#same weight even tho they are all in the same stage of life so it def feels intentional to have it be will&mike ..
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HELLO??? WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT THIS MASTERPIECE??? especially the last line holy shit im scared yet excited at the same time 😬😬
YANDERE! AQUAMARINE HOSHINO x REINCARNATED! READER x YANDERE! RUBY
Guess I gotta do a full fic about it huh. Here we go. Link to previous part in the ask!
tw/cw: yandere themes, gaslight tactics courtesy of aqua, girlkeep tactics courtesy of ruby, girlboss [y/n]. mentions of suicide. reader is gn but gets described as beautiful.
is this really a yandere fic when both the twins are canonically insane tho-
IT WAS SAID THAT DURING THE NIGHT OF YOUR BIRTH THE SUN WAS AT ITS HIGHEST POINT AND FULLEST BLOOM.
Its rays buried humanity under a blanket of heat and devastation. Fortunetellers would wax on and on of the disasters you would soon bring upon the world.
That was your experience in your first life.
Many could only wish of being born to a worldwide pop-star, but to you it was a reality. You resented those that vied for your place. How could they romanticize such a life when every single day was torture for you. Some predicted you to be world-class singer before your first cry. People knew you before you could even speak to them. Everyone already idolized you, expected you to do great things before you’d even learn the alphabet.
The pressure had already been insurmountable the moment you took your first breath.
Your second life was terrifying to say the least. It didn’t matter that way you died before, just the thought of experiencing the same motions again frightened you to your bones.
And so you pretended. A shining star to a dim moon that barely reflected any light. Ever so meticulously making sure none knew of your so called genius. The last thing you wanted was to be labeled a prodigy even with the more lax nature of your new family.
But art will always call to you, a sunflower drawn to its source of energy.
You kept everything as lowkey as you could, reconnected with contacts you knew would keep their mouth shut, and even kept your identity away from prying eyes.
To the world you were just this masked musician that was oddly reminiscent of their previous luminescence.
You were satisfied with that life. Fame wasn’t something you agonized about or wished for. But now that veil had been taken away, it’s as if everything was crashing down yet again. Emails, messages and articles about your success as a young star was beginning to show its true weight. Stress began accumulating further and further as you had distanced yourself from your family and threw yourself to work as a distraction.
On one such ‘productive’ night, you were met with a face you didn’t expect.
“Aqua-niisama! Nice seeing you here. Thought you would be staying at that director’s place for the night—“
“Why didn’t you tell me? Didn’t you promise to tell me everything? Don’t you trust me?”
Aquamarine had this knack of being utterly terrifying without meaning to. He had the talent to frighten at a glance. His beautiful sea-like eyes turn dull, murky. Capturing all the light, and drowning you in the same pressure your old family would throw you under repeatedly.
With his arms caging you between his form and the wall, you knew there was no escaping this. So in spite of the crippling anxiety, you gulp it do
“I wasn’t confident enough with my skills. Your mom is the Ai Hoshino and Ruby is so talented I—“
He lowered his face, nestled it right beside yours. You could swear he was breathing in your scent. “You looked anything but ‘not confident’ up on the stage.”
“Liar.” His hands then moved from the wall to encircle themselves around your body; his face to your the top of your head and nose between your hair. Yet even in this tight embrace you still felt chills down your spine. “I scare you don’t I? You were worried that I would stop you like I did with her.”
“Yes.”
“I’m sorry. I’m a terrible brother.”
“No, I understand you. You just wanted to keep her safe and I—“
“Not for that.” He pushed himself away for a couple of moments, and for that short amount of time you were ashamed to say that you felt utterly relieved until— “This.”
— he kissed you.
You’ve seen Aqua kiss Akane before. Both on and out of camera. You respected their relationship despite knowing of how unhealthy it truly is. They’d eventually break up and things would go smoothly you thought.
Pfft, as if. You knew shit would hit the fan. You were just too much of a coward to get in his way. Akane could suffer for all you care, she chose to date your psychopath of an adoptive brother anyways.
But you didn’t expect him to fall for you.
He never seem interested. Despite your mother telling you time and time again that Aqua cared deeply about you, you just couldn’t see it.
He was the deep, dark ocean. You were at the highest point of the sky, sailing across the cosmic sea. There was no way you two could meet eye to eye much less love normally.
You did the only thing your body could muster at the moment and slapped him.
“You’re right. You are a horrid brother.”
As you ran away, sobbing, Aqua couldn’t help but feel aroused.
Oh, how charming you looked with tears streaking down your cheeks.
It felt like hours when you first started crying nonstop. You never cried in your original life. You had no time or energy to. You never expected that your second, mundane life would be the one that shattered you.
And shattered you it did. You felt sorry for the future you who had to wash off all the tears and snot on your pillows and bedsheets, but it had to be done. You knew if you didn’t let it all out that day it’d happen sooner or later at a more inconvenient time.
Aqua only entered once to leave a tissue box and water bottle before he left. The sounds of typing outside of your room never ceased however, indicating he never actually went too far.
Ruby arrived far earlier than you expected as well. Her schedule that day should have had her busy til midnight but you had the feeling Aqua told her what he’d done.
“Ruby-nee—“
“Ssshhh…” Ruby silenced you with a kiss to the forehead.
“Why would he do that— he - he has a girlfriend.” You stuttered and hiccuped throughout your speech, still crying as hard as you did back then.
“Do you really think he loves her?”
“No.”
“But that isn’t what you’re worried about isn’t it?”
Ruby brought you up to her shoulder, massaging your back in a circular motion. “Trust me, nothing will change. He loves you very much. We both love you. I’m just sorry we didn’t make you feel comfortable enough to share your passion with us. You’re amazing [Y/N] in every shape, way or form. You don’t have to be the brightest to the world, you have no obligation to.”
“To us you’re already perfect.”
You never knew she had the capability to be this comforting in a mature sort of way. She always radiated a loud vibration; refreshing most of the time, though it did get tiring.
Never have you been afforded this kind of consolation. It was always you against the world. Being reminded that there are other stars in the sky beside you gave you a strange sense of solace. An odd variety of relief borne out of being insignificant in the sky.
“This incident just means he loves you in a different way alright?”
“But what about Aka-neesama?”
“I’ll talk to him about it.”
“You should thank me. I left them all vulnerable for you.” Aqua spoke, his right hand quickly moved across his laptop’s keyboard and his left held a can of Monster.
“You felt it too didn’t you?” Ruby exhaled. It took a while to get you to lull you into sleep; a necessary step to have the conversation she was partaking in.
“Yeah. . . I did.” Aqua took a sip from his drink, his starry eyes laser focused on the recording of your performance. He had set up several fan accounts and gotten footage from all sorts of angles. He couldn’t wait for your next stage. May it be from sheer excitement or the caffeine in his blood, but the man was absolutely shaking all over over in anticipation. “We have a second chance, don’t mess things up.”
“I should be saying that to you. Break up with Akane by next week. And be careful with how forward you are with your feelings.”
“Already done.” Aqua held up his phone without breaking moving his head at all, in his phone were a few texts between him and a panicking Akane. “and no promises”
Ruby sighed one last time that night, leaning her head back to your bedroom door. “. . . You were right.”
“Hm?”
Both of her eye’s stars hard turn tar black, a blush covered her cheeks.
“[Y/N] does look enticing when they cry.”
#more sadist yun era posts because yes#oshi no ko#yandere#yandere x reader#yandere imagine#yandere aquamarine#yandere ruby#yandere oshi no ko#yandere oshi no ko x reader#yandere fic#yandere x you#yandere oshi no ko reader insert#reader insert#aquamarine x reader#ruby x reader#yandere aquamarine x reader#yandere ruby x reader#aquamarine hoshino#ruby hoshino
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Bllk boys with a short s/o hc ♢
Word count : 900+
Genre:Fluff!
Featuring: Nagi Seishiro, Reo Mikage, Rin Itoshi, Bachira Meguru, Isagi Yoichi
Warning: some swearing
Notes: small hc for today! let me know if i should add more characters :)
if you like my stuff here is my masterlist for more!
All Characters Aged Up/ Not Proofread
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Nagi Seishiro
Makes fun of you and DOES NOT HOLD BACK. He would be the type to make dad jokes about it too. "I hope the next stage of your life comes with a ladder.” And then actually balls his eyes laughing Although you and Reo never found his jokes funny
He would also be the type of person to hold something you want like your phone up to where you can’t reach just cause he finds it cute and funny or if you’re not giving him enough attention “GIVE ME MY PHONE BACK SEI” “no its being annoying … you’ve been on it for ages can i have you're attention now?”
