitutes, you don’t remain free of consequences.  Don’t underestimate the damage that a jealous owner can cause you. Everything is fun until he realizes that she wants you for real and barely tolerates him. Some don’t like to get reminded that those girls spread their legs for them only because they have to.” 
The passion he showed in the intense explanation was suspicious, almost like a defensive reaction. 
“ That’s not ethical advice,” Achilles pointed out.” you are treating us like kids that want to put their hands over the fire because they don’t know it burns.” 
“ You already know I was not born a myrmidon, your father offered me shelter after I ran away from my homeland. What I never told you or my son was the reason.” The man replicated. “ I was once a prince of Hellas, son of King Amyntor. My father humiliated my mother with his blatant preference for a concubine of the palace and she begged me to do something about it. She wanted me to seduce the slave so she would despise him and so I did. I got close to her, at first for the sake of my mother’s sorrow, but I got to experience a sweet furtive passion with that girl. I awakened in her the fire that only love brings, she wanted me like she had never wanted my father. When we were discovered, Amyntor forgot I was his son. His jealousy overcame everything, he summoned the Furies to curse me with childlessness and they heard him. “ 
He stopped the tale for a brief instant and glanced at Eudorus. 
“ You know now why my blissful union with your mother has never produced offspring. My seed is cursed, dear boy. I came to this land escaping the hate of my father and you were a miracle that happened after I thought I lost everything. It was decreed that I would never conceive a child of my own and when I met Polymele she was already pregnant with you. I got blessed with a chance to raise two boys, my son and my apprentice, and I thank the deity who had mercy on me for that.” 
“ Maybe it was your mother, Achilles, I will never know. “ He continued, back on his main interrogator at that opportunity. “ After all, she allowed me to educate you when you reached the proper age. She honored my friendship with your father by letting me be the one teaching you what he couldn´t. I’m obliged to transmit you the humble wisdom that I acquired in a lifetime. Don’t get in the way of a master and his possessive love, he would destroy you no matter what just to keep the illusion of full ownership over his favorite girl. “ 
The words of advice Phoenix had to give weren’t a calming balsam for the worries of the heart poured for them. Eudorus received those like a personal alarm while Achilles felt his existing doubts increasing after the visit. The outcome contradicted all expectations, he was still feeling conflicted because the advisor didn’t succeed on the accidental intention of making him desist from his secret purpose. Nothing would, not even Zeus himself coming down from Olympus to tell him that woman was forbidden. Speaking of the servant girls was easier than directly confessing he was going after the mycenaean princess, but he knew the advice wouldn’t change much if the man would be aware of his actual target. In any case, it would be harsher and more determinant giving the substantial difference in the high rank. 
On his part, Patroclus was amazed recognizing in them the same fear of disappointment he sometimes felt regarding them. It was a strange realization, since normally his cousin never seemed vulnerable to expectations and Eudorus would only care about disappointing him in particular. Phoenix felt to him then like the patriarch they all wanted to make proud, but whose wisdom they wished to put in question. Not a single word of complaint came out from the men, despite the lad waiting for it to emerge.  The two grown adults he admired the most, fearless warriors and makers of massacres, wouldn’t dare to question the advice of the man who raised them taking the lead of their absent fathers. 
His hope was in a presumably kinder advisor, the only one who could help Achilles out of the tribulations in a way that wouldn’t make him feel hopeless. 
Thetis received them the next day in the usual grout by the sea. Only her son knew the precise location of the isolated spot where he spent the early stages of his childhood and Patroclus was the only company he ever admitted. The reason would have been evident to anyone who could witness his interactions with his mother. The stoic mask would fall completely in her presence, she was capable of discovering the deepest secrets of his heart with amazing ease. 
“ You have found more than glory in Mycenae.” She told him right away. “ I saw it in you, but I preferred to wait until you would come to me with the news.” 
It never stopped to impress them, Achilles found his initial guilt over hiding the secret absolutely pointless and Patrocus was in disbelief for what he was witnessing. 
