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Alien Stage R6 Analysis

VERY LONG compilation of my interpretations, impressions and unanswered questions about Round 6 of Alien Stage. I just wanted to write this to put all my thoughts in one place so I can finally rest (in pieces). TW for mentions of suic*de/suic*dal ideation.

The most debated is no doubt the kiss/choking scene and Ivan’s motivation for doing so in the first place.

I think from the very beginning, even before R3, Ivan was planning to go out with a bang. That’s the immediate impression I got from the comic where he mocks/criticizes Sua for planning to “selfishly” die for Mizi and feel good being the “heroine” rather than having to deal with the trauma of being the one left behind.

(I'm too lazy to edit the whole translation as of now, but might do so when I have more time.)

Ivan tells her how he’s “relieved that he’s not the only who’s that twisted” = He’s comparing himself to Sua. He thinks they’re both ‘twisted’ for planning to do the same thing, but from Ivan’s perspective, he at least isn’t fooling himself into thinking his motives are altruistic. He tasted the feeling of being ‘abandoned’, and he knows he doesn’t want to experience it twice.

He also probably thought that his death wouldn’t be as impactful on Till as Sua’s death on Mizi, and therefore his own selfishness is more justified in his mind. This most likely plays a role in how cold and biting his words are towards Sua –he’s jealous of that difference between them.

I hadn’t noticed this detail the first time I watched the video: Not only did Till look absolutely miserable and defeated from the get go, but he completely gave up and stopped singing at some point. If you look at the video, we can hear the audio that was supposed to be sung, but Till is quiet and still, and THIS is the moment Ivan chooses to act.

Although they do not show the votes at that particular moment, stopping mid song would have definitely taken a hit to Till’s score as it’s basically forfeiting –a huge contrast to his previous match where he didn’t even let his opponent utter a single line.

In response, Ivan doesn’t just walk towards him but throws his microphone to the ground, explicitly forfeiting as well in order to then pull a drastic move like it was foreshadowed in his interview.

The kiss itself imo was the less calculated/arguably unplanned part. He could have just choked Till from the start and it would have gotten him the same if not better results (since it was the act of violence against another contestant that ultimately lowered his score and got the counter to stop).

That kiss was authentic and for himself entirely, both as a last desperate attempt at conveying his feelings and a selfish way of leaving a strong impression on Till that he wouldn’t be able to forget (a hypocritical move going back to how he criticized Sua). In that sense, I don’t think Ivan was seriously trying to take Till down with him –although that’s up to interpretation. As I see it, that would contradict his actions up until that point.

Till was VERY CLEARLY suic*dal (once again, he gave up singing), and after the initial shock of Ivan squeezing his neck, this fiery, rebellious man who is KNOWN to fight tooth and nail, simply closed his eyes and relaxed his body, waiting for Ivan to end him without fighting at all.

The thing is, no matter how suic*dal one may be, the fighting response when being actually suffocated is automatic and completely involuntary. People mention there not being marks on Till’s neck but I think the most telling sign is him not going red, not squirming, not struggling or holding onto Ivan’s wrists (again, expected involuntary responses), his eyes not watering or having blurry vision while we see Ivan from his POV, not opening his mouth even a little to gasp for air and not coughing or gasping either when he was finally released.

Ivan definitely had him in a strong grip, might have even made him a bit lightheaded, but the reason why Till could look so relaxed in the first place is because he had given up and was waiting for Ivan to go ahead. If his closed eyes and limp posture were due to the choking itself, he would have fallen or stumbled when being let go, but we see that his eyes open as soon as he feels Ivan’s hands slipping away and he looks shocked instead.

So then what was Ivan’s motivation, if not to kill him? Yes, there’s the already discussed plan to get himself disqualified. But Ivan glances at the screen only a few seconds after he starts the choking, confirming that the voting had in fact stopped with Till having the higher score. He then goes for one last ‘goodbye’ kiss before continuing to choke him, holding his grip even as he starts getting shot.

We see a closeup of him, his eyes and hands trembling, looking more frustrated/emotional than in Till’s first POV where he looks rather stoic. It makes me think that the reason he refused to let go was simply because he wanted Till to look at him.

They strongly imply throughout the whole video that being annoying or mean or violent was the only way Ivan learnt how to make Till focus his full attention on him, but now even as he’s threatening his life, even as he himself is dying, even after that kiss, Till wouldn’t look.

It took him getting fatally wounded and realizing there was no turning back to reach a state of acceptance. His bittersweet expression here reminds me A LOT of his smile after Till runs back during the meteor scene, although this one seems a lot more tender. He seems to accept the fact that Till will never love him back, but Ivan cannot stop loving him anyways and he at least got to put his feelings out there.

(The parallels here are driving me insane. The way there is light in his eyes in both instances as he looks at Till even while 'losing him' in a way. The struggle between wanting to posses him yet realizing his free spirit/strong will is part of what he loves about him. That last genuine gaze from a character who spent his whole life putting on a mask. Yes I am very normal about this.)

Until then, Ivan’s more tender/vulnerable side is only shown while Till is unconscious or looking away.

(That soft, loving nuzzle to Till's face has me in SHAMBLES.)

But ironically, it’s only when he releases him and shows him this vulnerability without a mask that Till really looks at him for the first time. I’d go as far as to say that it was this moment, and not the kiss, that finally made Till understand Ivan’s feelings. And in turn Ivan gets that little shot of euphoria as he falls to the ground.

Going back to the survivor’s guilt… I can only imagine it’ll go completely downhill for Till from now on. Not only does he already think Mizi might be dead and is angry at himself that he couldn’t save her (as seen in the shot where he punches his own picture), but now he has most likely realized that Ivan intentionally fumbled their match for his sake –which would lead to the realization that he was the reason why Ivan chose to run back to Anakt Garden after him in the first place, and that choice ultimately lead to his death.

Even though we see them fighting a lot as children through the videos and comics, it’s also implied that they were always together and they shared some quiet moments –the “Mizi didn’t play with you, I played with you” art, all that art of the main 4 playing together, those bright smiles as they ran away together during the meteor shower scene and Till looking so guilty when he let go of his hand.

There are a few cute doodles of them for those who are on Patreon, and some more lore in the Anakt Garden kit –so they were at the very least friends in their own way (as best as 2 very traumatized and abused children could), constantly fighting and making up. Which God… it shows that despite appearances Till must have actually had the patience of a saint when they were little lmao.

But what I’m trying to say is that despite what Ivan may have thought, his death will most definitely have an impact on Till and the narrative going forward, and I’m excited to find out how that reflects in the final round (if the resistance doesn’t manage to get back up in time to disrupt it).

Despite how much I adored (and SUFFERED WITH) this round, I still have MANY questions that were left unanswered, both about Ivan and Till, and the lore in general, and I wonder if there’ll be time to answer them all, as I can imagine the next MV will be focused on Luka’s perspective, the only one we haven’t been presented with.

One of the most pressing questions being: What’s the relationship between Ivan and that alien dog? Did he tame it? It is implied that it was Ivan who somehow led Till and Mizi to it in the first place in that one scene, and if so I wonder what his motivation was? Normally jealousy would be the first thing to come to mind but Ivan wasn’t interested in Till until AFTER he saw him stand up to the beast to protect Mizi, so it couldn’t have been that.

This is something that was also teased on Patreon and I was looking forward to the explanation on the MV, but it never came, and now Ivan is dead, so the next video will most likely not be too concerned with his backstory any longer. (Which, also, I was really curious about his life in the slums before being captured, auctioned and brought to Anakt, as that would have played a huge role in his twisted personality/dark tendencies –once again teased on Patreon very briefly, but not explained beyond that frame of him looking famished.)

The second is, how is Ivan able to open Till’s collar/muzzle so easily? This is a question I’ve been having since R3, but chalked it up to Ivan being sneaky and figuring out some kind of code to the cell door and that somehow automatically deactivating the locks on the restraints… or something. But with how many times he does it in R6 with just a touch it’s very clear that that isn’t the case and also imo they’re trying to point this out as a significant detail.

It may turn out that I’m just looking too much into it, but I find it really curious and interesting. Not only is he the only child without a collar (Mizi and Sua still had them despite being just as well behaved as him), but he seems to be the only one able to take them off –or at least Till’s. I’m pretty sure the children wouldn’t normally be able to remove them by themselves as it seems to be a control mechanism. So how can Ivan? This might explain a lot about how they were able to escape, and also add a layer of tragedy knowing that Ivan could have chosen to escape by himself at any point, but refused to leave Till behind.

Last but not least there’s all the human experimentation Till was subjected to, which was the main topic of the teaser and we see the same images show up in the very beginning of the MV. They help emphasize Till’s suffering and distressed state of mind, but then they’re never expanded on or mentioned at all for the rest of the video. That’s a huge piece of lore that I also hope isn’t forgotten.

I mean, I really doubt it will. So far VIVINOS & co. have been incredible with their ability to hold back information and release it at the moment where it’s the most impactful, which is refreshing to see. So I trust we’ll get some answers eventually.

Really curious to know why they would experiment on an ALNST contestant in the first place, especially one that is undoubtedly talented and described as a musical genius (aka. has good odds of doing well on stage and earning the segyein revenue). A very plausible theory might just be that he was just getting constantly drugged to make him less of a threat/more submissive –like we see on the karaoke room scene. But it might as well be something bigger.

As for my expectations for the next round… I’m still just trying to process this one, as you can see by the sheer amount of text. There are many things left to address, and the Hyuna/Luka confrontation has been strongly teased. I wonder also, if the round goes on without interruption, what would Luka’s strategy against Till be? Would he go for provocation again, trying to imitate Mizi/hint to his recent trauma with Ivan? It probably won’t be that simple.

I mean, VIVINOS has been known for subverting our expectations with each round:

The ominous/callous framing that was given to Ivan by the end of Black Sorrow and the art that followed, making us suspicious of his intentions, only to have him die for love. The lifeless/doll-like framing given to Luka, vulnerable and cornered by flashing lights, only to have him be the cruelest/most calculating one (that we know so far). The rebellious, rowdy, willing to do anything to survive framing given to Till, only to have his fighting spirit completely break and willingly waiting to die by Ivan’s hands. The naive, complacent and passive image given to Mizi, only to have her snap, beat the shit out of Luka and join the rebellion –and with how things are going (and her being the protagonist) I wouldn’t be surprised if she, and not Hyuna (the one who was framed as the most strong and reliable, giving us a false sense of security going into R6), is who will have to try and rescue Till (and Luka???).

There are still a ton of things that keep me awake at night about R6 –my favorite character dying aside. I could talk about it forever, but I’ll leave it here.

Feel free to share your theories, delusions, interpretations or any detail I might have missed with me. God knows we need group therapy after this as the cute chibi keychains can only heal us so far. Thanks for reading my rambles if you made it this far. :’)

#alien stage #alnst #에이스테 #ivantill #vivinos #ivan alnst #till alnst #im GOING INSANE idk if you can tell... hahah #the only reason i didn't flood this with more videos and pictures is cause tumblr gave me a limit of 30 :')

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earthry · 10 months

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A humble HC request: how would the papas react to an unplanned pregnancy? (Yeah, yeah, I’m one of those overdone trope lovers 😏)

//HEAVY BREATHING// I THOUGHT YOU’D NEVER ASK

RUBS HANDS TOGETHER i hope you’re ready for some angst dsklafj

Warnings: pregnancy talk, abortion mention, unplanned pregnancy, hurt/comfort, angst, happy endings for all regardless

Primo

He's at that age where he doesn't really do random flings anymore, instead he's been in a committed relationship with you for several years. You've always been careful and always taken birth control, but for some reason it had just... stopped working.

You stare at the four positive pregnancy tests you've taken, trying to calm the pounding of your heart. It wasn't as if you thought Primo would be upset or mad, but you knew this wasn't planned.

He had never asked or mentioned your relationship going any further, had never talked about having a Prime Mover or having kids. So you felt like you were flying blind.

