Maybe I'm just difficult

Maybe I'm impossible

Maybe I'm just one step over the edge

You're one foot out the door

Maybe I'm emotional

Too much to handle

Or

Maybe I'm unlovable

okay i saw your cult of youtube au and I had an idea for kallamar

What if he plagiarized shit. idk it just feels like a kallamar thing.

and when the lamb calls him out he pulls out the ukulele apology video and starts crying

I CANNOT GET THE THOUGHT OF KALLAMAR GETTING THE UKULELE OUT OUT OF MY HEAD.

This is it, this is the worst fake thumbnail I’ve made so far. Genuinely, drawing Kallamar over Colleen Ballinger, had me repetitively getting up and walking around my room thinking about how I got here in my life.

I’m still dying on my “Kallamar having one of those shitty doctor YouTube channels” hill, but he definitely takes mad shortcuts and steals shit from others.

pov you are a locked chest or perhaps someone bleeding to death

“You need Kira’s mercy.”

“I need His mercy. I beg for it.”

From Heard in Heaven by @lightyaoigami

a writer here could put everything under a read more, highlight and bold the tags, put another layer of warnings beneath the read more just to catch anyone that accidentally clicked in, preemptively block the more vocal antis, and you’d still have dumbass comments like “I didn’t enjoy reading this because I don’t like noncon :(“ like help me help you lmao

We’ve lost a legend. Bernard Cribbins, our Wilf - Rest in Peace 💔

Well, savior?

Zukka week day 4 // The arts

Studying the blade through calligraphy practice

‘,:^

Sam compilation, what can I say I just Sam

This was actually me practicing doing his face so pls ignore some of the more beaten up ones

One of the things I find funniest about 5/6 is how much more insane the stakes get for the finales. Every AA game has had really broad themes but ultimately every final conflict in the trilogy+4 was pretty small in scope, with your villain representing a problem rather than literally Being it. Manfred and Kristoph represented corruption, but they were only ever a face, a consequence, or a symbol of it. Phoenix is taking down one specific symptom of a broader societal conflict within his world because This Specific Person has a personal connection to him in some way. Can you imagine if Engarde actually WAS the assassin? Or if at the end of AA4 we were trying to literally take down the bar association instead of just Kristoph? bc that’s how 5+6 feels to me it's honestly kind of hilarious

The finale cases of the trilogy really stand out to me because while the broader themes are represented through the villains, ultimately our final culprits are Just Some Guy and it makes the conflict so much more personal to Phoenix and resonant with the audience. Then 5 and 6 are like “we can and WILL take on international spies and overthrow the government”. Why. What about the villain as a representation of the protagonist’s grief? What about smaller scale conflicts as a vehicle to represent abstract ideas about truth, corruption, and justice? Why is there power creep in my lawyer game?

I write smut/thirst for most characters because I also enjoy writing their personalities and creating storylines where I do my best to imagine how they might act under a given circumstance. In other words, I see them as romantic interests, not just hookups. Most of the time, I view the smut as secondary to the plot, and I want to focus on the characterization rather than just the sex.

And then there’s Toji from JJK.

thinking about how dongsik and joowon are the inverse of each other. thinking about joowon's journey realizing that blood is not thicker than water, ties can be severed from abusive family members (no matter how painful that is) and that among many things, his father's cruelty is what took away and destroyed dongsik's family who actually were a positive force in his life. many things about beyond evil appeal to me, but i mainly want to put a pin on the central themes of the show, particularly the failures of adults and parental figures, how that ripples through the lives of their successors in an especially vicious and self-destructive manner. this is a commonality found between multiple characters in the show (minjeong, joowon and jeongje) - but i want to put emphasis on joowon's struggle with this because his path to freedom was walked to completion, in comparison to minjeong whose life was cut short and jeongje who we part with carrying the painful knowledge that he may never achieve absolution, as his journey has only begun.

