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yuna-writes · 10 months

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Lately, I’ve been feeling kind of bored at work, but I gave up on the idea of finding a job that’s ‘fun.’ Some days my job can be fun, but majority of the time the work is too easy so I get bored easily. It pays incredibly well, and there’s some sense of job security and stability associated with it. I could try to find that ‘fun’ job, but it can pay terribly bad and it can be stressful.

These days, I’m not sure what my next ‘steps’ are. I feel like I spent a good majority of time trying to become a designer. Now that I achieved it, I’m not sure exactly what I want to do next. Funny how as human beings we always look for the next thing. We go to school, graduate, go off to college, and then find a career etc. Once you reach to your destination, where do you go from there?

I think the usual next steps normally is that people get married, have kids, work that 9-5 job and live a ‘normal’ life. I’m frankly not very interested lol. I would like to get married, but I don’t think I want to invest my entire livelihood on family. I guess some people would find me strange but I like to spend my time thinking about creative ideas and how to innovate them. It just excites me more. I want to build upon my ideas rather then building a family. I’ve accepted it’s what I truly want but I do feel a little different when I see other people prioritize their life around their children. It’s like the biggest goal in life for them is to procreate and have kids. Why don’t I have such desires?

It’s not really a new phenomenon, I was always that creative kid that was really absorbed with my ideas and wasn’t so interested in the dating culture as much. I like the idea of being with a partner, but the whole dating culture was just so engrossingly superficial and obnoxious I didn’t want to participate in it. Now that dating culture has moved on to dating apps and it just made things more superficial lol. Romance in films and fictional story is pretty unrealistic when it comes to portraying how relationships really are in real life. I bet that disparity is going to grow larger considering dating culture has moved unto dating apps and I rarely ever see dating apps mentioned in a fictional story about romance.

I always see people putting romance and relationships on top of their priority in life after career. I just like putting my creative ideas on top of priority and I guess some people won’t understand it. It’s not really about maintaining career or anything. I think careers can be temporary but the legacy and impact you have left behind in your work matters to me more. I want to be known as that cool and creative person who created some neat invention that changed someone’s life. I’m pretty confident most people don’t have those thoughts. They prioritize and invest into relationships more and I respect it. However, I don’t really share my real thoughts because then I feel they won’t respect it. On the outside, people can act nice to not sound rude. But their real thoughts is that they find you weird.

My philosophy is that you live one life. If the traditional sense of starting a family isn’t for me, might as well accept it and quickly move on. Sometimes I scratch my head not knowing exactly where this road is taking me and I don’t have close connections with someone who can help. I notice not a lot of women are inventors or engineers. The women in my social connections have a pretty typical female lifestyle. They are married, have one or two kids, and work in a stable and structured job. Usually they work in more social jobs like teaching, nursing, therapy or other jobs that require social skills. I don’t have many female role models to live by, because they live a very different life so I can’t get advice addressing my specific problems. The only female friend I know who seems to understand my ideas and ambitions is a woman who works as a software engineer, but she’s really the only one.

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psychewritesbs · 1 year

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This isn't a particularly important interest, but I've been thinking about what "fanservice" is and how it relates to female characters, and while I'm pretty informed on their side, I'm interested in how it affects male characters.

I guess I'm thinking more on it because of some posts of how megumi is used for fanservice either by the way other female characters interact with him (remi, hana, etc) or by those panels showing his bare ass lol. For the girls, I guess it would be the fangirling and such to see his charming points lol. I didn't notice it much until recently, but others may disagree on what it is or means. I could probably be wrong on all of this, but I'm interested in looking into it

Do you know of any blogs or articles discussing fanservice in male characters (like those isekai harem series) and how we and fandom perceive female characters. I'm not as knowledgeable with the terms, and I don't want to pressure you for a response if it's not your expertise, but I wanted to share this with you anyway.

Thanks and may your days be filled with good things <3

HOLA! Thanks for stopping by.

Um, no. Unfortunately I know of no such blog or articles. I think if anything I'd recommend you look into the male vs. the female gaze and psychological repression. I would also love to hear your thoughts on the topic if you are inclined to share them.

I do have some #thoughts because fanservice is such an interesting topic, one that I am totally unprepared to talk about.

So at the expense of sounding like an uninformed idiot, I have #thoughts under the cut in case you want to read them…

I'll start by saying that I am fully aware that I may be missing important frameworks through which one can look at this issue, so please, anyone who reads this, feel free to enlighten me.

Outside of that, my thoughts are my own "perception" on a complex issue.

Fan service or self-aware?

Recently I commented on how I really love My Dress up Darling’s Kitagawa Marin because I see her as a character who knows she’s pretty, who owns her sexuality, and who is a chick who is not defined by her exterior appearance and has instead cultivated not just kindness, but also a well-rounded personality outside of the “I’m a hot chick” self-definition.

In that sense, given it's been a while since I read the manga, the manga felt like it walked a fine line between relying on fan service to show Marin is someone comfortable with her sexuality, and how it portrays the female body as a desirable object.

That made the the manga feel like it was mostly self-aware in the use of fan service. Which is interesting to note because Marin is fashioned like a Garyu girl (meaning, she's intentionally sexualized) and Gojo is always shown as a character who, despite his attraction for her, goes out of his way to be respectful of her and not see her as a sexual object meant for his own gratification.

It's interesting, really, because My Dress Up Darling is actually quite wholesome for this very same reason, and it would probably not have the same effect without the fan service.

So rather than being fan service for the sake of fan service, the manga felt intentional in a way--like making commentary on the issue of the sexualization of the female body and how some women become overly-identified with this projection.

On the other hand... I must admit that I felt like the anime goes to town with the boob jiggle in a way that is... uh... unnecessary?

In the end, fan service for the sake of fan service fetishizes and creates unrealistic expectations around the female body.

It's unnecessary at best and it reminds me of why I stopped watching Fire Force...

I think that even if Okubo likes to drop meaningless platitudes like "it's not about looks but about the soul" like he does in Soul Eater, his fan service has always felt like its done for the sake of fan service and not because he's self-aware.

After all, there's a difference between "I'm hot and I like wearing a sexy outfit because fuck yeah I'm hot" (which is something I can relate to btw)...

And constantly being harassed (even if accidentally) because you are not scared of your sexuality or simply comfortable in your own skin.

Granted I'm not aware of this scene in context, but knowing how Okubo incorporates fan service into his manga... bruh... is this scene really necessary?

And, more importantly, to answer your question about how fan service affects characters with another question, what is this teaching the boys and girls who are reading these manga?

What's interesting is that My Dress Up Darling's mangaka is a woman and Fire Force / Soul Eater's mangaka is a male.

It's a massive overgeneralization to say that their respective genders explain everything. But there's also something to be said about how Fukuda (My Dress Up Darling) uses fan service to make commentary on a larger issue, and how Okubo (Fire Force) literally justifies fan service with thick ass plot armor.

My brother in christ, if you like big boobs and you cannot lie then draw big boobs and be done with it ffs. Did Okubo really need to explain everybody's obsession with boobs at the end of Soul Eater as Chrona's own mommy issues? It feels more like he needed to justify wanting to draw big boobs.

So I'm going to take a little leap of logic here and say that what this tells me is that the problem with fan service is one of psychological repression--both from the audience and the creator. More on this in a bit.

In Depth Psychology, it is commonly accepted that anytime you repress any instinctual urges (such as sexual desire), depending on how bad the repression is, these urges take a life of their own and find a way to express themselves against your conscious will.

Fanservice in JJK

This brings me to "fan service" in JJK.

I've literally gone on a tangent ok but like I know that going on tangents is basically all I ever do about how Uro's character design screams "appreciation of the female body" as opposed to fetishization.

Ok but you specifically mentioned Megumi in JJK and even wondered about how this affects males.

Megumi is an interesting subject for the term “fan service” and I am honestly not sure we can entirely compare Megumi to a harem isekai mc.

For one, JJK is self-aware af.

So even if Gege is positioning Megumi as that kind of character to whom all the chicks are attracted to, I feel confident saying he's making a statement about it in much the same way Fukuda does.

For example, the issue with Remi is actually quite complex and multilayered. For one she was asking Megumi to become her knight because she found herself in a situation in which she saw herself as a damsel in distress that needed to be rescued. It is later revealed that she did not know how to rely on herself after having relied on men and their sexual attraction for her because she did not want to take responsibility for solving her problems.

Unlike Marin, Remi weaponizes her sexuality and it backfires.

Second, Remi looked to me like a symbolical exploration of Little Red Riding Hood. I understand that, historically-speaking, Little Red was a cautionary tale told to young girls to warn them against "wolves"--aka men who may prey on them sexually.

So.... there's that.

Then there's the bath scene you mention...

When I saw Megumi get out of the bath I didn’t think anything of it until it occurred to me that this image would be perceived as fan service.

But like... I mean... I get out of the bath just as naked, and the only character I can think of who'd get out of a bath wearing clothes is Higuruma so... this begs the question: did Gege intend for this to be fan service, are we fetishizing Megumi's body or is Gege trolling?

But outside of that we also have Gege Kirara forcing Megumi to show some skin.

And yes... the panel above screams "fan service" and yet its a tiny bit of skin exposed.

At this point in the manga, Sukuna had lost at least two shirts, and Hakari one. But somehow a peek at Megumi's abs got a much bigger and louder reaction from the fandom.

idk I'm rambling at this point.

But this is how I perceive it, right? So as always I don’t own the truth on the subject and I feel like the issue of fan service is highly subjective.

I’m just wondering where the line can be drawn between fetishization of the body, and an appreciation of the body--not just by mangaka, but by the audience.

And honestly, for as much shit as I gave Okubo for the way he uses fan service, I'm also a huge believer in sex-positivity and the healthy expression of the very, very human desire for sexuality and sensuality.

Different people have different thresholds for how much they're willing to tolerate. Sexuality is not a black and white matter, but exists on a continuum.

So to me, the issue on fan service comes back to our personal relationship with sex and the human body. Do we appreciate it? Is it something that we see as meant for self-gratification?

Um a bit of self disclosure here but I've met Kate Upton in person and holy shit...

Her photos do not do justice to how gorgeous and sexually magnetic she is. I just want to worship her beauty.

It is also quite undeniable that she's inevitably picked up on the projections cast upon her as an object to be used for self-gratification.

I’d say it’s the same for the male body.

Hello Oscar Isaac in Dune? as;uho sf;arf h

So it makes me wonder whether the issue with fan service comes back to whether there is a point to be made, is the fan service trying to express an appreciation of beauty and the human form or even an expression of sexual desire itself?

The larger issue, I'd say, is how fan service affects others--which we can't control.

Does fan service teach others that the human body is beautiful and that it is natural to feel sexual desire, or does it teach that the human body is something to obtain for one's own self-gratification.

idk I'm rambling lol.

ALL THIS TO SAY... I probably went on a ridiculous tangent but hopefully this helps you in your search for answers.

I am also totally curious about why the topic interests you, etc.

Anyways, thanks for stopping by and sharing these #thoughts with me!

#ask the mental gymnastics anime girl #fan service #fanservice #oh wow this isn't going to show up on dashes is it?#I guess I used the s word one too many times #tw sexuality

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masterhandss · 4 years

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Hamefura Ep. 11 - The Geordo Kiss Scene

I’m surprised. The anime production team really does butcher Geordo’s character, to the point where scenes from the original materials are unloyal or the scenes that they do add don’t fit with his character. Shockingly this episode is one of the few moments where they get it right. Ironically, I was waiting for this episode in hopes that they wouldn't change anything in this scene, but apparently not changing anything in of itself is the new problem.