Although he can find it bothersome sometimes, he loves it when you ask for his help to reach things that you can’t get to sometimes He would purposely put stuff that you normally use on the top shelf just so you would ask for his help
He obviously finds your height to be adorable. When you go on your tippy toes to hug or kiss him he finds it very cute. He will continue to make fun of you though
If you’re taking too long to do anything like getting ready he would just put you over his shoulder and walk away. Would find it cute when you start hitting his back to let you down since it doesn’t hurt at all
Would be the type of person to lean his arm or head on your head. But then forget he’s probably double your height and weight and then you both fall over
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Reo Mikage
Would find you’re height very adorable and would carry you bridal style just cause he likes your flustered reaction to it
Would rest his chin on yours when you guys are in public. He would also be very protective of you when in public, he’d always be next to you or holding your hand
Would be a tease but not as bad as Nagi. “ You’re so cute” or “aww does someone need help reaching it?” But that’s as much as he would go about teasing since he doesn’t want you too angry at him
Makes him super happy to feel wanted/needed for something even if its just to help you reach something
Would carry you bridal style or over his shoulder when he brings you to bed<3333
Would MELT at the sight of you on your tippy toes to kiss him or to try to grab something
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Bachira Meguru
Probably wouldn’t have noticed since he’s not as tall as the others until you asked him for help to grab something
Then would tease the ever living shit out of you. Like when you want to give him a kiss but you can’t reach his face so he will tease you and not bend down so you have to try to pull him down(obviously doesn’t work until he gives in)
Also would give him a huge ego boost whenever he is reminded of the height difference
Would kiss you on your head or pick you up and spin you around <3333
Would also hug you from behind all the time!
He would also forget that you’re smaller sometimes so he would accidentally put all of his weight onto of you when he goes to cuddles
Makes him so happy being the big spoon whilst you guys cuddle, he engulfs you in a hug where as you’re too small to do the same. Its something he would tease you about as well
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Rin Itoshi
Honestly wouldn’t care too much. But he does find it cute, he would NEVER say anything about it tho
Like Nagi, would take your stuff and just hold it above your head to tease you or to stop you from annoying him
Would probably tell you to buy a stool/small ladder so you can stop asking for his help all the time HAHAHAHA
Would purposely put stuff that you use normally on the top shelf especially whilst you guys are arguing so you’re forced to talk to him so you guys can make up<33
Is like the fucking titan wall compared to you. So he gives off scary bf x cute gf vibes in public. You would NEVER be hit on by another man with Rin around, he would terrify everyone around him.
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Isagi Yoichi
Finds it so cute that he can barely function sometimes
Again would boost his ego a bit and feel very loved and needed at the fact that you need help from him<3
Would also be super protective and be constantly holding your hand or your waist
Would always give you forehead kisses and would be flustered when you try to give him a kiss but is too short to reach<333
Would also hug you from behind with his chin on your head whilst you’re doing stuff
Would tease you a little but moving his face away from a kiss but then he would give in like 5 seconds later
Would love being the big spoon cause he loves the feeling of him being bigger than you and finds it really cute when you try to be the big spoon since you don’t cover much of him
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#blue lock hcs#bllk#blue lock#anime#blue lock manga#itoshi rin#isagi headcanons#isagi imagines#isagi fluff#bachira hcs#bachira imagines#bllk bachira#reo mikage#reo headcanons#reo x y/n#nagi seshiro#nagi x y/n#rin fluff#blue lock sae itoshi
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well, @brandinotbroke just gave my ego the hugest boost with this tag game! I really shouldn't play this while in a bad mood tho :p
What’s your favourite sims death? I would have to say...probably flies. Never had it happen in my game (naturally), tho
2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? 4t2 maxis match conversions, because it's gross and ugly :p No, but for real, I like all cc. People put a lot of time and love into what they create/convert/retexture/recolor. I think that should be recognized.
3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? No...who does that?
4. Do you use move objects? Yes, kind of have to sometimes!
5. Favorite mod? I had to go into my main save for this one haha. I'd say...all the anti-corruption mods. And to piggy back off of brandinotbroke, ACR! The rest I could probably live without if I could ever sort my folder. Oh, also, one mod I'd really like to give a try is Story Progression by LazyDuchess.
6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? First purchased was Christmas 2005. My parents gifted me Sims 2 and then my birthday a month later I got University, I believe. I should show you all the video of me opening it and running off to play haha. First played was, I wanna say Urbz! and Bustin' Out. We would rent those from the video store.
7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? Alive. I recently found out my IRL BFF pronounces it as Living. I've known her almost 20 years and feel like I don't know her anymore 😅
8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? Rhiannon, one of my model sims, but all 4 of my models are my favorite. I really should put Rhiannon as a townie in my uberhood. She deserves a life outside of posing.
9. Have you made a simself? Yes, like 18 years ago lol. Ended up corrupting the hood trying to move me with my 10 same face kids to a new neighborhood. I've really enjoyed the premade sims ever since.
10. What sim traits do you give yourself? of sims 3 traits: absent-minded, light sleeper, brooding, over-emotional, nurturing, workaholic, frugal
11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? TS4's #13 - Honey Blond
12. Favorite EA hair? probably aflongsimple or affuzzylongep
13. Favorite life stage? oh gosh... probably adult in any game lol
14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? gameplay, I'll let @plumbtales and @kestrelteens do the building and inspo!
15. Are you a CC creator? I don't think I've created anything myself. I've converted a ton of stuff tho! I'd love to create something, but textures are so difficult for my brain to understand. I commend those who retexture!
16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? Yeah! Baby Gang! lol, not like we do anything other than play online pvp games and share cc wips
17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) 2 is my ultimate, though I'd love to dive back into Sims 3
18. Do you have any sims merch? Maybe someday @microscotch and I can make something palpable
19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? Not gameplay (yet).
20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? Well, I had dial up internet until about 2010 so... figure that one out haha. But yeah, I was a semi-realistic kind of girl up until about... 2020? 2021? when i made the switch to 4t2. Still working on becoming completely 4t2.
21. What’s your Origin ID? n/a lmao
22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? Oh gosh, there's too many. All my mutuals, I love ya and your cc! Even some people who are not mutuals with me are my absolute favorite. I could never choose haha.
23. How long have you had a simblr? I think I just had my 2 year anniversary.
24. How do you edit your pictures? I recently commissioned the Queen of Renders ™ @microscotch to take preview pics for me while i was out of town lol. She also made me a photoshop template as well. (Go get a commission, she's having a sale right now 😉) For gameplay, I let reshade do the work for me and crop/size it to 700x934
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? Brandinotbroke gave the best answer haha. I honestly don't know what kit EA can come up with next
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? For Sims 2, probably Nightlife. The first 3 EPs, honestly. Sims 3 has to be Ambitions and Generations. Idk about Sims 4 as most I've played is about 2 hours in Strangerville as the Beakers.
Gonna tag baby gang, feel free to ignore!
@microscotch @tvickiesims @lordcrumps @simsisit
thank you again to brandinotbroke for making my day, my week, my month and maybe even my year.
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sims tag
i got tagged by @akitasimblr & @wastelandwhisperer ❤️
1. What’s your favourite sims death? death by flies!
2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? maxis mix! I like alpha-y clothes but mm hairs
3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? nope
4. Do you use move objects? it’s permanently turned on in my game thanks mccc
5. Favorite mod? oof this is hard i like the health, eye care, and dental mods those add some fun little gameplay things
6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? i got get to work, cool kitchen, and dine out all at the same time
7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? LIVing idk why lol i think it’s aLIVE but i say the opposite
8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? you want me to choose!? Ugh idk Ce is one of my fav ocs
9. Have you made a simself? I do kinda 1 & 2
10. What sim traits do you give yourself? loaded question lol. geek, clumsy, animal enthusiast, loves the outdoors, and outgoing
11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? ooo the red is nice but the new neutral dusty white swatch is my fav
12. Favorite EA hair? i literally dont know 😭
13. Favorite life stage? i play with YA the most but probably infants or toddlers
14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? i mean i mostly do gameplay but i will be in the mood to build from time to time its only residential tho i cant make a community lot at all
15. Are you a CC creator? i have made a few recolors for personal use but thats really it. ive made conversions too but nothing ive released or plan too unless i get more free time
16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? lol yeah i have simblr friends ive been SUPER inactive tho lol
17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) 3 is probably my fav but i really do enjoy 4. 2 will always amazing that’s how i got introduced and i will always love it
18. Do you have any sims merch? not that i can think of
19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? nope
20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? I USED TO USE ALPHA HAIR. thats all thats how its changed. i went really mm after the alpha hair and now ive been more mix the last few years
21. What’s your Origin ID? oh um wileyfern i think i dont actually know
22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? lol uhh too many
23. How long have you had a simblr? 2017?? maybe 16. it was active in spurts when i first started
24. How do you edit your pictures? RESHADE, lol that does all the work. oil paint, smart sharpen, and increase/decrease brightness when needed
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? at this point i dont even know. horseys please ❤️ just more worlds actually thats what i want
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? island living, cottage living, uhh idk i like a lot of them
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sims get to know me tag !!
thank you sm @duusheen for tagging me 🥹💛
1. What’s your favourite sims death? cowplant lmao
2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? I like maxis mix!
3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? no
4. Do you use move objects? I can't build without it 😅
5. Favorite mod? this is super tough but I couldn't play without mccc and ui cheats!
6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? outdoor retreat!
7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? I feel like it's changed so many times throughout the years but lately it's been exclusively LIVing
8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? a sim called Nex that I've never shared and Elowen! ofc lucine and flourish too but they're dnd characters before they are sims 😅
9. Have you made a simself? I did yearsss ago but she looks absolutely nothing like me lmao. I do kinda wanna try again tho?
