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llutik · 1 year
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The Hound had hacked handfuls of her hair off only two days past. He was an even worse barber than Yoren, and he’d left her half bald on one side. Robb won’t know me either, I bet. Or even Mother. She had been a little girl the last time she saw them, the day Lord Eddard Stark left Winterfell.
ASOS, Arya X
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pinkseas · 2 years
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wondering how c!karl would feel if he were to remember quackity. wondering about everything coming back in bits and pieces as he learns more and more about the inbetween and other side and how to split his time between them.
at first there’s unease and a vague sense of horror because why is he remembering such sweet, loving moments with his murderer? and then he’s angrier (more afraid) than ever before because things were good. he has such incredible memories with quackity and quackity still somehow turned around and killed him, what the fuck? but the more that come back the less certain he is of that. because all of them are good. there are so many, coming back piece by piece, and only the memory of his death stands out as something truly awful. he stops being mad that quackity would betray him like that and starts wondering why.
and then one day he remembers agreeing to it, remembers the plan. quackity murdering him slots seamlessly into place with the context behind it and it’s terrifying because it makes perfect sense. he can remember the terror associated with seeing quackity that day and his murder but he cant feel it anymore. of course quackity killed him. that was the plan. they all agreed on it. hell, quackity was the one who was most vocally against it happening.
it still doesnt add up. because if they were engaged and things were so good and quackity didnt betray him, why arent they together? why isnt quackity in kinoko? what drove them apart, what has he still forgotten? he remembers building kinoko. he remembers planning to invite sapnap and george and quackity. he remembers weeks and then months spent with only one half of his heart.
no matter how much time goes by, he does not remember inviting quackity to kinoko. the pit in his stomach grows, and grows, and grows.
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panspy · 17 days
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hmmmmmm.................vent post under tags...... feel free to give advice or dont¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#i think this is an autism related thing#but i genuinely feel like i wasnt made right for the world we live in#like something is just missing from me that ive never seen ppl talk about#and i know this is going to sound entitled and privileged and i KNOW i know i promise and im so lucky i can even be thinking about this but#it feels weird to have the privilege to be scared#this is specifically in regards to working#like having a job. like going to work#i feel like im missing an extremely important part of my brain or my BEING that is capable ot going through the motions of participating#in society. i never felt that switch of wanting to get a job in high school to make money for myself and get that experience#i feel like there's something i MISSED where everyone took a class on how to apply and go to interviews and write resumes and not be scared#like i NEED to be walked through every SINGLE step because i dont know HOW#and i see my peers and the literal entire world around me participating in this atmosphere and i dont know where to start#im fucking twenty three years old and ive only ever been an intern and an assistant#not even a full year of working#i cant drive and i probably wont ever because thats a whole other can of worms#and that means i have to rely on other people to even get to wherever it was i needed to go#i feel like a fucking child because im missing this knowledge that everyone else seems to have#ive tried i really have but none of it seems simple and its all so much and there arent steps to follow#i mean there ARE but its like 1) look up job 2) apply 3) interview 4) yay you're employed#and im talking about each micro step inbetween#what am i missing#and then theres the fucking demand avoidance that slaps me across the face whenever my mom brings it up to me like i KNOW youre being#supportive and encouraging and its not your fault my brain turns off and decides im full of shame bc i cant CONFRONT ANYTHING#jesus christ#manf i know u can see this maybe dont bring it up to mom i can do that on my own maybe#i WANT to help i just want to help at my own pace but unfortunately the world isnt built around individual paces and nothing revolves#around me. i know this#i want to help my mom i want her to never be stressed about money and to retire and never work or help me pay my student loans but i#genuinely feel like theres a switch that never turned on in my head and im being left behind and i genuinely dont know how to. like be alive
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wayward-wren · 10 days
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Going to be thinking about "I put you on a train" "I got off" for the next 2-5 working days ughguhg
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castrovulcant · 3 months
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Goodbye, Masquerade, I will remember you fondly.
