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yuckie-obsessive · 1 year

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For the Best Ending

I had some inspiration from a fic I reblogged and I wanna give sortof a short conclusion to “Just the Start”.

Set up: after many losing so many well fought battles, Dark finally manages to rip you out of Mark’s hold. He whisks you away, back into the mirror of the reclaimed manor. What used to be your prison was now your home.

Tw: manipulation, mind control, mentions of trauma, anxiety, episodes, forced isolation

Darkiplier x Reader (gender neutral)

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Life was finally calm. Fighting for so many years has left him tired and anxious. Some part in the back of Dark’s mind was always waiting for another struggle.

But he’s won the war.

Taking the manor as his own-

And taking you away from everything else.

The home was the mirror reflection of the outside world. Precisely built to allow no room for an escape- and for that matter, no entrance for anything that could threaten the peace.

Though he could never quite figure out how to keep Wilford from occasionally appearing, much to Dark’s chagrin. It was a rarity that you two interacted so it wasn’t too much of a bother. Though, there were those odd instances where he would let a reminder slip off his tongue. A stressor on Dark’s already heavy shoulders. To which Wilford was swiftly removed after.

It was surely too painful.

To be reminded of the nightmares that occurred before you returned to the mirror.

He memorized the signs.

It started with headaches, leading into hours of pain and disorientation before all culminating in an agonizing trauma induced episode. He couldn’t stand seeing you go through this.

Currently the both of you were relaxing in a peaceful silence. Resting in the library, immersed in your respective novels.

You started straining and groaned, another headache.

Dark was quick to his feet and took long strides to arrive at your side.

“What’s the matter darling?” He placed a hand to the side of your face, thumb already at your temple.

You grumbled again and muttered, “Just another headache Dark, I’ll be fine.”

He let a small sigh escape him.

“I know, I know you will be…” his thumb dancing in small, concentrated circles. Watching you fade quickly under his familiar influence, “I’ll make sure of it.”

He let your body relax completely, falling into a deep slumber, then carrying you to the love-seat. Placing you in a position to have your head in his lap, he gently stroked your hair and let his fingers brush along the frame of your face.

If this is what must be done to ensure you remained content in a peaceful existence, he would continue this practice until the end of time.

Once again he pushed back those problematic, painful memories that consistently bubble to the surface.

You wouldn’t remember that snake, the fear, the hate… the betrayal.

He might shatter if you looked at him with that broken expression again. He fully regretted his actions, those fueled by emotions he couldn’t control at the time.

He’s stronger now.

Strong enough to become your rock, your sword and shield.

He did this for you to make up for the hurt he caused. To protect you from the loss.

You deserved a happy ending.

He felt honored to help you achieve it and reveled in the chance to be included.

“I hope you can understand why I’m doing this for you…” he took in the minute movements in your expression as you dreamt. “Sweet dreams (y/n). I’ll be right here when you wake.”

#ego #kie’s post #kie writes #text #reader insert #dark #Darkiplier #darkiplier x reader #x reader #(y/n)#fanfic #gender neutral fanfic #markipler egos

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only-lonely-lovers · 5 days

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09.28.2022

tags: objectification, denial, edging, blowjobs

notes: mostly the 1 thought train... but then small random 3way cumrot at the end :B

Bird is あ / Avvy is つ

つ：god i know before falling asleep one of the times my brain was very like. woo blowjob, amane, condescending dirty talk, and i feel like it was more successful at generating the content than usual, but i remember. none of it not a phrase remaining in my little pea….. a liminal state

at most i remember…. eeouuh. ah sickness. amane letting tsukasa clean it off after nene's finished him, but mid-way in the cleaning another jolt drips out, and he's very like, oh lucky you, about it

あ：oh like sigh… some crumbs for you.

つ：know you'll like it, appreciate it. tsukasa responding as if he's gotta focus to not let it drip out of his mouth. must keep keep safe. have. gift present

あ：will whine if anything spills out. uouhhh.

つ：and Amane being gross about it all… uuuuruhg like to think about him gratuitously sighing way too indulgent

あ：[reclines]

つ：with Tsukasa there is a new degree of, meanness…. ig its, different, from like eyepri bc of how his desperation is a part of it.

あ：Ah with eyepri its kind of like mindbreaking a girl with an iron will…. really wrestling something into submission and overcoming years of trauma. but with tsukasa he literally is so open and willing, completely forward about his adoration…

There is.. 'no good reason' to string Tsukasa along… just because you can Amane could have normal interactions w Tsukasa if he so desired. but he's a sick fuck. but like, their rship could be 100% platonic and thatd be fine. Amane's fault it is not. etc.

つ：tsukasa is not the deranged sex guy

it's a novel mood ig >> to think about like, Amane messing with him…. resist coming in Tsukasa's mouth for a long time sortof run (only let him at it when you're past it and don't let him continue long enough to get going again)… finally do it but like, require him to hold mouth open and let it drip out down his tongue. just like, lol…. but in this circumstance you just hope Nene will snowball with Tsukasa

あ：Mmh it is novel… I was actually thinking of an Amane who has not ever let Tsukasa put mouf on it, like a Tsukasa who… has maybe at best only tasted it indirectly, eating out Nene after she has been finished in…. this kinda sitch, but Amane carelessly swiping pre off with a finger and sticking it into Tsukasa's mouth. Feeling exTREMEly charitable from his POV. (edited) if i think about how shitty he could be. it's very shitty

but it sucks how much Amane would enjoy just watching the girlies enjoy his come, together. like sigh that's right.. i enjoy, the big show.

つ：starving little animals mm..

yeah, I like Amane really keeping Tsukasa at a distance, at first for a stupid protective reason, but eventually its just its own… fetish.

あ：The motivation at first WAS just like, protecting self and being unable to permit getting that far with Tsukasa in a way he never did in the past etc etc…. but there's a point where you like how *pant, pant* Tsukasa is. though i feel like Nene witnessing it like THIS rly gets frustrated for poor Tsukasa

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つ：oh yeah……………….. i guess my mental state. before bed lately. is really just . fsr. amane catering dirty talk to tsukasa. but in the amane way. i… have no control over this

i remember a little more of it than last time. but its like im always fighting how its on the crux of falling asleep it feels like they get vaulted so quickly. leave me. but for a moment its so like mmmrmgh….

あ：oh to massage her brain into giving me it… mlem

OH but you know this reminds me, i've had the weirdest… like.. thought that's been trying to crystalize for days… it feels like a cloud but a cloud that really wants to form. it's so… weird though hm.

つ：we will try to think together….

あ：rub our heads together

つ：my thoughts feel so simple…. syuuure.

its very basic like…. Amane feeding his ego teasing Tsukasa, if Nene's not around for the moment. Condescending, you just like me the best, I'm your favorite lol…. of course… you'd do anything I asked, wouldn't you….

あ：It's... so easy to imagine Amane wanting to target Tsukasa in this way... Just gets off on asserting the facts too, like, relishes in the truth. Mmm.... I'm your favorite...

つ：but… being. mean even… amused watching tsukasa hypnotized (but well-behaved) sitting on knees in front of him. jerking off languidly. but clasping palm over self when coming and just like flicking it off his hand onto the floor unceremoniously. lol. sorry did you want that

if he even begins to compulsively run at it its like ohp. grabs by the hair

あ：[clucks tongue]

つ：baiting him for so long with come. again something that started off as some sort of complex, feeling weird about it, but. now it's. something else. now its become like, just really enjoying being mean in any creative way with it. holding tsukasa in place to jerk off, but pulling up to come against his own jacket, then just poof it away. like ah gross, a mess….

but it's sortof a longcon. you'd like to …. mindbreak TSUKASA into outright begging for it. wouldn't that be easier

the desire to hear onegai from him, but the struggle to request it directly so tastelessly….

あ：Trying to reduce Tsukasa to a dog salivating heavily while staring at something. Ugh the tastelessness of it.. but I do also like how, like pathetic it is in its own way, reaching a point of fetishizing your difficulty. That's kind of submitting to something lol despite your best attempts to act above this all….

I think he could reach a point though of just outright being like, Geez Tsukasa this is getting sad to watch…

つ：ahhh you just want anything if it's from meeee huh…..

あ：You don't look so well. Can you really handle this.

つ：[amane's brain rotting] [pulls tsukasa's jaw over] mmmm…. [drools over] [will he really seek to catch it lol….]

あ：bark like a dog lol…. emotional spectrum asshole sucks drool back in 💭 oh if only tsukasa could cry about it…………………………………. mh.

つ：experimenting with how mean you can get. if he really will cry eventually. something so… peak heinous about getting to some final ideal stage of tsukasa sniffling and hiccuping and you going mmmyuuu ouuhhh shhh shhh if you want it so bad, okay…. [gently places cock against lips]

あ：It's really your older brother being shitty and twisting your arm until you cry. because he wants an excuse to pet you

つ：make this about you not me. you just want it so badly...