10. What sim traits do you give yourself? I'm picking 5 bc that's how it should be in sims 4 *cough cough* family oriented, hopeless romantic, animal lover, geek, and socially awkward! I know some of those are sims 3 traits but its ok 😭
11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? red and green! I have to resist the urge to give all my sims bright red hair 🫶 I love super dark black hair but it's such a hit or miss whether the swatch is gonna be gray, blue, or pitch black
12. Favorite EA hair? off the top of my head, I love the one we got with that sdx drop with the ombre roots and like 3 different high school years ones lol
13. Favorite life stage? I love infants bc 🥹🥹 but also teens and YA! even tho teens and young adults are pretty much the same 😐 it's one of the best parts of legacies when a child ages up into a teen!
14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? gameplay and cas! I'm not great at building and only do it when I need to but creating characters and playing with families are my fav <3
15. Are you a CC creator? no lmao. I would like to make some more recolors but I only ever make them for personal use! maybe one day I'll release some 🤔
16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? I've met some really good people on here that I just adore talking to <33 and I always think of my mutuals as my lil sims buddies 🥺
17. What’s your favorite game? 2 and 4! sims 3 is so good but 2 has my heart.
18. Do you have any sims merch? I used to have those headphones with the plumbobs that changed based on your sims emotions and they were so nice but they broke yearssss ago :( other than that no unless we're counting the freezer bunny I'm crocheting lol
19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? no :(( I've wanted to start a youtube channel since I was just lil child but I'm so scared 🙃
20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? I honestly don't think I have a sim style? but I do think I've gotten better at making sims in general? I'm much better at using different faces and making sims look different now!
21. What’s your Origin ID? druidberries but i don't upload anything to the gallery
22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? trillyke, simstrouble, ah00b, ratboy, simandy, squea, ladymoriel, praline and literally so many more I could go on forever
23. How long have you had a simblr? I've had tumblr for ages like lurking but I think I started my first simblr around 2016-2017? I used that one on and off for so long and I always lost motivation but finally what like 2 months? ago I made this one and got a nice clean fresh start 😌
24. How do you edit your pictures? I use photoshop and I pretty much always do topaz, noise, and sharpen, and then from there I decide if I wanna do some brightening or whatever. I do use actions sometimes too! I really have no clue what I'm doing when it comes to editing 😭
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? all of the occult packs ofc + growing together and cottage living <33 I also really love nifty knitting bc most of my sims knit lmao
26. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? I really want them to make a fairies pack 🧚♀️🫶
feel free to ignore this but I'm tagging: @buttertrait. @potionio, @aurorangen, @estah, @sinfulwunders, @salemssimblr, @duskiivy and @simlishpiadina
#this was fun!#tag games#my old blog just never got any activity and i think i just got so bored every time#ofc you shouldnt care about that and i really didnt want to but i coudlnt help getting demotivated when i was just posting for me to see#but now if a post doesnt get activity im like ok whatever lmao#im also better at like? posting and stuff now i think#between writing and editing and developing characters#i just needed to like STICK THROUGH learning it but i didnt 🙃#druidberryspeaks#also I think like 2 years ago was when i was like ok no more simblr i get demotivated everytime and stopped with that blog once and for all#but now here i am hehehe#and maybe TOO motivated 😅
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I guess my current diet and therefore the stuff I'll post is pretty one sided. I mostly just eat different variations of spinach salad lol. Salad was always my safe food. I'm not at the same stage i used to be but it was the only thing i allowed myself to eat. I had sworn off carbs long before but i used to eat warm food sometimes. Until i couldn't anymore. I don't know why but anything cooked scared me. Especially if it was warm. I couldn't eat warm food at all. If i did eat anything cooked it had to be part of a salad.
Nowadays i don't really have the time or energy to actually cook food for myself. My needs aren't worth that effort. Plus i need to lose weight anyways. Making a salad once a day with raw ingredients is just enough preparation time to satisfy my need of cooking (i love cooking) without being overwhelming. And it just eases my mind if i stick with raw vegetables. Also i don't have to clean as much which is always a plus.
The problem is that fresh ingredients are quite expensive rn. Well more expensive rhan living off instant ramen. But it satisfies the little hunger feeling i have left much better and i don't feel as guilty eating. But i do struggle. Inflation is going up and i don't have much money. The money i do have left after paying rent i mostly spend on weed and energy drinks.
I'm gonna get a job soon so I'll have a bit more money. But apparently they eat together there. Pretty much on most days they have lunch and dinner together. I'm scared of that. I just started losing weight and reducing my hunger and cravings again. I don't want to lose that process. And i don't wanna gain even more weight just bc i don't have any self control. But i also can't let anyone notice. I don't want anyone to intervene this time. Not until I'm ready to get better again. For now i just wanna waste away a bit. Get skinny again. Even tho i know I'll never see it in the mirror. I don't feel good now that I've started to fill out my clothes again.
I struggle between getting better and staying sick. I'm not worth getting better but I'm not actively suicidal anymore either. If i continue this path I'm sure I'll destroy my body for real this time. I wish i could wake up from this nightmare of a life lol
#an0rec1a#ana rant#ana trigger#ed not ed sheeran#ed not sheeren#tw ana diary#tw disordered eating#tw ed diet#tw restrictive ed#disordered eating thoughts#tw restriction#food restriction#ana trans#ed relapse#ed rant
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negative vent
the state of my life rn feels like a runaway train
man idk how people can just cook and clean up and not just completely feel like they’re turning to dust afterwards from exhaustion
idk how my family made breakfast lunch and dinner and navigated me not liking the main dinner as a kid and having to have something else bc just making one meal for three of us is enough to put me in the ground so the thought of having to do an additional meal alongside the first one makes my brain feel like it’s ripping itself apart with stress
I end up completely mentally and physically drained bc of all the different steps plus the anxiety of making sure I tidy up afterwards bc if I don’t do it immediately it won’t get done and it’ll build up
there’s got to be some neurodivergence making this extra hard but whether that’s just the good old fashioned depression or something else that makes it feel like torture trying to maintain just regular daily upkeep idk
my dad is trying desperately to make money in a self employed job that hasn’t fucking paid anything in years bc it relies on business deals he facilitates actually going ahead and reaching the payment stage which has literally never happened in the years he’s been trying to do it bc he lives in a fantasy land where he thinks he can make big money on big deals with people who do not give a fuck that we are struggling to hold onto our fucking house and who could fix our problems with one payment that wouldn’t even dent their mountains of money
so he is on the phone constantly and unable to find time to feed himself or my brother who sleeps until 6pm, won’t eat anything after midnight and is losing weight while already considered underweight despite me now spending nearly all day in the kitchen trying to get meals and snacks and shit for him to keep him from getting any more underweight
and I’m just buckling man
I have no time for myself to just sit and chill properly. Even when I try to get a drawing or something doodled out it’s done while I’m sitting in the kitchen waiting for my legs to stop throbbing so I can get back to cooking or washing up. I keep talking about wanting to get back to digital art and commissions once I have my hands on a laptop but the reality is even when I get that I might still just not have the actual time to do what I used to love doing
I haven’t been out of the house much since before the pandemic. I haven’t seen any friends since then either. My life has become a slog of wake up, spend the day in the kitchen in a constant frenzied anxiety cooking state, go to bed and be plagued by the Horrors making me just want to die and not have to wake up to more of the same and there’s no end to it
I’m still waiting for the dwp to give me the extra money I am eligible for and I’m dreading the winter after the struggle the last one was.
I’d have takeout more often if we could justifiably afford it. But my brother is particular about those too and only eats certain things so even if I had the money and energy I don’t have much I can work with. How do you fit a full day’s worth of meals into less than 5 hours when your options are further limited by what he’ll accept
I’m worried about him and his low energy. I’m worried about dad and his high stress. I’m worried about the house being taken if our money runs out. I feel guilty that I’m failing my brother and dad despite turning myself inside out to cook for them and tidy up after myself and make sure they get food even tho it’s clearly not enough.
and on top of that I’ve had a shitty wheezy chest for months presumably bc of the air quality in here bc of the dust and clutter that just has sat for ages bc who has the time to go through it and there’s fucking clothes moths hanging around spiders everywhere and I can move the clutter to clean around it enough
I’m absolutely clawing my way through each day and the only reason I don’t just give in to the exhaustion and spend the whole week in bed is the fact they both need me to do this
pre-covid my uncle used to spend more time here bc my granny was here so things were so much more balanced and maintained but after his mental health struggles in lockdown knocked him for six the state of the house stresses him out so much he can’t come near and it depresses him and as a result I haven’t seen him since last year at my granny’s birthday at the care home and before that it was sometime in 2020 the last I’d seen him
I’m on the brink of collapse and I’ve had a whole bunch of dizzy spells in the kitchen lately and yet I push on bc I can’t stop
I’ve become some kind of spindly pillar trying desperately to hold up a crumbling household and I’m splintering in the process under the pressure but what can I do? If I don’t do this it’ll only be much worse
fucking hell im so tired
#I just need to get it out bc I’m stressed and exhausted and tired of everything#weight mention and just. Generally a bad time#personal shite
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post gretallica thoughts (this is gonna be long):
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we got stuck in traffic so i only heard two songs but what i did hear was so fucking good
spencer's voice is incredible live. he's super talented and i can't wait to see him again in november for trinity of terror
i want spencer to hold a knife to my throat while he's covered in blood but we don't need to talk about that rn
GVF:
i know i said it before but holy FUCK daniel was banging the absolute shit out of those drums. shit had me weak at the knees
i was hoping they played tears of rain but alas. i get why they don't and honestly it's on me for that being my favorite song
jake was electrifying. his entire vibe on stage is just something i cannot fully put into words. seeing videos online isn't anywhere near the same as seeing it in person and i know i was far back but holy fuck
you can see clear as day how happy jake is when he's performing. he's a natural and i know he's gonna be a fucking legend
josh's hair is growing on me but i def think baby needs a trim and some curl defining cream. maybe danny can help him out
josh also doing those breathy grunts? jesus take the mf wheel
sammy is very very still. or at least he was tonight. id love to see him move around stage more. take up some space baby!!
