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WARNING: Still quite NSFW, still involving butt stuff.

NOTE: This particular story is just about at its climax! This is it for the main story, and all that's left is a wee epilogue. It's been a long time coming, I know; I really have intended to keep up with regular posting, but life got in the way, over and over. Hopefully I can make up for it in the future.

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CHAPTER THIRTY

Extricating herself from Ai's backside had been a little trickier than Rise expected. When Ai warned her that she should definitely pick up the towel, she didn't want to think too much about why — but still did as she was told. Not much came out, but she agreed that it was better for it to land there than on their futons.

Once they had both cleaned up and the device had been left on the bathroom sink, they started making out again before they even achieved their beds. Ai's hand found its way between her thighs and she welcomed it, raising one leg up to let her hit all her spots as deeply and effectively as she possibly could. In the process, she could feel her cock getting harder up against her, but she didn't dare ask her to use it for nature's purpose; that was still a conversation they weren't quite finished with.

Didn't stop her from grabbing onto it and letting their motions jerk Ai, of course. There was a slight grunt when she was first touched but after that, her girlfriend returned her focus to both sets of her lips, worshipping her in a way that no one else ever had. She didn't want them to.

By the end of their intimate encounter, Rise had a great deal more of Ai's seed all over her chest and stomach. She supposed the insistence that it felt different made sense; if stroking her was how she sprayed seed, then assaulting her from the rear without stroking her was unlikely to produce the same result. Oh well.

"That was… amazing," she panted as they gazed at the ceiling, catching their breath.

"It was insane!" Swallowing hard, Ai rolled her neck to smile at her widely. "Holy shit, babe… you took care of me. I mean, not that I doubted you, I just… wow."

Rolling onto her side, she grinned at Ai with sparkling eyes. "So much for us not being each other's firsts."

"Fuck off, God. You don't have to keep making me eat my own words. So rude." But the bashful smile gave her away, and they shared a quick kiss.

"So it was really good? In your butt? I mean, it would be okay if it was just new and you liked trying it out. I just wanna make sure I'm listening to your needs and not just doing what I think is interesting or f-"

"GIRL. I came so hard, are you fucking kidding?!" Seeing Rise bite her lip nervously, she reached up and caressed over her cheek and neck, prompting a shiver. "You did amazing. We, uh… we can't do that every time, I think I'd lose my goddamn mind. But I want it again."

Her face lit up so bright. "Really?!"

"Definitely. I never thought…" She shrugged awkwardly. "I mean, like I said, I always knew that would be where Narukami would plant his flag, I just didn't expect to love it like I do. Am I a butt slut now?"

"I… I didn't even know that was a thing," she found herself laughing. "But if any girl is allowed to want it in the ass, it's girls like you, right? It's not even fair to say it's weird for you like it would be for me."

Ai squinted as she thought that over, pulling Rise in closer so they could cuddle. "Mmm, I dunno if I agree with all that logic, but I appreciate it. And I wouldn't judge you for wanting it in the ass, either, just to get that straight."

"Oh, I don't know. I've never really thought about it, but I don't think… it couldn't feel as good as it does up front, so what's the point?"

"Hmm…"

"What?" She saw the sly expression on Ai's face and raised an eyebrow. "You're plotting something."

"Yeah. Plotting how to get into your ass." Then she held up a hand before Rise could even finish the loud gasp she inevitably made. "As an option, don't think I'm married to it. But if you can literally go down on mine, there's no reason I can't at least mess around down there."

Shaking her head, she struggled onto her hands and knees with some effort. She was tired; mostly because it was late, but getting both herself and her girlfriend off certainly didn't help. "Oh yeah? Well, hey, no time like the present!"

"No time like the preMMPH?!"

Honestly, Ai should have expected her to sit on her face; Rise thought so, anyway. "Take your time!" she called back in a sing-song, resisting the temptation to giggle.

