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cweampier · 1 year

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saw u post something like ‘leon breeder balls’ and i let out the ugliest laugh 😭💀

but like…. I AGREE SO MUCH. mmmmm thinking about pent up leon after a mission and all he wants to do is just unload everything from his breeder balls and into ur needy pussy :(( OR maybe one night ur silly self asked him if u could hold his balls but then u start to gently massage it and it just makes him hard bc he loves it when u touch him… i am going insane over this fuckin pixel help me

SO FUCKING REAL ITS REAL. i believe this one is gonna be on a bit of the longer side, i love him.. a lot. also very fluffy smuts kinda short i’m sowwies.. it’s just pure longing.. sorry i went all out.

after a few grueling days of uncertainty, your boyfriend finally bids you a bountiful hello once he walks through the door. there were always downsides of being so closely acquainted with leon s. kennedy. the several days he’s m.i.a on a mission and you don’t even fucking know if he’s alive kind of downsides and the jesus fucking christ this motherfucker is so damn needy downside.

the moment he walked into that very door of your shared abode, you could just sense the tenseness plaguing the usually easy to breathe in environment of the place. he was dirty, face covered in ash as well as dirt and mud, it was like he was rolling around in a pigs pin the entirety he was in spain. but, those things didn’t come directly out of your mouth, especially not if he’s practically running across the living space to smother you in his arms. “leon—“ you were cut off with his nose nuzzling through the parts of your hair, choosing to bite your tongue as you could tell he was reveling in this moment.

he didn’t want to talk, he just wanted to touch. no spot was neglected kind of touch. you relished in the presence of normalcy as you melted in his embrace, opting to bury your face into his chest as you both sat there, touching. several people were killed for him to be there, and boy was it so fucking worth it. you mustered up enough courage to break the silence, noticing the absence of his sheepskin bomber jacket, expensively crafted with tough leather. it looked perfect on him, at least you thought so.

“forgot something?” you muffled against his hold, you could feel his body respond to your voice somehow as he slowly separated himself from you, it seemed almost impossible. he let out a low chuckle, sucking in a breath before pressing a thumb against your cheek. “can’t say that i didn’t, hadn’t seen that jacket in ages..” he grinned through his admission, visibly bashful. he stared down at you grumpily, pouting like a child just cause you just had to speak up and make him let go of you. you cocked a brow at his direction and he defeatedly averted his gaze. you snickered, advancing farther into both of your’s home to fetch a washcloth, thoroughly wetting it in the kitchen sink before turning back to him.

he followed you, like a dog. who knew that he could become domesticated by a woman. ever since the events of raccoon city, things haven’t been in his favor when it came to his love life, meeting you was like encountering a saint personified into a woman. you motioned for him to sit but he didn’t budge, dumbly standing behind you, practically looming over you ominously. you rolled your eyes, irritated before you directed your attention back towards him like he wanted so badly. “yeees?~” you dragged on, shifting your weight onto your left leg before placing your hand on your hip. “not movin’ till you actually say hello to me, i know you missed me..” he replied, training his eyes onto your lips—he must’ve forgotten how kissable they were. you tutted, shaking your head as he smoothed a hand through his unkept hair. “i missed you baby, you know that.. now please take a seat, i’m trying to help you out here.” you sighed out, observing as he sat down, adjusting in his seat to get comfortable.

you couldn’t help but notice how worn he looked. eyes heavy, the skin barrier of his lips violated by the relentless gnawing at it. he made note of you studying his face, growing a bit insecure, not wanting you to stare and eventually notice something that made you want to leave. “i know, i’m all beat up but at least i’m home, yeah?” he alleviates your concern, your brows furrowing up as you felt your stomach finally settle after the constant churning in it. “i’m glad you’re home, leon… i’ll take care of you. you know i will.” you reminded him, beginning to wipe away the grime from his face, countless hours of slaughter. the rag was covered in filth and dried blood, it told a story. one of courage, you knew his job absolutely was not for the faint of heart. you watched as it took its toll on even him. you noticed a scar cleverly sliced across his left cheek, tracing your fingertips over it.

he flinched. eyes darting towards you as you watched his pupils dilate instinctively. your breath wavered, like a flame of a candle threatened by the harsh winds of a storm. his body was taut, breath laboring as he sat there, attempting to calibrate himself within the comfort of his own home. he grabbed at your hand, pressing it firmly against his cheek with earnest, welcoming your sweet contact as your the two of your’s warmth became adjoin. he missed this, he missed you. each lasting moment he spends with you, it makes it even more difficult to depart from you once he had to be deployed on a mission. he was starved of your attention, and he craved it. he yearned for your acknowledgment, he’d give just about anything for it, intangible or not, he’ll find a fucking way. he leaned into your touch, tranquility washing over him.

“handsome..” you gave his cheek a tender yet reassuring tug, watching a smile stretch across his face. “i hardly recognized you with all that muck on your fa— mh?!” lips eagerly collided with your own, grasping your wrists, guiding them to his neck where he demanded for them to be rested at, old habits die hard. he slipped his tongue past the gates that were your lips, tongue delving into your mouth, as he hoisted you up, allowing your legs to inevitably lock around his waist. he pulled away briefly, only to witness your dazed expression, lips plump and lathered in his saliva. his lips moved feverishly along your neck, adorning it with chaste kisses, ironic to how you two stood with one another.

you let out a strained moan, nimble fingers finding the back of his head, your fingers lacing within the hair present, grabbing at it arbitrarily. his kisses bruised your skin like a vulture tearing at a corpse as it sprawled out motionlessly on the pavement, accepting the inevitability of its fate. he pushed passed the door that lead to your bedroom, left vacant and untouched by him for several hours. it beckoned him with the sounds of floorboards creaking beneath his feet as he staggered heavily through the room, your body flushed against his chest.

he glanced down at his side of the bed, unmade with his clothes discarded carelessly underneath the covers. you refused to sleep elsewhere, finding solace within the sheets as they laid inanimately beneath you as you brooded underneath the light of the moon at nights, even as the sun shone through the curtains. they smelt of him, the textiles smelt of him, not permitting you to ever forget it. he tossed you gently onto the bed as your body clashed against the softness of the foamy mattress, bedding engulfing you, leaving you to carefully watch as leon began taking off his shirt, revealing that very body you spent countless nights musing upon. he assisted you with your own top, discarding of it somewhere you’d probably discover it at days later.

“missed this body.. missed the way it felt in my hands.” he averred, approaching where you laid in an almost predatory gesture. “say you’ll let me take you, baby, please..” he pleaded, thumbing at the waistband of your bottoms. you nodded, further encouraging his downright impulsive behavior. he incapsulated your lips in a kiss backed with passion as he fiddled with his belt, the clanking of the buckle sounding in the confines of your bedroom. he made quick work of it before tugging down his pants, ushering your body to rest against the pillows as he crawled between your legs. he broke the kiss, a string of saliva keeping your lips tethered together. “beautiful,” he echoed you from earlier, eyeing your bra and overall disheveled aesthetic. “shit, did i do that?” he remarks, huffing out a breath, a foxy smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.

he watched as you fumbled with your pants, swatting your hands away, he shook his head with disapproval, unsatisfied with the idea of you doing any of the work. “god, already tasking yourself with more work? let me, i’ll forever be indebted to you.” he assured, sliding your pants down the fat of your thighs and ultimately the entirety of your legs. he folded them with care beside you, turning his attention to your panties. he hummed, endorsing the presence of your arousal seeping through. “looks like i’m not the only one who’s needed this, huh?” he commented snidely, watching you puff out a breath impatiently.

“hey, hey.. i’m right here,” he cooed, working at your panties as he removed those as well, leaving you bare and ready for what’s to come. he allowed his boxers to pool around his ankles as he pulled you by your hips towards him, closing the gap between you two. he wasted no time as he pushed into you, your pussy greedily claiming the base of his cock, coating it with your fluids. he groaned as he thrusted his head back, gritting his teeth. you whimpered, adjusting to him as he slowly but surely bottomed out inside you. “gonna start movin, mkay? i hear you, baby, i know..” he soothed the ache inside you without fail, staying true to his words as he commenced. the sounds of skin slapping lewdly filled the room, his arm stretching out to grip onto the headboard as he looked down at his cock splitting you open in smitten. you craned your neck to the side, drinking up everything he offered you.

he wasn’t having that, cradling your chin between his thumb and pointer finger, turning your head towards direction. “look at me, wanna see that gorgeous face of yours. feels good, hm? i know, hon…” he fawned over you, disgustingly enamored. he picked up the pace as sweat collected along his brow line. not only did he miss this he needed it. badly. to relinquish his self restraint, for it to topple over on top of you. “missed you s’much, leon.. missed you—hh’missed you..” you babbled on, eyes involuntarily rolling into the back of your head as he slammed his hips against your own. in a fleeting moment, you were one with bliss.

with each thrust, he reminded you of how much he loved you. with each thrust, he drilled it into your skull of how much he yearned for you. “fuck, i wanna cum inside you… wanna give myself a reason not to even think of leaving your side again—mmfh!~” he grunted manically, his hips jerked and convulsed as he embellished the sight, the utter beauty of you beneath him. your bodies moved in a frenzied tandem, your limbs tangling together as he approached sheer ecstasy. “pussy feels so good, ‘t’s so warm.. fuck, don’t stop..” he says mindlessly, as if he wasn’t the one rocking his hips against the flesh of your ass. with one pitched whine, he spilled himself inside you, crushing your face into his chest, heaving as he collected the stray strands of your hair, tucking them behind your hair.

he pressed a kiss to your forehead, panting with purpose. “take me one more time, promise ‘ll take care of you.. always.” he stilled his hips inside you, plugging you up, ensuring that nothing will slip out. the night was still young, and your boyfriend was just getting started. he breathed out a hushed confession of love before sitting upright, slinging both of your legs over his shoulders in a routinely fashion.