For once, the scene that people don’t like is from the canon material instead of being an anime original. huh, would you look at that.

I don’t know if this scene was included in the original web novel, and I don’t exactly know how to check, but to those who are asking on their tags and posts, yes this scene is in the light novel (Volume 2 Side Story p. 273, according to my copy). It’s that scene that everyone keeps asking me context about.

There’s so much I want to say, but I know there’s nothing that I can really do to excuse this scene. Realistically, I can see why people would hate this scene because of the lack and consent and the image that Geordo might be taking advantage of the situation. Maybe anime and fiction has altered my perception of what’s okay and not okay in the real world, but I understand that while a kiss without consent might be romantic in anime, in the real world it’s creepy and can be considered as sexual assault.

I’m mostly writing this to share with everyone why I think this scene is okay, as a light novel reader who was waiting (but didn’t expect) for this scene to get animated.

I know there’s nothing I can really say to defend this scene to everyone, but you know, have some context anyway.

It’s important to note that while the anime seems to have left it out, it says in the light novels that if Katarina condition is bad because if she remained asleep and didn’t intake any food or water for days, that’s when her body will become weak and slowly die. It’s sort of implied in the anime, but without it being stated verbally, you might not know that this isn’t just a matter of her not waking up anymore.

My mom is a doctor, and she said that a person would like at least 9 days without food or water. The information changed based on where you look, so of course my mom might not completely accurate, but here’s what it says when I look it up on google.

You can go without food for a long time, but water is the problem. Again, researchers vary depending on where you look, but the general rule of thumb is that a person can last for 3 days without water, depending on their age and nutritional necessity.

Alan (i think?? don’t correct me lol) noted that Katarina has been for 2 days.

I don’t know about you guys, but I eat a lot. I’m so used to eating a lot that if I skip two meals, my hunger is so bad that it gets in the way of me doing normal things. That could just be me of course, some people can go a day without eating and getting hungry after all. Without the medical equipment today to take care if me if I ever got into a state of comma, I would probably die within 3 days.

But we’re talking about Katarina here. She, who is always hungry and is always looking for something to snack on. I get that this is an anime/fictional series so they can play out the hunger bit to an unrealistic degree, but if we’re going to put the Geordo Kiss Scene to real world standards, then I think it’s only fair that we do that to Katarina’s metabolism as well, to some extent. Apparently an unconscious person’s energy depletion is very very slow so there’s no danger of her getting as hungry as she does when she’s awake, but you know that’s still something worth nothing

Anne was trying to feed her some water in hopes that her situation might change, but also because she’s aware that the lack of water intake might kill her before the lack of food intake, which is obviously why she is prioritizing water.

I don’t know if anyone else got the same idea, but I got the implication that she had been trying for a while, but the water keeps slipping out of her mouth, like it was shown in the anime. It’s not like they have any dextrose in the world of hamefura, so there’s not a lot of ways that Anne can feed her water.

And then we arrive at the kiss scene.

Geordo, who realized thanks to Anne that her lack of food and water might do her in, take the water and uses his own mouth to feed Katarina with water. It’s important to note that unlike Anne’s attempts, Geordo’s worked, and (you guys might find this even more creepy but) he did it several times in order to provide her with the water that she lost in those two days.

Again, I can see why people might think that he took advantage of the situation, but I just didn’t get that impression. I saw it as reverse CPR in a way, and someone on the hamefura reddit discord said it was more like a mother bird feeding it’s chicks with its own mouth.

They don’t know when Katarina will wake up, and again dextrose probably doesn’t exist in hamefura so they have no means to feed her. It felt like a desperate attempt to feed her rather than anything malicious. I mean this isn’t about kissing her because he loves her, it’s a matter of kissing her in order to have her drink water.

I guess it’s kind of hard to put myself in the headspace of those who hated this scene, because I thought it was fine, but I always thought that the reasoning (feeding her water so she wont get dehydrated) overpowered the subtle creepiness of the scene (kissing her without consent). That might just be me.

He didn’t do it with any malicious intent in mind, and did it because he was too scared to lose her.

Of course, people who did read that scene in the LN might bring up the fact that after the scene (or flashback, as it was in the LN), Geordo does reminisce about the experience and hoped to have kissed her more, or what i’ll call as the “Post- Comatose Scene” and yeah okay that did feel kinda creepy, but he thought of that while being in the presence of the entire harem, watching them as they try to take away Katarina’s attention.

He thought of it like that because the post-scene was about him monologue-ing about Katarina’s relationships with everyone and how she’s being taken away father from him by his friends. I think i’d like to excuse that post-scene because at that time, his irritation for the harem and desire to become closer to winning Katarina over was taking over his mind. He thought of it with the desire to bring himself a few steps ahead of the others.

It’s a bit shitty that he even thought of using the event as a way to bring himself higher than the others, but at the post-scene it’s been a long time since the episode’s events happened so to some extent you can say that his anger and desperation clouded his judgement.

He never really brags about this event to anyone, and never advertised it as his or Katarina’s first kiss. He never really thought of it as one until weeks after the situation with Sirius ended. Their real first kiss is the one that happens later into the series.

Anyways, I know lots of people would still find problems with the scene regardless, but I just want people o know that this scene is in fact in the light novels and is canon. If you didn’t like this, well you guys might not like the other kiss scenes that are coming, if there will ever be an adaption of Volume 3

(might edit this if I remember anything I can add)

#my next life as a villainess #hamefura #hamehura #mh talks #My Next Life as a Villainess! All Routes Lead to Doom!#destruction flag otome #Otome Game no Hametsu Flag shika Nai Akuyaku Reijou ni Tensei shiteshimatta #bakarina #katarina claes #catarina claes #geordo stuart #gerald stuart #jeord stuart

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solomonish · 3 years

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Hey! If you're up for it how about The Fool, The Hierophant, and The Tower for Solomon. And The Moon as a bonus for any character that strikes your fancy!

hell YES i am up for it! i would do the entire thing for Solomon in one go if asked (please don’t ask......let me pace myself lol)

major arcana headcanon requests!

SOLOMON

The Fool - what are your muse’s thoughts on new beginnings? does it frighten them or excite them?

Well, I think Solomon has a different opinion on new beginnings for himself than he does others, first of all. Considering all he’s seen and been through and what role he has in the universe now, it makes sense that he’d hold himself to a different standard.

I think for him, he doesn’t necessarily think there’s even the option? Like, he has stagnated. His power and knowledge grows, sure, but in terms of personal development he’s kind of stuck. (At least, that’s how I think he defaults to seeing himself. Can’t keep the realms under control if you’re distracted by trying to be a better person, you know?) He just has to move forward without any thought to “starting over.” Maybe there’s too many layers to get through to start from the top again. Maybe he can never have a new beginning because he cannot end. Maybe he just forgets to take a personal day and do some self reflection because he’s busy, haha. But I can kind of see him not really...thinking that’s an option for himself. The concept seems like wishful thinking, but if ever given the opportunity he’d definitely have some reservations about whether or not he could make it through the transition. Not scared per se, but...wary.

For others, though, I think Solomon definitely thinks it’s possible, especially for humans. Angels and demons have such a stiff role they have to fulfill, but humans? They can kinda do whatever they want. Even if he feels a bit detached from humanity, he still cares deeply for it (them? us?) and the ability to just decide you’re unhappy and completely reinvent yourself, especially with the little time we have, probably just adds to our charm, you know? It’s probably one of the things he’s jealous of or misses, if he thinks about it

The Hierophant - what are your muse’s morals / ethics? do they follow their moral code strictly?

oh boy, solomon and ethics....

Solomon’s ethics are better off described rather than labeled. If you labeled them, you’d start with “gray” and then you’d get nowhere else. I definitely don’t think he’s amoral, and I don’t think he’s immoral either. It’s very easy to determine a person void of morals or ethics when judging them based on a life where there aren’t many choices that would be “immoral” but necessary. Like, in the average life, the most immoral thing is easy to not do. But considering he’s got, ahem, large responsibilities on his shoulders, there’s probably quite a few times where the best course of action would be horrifying for someone to hear of him doing.

Overall, he prioritizes humanity above all else, along with its longevity and preservation. He definitely has a different internal attitude (at least) when interacting with angels and demons as opposed to humans, a combination of not really feeling as directly responsible for them and also knowing that if he ever is, he would have few to no qualms about giving them the short end of the stick in a situation that would benefit “his team,” if he could manage to pass it by Diavolo or Michael.

I don’t think his internal values change, things like autonomy and equality for all, free pursuit of knowledge, y’know, all the good stuff everybody wants. And in his day-to-day life, he doesn’t seem the type to pass quick judgement or have some inherent unwillingness to compromise. “Morals” and “ethics” seems to imply a more grand scenario, and as the “keeper of humanity” or however he sees himself, he wouldn’t exactly be hesitant or emotionally torn apart by having to hurt somebody if it meant he could protect and support humanity as a whole.

I feel like I spent however many paragraphs being extremely vague and I’m not sure if this makes sense or even says anything of importance, haha...

The Tower - what event drastically changed your muse’s life? do they resent that event or are they glad of it?

Well, I mean, there’s a few obvious answers here. You have his fall from the graces of the heavens, the exchange program, any number of biblical events, his discovery of magic and the path he took to immortality, the fallout with his apprentice....and to be honest, with the exception of the exchange program, i think he is resentful but also glad? He’s the type to see the good and the bad outcomes of the situation. He’s probably made peace with the sentiment that “oh it made me who i am today” but he does have days where he grapples with all he’s lost and must now deal with for practically eternity.

Though, and these aren’t drastic events that shatter him forever (but i think they can be mentioned here), I do think that he takes little pieces of the people he meets and cares about until he becomes a sort of mosiac of the people he loves. Not necessarily romantic love, either. He met a witch who he was close friends with who couldn’t put down cheesy teen romance novels from a specific author, so you can find a few copies of her favorites sandwiched between spellbooks and old archival texts in his room. He isn’t big on self care, but Asmo did teach him a quick and efficient way to wash his face and keep his skin clear. Simeon and Luke gave him an appreciation for finely crafted tea sets. Again, the event i guess would be “making a friend” (which for him very well may be a once in a lifetime kind of deal lol) and isn’t what the question meant, but idk. I think it was worth mentioning here because long-term, it does incorporate into him as a person.

LUCIFER (my other fave <3)

The Moon - what does your muse long for? is it a realistic desire?

Not to be surface-level and cheesy, but I think he longs for him and his brothers to feel like a family. Not that they don’t already, but I think he longs for the way they used to be in the Celestial Realm, how complete they used to feel. In that way, it’s probably the most unrealistic desire. The hole in their family isn’t one that can or even should be filled, and your addition is just that - an addition, not a replacement.

Something that could give him (kind of) what he craves is if he and his brothers could heal. They’re already on the right path, but they’re still all kind of dysfunctional. The complicated part of this is that a lot of their strife is due to the nature of demons, and the wholesome unity is a brand that has never really been found in he Devildom. That’s not to say it’s impossible - the brothers still love each other, they still are loyal to each other, but Lucifer can feel that there is some sort of rift between them that has not yet been fixed that he yearns to solve.

(If you ask me, the “rift” is probably something caused by trying to heal in an environment that will never offer mercy or forgiveness. If the brothers can find solace in each other, maybe that’ll get them a step closer. But sometimes their interactions still feel like walking on eggshells, and...I don’t know. I really do think Lucifer longs for the type of relationship they had when they were angels, and he’s trying to deal with the realization that maybe that type of relationship just isn’t in the cards for a demon.)