She instantly regretted it when she felt a tongue against somewhere she had never anticipated feeling one a few seconds later. No hesitation; she just went for it! People really did this? She now knew that it wasn't as bad as it seemed, of course, but she still didn't have the slightest clue how she should feel about having that licked. It was… kind of nice, in a way, and bizarre, and uncomfortable, all at once. But she couldn't pretend she hated it.

"Well?" asked a very muffled voice from behind her.

"I-it's, um… I dunno? Very strange." She swallowed down her anxiety and said, "You can do it again if you want; I'm completely fine. Just, um, like, you don't have to push yourself to if yWHOA that is so weird! Ebi-chan!"

The longer Ai spent working on her ass, the less she hated it. Not that she would ever prefer this to having her pay attention around the front; far from it. But it was almost relaxing, in a weird way; even though that tongue tip trying to poke in past her defenses caused her anxiety spikes, knowing this wasn't really dangerous made her release the spikes with almost zero hesitation and go back to enjoying the world's most bizarre massage.

Minutes passed. By the time Ai drew back, she had no idea how long it had been exactly; only that she had been into it enough that she didn't care how long they kept going. When she felt the tongue had gone, she giggled a little and looked over her shoulder, "Tired, baby?"

"Mmm, nah. I just didn't know if I was going… too long." She caressed her thigh and cheek tenderly. "I could handle that. Like, it was a little harder than tongue-bathing you up front, but it could be easier if we practiced."

"Really, it was harder? Why?"

"Well, you were clenching at first."

"I was?!"

Chuckling, she kissed the other ass cheek, and that time Rise felt herself clench; she definitely had been. "Yep. But you relaxed after a while. Then it was just that my tongue started to get tired."

"Ohhh, I see. But I guess you didn't hate it too much."

"Guess not." But when she felt Rise playfully poke her firm length, she sighed. "Again, my fucking red flag waving. I can't catch a break."

"Nope," she giggled. "Does she wanna pick up where your tongue left off?"

"NO. Oh my g- I definitely wouldn't wanna… I mean, you're not ready. I'm not even ready for your pussy! But… maybe, kinda."

Rise felt her shoulders hunch instinctively. "Y-you're right, I'm not ready for any of it, either. Not really. I was just curious how you felt; I really do tease you too much, I guess."

What she did do instead was lean down to take that semi into her mouth. A little hum of interest caressed over her nethers as she started to bob her head up and down. "Rise! Nnhh, don't…!"

"Why not?" she asked when she had pulled off, smacking her lips as she enjoyed her girlfriend's heady flavour. Had she actually started to miss that in the interim?

"It's really sensitive… I…" She cleared her throat, kissing the inside of Rise's thigh. "I think I'm overstimulated. Even though I kinda want it, I don't know…"

"Well…" Rise pushed the very tip of her tongue against the tip of her lover, moving it from side to side to toy with the teensy little slit. The moan was instantaneous. "It's hard to resist when you sound so good back there. But I will resist, if it's what you really want."

Voice full of shame, she bleated, "Goooood, NO! Mmhhh… you make me so hot all the time, you dumb bitch! I cannot stand you!" Yet her hips thrust into the air, trying to chase that playful mouth.

Might as well let her catch.

This time, Ai only lasted a minute or two before she came. Most of the blame lay in how oversensitive she was from the last two climaxes, of course, but Rise's finger playing with her ass at the very end certainly drove her over the edge. She also had to wonder if continuing to stay seated on her face helped things along. Ai certainly wasn't shy about keeping up those attentions; probably just for revenge, but since Rise only found the tongue-bath pleasant rather than overwhelmingly sensual, she didn't mind at all. Just enjoyed the ride.

"Okay, now we really… gotta stop!" Ai panted weakly, unable to move at all.