#HWNDLALELTMYMR #SORRU WVERYONE I DIED WRITING THIS #there’s more story than smut here actually! sorry for that #lonely night today..#leon kennedy #leon kennedy smut #leon kennedy x reader #leon kennedy x you #resident evil #resident evil smut #resident evil x reader #resident evil x you #resident evil 4 #cweampier

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lanasblogasf · 1 year

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Hi! hcs about Darry falling for and dating a Soc? How do you think he would feel about them helping out financially, being around the gang, just spoiling darry and his brothers, ect.?

sure! Thanks for the request! i haven’t written in a hot min oops (this isn’t my best work but go easy on me)

(s/n = sibling name)

Darry dating a soc 💗

so going back in time to when y’all first met

you guys met through ponyboy- well kinda

pony had to do a partner science project for school and got paired up, by his teacher, with your younger sibling

(and despite being socs, you and your younger sibling were raised to, well, to not be assholes)

so they got along pretty well so pony invited them over the Curtis house to work on the project

anyways it got late and ur sibling called for you to pick em’ up

and when Darry opened the door to you and your cute skirt and perfectly curled hair

he was absolutely captivated the second he layed eyes on you

to say the least

y’all exchanged numbers and what not and about a month or so later you started dating <3

Okay next

yes yes yes you love spoiling him and his brothers

but honestly darry isn’t a huge fan of you spending your money on him or his family

he’s very grateful don’t get me wrong and the boys love it but

he wants to be able to provide for his brothers on his own with his hard work and feels bad when you spend your money on them

but you like giving gifts to them it make you happy when the boys get all excited and it isn’t a waste to you to spend your money on the man you love

he also doesn’t want you to see him as someone who isn’t able to keep his family afloat financially (even though you know he’s very hardworking and you admire him for it)

but still sometimes you buy things for the curtis home when he mentions he needs to go to the store (you don’t tell him this ofc)

- “sweetheart? did you buy more napkins? i swear we were just out of them the other day..”

- “pffftt noo..you probably bought them and it slipped your mind is all 😊”

- “uh huh 🤨”

He buys you flowers and pays for your dates despite your constant insisting that you pay this time

the gang was definitely skeptical about you at first

socs didn’t exactly have a track record for being saints

but your sweet personality didnt take long to win them over

their always asking you to introduce them to your single girlfriends

any of the gang members hear someone talking bad about ya? whether it’s a soc or greaser, it don’t matter. their instantly coming to your defense

they really like you and are all glad darry found someone as good as you

definitely no bad mouthing socs under darry’s roof (well unless there was a rumble or som like that yk)

he gets pissed when you tell him some greasers have been naggin on you and won’t leave ya alone

he’ll gladly have a talk with them and straighten things out if you catch my drift

especially if you get physically hurt or come to his door crying?

he’s comforting you as much as he can

but makes sure to let the gang know that if they just happen to see these greasers, to give ‘em a piece of darry’s mind for him 😁

isnt really a fan of your soc friends

i mean he tried at first but your friends weren’t very open and didn’t love the idea of you dating ‘some goddamn grease’ so he eventually gave up

see now you may be oh so loving and warm

but your friends on the other hand aren’t exactly the same way

maybe one or two but the majority are your typical stuck-up, kinda douchy, socs

so darry (and the gang too) wasnt very fond of them but that’s alright you kinda expected that to happen considering the way your friends are vs how the gang it

they just live two very different life styles and are bound to butt heads no matter what

when you stay over at his house he has a little space in his closet for your things and likes to help you pick out outfits to wear

never ever let’s you walk around alone in greaser territory, he knows how some of them can be and he’s too protective of you to let you get put in any sort of danger

he spends a lot of time just admiring you

whether your putting on makeup or studying for college in his kitchen

he’s just so interested in your life

also kinda (though he will never talk about it out loud) sometimes likes to imagine, through you/when watching you just live your soc life, what his life could have been like if he stuck with college

but he’d never say that because he loves his brothers more than anything and is glad he chose to take care of them

just sometimes he thinks about how different things would be if he didn’t yk

putting on red lipstick just to kiss him on the cheek and leave an imprint of your lips on him <333

in conclusion dar loves you so very much and is proud to call you his girl !!

#darrel curtis #darry curtis x reader #darry curtis #the outsiders headcanons #the outsiders x reader #my writing #darry curtis headcanons #greasers #soc #greaser x soc #the outsiders

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b0nten · 1 year

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POLAROIDS & CIGARETTES

[SYNOPSIS] ˚⁀➷｡ them finding out you have a polaroid of you in your phone case

[NOTES] ˚⁀➷｡ ran sanzu and hakkai being goofy

hakkai

bro is SO excited

literally the happiest man alive

he just wanted to see what the time was and next thing he knew he was hit by a sudden rush of euphoria, happiness and everything positive

my guy looked at you like you had just commited the BIGGEST, MOST SINFUL crime ever

“what’s wrong, hakkai?”

“are you REALLY asking that 🤨?”

“….”

“UR PHONE CASE IS SO CUTE☺️☺️!!!”

and then he kisses you

literally so wholesome

would URGE you to take another pic for him to keep in his phone case.

boy adores showing you off

speaking about showing you off,,

i think his photo would be REAAAAAALLY similar to yours or maybe even a re-enacted version of yours

matchy king

the photo is of you two on your anniversary, at tokyo disneyland. it’s so pretty — the sky is dark and there’s fireworks dancing on it, and the castle’s towering behind you. you and hakkai are wearing matching mickey and minnie mouse ears and you’re holding a giant koala plushie that the won for you at an arcade. it’s the most beautiful picture ever, especially because you’re both laughing and oozing out that same happy energy through the photo!

ran

ALSO SO EXCITED

HE’S SOOOOO SMUG ABOUT IT TOO

like “what’s that you got there. y/n😏?”

“oh, this?” you lift your phone and show him the back “it’s a polaroid we took when we went to West Walk”

unlike hakkai, he doesn’t keep a polaroid in his phone case, only because he tried to but somehow lost it :(

he likes to show it off SO MUCH THO

like, when he’s with friends every 10 minutes he’s like “btw did you see this cute pic of me and my queen?”

LOVE THAT FOR HIM

get urself a man like ran

the photo is one of you in a bigass fitting room in saint laurent, looking SO extra.

bonus: you actually have two polaroids, the second being one of you two fooling around in a department store.

the picture is of you two, and you’re sitting in a cart, while he’s the one pushing it.

also, both of them are SURELY mirror pics. i will not argue or elaborate.

another bonus:

years later, when he works for bonten, he comes up randomly to you and tells you to get dressed. then, he takes you to West Walk into YSL and you guys take photos like the two cuties that you are. then, he tells you to put it in your phone case. before you leave, you have him unknowingly recreate the department store photo that he STILL doesn’t know of.

sanzu

first things first

let me start by describing the polaroid

your polaroid consists of a drunk, blurry selfie you took with your boyfriend when the two of you had one too many drinks.

he’s leaning against a brick wall on the street, struggling to light a cigarette. he’s got one leg propped up, the other fully out in the street, and his white hair is messy. he looks so grumpy too 🥹🥹

then, in the opposite corner, there’s you! your face is so zoomed in and blurry but your contagious smile ia still noticeable, through the crinkle of your eyes and very very stretched skin around the mouth from how hard you’re smiling (since the mouth can’t even be seen)

i think it’s cute

actually really cute

he’s not really of the same opinion as i

but that’s ok! we don’t care!

“ Y/NNNNN WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKKKK”

^ his first reaction

then he actually started panicking

“what if your parents see this?”

“my parents live an ocean and plenty of kilometers away”

“YEAH BUT STILL”

you try to reassure him that the picture is very nice and you’ve actually gotten a lot of compliments on it

“PEOPLE REALLY SAW IT????” now he wants to crawl into a hole and die

almost goes into septic shock when mucho sees the picture and points out that it represents your guys’ dynamic pretty darn good (doesn’t say anything bad or laughs maliciously, genuinely think it’s cute)

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johnslittlespoon · 10 days

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when/ how do u think buck and bucky first noticed how easily embarrassed curt is and how badly he wants to be sweet and obedient for them?

also, i read ur response about the first time gale spanked john and i’m curious about how that would go for curt. was it a spur of the moment thing egged on by one of them or did the two of them decide beforehand it’s what they were gonna do? i feel like they’d try it and then take note of how effective it is when curt immediately gets red in the face and starts whining and apologizing 😅 the added plus comes in the days following when he’s especially sweet and well behaved and continues to flush if it gets brought up i’m dead

ooo hmmm. i think they first notice because curt is generally a loud, rowdy boy, so when something throws him off, it's immediately clear because curt going quiet and shy is such a 180 from his usual self.

in terms of being easily embarrassed, one of them would probably poke a little fun at how fast he's gotten worked up one day, and they wouldn't expect the quick flush and the mumbled retort, and they'd have to investigate that asap. egging it on with an "oh, going all shy on us now?" just to see their pretty thing squirm under their eyes <3

the itch to be good would be spotted so fast i think; i see it happening on a day that's a little more rough for curt, when he's feeling antsy and having too many thoughts at once, and it materializes in the form of him being mouthy and snappy. so john and gale take it upon themselves to help him get out of his head, and they're surprised at how fast he quiets when they're giving him clear verbal instructions, coaxing his mouth around them, telling him how to move, setting rules so he doesn't have to do any thinking. so that becomes their go–to when his mind is too busy, because sometimes he's not being mouthy to be a brat, he's being mouthy because he doesn't know how else to get out his feelings.

