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thekingofthenameless · 1 year

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Merlin for the headcanon ask game?

The Blorbo!!!

Fluffy~ 💕

When he laughs, or even smiles, people (or creatures) around him tend to see it as beautiful. He usually has a serious expression or a resting bitch face, so him smiling is a precious sight. His laughter is also very contagious, and seeing his eyes light up with joy or mirth, depending on the situation, is heartwarming.

He can be a bit of a dork sometimes! Especially about magic. He has a lot of interests, such as sword-fighting, archery, linguistics, history… you get the point. Magic, though, is definitely the one that will easily get him rambling.

He can sing. But he’s never really liked having an audience while doing it; and at the time of Emerald Embers, he hadn’t sung in years. Then he takes in Kid!Douxie. The first time he sings again is when he’s calming him down after a nightmare of his parents’ murders. Shit is that a spoiler

He’s aroace! He’s romance neutral and sex repulsed, to be more specific. (And off topic but other people headcanon him as aroace too!!! :D Someone literally made an edit and God. It gives me so much damn serotonin and I cry.)

He’s always been brutally honest. He was that way as a child, like most children tend to be, and he just… never grew out of it. His personality has changed and shifted a lot over the life that he’s lived, but that’s one thing that hasn’t changed. If anything, it’s gotten worse.

Angsty~ 🥹

These headcanons are actually mostly going to be about his mental issues, because he has a lot of them.

He has Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. (C-PTSD.) All of the trauma he’s lived through, which I’ll eventually elaborate on, gave him it. Just a few of his symptoms are: extreme stress and insomnia, hyper-vigilance, nightmares, flashbacks, guilt, and difficulty forming and/or keeping relationships.

He’s a perfectionist when it comes to himself. Over the millennia he’s lived, the centuries of saving the world alone, and having everything on his shoulders, he’s seen catastrophic consequences come from one mistake, and as a result, he’s taken that to heart and applied it to himself. If other people or creatures make a mistake, that’s fine, because he can always (usually) fix it! But him? No. He has to be perfect in everything he does. If he makes a mistake, that mistake could end the world.

He has abandonment issues. He’s lost a lot of people; acquaintances, friends, family. The causes vary, of course. They die of old age; sickness; they fall in battle; or he fucks up and drives them away. But no matter, no matter who, they leave; and because of this, sometimes he purposely acts like a jerk to drive people away. They come to a peak when he has to make Charlie leave so he won’t possibly die.

He isn’t used to being the one helped. After other characters start realizing some of the extent of his trauma, they start asking him questions to try to get him to open up, and try to help him. “Are you alright?” “Aren’t you tired?” And he wants it to stop. He doesn’t want people to worry about him, and he doesn’t know why this is happening now. Nobody’s even asked him these questions in years, because he’s the strong one. He’s the one who’s been carrying everything, and he’s been fine- well, not fine, but he’s been alone this whole time, so why now? Why can’t they just leave him alone? They’re trying to take off his armor, tear down his walls; and he will not let that happen again.

His body is very scarred. His skin is very weathered from a lifetime of being under the sun, and a few other scars are: a slash across his neck from being cut with a magic knife; a long, jagged, horizontal slash across his chest from a beast; a stab wound in his right side; claw marks on his back. Like I said, that’s just a few of them.

Thanks for the ask!

#mine #talesofarcadiaforever answers #the-arson-author-gamer #tales of arcadia #trollhunters #wizards #toa fanfiction #Daylight’s Redemption #Emerald Embers #Merlin Ambrosius #DR!Merlin #aroace!Merlin #traumatized!Merlin #god he’s so messed up #I love him

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chaoticallymuse · 3 months

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Merlin and grief

"Grief, I have learnt, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners if your eyes, in the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go."

- Jamie Anderson

#all the people he loved literally died #my boy is traumatized #it's a curse #doomed by the narrative #merlin bbc #merlin #arthur pendragon #merthur #freylin #mercelot

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caffeinatedbisexual · 1 month

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Could we argue that “Beauty and the Beast” is the Merlin equivalent to Doctor Who’s “Love & Monsters”??