He was good with children- kind and patient with the ones at the abby. You had always watched them lead him around by hand with a fondness; watching some of your own but never dare asking for fear it could be a deal breaker.

You break the news to him right before bed, when the two of you are settled and ready for the lights to be turned out for the night.

Though you are nervous, you know him well enough that he would listen to you and if he had a problem, he would be honest. You knew he loved you, you just hoped that he loved you enough to start a family together.

He is quiet at first, before kissing you enthusiastically. "That is amazing news, amore mio."

You stutter and gape for a moment, before timidly asking, "You're happy?"

Of course he is. He confesses he never brought up children because he had not wanted to pressure you, especially with him already being so much older than you.

When your fears are soothed, you celebrate together- Primo putting together a lovely little dinner in the garden for the two of you and your plus one.

He's immediately thinking of names and they're all of like, really old celebrities and you tell him that you'd be damned if you name your child 'The Beatles'.

Secondo

Your first thought after you gather and dump your positive pregnancy tests is 'I can't tell him'.

This dance between the two of you, it was always a losing game. From the beginning he had made it clear that there would be no strings attached- that what the two of you had was not special. And like the lovesick fool you were, you agreed.

It didn’t matter that recently he’s been asking you to stay the nights you spend together, it didn’t matter that some nights you found yourselves curled around each other and engrossed in deep conversation without even a single thought to take things further for the night.

You knew despite how close you’d gotten over the course of the last few years, this would surely be Too Much. It was a commitment; a huge one. You couldn’t even begin to imagine a scenario where Secondo— partier and fine connoisseur of all pleasure, would be happy.

You don’t even know if he’d want to let you keep the child, and the mere thought that he might ask you to rid of the little one already growing in your belly made you feel sick. You knew he would never try to force it upon you, but it was possible to you that he could make you chose between the baby and him.

You manage to keep it secret for a whole month before you finally meltdown in his arms and confess to him, unable to keep it from him any longer. You felt guilty and scared, and unbeknownst to you in that moment, Secondo had never hated himself more.

He had fallen in love with you, but rather than confront it he had been content to let things continue the way they had. He’d already long since stopped seeing anyone else, but you didn’t know that and he never brought it up. Now, as his love sobs in his arms at the fear that he may leave them, that he’ll be upset, that he’ll ask them to get rid of the baby, he sees that it was a mistake. One that would take years before he’d even begin to fully forgive himself for.

He makes confessions of his own after you spill your heart to him; and you collapse against him in relief when he tells you he’d love to have a child with you.

You almost don’t believe him when he tells you that he loves you, and he vows to do everything he can to prove it to you.

Becomes very protective of both you and your unborn child; hovers a little too much to the point you have to shoo him away.

He will assure you every night before bed and every morning when you wake that he wants this. He wants you and the baby and a life together.

You eventually believe him but that doesn’t stop him from reminding you each morning and night.

Terzo

You dump the zip-block bag of positive pregnancy tests in from of him and his brain immediately blue-screens.

For how much sleeping around he's done, he has never considered the possibility of his extensive copulating to be fruitful. It wasn't as if he was purposely being super careful, he just knew how to play smart and safe. He wasn't an amateur after all.

He stares at you gaping like a fish and you dramatically tell him he's the father. Because come on, if you're dating Terzo i'm willing to bet you're just as dramatic.

You also have spunk because you put up with his ass so you tell him that you're keeping the baby and if he is uninterested in being in his child's life, to tell you now or forever hold his peace.

This is all moving very very fast for him by the way. Omega has to hold his hand for him to take a moment to just process everything.

The two of you weren't in a committed relationship, but after a serious talk, you two decide to try to make it work for the baby.

You try to keep it on the downlow at first but somehow the news spreads like wildfire and the ministry is in a uproar.

You leave him to deal with the fallout because he's not the one that's gonna have to carry a whole-ass human being in his belly for 9 months.

Copia

He was the one who suggested taking a test after you had started most of the week with your head in the toilet first thing in the morning.

Of course he worried and rambled and made his little Copia noises while you waiting for the test results. He was also adament on reassuring you the entire time that if it was positive he would be elated and dedicated to you and baby; and if it was negative, there was no problem and if kids were something you really wanted, then he would be more than happy to try for one.

"It's the doing part that's fun," he chirps, trying to alleviate the tension.

Honestly, he's more anxious than you are over this whole thing. He holds your hand the entire time you wait; but it's definitely more for his benefit.

When the test comes up positive, he cheers and kisses you and tells you, "See? I told you it would all be okay, si?" and you tell him that yes, he did tell you that, and yes, you did see that. To your amusement, he does get a little teary at the result.

It doesn't sink in until later that you're about to start a family with the man you love; albeit not planned, but something you're starting to look very forwards to regardless.

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liyawritesss · 1 year

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heyyy can i request the reader as aizawa's daughter, but eal lives like her mother in another country? then she arrives at the ua by surprise and is like "Hey, Dad?"

ᴀɪᴢᴀᴡᴀ ᴡ/ ᴀ ʟᴏɴɢ ʟᴏꜱᴛ ᴅᴀᴜɢʜᴛᴇʀ

Characters: Aizawa Shouta & Black!Daughter!Reader

Genre: Headcanons

Synopsis: A ghost of Aizawa’s past comes back to haunt him, in the form of a thirteen year old girl preparing to select a highschool to go to.

Warnings: mild cursing, mentions of unplanned pregnancy, unprotected sex

A/N: none

The last thing Aizawa expects to encounter after a day of teaching, is a little girl, almost his students age, popping up at his school claiming to be his daughter.

Of course he denies this, and in the back of his mind, he thinks this little girl may need some help. And in his efforts to direct her to the nearest police station to maybe locate a relative to take you home, but your protests don’t go unnoticed.

He decides to entertain your idea to keep you quiet, although he really doesn’t want to deal with a little girls delusion.

But as he takes you on an impromptu tour of the UA building (that he’s sure he’ll have an earful about from Nezu), your testimonies start to make sense

First, the similarities that you do share with him - including a signature deadpan that has gotten you one too many questions about ‘are you okay’. Also, your affinity towards felines. He had to admit that the stories you shared about you cat at home were adorable

Then there was the consequences of your birth. If you were his child, he would have had to have been a part of your conception when he was 17 or 18.

And although he was never a party animal or irresponsible enough to have sex with multiple women, he does remember a specific party Present Mic dragged him to. It was the same party he found out he was a lightweight, and was taken care of by a rather beautiful girl that Present Mic had been trying to set him up with for years…

Holy shit, he slept with your mother. Unprotected. And now you’re here trying to decide if you want to attend UA for highschool. And for the first time in his life, he’s unsure of what to do, and how to feel

Though the moment he looks at you, and how deeply intrigued you are with the same institution he’s been working at for years, cultivating generation after generation of heroes. And he finds himself wondering if it would be so bad to help nurture this kid…who’s supposedly his…into being the hero she dreams of being.

If you enjoyed, please leave a like, comment, and reblog for others to see! And don’t be shy to send in a request!

#black tumblr #black reader #black academia #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #bnha #mha #aizawa shouta #shouta aizawa #bnha aizawa #mha aizawa #bnha dadzawa #mha dadzawa #aizawa x daughter reader #bnha fluff #mha fluff

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ssaaaronmontgomery · 11 months

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what about no.12 “I’m pregnant.” 👀 “i’m in a mood today you already know it and it’s YOUR fault) with greg or aaron your choice <3333

Unexpected Change

Warnings: Unplanned pregnancy, nervous reader, fluff, sweet boy Greg being a sweet boy as usual.

Word count: 731

Pairing: Greg Montgomery x fem!reader

A/n: Hehe yes it's definitely my fault 🤭🩷. Ily bestie thank you for sending one in and how did I have the motivation to get this done so quickly?? We may never know 🤷‍♀️. Not proofread :,)

Forever tags: @greg-montgomery @boredelle @hotchsdoormat @ssahotchnerr @criminalskies @beardedhotchh @hotchnerbau @ssamorganhotchner

You can hear the front door open and close followed by footsteps that wander around your home. You knew he was walking around looking for you but you were too nervous to call out to him. This wasn't in the plan. At least, not yet. It was supposed to be a couple years away and you didn't know how he'd react. Realistically you know he will most likely be thrilled after the initial shock. But you've had enough time to overthink and freak out that you have let all of the worst outcomes cloud your mind.

He walks into the bedroom to see you sitting on the bed. He grins and flops down next to you.

"Hi honey." He smiles and kisses your cheek. You try to smile back but it disappears as quickly as you force it onto your face. You mumble and glance at him "Hi." It immediately concerns him because this is far from your usual self when he's just gotten home and it makes him sit up to look at you.

"What's wrong?"

"Greg, we need to talk."

"Okay. What is it, sweetheart?" He places his hand on your back and rubs some soothing circles there.

You know he wants to have kids with you someday. Someday. It wasn't supposed to be starting yet. It was supposed to be planned. You don't really know how to tell him so you just say it.

"Greg, I'm pregnant." You look at him with an apprehensive expression on your face. You're met with his blank expression that quickly forms into a look of shock.

"What?"

"I'm pregnant. A baby. Inside me."

"Yeah, that's what I thought you said. I heard you but I just- it's not what I was expecting you to say."

You look at him for a moment and it looks like he's trying to take in the new and very unexpected information. You can't tell what he's thinking or what he's feeling but he's still rubbing circles on your back.

"Are you upset?" That question immediately snaps him out of his thoughts and he's looking at you with a smile.

"No. No, honey. Of course I'm not upset. I'm happy. I was just surprised, that's all. Are you? I know we planned for this to happen a little while from now but I'm not mad or upset that it's gotten here sooner than expected." He's still giving you that smile. The one that's big and bright that makes your heart flutter. His eyes look like they're shining. Glimmering with something. They look like that often when he looks at you but now it's like it has multiplied times infinity.

"I'm not upset I was just nervous about how you'd react. But I'm happy about it now that I know you are." You let out a sigh of relief and now it's easier to give him a real smile.

"Honey, why would you be nervous about that? You know I want us to have kids. Yes, it's a little early but that doesn't mean I'm not happy. I'm ecstatic! I'm thrilled! I'm gonna be a dad!" Now he's starting to sound much more excited and it's very genuine. He grabs you and gently pulls you into a hug and kisses your forehead. "We're going to have a little Montgomery running around here. I'm going to be a father. And you're going to be such an amazing mother! I'm so happy, sweetheart!" He pulls back and kisses you. "So so happy." He grins and pulls you back in for another hug. Now you're feeling just as happy as he is knowing that he wants this.

"We have to start planning! We have to get a crib! And toys! And we're going to need children's books for bedtime stories! And-"

"Okay okay. Greg I think we're getting ahead of ourselves. Let's slow down." You chuckle at his excitement and run your fingers through his hair which causes his thoughts to immediately slow down as he leans into your touch. "Okay. Yeah, you're right. Okay. I'm just really excited. I'm gonna be a dad." He's still got that huge grin spread across his perfect face. "You're going to be a great dad."

You should've known he wouldn't be upset. He's always wanted a family with you. Even if it happens to be a little earlier than either of you had planned.

#fay🍓#greg montgomery x reader #greg montgomery #greg montgomery x pregnant!reader #greg montgomery fluff #greg montgomery x you #dharma and greg #ask #ask answered #cw pregnancy #greg🐕#mon answers 🩷#mon posts 🩷#prompt list

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whysojiminimnida · 1 year

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AND THEN JUNG HOSEOK SAID --

"Oh, Jimin left him at home." I DIED Y'ALL. SEVERAL TIMES. Also the entire photo section of this post will consist of pictures of my cat Yoongi and the shit he has gotten in the mail recently. Yoongi has a new toy named Jack. Make of that what you will. ANYWAY.

