WHAT did he say???????

Welll. It started with him commenting on the calf cam for his drums then it went to how according to Xisumas latest videos thumbnail, certain types of Minecraft skins could get you banned. Then he joked that Naked and Scared was screwed then he asked if nips on a Minecraft skin was okay then he remembered that his naked and scared skin does not in fact, have nipples. Only Skizz does. Then he "made up" a story about how his character lost his nips Turns out it's just a more extreme version of his own nip story. Which was the one about his nipple piercing. And how it got caught on a backpack zipper. the MC version was that instead of just hurting like a bitch, it ripped his nips off. Also, there were two instead of one. THEN it turns out that the last time he talked about his nips he was working on the EXACT SAME FARM (Wheat, now Potato and Carrot) THAT HE'S WORKING ON NOW. And T H E N. Someone commented on the uh. the shape. of the farm. And that was why nips were coming up. Farm looks like a boob. AND THEN IMPULSE SAID HE NEEDED A DESIGN FOR THE TOP OF THAT FARM. AND CHAT STARTED SUGGESTING A NIPPLE. IMPULSE SAID HE WASN'T GONNA DO IT... THEN HE GOT BULLIED BY CHAT INTO DOING IT BECAUSE HE'S A PUSHOVER SO HE DID IT. AND THEN CHANGED IT TO AN ACTUAL DESIGN. AND HE KEEPS BRINGING THE NIPS UP. BECAUSE HE CANNOT LET GO. that's it that's the nip story. good heavens.

*tries to organize my thoughts*

*remembers i'm not in school and therefore beholden to neither heaven nor hell nor any man's grading system*

*joyously shredding & tossing all my carefully arranged 3x5 mental notecards into the air like so much beige confetti. raising my arms in victory, cheering raucously until i accidentally inhale bits of homemade confetti*

(*coughing up itty bits of paper like a cat evicting a hairball with a firm understanding of tenants' rights*) wait wat happens next

The fact Mike was able to look Foolish dead in the eye and show him a photo “proving” he killed Foolish’s kid all because Foolish arrested them, and then even offered to accompany Foolish to where he’d left Leonarda sleeping so he could see for himself, was such an absolute power move. Like thank God it was just a prank to get back at him for arresting them, but the fact he could give such a convincing performance to the point Foolish later said he was light headed from not remembering to breath during the standoff because he actually thought Leonarda was dead is just absolutely wild. Not sure whether to respect the play or be terrified of Mike right now. Probably both lmao

god i was looking through pictures and like. something that makes me so happy about qsmp is the fact that this time last year, none of these people knew each other. like. obviously some people knew others but across language barriers, most people didnt know one another.

and now, they're meeting up with each other and going to one anothers countries and experiencing everyones cultures and AGH qsmp is so insanely cool to me that its managed to do all this in not even a year, im so proud of quackity and everyone involved :((

yes, pinterest, i will absolutely take a look at some resources that may help improve my mood

some photos from the last casa madrid stream

i've been turning more and more inward about how i'm enjoying harry and how i'm processing the end of tour, but it feels good, for now at least. i celebrated seeing him live so thoroughly that my last time seeing him felt like the end of tour in some way. i don't want to feel like i'm missing out when i'm out with friends, like i will be during his last show, bc in a world without streams i also wouldn't see that show. i've basically been training myself to slow down and appreciate (old) content more, and bask in a show and its content for longer. or be at peace not seeing content from a particular show. bc sometimes i feel nervous about missing something, or i feel myself having fomo for a thing i could not possibly be at. and most especially, i am not missing out, bc i had so many glorious opportunities to see the tour. i'm literally having a diary moment here just analysing my behavior and my feelings about being on tumblr and in the fandom during tour bc it's been a lot but i've loved all of it. i'm so fucking happy (and relieved) i can find ways to enjoy it all in my own pace. this space has changed a lot in the last few years but the way their content hits me personally hasn't changed, unless i let it all overwhelm me and i lose sight of what really matters to me about following them. i think it'll feel great to have a break from harry on tour, and let all of it hit me. to revisit little things that happened. to go through my own photos and videos. to go back to his mvs and dive a little deeper into them, at last. maybe i'm just a little overstimulated and ready for harry to stop bombarding me with content fshdf but the way his music makes me feel and the way his goofy face makes me smile and the way his creativity and presence inspire me every day will clearly always remain, after staying strong through all of this, after all these years. thank you, dear diary, for listening. harry styles forever