あ：poor thing…. really making me feel just sooo bad for you…

i know tsukasa can endure many things but i think being faked out a bunch is a unique kind of weardown method that amane hasnt like. done before i think its embarrassing to get like. excited. like why'd i think…

つ：he wouldn't even think so hard about getting to swallow in such a way, but he's literally being conditioned…… so much build up its always like [ears perk] THIS TIME?! if you weren't making a case out of it, he wouldn't even be thinking so hard….

あ：but then it doesnt happen and its like. right of course. uahhh……

つ：but amane MAKES it into a-- WHINE not getting, treat….

あ：i dont think he understands how much it is like targetted torment. just sitting there like. i should be grateful to just get to look at it [pupils dilate] being forced to conceptualize the treat i mean if you faked out kissing tsukasa for days i think itd belike ._.

つ：he would be a little mess!!! you'll also create a dynamic where he's staring at yashiro swallowing. and becoming quiet for it. and yet amane will just feel like… heh

あ：we make eye contact during this ohh do you want something…

つ：why are you trying to invent jealousy in tsukasa. you dont even want that but it in some way makes his life easier to give tsukasa a complex instead of himself having one

あ：i dont want to be alone here. stop being so gracious and accepting have less fun how about. i would like it to hurt you too.

つ：yes master

あ：god. that's what it's like. not as exuberant during things. more 1000 yard stare and distracted. the thought of nene being like ?

つ：nene is fully fooled into thinking tsukasa is simply cockthristy and thats that

あ：i dont think you can help him though girl its just like a mystery. yeah

つ：its just like wow he really likes to look at it….. it also just sorta makes her horny as she swallows being stared at. she cant think straight about this all. sorry, tsukasa….

but sadly, I want Amane to get what he wants, and to get Tsukasa pleading…. quietly, at first…. like he's literally not used to asking for anything? not used to the word or how to express it just looking desperate for a while making small noise, and amane like hmmmm~? something to saaaaay~?

あ：[finger to ear] [leans in]

つ：I think finally getting jackpot, is, overwhelming in the way of-- suddenly its like-- mmgmgnhhh [in candy shop] what --position do i wanna-- what angle-- give to tsukasa, it, what-- do i wanna-- be standing-- or, laying, or sitting or above him

ohh what will be hottest what will really convey all my power and control

あ：TOO excited honestly...

つ：laying down languidly and making him do all the work...... or shoving him against the wall or floor to do it down his throat.... or jerking off holding his mouth open.....

あ：but i think it just makes him so horny to hear. ahh finally the more miserable the better my PATHETIC LITTLE BROTHER….

つ：confused and miserable sounding pleading… please… Amane….. please…. euh, please? please…

あ：I think languid has the appeal of getting to log the desperation… like, you get the position of being an observer and every gesture is tsukasa's own

in a case like this, i think it has appeal… like oh i want to see YOU be thirsty <3 it's just another day for me Offering something to a poor beggar. well, go ahead.

つ：all the efforts make Tsukasa really flinchy and like you're gonna take his food bowl away

petting him like ahhh I'll do it, I'll do it, I promise…. don't worry….. you'll get it….. this time……………. [really doing the extremely loud airhorn back and forth in brain though]

[mmm but god it would feel so good to be so mean] [no. i said…. i have to be good big brother….] [he did what i wanted… he is being good…. …. mmmmmbut] [maybe a fake out…… but then giving it to him? mm….]

あ：it's hard being a sadist and doing anything with tsukasa. like telling self 'that's enough messing with him for now lol…' but then also the devil on your shoulder is like. mhghhh but what if he started to really cry. [tongue lolling]

I think what would really sting is being like… Ah, actually, Tsukasa, this is really tepid… Kinda feels like you're not even into it. Hm…. [starts to push off]

I thought you'd be more excited Well, you did your best. You can go back to watching :p

つ：WAILS fighting against palm like a cat trying to get food on plate

あ：you love to see it i imagine its so. NO OGHMHGH I CAN DO IT

つ：AMA--neee I ca--- I CAN-- do it-- I c. I can I CAN !! Or, or if, [getting a thousand yard stare] if I never can do it right…………………………. ………..[losing voice] ….. anyway….. have it anyway …… ? [feeling foolish] paws at pants over thighs…. will it feel bad if it goes in me………………………………………

あ："have it anyway"…….. [acting contemplative like hmm. but cartoonishly keeping a hand on tsukasa's face and pushing him off] wow though for a moment just being like [internally] awww what. okay maybe overdoing it

つ：tsukasa is too ignorant about BJ science….. there must be a reason it doesnt go in me, he thinks…

あ：[thinking about sad little dot eyes tsukasas]

つ：will it feel bad if I do it wrong ............................

あ：BUT i think its finally like okay. SHOVES. holds head with both hands. comes down your throat amane got everything he wanted really saw the most pathetic tsukasa

つ：despite it all, it is satisfying. comes. buckets

あ：excessive. eughh really leaps to the most extreme…

つ：I was just kidding, Tsukasa…….. it's too easy to tease you. pet pet. you do it all well, of course…. pet pet…..

あ：lots of shushing and petting… ruffle hair, reach down and stroke nape. as a kindness also lets cock rest in mouth for an extended period of time. that would be… like nice… especially if it's not really something you see happen to nene… just one of those "thats not rly what we do here" things mouth swaddle

つ：let him keep sucklin at it and mouthing it.....

あ：cup cheeks… roll up into face casually

つ：somehow its a cute pose, if amane is sitting upright and tsukasa is on his tummy, but its just amane petting and placing palms on tsukasa's back maybe have a luxurious time….. come again in a while. m.

あ：Ya I like on belly for Tsukasa here esp… it's got it's own unique submissive flavor so low… to the ground…

All this build up really means that I think Amane kind of got to subvert a lot of his own hangups rly… so it allows all the doting after… Suppose it is like a toukan koukan. in THIS context I can praise you and pet you lots like aw see…. 's gooood…..

つ：it was a good thing. it did work all in his favor. Tsukasa just wrapping his arms around Amane's middle…..

the next day you also get to show your new trick to nene. lol then SHE can be blowing you and you can go mmnnh--tt, wait, yashiro…. ah…. let's give Tsukasa the prize this time, eh?

let nene watch you nut in seemingly effortlessly and without a care and feel like. SHOCK!?!? TSUKASA-KUN WAS NEVER ALLOWED IT BEFORE…..1!!!

あ：Like oh this nbd….

つ：he looks so blissful…!!!! hugging him. Tsukasa-kun….!!!

あ：her eyes are like gonna bug out WHERE AM I….

つ：pets him. Tsukasa-kun is here too…….!! crying. he's an equal citizen….

あ：(he. is not.)

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あ：Somehow sex really jumpstarted me to think about Hanako proposing to Nene at the start of sex, like, if you want Tsukasa to suck me off then YOU move his head onto it [points down at cock]

and… in general forcing her to be a more active catalyst, like, if you want Tsukasa involved, then own up to being so horny about it. Take his hand and put it on my cock. & just point blank instructing Tsukasa to grab Nene and ease her onto cock directly… basically having it so each of them has to move the other "over" it and direct it. Tsukasa with his hands around Nene's middle pushing her on and off of Hanako… and, Hanako furthering it by saying, like, "Go ahead Yashiro. Describe how good it feels. Look Tsukasa in the eye." [reaches down and lifts her chin] Forcing her to do this while being plowed…

another instance of like, Hanako feeling "better" if it gets "equalized".. if Yashiro pays the toll of being overwhelmed and distraught by her own desires and reduced to take "credit" for them

… but.. also it's fun for a girl to feel so directed… it IS hot… and also nene has to have resolve like…. BUT I MUST… FOR TSUKASA-KUN!!!

つ：she's like, I have been handed great power…. actually… I… will make Hanako-kun rue the day

あ：If you become strong enough… He has essentially handed you a dagger You just need to endure the initial difficulty The gauntlet will be, that he is being very mean and condescending

つ：i think Nene will be much more of a whore than he's ready for, directing tsukasa… i think she has no middle slider… he'll enjoy it when she's shakey handed and dealing with the weight of things, like thats right, fucking sympathize with me here its not easy its a lot….. but once she gets over the hurdle and is : i decide when the fruit will fall. its. hanako suddenly on mrs bones wild ride

あ：the wild ride! constructed it myself

#22 #ghosties

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liminalitycarb · 4 months

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Xenoblade 2 - Final Chapter (Final Part) - And thus, boy met girl.

It's time for Pneuma to sit down, discuss her feelings with herself, and decide if this is really the right thing to do. Let's just look at the timer to see how long we have to... oh...

