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bazooka-overkill · 2 months

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hiiiii! I hope I’m not botherin’ ya, but I see you’d like some hcs (I’m a bit late lol) so I thought I’d share one of my good ol’ spooky tiger hcs if ya don’t mind some horror on your blog-

tiger’s clones aren’t clones, they’re actually ghosts or bhuts (vengeful ghosts from hindu folklore!) they’re all deceased family members that ended up possessing his body when he was younger cause he went upon their resting place unknowingly. and they’ve just followed him ever since. he’s managed to work out a kind of agreement that if they promised to behave, they could stay within his lil gem headspace.

the water gem is called Lahar, the snow gem is Sardi and the grass gem is Gaiya. they still care about tiger despite their circumstances, but death hasn’t been kind to their minds. sometimes they get out of hand, and that’s when problems arise for not only tiger but other boxers involved.

I’m so sorry for rambling op, I just like details snnsns but I hope the take is cool 💪

literally starts break dancing SCREAMS ITS OK ANON ANY HCS ARE NEVER LATE ON THIS BLOG TRUST. and trust me there is no such thing as rambling in my mind lmao. also also literally anything is allowed here as long as its not nsfw/flatout gore

this is the coolest take evr on great tiger's clones tbh; ive always just taken away that they're their own separate people, but still apart of tiger's "soul," in a way

stopp the thought that they're family makes me want to sob now. i can see them just kind of. bothering tiger like protective parents or something. tiger hasn't eaten in a hot minute? lahar's nagging him to go get or make a meal. hasn't been outside and touched grass? guess what gaiya's saying to him (99.999% get it wrong)

and the mere mention of them getting out of hand??? plus in the RING W OTHER BOXERS????? oh lord have mercy i can only imagine what could happen. i don't exactly have a good understanding/wording of what i can imagine lmao, but one things for certain: the wvba/ref has definitely had to stop rounds early because of the bhuts (am i using that word right).

damn now i want to see-- if nintendo makes a PO sequel/port on the switch or something-- the possibility of a TD 2 where great tiger and his ghosts (idk if i can use bhuts and ghosts interchangeably) lose control and mac has to counter and dodge like crazyyy.

if the above was added, i'd love to see what exactly happens when they go out of control. personally, i'd imagine great tiger gets all light headed and can barely move while his ghosts go absolutely haywire in the ring.

and that'd also explain why he's so nonchalant with them; they're his family members. when death decides to not torment them, i can see them being almost like,,, yknow family. you know that intermission cutscene right before the next round where they're all talking and great tiger tells them they gotta get back to work?

also,, idk if i want to be sad and think abt the possibility how great tiger had a strong bond with his family members before they died, but if that's the case i would imagine that's how great tiger copes; he pretends they're still alive, in that case.

GRAAGHHDHH now im gonna be thinking about this during my classes

#punch out #great tiger #great tiger headcanon #this headcanon is true btw im the major circuit ring ropes #specifically the 2nd ring from the top #bazooka overkill #bazooka-overkill #BTW MY ASKS R ALWAYS OPEN #UR ASKS R NEVER LATE

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bugdrums · 8 months

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very sappy friendposting

on august 31st i got hit by a car while crossing the street to catch a bus to school. just my luck, this happened about 12 hours before i was supposed to board my flight to seattle to attend pax west and stay with my friend @commander-snacks and his wife for the weekend, as well as see my sibling.

the accident could have been a lot worse, to the point where i didn't even break anything (just a lot of scrapes/bruises and a cracked bone in my leg) so thankfully i was out of the hospital within a few hours and the doctors gave me the ok to travel. i was still in a tremendous amount of pain, though, and waffled back and forth quite a bit on whether i still wanted to go, but ultimately i'm so so SO glad my stubborn ass decided to go despite the condition i was in.

sawney and cakey were BEYOND hospitable when i stayed with them. i can't thank either of them enough for the love and care they gave me last weekend. cakey tended to my scrapes and wounds and made me dinner and tea, and sawney pushed me around in a wheelchair for two straight days of pax (and we got to experience the nintendo live showroom together one of those days! sawney initially didn't have a nintendo live pass but i couldn't get around by myself so they ended up letting him in too! we played the super mario wonder demo and took a lot of great pictures including this one in which i used humor to cope with my situation)

i cannot emphasize enough how lucky i feel to have such generous friends. we'd been planning this trip for a few months but the injury happened at the very last minute and we still made it work anyway. i felt so loved and comfortable and had an amazing time even though shit was complicated. everyone deserves friends like this.

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(sticking this here because sawney is my deep cut friend and this song has been making me emotional as hell for hours now)

#so meloudies

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lexiemoon321 · 1 year

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☀️A sunny Sunday means a stroll around Rosewood!☀️

Hey guys! I hope you all are having a wonderful day! I am so excited to work on Moon today because I am almost done with decorating the front of Nook's Cranny! Alongside that, I am also in the process of trying to find good editing software (for IOS or even just my laptop) that isn't terribly expensive. So if you know a good photo editing software that won't break the bank, PLEASE let me know!

Besides working on Moon today, I have ANOTHER character on Rosewood I want you guys to meet! He is still in the process but once I introduce you to him I will explain how he came up in my mind and how he has been not only a coping mechanism but a good way to clean out my storage in the game lol.

I am going to say that starting this blog has also helped me feel like I can write down my thoughts and express them through a game that I hold dear to my heart. To tell you the truth, I didn't have a Nintendo Switch console in March of 2020 when New Horizons first came out. The only way I have played any Animal Crossing before this time was on Mobile with Pocket Camp. I got my console on Christmas Eve and I started to play New Horizons on the 26th. Ever since then, I have never fully stopped. I need to get off for now but I will most definitely update you all on Moon! Until then, bye friends!

QOTD: What was the name of your first island when you started to play Animal Crossing New Horizons?

