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whimsyprinx · 1 year

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once again: sorry for being depresh on main again, it’s been a month, pms, my body being mean, overstimulation, generally I just don’t like life or myself so like lots and lots contributing to me wanting to cry

#whimsy whispers #I’m being so brave by not crying #also before anyone tells me it’s okay to cry I know and ily but if I cry now idk if I’ll be able to stop #that’s the unfortunate thing about me and crying I feel like I open a floodgate #and then the despair is welcomed into my life and the crying doesn’t cease #like I’ve been fairly normal lately and I’d been a despair constantly crying wreck since December prior so I’m clinging to what little #sanity I have rn #which isn’t much I’m not doing the best again but it’s still better than like last month

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apollos-boyfriend · 2 years

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welcome to the extended sparklez family tree, aka for the love of god someone stop the mcyts from creating more family dynamics before this becomes a circle

#icarus speaks #if i missed any it’s bc it’s literally 4 am akfjskf #other notes:#lizzie is not linked w the sibling line to jimmy #bc i am tired #and connecting her means connecting joel #which means connecting etho and bdubs and the entire goddamn polycule #and i do NOT have room nor sanity for that rn 😭#sparklez family tree

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icantdothistodaybruh · 8 months

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this fuckin killed me today

#don't ask me questions I don't have the answers to #loosing last bits of my sanity rn #эх шарик... я как и ты был на цепи..

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shoko-ism · 7 months

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Thinking about girl dad Gojo.....him being absolutely whipped for his darling baby, him playing dress up and letting his sweet babe paint his nails pink cuz she said 'pink suits you, dada'.....him bringing desserts from his 'trips' to share with you and your child......gojo joining his baby girl for a tes party with her plushies, Mr. Snuggles and Mr. Owlie, etc.....him pointing out his pinky as he drinks the 'tea' his daughter poured out for him as she wants him to follow proper tea party manners.....Gojo watching Disney movies with her and singing along with her in off-key just to annoy her a bit.....Gojo crying with her when Nemo gets separated from his dad, not being able to imagine what he'd do if he ever loses his baby....Gojo carrying his princess to her room once she's out cold, getting her all settled in bed and leaving her to sleep after giving her a soft kiss on the forehead, murmuring a soft 'I love you' to her.....Gojo being forever grateful to you for blessing him with a baby girl to love and cherish.....Gojo calling both of you 'his girls' and just being a doting, gentle father and a protective, loving husband <3

#gojo x reader #gojo satoru #jjk gojo #jjk x reader #gojo saturo #jujutsu gojo #jjk fluff #gojo satoru fluff #gojo fluff #jujutsu kaisen fluff #can you tell how whipped i am for this man rn???#esp after jjk 236 #i need him to have a happy ending pls ;-;#like i need Gojo to happy and flourishing for my own sanity </3 #🍒.gojo satoru #🧿.jjk #💌.cellie writes

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rayssion · 4 months

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Finished watching she-ra and the princesses of power like two hours ago and ever since I've been just scrolling through Pinterest, having an existential crisis....

#like that's it???#it's over????#i refuse #I'm literally heading to ao3 rn #I need more #and yeah I need a new show to deplete my sanity more #so I'm starting voltron #I already ship klance lol I have tons of fanarts in a board under their name #she ra spop #she ra and the princesses of power #she ra

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synthshenanigans · 5 months

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Finally has been a full year since I started listening

Fuckin hate that guy eugh

#/j #but anyway I've finally been jashing for a year #i wasn't fully kidnapped into it yet but by like dec 20th-23rd i had his VoaC cover on loop #which was annoying to do cos there was no spotify & the youtube app wouldn't let me loop videos #so everytime i finished the song i had to reset the vid myself #my sanity was truly saved by these songs being on Spotify #same goes for his moss cover too #bro of i had last.fm then i would have SO much more counts for those two songs #the bidding too #oh fun fact. i made a very rough sketch of an OC of mine using his TME video & HMS ideas in general #but i was stupid apparently an swapped heart & souls colors which looks cursed now to me #also whats funny is that ibis paint says i started the art on Mar 1st. Which is literally the day before TfaR & TMR an the rest came out #good timing me lol #i need to stop ranting sm in these tags i swear #chonny jash #moss post #hey jash what if you like. post the next power hour today. gift for listening for like 82000 minutes or whatever my Spotify wrapped was /j #don't actually i wanna sleep #speaking of. I should go do that. its like 3am rn

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nilovalentine · 10 months

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party in my current save. everyone ended up with spears. im playing ragnvaldr in a way so antithetical to his character its funny. all he knows is cast loving whispers transmute water to wine and lie. legarde cant even use leg sweep because you cant do it with two handed weapons and i keep forgetting to give him a different weapon. cahara had a break down right as the crow mauler spawned and the crow mauler proceeded to very politely wait for him to calm down before chasing us. this is my best run so far.

