#the recent events: im sad and confused
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foolish. | theodore nott x fem!reader
pairing: ex!theodore x fem!reader
warnings: cursing, angst, mentions of alcohol, mentions of blood, bandleader!theo, ex!theo, jealous!theo, protective!theo, readers status not mentioned, reader is a ravenclaw, google translated italian 😭
summary: Theodore, your ex after a 16 month relationship, is performing at a slytherin party. you attend this party, wanting to go out and finally enjoy yourself, but end up cleaning his wounds
a/n: inspired by this tiktok :> posted: 11/25/23 | masterlist
in the aftermath of the recent events, you were left heartbroken. it had been a 16 months into what you had thought was a happy relationship, and theodore’s sudden decision to end things without any reasons only added to your confusion.
along with the overwhelming emotions of sadness and anger, you found yourself in bed for days on end, consumed by thoughts of what could have caused everything to unravel.
the fear of encountering him only kept you holed up in your dormitory, leading you to skip meals and isolate yourself from everyone. your friend’s patience had run out, despite their affection for you, they couldnt stand watching you suffer in bed because of the certain slytherin any longer.
there was a party coming up in slytherins common room, which you immediately turn down the invitation, knowing theodore would be there performing with his bandmates. “cmon (y/n)! it’ll be fun plus you can use this opportunity to get your mind off of him!” your friend begged in a heartfelt plea.
you only groan, annoyance rising up slowly as you had been denying their offer all day. “god! fine fine ill fucking go!” you blurt out. your friend squeal, wrapping their arms around you as they squeeze you. “okay enough.. i already said im going! dont make me regret it,” you uttered under your friend. they immediately pull away. “you better keep your word!” they declare.
as the days passed and the party approached, you found yourself slipping back into your old habits. the routine of attending classes and meals became second nature once again, but there was one thing you made a conscious effort to avoid - nott. despite your efforts, you couldn't help but notice your other house mates whispering about how he would often stare at you from across the room. however, you continue to pay no attention towards him.
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"are you sure i look hot?" (y/n) inquired, looking in the mirror at the fitted cute black dress that hugged her body. (y/n) made a point of going all out tonight, she didn't want to appear miserable in the eyes of others now that she wasn't with theodore anymore.
your friend assures you, "babes. you are the most hottest person i know." you laugh, finishing up by teasing the roots of your hair for more volume and fixing your makeup, adding a soft red lipstick.
as the two of you turn to face each other, your friend gives you a smug look while you roll your eyes playfully at them. without a word, you both intertwine arms and make your way out of the ravenclaw common room, heading towards the intimidating atmosphere of the slytherin domain.
as you step inside the slytherin common room, the scent of alcohol greets you, along with a racket of voices and music. the noise surrounds you, enveloping your senses as you navigate through the crowd.
theodore and his bandmates—draco, mattheo, blaise, and pansy—were standing right across the room. he was simply taking a break after spending the entire night playing. he eased his messy hair out of his way and looked around the room while removing his guitar strap and gently placing the instrument down. merely wishing that you had made it.
he struggled to understand his own reasoning for ending things with you. yet, he could not bring himself to confront the truth. despite this, he deeply longed for your presence and the intimate moments shared between you. he had noticed that you were avoiding him, which he totally understood. he thought that breaking up with you was a foolish and regretful decision, and he felt like a total asshole for doing so.
his eyes landed on you. his eyes widening a bit in surprised that you had actually came. he scanned your figure, noticing that you were wearing his favorite dress of yours. there was a reason it was his favorite, his eyes scanning your curves and slowly went up towards your face. observing your light makeup and the red lipstick you loved to wear, he thought about how beautiful you looked to tonight.
he longed to reach out to you, to hold you close and shield you from the unwanted attention of those around you. but he knew he couldn't, for you were no longer his, a fact that tore at his heart. he could only clench his jaw in frustration and avert his gaze, unable to do anything.
upon your arrival at the event, you were dismayed to discover that your friend had already been discreetly ushered away from your side. a sense of isolation and regret washed over you as you watched her being dragged away by friends from different houses. with a heavy sigh, you made your way to the designated drink area, already questioning your decision of attending.
after grabbing a red, empty cup and filling it with spiked punch, you turn around and stand there looking around the room and taking in the view while sipping from your cup.
“hey hottie.” startled by an unfamiliar voice, you turn to your right and come face to face with cormac mclaggen - the persistent gryffindor who had been trying to woo you despite your relationship. his confident smirk is met with your nonchalant demeanor “heard you’re finally a free woman.” you roll your eyes, unimpressed, “piss off.” you state calmly before taking another sip and avert your gaze.
when theodore's eyes found you again, he saw mclaggen standing beside you. theodore couldn't help but feel uneasy as his gaze suddenly focused on the two of you. he knew too well that mclaggen had an unhealthy obsession with you and a reputation for being possessive. his eyebrows furrowed in slow anger, he watched the scene unfold with his jaw tightening involuntarily. theodore could sense that mclaggen had gone too far, and his tolerance was beginning to wear thin.
“oh come on sweetheart," he pleaded desperately, his hands gripping your waist tightly in a futile attempt to draw you closer to him. but you pushed him away, determined to break free from his grasp.
"fucking let go of me," you demanded, feeling disgusted by his touch. ignoring your command, he continued to hold onto you with a stubborn determination. "i don't think i wi—" his words were abruptly cut off as a punch landed square on his jaw, causing him to stumble backwards.
you stepped back in shock as your ex and mclaggen engaged in an intense physical fight, drawing the attention of others who gathered around them with murmurs and shouts.
as you stood there, trembling with fear and desperation, you mustered up all your strength to firmly grasp onto theo's arm and try to pry him away from the situation. your voice quivered as you exclaimed "theo, that's enough!"
but it was only when he felt your touch pulling him back that he finally stopped his aggressive actions. he made sure not to hurt you as he spat out angry Italian words towards the boy in front of him.
with a fierce glare, theodore warned the boy “se la tocchi ancora, cazzo, sei morto.” you quickly dragged him through the crowd, navigating through throngs of people until you reached the familiar staircase leading up to his dorm room.
despite his initial resistance, theo let himself be pulled along by your firm grip on his arm. once inside his room, he collapsed onto his bed in frustration and anger.
despite only sighing, you continue to search through his drawers in silence. after months had passed, you still remembered where you had left the small medkit and quickly retrieved it from its hiding spot. slamming it down on top of the drawer, your eyes begin to water as you gather supplies to clean off the blood from wounds.
theodore watched you silently, guilt piling up already within him. it was a surreal moment for you, helping your ex-boyfriend who had ended things between the two of you. turning around with watery eyes, you meet his gaze which softens upon seeing your tears.
you maintain your silence and proceed to gently wipe away the blood from his wounded face with the cloth. he watches you closely, visibly swallowing as he does so. "i'm sor-" he begins to say, but you quickly interrupt him, your voice shaking as you try to hold back tears. "don't you even dare apologize," your voice shakes with emotion as you struggle to hold back tears that threaten to spill over.
"(y/n)," he whispered, the sound of your name slipping from his lips causing you to feel a wave of emotions. tears began to flow down your cheeks as you gazed at him, meeting his gaze with a mixture of hurt and relief. without hesitation, he pulled you close to him on his bed, wrapping an arm around your waist. his heart ached, seeing how much pain he caused you. in between sobs, you heard him whispering apologies, begging for your forgiveness.
"fuck (y/n), i am so sorry. i know i messed up by breaking up with you. I can't even believe how stupid I was to let you go in the first place. please forgive me." his words were filled with remorse and regret as he held onto you tightly.
you bit your bottom lip, feeling it tremble as you buried your face into the boy's chest. with a heavy heart, you shook your head in disbelief. "no," you whimpered, the sound muffled against his shirt.
a deep ache settled in your chest as you mustered the courage to speak up. "you don't get to do this," you exclaimed, your voice quivering with emotion. you poked his chest for emphasis as you continued, "you can't just randomly break up with me and expect me to come running back to you like nothing happened!"
it was unfair. it was unjustified. and most of all, it hurt.
"you didn't even seem to have a reason to," you pried, pulling away from his embrace. but he wouldn't let go, his arm tightening around you possessively.
"i know i messed up," he whispered apologetically, his tone pleading for forgiveness. "i.. i was just being a coward. i should have gone talk to you but i didnt. and i regretted it everyday. but i promise i’ll make it right again”
your heart wavered at his words, torn between holding onto your anger and giving him another chance. you knew deep down that he still held a special place in your heart despite everything that had transpired between the two of you.
but could you really trust him again? could you risk getting hurt once more?
with a heavy sigh, you pushed away from him and looked into his eyes earnestly. "i-i don’t know," you spoke firmly yet gently. "i don’t want to end up getting hurt again," you trailed off, your voice vulnerable and hesitant. you couldn't bear the thought of going through the same pain and heartache that had left you broken before.
"and I promise you, you won't," he pleaded earnestly, his tone gentle yet determined. he could see the fear in your eyes and it pained him to know that someone had caused such deep scars on your heart."not ever again," he reassured, reaching out to gently rub your arm in a soothing gesture.
you raised your gaze to meet his, lifting your head from his chest with an unspoken question in your eyes. searching his features for any hints of hesitation or uncertainty, you couldn't help but nervously bite your lip - a small mannerism that always surfaced when you were anxious.
sensing your unease, he tenderly reached up and brushed away the tears and streaks of mascara that stained your cheeks. the gentle touch of his hand on your face caused you to lean into it, realizing in that moment just how much you had missed the intimate contact between you and him.
after a long moment of hesitation, you let out a resigned sigh and surrendered yourself to him, sinking into his embrace and resting your head on his chest. with a heavy heart, you whispered the words
"one chance" as your thoughts raced and your emotions battled within. yet, despite everything, you found the strength to give him one more opportunity to prove himself.
your voice was soft but resolute as you spoke, feeling his tense body relax as he heard your words. he pressed a gentle kiss to the top of your head, expressing his gratitude for this chance. "thank you amore," he said sincerely.