#i think maybe this is just me saying a whole lot of something #ask game #lucifer #solomon #obey me #obey me solomon #obey me lucifer #solomon hcs #lucifer hcs #asked and answered #elvishdork #mine #asks

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theunconcernedembalmer · 3 years

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what’s the issue with elisop? is it just bc you hc aesop as ace? im so concerned by seeing ppl adamantly opposed to mlm/wlw ships but im also genuinely curious about why you dislike it and other lgbt ships so much lol

hmm. that is a strong accusation, n i find it just a bit odd. are you new here? or perhaps you are taking personal offense at my dislike towards a favourite ship of yours and using the lgbt argument as moral high ground?

whatever the case may be, i thank you for asking. if u r truly looking for an answer, its below the cut n it is very very long. mind u these are all my personal opinions n i am in no way policing how others enjoy ships. just in case this wasnt clear; i dont wish to start discourse on this blog, especially since my takes are probably... unpopular.

firstly i would like to address the “disliking lgbt ships” bit, because this has very strong implications in itself. i have nothing against lgbt ships. i enjoy them, even. if the two characters have chemistry between each other, i ship it. however, the moment characterization is broken for the sake of romance, i lose interest. this is generally my stance on ships in general, n this applies for both straight n lgbt ships.

the ships themselves are fine. however, i do have issues with the ship dynamics, so ill let u in on that.

i want to touch on mlm ships in particular; i believe u are familiar with the top/bottom dynamic that is rampant in these kinds of ships? (i wont deny that this dynamic can be found in other types of ships, but for arguments sake i will be focusing on gay ships because i feel that this occurs more commonly here) its such a popular dynamic that is prone to stripping the personality from one if not both characters, only for them to be reduced to being dominant/submissive. for a character to be pigeonholed into a stereotypical category based on... preferred sexual positions? its just downright insulting, never mind the larger more problematic implications of it. top/bottom is not indicative of someones personality, by the way. flattening multi dimensional characters into these stereotypes is so so so insulting.

unfortunately this is The Most Popular portrayal of just about any gay ship around. ive seen it being used everywhere in so many fandoms n it just about becomes apparent to me that ppl come to stories looking for a Ship. not the stories, nor the characters, just a ship. while id like to say theres nothing wrong with that, keep in mind not everyone is just looking for 2 characters that look pretty next to each other. if i ship something, i see interesting n meaningful interactions between 2 characters, which is so often not the case once u bring in the top/bottom dynamic. why is it so popular? because somehow this is what ppl like from a gay ship n hence it sells. ppl want the drama, characterizations be damned. ppl want to see the big kiss that happens in the end, n maybe the sexy parts that come after. characterizations be damned.

so u can say im a little wary of gay ships when they cross my feed. hell, as a joseph aesop shipper i see this trope everywhere n im pretty disappointed as well. small tangent but i feel like this is the reason why zh0ngli n ch1lde is so popular in g3nshin. i try to see the appeal, i really do, but after a long while of analyzing their respective characters i dont think they have as much chemistry as ppl think they do. dont even get me started on how incredibly ooc they make either of these very interesting n unique characters in ship portrayals. all because of the top/bottom dynamic that ppl want to see. i say this for that particular ship, but this is pretty much the case for a lot of ships out there, n the latter part is painfully true even when the 2 characters do have potential between each other. ill say it again im disgusted by the blatant disrespect to the characterizations if all ppl ever want is 2 pretty puppets to mush lips together. cos thats what theyre essentially reduced to this way.

n its so obvious to see when an artist subscribes to this rhetoric, because u can so clearly see it in the way they draw their characters. the “top” generally has sharper features to go with their “dominating personality”, while the “bottom” has disturbingly softer, feminine, dare i say sometimes child like features “to submit”. n thats where the uwu soft gay trope comes from, i believe. which, in case u still dont know, i hate with a burning passion.

so again for ppl with impaired reading comprehension, im fine with ships, including lgbt ones, but the moment u break characterization for the sake of the ship, im not that okay with it. u want to do it for a short crack comic? fine. but if thats the only way ur portraying the 2 characters then im immediately wary of ur content. ill still look at it cos usually the art is really good, but im very very wary. so im not “adamantly opposed”, just very critical of how the ships are being portrayed. if other ppl want to enjoy their ships like that, sure. just dont expect me to join in on something i dont agree on.

now id like to address not shipping “because i hc aesop as ace”. for ppl who are new to the blog (hello there), im an ace in a romantic relationship, so thats definitely not the reason i dont ship elisop. its more of being in a relationship has largely shaped my views towards romance as a whole. even before i met my boyfriend, i hated the romance genre in stories n media. most of it comes off as incredibly forced, especially those love triangles they seem to love putting into teen novels. thats one reason why i stopped reading when i was younger, but i digress.

did i partake in shipping when i was younger? i did. for a gay ship too (if anyone really wants to know, its kurotsukki from haikyuu. at least this was one that i can remember, i was mostly working on my 20 odd ocs for the longest time). i also used to write little short romance ficlets that i never posted anywhere cos i hated (n still do hate) my writing. but writing romance when u dont have experience was really just a way of projecting n probably a way of coping for myself, not that i knew at that time. but after i actually started a relationship with my boyfriend (whom i love n cherish a lot thank u very much), i began to see how much all these have skewed my views towards romance n have actually done some harm to our relationship. the bullshit that the general media feeds u constantly doesnt help in the slightest either.

quick topic shift to elisop in particular (about time, right?). i already stated that i only ship characters if i sense chemistry between the two personalities, n if u have seen the part where i dont ship elisop then u must have seen how agonized i am over not being able to have a concrete personality for eli. that is the main problem i have with elisop: eli does not feel like a solid character to me. n that is a huge problem, because if he doesnt have any defining characteristics besides being mild n nice, then he can be whoever i want him to be. (i have done this in my exorcist comics, i will admit this. n the fact that i can just do that... it really does not sit well with me personally.)

n that is dangerous.

back to young me doing lil ship things. i think its also pretty safe to say when u really do ship 2 characters, chances are u kinda really relate very very hard to at least one of them. that very quickly can turn into projecting, n shipping therefore is not “exploring the relationship between 2 characters” n it becomes “my preferred dating simulator 101″. of course this isnt always the case, but at least it was for me, n subconsciously it might be for lots of ppl too. n since this is ur mental playground, u call the shots, n there is no consequences if u slightly (or even entirely) alter one or both personalities to fit ur desired narrative. n u wouldnt even notice or know, cos ur blind to ur own biasness.

we bring our perceived notions into real life, im sure u know that. so when ur partner does not become that perfect knight in shining armour, or when they get upset at things that u do (which is a very normal thing by the way), n u think (very subconsciously), That isnt what my otp would do, something is wrong here (nothing is wrong, actually its just ur skewed perception of a stable romantic relationship). why wouldnt ur otp do this? because u are both halves of ur otps, there is no hidden secrets between them (apart from the pining part but thats irrelevant), n again they have been altered to fit ur preferred narrative.

a real relationship requires a lot of communication between parties, because newsflash, liking someone doesnt mean that u have to like every single thing they do, they will make mistakes n it will hurt u, n guess what, the reverse is also true. if u do go with absoutely anything that they would do with 0 objections whatsoever, ur not crushing on someone, ur idolizing them, n that power imbalance is detrimental to a relationship. these things are not obvious to ppl, especially when the whole climate is hell bent on getting into romantic relationships by a certain age or some bullshit. communication is key n is pretty much the only way to solve relationship issues, because the other person has a lot that u r not seeing n vice versa. as similar as 2 ppl can be, i doubt u can have 100% the same thoughts on all things. i dont make the rules.

so in ur mental playground u focus on the fluffy parts, maybe there is communication, but rarely is there any meaningful conflict. thats unrealistic, n if u bring that mindset to an actual relationship, thats not going to end well. i say meaningful conflict, because yes, generally u shouldnt have conflicts with ur significant other. but inevitably when ur with each other for long enough, u will realize that there are habits that u must change in order to be with the other person. habits that are harmful to the other person directly, or harmful habits towards yourself that indirectly harm the other person. these are meaningful in a sense that if left alone, it will manifest into larger problems that will harm u, the other person n the relationship as a whole. its meaningful to the relationship.

all these is made even worse if ur neurodivergent. maladaptive coping practices, self sabotaging behaviours, inherent disabilities. all these must be adjusted n addressed. im so incredibly thankful for my boyfriend for being incredibly patient with me when working all these out, n it has not been easy for me to work on myself n all my problems, n im still not done working on them. this aspect is often not explored in romance in general (or properly), n there is a very good chance i would have still been stuck in the unhealthy mindset of “this isnt like my otp, maybe we’re not meant to be”. because loving someone is a choice. no one is made for each other, it is a conscious choice made between 2 ppl to make things work. this is how arranged marriages work, i am told, n i do see the appeal, not that it actually does appeal to me culturally.

special mention to the kurotsukki ship, cos from there i found a very, very good fic that explored their relationship before n after getting together, n it actually showed aspects of this problem in the incredibly slow burn of (at that time) 20+ chapters. it was just one fic (n a very good one at that, i believe it was called Leviticus), but it had a lesson i never thought i needed to learn, n learn it i did, with a lot of help from my dear.

this is also probably the reason why i dont really want to delve too much into romance now. i know its a lot of work, n everything (mostly) that the media feeds u is really false advertising, but ppl eat that shit up n so it remains one of the most popular genres to date. im just very wary that if i do start on a romantic story, i want to be able to show it in a way like that fic did, the truths of relationships, because i dont want to make something that sells, i want to make something that meaningful to me, if a little indulgent. n that also includes being very careful in how the respective characterizations will change in a relationship. almost too careful now that i think about it, but its not something that i mind. i was never one for romance from the start, n now im very careful about shipping because of what happened to me persoanlly.

okay enough about me, lets talk about aesop. in any au u put the character in, the essence of the character must remain despite the change in environment. so lets say we have ur typical modern au. dead mom, check. shitty mentor doing illegal stuff? also check. autistic boy with social anxiety? we’re good to go. all these have implications on aesop as a character, n while ppl are aware of this, again the way they go about portraying it can go, in my personal opinion, very wrong. ppl who immediately woobify aesop completely because he has autism annoy me. ppl who reduce him to uwu soft boi cos he has social anxiety do not know how the disorder really works n as someone who has that i hate it to the core. ppl who do all these for the sake of ship have lost my respect. its insulting.

remember the top/bottom dynamic? not that elisop is completely free from that (even if i dont know much about eli, to put him in either one of those stereotypes feels very insulting to his character. i wont even say anything about doing it to aesop its so upsetting), but its not entirely made up of either. but now i want to introduce another trope i am very wary of, which is “i can fix him”. im sure u guys have seen the meme going around poking fun at this trope (for those who havent, its along the lines of “u can fix him? well i can be his worst nightmare”) n no doubt yall would have seen it n gotten sick of it in some forced hetero romantic bullshit. we have one damsel in distress with a saviour that solves all their problems just by existing n being romo with each other.

remember “my preferred dating simulator 101″? this is not mutually exclusive n from my point of view this is dangerously close to this trope. lets be real, if it was actually a thing that all ur deep rooted trauma magically disappears if someone were to waltz into ur life, we would want it. definitely. no painfully dissecting ur own problems n constantly facing them head on. real life states that this is not the case, but it will not stop us from dreaming. n so this trope is born n lives n will go on.