the show, technically starts at the beginning of joowon's journey/arc. unfamiliarity and discomfort force him to adapt and self-reflect, because the only way joowon was able to free himself was by breaking every rule his father set for him, going beyond his selfish confines and breaking down the walls he built. joowon is unable to get his physical body dirty, he is emotionally closed-off and is incapable of understanding why the people in manyang, particularly dongsik, would look out for anyone other than themselves. he is selfish, rigid, guilt-ridden and bashful; but it is exposure to dongsik's unwavering faith in and patience for others (for jeongje, for sangbae, for the people of manyang that have wronged him for years) that erode his harsh edges. dongsik, although not without flaws and contrary to what his outer appearance and manner of speech radiate, is kind and forgiving. that kindess, that forgiveness, as well as joowon's own guilt and shame is essential to getting him to a point where he is comfortable bloodying his hands, his clothes, and his face to protect dongsik (+ jihwa and her partner. to protect his friends).

dongsik recognizes joowon's pain too ("i know what it's like to be blamed for something you didn't do"). he sees his guilt, it's not inordinate to what joowon's done per se but a large portion of it brings so much shame to joowon ("please, stop doing unnecessary things out of guilt.") how could i have been so self-righteous when the man who bore me is responsible for so much misery? how do i rectify this, how do i absolve myself from the guilt? all dilemmas joowon grapples with, and dongsik, knowing pain and shame all too well does not grant joowon mercy when he is bowed down, forehead to cuffed hands while joowon's own are also cupping dongsik's, begging for it. mercy is letting joowon go, it's lifting the burden of responsibility off his shoulders - but instead, dongsik’s final request ensures that joowon truly atones ("i ask you to arrest me" - "no, how could i do that? i have no right") by informing him that the only way to live with guilt is to try and do right by the people who expect something from him. "joowon-ah", dongsik says as he softly picks up joowon's clenched fist, the look they share informs joowon that going through with the arrest is how he'll do dongsik right. it's what dongsik, his now friend, expects from him. that's what their final scene as partners is all about, in my opinion.

and something good does come out of dongsik's firm but tender confrontation. joowon gradually becomes a better person who seeks community and whose life, in return, is enriched by the friends that forming community gave him. dongsik and joowon's parting is bittersweet, but in letting joowon know that his actions matter to others and that he is wanted and expected by others - (jihwa, as part of the larger collective whose feelings towards joowon are influenced by dongsik's, texts him and checks in - that expectation to show up and empathy for when he does not respond is an invitation letting him know that there is a place for him if he chooses to occupy any) - dongsik sets him free.

tumblr algorithm stop feeding me takes that this show is just a silly goofy comedy that shouldn’t include death or that Izzy is the token disabled elder queer on the show where an actual disabled elder queer is literally the romantic lead or that Lucius and Pete being called “mateys” is diluting their gayness because it’s not “husbands” or that it’s sexist that Zheng lost her fleet and later prioritized her love for a man or that Ed is Izzy’s abuser because we conveniently forgot all of season 1 or that trauma is never followed through with because sometimes actions are used instead of words or that Ed learned nothing because the inn was apparently a whim as if he hasn’t been obsessing over retirement from day 1 I swear did we even watch the same show?? I literally feel like I’m in backwards land?

I have a really novel concept for y’all complaining about character’s arcs not being fully resolved or healed and that’s called there is supposed to be another season of this show

I also have another really novel concept as to why every single character did not have a one on one trauma apology session and so much time was spent on Ed and Stede and that is because this is literally the Ed and Stede show and also sometimes parallels are meant to be inferred and extrapolated because that is what efficient storytelling does instead of spoonfeeding you

And my most novel concept of all as to why some beloved characters had less screen time is because Max is a massive jerk and cut the budget

Y’all this wasn’t personal and maybe this show was never about Izzy maybe the show called our flag means death is actually about death maybe sad does not equal homophobic letdown maybe the brown gay character introduced as the love interest from day 1 gets to outlive the angry white guy that had a redemption arc after actively bullying and trying to break up every gay couple for a season I don’t know what to tell you just can you please let non-white people have this arc for once without assuming it’s an attack on you I’m BEGGING y’all

I literally never had an issue or felt insecure abt my sexuality until I start interacting with heteronormative, allo ppl lmao. one convo and I’m ready to off myself.