“ I didn’t want to overwhelm you so soon. You were receiving me as your son coming victorious from battle, it wasn’t a proper time to come to you for help.” 
Once he approached close enough she gave him a soft caress on the cheek. 
“ There is no wrong time to need your mother.” 
He had a sweet smile always ready for her. 
“ Your little helper has convinced me.” 
Patroclus peeked from behind his shoulder waving one hand and Thetis smiled at him. 
“ I see. It's nice to have you with us this time, Patroclus! I heard about your journeys, your first steps outside your homeland. I’m very proud of you.” 
The boy was bright with happiness receiving the praise. 
“ At least I'm not the only one who is here for your validation.” Achilles mocked him. “ Although I’m not sure who needs it the most right now.” 
Sitting on top of some rocks on the shore, she allowed him to rest his head against her shoulder in a calming pose. 
“ I always wondered why you didn’t try to sneak into the competition for the hand of Helen.” She commented as a subtle entrance for the matter. “ It’s true that I advised you against it, but many achaean heroes were there. I thought pride could have pushed you anyways.” 
“ I’m the best, I have nothing to prove.” Her son answered right away. “ It didn’t matter to me how pretty they said she was, I told myself I was married to the sword and nothing would distract me from fighting. When I had to leave for her wedding party, many men told me I was going to regret it once I met her. I didn’t, Helen is beautiful beyond measure but meeting her didn’t change my life and that made me feel safe in my position. If the prettiest girl in Greece wasn’t trapping me, no other would. “ 
He made a brief pause looking for exact words that would describe the best what he had to tell her. 
“ I met someone else there, a shy girl nobody was paying any attention to. She was the niece of the bride, I thought I was never going to see her again and that’s why I never spoke about her before. I visited her palace, I stayed for more than I should have and now I feel I can’t live without her.” 
There was no judgment in his mother’s reaction and he felt encouraged by that. 
“ You have a good eye for trouble.” She sweetly mocked him. “ I thought you hated the Atreides, the eldest surely hates you. He invaded the land of the myrmidons in spite of your existence. The age of the demigods was starting to fade, a direct descendant of gods was rare to see. Prince Agamemnon of Mycenae was horrified when he heard people were saying the little boy of King Peleus didn’t have a mortal mother. A demigod child ruling anywhere else was a threat to everything he wanted to build, so he came here with lies claiming the myrmidons were hiding Thyestes and took away your crown before you could get to rule. "
“ No way, he is your Eurystheus!” Patroclus recalled with weirded excitement. “ This is getting very interesting.” 
" Deep down Hercules cared for his lost throne, I don't. " Achilles corrected him. " Everyone thinks I say it because I'm trying to escape who I'm meant to be, but I'm not. Agamemnon did an excellent job shaping my fate for his benefit because the man I have become is not the one that prince boy was meant to be. I'm a fighter, not a politician. I can barely look after myself, nobody in their ríght mind would ask me to look after a kingdom. " 
" ... Too bad, because your princess seems born to rule. I bet you wish you had your old title just to give her a throne to sit on. " 
The tease wasn't ill intentioned, but it touched a detail he didn't consider until then. 
" I don't need to present myself to her as the one I was born as. Consider it for a moment, Patroclus. Her mother committed treason sleeping with a traitor. If she finds out I was born a prince, she could think I want her just to get my throne back and she will find logical reasons to believe it. It's the only detail everyone remembers about the Queen of Mycenae, you can naturally assume her daughter is haunted by that. I don't want a scepter of king, I want her... but how do you convince a woman who has been told over and over that her dead mother was a weak bitch seduced by an enemy? " 
It made sense and for so, the lad didn't object. 
" I have a plan, but it requires time I can't afford and patience I don't have. " Achilles continued. " I can win the dowry with the sword, make Agamemnon owe me so much that he will have to acceed regardless of the mutual hate we feel. Once his greed will be satisfied he will not have any believable excuses. I put the world at his feet and all I ask in return is a wife. The great emperor will not look good if he refuses and we know he will pick his damn empire over her anytime. He could be capable of selling her to old King Priam for the control of Troy." 
