I need, for when they finally have their *conversation* for it to be long single takes. Few edits. Id prefer a bottle episode. Stuck somewhere. No choice but to talk it out. In the words of Abed from Community "They're wall-to-wall facial expression and emotional nuance"

Basically I want a play.

Do i want the script to have an outline and have M and C improv the rest? Also probably.

Sorry! I think this got buried in my notifications! I don't get very many asks and I just saw this in my inbox which I never usually look at.

This was a lot so I figured out how to add a cut. See below. 

Generally, I'm not a *huge* fan of bottle episodes. Pragmatically speaking, bottle episodes serve a purpose in the TV industry as a low-budget episode because they only need to use one set for the whole episode and there are no location shots and relatively few actors and probably no extras. That puts a huge amount of pressure on the writing and the actors and it is, as you say, more of a play format which makes sense given everything I just mentioned. Most of the time they feel, to me, like the writers and production team are trying to *do* something in a way that as an audience member I don't actually want to be aware of. Like maybe they're swimming beyond their depth. It feels forced, is what I'm saying. Forced and itchy and uncomfortable and I find myself checking the time every 2 minutes waiting for it to end. So I almost never hope for a bottle episode.

BUT I have really liked Mariska's bottle episodes on SVU. I'm thinking specifically of Something Happened, Part 33, The Year We All Fell Down, and 911. None of which were perfect bottle episodes, as I recall, because they did have some movements to other sets and some location shooting and things like that. But any 43-minute show that has Mariska on my screen for 40 of those minutes is fine by me. And she tends to do really well with them. I get the feeling she enjoys the challenge and so she puts a lot of herself into them. She won a freaking Emmy for 911 after all. I also think if it was an EO episode, she would be so beyond focused on making it perfect bc this has been her dream really since day one imo. (There's a clip floating around if Chris giving an interview in season one and Mariska runs up and hugs him and says, "He's playing a detective that's in love with his partner," or something along those lines.) And I think Chris would be great at it too. So all that to say, I do think the actors are up to the challenge.

I worry about the writing a bit though. While I understand where you're coming from, I'm not sure I'd agree about them just ad-libbing it bc to me this is something that needs to be pretty carefully thought out with a clear understanding of the implications of the words and a pretty specific memory of the past events they're discussing and the actors are great, but they've been part of this for 24 years and aren't going to remember everything. Someone needs to go back and reference old episodes. If a bottle episode happens, I want that script to be *crackling* with subtext. I want to hear Elliot apologize for not being there and Olivia say, "I know you can't spend your life looking over your shoulder to make sure I'm okay." I want them sharing a drink. I want her to have to blink a light at him to show she's okay. I want him to ask if anyone's taking care of her. And I want him to cradle her in his arms like he did in fault and spooked. I don't expect all (or realistically any) of that too happen, but I think a carefully, beautifully written script would do this moment the most justice. Idk if the writers are up to that or not, but they've been showing us things this season that (mostly) give reason to hope.

The actual plot of a bottle episode is where I get tied up though. SVU is a police procedural above all else and every other bottle episode they've ever done has been related to solving the mystery of a case. An interrogation, a hostage situation, a mystery girl on a phone, and argument in a court house waiting room. These are what we've seen before and what we would expect to see from a show like SVU. An EO bottle episode is uncharted territory. Is there a case that's going to be taking up half the plot? I cannot imagine them really talking unless they were alone so that rules out most of what we've seen before. (Although, Olivia having to interrogate Elliot for a crime while half the department stands on the other side of the window does sound *delicious*.)

A court house argument could work, with the aspects of the case hitting *all* the wrong buttons for them, but it's been done before. Some kind of escape room type scenario could be really fun and interesting. Where they're trapped somewhere and need to solve a mystery to get out. That could be on point and very them, but unless it feels like life-and-death, idk if there would be enough of a driving force to get them where they need to be emotionally.