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Mushroom Apron: MO-4FB8-K96W-GW8V

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#animal crossing new horizons #animal crossing #acnh life #acnh inspo #acnhcommunity #acnh community #nintendo acnh #acnh photos #acnh #cozy gamer #cozy girl #cozy games

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argiopi · 2 years

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why is this zote dialogue making me have a moment about the entire royal family

#i’m not even gonna name names because like... 👈👆👉 everyone #i'm getting my steam copy to endgame so I can play godhome mods :V #inferno king grimm oouuuuughhhh i am climbing the hill to our battlefield...#i could saveedit but this is funner. and i don't wanna fuck with achievements.#(the dialogue is about the husks that still guard the city in death)#(but it's About more you know you know?)#i forgot you can encounter him here. i was surprised. hello soggy man.#i'm using a switch pro controller that i stole from my friend to play elden ring instead of my joycons bluetooth hack.#the buttons are so big and widely spaced... what do you mean my thumb cannot cover ABXY at the same time..#how am i meant to cope with this biophysical latency #ah the sacrifices made for not having to run the gauntlet to make my silly little setup work (sometimes still did not work)#Guys did you know you can use the nintendo switch joycons on PC? If you had neglected all your life to buy a controller that works on PC?#Install Betterjoy. you'll need to also have visual C++ installed if you don't already - then just seek bluetooth devices & sync your joycons #idk if it's windows only?#join me in pissing off all your friends when they see you playing dark souls with a tiny joycontroller in each hand.#unfortunately i haven't been able to get it to work with emulators #absolutely glorious weather in this region. everyone don't forget to lie down in the sun. it's vitally important.#I mean it! Sunbathe at the next possible opportunity!#ahh the bliss of lying on the grass by the side of the road. peace is attained when you stop caring. take your breaks where you must.#comes onto tumblr to share a wee thought and writes a whole diary entry well well well well well.#woozy from Activity and unfiltered even.#gaming in bed is also a vital human need.#i luv bideo games. they're just like (does a thing) (does a thing) (does a thing) (is not actually doing any of these things)#anyway who decided bikes are no longer allowed in grocery stores. I got yelled at in Two stores for bringing my bike into the aisles.#both of which stores I have brought my bike in before and I even met a fellow cyclist in there once who had her bike with her?#it was two stores bc the first time I just left instead of leaving bike in lobby because That's My Baby.#but the second time i already had an armful of groceries lol #(bike was injured) (had it fixed) (riding in sunny weather instead of over snow is Woo Woo Woo Woo Woo I feel human again <3).#praise be to rambling.#oh zote. it was never for virtue. u_u

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queenypie · 4 years

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How I learned to enjoy BotW

I’ve been off tumblr a long time and in general just haven’t written creatively in far too long. While I’ve dealt with real life stuff, graduating college, moving, a medical scare (I’m fine), and moving to a new state, I’ve...just been laying low while I continue the job search. Also I’ve been playing Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild again to cope.

When I first played BotW, I treated it like Fallout: New Vegas. That was a grade A mistake that still bothers me, but I’ll get to that later. That was years ago; this time around I decided to give it another shot, be more patient, try to use guides minimally, and it’s been a far better experience.

With better knowledge, I now know not to tackle the Gerudo section until last. Not necessarily because it’s difficult, but because the stealth section was almost exclusively the thing that made me quit last time. So yeah, avoiding that has helped. Knowing and seeking armor upgrades, weapon slot upgrades, and just prioritizing shrines has been an overall enjoyable experience.

Combat has not been great. While I have gotten better at (still crap though), it gets pretty repetitive, primarily the bulkier enemies. Breaking several weapons on a Lyonel’s cheeks, eyelashes, and armpits and seeing it only 1/3 of the way dead gets really daunting, really fast. Breaking Weapons isn’t as bad after awhile, but I stand by the complaint that it makes every weapon feel less special.

Puzzles have been mostly passable, nothing too taxing, but generally fun enough. Well, minus the gyro controlled ball in a maze, although the golfing one was fun if clunky. I’m still not keen on puzzles requiring weapons with limited durability or ammunition, but BotW isn’t a game where ammunition is that hard.

In terms of exploration and rewards, this still hasn’t changed all that much. In my honest, if harsh opinion, Zelda really doesn’t have enough rewards to offer for completing objectives. Oh what’s that, some hearty truffles for completing your 3 trials? Good thing I don’t have 19 of those in my inventory already! Killed a tribe of monsters? Silver ruppee...I could farm that in less time and without spending any resources! Oh what’s that, you got me Monopoly for the Nintendo 64? Well that would’ve been great in 1864 when it was impressive to not die at the age of 35!

Overall I hope BotW2 works on some of these issues. I find the runes you have access to are versatile enough, but I still wish for a bit more in terms of what items you have to work with. Weapon durability could stand to be made at least a bit more tolerable. Basically can we get a hookshot in botw2?

Still, BotW has been an enjoyable experience. I wouldn’t rank it anywhere near my favorites, nor do I think holds a candle to Fallout: New Vegas, but I would rate a solid 8/15 (C).

#botw #breath of the wild #zelda

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burgundyquills · 4 years

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Ok, I’m gonna rant a little about SUF because I’ve got some Emotions™ and some thoughts that I want to put into words, so to my good like 5 followers: feel free to ignore me

I first found Steven Universe some years ago when it first started airing. 2013. Dude, that’s 7 whole years ago. I didn’t pay any attention to it. Sure I caught an episode or two now and then, but I guess I usually changed the channel if it was on. I was more into Gravity Falls and video games anyway. I remember vaguely at some point I thought about watching it but it would take time and effort to get into it and it didn’t catch my eye, so I never did.

A few years later, I found the music. I never got into the whole soundtrack, but I loved listening to a select few songs. They always made me feel better. I remember playing Here Comes a Thought on a car ride home from the therapy sessions I used to go to.

At the end of last summer, I stayed for a week at a house on the beach with some family members. I left all my technology except for my Nintendo switch at home, so I eventually ran out of stuff to do. We were looking through the tv and since I haven’t really watched tv in some years, Cartoon Network was one of the only channels that I remembered the number for. Apparently they were playing all of the SU episodes in a marathon leading up to the movie. It was weird to realize I remembered so much of it. I tuned in every once in a while and saw that there was a plot and the show got better as it went on. I remember I got really into it when the episode with Here Comes a Thought came around. It was a weird realization that maybe the show was good. I started watching the series from the start when I got home the next week, skipping a few episodes I saw the week before. I got really into it, it was so weird for a show to have lgbtq+ representation, complex characters, good music, and good messages. It really helped me cope with some depression and junk, the show has always been so wholesome and delightful. I watched the movie a day or two after it came out and the songs really started getting stuck in my head. I’d be watering some plants and humming Other Friends or making myself a snack while listening to True Kinda Love. I searched through Tumblr and found a bunch of really interesting theories and AUs which I’ve been keeping an eye on.