#fear and hunger #funger #ragnvaldr #le'garde #cahara #moonless #after the low sanity cutscene with cahara the crow mauler proceeded to stare at a wall and get lost. i almost feel bad for the guy #i also managed to get black orb thru a random scroll on rag but since i didnt have transmutation and i was low on mind items its unused rn #spear gang #my posts #my art

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arolesbianism · 5 months

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Some very lazy concept doodles for my swap au Wendy

#keese draws #don’t starve together #dst #dst Wendy #wendy carter #I need to make a tag for this au but I’m lazy #anyways sorry if the scribbles are incomprehensive idk what I was on abt either tbh #well ok most of it is just mechanics I’ve talked abt before but yknow #oh and the bottom right doodle is abt how wickerbottom’s wereghost form performs the haunt action on hauntable objects with higher chances #of whatever effects meaning that given enough trees technically you could use her for living log farming #and due to wendy’s fuel mechanic living logs are quite valuable since they’re one of the few things that effect sanity when burned #they also slow sanity drain significantly when burned which is nice for the guy who doesn’t have a lot of sanity options #wurts are also a good living log soruce but I didn’t want to design her rn so rip wurt #she’s a lil baby tree guard sorta #well she basically just Is a tree guard but with a irredecent gem in her head #webber created her because he was lonely rip #he also was the one who accidentally got wendy killed and then made wendy robot body #wendy predictably has a lot of angsting to do abt that especially since it came with significant memory loss #and abby doesn’t die in this au so she’s also there and is deep in denial lol

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omoghouls · 1 month

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Old man piss old man piss old man piss

#bunny rambles #x #omorashi #it's the only thing keeping my sanity rn #but ofc i don't have the concentration abilities rn to draw

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toboddly · 2 years

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nobody does it like sg1. i love them all sm <3

#stargate sg1 #stargate #spook edits #jack o'neill #daniel jackson #sam carter #teal'c #general hammond #janet fraiser #jonas quinn #vala mal doran #cam mitchell #cameron mitchell #samantha carter #EDGE OF MY SANITY RN #ITS NEARLY 4AM #I HAVE SPENT IDK LIKE 5 HOUR ON THIS #aaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuu

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clits-and-clips · 24 days

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Since writing the affirmations and starting manifestation again, I've actually been in a much better headspace. It's crazy how things align, and you end up where you need to be, especially through pain

#txt #have been reading the affirmations every day twice a day sometimes #doing my intentions and manifesting what i wsnt #which is mainly independence #also a good relationship with my ex from here #mainly stuff for me tho #and the full moon on Wednesday which is in scorpio which is his sun sign #will be a big release and maybe i can let go a bit or a lot lol #i need to move on and focus on myself and what i want in life and doing it all on my own #with support obviously but ive never been fully independent and im so ready for the blessings and the open doors #i dont know if ill truly ever be over him but i have to try for my own sanity at this point #i dont want to manifest anything selfish like him coming back to me because it probably wont happen anyway lmao #i hope i dont sound crazy lmao but coming back into my spiritual journey is definitely what i need #connecting with myself and my purpose feels like the only thing i can do rn #have a driving lesson tomorrow but in all honesty i could just go do the test and pass cause ive been driving forever and im good at it #just need to practice certain things but im nearly there! so close i can feel it and see it #anyway i hope i can keep this energy up and continue to head in a positive direction because it feels really good #if i need to cry about him and the loss then i will but im not going to dwell on it too much #i just need to take it as a lesson and let it go :)#cause at the end of the day i really did lead myself here whether it was his choice to end it or not #blah

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moregraceful · 3 days

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Photos: 1. Blossoms on I think the plum tree, taken on film; 2. Jake Oettinger grappling with Miro Heiskanen while Jason Robertson and Roope Hintz look on; 3. Flowers and shadows at midnight.

#having like eight different mental breakdowns rolled into one atm and like don't even know how to talk about them #like where do i start. it started eight months ago. it started two years ago. it started 35 years #ago.#i said i would have * done by tonight bc it would open up some job opportunities but every time i look at google docs i scream #i may need to handwrite it #and people at * being like oh you look tired. well i am tired. you people make me very tired. but you do not care #and it's like how much of this was preventable vs how much is just someone pulling out that last loadbearing block in the jenga tower of my #sanity and now it's all falling down #i made a list last night to compare things that would make me sad about doing * vs things that fill me with hope and curiosity and quiet joy #the hope/curiosity/quiet joys list was a lot longer #i swear every third text message i send beryl is like hi. i'm spiralling. again. but then i'll say to someone else and theyre like wow have #you tried not spiraling?#well i love to do that personally but every time i try something massively destabilizing happens #it's so interesting (it's not interesting)#angela sent a wonderful prompt about sleep deprived demon summoning #and being as i am on that shit i thought ok what if cale summons a demon due to sleep deprivation #but the demon is simply his younger self. happier #less ground down. more bright-eyed. easier to smile. doesn't feel the weight of expectation #voice like you hear in a recording of yourself five years ago and it's you but it's not you #it's him but it's not him because it's also a little evil. what if you hadn't looked the other way #what if you said something. what if you found your voice. what if you let your heart grow open rather than grow cold.#the demon of a cale who is less serious and more open less selfish and more giving #and he calls devon in the night and devon ends up at his house with two cales the one he loves and the one he always wishes he'd known #before the nhl ground it out of him #and then devon has to decide who does he keep the now cale he loves or the old happier gentler cale #and as i was contemplating thaf i thought hm. it's possible i'm sublimating some things there #like i am to be clear a way happier and more well-adjusted person overall than i was five years ago #but rn i'm also an animal with its leg in a trap growing increasingly desperate and frantic #fresno oilers.txt

