thinking about how there's never gonna be another ship like destiel because shows simply don't last as long as spn did anymore therefore no ship could ever have the build up and history destiel had that spanned 12 years on and off screen and still continues now

FUCK I TOTALLY FORGOT TO SEND YOU AN ASK ABOUT THE FIC... i just got hit full force but like 89831 different fucking projects all at once MY BAD POOKIE BUT UGHHHHHHH oh my god.... part 2??? yes.. all of it is soooo YESS

YESS you visualized everything what you've been talking about how reader would react when they first wake up after centuries and honestly hella realistic EVEN THOUGH I JUST WANNA HOLD READER AND KISS THEIR FOREHEAD 😭😭😭

reader interacting with the segments has my HEARTTT oh my god.. especially omega.. he's SUCH A DEVIOUS MOTHERFUCKEGUJK,,, also reader naming the segments UGHHH i adore that idea so much pleaseee ,, i love how the segments who didn't give a shit suddenly changed their minds when reader said they wanna give them names... THE SWITCH UP AND THE IMMEDIATE DENIAL...

READER MEETING BABY ZANDY ,,, FUCKINGG hell got me sooo soft i wanna hold baby zandy and treat him soo nicely 🥹🥹

ALSO YESS omgg,,, this part has me sooo fucking soft like reader making friends??? with the other harbingers??? i love it... omg they'd be such good besties with columbina,, i think pantalone helps reader adjust to present time as well, especially with it comes with money or the economy (if you ever ask him about it)

but oh.... to top it all off nicely, you gotta sneak in some subtle angst!!! smh... (im so proud of you tho!! like yasss sis feed me sad shit >:333) poor scara and reader :( i think they would've gotten along if reader wasn't dottore's lover n' scara wasn't dottore's experiment ,,,

ALL IN ALL. fuck you pookie im not excited for the next two parts (im kidding I AM IM JUST... NOT READY... pleas epost it next year so i'll be ready enough thank you /jjj) NO SERIOUSLY THIS TIME,, THIS WAS SOOO GOOOD and i love it so much, really popped off honestly (evil laughs because it's dottore)... like im soo happy to see how much you've grown esp thru writing !!!

have a good day pookie, im going back to my grave where i died for the next few days 💗💗

ALSO I WAS GONNA SEND IN ANOTHER DOTTORE IDEA but i fucking forgot again. FUCKS SAKE i hate not writing shit down...

POOKS DONT EVEN WORRY!! Just make sure to take care of yourself ok?? School can really be an ass i understand-

BUT OMG GRENFRG AHHH YOU'RE MAKING ME SMILE TOO MUCH POOKIE AHHWQ I'm so happy you liked it 🥺 BUT NGL I WANNA GIVE READER THE BIGGEST HUG TOO 😭 i put them through too much don't i 😭 dw they will be getting Dottore comfort next chapter!!

Bro i love writing Omega as a devious mf so much 😭 IM SO GLAD U LIKED THAT PART BC I WAS GIGGLING TO MYSELF ABT HOW THEY DGAF ABT THINGS BUT THEN SUDDENLY THEYRE INTERESTED WHEN UR A PART OF IT

AND YESSSS READER MAKING FRIENDS RAHHHH that part was probably really long for a Dottore fic but. i feel like having friends is so important and fragile reader really deserve some niceness in their lives 🥺 AND OMG NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT. Fragile reader would be freaking blown away from inflation. i don't know how prices were four hundred years ago but they would probably be shocked to their core when they see how much expensive things are now?? imagine fragile reader trying to stop Dottore from buying things for them because of how expensive things are now, and they're having flashbacks to being a broke Akademiya student 😭 And Dottore is just honestly finding it amusing to see you freak out and beg him to save his money (it's okay, he's a Harbinger he's loaded) (as long as he's not spending it on experiments)

BUT YEAH MAYBE IN AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE... reader and Scara could have been friends :( we'll never know... but yasss i will continue to feed you sad shit >:) hehe I CANT WAIT TO POST THE FINAL PART!! ngl the ending of the fic was like. the first thing i wrote for it because it hit me and i was like i CANT forget this. im telling you pookie its gonna be pretty juicy. BUT THANK YOU YOU'RE BEING SO KIND AHHH it's really sweet of you. thank you for being here for so long in my writing journey (and my descent into Dottore madness) ily 🥺

star trek update time. last night we did the maquis parts 1 & 2 because i simply did not want to deal w tng.

the maquis (ds9)

standout moment for me in this entire two-parter was sisko's speech. ESPECIALLY good that in a fit of frustration he delivers it to kira and kira alone, whomst he maybe did shout a little bit at earlier because tensions were so high, and then he has the grace to look embarrassed and say he's glad someone understands. like it was the EXACT same thing she was yelling about earlier and he didn't take her as seriously as he might have, like, not in a delegitimizing way, but in a way that says he hasn't experienced that kind of helpless frustration for himself. and then he got to experience just the tiniest slice of what kira has and he Got It. you know?

ALSO SOOO TRUE THE PROBLEM IS EARTH!!!! it's easy to be a saint when you live in utopia. quark had a similar speech earlier in this series about how humans are friendly and wonderful when they have full bellies and working holosuites and they turn vicious without them. ds9 knows whats up

it's tempting to blame all this on picard but while picard did NOT act with honor the true villain is the nameless faceless politician that decided this would be a good boundary to draw and absolutely no one would have any problems with it. it's weird to me, in the age of constantly calling our government officials to make sure they don't cancel healthcare or tell them to stop bombing people, that no one would try to get to the bottom of this and figure out which person they're supposed to call to tell them it was a dumb idea and demand they change it. like, the border is drawn like this, it's an immutable fact of life and it's not gonna change. it feels so weird

anyway, kira was GREAT in this episode. she has so much to be angry about and so much she wants to give to make sure nobody has to suffer what she did. like she's so passionate about it and it comes from a place of love or at least compassion and it's such a nice detail. that she's so angry all the time because of love. man. she's so great

i recognized one of the maquis guys from tng i think! well, i'm bad with faces but it was at least one of the same costumes. i'm so sorry dude rip

one of the maquis guys has a passing resemblance to barclay. really jumpscared me