and i feel like there wasn't a lot of general knowledge about kink negotiation during this time period LOL so i feel like 95% of what they'd try together would be impulse/spur of the moment stuff, a lot of trial and error to see what clicks and what squicks yk.

i think one of them, probably john because he has less patience than gale does (gale is used to dealing with both john and curt's bullshit– he's got the patience of a saint lol) would impulsively bend curt over the edge of the bed in a moment of irritation at him talking back or being difficult, and he'd give him a quick swat on the ass and curt's words would literally die mid sentence and he'd go red and press his cheek into the mattress with a gasp and gale and john would have the lightbulb moment when they glance at each other.

john going "oh, whaddya think of that?" as he smooths his hand over the red, and curt would whine quietly before john abruptly brings his hand down again and draws out a little yelp from curt. all it would take is gale leaning over him and gently lifting his head with a hand in his hair to get curt to look up at him, all flushed and heavy–lidded, forcing him to hold eye contact when john smacks his ass again, and curt would be whimpering out apologies and pleas despite the way he borderline moans with each hit.

it wouldn't take much to have him whining and wriggling where john inevitably pins his hips down to keep him still, and they'd probably bring a bit of humiliation into it too, gale pointing out that "you're whining and complaining, but the way you're rocking against the mattress tells a different story, sweet thing" just to get him even more worked up. (◠‿◠✿)

#we circle back to spanking/discipline everytime LMFAOAO #sorry i always forget to add *keep reading* things on these longer drabbles LOL #curtbuckbucky #johnslittlespoon asks #johnslittlespoon brainrot #johnslittlespoon spicy

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not-goldy · 9 months

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Hey Goldy

Love your blog ♥️

About the recent Wlives from JK and how he is been so open and so honest with Army. He wants to talk to us. He wants to tell us things related to him and his life and whenever he does that this fandom becomes so weired. Why is everyone acting like they know JK better then JK himself? He literally said he is avoiding sensitive questions but he still choose to say "JeonJimin" Out loud. Korean or not everyone in this world knows if two names are put together its because people like them together and they ship them. Its not like JK is from some diff world. The whole bird app is full of people saying how bad it was for a fan to write JeonJimin in comments. And now the people of this fandom have become some saints overnight and are teaching people how to write comments and what to say and what not to say.

Where are these teachers and these saints when Tuktukkers make noise? - Oh they are nowhere to be found.

Everyone need to understand that it was JK who choose to say it out loud while he was avoiding sensitive questions or things to say. But he still choose to answer questions about Jimin and say his ship name outloud.

I am sorry Goldy i am all over the place but i wanted to rant so i came to u. I have so mych more to say but then it will look like an essay lol anywas i am waiting for your post about Wlives happened recently and what u think about where this all is going and why was JK so desperate that he begged Jimin for a Live together for literally almost 2 mins straight. He almost risked it all. That boy needs his Jiminshii..

Love you Goldy and Love your blog♥️ You are one of the reasons for me to stay in this fandom. Thank God there is someone who actually understands boys and is not afraid to express her thoughts. Reading ur blog makes me calm and gives my tired brain some good Jikook therapy. Thank You

They just tried to ride on the wave of chaos and vitriol to express thier bigotry, anti Jimin and anti jikook sentiments but none of that works on me I'm afraid. been in this for so long I see right through their bull and it don't phase me. Not at all. Lmho.

And I'm glad he said he ignores comments he finds sensitive because we've seen them do that time and again on their lives through their pained expressions when they come across comments that are so vile and so grotesque.

How many times have we seen the Fandom akekeke over him reading YOONMIN on live or Tae Kook and explaining to Tae that's their ship name as if he was hearing it for the first time?

Look at his face reading that. Sounds like he's in on the joke to me🤷🏾

It's okay if he calls other ship name but it's a problem when he calls his own ship name- what a bunch of losers these ppl are.

Then they want us to believe this man had no idea what the fuck he was reading on that screen as if his intelligence evaporates when ITS TIME FOR HIM TO READ Comments about his own ship. LIKE GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE

The most annoying part of it all is, sometimes these boys read ship names from comments deliberately for whatever reason. Sope do this, Jikook do this.

Some times they are happy to see fans show love to other members by asking of them in the comments especially when we all know those members are going through tough times. It's a two edged sword situation. Some times fans over do it sometimes it really show live and support and other times it's a cute way of bonding with them and having our own inside jokes and secrets etc- we just have to learn to READ THE ROOM AND NOT OVER DO IT YA KNOW.

I recall Jimin reading comments about Jungkook (this might have been at a time when Jungkook was being heavily censored as I theorized years ago) Jimin saying fans kept asking of Kook during his live pushed Hybe to produce Jungkook the next day on live which if I remember correctly was even on YouTube not weverse😆

The power play is real- not that they need it now because SOLO. But still. The fans, the platform form, the attention all of that gives them leverage and if you are going to tell him what do with his own platform then he might as well delete it like he deleted Instagram.

PEOPLE NEED TO STOP TELLING THESE MEN WHAT TO DO WITH THEIR LIVES AND HOW TO LIVE THEIR LIVES.

Respecting them is respecting their complexities as human beings as well and not always viewing them in two dimensional black and white way. They can enjoy the ships and the delulu and the inside jokes and mentioning other members during their lives and still be frustrated with it sometimes, overwhelmed, disrespected or annoyed with it because THEY ARE COMPLEX BEINGS.

Some times they are in a bad mood and are easily triggered, other times they just couldn't care less.

COMPLEX BEINGS.

Pretty you're alright. I'll read your essays anytime. And love you same

Now lemme push my Jimin agenda, you won't happen to be a Jm Stan would you cos I want you to listen to his letters live version at 0.41 and 0.55 whatever he's doing there has me in a trance😭😭😭😭😭😭

When I die sing it on my boat ride to purgatory 🤧

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padfootastic · 1 year

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maybe it’s becoming less of an unpopular opinion, but Remus is not a father figure to Harry. whether he’s a ‘good’ person is debatable, he’s human, but his flaws are often glossed over and he’s definitely not the saint fandom makes him out to be. even if we ignore his abandonment of Harry for twelve years (which doesn’t compare to Sirius not being able to be there because he was in JAIL), he doesn’t tell Harry about the friendship with his father until the end of POA, then promptly disappears from his life. he then shows up in OOTP, then promptly disappears after Sirius’ death. you can argue he was grieving the summer after, but Harry gets nothing until DH. Remus absolutely deserves the verbal smackdown from Harry in DH about abandoning his son. it’s just a shame no one else thought to do the same on behalf of Harry.

oof, okay, i see we’re out for some (nice, well deserved) violence ;)

i’m sure it comes as no surprise that i strongly agree with this

it’s like—even if u say that he couldn’t/didn’t need to contact harry pre-hogwarts (which i heavily disagree w tbh) then what reason did he have for his distance during hogwarts and ESPECIALLY post-poa? like, our boy had zero family during the third task, the least he could’ve done was come see him??? but nope. remus was just like ‘i’m outta here bye 🥸’

and don’t even get me started on all the fics/hcs that fully equate remus & sirius in terms of parenting in all the wolfstar raising harry stuff. like, i’ve mentioned it before and i really don’t care what individuals write about fandom is ur playground and all that but!! BUT!! when the dominant perception becomes that remus was just as good as, if not often better, than sirius at being a parent and s becomes the irresponsible man child then that’s where it gets me fired up. like, the audacity to not just be wrong but also completely malign sirius, the one adult who unselfishly cared about harry?? ugh sorry. u can tell this is my soapbox lol.

Send me unpopular opinions!

#i do wonder how unpopular this is tbh #bc everyone i talk to & on my feed would probably be on this side #but then idk what the larger fandom says #it’s either ignorance or denial there #but man. i’ve talked at length about how remus wasn’t worthy of sirius right?#let’s do how remus was terrible for harry as well #and u can argue all day long that he had no responsibility towards harry #but that REEKS of white american individualism so i won’t even engage #i just took a lil muskmelon break #haven’t eaten it yet. just cut it which is a Task in itself #i shall feast in a sec #pen’s asks #ask game

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hoonvrs · 5 months

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SAINT let me tell u how some year 11 tried to rizz me up today.

so imagine i had to help out with like telling the year 11s about economics and the a levels i do yk and like helping them with gcse advice right

so they were in groups of 4-6 and they’d come around to each person and this group of 6 boys come over and sit with me bare in mind i was alone cos my flipping partner helper decided to cancel last minute .. but so one of them goes “omg i swear i saw ur tiktok on my fyp” and i was like no.. i don’t post like that so impossible and he was so adamant like “nah man u must have been on my instagram or yk snapchat public story”

and i was like bro no ?? and then he goes “ahhh lemme just get your @ and make sure innit” and i just bursted out laughing LIKE WHAT THE HECK IS THIS 😭😭😭

NOT U GETTING FLIRTED WITG BY A YOUBGERR😭😭 uk boys upping their game cause why was that actually kinda smooth

i rmb having to do that for gcse students then i dropped it cause my girl was always crying…😄

#inbox — new msg!#kat !#iix — moots!