(finally) pulling aesop n eli into this, at least in my mind, u have one severely traumatized boy with lots of issues n u have this. nice mild guy who can be anything u want him to be. i hope u can see where im going with this, n thats the direction i see some elisop heading towards (i dont read a lot of elisop to be fair). if u came from my eli character talk, i mentioned that it is incredibly one sided. this is exactly what im talking about.

putting it all together in case u havent already, aesop is the damsel in distress, whose problems magically disappear because of elis godly kindness n little to no work on improving himself, n they lived happily n gayly ever after.

can u tell how much that does not appeal to me.

never mind the butchering of character that inevitably happens somewhere somehow, the unrealistically perfect themes n implications of this trope makes me so viscerally uncomfortable. this is, of course, due to personal reasons, n i definitely see the appeal of this dynamic because i would probably have been interested in this once upon a time as well. but as i am now, with everything i have explained up there n everything i have been through, i would politely rather not.

n its difficult to think of another dynamic, because of how little i know about eli apart from him being this saint, which easily makes him a candidate for being aesops trauma panacea. never mind aesop rarely, if ever, does anything for eli as a character in return, n its so damaging to buy into this rhetoric, where a person like this who would solve all ur issues no strings attached exists somewhere in the world. they really dont. a relationship has to be mutually benefitting, or it will be draining n disastrous. maybe u say, Oh its nice to imagine it once in a while. n yeah, i agree, except once in a while is a little difficult to keep track of n that is sort of what happened to me. id rather stay as far away as possible from this kind of unrealistic fantasy, i just got this shit sorted out with myself n my boyfriend.

i have some other reasons, but theyre more personally problematic, so i wont go into them here. but this is mostly n generally why i do not ship elisop romantically. if u do, u do u, and have fun, but again dont expect me to join u. thank u for coming to my ted talk, this took a lot longer than expected.

#mun rambles #its me the mun #unconcerned ramblings #posting this now cos this is a question ive been getting #although this has been worded in the most unnecessarily passive aggressive way possible that i do not appreciate #im wary about all u so called social justice warriors championing this n that liberal idea when all u want to do is stir shit #thankfully i dont have much experience with this but just passively seeing all these ppl run their mouths is getting very annoying #but just know that i will not tolerate any of that bullshit here. because if u really do care about ppl as much as u say u do #then why r u attacking ppl period #ur really just hiding behind a righteous excuse to harm people. thats disgusting. i dont want u here

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astrologysvt · 4 years

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Mingyu’s Ideal Type - Natal Chart Reading

For ideal types, I’m not going to be doing specific placements of their ideal partner. Instead, I’m gonna be listing personality traits I think would mesh well with them, as well as focus on their needs and the kind of person who could meet them. what this reading cannot account for is the compromising the members would do on their end for their s/o. so just keep in mind this is only half of the whole picture!

lmfao having mingyu towards the end of this reading cycle is wild.

i was running out of my ways to say “communication” and “intellect” thanks to all the air in the rest of svt.

so now i’m gonna try and get through this WHOLE READING without saying those words EVER AGAIN

he’s definitely going to want a very playful relationship.

so someone who can keep up with his energy when it peaks.

someone who will hype him up when necessary

or at the very least, someone who wont try and cramp his style if he decides he wants to do something fun or show off.

with an aries venus, he’s going to be drawn to those who have very warm and active energies about them.

it also makes him a mixture of ULTRA AFFECTIONATE and suuuuper mischievous when it comes to his s/o.

he likes to poke fun and joke around.

so someone who wants to be smothered in love who will return the sentiment

but also someone who will receive his more playful antics while also giving him a very satisfying back-and-forth.

i imagine he’s very good at exchanging this role where he’s the one joking around and his s/o is like 😔smh

but then his more rational and doting virgo mars comes out and he can be the one whose like 😔while his s/o goes out and makes a fool of themselves.

he has a very earnest and clumsy way of approaching relationships.

aries venus’ tend to have very “childlike” and light-hearted (albeit a little unrealistic) ideas of how to impress their s/o.

he wants to come across cool, wants to show off and show up for his s/o where there is this whole dynamic of “look at what i can do!!” and “i can handle it no problem”

and it’s all with the hope that he can look skilled, competent, and honestly just hot.

but then you have these earth influences through taurus and virgo in his mercury and mars respectively, and this sentiment also comes from a much more grounded and modest place.

so you can really trust he’d still do those things even if he didn’t receive the fanfare (although he does truly appreciate it)

as i said, virgo placements are naturally very doting and earth in general strongly values physical/concrete representations of commitment/presence in relationships.

virgo is the influence of lifestyle, domesticity, and healing.

and so he wants someone who will let him take care of them, who is receptive and appreciative of these efforts.

he wouldn’t really vibe well with someone who was overly independent to the point they resisted said help.

it also adds an appreciation for the routine, and so he’s looking for someone who can integrate themselves into his life in ways that maintain structure and order.

it also makes him love the mundane things!

like cooking dinner together, doing chores together, shopping together, or honestly just sitting around maybe reading or watching tv.

mingyu is super interesting tho because he has two sides to him.

he is a very passionate, straight-forward, and magnanimous person but he also has a chart that’s simultaneously very sensitive, reserved, and potentially retreated.

his initial energy is pretty unrelenting with an aries sun at the helm of his chart.

his chart really spares no expense when it comes to life and love.

to put it in perspective, you have cap influences which spare no expense in the sense of being resourceful and hating waste or anything ancillary.

and then you have aries influences that see no need to be reserved or stingy in any sense.

nothing is put to waste and THEN SOME with aries placements.

and this is certainly true with mingyu, and so having someone who leans into that passion, enthusiasm, and generousity would be great for him.

someone who would find his clumsy, innocent, and potentially blunt approach to romance endearing.

this also makes him a very affectionate, open, and attached person.

i imagine once he has feelings for someone, it probably takes milliseconds before he starts flirting and joking around with them.

he truly does not waste time on that front

(although he also has these placements that make him one of the most adorable, flustered, and smitten guys when he has a crush).

he really likes that feeling of “conquest” when it comes to wooing someone

and so he may like someone who isn’t as assertive who he can approach first (although he will not have patience for someone who plays hard to get).

and then obviously that aries brings a sense of energy to relationships.

but what’s interesting with mingyu is that i wouldn’t necessarily say he needs a super exciting and adventurous relationship because of that.

with a pisces moon, taurus mercury, and virgo mars -- he’s actually a pretty calm and leisurely guy himself.

he may want to do a bunch of different things with his s/o, and so someone who is open for adventure and new experiences would be great.

but as i said before, with a virgo mars that puts an emphasis towards domesticity, i imagine he’d be pretty satisfied with a more mellow and realistic relationship once it settles past the honeymoon phase.

so that sense of excitement may speak to what peaks his interest romantically as well as his initial approach, but longterm he’s looking for something much more predictable and reasonable.

aries placements can also be pretty protective.

once he’s bonded with someone, he’s going to have a very “they’re mine” attitude.

he wants their attention, he wants to be the first on their list, and dislikes competition or anything that can give him insecurity in this sense

(although his chart makes him very kind-hearted, forgiving, and gentler than someone with a more “pure” aries energy).

he wants to be the best in every single category in their eyes which isn’t particularly the most realistic mindset.

so it’d be great if his s/o would play along, do what they can to make him feel good, and will put him on this pedestal to a degree

but also someone who can be realistic, sweet, and caring when they have to kinda of let him down or assert their own boundaries/preferences

like “i love you babe but this is ridiculous”

cuz he also doesn’t really like getting scolded or told what to do, but is very receptive and accommodating to others so long as the approach is clear yet gentle and very non-chastising.

and this just stems from his desire to do good by his partner.

even if he doesn’t succeed in his attempts or it comes across weird, he really just wanted to do something nice for his s/o, wanted to protect them, and wanted them to be proud of him.

so having that acknowledged at the core of it is very important.

if his partner is overly critical and doesn’t take into account his positive intention, he’s going to feel frustrated and neglected

and this is because he DOES have this super clumsy aries inflence.

he can be rather impulsive, or at the very least not overly concerned with the vast implications of his actions, and so he isn’t wholly paying attention to every single thing he’s doing.

and so someone who is more knit-picky and more detail focused when trying to interpret actions wouldn’t be compatible with him.

i feel especially with a fire sun and water moon, he may struggle with his actions not fully lining up with his intentions.

and so that dynamic would get very discouraging over time.

i see this all the time with jeonghan, that infamous sister sign combo.

jeonghan is much more nuanced in how he interprets actions.

where as mingyu is much more literal, plain, and straight-forward himself.

lol like during their breakfast vlive in nyc.

mingyu was like “i’m a good roommate”

and jeonghan was like “uhhh?? i’m a good roommate too????? excuse you???”

and mingyu was like “i know???”

like he didn’t mean to imply jeonghan wasn’t a good roommate but it came across that way to someone like jeonghan who is very mindful of implications.

lol that may not be the best example, but it’s good that whoever mingyu is dating understand there really isn’t any hidden meaning or hidden agenda with him.

or if there is, he’s incredibly bad at hiding it.

what you see is what you get, and over interpretation runs the risk of causing unnecessary conflict.

but then we get into the other side of his interesting dichotomy.

while he is this very dedicated, loving, and attached person thanks to his aries influences.

he also has a lot in his chart that indicates he needs a great deal of freedom and space.

his aries influences assert their independence and autonomy without thinking twice, and being restrained in that regard may frustrate him if he has to start second guessing everything he does.

although those pisces/virgo placements do make him very considerate in comparison, so it’s more so ensuring that he isn’t being restrained in ways he feels needless or petty.

then his pisces moon strongly indicates that he’s the type to need space to process emotions and life in general.

pisces moons are very reactive, empathetic people and can often times get overwhelmed if they aren’t given room to breath.

he takes in everything and absorbs all of the energies given to him, and then his aries influences come in and insist he needs to be a part of the action at all times

so there is a strong potential to kind of wear himself out if he isn’t careful.

so while he is very go, go, go with that aries

he’s going to need to retreat every now and again thanks to that pisces moon.

so someone who is understanding of that who can give him that room to breath, who wont question it, and can simply let him be.

it’d also be great if they can read him well, as once he’s at that point he may not be the most verbal in his discomfort.

he may honestly just leave once hes had enough and decides he needs to turn off the noise.

but with that pisces moon in general, this does make him a very emotionally intelligent person although he may not fully understand it himself.

rather than verbally, he’s going to bond with someone through emotional closeness and understanding.

and so he’d like someone who is receptive to that, who doesn’t put as much emphasis on verbal connection who’d return the favor of keeping themselves sensitive and empathetic to him.

otherwise the relationship may feel superficial to him if everything needs to be explicitly stated or asked for, which is reinforced by the lack of air in his chart.

he doesn’t always want to talk things out, he sometimes just wants to leave them be and sit in it.

and someone who picks and prods to the point of excess in that sense would really frustrate him.

SO IN GENERAL.

a sense of humor and excitement is key with him.

he wants a relationship filled with laughter.

he doesn’t want a relationship that weighs too heavily to him.

there should be an equal attempt on both parts to keep things light, supportive, and unrestrictive.

there should also be this sense of amplification.

he wants to be encouraged and uplifted.

that aries can make him so energetic and antsy, and so having a receptive and equally playful partner to release that energy with is something he really likes.

but beyond that, i think he has a very realistic idea of the type of relationship he wants ultimately.

he wants a very supportive s/o.

someone who makes him feel good about himself and boosts his confidence when necessary.

but more realistically, he wants someone he can build a life with and offer that support to in more concrete ways.

he’s so affectionate, so loving, and so generous.

he really wants someone he can dote on, take care of, and who will offer the same courtesy to him.

and honestly just someone who is going to accept and appreciate everything in excess he wants to give

may it be affection, empathy, forgiveness, understanding, support, service and all that cute adorable mingyu stuff.

#seventeen #svt #mingyu #kim mingyu #seventeen imagines #seventeen scenarios

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onf-headcanons · 3 years

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OK AS AN ANIMATION STORYBOARD MAJOR CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS SCENE??