" Well, to be exact there is nothing he wouldn't give to rule Troy." 
" What I mean is that he will not miss her and before he will sell her to anyone else for power he will have to sell her to me. I will bring him all the power he wants so he will not have to exchange her for it on any of the few free kingdoms that remain. " Achilles clarified ríght away. " The problem is that this is a long term plan. She is clever, so far she has managed to delay marriage, but i don't know for how long she will stand. " 
There was genuine worry in his face when expressing his deepest concern. 
" What if I come back one day to find her married? Maybe she resisted as much as she was capable of, but Agamemnon forced her to marry someone else. Doubt is driving me mad, I don't know how long it will take me to find a new excuse to return. My only comfort is knowing that she is with Odysseus now, that should keep her safe for some time." 
Thetis kissed his forehead and prepared herself to deliver bad news.
" I lament to inform you that your friend conspires against you. Is not personal, he still loves you, but nothing comes above the love he has for his wife and son. He fears you could recklessly unleash a country-wide war for that girl and hopes to contain the situation with manipulations. Nothing new, he is once more playing with forces he can't understand trying to cheat fate. " 
He raised his glance at her with confusion. 
" Mother, are you sure about this?" 
" Which one of the two?" Patroclus asked him."  Odysseus playing on his own side or her being your fate?" 
Thetis seemed quite surprised by the comeback. 
" You have returned with a sharper tongue, dear boy. Is that another prodigy from the women of the Atreides?" 
Patroclus easily confessed his guilt. 
" For cursed people, they are very nice. " 
" Don't insult her like that, the only curse my princess has is being born from that father." 
" So easily you claim her yours!" His mother followed in a teasing tone. " This is not the same man who left the homeland for war. A true miracle has occurred, my son was visited by the children of Aphrodite!"
" Is that all you both plan to do? Join forces to mock me?" Achilles defended himself. " Yes, I am in love. I thought I would never feel that need for someone else and here I am, losing my mind for the daughter of Agamemnon Atreide. Maybe it is the punishment he got for all the offenses he caused me, or it's yet another motive of suffering I have to endure from him. In either case, it's already done. I love her, I can't conceive the idea of finding her married to someone else or witnessing her wedding as an invited guest. If what you say is true, mother, then Odysseus is ríght in just one thing. I would kill the groom if i have to, she wouldn't even have to ask me to slaughter the husband being forced on her." 
" Or you could also remember that the goddess of marriage is the woman who educated me. '' Thetis interrupted before the rage inside him could escalate. " You don't have an immortal mother in vain. " 
Achilles wasn't fond of the idea, the mere thought made him feel uneasy. He stood up out of sudden and gave a few steps away contemplating the sea. 
" You know I don't like to owe favors in Olympus.You never know how the ones up there will choose to collect payment. " 
" I'm loved and respected by both sides of the ruling marriage and that is not an easy achievement." She insisted. " Do you truly want the princess of Mycenae for a wife?" 
" Ask Hera if she wants us to honor her getting married or to offend her with an adulterous relationship. In either way that girl is mine. ” Was his terminating answer halfway into an angry ramble “ In fact, being her lover would never be enough. Only a coward would conform with that. I would steal her from her dying husband and if I have to spill blood all over the temple, I will. " 
" That sounds like a threat, I think it's not wise to offend the goddess whose favor you need." Patroclus mocked his lovesick rage. " ... You truly are lucky that this lady is your mother. "
Thetis smiled once more, purposely avoiding chuckling to the comment and the overall situation, but remained silent.  
" Do you think threatening the Queen of Olympus is a viable option?" The boy continued, horrified. " Are you completely out of your mind? 
" I'm not a coward, I speak my mind. If Hera doesn't make her my wife, I'll take her by myself. " 
" Or the goddess can obviously go one step ahead of you and marry her to someone that would screw your plans." 