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tiredstressedemotionalmess · 5 months

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ok tbh he is a difficult character to make a playlist for if you have suggestions im all ears and this will most definitely be added on to/revised

angel with a shotgun -self explanatory every line this song is him

modern day cain- i know there is quite literally a completely different character in this show meant to be a cain allegory but the theme of constantly claiming youre doing what is righteous despite all the wrongs youve comitted in the process

new invention- bros entire life is thrown on its head constantly this playlist has an obvious theme of devotion/dependency

only hope- AAAAAOGH destiel moment dean is LITERALLY his only hope sorry

ginasfs- same themes as above

this is how i disappear- hes insane

burn bright- me when i take the power given to me and pave my own path

surrender the night- same as above

heaven help us- OUGHH this is also on my dean playlist self explanatory

dont try- dude is on his last leg at any given time

OUGHHHHH ALL OF THESE ARE SO REAL MODERN DAY CAIN,,,, UR MIIIIIIND

i do in fact have suggestions bc i think abt these things a totally normal amount mhm yeah SO-

Sun and Moon by Jon Walker - "i dont need a lot of things i have love and that is everything whats the point of holding on if the two of you just dont belong?" "i dont need the sun and the moon to tell me what to do as long as i have you" DO YOU UNBERSAND MY VISION HERE???? yes yes destiel shit but also his inability to follow heaven's directions and conform and his love for the world and humanity and and and-

Defiance by The Young Veins: pretty much the same explanation as above. "this kind of thing always happens i fell in love again with defiance"

Tell Me It's Okay by Paramore: "tell me it's okay to be happy now because im happy now" LOOK IM PAST THE POINT OF COHERENT EXPLANATIONS RN BUT YOU GET IT RIGHT?????

Hail the Saints by Electric Century: literally the whole entire song is a supernatural song to me but verse four (?) is just. "believe in order, freedom. i believe in order, freedom's flawed freedom's flawed" IDK IT JIST MAKES ME THINK OF EARLY CAS AND HIS STRUGGLE WITH FREE WILL OKAY

Heaven's Gate by Fall Out Boy: yeah so what if most of these are just my destiel? fucking sue me i have a lot of thoughts. the "youre the one habit i just cant kick" part is just sooooooo cas and his devotion to dean and the "i got dreams of my own, but want to make yours come true" AND THE "CAUSE EVERYTHING ELSE IS A SUBSTITUTE FOR YOUR LOVE" AND THE-

#asks #anyways fucking obessed with the playlist soup thanks for the fuel for my thoughts gonna be thinking abt him a totally healthy amount

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Hello ! I was wondering if I could get a playlist for Silica (Keiko Ayano) from SAO (Sword Art Online) — If you know the character anything that reminds you of her I would appreciate ^__^ )/ If you don't then that's alright & I think any upbeat music to help get through the days would be nice ♡

hello!! oo i know absolutely nothing about sword art online, so i'll go more for upbeat stuffs and hope you like it!

also, apologies for the wait! i hope you're feeling better this week and that your new year has been nice to you so far :].

songs go like "song" + "artist"

"Move" + "Saint Motel"

"My Type" + "Saint Motel"

"COUNT THOSE FREAKS" + "Whitey"

"Let Me Tell You About My Operation" + "They Might Be Giants"

"Keep On Running" + "Tom Jones"

"She Drives Me Crazy" + "Tom Jones" and "Zucchero"

"Safe And Sound" + "Capital Cities"

"Blue Moon" (Rerecorded) + "The Marcels"

"Twelfth Street Rag" + "Roy Clark"

"Jaws" + "Lemon Demon"

"Pizza Heroes" (Bonus Track) + "Lemon Demon"

"Action Movie Hero Boy" + "Lemon Demon"

"20221127" + "Mac DeMarco"

"This Is My Beloved" + "Mort Garson"

"Caramelldansen" + "Caramell"

"Buddy Holly" + "Weezer"

"Wouldn't It Be Nice" + "The Beach Boys"

"Good Vibrations" + "The Beach Boys"

"Right Back Where We Started From" + "Maxine Nightingale"

"drop pop candy" + "Reol" and "Giga"

"GOT UR NUMB3R - v2" + "bugcried"

"Gay Aunt Jane's Wacky Knife Play Fortress" + "4lung"

"Palmtree Panic - 'P' mix" + "SEGA SOUND TEAM"

"Let Yourself Go!" + "Octo Octa"

"ミッドナイト・ランデブー" (in english: "Midnight Rendezvous") + "CASIOPEA"

"What I Like About You" + "The Romantics"

"Any Way You Want It" + "Journey"

"You Make My Dreams (Come True)" + "Daryl Hall & John Oates"

"Jump" (Remastered 2015) + "Van Halen"

"Celebration" + "Kool & The Gang"

"Steal My Sunshine" (Single version) + "LEN"

"I Want You Back" + "The Jackson 5"

"Material Girl" + "Madonna"

"Dude (Looks Like a Lady)" + "Aerosmith"

"Cheri Cheri Lady" + "Modern Talking"

"Girls Just Want to Have Fun" + "Cyndi Lauper"

"Fell In Love With a Girl" + "The White Stripes"

"Here's the Thing" + "Sports Team"

"ChuChu Lovely MuniMuni MuraMura PrinPrin Boron Nururu ReroRero" + "MAXIMUM THE HORMONE"

"Freaky" + "Upchuck"

"I Got You (I Feel Good)" + "James Brown & The Famous Flames"

"Soul Bossa Nova" + "Quincy Jones"

"The Walker" + "Fitz and The Tantrums"

"Boogie Wonderland" + "Earth, Wind & Fire" and "The Emotions"

"Sweet Tooth" + "Scott Helman"

"I Want To Hold Your Hand" (Remastered 2015) + "The Beatles"

"Waterloo" + "ABBA"

"Peaches" + "The Presidents Of The United States Of America"

"West End Girls" (Remastered 2018) + "Pet Shop Boys"

"BANANA SHAKE" (Sped up) + "HUS"

"D.A.N.C.E" + "Justice"

"Come and Get Your Love" (Single version) + "Redbone"

"Sports" + "Viagra Boys"

"La Dueña del Swing" (in english: "The God/Queen of Swing") + "Los Hermanos Rosario"

"Jump Around" + "House Of Pain"

"Ice Cream and Cake" (Remix) + "Buckweat Boyz"

"Dancing with Myself" + "Generation X"

"Sunny" + "Boney M."

"Summerlove" (feat Anabelle) (Scorccio Edit) + "S-Connection"

"Shalala" + "Moses Gunn Collective"

"Girls & Boys" + "Blur"

"This Must Be the Place (Naive Melody)" (Remastered 2005) + "Talking Heads"

"Walking On Sunshine" + "Katrina & The Waves"

"Do You Believe in Magic?" + "The Lovin' Spoonful"

"Lollipop" + "MIKA"

dividers from @/saradika

#request accepted | ''Allons-y; Allonzo!''#anonymous request #kin music #kin playlist #sword art online #playlists | ''This reminds me of someone...''

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rawrmeansilyindinosawr · 1 year

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THE L GOT YASSIFIED N GHANDI IS AT 14TH ST UNION SQUARE!!!!!!?!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the L stawped being a cunt on the weekendz w it’s fuckin delays n got individual seats that don’t clap back when u sit down ! Altho i am a “clap back “ advocate (Let ur cheekz Speak if they must ) i do wonder why

why is it always so awkward to hit on someone on public transit ?

we sit across each other staring each other down n i wish u were clumsy enough.

to leave a bag or your phone or wallet on the seat so i could say something to you but nothing is scripted here on this island of a city. there are only real moments. and this includes the pain in the people watching cuz sometimes we just end up watching them live their lives so much so in admiration we watch them leave.

I wrote dat ab some rly long white person with a maroon jumpsuit. N i don’t hav the energy to post a misc connection on Queer craigslist /LEX soooooo. Whut eve.

Dis week i hav been severely depressed n isolative besides for the day that the pilgrims decided to say it wuz the day that wuz gonna b ab slaying n giving . i ate sum dead bird n made sure even their bone marrow life mattered n cartilage cuz post veganism n peta rites advocate type beat a life is a mf life . Hoe .

Mi boss at union square Market s@id she saw her nekked neighbur whilst walkin around the duck truck. whut wuld u do if ur nekkid neighbor came to ur place of werk n every1 sais he is a rly nice person but he had a big SSHLONG. Now i kno whut ima wish 4 on my wishlist. No this isn’t 4 other bitchez . Nor is it for sshlong reveal. I wish some1 wuld notice meh as the nekkid neighbur at the union Square holidey market.

I whuhz almost in luv w a gurl who luved big patty wattyz n raised awareness for autism via tiK tok last yr n also i hate lex now!!!!!!!!!!! 2 many ppl wanting to give out their used sheets n Service tops who dont wanna Host . But i do thoroughly enjoy when Ppl wanna give their free concert tickets out . So lex gonna b the new ticketmaster to me but anarchist - community fridge version Without the food . Smfh . Y it gotta take watching perks of being a wallflower to realize we regret picking the boy w the eyebrow piercing when we culdve picked the 1 who got hit by a car butt still ended up pullin up to bossa limpin .

Im in luv with club E n gave them my tiara cuz they r a tucking princess and cuz their music reminds meh of myspace era sheit. Also they name is ren like me TWOOOOOO. twinnem:-] <3

As car seat headrest sayz in its only seggs i think bc of his demisexual cusp of asexual self .

“

OK, so I've been reading all the sex blogs

And they all talk about how OK it is to be gay

And straight and bisexual and asexual

And have sex however you like

But I don't care about hundreds of hypothetical people

And their hypothetical sex deals

I care about me, and my sex deal!