OH GOD, THE ESCAPE POD BROKE IN HALF! THE ENGINE IS JUST FLYING OUT OF CONTROL WITHOUT THE REST OF THE GROUP.

Well.. it was a good run everyone. But it seems everyone is going to burn up in re-entry or splat once they finish falling.. I hope everyone enjoyed these characters!

Wait... GRAMPS HAS WINGS NOW!? I thought he just sortof swam before in the cloud ocean. But I guess Pneuma gave him the ability to fly! WE'RE SAVED!

So the Conduit Zohar disappearing caused the space station to fall apart, Pneuma to lose her powers, and the Cloud Sea to dissipate.. KLAUS, YOU REALLY DIDN'T EXPLAIN ENOUGH BEFORE DIEING.

Well.. I guess Malos won in the end.

Nothing but ruins, but also apparently there is a rift?

Oh wow, on the other side was a vast water ocean!

But... was that an actual rift? or a metaphor that gramps was using?

HEY! The titans are here! They just... fell... from the Cloud Sea... is... is everyone dead from that fall?

And thus all the titans apparently ram head-first into the first bit of land they found! I mean, I guess it is nice for them to not be fly..swimming anymore.

I'm glad you do Morag. Because I am still slightly lost right now. Unless the titans are basically becoming fertilizer/whatnot for that new land mass.

Maybe Elysium was the trauma we had along the way.

Also.. maybe it is just for poeticism... but the sky and water REALLY is making me think the end of Xenoblade 1... Did the two worlds merge together?

Okay.. I know it's been a while but I now can't remember if there were shooting stars or not at the end of Xenoblade 1.. but if there were, now we know that they were THE REMAINS OF THE ORBITAL SPACE STATION.

And thus, we reach the credits.

And after, we have more!

Rex, it looks like something's happening with your Zohar.

OH GOD! IT'S TRYING TO TAKE US ALL OUT WITH IT!

Or... it brought back Pyra and Mytrha, but as their own people?

Did Pneuma just cease to exist so the other two sides could exist as their own people?

AND POPPI IS THE FIRST ONE IN FOR HUGS!

POPPI WINS!

And, our final end of chapter screen.

BUT WITH THAT! WE ARE FINALLY DONE WITH THE MAIN GAME OF XENOBLADE CHRONICLES 2!

I got most of my rare blades to S rank, with only a few exceptions (the ones who needed me to craft too many items, or the ones that needed me to kill super bosses were skipped).

I really did enjoy playing through this game this way, and I think I will continue to play through the DLC in the same way. AND when I get to Xenoblade 3, you can count me starting this up again!

Though, I'm not sure when those next two things will happen given all of my other schedule things.

And we shall end, with the final title screen. But... how is the World Tree there? I thought it was destroyed...?

#CarbXenoblade2 #Xenoblade Chronicles 2 #Xenoblade #Let's Play #Final Chapter

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obitv · 1 year

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OOOOO YOU WANNA SHARE UR WILLOW OUTFIT IDEASSO BAD (HYPNOTIZING YOU

HIII okok but feel free to ask for clarification because 90% of my doodles were Bad and also on the backs of my exam papers so i do not have them anyway so this is all just going to be words

her skirt is my fave thing.... obviously her only options for clothes that arent williams are whatever rosemary has so they look fairly similar on that front (qnd rosemary si the only other person willow can talk to right now and shed rather mimic her than william etc etc). she has a really long loose skirt that trails on the floor <3 it originally had a slit up the leg because 90% of rosemarys skirts have those but willow added a sortof mesh/fishnet covering so the slit is still There but you can't actually see thriugh it. the whole skirt is black and its like. silk i guess? something along those lines. theres also like... a sash type belt??? at the top? i dont know if it actually holds the skirt up or not but its there and it ties at on hip and the ends hang down and its cute

her top. is. ok hang on im getting a reference up because i want you to understand the visual here

^ first ikage to show ehat it actually looks like and second image to show that you can put images on it . so yeah its the one of the left but instead of a sailor moon print its those fucking. 3 wolves in front of the moon print. you know the one. the sash is highwasited enough that it makes up for thr shirt being cropped. HOWEVERRRRR its not a tanktop like those ones its an off the shoulders top that connects to full length LONG AS FUCK SLEEVES!!!!! my girl has the most stupid inconvenientdraed sleeves of all time and i love them. she cant pick things up half yhe time ANYWAY so its not like she really needs her hands all the time so the excess fabric doesnt get in the eay all the time

also last part this ties into my william hcs but she has his piercings obvi but!! she swaps out the jewellery :3 she dyes the white streak red so to match that she swaps the snakbites out for red gems instead of the silver studs william wears

#sorry i got so distracted when i opened the video to find ss of thr shirt. its a sarah spaceman vid on how to make them check it out #mailing list #willow #i wrote a lot. because i care her

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2n2n · 1 year

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The progression of Hanako's response to Tsukasa is really peculiar, in that, despite everything, it doesn't take as long as you'd think, and it goes through quick shifts. We don't really see, for ourselves, Hanako processing anything, we don't get to hear why or how it changes so drastically each turn. We can only observe!

In their first meeting, Hanako is utterly speechless, unable to talk, unable to move, crying, flushed, staring at Tsukasa. Tsukasa, while often read as sounding spiteful, to me, reads as trying to be playful/teasing (not unlike his brother's personality in general), and hiding anxiety; he simply asks Amane if he's happy to see him. Tsukasa is reassured by Amane's expression, and perhaps, can hear his very heart. Hanako has some sort of brief episode and attacks Nene, confused and disoriented. He seems both elated, heartbroken to see Tsukasa, and, miserable.

By their next meeting, Hanako is no longer speechless and still; he has no hesitation to grab Tsukasa and bark at him, though he's shuddering and doesn't seem well. He is only overwhelmed as Tsukasa reveals his feelings; that he loved to see Amane stop holding back, and that he still loves him, now.

By their next meeting, Hanako is surprisingly lax around Tsukasa, capable of flippant annoyance and talking to him in a more glib manner (c'mon, Tsukasa...) and acting rather big-brother-ly. Not reactive to being touched. It almost makes you wonder if all the tension, freezing up, sobbing, stemmed from Hanako's fear that his little brother resented, or hated him? Despite the declaration of love arresting him on impact, he's weirdly subdued after that event. He had plenty of time to contemplate on what Tsukasa had said, and, somehow, this is where he's at. Oddly sortof goofing off with him in Hell of Mirrors. Tsukasa reveals some crazy shit he's up to, but while surprised, that doesn't really seem to impede much, because....

By their next meeting, it's Picture Perfect, and Hanako is perfectly capable of pretending to be normal siblings with Tsukasa, short of briefly being spellbound by the sight of him in his school uniform (that he murdered him in) beneath the shooting stars above. He's collaborating with him to entrap Nene, and he's a fine big brother, a mundane amount of fussy.

By their next meeting, Tsukasa is intentionally pushing Hanako's buttons, and Hanako doesn't hesitate to brandish his knife at his brother. In seconds he is subdued and intoxicated (???) by Tsukasa's voice and proposal to, rip him to unidentifiable pieces, as his yorishiro. Hanako agrees to doing this, hypnotized possibly processes Tsukasa as a God ? ... then Tsukasa beams away Nene making him yell AAA, but ultimately, Hanako doesn't balk and goes along with Tsukasa's plan (he could have at any moment rescued Nene from the boundary, but doesn't, because he needs her to be forced to peel the yorishiro via feeling trapped. He only plucks her once the boundary begins collapsing). According to Tsukasa, Amane says he's going to "do it right". In the end, he consented to Tsukasa's plan and followed it, despite briefly getting defensive.

their relationship was at its rockiest before Tsukasa reveals his love for Amane and appreciation for the gesture he made. We're now at part 2: You Could Kill Me Again, Baby, Harder This Time, I Am Begging For It, and if I had to say "where are they at now" I would say Hanako looks intrigued to see where things are going. No idea what their next meeting will vibe like given, like, Hanako processing that fully.

#avvy's JSHK

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gayspock · 1 year

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ok im finished with s2 of bsg btw

EVERY TIME I THINK I KNOW HOW BAD GAIUS CAN FUCK UP HE ASTONISHES US ALL. ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY. HES THE FUNNIEST FUCKING CHARACTER EVER TO FUCKING EXIST.