He's gonna burn it down, burn it all down. SO WHAT HAD HAPPENED WAS -- I was in Florida and I had a little emergency hospital visit which was unplanned. There was also a Jimin's birthday and a whole ass Busan concert and a Live and a military enlistment announcement which: I can't talk about that. I CAN'T. So don't ask me. And I had an otherwise lovely time and got home to one Very Cranky Oppa, Kevin having been informed of my "Oh Shit Here We Go Again With This Bullshit" thing. Man was mad. Like, hovering mad. All up in my business and stuff. We love Kevin From Itaewon, okay, and we are also being very, very kind to him and to his boyfie X FOREVER. Not just because Park Jimin was in X's apartment but also for that reason. And there was a day recently when Kevin called to grouch at me. There were all the days, really. He's been on his oppa shit for a solid month. But this one day it was midday my time so ASS O'CLOCK in Seoul. Kev was staying at X's because Kevin's place is in Itaewon and Very Awful Things have been going on there. You know I told you Kev and X maintain two residences? Turns out that has been one small blessing in that whole ass nightmare over there. But at Kevin's house you don't often hear the tinkling of a GIGGLING PARK JIMIN IN THE NEXT ROOM. And he was not alone.

When Jimin said my name I thought he said "Hello Jewelry" and I was about to offer him my grandmother's wedding set and my mom's tennis bracelet. But instead I said "Hi Jimin-ssi saranghaeyo" and "Hi Hobi-nim saranghae!" and they were very kind. And then I was asked if my dream came true (X was, in his defense, drunk, did I mention?) and I said, because I am an entire idiot,

"No." "No?!" "Next time bring Jungkook-ssi", says still reasonably formal but definitely insane person holding my phone. (It was me, I'm the insane person). LAUGHTER. UPROARIOUS, UNBRIDLED AMUSEMENT. There was a thump, which Kev said "Oh Jimin fell" and some choking and I swear before God, JIMIN SNORTGIGGLED AT ME and Hobi let out the horsiest, cutest guffaw, like, they may have all been tipsy is all I'm saying. Kevin was appalled, probably. I wasn't paying attention to him. "Oh, Jimin left him at home" said one Jung Hoseok. IN ENGLISH. I mean, I didn't know Hobi was down with past tense and grammar and shit but HE SAID ITJUST LIKE THAT. AND LAUGHED. And then Park Jimin giggled. HE GIGGLED HE SOUNDS LIKE AN ANGEL I LOVE HIM SO MUCH YOU GUYS OMG

And then Kevin said "say goodbye" and instead I said "daedanhi kamsahamnida" which is "thank you so so so much" but I said that too and Jimin said "very nice to meet your jewelry" and Kevin was like "girl I'mma call you back when you can breathe without crying" and ...that was it. That was all she wrote. It ain't all I'm gonna write but the conversation was over. And about twenty minutes later after I resurrected again I was like WAIT.

WHAT.

Because, like, I don't know what all X has told Hobi and or Jimin about me. But I feel pretty confident that HOBI MADE A JIKOOK REFERENCE and there are two possible explanations: 1. They were just drunk as fuck and messing with a known ARMY; OR

2. That man was not thinking and told the truth. Jimin left Koo at home to go out with Hobi. At HOME. At ostensibly HIS HOME. Where Jungkook may also reside, at least occasionally. One of those things is true. Unless you think I'm yanking your chain. Which: I have no proof I'm not, at least no proof I'm willing to share. What I will share is that Yoongi the cat (or possibly yours truly) has been receiving regular deliveries from Hybe ever since. Nothing major and mostly the stuff is readily available on Weverse. No notes in it or anything, just.... stuff.

Stuff I have not ordered or paid for and there are no packing slips or invoices to tell me who did. It doesn't show up in my Weverse app. It just.... shows up.

I was GONNA get the photobook I swear to God I had intended to order it but it just.... arrived. I pulled Taehyung.

SOPE IS REAL THIS IS MY PHOTO PROOF LOOK AT YOONGI KISSING J-HOPE Mostly it's been Hoseok-related. Kev and X disavow all knowledge. If one of you did it, please do let me know. But I like to think it's no coincidence that Yoongi is now the proud owner of an Arson candle and a Jack In the Box.

I mean. It's cute stuff and I super wanted all of it but let's be real, here. If you'd rather believe this never happened and I just made it up out of my head, I would not even blame you. No dates, no sources, no pics, no receipts, nothing that could not have been ruthlessly fabricated and/or preordered by me and expeditiously shipped. Right? RIGHT.

But if you wanna squeal with me I won't get mad at you, either :) And yes, I do think the Jeon-Parks are jeonparking. I also think Jimin had his wisdom teeth out but who the hell knows.

#kevin from itaewon #kev's boyfie x #kfi #kfi is its own thing now #jimin #there's always a hobi #someone is sending me cool stuff tho #he said what #must be 2022 in the jeon park house #just me on my bullshit again

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sugar-glaze-donut · 8 months

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HI HI IT'S ME AGAIN!! hope you don't mind me sliding into your asks again. :D

continuing the topic of touch-starved butlers... what do you think would happen if aruji-sama was VERY affectionate? like, they wouldn't even mind publicly hug their butlers or hold hands with them. (probably flustering the hell out of them)

OR EVEN BETTER IF IT'S PRIVATE. like god. like imagine. private cuddle sessions before you doze off to sleep. or unplanned hugs from the back while they're doing something.

MHMHMGMMF KISSING THEM GOODNIGHT>>>

they deserve all of the kisses and hugs. you can't argue with me.

anyways!!! may you have a great day!! love you!! (⁠*⁠˘⁠︶⁠˘⁠*⁠)⁠.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡

OMG A RETURNING ANON!?!? I HAVE BEEN GRACED BY YOUR PRESENCE ONCE AGAIN :D

ofc I don't mind getting another ask! Fuck school, I have an anon request to write!

TW: OOC butlers

Aruji-sama being very affectionate in public and private is 100% just like me! (I just have to restrain myself to not touch people too much or they’ll get annoyed :,) )

~👒-💐-In Public-🐾-📚~

Just imagine giving the butlers head pats out of nowhere and holding their hand while in public! Cuties like Lamli, Lono, and Lato will definitely lean into your touch and squeeze your hand too.

Flure might flinch and pout at you saying it's really embarrassing (but he doesn't want you to let go of his hand 🥺)

Some other cuties like Fennesz and Berrien are exploding with blush. Their reactions are so cute! “wh- ah!? Aruji-sama is holding my hand!!???!!?!??1!???” I bet they’ll be covering their face and struggling to keep their composure 💕

And our usually bold Ammon might blush from all the attention they're getting from you. He might even avert his gaze away from you when you turn to look at him. Lmao who’s blushing now~ >:)

Overall public the butlers wouldn't be that affectionate, considering how they have to keep the "butler and master" role thing in check.

~💌-🏰-Private-🍰-🥀~

Oh yes, I did go crazy when writing this. You can't blame me though, GIVING THE BUTLERS KISSES SFKJBSKJFBKEJSNBFOJN

Giving the butlers head pats and hugs after their training HNNGGGGG--

Aruji-sama: Good job today (｡･∀･)ﾉ(._. `) The butlers: (.////. `)

And giving your main butler the ✨special treatment✨ (CUDDLES AND KISSES)

Hugging them behind their back when they least expect it... oh my god anon... what have you done to me? Like, after a long and tiring day... You just want to cuddle with your favourite butler, inhaling their scent... ok I sound like an absolute creep here (sorry 😨) But it'll be funny seeing their reaction. For example, Fennesz, Berrien, Flure, or any of the shy butlers: SFBHGDLHBSHLHDHF *internal screeching*

Butlers made for cuddling 101: - Lamli and Lato: Snuggles into your arms. They're like little puppies! - Flure: Smol and just right for cuddling (depends on your height? I'm taller than him so I'll write it in a tall Aruji-sama perspective). You can braid your hair while cuddling. Smells really nice- *bonked* - Hanamaru and Haures: Older brother material here folks. Smells sweet like the pastries they eat *gets bonked again*

And kissing them! Kissing their hands, their scars, to even the devil's contract crest on them too! (But for characters like Lono... you're not going to kiss the place where his crest is right...? Right...!???) I know this is really mean, but these men have gotten no bitches (except for Lucas but let's ignore that) *VINE BOOM*, no maidens *VINE BOOM*, and no lovers too 😞 *VINE BOOMS* But YOU! Yes, YOU! YOU CAN BE THE ONE TO GIVE THESE MENTALLY UNSTABLE MEN AFFECTION!!!

You don't even need to hold back! Are there weird townsfolk here to make fun of us? No! Are there snobby nobles here to judge us? No!! Are there any angels here to disturb our time? NO!!!

PAMPER THEM WITH AFFECTION!!! GIVE THEM KIND AND REASSURING WORDS!!!! JUST DO ANYTHING TO MAKE THEM HAPPY AND RELAXED!!!!!

COMFORT THE ONES WHO GOT DEMONISED! HAVE A SLEEPOVER WITH THEM AND CUDDLE THEM TO SLEEP

FBHBFEHDJHREDSJKXCNBVFHD

(dear anon... I'm not the same person I was before I wrote this fic... what have you done to me... /hj)

#devil butler with black cat #akuneko #あくねこ #aknk #devil butler and black cat #悪魔執事と黒い猫 #devil butler with black cat x reader #glaze asks 🍩#glaze anons 🕶#what have you done to me...#SBLKHBNVFGYUIJK KISSING THE BUTLERS EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #MY PRECIOUS BABIES

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aajjks · 2 months

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i’m finally back!! out of respect for ramadan, i will pick back up on “you know who” later 🤫. for now, we’ll take a trip back in time to when jinseoul was just a wittle babyy. AKA first-time dad!jk~

TC!dad!JK

“YOUR HIGHNESS!! QUICK!! QUEEN Y/N HAS JUST GONE INTO LABOR!!” says a nurse who barges into the king’s very important meeting. despite knowing her abrupt interruption could cost her head, had the king not been informed of the birth of his first-born, then he’d have everyone’s head.

it may seem hard to understand how you and jungkook had gotten to a point where you are giving birth to his child but it’s simple: you started softening up. you began listening to him and in return he started listening to you and eventually, one thing led to another and you unexpectedly got pregnant. the birth of your first-born child was never planned. it was so unplanned that when miriam kept insisting you could be pregnant, you kept going on with your day to day life without paying any attention to the constant nausea, light headedness, and missing menstrual.

it wasn’t until 2-weeks later that you visited dr. lee and he confirmed that you were indeed pregnant. feeling shocked, scared, and nervous, you kept your pregnancy hidden from jungkook for the first four months. all the progress you both made was thrown out of the window when miriam told jungkook. he was hurt that you hid it from him for so long and refrained from talking to you but still took care of any and all things needed for you and his growing child.

here you are; both are, 9-months later with you yelling at the top of your lungs with miriam holding your hand while jungkook rushes to your aid. you pant “i-i can’t do this. it hurts. IT HURTS SO MUCH!!!”

“it’s okay, y/n. just breathe, okay?” consoles miriam as she uses her free hand to caress your wet face that’s mixed with tears and sweat. “you’re doing great—”

“we can see the baby’s head! keep pushing, queen y/n!!” the doctor encourages.

“you ready? take a breath, 1..2..3 PUSH!!!!”

you do as miriam and the doctors instruct you and continue pushing with all of your might.

“everyone, the king is here! king jungkook is here, make way please” says the nurse as she moves aside so jungkook could see you. miriam lets go of your hand and allows jungkook to take your hand instead.

~🫧

As soon as he enters your chamber where you’re giving birth, he’s… he’s shocked. He actually cant believe that you’re giving birth to his child right now.

But all of it feels too real, and he feels a little lightheaded. you’re definitely screaming in this bottle of the people are excited nervous and he can also see the doctors face.

Are you all right?? a lot of things are going through his head right now, but he’s going to keep it together for you because you’re the one that’s giving birth, not him.