To the immortal woman in front of them it was like seeing the argument of two children. However, the unusual wisdom that the youngest was showing was unusual to perceive in someone of his age. He had a healthy fear of gods her son had never acquired. 
"  No one will get in my way." Achilles confidently answered to Patroclus' provocation. " No one would be that stupid. " 
 " What about a man you wouldn't kill so easily and she wouldn't want to cheat on despite not loving him ? I know of a prince that fits the description, a great fighter and a very honorable man... Agamemnon would love to get him on board. " 
The mere reminder of that man annoyed the demigod. Although the idea seemed improbable,he had realized that his cousin was in the ríght.
" Prepare an expiatory sacrifice for tomorrow morning or Hera will gift your girl to Hector just to give you a lesson. "
Thetis wanted to show support for Patroclus' advice without revealing too much of certain information that could be upsetting for her son. As a sea deity she was aware of many things happening on the domains of Poseidon. 
“ That would be an excellent start, I can do my part and speak with her later. “ She quickly took the lead in the conversation. “ The alignments on Olympus could also be useful information to you. I will try to figure out what the great deities think of her, but don’t expect much. Your discredit of Olympians comes from the fact that you have met them, your girl has never felt divine presence. Zeus hates the Line of Tantalus, no one assists them directly. Agamemnon has done more harm than good trying to restore the relationship with the Great King. He thinks that ruling the world would prove that he is better than his ancestors and Zeus will forgive him. I feel confident guessing that the young princess must be secretly watched by Athena, anyone loved by Odysseus gets at least a bit of her attention. Aphrodite is over Helen, if they are close she may be keeping an eye on her too. “ 
“ Aunt and niece have become hard to separate. That must be why the goddess of love couldn’t keep turning a blind eye anymore.” Achilles commented. “ It explains a lot. I thought the world was going a bit more insane than usual when no other man seemed to mind leaving that gorgeous girl all by herself. She even used to boast of being invisible to the eyes of men and I heard that while my own eyes were feasting on her.” 
They shared a few chuckles to the amusing sounding confession. 
“ Aphrodite is called the laughter loving for a reason: she adores pranks. Expect some more pranking now that she is bringing her favorite mortal man. “ 
The words escaped from her in a moment of distraction because the thought was already on her mind. Her son suspected immediately and questioned her about it. 
“ Mother… is there anything else that I should know? 
She was reluctant to keep speaking, as if they were reaching a cursed topic, but there was nothing else she could have done. 
“ Your beloved was invited to Ithaca under false pretexts, Odysseus has a mission for her. To be the bridge between his people and the trojans, Prince Hector is on the way on board of a ship that will arrive soon there. His brother Paris is with him, he is the favorite mortal of Aphrodite. Hector is the predilect of Apollo … and of their entire nation. “ 
Patroclus cackled loudly to the incredible coincidence. 
“ Well, looks like all our mockery will be put to test. “ He concluded. “ Do you think Athena could be connecting her thoughts with Odysseus’? She didn’t tell him about her old escape plan, I'm sure of that. If she sees him the same way I see you, I can confirm that it didn't come out from her.” 
Achilles was certainly dismayed, but not even in front of his mother he would admit it. 
“ It’s only a shame that I can’t be there to see her gaining fame. Her glory is a motive of cheer for me, she always takes pride in mine. I want the trojans to adore her so Hector can envy me later. And as for Paris, he can check on the wonderful woman that could have mindlessly gifted herself to him if she wouldn’t have met a real man first. He will see how unworthy of her he is and she will feel embarrassed to have ever considered him.” 
Surprisingly calm reaction making everyone else suspect there was more behind he wouldn’t acknowledge at the moment. 
“ May I ask you one more favor?” 
The goddess secured some of the strands of golden hair falling at the sides of his face behind his ear 
“ Anything. No matter the path you take, I’m always on your side. “ 
Achilles seemed partially encouraged and that was a relief. 