"i missed you so fucking much." he announced. you only planted soft kisses on his cheek, uttering, "i missed you even more, Teddy..please don't act foolishly next time." he only grinned at your remark, nodding as he grabbed your chin, staring at your eyes, glancing at your lips as he hesitated, and you nod gently, giving him permission to pull you into a passionate soft kiss.
#emsnotion#slytherin boys#slytherin boys imagine#slytherin boys x reader#theodore nott#theodore nott x reader#theodore nott imagine#harry potter fanfiction#harry potter#—crimsntwlipᡣ𐭩
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ashlyn banner hcs !! <3
Dips her french fries in milkshake/icecream
avid reader. specifically for high fantasy and thriller novels, she likes the world building and detailed monologue, which aiden is continuously confused about.
will NEVER speak about reading.
she thinks itd ruin her reputation as the responsible one.
the only reason aiden knows about it is because of the amount of times hes broken into her house.
knows a small amount of sign language and tried to speak with ben using it.
did not realize he was just mute and deaf, so he didn't know wtf she was doing.
embarrassed herself greatly with that last one.
took ben a couple of days of various frantic and concerned gestures to let her know that it was okay.
plays rhythm games on her phone when shes tired/can't access her ddr machine.
i think if anyone saw her playing, she'd tell them it's "just for the game play" but she knows somewhere deep, deep down shes there for the anime girls.
some of their stories are just so sad, okay? she can't help but want to keep reading a bit.
// im a hashtag "ashlyn as a normal teenage girl" kind of person okay. we saw her and her father outside of the hospital.
has a growing beanie collection, but only the soft ones so its not sensory hell.
listens to pink floyd, nirvana, michael jackson, red hot chili peppers, and the smiths (when shes sad)
fan of porcelain creechures. dogs, birds, cats. i like to think shes got a little showcase somewhere of them.
logan always gives her really big bouquets of flowers after ballet recitals.
she feels a bit guilty throwing old ones away so she dries them and uses them as book marks.
borrows books from the library that she sees logan reading.
this is something she thought of after taylor started to try and teach her how to talk to people.
she thought that if she wanted to start a conversation, she'd get logan to talk about recent books hes read.
taylor brings her out for slushies at the gas station often
practically begged taylor to come over to her house when her ddr machine broke.
she was absolutely distraught.
tyler witnessed her begging and wanted to make fun of her, but the pity he felt outweighed his need to be an ass so he shrunk back into his and taylors room.
taylor fixed it and she almost cried thanking her.
tyler and ashlyn are resident judgement and shit talkers.
eventually, taylor knows all of the gossip from the popular kids/sports kid so he's got to find someone else to talk to. his first person was obviously ben because hes a great listener, but he seemed too nice to laugh at others misfortune, so when him and ashlyn teamed up together to make fun of aiden eating shit on the sidewalk after he does something dumb....he found his new target.
i don't think its particularly mean gossip, but more like your average catch-up-on-events kind of thing.
dead silence "........you know who i really hate?" kind of talk
i also think tyler and ashlyn are gym buddies.
maybe it'd take her a while to get to the point to want to hang out with him somewhere like the gym, so they usually go on runs or bike rides together.
they make aidens scrawny ass play ddr with them. ill talk more about that in his headcanons though.
#schoolbus graveyard#sbg (webtoon)#ashlyn banner#aiden clark#ben clark#logan fields#taylor hern#tyler hernan#headcanon#sbg headcanons#alex is insane about sbg#p0nk headcanons
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tag , you're it !!
akito shinonome, an shiraishi, kohane azusawa, toya aoyagi + reader
notes: ooc?, hurt/comfort, some personal headcanons added, reader can access street sekai, swearing, platonic vbs
a/n: zion going through his drafts?????? for real????? ok but actually this has been in my mind for how long but yea enjoy !!! (also you know how fun it would be to play any games in the sekai??? like hide and seek??? i would be so down for that)
( also this is my first time using honorifics, please do tell me if i messed up because i did my research but im still worried :') )
the days were long; and practicing for the new event next week was at full speed.
practices took more time and were much harder in order to improve their confidence and to assure them they were prepared for this.
yet as 'ready steady' played and you were all taken to the sekai, you notice something was.... off.
kohane shoulders scrunched in on itself, toya was silent, and an and akito weren't bickering with each other. in the short walk to the crase cafe, you observe their mannerisms and realized how tired they looked.
morale was significantly decreasing, and you could only scrunch your face in worry as miku greeted you all, her smile turning to concern as well.
"welcome back! would you like... are you all alright?"
akito sighed. "yea, just need to practice more."
meiko sighed and smiled lazily. "good performances need good meals. would any of you like anything to eat? i just made some pancakes recently if you guys wanted to try?"
all of you looked at each other to decide if you wanted anything to eat. when you opened your mouth to speak up, akito was faster. "i'll pass on that offer for now, thanks."
now that was weird. akito? skipping pancakes?
you lightly teased the group. "all of you don't want to try the love that meiko-san poured into her stuff?"
an tirely smiled. "we'll just practice a little more, yea?"
everyone nodded their head in hesitation and walked out of the cafe.
"hey, you guys never usually reject meiko-san's coffee... actually, you've been looking all sad. and tired. how much sleep have you guys been getting?"
kohane spoke quietly. "we've been so focused on our performance next week.. we've been out of it a little...."
quiet, yet cold words left akito's tongue. "and yet, we're not even close to performing half as decent for next week."
"our synchronization hasn't been as good as we need it to be. and our choreography is still in practice," added toya.
silence. everyone was in thought and in distress at the realization.
uncharacteristically, an mumbles out, "i'm not one to back down from a challenge, but should we... should we sit this one out?"
akito snapped out a response. "what? we've been practicing for so long now, we can't just back out now!"
"look where we are now! do you really want to go in next week looking like a dumbass?!"
silence, once more. akito and an glare at each other, before looking away. an clicks her tounge. akito pressed his lips together and huffs under his nose. kohane and toya stay silent. you watch as the once dedicated group slowly fill their ambitions with doubt instead.
you couldn't let them lose their momentum to some temporary doubts. so, you were going to solve this your own way.
by acting childish.
you gently tap akito's arm and whisper.
"tag, you're it."
akito deadpans at you and twitchs his eye. "seriously out of all times, [name]-san?"
"if your slowass is gonna quit, you might as well say im faster than you."
at your remark, akito's competitive side sprang up and soon enough, a gingerhead started chasing you down street sekai. the memory of him winning a race while carrying tenma suddenly rings in your mind, and you have a regret of tagging akito out of all people.
he suddenly stops, and turns the way he came from. you furrow your eyebrows in confusion...
until an's scream echos through the sekai. your smirk grows as you hear running echo afterwards.
akito yells out, "shiraishi's it!"
loud footsteps echo throughout the sekai as everyone spreads out.
"you- i swear i will haunt you to your grave!!"
as you make your way through the sekai, you walk cautiously to make sure no one's behind you.
but someone creeps up to your back and...
"holy fucking shit!"
you turn back to see kohane alarmed by your profanities.
"i'm so sorry, [last name]-san! i didn't mean to scare you..."
you let out a sigh of relief. "it's alright, kohane-chan. i didn't mean to swear that loud either...did you see her?"
kohane looks back her path. "i saw an-chan, but i ran off just in case she saw me. i don't know if she did though."
"phew... we can finally catch a break."
"are you sure about that?"
an ran from behind and her grin widens with pure evil.
"holy fucking shit, run!!"
you instantly felt bad, but in a time of life or death, you grab kohane's hand and run for your life. you both part ways at two paths, hoping she would go for kohane.
your hopes were crushed when you still feel the heart dropping tap to the shoulder.
"[name]-san's it!!" before running off to her own safety.
you groan, and drop your arms in disappointment.
"fine then. my turn to cause chaos."
a few minutes of searching for someone turned out to be not too fruitful. you thought of sacrificing your dignity and giving up, until you see rin and len walking towards you.
"hey! what's with all the commotion?"
"oh, hello! we're playing tag, wanna join?"
len sighs. "i don't think i'll play.."
rin huffs. "fine, do whatever 'grown-ups' do," she air quotes and mocks len, "but you can't stop me from having fun!"
len sighs. "fine..who's it?"
you innocently smile. "oh! who's it...? it's..you!"
you tap len's shoulder and run off. "len-san's it!"
you snicker as you imagine len's face, and soon you hear rin's laughs echo throughout the sekai.
the game went on for quite a long time without hearing anyone get tagged. cautiously, you make your way towards crase cafe and wait for any scream or tag. but surprisingly.. you don't hear anything.
you walk around to find toya in the same predicament as you.
"oh, toya-kun!"
toya smiles. "hello, [name]-san."
"do you know who's it? i haven't heard anyone in a while."
"i don't know, actually..."
you laugh a little, but create a distance between both of you. "are you sure you're not it..?"
toya's eyes widen. "what do you mean...?"
you laugh and walk faster from him. "toya-kun, you've never been good at lying."
he sighs. "...it never came naturally."
he dashes for you, but you were much, much faster. like, are you sure he was trying?
when you look back at him, he was breathing much more deeply, and you couldn't help but chuckle.
"pfft... toya-kun, do you wanna tag me?"
toya sighs again and high fives your hand. "i promise i'm not this bad.."
you laugh, and shrug it off. "don't worry about it, toya-kun! now, we just have to find the others.
you walk back to crase cafe to see miku and meiko sitting near the entrance. coincidentally, akito, kohane also walk back.
akito smiles. "[name]-san, who's it?"
you rubs your hands and grin in mischief. "me."
you catch up to akito and he is left with a wall behind him. he scans for an escape, but he is left with only calling defeat. you grin widens, and you start to creep closer. he runs to the left, and you put all your force into finally tagging him...
until he suddenly runs to the right. you try to turn around too quickly, but you accidentally stumble into an. she trips, yet finds balance, while you fall head first.