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sodrippy · 1 month

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trying to explain to my parents how my childhood affected me while also lying that it wasnt their fault is so. what a waste of fucking time. i should be at the club getting railed instead fuck this shit

#this is so insane i would pay $50000 to be anywhere else #i need to be anywhere else. actually no they need to go away. fuck this!!!!!!#i feel like shit no matter what like ok either i lie and they feel ok but i feel dogshit for taking blame i shouldnt #or im honest and have to endure the resulting guilt trip and thus feel even worse #like. cool. why dont i just kill myself in front of you oh wait that'll compound the fucking guilt trip innit!#anyway. so maybe ill never get over the parental issues. fucking lol.#gripping onto sanity w my fucking teeth rn i need to think about. morse code for three hours to become a little bit normal again.#jesus fucking christ.#every time i think oh ive matured ive mellowed im better now #maybe its just a sign that the things that fucked me up as a kid Were real after all......hm

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averlym · 8 months

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a word to the wise sometimes the only true rest is looking beyond what you thought was success

so true! adamandi is full of wise advice such as this, including: "and you'll never feel better if you - fucking die- you stupid ass!"

#these are all very good reminders. especially during exam season (i am suffering. but at least i'm working on art coursework so it's #suffering i love.) guys i have maybe a bit too many thoughts on ambrose. sculpture. and ceramics. and studio. in my art student 3d era rn #tmr it's black and white 2d so it's vincent vibes instead... anyways. in my breaks i ended up brainstorming more doodles again so..#anywaysndhfnfjfhf sorry to detract! but like these two quotes are holding my sanity intact i think.#at this point even without listening to the live soundtrack it sounds in my head so. lasting impressions i guess. every time i get anxious #' you'll never get better if you fucking die'' sounds in my head and i go ''ah yes there's a whole life outside''#continuing this ramble you ever think how vincent went from you'll never get better if you fucking die to '' first i chose my friend #ambrose for my debut :DD'' realll quick. or also how this principle worked for when he was talking to ambrose about it and then. for himself #he didn't want to get better. he wanted quincy to get better and so '' you'll never get better if you die'' held through to the end #it just wasn't a mentality that saved him... god that screws me up. so many thoughts.#anyways anon!!!! thank you for sending this :3 made my day <33 very vibes #going to put the soundtrack on and power through studio again.. :3 adamandi asks are welcomed ngl teehee #ask me stuff???#on another note sometimes it's so surreal that actors are real people... i guess the magic of theatre is that it makes the characters come #to life.. like i believe actors are real. and deserve to be treated like people. for the record. but also when consuming media and it's the #suspension of disbelief? these are Real Characters i can't believe that someone who isn't them is making these sounds and doing these things #it's so insane. incredible. idk i just have very high admiration for the cast and idk how i got here even... akshdjdhdf #<blinks> they did such a good job akdhdnfhfbgfhff ok bye #first time i swear in the actual post on this blog and not in the tags... of course

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wanderingchocolateeclair · 24 days

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It is ectoloader appreciation hours in this house today, my friends.

If anyone has literally anything or thoughts for them at any time, please, this is a gentle invitation to slide things into my inbox or dms or anything- /lh

#ectoloader #bnha #please help theyre all I can think about right now #I love them so much but oh my god #this is an invitation to anyone who has anything for them any thoughts or anything please slide things my way #I’m.#going to go feral #I just need to ramble about these teacher gays and aaaueghrhdhshfhshfjdh #I’m going insane #I have college advisory shit to plan out and all I can think about is #’hee hoo little old gays doing their little old things and being adorable’#hhhhhhhhh #but also masquerade au ectoloader are on brain HARD rn and I think I need to get them OUT for my own sanity

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suguwu · 7 months

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sea shanties sung by women hit different

#bee chats #yes i am once again sea shanty posting #u have no idea how much i am leaning on sea shanties rn for my sanity

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