LIKE IVE NEVER... THE WORD CRINGEFAIL? ITS FOR HIM AND ABOUT HIM; DEFINED BY HIM. HOW DOES HE FUCKING MANAGE IT. IM LOSING MY MIND. THIS MAN WILL DOOM US ALL . GOD SPEED

anyways im starting the resistance webisodes rn. a few things. i hope going forward we do get more development for the civilians and again not the same recurring issues ive been bringing up bc NOW i feel like its imperative that theyre well fleshed out if this is taking the direction i think its taking

bc otherwise this whole thing could be exhausting as hell LOL

also cally. her actress is really cute and early on i was endeared to her (bc shes set up as a chara i'd rlly like) but since then its so funny like... they just get her to do whatever the fuck huh. like. she'll shoot sharon or she'll get beat up and now shes married to the chief. ok. right. its so funny like shes existing outside the narrative until they randomly decide to ave her do osme shit

btw i bet if billy was still alive the voter fraud well they would have still been caught no doubt tory fucking rules but it would have been funny if billy was caught instead

ALSO GOD I DONTKNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY MY BRAINS EVERYWHERE LIKE

i dont know how i feel about the cylon storyline right now. i absolutely did really love the caprica six and boomer episode bc theyre my favies BUT im unsure if i like it narratively speaking does that make any sortof sense

again i think its coming from a place of like... hmm... the societal aspects of cylons ALSo has always felt underdeveloped BUT that was more passable under the guise of mystery and NOW i think its one of those things where its like... ahrgh you've tried to put the bad sfx into good lighting and we can see it dont do thattt LOL bc like

i dont know i do worry that the cylons will approach a state of "too human" if that makes sense. like within the story and within their own motivations. i dont quiteknow how to describe it im very tired but its like... I DONT mean discussing how they're like/unalike humans thats FINE but. AHRHGHGHGHGG

YOU KNOW WITH LIKE EVERY AI STORYLINE THERE'S ALWAYS THAT "I'LL NEVER BE AREAL HUMAN

YEAH but then a lot of the time its still done in a very... human way even when theyre trying to reject it and... NOT purposefully its like people cant write an actual inhuman perspective, without assuming some fundamental aspects of human nature. does that make any sense in the world and whatsoever???

anyways i dont know my point is i get a little anxious the more and more aspects of cylons that come to light bc i feel like ive been anticipating A LOT with them with the wa y theyve been stringing us along but yeah theres behaviours like that where im like am i about to get terribly disappointed

speaking of im wondering who he other cylons are in the fleet still bc they mentioned 8 and idk if that meant 8 copies or 8 models and who that counts as but surely there must be some unrevealed did the girlies just pretend thats not a concern or assume it was porkie pies

also also im . very tired all over the place but hmm.im thinking moreso about the nature of the others and i think i brought up last time abt how lee couldnt be a copy bc theyd have to make a line of models identical to him and so and such BUT ehhrm. hm. i still dont think lee is one but i do wonder if like... the order of their numbers is significant that maybe like. there are later/newer models thatmight be unique or are working to be replicas of existing people rather than just .. whatever is occurring with them rn

alsog od what else

roslin is so girlboss funny for just becoming a teacher again

what else

idk

im tired

i'llremember whatelse later<3

#Egg.txt #bsg liveblog

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saurondriel au where she discovers he's sauron BEFORE any ring forging is done. a few centuries later he returns in the guise of annatar with the idea of the rings, and galadriel immediately distrusts him + pins him as sauron but he's cast some sort of enchantment onto her that makes her unable to reveal his identity to anyone else. so she's left to stew in the knowledge that sauron is right!!! there!!!!! and one day she snaps and attacks him right in front of all the other elves and they take sauron's side bc it looks like galadriel is just randomly attacking annatar 🥲

when sauron finally reveals himself by forging the one ring they have their confrontation and i KNOW that in canon he forges it in mount doom but also what if sauron dropped hints to galadriel about where he was going to next, and she actually chased after him with elrond insisting on tagging along bc he needs to know what tf is going on at this point, and then in front of elrond they have their fight and sauron reveals that galadriel knew who he was/that he and galadriel have History..... oh the deliciousness of this idea. saurondriel hashing out all their personal issues meanwhile elrond is just like (to a gil-galad who isn't there) Are you seeing this shit my king???????? because what do you even say when you find out your bestie has been sharing dreams sharing a bed sortof with Satan for like. at least two months now

#saurondriel #haladriel #listen .

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The Mothers’ next album is a big one, and their last as a going band. FZ wanted the band to make a movie called Uncle Meat, and they spent a long time on the film and its soundtrack. By the time the album came out, Zappa knew he wouldn’t be finishing the movie—the liner notes call this album a soundtrack to a film you’ll probably never see. A sortof version of the Uncle Meat film was finally released in the ‘80s, but I have not heard good things. It was cobbled together from the original video shot by the Mothers in the late ‘60s and new material from the ‘80s, and does not cohere into a vision of what the original might have looked like if finished. That’s what I’ve heard—I’ve never attempted to watch it. 200 Motels was bad enough, and he finished that one. Zappa is one of my favorite composers of all time, and a lousy storyteller (I feel this way about his rock operas too).

In keeping with this dichotomy, this “soundtrack” is one of Zappa’s greatest achievements. It can be a bit of a mess—you can hear the stresses forming that will soon cause Zappa to dissolve the Mothers entirely. The most obvious sign is the skit “If We’d All Been Living in California,” which is just a candid recording of Jimmy Carl Black arguing with FZ about not making any money. It’s actually fairly painful to listen to. But this album is the furthest out into jazz/classical fusion that the original Mothers will venture. The title track and Dog Breath have long afterlives as live showpieces for just about every subsequent Zappa band, there’s some warped, surrealist doo wop that could never have been on Ruben & the Jets, and all of side 4 is devoted to King Kong, one of Zappa’s finest compositions to date.

After this album, Zappa called a meeting and abruptly, unilaterally dissolved the Mothers of Invention. The rest of the band were furious—they thought of it as a BAND, but FZ thought of them as his employees. He thought that touring with so many musicians was becoming too costly, especially since a number of them couldn’t play his compositions to his satisfaction: he’d augmented Jimmy Carl Black with the much more technically proficient Art Tripp on drums, for instance, and figured it would be better if he could just start over with the right musicians rather than having to drag along the guys he’d started with. It was cold, heartless logic, very in keeping with Zappa’s character. The band was right to be angry, but though he could have handled it better (and maybe NOT claimed sole composer credit for pieces entirely improvised by other members of the band, for instance), Zappa was right that it was time for him to move on. The original Mothers represent a great era, but he was composing music far beyond their greasy, home-brewed R&B roots.

If you stream Uncle Meat or get the CD, make sure to skip the penalty tracks. There are three “bonus tracks,” bizarrely placed between sides 3 and 4, that come from the ‘80s movie and are nigh-unlistenable. For years I ignored disc 2 entirely because of them, meaning I missed out on King Kong!

My copy of the vinyl is the modern re-issue. I bought it before I had succeeded in finding many FZ records on original vinyl—Michael Bremer praised the sound quality of the pressing, and that was enough for me. Still is, since I haven’t replaced it. Still, I’d like to get a copy with the Bizarre labels, since this was the first album issued with them. Zappa left Verve after Mothermania and got a distribution deal with Reprise to run Bizarre as a full label. In this era he also put out a slew of releases by other artists on Bizarre and its sister label Straight, most notably his high school friend Captain Beefheart and the early works of Alice Cooper.

#frank zappa #vinyl

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starr-fall-knight-rise · 4 years

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Humans Are Space Orcs, “Black Hole.”

I was walking, I tended to do that when I had to think, and today was a thinking kind of day. I’m not exactly a thinking kind of guy if I am being honest. Most of the time the inside of my head is a wasteland of song lyrics, movie clips, and microwave noises, but right now I had to try and figure some things out.

First and foremost I had been thinking about the spiderlings a lot lately. It hurt e all over to think the things I was thinking now, but it had to be done.

The spiderlings, when it came right down to it, were just kids like toddlers. They were still learning how to interact with people, they were still growing up, and admittedly, I wasn’t doing a very good job at parenting. First and foremost, however, was the fact that they shouldn’t even be on the ship in the first place. Children weren’t allowed on UNSC ships unless there was rescue mission going on, or they were being transported for some reason.

No one else on the ship would be allowed to take their kids with them, so why should I. It sort of wasn’t fair if you thought on it for a little bit.

Number two, it wasn’t exactly fair to the spiderlings either. They needed some sort of education if they wanted to live in this universe as it was, and right now I didn’t have time to sit them down and teach them anything. I honestly couldn’t really do anything for them at all know that I thought about it. I was horrible at discipline and even worse at teaching them the things they should know.

They needed a preschool or something where they could learn how to read and write, though I had no real idea where to do that.

I had been thinking about this a lot lately based on some of the things I had come to realize while I was gone on leave, the number one being that I took too much on my shoulders. N o one here except for me was expected to father and run a ship at the same time.

If anything I was doing the spiderlings a disservice by keeping them here.

It hurt me to say all of that because the aggressive controlling part of me doesn’t want to admit that I can’t do all of it all by myself.