#guys I’m eating dinner #and I have to watch the troll ep #help may vom #bbc merlin #bbc doctor who #love and monsters #actually traumatized #merlin #10th doctor #rose tyler #arthur pendragon #merlin rewatch

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carebeardean · 10 months

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merlin + all my love, noah kahan

#merlin #merlin bbc #merthur #web weaving #merlin x Arthur #Arthur pendragon #merlin edit #started making this! had a breakdown! bon appetit! 🤪🤪🤪#anyways ummmm do u ever think about how Arthur loved merlin so much that #he would’ve forgiven him anything given the time #& how merlin never gave him the choice to love him because he was scared and traumatized #& how deeply sad that is? 🫠that there was a power dynamic there that Arthur never knew existed?#& they never got to lean on each other & hold each other up? how much lighter the burden would have been #for both of them if they had shared it?

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sebastiansmytheapologist · 1 year

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asking my other friend who hasn’t watched merlin for their first impressions of these characters

#traumatizing everyone with agravaine #merlin #merlin bbc #arthur pendragon #morgana pendragon #sir lancelot #gwaine #uther pendragon #mordred #percival #gaius

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deadendtracks · 11 days

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well absolutely fucked up my first attempt at bringing the cats outside in harnesses/leashes! it's much harder to introduce two of them to the concept than one. anyway no one escaped at least and we will try this much more slowly and one at a time. it was very traumatic, though.

#loki panicked and immediately bolted underneath a bush #merlin wasn't really sure but panicked when I tried to grab loki #everyone was very traumatized so we went back inside.#i don't have a fenced in back yard so it's just this side patch of grass.#maybe building a cat coop on the porch is a better idea #or buying a cat stroller lol

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sandinthepipes · 11 months

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I've figured it out.

The reason Merlin's fics still come out every day. The reason ofmd has so many fics and content.

It's the hope.

They both leave you on the moment right before resolution. They've shown you something good is coming and leave you wondering what it could be.

It's not a cliffhanger, there's isn't "oh no this bad thing is going to happen but maybe not", it's the opposite.

#that said Merlin's ending is still the most traumatic shit to ever happen to my brain and I'm very much not a sheltered child #it's bad and evil and sad and excruciatingly painful #And sure you can read the truck scene as the most heartbreaking thing ever where merlin just refuses to accept reality #BUT I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE THAT IF ARTHUR WASN'T MEANING TO RISE AGAIN THAN THERE SHOULDN'T BE ANY PHYSICAL REASON FOR MERLIN TO BE IMMORTAL #it's like saying people evolved with air breathing lungs just for them to live under water #and if one single person points out how dolphins or wales doso I'm going to personally turn them into shoes #merlin #bbc merlin #merthur #ofmd

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harisal0s3r-amr0cks · 2 years

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I am genuinely scared to go on Tumblr on the 24 of December.

Why?

Marks 10 years from when the merlin season finale was aired.

I’m still not over that okay!

#merthur #merlin #bbc merlin #I’m traumatized #arthur pendragon #merthur is real #there gay your honour #IM SO SCARED

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drlettuce · 1 year

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At a tournament

Merlin:*fixing Arthur's armor*

Merlin: there your all set

Arthur:???

Arthur:aren't you forgetting something?

Merlin:????

Merlin: ummmm.....wait

Merlin:*starts removing his neckerchief*

Arthur (internally): what is he doing??

Merlin: *tied his neckerchief onto Arthur armor*

Arthur:sbfiehwksufhsodhssbndk MY SWORD YOU IDIOT!!!!!!

Merlin: oh right

Merlin: ummm so here you go I guess I should probably take tha-

Arthur shoving Merlin face: honestly Merlin do ever SHUT UP

Arthur walks away

Arthur:Omg he bestow me his favor 🤭🤭🤭

Merlin in a distance: what a prat

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jlhynde-insanitybrilliance · 1 year

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*Harry and Theodore sitting through a DADA class with a competent Professor who teaches and doesn’t cast unforgivables on students*

Harry:

*Professor Merrythought showing a genuine interest in her students’ futures*

Theodore:

*Professor Merrythought personally offering Harry practical advice to problems*

Harry:

#udlttom #harry potter #theodore nott #just two traumatized adults posing a students #hp fanfic #time travel au #wizards with unaddressed ptsd #Merlin’s beard these two are a mess

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bardicious · 10 months

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Sneak peak at some art before bed. Fun fact, this was originally a fem merlin design, before I banished myself from the fandom. 💀

#Bardicious #Bardicious Makes Art #my art #my illustrations #artists on tumblr #tumblr artist #Bardicious WIP #WIP #Art WIP #I mean....#it still could be #I just have weird post traumatic memories of that time in my life #I miss merlin tho

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blink182times · 2 years

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Question: who had it worse?