should have known hudson was a villain bc he asked inappropriate questions about dax. however, it was funny that sisko laughed off the idea of them sleeping together when they fucked twins or whatever

i liked the jennifer mention :( im sad sisko and cal couldn't make up...he tried until the very end

what i love about the ethical debate is that theyre both right. the maquis are right because the new border IS shit. it IS unfair and they DID get abandoned to the tender mercies of the cardassians, who are sure as shit not gonna let them stay there unbothered (that tng episode painting this as a happy ending...AS IF). like, they have every right to defend themselves since no one else is gonna do it

but sisko is ALSO RIGHT because escalating the conflict into full-blown warfare is gonna get even MORE people killed and make things even MORE miserable for the colonies affected, who have already been through more than enough. the colonists can make life harder for the cardassians, just like the bajorans did, but they can't actually win a war, they can only drive themselves into the ground doing it. at BEST they will make some nameless faceless border-drawer think twice the next time they draw a border

like, that's why i'm so shocked nobody suggested calling the politicians to making them redraw it. it's the only third option?!?!

quark and the vulcan was so funny. shoot your shot, buddy, even though you lost the love of your life two episodes ago. i was a little insulted he managed to out-logic her, but also reluctantly impressed. quark is always entertaining, i just wish he had a LITTLE more depth.

gul dukat...i admit i never gave him a second thought before this episode. now i am reaffirmed in my belief that all cardassians are gay. he exhibits such an energy. i really liked the part where he put the fear of god into the weapons runner even though sisko was ready to sit on him to keep him from touching the torpedo controls. such a fun dynamic for him to be going "murder? :D?" and for sisko to be playing straight man and yanking him down by the scruff of his neck every 5 minutes. fun fun fun. i do think he should have kept his mouth shut when he and kira were in the same room though. like i think he should have just chosen to not speak unless prompted.

i like how twice odo's ability to maintain security at the station was called into question and both times sisko was like oh absolutely not. and even still, the tension was nearly enough to cause in-fighting in what has become a pretty friendly group. it's both surprising and unsurprising how quickly they drew the battle lines, but even the non-federation people, kira and odo, snapped at each other. LITERALLY CALL THE POLITICIANS. EARTH IS THE PROBLEM

my one real nitpick is that i don't think it should be possible to resist a mind meld with "discipline." like, it's more interesting if cardassians have a special immunity, or if this particular vulcan is bad at it. i just don't buy that gul dukat happens to be that cool, it's too convenient. why bring up the mind meld at all in that case

otherwise 10/10 i had a fantastic time

TONIGHT: devil's deal means we have double tng, "firstborn" and "bloodlines." something about alexander and daimon bok from season 1??? looks rank. wish us luck.

I found your COD works on ao3 and there is quite literally NOTHING else that makes me ascend higher than your writing AAAAHHH your prose is incredibly seamless and blends so beautifully together that i find myself on the ground afterwards because EXCUSE ME?? They didn't tell us you could do that with words?? (youre the reason im researching a game ive never played before in my life at 3 am) how you are real

Anyway!!! I dont know if this was already asked, but i wanted to know about your writing process and how you got to where you are now

Thank you for always giving us your best work!! 🩷🩷🩷

it's only Thursday and here i am. just bawling my eyes out. this is incredibly sweet, and you are being way too nice to me, honestly!!! 😭 thank you so much!! and i'm so glad you've been enjoying what i write so far 🖤

i did my best to actually answer this in a way that was somewhat coherent but it's really hard to type through the tears.

i don't have much of a writing process, tbh! i mostly just shape things around a concept or a scene i want to write about, or one that i kinda picture in my head. the rest is mostly just filler to get us there.

i think i spend the most time on words—the placement, the meaning, the sound, and the way it looks/flows with everything else. i'm very particular about the ones i pick. i know a lot of it might seem like regurgitating a thesaurus (which it def is, tbh!!!), but i really love etymology. everything has a purpose. even though a lot of what i write is just gratuitous smut lmao

i also really love scripts. i don't write multiple drafts. what i end up posting is usually the first draft with minimal editing (because i am egregiously lazy and also hate re-reading my own work), but as i write, i like to make the outlines for scenes in the same style as a script. i think it gives me more flexibility to really dig down into what i want from a particular moment by framing it like a beat from a movie or play. it might not be for everyone, but it helps me focus on what i need to do—especially with dialogue.

as for how i got to where i am now: i definitely got much more confident in my particular style, which i think is obvious if you read my earlier stuff to now. i was very worried about how i came across in writing (like using rare words, dabbling in wordplay, going on very obscure tangents and making strange metaphors), but i'm a lot more willing to experiment with things than i was before. i also don't take myself seriously at all. everything i do is for the fun of it, so i've never felt pressured to stay within a certain genre or style. i just do what i want, mostly!

gen asking, how does it feel starting over from scratch? i do find it a shame you deleted ur twitter. yomber and valorant is not the same without you there. i rlly can't imagine starting over at another platform. ure strong for that. im glad you're still around, donna. will always love your art and imagination. thank you for being the reason I installed valorant!

Woah, aaaa....!! ♥ I am always caught off-guard when people tell me they start playing VALORANT because of me. I'm so, so glad and I'm also so sorry, haha. I hope the stress and toxicity isn't ruining any of your days-- and that it's more to the fun and teamwork!

Also, your words are very kind and warm-- thank you so much, seriously. I love my art and my imagination too, aaaa~!!!!

And I'm happy I'm still around too, for as long as I can. ♥ I'm here, anon. Things have always been the same, in my sketchbook.

How it feels to start over? I don't feel anything except momentary melancholy and nostalgia from time to time. I do miss the many people I met and some of the experiences I had-- but with the new messy changes to the Twitter / X app, I found it difficult to enjoy the company and the experiences when the base is built poorly. It's like... enjoying tea time altogether but the ground is wobbling and you keep worrying when the floor is going to collapse. I just think my works and my mains deserve better than that.

Moving to Tumblr (again), Instagram and Bluesky wasn't so bad. If anything, I feel more free now that Twitter / X is not what I see everyday. I no longer worry about the need to do fast information-processing of real or fake news, I don't see people hating on each other as much as I used to, no more modern generation jokes that I tried so hard to get and say, the expectations of posting everyday, no more of the parasocial people that want me so much and the mountains of other people's expectations that suddenly fell onto my lap the moment I hit 6k-7k followers that time... It's now just me, my sketchbook and my old small house. It's always been. Many followers or not, I've always been that.