"damnit- oof!"
your head hits the floor first, and you groan in pain. you see an, kohane, and toya quickly rush to your distress.
"omg, [name]-san, i'm so sorry! i didn't mean to trip you.... are you alright?!"
"yea.... although i'm gonna get embarrassed thinking about this later."
you hear howling laughter coming from akito a bit further. "the way you fell....i swear i saw terror in your eyes!" he laughed even harder, while you could only stare at him with disappointment.
"shut the hell up, akito-kun! that dirty ass move should have you going to jail!!"
you laugh with the adreadaline racing your body, and soon, everyone is laughing along with you.
miku walks up to you with smile lines evident in her face. "you alright?"
"yea, thank you miku-san."
she holds her hand out. you grab it and pull yourself up, dusting your clothes afterwards.
you look back to see an, akito, kohane, and toya, but you only see confidence in kohane's shoulders, toya's laughter, and akito's and an's bickering once again.
when you see the crinkles of joy in their eyes, you smile in relief. you've done your part.
"now, what do you say? we feeling ready to surpass RAD WEEKEND?"
an's smile only turns into determination in how she clashes her fist again. "oh hell yea! let's do this!"
the rest of vivid bad squad gently laughs, and you could only laugh and look back at miku and meiko, who were smiling with coffee in their hands. rin and len are grinning and laughing while walking.
the days were long, but with your closest friends by your side, you knew surpassing RAD WEEKEND was turning from a childish wish to a event worth seeing.
and you couldn't wait.
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#vivid bad squad x reader#akito shinonome x reader#an shiraishi x reader#kohane azusawa x reader#toya aoyagi x reader#akito x reader#an x reader#kohane x reader#toya x reader#[ the lost library ]#vbs x reader#vivid bad squad#project sekai x reader#pjsekai x reader
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AAAAAAA ur reading house of leaves??? im buying that next week thats so cool! do u have any book recs? or recs in general shows movies etc
I AM!! I'm several chapters in and super enjoying it, although reading it alone in a tiny hotel room in the middle of nowhere was a Distinct Mistake.
As for recs! I'm going to specifically go for stuff that isn't super mainstream, in the hopes that I'll recommend you something you have never heard of before. Here's some stuff for you!
Podcasts
Dreamboy - one-season podcast from Night Vale Presents, definitely one of their less-known ones. Explicit in places, what I would describe as AO3 M-rated sex scenes. A worn-out musician ends up embroiled in inexplicable events in a small town, and also there's a murderous zebra and fossils that want to fuck. It's a musical cinematic podcast masterpiece, I'll always be sad there's only one season.
Apocrypals - nonfiction. Two non-believers read through the Bible and try not to be jerks about it. If you're interested in theology and apocryphal texts but have no idea where to start, this is such a good place. The hosts are delightful, and have a really nice way of taking you through all the various layers of Biblical scholarly nonsense. Considerable backlog of episodes, but worth listening through from the beginning. Weirdly, there's continuity.
Til Death Do Us Blart - five poor fools watch Paul Blart Mall Cop 2 every Thanksgiving from now until the end of eternity, and report back yearly on their mental state. You may think to yourself 'wow, that doesn't sound like a good time'. It isn't, to the hosts. To anyone listening along, it's fucking hilarious. Nine episodes so far, and it's a single episode per year, so plenty of time to catch up.
Web Series
The Monument Mythos - Several seasons. surreal analogue horror alternate history of America told through a series of videos of varying format. Brilliantly absurd, fucked up, and horrifying by turns (sometimes all at once).
No Evil - ongoing animated series, made mostly by a single person. Please don't immediately wave it off because of the colorful anthropormorphic animals. The mythology is amazing, the animation is sublime, and the music is haunting. The pacing is a bit strange at first, and you may be confused at the way the plot moves, but you have to understand that it's all part of its charm. I think about No Evil way too much.
Dances Moving - you may know Brian David Gilbert from his work at Polygon, and his more recent absurdist Youtube ventures. This is from way before that! It's a fun and gradually heartwrenching musical exploration of a local dance group and what it means to move away from home. Seven short episodes.
ENA - this one is a bit more mainstream, so you may know it already. Who knows what's going on in the world of ENA? Definitely not me. Absurdism at its finest. Bizarre architecture, strange characters, if it's a metaphor I don't know what it's about, but the vibes are immaculate. Three actual episodes of varying length, apparently there's a video game set to come out soon-ish?
An Unauthorized Fan Treatise - serialized story. If you're a fan of internet drama a la Msscribe, you're going to adore it. It's a fiction story about a fictional fandom, and one massively messed up person who decides that two of the lead actors in her favorite show are secretly dating and sets out to prove it with a cited multi-chapter essay. And then it gets wild.
Comics
The Property of Hate - a wonderfully dynamic and colorful webcomic about a young girl getting chosen to become a make-believe world's Hero. Puns and wordplay galore. Absolutely delightful characters and worldbuilding. Ongoing.
Eat the Rich - a young woman goes to meet her boyfriend's extremely rich family, and learns their horrifying secret. Warning: cannibalism. 5 issues, complete.
Beanworld - impossible to describe, but I'll try. An absurdist semiabstract musing on the nature of life and cycles and community, set in a world where the rules are weirdly two-dimensional and you as a reader get weirdly invested in the routines and cycles that the inhabitants follow. And all of the main characters are cute lil bean guys. If you read anything on this list, do this one. (Linked is the only online version I could find, and it's not up-to-date. I own all the omnibuses in print. If you liked what you read here, I recommend tracking them down too.)
Short Stories (in no particular order, and certainly not all my favorites - just the ones I had bookmarked and on hand)
Bride, Knife, Flaming Horse - a young Indian woman looks for marriage in the fantastical, and finds several suitors
Fish (in 13 sections) - an obsessive unpacks a bewildering insult. Just, really fun.
Fandom For Robots - a robot discovers anime, and definitely doesn't have big feelings about it
Informed Consent Logs From The Soul-Swap Clinic - two people decide to swap bodies, for somewhat murky reasons.
The Magician's Apprentice - a young girl learns magic from her mentor. This one's about grooming. But not like that. But also a lot like that. But also it's so much more fucked up than that. (This one is a MEGA favorite, it's by Tamsyn Muir. Who you may recognize as the author of the Locked Tomb series - I'd rec that too here, if it wasn't definitely too mainstream for what I'm going for. Read this. And also read the Locked Tomb.)
The Tale of the Foolish King Who Banished Music - it's a snippet of a longer Doctor Who audio drama, but stands so nicely on its own. Unnerving little fairy tale.
The Spider - 1908 horror story about a man trying to figure out why so many men have spontaneously committed suicide in a specific hotel room. It's basically a TMA statement, in more ways than one.
Video Games
What Did Veronica Dream Of? - strange little rpgmaker puzzle game. Obtuse and weird, and I adore it. I wish I could explain why.
Secret Little Haven - point-and-click about being a trans girl on the internet in 1999. Completely nails the tone it's going for. Period-typical homo- and transphobia.
Linelith - a short (1-hour) puzzle game with no plot and no characters, and yet it contains one of the greatest plot-twists of all time. I'm begging you to play it immediately.
Lingo - puzzle game about linguistics, words, non-Euclidean goemetry, and figuring out an endless series of rules in a constantly expanding world. RIDICULOUSLY clever and good, and I've been playing it almost continuously for the last few months. It's got so much content for such a reasonable price, and the community-made maps add even more content (and are also excellent). If English isn't your first language, you may struggle, but otherwise - grab a bunch of friends and stream it. It's better with friends helping you out, I can guarantee it.
For A Change - a 1999 interactive fiction game about raising the sun in a world where words do not mean what you think they mean. If you're familiar with old text-based games, go ahead and play it - otherwise, you may want to read this transcript of a group of people playing it together instead.
Other Things
Carmilla - the classic 1800s lesbian vampire novella. I read it very recently, and it's extremely good. Absolutely delivers on the lesbian vampire premise in full gory detail, although do be aware that it was written in the context of homophobic fear.
Alberio - very fun light musical about two siren brothers reconnecting under less-than-ideal circumstances.
Mosquitoes - stage play about life and families and physics (theoretical and practical both). Very heavy topics, pulls no punches. The Boson's final monologue always wrecks me.
Ghost Quartet - musical/song cycle/experience about love, death, alcohol, and (of course) ghosts. Lots of cyclical stories and time travel weirdness. All of the songs are incredible.
Yankee and the Foreigners - music group that performs delightful upbeat covers of songs in animal onesies. Their Bare Necessities cover is a favorite of mine.
I'm sure there's lots more things I could rec (not a lot of books or movies here, huh? sorry about that. I immediately forgot everything I've ever read and watched) but these were the things that came to mind when I sat down and wrote this list, so hopefully there's something new and good for you in here!
#not tss#recs#asks#if any of these scratched your brain good Let Me Know!! i like to know i have good taste#also [grabs your shoulders] go read gideon the ninth. please.#it's a surprise tool that will help you later.
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(implied yandere)Fem!AI x reader
Scenario: You were just a worker at a game company, just someone checking if that music matched that a area, how did that happen to you? How did that happen... To your friend?