But I can’t.

However, I do know someone who potentially could if she was going to do what she said she was going to do.

A part of my, however, didn’t want to contact Eris.

We hardly knew each other and to ask for favors would be a bit much. Arguably the adaptids were older than she was, meaning that choosing her to help me in this endeavour wasn’t fair to her either, but who else was I going to get to take care of them.

One thing is for sure, they needed a lot of things that I just couldn’t provide, and that meant I was going to ave to let go.

Made me sick to my stomach but there you had it.

I admired it.

I Can’t do it.

I turned the corner onto the bridge my mind made up. I would have to Call Eris when we were out of warp and see if she would take another couple of hybrids.

I made myself feel a little better by promising I would call and visit as often as I could, though it hurt me to think how the spiderlings might respond to me just up and leaving them.

I tried to remind myself that I wasn’t up and leaving them, I was doing what any other father in the UNSC would have to do and that was find them a place to stay and learn and grow and all of those other things, but a part of me still felt horrible.

To take my mind off of that decision, I turned my head towards one of the bridge crew members, “Grab a tablet and follow me.”

They did as told, bot up and followed.

It honestly still surprises me when people follow my orders. Like I expect to have to explain or justify my reasoning to them, but instead they sort of just get up and walk over like that was supposed to be how it worked.

I wasn’t totally convinced.

I motioned them to follow and together we walked down the hall.

I took my first stop in the medical bay where Krill and Katie working quietly to deep clean the med bay while there were no patients to work on.

Krill looked up and his antennae buzzed slightly when he saw me. A frown crossed his face as he looked me over, expecting some sort of injury. I have him a smile and almost winked but then remembered that when you have one eye winking just looks like blinking.

Katie straightened up, “Good morning Commander.” She said with a wide smile.”

That would always surprise me to, when your friends call you by a title.

“Morning Doctor.” I responded in kind walking over with my assistant at my heels.

Krill seemed to relax, “how may we help you this morning, commander.”

I took a seat on the edge of one of the beds and bounced my foot up and down a bit as i thought, “I was just thinking about the ship and how it’s run.”

They looked at each other.

I held up a hand, “Don’t worry it’s nothing like that. I just realized the other day that I don’t really know how things work on my own ship despite trying to control everything all the time, so I am going to go around to all of the departments get and idea of how they work, and what they do, and how they might need my help if anything.” I motioned back towards my assistant, “Lt. McKinnon is going to take notes for me, and then later on I am going to meet with the Jedi council, and we are going to decide how best to delegate and meet the needs of the ship more effectively.”

Katie raised an eyebrow, “The Jedi council?”

“Yeah, that’s what I am calling it, and you can’t make me decide otherwise.”

She rolled her eyes but smiled and I smiled back.

If they thought my idea was dumb, they at least humored me.

As far as my involvement, there really was none, though I had to make sure that everyone was up to date on their medical evals and vaccinations, which was probably a job I could delegate to someone else, or at least give Katie and Krill the power to do, so I would have to look into that later.

I stood from there and together me and my assistant moved to the other departments before slowly coming around to the rec hall where I knew I might find a particular grou pf of people.

Cannon was there as I expected he would be playing pool with a group of other Drev.

Cannon was a good shot while the others were a couple seconds away from poking each other in the eye with the cues, but they were laughing and talking rapid fire in drev, fast eough that I was having trouble understanding just exactly what they were saying.

Cannon leaned over the table and took a shot sending one of the balls into a corner pocket with a satisfying clatter.

The other Drev groaned and he raised his fist in triumph.

I approached once Cannon won the game, and the big guy saw me coming raising the pool cue in greeting like he might raise a spear. The other Drev did the same

“Zhad tsak Hajee lasan jirhaat.”

I raised my hand and returned the greeting.

May your spear be sharp or something similar.

I kept the conversation mostly in Drev for the sake of the clan, “Cannon how are you this morning?”

He lifted his head to me, “Won seven duels and tested some of Chalan’s new weapons.”

I smiled, “Ben busy than I see.”

“I always try to keep it that way.”

Cannon was the defacto clan leader. Technically it was either sunny or I, but Sunny wasn’t reall the clan leading type and I had everything else to run so that gave Cannon most command over the Drev, which is why I was here.

“Just coming in to make sure you guys have everything you need and see if there is anything that you guys need done. Cannon obviouly you are on the jedi council, so you’ll figure this out later, but I want to make sure eveyrthing is running smoothly. Is there anything your clan needs to discuss.”

Cannon tapped his fingers agaisnt his carapace beore pulling me aside by the arm.

“Tatazan is…. Pregnant so, what should I do about that?”

A ton of bricks for Commander Adam Vir.

I blinked blindsides by that afformentioned rockslide, “I uh…. Hmm that is complicated.”

I turned to look at the floor. I suppose it should ahve occured to me that when we took on an entire Drev clan that we were also taking on mated pares. Now the UNSC guidelines about being in relationships didn’t cover the Drev considering that their battle partners were always thir significant other so hiring a Drev would be impossible if the rule was followed.

But I had failed to recognize the ‘mated’ part of a mated pair.

“Well shit.” I muttered

“This isn’t exactly ideal.”

Cannon nodded, “I think it might be best if the child is raised off the ship on Anin.”

“I tend to agree with you there.” I leaned in a bit, “I have been thinking about the same things for the spiderlings.”

He nodded knowingly.

“A ship is no place to grow up.”

I agreed no matter how much child me would have disagreed.

“We can discuss that in meeting tonight, though as clan leader you have the most say in this.”

He nodded his large head, “Where is my sister?” He wondered looking around for where she might be.

“I sent her off to play with making new weapons.”

“Sent her off?” Cannon chuckled in amusement

“Yeah, I think she worries about leaving me on my own, like I am going to set something on fire or something.”

“Have you set anything on fire/” He wondered wryly.

I smirked, “No but I’ve been thinking.”

“For you, that is actually worse than setting things on fire.”

The two of us laughed and I patted him on the arm as I returned him to the pool table and a second round of him kicking everyone’s ass.

Cannon was a good clan leader and had thrown himself into the work wholeheartedly. They respected him, and he got along with them. Not a day went by that you didn’t see him leading the Drev in some new sort of activity to broaden their horizons. I sortof wished Sunny would join them more often. I think it would be good for her to speak her own language and have friends er own species, but I get why she tended to distance herself.

These Drev were from the same clan that mistreated her entire life, and memories lie that were difficult to forgive at times. Still, they had to be better than me, and I worried about her.

Sure spending her time being beautiful and nobley aloof all the time gave her an heir of…. Hmmm how shall I say…. Excitement and intrigue, but still…. I wanted her to be happy.

And as much as the greedy part of me wanted my friend all to myself I recognized that probably wasn’t a good thing.

I’d talk to her later about it I decided.

“Commander Vir to the bridge, commander Vir to the bridge.”

I motioned my note taker to follow, and we hurried back to the bridge taking our seats. The captain’s chair was familiar at this point, but I still couldn’t shake off that tiny moment of thrill as I sat down.

“Report.”

“Warp ends in five minutes, commander.”

My heart pounded nervously in my chest. This was it, this was the big moment scientists had been waiting for forever. A real live real time picture of a black hole. Now it was important to keep away from the edge or risk time dilation, spegetiffication, and instant death.

The kid in me was about to pee himself in excitement, but the Commander in me was intent on not letting everyone die.

I picked up the com on the rest of the ship inviting them to prepare for warp exit, and then told them to get their asses up to the observation deck to see something awesome.

When I put the mic down I was back in commander mode ordering the crew to ready themselves for this moment.

My eyes were fixed straight ahead.

This was going to be insane.

If we came out of this wrong, we could be caught in the event horizon and be….

Goners.

“Exiting warp in ten.”

I prepared to take manual control of the ship breath held trying not to imagine what would happen if we appeared at the edge of the event horizon sailing on a dust cloud of light as we plunged towards our death, a black pit of nothingness.

“One”

The warp drie disengaged, and we jolted violently as the air warped around us.

I slammed back in my seat taking immediate control of the ship waiting for any warning bells to go off signaling extreme gravity,

I took a relieved sigh when there was none and lifted my head to the viewing window.

‘“Ho-ly shit.” I muttered

The rest of the crew gasped.

It was…. Well it was wow.

IIf you guys have ever seen interstellar, I would go so far as to say that was pretty accurate.

From this distance the thing didn’t look so big, but the very marrow of my bones knew what it meant. The massive disk of light and dust that surrounded it slowly spiraling inward towards a pit of nothingness.

The halo ring of light that surrounded it glowed upward as unbelievable gravity refracted the back of the black hole towards the front.

It was like a dark eye in the middle of space staring outward at us unblinkingly as it lurked in the darkness...