What about my problems?

Baby, my body

Constantly betrays me

I try to betray it

I only hurt myself

Yeah, yeah

I can't tell you if I like it, I like it

What happens if I don't like it? I like it

I can't tell you if I like it, I like it

What happens if I don't like it? It's only-

It's only sex

It's only

It's only sex

C'mon, sexual desire, speak! “

My brain is too fried from vyvanze dependence to decipher n explain it all right meow . I jus kno i luv those lyrics n i luv when post club - post party we all come back to mi lil floor mattress in mi tiny room n we kuddle puddle!!!!!!

Saw a Zyn nicotine ad omw to my lobotomy apt at callen lourde this mornin n i miss the dude who gav tht to meh while me werkin this japanese restaurant once n holy sheit i wuz shaking n shitting n crying my entire shift . I miss werking there cuz i made $400 a shift n lowkey I could get any vacation hours i wanted. Now im like a finance bro who goes to reggae bars in the city N gets pussy on hinge . v_v RIP!!!!!

i havnt been to saint vitus penus yet but thts Ok cuz i heard someone saw pee pee juice n eyeball juice on the bathroom mirror once n ill just stick to duffz if i wanna find a punk goth giorl to destroy my Third hole . Im crying a lot these days super fragile as well as today being a significant date for me N i missh ketamine so damn much butt i refuse to sniff anymore cuz i nvr kno how to dose w the diff german strainz n i always get sickie or khole n see myself on a train n being someone’s mutha . Weird!!!!!!!!!!’

Idek if i givin up on life or life givin up on meh but im just mf done . N i kno dis cuz im in my candle era yall . Where i lie n say i’m “running errands “ but sniffin diff candles at target n burglington ALONE . all dis for some mf seratonin biotch ????!!!????? Alsoo last randomo thot but i luv one of my good friendz from nyu n they were ganged up on bc of some DUMB RUMORS n i gots to say i kant stand a fucking bully or ppl who kant extend grace to others cuz it just feels v cliquey n stupid . Lik if we rly gonna believ rumors n gossip n not see someone’s character or try to understand i don’t see how ppl can b ok wit the ppl they hav to be with when they r alone with themselvez at nite . We r constantly evolving and it’s wrong to hold things against people esp in this age and this goes for me as well. I hope to receive the grace and love and empathy that I extend .

Soooooo many more fuckin thots n ramblingz like how i wish there was a poll i could start somewhere outside of instagram ab who wuld fuck G Eazy post halsey (Cmon , “tumblr girls”was an AMAZING song!!!!!!) N how much i luv egg by the garden but. Til nxt wk Babez.

Xx , ketaminechic NOT CHICK who doesn’t do ketamine anymore but kant put the energy into changing it then changing it on all platforms cuz omfGGGGGGGggg who cares that deeply ab this social media Bullsheit anywayzzz , Renny baby <3 :-] visit me at union square market Booth c20til Xmas eve !!!

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Hey I'm new to ur blog but can I ask for NSFW Alphabet for Saint 14 and Shaxx? If not some NSFW headcannons will be fine. It's okay if you can't tho no pressure 💕

Oh please, I'm so sorry for probably answering pretty late! I really hope you like it and I'm also sorry for the rather short headcanons.

I also hope the spoiler works becuse below that is NSFW

Lord Shaxx

Oh boy, he will be rough. I can imagine him being the top for mostly 96% of the time and he will be.

The rare occassions when you are topping him it’s when he worked hard and is exhausted from the day. Then he just wants to sit on the bed after a relaxing shower and watching you come closer to him. Sitting on his lap and whispering him some honey sweet words in his ear.

At those times the sex will be more slower and more of a ‘love making’. He will praise you for every action and his hands will wander all over your body. His eyes will occasionally look your body up and down but he will be more fixated on your face and getting lost in your eyes.

Always after sex, however it went, he will make sure to take care of you. Getting you cleaned and making sure you are comfortable. After that he will join you in bed and have you in his arms.

You can bet that Shaxx is also the kind of person for random sex in the open. It will be much quicker than usual but he will make sure you will have your pleasure.

Shaxx will also tease you through out the day to give you signs what will be waiting for you at the end of the day.

Saint-14

Saint is the opposite of Shaxx. He will always be making sure you are first and that you feel good. His feelings? How he feels? Who cares, you are his number one.

Praise. Will praise you and talk dirty. He can’t stop it. He is kind of a talker to make up for his…not so soft robotic body.

And before I forget: He has a dick. Don’t worry.

Sain is more of the person to keep this kind of interaction behind closed doors and if you think about teasing him he will ignore you. He will change the subject and talk about something else.

Isn’t afraid to test out other things that you wish. If there is something he doesn’t like or it feels like he is doing harm to you he will tell you so and say he doesn’t wish to do it again.

After sex will also be very soft. Will take care of you and will cuddle with you.

#lord shaxx headcanons #saint-14 headcanons #shaxx x reader #saint-14 x reader #destiny headcanons #destiny 2 headcanons #lord shaxx imagine #destiny lord shaxx #desitny saint-14 #saint-14 imagines

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ttuesday · 3 years

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my i trouble u for some soft headcannons for the VDL boys?? 🥺 🥺 ur writing is amazing and always cheers me up 💕 💕

awwwwwwww

Arthur

Arthur’s very comfortable around you so sometimes when he’s sat next to you and doodling in his journal, he’ll start to sing to himself.

If you compliment his voice, he starts blushing and stutters over his words but he’s grateful for your praise.

One of Arthur’s favourite things is when you and him are both cuddling in bed and he tells you about his day. Usually he just rambles about something while ye fall asleep but it always relaxes him and it makes him feel like a normal person and not an outlaw.

Dutch

Dutch loves dancing with you. One night when ye were both in Saint Denis after a job, Dutch heard the trumpet player preforming. He asked if you’d dance with him. The street was quiet and it was as if it was just the two of you and the music.

Dutch never understands how you could ever feel insecure or self-conscious. While you sit on his bed, Dutch kneels in front of you and listens intensely as you vent. Afterwards he holds your hand and tells you every little thing he loves about you.

When you both wake up in the morning, Dutch likes to lazily give you some kisses before getting up to face the day.

Charles

One of Charles’s favourite things to do is kiss up your body. He starts at your leg, goes up your thigh, your torso, your chest and then your neck before finally reaching your lips. As he kisses along you, he mutters compliments about how amazing you are.

If you ever fall asleep by the campfire, Charles will carefully pick you up and carry you to bed.

Charles is so goddamn protective over you. Literally all you have to do is point at someone and Charles will throw them into Flat Iron Lake and go make sure you’re ok.

Micah

Micah absolutely HATES when people go at his things… but you’re the exception to that rule. If you’re sitting down at the campfire or helping Pearson cook the stew, Micah normally comes over and puts his hat on your head.

It’s his way of ‘subtly flirting’ and he encourages you to wear his hat, telling you it suits you and that it makes you look like a real outlaw.

Micah can get emotional when he’s drunk but it’s the one time he truly tells you how much you mean to him. He knows he’s lucky to have met you and no matter what, he wants you by his side forever.

John

We all know John isn’t the best at art but he loves practising his drawing skills but sketching pictures of you. Sure, most of his drawings look like Jack’s done them but it’s the thought that counts... right?

John loves relaxing with you. In the evening, he sits down under a tree with you and watches life go by. It’s very simple but it’s comforting.

John isn’t a fan of people going at his hair but he doesn’t mind it when you run your fingers through his hair. He’s even let you put a small plait into his hair once.

Bill

Bill purposely leaves his shirts lying around in the hopes that you’ll wear them. The sight of you in his shirt makes his heart soft and another part of his body very hard.

Bill never really had the time for baths but now that he’s dating you he makes sure to schedule in times to have a bath. Of course you’ll be in the bath too.

When he’s had a few drinks, Bill usually gets tired very fast so there has been a few times where he’s fallen asleep with his head resting on your lap.

Javier

Whenever you feel sad, Javier will try everything to cheer you up. He’ll sing to you, make some jokes, give you hugs and tell you funny stories about robberies he messed up in the past.

Javier was determined to help you learn the guitar when you first joined the gang. Yeah, he was using it as a way to spend more time with you and you didn’t learn much about the guitar but Javier still sees it as being a success.

If you ever get hurt, Javier prides himself on becoming Doctor Escuella and bandaging you up. Even if you just accidentally cut your finger while playing five finger fillet, Javier will take it seriously and take good care of you.

Sean

Sean loves to play fight with you. He brags about how amazing his fighting skills are and that he could show you a thing or two to help improve your skills. But of course he always lets you win.

You don’t need a blanket when you’re dating Sean. This man will literally sleep on top of you to keep you warm. I mean, he adores cuddling so he’ll fall asleep on you anyways but he says he does it to keep you warm.

He has tried to serenade you before. Sean paid Javier a few dollars to play the guitar while he loudly sang to you but Sean had to stop when Miss Grimshaw started yelling at him for being so noisy.

Hosea

Hosea absolutely adores soft kisses, especially when you’re both around camp and he sneakily gives you a quick kiss when no one’s looking.

Hosea has learned that patience is truly a virtue so whenever you’re stress or having a bad day, he knows it’s best to wait until you’re ready to vent instead of asking you a million questions about what’s wrong.

If you ever have any problems, all you need to do is tell Hosea. He gives you a small hug and reassures you that everything will be ok. And by the next morning, Hosea has somehow worked out your problem for you.

Lenny

When you can’t sleep, Lenny goes and gets you a blanket and your favourite book. He wraps the blanket around you both and reads to you until you finally drift off.