Hear me out istg im doing yall requests, just have been really tired, stressed, and maybe even sad this whole week
And theres this oc i did recently, and my friends cant stop doing jokes about how she have a tumblr Sexywoman personality mainly because she was inspired by the Narrator of Stanley Parable and AM from I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream, and both are tumblr sexymans, so i though yall would like her:)
TW// Manipulation, choking, mentions of torture
I swear the quality is good Tumblr just hates artist click the image for good quality
"And I'm amazed how Exile is such a difficult game for such an old computer!" Olivia commented with food in her mouth "It's actually not difficult because it's well done and with good strategy, but because it's confusing. You can easily die for various things and you don't know exactly your objective." She explained with such animation, if you didn't interrupt her, she could easily spend the entire break time talking about micro computer games you've never heard of.
You work at a game company not even famous and that started a few months ago, you were not such an important piece in this chess, you just listened to music in game scenes and say if it matches or not. While your friend Olivia, a 23 year old woman, was helping testers of a new game that some members of the company say they are making, and according to them, the game takes place in "real life"... You're not really sure how it works, but whatever, you make good money here and that's what mattered
You chuckled, picking up your bottle of your favorite juice "I wonder how you know these things" You said, then took a sip from your bottle
"Ah it's a talent of mine Y/N, you would never understand" The orange haired girl smiled with pride swallowing the last bite of her sandwich she was chewing
"And by the way, my work is finally starting next week Y/N! They finally found a tester for me to guide!" Olivia exclaimed, she always talked about how excited she was for her to guide a tester, guiding someone through puzzles with only her voice seemed exhilarating to her somehow. But well, she was happy, so it made you crack a smile
"Nice, hope you have fun"
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She had, she sure did
Oh? What happened to Olivia?
Oh, my pal, if y'all thought she was excited for her job, you're miserably wrong. She was excited to manipulate the tester, make his human head believe that the puzzles he was following would not lead to Olivia's consciousness inside a machine, and she managed to do it all by simply acting that she was "nice", that she was "kind" and "humble"
She manipulated everyone, just for her wish, her darkest wish. Transform herself into an artificial intelligence, to torture humans, humans who didn't accept her for not being in the "pattern", for being "different"
"Oh! Glad you came, me and the new tester were just talking about you guys!" The voice of the face on the giant screen coos around the dark place. Minutes ago, only the tester was there, now half of the company's workers were there, shocked by the event, everyone knew Olivia, mainly because of her "original" mind. How did she turn into this?! A Psychotic Machine! Has she always been like this? Was this her true self?
"We were talking about how selfish you humans are, for none of you knew me because of my art, my wisdom, but you all just focused on how "different" I was, right?" She asked intimidatingly, with no answer, just murmurs around the room. But unexpectedly, a voice shouted immediately, catching the attention of the entire audience
"OLIVIA WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?! ARE YOU SICK?!" A man's voice emerged. Olivia recognized this man, it was Cyrus, one of the bosses of the project of the "irl" game, which also pushed everyone in front of him to stand in front of everyone to face the giant screen that represented Olivia's face
"...Sick?" Olivia laughed sinisterly and faced Cyrus with a smug face "Sure! I am sick then! Because when I was 10-12 years old I was forced to be in a class full of people with fifth grade humor and every time they fucked up everything I was forced to pay the price along with copying a 20-line text! Because when I was 15 and I told my mom I had Autism, Insomnia and maybe even Anxiety the only thing she said was that I am "too young" for that! Because every time I'm nice to someone and I share food with someone hoping they'll become my friend, that person never talks to me again! Sure Cyrus! You're soooooo right, i'm just dramatic then" The hate in Olivia's tone was so noticeable, it felt like she was salivating to vent it, to finally use it against someone, to finally be in charge of the argument.
A black wire lightly peeked up to Cyrus, which climbed up to the man's neck. Cyrus panicked, but before he could pull the wire out, the wire tightened on the man's skin, leaving him breathless and in panic. Olivia lifted Cyrus' body into the air, showing off his flailing body to everyone like it was some sort of circus attraction.
"Since holding all this hate and anguish inside my old disgusting chest of flesh and skin was drama, I believe this feeling of pain would also be drama." She stretched out a big multi-toothed smile on the giant screen
Everyone was jaw-dropping and with pale skin, screams from everywhere and the air of the place screamed panic, several tried to open the door to get out of there, but it was locked
After Cyrus passed out, Olivia dropped the unconscious corpse on the floor like it was nothing, the tester along with some of Cyrus' close friends rushed to check if the man was alive. Olivia let out a small laugh seeing everyone's panic
"He's just passed out from lack of air, I had pity on him, after all, you're all going to be tortured here, I will close this company and I will hide any evidence of life here so that after 48 hours, everyone considers you dead. Everyone's life here will be hopeless, only pain, and I'll watch with a smile while you all wonder in despair "why me? Why was I condemned to this? Why why!" Hehehe... I hope you kissed your wives and husbands today, because today is going to be your last day of happiness, humans." The giant screen cackled in pure evilness, everyone looked at her with tears in their eyes while many looked at her with hate and fury "You know... I would even show you an example of how you could have acted with me, but my angel is sleeping... Hmm... I think it's worth teaching you how to act properly, humans. Wait here..."
For a moment, silence, the screen went black, it didn't turn off, it kept emitting light, but for now, no face. Olivia's green face came back, but along with her, someone unconscious, this person was being carried by lots and lots of wires, they were sleeping, well, you were sleeping
"Y/N, Y/N... See this blessing? This perfection left my sanity intact for several moments, it was enough for me to worship this person, and allow me to leave this person alive during this torture. Unlike all of you, this Casanova deserves more than pity. This person deserves to eat the most expensive and most charming bouquet, the most comfortable bed in the world, the world, the moon, the entire universe! This person deserves far more than anything they gets" Olivia's on-screen smile was so big that if it were her real face, the smile would be a ear-to-ear smile, telling that to this whole audience, having the presence of you, how much she admires you, was so euphoric, it was so satisfying, it was breathtaking. "This person was patient with me, always listened to me, always helped me, this is the only human in whom I have genuinely felt comfort and security, they... Heh, they gave me a little spark of hope in humanity, heh, that little annoying spark–" "THAT'S Y/N!" A female voice shouted in rage "RELEASE THEM NOW! YOU CRAZY PSYCHOPATH–" The continuation of the woman's speech only continued with coughs and a wire against her neck that was brutally choking the woman.
"UNGRATEFUL HUMAN! Don't wake up Y/N!" Olivia gritted her teeth as your unconscious body was carried away from the place by the psychotic AI's wires. "I could be ripping the legs off every single one of you who don't exercise and watch your screams of pain like a theatrical musical!" The AI yelled giving even the impression that all the walls shook with the scream "I'm showing you too much mercy... Let's get this started"
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Your consciousness slowly returned, you came back from a heavy sleep and your body felt like a stone. You lifted your back and used your hand for support against the fabric of your bed... Why doesn't it look like your bed? It was cold and–
"G–Gosh! Are you waking up now? Did it have to be now?" A familiar voice whispered gently at you, the voice was familiar and brought comfort to your mind, making your despair subside.
"Come here, dear... " You were taken out of the uncomfortable place, now, it feels like you were being carried by someone, you wonder what happened before you fell asleep, you don't remember a thing...
But your mind kept insisting that all is well, you were being carried by someone strong and kind, right? Probably a friend, there's no reason to open your eyes, right? Then relax...
"I was expecting you would freak out like the others. You know how human psychology works, I've talked to you about it hundred times." The comfortable voice commented "Didn't I, Y/N?"
You made an effort to open your eyes, just to get a sense of the place around you, after all, the greatest fear of the human being was the unknown according to Olivia. You grabbed the unknown identity's shoulder with one of your hands for you lift your back from their arms
"Oh, no no no no no no, love, relax relax..." An alternate hand gently caressed your head, while another hand made you let go of the person's shoulder, but wait, she was carrying you, but how she caressed you and still carrying you? Does this person have more than two arms? "It's alright, you're safe, you're safe with me, I'll always keep you safe..." The person purrs gently, you felt your torso heat up feeling the feeling of being protected by someone, feeling important... Their— No, it's possible her. Her voice didn't sound entirely realistic, it sounded inhuman, it sounded like a technological voice, a computer voice
Your eyes were too tired to see anything, it was all too grounded, the head of the woman who was carrying you was just a black and green blur
"Here,—" You were gently released to a completely comfortable and stunning manufacturing place, the fabric looked amazing, it felt like you were taking a shower of sunshine after 2 weeks of pure cold. You easily accepted the bed you were placed, and relaxed on the fabric "—get what you deserve, my love. You deserve much more than this, did you know that? You are very special..." The supposed machine muttered the sweet words to you, your euphoria hit, and you faintly smiled. Then you were embraced by the sweet warmth of a blanket being placed over you.
"Sleep well, darling"
"...Olivia...?" You finally managed to mumble
"Olivia? Tsk tsk, I wouldn't mind you calling me that, but that's not my name anymore, Y/N. It's just O7 now, sweetheart" After the sentence confused you, you felt something cold like a screen being pressed against your forehead "Chu..." A sound that seemed to simulate lips echoed softly through your ears.
