Hot take. I actually enjoy reading fics where Billy's an absolute asshole. Not so I can be upset at it. But so I can get out of the dip in my mental mattress of loving him so much. He's my poor little meow meow. But he's also an insufferable dickbag with a PartySized ego. And yes I still love him. But it helps me think less Black and White. Yes he can be awful, but yes he can be better. The duality of man. To understand the fact you must see both sides of opinion. And of course there's nuances, there is for everything.

If you struggle seeing how Billy can be both a mega asswipe and a babygirlified princess you need to watch The Good Place. It's also on Netflix. It's entertaining, it's exciting, it's a great binge, it'll make you laugh, it'll make you cry, it'll make you think about things you didn't before.

Genuinely. My recommendation for anyone who struggles with moral issues or philosophy, sociology, psychology, is to watch The Good Place.

Even if you just want some sifi comedy with a hint of romance and drama tossed in. Watch The Good Place.

god damn it

....it'S ALREADY A LOT!

Also like, what was Oliver thinking?!

"If you ever wanted me to talk to them..."

WHAT👏🏻WERE👏🏻YOU👏🏻THINKING?👏🏻

It was going soooo well! Farleigh was so obviously intrested, he said "i don't hate you", he was flirting, looking at his lips, MY GOD. Oliver, the only thing you had to do was shutting tf up, just keep playing the poor little nice boy.

Or he could've said LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE?

"If you ever need to vent you can talk to me, i get it" or "I can help you relax if you want *wink*"

The way Farleigh smiles after that stupid speech, he confirmed all his suspicions right there. I can hear him thinking "this stupid little boy really thinks he knows better than me about my own family, about my own house".

And Farleigh you too! Cause can you imagine what would've happened if he played the wounded puppy? if he would've just play whatever Oliver's power fantasy he offered? Oliver would've dug his own grave.

Can you imagine? Oliver goes to Felix trying to... what? speak up in Farleigh's name?

"Hey Felix, you know Farls? your cousin? the guy who passively bullies me since we met? You should give him and his mom more money, and treat him better. I don't know the first thing about your family but you should cut him some slack"

Like i know Oliver can be manipulative but im certain he would've fucked up so hard, Farleigh literally made him a favor by humiliating him at karaoke.

this last few chapters of shattered pieces are killlinnnggg me dude.

maybe I just don't want it to be over and so my brain is rebelling??? Even tho the scenes are so clear in my head, the process of writing them out is like:

*stares at screen for two hours*

Oooo burst of inspiration! *writes like three paragraphs*

*stares at screen for another two hours*

Alright that was enough for today *closes doc and goes to bed*

realising you're trans is like realising you've been driving in a clown car all your life and infinite clowns of misery and uncomfortableness and dysphoria have been squished into what looks like a completely normal car and once they start coming out they don't stop

Behold! 'Tis I, the mysterious Bagginshield Cryptid, returned from the deep woods and here to visit you with another Bagginshield question. . . What is your favourite headcanon?

The question puts me in stupor truly 🤯 I can't make a list when thinking of it. But I prefer how Sansûkh handles them, over what any Everyone-Lives-AU can offer (just because I don't want to throw away LOTR storyline and like some suffering I suppose, and Thorin needed a few decades of therapy before getting into a relationship xD). But it doesn't mean I don't like these AUs ☝️ And I haven't read enough stories to know/remember of more headcanons I am afraid. Sorry for this awkward answer, brain bad 😵‍. But hopefully some headcanonny things are seen through my art.

Okay, no, sorry, I’m still mad about this. “Be critical of the media you consume and examine why you react to it in the way that you do, support marginalized and stigmatized identities.” Yeah, until it’s about mental illness.

