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at this point imma just need an entire slowburn series about noah becoming a dad 🫠
YUUUHHHHH HERE IT IS i went a lil ham on this
finding out
Usually you're both careful with these things and sometimes you even take a morning after pill just to be sure. Although you've had times where you were reckless and nothing happened out of pure luck! so you have some pregnancy tests at home, obviously to clear things up if your period was late .
So it was actually late one night and Noah was just playing around with his guitar, making some tunes and you come in with some surprising news
"Hey sunshine" he smiles and puts the guitar down
"Hey so uh....I got something to share with you...something really shocking" you said sitting down on the bed
"From 1-10" he spun his chair to face you
"A 50....maybe more" you admit
"Hm, well lay it on me," he says coming over to sit with you on the bed
You pull out the pregnancy test and hand it to him "I uh....I'm pregnant" you let out a breath you didn't know you were holding. Your hands were shaking and you didn't know why you were so nervous.
"..baby wait. Y-you're serious?? You're pregnant?!" he asked taking the test and examining it. "Holy shit! What?!" he was way more excited than you thought he would be
"You..you're happy about-"
"Of course I am! I put a baby in you! You're gonna be a mom...I'm gonna be a...I'm gonna be a dad? Holy shit" he was
HE is so happy :)) he just holds you and kisses your face all over
"Oh my sunshine, you are just...ugh I don't know. I love you" he said as he kissed your lips "and I love you too" he said laying his hands on your stomach that still hasn't started growing
During
He's attached to your side FOR ANYTHING!
Morning sickness? Already has water ready for you, and even a light breakfast. Need someone to cuddle for you 5th nap of the day? He's got the softest blankets ready for you
He goes to your very first appointment and he can't stop jittering around. He's very excited for it all to unfold
He knew babies started tiny, but it was so tiny! Smaller than his pinky, he looked like a kid in a candy store. It was honestly so adorable
"Okay we need to start picking names, uh clothes! Uh things for the nursery, OH! I can get them lil ski masks to match with me!" he is so excited it made the experience so much better
he is VERY excited to tell the boys! But because of his line of work he had to tell them at one point or another. However I think he becomes very strict with you just so that the pregnancy goes smoothly
He waited for you to pass the 1st trimester to bring you with him one day to tell the boys about the news. Once you were all together you had Bryan secretly ready with his camera to capture reactions
"So before we tell you guys the news we got you all a little something" you hand a large bag to them and they reach inside to pull out shirts. They let them fall open and Jolly reads his out loud
"World's best Uncles" it took them a hot second to piece it together then Nick gasped
"NO FUCKING WAY! NO WAY! WHAT??" a chain reaction happened and they all caught on with wide eyes and large smiles. Bryan's camera shuttering in the background capturing the moment
They all hug and congratulate you both, they were all happy for you and super excited to be uncles to your lil baby on the way. So he had things set up with his team and gave your estimated delivery date because he wanted those days off and unavailable to be with you, including the first 3 months before being more active again
He would 100000% try and keep you out of the eye of the paparazzi or social platforms for your safety and privacy.
Now that you're entering your second trimester, your bump is starting to show and he LOVES IT!!! He takes pictures at the end of every week to document the growth. Now that you do have a visible bump his hands are always on it. he Just love to in some way be in contact with your bump.
He has a recording of their heartbeat on his phone, and yes he has put it into a song he has been working on! He love the heartbeat so much that he bought his own little machine to hear the heartbeat whenever you both wanted
Whenever you take naps his face is near your bump, telling them stories, humming songs and just having conversations with them
"And when I first saw mommy I was too scared to go and talk to her because she was so pretty, but now we're here waiting for you to come. You're gonna love her! MAybe not as much as me but you're going to love her!"
KISSES TO YOU TUMMY :)) whenever he has to step out, or in the morning or before bed he always gives you a kiss and your bump a kiss
Massages your body because he knows you get sore
He will always be the voice of reason when you tell him you're getting fat and he tells you there is a huge difference between fat and pregnant. And how even though you looked like "a fat marshmallow" you were still super sexy
Finding out the gender was very fun! Once you had the gender it was given to Nick and they got to plan it! It was a very small, very intimate gathering. Just the boys, some friends and family. When the time came they had planned something simple but , useful! they had bought a small wardrobe for the baby and inside all the items were either pink or blue.
On the count of 3 you and Noah undid the large bow holding the door together and slowly opened the doors
The wardrobe opened and the inside was a beautiful pastel pink!
Everyone cheered and Noah was ecstatic held you close
"We're having a girl! Oh god, we're having a girl Y/N!" he kissed your forehead "jesus I think I'm gonna cry" he chuckled as his eyes in fact welled up with tears
Looking inside the wardrobe he smiled at the adorable dress, jumpsuits, hoodies and plushies. He could feel his heart doing cartwheels in his chest.
The rest of the reveal was spent talking with everyone, getting best wishes and even some tips from some family. While Noah was speaking with his friends he looked over a you and just admired you. You smile, the way your hands sat on your bump, your baby bump that he now knew held your daughter
"...I told you he was far gone" he heard Folio
"Mhm, he's whipped"
"I am happily whipped for your information"
you now had just a month to get things in order and ready for your new arrival. Noah had the crib built and nursery ready, you packed an overnight bag for you both in case you had to stay at the hospital. Baby seat was installed and you even made prep meals together
"I don't think I ever thought I'd get this big" you said as you pocked at your bump
"baby that's good! Means our princess is growing healthy in there!"
