“just stay alive. maybe spit some blood at the camera” -spent gladiator 2, the mountain goats

I WANNA TALK ABOUT THIS LINE and what it means personally to me

so the context of this song is begging for someone to stay alive, a sort of reminder of the most important thing you need to do: stay alive. part one is a call to take any measures you have to to accomplish that, and part two is just. begging. stay alive. just stay alive.

the imagery of a gladiator in an arena nearly dead, struggling and competing and being slaughtered while other people just watch is horrifying and pretty damn relatable for folks dealing with suicidal ideation and stuff. these songs have helped me through that as a sort of reminder of the thing i need to do First.

but that’s where this line comes in.

it’s a punch, it’s a thrash, a call to that first part even in the darkest moment, that we have to Fight even just a little. give the audience what they want, give them a little reminder you’re alive and you’re still kicking even if they aren’t doing anything

so i guess this post is a reminder to be a mess. don’t pretend like you’re sprinting when you’re crawling. thrash a little on your way to the hospital. spit some blood at the camera.

HIIII 🥑 for fanejoy and 🍉 (<- sorry.) + 🍊 for my best friend marcus ?

[oc asks]

HIII THANK U KISS KISS

🥑 What will they never back down about, even if it makes them seem bad? + 🦢

god. we've actually already had some silly moments of "hey you're nice why do you just hang around your brother when he's like that." which... is something without an answer to. they're basically the only thing in each other's worlds. of course she's sticking to him no matter what. i already know there's going to be a big disagreement if they ever end up meeting their father whom they have different levels of attachment to 💀... there's also the question of religion- i already discussed with dm that they won't really be happy if fane keeps following this revenge quest she and her brother have going on... this is definitely sustainable and will not end up with them both cracking under the slightest pressure. tunes for this topic

fun fact: their last name is elsinore! this is probably not an omen.

🍉 What will your OC take to the grave? + 🏺

(DEMURELY LOOKS AWAY AS TO NOT SHOW THE AUDIENCE THAT THERE'S ANYTHING STRANGE TO US ABOUT WATERMELONS) (DISCRETE COUGH) um anyway... feel like there's a lot of "simply wouldn't mention unless Asked because he's Shy" more than biiiig secrets he is just Reserved. but i think when we go back to his plane. on one hand he'll say it feels very weird to have so many people recognize him, especially given it'll be older people who recognize their still young unchanged friend. on the other i think it'll feel good to know there's people who've remembered him all through the years.

🍊 Does your OC have a prophecy surrounding them? If they don't, what would it be?

i feel like if he'd had a fun little prophecy biomom might've kept him just to see what would happen LOLLLL but he's remarkably Some Guy so far. i do think the tempest boys in general could make for a good prophecy. those four who separated by space may cross time to fight together... or something. "the unaging warrior of elven blood" is a very prophecy vibe he's got going on. the sunken reach-- his plane of origin-- hasn't been doing too well lately. maybe they might even see his return, together with the boys, as a good sign to help them against the coming winter...

Nona, aka Small Cam, aka Hairy Maclary, aka Spent Gladiator 1. Find limits past the limits, jump on top of trucks all day;Just stay alive, just stay alive. Transcendental Youth series next? Artist credit @naomistares

out of all the "staying alive" mountain goats adjacent lyrics the one that really punches my gut is "i don't know if that's true/but i've been told/it's real sweet to grow old" from the legend of chavo guerrero

tramp stamp that says "i am happy where the vermin play"

When the crack sounds in the wood You will know, old friend, that I'm down for good

They're never gonna make a megop dynamic that's as good as IDW ever again and the sooner I accept that the sooner I'll be able to curb my disappointment when every continuity from now until the end of time makes Megatron and Optimus' story "Megatron is the gladiator/writer who actually has protagonist energy because he has goals and is starting a conflict against the government (antagonist), and Orion is just his bestie/simp friend tagging along bc he had no ambitions until Megatron showed him the light" like oh my god give OP initiative for once in his life I'm begging

i love the mountain goats songs that are about how something bad is about to happen but it’s not happening yet, or maybe it’s already happening and you’re just riding out the joy you’ve found in a place where bad things can’t touch you. that’s just life innit

Find where the heat's unbearable and stay there if you have to

The drawing I was talking about :D I finally finished drawing it digitally

new little tattoo on me by me 💜

Gendal 🥰

The Mountain Goats are saving my ass right now, their music is so gooooood. Perfect for my late night car ride, perfect for my grotesquely early morning wake up and train ride. Loving Jenny from Thebes this last week especially.

Amy aka Spent Gladiator 1 // Night Hawks by Laura Karetzky

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