This

Was the center

Of the Milky Way.

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mogai-transmed · 3 years

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Hello everyone!

This is our mogai exploration and positivity blog: Mogai-Transmed. For those confused about how a transmed can be into mogai, allow me to explain!

I'm Edward, the host of a DID system and a transmed looking to expand my knowledge of mogai identities and explore my own identity along the way!

To me being a transmed means that-- yes I think if you're trans you have dysphoria-- but the dysphoria debate doesn't matter to me as much anymore. I define incongruence and euphoria as types of gender dysphoria so I don't think anyone's faking or something dumb like that.

Being a transmedicalist to me also means I firmly believe in insurance covering the costs of medical transition for anyone who wants to go that path, and that the scientific community should look into how dysphoria works more to help push the trans community further on into understanding.

But don't worry about all that! This isn't about spreading my beliefs this is about being honest about my identity. I only named myself this way so people who aren't comfortable with transmed interaction can block me right away, and to bring the trans community into a new place where transmeds and mogai people can coexist.

Our discourse blog is @threefools-inatrenchcoat, there will be no discourse here aside from me answering questions about what being a transmed means to me. No arguments.

If you need to block me, please go ahead, I try to interact with people who don't have dnis with transmeds on them but sometimes I make mistakes!

But please don't leave hate. I have rsd (rejection sensitive dysphoria). Just block me and move on.

On this blog I'm also joined by Jamie, my cohost and mogai expert. They sortof introduced me to mogai more or less and have a blog of their own @jamie-babey. I'm sure they'll make their own introduction eventually

And lastly! Please DNI if you're:

Anti mogai

Anti neopronouns

Terf

Trump supporter

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Discourse blog (some discourse posts are fine just not fully discourse blogs)

Going to,,, harrass me for being a transmed,,

Hate people for their Special Interests (yes this includes "controversial media" like Hetalia, South Park, Rick and Morty, Hazbin Hotel, and so on)

Thank you for reading! Hope you have a nice day!

#intro #mogai safe #mogai #mogai post #mogai friendly #new blog hours

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whipped-stream · 3 years

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I watched: The Night Manager

I find spy stuff a bit difficult really. It’s so smug - long, indulgently complicated stories chock-full of smart men in smart suits drinking man-drinks like whisky or martinis, surveilling each other out of the corners of their eyes, skulking around the charming alleyways of some architecturally opulent urban space. No one is ever insecure in a spy story; no one ever has a moment where they’re at a loss for words; no one ever has acne or eats a burger or even drinks a latte, because the only coffee appropriate for a spy story has to be something tight and elegant like an espresso. Oh, and very few people in these stories are ever female, fat (unless they’re evil) or gay (unless they’re evil).

Of course, this is all completely endemic to the genre. Asking for a spy thriller without these qualities would be like asking for a Judd Apatow comedy without a bunch of scruffy beardy blokes. But like - it’s 2021 now, and you’d think we would be gradually nearing the point where we were ready to retire all the tiresome, difficult stuff about the genre and do something new and interesting with it. Alas, The Night Manager has proved to me that we are nowhere near this possible future.

Don’t get me wrong, this is an enjoyable, easy show if you don’t think about it too much. It’s polished, gorgeous to look at and the basic plot revolving around illegal arms trading in the Middle East is absorbing, albeit a little toothless (for all the action and violence in the Middle East scenes we never really engage on any level with the human impact of this nefarious trade, besides one anecdote which never really lands). Tom Hiddleston and Hugh Laurie are both, predictably, also amazing in this show. Tom Hiddleston is perfect as a hotel manager; his earnest, twinkly-eyed politeness fits perfectly in the luxury hotels his character glides through, just as his luxury suits and luxury face suit the luxury décor. Then, as a secret services mole amongst gangsters, he is perfect again, charming everyone into smitten trust with a gleaming smile as they fall into the glacier-blue lagoons of his eyes, barely noticing him surreptitiously gathering all their secrets.

Hugh Laurie is as charismatic and sinister as a cartoon devil and makes for a terrific villain, fiercely dedicated to chewing the scenery at every opportunity. It is unclear to me why they chose to give him a sortof shabby Friar Tuck haircut for the role, but perhaps he is doing a Harrison Ford and just exerting his Great Actor Famepower to refuse to undergo any kind of personal grooming before a scene.

But yeah. Every time I was enjoying it, the dang show did something to ruin it. Firstly it was the ‘Bond women’. Sure, stunningly beautiful and sexually inviting women are a staple of this genre, and this show tries its best to show good faith by making sure that the stunningly beautiful and sexually inviting women in this instance have some kind of personality and plot relevance. It’s a pathetic effort at best. The first gorgeous woman chivvies the plot along for all of two minutes before flinging her fabulous self at Tom Hiddlestone and being a charming bedfellow just long enough for him to be distraught when he discovers her moments later in a pool of her own blood. Ahh, yes, a classic Woman in Refrigerator - gosh, I haven’t seen one of those employed with such efficiency in quite some time. Despite barely knowing her, Tom Hiddlestone is so devastated that he moves into some kind of massive concrete bunker right at the top of a Swiss Alpine mountain (what IS that house, dude!?!? Do you live in a weather monitoring facility?) and eventually agrees to become an agent for the secret services - which of course presents even more opportunities for some top totty.

The other stunningly beautiful woman in this show is in a relationship with the baddie played by Hugh Laurie, even though the two of them don’t so much have an age gap as an age chasm. She is called ‘Jed’, and she truly is only here for the camera to make long, indulgent pans up her svelte legs and delicate back. The show leaps at any opportunity to show a bit of her boob and at one point she fully disrobes and walks slowly and teasingly into the sea, pointing her arse right at Tom Hiddlestone, in order to make a point about living a carefree life. All the personal details about this woman are arbitrary - she has a kid that she never gets to see, I guess, and like she’s kind of suspicious of her boyfriend the arms dealer or whatever, but the show refuses to waste any time giving these story points any more than a cursory glance. Jed is a hollow, objectified character whose clothes fall off at the slightest jostle.

And then there’s the other thing. The torture thing. What is up with these spy shows? And how the only thing they love more than sexy women is the spectacle of sexy women being battered, tortured and lying dead in revealing poses? Just like her predecessor, poor Jed barely gets to do anything interesting or even proactive before she is ‘found out’ and we have to endure a really queasy scene where she’s being beaten up and repeatedly almost-drowned for her treachery. As her sore, blue-purple face is thrust over and over again into the brimming bathtub and she thrashes for air, her naked breast dangles out of her top in a tactless mush of raunchy objectification and vicarious misogyny. It’s one of the most troubling things I have witnessed on telly in a good while.

Okay - there is one other woman in this show. Olivia Coleman plays the head of this secret service operation, and she is written as a fierce, ambitious agent who knows exactly what she’s doing. Oh, and she’s pregnant, so I guess we’re doing Fargo too, a bit? For the entirety of the programme, which seems to span several months, she appears to be at the end of her third trimester. No one ever asks her when she’ll be going on maternity leave and who will take over this spy operation when that happens. As part of the final showdown, she travels to the Middle East, stalks around a hotel filled with murderous gangsters, shoots people in the knee and hides from even more murderous gangsters WHILE SEEMINGLY MOMENTS AWAY FROM HER FIRST CONTRACTION.

Essentially this woman’s pregnancy is a decorative character quirk, like having an eyepatch or an eccentric moustache. The story doesn’t let the character engage with her pregnancy in any human sense: and sure, the logistics of being pregnant is not exactly thrilling espionage content, but then why bother doing it at all? Leave her unpregged, and let her run around with guns to her heart’s content, or do it properly, and engage with interesting ideas of how we see and define modern motherhood; how we see pregnant women as vulnerable and in need of protection rather than being the protectors; how a woman’s career clashes and harmonises with her biological fate to be the child-bearer. Fargo did all that stuff effortlessly. Watch Fargo. The film, not the telly programme.

I also feel that it’s worth pointing out that this character was a man in the book, which makes it pretty clear that she was the hail-mary gesture to preempt any complaints that the only female main characters are bland eye-candy.

I have one last complaint. Remember that thing I said at the beginning about how the only gay characters allowed in this genre have to be evil? Well yeah, stamp that one on your bingo card too. I cannot believe that we are at a point in society where we can generate edible meat in a lab and yet the most frequent gay characters we see in mainstream TV are still either camp BFFs or acid-tongued villains. Tom Hollander is a completely wonderful actor and I urge you to watch basically anything else he has done besides this. There is no need for this character, Hugh Laurie’s snide and suspicious right-hand man, to be a creepy, predatory homosexual man. He is preposterous - constantly leering at Tom Hiddlestone and making blunt innuendos or just full-on grabbing Tom Hiddlestone’s giblets. A clear conflation is being made: this man is a threat, and the threat he poses to Tom Hiddlestone’s mission is mirrored by the threat he poses to Hiddlestone’s hetero-masculinity, his sexual autonomy. It feels like this character is a charicature of how homophobes see all gay men: malevolent and sexually rapacious, on a mission to assault, harass and render uncomfortable all hetero men who are just minding their own business.