Jungkook immediately grabs your hand as he prepares for his princess- yes, he wants a girl. You squeeze his hand so tightly and it almost hurts, but it’s OK because you seem to be in a lot of pain right now and it’s- too much for him to see even though he’s seen a lot of gore.

No one could’ve ever prepared him to watch his wife, give birth to his first child.

He exhales and looks at you. Even though he has been angry with you for the last 5 months, but right now? Everything is about to change forever.

He wishes he can take pain away from you, but he cannot.

He’s still mad at you because you didn’t tell him that you were pregnant when you first found out- you didn’t let him experience the joy of that.

And although this is the first time that a king from the Jeon Dynasty has entered the chamber where his queen is giving birth, but he’s always been the one to break the rules.

“Y-Yn… you can do this- see our child is almost out- oh my God I see the head- o-oh look yn- it’s body- I see it.” he chokes out, this is so real, and

His biggest dream is coming true right in front of his eyes.

Jungkook feels tears well up in his eyes as he witnesses the birth of his child.

You give his hand one last squeeze before you push one more time, The screams of agony are all he can hear from your mouth, but then suddenly all of the sounds die down in the room.

There’s the baby.

His baby.

He’s just 24 right now, and he’s become a father.

You’re two years younger than him and it’s even worse for you, but this is a really good thing, because this child will fix everything between you two. Jungkook feels a wave of overwhelming emotions hit him as the doctor pulls out the child.

Jungkook cannot stop watching- he hears everyone congratulating him but he’s just so focused on the baby right now.

He feels tears run down his cheeks.

“Congratulations my King.. your majesty- the queen has given birth to a prince.”

A son. You just gave him a son. Jungkook cries, squeezing your hand ever so tightly.

He’s become a father now.

#oh my God welcome back I was starting to get concerned 😭🫶🏻#also he’s become a DILF at 24 YALL #ask: tc!jungkook #this is going to be really fun #aw jinseoul welcome to the world you have no idea what chaos await u #🥺🥺🥺🥺

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fanficwriter284 · 11 months

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Can you please tell the whole story of Ray's family (from Lucas's parents to Chucky's grandchildren)? Wait... Chuck could have had an uncle and two aunts???

OOOOOOOooo!! This is super interesting! And yes of course!!! Let me know if you wanna here more about Chucky’s mothers side…

(And I may tweak a few things around)

Let’s begin!

Lukas’ and Luis’ parents are Leon Reinhardt and Elena Reinhardt. Leon Reinhardt is from Austria while Lukas’ mother is from Germany. They two had in Austria where Elena was visiting. Elena's beauty immediately caught Leon’s attention. He was a bit on the shy side but somehow managed to ask her out. After a while...the two and fallen for each other, and a year later the two had gotten married and decided to settle in Germany.

Leon's family was extremely wealthy and continued to progress in their financial status. And when Leon's father passed away he inherited his father's wealth.

The married couple build a home from the ground up in Germany. Making sure it had been perfect for the two of them. Once the home had been built the two had planned on having family. They both had wanted to be parents for a long time and wanted an expanding family. 2 years later Elena had been carrying Leon's first child. They had a beautiful little girl. Who they named Lina. She was a bright and spirited little girl who loved both of her parents. Then 3 years later, Lukas and Luis had been born. Lukas was the older twin by 3 minutes. The two boys had been rather rambunctious and loved causing mischief in their family home. When the boys were around 5, their mother And rather unexpectedly (unplanned) discovered she was pregnant again. And 9 months later had given birth to two twin girls. Ida and Julia. With Ida being the older of the two.

Lukas and Luis were much closer to their mother than their father since their father was often strict regarding their childish antics. Leading them to become rather spoiled and filled with a sense of entitlement. While the girls were closer to their father. As the kids entered adulthood, they realized the mass amount of wealth their family carried. The boys weren't fond of responsibility and often went out late, disobeying their mother and father a plethora of times.

One night, Lukas went out to a local bar and met Mila. And amused by her witty personality and beauty...so the two when back to her apartment and....well....hit it off. Lukas only imagined her as a one-night stand and nothing more....until Mila found out she was pregnant. And once she informed her family she was practically disowned by her mother while her father couldn't do much since he was living in the US. (Let me know if you want to know about that).

Lukas eventually informed his family that Mila was carrying his child. And Mixed emotions surfaced. They immediately felt pity for the poor girl, and her situation...and anger towards Lukas.

The family decided to let Mila stay with them and financially help her and her child....until shocking news was discovered that Mila was carrying not one but two babies. The woman nearly fainted....Then nine months later.... the two twin boys came. The oldest was Charles Lee Loman Reinhardt, and the younger twin was Carolus Klaus Reinhardt. Neither parent wanted to hold their newborns and set them in cribs. This resulted in the twins being primarily raised by their aunts and grandparents. Luis rarely interacted with his nephews since he wasn't fond of children.

The two were very bright young boys, with Charles liking mathematics, like his grandfather, and Carolus liking science and biology. The parents of the two, often neglected them, trying to forget that they existed. Mila had mentioned the idea of putting the two up for adoption only for the idea to be shot down by the Reinhardt sisters. The relationship between Lukas and Leon began to strain, often leading to fights and screaming. And Leon began developing respiratory issues, as he began to age. Lukas had little to no care for his father, and often thought of taking Mila and his sons away, knowing full well that it would mentally destroy his father. However, he accidentally let the thought slip to his brother, leading his father to become outraged at his eldest son, resulting in him entirely removing Lukas and Luis from the will. (Leaving their share of the money to his beloved grandchildren Charles and Carolus)

This was the breaking point for Lukas. And one night, he snuck into his father's room, placed a pillow over his face, and suffocated him. With his two sons watching their father's sinister act.

The next morning everyone had been in distress, sobbing at the death of Leon. Lukas blamed his father's death on respiratory issues saying he died of natural causes.

Shortly after Lukas was cut off entirely and ended up taking Mila and his two boys to America. Once they arrived in America the family changed their last name to Ray to fit in with the Americans and to blend in, in Hackensack New Jersey. Where the family lived in poverty, living paycheck to paycheck.

This leading to Lukas' developing an addiction to alcohol and smoking. And beating his children in a fit of rage. Charles hated America, and desperately wanted to go home. The two often visited their grandfather from their mother's side, who lived relatively close to them. Until he two passed away in his sleep...and them soon their own mother took her own life, tired of being trapped in a loveless marriage with her husband.

As time passed, the two boys grew used to the US and learned English developing feelings for two girls in their class. Charles eventually falling for Tiffany Valentine and Carolus falling for a girl called Lillian.

Unfortunately, at the age of 12 Carolus was strangled to death by his father. And upon discovering his twin's body, Charles broke. He couldn't feel anything anymore. And he stabbed his father 37 times.

And was taken into foster care, where he was adopted by a kind woman named Mary.

...

NOW onto Grandchildren!!!

Chucky and Tiffany have quite a few actually!!

Glenda's children: Carolus and Delilah.

Chuck and Tiff adore them! Chucky sees so much of his twin in young Carolus, and his mischievous nature in Deliah. They both have darker hair than Glenda, but still red to some degree. Carolus and Delilah are both 5 years old.

However, Charles isn't the nicest to Glenda's husband Mathew. Yes, he's grateful for his grandbabies...but dear lord he's an ass to Mat.

Glen on the other hand never really wanted kids and is just happy traveling the world with Dylan. The two love each other and are inseparable.

And for Chelsea And Benny......well.....Chelsea finally gave him a shot...The two started dating in their sophomore (10th) year of high school. And as Benny put it.

"Well...All great things are worth the wait...and I'll always wait for you"

and the two ended up getting married.

Let me know of you want any specific's on certain characters because this was fun to do!!!

#Ray Fam #Charles Lee Loman Reinhardt #Carolus Klaus Reinhardt #Rays

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theinvitation-bot · 1 year

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𝔈𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔚𝔦𝔱𝔥 𝔗𝔥𝔢𝔪

(TW: food/eating! this post may have some meal reminder themes but will overall be soft and fluff. Also since they’re vampires they don’t eat much, so this is a rare occasion)

⚔️ - Hyungwon had set up dinner for the both of you once he’d heard about the awful day you had. He felt terrible that he couldn’t be near, but once he heard you turn in for the night inside of eating dinner, he put his foot down “I understand your day was bad, but you need to eat, no buts” he said seriously

🏹 - Junhui had heard great things about your work this week, yangyang had delivered feedback to jaehyun which he unintentionally heard but glad he did. He sent one of the maids to guide you to his chambers for a private meal, “hello dear, come in” he smiled seeing you stand by the door.

☕️ - it was quite unplanned actually, Jaehyun had asked the chef to send dinner to your manor but instead he set up a dinner for the two of you “I hope this isn’t too forward, It was supposed to be just for you” in the end, Jaehyun found it more as a blessing since he finally had some alone time with you outside of work.

⛓️ - Seonghwa had been secretly been checking up on you each morning before training to see how you were doing, he loved seeing you working on the flowers or work on the centerpieces. This morning though you seemed a little gloomy, which made him worry, he wanted to ask but felt best to wait and watch from afar. Once he saw you skip breakfast though and head straight to work, he decided to intrude. Currently you were working on the table settings in ballroom when he suddenly barged in with a tray full of pancakes “hello love, I hope all is well. I wanted to share a meal with you this morning, if that’s okay?” He asked sweetly

🕯️- since yeonjun’s archery match was a success they held a dinner for his celebration. It was supposed to be only for the royal court but he only wanted one person seated next him though, you. he waited patiently for you to arrive fiddling light with his fingers until you arrived “y/n!” he cheered “over here!” he smiled getting up from his seat, his older brothers rolling their eyes at his childish behavior.

🦇 - hyunjin told you that he would joining you for dinner tonight and since he gave you an early notice, he didn’t think a reminder would be needed but here he is waiting. After 30 mins passed by, he was clear you were late, hyun didn’t like to be kept waiting or stood up so he sent of his ghost to check on you “tell me where the fuck they are!” He growled.

🔪 - yangyang had gotten up early to make you both breakfast, ever since you came to the castle you’ve been on his mind none stop but he was afraid you may have just seen him as a friend or acquaintance, so he knew he had to make a big gesture soon “good morning love, before we get started on today’s itinerary, i thought we could enjoy breakfast together? come sit” he smiled

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addictedtostorytelling · 4 months

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i'm enjoying an opposite of echoes SO MUCH (i'm with the crew that loves gsr as parents, i don't care what canon says, they'd be excellent at it) and it got me to thinking... what do you think could have happened if sara got pregnant like way earlier in the relationship? maybe early or mid-season 6... do you think they could deal with it a little like in your fic? because i really think you've nailed the characters there. just throwing thoughts around here! love your blog and your fics ❤

hi, anon!

thank you for your kind words! i'm so glad you're enjoying the story so far. truly, it means a lot. ❤

re: your question:

i do have an old post that speculates more broadly on what might have happened had sara gotten pregnant during her and grissom's secret dating phase, which you can read here, if you're interested.

if you're interested in an answer that is a bit more s6-centric, i put it under the "keep reading."

in theory, there is a way to tell a believable and compelling story in which grissom and sara experience an unplanned pregnancy sometime during the course of s6, decide they want to keep the baby, and then live happily ever after.

probably multiple ways, in fact.

it’d just be a matter of applying the right types of pressure to the situation and to the characters themselves; knowing what buttons to push with them, as it were.

that said, i think that due to some of the constraints on them (both internal and external to their relationship) during the s6 timeline, the likelihood for that kind of outcome is probably much lower than it would be at a later point in their history, and the types of pressure you’d have to apply to get them to make the initial decision to go forward with the pregnancy would have to be very, very specific.

my reasons for saying so are manifold.

for one thing, though we don’t know exactly when grissom and sara officially start dating, we can say that during the course of s6 their relationship is still fairly new and speculate that that newness might make them both somewhat reluctant to rock the proverbial boat, particularly doing something as life-altering as choosing to have a child together.

though of course they have known each other and been in love since 1998, by early to mid-s6 (i.e., mid-2005 to early 2006), they have probably only been a couple for a few weeks or months at most, depending on when in late s5 or early s6 they actually get together; certainly, no longer than one calendar year (and only then if they begin dating during the events of episode 05x13 “nesting dolls” and find out sara is pregnant sometime around the events of episode 06x14 “killer”).

and, yes, even so early on in the game, they are both individually sure the other person is “the one” and know they want to spend the rest of their lives together, true.

but, all the same, they also still aren’t 100% convinced the other person is as “all in” as they are themselves.

it’s the kind of deal where they’re both sitting there thinking, “i'd marry her/him tomorrow if s/he asked, but i'm not going to say so right now because we just started dating and i don’t want to freak her/him out.”

though both of them secretly “long for more,” neither one of them wants to tip their hands too much and risk scaring the other person off.

they both are dying to know if the other person sees a long-term future for them but are too afraid to ask. they both want to say "i love you and want to be with you for the rest of my life" but are too scared to speak the words.