I remember watching The Test and seeing Steven not even say anything about how the Gems lied to him. It really stood out to me. I thought that was super mature of him, I figured I’d be nice about it but there’s no way I would be able to let something like that slide, even if they were trying to help him. I’ve seen someone on here point out how that shows his self-sacrificing nature and how he doesn’t want to advocate for his needs/feelings because he’s afraid to be a burden. Weird how idolizing that action may reflect my own tendency to be too scared to advocate for myself for the same reasons?

Anyways

Future rolled around and I loved that it was a little darker, focusing on Steven and his problems. To see mental health portrayed accurately in a show? A kid’s cartoon? Wild.

To relate to it? Wild.

It’s such a sharp feeling to have a show you’ve grown to love, a voice you’ve grown to trust, tell you that you can’t bottle up your emotions. Like yeah, everyone says the whole “you gotta trust ur friends and family! you’re not a burden!!” but it’s honestly easier to believe when it’s presented like this.

Imagine taking advice from a children’s show when you can’t accept that very same advice from friends, family, and actual experts?

Yeah. Some of it hits real close to home and I’m obviously not the only person on here to think that. It’s nice to see that the show means so much to so many people.

Am I gonna miss it? Absolutely, but I’m satisfied to see it end like this. I may only have been a fan for a few months, but it’s grown on me like fungi grows on a tree. Is it flawed? Of course it is! But it was good. I liked it. Am I afraid to admit that to the people in my life, to my friends? Yeah. I’ve been afraid to tell people I like anything because people are so quick to shit on other peoples’ interests. People will find a flaw in anything and decide the whole thing is cringe or bad and judge the people who support it. Yes, it’s kind of silly. Yes, it’s kind of childish. Yes, the writing is flawed. Yes, there’s a lot of stuff that goes unaddressed or simply doesn’t make sense.

So?

Nothings perfect, dude. Relax. Let people let what they like. Let us take refuge in a cartoon because it helps us feel better. Respect that this is slightly breaking down the art block and burn-out I’ve been dealing with for a few years. It’s scary that art and writing, two things I’ve loved for ages, don’t seem appealing anymore. If a cute little show about space and gay rock-people and ice cream sandwiches motivates me to doodle something or write this dumb rant? Maybe it’s okay. If it makes us share some of our feelings or past traumas or get some real help when we’re scared to be a burden? Maybe it’s okay. I mean, I sure think it is.

#SU #suf #steven universe #steven universe future #ramble #rant #emotion dump #kinda personal?#not a vent #not a shitpost

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mckittyarts · 5 years

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hey guys sorry about the couple of days i wasn’t posting!! this thing took a little longer than i thought-- but yeah! i’ve seen other artists draw their own interpretations of all the incarnations of Links, and i finally decided to draw the versions i’ve made up together with a friend of mine all in one place! get a load of these fools

tumblr wouldn’t let me post these in rows without them getting super blurry so there’s gonna be closeups, headcanons, etc under the cut

Time (Ocarina of Time/Majora’s Mask): - post-majora’s mask but he still has the scars from oot(dont ask me how idk either) - Really Fucked up. Very Strange Grandpa - despite actually having had the years to grow up this time he still acts like a kid - idk i can’t really describe him but he’s just been through so much stress his only remaining emotion is essentially just “:)” - he’s gone back to hyrule and is just kinda wandering around he got those two shoulder pads as a gift and they’re based off of the ones he has as a ghost - the gauntlets are redesigned golden gauntlets only because i forgot what they looked like - he’s missing his right eye from a wolfos and lost his finger when Ganon slapped his sword out of his hand also he has goron tattoos on his shoulders - headcanon that he’s Zelda’s twin brother but they just never were told about it

Sky (Skyward Sword): - he’s got Sleepy Bitch Disease - just wants to rest...... please let him Sleep For Once - he gets very snappy and Rude, especially when he’s tired but he’s pretty patient and sweet around people he’s fond of - headcanon that he has some form of asthma(because in game hes like constantly gasping for air) - after the events of his game hes just Tuckered Out and just wants to sleep for the rest of his life - i didn’t really give him any redesigns, just let him keep his skyloft outfit - his scars are from demise and ghirahim(jerks)

Twi (Twilight Princess): - COUNTRY BOYYYY I LOVE YOUU - furry boy go awooo - amazing with animals and kids but doesn’t really cope too well in social situations because he gets Nervous - GAY. I WONT ACCEPT ANY OTHER ANSWER - headcanon that he’s the direct descendant of Time - goes back to his Farming Ways after the War and just chills with the rest of Ordon village - most of his scars are from those stupid Ghost Rats but he also has some others from Ganondorf

Wild (Breath of the Wild): - ‘scuse me everyone certified ROWDY BOY comin through - he seems very normal from a distance but as soon as you get close to him you will realize that you just found a Raccoon - *sees anything* oh! yum! - really, really loves cooking and is actually really good at it even if his ingredients come from questionable locations - headcanon that along with every other memory he lost, he also forgot most of what was pressuring him before his Death and is now completely unhinged and will not stop for anyones social standards - he has a couple scars from being blasted by guardians but honestly most of his other ones are because he just really loves rolling down mountainsides

Warrior (Hyrule Warriors): - hh,,, Anxious boy :( - he just really wants approval and he damn well deserves it - when he first got appointed as the hero of whatever and got the master sword he was honestly starting to get a bit cocky - but then Cia Promptly ripped all of that confidence and Rude Boy Behaviour out of him and he became :( again - he could speak beforehand but he got an injury during the battles and is now rendered practically mute - has a couple major scars underneath his scarf/tunic but he managed to keep his face mostly unscathed somehow

Albi (A Link Between Worlds/Tri Force Heroes): - Shy,,,, doesnt like Attention - honestly just wants to be left alone but since he’ss the hero of whatever people just Gave Him Too Much Love - broke down and is now Fashionable - sometimes likes to sew or paint - headcanon that he’s colourblind(tritanopia) - those little marks on his skin are little “wall cracks” from merging too often - has a few scars but no important ones tbh