BRING👏🏼 DANNY 👏🏼CLOSER 👏🏼TO 👏🏼THE 👏🏼FRONT👏🏼
the weight of dreams live is something else. it's a life changing experience. it's amazing
there was a cat walk type thing in front of the stage and i would've loved to see at least jake utilize it
greta van fleet is incredible. point blank period
METALLICA:
james hetfield needs to read me a bedtime story. man has the sexiest speaking voice holy shit
lars makes the cutest faces I'm so glad the camera caught them bc he's fucking adorable (also a fucking KILLER drummer)
kirk hammett is a fucking god. a fucking guitar god. man is absolutely unreal and the shit he did was just immaculate. also his guitar collection is so fire
they switched guitars/basses so many times and every single one was sick. kirk's ouija board one was my favorite of his. james' purple guitar was my favorite of his
moth into flame was fucking sick. just so fucking sick
seek & destroy was also killer
i really wanted to hear fuel, halo on fire, that was just your life, leper messiah, battery, and through the never. they didn't play any of those lmao but the set list was still pretty damn good
everyone was just waiting for master of puppets. there were several times i heard people chanting "master! master" but obviously it was the song they ended with and I'm glad they did
they played eddie's scene for master of puppets and it made me so fucking happy. i got a video of it thank fuck
PYROTECHNICS BAYBEEEEEE. insert "hi I'm josh and i like fire" because me the fuck too. literally in the nosebleeds and still felt the heat from the flames. it was so fucking cool
they had fireworks at the end too and it was super pretty. loved it
all in all gretallica was so much fun and even tho the drive up made my back hurt and i wasn't nearly as close to the stage as i usually am for concerts it was a wonderful experience
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SIM TAG!
I was tagged by the lovely @natolesims, thanks!🦋✨
Under a read more cause this is a Long Boy™
What’s your favourite sims death?
Death by chicken. Those are some angry fuckers.
Alpha CC or Maxis Match?
Maxis ehehe. I used to be an alpha girly but the jarring difference between my sims and their surroundings while in regular game mode made me switch (that and also poly count).
Do you cheat when your sims gain weight?
Sometimes, depending on the sim and what's going on in their lives. For Safya I do because in my mind she regularly runs (even when I don't have the time to actually do it in game) and for Alfonso because sometimes he gets too muscly, otherwise not really.
Do you use move objects?
Yeah yeah.
Favorite mod?
Wonderful Whims!
First expansion/game/stuff pack you got?
Got them all at the same time bc 🏴☠️
Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing?
Like the first one woooo.
Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made?
My dear darling honey Lorenzo boy. Rip king, you would've loved Safya.
Have you made a simself?
Yes but I don't really play with her, she's like a dress up doll. I did however give her a pretty girlfriend hehehehe.
What sim traits do you give yourself?
Paranoid (bc same), socially awkward, art lover, perfectionist (and low key high maintenance 💀)
Which is your favorite EA hair color? Brown.
Favorite EA hair?
I'm a big fan of the long straight tucked hairstyle from get together as well as the basegame curly half down hair from a recent ish delivery express.
Favorite life stage?
Toddlers! They are very cute and after they learn how to potty, easy to manage PLUS the cuddling and playing animations are seriously adorable!!
Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay?
Gameplay, by far. Sincerely wish I was a builder but boy oh boy, I'm not good at it.
Are you a CC creator?
Nooo
Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad?
I've got some lovely moots on here <3
What’s your favorite game?
TS4. Haven't played any of the other installments (I'm dying to play ts3 but I know my laptop wouldn't be able to handle it 😔)
Do you have any sims merch?
No no nouu.
Do you have a YouTube for sims?
Nop. Tbh I've thought about sims and commentary but uhm my English is not *that* good and I wouldn't really know what to say that hasn't been said before.
How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing?
Hmm I used to be into the tiny nose, chiselled jaw, stereotypical sims look but nowadays I tend to gravitate towards smaller eyes, bigger noses and square ish jaws.
What’s your Origin ID?
Falsetochild
Who’s your favorite CC creator?
Ohhh recently I've been absolutely loving Sforzcc, Sashima, Simstrouble (as well as many other creators!!) And have forever been a big Sentate and Greenllamas girlie 🤍
How long have you had a simblr?
Since mid 2020
How do you edit your pictures?
I low key don't, Gshade does most of the work. I religiously use Gunthermunch's lithium for CAS pics (also use it for gameplay pics tho I've been getting into Waves shader cause is very bright and colorful!) When I'm feeling inspired I like to bring in the background color with a soft edge brush and maybe throw in some sparkles in PS.
What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next?
I've heard absolute wonders about TS3's late night and showtime so a mix between those two should be very fun! Plus it would enhance the city lifestyle gameplay imo.
What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far?
Ok so expansion: city living. Game: Jungle Adventures. Stuff: Tiny Living. Kit: Incheon Arrivals.
I'll tag @minamill @softle0 @ezra-trait @novac2281 and @titosims (ofc feel free to skip if you feel like it 🌸)
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sims tag game!!
i was tagged by @d4isy-nukes via reading her post oh well lets go
1. What’s your favourite sims death? in ts4: METEOR muahahhah
2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? if i have to pick, maxis match, but im partial to maxis mix choices
3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? not usually, no, but i have done it by tweaking a bit in cas, rarely but i it happened
4. Do you use move objects? fuck yea, love that shit
5. Favorite mod? i loved gem's answers btw absolute same but hum... i really dont know.. the classics, wwhims for attraction system, zerbu's, don't wash dishes where you angry poop, lumpinou's rpo, i really cant pick, i use so many, it's giving me whats ur favourite kid energy
6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? GTW yall & i stand by it
7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? the wrong way
8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? AGAIN WITH THE CHILD PICKING !!! no but really i can't pick favourites no matter what
9. Have you made a simself? not one that looks like me bc i don't even know what i look like tbh but i made a kind of avatar
10. What sim traits do you give yourself? self-absorbed gloomy geek 🤢
11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? depends on the sim
12. Favorite EA hair? all the sdx ones were pretty dope so far
13. Favorite life stage? the ones that are yet to come eheh
14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? prolly gameplay which in ts4 i rely on mods for a lot, but ts4 made me more confident in building or at least decorating, it's very fun now and in ts2 i used to spend a lot of time in cas and the body shop
15. Are you a CC creator? no, but maybe one day
16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? i dont think so ?!
17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) ts2&3 for different reasons, i never played the first one tho, i mean i did but not really
18. Do you have any sims merch? a phone charm that came with a promotional magazine for ts3 launch, i cant fine the magazine tho ;(
19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? i wouldn't know what to do with it
20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? i made a lot of long haired blondes with ballroom dresses in my ts2 era for some reason, i dont even know where i was getting cc from, really long hair and ballroom dresses on the toddlers too if you can imagine oh and i had mermaid tails from downloading oher sims so naturally i made a bunch of sirens all the time
21. What’s your Origin ID? i think it's gumbreath now
22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? oh gosh why did i decide to do this ??! humm cant pick one so shout out to @tudtuds merecido
23. How long have you had a simblr? circa 5 months so far
24. How do you edit your pictures? i use gimp the open-source queen, for my spellcaster legacy i was trying to do a scrappy photoset vibe, mystical motherhood im literaly just cropping and since ive reinstalled shaders i just use a preset for stardew moon bc i am nothing if not lazy ig
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? none, id like them to fix the game we already have 😘 but if i had to ig faeries for gamepack, travel for expansion (with 3 decent worlds & hotels plz) and literally any stuff pack so they can say they didnt lie to us about it 🤡
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? im a sucker for sulani so island living for EP? although the mermaids deserved better, big cottage stan but wish goats and horses were on it so not on the podium & get together still has the best world; paranormal stuff pack by faaaaar, it was the least cash grabby SP ever i thought i was dreaming when they didnt call it a gamepack
ok so that is it, if you read this so far ... why ? /hj im doing the same and tagging whoever sees it IF THEY FEEL LIKE PARTAKING 🤍🤍🤍 OK BYEE
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sims tag
tagged by: stole from the dash lol
1. What’s your favourite sims death? cowplant for sure! i also love the vending machine one lol
2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? maxis mix! i use only maxis match hairs but i sort of mix alpha clothes,,, but not like suuuuper alpha clothes??? yknow,,, lol
3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? no. why would i
4. Do you use move objects? all the fucking time. i cant not use it
5. Favorite mod? i love custom recipes! and also mccc, ui cheats, and more cas columns. cant play without em. i also used to play with some slice of life and wonderful whims features, but stopped after the infant update... idk if ill get back to them anytime soon tho
6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? i got city living, vampires, and cool kitchen at the same time! i actually wanted outdoor retreat but i was 12 and mt dad bought them for me and somehow i mixed the links lmao (we used the sims website to buy them)... i still to this day dont own outdoor retreat and idk if ill get it anytime soon
7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? like living!