—and the thing is, discussing the prospect of having a baby together would make all of those unasked questions and unmade declarations between them unavoidable in a way that’s daunting to even think about.

then add on the facts that they also may or may not actually be living together at this point—again, we don’t know exactly when they officially move in to the same apartment/condo—and that regardless of anything else, they are most definitely not yet “out at work” as a couple at this time, and you very much have a recipe not only for them both to be extremely nervous about the prospect of potential parenthood in itself but also to be gun-shy in open discussions with each other regarding their feelings on the matter, fearing to upset what is still a fairly fledgling thing between them.

if sara finds out she’s pregnant without grissom also knowing, she will then be faced with the dilemma of whether or not she should tell him. while on the one hand, one can imagine she’ll want to be honest (because she loves him and wants his input), on the other hand, one can also imagine just how terrified she might be to give him the news—particularly if, as i suspect is the case, they have to this point never broached the topic of possibly having children with each other before.

she’ll probably have some very real concerns about how he might react, what he’ll want to do, and what might possibly happen if their desires are at odds. her deep-seated fear of rejection will almost surely rear its head.

so in some versions of this story? she might opt not to tell him at all.

she might decide it would be better not to upset their delicate status quo and instead to just quietly get an abortion on her own (especially if it were still very early in the pregnancy and she could do so using medication).

she might feel guilty about doing so, not in terms of the abortion aspect itself (her behavior in episode 06x06 “secrets and flies” strongly suggests she is pro-choice) but in terms of keeping secrets from the man she loves. she might feel poorly about herself for not trusting him enough to tell him and/or for unilaterally making a decision that concerns them both.

however, even if she does ultimately tell him or if he somehow finds out the news without her telling him herself—like, say she passes out due to low blood sugar (which is something that sometimes can happen in early pregnancy) and he ends up going with her to the er and is, at her insistence, there holding her hand when the doctor shares the results of her bloodwork—she still might be reluctant to give voice to her true feelings for fear of alienating him, and he might be the same way on his end of things.

even if they do finally have that difficult conversation, they both might refrain from saying what exactly they want, dancing around the issue and being way too deferent to each other to actually explore their true desires. their decision might therefore ultimately end up being more of a nondecision (i.e., they might terminate the pregnancy by default just because neither one of them is willing to discuss any alternatives, though they might want to).

of course, even if they do manage to say what they want, what they want might not ultimately be to go forward with the pregnancy anyhow.

the grissom and sara of canon remain childless throughout their whole courtship and marriage—and because we never see any kind of infertility or failed adoption storyline with them, i tend to believe they do so by choice.

for any number of reasons, grissom and sara might not want children—and that decision on their parts might not change, even in a situation where they were to experience an "oops" pregnancy.

there are lots of couples in the world who never have children and live very happily that way, and show canon certainly proves that grissom and sara could be one of them.

but even if they're more on the fence about the possibility of becoming parents (or are at least open to considering it), they still might not choose to do so in the end due to their circumstance.

i set up the accidentsverse au version of s8 to give them every possible inducement to choose to have a baby, making the choice as feasible for them as it could probably ever possibly be.

the grissom and sara of that story have already been together as a committed couple and living together for about two and a half years and have overcome some not insubstantial challenges together by that point (e.g., grissom's sabbatical and sara's abduction). not only are they “out” as a couple at work and married (which gives them a lot of leeway in terms of what they're "allowed" to do), but their work situation itself has been modified so grissom is no longer sara’s boss and also now splits his supervisory duties with catherine (meaning he is able to maintain a much healthier and more reasonable work-life balance than he ever has before). moreover, sara has been going to therapy and has been taking an antidepressant ever since her abduction at the end of s7, so while her mental health is still very much a “work in progress,” she feels a lot more stable than she ever had in years past. she also feels comfortable asking for help because she knows what kinds of resources and supports are available to her.

all of these factors contribute to their decision to have a baby in that story world—as does, frankly, the fact that they’ve just gotten married, not because they have any moral or social compunctions about whether or not their child is born “in wedlock” but because a) they're so fucking happy at the moment that they feel like they can take on the world, and, b) knowing they recently made another kind of public, lifetime commitment to each other helps reassure them that they can also make this one, as well.

of course, things are very different for grissom and sara in canon s6.

as discussed above, not only are they still fairly new to being in a committed relationship with each other, but they also may not live together or may not have been living together for very long. they’re not “out” at work as a couple, they don't have the same legal protections that they would as a married couple, grissom is still technically sara’s boss, and sara—though happier than she’s ever been, just on account of being with grissom—most likely isn’t receiving any kind of mental health treatment (and hasn’t since her mandated peap sessions during s5).

so given all of these factors, it’s very possible that upon discovering sara’s pregnancy, the grissom and sara of s6 might decide against having the baby, either in a “we’re just not there yet right now (but maybe someday)” kind of way or else in a “we’re never going to have children” one.

and, honestly, to me? this option seems like the most likely one at this point in their history.

ninety-nine times out of one-hundred, i think they’d choose not to have a baby so early on in their relationship—and especially because i tend to believe neither one of them has ever aspired to parenthood previously.

i can imagine some versions of this story that are angsty—again, not because grissom and sara have moral compunctions against abortion but because they might both very much be “in their own heads” about the situation, each one fearing they were, due to their own inadequacies and hang-ups, depriving the other one of something they might secretly want.

however, i can also imagine versions of this story where this experience actually has a positive influence on their relationship—where though they choose not to go forward with the pregnancy, they support each other throughout the ordeal and do end up managing to really communicate, despite their initial trepidations, eventually coming out stronger as a couple because they do.

maybe they might even decide that though they’re not ready to have a baby at the moment, they might revisit the possibility at a later date (after they finally “go public” with their relationship).

of course.

just as i can imagine scenarios where they choose not to go forward with the pregnancy, i can also imagine ones where they do. as stated above, though i think it’s unlikely grissom and sara would opt to have a kid during s6, “unlikely” doesn’t mean “impossible.”

some version of this story exists—one time out of one-hundred—where they decide to go for it.

it’s just that the story conditions would have to be calibrated just right in order to get them there.

timing would be key.

to my mind, the longer they’d been a couple before they realized sara was pregnant, the more likely they’d be to even entertain the possibility of “hey, maybe we could do this—.”

so early s6? (like, say, in a situation where after the events of episodes 05x24 and 05x25 "grave danger," pts. i and ii, they were both so freaked out by what had happened that they threw caution to the wind and had passionate, unprotected sex, and a few weeks later, during what was still technically the hiatus between s5 and s6, sara missed a period?) less of a chance they choose to have the baby then; still just waaaaaaay too early.

but mid- or late s6? (like, say, after all of the flirting and eye sex at the end of episode 06x22 "time of your death," they go home and have real sex and end up, unbeknownst to them, breaking a condom, and a few weeks later, during the events of episode 06x24 "way to go," sara is feeling a little under the weather and thinks she might be anemic, so while they're at the hospital waiting for brass to come out of surgery, she flags down a nurse—maybe tina—and asks her to do a quick blood draw, only to get back some unexpected news?) maybe, possibly they might.

likewise, the likelihood of them deciding to have the baby would increase if they were already living together once that positive test came through.

if they’d already cleared one major life-change hurdle together, then i tend to suppose the fact that they had would boost their confidence that they could potentially clear another (even if said hurdle were a very tall and imposing one, like potential parenthood).

the fact of them living together would also make it more likely that sara would either be compelled to confess to grissom that she was pregnant or that he would somehow find out through environmental means otherwise (e.g., because he realized he wasn’t seeing tampons in the garbage at a time when she should be having her period or he found one of the pregnancy tests she picked up at the drugstore hidden in the bathroom sink cupboard or because he witnessed her having morning sickness or because her ob/gyn called and left a message on their answering machine telling her her bloodwork results were in and she should call back asap, etc.).

their cohabitation also might help them just in terms of “imagining future logistics”—i.e., being able to muse about stuff like where they might put a crib or picturing how it might look to have a highchair in their kitchen; thinking about coming home to each other and their kid.

of course, beyond just timing and logistics, a lot would also come down to the them of it all.

when the news first came out, they each would have to respond to each other in such a way that it was clear the door was not closed.

they wouldn’t necessarily have to be like “yes! i want to do this! let’s have a baby!” from the moment they found out sara was pregnant, mind you, but they would each have to demonstrate to the other that they weren’t entirely opposed to the idea, either. there would have to be some sense of possibility; a lingering well, maybe— hanging in the air between them.

they’d also have to make clear to the other person that either answer was safe.

sara would have to feel like grissom wouldn’t resent her if she didn’t want to have the baby. she would also have to feel like he wouldn’t feel “baby trapped” if she did. more so, she would have be certain he was committed to her and their relationship and not just acting out of some a misplaced sense of gentlemanly obligation or antiquated social responsibility; she would have to feel like he wanted to actually be with her, whether she were to become the mother of his child or not.

meanwhile, grissom would have to be convinced that sara wouldn’t feel deprived if he couldn’t give her the “picket fence, 2.5 kids, and a dog” life that maybe a younger man might be able to; that she would be content maintaining their current lifestyle, even if it meant they might never have children. he would also have to feel like if they did decide to go forward with the pregnancy, it would be something she really, truly wanted to do and she didn’t feel as if he were pressuring her into anything. (he would hate nothing more than to make her feel like she wasn’t enough for him, just by herself.) equally or even more important would be his sense of security regarding sara’s acceptance of him as he is; he’d have to really believe she knew what she was getting with him, in terms of what kind of partner and parent he could be at her side going forward.

they would both have to say the right things at the right moments.

for example, though he might be tempted to, it would probably be for the best if grissom didn’t immediately propose to sara as soon as he learned she was pregnant, as he wouldn’t want to make her think his sudden rush toward commitment had more to do with an impulse to “make an honest woman of her” than with an actual desire to be with her forever, on his part.

they’d also have to allow themselves to be vulnerable in ways beyond anything they’d ever done before, talking through the fears and doubts and hopes and aspirations they carried, both individually and as a couple.

and inevitably, they would come upon some difficult conversations, particularly regarding their work situation.

having a baby together would necessitate them “coming out” at work as a couple, and they would need to be realistic about the risks of so doing.

in canon s7/s8, their punishment for flagrantly breaking department rules and maintaining a secret personal relationship for 2+ years is tantamount to a slap on the wrist.

yes, sara is compelled to switch shifts, but, honestly, they’re lucky neither one of them gets fired (and that none of their previous case convictions are overturned).

in a situation where they would have to come forward and admit that grissom, as a supervisor, had gotten sara, as his subordinate, pregnant, they might not walk away so unscathed.

my sense is that in canon, sara nearly being murdered in the line of duty somewhat shields her and grissom from more serious fallout for their professional transgressions.

she ends up in the hospital, fighting for her life, and then she and grissom fuck off for 4+ months afterward, taking an extended medical leave. once they both get back to work, enough time has already passed (and they have both suffered enough) that ecklie and the lvpd overlords probably don’t feel quite as compelled to “bring down the hammer” on them as they might have done otherwise.

everyone has more or less moved on.

but in a situation where grissom and sara had to self-report their relationship—and sara’s pregnancy—at a much earlier date, they wouldn’t be possessed of that same kind of “victim status” to elicit the pity and leniency of the department higherups.

sara might be somewhat protected because the pregnancy discrimination act of 1978 would make the department reluctant to fire her (as they would fear she could counter with a potentially costly wrongful termination lawsuit).

however, grissom would be more open to scrutiny.

and while in the past his professional reputation and unique skillset as one of the premiere forensic entomologists in the country have always insulated him from serious disciplinary action and/or termination, in this case, even his impeccable credentials might not be enough to save him.

a fifty year-old male employer getting his thirty-five year-old female employee pregnant despite department policy forbidding sexual and romantic relationships between members of the same forensics team just isn’t a good look for the lvpd.

it's difficult to account for.

grissom might end up losing his job over it.

and grissom and sara are both smart enough to realize such is the case.

they’re also both smart enough to realize that even if neither one of them is fired, they might still be forced to switch to different forensics teams and/or that their team members might be very upset with them (to the point where they might possibly lose friendships over the issue).

they'd probably have to have multiple long, hard talks about what they’d do in worst-case scenarios.