A lot of people seem to forget that though. Others that have strangely begged for me to play games with them while some got very overthink-y or obsessed with me as if I'm some idol... now treat me as nothing, after I left Twitter / X. Thank God they woke up. It's most peculiar that others seem to worry or be so affected by my followers and account more than I ever will be.

I don't think it should ever matter if an artist is no longer on a mainstream platform (unless they wish to make a financial living out of being a community or fandom artist). I don't think me removing myself from a broken app should mean I'm suddenly lesser than who I was back when I never had an account or when I had a small following.

Without the audience I built and dearly miss, I'm still a sketch artist. I miss them all very much though-- and I wish them all well. And it's not like they're gone, hahaha. Many are still here and I'll always be thankful of their continuous support and love.

My main house is Tumblr and Bluesky while my little treehouse is Instagram-- and truth be told, I'm rarely on them since I have a good but challenging job now. I also went back to reading my old and new books, haha!

But anyway, if me losing that Twitter / X account means that I'm now nothing but some visitor on the internet that loves to sketch her imaginations and home? Then, good. People finally remember that I am and will always be exactly that.

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There are some that always saw me as myself and I hope they all know they have all my luck, love and thanks. Thank you for loving my artworks, have a good day. ♥

Idk if youll see this or not, simply dont care, just need to say the things i cant say out loud

I got into dsmp via tommy at 2020, when i was 14. I was one of those cringe Tommy stans that took roleplay too seriously. Looking back, i think our fandom was full of teens and it created a neg opinion abt us - i cant really blame them.

I disliked dream because of c!dream. I shut my mouth because back then i had no reason to publicly hate him. Speedrun drama gave me the perfect opportunity. Im ashamed of my past self, i harassed a bunch of dream stans that tried to defend him. I hated dream and gained followers from that. I was an unmature person.

Highschool changed me. I learned more about social issues. I grew up and deactivated my account. Today i saw dreams post on my tl and after i liked it, saw a bunch stan and antis' posts. Dream stans seems older and more mature - which is really good but seeing how antis act... Its sad to see that 2020-21 toxic stans never left. Seems like they just changed the person they stan. Community is still toxic.

Im 17 - almost 18 now and seeing the people i used to interact at dreams qrts, still talking shit is honestly insane. Hope they can start engaging with the stuff and ppl they actually like.

Its good to see how far ccs' have come. Even though i feel.. disappointed(?) in some of their actions. (I expected better from Tommy like i wasnt stanning that type of behavior)

I never had a chance to write my experience and your tumblr anon asks seemed like the perfect place (idk if ill send this to you). It was fun while it lasted, but im glad i grew up and discovered new stuff.

(I saw you at my dashboard a few days ago and recognized you, who is better than a christian lawyer dream stan to confess?)

I welcome this offering to my archive. Thank you anon. I am proud of you! You have grown and learned and changed. You're a lot like Dream in that way. I hope you keep growing and learning. And I wouldn't beat yourself up too much over the past. As you've seen, many others have not grown. That are addicted to the hate, and the rush it gives them. They can't move on. So be proud of yourself, too.

Man I was on ur Twitter and first of all a solid cringe towards commenter, 0/10 behavior (im so curious for screenshots but understandable if you want to keep that close) and second of all autistic Erwin so true and valid— he’s got the masking down to a T

Idk why Levi is the one so hc as neurodivergent tbh, I see him as the more resolutely neurotypical one but to make up for it he has a million other flavors of things up with him

bahaha yeah that was a funny tiff, definitely not the most egregious thing that you can encounter online but for sure a charming reminder of all the personalities in fandom.

erwin being on the spectrum is so intuitive to me at this point, like it's as embedded in my characterization of him as levi's transness is to him GRAH the way that he's a character who feels so deeply but struggles to communicate his compassion, and so defers to letting people assume that he's cold and unfeeling 😭the way he overcompensates for it through his overly polite speech, the way he oscillates between unflinching conviction and abject self-defeatism it's so GOOOOODDDD AAAGGHHH

as for neurodivergent levi headcanons, i obviously don't have a problem with people doing transformative fiction, but i do think it's pretty typical of the way that people tend to project onto levi by emphasizing and elaborating on his internal character struggles. sometimes that comes in the form of pathologizing some of his peculiarities (giving him anger issues or cleaning OCD, for example), or it's just in terms of classic whump tropes where he suffers inordinately for the sake of reader/author catharsis. not to say that i'm at all innocent of this with erwin though LMAO

personally, i do agree with you that levi is the more 'neurotypical' between him and erwin, though 'neurotypical' doesn't mean normal or even relatable. he's definitely a very extreme guy who is alarmingly efficient at tactical dissociation (the way soldiers are trained to dehumanize their targets, but levi probably adopted this way of thinking in order to survive, and can draw upon it easily to torture and maim if so ordered). regardless, he's been shown as consistently capable of making level-headed decisions at the inattention to his own emotional needs- the one exception, of course, being his choice in midnight sun. gay people and the apocalyptic implications of their love oh my god.

anyway my general take on levi is that he basically has himself sorted out, and the struggles that we see him undergo in canon are primarily external ones that serve to test or refine his pre-existing principles. he falls into self-doubt in momentary bursts, but i can't recall when he's allowed those feelings to seriously impede on his ability to act, or when those feelings became a holistic warping of reality, like how erwin experiences them. what's important to note about erwin is that he doesn't just dislike himself, it's that his guilt and self-loathing is so total that it disrupts his ability to objectively perceive reality. he'll take the least charitable self-narrative over the most accurate one, in basically every instance ;;;;;;

but i ramble 🙈thank you for the interesting ask anon! i'm glad i could blather about these characters again :'D

why do you like whisper and tangle so much ? I like them too im just curious about your thoughts 😊

I like Whisper because:

Wolves are my favorite animals

Her design—from her mask to her outfit to her variable wispon—is cool as fuck

Even though her outfit is definitely combat / military styled, she does still get to have a long ponytail and fluffy tail, which is cute

Her introduction and backstory were really well handled; we were given small foreshadowing moments over the course of several narrative arcs before we finally got the reveal in her miniseries, which is really good writing