Minish (The Minish Cap): - small and Super Mad About It - he’s extremely quiet and only really ever talks if he’s mad or asked a question - and even then he says as few words as he can possibly muster - really dedicated blacksmith and is pretty good at his job despite his age - still hangs out with Zelda a whole lot theyre still Best Friends - the scar is from his fight with Vaati and he got an undershirt with a collar to hide it a bit because he feels a bit self conscious about it :(

Engi (Spirit Tracks): - BABY BOY. BABY - fuckin LOVES trains. he would Probably Die without them. still an engineer - completely polite and sweet, calls you sir and stutters a whole lot - also likes to fidget when he doesn’t have anything to do with his hands - secretly completely RIPPED and could probably break you in half if he just weren’t such a sweetheart - missing tooth from Byrne smacking him in the face with his Metal Hand and constantly has scratches but thats just cuz hes clumsy - headcanon that he’s the grandson of Wind - another headcanon that he can see ghosts since he was the only one who could see Zelda when she got absolutely annihilated

Wind (The Wind Waker/Phantom Hourglass): - SHIP AHOY BITCHES - absolutely Stupid. goddamn Fool, complete and utter buffoon - tends to be a bit direct and a little too honest but as i said before. complete Dumbass - ADORES to tease and poke fun as long as no one gets hurt - swears like a sailor and IS a sailor. Its All Connected - has a crooked nose because SOMEONE launched him at a wall that one time. Also from that explosion that launched him into that other wall that other time - all his little jewelry things are treasures he found along the way

Alti (A Link To The Past/Oracle of Seasons/Ages/Link’s Awakening): - oof this boi has been through So Much - just so tired of this shit.......... wants a break already - has pink hair because nintendo cant convince me otherwise and also has black roots because that’s his hair colour in the gameboy games - still misses everyone from the wind fish’s dream :( also idk know if he ever came back from the ocean tbh - honestly i know jack shit about any of his games so,,, sorry my boy

Classic (The Legend of Zelda/The Adventure of Link): - the boy who started it all!!! god i love him so - honestly don’t really know much about him either,,, and honestly i dont think there is a lot to know the classic games are pretty plotless - but i like to imagine he’s like every Good Protagonist trope but none of the other links appreciate it a whole lot - “dont worry guys i believe we can do this! :)” cut to the whole group throwing trash at him - also gave him sectoral heterochromia to match the way his eyes look in the first game’s sprites

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rotting-bunny · 4 years

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-vent under the cut(if it worked idk how to use technology)

I fucked with the electronics on my switch and broke my left joycon single handed my destroying my only coping mechanism. I was doing better for a bit when shit hit the fan I could just go on my animal crossing island and it was ok. I thought it was stupid like a game isn’t going to make me feel better but from the time I was a little kid on I loved Nintendo. It just helped me live my life inspiring me to do so many things and literally in middle school the only reason I didn’t kill myself was because I was waiting in the new Pokémon game to come out.

I can’t put into words how stupid I feel right now. I was the stupidest kid in robot club that’s why I quit I told myself that I would learn on my own and try my best but it’ll be ok and it’s what day three missing a joy con. It’s honestly gnawing in the lit of my stomach like a parasite “you did this to yourself”, “moron” “eat shit what made you think you could do it” it’s all too loud giving me a headache. It’s not even a valid reason to break down liek I’m stuck in this house I’m lonely there is nowhere for me to go FUCK.

I literally just hung out with a friend I shouldn’t feel this way. Jesus fuck I literally just finished my sophomore year of highschool everything I know is dead and time killed it. I want to go home damn it,this isn’t home this is a shell,it’s a husk if a home. We used to have memories,Hope now all I have is paintings I’ll regret in a year,cracked concrete flooring and more empty memories lined with fear.

God help the dramatic girl who lives in a shell.the moment her meds wear off her mind goes to hell.

#ok to reblog #oddcore #dreamcore #dereality #ventcore #eyestrain #neoncore #vent

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jasminwritesthings · 3 years

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Fall Flowers and Other, Sadder Things That I Don’t Understand

Trigger warning: mentions of death, suicide, and terminal illness

He holds the gun to his head, and I can hear myself scream out. I’m begging him to stop, I need him to stop. This isn’t right. I have had twenty-four full years with my father, but Thomas has had only seventeen, and Lily only thirteen.

He is crying, I have known him my entire life and I have never seen him cry. He didn’t cry at his wedding to my mother, he didn’t cry when Lily and Thomas were born, and he didn’t cry at his diagnosis, although everyone else did. Though grim, he somehow managed to keep a wide smile on his face despite the verdict that he was only going to have months to live.

I didn’t mean to walk in on him. I was on my way to pick up Lily from school and take her to tennis practice, but Mom had reminded me that I needed to come back to grab the instructor’s cheque. I entered their bedroom, she had told me that Dad was meeting her for lunch, she had left early to pick up his medication. The last thing that I expected was that he would be home, preparing himself for the final decision he would ever make.

I am shaking, but I can hear him drop the gun to the floor. When I finally gain focus I notice that he is shaking too, and for the first time in my life I feel like I should be the one taking care of him. I hold him in a tight hug, not dissimilar to those he would give me as a child, when I would fall off of my bike and it would feel like the end of the world.

Now I’m begging, but for different reasons. I need to understand why he wanted these to be his final moments. I’m asking for answers that I don’t believe either of us have. What about Lily and Thomas? What about Mom? Was he just going to leave us behind?

When I was much younger, Mom and Dad got into an argument so intense that Mom left the house. It was late, and I wasn’t even supposed to be awake, but I had asked Mom earlier if I could stay up later to watch TV. I didn’t mean to catch their screaming, but I did. I watched through the rail of the stairway as Mom grabbed her bag and left, taking the car with her. Dad held his face in his hands and I ran downstairs crying, yelling: where is mommy going? Are you leaving too? He picked me up, bouncing me high on his hip. We walked towards the kitchen and he placed me on the counter, so we could be eye-to-eye.

After I had calmed down, he held my face in his hands, wiping the tears away. He told me that Mom needed to leave for a little while. At the time, it felt like she was betraying our family by leaving us without a goodbye, but as I got older I realized how hard it must have been for her, for the both of them, to be parents at such a young age. Dad said that he would never leave me, he would always be right next to me, and Mom would be too, she just needed to visit Grandma for a little. They fought every once in a while, and they managed to patch things up, but I had always held Dad’s words in the back of my mind.

