no stroke of genius

There's an empty coffee mug on the desk.

The handle is chipped. A brownish stain smears the bottom ridge, brackish liquid pooled where the slight tilt of the wood demands it. His chair is tipped haphazardly against the wall, cushion torn open at the seams. Papers and pins and red strings scatter the floor, pieces of evidence either destroyed or outright missing. The lanterns have been left up with pinched out wicks. The room still smells faintly of ash and lighter fluid, his departure painfully raw. Somehow, this is what breaks him.

Cellbit is gone.

Forever walks through the remains of a genius and does not mourn. There is nothing to mourn, no such thing to reminisce. Traitors do not deserve this kindness, pray as he might that this is all another lie.

It has to be. He shakes his head, righting the chair to its proper placement. There are no prayers to be made. There is no but. This is all Cellbit's sick, twisted, genius design.

This is under control. This has to be under control. There is no other option.

Forever backs against the desk and feels more than sees the shattering of the mug as its leg breaks under his force. It resonates within the empty cavity of his chest, the lingering pitch electric through his fingers, tangy on the tip of his tongue. It tastes of cocoa and bile. His hair raises on the back of his neck.

A splinter digs into his hand. A shard pierces the bottom of his sandle. There is not a thing in the room left unbroken.

a very passionate ramble about Regulus Black bc i have The Brainrot

TW: fictional suicide

one of the many things the just *gets* me when i think about the intersection between canon reg and like fanon reg is, if we look at things from a canon-compliant perspective, reg went into that cave knowing he would die. At the very least knowing he might. When people talk about regulus they say oh "he redeemed himself at the end" and "he made the right choice" but. no he didn't. the right choice in that situation looks like betraying voldemort, yes. But that doesn't mean a suicide mission. And for anyone other than regulus it wouldn't have. He could have gone to his brother, to James, god forbid to DUMBLEDORE. The right choice was to find a way to get into contact with the Order, through Sirius or directly. But he couldn't. Because the greatest tragedy of Reg's story is that he never had anywhere -- anyone -- to go to. Regulus killed himself. He was eighteen, he was alone, and he didn't just "do the right thing in the end." No, he killed himself. Deliberately and intentionally. After being made into a child soldier, after being left alone, after having nowhere to fucking go, he fucking killed himself. Now that's heartbreaking. That's tragedy.

And I think about how in OOTP Sirius has no kind words to say about Regulus, and i think about Regulus slicing his hand open and opening the cave with Black family blood and not saying goodbye. And i just, can't think of a reason Regulus would do that if not for Sirius.

I doubt it was a moral awakening like this kid was fully socialized to be a bigot, and idk maybe something woke him up. But when I think about it, the only real motivation i can think of for Regulus to betray the death eaters and the family that he stuck with despite everything, is because of Sirius. Because his brother was on the other side of a war Regulus had just discovered was unwinnable. So he kills himself because he betrays voldemort for Sirius, but he doesn't say goodbye, he doesn't try and find a way to live through it, to ask for help. Regulus dies in that cave because he wants to.

(and this is where the fanon lore comes in)

I think about regulus dying in that cave because he chose to, and i think he felt like he'd finally paid off a debt to his brother. I think he felt like he'd finally been brave enough to do what Sirius had done for him, to take the hit, take the curse, take the hurt so that his brother didn't have to. I think regulus died in that cave and thought he didnt have a life worth living, he didn't have anyone to live for. I think he was hopeless and trapped and at peace, because he finally found a way to take care of his brother.

This is why i can't stand Reg anti's, because they will really look at this broken boy, a child soldier who killed himself before he was old enough to know what living looked like. A kid who never had anywhere to go. Who never made a single choice he wasn't forced to until he chose to die. They will look at that kid, and laugh at the idea that James Potter could ever love him. And it makes my blood boil.

can we talk the fact that when fujiko lost her memory her first observation about lupin was how he looked like a nice person and he reacted like that was the most painful, horrible thing he'd ever been told by a woman who's literally held him at gunpoint multiple times I'M DYING TO TALK ABOUT THE FACT TH

is there anything more insanely insane than the fact that lupin calls himself a hero repeatedly in an exaggerated jokey way to the point that there's even a fucking song about it that's assumedly sung from his pov and yet whenever someone asks him if he's a good person he goes. mm. well. hm. well no not really. in fact i'd be rather disturbed if you thought i was in all honesty!

ironhide: anime girl edition

"When are we gonna start bustin' Decepti-chops?"

hi what if i told you i'm no longer sane

Me over here: Yelan in her 20s? I can't warrant it. 31 is the go-to on this blog for madame.

what if i wrote wildly ooc cell/roommates au comfort fic. what then.

really swinging between "do the hard thing by pretending you're doing this with your favorite blorbo" and "nvm do NOT do the hard thing by pretending you're doing this with your favorite blorbo because your favorite blorbo can, in fact, make things worse"

totally not gonna hit u with more angst (sorry)

because i've always thought about how kaveh would feel whenever his mom writes to him or something. she'd tell him stuff she does in fontaine with her new husband and stuff

and i thought about the possibility of her new husband having kids of his own

and i could just imagine all the pain he goes through when he reads the stuff they do as a family together

ik kaveh wants her to be happy because she deserves it of all people (and he feels like he was the root of all her suffering)

but the jealousy that weighs his heart is so sickeningly disgusting when his mom writes about doing things they did as a family with her step children.

she deserves to be happy, he really thinks so.

he just hates how her happiness didn't include him anymore.

