The kind of people Babish's new video has attracted. Jesus fucking Christ.

Here’s the tweet if you want to see it :DD DONT GET ME WRONG I UNDERSTAND WHY YOU MAY LIKE TO SHIP THEM! And you can continue if you want, but maybe this will help you understand why people are against it! <3 hope this helps

EDIT: This is abt the tmnt fandom as a whole, not the person that sent the ask. Even if you think the ask itself is rude I'm the one who was sent the ask and I don't hold it against them at all. So yeah you can criticize the ask itself but don't extend it to them as a person bc that's fucked up and I'm not here for it

In the nicest way possible I sincerely couldn't care less. It really sucks because CONSTANTLY there are characters that outright SAY that they see each other as brothers but people ship them anyways because hey that aren't actually related it would be insane to call it incest. But no for some reason it's different here and my interpretation is wrong.

I really appreciate that you are just trying to help but I need you to know how insanely fucking upsetting it is when the first thing people do after hearing about how you are being harassed is to try and explain why it's happening to you. I have not cried once over this whole situation but this finally got to me. I'm not a kid. I'm not uninformed. I don't need anyone to explain to me why something is happening as if I'm 4 and I don't get why another kid is upset that I took their toy. I don't think you're doing it intentionally but when you are explaining their reasoning for their actions it feels like you are defending them. It's like saying "what they did was wrong BUT.. this is why they did it." Why can't I just be hurt? Why do I have to learn how to manage other peoples emotions instead of them being responsible for themselves? This feels like the hundredth time in this situation alone where someone has tried to explain to me why it is happening and why the other people in the situation are mistreating me. I'm just really fucking tired of all of this.

I hope you have a good day/night regardless. At the end of the day I'm not upset with you specifically because there wouldn't be any point in it.

i think the most annoying part of amatonormativity is that not only do you NEED to feel love, and not only is there an order your relationships must follow (romantic/sexual partnership above all, then family, then friends) but the fact that other people HAVE to be your top priority. like even if you feel all kinds of attraction, if you dare put anything else above your relationships they consider you evil. god forbid you enjoy your hobbies more than being around your friends even though how much you care about something is completely outside of your control. it's the worst.

My level of "not ok" today is somewhere between I need to go home, shut the world away, and sleep all day, and maybe I should call my therapist.

every now and then I remember that time my transfem friend and I were talking about her trauma and her transition and suddenly she said "but yeah you didn't go through any of that because trans men don't get harassed or bullied and have it overall easier" and I just felt so deeply upset at how she just assumed all the pain I went through couldn't exist because I somehow had it easier. I didn't even say anything because I didn't want her to think I was angry at her, because if I do then suddenly I'm an Angry Man that's exaggerating

Kinda weird question- do you have any links to people talking about Mira from ZTD and ableist stereotypes? I mentioned that I was uncomfortable with her portrayal but kinda fumbled it and made some other ND people in chat uncomfortable. I searched for various keyword combinations but most of what I'm finding is like "and not to mention the ableism with Mira" and doesn't elaborate lol.

Not weird at all! And uh, you see, there's a recent post I made where what I complain about is the very fact I've never seen anyone post too in-depth about her at all, I'd love to see posts that do elaborate on that but I do not have any that I know of right now, sorry :/ hopefully someone else who sees this can point to one? Okay!! After some tag searches I have found exactly one post who kind of gets into it I like this take still would love to see. more than just one but hooray

And like though I complain I couldn't elaborate much on it myself I don't think, I believe most of the posts people make about Saito from aitsf would apply since it's a different uchikoshi take on the very same trope of "emotionless characters who cannot function without killing others" I guess he's a worse portrayal though since she's at least not stated to get reward brain chemicals when killing people and I guess her case also has the added layer of "femme fatale" to it? Which either makes it less bad or worse depending on where you approach it from As I said I am not doing a good job of being coherent on this oh and also there's her being "redeemed" and "cured" in the epilogue which in on itself is kinda not great to imply it just goes away like that and honestly I personally don't even buy it I think she'd just be like oh okay Akane over here has like a thousand reasons to hate me after all that oh and what's that she's the leader of a super wealthy underground organization who's organized one of these death traps before yeah no I'm better off going to prison I'll be fine there lmao bye

But I'll say as an autistic person with relatively low empathy I usually see a character who just doesn't understand other people's feelings and wants to feel them too and is just trying to survive despite getting no help and I just kinda go hm. yeah. shout-out to roxas kingdom hearts shout out to mary from ib shout out that's why I started hyperfixating on media art helps me with understanding others a great lot and Mira is just in a story too badly executed for me to care or even begin to wrap my head around tbh like god she's so fucking terribly used as a plot device in every conceivable way that it makes it difficult to see past it and into what she could possibly be if it weren't for the stereotype of equalling low empathy with no compassion what's with her killing off screen in ways that wildly deviate from her stated m.o? why or how was she even in cahoots with Zero why was that a thing? Honestly her dynamic with Sean could have been better fleshed out could have done something interesting about robot child and his aspd big sis but we just kind of don't get any attention brought to the subject of emotions and the authenticity there of except for the "reveal"...