The anger that had briefly coursed through my veins settled when I realized that Dad had been selfless for more than half of his life, and this decision, his final one, would be his only selfish one. I continue to hold him until we have both calmed down, and when we finally do, I take the gun, putting it back in its case with the intent to take it back to my car. I tell Dad to follow me, and I take him to lunch with Mom before picking up Lily.

My Dad has already lived for six months since his diagnosis, he was only estimated to live for eight. When he explains what pushed him to hold that gun, his reasoning makes sense, though I wish it didn’t. Ramblings of a madman are easier to cope with than the truth, though harder to understand. I have gotten the best of my Dad for twenty-three of my twenty-four years, Lily and Thomas have gotten much less. The both of them are forming key memories now that will stick with them for the rest of their lives, and the last thing that he wanted was for them to remember him this way: sick and weak, unable to do most things for himself.

We still have time, he can make more memories with them before he leaves. But even if he didn’t, I couldn’t imagine Lily and Thomas remembering him this way. Before he leaves, he says that maybe he will try to make more memories, maybe he has more in him. He asks me not to tell Mom what I’ve seen. I check the backseat for the gun. I agree.

The next time I see Dad, my Mom has asked me to join them on a weekend-long trip to the cottage. I have more than enough good memories at the cottage, it has been one of my favourite places since before I could even remember, so of course I agree. I greet Lily with a hug, Thomas is still in the stage of his life where he thinks he’s too cool to give or receive affection, but I ruffle his hair nonetheless. I remember when I was in the same stage, I was angry all the time, but I didn’t want to be. I know that I can’t blame him for the way that his hormones and school make him feel. I hug Mom and Dad, and I follow them to the van.

To me, car trips have always been the best part of any trip. At home and at our destination there is nothing that requires us to be together, but in the car, we’re closer than we usually are, even if it’s only for a few hours. When we were younger, Thomas, Lily, and I would play Nintendo DS together during the car rides. Now, we sing along loudly to bad songs on the radio and watch movies on the car’s entertainment system. We each take turns annoying Mom by asking her if we’ve arrived yet, and Dad periodically joins in. When we finally do arrive, we all cheer with glee.

Thomas helps me unpack the trunk, and by the time we finish Lily is already in her bathing suit, jumping into the lake feet-first. Once I drop the things in the living room of the cottage I watch Thomas interact with Lily at the edge of the dock. I see her hand reach up and pull him down by his ankle, and he barely has the time to toss his phone into the grass, all of us narrowly avoiding his temper for the weekend. He’s angry when he surfaces, but it quickly dissolves as he starts to splash Lily.

I feel someone walk up behind me, and I looked over to Mom as she watches out on Lily and Thomas. She tells me that she’s glad that they can still have fun, they haven’t let Dad’s sickness eclipse their joy in the same way I have. When we found out Dad was sick, I stepped up to help Mom with Thomas and Lily, becoming parental over Lily more than Thomas. I’m here now, though, I want to make more memories too.

I pretend that I can’t hear it when Dad starts to throw up, he’s been doing it every day for weeks, but Mom rushes to help him. I open the screen door and sit on the dock, watching as Thomas and Lily splash away in the water, play-fighting and yelling. When Mom and Dad finally come out, Dad has a giant deflated pool float in his hand. He asks me to blow it up and I jokingly roll my eyes, telling him that it’s going to take me forever to blow it up, but I don’t really mind.

We spend the day basking in the sun, playing in the water, barbequing, and taking the boat out. It’s the most fun that we’ve had since Dad’s diagnosis, and I can tell that my brother and sister are having a blast.

The weekend passes by quickly, a blur of water, food, and laughter, and Sunday night we are back out again, taking the van back home. I dread returning to the twisted routine that my life has turned into, but for now I decide that it’s better to live in the moment, and appreciate what we have left. Thomas flicks Lily in the back of the head from the back seat, and she screams out, starting a fighting match with him. I break them apart, and I tell Thomas to chill out, and we’re quickly back to watching ET, a movie that had once been my favourite. I couldn’t imagine being in ET’s place, where everything he had ever known was taken away so quickly, but he returned home. Although sad, Elliot knew that ET belonged home in the end.

I take my stuff out of the car, saying goodbye to my family as I prepare to go. Mom lingers outside for a moment, she tells me that I can stay the night if I’d like, but I have work tomorrow morning. I give her a hug and tell her that I’ll see her later this week when I pick up Thomas to take him to dance, and I take my stuff to my car. I’m not sure why, but when I start to drive I start to cry. I open the window and scream, I can’t help it, I’m just feeling so much at once.

Three weeks later, after work on a day where I didn’t have to pick up either Lily or Thomas, I got a phone call from Mom. She was crying, yet calm at the same time, I didn’t want her to feel the need to act alright when she wasn’t, especially not for my sake. She asked me to come to the hospital, but it wasn’t urgent. I was there in twenty minutes despite the lack of urgency.

I met Mom outside the room she had told me Dad was in, and she explained the situation to me. Dad was reaching his final days, and he wanted to go out on his own terms, with the help of the doctors. This time, I didn’t beg or scream or yell, I just nodded solemnly as I looked at my father in his hospital bed. She told me that he wanted it done today, and that it was now time to say our goodbyes.

I stood outside for a moment, silent and scared to move. My dad is not a perfect man, he never has been. He is flawed, he says the wrong things sometimes, and he has made mistakes, but that will never change the fact that he is my father. I have always loved him despite his imperfections and despite the yelling matches that we used to get into. Even though I caught him in his room, ready to take his own life, that will never be how I remember him. Just like how this will not be how Thomas and Lily remember him. The hot tears fall down my face, and I rapidly wipe them away, I don’t want to upset him when I enter the room.

When I finally muster up the courage, I give him a smile as I walk into the doorway. I wrap him in the tightest, longest hug that the two of us have ever shared, I never want to let him go, but I know that I have to. I tell him all of the thoughts from my head, I shouldn’t say them all but they come out anyways. I tell him that he has been the best dad that I could ever ask for. He has been there for me my entire life, and I could never thank him enough for everything. I tell him that I love him so much, more than words could ever hope to describe, and I will never forget him, my kids will one day hear stories of him. I can’t help the stream of tears as the nurse enters, and our final words to each other are ones of love.