If I were going to write a fic about it, it would be a situation where they were maybe chasing a suspect or investigating a location and no one really knows exactly where they are and they get hurt and trapped somewhere. Personal preference, I would have her more hurt than him. I want it to be kinda enclosed so maybe it's triggering her claustrophobia (which she has if it's my fic). I want him to need to pull some of her clothes off to help with her injuries and find her scars from William Lewis. I want her to ask him to take Noah if she dies. I want him to be in serious pain from his own injuries but feral to save her. Maybe in the end, his recovery time is worse bc he does something stupid to get them out. I think the fear of death and of missing their chance to be together might be what it takes to make it finally happen. These two are very stubborn. If they were just trapped in a room together with no other problems idk if they'd get there. (Maybe, he's pretty motivated now, so that would help. But idk if he's going to push her too hard if she's really fighting him in it.)

Also, they're gonna kiss if it's my fic, and imo, their grievously-injured bodies are about the only thing I think would keep them from going all the way the first time they kiss. And I don't mind that either, but the idea of them finally being together, but having to wait 6-8 weeks to get medically cleared for sex sounds really fun. The first day in the hospital is very *serious* but the second day features them both trying to check out AMA and him hobbling his way into her room and making out with her in a hospital bed. They're going to get busted multiple times by different people. And yes, realistically they should be traumatized, but things worked out in the end and they've got the world's best security blankets. And I think even Liv's shrink would tell her to go for it.

healing comes when you sit in front of the ocean while the moon rises on a summer night or when you walk through the forest alone only hearing sounds of distant birds and your own footsteps. healing comes with watching the sunrise on a misty morning or driving through neon lights while the fog devours everything it touches. healing comes with watching lightning strike or feeling the rain on your skin. healing comes when you drive to the darkest spot you can find, in the freezing cold, to watch shooting stars while making wishes or breathing in the frigid air. healing comes with nature. 🖤🌿

gonna get kinda dark here so tw gory intrusive thoughts under cut

like i am not kidding it is bad /srs

i just. have been having really shitty intrusive thoughts lately? like so bad i can feel a ghost sensation of the aftermath and it's uh. it's fucked up.

it's like- so it started with my little train of thought blah blah blah, using a lil mini-scythe to scrape the excess nail polish off my thumb

then it escalated to the scythe DETACHING all my fucking fingernails and leaving them flopping around

and the bloody fleshy underside is just left exposed

and like the nails getting pressed into my joints and falling off n shit

idk it's fucked up. not like affecting me too negatively or anything but. realllll fucked up.

so ya! teehee

Hi Rowan!! How about

🥚 Any easter eggs you put in a fic that you hoped people would notice?

🪜 Tell us a random fact about any fic!

✏️ The first fanfiction you ever wrote? (doesn’t have to be a posted fic)

for the asks?

thank you ad!! 🥰🥰

fic writer asks here

🥚 any easter eggs you put in a fic that you hoped people would notice?

so idk if this counts as an easter egg but i will talk about it anyway!!!!!! i wrote this horizon forbidden west fic your hands were made for holding and the whole fic is about two characters who are on a mission together falling softly in love, very sweet and delicate, one wraps his hands for battle and the other doesn’t, each tries to kind of convince the other which way is better… this is a prequel set before the events of the game because right in the beginning of the game, one of the characters DIES and the other loses his arm at the same time. so the fic ends up being a prescient tragedy because the whole time these two are discussing their hands and holding hands and whatever, the reader is aware that one will die and the other will just be left with one hand and the memory of the other being held… anyway i have a lot of comments on that fic and no one mentioned that lol so i’m saying it’s an easter egg and is missable info 😂😭

🪜 tell us a random fact about any fic!

title facts because i love titles!!!!! but as you know my cullen/trev series is called battle studies and each story and chapter is named after some kind of military maneuver or tactic… attrition was always going to be called attrition but ceasefire was actually originally called moratorium, which is the same meaning anyway but i thought it sounded weird so i switched to ceasefire which i think suits it more anyway….