YOU KNOW WHAT that's probably one huge reason it feels so fucked up actually! Like the whole fucking game is written so you could experience it in whatever order you want and therefore Mira being a serial killer at all is something that though not very well hidden it also cannot be a topic of discussion or explored Ever ever because the player may not have seen the fragment where that is revealed yet- problem being the menu design of that game sucks so bad and practically everyone gravitates towards the same few more interesting looking thumbnails first and then the rest is kinda just there, I mean that is part of the reason A Lot of characters feel half-baked I think but also I think it definitely does impact perception of her character specifically probably The Most and then there's just the general not being given nuance not being able to see the minutiae of how that disorder manifests in her character aside from the killings about how she acts aside from being overly flirty trying to lure in Eric but that affects pretty much all of the new cast we don't have last names and in her case we barely have any backstory at all like Saito is a harmful stereotype sure but we get So Much Context for him that people still love talking about him and delving into different aspects of his life since we have that very well telegraphed in the narrative meanwhile for Mira all we can do is fill in the blanks guesswork that only highlights the worst aspects of the surface level portrayal we got and ultimately that people just don't care enough to dissect because there isn't much there character wise once you remove it

//ableism mention tw

ok just gonna say something really quick: i absolutely hate Abe's characterisation in the reboot of Clone High because it is nothing like how he acted in season 1 and it just. isn't funny. they've turned this good-intentioned but flawed loser kid who just wants to be like the original Abraham Lincoln but doesn't know how to, into a self-centered and arrogant asshole who literally almost said a horrible ableist slur twice in the first episode. like. i'm being serious, he almost says the R-slur twice in the same minute and i dunno about you but i really don't find it very funny when a) the only "joke" behind it is "oh look at how bad Abe is compared to the more progressive sensitivities of the new generation of clones, isn't he just terrible", and b) they felt the need to completely rewrite a pre-existing character that fans are already attached to to do something against his own morals for the sake of a shitty joke, and c) TOPHER WAS RIGHT THERE!!! isn't he supposed to be the asshole or am i missing something?? like...

i'm not saying you can't have "edgy" or "dark" comedy or whatever, but personally, i don't find it very funny when a character that actually means quite a lot to me and is one of my favourites is twisted and rewritten into an arrogant asshole in an apparent attempt to appeal to the people who hate Abe for his flaws in the original show. especially when he's rewritten to be someone who would say a slur that's literally been used against my fellow disabled peers, myself included. it just feels... wrong. it actually hurts a lot to see a character i once loved and found to be one of the funniest and most important characters in the show be turned into an arrogant dick, with barely any thought or meaning put into him. i don't like what they did with the rest of the OG cast as well (such as Joan making a complete 180 in her entire character, JFK's character assassination, the removal of Gandhi, Cleo barely being in it etc.), but to me, they did Abe the dirtiest in this season and i'm really disappointed that one of my favourite shows had to continue like this :(

On Selectively-Bred Corn Snake Morphs

Specifically Okeetee and Reverse Okeetee:

I hate them and I hate them and I hate them.

Also, I hate them.

That is all.

the more i think about it. temy's story........... kinda sucks tbh

i like the characters yes yes but i'm picking them out of the canon like pomegranate seeds out of the fruit.

"You can have sensory issues and still dress however you want!" yes true, some people with sensory issues may not have difficulties with certain fabrics as much as other sensory input which leads to being able to wear most anything they want. but not all people with sensory issue can just wear anything, I have a specific kind of fabric for pants and it has to also be a certain percent since most of the time it comes in mixes and if it isn'tthat or sweat pants i want to cry. I can't wear leggings, I can't wear jeans or just denim in general, I can't wear things that are too stiff or I'll feel like I'm trapped, I can't wear shirts that are too tight cause I'll feel trapped, I can't wear long sleeve shirts because they're often too tight, I can't wear low socks they have to be mid calf or higher, silk feel slimy, and most fabrics are too itchy. but yes uh huh i can still wear anything and this totally does not heavily restrict what I can wear (or at least what I can wear for very long). I can definitely dress in the emo style for a long time and be wear tight skinny jeans and tight shirts and too many belts.

whatever.

curiously convenient how a person will overstep your boundaries (that you have stated to them MANY times), then claim that they have "no memory" of doing so once you bring it up to them.

curious, indeed.