A woman (or even man, if he’s deemed over-emotional) makes music about suffering from mental illness and people just go, “What are they complaining about, that’s so immature, hashtag wangst.” (And then, sometimes, inexplicably, if the mentally ill woman gets better and writes happier music, they then talk about how artistically bankrupt she is now and that she should go back to hating herself.) People LOVE cis white pRoBLeMaTiC (straight) fictional men until they are realistically mentally ill, in which case they’re “whiny” and “insufferable” and deserve to die violently, apparently (or, if fandom is merciful, they’re ignored). (And then they celebrate when they DO inevitably get killed off.) “Do your duty and watch [thing I, mc13, personally find insufferable] For The (white) Gays because it has Gays.” Sure, will you watch c4 Pure, the ONLY show specifically about OCD, then? (No, the answer is no, it’s always no.)

I can’t get anyone to watch Doom Patrol. I couldn’t get people (in general-I did convince a few irl friends thank GOD) to watch Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. One of the most popular and acclaimed shows right now has a character with schizophrenia who was turned into the Big Bad Villain for no fucking reason. One of the most commonly-cited examples of Iconic™ queer media involves a mentally ill man being broken over and over and over again before The Ship™ can reasonably happen. DW introduced a major character who was at one point suffering from mental illness in her past, AND THEN ALL MENTION OF THIS WAS COMPLETELY DROPPED IN THE FUTURE, WITH NO BEARING ON ANYTHING TO THE POINT WHERE I FORGOT IT EVEN EXISTED??!?!? R*tched was a thing that existed despite the Sad Sympathetic Backstory treatment being IN DIRECT CONTRADICTION OF WHAT PURPOSE THIS CHARACTER SERVED IN One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest. THEY GAVE. A SAD WOOBIE VILLAIN TREATMENT. TO THE /LITERAL PERSONIFICATION/ OF ABLEISM. THAT IS HER FUNCTION. TO EXIST AS A SYMBOL OF ALL THE WAYS SOCIETY OPPRESSES THE DISABLED AND MENTALLY ILL.

I am!!! Literally!!!!! The only one!!!!!!!!! Complaining about these things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ONLY ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one else has said ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one is talking about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m so tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God help me stop writing and publishing beyblade fanfics for the rest of the year

yall does my lack of personal romantic experience Show in my writing 😭

‘the most crucial skill that a good drinksmith needs is listening… drinksmithing is all about having conversations with your guests’

tea house owner!reader energy for real

Love getting over 20k words into a fic tagged with one of my ships as a secondary pairing, getting the first hint of the pairing being a thing in the story—and then getting an author's note stating that it's really not going to be in the fic much at all, actually, because the main pairing is the only thing that actually matters to the story, and "it'll be a long time before we even see them again, but I tagged the ship so I gotta include it."

Don't fucking do this, holy shit.

Not to be sappy on main but Alexa what are you supposed to do when the boy you've been deeply madly crazily in love with for 3+ years starts giving hints(or maybe im just looking too much into it) that he maybe probably likes you too??????

i think what i need is for someone to read through all the words and snippets I've written and sew them together like frankenstein into one single fic. because do i have 3000 words written in my google doc? yes. do these words come together to create a coherent story? absolutely not

on the off chance anyone on here followed me for my jonmartin fake dating au, currently standing tragically unfinished at 7 out of 8 chapters: i'm still working on the last chapter! i would love to have it up this year, but unfortunately i can't make any promises, because i've started a new medication and the side effects are wreaking havoc on my mind and body. haha isn't chronic illness fun. but rest assured the fic is the beating heart under my floorboards, and i WILL finish it one day

i am so burnt out from editing my original story. I literally stared at the document for over 2 hours today unable to do anything but try not to cry and watch the curser blink. I don't want to work on it. I really, really don't. I want to write but I don't want to write and i feel like i have to write but I can't write and I've never written anything good in my life ever because everything is riddled with errors and mistakes and I can't even spell definitely and i don't know why i post anything because my plots don't hold up under basic scrutiny and i haven't posted any fics in months and i had so many things I was excited to work on and I just don't and I wish that I was motivated to do anything and i'm not and it's just

gonna be so honest if people who are in taglists that i've made and they aren't interacting with the new posts i might just take them off the taglist because someone else who actually wants to read it can be put there and it's a lot of work to try to remember and tag people on those lists