She's an introverted character who isn't shamed for her introversion

In fact her boundaries are shown to be respected multiple times (Sonic thanking her for helping with Angel Island when crowds aren't her thing, Whisper pushing Tangle away with her wispon when Tangle hugged her without consent), which I think is a really important thing for kids to see, in a society that acts like everyone should want hugs and physical contact all the time

She's traumatized and is shown compassion for what she went through, and is shown to take steps toward healing, WITHOUT having all her trauma magically erased

She shows both sympathetic and unsympathetic traits of trauma (e.g. she's tried to kill multiple times in this comic and honestly would have if she hadn't been stopped each time), as well as healthy and unhealthy coping mechanisms, which is realistic and nice to see for a traumatized character, esp in a children's comic since children unfortunately sometimes experience trauma too

She makes me sad because of all the suffering she's gone through, without it feeling like I'm being yelled at to feel sad for her

Despite making me sad, she still also makes me laugh sometimes (such as when she yelled at Jet in the most recent annual)

She's very different from the rest of the cast, but still feels like she belongs. She's a refreshing character

I like Tangle because:

She also has a super fun design, sporty and athletic and tomboyish while still being cute af.

She's a ROWDY GIRL who likes to fight and wants to drive cool mechas and make things explode and go on adventures and this isn't shamed at all, even though these aren't stereotypically "girly" interests

Seriously she reminds me a lot of me when I was younger, little me would have LOVED her and I'm glad that all the rowdy little girls of today get to read about her in the comics (and I hope they can see her in more than just the mobile games in the future)

She's clumsy in a way that's shown to be silly and rambunctious, not a "teehee so clumsy" but in a "she just parkoured into an ice cream vendor" type of way, which is relatable and great

She's very new to heroing and she shows her inexperience; she's allowed to fuck up and recognize those fuckups without it diminishing her worth as a hero or reworking her into a Girlboss™

Although she is a ROWDY GIRL she also has a heart of gold and is SO compassionate to and thoughtful of those around her, such as Whisper and Tails and her BFF Jewel

She's so fun to read and lights up every page she's on, every story she's in, and just steals my heart. I know Jewel is the name of her best friend, but Tangle is a real gem, too

tubbo said it himself. “it’s dreams server” they did it because dream wanted to. or at least tubbo did it because of that.

he also said there was other stuff at play and i don’t want to claim any direct person or cause of that ending and what we got

it’s probably complicated and a mix of stuff and unless he deadass says “dream made me and tommy end our lore with the amnesia arc” i am not going to repeat that statement

would i doubt it? no. the ending motif is really convenient for the hot water he’s in and it welcomes in the start of the sever which also would act as a distraction.

that writing didn’t sound like tommy’s normal writing, and tubbo outright said he didn’t like amnesia esk endings, and on multiple previous occasions they both said they wanted us to have good endings, for us and the characters

and we didn’t get that, no sugar coating it

so i don’t doubt it.

i also think there’s other things at play though. like their genuine growing disinterest in the server. roleplay is so hard and it’s hard to keep going and consistent for two straight years the same enthusiasm and passion, especially when your roleplay partners don’t respond for a few months.

and you can tell. whenever they did a different minecraft thing they would get so invested and excited so quick and be so visibly joyful and happy playing it. i’m not saying they weren’t happy playing the dsmp, but i can only imagine it gets tired after awhile. it’s the same setting same characters same thing for the last two years.

tommy and tubbo in particular quite literally grew up on the server. tommy’s exile arc was written after he’d taken mental health classes in highschool/college. he’s no longer in school now.

there’s a reason most minecraft rp based servers have seasons that last only a handful of months, maybe a year. it’s burnout.

i imagine it was that, the communication, the people, and other things that lead to the endings we got. i mean it’s the whole reason ranboo wasn’t revived… two weeks after he died, like he was supposed to. stuff like that ruins stories.

im glad it’s over and i hope they can have fun playing minecraft again. to me it felt like the dream smp became an obligation. and tbh fans didn’t help with that point either. i mean over the past two years every time these guys don’t play minecraft, people bark in chat for them to play minecraft. if they’re not playing the dsmp and say played osmp or big dig or hardcore or whatever else, more people would complain about them not doing lore in chats or would ask them when it was coming back.

like i get streaming is a job, but it’s video games. you should be having fun, you shouldn’t feel like you have to play a certain game as an obligation or certain server as an obligation or job, they should have fun.

and i don’t want to talk about dream for long but even he, the whole time he was in that prison for nearly a year real life time, he didn’t walk around his own server. he did an out of character stream literally just to see the builds on it because he didn’t know what people had done.

and imo that’s like, kinda shitty, owning a game and sever and not being able to play on it for lore.

and again i don’t doubt the answer of the person they’re implying made them or swayed them to get lore done a certain way was dream. it is his server, it always has been.

i wish tommy and tubbo and whoever else end move on and get to have fun with what they do next, even if it is dsmp 2.

because video games with friends should be fun. and i hope their experience with the fans and fandom and people they work with is better too.

i hope they have fun. i won’t be watching the dsmp 2 because i think dream needs to seriously own up to what he did and something needs to be done about it, and it doesn’t sit right to me to consume content backed by him, even if he’s not in in directly. those finales were it for me.

even so i hope they do have fun on it, but i hope more that they bring back series they said they had fun on.

like i personally would adore the return of osmp. wilbur said they stopped because the lack of fan interaction but frankly if it wasn’t overshadowed by dsmp and the fans of it i think it would’ve gone places, plus all the members still make references to it and voice how much fun they had.

i hope they bring back other games too. rust, raft, the horror games, and whatever else they want to play. to me it’s not fun watching people play video games if they themselves aren’t having as much fun as they could.

but… i digress. i don’t want to outright say the cause like i stated previously because it seems like it’s a really complicated cause, i don’t doubt you anon and i don’t doubt he had part in it.

anyway. yeah.