Thanksgiving (ʃᵕ̩̩ ᵕ̩̩)

But no happy. Not for me. I wish it upon others, though.

Happy Thanksgiving! ɓuᴉʌᴉɓsʞuɐɥꓕ ʎddɐH

With that said... This month has been awful. The loss of my frog is just the tip of the iceberg. I have tendonitis in my right wrist (and down to my mid-upper arm), meaning that drawing and writing (t̸h̸e̸ o̸n̸l̸y̸ t̸h̸i̸n̸g̸s̸ I̸'̸m̸ g̸o̸o̸d̸ f̸o̸r̸) are very painful to do at the moment. I've been icing it, but it still hurts. The pain makes me want to scream. Why me? Why now, when I got so much @#$%, I need to get done? I have clients waiting on me, and now I get this crap.

͐͋ɨ͋͐ţ hµяţ$ $๏ ƒµ̥͒c̥͒̈́̾k̾̈́͐͋ɨ͋͐ñǥ β͛ą͛ď W̵͍͐̈Ỏ͔̓͘R̮͂͂͡S̙̍̓́Ț̶ͧ̋ ̮ͭͮ́P̖ͩ͜A̹͗́́I̦ͯ̐͢N̝̒̊̕ ̶͓̍̈́Ī͔͂͘'̛̤ͫ͗V͙̈́Ȩ̖̾ ̧̪ͫE͊ͤ͏̞V̂҉̳Ȩ̭ͮȐ̠̉͘ ̹̚͝F̧̜ͣͧE̩̿͐͘L̸͔͑T̴͍ͩ ̥͑͠I̘ͫ̄͠N͕̑̔͜ ̴͙͊M̷̘̆Y̏ͭ͏͇ ̘ͤ́W̢̝ͦ̐Ȓ̴͕I̶͚̎Sͫͬ͏̦T̤͐͟ I also got into a heated argument with my mother about our housing situation, and I have no other family to turn to since they all live far away. I know for sure that even if I cook delicious stuff for dinner tonight, she won't eat any of it because it's vegetarian. Yes, because according to her, a meal is not complete without a form of meat. I'm sorry, but if I'm the only one who cooks in the house, it's kind of silly to complain, right? Haha! ^^; My culinary choices are far from the biggest issue I have with her. My mental instability is ignored by my family in general. That cocktail of meds? Who cares! The hallucinations? Probably nothing! Manic breakdowns? You're just being dramatic!Jus t 𝘀̝͒͝𝗵͚͖ͥͯ́𝘂͚̘͌͞𝘁͛ͧ͏ͅ ͉̺ͫ͜𝘂͕̜͂͂͟𝗽̲̯̿͞ ̻ͪ͡𝗮͋͏̺̝𝗻̴̜̄ͬ𝗱̙̞̾͝ ͖̘͗̕𝗱̯̓͑͜𝗼͒̊҉̣ ̷̲̾̍𝘄̺ͫ͢𝗵͉̱ͧ͡𝗮̹ͮ͑̕𝘁̹̐́ ̛͖ͧ𝘄̗͗͆̕𝗲̗ͫ͘ ̣̄̈́͝𝘁̸̰̲͋𝗲̘̖͋ͣ̀𝗹̿̀ͅ𝗹̝͛͟ ͈ͨ͗̕𝘆̶̯͑̚𝗼̲ͤ͆͢𝘂̰̗̍̚͘ ̱̙ͧͪ͡𝘁̧̺ͮ͛𝗼̡͉̊.̢̜͊ͮ

I stayed up ALL NIGHT cleaning a shelf. Yes, a single shelf. It's got stuff on it, so I just cleaned all of that too. All my friends were asleep, and my wrist hurt too much to play video games, so I said, "HA, what's something else I can do to feel productive?" and looked up at the top shelf above my desk and thought, "Yeah, I'll clean that." The next thing I knew, it was 4 am, and my blood sugar dropped so low that I felt nauseating hunger. I ate a burrito slowly and nearly threw up in the process. The only reprieve I got was holding my black cat and listening to her purr for about 20 minutes, maybe half an hour. I don't know! I wasn't paying attention to the clock.

See? Total sane thing to do! TOTALLY ñ¤ȑɱåȽ. HAHA! I know for sure I'm GONNA BE LAUGHED AT, so I'm here to LAUGH AT MYSELF. HA HA H AH AH AH AH AH AH AHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA （;ﾟ ;艸;ﾟ;）

It'd be really cool if people could respect other people's boundaries.

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philip glass should be sending me christmas cards. i'm so attached to the OST for the Illusionist that even though it's less than an hour long i've been listening to it on loop for 4 hours now, with 6 hours to go until this goddamn paper is due 💀