If he goes on a job away from camp and Lenny knows he’ll be away for a few days then he makes sure to leave little notes around camp for you to find. The majority of the notes are Lenny reminding you that he loves or a inside joke only you would understand.

Every morning Lenny goes and gets you tea/ coffee (whichever one you prefer, or maybe water if you’d prefer that).

#I hope these are soft enough ;-;#I always struggle with soft HCs for some reason lol #but ily and hope these are good #you’re my fave deputy #and my fave Caleb <3333 #rdr2 #headcanons #writings #arthur morgan #micah bell #dutch van der linde #john marston #bill williamson #javier escuella #charles smith #sean macguire #lenny summers #hosea matthews

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padme-parker · 3 years

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Mizpah // the darkling x f!reader // ch 7

summary: You and Aleksander come to a disagreement discussing who should be able to wear Morozova’s collar. Zoya is put in her place. Alina has a talk with Baghra.

warnings: swearing (I think??), violence, baghra being an old hag.

A/N: frfrfrfrfr sorry this took so long lmao, it was very unmotivated to finish. not proofread, I was halfway asleep when writing this so sorry for any mistakes. Listen to a great song while ur reading lol!

YOU thought back to what the letter in your pocket said, something had changed within Aleksander. Before he was the Darkling, he was your Aleksander. That naive, loving boy was now gone. Replaced by the rough shell of a man. He sought out the power to protect his people, power that you could wield.

“Aleksander,” His name left your lips in a hushed whisper, “..what if I want the stag for myself?”

“No, I won’t allow it. We have Alina for that.” His dark gaze bore into yours. His eyebrows scrunched together, suggesting the conflict within him. He wanted for you to have the stag, more than anything. But he wouldn’t let it happen if that meant losing you, he realized that now, centuries too late.

“I won’t allow you to put the life of my friend at risk.” You shook your head, Alina deserved to live a happy life with Mal. Far away from the war and the Little Palace. Somewhere far away from your Aleksander.

“So then you agree, it’s a risk. I’m not going to let you take it. Not when I just got you back.” He said, reminding you of the many times he’d lost you to the stag.

“Things are different now. We have better weapons. More Grisha willing to fight than ever. We even have two sun summoners.”

“The Fjerdans have a weapon that fired multiple bullets at once.” The haunting images of Mikhael and Dubrov being shot down entered your mind. They had been your friends too, even if you weren’t as close to them as Mal was. “And the Shu, they’ve always had far more advanced technology than us. Like I said, no one can know about you being a sun summoner.”

“But..” You longed to feel that giddy warmth you felt when you summoned, a glow that you could feel radiating from you. It was the same glow Alina had on her face whenever she summoned. The glow Zoya had when she used the wind to push you into that stone wall. You hovered one hand atop the other, waiting for something to happen. A simple spark, then nothing. A frustrated sigh left your lips.

“It won’t come that easily, my love. That’s why Alina and I must banish the fold together. Only then can we truly be together.”

“You said-” A memory comes flashing, candles and lanterns flickering. The two of you laid naked in a bed, a thin sheet covering you. His hand resting on your hip, his thumb rubbing soothing circles. He whispered something into your ear, moving his hand from your hip to glide over your collarbones. You shiver at the memory. “You said that you and I were going to change the world. So what’s changed?”

“I thought that there would ever be only you and I. That there would be no others like us. But I was wrong, we have Alina now-”

“You have me! I didn’t know it until now, but you’ve always had me.” You raised your voice, startling him. “Do you tell the same thing to all the sun summoners you meet? Or was it just me and Alina, oh wait..” You scoffed out. This was ridiculous, you came here for the truth. Not to argue with an ancient man.

“It’s not like that, I thought I had lost you forever. I mourned you for centuries, even the day I met Alina. I mourned you until you finally returned to me.” He takes your face into his hands once more. You’d become increasingly aware of just how naked he was, you eyes darting down to the towel that was holding on for dear life. “I can’t spend the rest of my life mourning you again, knowing that you may never return.”

“Fine.” You weren’t giving up, not yet. But you didn’t want to spend another second with him when he was just a slip away from flashing you. You make your way to the door, but before you could even touch the knob, you're in his arms once more.

“Where do you think you're going?” His voice was deep, raspy. His hold on your wrist was gentle as he stared at you, waiting for you to answer.

“To sleep.” You said, as if the answer was obvious. “In my room.”

Aleksander exhales, heavily sighing. “You could stay here..” Even after centuries, you were still the one person who could make his heart flutter. The only one who could make him nervous. He didn’t show it visibly. But from the smirk on your face, he could tell that you knew the effect you had on him. “..with me.”

You observed his room, hexagonal in shape. All the furniture was black, keeping to his theme. Quite possibly the most horribly decorated room you’ve ever been in.

“Do you really live like this?” His room lacked the life and warmth you seeked. There were bookshelves that ranged from floor to ceiling. Images of a forest etched onto the walls. He may have lived here, but it was clear it wasn’t his home.

“Here? Yes. But I wouldn’t call this living.” He surveyed his own room, looking at everything from his bookshelves to his domed ceiling above his bed. “Just merely surviving. The Little Palace isn’t my home.”

“And what is?” You’d already expected what his answer would be.

“You.” He hears you scoff at his statement as he lets a smile paint his features. “Our home, just north of Kribirsk.”

“We have a home together?” You tried to imagine what it would be like, a comfy little cabin in the woods. The General you knew wasn’t one for modesty, he rode around in a black carriage for Saints sake. But maybe for you, he would have settled down for a simple life.

“Well, would you call a run down castle a home?” If you closed your eyes hard enough, you could visualize it. A stone castle overgrown with vines, some of the structures had tumbled to the floor. You could hear the rushing water in the background, most likely a river. Fields of lavender surrounded the castle. The lavender and honey bar of soap came to mind, he remembered what you smelt like. A smile came to your lips. “What, do you think that's funny?”

“No, it’s just..lavender and honey. You remembered.” You teased, using your hand to cover your mouth to subside the laughter that was bubbling in your throat.

“Besides your belongings, it was the only thing that kept you fresh in my memory.” He walks closer to you, something akin to cinnamon, rain, and honey wafting towards you. Such a similar scent, but so different.

“Well,” You said, removing the gold kefta revealing the black slip on you had worn underneath, “If we’re going to sleep in the same bed, can you please put on some pants.” You set the kefta on a chair, feeling his gaze on you. His eyes taking in your form as you kept your back to him. The next thing you heard was the shuffling of his feet, then his towel dropping to the ground. Your eyes widened as you resisted the urge to whip your head around.

“You can look.” He said, but you knew he hadn’t even put on his trousers. “It’s not like you haven’t seen me naked before.”

“I know that, but I haven’t yet in this lifetime.” You let out a nervous laugh as you toyed with the lace detailing of your slip on.

“We can change that now if you’d like.” This time, you whip your head around. You're thankful to see that he’s got his trousers on now, along with a shirt. The corners of his lips quirk up as he takes in your reaction, “I’m just kidding.” He said, followed by a whisper, “maybe..”

“No, no. You and I are just going to sleep together. I mean sleep in the bed together. As you know, like friends, but not friends-” You stop yourself before you could go on. “Aht, you know what I mean.”

“Are you nervous?” He questioned, his eyes looking at how you fidgeted with your clothes. “You always find something to fidget with when you’re nervous.” The statement made you drop the lace of the slip on, clasping your hands together behind your back.

“I’m fine.” liar. But who wouldn’t be nervous? This was the infamous Darkling, and you were going to sleep next to him. You reassured yourself that you weren’t like the others. How many of his flings did he invite to stay the night when he was finished with them? Probably none. Besides, you weren’t a fling, not even close to it.

“You know you can trust me, right? I won’t do anything you're not comfortable with.” You let out a hum as you made your way towards his bed. He copied your actions, lifting up the covers and getting in them. He patted the spot next to him, waiting for you to move. You go to take off your night slippers and place them at the foot of the bed, noticing that he had also placed his boots near the foot of the bed.

“So, that’s where I get the habit from.” You said as you got into the covers, sitting awkwardly next to him. “I assume I get my many habits from you then. Just not sure which ones.”

“There’s a long list of them,” The fidgeting of your hands and feet make him laugh, “That one, surely doesn’t come from me.” Before you know it, you’re encapsulated by his arms. You let out an oomph at the sudden movement.

“Comfortable now?”

“Very.” You replied as you snaked your arm across his waist, your head resting on his chest. Listening to the steady beat of his heart. It was your first time being in his arms, but it felt so natural to you. A memory from Caryeva surfaced, golden eyes that stared back at you as you melted in his embrace. You shook the memory from your mind, not wanting to think about him when you had Aleksander next to you. “Do you think we could visit the castle?” You whispered, playing with the fabric of his tunic.

“Anything you want.” One of his hands goes to your hair, gently playing with it. The other stroking the soft skin of your shoulder. It was a routine that came naturally to the both of you, as if the missing puzzle pieces had fallen into place. “That’s actually where I went for the week. I knew that sooner or later, you would remember me. I wanted our home to be just the way you remembered it when you arrived.”

“That’s very nice of you…” Sleep was finally catching up to you as the truth weighed heavy on your mind. Aleksander continued to play with your hair even when you saw the steady rise and fall of your chest, signalling you were asleep. Careful not to wake you, he kisses the back of your head with a smile. You were finally in his arms once more.