“ Take care of her, keep her safe when she is unreachable to me. “ He sweetly begged. “ I don’t need you to spy on her because I want to test her loyalty. I trust her, I feel it every time she is close to me. She wants no one else, the world demands her differently. The request is not about me, I just want to know if there will be someone out there looking after her when Athena or Aphrodite would be too busy with the mortals they like more. “ 
The petition was clearly heartfelt and he hugged her right away. 
“ That will not be a problem, she has been praying to the Nereids.” Thetis shared with him in complicity. “ She thinks I don’t listen to her talking of her love for you, but if you would know the things I have heard you will be swimming to Ithaca. “ 
His eyes went wide realizing that his mother had been aware of everything all along. 
While such matters were occupying him, the situation in Mycenae appeared to be diverting the course...
 
 The atmosphere in the palace was moderately quiet, but that wasn’t doing any wonders for the king’s mood. He seemed distracted at best and more easily irritable than usual at worst. Dealing with him wasn’t simple even for his royal advisors. The absence of Nestor complicated things even more and there were no future prospects for an imminent military action that would justify his comeback from Pylos. 
For Agamemnon, it was just him and the mundane issues of Mycenae in a boring in between wars period he would be spending alone. It was hard to admit he didn’t enjoy peace, not even the domestic one obtained in solitude after getting rid of his daughter for a while along with all the uncomfortable visits they were forced to receive. Having her around was often a source of headaches, but letting her go to any place other than his brother’s palace and being uncertain about her time of return wasn’t nice.
 He was worried, no matter how much he trusted Odysseus or how advantageous it would be to have information about Ithaca after the conflict with Diomedes. To some extent, he was regretful about letting her go. 
It was a constant in his relationship with her, taking choices as king that he would later regret as a father. In a more busier context, with some war upcoming or anything to distract his mind, he would simply ignore it. All his usual topics of concern were in control and he had no better idea than turning his thoughts back at her. Their bond was of constant struggle, if there was one thing she learned good from him was the insistence on doing things her way and there was nothing he hated more than being contradicted. She would always stand in the opposite viewpoint for any issue, from the petty things to actual conflicts, and drive him insane. 
However, the palace wasn’t a constant battlefield at all times and she was a nice company. Whenever being anywhere else was impossible and campaigns had to be postponed, in the cold seasons when receiving guests was less frequent and the palace would reduce to just the two of them and their servants. Hunting wasn’t her thing, but in the bad weather she did appreciate the fur clothing. He would typically mock the hypocritical stance and she would laugh, admitting her guilt, to later extend the discourse claiming that hunting trophies were the useless side of it she didn’t enjoy. He once tried to explain to her his taste for keeping trophies using battlefield comparisons. In war when one man kills the other, the defeater has the right to take the fallen’s armor as a prize to display at his home. Without hesitation, she told him that an armed man in battle was a danger to another armed man, but a deer in the woods wasn’t. Only greater prizes from actually dangerous creatures made sense to her for that. The hunt of the Calydonian boar or the gorgon head kept by Perseus, not parts from the lifeless remains of animals that weren’t extraordinary. 
If wars had to be fought following her logic, only killing the extraordinary people, he wouldn’t be at the edge of ruling Greece. Their philosophical arguments were at least entertaining and he would always crown those with some intricate wartime anecdote that would keep her listening. At some of those occasions she would simply hear him vent about Achilles driving him insane without stopping to question him a single time. Her silent support was comforting to him, seeing her simply nodding and smiling to whatever he said for once was definitely helpful. That man would often manage to outshine him while making him look like the villain of his heroic tale, so the king liked to have someone with whom he wouldn’t feel that way. His girl was always understanding, the onlyone besides Menelaus that seemed to be completely on his side. 
Watching her sitting among her slaves, directing their work while keeping up with her own beautiful embroidery works, would sometimes secretly fill him with pride. She already looked like a queen and she had reached the age to become one. Although he was hoping to receive her back before the end of the season, soon he would have to let her go definitely. His empire needed offspring, from his viewpoint as a king he had to get her married as soon as possible. From his feelings as a father, he couldn’t grow the courage to let her go. 