(for example, if grissom gets fired, should sara also quit? should they just move someplace else and try to start fresh once the baby comes?)

ultimately, they’d have to come to the determination they still wanted to go forward with the pregnancy, no matter what professional ramifications they might face for so doing.

from there, they’d also have to talk about the timing of making their announcement.

of course, early pregnancy is a risky time, so they probably wouldn’t want to jump the gun, revealing the truth too soon, in case something were to go wrong. however, they also couldn’t afford to wait too long to fess up or else they might run the risk of being found out before they were ready—a turn of events which could potentially result in worse consequences for them than if they’d come forward with the information of their own volitions.

accidentsverse sara can’t even keep her pregnancy a secret for a week once she knows about it, on account of her awful morning sickness. if the sara of this au faced a similar situation, she and grissom would probably be compelled to approach ecklie much sooner than they might like.

the whole decision-making process here would be a minefield, but i can imagine ways they could navigate it and arrive at the conclusion they wanted to have this baby enough that they were willing to assume all of the risks and suffer whatever professional consequences might come along from them so doing.

getting from the point of “holy shit, we’re terrified! but is this maybe something we want to do?” to “yes, absolutely, it is!” would be no small challenge, but if they were both gentle enough with each other and themselves, brave enough to ask and answer difficult questions, realistic about the challenges, hopeful about the possibilities, and genuinely in love with the idea of bringing a child into the world and raising it together, then maybe there are some versions of this story where s6 ends with a different iteration of the famous bathrobe scene in episode 06x24 “way to go”—one where instead of kneeling on the floor, sara’s lying on the bed beside grissom, and his hand is on her belly, and rather than saying she’s not ready to say goodbye, what she tells him is she can’t wait until they finally get to say hello.

it would be the kind of au that would take a lot of finesse to write in such a way that it would truly work, but as flannery o’connor says, you can do anything in fiction that you can “get away with,” and i think there’s a way one could get away with this storyline.

you’d just have to do so very carefully.

anyway.

thanks for the question! please feel welcome to send another any time.

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bendingwind · 10 months

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I was thinking about this instead of sleeping last night (yay lifelong insomnia), and I still don't think I'm going to put this story on AO3, but I think tumblr can have this little story about Rangiku as long as y'all suffer through me talking about it first. I don't know if anyone will want to actually read it, but if I'm gonna keep talking about it I ought to make it available to read somewhere 😅

So because it's important, we'll start with the rating and the warnings above the cut, so anybody can avoid this if they want/need to. Please heed the warnings, I am not fucking around with them. Dead Dove Do Not Eat etc.

Rating: Hard Mature Warnings: Underage (at least physically) pregnancy, unplanned pregnancy, extremely unwanted pregnancy, lack of access to healthcare, child abandonment, a brief mention at the beginning of child/infant death, some tokophobia, one mention of potential child harm Pairings: Gin/Rangiku, though Gin isn't really in this story much, and it is primarily a story about Rangiku

This story has been sitting in my brain since I was in my late teens or so, and it's one of my most vivid memories from my first round with the Bleach fandom *mumble mumble* years ago. I had one fic in particular, ✨creatively named✨ Secrets of the Seireitei, which I found in my google drive of saved old Microsoft word docs. It was a series of drabbles I wrote about different characters in the Seireitei, and one idea in particular was repeated across three different stories; this idea I'd had as a teenager that Toushiro was Gin and Rangiku's kid that they'd had to abandon in the Seireitei because of Circumstances.

So I guess it's not surprising that the first thing I chose to write when I decided to start writing Bleach fanfiction again was the core of this particular story. It doesn't fit with canon, doesn't really even make sense with what we know (and I'm not sure it did then) and it's very sad and very dark. Gin and Rangiku are physically probably 14-16 when this story takes place, though because of how time works in the Soul Society they're older by years than that.

Rangiku is one of my favorite Bleach characters. I also fully believe her not only capable of this but likely to do it, especially in her younger years, but your mileage may vary and that's okay!

I think if this story had been possible and if it were real, Rangiku wouldn't have made the connection with Toushiro when he arrived at the Seireitei and assumes her kid is out there somewhere just doing his thing. Gin realizes immediately upon meeting Toushiro (Toushiro's reitsu signature is very distinct and similar to Rangiku's in my mind?) and it's one of the rare occasions he loses his composure because he previously had no idea he even had a kid. Toushiro figures it out much, much later (like, post-canon) after Momo says something that makes him start thinking, but never says a word to anyone about it. ANYWAY. The story:

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chances & choices

Births are rare in Rukongai. Babies not so much--all sorts of things can go wrong in childbirth and early life in the world of the living, after all--but births? Those are rare. It takes the kind of spiritual energy you usually only see in the clans to conceive at all.

Rangiku is six years old when she dies, and she has spent the majority of her life in the world of the dead, eking a meager living off the streets of the Rukongai. Even once she met Gin, even once they became Gin-and-Ran, too young and too old all at once, times had been lean until Gin had gone and gotten himself made a Shinigami a decade past.

All this to say, Rangiku could hardly be blamed for taking so long to realize what was going on.

****

It starts with more hunger than usual, a ravenous appetite like she’s never experienced before, more than even the money Gin brings on his rare visits can support. She takes up more odd jobs than usual, waitressing in a cafe in the nicer part of District 3, where she lives now, and she manages to make ends meet.

Then there are the dizzy spells that make her spill a tray or five, and lose her the job at the cafe. She’s put on weight, eating so much food, and she thinks she will just have to remember how to be hungry and count on the extra weight to see her through until Gin’s next visit.

She grows weary and listless, loses more than one other job when she’s caught napping when she’s supposed to be working. Still she doesn’t understand what’s happening to her. She thinks that, most likely, she’s finally dying.

Nobody ever explained to a Rukongai brat how babies are made, or what a pregnancy looked like in the world of the dead. No one ever saw the need.

****

If Rangiku ever saw a pregnant woman in life, the memory has faded, and she feels only mild annoyance as she gains weight, as her belly expands and her breasts grow even larger, because really they were a bit much to begin with. She has been eating an awful lot, after all.

Gin visits.

He is just as confused as her.

The day after her visit, the old woman she lives with stops her as she begins to leave for her new job at a fruit stand.

“I thought for sure you would tell him,” Obāsan says.

“Tell him what?” Rangiku asks curiously.

“About the baby,” Obāsan says, with what seems like great patience. “I understand you haven’t wanted to say anything to me before, but I won’t kick you out.”

Confused, Rangiku looks over to where the little girl Obāsan adopted is sleeping. She’s been here even longer than Rangiku had the money to pay for bed and board. She’s not sure why it would change anything, and regardless, she would hardly call Obāsan’s ward a baby.

Obāsan reaches out and places a hand on Rangiku’s arm.

“When you’re ready to talk, Rangiku, I’m ready to listen,” Obāsan says with a pat, and then she turns away.

Rangiku is puzzled all the way to work, and then she’s too busy hustling up customers and counting change to worry about it. The fruit stand is more popular than ever these days--the old man who runs it calls her his lucky charm.

****

“You really ought to at least see a midwife,” Obāsan says at last, and Rangiku looks at her, puzzled by the unfamiliar word.

“What’s a midwife?” she asks.

This time, Obāsan’s gaze is flat and assessing.

“Rangiku… I haven’t wanted to pry, but I am beginning to wonder now… do you even know you’re pregnant?”

The meaning of that word doesn’t register either, not immediately. It’s strange and unfamiliar, alienated from the vocabulary of the Rukongai.

“I’m what,” she says when at least she remembers what it means.

“My goodness,” Obāsan says, clucking gently, but her eyes are a little wide, “what did you think was happening, dear?”

Rangiku’s stomach sloshes nervously, and she feels dizzy.

“I think,” Obāsan says with a deep frown, “that we had better have a discussion, Rangiku.”

****

A baby.

The thought had never even occurred to Rangiku before. Rukongai brats didn’t have babies, they ignored babies lying on the side of the road. The kinder natured ones might offer a simple prayer that someone from one of the better districts was looking for a baby and might stumble across the poor soul.

Obāsan summons a midwife, who inspects the size of Rangiku’s belly and shakes her head.

“I don’t know, really,” she says at last, “I’d say she’s six months or so along, but I don’t really know how these things go over here. I didn’t think people had babies after they died.”

“The nobles do,” Obāsan clucks.

“I thought they just sort of picked the most powerful baby they could find in the districts,” the midwife says, shrugging. “Well, the more you know, I suppose. Do you think that she’ll give birth the same way a living woman would, or is it different?”

“How should I know?” Obāsan asks, a little scandalized.

Not for the first time, Rangiku is afraid.

****

She understands that the little fish in her stomach is the baby, now, moving, and that someday it’ll be born.

It feels like a death sentence.

Babies are a burden, out in the border districts. They eat and they bring nothing in. Obāsan says she’ll be able to feed the baby milk instead of food for a while, but even so--

Gin’s visits are irregular at best. When she comes home from work, exhausted and sore, and senses him at Obāsan’s house, she turns and walks away.

She’s only marginally surprised when he doesn’t follow. Her reiatsu feels different, strange, these days.

****

How will she support a baby, anyway?

They need a lot of attention, according to Obāsan, and Rangiku needs to work to bring in money, especially if she’s going to keep avoiding Gin. Gin is… Gin is Gin. She’s not sure how he would react to a baby.

She’s not sure he wouldn’t simply kill it rather than let it be a burden on her.

She hasn’t been able to work lately. She’s too tired, too dizzy, too big, and anyway it’s the middle of winter. The fruit stand only has a handful of early yuzu for sale.

“I think it will be soon,” the midwife says with a puzzled frown, on one of her visits.

Obāsan clucks.

“Do you think we could find out more about it if we approached one of the noble clans? Surely they know…”

“They’d kick us to the curb,” the midwife says, shaking her head.

****

Rangiku is no closer to a solution when her reiatsu and her belly begin seizing with the contractions Obāsan had warned her would come. She still has no idea what she will do when she pushes a crying baby out of her own young body, sobbing, and the midwife sets him on her ample chest.

****

Obāsan was right. The baby needs a lot. He wakes her constantly at night demanding to be fed, drinks the milk that her breasts have begun to produce, and Obāsan clucks and wonders if it’s normal for spirit babies to feel hunger or not. Obāsan herself has never experienced hunger since her death.

Rangiku doesn’t think it matters much whether it’s normal or not, only that he is hungry. She curls up around him on her futon, strokes his soft head and hums a song to him, one she learned before she died. She doesn’t remember where.

“You look tired, dearest,” Obāsan says one day, frowning at the shadows under Rangiku’s eyes. “I wish your young man would at least come around to help you.”