THE feeling of someone breathing behind you had pulled you out of your sleep. It wasn’t a situation that you found yourself in often. But the warmth he had been radiating had almost lulled you back to sleep, almost. The arm that was loosely thrown around your waist had pulled you closer until he could rest his chin on your shoulder.

“Good morning, my darling.” His deep, raspy morning voice had stirred something in your stomach, a fire igniting in your core. “How did you sleep?” You removed his hand from your waist as you turned to face him.

“Fine, now that you’re beside me.” You had to admit, it was weird sleeping in the same bed so soon after finding out the truth. But you didn’t want to take any moment with him for granted. “I had another memory come to me while I was asleep.” He urges for you to continue, “I think we were at the castle. The sun was setting, giving the room the most beautiful haze. There was no music playing, but we were dancing in each other's arms.”

You see him smile as you describe the memory to him. He abruptly gets out of the bed, only to offer his hand to you. You wearily place your hand into his, a giggle leaving your lips as he tugs you out of bed and into his embrace.

“There’s no music!” You said as he twirled you around.

“It didn’t stop us last time.” He swiftly replied before pulling you back into his arms, settling for a slow sway. You could feel the fabric of his trouser brush against your legs at his every movement. Laying your head on his chest, a feeling of ease overtook you. You closed your eyes as you got lost in his hold.

It was a feeling so foreign to you. All your life you had always been on edge, even as a child at Keramzin. You could never let your guard down. But with Aleksander there was a side to you that you never knew. One that allowed you to relax and finally be happy. It was a side that neither of your closest friends had seen, ever. When survival was always your priority, you were never given the chance to be at ease.

“Open your eyes.” Once more the room had been engulfed by your light. You looked at your hands as they were glowing, a shocked laugh leaving you.

“Are you doing this?”

He shook his head before replying, “No. This is all you.” You noticed the lack of his shadows in the room, signifying he had no part in what was happening.

“I thought you said it wouldn’t be easy for me to conjure light.” You closed your hands and watched as the light faded, the only indication that you had summoned was the glow on your face.

“I guess being at ease helped you. From here it should get easier by the day to call forth the light.” He explained, a prideful look on his face.

“Does that mean I can have the stag now?”

He lets out a sigh, “No, like I said. I won’t risk your life for the stag again.” His resolve remained strong, never once showing a change of heart.

“But I’m getting stronger, within months I’ll be able to summon at my fullest potential!” You insisted, keen on having the stag on you instead of Alina.

“The key word here is months, we don’t have that time anymore. I’ve already spent months training and mentoring Alina. The people are getting restless, they want to see the shadow fold gone. Immediately.” He responded.

You opened your mouth to reply, only to get cut off by the frantic knocking at the door.

“What is it?” Aleksander growled out, irritated by the interruption.

“Sir! It’s the girl! She seems to be missing. We’ve searched everywhere for her, General.” Fedyor’s panicked voice rang out. “I’m so sorry, I’ve failed you, General Kirigan.” You roll your eyes as you go to open the door. Probably not the smartest idea since you were just in your nightgown.

“I’m right here Fedyor, no need to worry.” He takes in the disheveled state of your hair. Not yet combed since you’d just woken up.

“Oh sorry, did I interrupt?” He sends you a suggestive wink, which he prays that the General didn’t see.

“No. In fact, I was just leaving.” You looked back to Aleksander, a bewildered look on his face. “Have a nice day, General! I’ll see you later for dinner, like we discussed.” You hoped he caught onto your excuse.

“So, you and the General..” Fedyor began, his shoulder bumping into yours in a teasing manner.

“We were just merely discussing plans.” You lied, which wasn’t very much far from the truth.

He gives you a once over, “in your sleep attire?”

“It was an urgent matter.” You replied, stilling as you remembered you had left your kefta in his room. You’d just have to fetch it later.

“I’m sure it was.” He snickered. Soon the two of you parted ways, you to your room as he went to combat training. You decided to get changed for the day. You put on your usual military outfit, along with your weapons strapped to you. It’s not like you needed them when you could summon the sun from the tips of your fingers at any given moment.

No one can know. His voice rang clear in your mind, reminding you to limit the use of your summoning. You flopped onto your bed with a sigh. You were in the Little Palace and still managed to find nothing to do. You remembered the books you had so carelessly tossed when you encountered the Apparat.

Reaching for one of the books, you began to read it. You didn’t know how much time had passed when you decided to put down the book. It had been intriguing, but the strain on your eyes was becoming too much. The sun was still shining bright, you decided that you could explore the grounds on your own.

You threw on your jacket, doubling checking to make sure you had your weapons on you. The cold winter wind nipped at your skin as you clutched your jacket closer to you, trying to maintain your body heat. You resisted the urge to join the Grisha as you walked past the combat training area. The thought of fresh air had been appealing, hoping that it would help clear your mind. But it did little to ease it. There were so many questions that you didn’t know if Aleksander could answer. Have you always been a sun summoner? Why wouldn’t Aleksander let you take Morozova’s collar for yourself? How long had it been since he last saw you?

Soon, you found yourself in front of a fountain, a bench a few paces away from it. The old pictures on the stone made you laugh, how wrong their story was. You knew Aleksander, or as they called him, the Black Heretic, had regretted creating the fold. He did so out of anguish, the loss of you becoming too much. Ever since then, the two of you had collectively worked together to destroy the fold. But it seemed like the Saints had other plans for you each time.

“Something funny, otkazat’sya?” Zoya’s voice boomed out from behind. You spun around, finding that Zoya had been accompanied by the oprichniki Grisha as well.

“Shouldn’t you be minding your business, Zoya?” You must admit, it was a lame comeback. But it was the first thing that came to mind.

“I’ll mind my business when you finally leave the palace.” She and the oprichniki took two steps towards you as you took a step back. “Why are you even here? What could the General possibly want from you?” She taunted.

“Well, there’s a long list. Would you like to know?” You didn’t wait for her to reply before continuing, “For starters, I’m not easy. Not like you.” Zoya raises her fist, nearly summoning before the oprichniki stops her. “The General actually enjoys my company, can you believe it! I don’t need to seduce him to keep his attention.” She breaks loose from the oprichniki’s hold and lunges towards you. Before she can even reach you, she has a pistol drawn to her head, your pistol.

“Take another step and you’ll see for yourself if the Saints are actually true.” You threatened. Zoya could have easily summoned air to misdirect the bullet, no one would see. “You know, after being reprimanded, I would have thought that you’d learn your place. But perhaps you haven’t, so let me remind you.” You put your pistol away as you approached her. She lets out a yelp as you grabbed a handful of her hair, forcing her to her knees as her eyes flew up to yours. Your other hand had a harsh grip around her jaw. “I maybe be otkazat’sya, but you’ll find that my aim is accurate. I make no mistakes, Zoya. Remember that the next time you try to cross me.” You released her as she fell to the ground, tears in her eyes. You didn’t know if they were from embarrassment or fear, it’s not like you cared either way.

“Well, well, well, just what exactly do we have here?” Aleksander’s form came abruptly from the forest, as if he had been watching his whole time and he just now decided to make his appearance.

“Nothing. They were just leaving. Isn’t that right Zoya?” You stared at her as the oprichniki helped her up, the two of them scurrying away, leaving you alone with Aleksander. “Pathetic, aren’t they? How long were you watching?”

“I saw them following you and decided to follow them. I knew you could handle yourself, but I wanted to watch the show.” He entwined your arms together as the two of you took the long way back to his room, a path where no one would be able to interrupt or spot you.

“Did you enjoy it?” You questioned, stroking the soft fabric of his kefta.

“Seeing you put Zoya rightfully in her place? Yes. Although I do wish it was you who was on your knees.” He suggested, making a gasp leave your lips. “Anyways, it was time to fetch you for lunch. I know you didn’t have breakfast, and you wouldn’t be able to last until dinner.”

“Why thanks for the concern, my knight in shining armor.” You looked at his outfit again, choosing to reword your statement. “Correction, my darkling in a black kefta.” Now that you were thinking about it, you’d never seen him in anything else but black. Sure there were some memories here and there of him in a different colored top, but he left those colors behind when he’d lost you.

“So, what’re we having for lunch today?” You asked, the two of you continued walking towards his room. There were no interruptions, no others. Just Aleksander and y/n, the way it had always been. The way it’ll always be, until eternity.

MEANWHILE in the sweltering heat of Baghra’s hut, Alina struggled to get a grip on her sun summoning.

“What’s wrong with you, child?” Baghra chided, the thought of hitting Alina with her stick had crossed her mind one too many times today. She was about ready to throw her into the fire pit.

“I’ve noticed something.” She began, “Ever since my friend arrived at the Little Palace, it’s like there’s a side of Ale..” Alina let his name die on the tip of her tongue, it felt strange to be saying his given name. “..there’s a side of the Darkling I never knew existed. She’s brought out something in him. Something I haven’t been able to do in the months I’ve been here.”

She felt something comparable to hatred flow through her veins. But she could never bring herself to hate you. Not when you were practically her sister. No- she hated the way she’d so easily given into the Darkling, and how easily he’d thrown her away. She hated herself for giving up on Mal.

“You must tell me child, what is her name?” Alina had never heard such urgency from the old hag before.

“Y/n, her name is y/n y/l/n.” Her eyes widen in shock as she sees the smallest smile come to Baghra’s face. “Do you need a healer or something? Why are you smiling?”

Baghra left Alina in silence as her mind whirled with the possibilities. But there was one echo that was louder than the rest of them: Hope.