✏️ the first fanfiction you ever wrote? (doesn’t have to be a posted fic)

oh my god… i went into ff.net for this because i couldn’t remember but of course it’s harry potter 🤢 and it was published in 2011!!!! lol i don’t even wanna read it so i can’t possibly link it and inflict it upon you 👹

I need blood work done soon (probably next week) so if you see a drabble or mini fic based on something along those lines within the next few days… leave me be

If eyes move, this could die! I want you…

To take me out!

Hiiii hello! It’s been SO long since I’ve posted an art to Tumblr ‘:)

Soooo I offer you:

Wolfsbane! (any pronounz)

Sort of a sona of mine! Although they weren’t originally meant to be one

Wolfsbane is HEAVILY inspired off of the game Shipwrecked 64 and (the soon to come out :3) BlunderCover 64!! (Formerly Cold Case)

Hence why she doesn’t really.. look anything like a wolf. /lh

Expect to see more of him, Hopefully!

i had the wildest fucking dream last night. Tfw your friend group goes to a maze, it's really boring, decides to have an orgy instead, and then after tries to leave the maze but the maze is now really mad and wants to kill you so the rest of it is like a slasher horror where the "slasher" is a building that can only move in certain ways moving at the right time to kill you super gorily and super dead

What book?

Awakening To Sunlight by Lindsay Stone 😩

I don’t even want to read it right now! My brain is just going wild over having to see and touch it and know it’s there. But it’s not there so now my head is freaking out. Which doesn’t even make sense 😩

“Spill the Tea-” for the Mun to ramble about what ever is currently on their mind be it positive or negative. 

[ I’ve got back to painting since last year. I haven’t talked much about this, but I used to do a lot of art for my tribe. I did a lot of tribal and Native American art contests and shows along with weekly classes since I was little. I was one of the first students in our summer art academy where I majored in visual art. I was at the academy for 3 years and stuck with 2-D visual arts when they expanded visual arts to 3-D like mask making and pottery and 2-D like painting. I stopped when I was in my late teens for reasons I won’t get into.

Thanks to a dear friend here, I came back to art and went back to doing shows and competitions for Indigenous artists like I used to do growing up.

Lately, most of my work have been centered around the night sky and the galaxy. I guess it’s because of our history. We came from heaven which we believe is at the center of the Milky Way.

When we pass away, we go to the sky where we meet Ofi Tohbi, the White Dog. I have told about him before but I’m short, he is a powerful spirit who protected us during the Great Migration to the Homelands. Now, he guides us through his path, protecting us from Sinti Holo (Horned Serpent) and other evil spirits as we return home which is at the center of our galaxy. There, we are with Abi Binili (traditionally our supreme god but is now used interchangeably with the Christian god) and our loved ones who came home before us.

I paint a lot about the night sky and the heavens because I find it comforting. I guess it’s because that is where home is and where we will go. I know this may be against what people may believe but it helps me and gives me hope that we are here on this Earth for a reason. That is was never an accident and we are meant to be caretakers and protectors of life here while we are alive, and it will be also our jobs when we return home. So, we should live every day doing our best, enjoy the beauty of life, spread kindness, love others, and do our part to help Mother Earth heal.

@the-expatriate

Ayo!!! When did this happen???

Thank y’all so much!! I can’t believe so many of you decided to stick with this blog hehe ❤️❤️

Ahm. As a celebration, how about some requests?

Send me some Danganronpa 1 and 2 characters! There’s a bunch I haven’t drawn yet and I need practice so 👀 Keep in mind that these will just be sketches tho

But also no spoils for sdr2 I haven’t finished it yet (I just finished chapter 4). No more than two characters per ask. Also no NSFW please

Okay just finished playing Lethal Company for the first time with a bunch of irl friends (we were using the bigger lobby mod) and like holy shit it's so much fun??? Like, I suck at it. If it isn't Resident Evil or FNAF I'm kinda shit with horror, ngl. But there's a lot of like... Comedic value with this game? ESPECIALLY with a bunch of friends.