don’t watch dream smp 2, don’t let that man continue with a platform

☀️ its fascinating that you say P3 has shaped your worldview because... Well not to trauma dump here but back then when I discovered the game (it was back then when p4 was already out) i was... In a REALLY bad place and wondering about unaliving myself. I wont go into much detail but kids are trash man and teens are even worse. and then this game came around. With an aesthetic I really liked. i am not a native english speaker so it was hard for me at first but somehow this game just... /spoke to me/. A game about life and death and what it means to be alive and what it means to have a REASON to live, somehow... Convinced me to go a bit longer. I mean it when I say this: Persona 3 saved my life. And no other game can ever come close to such an experience. (Even tho from a quality standpoint P5 certainly is up there)

oh dude that is so valid thank you for sharing this. seriously though, im happy that youre here! and im sure many others are too! the ☀️ brightening lives and all that :]

yea i can see why p3 just clicked with so many people since it first came out. i was always curious on why it's so beloved by fans, when p5 and even p4 are literally right there with their overall better gameplay experiences. p5 literally got the franchise mainstream to insane heights lol. im... so glad i got into persona the way i did. of course, everyone's experiences w these games are different and special to them in their own way.

i got into persona 3 as an adult and as a result the lens in which i viewed the story's themes were heightened, in a way. as a teen i just know i would have reacted more volatilely i struggle to think about it LOL but both experiences would still be pretty intense. it's just that, as an adult there's more room to digest it when im not troubled by algebra hw. i was just more equipped for it (also i played omori two summers ago LMAOO). ofc i only turned 20 a few weeks ago LOL but i get why p3 means so much to people.

because it's like... 2000s nostalgia coupled with a game that figuratively holds your hand through the uncertainty of death yknow? p3 is a friend, basically. its entire thesis is based upon companionship (exactly what i highlight in an analysis i have drafted somewhere but HHH i dont want this to get too long lmao)

in the shaping my worldviews thing... its really more like it cemented my 'philosophies' :] like i said, equipped with the stuff i learned before, p3 having the message that it did just... hit super close to home! like yeah! that's what i've been saying dude!! kindness really is enough!!

"You don't have to save the world to find meaning in life... Sometimes all you need is something simple, like someone to take care of."

LIKE YEA GIRL THATS EXACTLY IT!! its so cool! i actually admire people who grew up with p3 because man if i heard this line ages ago... well, again, idk if i would be able to grasp it fully at the time... but still! this is so good, poetry in motion. and like u said its aesthetics are gorgeous and aim to capture the essence of its themes - and it did.

im a p5 baby like bro i love p5. soft spot for it. thats the closest persona game i "grew up" with and it came at such an opportune time for me, being a teen stuck between a rock and a hard place. typical. and p5 validated my teenage angst bs so much. its so refreshing to see a game's theme being rebellion. that was me i thought. those characters are going through something that similarly happened to me. teenage rebellion is such a fun thing to explore!

so p5 validated my struggles while p3 did something deeper than that, somehow. i think it just made me .. stronger? like it made me move on from struggles. "by remembering death you learn how to live" so... i guess p3 taught me how to live as crazy as that sounds. but you get me

persona 5 overall is great -- everyone agrees, like its objectively just a better game. but persona 3 ends up more beloved because of its subjective value as a piece of art. there's a lot of heart and soul to put into it.

it's more simple when compared to p5 at first glance, but simple doesn't mean less. which is why more people experiencing it will be nice to see

Oh my god! This chapter! Did anybody pick up on how JEALOUS y/n got over all the moms and babysitters ogling at her man!? Harry is seriously waking up those mate tendencies in her, she even said it herself, she’s not one to fret over those types of feelings with her past lovers. I know others anon(s) had been giving you both a hard time about y/n possibly being supernatural, but tbh I love that the only supernatural being in this fic is Harry. It gives it a whole new element/tension, and sets it apart from all the other a/o/b fics. I’m very interested in seeing how their relationship and dynamic will be like from here on out. We already got an inside glimpse of how Harry feels about being who he is and how, in a way, for the first time ever, he might actually feel insecure about himself for not being fully human for her. And im sure when y/n eventually discovers the truth about Harry, she’ll also experience feeling inadequate for not being able to give Harry pups or go all out for him during his rut. Also their mannerisms are going to be interesting to see play out. Harry is obviously used to others in his pack obeying him because he’s an Alpha, he just has to grunt a certain way and they will bow their heads in fear/respect for him. He’s used to control and being listened to, while y/n is human, she’s not going to understand what certain grunts or when his eyes change color mean at times, though she might use context clues to get an idea that he maybe trying to exert his authority over her. But she’s still going to do what she feels is right or natural to her, plus I imagine with her military background and being a ranger, my girl is an independent woman! She knows she strong an capable too. They very much give off Bell and Beast vibes, in their personalities, Eddie is chip btw 😍. So please don’t let anyone discourage or change what you two already had in mind for this fic. I’m glad she’s human and will stay human. They’re so many other fics that have y/n being human but turns into a wolf after Harry bite her, or she was a beta with a dormant omega gene, or she’s an omega that doesn’t shift, etc… and all of those are great too but this is new and different and I’m very much interested in seeing it all play out. You two are such great writers! X

(@fkinavocado here) YES, he is absolutely awakening mate tendencies in her!! and OMGGGG THANK YOU!!!!! cuz honestly that's what we think as well! it's smth unlike what either of us has read before, and we thought it'd be an interesting spin off if y/n was 100% human.

i absolutely love what you touched on there! like YES i'm so glad someone picked up on this!!! harry is so used to everyone obeying him without him even having to say what he wants- just a grunt or a certain look and his kind would know to obey, but y/n not only does not know how to pick up on these queues- but she wouldn't! she's very independent, like you mentioned. she wouldn't just obey his every whim no questions asked. the fact that he can dominate her in his human form is quite telling of their bond. she wouldn't get so floaty and give in to his pleas like that if there wasn't a genuine connection there! but she does stand up to him, she talks back, she is quite sassy- and he loves it. loves how she challenges him. just imagine he'd never once had anyone dare defy him the way she does. he's so gone for her 😅

eddie is chip 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

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this fic is too much fun and neck stabbings aside catra and adora's relationship issues are also just like. so realistic

"neck stabbings aside" SENT me lmao. thank you! a comment picked up on it, but i was really going in... not necessarily a different direction, but yeah, i guess that's the best way i can think to phrase it XD with this fic and a bit how presented them. exploring a different facet, and the topic of respect in relationships, that kind of thing. it's playing off how catra always felt like she was second best - or specifically, she felt like everyone saw her as second best and she was constantly struggling against that.