A/n : CONTAINS SPOILER SO YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

Pay attention to their glasses, the amount of the liquor. And sorry if this is too sudden or you think its not big. I just wanna show that the show actually did pay attention to details in some sense. Discussions are welcome

This was the part they did a toast. And pay attention to how the amount of alcohol in glass reflects character personality.

At this point I will try to elaborate but then because some characters not yet has a moment to shine yet compared to 94line so, it will be mixed with irresponsible assumptions

Carefully looks at Seunghyun (Hyojin) and Taejun (Changyoon) ‘s glass and also relate with how sober they are compared to others.

It perfectly relates and that is some good character personality show dont tell right there.

It shows us well enough that Seunghyun and Taejun are quite similar people, nice, observant, caring and also sensitive. At first glance, Seunghyun is the action taking empath type while Taejun is the rational practical type. But, this scene shows that they both care the group in the same way. They did not get themselves too drunk so that at least someone is sober to clean or back things up. It is also an indication in the group they both are observant and caring, (of course not sure if they are worried if they drank they might spill?).

It relates more because Seunghyun is the first person who helped Alex more obvious, like everybody sees it. I mean look at early episode, Seunghyun is the one who “butt” his head in to calm his roommates when they are fighting. But I guess because he got close with her very naturally like a comrade during the beginning. And since Seunghyun was the one majorly constantly seen with and standing on alex’s side in the beginning, it is easy for everyone to later assume and predict, that Seunghyun will always stand at one’s side should you successfully get close to him. So that is the reason why Sanghae/Seungjoon says “ I never coupled/shipped you and Alex tho.”, because he is generally nice to everyone. (not in a bad way) (Also to add, lol in this webdrama, Sanghae is older than Seunghyun, I laughed like a madwoman this is not possible not funny imo lol)

And then Taejun in a more shadow type, my guess he is the kind of person who need the other party to prove their worth in his heart for his kindness as it is not his thing to butt in. But once he reach out, he will be the one to stand in front of you should you met any danger. He is not cold hearted mind you, previous episode and this episode successfully proved that. Take example Inguk/Minkyun when he wanna go get more drinks and he quickly become alert worrying the younger one might stumble. Should Taejun’s caring trait is totally taken out, he will be drunk af and Seunghyun be the one to offer to join In Guk.

In conclusion, you might know and sees Seunghyun’s deed but not necessarily sees Taejun’s with your eyes. And I can totally understand why them both are to “easily” fall in love.

You might ask, but Sanghae? his drink was full tho? My guess is he took a sip and then got drunk, the type that is weak against alcohol. lol

Some more irresponsible assumptions,

Inguk and Baekho are the type to indulge to their feelings and “desires”/passion because they just “do whatever they want” that fits their current agenda.TThe type that pours their effort without holding back. But mind you its not like they dont care other people, both are also observant in their way,. Its just I guess the budget, time and editing wise could not make it. And also I will not think the script is a script should they write it like otome game in Japan where everyone has a crush with Alex. That is unrealistic and it feels like character does not have a life in their own world (kinda like they just conveniently exist to push plot, ahem sorry i got carried away.)

Sanghae would be the type that is also observant but its not as powerful level as Seunghyun and Taejun. He did gives that I live in my own world vibe but currently I do felt he is like the magician/prophet if you put character archetype trope on him.Like he spout weird stuffs but it wraps up later in another way.

ok i better stop here before i get waaaaay ahead of myself.

but then I do hope other characters get more focus and highlight to shine.

ONF FIGHTING! LOOKING FORWARD FOR NEXT EP

#sorry i got carried away #this was not supposed to be long #i took liberty to talk about what i learnt and what i liked #onf #can i step in

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gossipgirls · 4 years

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what are your most unpopular gossip girl opinions (if you have any)

ohhhh god okay. i’ve voiced most of these already but having them all bundled up in one post feels like holding up a big “COME DRAG ME” sign. but here we go.

serena is a good character. a lot of people who hate her just either don’t get her or don’t care to try (which is fine haha but don’t go around saying she’s just a shit character then).

serena was never a worse friend to blair than blair was to her. they balanced each other out.

dan was the only appropriate choice for the identity of gossip girl and i’m not all that bothered by the inconsistencies/plot holes (i.e. “but he was surprised when he saw that one blast!”) - this is definitely because i am an infp and i barely care about details as long as the big picture makes sense to me lmao. eric wasn’t a relevant enough character for it to matter, dorota would’ve been funny but would have made absolutely no contribution to the show’s messaging and would have been way too campy of an ending, georgina was too obvious, nate would have been ooc (particularly since, god love him, he’s just not smart enough to pull it off honestly).

on that same note, derena’s endgame was not ooc for either of them. she definitely deserved way way way better and it’s not my desired ending for her, but it was the most logical way to end the show considering its messaging.

dan and blair were good in s4. i enjoyed them as friends with some unexplored romantic tension and dan having a small crush. it suited them well, and it should have stayed that way for the rest of the series (and would have stayed that way if she hadn’t been depressed and lonely in s5, but that’s not an unpopular opinion lol). but i’ve never been opposed to their s4 kiss or the s4 connection in general.

the majority of the most difficult parts of the show to watch are blairena’s fights. i know a lot of people think of chair as the driving force of the show and like... i love chair and the show was always way more interesting to me when they were together, but i think it’s kind of undeniable that the show just genuinely didn’t work as well when blairena were on the outs after s1. thus, THEY were the central and most important relationship of the show, not anybody else.

jenny and vanessa aren’t that bad. i actually like jenny at several moments, while i just think vanessa is hated way more than she deserves. she was annoying, i guess, but never a truly bad person.

i love ivy. 🤷‍♀️

while i ship serenate above any other serena or nate ship, i often think a van der baizen endgame would have made serena happier than a serenate endgame and would have been truest to the wishes she had expressed since season 1.

beatrice grimaldi is kind of an underrated char, probably because she wasn’t in many eps and because she was working against blair. she was awful but, like, deliciously so.

as a feminist and a fan of serena, i want serena to have a career and succeed and be stable and happy. but her career-based plots were dreadfully boring (so were most characters’ though).

i never minded eva/cheva lmfao. they lasted for like 4 episodes so i don’t care enough to either ship them or hate them, like how anybody even has a strong opinion on them is beyond me. like it just happened so fast that idk why they’re either passionately hated as if they were meant to be a serious ship, or shipped as if they were anything but a symptom of chuck’s escapism.

dan/georgina > every single other dan ship

tripp sucked but the entire s3 tripp plot was honestly absolutely STELLAR.

this is probably just unpopular because nobody but me is thinking about it, but i would have liked for alison humphrey to stay in nyc and be a recurring character (not in every ep like rufus, but just every now and then like harold or cyrus).

juliet could have been a really fucking cool character and i loved her at first sight in 4x01 before i saw the end of the episode. she was snarky and funny and challenged nate in a way that gave him some more depth for a minute. the whole ben plot ruined her, obviously, but she was kinda exactly the kind of woman i’d want nate to be with if not serena...?

i didn’t mind louis at all until he started scheming with chuck’s therapist and then obviously his behaviour at the wedding reception. i didn’t love him and didn’t find blair/louis shippable, but like... they weren’t bad... i’ve never minded watching them together...

i, uh... i didn’t mind sage spence either... she did the same sorts of things that blair and serena did at her age.

the pact with god plot was totally one of the worst blair plots but honestly... not as unrealistic as everyone says and not as out of character as everyone says.

i’m sure this is actually popular, but it just needs to be said: raina should’ve stayed on the show after s4.

jack bass was neither funny nor interesting.

#answered #anonymous

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abatina, belladonna, bluebell, chrysanthemum, ivy, poppy (for all of them or whoever you wanna talk about lol)

@kimsgoeun

ABATINA: Is there anything in life your muse has changed their mind about over time (due to becoming more educated on the topic, certain experiences, etc.), or that they would change their mind about under certain circumstances?

Maxine: “I’m even greater and more powerful in any aspect than I thought I could be when I was a young girl, and I will only rise higher. I am the best and I will continue to be as such. In the improbable scenario that this would be debatable, it would only mean I made a small error somewhere -- an exceptionally rare thing for me to do -- and that it would only be a matter of time until I crush any competition to reassert myself as the most dominant player in the business that no one should dare trifle with.”

Aversa: “Ambition is not always a virtue. I made a lot of sacrifices in the name of ambition, and it has led me down a path I never wish I had taken and turned me into someone I loathe. It’s something I will regret it for the rest of my life.”

Carmen: “That people can change -- they can’t. They only reveal more of themselves when certain criteria is met. Have you ever met a truly good person who is wealthy? No, because they don’t exist. That good person was only good because no one knew how greedy they were.”

BELLADONA: How does your muse respond to silence? Do they take comfort in soundlessness, or seek to fill the void with noise?

Larissa: “I wish I could remember what silence is like. When it’s perfectly quiet to normal people it never is for me. I can always hear something and it’s always a little too loud. I hate it so god damn much, it drives me crazy. But around others? I hate silence, it’s suffocating, and I’ll try to find a way to fill it. It makes me think about being alone and everyone else is just out of reach.”

Maxine: “I don’t care if it’s dead quiet or deafening noise as long as I’m making a profit and gaining power. I do abhor working in unpleasantly noisy spaces, however.”

Severin: “A lot of people would probably guess that I hate silence because I’m loud and always instigate fights, but I actually don’t always mind it. Sometimes I prefer it, but I’m always solo when I want quiet more than noise.”

BLUEBELL: Does your muse learn from their past, or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes?

Lorenzo: “I usually learn from my mistakes, but that doesn’t mean I don’t make the same ones again regardless. Sometimes the consequences are worth it. I’m a grown man, I can handle them.”

Wren: “I have to learn from them, but better yet if I never make them in the first place. I try not to anyway. I’d rather stay up for days to be able to ensure I don’t make a mistake than to make it and have to face whatever comes after. I have people’s well-being depending on my competence, so I can’t mess up. But when it comes to love? I always fall for the wrong people. It’s always the ones who just see me as a pretty face, and it hurts every time, but... I just want to feel validated, I guess.”

Carmen: “Sure, I learn from past mistakes and use whatever I learned to do something better. But I can always just muscle my way through any tough spots I get myself into if I have to, so I’m not that worried if I do repeat them sometimes.”

CHRYSTANTHEMUM: How does your muse express romantic love? How do they feel about love as a concept?

Alexis: “Acts of service; doing little things, whether that means going out of my way or not, for the other person with the intent of making their day a little easier on them. I’m a cynic and jaded when it comes to romance, but I’ve also had terrible models for it in my personal life. That said, the concept of what it’s meant to be is certainly nice. Mostly unrealistic, based on what I’ve witnessed and based on most accounts of people’s relationships I’ve heard of, but nice, I suppose. I understand the appeal, but I don’t expect to experience it.”

Aversa: “Spontaneous gift giving and acts of service, but I’m not good at communicating my intentions well when it comes to feelings, especially that of the romantic variety. I think love is a foolish thing, but I’m also bitter towards it due to a past, and... painful... falling out that hurt me more than I wish to admit. I hate it because I don’t think I can ever truly experience it again. That would require someone looking past what I am and what I’ve done and still choose to be with me rather than fear or despise me. It won’t happen.”

Kalianna: “I’ll kill for them free of charge. I’d get them gifts too if I know what they’re into or want!”

IVY: What are your muse’s views on marriage? Do they believe it is something strictly for love, or an institution rooted in business and social benefits? Do they desire or have they desired to be married?