"Yeah… I… yeah." Rise's clit was burning to be touched again, but she had made a choice to ignore that. Neither of them had a shred of energy left to worry about that, so why bring it up? "Good… I… it was fun, but… mmhhh…"

"You're fun." She managed to move her hand down to grasp Rise's, and she squeezed back gratefully. "Shit… you're going to… ruin me, wow…"

"Me, too… I really… you know how to… w-with your mouth…"

"Eat ass? Yeah… I guess I… learned it from you?" They both shared a laugh.

"Guess so." Licking her lips, which still lingered with the forbidden flavour, she turned aside to kiss the little mole near her girlfriend's hip. "I love you… so much…"

At first, she just heard a quiet hum. She had begun to think for sure that Ai was falling asleep. But then she whispered, "Love you, too, bitch."

They definitely weren't getting up anytime soon.

~ o ~

The rest of the vacation seemed to scream past at lightspeed. Children's Day arrived, and they were heading back to Inaba. Everybody was well-rested and thrilled at having been able to see sights and sounds of somewhere other than that sleepy little town. Yukiko seemed to be most excited about bringing notes on another inn to her parents, but her spirits were as high as anyone else's. Kanji and Chie seemed most excited to get back home. Yosuke was mostly just pouting that he never managed to snag a hot chick's number, but opened himself up to ridicule with that lamentation.

"Guess the girls in Okinawa have the same good taste as the ones back home," Chie laughed as their train bumped along the tracks.

"Wow, jerk," he grumped as he pouted at her. He had been glum most of the trip, or so Rise couldn't help thinking. Maybe it was the lack of female attention; maybe it was something else. Either way, she wished she could do something to help but that definitely did not include actually going out with him. Really, even if she wasn't attached, he was far from her type; she had only flirted with him a few times for sport.

Maybe she was always a bitch and had just been in denial. Should she embrace it?

"It feels like the school year is about to pounce on us," Chie sighed as she redoubled her grip on the overhead strap.

"Mm," Yukiko said. "We are going to have to study harder than ever, and entrance exams will be soon…"

Teddie pouted, looking down at his knees. "Aww, I wanna take exams!"

"Why?" Kanji grunted in annoyance.

"Because everybody else is doing it! I don't want to be the only bear left out!"

Ai leaned over to her girlfriend and whispered, "Why does this dude keep saying 'bear' so often? It's weird." Rise pretended not to hear the question.

"So…"

When Naoto didn't finish that thought, everyone exchanged glances before Yukiko turned back to look at her. "So…?"

"I, um… this is probably not an especially sound venue for this announcement. But I've been giving it a lot of thought; the fortune teller in the Makishi market prompted me toward stating this more firmly. Well, and other recent conversations."

Again, they waited, but Naoto was staring out the window and watching the Japanese countryside flash past with a pensive expression. They all thought they were in the same boat… until Kanji stepped toward her and took her hand, squeezing it gently.

"Hey. You know they're cool; nothin' to worry about."

"Oh!" Rise gasped with a little bounce. "I knew it, I knew it! You are a thing!"

"Huh? No way!" he burst out in embarrassment. It always struck her as especially cute when the hulking tower of a boy blushed that way. "Quit getting ahead of yourself, bitch!"

"Excuse me?!"

"It's alright," Naoto headed Kanji off before he could either apologise or double down on the insult. Instantly, he looked chagrined enough that Rise refocused back on the one making whatever announcement it would turn out to be. "It's a natural guess, Tatsumi. Please keep your mind on the important matters. I…" Another lapse into anxious silence. Even though Naoto wasn't fidgeting much, it was still more than usual — and stood out to her friends.

"They're ready," Ai told her firmly. In a tone that almost suggested she already knew what she was going to say.

"Are they?" She sighed, then nodded resolutely. "They are. These past days have proven they are; thank you."

"Wait, what's this now?!" Chie burst out, glancing between the two of them. "You two been keeping secrets? SO not cool! What are all of us, chopped liver?!"

"Ebihara-senpai didn't need to have foreknowledge. She understands this matter intimately." Naoto didn't waste any more time before blurting out, "I am a detective prince. Not a princess. Please treat me accordingly."