so far it has been less than 12 hours. that's all i can say.

wouldn't you like to know uwu nothing like, dark tho lol

(spoiler asks below)

i knew that one was going to be divisive but it's been nearly three years since the show ended and at this point, it's overdue for me to explore LOL. i dont think itll ever pop up again in another fic, but definitely fun to do for this one.

this is actually what i was referring to when i said i wanted yall to just read chapter 3 already LMAO. honestly sometipsygnostalgic's art got me thinking about it and then it just Came Up when i was outlining that scene and i was like. well that's staying in now LOL

obviously im a #catradora4life but honestly i find exploring catrapta and scorptra, kinda season one vibes, fun so catra can have some of that fun too, as a treat. for catra and entrapta, i see it as a fuckbuddys thing where they're just having fun and entrapta's lowkey testing out what her sex toys can do when used collaboratively LOL. catra has absolutely said "are you seriously running an experiment while we're in bed?" and entrapta just blinked at her, uncomprehending, because like... of course she is? how is catra just realizing this now?

and for scorpia's part she's just like... "am i supposed to be sleeping with entrapta too? are we all supposed to be sleeping together? im happy to be included!" XD she's not put off by it, even if she has a crush on catra and wishes they were actually seeing each other. scorpia has a better handle in this on the fact that catra isn't interested in a relationship than she did in, say, Beg For Me. obviously she wants more, but she's not deluding herself that they're more right now. that's helped along by the catra and entrapta thing for sure tho LOL

i like a lot of different headcanons for entrapta, though i lean towards "robotfucker" for her usually because like. she fucked that spaceship lmao. but for this fic, i get to have a little treat and she's aromantic (which is part of why adora said she's not worried about entrapta "replacing" her because she assumed it was just sex), so her thing with catra works out really well. Entrapta doesn't care about finding someone to have sex with when her toy collection is as robust as it is, but when something wanders into her life like catra did, it works out for her.

(sidenote, adora found out entrapta is aromantic because she was going on a rant about catra when they were working on Swift Wind together and entrapta made a comment about being glad she won't have to makes sense of something like this for herself because she finds their relationship tangle confusing which like, dont worry everybody aside from them does too LOL)

girl deeeeefinitely has a big toy collection. and yeah, she made some herself XD her fancy toy collection works with the robotfucker thing especially because like. how else do you fuck a robot if not with fancy toys lol. ive had the headcanon about her having a big collection for awhile because of that

I hate reader so much 💀 like all of their actions leave me completely flabbergasted you have that dream about hurting a woman you love (or loved i can’t even tell anymore) because you know you’re a toxic person whos been using and hurting her and immediately after ending that jump straight back into things with another woman. I really want pietro to see reader maybe with yelena and just snap and have a fight and then somewhere in that lets it slip what wanda did cos reader needs to know and i’m interested to see how they react to that tbh i can see if reader does find out then wanda potentially getting the wrong idea like reader only suddenly cares out of pity or something like that. Also yelena is a weird one cos in some ways shes very similar to wanda in the sense that she doesn’t seem to want to give up on reader (genuinely cannot understand why but uno). Yelena surely must know that reader is not good for her (especially not without therapy and lots of it) and there are other/better options. It just seems that yelenas sense of self worth isn’t great either if she’s so willing to keep putting herself through things with reader. I also think if reader really cared about yelena they wouldn’t be perusing anything yet, since they ended things with wanda they haven’t really been alone and not knowing how to be alone seems to be doing more damage than good. Now im gonna talk a bit about wanda, I don’t know how you have me feeling so much sympathy towards a cheater (especially as someone who was cheated on). One thing i wanted to ask is why did wanda cheat? Like i can’t really get my head around it because there didn’t seem to be any problems or sense of unhappiness from her? Like seriously every chapter I’m waiting for a reveal like she was being drugged or blackmailed or something anything cos I can’t understand why. But anyway, im glad wanda is getting therapy finally someone in this fic is it’s about damn time. The dream in the start made me so sad because its so true reader is hurting wanda so much and shes just taking it all because she’s convinced herself it’s justified and she deserves it. Even when she was defending reader against her brother it was just heartbreaking because reader doesn’t deserve that. And like i know she was wrong and she cheated but even then she doesn’t deserve what reader is doing to her using her for sex and being so rough just doesn’t sit right with me at all. Also hearing reader say they wanted to hurt her is sad i was half expecting something saying that they just said that for yelenas sake and deep down they still love her but nope. And at this point i dont know if they should work things out even though i wanted them to at the start. The more i read the more i think reader fucked up more and keeps fucking up and honestly wanda deserves better than giving herself up and letting someone use her. Im not team yelena or team wanda im more team therapy or team make wanda happy 😂

💀 anon, is this you? if not, i hope you assign yourself an emoji cos this is GOLD reaction haha (minor spoilers ahead-wont affect you experience i think)

Reader - Not gonna make an excuse about her actions because Pietro is right. But Delayed-onset PTSD, is showing us the ACTUAL effects of the cheating on R's mental and emotional stability.

Piet - He promised not to tell R, and he will respect his sister's wishes. But... yes, R will find out.

Yelena - I didn't want to say anything about Y being that she's the one who's least fucked up, but to go after someone hard and refuse to give up on someone despite the red flags is also a cause for alarm. R and Y were each other's first loves. R got married. Then miraculously, R got divorced and Y couldn't believe the window opened to The One That Got Away/Love of her life. How do you let that opportunity go? Yelena is stubborn because she grew up with R, she think she still knows R, still knows how to fix her, that she can get better for her in the long run. Don't we all, at one point, chose to stick with someone even tho they are bad for us, because love gave us hope?

Wanda - "we accept the love we think we deserve" as long as Wanda hasn't forgiven herself, she thinks she deserves every bad thing thrown her way. Sometimes people really are genuine remorseful. This is why I questioned my belief if I can forgive cheating (and IFISS and ILGOSS was born)

Back to Reader - someone mentioned Reader is becoming the villain of the story. I kinda lean on that because out of everyone, R is the one who needs therapy, especially because on the surface she seems sane. She IS trying to still be good, to be decent, to give people what they want, and the thing that happened with Wanda was her momentarily giving in to her darkest deepest desires, and snapped out of it, stopped herself further by ghosting Wanda again. But this strategy clearly isn't working anymore, so yeah, therapy for everyone!

whew! I hope you get some insights about this, but as the story unfolds, i hope all the things ive said above will bleed through.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING!

