I hate how they demonized attention-seeking behavior, as if it somehow makes you bad to need attention, especially as a child.
I’ve had fantasies of bad things happening to me and those closest to me, and getting attention, pity, and love because of it, for most of my life. Is this normal? No. Does it mean I am a bad person who actually wants bad things to happen to the people I love? No. Does it make me self-absorbed to crave attention that badly? No.
There’s always a reason that people do things “just for attention”. And it is rarely what people think it is.
I grew up feeling so guilty for doing things for attention, and ended up not getting the attention and help I needed because of that guilt.
Self harm is a good example of something that is often said to be done “just for attention”. And you know what? Yes, I have hurt myself for attention. And nobody understood why I would do something like that to myself.
But when you are so desperate for someone to see you, to hear you, to help you, that you would literally die to get someone to show they care, it makes a lot more sense.
Let’s try to be more understanding about attention-seeking behavior. Let’s see it for what it is: a legitimate call for help. Not a sign of self-centeredness.
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Is the hidden city a thing in your au? Is that where they live?
Was the Hamato clan more cult than clan? Is the Foot? Is Karai in this au? What is the history between the Foot and the Hamato? More specifically with splinter and shredder?
Do the boys choose to go on missions, or was it more expected of them? Like did splinter train them with a purpose in mind? Or was it more, 'we're here and we can help so might as well'?
What are each of their go to coping mechanisms for dealing with a bad day or when splinter is being antagonistic but they can't get away from it?
Hidden City Tid-bit Info:
The hidden city is in this au!! Draxum lives there but for simply that fact and Splinter just not liking it bc yokai don’t rlly like mutants (some yokai there are conservative and gatekeep their lifestyle away from mutants bc they think mutants are trashy wannabes) so he lives in the sewers for a lil bit until he finds an affordable apartment where there’s a nice yokai as the landlord.
Hamato + Foot Clan Stuff:
The hamato clan was very cult-like since they are very traditional and derive from ruthless, merciless warriors of old.
The Foot Clan weren’t as such since they were just a clan that would hold a festival of sweets for ‘Shredder’ a demon of chaos and mystic energy that would not harm them if they gave him a legit boatload of candies, cakes, pastries (anything sweet tasting) ect. and wouldn’t eat their souls if they did.
Since Shredder loves eating souls he would go for warriors, soldiers, samurai, ninjas and even street thugs bc they ‘had a taste that resembled that of lilikoi’ and so would usually go for the youth of the Hamato clan. So oneday the Hamato’s snapped and barged into the Foot’s festival of sweets and trapped the Shredder into a pendant which when fed the soul of a truly great Hamato warrior would he arise again.
The Foot doesn’t carry any blood fued with the Hamato’s but Karai does revive the Foot clan to bring Shredder back.
Karai is in this au, but i wanna reveal her way later on, near the kind of middle of my whole plot/storyline for this au.
Splinter was taught about Shredder but thinks the so-called demon is just an old wives-tale
How Did Missions Become A Thing?
They don’t until after they defeat shedder (WAY later in the au with what i think will be the last remaining arcs)
they kinda go out to do teenager shenanigans and run into baddies which they fight (sometimes (sometimes the bad guys just steal from atm machines and the teetlz don’t rlly care))
even so most of the time the bad guys are like actually hurting people/have harassed the teetlz and the turtles basically get pissed and start attacking.
Splinter just wanted to train them so they wouldn’t become ‘fat’ but also self defense bc he didn’t want them to go out and get harassed by humans or yokai for being mutants w/o kicking the said human or yokai in the ass.
Coping Mechanisms:
Leo basically treats the situation less seriously the more it bothers him, and will sass whoever is talking to him (mostly raph but smtimes splinter) which can get him into trouble. But afterwards he does, he just locks himself in his room and has some me-time while he tries to calm down bc if he doesn’t he will have a meltdown down which can trigger panic attacks for him.
Donnie will just take long showers or do something to drown out the noise before he has a meltdown which could trigger a panic attack for him.
Mikey will simply pretend everything is fine and will try to talk to anyone near him so he can try to distract himself from the situation.
Raph will dissociate until things are resolved, sometimes he will even harm himself subconscious (picking his nail beds until they bleed and then more) to just stop being in the moment/feeling bad emotions.
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TW! Self Harm mention kind of ig
Is it good or bad that the only reason i've never cut myself bc i was to chicken to attempt it.
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