Which didn't clear up enough. "Huh?" Yosuke burst out with a raised eyebrow.

"She's a dude, dude," Ai said bluntly. But her face betrayed she wasn't nearly so cavalier about this situation; there was a sort of fierce pride etched into her noble features as she watched Naoto try not to quail under the stares from their friends. Rise was beginning to get it; her girlfriend felt like she had someone who really could understand her now. That made her wonder if she had ever known any other trans women — or men? That was an interesting notion she just hadn't really considered, that there must be boys out there in the same situation as girls like Ai and Erica. Interesting.

"What are you talking about? That was just like, a stunt to make it onto the police force or whatever."

But Naoto wasn't going to let that slide — not now that she- he had gone through all the trouble of confronting the situation. "It wasn't. I have never really felt comfortable in female clothing, or having female societal conventions expected of me. While I respect women and consider them to be the superior gender in a lot of ways, I… simply don't see myself as one. Never have. So I would appreciate it if you could return to referring to me as 'he' and 'him' as you did when we first met."

As the detective prince took a small bow of appreciation for their listening to him come out, Yukiko and Chie exchanged mystified glances. Yosuke scratched the back of his head. Teddie just looked politely interested but blissfully ignorant, as usual. Rise was much more fascinated by the way Kanji was smiling so softly at Naoto. This was a problem, though, wasn't it?

"So… so you aren't dating?" she asked him very quietly.

"Huh? Oh… nah, not…" He cleared his throat. "I still like him and all, but uh… I dunno. It's weird."

"Kanji, are… you gay after all?" Yukiko asked. Her question may have had all the grace of a baseball bat to the forehead, but her tone was certainly cautious and delicate as it ever was.

"What?! Hey, this ain't about me! Alright? Naoto's tryin' ta tell you guys somethin' important, so fuckin' listen to him! Or I'll pound ya!"

"You lay a finger on Yukiko and you'll have somethin' new to worry about," Chie snapped immediately, putting herself between the two of them. Kanji just growled, and soon they were forehead to forehead, snarling at each other like rabid dogs.

"Down, boy," Ai sighed as she tugged Chie's collar backward. Rise tried to suppress a giggle at which one she had called 'boy'. "And girl." Oh — maybe she was just talking to both of them. "You two are so overprotective you're gonna create fights that don't need to happen. Jesus, it's a miracle this little friend group of yours hasn't already imploded."

"Hey, we're made of tougher stuff than that," Yosuke scoffed. "Like, I still don't get the point of trying to swap genders or whatever, but it doesn't mean you're not friends. Just like those two yelling doesn't make them not friends; just like Yu moving away doesn't mean he's not our friend."

"Huh. Well I guess I'm no expert in friendships, so I'll have to defer to your expertise."

Slinging an arm around her girlfriend's neck, Rise giggled and said, "We'll teach you! I mean, some of us are pretty new to it, too, but we've got a few months of experience on you; might as well show you what we learned."

"I'm not new to it," Chie scoffed.

"Nor am I," Yukiko said reasonably. "But that just means we can help Ebihara-san more, doesn't it?"

Pouting a little, she muttered, "Well… y-yeah, that's true. And I do want to, I… guess."

"You guess, huh?"

"N-no, that's not what I- come on, cut me some slack! All this new stuff is very confusing for me!" Ai chuckled a little at her expense, so Chie shoved her. "SHUT UP!"

"Look, look!" Yosuke interrupted before they could really start slap-fighting. "Inaba's coming up!"

Every single one of them leaned in to press their faces against the window; their car had emptied out just enough that it was possible. Rise couldn't help feeling her heart leap at the familiar sight. Even though at one point, she had wondered whether or not she would ever return to her hometown, her grandmother had drawn her back there. A lot more than family was drawing her this time.

Well, it was family. Some of the members were just newly attained.