I wait with him, I’m holding one of his hands while my mother holds the other, she let Thomas and Lily say goodbye to him earlier, but she didn’t want them to see this. He gives us a sad smile, and I stand by his bedside for the full eighteen minutes that it takes. When we hear the flatline, I know that I should console Mom, but I have to leave the room instead.

I turn around and I shut the door, I slide down the wall and plug my ears. When he finally did pull the trigger, I forgave him.

#short story #queue-riouser and queue-riouser #feedback is greatly appreciated #this is from early 2019 #writing #writer #writeblr #tw: suicide #tw: terminal illness #tw: death

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altalksaboutstuff · 4 years

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Shantae: 1/2 Genie Hero

From the 16th of this month, March 2020, to the 15th of next month, April 2020, Games with Gold has the excellent platformer – Shantae: ½ Genie Hero. As long as you have an active Xbox Live or Xbox Gamepass Ultimate subscription

It's “FREE” to download during that period but even after April 15th, you can keep playing it, it won't leave your library and if you let your subscription expire it will still remain, you just can't play it.

I have had Gamepass for about a year now, I wanted to kind of document my journey and time with games on Gamepass and one of the first that I played when I got the service last year was Shantae: ½ Genie Hero. Unfortunately, this game is no longer available on the service and I thought back in September of 2019 that I had lost my chance to talk about it in a relevant sense, but lo and behold its back now – kind of, in a zombie-esque way.

The game expiring from Gamepass was actually the launching point for me to a Switch. It was my birthday in September and Shantae was just about to be removed from the service, great present Microsoft. I was kind of depressed that in this moment in my life that I had spent about a quarter of a year playing the game that was just going to up and leave. Now I could have bought it and at a discount but if I did that I would be getting just the base game that I was practically done with. I also had all this extra money from my birthday burning a hole in my pocket and instead doing something smart like putting towards my mortgage – I ended up buying a Switch to cheer me up. And what does the Switch have but the physical version of Shantae: ½ Genie Hero that includes all the DLC.

THAT – and the fact that one of my favorite games of all time was just remade – Link's Awakening.

So I got those two games to cope with the fact that I wouldn't be able to play Shantae on Gamepass anymore in a few days ...but I had also gotten my wife a Switch Lite for our anniversary so I kind of wanted a reason to give it to them early and we had a Switcheversay on September 28th.

NERD!

On a side note of this tangent – I feel like I'm always a little behind with Nintendo, with my earliest exposure to Nintendo being no different. Way back in the dark ages of the early 1990s I was a Genesis Lad. After school I was in a program where I first got to play a Nintendo game, there were NES consoles, games and Ataris as well. While kids at school were telling me, “YA GOTTA PLAY Donkey Kong Country 2 and Mega Man X!” The cutting edge stuff of the time, I would root around and find other games like Donkey Kong Jr. and Mega Man 2 on NES. Now don't get me wrong, those were great games I loved then and still love now but I was behind the times. I just didn't have a Super Nintendo, like most of my peers that I went to school with. I just had the Sega. So when most were playing Super Mario World, Chrono Trigger and A Link to Past – I was playing Sonic... Sonic (Sonic 2)... and Sonic... (Sonic 3 but not & knuckles)

BUT Sonic is great!

When my friends had a Gameboy Advance, I still had a Gameboy Color. When the DS was the hot handheld, I got a Gameboy Advance, I got a 3DS around the time Fire Emblem Fates came out when it seemed like everyone was clamoring for a new portable technology and I got a Wii U when it was all but dead. As previous stated, I only got a Switch last September. Heck, I haven't even played the new Mary-o yet

Pushing forwarding in the way back machine to the time when I was a still a young teen, at the age of 14, I remember a Gameboy Color game came out that I really wanted to get – Shantae. I don't even know why I really wanted it other than it was a new Gameboy Color game when new Gameboy Color games weren't coming out. Like, I remember the Gameboy Advance came out about a year ago but I didn't need one according to my parents-

Me: Mom, can I get a Gameboy Advanced? Mom: You have Gameboy Advance at Home ::At home::

So the impact of a new Gameboy Color game coming out - blew … me … away.

Of course - I didn't get that game either.

Now don't get me wrong, I still got games as a kid on birthdays and Christmas but I feel like the games I didn't get are the ones I look back at and think – If only...

(^I never had a Neo Geo but I wanted this game)

Love you Mom and Dad

Back to Shantae though

Tangents aside – why do I think I like this game?

Why is it when I played Half Genie Hero in June of 2019 did I really got hooked on it well until the end of summer? I play, play, played it – all the modes, collect the endings, the tedious achievements like Queen of the Seven Cheese where you have to beat Risky Boots by just chomping at her as a mouse doing 1 damage at at a time.... ugh! For achievements I even … gasp (teeth noise) … speed ran it. And successfully, not on my first attempt though! Or … at least successfully enough to get the endings and achievements. I've never speed ran a game before, at least on purpose. I drew bad fan art!

(^Unlike everything else on this post, I actually drew that [sorry])

For the first time in my life I even looked into Fan Fiction.

Which, on a side note, I don't recommend you look at most of the fan fiction that I’ve seen if you are at work.

The game really got its hooks into me and I'm not exactly sure why but I think I might know.

Well, it feels like a SEGA Genesis game – long story short.

Short story long - I think the best way to classify what kind of game this is, is Metroidvania. You have a mini map and you unlock powers that later allow you to explore the rest of the levels you had previous been to and there are collectibles and upgrades you can buy in game. As you play you can upgrade how Shantae attacks by purchasing upgrades for her hair whip attack or armor but the big mechanic is the transformations – you can turn into animals with varied attacks and abilities as well as some other inanimate objects and living things like this tree

- to help you better get across the stages and discover the secrets of Sequin Land.