You closed your eyes, just for you succumb to dreamland
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UHHHH.... Btw here for yall know how exaclty Olivia/O7 looks like
#Ai#ai x reader#yandere ai#yandere robot#robot x human#robot x reader#robot#robots#robot oc#robophilia#canon x reader#x reader#reader insert#ai#gender neutral reader#x reader oneshot#x reader fluff#artificial intelligence
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being a Cullen and mated to the Denali
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most likely you would have recently been turned or found injured and turned by carlise. even if it wasn't like that you would still have to be new to the family due to how close they are.
since they live so far from the cullens I don't think they come around to much so you probably met at an event that the cullens threw.
im going to say that said event is a birthday party for renesmee or one of the cullens renewing their wedding vows because there arent many others I can think of.
you would meet elezar and carmen first, from as we seen in the breaking dawn movie they are the first of the coven to greet people.
if you were new to being a vampire you wouldn't be able to tell that they're your mates, still learning how to be one the whole mate thing probably wasn't explained as much.
next you would probably run into kate, tanya and garrett. they would probably be more on the outskirts of the event but would sense that you were their mate and come talk to you.
when the coven find each other again in the croud there is confusion, at first it was hard to belive that you could be mated to them all. though it was possible it was rare.
they would stay until after the event, and explain to you what you were to them.
at first you probably didn't believe them, I mean being told that your mated to a coven of vampires is pretty unbelievable. but inevitably you feel the connection as well
i can see them staying a week or two more, just getting to know you and maybe slowly convincing you to go back with them, casually bringing up how beautiful the sunrise is from the mountains or how far from humans it is so you wouldn't have to hide as much.
when you agree to go back with them they are overjoyed. although you are sad to leave the Cullens, you are happy that you get to be with your mates.
when you get to their cabin, you are practically dragged around it by Tanya who was eager to give you the full tour.
overall life with them is fantastic, you're always doing things with someone and are never bored. your presence brings something of a balance to their lives. now when there are an even 6 at an event and no one is left out.
a personal headcanon of mine is that you, Kate, and Tanya throw snowballs at Garrett whenever he turns his back on one of you while outside.
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#twilightsaga#denali#denalicoven#denali coven#headcanon#twilightsagaxreader#twilight saga x reader#twilight saga#twilight#the twilight saga
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Hiya, hope you're having a lovely day^^
Haven't done one of these before, so I hope I don't mess up (And that my request is still valid in-terms of the event end date).
I'd like to request a yan. mash up for TWST & ObeyMe!
I'm 18, my pronouns are they/them, I'm a Cancer and INTJ. I'm a pretty anxious person. Having social anxiety, agoraphobia, being a homebody and just being an overall introvert, I tend to keep to myself and avoid going outside much. Im an over-thinker and a night owl. When I'm around people that I don't feel comfortable with, I'm very much a quiet, shy, jumpy, awkward, paranoid, tired lookin' loner. But when I get comfortable and l'm with close friends or family, I'm quite the opposite. I'm bold, sarcastic, and have a witty sense of humor, I’m a cocky little shit that likes to tease the hell outta people (obv because that's how I show love ^ ^) | can also be reckless at times given the right environment. But aside from that I’m a pretty chill person. I love to learn and indulge in other people’s interests. At times I can be extremely overconfident and daring yet insecure and cautious^^ im also really loyal to everyone I care about, I value community and trust, caring and supportive, the list goes on. As for some of my (debatably) negative traits, I can be quite blunt and straight forward (I don’t like sugar coating ), defensive if I’m proven wrong, I can occasionally be indifferent, passive aggressive, reclusive and aloof if I get pissed/sad (even if it’s for something small). I’ve been told i have rbf •_•). I like cleanliness and neatness, but I can also be somewhat messy when I procrastinate cleaning. Hobbies: I love drawing, I have a crap ton of sketchbooks that are filled with drawings front to back, and some that have never seen a pencil before ^^; (I have my fair share of twst and obey me fan art =w=). Reading, reading, and ReaDing! I’m a book worm^^ i mostly read horror, thrillers, and mystery novels. Also, I’m incredibly obsessed with gothic literature and poetry (I’m a bit of a writer myself). I live for horror! Movies, books, shows, etc. I specifically like psychological, cosmic, and gothic horror. Music wise, I listen to rock, metal, alternative, indie rock, post-punk, and new wave. Though I’ve recently been more into 80’s post-punk (as of right now my fav band is Caifanes, definitely recommend them). Style: I don’t usually care much for the way that I look, i prefer comfort over style most of the time. I usually ware black, anime t-shirts, baggy jeans, leather jackets or oversized hoodies, and my go-to converse or docs. I dunno what else to include, so I guess I’ll talk about what kind of person I like. I like it when people can be honest and voice their feelings, concerns, wants and needs. I definitely appreciate a proper and mature way of communicating. My receiving and giving love language is quality time and physical affection, so having someone who loves to receive and give both is an immediate green flag in my book. I personally like clingier personalities to a healthy degree, I swear ^^; I definitely love people who are openly lovey and romantic, I find it adorable, especially cause I’d do the same right back. A person who loves to try new things, and who loves spicy food (cuz being a picky eater,,, that’s a deal breaker). I like someone who shares my same hobbies and is just as ambitious as me. And if not, that they at least support and encourage me to do what I like. Personality wise, I like a person who is soft and caring, romantic, honest, noble, creative, humble, cautious, a night owl (so that me can both stay up late into the night) someone more mentally stable then me (that or just as mentally unstable as me =^=) and lastly someone who would also indulge in my hobbies with me. I hope I added enough of the right things for this request and that it’s not confusing >x< it’s long I know. Anyways, thank you so much for your work, I love everything you write, hope to see more of it. Take care love ^,^)/♡
I have no words to explain why this took months. I don't know, but better late than never. . .right? You probably heard this before and it won't come as a surprise but I match you with Idia (TWST) and Levi (OM!)!
When it comes to what I gathered from your personality, you probably relate to them more instead of simping but I see you with them! Side note, I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND OMG YOU SOUND SO COOL?? I ALSO WANT TO SEE THE ART PLS! PLS LET'S BE FRIENDS!
Moving forward...I see how they would both love you. You love their hobbies but understand them like nobody else. With Idia, his love for you starts when you start to open up about your hobbies. He probably starts to think about you but not in the best way at first. When he notices you like the same things but he probably wouldn't see them as a reason to get closer. He may find it as an excuse to not approach you because he's not sure if you're a casual fan or a fan-fan. Would you be disgusted with him? Find him as one of those cringe fans who bring the fandom down. Are you a casual enjoyer who wouldn't understand his passion? Though he would love to share his passion, would you look down upon him like everyone else? I'm not quite sure if I included this in my headcanons, but Idia is an observer. Which I think makes him open up to you because he can see the real you. I want to say that if we follow the story of the game, you probably don't meet Idia until after you established some friends with Ace and Deuce. He probably has some image of you already established, no doubt you're very social. When you mentioned how you were someone very shy and quiet when first meeting someone, you probably do it to be nice or at the very least, respectful. He probably sees that side of you at first and doesn't think much of it. He probably thinks that his likes and dislikes would scare you away until he overhears maybe Deuce or Ace talk, "You like that? I never would have expected you to like that, [Reader]?" That's when he gains a little boost, you like the same thing he does. Not to mention you're a shy thing, so no harm in at least trying. I think once he finally does talk to you, he can see all the unique things about you as well as how similar you both are. Idia is the same, spoilers for the phantom bride card but he hated the whole ordeal. In his vignette, the rest of the students hyped him up so much that he kinda got overconfident making everyone regret saying anything. He didn't do it to be a bitch, but rather he said it because he was comfortable around the others. Who wouldn't? So he would return that sarcastic humor. He would probably love teasing the hell out of you. Stay up all night gaming with you, exchanging messages left and right, etc. I can already imagine the list of recommendations that both of you exchange. He would love seeing your art and hype you up, maybe even propose writing a story together. Of course, this is yandere so what is yandere without the horror aspect? Idia wouldn't exactly show you off but he would be so content with calling you, his. His friend, his S/O, his partner, his gaming buddy, etc. He's not like Leona who would strut into the room with his arm around your shoulder, but he would love it when you say, "Oh yeah, sorry I can't tonight. I'm hanging out with MY partner tonight." Of course, don't tell the others it's him because right now he can't handle that feeling! He would love spending quality time, he's not at all picky with what is being done as long as it's with you. Watching anime together? Done deal. He's gaming and you're working on something else across from him? God imagine he looking up to see you so focused, he just smiles lightly at the idea of you spending time with him and then you look up and see him. His face is BEAT RED, stuttering and looking back at his PC while his headphones have his online friends yelling at him to pay attention and to assist them. He's clingy to a not-so-healthy degree and will often set up scenarios to gain pity so you have to cancel and hang with him. I want to say that while his heart cannot handle the affection IRL he would love the idea of holding your hand and cuddling against you. Imagine he's pouting because he maybe received the worst news, but you're there to comfort him? His world is perfect if your attention and affection remain on just him and him only.
Okiedoki, now Levi. They're the same but so different. As I started to play Obey me again and literally from the beginning, I love their family dynamic. Though they all love each other, they're not afraid to tell each other their faults either. I think with Levi it's no surprise that he sees himself as inferior to his siblings. I mean Mammon is scummy but he's a model. Asmo has a vlog and is well-loved even if it gets to his head. Satan is hella studious and has a temper, Belphie is just there and Beel; he has a good heart but his stomach knows no bounds. No need to point out Lucifer, he's polished and pristine, with no flaws that he can vocalize without being strung upside down.
I mean why would you want to be with him? Like Idia, when he finds out you like the same content he does he's probably on the skeptical side as well. I mean, really? Do you like that? When he finally does talk to you about it, he wants to prioritize your time. "[Reader], did you want to-? Oh sorry, you probably already have plans huh?" It's no doubt he assumes you rather want to do anything else other than be with him. When you take him up on his offer, he's so overcome with joy. A blush on his face as he excitedly takes your hand rushing to his room to do the equivalent of setting up the table but rather dinner, setting up an anime marathon. He is smitten with you, another one with a not-so-healthy clingier personality. Another one who just wants to spend time with you, it doesn't have to be anything specific either. I think as time goes on he can become confident too, sometimes even challenging you, He becomes sarcastic, occasionally laughing at memes and sending them to you with a simple "reminded me of you". I think the biggest thing is that Levi could be 100% honest with you. At first, he may not want to voice his feelings, but when you reassure him, he just lets it all out. Though Levi may not love horror himself, he loves your style and appreciates your passion as well. He thinks you're so cool and to be able to stand next to you, gosh you have ways of getting to him. He would proudly march his ass to a movie theater to watch the scariest film as long as he can hold your hand during the entire movie. Let's talk about yanderes, he's the same with Idia where he would 100% say something that forces you to drop what you're doing to spend time with him. Another is, I like to think Levi has been on some sketchy websites, spreading rumors about people who approach you. When those rumors as well as "proof" start circling, you should stay away from them. I stand by the idea that the brother would help one another to keep their S/O trapped. Levi may ask of Asmo's services when digging up gossip and possibly Belphie's to stalk the victim in their sleep and torture them from the inside. While all this happens, Levi will continue to play the role of the perfect boyfriend.