"Can't wait to get home and sleep in my own bed," Kanji sighed, stretching and cracking his back.

"Sounds about right, old man," Rise giggled.

"HEY! I'm younger than you!"

"No you're not! We're the same age — except we're not, cuz you're older!"

When she even stuck her tongue out at him, he got so much more steamed — but a single touch from Naoto brought him under control. "Hmph. You get a pass cuz you're a chick. I'd clean your clock if you were a dude."

"I'd like to see you try," she teased. But the threat had passed, regardless.

"I'll be so happy to be home," Yukiko breathed, taking Chie's hand and squeezing tightly as they got closer and closer to the end of the line. "I've missed our room." Nobody called her out on saying 'our room', as conspicuous as that was; they were all a lot more comfortable with how close they had become than they once were. Even if some of them remained blissfully ignorant.

Speaking of which… with a start, Rise leaned closer to Chie so she could whisper, "By the way, before we split up, um… I have a package for you."

"Huh? What kinda package?"

"A package-package. Trust me, it's something you and Yuki-chan are really gonna love. I just don't wanna forget! And you can pay me back whenever."

Completely confounded, Chie just shrugged and smiled, telling her, "Thanks, I guess. I'm sure we'll love whatever it is, totally."

"Anytime."

"Softie," Ai chuckled under her breath as she moved closer to Rise. "But I guess that's what I love about you, so who am I complaining to? Myself?"

"Exactly; don't be mean to yourself. Just… be mine."

"Hmm… I can handle that, I guess. Sap."

As she slipped an arm around Ai's shoulders, Rise tried not to cry. Everything had gone a lot better than she feared. Her phone kept vibrating, and she knew it was her agent, and she absolutely could not care about that in the slightest. Her whole life was ahead of her; she could figure it all out in due time.

They would figure it out. Together — the way they were strongest.

To Be CONCLUDED…

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WARNINGS: Sex toy discussion, needle usage (related to HRT).

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CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT

"GOD, I've never been so excited to see tatami before."

Rise winced as they set their bags down near their suitcases. "Sorry this day turned out so stressful. Honestly, a lot happened… I wasn't prepared."

"It's fine. And your friends are cool; they might not be city-poppers, but I guess they can live."

"They can live? Wow, you really think not liking stuffy old music is worth being killed over?!"

Her girlfriend squinted menacingly at her as she put her hands on her hips, halfway through the action of trying to take her dress off. "You saw how many old CDs I got at that market. Really wanna question my dedication to the genre right now?"

"No, no, I do not," she said with a giggle. "Want some help with that?"

"Mmm, depends. Are you gonna grab for my dick again?"

"Who, me?"

"Rise…"

Rolling her eyes, she slid in behind her girlfriend to start undoing the zip and sliding it down off her arms. "Wow, you literally have no faith in me." She even pouted and rested her chin on her shoulder for good measure.

"Nope." But she turned to kiss the tip of her nose in spite of that response. It was so sweet and unexpected that Rise felt herself turn shy, burying her face behind Ai's back for a moment while she recovered. "Marshmallow."

"Mmmmmmaybe." Grinning, she slid the dress all the way off — then reached down to honk her girlfriend's package.

"HEY! What did we just say?!"

"That's what you get for assuming!" She skipped away to stick out her tongue at her. Ai only hesitated for a moment before chasing after her, snatching for her arm before she slipped away, taking off running around the room.

By the time they were done, they were panting and just starting to perspire, the tatami a complete mess. Luckily the futons were put away or they would have been just as bad. They giggled as Ai straddled her and pinned her down, hair falling in a curtain surrounding her head.

"This feels a little familiar," she whispered.

"Yeah." Rise felt her cheeks flush as she smiled sweetly up at her girlfriend. For a minute they simply shared that moment, the closeness that only came from working out their issues together so there were no longer any obstructions. Just affection.

"Uh… listen."