(yes yes yes ikik his mom still loves her *looking at her defenders* im just saying this in kaveh's perspective yk? like what do you think a child who moves on with some guy he barely knows and now have step kids in a different region, far away from him?? get a grip xd)

oops looks like i dropped angst and don't wanna pick it back up !!! x3

NO BECAUSE YOU'RE SO RIGHT?

i know kaveh loves her. i know he feels like he is responsible for her suffering. i know he wants her to be happy, but it's unrealistic to me that he allegedly doesn't feel jealous or angry. he should feel pissed imo. i would?? i am mad FOR kaveh and he's not even real bro

she left him alone. i don't care that he was "old enough." no child should have to suffer through grief and pain of loss without support, regardless of age. did she genuinely believe he was okay? like. girl. what. did she genuinely think he was fine??? did she genuinely think he wasn't suffering, that he was okay, that he wasn't drowning in grief?????? "she was suffering too" OKAY??????? YOU DON'T LEAVE YOUR CHILD LIKE THAT? who the fuck abandons their kid, who they had a good relationship with...... it's sooo weird to me that she just left him like that. it feels like she ran away from her pain and it drives me fucking insane. she shouldn't be allowed to run from her past. why the hell did she do it????? because kaveh reminds her of her late husband?????? that is ridiculous. girl that is your whole son. you do not get to run from him. you do not deserve to run from him. he deserves his mother. she does not deserve to live happily when kaveh is still drowning in his own pain because--shocker!--she didn't help him heal.

kaveh wants her to be happy. he is so nice. he is so so kind and i don't know HOW he isn't furious. but you know, maybe it's because he doesn't exactly like himself. maybe he thinks he deserves the abandonment he's been given. someone who values themselves would be mad, because they know they deserve better treatment, but perhaps kaveh doesn't. he doesn't know he deserves better. because he still believes his father's death was his fault and therefore hates himself for it. poor thing.

i am so abnormal about kaveh's backstory i am sorry AJEKSHSNZGNFBC

i am a professional kaveh's mom hater sorry kaveh's mom likers 🫶🫶 /lh

degrassi next class if baaz nahir was allowed to be fleshed out and was given real storylines instead of just shoving him in hunters shadow and making him the asshole no one likes

One of the most interesting things abt w359 for me that I think I kind of disagree w some of the fandom on is that I… really like Hera not having a physical form? I know she did at a few points including during the finale, but like when I think of her I just do not conceptualize her with a human form, and I feel like it’s a really interesting idea to explore her just…. Not having one. Like not even conceptualizing herself as having one.

Something about the idea of consciousness without a body, of being in multiple places and being one self but not having a singular body is just super intriguing and also alluring to me, and so I think that’s why it’s always weird to me when I see fanart designs of Hera with a body because my brain takes a moment to like… think about it, because I simply do not think she has one!

nadia mcconnell and uhh michael mell for the bingo?

nadia

michael

....Okay I know she already has two familiars already, but what if I add in a third. A pygmy unicorn named moonstone, moon for short.

This young man displayed the true prowess of alchemy to all, bringing with him a massive corpus of wisdom that even the Sumeru Akademiya did not possess. "The universe is heaven reversed, and the earth is a dream lost to time. This is dust, the most basic form of complex life." As if to provide evidence for this claim, Albedo lifted the burnt ash of the flower that once grew atop a Dendro Slime's head. Seconds later, a Cecilia sprouted forth from the ash in his hand. "And this… is new birth." (Albedo: Character Story)

When I've been wrecking my brain over whether or not Genshin draws the correlation between dust and ashes, and I happen to look into Albedo because of his tie (we can... call it that) to alchemy, and even the art of Khemia specifically which is the much more ancient form of it, and there it is. Now excuse me as I go ramble in my tags a little incoherently...

If you're from the city, you tend to pay no mind to the forest that looms in a distance.

Sometimes there almost looks like there's shuffling going on in the trees or pathways that link the forest back to society. Ignore them. There's nothing but dangerous animals living in the forest and you don't need them entering the city right? So then why is there always a curious looking boy staring back into the city. The city seems like a place not many would want to go, it's middle-grounds and often thrown between companies fighting for lands. Yet he almost seems enamored with the city. It's hard to see him through the tree leaves and shadow casting down but there's no mistaking the yellow jacket that engulfs the boy. Do we try and make friends with him? He's a person after all... No ones seen him in the city yet either. He had to come from *somewhere* right? Maybe... He's a child of the forest after all and shouldn't be approached.