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b4kuch1n · 4 months
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good luck w the testing and a happy early new year!!
thank you it's already happened when this was sent but we all did get one free point for the listening section bc the audio fucked up and we didn't get to hear the part with the last question's answer. but I will now think this is luck borrowed from the future when this ask was sent
#bakuspeech#ask#I tweeted a storm inbetween the written competencies (morning) and the speaking test (afternoon) lmao#but its on my wretched personal acc so it's for me. it's just for me#I dressed. and this is not me being unkind to myself. like a mister bean character to that test. like I got a woolen suit jacket on#with the dress shoes of mismatched laces. AND Ive been bald recently#honest to gods can Not tell how well I did in the written tests. like I finished all of them with at least ten minutes to spare#but it's because they kept putting a giant timer on the projector screen and it scared me so bad. delf trauma#the content of the test itself I straight up. dont know if its any good#the thing with me. that u can probably tell by idk looking at me and hearing me talk and stuff. is that I speak english but I am#VERY bad at tests#which makes any formalized english testing for me extremely fucking funny#and like it's supposed to be in the same structure as an ielts set of questions and apparently that means#they kept asking me to confirm or deny that the author of the text agrees with the statements they got in the questions#and I was sitting there like okay you made me read about weird phrenology shit and then you ask me this?? like are we asking#textual or contextual or. how deep into the rhetorics are we talking here. cause two of these three authors are certified weirdos#(yes the reading segment had three texts. one was about physiognomy and how there was definitely a grain of truth in there#one was about tea - this is the inconspicuous one - and the last one was about the potentials of toxinology#with a general vibe of pseudomedicine zeal to its writing. it's probs from a family magazine or something)#so straight up yeah I can defend my quiz answers to a judge but that does Not mean it's gonna be the one on the answer sheet yknow#kinda the same with the writing segment. where like they gave me an extremely easy to expand on subject and then a piece of paper#the length of a receipt. and that just. I could NOT parse the expectation of that setup#like I saw that and was like. so do you want me to do it badly? or do it so excellently I deliver all I think in like 100 words or less?#cause I'm capable of one of those things and the distinction is important here#and like. yes I know it's a language aptitude test. they're looking to know if I speak english#and I Have done something like this before multiple times just with a different language. but that was. idk I have never had a ladder here#I know I speak the language. YOU can probably tell I speak the language. would this test's result reflect that? I don't know!#it's a baffling experience. I'm still thinking about it the day after. tldr it's really not about the english for me it's about the testing#it's so. it's reflected so clear in the listening test where I missed an entire question (other than the one they gave us for free) bc#my brain just noped out of my body for three seconds and when I yanked it back the tape's already moved on
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nyssasorbit · 2 years
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Your Plucky Dreamwalker Partner Reveals What She Knows
It’s Detective Ava time! Doing the spacey background was a bit difficult to blend it in right tbh. (Also, unlike the other ones, I used a stock photo to help me with the icon/symbol, so don’t give me too much credit for it, lol)
idk if it’s noticeable, but Blake’s sword symbol is-ish in the rubik’s cube pattern~ (Since she’s his sister)
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writer-and-artist27 · 8 months
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Hi, idk if you're still taking questions, but I was wondering what inspired you to try tackling writing so many different servants with Passing Days? Most writers usually just stick to their specific favs that they want to write so PD sticks out as one where you write almost everyone!
Hi Anon. I'm still taking questions, so don't worry about it. The day I close my inbox is a far away thing.
What really inspired me in writing so many different Servants in Passing Days was the simple fact that my positive experiences in FGO ultimately originated from the team lineups I made with said Servants. How different combinations (even without meta farming built in) led to different experiences that were both memorable and fun - I wanted to challenge myself as a writer in covering the different sides to those experiences. (Achilles meeting Marie as a front-liner Rider really did reflect how early FGO me did rely on Marie a lot before Achilles arrived for my Rider teams. And once I thought about how they might interact together, it snowballed from there.) Even the sides the player themselves may never see, because the Servants are people too, with their own viewpoints.
Even if FGO is all about the meaning behind humanity and what "saving" it truly entails, I found the Servants we befriend as the player along the way sold the show. And when some Servants weren't as focused on as others (example being the original Arturia Pendragon herself for one), I wanted to change that.
Passing Days is ultimately what the title implies. Snippets of days from my Chaldea. Times between all the Servants I can write for, all the times I want to write for, as respectfully as I can. To show the times the Chaldean Master doesn't get between story mode and events. Because life isn't all about the farming, the endless grind for more Ascension materials and Embers, and saving the world.
Life can also be about the daily naps, the laughs, tears, and everything shared in-between. And those moments I find are more precious than the story mode the game can give.