"Hey," she whispered in a suddenly excited tone. "Wanna see what I got in that bag finally? Now that we're alone…"

The seriousness that had begun to creep into Ai's features softened and she smiled again. "You know I do, bitch. Stop teasing me."

"Mmm, no you — because you have to let me up if I'm going to show you."

"Fine, fine. But I swear to god, I will pin you again if I have to."

Rise hopped up the second her girlfriend rolled to one side and began to straighten out the mats, leaving her to her work as she ran to get her shopping bag from Lady K's boutique. A little flicker of guilt passed through her stomach but she tried her best to ignore it. So what if she was stalling some serious conversation in favor of having more fun? This was a vacation; they were supposed to be having fun. And moreover…

She had an inkling what that conversation would have been about. Disappointment could wait for another day.

"Okay, now I hope this isn't too freaky," she started in a slightly nervous tone as she approached her girlfriend, trying not to stumble when she saw how prettily she was sitting on the fixed floor now that she had finished the job. "We can just like, stick this stuff in a suitcase and not think about it for a while — or I can throw it away! Whatever you want."

"Honestly, whatever it is, I'm sure it's fine," Ai chuckled as she watched her approach. "Grow some ovaries, girl."

"Back at you."

Her girlfriend pursed her lips for a moment. "See, that's exactly the kind of joke I wouldn't let slide if it were anyone but you. Funny, though." Rise breathed a silent sigh of relief. "Okay, let me have it."

Once the strap-on set was out in the open, Ai's entire demeanor changed. She sat up a little straighter, a permanent look of surprise tugging her eyebrows skyward as her head began to tilt. Though she clearly already suspected its purpose, she still asked, "Is… this for… Bowl Cut and Amagi?"

"No. Oh — though I got them one, too." She pulled out the other set in its clear plastic bag. "Since Chie was already kinda talking about it, I figured she can just… pay me back? Less embarrassing than her having to go out and… and find a… Ebi-chan?"

"Hm?" she asked, looking up at Rise. Her face was so flushed now — all over, not just her cheeks. "I'm fine. Everything's… that's very thoughtful of you. Glad you found that weird booth now."

"Yeah, me too. But not for them. Is… is it okay that I got this?" She put the green monster away and held up their sleek set of black playthings instead.

"O-oh, yeah, for sure. Doesn't mean we'll use them; I understand that. This was just a golden opportunity to get them for like, next to no hassle."

Well, shit. Now Rise felt stupid for having assumed they would be taking this kind of play further. So she did what PR taught her to do: damage control. "Cool, yeah, cool. And I got some other fun stuff! See…" She set the toys down and dug back into the bag. "Lingerie, and… oh, I didn't really know anything about this, but I guess lube is a thing that people use? This is… passion fruit…"

Ai had stood up and was pushing her hand with the lube back into the bag so she could move in closer. Then her arms were around Rise, and she hugged back stiffly. Everything felt so uncertain now. Maybe she was being silly, but she still couldn't seem to shake the feeling that she had been walking up stairs in the dark and thought there was one more phantom step than there was.

"It's okay, girl. You did great. Stop looking like you just ran over my cat with your car. We're good."

"Okay," she whispered, squeezing much tighter now. "I'm just a little scared I'm gonna say the wrong thing and screw everything up."

"I mean, yeah? Everybody makes mistakes, Rise. I'm not gonna dump you over something like this — no way!" Her fingertips dug into her back. "This is on me. We had that whole fight, and I mean, even if it was about something real… I'm so defensive all the time, I probably let you feel like you're on thin ice."

Oh. That made Rise squirm, because she knew if she reassured Ai it wouldn't have been entirely honest. "Y-yeah. I'm sure you've had to be defensive, though; nobody at your old school believed you were really a girl, so…"

Ai drew back to inspect her girlfriend's face. "Wow. I'm… like, I really had convinced myself that nobody could ever fully understand. And I still don't think you do, either — it's probably impossible — but you came a hell of a lot closer than I ever expected. I got really lucky."

