tired of working hard, let me be a romance girlie in peace. let me frolic in flower fields and watch romcoms all day and read about fictional couples and make playlists about my favourite characters and fantasize about falling in love.
one cool and chill thing about me is that before i can write a sentence about a character i have to figure out everything that’s ever happened to them and probably their parents and extended family also
shoutout to selfshippers with female f/os who are unjustly hated in fandom. because they "get in the way" of a popular ship, because they're "too mean," because they're villains or morally gray or just dare to do anything that inconveniences the protagonist. because they're rude, or not feminine enough, or feminine in the "wrong" way. because they fuck up and don't spend the rest of their life groveling at the feet of everyone in their life for daring to not be perfect all the time. your understanding, respect and love for them mean more than any of the crap other people say about them, and you fit with them perfectly. your ability to see past bad-faith and often downright misogynistic criticism is just more evidence of how perfect you are for them.
proship this is not for you. + this is not about bigots or sexual predators. that hatred is in no way unwarranted.
My art summary for the year of 2023!
I definitely felt my art level up this year after that March fanart. Found an ink brush to line with for that piece and it made my art look a lot cleaner and bolder so I started using it more. Admittedly, it takes a lot of creative energy for me since it's an extra step in my process but I think the end result feels worth it. 😅 Funny that it's always the personal pieces that inspire me the most to grow somehow (but not unsurprising of course.)
I think I am leaning overall happy with my progress this year. I am very pleased with my professional/commission works but I won't lie, I had a LOT going on financially where I could not step away to really draw for myself. I am glad my commission work has more appeal but it definitely came at a detriment to my personal relationship with my art. I have more commission works in my folders than I do personal pieces which is depressing to me lol but it is what it is!
With that in mind, I am so extremely grateful to everyone who has been so supportive of me this year. To everyone who left nice comments and reblogged my art, enjoyed my ocs, signal boosted my commission posts especially when times were tough for me, etc. It means the world to me. And I want to thank my commissioners especially who have been absolutely wonderful people to work with. I had some amazing prompts and characters, got to expand my portfolio and offer new types of commissions (reference sheets and couple commissions!), and even had opportunities to try new things I never drew before! I even made new pals/mutuals drawing from new commissioners which brings me joy 🥰!
I hope going into 2024 I can focus a bit more inward towards my personal art. I don't have any real art goals, I think. I just want time and energy back to draw all my little ocs, all the ideas and doodles in my head that I was too exhausted to do in 2023. Touch 2022 backlogs I hoped I could get to in 2023 but couldn't in 2024. I'll still be taking on commissions throughout the year but I hope I can find some balance in my art journey in 2024. & maybe a potential art rebranding of my handle?
i'm a cis woman, but in the past few years i've developed a habit of headcanoning any male character i relate to as a trans women, beginning a fic trying to explore that, and then miserably falling short as i can never figure out how to end the story. i've recently joined a new fandom and started my most recent attempt at writing this ever-elusive character interpretation i've been trying to explain for years. and it occurs to me that maybe the reason i keep trying to interpret these characters i relate to as women and failing to, is because i'm trying to project the wrong experience. because i think that conclusion i can never fully bring myself to write isn't one about coming to terms with womanhood and embracing that identity, but about coming to terms with being a man.
so tldr im a trans man and this is a coming out post.
SHE IS ON THE LOOSE I REPEAT SHE IS ON THE LOOSE!!!!
just a rnadom clip because i got like an hour of footage and got too lazy to comb through it. sorry. BUT SPARKS REAL IN HIT GAME RAIN WORLD!!! i would have made her tail but i dont really know how rw sprites work sooooo wires must do :pensive:
Since I've been kinda getting obsessed with Ibispaint's animating update, I decided to draw something for a new friend who also loves Omori! Ser fave character is Basil and their fave flower is blue hydrangea and so <33 I made this lovely thing <333
Kinda obsessed tbh, THE WAY I DRAW BASIL HAS IMPROVED SO MUCH?? HE LOOKS SO GOOD AUGH MY BOY... I MISSED HIM