MY PLANE HAS CHARGING PORTS I HAVE ALL MY JRWI EPISODES DOWNLOADED ANNDDDD I HAVE MY FAVORITE SNACK???????? WE WIN THESE GOD MIGHT JUST BE REAL IN THIS AIRPLANE TONIGHT‼️🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

on the bright side, i got the work done i needed to get done post-teaching AND finished the scene i was noodling on in the plant fic i accidentally restarted and my single glass of wine post-dinner is having the intended soporific effect

on the downside. i so so so so so so badly don't want to have a meeting at 8 AM with a client who i am mostly neutral towards but about a project that is the bane of my existence atm

hey guys. hey guys. look at this clip of impulse losing it during the GIGS stream. look at it. oh my god. that cackle was so. he's so endearing. its not- it's NOT-RAHWIUHAOFJKOGRSIOESFGIOHESGHUWHFWAHWHRGEUSWEE WOO WEE WOO WEE WOO [CARS CRASH] [BABIES SCREAMING] [EXPLOSION] OH GAWD MY LEG!!!!!

me seeing the notification about the remixes for 3D: no and again, no

ohohoho boy update. today at work it was just us doing cheese while everyone else pulled an ice cream order, and i was like hey if youre not busy saturday would you want to roadtrip with me? and i fully expected him to say no, but we are roadtripping to nebraska on saturday <3 <3 anyway what playlist do i put on in the car. do we trust him enough for get loose get looser

I see y’all weren’t exaggerating 

Okay I wanna ask you Blorbo wrapped questions back lmao. I'm also curious about who you thought was coolest, who you rotated in your head the most and who was most fun to write. But also, did you have anyone that was kinda driving you up a wall but then something clicked and you really figured out how to write them? If not, who's still driving you up a wall?

Kendrick! I think you saw that I got too excited and answered my own questions over here but who has been driving me up a wall is an excellent question, lol. There are a few who aren't actively driving me up a wall (what's up with Aza huh) but the people who I still haven't got a hold on are Declan, Horatio, and Sid.

I'm almost hesitant to say Declan because I don't think I have a hard time writing him but I also feel like I haven't fully keyed into the fact that he's an autism creature of a man (and also making it clear that the way the rest of the crew does things behind his back is not them infantilizing him because of it but more complicated than that. They do think he's fragile but that's because of how he's handled his grief). Also like. He literally trusts his crew with his life. But he is so so bad at talking to them and I haven't totally figured out how that all works out.

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Horatio got a character lift in this version. He's always been a sweetheart but that evolved out of him having A Sense Of Justice while also being generally pathetic and wet and soft. Now he has the Standing family deviousness that goes along with it and I don't know how to write that. Because also he looks completely different to Sid, who knows him very well and who he's open with, than he does to Avis, who hates him somewhat for the circumstances of his birth (she tries not to because it's not his fault) but extremely much for being sun-coded in the "cheerful" and "unavoidable and intense" ways. So like, what is he plotting (especially about getting Sorian and Avis back together) and how is he plotting it and how does this dovetail with the happy-go-lucky florist which is equally as much who he is?

Sid on the other hand is challenging in the sense that writing him feels fine. He's a real everyman if you will. Except I don't get his character and I think that's a major stumbling block for AOM as a whole. Yeah, on some level he has to be the sad traumatized guy but like. How does he handle his parents trying to run his life once he takes a massive step outside of their frame of reference? How does this work with Avis's story? (Can I successfully shove these two stories into one thing that is a whole? They have so many themes in common help) In his earliest iterations he was the devil-may-care I'm-doing-my-best guy who mildly tormented Horatio Sense Of Justice and I guess they've sort of flipped? Except Sid is always the Doing My Best guy.

Also when it comes to Anni and Zel, Anni is so easy to write with all the technical stuff and much more challenging with the romance stuff and I don't want it to be that way aaaaaaa

As for who did click, I think I'm getting there with Patience (even though I haven't worked on TFA in a while), Rodney worked better when I just let him be soft, working out Fay's whole divorce history helped make her easier to write (she's not pretending to be the good suburban mom. she just is sometimes and other times she sucks), the fact that Wylie hates himself cracked his whole character wide open, and lately I've realized that a critical part of post-divorce Sorian is that he's tired. He's tired of Avis needling him, always being there but never being there for him. He's not even sure he deserves for her to be. But he kinda wishes she would just leave and move on so he can too.

wanted to let everyone know that i'm not dead, just distracted and transitioning to a new job. i know things are happening on stream and i'll do my best to catch up later + go through asks as well

ok got a notebook so now i can scrapbook … it’s over for y’all