"Wow, thank you," she breathed. That almost sounded like her capacity for empathy was being insulted, but after seeing how Chie and Yosuke behaved, she knew it really wasn't. This was simply an issue that lent itself to misunderstandings. "I'll keep learning, okay?"

"I know you will. You make me believe."

"Good." She left a light kiss on her smirking lips before pulling back. "And I'll help you learn me, too."

"What's to learn?" she scoffed. "You're a rich, spoiled superstar. I only keep you around because you're hot."

Laughing, she set the lube and the box to one side. "Oh, I think you'd be surprised. There's a lot more to Risette than meets the eye. Can you get that thing out and ready for me, set up the futons?"

"Sure." As she crossed to the closet, she called over her shoulder, "What else is there to know, though? You're cute, you're talented, you're smart, you make me laugh. And you're definitely not a gold digger."

Amazing how she could do that. Rise was in awe of the way her girlfriend could sound insulting and dismissive, even while complimenting her; it was a special talent. "And you are definitely the hottest nerd I've ever known."

"Wha- nerd?!" she burst out as she dropped the futons in the middle of the floor, legitimately flabbergasted. Worth it. "In what way? I'm the hottest girl at Yasogami — and my fashion is always on point, bitch!"

"You really need me to tell you? I mean, city pop and video games, and you also get great grades when you actually go to class." Ai pursed her lips a little, and Rise returned to poke her in the cheeks. "I'm just playing with you. Even if you were a bigger nerd than that, I wouldn't care; it's the you inside that's my girlfriend."

Ai's features faded to that thoughtful, far-away look that she both loved and fretted about. What went on in her mind? Finally, she took Rise's hands and pulled her in for a sweet, chaste kiss worthy of a wedding ceremony.

"You're sweet," Ai breathed. "Asshole."

"No, your sweet asshole." Ai bit her lip and rolled her eyes, trying not to grin from ear to ear. It was a losing battle.

"Shut up. You're getting obsessed, it's gross. Girls who like anal are weird."

"Then we're both weird together?" Ai shrugged, and Rise had to giggle at that response. "Okay, I'm gonna go change and then we can try that out if you want."

"Um… actually…"

Damn. She didn't want to do it; this really was a bust. "No, that's okay! There's a TV, and we can just hang out and see what's on the local cable channels, okay?"

"Not that. U-uh, I, uh…" Ai grimaced and looked aside, cheeks starting to pinken even further. "Is it cool if I freshen up first? Since I'm going to be… the one who's…"

"OH!" she breathed. "Hey, hey, sure! We're both probably- can we wash each other? I can be thorough, or, um, or whatever you-"

"Relax," she ordered her with a roll of her eyes, even though her voice was quite gentle. "I love you, idiot. Let's take a quick shower. Then if you still wanna try on this frilly bullshit, you can change in there and I'll change out here. Deal?"

Rise nodded, earning herself another kiss. Damn, she could handle this loving and affectionate Ai any day of the week. "Then let's get started. Here — I'll…" She glanced around and found the robe, then used that to sneak something out of the bag. Ai was watching her with a bemused smirk.

"You like surprises a lot, don't you?"

"Mmmmaybe."

"No wonder you're dating me. I must have been the biggest surprise of all time."

"Oh, definitely! No way was I expecting to date a girl, Senpai." Focusing on the details besides her transitional gender status. That got her girlfriend wearing a real, wide, earnest grin as if she had never been happier; it was the most beautiful thing Rise had ever seen.

"Never thought I would date a girl-kouhai, either," she teased back gleefully. "But at least she's literally the hottest one I could have chosen. And the coolest."

Grinning herself now, Rise half-tackled Ai into a hug, which she laughed as she returned, completely at home. Like they belonged together forever. "I love you!"

"Ugh, I know. Gross. Let me just take my hormones and I'll meet you in there."