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decisivelyindecisivelibra · 1 year

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#bbc merlin #merlin #TV #Mash #hawkeye #Farewell goodbye and amen #amen #diamond of the day #Ouch #Traumatizing characters and viewers alike #Is living or dying cruelest?

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alostlittleriverlotus · 2 years

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I know we can't romance anyone, but Ursula is fully my wife. She almost always comes to see me fishing, more than the other characters. And I'm pretty much just gay for her. And she calls me sweet pet names. So in my head, she is my wife.

Also the amount of times someone says something to me about it being dangerous or I could really risk myself and I'm just like "eh, I've faced worse. Not like my life matters that much. It'll be okay, unlike that one time when things didn't work out, but that was in my world not yours!" so I feel like everyone in this valley just watches me walk around like the autistic bean I am and then just get worried cause I keep mentioning really dark shit. I swear if they could hear me, they'd be really concerned.

Spoilers for the quest The Curse in the game, it's a story quest:

I love how this whole curse is going on and I'm just over here like "serves ya right Scrooge. Fuck you and your prices. I hope you're fecking miserable in there, ya stupid damn capitalist." and then I'm just running around trying to feed the rabbits and sea turtles while everyone is basically trapped. And then I'm told I have to give up my magic and I'm just like "yeah, okay. That's fine." And Ursula is like "we'll see if it's so easy for you" and I'm like "nah it's literally fine. I don't care that much." And Kristoff is ready to give up his memories of Anna and I'm like "I'm sure it'll be fine, it's not like that one time when things didn't work out. But that was just something with me. Everything will be fine, I know it." And I swear Kristoff would be so worried about me lol.

Like this entire curse is going on and I'm just going about my business best I can and just focusing on cute animals and taunting Scrooge McDuck and I just wonder what the characters would actually think of me.

Also this was just crack, but I had a daily discussion with Scrooge in his store and he asked if I saw Donald anywhere. I just turn the camera and stare at Donald like 4 feet away staring at a mannequin. Like, yeah I have no idea where he is (/sarc.) I literally walked into the store and heard his meltdown and it was just fecking hilarious.

Anyway, Ursula makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside cause of the pet names and compliments I get from her so yes I am very gay. She's a lovely woman.

And finally. I was not ready for the gaslighting from Mother Gothel. Like it didn't last, but the first meeting did slightly trigger me.

#disney dreamlight valley #dreamlight valley #disney #ddv #Ursula #mother gothel #actually traumatized #I'm like trauma dumping on fictional characters lol #small spoilers #I'm marrying Ursula #Her name is Ursula not sea witch #Better respect her Merlin #Seeing Mother Gothel ask Merlin about his age had me dying of laughter #I hate Scrooge McDuck #I am very happy #actually autistic

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typicalityness · 9 months

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Hc that merlin is clumsy because his magic is like a limb, he just needs to keep on using it but he can't because he needs to keep it a secret.

#bbc merlin #merlin #headcanon #pleade dont friend me to talk abt bbc merlin #because i have not watched yhe show yet #but i am intrigued #i am the definition of “canon? who's canon?”#i think the fandom will probably describe me as “ignorance is a bliss”#i am yet to be traumatized

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sleevebuscemii · 1 year

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everybody shut up. today is the 10 year anniversary of the bbc merlin series finale.

#ten years ago today i was 13 years old going through the actual literal five stages of grief #happy ten years to a finale so traumatizing it a) made me make a tumblr #and b) has kept me from finishing any piece of media since #i haven’t watched a last season/series finale/read the last chapter of a book in years #cheers 🥂#bbc merlin #m

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