Wren: “Marriage may have started out as more of a business arrangement of another kind, so it’s not strictly one thing or the other, but I like to think it’s more for love nowadays when people talk about it. I’d like to get married someday, but at this rate I’m not so sure it’ll happen. It’s okay though, I still have a career. It would just be nice though. Really nice... I'm not going to think about it...”

Lorenzo: “Marriage for the sake of love is always a person’s dream, but rarely does it ever come true. The majority of marriages are arranged and done so with the benefit of both families in mind. I’m in no rush to marry nor do I particularly care to if it’s only going to be used as a binding business transaction. If it were to be out of love I would happily marry.”

Alexis: “It’s both something that can be done out of love and should be for those who wish to celebrate their relationship in such a way. But it’s also an institution rooted in business and used as such by people who seek to secure positions in families of equal or greater influence than their own or solidify partnerships between businesses or families. I have no desire to marry. I’ve been engaged before, albeit against my own will, and it wasn’t for any reason that involved romance. My family doesn’t believe in such a thing. However, if by some small, crazy, unbelievable chance I should happen to meet someone and we fall in love and they express a desire to marry then I wouldn’t mind it. Who knows, maybe I’d be the one to propose in that situation. I think I’d prefer to, actually.”

POPPY: What comforts your muse?

Kalianna: “On a bad day? Swindling people out of money or straight up killing them to take some stress off. After a bad week or whatever? A nice vacation somewhere far away! Or fun shenanigans whether I’m alone or with someone else, but as long as someone else is suffering then I’ll probably be fine.”

Severin: “Chaos and murder! ...But also high places where there isn’t anyone else around and I can see the whole city before me. Both leave me more with a bittersweet feeling than they are purely comforting. I don’t think anything has been truly comforting in a very, very long time. Not that I can remember anyway.”

Larissa: “I like things that get the adrenaline going. Ever done street racing? It’s pretty fun. Super illegal, but fun and great for taking some of the edge off when I’m stressed. On the opposite end of that while it’s also kind of dumb since it’s my job so I should get tired of it or hate it more, I find mixing drinks pretty relaxing.”

#decided to do it a little differently for a change of pace #and answered in their pov's rather than mine #*headcanon #hc: alexis caine #hc: wren falkner #hc: lorenzo russo #hc: severin volke #hc: aversa luthier #hc: maxine sciarra #hc: carmen valdes #hc: kalianna verdane #hc: larissa maverick

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flirting-with-psychology · 3 years

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[zombiebandido]

Can you recommend any Neil Gaiman to me, aside from Stardust or Good Omens? I cannot

What’s the best concert you’ve been to, if you’ve been? Idk, I think I’m just not huge on concerts

What’s the funniest screenname you’ve ever seen? i-run-with-scissors-to-feel-dangerous

Is there an animal you like that most people don’t? Don’t think so

Is there an animal that you think is overrated in terms of how it’s liked? Goats or cows, maybe

Is there a time period you think is underrated? Not really

What about music? Showtunes

Do you find yourself listening to music that’s a bit more esoteric? No

What are your three favorite books and why? Harry Potter because of the worldbuilding, Mistborn because of the worldbuilding and characters, A Confusion of Princes because it is a fun standalone book

What about authors? Idk, I mostly like specific books Do you have any likes you wouldn’t tell someone until you got to know them? Nah probably not

Do you have a favorite language? Not really

What about a place you’ve always wanted to visit? Ireland

What’s something someone does or says that just makes you laugh? Idk, it’s usually situational

Do goldfish crackers ever make you sick, or is that just me? No?

Do you have a favorite art style? Probably realistic

Do you have a favorite myth/fairy-tale? No, sorry I’m being boring with this quiz

Who is your favorite person aside from family? Probably my bff

Do any of your pets (if you have them) have weird quirks? My cat was just very emphatic

Do you listen to music from anywhere besides America? Not really

Have you ever “quit” a site and came back to it more than once? No

Do you have an “odd” fascination with anything? Dice

What is the thing you want most at this moment? An interesting job and a return to normal from the pandemic

What was the last book you read and what was it about? I’m currently reading The Martian about an astronaut stranded on mars

What was the worst book you’ve ever read & why? Walk Two Moons because the twist ending fucked me up

Do you have a favorite breed of dog or cat? Which? Golden retrievers

If you like any anime/manga, what are some titles you recommend? I don’t really like it

What do you think about school in general? I thought it was interesting and I wish I could go back

What’s the hardest thing you’ve been through, & what did you learn from it? Maybe the braces. Dk what I learned from it

What are three “unrealistic” things you want most? An interesting creative job with steady and high pay lol, the lottery, the good place experience from The Good Place

What are some of your favorite foods? Pasta, chocolate, cereal. I am a simple girl

Where do you like to buy your clothes? Kohl’s, Macy’s, and thrift shops

Do you take any daily vitamins? When I remember

Who are three of your favorite fictional characters of all time? Kelsier from Mistborn, Sirius Black from Harry Potter, Raydan Lykel from The Crown and the Flame

If you had to give the world a pre-existing mythological/fictional being, what would it be? Idfk

When buying Slurpees, if you do, do you get only one flavor or mix them? Mixing is fun

Do you have a favorite 7Eleven food? No

Do you have any desire to learn (a) foreign language(s)? Which? Not strongly

If you could have any career, “realistic”-ness aside, what would it be? Something in film maybe

What are three memorable movies from your childhood? The Little Mermaid, Harry Potter, Barbie as the Princess and the Pauper

Do you, personally, put a space after ellipses, or not? Let me check... do I? I guess I do

What do some of the things that inspire you have in common? Making things

Micky D’s sweet tea, y/n/other? No

What are three of your best (non-physical) qualities? Creativity, honesty, smarts

What are three of your worst (again; non-physical) qualities? Stubbornness, anxiety, lack of empathy

What is one of your firmest beliefs? I don’t really have firm beliefs

Do you ever question things until you’re unsure of even the silliest thing? Yes

Do you have anything that keeps you from doing something you’d truly enjoy? Anxiety and procrastination, and money

What are your three biggest pet peeves (personality-wise) in others? Holier-than-thou people, acting like you’re too cool for fun, being unsafe

Do you work to fix your faults? Or at least, admit to them? I admit to most of them but I’m not so great at working on them

What are three of your best physical qualities? (NOT EYES!) Why not eyes? Other than that, I guess hair color, boobs, singing voice (at least I’d like to think so)

What are some of your greatest aspirations? Do something fun, have a good social life, see what I would look like in my prime

How do you hope the world will change, if at all? Get done with the pandemic, stop having capitalism be so shitty

Who are three (fairly known) people you find very intriguing? Taylor Swift, Voldemort, F. Scott Fitzgerald

What are three things that make you the happiest? hanging out with friends, crafts, cuddling with my boyfriend

What is/are your view(s) on god, religion, spirituality, or relations to? I don’t believe in them

Are you arachnophobic or scared of spiders in the least? YES

Do you play WoW? What do you think of it either way? No, I am just not that into video games

What kind of computer do you have? Windows 7/Vista/XP/Other? Macbook Pro

What are you good at? Crafts and school

What career do you hope to have? Something creative

Are you taking any interesting classes in school/do you not attend? I’m finished with school but I wish I could go back

If you don’t attend, are you taking any “lessons” for anything? No

A book/piece that has had an exceptional impact on your life? Harry Potter

If you know of pandora.com, what is your favorite station? I haven’t listened to pandora in ages

Have you ever “lost” a friend in any way? How did you deal? Some just faded away but some actively ditched me and I tried to find out why

Any music recommendations? Showtunes

What are at least three of your biggest fears? Spiders, living a mundane life, covid right now

Most recently read book that you liked? A Confusion of Princes

Do you have a piece of jewelry you don’t like to take off? No, I have so many that I like to alternate them

Do you have a favorite quote? Why is it your favorite? Carpe Diem. Haven’t lived it much lately though Any odd pastimes you have? Making lists and charts

Are you quirky in any way? (Name them please). My fashion sense especially in high school, the nerdy things I do

Have any practices you aren’t opposed to but wouldn’t do yourself? Probably a lot, I’m generally of the live and let live mindset

Political standing?

Left

Do you have any piercings/what do you think about piercings? I just have my ears pierced

Do you have a favorite material? I’m a fan of soft materials like suede or velvet, also metals like copper and silver

What are three names you’d name a pet if you HAD to get a pet right now? It depends on the pet

Do you like to listen to dorky/amusing music? Idk

Coffee vs. Tea vs. Energy Drinks: Order from favorite to least favorite. Tea, energy drinks, coffee

Do you like more “fruity” sweets or “savory” sweets? Fruity unless it’s chocolate

What do you hate the most? Spiders

What genres of music are your favorite? Showtunes

Do you believe in true love? Idk

Do you believe in love at first sight? If yes, why? No

What are some of your favorite clothing accessories? Jewelry

If reincarnation exists, what sort of person would you want to be next?

One of those outgoing guys that always has adventures with his friends What are some things you believe strongly in? Idk

Where’s your favorite place you’ve been? London was pretty cool, also Italy

What sort of books and movies do you like? For books: sci-fi, fantasy, dystopia. For movies: rom-com, sci-fi, musical

What’s your favorite thing to do on a rainy Saturday? Idk, just stay in

Is there a book you’ve read that really touched you? The Great Gatsby just because I related to Gatsby a lot

Do you have a favorite artist? Taylor Swift

PC or MAC? Mac

What do you love doing? Crafts, shopping, board games

If you could create the perfect world for yourself, what would it be? Basically just the good place from The Good Place. Unlimited time and resources to learn and try things without pressure to make money off it

Do you think that fate plays a part in people’s lives? Not really

Are you religious, spiritual, atheist…? Atheist

What are your opinions on the media? The media is a very broad range of things

Do you think that people throw the words “love” and “hate” around too much? Idk

What is your favorite piece of technology that you own? My laptop

What’s a piece of technology you’d like to own? I have what I want at the moment.

Are you afraid of technology developing to where we’re too reliant on it? A little bit of getting to the point where a lot of jobs get replaced with AI, because instead of making lives easier like they could be, there will just be a huge unempolyment problem that our stupid capitalist society won’t solve

Does it bother you when people do things to fit in with a certain crowd? If it’s not what they want to do

Hot or cold? Cold Do you think that Bzoink should extent the character amount for questions? I don’t use Bzoink

Do you have a favorite combination of complimentary colors? Maybe green and pink

Do you know why all the young people who have nice cars always look grumpy? I don’t think I’ve noticed that

What’s your favorite odd ice cream flavor? Lemon Sorbet or Coffee Toffee Bar Crunch

Where do you like to get your ice cream? Haagen Dasz or Ben and Jerry’s

What’s your opinion on stereotypes/labels? Idk

Do you ever use random word generators for Bzoinkoids?

What?