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jvzebel-x · 8 months
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#ive been in kind of a depressive low point for. a sec now lmao.#it swung down after the months of Bad Mania in response to the meds balancing out i think idk.#either way ive been in a weird state of disassociative depression for a couple months now#but i can feel it swinging back as the month goes on&we get closer&closer to autumn lmao.#right about now for a couple different reasons is when my Internal Balance starts to shift yearly in response to the anxiety#that i wasted all the sunshine. 🫠🫠🫠#idk. its putting me in that weird spot where my depressive episode isn't exactly Over yet#but i can already feel that buzzing in my bones going on lmao.#its also bringing up weird thoughts i guess as my brain scrambles for actual reasons to be so anxious#&just like when i wake up in pain that always bleeds over into reasons to be Angry not Anxious bc Angry is easier lmao.#like hypocrisy has been a topic of discussion in my life recently bc of everything back home&if i let my head spiral for too long#ill end up back at the point where my shithead ex told me for 3yrs that i was a hypocrite w double standards#w his primary example being that he Let Me talk to other guys but i didnt Let Him talk to other women#w the one sole example being how after i moved my entire life across an ocean to an entirely foreign place where i had no support but him#i was made extremely uncomfortable when i found out he'd been talking to his ex during the entire process.#so my attitude toward that translated into i guess a weird boundary that i never actually set bc he enjoyed to call me a hypocrite lmao.#its just weird having my thoughts slide from discussions about hypocritical actions involving Lahaina&its handling by the fake state#over to old thoughts about how i just let someone call me a hypocrite to my face for years bc he wanted to w no actual reason lmao.#&this sort of All Over The Board weirdness is really only something that happens in these strange Inbetween times for me.#... pls for the love of everything holy let this fucking be over soon lmao i solve these problems Poorly bc these time periods#wreck my impulse control lmao.
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daedrabela · 9 months
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Having dreams where a hot vampire or something is hunting me down? Cool, exciting, fun, sexy.
Having dreams where my ex is hunting me down? Uncomfortable, gross, stressful, sickening!
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Parental groups r weird, but I got the feeling like ppl r again violently trying to accomplish their own goals using children, to show off the school or their high morals u know. That’s may sound alien, but if I’m still a teen, and I actually want to discover the world myself, derive my own views and opinions, can I like go without those lessons of gender studies etc. Like I don’t want teachers/relatives and random people telling me what to do and what to think, I want to have a right to choose my own courses and be free with that. Bannings r stupid, but it’s even dumber to be fed forcibly with something I’m not ready to consume or waste time on. Does this go only in one direction?
I mean I'm definitely one who thinks there are happy mediums in every conflict, but most sides take the stance of "my way or the highway", so it's hard to really satisfy anyone without completely alienating the other.
I think it's important to at least approach the ideas of gender studies, sexualities, etc with developing teenagers because that's when they really start to discover themselves. Some kids struggle with labeling new feelings or confusion they might experience, so it would help to give them a stepping stone, which they can then decide to pursue further with elective courses if they feel it resonates with them or just out of curiosity. And, even if none of those ideals apply to them, it's still good that they acknowledge such things exist and normalize it.
They don't have to be full blown core classes from grade 6 to 12 about the entire history of transgender identity, just a semester similar to health class that kids can later on select electives on if they want to continue exploring those topics, or never touch again. You can throw in the story of the Stonewall Riots during the civil rights lesson without turning it into propaganda as to why you, a 16 year old, must now label yourself as transgender. You can finally acknowledge the contributions women have made in the STEAM field that had been ignored or miscredited to men. You can read the letters or love poems of famous authors and say they were written to their same sex partner and leave it at that.
It's not about forcing kids to be one way or another, it's about exposing them to different ways of thinking and normalizing the outcomes.
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laniidae-passerine · 2 years
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I was told today that me being openly queer during secondary school actually helped somebody else come out and made them feel normal and I think I’m actually going to cry over it. I’ve never been ashamed of my sexuality, which I know is an incredibly lucky experience and unfortunately abnormal to so many people, but it felt like a self contained phenomena. I never thought my happiness could spark someone else’s. I never realised that my pride isn’t mine alone - it’s for my whole community to share with me. Being out doesn’t just free me. It also frees the people I love.