I truly don’t understand this show - how they made such an effort to shoehorn so much deeply troubling messaging into a story which needed none of these things. The bare bones of the spy story is solid and it could have been turned out in so many different ways, but this was what they chose. It all feels so retrograde, so unnecessary. This is the kind of thing that Netflix would not have toyed with - whatever you feel about that streaming platform, they create stories with real, three-dimensional women and all kinds of diverse characters from the LGBTQ+ scene and beyond. Amazon Prime still needs to work on getting woke. But I guess we shouldn’t expect too much from the platform that snapped up Jeremy Clarkson.

The Night Manager, available on Amazon Prime

#the night manager #inclusive feminism #rant #review #misogyny #homophobia

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blaster-aichi · 4 years

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Cardfight!! Vanguard Extra Story IF 20 things

changing up the formula for the week

12 seconds in and we’re threatening murder, a new record.

What did we do to deserve Miwa and what did he do to deserve the treatment he gets from the writers?

When there are only bits and pieces of his original memories coming through, having the most nightmarish moment be one of them, one could only imagine how unsettling it is for one poor ultra-soft boy. And if it might cause him to sympathize with Aichi’s belief in brief moments, from undeniable proof that engaging in Vanguard has hurt a number of people around them.

Weekly yearning for the relationship between Outside World and IF World to get an explanation rises.

IF continuing with the softest Kai-kun faces, cause of death determined. That is all.

The fact that Morikawa’s dismissal serves towards the plot is startling, but at the same time, in-universe, it’s still baffling why he was chosen as opposed to anyone else. Perhaps because of his role in Aichi’s actively playing the game? But otherwise, drawing a blank.

There is a lot to say about the Kourin/Miwa scene, see below.

Semi-sortof-half-right about the Miwa/Takuto collusion but also see below.

Weekly yearning for the relationship between Outside World and IF World to get an explanation intensifies.

The Dinner Table Scene. Rena.exe has stopped working. See below, I flip the table.

This is the most adorable thing ever and boys, PLEASE.

Miwa picks up the mantle of roasting characters, the KaiMiwa is strong.

Pot. Kettle. Mirror. Bitch?

The choice to have Dragonic Overlord’s Deletion visually mirror its occurrence during the cardfight-based season is a strong choice; due to its haunting Kai-kun since it penetrated the IF illusion, and his facing Ibuki without letting any distress showing, in spit of what he’s seen, it demonstrates just the strength of his character and builds on his being able to take the punches and roll with them thus far.

Everyday, I relate to Kai Toshiki even more.

Very much appreciate Emi chiming in where Ibuki is concerned because though the emphasis is on his relationships with Kai-kun, Miwa and Suiko, their time understanding one another in episode 7 remains a personal favourite thing from the season.

Suiko’s intervention to protect Emi and Shuka; yes, yes, yes! Best big sister doing her thing.

Along the same line of thought; Miwa taking the bullet to save Kai-kun feels a natural conclusion to his role within IF, but also playing upon how he stressed Kai-kun’s happiness was his priority in his cardfight with Neve. His strongest trait through the franchise has been his dedication to his best friend, no matter the cost to himself, and seeing that occur in the literal sense feels as though it was always a case of when, not if. Although with the likely remaining time left in the season and its focus, there won’t be a spotlight shone on it again or for Kai-kun to really convey his feelings about it, it was nice to see and think about through the day after.

Episode 102: the KaiMiwa edition.

All Hail the Overlords and their Realizing.

Kai-kun takes back his other part-time job of literally roasting people with Miwa gone.

Though it’s likely down to how he was recruited into the Sanctuary Knights (and his past being repaired erasing the entire ordeal from his perspective), Ibuki’s lost memories of joining them begs the question of the fate of everyone’s memories once the timeline is fully restored, given it hasn’t been made clear if there are two different versions of characters that exist or their Outside World selves pulled inside and overwritten to fit IF’s continuity. Cases such as Emi, Aichi and Kourin in particular, seeing as Naoki, Shingo and Miwa have thus far retained their memories of IF despite returning Outside.

Not entirely sure why Kourin is so aggravated by the Sanctuary Knights’ numbers thinning when Naoki, Shingo and Miwa felt much more like nuisances to her and it means she’s alone on Aichi’s side. But okay, play cosmic fuckery with your sisters.

IF 21 preview

Rekka sighted. Hopes raised for her re-entering the story properly raised. Hopes realized when the preview caps from Bushi’s Twitter confirm as much

The season that continues its joke of memeing anime deaths.

With the perspective of Kourin’s weekly nightmarish face and the typical use of the angle, eager to see the girls getting the upper-hand over her, as it dawned on me that Naoki and Shingo had weekly stints being the main antagonistic force but Kourin, in essence, is on four and counting. And with the jarring fact that Aichi’s just sitting back, possibly oblivious, possibly not?

The unidentified Sanctuary Knight in the preview had gotten hopes up that Misaki was finally entering the fray but the aforementioned tweet popped that like a Genshin Impact Anemo slime. Rude.

the four breakdowns (for comical effect, it was one Wild call)

Takuto: From what’s been shown of Takuto, one could summise that he’s unable to leave Sanctuary by some force Aichi (or Kourin, with or without using Aichi to do it) has imposed on him, but considering his position, his personality doesn’t quite fit. With the gravity of the situation, particularly when he had pinpointed Aichi as the strongest Psyqualia fighter and (Destiny Conductor) personally input extra restraints to keep him under control, with him being the enemy, it's puzzling how Takuto is so lax. Even more in that he didn’t use Miwa as a means of passing on any message to the other Tatsunagis. While he couldn’t be expected to know Ren and Rekka were dispatched specifically to find him, one would imagine it was natural there would be someone coming and he may have been able to offer anything from within Sanctuary and its populous. But apparently not.

Kourin: To be honest, the way in which Kourin is being handled rubs me the wrong way, and in a different way from Legion Mate (if anything, its the very opposite problem to then in some regards). It appears to be a sentiment spreading among viewers, at least from what have been able to discern. But in regards to this episode alone, she’s proven herself atrocious at her job. Why wander around a public school in her Sanctuary Knight uniform? Why alert Miwa to her being outside the door? Why divulge essentially her entire job description when all he said was her name? Why are you hovering in a public school? Also has no room to talk about Suiko and Ibuki with how she is around Aichi, let alone around the other Sanctuary Knights and playing bodyguard between the two. It feels with each week she becoming even more territorial and possessive of Aichi.

The Dinner Table Scene: This was initially what really stood out as jarring. The scene feels out of place in many regards; from Aichi’s behaviour to its serving no purpose (not when Takuto’s very last line right before it already established they’re two peas in a pod). If anything, it strikes as antithetical to IF Aichi until this point; it’s possible to excuse his lack of reacting to Naoki’s removal from the scene in 18 as being kept in the dark to keep him from struggling to process the news, but with the time that’s passed and losing two others, there’s no way in hell he isn’t aware. Yet he isn’t fazed, not even when Vanguard has essentially ripped away people from him and played right into his beliefs. The choice of setting is peculiar; was it just for the gag of Ibuki having a biscuit for a meal? (does Kourin get groceries in her uniform too?) To be truthful, it feels like the two could have met elsewhere in the castle — the throne room, Aichi’s quarters, a corridor where the city could be seen through a window with Ibuki’s back to it (or it behind Aichi so Ibuki could watchthe view past him) — whether Kourin was involved or not, but additionally, Aichi’s acceptance of Ibuki (and in spite of their past and the Deletion, which hazard a guess he remembers in full) simply doesn’t feel coherent. With how vicious they were to one another, even with the dust settling and them both moving on plus Ibuki’s role in IF thus far, wouldn’t it make sense that there would be some tension between them? The scene as a whole encapsulated some of the concerns that had at points during the season, though it’s redeemed itself with some. But where Aichi is concerned, I worry greatly it’s much like Legion Mate where it feels they don’t know what to do with him and are putting off him making a move personally until the end, drawing out Kourin and the new element of fuckery with characters’ pasts. Don’t want to get down on this season, it’s got its highs and lows like any other, but the episode in particular was concerning and this scene was the pinnacle of those feelings. It could sweep those worries aside with a great episode (for like the fourth time because it keeps coming back strong when alarm bells ring).