8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? probably bree wisteria. i think a lot about how i didn't end up using them as the heir...
9. Have you made a simself? yes! i have a whole post of dressing my and my friends simselves in different universes!
10. What sim traits do you give yourself? bookworm, clumsy, and socially awkward. i dont own highschool years so i actually used loner instead tho
11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? the new browns!
12. Favorite EA hair? i love the cottage living ones! except agnes' one. it has a weird texture
13. Favorite life stage? children! idk why, i just like playing with them and decorating their rooms
14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? definitely a player. i actually am renovating the entire game rn for when im done with my current legacy so ill have a cool looking save to play not so berry in, and im enjoying building a lot more than i anticipated!
15. Are you a CC creator? not at all. i cant even make recolors
16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? nope. but id love to get to know ppl on here more!!
17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) only ever played the sims 4 (and a little of my cousin's sims 3 when i was 7 but i dont remember much) so i cant really say lol
18. Do you have any sims merch? nope. i do want a cowplant sculpture tho. something resembling a funko pop. if they'd ever make a collab with funko id get them!!
19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? nope. i do watch a lot of sims youtubers tho
20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? i used to make sims from shows and play as them with aging off (i actually have an entire arrowverse save that im considering making into a full on dc save). now im more of a legacy player, especially with challenges and stuff
21. What’s your Origin ID? romychet. follow me! i upload all the renovations im making lol
22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? i dont have a fav atm but it used to be @miikocc and @casteru for a loooong time!
23. How long have you had a simblr? like a year and a half maybe? idk
24. How do you edit your pictures? literally just add a psd as a filter and thats it lol
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? honestly all we got lately (book nook kit, green house kit, growing together) are all what i really wanted... i dont own any of them yet (i do however have the greenhouse kit as cc) so i don't have anything im that interested in! maybe a more in depth elder pack? tho i barley play with them atm
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? cottage living! it's soooo cozy and cute and i love it for my family gameplay! and speaking of family gameplay, i think that once ill buy growing together itll become my fav! i also looooove parenthood!
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Samu at your service.
Hey there! I'm Samu, your delivery maestro for the day. Before diving into the awesomeness of my service, take a detour through this post by tapping the "keep reading" button bellow to unravel the mysteries of Samu-style deliveries. Wishing you a day filled with nothing but blessings.
Hi. I’m Sèn, the writter of Laksana Samudera, putting a disclaimer that whatever is presented in this blog is fictional and is not available in real life. The character and activities carried out are neither related to the original muse, Choi Soobin, nor his agency, Big Hit Music. Thank you.
Laksana Samudera.
I’m Laksana Samudera, though everyone calls me “Samu”, or worse, “Sule”. My mother chose a wonderful name for me, one that I’m endlessly grateful for. She explained that my name means be like the ocean—captivating to behold, influential to those around, and comforting to others.
I came into the world on September 2nd, 2002, during sunrise in Berlin. This was when my father was working as a diplomat in the city. I spent my early years, roughly until I turned 5 there. So, if you ask anything about Germany, I won’t be able to comprehend any of it. Sorry. I forgot everything.
I have a twin named Keisha Abella, who I fondly call “Abey”, or worse, “Nunung.” There, you can talk and ask everything about Germany freely with her. I have a younger sister too, Wening Batari.
Oh, have you seen me posting pictures of hedgehog? That was my pet named Obi. My parents gave him to me as my 18th birthday gift. Obi was a boy. He took up a quarter of my bedroom space, and I proudly consider myself his dad. Obi had passed away on August 17th due to bad health. I cried all night.
As for hobbies, I’m a nature enthusiast. I cultivate plants at home with my mom, such as onions, rosemary, and many more. Alongside this, I enjoy playing guitar and listening to music too, (my all time favorites are The Beatles and MLTR) even though my skills are rusty due to college.
I’m currently in my fifth semester, pursuing a library science major. I’m not entirely sure how I ended up in this major, but I’m enjoying it, except for the fact that I’m not a big fan of books.
While in college, I live in a boarding house near the uni station. I have four peers who were in the same academic year but in different majors. I met them during the uni orientation. We occasionally gather up once a month. And when the semester break finally arrives, I’ll return to my hometown in Yogyakarta.
Profile.
Birth Name: Laksana Samudera
Nick name: Samu, Sam, Sule
Birthday: September 2nd, 2002
Birthplace: Berlin, DE
Zodiac Sign: Virgo
Chinese Zodiac: Horse
Height: 187 cm (6’2″)
Weight: 70 kg (154 lbs)
Blood Type: B
MBTI Type: INTP-A
Nationality: Indonesian
Instagram: @derapasifik
Profile (faceclaim).
Stage Name: Soobin (수빈)
Birth Name: Choi Soo Bin (최수빈)
English Name: Steve Choi
Position: Leader
Birthday: December 5th, 2000
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
Chinese Zodiac: Dragon
Height: 185 cm (6’1″)
Weight: 67 kg (147 lbs)
Blood Type: A
MBTI Type: ISFP-A
Representative Emoticon: 🐰
Nationality: Korean
Instagram: @page.soobin
Places i've been to.
clsdDISNEY as SOOBINdnz
funzania as soobfunzy
mrsclsd as duperSOOBIN
PASARNITE as SOOBINnite
HIGHSCHOOLclsd as MURIDxSOOBIN
thelagoon as SOOBINvzt
OURSTORYclsd as ourCSOOBIN
recstored as recsSOOBIN
KEDAIPILARAca as ngkoSOOBIN
Projects i've worked on.
00sHOLLYWOOD as SOOBINin00s
GHIBLIxCA as SOOBINbli
HELLxSCHOOL as Activity Checker, Pak Agus (KESISWAANhxs)
SUBGOODEVIL as Game Master and Wordsmith, Coach Seano (SEANOcoach)
SOEKAMADJU as Game Master and Wordsmith, Jono (SUBxSKM)
Emergency Contacts.
Other twitter accounts I have:
@dawnofthespace, @deadstarstation (I barely login into these accounts tho, sorry.) Still, you can find me through my significant other @dalunathe and my family @seabelie @weningie.
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hey idk if this has already been brought up but since there’s been a lot of talk about the Day of the Dead theater scene from S3, specifically in regards to the Byler interaction in that scene... has anyone else ever wondered if there’s some significance to Will and Mike being the only ones carrying backpacks with them into the theater?... aka “carrying a weight with them” and keeping something contained/hidden on this outing... but Will is the only one who unpacks his and hands out concessions to his friends, aka Will’s ‘’baggage’’ has been useful to The Party thus far (represented more literally in the same scene because this is where Will first senses that the Mind Flayer is back..) and so he’s able to somewhat unpack what’s going on inside and also channel it in a way that can help the rest of The Party. whereas Mike has not unpacked his at all, but is still carrying it around with him..