He would never admit it. Not even to himself, always up to find new motives to place on her. Blaming her was easy, stating she was not ready yet to be a good wife sounded more rational. In that line of thought, delaying the marriage was saving an unlucky man the disappointment of getting stuck with a disgraceful mess of a woman that would ruin his life. He was merely providing the useful service that Tyndareus should have given him before he married Clytemenestra, making sure the daughter she gave him would be in optimum conditions before her engagement. He managed to truly convince himself of that, satisfied with his self deceiving. She wasn’t good enough for any man and it was his responsibility to perfect her. Behind his cruel reproaches he was hiding the consequences of his paranoid fears, but also the possessiveness of his filial love. 
It was no mystery to anyone that Agamemnon was a greedy man in every sense of the term and that included his affections. Shouting that he wanted her out of his life only masqueraded his necessity to keep her by his side. He preferred to have her in the palace, far away from the world, because she belonged with him. A fierce, jealous love was the guide of his parenting style. Taking anything away from him was already a difficult task, expecting him to give it away was nearly impossible. He was the accidental creator of his own difficulties, living in the contradiction of needing her to provide an heir to the house and feeling like any man wanting her was stealing her from him. She, who he had raised to be the exception to the rule in the troubled history following the women of the family, was a final product meant to be handed to someone else. 
His mother abandoned him and his little brother when she sentenced herself to death for being unfaithful to their father, then his wife followed the same path. She carelessly left that child lonely for the sake of a lover, but her father knew very well what that little thing endured growing up without a mother. He promised himself he would do better with her, that he would keep her safe from the curse. Her innocent acts of rebellion in the palace were a fair price to pay for rescuing her from that fate. 
Under her watch she was doing fine, occasionally trusting her to Menelaus wasn’t doing any harm either. As the only woman they managed to save, she was theirs by right, meant to be their caring company from her roles of daughter and niece. For the same reason she was their special responsability. Odysseus was a great man, but he wouldn’t understand it. He was probably being indulgent with her, allowing corruption to happen accidentally just to be a nice host. He was her favorite for a reason, he would often destroy all of her father’s good work on a week of visiting by giving her permission for anything she wanted. 
She adored the King of Ithaca and he had an evident soft spot for her. She was always all smiles at the news of his arrival to Mycenae, even happier than if they would tell her that her father was returning from war. No other visitor would spend as much time alongside her as he did yet it never seemed to be enough. She would always beg for him to stay a few days more, looking at him with an adorable expression. It was the exact kind of trick she used to play as a little girl to stay for longer in Sparta, only not about her uncle anymore. She had built a great affinity with Odysseus, one that replaced Menelaus from the spot of favorite. It was granted that, despite the good intentions of Penelope, that man would give the girl too much freedom. 
There was no doubt that his friend also meant good, but he wasn’t the one dealing with the consequences. Odysseus was responsible for her only while she would remain on Ithaca, nothing obliged him to be severe. For as much as Menelaus enjoyed being a relaxed uncle, he was aware of the limits he couldn’t let her cross. He would be more careful because he was aware of the risks, they had a secret mission to accomplish keeping the curse at bay. Although, at the end of the day, it was always up to him. The eldest brother, head of the house and father of that girl he wasn’t ready to raise alone when circumstances made him. His younger brother was a good support, but he wasn’t there all the time. 
The trojan was all he had on a regular basis, that damn woman he would never get rid of. She knew too many secrets of the family, so he could never sell her, but he was too dependent on her and could never kill her. They were stuck with each other and over the years she had at least proven a consistent loyalty. It was a bond of relative mutual convenience making itself more evident when there was no one else around. 
“ I’m bringing your meal, the poor boy that pours your wine is afraid you may slaughter him so I told him I can handle everything.” She announced herself carrying a tray to serve him. “ We are far beyond that, aren’t we? 
Agamemnon tried to remain as composed as possible to show kingly dignity. 