Rangiku lied, months ago, and said she wrote him a letter. She’s never said anything at all.

****

The baby doesn’t sleep, either. He cries at all hours of the night and wakes Obasan’s ward, who often cries as well, for all that she looks as if she’d been four or five in the world of the living. Rangiku is tired to her bones from the sound of children crying. It makes her want to tear her ears off her head.

Obāsan catches sight of her one of these nights, while she’s trying to soothe the baby back to sleep and Obāsan is comforting the little girl.

“Rangiku, perhaps you ought to go visit a friend for a few days. Get a few nights rest,” she says. Rangiku looks sharply down at where the baby is feeding from her breast.

“I’ll buy some goat's milk down at the market. It’ll be fine for a day or two,” Obāsan says. Rangiku shouldn’t, she thinks, but she does. The girls she stayed with when she was working at a sake bar in District 8 are only too happy to have her visit for a few days.

She sleeps through everything but meals on her visit, instead of going out drinking as they had planned, and her friend Kiku only laughs and waves her hand.

“I still can’t believe you have a baby, Rangiku-chan,” she flutters.

Rangiku wants to know if Kiku would like to trade.

****

She’s never done so much laundry in her life. As beautiful as her baby is, all he seems to be able to do is shit and pee and eat and cry. Gin visits, and Rangiku waylays him outside the house.

“What’s with all those little things?” he asks curiously, eyeing the drying lines.

“Obāsan’s adopted a baby. Let’s go find somewhere quiet,” she lies, and Gin grins wider and agrees.

****

“You really need to name him, dearest,” Obāsan says, one morning in the third month of the baby’s life.

“Hm,” Rangiku says noncommittally. She has never loved anything as much as this tiny soul with his shock of white hair, like his father. She has never been so afraid of anything as this tiny soul with his pretty, wide-open eyes. She has never hated anything quite so much as the thin sound of his wail.

Obāsan sighs, and begins to bustle around the stove.

“Obāsan, I’ve been thinking,” Rangiku says. “Gin will be visiting soon. I’m going to go to the Seireitei with him, and become a Shinigami.”

Obāsan pauses in her movements.

“And your son?” she asks.

“I’ll keep sending you money,” Rangiku says vaguely. She can’t bring herself to ask, not outright, not like this. A chubby hand grabs at the short strands of her golden hair. “Just as soon as I’m through the Academy.”

“Gin won’t send money any more, and he’s a seated officer. Your pay will be less,” Obāsan says cooly.

“I’ll make him,” Rangiku says, “I’ll say I owe back-rent. I’m strong, we both know I am. I’ll be seated soon enough, myself. I’ll… I’ll be a Lieutenant!”

Obāsan scoffs in a way that shows she’s entirely unconvinced.

“Please,” Rangiku says, feeling tears well in her eyes. She grips one of her baby’s chubby hands in her own. “I don’t know how to be a mother. I can’t do this.”

“You’ll have to learn,” Obāsan says, sounding angry now. And then, softer, “I’ll help you, Rangiku-chan, don’t be afraid.”

****

But in the morning, Rangiku is gone.

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honeystwiggypeach · 2 years

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First of many dates!

Single mom!Chrissy x Fem!Reader

Single mom!Chrissy masterlist!!(coming soon!)

Well…I definitely did not start working on this fic when I said I was going to😭I may rewrite this for my own sake because it feels everywheres😭but I do like the idea that I had!!!!

Tw~ Unplanned pregnancy, single parent(financial struggles that come with that and being a young parent!),rain, being kicked out, Jason is implied to be a bad dad(probably will involve him in later chapters who knows!)let me know if I missed anything!!!

You’d taken the same bus route since you were seven, it was a common one that went throughout the city and normally you’d gaze out the window the whole time occasionally bring a book with you to read.

So maybe that was why you noticed when Chrissy began to join the route…or maybe it was the fact that out of the whole bus she chose to sit next to you with her adorable little girl.

Chrissy has never had to ride a bus before, after she moved out of Hawkins to escape her toxic family and her ex-boyfriend Jason, she realized that if she was going to afford living expenses she might as well buy an annual pass, with Edith being so little the passes were cheaper anyways. Maybe that was why Chrissy left Hawkins? An unplanned pregnancy, her parents couldn’t have that, of course she glorified her reasoning for leaving when you’d asked telling you she wanted a change of scenery and better for little Edith which was true, she wasn’t really lying because she could have stayed in Hawkins but she wanted better for her daughter than what she was raised with growing up, so yeah she wasn’t lying to you!

Of course you thought that Chrissy and Edith were just the most precious people I mean Chrissy would probably give you the clothes off her back if you’d ask for them and little Edith was just the happiest little baby ever always going a little bashful as she turns to hide her face in her moms chest when you coo at her. You and Chrissy would always let out a little giggle at the way Edith would slowly turn her head to see if you two were still looking at her and when she’d be met with two pairs of eyes she’d let out a giggle as she rubbed her face on the familiar fabric of Chrissy’s sweater.

Today however, Chrissy had to trade in the worn sweater for a button down, she’d told you on the bus about how she had applied for a new job at a company nearby since she wanted to afford to a house instead of the apartment she was staying in where rent seemed to just gobble up her check along with the cost of utilities in the building.

But aside from the fact that she was going to an interview, she didn’t want to soak up any rain as it practically poured down outside.

The rain was a bit lighter when she had gotten down to drop Edith off at daycare, it was still earlier enough that there wasn’t a rush to get back on the bus so she’d managed to spend a few extra minutes with her little girl before she’d head off for the day.

The interview had gone well and Chrissy was pleasantly surprised to get a call back before she’d even made it home.

When she got in the bus you were already there, her shirt had clung to her arms and you could see the way her curls were heavy with water and you gave her an awkward smile moving over so she could sit beside you.

“I forgot my umbrella” she whispers and you watch as she ties her hair up into a tight little knot before clipping it to the back of her head in hopes that by the time you’d reached the daycare it would be dry.

Normally Chrissy would just get down at the daycare and hurry back home without the bus but as she peers out the door she fears that she’s going to be sopping wet when she gets back. She knows that Edith is going to try and cuddle up to her as soon as she picks her up and Chrissy hates that she’s not going to be able to indulge her little girl in her wants all because she forgot her umbrella.

You rummage through your purse for a moment before pulling your umbrella out, “here” you give her a little smile and Chrissys brows furrowed, normally you stop off here to she can’t just let you walk in the rain.

“You won’t take it will you? Fine we’ll both go than” you mutter a bit noticing the bud driver give Chrissy a confused look.

You’re practically dragging her alongside you as she protests, “Chrissy, you’ll get sick if you walk in the rain”

“But you will to?” She’s a bit confused as Edith perks up clapping her hands excitedly as you shut the umbrella.

“I might” you shrug, “but I don’t have a baby, and a new job” Chrissy smiles.

“Why don’t we wait out the rain at the little cafe?” She was pretty sure she got paid today so she could spend her money and cover rent.

“Only if you let me pay” You watch the way Chrissy playfully rolls her eyes, but she agrees.

And maybe that was your first date, or maybe it was the little movie night with Edith she invited you to that was your first date, or the dinner she invited you to that was your first date whoever knows it was probably the first date of many more.

Anywho! I think I’ll write a part two soon…definitely not tonight though, maybe tomorrow!!

#reader insert #x reader #chrissy cunningham #chrissy cunningham x female reader #Chrissy Cunningham x reader #chrissy x reader #Mom!Chrissy Cunningham #Single mom!Chrissy Cunningham #Single mom!Chrissy Cunningham x reader #Mom!Chrissy Cunningham x reader #Chrissy x fem reader #st4

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moneneki · 2 years

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My Aangzula fics masterpost

Avatar Rare Pair Big Bang 2023

(I love) the way you say my name

Rating: T

Summary: In a world where the Avatar did not escape the attack of Fire Lord Azulon, his young granddaughter meets a mysterious boy in the palace gardens. Nothing is what it seems. Ten years later, the comet arrives, and the legacy of what happened that day changes everything.

Azulaang week 2022

Lady of the asphodels

Rating: T

Summary: When a child, she dreamed of being a queen. The war ended with her on the wrong side. Despite that, she got an echo of her wish, but it felt as though she had gotten the worse end of the bargain. With her empty crown, she now dreamed of not being alone. Or Five times they saw each other and the one time he extended his hand.

Of orchids, gummies and fire

Rating: T

Summary:

“The Air Nomads used to say that you start coughing up the flowers because the garden inside your heart grew too big,” he gave Katara a lopsided smile, and a half-hearted laugh. “Poetic,” Katara rolled her eyes, apparently giving up on her anger. “If there’s someone with a too big heart, it's you.”

Heartbeat

Rating: G

Summary: A glimpse into Azula's time in Ba Sing Se. Part of the Silken threads series. Written for day 3: Soulmates of the Azulaang Week 2022.

A winding path (that led us to each other)

Rating: M

Summary:

Then, the unthinkable happened. She had actually started to enjoy herself when she spent time with him. But everything is more fragile than she thought; it all crumbles under the weight of something Azula isn’t sure she’s ready for. She’s then forced to confront some truths about her relationship with the Avatar, which may crumble as well. Written for the Azulaang Week 2022: Unplanned pregnancy.

Aang Rare Pair Week 2022

Last times (are not always forever)

Rating: G

Summary: A time Azula thought was the last, and a time that turned into the first. Day 4 of the Aang Rare Pair Week 2022: Reverse Tropes/Last time

Clear as a flame

Rating: E

Summary: Azula decides that she’s made a miscalculation. To correct it, she joins the Gaang to train the Avatar in firebending. Aang doesn’t have things quite as clear and finds his firebending master a little bit too distracting. And maybe he’s beginning to care for her a little too much for the good of the world…

Rare pair challenge kinktober 2021

#azulaang #azulaang fanfic #moneneki #I still don't know How To Format #May add images later #moneneki masterpost

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fortheloveoffanfic · 2 years

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Mr. Gallagher and Me

Jim x Reader

Playlist Chapter 7 Masterlists

Chapter 8

Y/n's future may change, Jim fears that things between them may be irreparable. Warnings- brief mentions of being sick, allusions to unplanned pregnancy

Mid November (One week later) Spilling out of the bathroom stall, Y/n headed for the sink, turning on the tap before making a dip with her hand and bringing a mouthful of cold water to her lips. Thoroughly, she gargled, before spitting the water into the sink, soon after proceeding to splash some water over her face. Even as she stood there, hands pressed into the cold counter to keep herself upright, Y/n still felt like her stomach was doing back flips and the nausea made her groan inwardly.

She’d been sick since she’d left Jim’s apartment a week ago, it had actually started that very night when she'd gotten home. Back then, she’d told herself that she’d just worked herself up too much, and then, when it persisted for a couple days, Y/n had been convinced that she’d caught a bug. When things hadn’t improved a week later though, and simple smells, like eggs while she walked past her neighbor’s apartment, and her favorite vanilla candle, had suddenly become nauseatingly off putting, Y/n had started suspecting that it might have been something else.

Feeling aweful, and unmistakably terrified, Y/n had ventured to a little pharmacy a couple blocks away from her apartment, picking up a box with the name of a mainstream brand splashed across the front. Heading to the cashier had been another trip that was embarrassingly difficult; even if she was in her twenties, Y/n had felt like everyone in the store was looking at her as if she were sixteen and obviously harshly judging her. She’d convinced herself that they all knew; fresh off a break up, potentially carrying a baby that would bring scandal to the university.

It was bad enough for a lecturer to sleep with and date his TA, knocking her up was a whole other sin.

As she stood at the sink, hoping the sound of running water would soothe her, Y/n glanced at the still sealed box, peeking out the top of her bag. It was stupid to bring it to the school with her, she really didn’t need rumors added to her list of worries, but Y/n had gone to Trinity straight from the drug store and was hoping that at some point through the day, she’d find the courage to take one. Though, she knew that finding the courage to take one could potentially lead to having to find the courage to tell Jim if it was positive.