#byler#byeler#will Specifically having his D&D book in his bag.... oi!!!!#and also to go a little Further in depth... that Mike walks around with only one backpack strap weighing down one of his shoulders#aka he currently has something to take some of the weight off (aka: ''dating'' El)..#its all too much man!!!#like yes this can also be apart of the struggles of growing up motif with the backpacks.. but lucas and max are not carrying around that#same weight even tho they are all in the same stage of life so it def feels intentional to have it be will&mike ..#silver cat speaks
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random boyfriend headcanons no. 2 with:
bakugou katsuki
gn!reader :)
no. 1
Bakugou rubs his head on ur neck because ur warm and he wants you to pet his hair
sometimes if you’re chilling and sitting face to face, he’ll ✨softly✨ slam his forehead with yours and u guys have a glaring contest
u lose obviously
but he’s there for that cute scrunch u do that’s meant to be intimidating
if he wants you to pet his hair he’ll even nudge your shoulder with his head so you can get the frigging hint 😤
at this point I should just do cat!bakugou hcs amiright
and whenever you yawn, he’ll put his finger in between your teeth and maybe get a little excited when you bite them 👀
bakugou loves anything squishy
and if it’s part of you? even better
he’ll just rub his face on them
give them vacuum kisses
by now, he’s used to the fact that your mere presence can have his heart doing jumping jacks
he’s given up on trying to deny it
that doesn’t mean that he won’t do the same to you
man will find ANYTHing to get you flustered or annoyed
not straight up pissed tho, that’s somewhere he doesn’t wanna go
if he does manage to piss you off, unintentionally, his lower lip will droop down to his feet I swear
if you’re passing by each other at the hallway, he’ll just whoop, pick you up by the waist, turn you so that you’re going the same direction as he is and drag you to wherever he’s going
your body is like this straight stick when he does that it’s hilarious
whichever hand you write with, he’ll sit on that side of you and go nudge
your pencil, flying across the page
he gives you forehead flicks period
just a “dumbass” flick
if you do that to him, he’ll scoff like he can’t even feel it but when he thinks you’re not looking, frantically rubs that spot on his forehead LmaO
dammit why do they flick so hard
on lazy Sunday mornings, he’ll cling on to you unless he’s got work to do
if he has to get up before you, he’ll just sit at your desk and watch you
asks you to go the hell back to sleep if you wake up early on a relax day
he’s soft during the night ok
will look at you straight in the face in the dim glow of your lamp and just caress your cheek
he has so much to say but he doesn’t know where to start
he wants to tell you that looking into your eyes makes him fall deeper into his love pit
he wants to tell you that kissing you feels like he’s tasting heaven
that holding and touching you makes him want to put a ring on that finger
he wants to keep you, he wants it all
but he’s bad with words and doesn’t want to mess anything up
instead he speaks with his eyes and his actions
you seem understand exactly what he’s feeling and you feel the same way too
except you tell him exactly that
that you can’t believe he’s yours, that you don’t want to imagine a life without him
the emotion swimming in his eyes don’t change but his thumb stroking your cheek, falters, clearly flustered from your words
presses his forehead to yours and nudges your nose with his
your limbs are tangled together and bakugou’s heart is just at its limit when you plant the softest kiss on his lips
it bursts
you can practically see red hearts bouncing off his body and flying around your room
pulling you back to his lips, he tries to cover the heat in his cheeks but you can feel them against your own
yikes did not mean for this to be a Drabble for how much he loves you
anywaysss, bakugou sneaks money into your wallet huehue
if you’re going out with friends, he’ll put some extra cash in there, or slip in a small plastic water bottle
he also carries your bag for you, no buts
I don’t understand why some men are uncomfortable with this
if you’ve been out for a while and you’re feet are tired, he’ll offer a piggy back ride
but only cos “u won’t stop whining abt ur feet”
will complain about you being heavy, receiving a wack on his head
but he’ll also massage your cute ass feet when you’re home
maybe even kiss your toes a little
when you’re eating together, he’ll fill up your plate first with the food u like
maybe stuff it a little too full to hear you complain and pass it back to him
..only for him to sneak it in there when ur not looking
whenever you start reading/watching sthing he’s already seen/read, he’ll PRETEND to spoil sthing for you
like he’ll say that a specific character died or sthing but they didn’t and u, thinking that he’s telling the truth, start ur stages of grief and he’s like “tch just watch, brat”
so you’re mentally preparing yourself for the death of that character and you’re complaining abt getting attached to them but once you finish it, it never happens
“HAAa??” you look at him instantly and he’s there snickering his ass off
he’ll never really spoil it tho, he just loves to see your reaction
at this point, just don’t tell him you’ve started sthing
even then he’ll find out, I mean he won't purposely snoop around, it’s just cos u suck at hiding things babe
n ur trying to cover his mouth with ur hands before he can utter a single word
he wants you to tuck him to sleep
but it doesn’t happen very often because a. he won’t verbally say he wants it and b. it only happens when you’re not sleeping together bc he’ll just pull you into his arms if u do
but he almost never does it to you unless you need sleep more than he does or you won’t stop your whining
he just looves to have ur face be the last thing he sees and to have ur comforting hands tuck the blanket all snug around him
and oh my god the finishing touch is having you kiss his forehead
man goes over the moooon
will take candid pics of u
like he’ll grumble if you pull him in for a selfie but he’ll be that person who shows the corner of his face and you behind him lolol
you’re not looking at the camera in any of them but he still thinks u look stunning
ur side pROFILE UGH
has that photo widget for iPhones where you can put a picture on ur home screen and it changes every day
yea he does that
with his album for photos of u
yk sometimes bakugou just randomly slumps on you
like you could be standing and on ur phone answering a text rq when he just puts almost all his weight on you, almost
obviously enough to startle you but not enough for the both of you to fall
then ur forced to wrap ur arms around him and he can snuggle in ur neck mmm
a/n: wow I've had this in my drafts for a while and I’ve just been adding on to it lolol
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Do you consider a possibility that c!Punz never betrayed c!Dream in the first place and whole "I'm sorry, Dream -- but you should have paid me more" thing was a facade and undercover for Punz? Like Dream said that Punz should not associated with him, so it was intentional-
staged disc finale theory my beloved !!! :D it’s definitely one of my favorite theories, though i’m still holding out (for now) as for believing super firmly in one direction or another (tho the staged finale is definitely the one i prefer for Many reasons, haha.) c!punz is so so fun no matter if the betrayal was intentional or not, but oh boyyyy if it was something planned ,,, man .
*c!dream voice, after quackity starts visiting*: the risk i took was calculated, but man am i bad at math.
anyway c!punz and c!dream interactions make me soft as heck so have this !!
tw: implied torture, abuse, violence, blood, injuries, emotional distress, panicking, dehumanization, unhealthy coping mechanisms, unhealthy mindsets, illness, trauma, flashbacks, starvation mention, suicide mention, death mentions, dark content, dark imagery, prison arc/pandora’s vault themes, c!quackity critical/dark portrayal of c!quackity
Dream comes to in vague moments and flashes.
There’s a hand brushing over his forehead, too gentle to be Quackity or the Warden, not Techno because Techno is Gone and he has Left and won’t come again, running through the sweat-soaked locks and pulling them back out of his forehead. He’s unbearably hot, shifting around on the ground, only barely registering it moving beneath him. Water, cool and clear, is tipped in between his lips, quenching his thirst and easing the dryness of his mouth. Someone speaks, voice low and rumbling, and even though he’s unable to make out the words, there’s something about the cadence of them and the specific rhythm in which they move and rise and dip that is bone-achingly familiar, enough to lull him into a fitful sleep. Through it all, there is always something, someone, lingering in the edges of his vision, a shadow standing near and watching over him; part of him remembers Quackity, remembers the Warden, and recoils in fright; another part of him remembers Techno, remembers the barest flashes of a life before obsidian and lava and pain and hell, and wants nothing more than to get closer.
When the fog in his head finally clears away enough to think, the first coherent thought he has is oh fuck, I need to piss.
Which, out of all possible things to think, is probably up there as one of the worst, and he’s sure that when his head feels a little less like it’s trying to actively kill him (ha, let it- it’s far from the first to try) the panic will settle in as it always does. As it is, he’s exhausted, and hungry, and he really really needs to pee- so he forces his eyes open to move away from where he’s probably still stuck in a puddle of dried blood in the middle of his cell.
The second coherent thought he has is this: this isn’t Pandora.
The realization has him thoroughly awake, eyes snapping open out of his previous fatigue to take in his surroundings, feet kicking out to the weight on top of them that he hadn’t even noticed was there, panicking against his restraints that end up not being restraints at all, giving way easily under his thrashing and resolving to what appears to be a thick blanket when he has the mind to look. With the covers gone off of whatever he’s lying on (a bed?) he’s suddenly, unbearably cold - the prison has always been hot, the lava baking into him and leaving his skin sticky with sweat, and he thinks that the room he’s in is probably not meant to feel like a fucking freezer, but after months of being one wrong step away from heatstroke, anything cooler than the goddamn Nether feels like literal ice against his skin. The room is wooden and cozy and oddly familiar, an open door leading to what appears to be a bathroom and a closed one going who knows where, window panes built into the opposite wall to let the sunlight in. It’s a nice room, all things considered, and Dream fucking hates it.
He pulls himself to his feet, cursing at the wobbly edge to his stance when he finally manages to stand, his vision wavering dangerously in time to the spinning of his head. His eyes flick between the two doors - he still needs to go to the bathroom, and using it now will lessen the amount of things to get in the way of his escape in the future - but at the same time, there's no knowing when people will come to (hurt him, beat him, starve him, punish him, leaving him bruised and bleeding and half-dead on the floor just as he deserves) him and he needs all the time he can get to get the hell away. In the end, he slinks into the bathroom, ignoring the thudding in his chest as he does so - at the very least, the cabinets in the thing might provide him with some manner of a weapon.
He’s only just past the door on the way out - a fucking broomstick in his hand because it’s all he could find - when his ears catch on the sound of metal clicking against each other and his eyes fall on the knob of the other door shaking as someone makes their way in. All at once, panic slams into him - goddammit, he should’ve just run when he had the chance - and he directs quick, desperate glances at the window. Maybe, if he’s fast enough, he can book it out of there and disappear into the trees; it’ll hurt, but it’ll be better than getting caught. Anything would be better than getting caught-
“Dream?”
Dream blinks. All at once, the same feeling of getting the air punched out of him returns, but combined with something warm and floaty wrapping around his chest, something almost a little like relief - and hell, if that isn’t something he’s not felt for a while.
“Punz?”
Punz is standing in the doorway, hoodie rumpled, expression more than a little frazzled; Dream’s breath hitches at the sight of the sword strapped to his side, but their face holds none of the harsh edges and cold-dark-hard hatred that had characterized the Warden and Quackity’s visits, mouth slightly parted and eyes shining with nothing but what appears to be shock and concern. The sight of them, again, nearly has Dream dizzy, a swell of tangled, unexplainable emotion rising to the back of his throat as he sways on his feet. He hadn’t thought that he would see Punz again, he realizes, had never thought he’d see his stupid gold chain and his stupid outfit he never bothered changing, ever, or that same lopsided smirk and pale blue eyes- the last time he’d seen them, it was in that vault, their mouth twisted up in the act the two of them had decided on and eyes shimmering with unease and regret; as far as goodbyes went, it wasn’t the worst, not when Punz was one of the few to never leave him, not really, not when something ached in their expression other than the hatred that had colored all of the other expressionless faces watching him die. Months later, alone in Pandora, he must’ve grown resigned, or something, the repeated reminders that he would die alone and afraid and it would be nothing more than he deserved settling into his skin and against his bones; Punz’s expression twists, visible even across the room, and- oh.