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goldengoddess · 3 years

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could I get a jesper x alkemi reader where jesper drinks one of the reader's chemicals and it turns out to be a truth serum (or just some kind of soothing tonic that makes people loose enough to spill secrets) and while the reader's looking for the antidote jesper ends up confessing to her? (sorry if it's too specific lol)

truth & secrets - jesper fahey ♡

pairing: jesper fahey x alkemi!reader

a/n: this fic has proven that i have no idea how to write an ENDING but it’s okay! cute jesper fluff coming ur way as always, just fulfilling my brand

warnings: like accidental drugging? jesper is a bit loopy and at times it kind of seems like alcohol consumption

"saints you're pretty" you heard a familiar voice from behind you.

you whipped your head around to the direction of the voice and your eyes met the one and only jesper fahey. you sighed and rub your dirty hands on your pant legs, "i'm pretty jesper? that's all you've got today? no intelligent pick up line like usual?"

you chuckled and turned your attention back to the chemical sitting in front you. jesper fahey was an annoying, obnoxious, handsome, pain in your ass. he constantly showed up in your lab to bother you, even though you'd told him multiple times that kaz had brought you onto the team to work not be shamelessly flirted with.

you'd also explained to him multiple times that the substances you worked with could be dangerous for a non-alkemi person. but you should know by now that jesper isn't really one to listen to warnings.

"but you always say you don't like my pickup lines" he said. in any other circumstance, you would have brushed the comment off as his 'charming' remarks. but his voice came out less suave and more of a whine, so you turned your head in his direction to find him pouting like a little kid.

you furrowed your brows in his direction and set down your instruments, “jesper, are you okay?”

he shook his head insistently and stumbled into one of your work tables. you gasped as he straightened himself up and heavily leaned against a table. “i don’t feel so good, sweetheart. the world’s all fuzzy and i just want to tell you how gorgeous you look right now.”

you cheeks flushed involuntarily but you ignored it and surged toward the boy. you grabbed his shoulders to try and stabilize him. “jesper? did you drink too much? it’s only noon?” you sighed and placed your head against his forehead to see if he was sick and delusional.

he closed his eyes in thought. “i didn’t,” he started and then stopped, “i didn’t drink anything but the little purple mixture you showed me earlier.”

you dropped your hands and panic started to bubble in the pit of your stomach. “oh no no no jesper are you serious? oh saints this is bad.”

for a couple of weeks you’d been attempting to work with a new liquid that would function as a truth serum of sorts. you’d wanted to talk out loud to really solidify your ideas, so that morning you had shown it to jesper and the rest of the crows. but it wasn’t anywhere near completion, nowhere near ready for someone to take it.

you grabbed jesper face and felt his forehead once again. “oh jesper. i don’t know how it’ll affect you! it wasn’t ready for you to take.” you sighed and started rummaging around the room in search for what might work as an antidote. “just sit down and try not to say anything.”

you saw him shrug his shoulders but his eyes followed your eyes move intently. it was silent for almost a minute before, “what if i want to say something?”

“don’t” you said hurriedly, picking up the pace and cursing yourself for not being more organized with your different substances.

he pouted in your direction, “but i feel like saying all sorts of stuff sweetheart.”

you groaned and started mixing ingredients together. “jesper” you said sternly, “you don’t want to say anything. it’s just the serum that you drank, like an idiot might i add. and plus, we’re not even friends you don’t want to be spilling any of your secrets to me.”

he stumbled out of the chair he was previously sitting in. he let out a small whine and stood next to you as you worked. “that’s not true. i like your company. we are-” he cut himself off and looked confused, “we are..”

you sighed and focused part of your powers on mixing the chemicals together, “what are we jesper? friends?”

he shook his head, once again. “no we aren’t friends, if we were friends i wouldn’t want to kiss you all the time.”

you dropped your hand and turned to the shocked sharpshooter next to you. he covered his mouth with his hands in embarrassment. “i didn’t want to say that” he mumbled against his own skin.

if you thought you were blushing before, this was another level. you could feel the heat at the tips of your ears at jesper’s proposition. you lazily scratched the back of your neck. “yeah that’s like the whole point of the serum” you mumbled. you grabbed what you hoped would be the antidote and handed it to him, looking anywhere but at jesper’s face.

as he drank it you couldn’t help but picture what it would be like to kiss jesper. would he have soft lips? would he hold your face or your hips? the blush on your face just wouldn’t not leave.

you snapped out of your thoughts and met his soft gaze. his pupils and and face seemed more reactive to your presence. “jesper?” you tested.

he nodded his head and gave you a small smirk, “i don’t feel like telling you all my secrets anymore so i think we’re good.”

you forcibly chuckled and looked down at your feet, now stained with different powders from your rushed creations. suddenly, you felt a hand on your chin, tipping your face upwards. you found jesper smiling at you, soft, in a way that you’d never seen him smile at you before.

“i’m sorry if i made you uncomfortable with what i said sweetheart, but it was the truth after all.” he said, almost shy.

you nodded in understanding and took a deep breath, a breath of confidence. “well maybe it wouldn’t be so bad” you said in a shaky voice.

jesper raised an amused brow in your direction, dripping with confidence once again. “what wouldn’t be so bad honey?”

“if you kissed me” you mumbled. saints this boy really knew how to make you into a mushy mess.

“well that can be be arranged” he said, before swooping in and placing his lips on yours. soft, as you’d imagined. his hands firmly holding the sides of your face, like if he were to let go you’d disappear from right in front of him.

and in that moment you were so thankful for a silly truth serum that seemed to work more as a love potion than anything else.

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clairecrive · 3 years

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my request: ok so first of all can this pls be set in the grishaverse and after rule of wolves. now that that's over with could i pls get some headcanons for nikolai x reader (cos i love all ur nikolai fics and hcs) where nikolai has liked the reader for so damn long(theyve never spoken before and hes still king0 and for the first time ever he doesnt know how to go about approaching her so he goes to genya cos shes readers best friend and asks her for help so genya reccomends he writes notes and gives them to her. so nikolai does that and makes them super flirty but instead of signing his name he signs it saying "your secret admirer" to be funny and he gives the reader these notes 1-3 (sometimes more) times a day until one day the reader finally catches him and confronts him about it and says that the feeling are mutual. also can you include the reader showing nikolai an entire drawer full of his notes to her.

rlly hope this isnt too long - thank you

A/n: I love all of your requests and they're never a problem! short, long, however they are they're all super special to me. I hope you'll like this! x

Also, just want to mention that I do not acknowledge what happened in row. That ending didn't happen, Nikolai is still king of Ravka and ofc no zoyalai.

one would think that someone as charming as Nikolai would have no problem wooing the girl of his dreams

and yet, the boy is straight-up pathetic

yes, he's a king

yes, he was a fearsome privateer

Sturmhond was an earned name for God's sake

and yet, and yet, talking to you was no easy feat

and he'd tried. he really really tried to create a plan, a strategy he could use to find a way to your heart

but to no avail.

every time he'd go to you he'd either stammer or stare at you wordlessly or just come out with the stupidest thing, completely ignoring everything he had carefully thought out to say

so it was time to change the tactic. it was time for plan B: ask for help

and there was only one person who could possibly help

your best friend Genya

swallowing his pride he asked for help. he had had a mind to ask her directly if you liked him or not but he wasn't sure he wanted to know the answer

so he settled for asking how to woo you

Genya spared him and didn't laugh in his face. Nikolai knew she'll probably tell this to David but he wasn't worried about the voice carrying to other people.

you loved love letters apparently

even though Genya had told him that gushing about your eyes or luscious hair in three pages long letter was the best way to make a good impression on you

so she suggested opting for leaving little notes around

and so he does

first with something small like "you look gorgeous today,"

and then he gets bolder and bolder

"the brightest stars pale in front of you"

"your company is like water to a man in the desert, I'm always asking for more."

and so forth until they're just ridiculous

thank the saints that you were the only one who read this otherwise he'd never hear the end of it

and the satisfaction he'd get whenever he'd see you react to them was priceless

he was insufferably smug for the rest of the day to everyone else but you were still none the wiser

but the thing is, he's getting careless and with the ratio, he leaves you notes it was only a matter of time for you to find out

and, as a matter of fact, you caught him as he was leaving one of his notes through some books in the library

which was weird on its own since Nikolai never was in the library but then you noted the slip of paper in his hands and connected the dots

you'd never told him out loud but when you realized that it was him your secret admirer you blushed so heard, you could be used as a lightning house

after that, you decided to seize the moment and walked up behind him

it was possible the exhalation of the moment the sheer serotonin that knowing Nikolai liked you produced but the words that came out of your mouth were so bold that you weren't even sure you said them

"you know, you could say those things to my face instead of wasting paper."

Nikolai shrieked and jumped ten feet in the air

if you weren't so flustered and nervous about his reaction, you would have laughed in his face. it was hilarious

he spun around and realized that it was and tried to regain a kingly composure

"what?"

"poor trees haven't died for you to hide behind them. especially not when there's no reason for secrecy."

"I find it quite romantic."

"Indeed. But I'm sure we could both benefit more from sharing those secrets."

"I reckon it depends on the content of the secrets," he replied

Nikolai had a silver tongue and if you let him, he could continue for hours.

so you stepped up and kissed him

this time, the expression on his face when you pulled away, was pure gold. and you couldn't help but giggle.

"I do love your little notes, though," you whispered on his lips

"come, I wanna show you something," you pulled him out of the library and brought him to your room

he was uncharacteristically quiet and you relished in his reaction knowing that once he saw the drawer full of his notes, his ego will resurface and his silence will be over

but truly, silent or bragging, you loved every piece of Nikolai and you couldn't wait to see what your life with him was going to look like

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