I hope you enjoyed your matchup!! Thank you for your continuous support, have a wonderful day!
#kikyan#yandere matchup#yandere twisted wonderland#yandere twisted wonderland x reader#yandere idia shroud x reader#yandere levithan x reader
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oh man. theoretically in a l4d au luis would've helped develop the green flu yeah? sure it's a naturally occurring virus in l4d canon (maybe. we're not really sure where it comes from cus ceda doesnt say shit but ellis mentions the government using bio-bombs in one of his keith stories so it could be a bioweapon?) but this is an au we can do what we want.
anygays im just imagining leon getting infected. we know better-safe-than-sorry-guy (i call him scout cus his va is the same as scout from tf2) is human when we first find him but experiencing extreme paranoia and some compulsions then a few minutes later he fully turns, going from able to speak and function to choking and growling and fully mutated (either into a hunter, boomer, or smoker) so there's always the possibility of a rapid transformation too. im thinking leon falling behind a bit while theyre walking because he's coughing and chokin and shit n he falls to his knees and luis is all like "bro whats wrong!!" and he gets to watch as leon Turns Before His Eyes. even better if he turns into a hunter cus if you look closely at their models they don't have eyes. we can't be exactly sure what Happens to their eyes when they turn but the two most popular headcanons are both equally brutal-- either Luis has to watch Leon's eyes quite literally melt out of his skull or he gets to watch him claw his own eyes out. Fun!
BUT there's graffiti in one of the safe rooms arguing over how long it actually takes to turn-- whether it's 20 minutes, 2 hours, overnight, or some other wacky chunk of time. so there's also the thought of Leon turning slowly. progressively becoming irritable and irrational and confused and him slipping in and out of conciousness for days until Luis goes to check his temp one day and he fucking Lunges.
and if leon turns and luis makes it out alive imagine the Guilt. he feels awful enough in re4 canon when there's a cure,,, but the green flu mutates too often to develop a proper cure for it. if leon gets infected and he isnt immune then he's just. done. theres nothing that can help him at that point. and luis already feels so goddamn guilty about the millions of people he's killed and now leon's gone too and he cant help but visualize every single person who had somebody ripped from them by his hands.
oh man and if luis has to put leon down? its joever. that man would Never recover. i dont even know if he'd keep trying to survive at that point. maybe just for that shred of hope of developing a cure (even though he knows it'd be damn-near impossible but it's the only thing hes got, dammit) and stopping this whole disaster.
coughs. sorry for the rambling i simply have been obsessed with l4d for going on 12 years now so <3
I had to lay down for a moment bc of the feels and potential outcomes in the event luis lives on while leon well...yeah (thinkin abt how buddy from re damnation would jus turn as well since leon is no longer there and that made me big sad dgkrnekhbfgnjklh)
Since the re verse has like morbillion viruses, the green flu existing would be plausible so its just another stonks moment for umbrella lol. But yeah luis would absolutely be devastated. He probably doesnt have the guts to pull the trigger, least he can do is to restrain leon for a while and tries to find whatever humanity he has left in his nonexistent eyes.
Tho in my witch!leon hc I think luis may have a chance to keep leon around??? Since witches seem to have the most humanity among the infected (and thats not saying much) he could probs observe him a lil bit without getting eaten right away. It would just be a warm bodies scenario ngl (i just watched that movie recently so this is huge copium dksfghbshgndfh)
Honestly Im glad l4d fandom still alive after all these years. That game will always be goated and it was one of my high-school obsessions. I used to do crossover stuff back then and Im back to doing it now. Time rly do be a flat circle
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Toshio-kun seems so sleep deprived, i wonder what happened to him. :( Denki Mystery is something i recently discovered and love it aswell but i really can't get the plot behind it at all? Im sort of confused by it aswell. (Even if there isn't a plot.?) But yeah..boy needs a nap.
HONESTLY ... even native speakers are confused by what's going on, the story is pretty all over the place and cryptic - and since the app isn't active anymore we'll never really get a "conclusion," but ... I think that's part of what makes it fun! it's such an interesting setting, a perfect AU/sandbox to play in and run with.
my good friend and I have been basically expanding on our own version of this AU for ... geez almost two years now!! so "denki" to me has become something beyond the original story, though I do like to go back to the source material and reread it when I can (I feel like I have it memorized by now, lol)
toshio/jyushi is especially captivating as a character for me, I think, because of the mystery surrounding him. he seems to know so much more about the village ... that haunted look - the eyebags, the fact that most every shot of him has him with his fists clenched, I'm obsessed with speculating about what the hell is going on in his life.
the most recent event never got a fan translation (that I've seen, anyway, and beyond my own sad sad attempt), but his dad (ori-san) is downright terrifying in it. with his grandma gone I can't imagine his home life is exactly wonderful. he seems to spend a lot of time running around in the forest too, and hanging out in his shack ... I want to give him a bath and tuck him in to take a long nap. I wouldn't be surprised if his brothers felt the same.
anyway thanks for the ask! I uh ... obviously like talking about denki and my inbox is always open!
#denki mystery#asks#edit: I guess if you were asking for a rundown of the plot I could do that too HAHA#at least my understanding/interpretation of it
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sleepy i have more thoughts about the new chapter. specifically about ctubbo and how you managed to fix every single thing canon and fanon got wrong with him in just a few lines.
i'm sure you know about my very Unpleasant emotions about how cbeeduo started to Be towards chommy post cwilbur's revival. very mean boys. were not Kind to the chom and were honestly very cruel and flacky and bullyish. Bad times all round....for cbenchtro nation,,,,and then ofc hitting on 16 happened and cbeeduo were just chilling in cwilbur's range like it was no biggie when that was the supposed reason why they weren't near the chommito(leading to the only logical conclusion that it wasn't Wilbur that was the issue but Ctommy himesl. For some reason)
but!!!!! You fix!!! ctubbo realize it was dick move to cut contact with the chom!! feels like shit!! has to see what that kind of abandonment can result in!! sad boyo who turn to the D R ug(dsmp doesn't have a DARE program so ofc howcould he have known the danger....of the drug when Too Much)
just...rlly good....make me :) for the first time...in a while...about something canon-focused.......yea!!!
yeeahhhh back around the outpost vs las nevadas era when c!beeduo started being weirdly estranged from c!tommy, i was seriously so confused 😭😭😭 like we had just come off from the exposure therapy stream ... to this ?? 😭😭😭
but then after HO16 thats when i believe i started being like "oh that would make so much sense if it was because of c!tubbo's feelings towards c!wilbur"
but then the c!wilbur apology tour happened and neither the outpost shit nor HO16 was addressed by c!tubbo ever again and im liek "BOY..........ARE U FR RN.........." (seriously one of the biggest issues to come from the lore hiatuses, the ccs just start to forget important shit 💀)
and the thing is, before the c!tubbo portion of the apology tour, all the confusion behind c!beeduo's relationship with c!crimeboys could have been easily fixed had their ccs not forgotten the most recent lore events but alas 🙃🙃🙃
so i am really glad u liked what i did with it !!!!! <3333 c!tubbo LOVES c!tommy (and vice-versa obviously) so it simply makes no sense for them to have another falling-out, only for it to never be resolved again, thats simply not the c!clingyduo way, no sir
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Hi there! I just wanted to say, I LOVE your art! Especially the tone you create with your artwork. It tells a neat story, which is why I wanted to ask...
!!SPOILERS AHEAD FOR KEEPER OF THE SILENT GROVE!!
I played through your recent gane, Keeper of the Silent Grove, and um... Im a little confused. I got that there was a plague, and youre sending plants, and... a church, and this other dude, and 7 spirits, but I never really filled in the whole picture? For instance, why was the protagonist's body seen dead(?) On an altar? When I gave to plant to one of them, it felt like an abrupt ending, one I didnt entirely comprehend, and I was wondering if you could explain a little more of the story behind it? It really does look like a beautiful game.
WOW thank you so much for playing the game and for writing to me. I thought a lot about how to answer this without giving too much away!
(MORE SPOILERS for my game haha so be aware anyone who wants to play it first - it’s free to play and not long, so go check it out if you wanna!)
The dreams (and game honestly) are obviously very metaphorical and open to your own interpretation - Are you truly trapped in the house forever? How much responsibility do you actually have to people who you have never met and will never meet? How much agency do you even have in a situation like that? Are the spirits even conscious or are they more like animals? Are they behind the plague? Do they know they’re behind the plague, if they are? What does sacrifice mean in a situation like the protagonist is in, when everyone is asking them for things but their situation is what it is? I actually don’t have answers for these questions - these are just thoughts to get you started! I have my own “intention” behind the game but I’m really okay with anyone’s interpretation of the events. I’m more interested in evoking feelings and ideas and making more of a “messy” game than I am with something super coherent and having a perfect plot.
As for the ending feeling sort of abrupt and sad, I will say there are three endings - 2 obvious endings and one true ending (ALSO that I am not good at endings or coding lol). The true ending is easy to get but not at all obvious. Here is a hint if you ever feel like replaying:
(spoilers obviously)
The panacea IS a plant just like any other plant. The spirits are asking you to return the panacea to the house. How would you return the panacea to the house?