I've also read its kind of Mega Man– ish which I had never really thought about before but yeah, because I do love some Mega Man. It has a lot of obstacles/the levels are kinds of obstacle courses like the early NES Mega Man games and there are two areas particularly in my mind – The factory in Mermaid Falls and the Hypno Baron's Castle part of the … Hypno Baron's Castle stage. Well most of it is actually like an obstacle course now that I think about it

The score is by Jake Kauffman and man, AND if I ever make a game I want that guy doing my music. I mentioned the factory part of Mermaid Falls before – the best track in the game and maybe even in any game I've ever heard is Counterfeit Mermaids, its such an earworm,

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KkXd26E_Ynw

I feel like this song and Neo Town Burning are the two best games

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yParHIzy1nA

You are going to be in the camp that one is better than the other (though Counterfeit Mermaids is clearly the superior track, ahem)

Its a great soundtrack, I find myself tuning into it during my commute to work and sometime even turning off my podcast or audio books to listen to this soundtrack (yes Even Neo Town Burning too). The game's lead voice actress according IMDB is Cristina Valenzuela (sometimes credited as Cristina Vee) who sings the games title theme that also appears in the first level, Scuttle Town the first time you play the level and also when you first boot up the game its there too. POW! Give it a listen – sample plays and fades. Its great. This soundtrack is really memorable and still in my rotation almost a year after I played it for the first time.

The characters themselves too are varied in personality and the styles are now toted as being“in high definition”.

Shantae is my least favorite but I think that works well in the sense of self insert. And that's not to say Shantae doesn't have a personality, she is kind of bubbly and she cares a lot about her ties such as to her family - such her uncle Mimic and her late mother - and to her friends. The three main friends that back Shantae during her journey (that also get their own adventure in the DLC)

Sky - a somewhat more responsible friend of your that is out to give you some counsel and a ride to each stage on her cool bird

Bolo – who offers a bit of comic relief

Rotty Tops the zombie that is a true friend that shows up to support you and cheer you on, in one time literally too.

By the way there is also Risky Boots (the best character, IMO) who is the larger than life antagonist to akin to a comic book villain.

But even with the “HD” graphics, and incredible score everything about just feels like … a Sega game. I can't really put it to words to do it justice, like, it has the essence of games I grew up with. I know a lot of people already had that nostalgia rush with Freedom Planet or Sonic Mania but I only just got Freedom Planet on Switch

Which is great so far, by the way

and Sonic Mania is on my to do pile

so for me – Shantae was it.

I felt that joy like I was 5 years old playing Sonic 2 for the first time. I took me something embarrassing like 8 hours to beat the first time. But after I beat it, I immediately wanted to play it again. I almost NEVER want to replay a game after I beat it – Best case is I take a break and play it again in a year. While it took me a laughable amount of hours to beat the game the first time but by the time I was really invested and on the 3rd or 4th time replaying it, I was completing it in under 2 hours. I was looking up speed running strats and Youtube videos of people speed running the game to compare and contrast how I played the game. I never, ever thought that I would speed run a game. Super Metroid still takes me an embarrassing number of hours to play and I've beat that almost as many times as Shantae now.

Having played both the Xbox One and Switch versions they look pretty similar and seem to play about the same. I noticed that the game seems to run a bit better on the Xbox One and the load times aren't as long

So I really recommend you get this game. I'm super jealous if you've never played it, you get to experience it for the first time! If you don't have an Xbox One but have a Switch you can get the physical version for pretty cheap, used I got this copy for about $20 and it has all the game content. And with the DLC you can finally play as Risky Boots!

It goes without saying that the game I am most excited for this year, 2020 is going to be Shantae and the Seven Sirens.

If you don't have an Xbox or a Switch, the game is also on PC too. Steam has sales, last time the Ultimate Edition was on sale it was only about $21 (show pic) and with a plug and play controls great.

And just as I was checking before posting this, it is on sale for $20.99 until March 30th, 2020

Its also on PS4, I guess if you don’t have any other options

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confessions-of-an-artist · 4 years

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I probably won't ever truly want to actively participate in drinking alcohol. I know lots of people who do and I respect the heck out of mixologists and general alcohol-enthusiasts. What bothers me though is that people make fun of alcoholism and like to joke about "drinking their problems away" when they only ever drink every once in a while or as a casual thing. I grew up going to A.A. conferences. (These are different from regular A.A. meetings.) My parents are both alcoholics. (I don't use past tense, because even though they haven't touched a drink in decades, they still refer to themselves as alcoholics.) They both quit long before I was born. I would sit at these conferences alongside my younger sister and occasionally my older brother. I would bring my coloring books and my Nintendo DSi. These conferences were hours long and were usually a full-day event. It would start a few hours with a handful of people going up and talking about their experiences with alcohol (and other drugs). Then we would all break off to eat (and socialize), next came a prayer before we cut a cake or served desserts, maybe a raffle, and usually ended up dancing because there would be music playing once the speeches were over. I know the last part sounds fun and exciting, and it was. However, this all happened after having to watch and listen to person after person break down talking about how much alcohol ruined their lives when they decided to use it as a coping mechanism. These conferences helped remind people that they could live happy lives without depending on alchohol or drugs. They were able to spend the day with people who understood them and celebrate. This is why I get so incredibly irritated seeing people laugh at them. It's also why I've decided I don't really want to drink. Yes, I understand the appeal of it, but it's not really something I "can't wait to do". It also makes conversation awkward amongst my friends. I always say I won't drink because of medical reasons, which is only partially true. Even if my health was at 100%, I still wouldn't really want to drink. I'm forced to let them assume that it's "unfortunate" and that I'm "unlucky". If I don't omit the truth I face continous harrassment for being too uptight, so it's just easier to let them continue making assumptions.

#confession #confessions #confessions of an artist #alchohol #alcoholism #A.A.

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purplesurveys · 4 years

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Another quarantine survey for y’alls.

How are you coping? I enjoyed the lockdown in its first few weeks because back then it really felt like a nice break from how hectic January and February were. By now it just feels like it has overstayed its welcome and my anxiety is back to growing by the day, except this time it’s worse because I can’t actually go anywhere or do anything to get rid of it temporarily. Tl;dr I’m doing less and less well. How have things changed for you? School, mostly. The situation in the Philippines isn’t conducive to online learning, so we’ve had to cancel schooling altogether because it was the most humane option to make sure no student gets left behind. Some schools opted to mass-promote (read: pass) all their students, while the schools that selfishly chose to continue holding online classes face online backlash everyday.

On that note, my graduation ceremony is indefinitely postponed and Andrew and I have had to give up a lot of the usual procedures for thesis, like doing fieldwork or having a required number of respondents for our questionnaire. What are three positives to being Isolated or in Quarantine? I get to stay with Kimi all day, my dad cooks amazing food for us daily, and I have so much free time on my hands which I use to watch videos or movies. What are three negatives? I haven’t seen my friends in months, being ordered to stay at home still feels different than voluntarily staying at home, and I have so much free time on my hands which leaves me to overthink and be paranoid.