They must’ve thought the same thing, too.
“What are you doing out of bed?” Punz asks, finally, and Dream decides not to point out the way his voice cracks harshly in the middle, especially when the other man strides forward and starts to awkwardly herd him back in the direction of the bed - covers still thrown to the floor - in the middle of the room. Dream lets them, not replying because he doesn’t really know where to even begin describing the tangled knot of panic and shock that had strung his muscles tense when he woke up in a room he didn’t recognize, not knowing if he can really describe it all at all, trying his best not to flinch at the hands flitting in the corners of his vision as he falls back into a sitting position onto the bed. His fingers settle into the mattress, pressing into the bedsheets cautiously and marveling when they fall away under the pressure. Punz watches him, expression odd, gathers the blankets from the ground and presses them over and around him in a way that’s entirely awkward but does leave him warmer than he’d been before, before walking back on his heels with an odd expression that makes Dream’s insides twist.
“You,” Punz says after a long second, voice wavering, “are a fucking idiot,” and it’s all the warning Dream gets before a white-and-black blur is rushing towards him, arms wrapping around his chest and his vision whites out in alarm and panic. When the pain doesn’t come, he comes back to his senses enough to realize that Punz’s arms are still wrapped around him, shoulders shaking as he holds him close but not painfully, careful not to pull too much against the places on his ribs and back that leave him gasping with small shocks of pain, head pressed against the crook of Dream’s neck and hair tickling his face. Dream can feel his heart hammering in his chest, but as the panic dies something warm and long-neglected stirs in the middle of his chest, and he melts forward with a quiet hum. This is- nice. Really, really nice.
“What were you thinking?” Punz mutters, too quiet to really be directed at him, hands curling tighter into the folds of the hoodie - oh, he’s wearing one of those, not the same stiff, bloodstained material of the prison uniform that had chafed against his skin, another constant source of pain and discomfort of thousands in the hell that had been Pandora’s Vault - on him, and Dream doesn’t really know what to do except sit there and blink dumbly, listening to the heartbeat of the person leaning against him rumbling against his ears. It’s oddly calming, has the pressure on his chest lightening enough to take a full breath, and then another, the warmth of someone leaning against him almost too much but not enough at the same time - his eyes burn, and he ignores them.
“I-” he doesn’t really think that Punz was really asking a question, but just ignoring his question seems rude, too, and even despite the fuzzy warmth settling into his skin and into his bones from the pressure of Punz’s arms around his body and their head against his shoulder, he’s still unable to shake the anxiety of leaving a query unanswered, a constant murmur to listen obey do as you’re told or you’re going to regret it put on a damn good show or suffer the consequences remaining no matter how hard he tries to push it away. He wets his lips when his mouth feels too dry to keep speaking, eyes fluttering closed as he leans forward further, “I don’t know what you mean.”
“You-” Punz cuts themselves off with a wet, incredulous-sounding laugh that has Dream jerking back despite himself, meeting their ice-cold eyes when they pull themselves back to look at him. He doesn’t really recognize the expression he wears, Dream realizes with a jolt, the way his lips are pressed together and the churning in his eyes, and his lungs seize in his chest.
“Sir-”
If anything, Punz’s expression only seems to harden, and the warmth disappears as Dream looks into their eyes - cold, two polished shards of ice, frosted over pools of water in the middle of the tundra, flinty and sharp and brilliant blue. His hands shake as he pulls them back to his chest, trembling from the chill that’s made its home in his muscles and frozen them in place - sir sorry sir please don’t hurt me im sorry please I didn’t mean to
“Fuck, Dream,” he shakes his head, and only then does Dream see the slight wobble to their bottom lip, the waver to their words like they’re struggling to keep themselves together, “why didn’t you say anything?”
What?
You almost died, you know,” he keeps going, not meeting his eyes as they direct their gaze out the window, “Several times, honestly. Fucking hell- when Techno brought you out- I didn’t think you would survive. I didn’t think anyone could survive that.”
Dream swallows. He doesn’t remember getting out, doesn’t really remember much at all if he’s being honest; there was the black of the cell, the heat of the lava, Techno promising to get him out before disappearing in a flash of purple, Quackity throwing him against the wall (Where the fuck did Techno go? You better have a fuckin’ answer, pal, if you want your death to be anything resemblin’ quick-) then nothing. Everything. His heart hammering in his chest and blood slick against his skin and the press of metal against his windpipe and pain, the only constant within it all, the only thing that made any goddamn sense when the room seemed to flip and turn and twist and his feelings knotted and frayed between anger-betrayal-distress-sadness-fear-grief, when reality swirled into a dizzying blur of colors and feelings and sounds carving themselves into the inside of his skull- then here. Dream flexes his hand experimentally, marveling at the feeling - the pain is almost gone.
He’d forgotten how it felt, really, to live and not hurt.
“Dream,” Punz calls again, voice low and worried, and Dream can’t help the way his head snaps up to meet their eyes and can’t help the flinch that twists his neck back when their frown deepens. It’d been a show, at least he tells himself, because Quackity would stop earlier if he screamed more, but- his hands tremble at his sides, twisted into the sheets of the bed, a near-constant litany of reminders and rules beating like they have a heart of their own in the back of his head. It was a show- he feels himself almost buckle, give in under the force of the stare leveled at him, and hates himself for how weak he feels, pinned under the eyes trained on his own. He’s not sure how much of a show it is anymore.
“Dream,” Punz repeats, words even softer, and the ugly feeling of shame and anger twists inside Dream’s chest again. Punz- ever unflappable, deadly with almost any weapon and never letting anyone see him as anything but deliberately apathetic - is watching him with an expression so uncharacteristically and unbearably gentle that it makes his breath catch in his throat. “You could’ve died,” he says once again, and the look that paints his face is so terribly vulnerable, feelings pouring over like a cup overfilled, bubbling forward and bleeding from every corner, and Dream- can’t. He doesn’t know what to do in the face of such stark emotion, doesn’t know how how to handle the way his eyes burn and his heart throbs like an exposed nerve, the way everything yawns wide in the middle of his chest into void and emptiness and pain so deeply carved in the space within his ribs that he half-thinks he’s been hollowed out entirely.
“But I didn’t.”
Punz pulls back, but Dream isn’t looking at him, is staring at the scarred surfaces of the backs of his hands and the knobs of his knuckles sticking out against the thinned-out skin and the yellowed nails he’s pushing against the blanket, the fourth and fifth ones of his right hand missing. They shake, no matter how long he looks at them and how hard he tries to make them stay still, and he can feel a voice whispering in the back of his mind, tone too familiar to ignore. Weak.
“I didn’t die,” he says when Punz doesn’t reply, looking at his scarred hands, weak hands, broken hands. “So it’s okay. We can keep- we can keep going.”
“Dream-” their voice is a blade scraping against an anvil, nails scraping over his ribs, his hands clamping over his ears before he’s realized he’s moved and his brain screaming at him for doing so once he realizes that he has, “-what the fuck are you talking about?”
Still, he hadn’t survived months of Quackity’s visits by bending over the second he was pushed, so he forces his tongue to move from where it’s fallen to the bottom of his mouth like lead, feels his eyes go steely even from under the way his vision has already begun to wobble.
“It’s not over yet,” he continues, trying to keep his words even, “‘cause I didn’t die, so we’re not done. I gotta- we have to reevaluate, of course,” he can’t stop, because the second he stops talking is the second he falls apart, so he ignores the way that Punz stiffens and stills and doesn’t let anything stop the flow of words spilling out of his mouth, “because the vault and the prison- um, obviously didn’t go as planned, but it’s fine. Just a minor- um, minor inconvenience. A setback- but it’s not- it’s not unsalvageable- we just have to-”
“Are you kidding me?” Punz cuts him off with a sharp laugh, disbelieving and just on the wrong side of desperate, and the air in Dream’s lungs freezes into a solid block of ice in the middle of his chest, “you- you’ve got to be kidding me.”
“Punz?”
Dream’s voice comes out small, himself shrinking back into the bed, keenly aware, suddenly, of how there is nowhere he can go to run - Punz doesn’t seem to notice that he’s spoken at all, one of his hands moving up to tug through his hair, which is - now that Dream is looking - fluffier and messier than he remembers, sticking up in all directions like they didn’t bother to smooth it down.
“You think this is fine? You think that because you didn’t fucking die, that this is all okay?” Punz’s voice rises in volume slowly, not loud enough to be a shout but enough to go hard and unyielding like a threat, and with each word every remnant of the vault comes crawling, clawing back up to the front of his head, a pounding reminder to play his role, put on a show, behave behave behave-
“Goddammit, Dream,” Punz startles him out of his own thoughts, looking straight into his eyes with their ice-blue ones, “have you seen yourself?”
Have you seen yourself? Lying down in your own goddamn filth like a fucking mutt- prime, you disgust me.