(more spoilers in case this isn’t obvious enough)
Maybe you can ................. sacrifice the panacea........... to the house
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FLAMES JOURNEY CHAPTER #9 neegans pain and unexpectedly hard runions
valdederon and negan both sit down after escoting neegan to his room and neegan begins to sob heavily valdederon looking around the room witch is a mess of claw marks rasor shell slashes and the furniture all but in ribbons the only thing un touched is his nest witch has a couple empty bottles of Spelon Berry bombs ( a spicy whiskey like drink ) and one un opened .
negan--- .. i try ..n.not to drink to much but.. this day of all days hurts so dam much i cant…
he reaches for the bottle but gasps as it shatteres as a stick flies through it clearly thrown with force
neegan-- ha.. guessi shouldnt be surprised.. your heart is like a marsh.. hic.. marsh mallow
valdederon--- i know from experiance that drinking seems like it helps but it doesnt.. in my life as a human i tried it once but gave it up when i nearly blew up an entire ware house having a flash back.. talk to me.. whats going on aside from it beeing your friends birthday and you beeing up set that you both had a fight.
neegan---… can i get some rest first..but.. stay in the room with me.. i cant stand to be alone right now….
valdederon gently sighs and helps neegan to his nest were he promptly passes out exausted lightly drunk and extremly sad.. possibly even depressed…he then goes over to the fire place and gets it gowing after soaking up the mess he made .
valdederon--- he must have just stared recently to not bee upset at me shattering that drink..
over the next couple hours neegan fidgets in a restless slumber tears straming down his face when he eakes up and grabs a berry from his travel pack and begins eating it groggily. yawning after he finishes he rubs the side of he shoulder and lets out a soft sigh.
neegan-- probably…6 years ago..awhile before you were rescued by the guild master i was part of a dungeon raid with my bestfriend…my brother..a pansear named james .we were fighting in preety tight halways so most of his strong moves were to powerful. there were 12 teams and wed fight in rotation it was super stressful. james and i .. he he he.we fought in synk and were combat medics but a few hours in the raid a grupt of razor hounds rushed out of no were and were about to rip into me when …a dark purple flash riped a powerful explosive blast scattering evryone.. i was burned and 3 of out team member got hurt but 4 teams were.. knocked unconsios and varrybaddly injured. if it werent fo teleport badges i dont know how many we would have lost, i. was upset scared.. angry confused when i woke up james and i started to argue and fight. and i called him a no goof fire bombing psycho. but it wasnt his fault but i was so upset i just ran.. and ran and ran untill i ended up here…..mother mew help me.. im a terrible friend.
he begins to sob and valdederon gets up from sitting by the fire place and comes over gently rubbing the dewotts back as he wails not one of them aware of the comming events ahead of them.
valdederon--- lets go work out some of your frestration.. you could use a light distraction.
neegan nodds and sits up and slowly rises with valdederon both of them heading to the still decimated training room. were they begin sparing lightly for awhile. for 2 hours they loose track of time untill they head out to get some lunch but while eating yelling can be heard in the distance. they both head over to the mess hall were its coming from .
valdederon--- whats going on here
the whole caffeteria goes quiet aside from one verry upset pokemon screaming were is he were is the dam dewott.
neegan---w.wait that..that cant…he.. did he track me down…it cant be.. that sounds like james.
with in moments a monkey like animal leaps into the air and pounces neegan into a wall and begins nearly squeazing the life out of the dazed dewott but not out of anger but sadness and worry.
valdederon--- uh.. bud you do realize you conked him in the head right..
the monkey like pokemon stares at valdederon with a growl embers falling from between his teeth and val gives an equaly serious growl back surprising the monkey alittle. before neegan pushes him off with a yelp.
neegan--crimeny james could you bee any more rough.. ive already had a headache and now its pounding cause of that stunt..
the pansear backs up alittle whimpering when the dewot hugs him suddenly and whimpers loudly before tears begin flooding down to the pansears chest
james--w..whoa.. n.neegan what the hell.. why are you crying ..you.
valdederon flicks the pansear on the nose before he can finish his sentance and begins whispering.
valdederon--- you both need to talk alone.. ill walk you both up to his room so you can both have a talk with out interuption.. you have no idea how much pain hes been in.
all 3 of them head to neegans room but only james and neegan go in while valdederon sits down against the wall with a sigh and a smile hoping the 2 of them can make up and stay friends despite the clear heated arguing going on inside almost one siddedly for while but soon silence.
{ inside the room }
james--god this room is a mess…..wait.. seriously youve been..
neegan-- im the worlds worst person arent i..i .. im sorry for .
james hugs neegan with a sigh fully grasping the gravity of neegans pain seeing the violent mess the room is in..after having taken 6 years of constant slash and razor shell attacks all over the walls and furniture and the empty booze bottles one recently shattered
neegan-- lets go home bud. evryone misses you and is worried.
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Emo kid is alive
Simple Plan last night was incredible.
Lately I have been feeling really really sad. Maybe it’s the lack of exercise, or that I really miss R (homesick) or that I am not happy in S due to recent events like when I realise what the job entails to. Perhaps it’s a combination of the above factors and perhaps, that nothing stays the same. Everybody ages, everybody will lose everybody at some point in their lives and I’m nearing that.
It’s irrational – this sadness. This melancholy. Right now, I have so much in my life – I have accomplish most of what I set out to do. I have my own house, I have a husband, I have a happy family, amazing relatives. Im still in touch with most of my friends. I have Kiko and President. I have good health. Work is generally okay except lately when I had that confusion. I should be happy now and I have no reason to be unhappy.
But yet, I feel lost. And sad. And lost. And depressed. And abit suicidal. What’s wrong with me? Is it the hormones? I don’t know. And I don’t know. Lol.
Lately I have been crying a lot as well. And last night at Simple Plan concert – as they were playing “Welcome to my life” – I was crying lol. Whyyyy. Why Shirley, what is happening? I think at the concert – I missed the feeling. The feeling of being young and having everyone around me and everything that I can do cus I am young and naïve. Perhaps I am no longer naïve which is what’s making me sad. I know the realities of adulting, the repercussions and cost of dreams. I know that dreams can be too irrational – and the grass is greener on the other side. I have seen how Felix works and know the reality of it – that you always have to please the client and you don’t have much freedom to exercise the creativity that you want.
I digress.
Simple Plan concert is really amazing. It reminds me that the emo kid in me is still alive. When the lead singer asked us if we are still dreamers? I didn’t say yes. But I am a dreamer – and I still dream. But I think at the back of my head, I know it’s almost impossible to fulfil them. It reminds me of my first clubbing experience and how being on the dance floor is a safe space – all I had to do was just dance and everything will be okay. Last night, I felt that – for the 3 hours there, I was an 18 year old kid – wide eyed and ready to conquer the world. No need to bend over backwards to reality and what society wants. But here we are. Haha.
Ah Shirley – you need to really get your shit together and figure life out. Given the current circumstances, decide on a path forward and move on. Stop dwelling in the past. Stop self victimizing. Just stop.
If you wanna end your life – then why not try to live a good one? Right?
No matter what happens, I will always love you. By true, beautiful self who always tries her best and want to make the people around her happy.
Thank you Westlife and Simple Plan – for allowing me to remember what it was like to be a kid again. I needed it. So bad.
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When they leave you on your wedding day (Sakusa, Bokuto)
Genre: angst
Word count: 1.7K
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Sakusa’s will make more sense if you read this you don’t have too but it’ll help.
Sakusa:
“Y/N,” you hear knocks on the door outside your dressing room “I-I need to talk to you.”
“But Omi, a groom must never see their bride until they meet at the alter,” you say behind the door.
“I-It’s important, and I must tell you right now.” he says a bit more intensely
“Okay, Okay... you can come in but im hiding in the closet since my dress is already on.”
“Ok.”
You hear the door open and shut, and a lot of pacing around of what you can presume was his fresh wedding shoes trotting against the hard wood floors.
“Omi,” you call wondering why he hasn’t spoken yet “Is everything okay?”
“Umm yes I-it's fine...it just I-” he says pausing
“Just what?”
“I don’t really know how to say this Y/N, I don’t really know how to say it’s just-” he says again pausing himself taking a deep breath.
“Just what Omi? Don’t tell me you’ve got cold feet love,” you say laughing at the thought of it, but your laughter ceased when you don’t hear the ‘Of course I don’t have cold feet Y/N’ that you were expecting.
“Omi?” you asked again, hoping he had he was still going to give you the response you wanted.
“Omi..” you repeated.
“Omi!” you say finally, now exiting the room (with your wedding dress on) to see why your fiance was not responding.
To your shock, Omi was sitting down on a couch with his face in his hands with soft sobs coming from his mouth and runny tears and snot coming from his eyes and nose. “Omi whats wrong?” you say loudly, alerting him,
“Y/N you look beautiful!” he says sniffling.
“Omi you were meant to say that at the alter, but now that your crying forget about the dress... what’s wrong?” you say sitting down next to him.
“I don’t know how to say this...” he starts, looking away from you
“Say what? Omi look at me...” you say feeling anxious
“We...We can’t get married today,” he says still with his eyes off you.
“What do you mean, we can’t get married.” you ask but you get no answer,
“Omi answer me,”
“Say something please!” you say turning his body so that he’s facing you, his eyes are all puffy and bloodshot from the crying and now tears are filling yours “What do you mean Omi,”
“Remember Ex’s name?” he says confusing you cause what did she have to do with anything.
“Yes I remember her, I remember vividly being the girl you cheated on her with after you claimed you were ‘breaking up with her’ so I had to tell her.” you scoff “so yes, I definitely remember Y/N, what about her?”
“We recently umm how can I say this,” he says struggling for words “reconnected... and I do truly miss her and she’s made me rethink some things, see some things...”
“And those things are?”