Do you believe that history repeats itself? It sure seems like it is

Would you rather learn from your mistakes or just undo them? Learn from them

What was the most interesting class you had in school? My words and music class in college Do you write? If so, what? I used to write poetry, I sometimes come up with stories but I don’t really write them

Do you have a favorite website? Tumblr and Etsy

Do you think that the quality of TV shows is going down? No, there are usually good ones to discover

Do you have a favorite culture? Maybe Celtic. I just like the art patterns What was a story you heard as a child that really affected you? The Headless Horseman scared me a lot

Who was your favorite grade-school teacher and why? My third grade teacher and my 6th grade math teacher

Do you think that the world will end? How? Probably in a few billion years when the sun turns into a red giant

Do you believe in Global Warming? Have you researched it? Yes but I haven’t researched it

Do you prefer piercings or tattoos? Tattoos

Do you remember your dreams? Sometimes

#survey

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13. Do you believe in reincarnation?

im not someone that necessarily believes in past lives, but more into the idea of dying and atoms being reused as anything else, which i guess could be part of another person at some point! but i think probably we will just become a bunch of carbon to spread around and make all kinds of animate and inanimate objects which i think is nice

20. Do you want a grand adventure?

mm ive honestly never traveled anywhere outside california for fun besides utah and louisiana for my boyfriend and ive never been outside the continental US so i don’t have a real desire to go anywhere bc it just seems unrealistic to me i guess or just not something i think about lol i have no sense of true wanderlust. i also don’t deal well with spontaneity so the idea of having to be on an unplanned big adventure seems kinda stressful lol (i have npc energies ill sell you scrolls or st)

26. What’s the most life-changing choice you’ve made so far?

easily easily easily the hardest choice was going to treatment and once there the daily choice to complete the whole program instead of dropping out was a difficult fight since it was an adult center and i technically could just go home whenever i wanted

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Kyo and Tohru Getting Physical Isn’t Actually Surprising

*manga spoiler warning*

I thought I’d bring this up since this seems to be the topic of discussion on Furuba tumblr lately. Tbh, as I’ve stated before, I was on the side with others who were like “hOw TF DiD thEY HaVe sEx TheY ARe wAY TOo inNOcENt”. But after thinking about it and some of you mentioning this specific point to me, it isn’t as absurd of an idea as we’re making it out to be.

And there are a few reasons for that. For one, if you really know Kyo and Tohru’s relationship, they’ve always been physically affectionate, even when they were at the very beginning stages of catching feelings for each other. The main way that Kyo shows his affection is by physical touch and he rarely uses his words to show Tohru that he loves her. (Besides his confession scene at the end of the series.) Some examples are the many times he knocks her head, which is something he does kind of absentmindedly as a loving gesture.

He also doesn’t hesitate when it comes to holding her hand or even hugging her, even though he’s still cursed and can risk transforming. He hugs her after his true form transformation, while she was confessing how bad she felt for treating her dad like a villain, and after he confessed his love for her.

The same goes for Tohru, specifically during the laundry scene on the balcony, she let him hold her as a way to seek comfort. It was where she felt safe and it was how Kyo let her know that she was going to be okay and she shouldn’t worry about anything. Words didn’t convey that message as much as touching her and holding her did. It was a way he could clearly show his affection and also comfort her when she was having...basically a mini panic attack.

They also share kisses too. Which is an OBVIOUS way to show affection. But they took that step so the next step shouldn’t be a surprise. :)))

There’s also many moments where they’re in close proximity to each other and feel totally at ease with that. It’s in those moments when their connection really shines. It’s also the scenes where just being in each other’s presence brings them comfort. From Kyo wiping away her tears to Tohru placing her hand on his knee while they’re chatting. I think it’s also important to note that Kyo doesn’t let just any girl touch him so it shows how comfortable and secure he is about being physical with her.

Basically...they had so much sexual tension and we didn’t even know it. And, honestly, they probably didn’t realize it at times either (haha). But if we’ve seen them be comfortable with little touches or hugging and kissing, then why wouldn’t it be unrealistic for them to go all the way?

But I do think their innocent mentality is what throws people off about the fact that they did it. I actually can see Kyo being comfortable with it, although he has a naive mindset when it comes to romance lol. But Tohru is another story. We all know how innocent she is so the idea of her..doing that..is admittedly weird.

However, it’s important to remember that during the series, she is still a child. They both are. It’s at the beginning of the series where we really see that she is way too innocent. However, she goes through maturity at the end. In some ways, she’s not the same person as she was in the beginning. So it’s safe to assume that she has a clearer mindset when it comes to intimacy.

Unfortunately, we never get a clear idea of that as sex isn’t a topic that comes up a lot in Fruits Basket. (Except regarding Shigure f*** Akito’s mom, which puts it in a negative light.) I think it’s something we can only trust she has a clearer understanding on because she’s aged. And I’m sure she has. For one, being in a relationship has to heighten those desires she’s never had before and that had to be confusing at first. But she was obviously deeply in love with Kyo by the end of the series that those desires to be with him like that had to come out eventually. Taking into consideration their age, since they were about eighteen when they started dating, they are mature adults now so their thinking on a lot of things aren’t the same as how they were when they were sixteen.

Truthfully, Tohru’s innocence makes the idea of them being intimate all the more sweeter. Because of how pure she is and how many high morals she has, I think we can all agree that Tohru would never give up her virginity to just anyone. She would want to settle down with the love of her life and take that important step with them. And Kyo was just that guy that she was willing to give that too. It’s one of the many reasons why she’s such a good role model because it can be assumed that even her thinking on sex is mature and it can’t be something she takes lightly. It gives me all the more feels to know that she trusted Kyo to give that to him. As she should. Because he definitely loves her and would never take advantage of her. And the same goes for Kyo as he also gave that to her. (I mean, I’m assuming he was a virgin. He was always too scared around girls. Unless you have some explaining to do, Kyon. lol but I’m sure he was.)

So because of these reasons, why is the thought of them having sex so baffling? Of course, two individuals who are that in love with each other are going to want to be physical with each other. A reason why some of us might think it’s so weird is because in today’s society, sex can be something viewed as improper. Which is a shame because often times, it’s not. It’s a way to show the only person you love most in your life how much you love them. I’m positive that was the case with Kyo and Tohru. Their thinking wasn’t “We’re just gonna fuck”, it was more like “I love you so I just want to be close to you in every way possible.”

OR we could go with the option that they never got physical and just adopted their kids. But we all know that ain’t true. I mean, have you seen Hajime? He looks just like Kyo and Tohru! (He looks like Kyo most of all.)

I think it is actually fun to think about these things and it’s probably one of the reasons Takaya sensei left the end of the series so open ended. We really get to hypothesize how Kyo and Tohru’s relationship, as well as the other relationships, turned out and how they handled the topic of intimacy. So I’m glad she left us to keep guessing

Also me:

TAKAYA I BEG OF YOU TO GIVE US AN EXPLANATION OF HOW KYO AND TOHRU’S FIRST TIME WENT DOWN. YOU DON’T EVEN HAVE TO ILLUSTRATE IT. JUST GIVE US A WORDED ONE SHOT OR EVEN A THREE SENTENCE EXPLANATION ON HOW IT HAPPENED. I WILL GIVE YOU EVERY CENT I OWN!!!

#FRUITS BASKET SPOILERS #I cried while typing this #they truly love each other so much #the thought of them making love brings me joy #fruits basket #furuba #fruits basket analysis #long post #fruba #kyo sohma #Tohru Honda #kyoru #manga #fruits basket manga #fruits basket anime #fruits basket 2019

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i-write-shakespeare-not-disney · 4 years

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Director’s Commentary- Lovesick Side Effects, Lance recites his poem in public

My commentary is in bold italics!

With each poet who went up, Lance felt his limbs get weaker and weaker. Part of him wondered if he was going to pass out if he even tried to stand. Lol, honestly me projecting what it feels like to me every time I sign up to perform something.

“Love, are you okay?” Keith whispered in his ear. “Do you want to leave?”

“No, no I’m okay. I’m just… taking it all in.”

Keith nodded and wrapped his arm around Lance’s torso to pull him in and rest his head on his shoulder. I just like gentle touches… also it was a struggle to keep Keith oblivious without making him look like a total dumbass for not catching on so I banked heavily on him thinking the poetry readings were just making Lance upset.

After a few more performers, the host for the night went up to the microphone. “Alright, how’s everybody feeling?” The crowd responded with a cheer. “That’s what I like to hear! Okay, our next poet is new to the Spider House, so I want everyone to please give a big warm welcome to Lance McClain!” so spider house is real!!! It's in austin and I actually went there. Not for a poetry reading but they do those too. But yeah, this wasn't a huge reveal, I mean all the readers know what's happening. Originally I really wanted it to be as much of a surprise for readers as it was for Keith but so many of you guessed what would happen that I just embraced it. I do think it's better that you all got to join Lance on that experience.

“What?”

Lance gulped and stood up before he could think about it too much. He walked toward the stage as the host guided him to the stairs with a smile. “All yours,” she said, gesturing to the mic stand.

“Thanks,” he said nervously. He walked up to the microphone, taking in all the people looking at him. Keith was frozen in the booth, staring at the stage in shock while Hunk and Pidge were both biting their nails. So, yeah, Hunk and Pidge knew. But they're still super nervous FOR Lance! It's a big deal and well Keith is still catching up. He isnt familiar with the version of Lance who goes on stage to read his poetry, especially since he was being so secretive about the poems. Of course. This is Lance, and Lance loves big gestures. “Hi everyone,” he said into the mic. “Uh… It’s been a long time since I’ve been on a stage and… recited anything, so I’m so nervous I think my legs are visibly shaking.” my legs did this once it was awful, so oof He cleared his throat and ran his fingers through his hair. The movement made his cologne waft toward him and he took another deep breath to root himself. The cologne wafting was supposed to be a callback to Allura. To the idea of having her there still, and having that security of knowing he can let them both exist and be loved in his heart without taking it from the other if that makes sense. I really tried adding as many "signs" as I could without making it cheesy or unrealistic aha. “This is new shit-”

A chorus of people yelling back, “New shit!” interrupted him. This shit happens and it's glorious. It shows how interactive slam poetry or just recited poetry can be. It was familiar and encouraging and it made him smile.

He dug into his pocket and pulled out a copy of the poem he’d revised time and time again. “I think I’ve got it memorized, but… like I said, it’s been a while, so….” plus anxiety can get the best of you. A cheer from the back made him smile again as he shut his eyes. Poetry crowds are SUPER supportive even when it's a complete stranger. Like the whole room understands and respects what it is to put poetry, this personal thing created by someone, out in the open to everyone and so everyone is super respectful and reactive and that was a big thing here for Lance especially when his poem gets harder to push through.

“There was a time when, my mouth gave way to words as easily as, my lungs breathed. I imagine this with a certain beat or rhythm. People reciting poetry tend to move and speak a certain way that makes it kind of like a rap, it's hard to explain. I wrote about my aunt’s curly hair callback to the poem veronica mentioned way back! and my first crush, I wrote about the confusing cracks in my voice and the strange way my sister got angry at everything. Puberty. Just to show how the biggest and smallest things gave him a reason to write. Then I wrote about a girl, so beautiful she redefined existing.” okay so this line hit me as I was writing. Because I didnt want to make a typical comparison of beauty. While experiences can be universal, some things require uniqueness and I really needed his affection for Allura to show that. The phrase "redefined existing" just hit me as I was typing and it felt right. It felt perfect. It's not just living that gets affected, shes not beautiful like a rose shes just… so beautiful it made Lance have to redefine what it was to exist. To exist with her as a friend, as a lover. To exist without her. The idea of someone being so beautiful as to redefine existing, i think, lets the beauty remain ambiguous while at the same time pinpointing it to this one person in an emotional sense. Lance paused and took a shaky breath, preparing himself for the next line, for bringing the memory out for everyone else to feel. vulnerability. we know this concept well by now, huh? “The day I lost her I lost, my words- I tried to fit my grief my sorrow into pages, too thin to hold them. Also came up with that line on a whim and I was really proud of it. I liked the imagery of pain and sorrow so heavy that it weighs pages down. The concept of tears soaking through pages and making them fragile. The idea that all of his feeling just couldnt fit into a poem or a page. My words tasted….” Lance gulped and clenched his fist pressing it to his chest. The fist is because when I imagined him talking, I imagine him using his hands. Up to his mouth, spread out as if touching pages, bringing them down to demonstrate the weight I mentioned before. And before he can bring up his fist to pantomime the dirt in the next line, hes overwhelmed and well, he uses his heartbeat as well as the cologne scent on his wrist as a tether by touching his fist to his chest.