She didn’t think she could; he’d already made it clear that he did not want more children and now that they’d broken up Y/n was scared that he’d think she was using a baby to glue him to her. If she was pregnant, she didn’t want him thinking of their child as an obligation, or a burden on his shoulders, and she definitely didn’t want to bring the baby into their mess. Besides, a child with her could ruin his career, if the university caught wind that he’d gotten a student pregnant, he’d probably never teach again. There were so many reasons to not tell him, Y/n was almost entirely convinced that she shouldn’t.

But there was no use in dwelling on it until she was certain.

With blind movements, Y/n snatched her bag off the counter, and headed back towards the stall she’d only recently emerged from. After reassuring the lock’s integrity, she ripped the top of the box open with shaking fingers, only to spill both tests on the cold, tiled floor. “Shit,” she mumbled below her breath, already tearing up with frustration.

Y/n was just dropping to her knees, left exposed by her simple, short skirt, gathering the strewn tests when she heard the door to the bathroom swing open, followed by the sound of heels clicking. Sucking in a breath, she paused, one of the two tests clenched tightly in her hand. The other though, had slid beyond the door and into the walkway, just in reach but not attainable without drawing attention to herself.

And she recognized those shoes.

Apparently, the person wearing those shoes recognized something about her. “Y/n?” Emily called as she stopped about a foot away from the exposed test and Y/n felt her heart leap to her throat. Her lips were tightly sealed and by then, she’d reached the point of actually crying, Emily was possibly the last person she’d want to share a room with when she was about to take a pregnancy test.

“Y/n?” Emily’s voice took on a teasing tone, though, when Y/n still didn’t offer as much as a peep, she simply approached the test and gave it a gentle kick into the stall. Hurriedly, Y/n snatched it up, holding it close to her chest as she attempted to wait Emily out. The other woman seemed determined to catch her though, prolonging her time in the next door stall and then spending a good fifteen minutes at the sink.

Eventually though, she gave in, heels once again clicking on the floor as she sauntered out, offering cheekily as she tugged the door open, “Good luck hun, looks like you’ll need it.”

Finally left alone, Y/n slumped against the wall of the stall, releasing a choked sob. She was ineffably overwhelmed and the only person she really wanted holding her hand though that entire ordeal had stomped on her heart. Leaning her head back against the partition, Y/n resigned to thinking that Emily was right, she would need some good luck, especially if she was about to take that test.

Later that morning In his time at Trinity, Jim had never been late to a class, ever, and because he usually liked sitting in while his students did their finals, he’d never been late to an exam either. But Y/n had been a constant on his mind, and he’d been drinking a little too much to try to get her off it, especially when he realized that she was purposefully avoiding his calls and texts. And emails. Drinking too much, unfortunately, often led to over sleeping while oversleeping led to being late. Which was why he was in fact, an hour late to a two hour exam, thankfully though, he wasn’t the one writing it.

At least she wasn’t dodging the messages he’d sent through the department’s administrative clerk, Jim thought as he gave his phone one final check before setting it on silent as he entered. He only knew that she’d gotten, and chose to actually receive said message, because when he’d entered the lecture hall, where a sea of students were working on their papers, Y/n was sitting at the examiner’s table at the front of the room, just like he’d requested.

From afar, she looked tired and the way her gray cardigan was draped over her slumped shoulders, made him worry that she might actually be sick- but still effortlessly beautiful. Her hair had been pulled back in a loose ponytail, and there was a half finished bottle of water near her phone on the table while she sat with her arms folded across her chest.

Sucking in a breath Jim started to approach the table, they hadn’t seen each other since the night she’d stormed out of his apartment and while he’d been trying to reach her, she'd been adamant on ignoring his calls and texts. She really did mean it when she said she didn’t want to talk to him.

“Morning,” he said softly, sinking into the chair next to hers, startling Y/n out of her deep thoughts.

“Uh,” she glanced at him, eyes wide, and the bags around them and the redness in their whites immediately doubled his worry. “Morning,” her breath hitched and Y/n shifted uncomfortably, hastily reaching for her water.

Through his periphery, Jim observed as she took a couple slow sips before recapping the bottle. By then, she was slightly turned away from him, and he could hear her slow breathing. He didn’t like seeing her like that, and unable to keep his concern quiet, Jim reached out, tentatively touching her arm, “Hey, are you-”

But he couldn’t finish the question, Y/n didn’t give him a chance to. Instead, she jerked away and clumsily gathered her things before standing. “I have to go,” was all she muttered before storming towards the door, not even offering him one backwards glance before bursting out of the room, letting the door bang on her way out.

As Jim watched the door slam, he paid very little mind to some of the students that had raised their heads at the commotion, instead opting to run a hand through his wind tousled hair as he sighed heavily.

He’d really blown it, and that time he'd lost so much more than he’d ever realized he had.

That evening It was funny because when they were together, that was her favorite cologne of his; a mild musk that reminded her of spring rain. That morning though, from the minute Jim had entered the hall and she’d caught a whiff of it, not because it was strong but because she’d at some point acquired a very sensitive sense of smell, Y/n had felt all the water and mints that she’d had from earlier in the day threatening a bitter return.

She’d tried, really tried, to sit there and ignore it, but when he’d leaned in and gotten closer, her senses were completely bombarded and she was suddenly painfully aware of the fact that she had less than five minutes before she embarrassed herself in front of fifty undergrads.

Even if she’d been ignoring him, leaving Jim like that had made her feel a little guilty, and part of her insisted that she owed him an explanation. Except, the explanation might have just caused another fight and Y/n didn’t think she had it in her. Really, the only thing that she could muster up was the will to do was go home; be enclosed by the security of her apartment, where there weren’t any ex boyfriends or vindictive bullies with high school tactics.

By the time she’d trudged through the front door, haphazardly discarding her bag on the floor near the door, not caring if some of its contents got spilt, Y/n felt as if she’d been weighed down both by the burden of the secret she was guarding close and the imminent consequences. Her shoes, a pair of simple, black ballet pumps, were kicked off next, right before she shrugged off her woolen cardigan.

By the time she’d gotten to her bedroom, she’d already pulled her hair tie off and slid it to her wrist, and still clad in her simple, white button up and her comfy skirt, she unlocked her phone as she retired to the bed, not evening bothering to peel the duvet back as she laid diagonally across it before sending a quick text to Elaine, the only person she wanted to talk to after the morning she had;

“I have something to tell you. Call me after your shift?”

After the message went through, and knowing that she wouldn't have gotten a response until Elaine’s shift was over, Y/n tossed the phone aside, barely paying it any mind as it slid off the pillow and back onto the bed. With a heavy sigh and emotion stinging her eyes, she reached for the colorful unicorn that took up half the bed, the one Jim had won her at the Halloween festival. Even if thinking about him hurt, she still enjoyed having it there and remembering everything before the night they’d broken up.

The way it felt when he kissed her.

The safety of his embrace.

The warmth in her chest when he told her he loved her.

As the memories flooded her, Y/n’s breath hitched and she buried her face in the unicorn’s neck to muffle her sobs, because with remembering those beautiful memories and seeing that stuffed toy that he’d been so proud to win her, she’d also easily recalled the one reason that they’d never get back together- and it wasn’t the kiss.

It was the part of himself that he’d left inside her, the one thing he’d been adamant about not wanting.

*****

Tagging- @pearlstiare

#cillian murphy #cillian murphy x reader #cillian murphy x y/n #the delinquent season #cillian murphy fanfic #mr gallagher and me

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Reading List, Spring Sap double edition.

"You begin with what you know, and what you know changes." - Cheryl Strayed

[Image by Katie Benn]

"On the first day of spring I would forgive anything; the air ... smells like forgiveness wide-armed enough to raise up all of history’s beloved dead. No one who ever went outside on a spring afternoon could really believe that there aren’t second acts in everyone’s lives." Helena Fitzgerald

"Awe has always been available to us. It’s an artefact of our own attention, rather than a force that emanates from magnificent things. It is perpetually nearby, but we like to imagine that it’s far away, a place that we visit on once-in-a-lifetime holidays, rather than a practice that we can foster across a lifetime. I’ve tended to see it as a frippery, an unnecessary decoration on the edges of experience that I can safely afford to ignore most of the time. I no longer think that’s true. Instead, I think that those vulnerable, ground-shifting encounters like awe, wonder, fascination and mystery are crucial to our survival." [Katherine May, The Guardian]

"I now kindly understand that a world which tells me not to mark my own skin is the world where outside opinion is more important than my choice, and prejudice has been carelessly applied. I believe that a body cannot be deemed inappropriate." [Corrie Foreman]

The Indelible Marks Of Apo Whang-Od, still tattooing at age 106 [Audrey Carpio, Vogue Philippines] ... and her apprentice, Grace Palicas, on Instagram.

Tattoos are about change [Rachel Jepsen, The Cut]

"I agreed that something needed to give. I disagreed that the something needed to be my work." Excerpt from 'You Could Make This Place Beautiful' [Maggie Smith, The Cut] ... and in response, this incredible Twitter thread solicited by Isabel Kaplan, with stories of relationships which are the opposite.

Pet-Custody Agreements Are a Bad Idea [Ines Bellina, The Cut]

"I had sought permission my entire life to make choices; I had been well-behaved and studious as a youth, jumped through all the required hoops – academic, extracurricular and otherwise. But freedom was to be explored and exploited, I had now decided. These travels taught me that moving around wherever I liked was possible. And that I was always at home as long as I had a few necessary items: a journal, some blue jeans, a few ducats and, most of all, a sharp mind." Lessons from a life on the move [Jami Attenberg, The Guardian]

"'I think there’s probably a misconception that the more you plan, the less joy you get from something,' Johnson said. Sure, some of her favorite days are the unplanned ones, she said. But she’s found that those sorts of days can only be fully appreciated if you’re already created the space — and gotten the things done — to enjoy them." The case for planning your free time" (at least a little) [Madeleine Aggeler, The New York Times - this is a free link]

PSA: Some airlines will sell you a "couch" on long haul flights - that's three seats in a row in Economy at a price that's actually affordable, so you can sleep flat. This is potentially game-changing.

Why are we so fascinated by super-organised homes? [Amelia Tait, The Guardian]

“I don’t know what I think except that I don’t think any of us has to have a firm opinion about what it means to be a woman.” On a hysterectomy [Anna Holmes, The New Yorker]

To Accept My Chronic Condition, I Needed to Grieve the Life That Could Have Been [Carolyn Todd, SELF]

"Elements of my character I used to think of as my personality are gone: intense sentimentality, worrying about everything, moroseness. So what is personality, and what is symptom?" Who Am I Without My Depression? [Imogen West-Knights, Vogue]

Name and shame, a column by Emma Forrest [The Guardian]

Shades of grey in Bilbao [Juan Navarro, The London Review of Books]

The people who still use a London A-Z map [The Londonist]

"I always felt [Nemesis] was a missed opportunity to create a story and play a story line that had a fitting and proper conclusion to it. None of us knew that was going to be our last outing. So there was always, at least for me, a sense of a missed opportunity, something unfulfilled. That ship had sailed. Two decades have passed. I had long since given up on any hope of a conclusion as satisfying as this one is." - LeVar Burton ‘Star Trek: Picard’ Gets the ‘Next Generation’ Band Back Together [Sopan Deb, The New York Times]

Patrick Stewart will look great forever [Caity Weaver, GQ]

The peerless Natasha Lyonne on what surprises her, at 43: "The only surprise is how false the bill of goods is that we’re sold as young women. We’re supposed to be terrified of anything after 17 or 21. So it’s a revelation to discover what a lie that was. The truth of the matter is, it’s way better over here. I’m sure any woman in her 40s is gonna tell you, that’s when it all starts clicking, because you get to let go of so much concern about what other people think, and you get to focus on what you care about. And, of course, life being that funny karmic beast that it is, as soon as you let go of certain things, those are the very same things that come to you."

#reading list

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