Even more so for sending this reaction. I love reading everyone's thoughts!

A new recap for 2022

Its been a long time coming, but I’ve still been going to SNM for all these years. Now that Tumblr is making it long awaited comeback (Fuck you Twitter) here’s a new entry. 

Wanted to do a mini recap of my show from a week ago because it was so good. Jeff (Speaks) and Camara (Hecate) seriously made the show (I'm somewhere between 180 and 190, I've lost count) one of my top 5. [12:36 PM] It started with Louis and Miguel as PIB and Julia as the singer. I hadn't been since August, so the newer setup in the Manderley was a fresh experience ( I'm not entirely sold on it). I also hadn't seen Louis in the show yet (except for the Halloween parties, but that's a different story). After some reminiscing; Dee, Frost and I were on the first elevator with Nate. We were the last three on the elevator at the end and Nate asked us where we wanted to go. Being old school, none of us answered. "The party it is" he responded. "Strange, I don't recognize any of you, and I never forget a face. They keep me in this box all night long and its fucking filthy." he said as he wiped his finger across the elevator buttons. "Last floor, everybody off". This interaction alone would have made it an amazing night.

There was nothing that caught my eye in the ballroom, so I did my usual tour of the space, stopping by the lobby to clock Porter and then moseying up to 4 to check in on High St. No Speakeasy yet so I went to Malcolms. Zach Martens was on as Malcolm, and I almost chose him, except that Frost had done the ballroom chase (bless his soul I just don't have the energy for that anymore.) Im glad I sodded off, because I got back to the Speakeasy right as Jeff was exiting the 1:1 room. This is somewhat controversial, but when Jeff first started doing Speaks years ago, I wasn't a fan. His interpretation was too off from the loop that I had memorized by heart. His Speakeasy was too aloof, having too much fun in Hecate's service. I'm glad that my opinion has changed over the years, as I think that he and Tony are the current best of the bunch. One more thing that instantly attracted me to the Jeff loop for this evening. Jeff has been my great white whale for Speakeasy (except for Layne and apparently they weren't doing the 1:1) I have never once had the 1:1 with him. There were several times from years ago where I felt he purposely wasn't choosing me (which is a very Speakeasy thing to do). It wasn't personal, I think he liked teasing me along. The very first night I saw him as Porter I had his 1:1 almost instantaneously. I was hoping to rectify that this evening.

I was very fortunate to have about 90 percent of the loop to myself. Jeff did several things I had never seen in a Speakeasy before, all of which blew my mind. When Jeff dissappeared into his room during the card game, I bopped over to Paisley for some sweets and came back to my usual spot in the box corridor to wait for him to emerge from the hidden flap (I love standing here as the black mask on guard in the bar always beckons me to come forward and I never do). When Jeff emerged, he instantly clocked me and HELD OUT HIS HAND. What's this?? He positioned me between the boxes so I could see a tiny sliver of Banquo being murdered and held my shoulders from behind as if Macbeth was getting hanged.

I followed Jeff along the corrugated hallway as we sat in wait for Hecate to harvest her tears. CAMARA! Finally. I hadn't seen her in the role since March. I instantly knew who my second loop would be. While I was still reeling, Jeff did another new thing. He handed me the box that Hecate's locket would soon reside in. Their interaction played out as usual, and Jeff reached for the box when it was time. Camara stared through my soul (if it wasn't Camara, at this point I would have known that Hecate was my second loop)

Though some find it dull, I love Speakeasy's loop during the reset. It's mostly resetting the space during for the next loop, but it's a series of moments that can be filled with individual performances. I have my routine for this segment just as Speaks follows his. (after all it was during this 10 minute section that JWW pulled me into the BW bathroom for a one time only improvised 1:1 about  Grace  many years ago.) Jeff filled each moment with perfect choices, and his interplay with Hecate was superb. When Agnes held up her locket during Hecate,s High st. procession, Jeff moved up to her and got in her face as an act of jealousy that Hecate was paying her attention and not him. When he got on his knees to present the picture of Grace to Hecate, he stared his triumphant pride at Agnes ( Zina this evening)

Jeff arrives back in the Speakeasy for the 1:1, and though there are other people in the room, he notices me and pulls me into the room. The 1:1 was everything I had always imagined it would be  minus the whiskey of course. And I was a bit sad that there was no dancing, as I've heard that Jeffspeaks dances with the women in this moment)  Captain Ahab has found his Moby.

The sexy witch duo with Kristen has an extra charge to it this evening. The Fulton duo with Nando is also fraught with a particular peril I don't usually notice. For his card game, Jeff picks two random white masks and brings them to the cardboard table, where they attempt to pick up on Jeffs non-verbal cues to build a house of cards. It collapses several times, and Jeffs reaction are comic gold. Somehow it gets to a third level about a minute before Agnes will enter. He folds a final card and beckons me over to place it on top. I do ever so gently and the entire thing collapses any way, much to the exacerbation of all. It was a hilarious replacement for the card trick ( I still miss the thrill of winning and getting a shot) and a wonderful way to end a perfect loop. Jeff acknowledges the three of us and shakes my hand. My time with him is over, as I have come back to the moment where I joined him. I wander to the rep bar to wait for Hecate to emerge. [1:14 PM] Camara emerges and screams the most ululating scream I have ever heard to kick off the second loop rave. I am transfixed by her subtle movements at the table, controlling the rave within an inch. She forcibly puts Sexy Witch back on track and then waits for Agnes. I watch the other side of the scene from before, as Jeff waits in the hallway with no helper to hold his box. He notices me as Hecate's loyal follower and nods in recognition, welcoming me into the the familiar brotherhood. I am under Hecate's sway just as he has always been. Hecate pulls another into her layer to send to the Porter ( I am glad, as I get to watch the full loop now)

Camara notices me and plants a kiss on my mask before leaving for her procession. Again, I watch the same scene play out with Speakeasy and Agnes from a different angle. As the table is set for Hecate's dinner, she notices me and maintains eye contact for the enitre sequence. That is until a woman who is entirely too drunk for her own good stumbled up to the dias and sat uninvited into the chair next to Camara. Hecate beckons to her with her knife to get up. No response. Hecate continues. Drunk lady reached out to grab Hecate's fan and gloves and Camara snatches them from her grasp with the speed of a viper striking. Eventually drunky gets the clue and stumbles away, almost tripping into the crowd, only to come stumbling back moments later to sit on the couch behind the scene. Camara pays her no more mind. The lip synch is flawless. She ushers me into the room where I have the first Hecate 1:1 since Covid.  It is Find My Ring, and it is unhinged. I emerge into the apothecary, momentarily thinking that the ring is back in place and that I am compelled to find it. I go upstairs to search in the two or three spots I know the ring used to be. Unsurprisingly, it is not there.