A few scattered claps encouraged him. He heard Hunk call out, “You got this, Lance!” at this point everyone knows how vulnerable and sensitive this is. And they know he needs support. Seriously, watch slam poetry videos the way crowds react is beautiful.

He took a breath again and swallowed. “My words tasted like the dirt that slipped, from my fingers and into her grave.” His words began to shake, and he knew he couldn’t stop it, so he just tried to keep going. “They tasted like the last kiss, I shared with her, they tasted like, the goodbye I-" He broke off and cursed under his breath. He grabbed the microphone with the hand holding the poem and bowed his head. A stronger round of claps filled the break until he was able to pick his head back up and speak into the mic. “Like, the goodbye I never got to give her. They tw-twisted inside of me, clogged my throat until, I suffocated, they turned loss into, my own death. Here I imagined him twisting his hands, pantomiming a claw at his throat, pressing his hands against his chest harshly. I became an unrecognizable, shadow of myself, with a dimmed soul and a muted heart.” callback to his conversation with his mom when he told her about Keith! He opened his eyes, ignoring the tears that managed to slide down his cheeks, a small smile on his face. And here comes the transition. I really wanted to be careful with how much of the poem I gave Allura because she deserved more than a couplet, but I also didnt want the poem to be split in half. In the end this is a love poem to Keith. And they both know, hey Allura is gonna be part of this, and yes her presence may fluctuate, but I know what I feel for you and I'm not guilty and it's not a shadow or an echo. But this is who she was for me and while she taught me what it is to love, you taught me to love again. Kind of parallel to when he tells Keith that Allura made poetry easy but Keith brought it back into his life. I also wanted the transition to be tasteful not just BUT ANYWAY THEN WE FUCKED. Like. It's not that he just got over her it's that he genuinely felt the change and let it happen let that light back. “Then you walked into my life. It wasn’t a fairytale start- with longing gazes, across a cafe, or shoulders brushing, as we rushed to class, love at first sight…. It wasn't conventional, you could say haha. It was the bass beating under my feet,(music) at a stranger’s house, and barley breath (beer) note the repeated "b" sounds heh, literary devices yall. forming a question that turned, my universe inside out- it was you. Our beginning wasn’t easy, I can’t really tell you when it began- was it that night your lips first touched mine or, was it the night you shared a piece, of the pain that built the walls around your heart?(roland, aka when Keith's attitude changed too) It was you, this new discovery, note the line break here. "This new discovery" while the full phrase is "this new discovery of me" the beauty of written poetry is finding the hidden lines and double meanings in line breaks that might say more or something different than the full phrase. In this case, the new discovery of feeling that way about a boy, the desire he felt, while at the same new discovery of a part of his identity and then it continues to: of me and what my heart could, hold. It was you, brushing the dust from, my heart and breathing life, back into it with every nose-scrunched smile, holding it in leather-clad hands until, it began to beat again, again, the line break here serves to emphasize the important part "it (my heart) began to beat again" When written that would be isolated and a focal point until I became the opposite of a shadow- you made me light both in terms of weight and luminescence the heavy feeling of loss became less, but hes also "not dim anymore"…. You made me warm…. Your kisses brought poetry back, to my tongue, made the words bloom in my chest until, they burst from my mouth, they taste like hot chocolate, dandelions and firsts and prayers. You taught me that, my heart could love two people, and you loved me for it. You showed me the, magic in small moments. You taught me… that, a boy could give a boy flowers, without the world exploding. You showed me a new side of resilience. Keiths resilience is something Lance really fell for and I think he mentions that in the chapter where they stay at Keith's and run in the rain and share a bath and all that fluff You taught me, not to live in the past not to live for the future, but to exist, now with you… in a universe we’ve created and let that, be enough I hope I can be, again, line break! "Be enough I hope I can be" is kind of Lance's internal dialogue despite the line being half part of the previous phrase and half part of the following. Hes telling himself to be enough and that he hopes he can be but it's also of course part of the whole. enough for you.” He let his eyes fall to the booth where Keith was standing by the table with a hand at his mouth. Keith was absolutely standing for several reasons. He had half a mind to run up to the stage and kiss him. He had a lot of energy from the shock. When lance started to cry, he got up because he wanted to him. Hes anxious to touch him. Hes completely enraptured by Lance. He gets wrapped up in him when he recites poems, now hes performing it and it's meant for him and…. Yeah. Keith is aching to hold Lance. “Our beginning, wasn’t easy- wasn’t a fairytale. But I promise, there won't be an end I promise, you forever after I promise, again. Line breaks. There wont be an end I promise. (It's) You forever after I promise. Small pieces that are whole while also being parts of a whole. Poetryyyyy. Half the work is in the line breaks and it affe ts how one might read it aloud too! poems that will find new ways, to remind you, I love you.” how could I not end with I love you?

Lance smiled and sniffed, keeping his eyes on Keith. “Surprise, mi vida.” okay. So I had no idea how I was supposed to bring him back from ALL OF THAT and… I mean yeah. Surprise, Keith. That was all for you. Lance did say he needed to find a new way to make it a surprise for you.

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Thoughts on each even, you don’t have to answer. You just have some of the better skam opinions on this site.

Hi 🤩💫 First off, flattery will get you absolutely everywhere with me, anon, thank you so much haha.

I took a few days to think about how best to answer this ask because most of the Evens don’t feel so different to me that I could think of many things to say about each one. But then I thought I’d approach the Evens through their art style.

I was a bit of an Even in high school— liked 90s hip hop, fell in love a lot, was a bit of a dreamer and a romantic, doodled and tried my hand at different art projects with mixed results, etc. So in talking about the Evens, I’m also going to talk a bit about myself if you don’t mind!

I’m also not going to rank them this time, let me know if you want me to rank them (or to rank anything else about Skams, idc).

Even - I like Even’s drawing style and I feel it suits him very well. He never had an insta, but Isak’s season banner features a good amount of his drawings, plus the ones we saw on the show. He’s obviously influenced by American hip hop and comic culture, what with the COOLCAT, the weed, the crown, the diamonds… and the dicks. I’m very fond of Even’s Illuminati eye surrounded by boners, lol. It really feels like the kind of things a boy like Even (who loves Romeo + Juliet and Pretty Woman and Gabrielle, but also Nas and Lars von Trier and Stjerner uden hjerner and FIFA) would draw. I like that Even felt inspired by his conversations with Isak and pushed through his own fears to make art directly referencing things Isak said. Even felt scared by the possibility of parallel universes, but in order to show Isak how much he cared, his drawings for Isak all referenced parallel universes. I also like that Even’s art style is not stereotypically cute. It reminds me of the borderline gross style of Daniel Clowes and Peter Bagge.

Niccolò - Okay, so at this point I think we’re all aware that Skam Italia didn’t even have the budget for insta content, and they clearly didn’t have the budget to hire an artist specifically to create Niccolò’s art. He does have lots of drawings in his room, but then he doesn’t really draw anything for Martino? It feels like Niccolò is more of an arts and crafts kind of person, at least to me. Anyway I like that (aside from the red string of fate, which never got a follow up of any kind) the stuff Niccolò makes for Martino all reference Last Man on Earth, the TV show they bond over, in one way or another. The show is really not what I would call epic romance material, which I feel works for them tbh!

Eliott - My thing with both Eliott’s furry thing and Polaris, is that both seem really cute, but ultimately like… they didn’t mine either thing for all it was worth, I guess I would put it. Also, in comparison to other Evens, Eliott’s thing is almost developed (Eliott is after all a fictional character, not a real person) in order to elicit maximum cooing from its audience. Like, no one would say the illuminati boners or Last Man on Earth are objectively cute, not out of context! (And I’m far from a Skam Italia fan, I’m just saying.) But the hedgehog and the raccoon and the cat are all drawn in a very cute style. It feels a little too saccharine sweet for a 18-year old. However, Maxence not looking like a 18-year old might also play a part in my hesitance, because as a 18-year old I legit drew a full on comic about me and my then crush as superheroes fighting against our teachers in order to conquer college admittance tests together. (Like I said, Even and I have some shit in common lol.) And I drew my crush as a cat because he looked like a cat to me. So where the hell do I get off criticizing Eliott, y’know? As for Polaris, it’s like… Okay, so one is afraid of the light and one is afraid of the dark, and they meet and kiss right outside the cave, what else? It’s like, it’s cute and romantic, right, but not very developed as a season long motif.

David - I mean, do I have to say it? I love David and everything about him. I love that he has different art styles and uses different tools, it’s very realistic for someone his age still trying to find what his specific thing is. I love his sketches and his collages and the fact that he has a vampire persona that he draws in thicker lines. I love that he didn’t initially have an insta, and that he only got it because Sara and Leonie needled him about it, and I love that he didn’t post selfies or pictures of himself until he went through his character development. I love that his vampire persona crap is only for Matteo and he doesn’t post those cartoons on his very serious, very aesthetic insta. I love that his vampire persona looks similar to the Magdalene Hanke-Basfeld illustrations for the Angela Sommer-Bodenburg “The Little Vampire” book series. (I have no idea whether it’s intentional/an homage or just me seeing things where I wanna see them, but I loooove it.) I love that his first posts on insta really just seem kind of random (aside from the bird taking flight ofc) and like they don’t have a connection to the s3 storyline, it’s as if David really existed and made art and had ideas and thoughts before he met Matteo. I get such a kick of David’s sense of humor, like he seems kind of angry at the cliche of being barefoot on the beach and having a good time (ZUM KOTZEN!!!). Lol he’s just so delightful. I love that he can’t post a goddamn pic or video without a filter, oh no that’s simply not him!!!!1 And let me tell you about the time he made a highlights folder and named it Nights on Earth, I almost lost it on twitter I had such a great time. Anyway, David’s art and insta really scream that he’s a bit of a pretentious snob who corrects people on proper terminology and will only make cute things for the person he cares about the mostest AND NO ONE ELSE. PERIODT!

Joana - I’m a bit torn about Joana because I’m not into her more anime-esque stuff, but at the same time, god, if that isn’t me. I learned to draw by watching anime and trying to emulate the style, and because I’ve never really taken lessons, my cartoons just scream anime. I’m a bit embarrassed about it, because weeaboos and what not, and that extends to Joana as well lol. Before I revisited the Evens’ stuff for this ask, I had this idea in my mind that Joana’s art is a bit unrealistic because it seems too polished and professional for her character, but really, that’s just the piece that she in character made for the hospital/the BDP project. The stuff on the show and on her insta is actually believable as doodles or pieces she can put a bit more effort into, but aren’t like, art gallery-ready. I like that Joana started posting black and white doodles from graph paper notebooks (ftr this is the kind of notebooks most Spanish students use, lined or blank paper notebooks not so much), and started adding colors and creating more complex pieces as her relationship with Cris progressed. I think it says so much about Joana that the cartoons that represent her are always in some kind of pain, physical or emotional, but the cartoons that represent Cris (including the toads) are always cute, always happy, always desirable. Like, be more in love pls. I love that Joana is a bit of an edgelord, and uses a lot of imagery related to arrows, knives, tears/blood drops. That’s so accurate of girls like her. I love that the season banner has an actual to god vulva on it. Compared to other Evens, Joana seems more focused on drawing than anything else, so maybe that makes her video for Cris’ birthday not plausible, but on the other hand, I feel like Croana shippers could’ve used more cuteness in week 10, so you know what? Imma take that video, copypasta of “Gutten som ikke klarte å holde pusten under vann” as it is. I hope that Joana keeps posting art in s3 and s4, and so we get to see how her style develops. ✨

Sander - I haven’t really watched wtFOCK.

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