“ Just because my daughter has made you a queen among slaves, that doesn't mean you can talk to me as if you were a real one. She uses you to fulfill a need, as slaves are meant for. Queen Penelope of Ithaca is now in your place, surely doing a better job than you.” 
The woman began to serve the table for him with cold carelessness. 
“ Perhaps you are the one worried wondering if Odysseus is doing better work pretending to parent her. “ 
She poured wine and handed him the cup with total naturality, upsetting him even more than a claim that got him a bit too deep. 
“ That’s an insolence I can't tolerate, not even from you. Hesione, favorite of the princess, I can’t care less about your old age and she is not here to protect you. “ 
“ The last time you marked my body she didn’t speak to you for days. I have seen her shredding tears of resignation whenever her benevolence wouldn’t be enough to calm your wrath against any other of us. Anger is what will be awakened if you touch me or her handmaids. Only three persons in this palace she expects you to protect in her absence, two of them are away.” 
The reprobation made sense, so he switched the topic. 
“ Odysseus was blessed with a firstborn boy, but I fear he would never be a good parent for a girl. Not only was he luckier than me regarding his offspring, he has an irreproachable wife and in this fortune lies his optimism. He has no idea of what it's like to have been married to a traitorous whore knowing your mother was one too while you beg for your only offspring, that just HAD TO BE yet another WOMAN, to not end up like that. I’m sure the pretentious little bitch is going to be insufferable at her return, that’s what he does to her.” 
“ Be honest to yourself, King of Kings. “ Hesione warned in a mock. “ You are thinking of the people she will meet. Provincial nobles that will be dazzled by her shine, she may make new friends. Some that you didn’t buy for her, that you can’t control in the limits of this palace. Your sad attempt to control Patroclus wasn’t only about upsetting his cousin, he is the first friend your daughter made from outside your borders and that makes him dangerous… Who knows who she may befriend next?” 
“ YOU KNOW WHY I HAVE TO DO IT! “ He yelled out of blatant rage for the callout. “ Your intrigues mean nothing to me, I’m protecting her from the curse she was born with.” 
If she would have been completely free to speak, Hesione would have said he was that girl’s curse. At least for that she missed the presence of Achilles, he would never hesitate on freely insulting him without fearing repercussions and through the blade he had earned the power to do so. 
“ It will not happen again because I have paid enough attention. From the claws of that harpy I rescued her and I made her a decent girl.” Agamemnon strictly concluded . “ Too nice, perhaps, her sense of morality drives me insane… But she has high morals, even if she often uses those to judge me.” 
“ Trojan sense of morality, too elevated for the House of Atreus.” The woman clarified, reclaiming what she considered her accomplishment. “ That rectitude and virtue didn’t come from you.” 
“ She is a righteous woman anyways, Hesione! I made that possible, on my watch she grew up safe.” 
The king had a long sip of his drink while the slave kept accommodating plates. 
“ She can’t be under your watch forever. “ 
He swallowed his first bite of food quickly to eagerly reply. 
“ I can’t trust her to another man, they don’t understand. With me the curse is contained…” 
“ She is a girl, not a feral force of destruction.” Hesione recalled. “ You don’t need to contain her, you need to understand her. It’s not about finding a husband to control her in your place, she needs one that would care for her. So far you have received prospects following nothing but your own interests. Your local flatterers and a few foreign princes from families you like, all focused on your personal gain. Have you actually checked on any of those men, besides from their inventory of richness or political influence? What about their personalities, goals and morals? Do you find any virtue in at least one of her suitors?” 
“ Antilochus is a good young man, Nestor and I have been thinking about it since they were kids. He was my strongest favorite, but he became a suitor of Helen and our plans got ruined. Until quite recently, many of the most righteous princes were too busy fighting for her.” 
Hesione was subtly heading the conversation into a very important point she wanted to make. Always letting her master believe that she was simply helping him think, what she actually seeked was to persuade him. 