Rise started to cross the room… but she hesitated by the bathroom door, looking back at where Ai was digging through her carry-on bag. She had never even mentioned them before now. Yes, she had mentioned that there were steps in the process that got her to look closer to the way she felt, but today's discussion had been the first time she went into detail about her surgeries. Now this? Maybe she really was getting more comfortable around her.

"You wanna get a telescope?"

"I'm sorry," she remarked immediately, turning toward the bathroom door.

"No, it's okay. I just… don't… no one has ever watched me except my father. And he definitely didn't enjoy it. But if… this is gonna help you… I don't know."

Rise swallowed hard. "Well, I wouldn't want to if you're not comfortable, but… I want to share… whatever I can. With you. Is that okay?"

Ai sighed and rolled her eyes at her girlfriend, though she was smiling very slightly. Tiredly, but still smiling. "Yes. It's fine. You're going to see it happen at some point, and I guess it's not that weird that this first time you'd want to get a real demonstration."

So Rise knelt on the floor next to Ai as she watched her bust out an alcohol swab, rubbing it over her hands and then over an area on her thigh that had a few other little marks. Most of them were so tiny they were already almost gone, but one or two stood out. She then used another to wipe down a hypodermic needle before sticking it into a vial of fluid, carefully filling the syringe. She squinted at it to make sure there were no air bubbles, spritzed a little out the tip to clear it. Then-

"Nnh," Rise sighed in sympathetic discomfort as she watched Ai stick herself. She had to look away; it was just so uncomfortable. Apparently, Ai wasn't having a great time either, because her face displayed a flicker of pain. But she made herself watch again as she finished dispensing the fluid and then very smoothly drew the needle back out.

"That's it," she told her in a businesslike tone as she wiped over the injection site again, then held the swab there to stop the little bead of blood from growing. "Hand me that sharps box?"

From the direction her hand moved, Rise figured out she meant the little red-and-white bento. As it turned out, not a bento at all; it rattled with the sound of a few other needles inside. Ai dropped the newly-spent one in with the others and snapped it closed. Done deal.

"Well… I guess that wasn't so bad… but do you have to do that every day?"

"No, no way. Like once a week. I should really start stabbing my ass, but the thigh is just easier to reach." When Rise blinked at her owlishly, Ai laughed. "It's distributed better through the glutes. Anyway, sorry about the horror show."

"Oh, it really wasn't that bad… I just… I'm no good with needles! Ugh, it's a little un-fun watching you, but come near me with one and I'd smack you!"

Laughing a little more freely, she started packing her "kit" away. "Well, lucky for you I don't need to make you any girlier than you already are. But I'm sorry for freaking you out, even though you said it was okay. This is just part of the deal."

"Cool. I m-mean, not 'cool', but I… no, actually it kind of is. Stabbing yourself every week because you want to be who you are? It's… kind of hardcore."

"See? You get it! My mom was like 'Wehh, that's so dangerous, what are you putting in your body?!''" She had adopted a nasally tone that made Rise giggle. "So ridiculous. It's my body, and my doctor is very professional; she practically beat it into me that I have to take the exact dose or it wouldn't work right."

Rise gave her a little hug and a kiss on the cheek. "Well, I think it's brave." Then she leaned all the way down to kiss where she had stuck herself.

Clearly, this was not quite as romantic as she thought it would be. In retrospect, she wasn't even sure why she thought she should do that. Ai just looked a little puzzled as she stared down at her. "It's… it didn't really hurt, if that's…"

"Oh, um…"

"I'm not mad," she preemptively told her, and Rise could feel a little of her tension easing. "It's cool. I get the sentiment, but I'm just saying it's not really a boo boo. You don't have to worry about me." She reached down to pet over her hair.

"But… I guess I want to? Is that dumb? It's dumb."

"Nope. Totally fine."

Reluctantly, she let go of her miniature panic attack and let Ai pull her to her feet. "Okay. Thanks."

"Anytime. Now… let's go wash up so we can claim my virginity."

To Be Continued…

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