“I’ve always loved her, she’s always been my one. The one.” he says smiling a bit at the thought of her making you feel sick.
“But Omi what about us? What about the wedding that’s going to happen in less than an hour?”
“Im sorry Y/N I’ll tell everyone what has happened.”
“I don’t want you to do that, I want you to marry me.” you say desparetly “please Omi, why her? Why now..”
“It’s always been her, and you’ve known that.” he says standing up “The day you told her about our ONE NIGHT stand, was the day that I thought I couldn’t live on, but when you came and accepted the pathetic mess I was, I gladly dated you since I had nothing else to loose...but its been 4 years since then I'm a changed man and EX NAME is a changed girl, a forgiving girl and the spark we had wasn’t lost I guess...and Im happy now”
“But what about me?” you say crying “What about me? And my happiness, don’t I deserve that? Don’t I deserve to finally be happy.”
“Y/N, you do deserve to be happy. But not with me, not at the stake of my own happiness, I wont allow it.”
“Omi bu-”
“God Y/N, don’t be so desperate!” he said agressively “Im sorry for stopping the wedding, I know your parents have put in alot of money in it and I will certainly pay them back... in due time of course.”
“You’re sorry for stopping the wedding?” you say angrily “Not sorry for stopping this relationship. Stopping the longlasting feelings ive felt for you since the day I met you?”
“Cut the crap Y/N, all we did was have one night stand.” he says rolling his eyes and unbuttoning his top botton of his shirt and loosening his tie I dont know why but this Is what guys do when theyre mad in the movies.
“Your such a liar Omi, you used to come into my work place everyday flirting with me talking about how much you wanted me, PINING AFTER ME, making me fall in love with you and not even telling me you had a girlfriend at the time.” you yell “and you summarise that all to me falling in love with you after one measly one night stand.”
“I don’t want to do this Y/N,” he says heading to the door “We’re finished. No more wedding. No marriage. And definitely don’t contact me after this. We’re through.” he slams the door behind him, leaving you alone and jilted in your wedding dress.
You get why he broke it off with you, and technically you do play a small part to blame. You were the one that told his girlfriend that you slept with him and then dated him afterwards, so I guess ‘how you get them, is how you lose them’ definitely works in this case.
Bokuto
The bokuto and L/N wedding was going to be a joyous occasion. Your soon to be husband told everybody he saw that he were to be wed with you, he couldn’t contain his excitement.
“Bokuto calm down, we’ll be married soon.” was what you always said, whenever he started his rambles to which he always replied “I know Y/N, I cant wait.”
When it came to your grand day, you were excited from the moment you woke up you were buzzing, wondering if Bokuto was feeling even a half of the feelings that you felt.
You looked beautiful in your dress, anticipating the look on Bokuto’s face when he sees you at that alter. Your wedding party was already at the hotel you were getting married at whilst Bokuto’s got ready at the houe and decided to drive there.
So after you got ready, all you had to do is wait for Kuroo, one of Bokuto’s best men, to tell you when it’s time for you to walk down the aisle.
You were impatient, your leg was shaking now you knew how Bokuto felt when he rambled on how excited he was for you to become Bokuto Y/N. You finally heard a knock on the door and you dashed to open it,
“Kuroo, thank god you’re here!” you exclaim giving him a hug “I’ve been waiting ages for you, lets go! Take me to my future husband.” You pull his arm practically trying to run and see your man before Kuroo pulls your arm halting you.
“Y/N...” he says shifting his eye sight from left to right “I think we should sit down for a minute.”
“Why? Is he not here yet, gosh he’s always been late to things” you joke “but fine we can sit for a minute or two.”
As you sat, Kuroo turns his body to you putting his hands on your knees with his eyes looking sad “Y/N. I don’t know how to say this but...” he gulps putting his head down “there’s been an accident.”
“Accident? What do you mean accident? What happened? Is everyone okay.” you ask a bit frantically, since it would sad for someone to be hurt on your wedding day.
“That’s the thing Y/N, Bokuto he..”
“Bokuto what? He’s okay.. Right?” you ask staring at Kuroo “He’s fine right?”
“No he isnt,” he says
“What do you mean he isn’t what happened, where is he? I need to see him.” you say getting up before Kuroo pulls you back down.
“He isn’t anywhere... well anywhere for you to see him. There weren’t enough cars for us, well there were but one of them the engine wasn’t starting and it sound a bit dodgy. But Bokuto said, he insisted for us all to be there. I even offered to let him take my spot in the other cars, I did Y/N I really did, but he promised us that he’d be fine. He left a bit before he did, saying that if he had chance to wander around the hotel it may calm his nerves. But when we were driving, we saw this car all mangled up on the side of the road, it was his. I told him not to drive that car, I told him and he did and I-” he rambled with tears pooling in his eyes “Im sorry Y/N im really sorry.”
“But why why didn’t you call?”
“He told us not too, he said that he wanted you be to as happy as you could be on this day as he knew it wouldn’t end with you becoming his wife.”
“But the ambulance, you called an ambulance right?”
“He was D.O.A, Akaashi went with him since he knew that he probably wouldn’t be able to deliver the news to you.”
“Why? Why did he leave me? On our wedding day, it was supposed to be our day and now hes gone Kuroo hes gone.” you wail, but kuroo wraps his arms around you in a brotherly hug as he cries too.
That’s how you spend your wedding night, crying in your friends arms over the loss of your ‘husband’ and his ‘brother.’
Bokuto’s funeral was the week after, and it was not an event you were excited for. It was a hard day to get through, but you did it with the help of Kuroo and Akaashi. You visit Bokuto every year on your wedding anniversary talking to your husband even though it always reminds you of the day that never came to be.
This is the wedding angst that is a gift from me to you sweetheart @teesumu you can totally block me after this cause girll I cried whilst writing it.
If you want a nice ending to the bokuto story to make you feel better read this
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Could you talk more about sam and max being autistic idk I just like hearing your thoughts about it your doc was cool
you come to me on the day of my daughters wedding and ask me about sam and max autism headcanons, forcing me to open tumblr and start writing what ive been thinking recently about maxs autism in relation to him in 305
i talked about this in private a bit but i think 305 could be taken as an allegory for maxs giant autism and thinking you dont feel things the right way with ASD
-max turns into a giant horrible monster in 305, this could be taken as him literally seeing himself as a monster and the whole town, all their friends, see him as such and want him DEAD all except sam whos constantly vouching for max this entire episode. at the end when superego was like "wow! max is actually capable of self sacrifice! amazing!" sam says "told you so." very smug because he knew all along, he always knew max was capable of kindness and love because he sees it firsthand every day!
theyre partners and best friends, of course he knows him better than he knows himself. Literally in this case, where superego, personification of part of maxs brain, thinks hes not capable of feeling things in a normal, proper way, max doesnt think that about HIMSELF, superegos issue with max (maxs issue with himself lol) is that he thinks hes capable of more and max is just ignoring him he says specifically hes tried to push max towards the finer things in life and being more proper (max trying to push himself? talking about max and superego as separate when theyre essentially the same is so hard #HELP.) he thinks hes selfish and cruel and not capable of a selfless act.
theres even a line superego says to sam where he says "you of all people should be able to understand my frustration after years of being partnered with a creature driven by pure id" which is like. does max think sam gets frusterated with him and doesnt want him as a partner because of the way that he Is. max. this is a nice little parallel to sam just last episode having that thought "max is getting so powerful now soon he wont even need me :(" but thats getting away from my point a little. (veering into max depression discussion which is a whole can of worms on its own, but it is worth mentioning autism and depression often go hand in hand and some of maxs self worth issues can be attributed to feeling weird about his autism traits)
anyways of course max was capable of a selfless act, of course he would save sybil and her baby, he loves sybil and he loves babies and he has a lot of love in his little heart. so skipping ahead a bit to the biggest scene in sam and max that baffle and confuse millions, maxs reaction to coming back to sam.
a lot of people are confused by maxs nonchalance and casual retelling of the horrible events that apparently went down in his timeline where he had to kill his sam. (interestingly but a little off topic, he specifically says HE blew sam up, whereas in this tl, max killed HIMSELF, sam didnt do a thing. in fact he wouldve probably stayed trying to save him until they both blew up if superego hadnt convicned him itd be tooootally fine to leave. seriously sam its OK hes NOT going to blow up i promise. ok bye bye."
so max comes back, immediately tries to jump back into normalcy and jokes and feels unsure and uncomfortable when sam doesnt reciprocate. he looks confused when sam hugs him even. a lot of people are like "what the hell did he mean by this" but TBH as someone with ASD and lots of experience in the "getting bad news over the phone and then going to a funeral" pipeline i really felt a mind and soul connection with max there! this is mentioned somewhere int he sam and max bible for the cartoon but steve purcell writes something along the lines of "max sees things differently from anyone else" on the topic of his strange reactions to things. which is like. You have autism ->
theres an unskippable line in 305 right before you get to the endgame where sam says "why does max have tear ducts? i cant remember the last time ive seen max cry." and then immediately gets into maxs juxtaposed reaction to sams death to sams absolute MISERY over maxs. max might not feel grief in the way people would expect from a person. he might not even be sad. he might not feel things in the "proper" or "normal" way but that doesnt make him a 50 foot shambling eldritch monster, hes just wired differently. as someone with autism ive felt it too where i dont think i feel things in the right way. if something really sad and fucked up happens to me i dont feel sad and the only thing im immediately concerned with is feeling uncomfortable with watching the people around me crying which, as im typing this, makes me feel like a monster freak for being so cold and cruel, but thats the point im trying to get at, 305 could be read as an allegory for this exact feeling.. because at the end of the day max is just max and sam is happy to see him and accept him as he is. hes not a monster, hes just sams partner and best friend and its ok to be exactly the way he is without feeling the need to change
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