" It's not about righteousness. Look for a man that is in perfect balance with yours and her morals. One that would follow your brutal ways of heartless conqueror but would still make her happy. " 
" That man doesn't exist, no one can reconcile such extremely different interests. Agamemnon insisted. " Her purpose in life is to serve me, it's logical that the choice has to be useful to me. " 
He was incredibly stubborn, but she wouldn't stop. 
" The kind of man you are looking for is a fierce warrior with a good heart. One that would be with you exterminating an entire population of men, but would pretend he didn't see the children escaping. A son in law fitting for your needs that would still have softness reserved for her. A mighty arm to destroy your enemies that would wrap her in a tender embrace." 
The servant was purposely describing Achilles in a language vague enough to plant the seed of an idea that was favoring him. Despite the king didn't figure out the underline meaning of her words, the advice seemed sensical to him and precisely for that he was feeling conflicted. 
None of his trustfull advisors would have ever been so direct. 
" I fail to see what makes you so interested in her departure from this house. '' Agamemnon snarked with poisonous disdain. " You'll lose everything with her marriage and I am not speaking only about your position of privilege. You don't have a family, that girl is all you have. I have many other matters to care about, my mind will move on, but without her you will lose your purpose. "   
Her answer was a hard strike. 
" My love is selfless, I want the best for her no matter what will happen to me. Perhaps because I have nothing I can call mine and you own so much, you will never understand that. " 
Agamemnon cackled carelessly and shamelessly. 
" There you are again, playing to be the sacrificial matriarch! It doesn't suit you as good as you think it does. " 
Hesione watched him completely unamused. 
" You still hope for it, don't you? How many years humiliating me in front of her got you nowhere? How many teachers and etiquette trainers that you have collected among the best wives in mycenaean nobility have failed before? Now you think that Penelope of Ithaca, of all queens, will be the one successfully training her to hate me and my kind? " 
" She needs a fitting role model to follow and Penelope is a flawless queen, i believe her influence can inspire her into becoming one. Acknowledging your inferiority is part of that, she is too old to keep pretending you are her mother. " 
Her mockery was turning into rage. She had no doubts about the love of her girl, but it was true that her social position demanded other teachings besides from hers and the king was pointing it out to hurt her. 
" You are spiteful because she hasn't learned to dehumanize trojans like you wanted. Growing up with me was supposed to show her that we are all pets your family will dominate someday, but you failed in poisoning her with your hate..." 
She made a brief pause, unsure of letting the anger dominating her get its outlet. 
" ... Let’s revisit some basic facts about your daughter. She loves horses more like any other noble girl who has been in this palace. Do you remember when you whipped a lad working in your stables thinking she was sneaking there to see him, only to later find out she was there talking to the horses? " 
The king remained silent. 
" If given the choice, she loves dressing in blue clothes as much as your traditional red. She can recite the story of the foundation of Troy as fluently as she would tell you about the origins of Mycenae. Dardanus and Tros are names as familiar to her as Perseus or Tantalus. " 
She didn't want to get that far, but couldn't stop herself. 
" My child calls me her anna, and she speaks my language with the cutest greek accent. She is insecure of it and would never dare to speak it with another trojan, but King Priam himself would get emotional hearing her because it's perfect mixing. Troy is her secondary homeland, she made my roots as hers as the ones birth assigned her. " 
" Being attached to you doesn't make her an honorary citizen of your old kingdom." Agamemnon mocked her. " It's true, you taught her some unusual traditions behind my back, but a princess of Mycenae can only be destined to rule trojans after I'll raid their city." 
" Start thinking of her beyond your wishes or you'll lose her. " The trojan concluded, a genuine piece of advice wrapped in the harshness of her emotional state. " Now is the time for you to do it, before it will be too late. Don't get surprised later if once your grandkid is born Odysseus receives the news first." 
The callout didn't convince him completely, but it gave him a new problem to think about.
The king sent away emissaries with important messages the next morning. Two to Pylos and several more to Argos, making his advisors suspect he had developed a remarkable interest in Diomedes after managing to submit his army.  
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