And my one friend was super sweet cause he remembered that I'm afraid of thunderstorms so he made sure to speak up for me to say we could go anywhere except for really thunderstormy places in the game cause, well the way he basically put it, was that it wasn't okay to put me in a situation where it would actually make me scared and not have fun being scared, if that makes sense.

Uhh... tldr; Lethal Company is very fun and I'm still not used to having good friends irl that it does throw me for a loop /pos

i know terry fox is a canadian icon and hero but god i wish that people could think about how having 'here's this person who died from cancer after initial remission' plastered everywhere might be upsetting at best for many cancer survivors and families.

💌🥰💭 for the ask game!!! :3

Oh boy this will be a tough one jfjvkdldjgfs I have many F/Os BUT- I'll keep it to mm... the ones on the brain currently for these, which rn is Bob, Frank, and Dexter- Three for Three here lmao

Sooo...

Tbh I usually use CC for these but I wanna just use,, myself? I guess as well so yeah

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💌 - What would a love letter from your f/o look like?

Imma be honest, a love letter from Bob would probably look a little... Horrifying- Because I imagine it'd be stained with a little bit of blood, and it'd smell... Pretty gnarly, not just death or anything but probably also of burger grease-

He's not very fanciful with his words I don't imagine and he'll probs sneak at least o n e cannibal fact and or pun into the letter but it'd be sweet nonetheless.

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I imagine him to be blunt in his words (maybe a LITTLE possessive but nothing like,, weird or toxic) just very direct with his love (both me and well my oc, CC, we think the same thing so we'd cherish it immensely so, like that's going up somewhere safe)

--------------------------------------------- 🥰 - What little thing do they do makes you happy?

For all three of them, I was going to just put them in order but oh well- I can't help it but gfdjkflfjgdfs thEY ARE SO SO SILLY!!!!!! BOB, DEX, AND FRANK ARE JUST THE SILLIES EVER-

Their voices, just- EVERYTHING about them makes my feral little brain go crazy, CC and the lads are the husbands ever- ...Very silly and goofy and up to shenanigans on a day to day basis (...even tho I haven't posted anything oops)

...They just,, they EXIST and that's enough for me :)

---------------------------------- 💭 - If you could read their mind, what thoughts would they have about you?

Mm, tbh- neither me/CC would wanna read their minds, don't need to read the lads minds to know they love us- ya know? (I say us, bc well CC is supposed to be a sona of me, but he's also his o w n kinda person too)

But, one thing I imagine is Dexter- bc I feel like he's too embarrassed to say a lot of things unlike Frank and Bob (Bob being a lot more blunt and direct, Frank... I imagine he can be kinda direct and blunt but not nearly as much as Bob)

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but just imagining Dex thinking of how much he loves us and not having to awkwardly say it aloud (he does of course sometimes, its just... kinda hard for them, btw- He/They pronouns is what I personally use for Dex)

It'd be a nice thing in those regards

Not my ADHD distracting me from the depression loophole I almost fell into rn xD

dreaming of a nose job lmao

the pet

big PET PEEVE of mine regarding creative advice is when big timers frame things as 'let me tell you what is not valid creation'. i personally always try to frame as 'let me tell you what IS valid creation' because if you are talkin art then, guess what, EVERYTHING IS VALID

my BUCKAROO SENSES always get triggered over these discussions of ‘THIS IS THE SET WAY YOU HAVE TO DO THINGS TO MAKE IT BIG’ because... it is just not true. i mean HECK just look at my career. (and EXTRA LARGE WARNING if someone is charging for this 'advice’)

instead what i personally look for, and what i try to do myself, is say ‘this is what worked for me it might not be for everyone but i am happy to tell you about my path and you can take from that what you will. it is not the RIGHT path, it is MY path. LETS SHARE’

of course this is mostly SEMANTICS you could probably go back through my posts and find thousands of times when i messed this up, but this is what i TRY to do because it is what i believe. YOUR PATH IS JUST AS VALID AS MINE whether it is well traveled or cutting through the brush

alright buckaroos thank you for listening to my ART RAMBLES. LOVE IS REAL lets get out there and TROT