The Pacing: Courtney initially mentioned the episode feeling rushed and when sitting down and thinking it over, have to say that agree. Assuming IF is running a tight schedule with OverDress around the corner, it probably wouldn’t have had the time, but it may have benefitted from the episode being drawn across two. It would have allowed time for Kai-kun and Suiko to try and grapple with Ibuki turning coat, as well as draw out the tension of his being on the enemy’s side, the rapid resolution takes away the threat that has been made to Suiko in her own predicament, and Miwa could have been allowed more time to fully flesh out his actions thus far, as well as anything else that his meeting with Takuto could have provided. Though we’re all well familiar with him, there could have been more glmpses into the unique friendship he has with IF Kai-kun and how it might have contrasted their Outside World’s selves’.

Probably debunked super-fast again but will dream:

Misaki’s absence due to her being Aichi’s Sanctuary Knight secret weapon:

Stemmed from the glimpse of the Sanctuary Knight in the preview and the hype that it might have been Misaki’s re-introduction to the story, given her disappearance since epi 8, even when Kamui returned and Shin filled in her gimmick at Card Capital in epi 16. With the emphasis on Miyaji in Reboot, her lack of presence has been particularly strange, with not so much as a passing mention other than her appearance in the ED. Judging by Kourin and Aichi alone appearing in the preview, it feels safe to say she, Naoki and Shingo won’t be a part of the illusion being forced upon Suiko, prolonging this. Maybe Izumi is simply busy with other work and reading too much into it, but dreamt up a theory for the heck of it.

Whether to recruit the Miyaji Cardfight Club as a whole or in response to identifying Kourin’s apparent independent agenda, Aichi brought Misaki aboard, keeping her a secret from even Kourin and the other Sanctuary Knights. With Kourin overstepping her boundaries and their numbers withering, Aichi’s patience runs out and Misaki is revealed, usurping Kourin’s place by Aichi’s side and delivering a devastating blow to her, who has been fiercely loyal to him but recognizes how far gone he has been driven. Misaki’s appearance is coupled with her verbally tearing into Kourin and dealing her comeuppance (which honestly, she really deserves and has for some time now), Aichi may or may not be there so that the sight of himself and Misaki continuing on without her twists the knife.

It would also echo the interactions between the Psyqualia Zombie Aichi and Misaki, with Kourin watching on helplessly with Naoki and Shingo. Just thought it’d be a neat call-back.

#Cardfight!! Vanguard #Cardfight!! Vanguard IF #cfv spoilers #long post

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theorynexus · 4 years

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115: Mystery Fireball Dame?

I am yet again reminded of the fact that Jade always seems to be more effected by other versions of herself than other characters. Is this a Space thing? I don’t remember this happening with Kanaya, so it would seem not to be certain that that is the case (though Calliope and Alt!Calliope do have profound impacts on one another). Very curious, indeed, regardless.

Oh no! Getting nasty bits of glass sharp stuff on your hands is never a good thing. At least she didn’t rub her eye, though~

Hmm. Is reviving this dead Jade really a good idea? It never seems to be really workable to have two living copies of the same character around at the same time. Even the shards of Dirk seem to experience calamity after some degree of delay, due to the DOOMiness of double existence. Regardless, we press on:

Interesting distinction. Obviously, this seems to be a result of Jade interfering with the way their situation would have developed over time, otherwise; however, I do wonder if this is a destructive/bad thing, insofar as they might ease into being together more naturally with less pressure on one another than Dirk was putting on them. (Yeah, it probably is anyway. Jade seems like a romantic bad luck charm, at this point; or rather, her pushiness seems like it’s going to naturally lead to some sort of falling out that will hurt the relationships between all three of them. Maybe I’m just being overly pessimistic, though.)

Paranoia about being thought of as being a necrophiliac, huh? Curious. (Also: Heh. “Gossip sins.”) Wonder what Jake’s smiling about. Is it just a facade, or is he sincerely glad to see them and have their visit break up awkwardness that was happening over there?

I really appreciate this excellent description of the wealth, here. It makes for an interesting contrast to the less elegant one given to Jake’s mansion~

This is so very beautiful. I wonder why everyone else is gathered here. Were they already intending on heading over, or were they just close enough to arrive easily [and/or together], perhaps via one of the windows Roxy seems to love, and happened to be told about the corpse as Jade+Dave+Karkat were on the way? (Awww. Little Vriska is coming along splendidly, by the way. <3)

Weird hors d'oeuvres for a picnic. Does “the girls” include Jake, by the way? ( ***resists the urge to make some speciesist joke about blood not ruining the Pizza for Karkat, anyway*** [Which wouldn’t be true, if the reaction he seems to be having otherwise is indicative of anything~] )

I mean, is small talk really all that bad when the alternative is talking about an awkward-random dead girl they have no clue about? Yes, it probably is. It’s just a really, really awkward situation in general.

Space tier, huh? Also: Haaah. Truly, that timing-related optimism is just crystalized Dave.

+ “irritated.” Why were they remaining downstairs in the first place? Hah. True to form for any Vriska, apparently. ... Oh gosh, I have the sudden premonition that Jane’s going to be like another Vriska in Tavros’s life, being overbearing and always trying to push him to excellence, despite him probably ending up having a similar mentality to the original Tavros and just wanting to relax/take things at his own pace, for ironic reasons. Ahhh, that is not a good thought.

***shrieks*** WHAT?! Is-- Is Gamzee actually married to her?! (To be fair, vacillation is a thing. If this relationship is working out anywhere near how a traditional troll romance ought, then Jake should potentially fill that roll at least some of the time. Not that it’s likely to be good for his mental health. Troll-human romances sure are complicated, right? [Man, this doesn’t paint a promising picture for any potential OC shippers out there. Makes it seem like interspecies romance is sortof DOOMed to fail--- or at least to be very awkward~])

Wow, I can’t believe Gamzee is saying something as sensible as this. Anyway, have to go. Sadly, can’t analyze that right now.

#Candy Epilogue #Jade Harley #Homestuck Liveblog #Interspecies Romance #Awkwardness

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"Seriously though, why d'ya fight if everyone's gotta come running over 'ta rescue ya?"

Inoue paused for a moment when she heard that question. She was a bit surprised to hear it after all. How long had it been since she’d first met Hiyori? Back then....she had actually had such thoughts. It was a bit odd though. She had always assumed that since Hiyori had never spoken up that such things didn’t matter to her, or she didn’t harbor such thoughts.

“I....suppose that I always did feel a little nervous about being invovled. And to be honest... after the time we invaded soul society....when Uryu gave so much to protect me. I sortof wondered that too.” She mumbled, rubbing her wrist.

“At the time, I went to Rukia. And....I was sortof giving up. But she insisted on training me. At the time....I guess I just sortof went along with it for her. I didn’t want her to worry. Or think that I was giving up. So I guess.... I wasn’t really giving it my all. I was working as hard as I could....but....I don’t know if my heart and soul were in it. Maybe that’s why I wasn’t strong enough. Even though I’d planned on staying out of the way. Trouble found me anyway. And I.....felt terrible.” She smiled sheepishly, rubbing her own shoulder and hunching slightly, as though to make herself small as she seemed to bleed shame just from remembering her actions.

“I caused trouble for my friends. All over again. But.... when I was stuck there. As Ichigo and the others all rushed in. I was surprised when I felt the others. Uryu. Chad. Even Renji. Everyone who could, had come for me. And even though some of them never got very far. They still did their best.”

“Before I knew it. It was happening right in front of me. Ichigo, fighting like a madman. All.......all to save someone like me. I was so weak. I was so ....fragile. I didn’t understand how he could care so much about something so easily taken away from him. And....I couldn’t stand the pain I saw hum suffer. Before I knew it. I was protecting him. Even in a fight I had no business being in, I stepped in. And when he told me to back off. I listened to him. And he died. And I couldn’t save him. Because I wasn’t strong enough. If I had prepared for that war, maybe I could have. But I made him save himself. And it hurt him more deeply than I probably even know.”

She closed her eyes, and took a slow, deep breath.

“And that’s when I decided that I didn’t have the luxury not to be involved. I can’t afford to be weak.

Because....

I’m a horrible person.

I’ve done....nothing. From the day I was born, people had to protect me. I don’t know.... if it’s.......my personality. Or ....maybe just my looks. But ....no matter how much I told people I wasn’t worth it. To protect themselves. They threw so much of themselves away....just to save the tiniest parts of me that were in peril.

So..... it doesn’t matter if I choose to fight or not. People.....will rescue have to me either way. Whether I like it or not. But if I don’t go looking....preparing for that fight. If I don’t make myself as strong, and as useful as I possibly can. IF I can’t put my life on the line to save these beautiful, wonderful people, who are willing to lose everything for a terrible person like me. Then I could never live with myself. And I wouldn’t have the strength to undo the damage that I’ve done to them just by existing.”

#viciousvizard #[In Rejected Space - IC]#[Answered]

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