Have you taken on a new hobby? Not really. I wanted to get into cooking/baking, but my dad always wants to be in control of his kitchen so I’ve barely had any chance to help out. Have you kicked any bad habits? Drinking coffee everyday. I stopped when I noticed I was getting a headache every night, which was my original schedule for making a cup. Have you watched a lot more television or movies? I’ve watched more YouTube but I generally find it hard to start on new shows or movies so no, not really. I’ve always preferred rewatching my favorites. I did revisit Descendants of the Sun starting the other night though; I hadn’t gone back to it since December but I’m glad I did now because it’s such a good show(!!!!!) Have you been separated from someone you love? Tons of people that I love, from orgmates to close friends to best friends to my girlfriend. Discovered any new bands? Nah, I’ve stuck to my faves. With Hayley hyping up her first album for the last five months and finally releasing it a week ago, my eyes and ears were only on her lol Have you shopped more online? Nope, no money these days ha. Have you cooked more? I’ve tried helping my dad more like I mentioned but ugh, he’s so possessive in the kitchen. Have you baked more? Same thing. Have you learned to knit or sew? Nope. Did you end up in Isolation or Quarantine? Just quarantine. I never showed any symptoms and neither did my family, so we’ve all bee in quarantine from the very beginning. Did the stores all close? Save for groceries, they were all closed in the first few days/weeks. But through April, more and more businesses (mostly restaurants) started to come back and offer delivery or pickup services.

In the Philippines where the government has been hugely incompetent, they lifted the lockdown for nearly the entire country yesterday despite the number of cases not showing any signs of slowing down and DESPITE NO MASS TESTING BEING PUT IN PLACE SINCE MARCH. That means this whole quarantine has been fucking useless. And now that people have been crowding highways and malls again, a second wave is just waiting around the corner.

What kind of restrictions did your government put into place? It’s different per province but in my case, we had a ban on liquors, mass gatherings, and non-essential travel; an 8 PM-5 AM curfew; and checkpoints everywhere. For a brief time, homeowners in our village couldn’t even jog outside but I think they’ve loosened up on that rule now. Has this affected any travel, events or plans for you? Hasn’t it, for all of us? An year-end college party that my orgmates and I usually go to was obviously cancelled; I still don’t know what’s happening to our graduation; and plans to volunteer for an animal welfare NGO have been cut off. I was also supposed to go to Thailand and Vietnam this year, but I’ve had to forget about those plans. What is the first thing you will do when you get the chance? Drive up to Gabie, for sure. With all the crazy in the world, we forget how much we take for granted. Is there anything you feel you had taken for granted? Time with my loved ones. I’ve definitely thought about the times I declined on Angela’s offers to go out, or flaked on my blockmates, or opted to skip out on dinner with my orgmates so I could go home. Let's finish off with some nicer things! What is your favourite thing about life? I dunno if I’ve found a favorite thing about it yet. I find it pretty unfair for the most part. What is your favourite thing about nature? How peaceful it can be. Nature has always served me well when I’m in distress, and I will never forget the time I was in Sagada, and I had just gotten out of a breakup and was still reeling over my lolo’s death, and when I reached the top of a hill, I allowed myself to cry while in front of this view.

Favourite place in the world? Sagada, Baguio, and Palawan. Favourite animal? Dogs, if you don’t know me well enough already. Favourite Colour? I personally like pastel pink, and ~aesthetically~ I like black or white. Favourite Foods? My favorite food ever is burgers, but I also like sushi, chicken wings, and steak. Favourite Holiday destination? We don’t have an established destination. My family likes going to new places every time we have the chance to travel. Have you been on a cruise ship? Yes. Have you flown to a travel destination? Sure, several. Have you ever been on a bus or train to a holiday destination? I don’t remember anymore but we probably were. Ever been on a helicopter? I have not. Ever been in a submarine? Smaller chance of that happening cause there’s little opportunity for it, but it sounds like an awesome experience. Thoughts on Theme Parks? I will go there for the theme park food, but I’m fine with not going on any rides. Thoughts on Carnivals? Like a fair? They’re great fun, and I prefer them more than theme parks because they’re more lowkey. I also just go for the food hahahaha I don’t go on rides. Thoughts on Island Life? I’m technically living one because I live in a giant group of islands... but I wouldn’t want to live my whole life in just an island per se. I like being in the city, and I like living in a noisy environment where everyone and everything is busy. Ever taken a ferry to a destination? Eh, not really. We’ve taken smaller boats to get to certain island provinces, but not a ferry. What is the best thing about travelling? Learning new things, seeing new sights, meeting new people, getting to know new cultures.

Who would you like to travel with next time you go on a trip? I’d love to travel with Gabie. I’ve never done it with her before. Randoms.. Favourite television series on Stan? I’ve never heard of that. Favourite television series on Netflix? I don’t watch any shows produced by Netflix. My current favorite show to watch there is Descendants of the Sun, but my other favorites are there too, like Friends, Breaking Bad, and Brooklyn Nine-Nine. What movie are you keen to see? Right now, none of the upcoming ones, or at least the upcoming ones that were meant to be released by the summer. None of them seem appealing to me. Do you study or work or both? I study, but I’m so fucking close to the finish line. If you could have any career, what would it be? I’d love to be in PR. I’d still be in media which is my strong suit, but none of the journalism bullshit I’ve grown sick of in the last four years. Do you play Animal Crossing on Nintendo Switch? No, I’ve never really been a fan of the series so I’ve never felt the need to get the game. I’m happy with Mario Kart 8 haha. What gaming console do you like best? Either the Wii or PS2 as I had a lot of memories with them. Speaking of gaming, name your top 5 games? Pass. Have you ever been to a convention like Comic Con? Nope. Life gets tough, how do you cope? I take a nap, I go to a café somewhere for a few hours to be alone, I take a survey, or I drown myself in work to keep me preoccupied. Do you like housework? If I’m not forced to do it. Are you afraid of the dark? If the dark was meant to be scary, like if I was in a haunted house or if I’m in the woods in the middle of nowhere at midnight. Otherwise it doesn’t bother me. Do you have pets? Yeah, I have the best dog.

#survey #surveys

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