My loop with Hecate is at an end. I head down to the Manderley for some water, and a chat with Miguel; who tells me he is about to sing a song in the middle of the room and that no one will pay attention. I tell him that I will, and watch him perform a loving ballad in Spanish. He is right, as the crowd in the room is particularly drunk and loud. I spend half of my attention on his performance and the other half worrying that the masses will trip over his microphone cord. He finishes and I head back up to 4, catching a bit of Nando's Fulton. I watch his ritual and want to keep following, but he ushers me into the interrogation, where only one other person is waiting, effectively making it a 2:2. I finish the show with Hecate, and know that when she dissappears into her lair that she will emerge on the other side. Going through the rep bar, I walk down to the beaded curtain just as she comes through the beads. She holds out her hand as if she was expecting me and we walk down to watch the murderer hang from Duncan's box.

Okayyyy Im like, so many years late to the Leyren train. Why didn’t anyone ever lead with the fact that Lauren is amazing?! I binged the four seasons that are on Netflix and Im in the middle of 5 but just love Lauren so much. I know her and Leyla weren’t handled the best, but the journey Lauren has been on and the growth?! Sigh. So good. I also love that this was really her only real relationship on the show. I was expecting her to get back with the pt guy or of course Floyd, and I’m just so glad it didn’t happen. I was super satisfied with her ending even though I secretly headcanon that leyla comes back and fights for her once the money shit isn’t an issue. I also love that when they were together, they just, were. It wasn’t a thing. I just went in so negative after seeing everybody’s opinions and I should have formed my own. Anyways I just went on a rant but wanted to pop in and say thanks for introducing me to them and for the gifs!

Haha, it was always mentioned that Lauren was amazing! It was a great part of the Leyren arc that it gave us another side to see of Lauren that was so nice to see.

I think it probably does make a difference for people who got into or returned to the show for Leyren, to see the highs of s3a and then see just what decisions they were making, season after season, hiatus after hiatus, versus coming in with low expectations already and having them exceeded.

Glad you enjoyed it, you should always form your own opinions! I was literally just having a convo with a friend about how it's not really been helpful to my enjoyment of media to take thing so seriously and see all the BTS info and discourse and reviews. Of course it's impossible with just how much media there is now to not get at least some info to filter out what we might like, plus part of what I enjoy about something I like is the communal experience, but there should be a middle ground.

RID 🫶🫶 HOW ARE YOU???

i hope you are having an AMAZING DAY! ❤️ the weather here is so good, im so happy :)

okay SUPER long tea alert; my friends recently peer pressured (not rlly) me into downloading tinder 🤭 ive always been pretty against tinder bc i wanna meet my soulmate irl and ppl on tinder tend to be pretty thirsty (not all, but most) 🤷‍♀️

but anyways, I FEEL CONFLICTED!! this one (who is so incredibly hot may i add 🤭) started texting me and oh god, hes so smooth. he teases a little and we haven't been texting long but he asked me out on a date for next friday! BUT THEN!!! this other guy, who is def more sweeter, also asked to get coffee with me this week. i said yes to both but idk I FEEL GUILTY! 🧍‍♀️ im a loyal girl and i keep having to remind myself that im single and dating like this okay... but idk it just feels strange? im sure im overthinking it, but god im nervous!!

also ive never been on an official date before (which makes this more nerve wracking😔) ive been on like "dates" but nothing where the guy intentionally says that he wants to take me out on a date 🧍‍♀️the last time i was about to go on a date, the man pretty much cancelled and never rescheduled, so i feel nervous even being excited about it bc what if they cancel?? (im def overthinking, i genuinely cant help it 💀)

but anyways, thats my current dilemma, any advice would help!!! i hope you are well and PLEASE take ur time w cmi!!! 🙏 i saw a couple of asks of ppl asking u to rush or work on two chapters at once... please dont listen! thats where burnout comes from! take your time (i will literally wait 10 years for another chapter) 🫡

- wife from war anon 💂‍♀️

BABE HELLO !!!! <3 i'm okay, just weirdly tired !! kinda glad uni is starting soon but also sad bc i won't be able to be here as much anymore 😔 but yes, the weather has gotten better here, too !! i saw the sun today 🥺

girl, the tea you just spilled has me dead 😭 okay listen, most important thing first: i was on tinder for over a year and the people on there are insane – some would fake their age, others would use someone else's pictures. i could dive into my strange ass tinder experience but 💀 next time lmaoo. but what i wanna say is – make sure those guys are who they say they are! and meet in a very public place, just in case... let someone know that you're on that date, just to be sure, okay??

BUT MOVING ON. LISTEN. two guys that you're vibing with? that's amazing 😭 it's absolutely okay to meet both, that's literally what tinder is for! if it makes you feel better, you could let the guys know that you've been meeting others, too, as friends/casually? but since you're not with any of them, it's fine to get to know people. you might even end up with new friends :D i honestly do hope though, that they don't cancel, reschedule or hurt you, or i'll start rolling up my sleeves lol

keep things casual for now! if any of them does end up cancelling, remember you're better than this 😌 and you might even find up someone better later! that's okay, dating apps are like that :') but seriously, don't feel guilty, go with the flow and have fun... and definitely lmk how things played out >:)

yesss, i'll take my time for sure! i just outlined that jk chapter, but i only work on it when i feel like it. i started rereading the series today to have a better overview of it, and got to our beloved chapter lights hehehe but yeah. definitely working at my own pace. thank you, babe. it'll be a ride <333