“Your ribs were basically shattered. Your legs had fractures on both sides, and your back was so fucking torn up that it looked like more blood than skin. You’ve been starved- enough for me to see every goddamn bone in your body, it feels like. Your throat was bruised to hell- I wasn’t sure if you were gonna be able to speak again, fuck, and like a day after we got here you got fucking pneumonia.” Punz’s breath hitches, “Your skin was a literal fucking oven- I thought you’d bake yourself from the inside out. You could’ve died- you should’ve died.”
You should’ve died a hell of a long time ago, pal- should’ve saved us all the fucking trouble and offed yourself like Wilbur fucking Soot.
He flinches, and this, Punz seems to notice, eyes widening a fraction before they pitch their voce lower, clearly taking a few breaths to calm down and reaching forward to take one of Dream’s hands loosely in his own, thumb smoothing over the bumps of his knuckles.
“You’re not fine,” he says after a long while, shaking his head. “Hell- I’m not fine. But we’re not doing anything like- like the vault or the prison again, dude. I told you they were shit ideas- fuck. We never should’ve done that.”
“It was worth it,” Dream butts in, because he can’t imagine a world where it wasn’t, can’t imagine a world where all of that was for nothing, “it was worth it-”
“No it fucking wasn’t, are you out of your mind?” Punz replies immediately, voice overlapping over Dream’s own, “have you listened to a single thing I’ve said? You- look at you! How was that worth it?”
Dream shakes his head stubbornly, already feeling the way his jaw is trembling around the words he forces himself to speak. “The server- it was all for the server-”
“Fuck the server!”
Punz seems startled by their own shout, drawing back at the same time Dream does, breathing ragged. He takes a few seconds to compose himself, bringing his hand to his face as Dream sits stock still, not daring to move, hardly daring to breathe.
“Fuck the fucking server, okay?” Punz says, finally, voice cracking in the middle, “You lost two damn lives for this server. You got fucking tortured for fucking months for this shitstain of a server. Just- fuck them. I’m not watching you tear yourself to fucking shreds for this- not again. I can’t sit around and watch you fucking die again, Dream, I can’t drag you out bleeding out in my fucking arms again- fuck-” Punz shakes their head, and oh. They’re crying.
“No more. Fuck the server. I’m done, Dream- we’re done with them.”
Dream blinks, so thoroughly surprised that he thinks the shock knocked him straight out of the building panic attack, leaving nothing but a slight thrumming of anxiety still simmering beneath his skin. Almost instinctually, in a motion he doesn’t really remember but still has the muscle memory for, he opens his arms- and in a similar, near-unconscious response, Punz tumbles into his arms.
He blinks, not moving his arms to curl around the other, feeling the weight of another person against his again and the sound of their breathing and relearning them both. This is- new, for both of them. Dream was never emotional, not before the prison, not that he wanted to be after it either- but Quackity always had a particular affinity for tearing him apart, shard by shard. And Punz- he’d never been like this, even back in the day, when things were easier and they didn’t bear the constant burden of netherite against their backs. They’d always been stoic, sharp, sarcastic, cool and dry in a way that chafed against Sapnap’s fire and always led to Dream laughing at them sooner or later. He sucks in a sharp breath through his teeth, feeling the heat behind his eyes finally sear too hot and boil over, tears squeezing through his closed eyes and falling down his face.
“Okay,” he says, finally, and there’s nothing easy about the acquiescence, not when he had poured blood and sweat and the better half of himself into this place, salted the earth with his tears until no more would come and nothing else would grow. He thinks that he will have more to think and more to say and more to protest come the next days, that the binds between him and his goals have been weaved too deep with the fibers of his soul for him to tear them free without sacrificing what broken pieces of himself he has left, but all he can think right now is how fucking tired he is. He remembers Techno’s voice, going through myth after myth to pass time in the prison, and thinks with something like humor and something like grief - let someone else be Atlas for a day. The sky is too heavy right now. Punz’s arms tighten around his body, enough to remind him that they’re there but not enough to press at his still-healing ribs, and he thinks that they might understand. “Okay.”
#tw torture#tw abuse#tw violence#tw blood#tw injuries#tw emotional distress#tw panic#tw dehumanization#tw unhealthy coping mechanism#tw unhealthy mindsets#tw illness#tw trauma#tw flashbacks#tw starvation#tw suicide#tw death#c!quackity critical#tw dark content#tw dark imagery#prison arc#pandora's vault#-> my writing#my writing :D#my asks !!#-> my asks#dreblr
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LISTEN WHY HAS NO ONE IN THE HMC FANDOM TALKED ABOUT THIS??
HMC X PRINCESS AND THE FROG?!
DO I EVEN NEED TO EXPLAIN?!
SOPHIE AS TIANA OH MY GOSH AND HOWL AS NAVEEN?! THEY'RE SO PERFECT?!
Like, oh my gosh you can't tell me this isn't them!!! (Note I'm writing all this from memory so it might not be that accurate lol)
*Party-pooper eHEM" Howl muttered in his arm while he 'coughed.'
Sophie rolled her eyes and kept trying to make her way through the thick woods, moving branches from her way. The sooner she got to this...Mrs. Pentstemmon (i had a seizure and a half writing this and honestly at this point I'm just gonna leave it like that JAJSJSBS) the sooner they could get rid of the curse and Sophie could go back and save her sister from....whoever that was she danced with at Mrs. Fairfax's ball.
"aH stickinthemud" Howl said once again.
Alright, now she's had it. Sophie quickly turned around and pointed her stick at him, making Howl raise both is hands and give her a dazzling smirk.
"Alright now listen here, this 'stick in the mud' has been stuck working in the same place selling hats for her whole life while making sure her sisters are able to fulfill their destinies without any problem, so please forgive me for not weeping at your tale, because while I was working myself to death you were 'busy' in your- your ivory castle chasing poor girls who's hearts you would later eat!"
"....it was polished marble actually..." Howl murmured, making a now very annoyed Sophie grunt in rage and quickly walk as far away from him as she could.
...
OR OR!!!
(IMAGINE WHEN THEY'RE DOING THE WHOLE EVANGELINE SCENE!!! I don't really know if it should be Calcifer singing it tho since y'know, he's a star, Evangeline's a star, so it kinda makes sense??? And then while he's singing Howl tries to grab Sophie's hand for them to dance, but she quickly pulls away.
"I don't know how to dance... I've never done it before..."
Howl thinks she looks like the first time he met her, cowering against that small shop entrance. This time though, he wasn't going to let her slip away so easily. He slowly grabbed her hand and pulled her towards him, making her yelp in surprise. He places her hands on his shoulders and smirks.
"If I can cook, you can dance." He gently pulls her towards him and they start dancing, Sophie letting out small gasps and almost falling every second.
"It'd be more enjoyable if you didn't step on my foot so much Mrs. Two-Left-Feet." He joked, and Sophie grunted, a blush tinting her cheeks.
"I told you I couldn't dance! If your feet end up suffering then it's your fault, and your fault alone, you knew I wasn't good at this."
"Yes, blame me for this! It's always my fault isn't it?" He glared at her, but then softened up again. "Besides, you aren't doing that bad of a job. You're a quick learner, and you know the steps, you just have to learn how to stop being more clumsy, even if that is part of your charm for some strange reason." He teased her once more, and he let out a cry as he felt his poor foot get stomped on again.
"Alright now that one was on purpose." He winced, and was about to have a dig at her once more, before he looked at her face.
She was smiling.
He felt his knees buckle, almost falling to the ground and into the lake besides them.
What in the world had this woman done to him?
He felt his body lean all his weight on Sophie, almost as if he was a puppet who's strings just got cut off.
Sophie was definitely taken aback by that, but she only rolled her eyes and sighed, trying to ack exasperated.
"Oh you silly, silly man." She smiled and bravely hugged him and pulled him closer, although she was sure it was as if another force had gently pushed him towards him. She was only helping him not fall off to the lake....right?
It was a bit strange though, how her cheeks were flushing and her stomach doing spins round and around inside her body.
It must be because it's chilly tonight and I left my shawl with Michael....and my stomach must be acting weird from all this spinning and dancing about, yes that must be it, she thought.
....
AND IMMA JUST LEAVE IT HERE BC I AM ACTUALLY REALLY TIRED AND TOMORROW I GOTTA STUDY SOOO
BUT I MEAN ITS CUTE RIGHT?? RIGHT?? I tried to write a bit more in DWJs style but I'm not a FRIGGEN genius like her so I probably butchered it ajsjsjs this also is super raw and in like...the early stages maybe? Idk if I should write a small fan fic about it, who knows.
I also don't know what the curse should be...
I'm between the original curses or them both being frogs ajsjsjs (wouldn't that be a bit funny thoo, just Howl panicking because OH GOD IM ALL S L I M Y AND GROSS!! NOT ONLY THAT, I AM GREEN, CALCIFER, GREEN! SOMEONE PLEASE END MY SUFFERING, I SEE NO POINT IN LIVING ANYMORE!!!"
#hmc book#howls moving castle#howp pendragon#sophie hatter#howl jenkins#howl x sophie#snapdragon#?#isn't thah their ship name? bc i love it so much ajsjsjsjs#howls moving castle book#book howl#book sophie
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