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pizzapizzadickz · 2 years
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I was watching neurodivergent tiktoks and it mentioned how nd ppl "peel" their food and fuck I am so glad I have a word for it bc I do it all the time and then some.
...I peel carrots. Carrots. CARROTS.
#personal#diary#i also do specific things with smarties and eating ice cream with mix-ins.#smarties i let get warm in my mouth then i split the candy in half get rid of the chocolate and stack the candy in my mouth#until the candy disolves too much and it all breaks apart and i gotta eat it. or until i just wanna lol#and for mix-ins i just. sorta. disolve the ice cream and hold the mix ins in my mouth and eat them all at once.#sometimes i also section them with a spoon.#....i eat a lot of things with either separate them in my mouth or pealing something from something else.#*cough cough* drumpsticks and waffle cones *cough cough*#oh. i also make absolutely disgusting horrible abominations to eat. like my sprinkle ice cream.#or hashbrowns with far too much ketchup.#oh and when i do add crackers to soup (i only add it to vegtable i think?) i add them to the point its mush.#fun fact! i love mushy food. some of my fave food is mushy lmao.#god i eat so many weird things and in so many weird ways. i love it. i refuse to eat like a normal person.#you can hold a gun to my head and i still wont do it. like. it just tastes better that way. i will die on this hill#like. yes i can and do eat normal. but. its always more fun and memorable if i domt. so i dont thar much.#tho sometimes ill take normal bites inbetween playing with my food.#oh this is also probably partially why i started stuffing spinach leaves with parmesan cheese...#.....i made little leaf wraps before the lettuce wraps were cool#ALSO LETTUCE IS GROSS. I HATE IT. I MEAN I CAN EAT IT BUT WHY WOULD I??? SPINACH IS SUPERIOR FUCK YOU LETTUCE EATERS.#oh but weird non-romane lettuce is fine. just not romane. why does anyone like romane???? fuck you.
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mjmacchio1991 · 2 years
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YOU CHANGED YOUR THEME, IT LOOKS SO CUTE <3 <3 <3
ALICE HI!!! 💕💕💕
Thank you for noticing! I felt like it needed a change and I went for another orange theme bc why not haha! I’m glad you like it and I hope you’ve had a good day! 💕💕
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iiscpr · 1 month
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more bullshit
#this is such a good way to spend my time Im so fucking busyyyy#this also actually made me realise that its the second time ive drawn denmark as patrick/christian bale and its like. well its true but im#insane also#ive been wanting to do the fernanfloo meme for 50 years though because that most litearlly is already his outfit#but well anyways i got to give him a spiffy alternative fancy outfit that im kind of obsessed with#it may be that he doesnt have his stupid headband for 5 minutes or the bullet wound swagger but well i like him#litearlly no body is going to understand the context of the first meme until like. 6 volumes of my comic come out im crazy#well whatever. its for me ok.#i should have been working on my berserk drawing but instead.#my ranting#do you guys understand how long it took me to find the christian bale image without the goth bugs bunny i wanted to kill myself#then all i had to do was google ''christian bale so cunty'' and the second image on google was the fucking post...like goddd#''why is denmark in heaven'' well because the inbetween is all clouds so the backgrounds always are white please pleaspelaplseplease#i know i backed myself into a cornerrr thereee but pleaseee#Pleaseee#with that logic he should also be wearing completely white clothes unless theyre his normal outfit but i figured that would look Really Wei#Weird so i didnt do it#im aware no one cares and im inflicting these rules upon myself ok well the illness#...which is why i also tried to fit kyles binder beneath the dress which he would never wear bc of the dysphoria but i figured ok well. idk#the binder was built into the dress or something idk idk dont think about it too hard#''dont think about it too hard'' is the hardest thing 4 me. well i will think about it soo hard unfrotuantely#its 5 am#my art#kyle batillo#denmark newman#kar#it feels really weird to draw the 2 of them without ilya there. its like going to a hotel without the cuck chair.#like wheres my beautiful third wheel scowling in the background#cady will you tell him his hair looks sexy pushed back OK SORRY i should rewatch meangirls. for the millionth time#sad you cant see his giant gauges bc hair is covering but just remmeber theyre there k drew them.....
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mothidocandart · 5 months
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looking at my abject lack of non-binary OC’s suspiciously
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