I think I was 15 when I first read the line

when he’s cut, I bleed

and honestly, how can you expect me to ever be normal about romance after that?

being so honest I don’t understand how people can expect you to be doing things constantly every single day. I’m supposed to be on summer break but my university expects me to send in 80 sources for my senior thesis by next week

the very thought of doing school work right now makes me want to cry. I can’t even open a blank document and start writing for my own fics. I can’t even engage in my own hobby right now because I’m so mentally exhausted. how can you expect me to do thesis work? I’ve hardly had a break since finals

my personal life has been an ongoing shitshow since last summer. and has only gotten worse in recent months. how can you expect someone to function in society when you throw one thing after another at them?

I’m so tired and done. but I have no choice other than pushing through it because that’s what’s expected of me! that’s exhausting

I know I’m an adult but I’m allowed to get petty and irritated with comments like this because the people who have been the most racist and aggressive to me have been them 🥰

also I had a breakthrough today that I had in fact overthought a Specific Problem to Death and that I had created a monster in my own mind and that’s why it felt like I was being eaten alive every time I tried to solve it.

If anyone’s wondering why I haven’t been posting on this blog I had a breakdown, dropped out of college for the time being, moved back home, and now I’m deeply addicted to stardew valley while I wait for one of the damn jobs I applied to to call me back

Hearts hand got uh fucking straight up disappeared… I assume when my teacher helped me with making the outlines so it was like an actual sticker but look blorbo stickers fr!!

People with anhedonia how long does it take for this to go away.. this is the longest I’ve gone without being able to do anything I like

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I genuinely have no will to live at all but I keep going bc I have no choice. I have no interest in any career, I can’t focus on any hobbies, it’s all just so boring but i power through every day. I can’t imagine my whole life being like this but idek how to change it.

i can’t believe it’s april. time passes and i do nothing but go backwards! i have been empty for so long. i would rather be filled with sadness or anger or panic or literally anything. i would rather feel anything than feel so much nothing

Sometimes I’m in a momentary panic of “oh fuck I don’t wanna age” and then I remember that hell yeah I do. I wanna be one of those people who go to pride events n shit, that are old enough to be the mom to anyone there, and be giving hugs like the guys in those videos.

Tryna be a helpful little role model for the youngins, so I gotta look the part. You feel me? Need a little costume

Anyone have any book recommendations? I have blown through so many audiobooks while unpacking and I still have so much unpacking to do

life is overall good but ngl a single straw could break my back any minute now 😭

I know why you don’t care for it, but Presiking Edison is the equivalent of Arjuna just devouring the *entire* Pantheon, so that’s why people don’t like it.

You’re allowed to have your opinions about how it was handled but I’m from a usa military family where my dad was annoyingly obsessed with us military history (unless it was like, acknowledging that war crimes was bad) so combined with the experience of ~5 years of my history education being dedicated to teaching me about my state’s contribution to the revolutionary war I think I’m allowed to find them going ‘actually fuck including any of that’ funny if only for the schadenfreude element it brings.

Also I do think there’s a like…vague difference between the gods of a ~4000 year old religion and a smattering of politicians and generals starting from around 300 years back being shoved off screen but I guess your mileage may vary about that

I swear I do like Laurent for the kind of character he is but I’m soooo over EVERYTHING being apart of his plan like it got old in the show but even in the movie that just came out (which I admittedly skimmed thru because I didn’t care that much) the guy said “it was all apart of that blonde assholes plan” which I assume to be … you know. Like even in a movie that 90% of it didn’t include him it’s still his plan I’m so tired of it 😭

guys. guys !!!!