"Thought I was your princess" you tease him
"You were, now you're my queen who's carrying the princess"
Loves to watch you waddle around the house and be stubborn on getting help when you need it
"...do you want me to-"
"No I got it!" you said struggling to reach something on the shelf. you used to reach just fine, but someone was currently in the way. You gave in and let him get it for you. he kissed your head and said
"Don't worry she's almost here"
After/birth
You had a birth plan and so far it was all going right! Labor started the night before your due date and you labored at home before heading for the hospital. You tried getting as much rest as you could
Now Noah? Noah was crying, screaming, smiling, throwing up, running, passing out....all in his head. But on the outside you don't know how he was staying so calm.
there are a lot of people who insisted that natural was the best way, but you honestly wanted a smooth and less stressful so you went for the epidural. You got there in time and your epidural was scheduled for later on.
Noah held your hand, walked around the room with you, massaged your back and was just your rock through the entire thing. He texted the guys to let them know their niece would be coming very soon.
"How you feeling sunshine?" "Do you need water?" "Should I call the nurse?" "Breath babe you got this"
Once you were clear for the epidural, things felt a lot lighter, the contractions were very mild and you felt like things were going a lot better than you anticipated
Once it was time to actually deliver you felt every emotion all at once. You were scared but excited, and happy but also nervous
"We're going to finally meet her!" he whisper yelled as he stood next to your and held your hand
"I know I'm....really nervous but happy!" you admit
"I know baby, but you got this, come on ready?"
The entire delivery took about an hour to an hour an half but you delivered a healthy baby girl. Strong lungs filled the room with cries. You cried, Noah cried you finally had your baby with you. She was here, laying on your chest, crying loudly
"strong lungs just like her daddy" you joke smiling at Noah
"You did so good sunshine" he kissed your head "She so beautiful, I couldn't ask for more"
After things had died down, you had fallen asleep after being tended to and your baby was fed. Noah took his advantage and had some skin to skin with her. She was so tiny compared to his much larger chest
His hand covered her completely, like a blanket and shielded her from the world. He never knew he could feel this type of love before. He loved you so deeply and now he is feeling that same love for this little baby that laid on his chest
"I love you princess. daddy loves you so so much"
he didn't notice you had woken up and taken pictures of him with the baby. That wallpaper was not going to be changed any time soon
He did make a post about it to his story with a picture of her tiny foot against his tattooed skin that read "welcome a new sebastian <3"
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LB my dear dear! I have devoured all yours and MB's ao3 works till date ❤️🤌 and I am feeling pathetically ravenous for more 🫠. Although my question is- since I have seen people asking you for suggestions as to which blog and which writer to look to for more feysand/elucien content I would like to request the same only and only if you are comfortable and have the time for this pressing request. And thank you even if you couldn't for some reason im only scared since you are busy and wouldnt want to burden you with such an exigent task. . I'm sorry to bother you That would be it 🥺 👉👈
You want blog suggestions for Elucien/Feysand authors? And you think you're bothering me??? Anon, this happens to be my exact area of exertise and there is nothing love more than hyping up my friends!
To kick us off my lovely friend @velidewrites is an extraordinarily talented writer and artist, and also just an all-around ray of sunshine whose blog I cannot recommend enough.
There's also @writtenonreceipts who's every work is literal potery. Pick any of her stroies and you will come undone.
@belabellissima has a beautiful Feysand/Elucien series called the State of Grace and is also one of my favorite people 🥺💝
@azrielshadowssing also regularly feeds us with delciioiusly sinful Feysand and Elucien stories 🥰 hehehe definitely read the tags though!
Among a host of other incredible fics, @damedechance has an onlyfans series that will make you feral - Playgirl (Elucien) and darling.exe (Feysand) 👀👀 Come back to me once you finish losing your mind
@xtaketwox and @itsthedoodle come as Feysand/Elucien pair hehe. @xtaketwox has treated us to lots of goodies, but I wanted to highlight her modern soulmate AU which has a dedicated work for Feysand, Elucien, and Nessian! @itsthedoodle has written so many beautiful feysand oneshots and is the sweetest, most unhinged person you'll ever have the pleasure of knowing.
@asnowfern is so talented and writes for a lot of different pairings, including Feysand and Elucien! Right now she's working on a stunning Feysand AU inspired by a chinese legend called Till Forever Falls Apart
if you're a fan of next-gen, @areyoudreaminof has lots of adorable fics and headcanons centering around Elucien and Feysand as parents!
@witch-and-her-witcher again writes for many couples, including Feysand and Elucien! She recently wrote a Feysand and Nyx oneshot, The Little Tiger, that completely fractured my heart and put it back together.
@thegloweringcastle is another extremely talented writer who has a wealth of feysand and elucien fics! One I really love is the The Law of the Land which is a Feysand western AU with background Elucien ���
@darling-archeron has been in this fandom since 2016 and in that time has blessed us with so much wonderful Feysand and Elucien content!! (One day you really need to sit us all down and tell us the fandom lore we all missed out on from the acomaf/acowar releases 👀)
@iambutmortal has a lot of delicious Feysand and Elucien stories! For Elucienweek last year she wrote a really addicting story called The Honeymooners
@labellefleur-sauvage has written so many incredible Elucien fics! As well as a very delicious monster!Feyre fic called Meet Me In the Woods hehehe 👀
@foundress0fnothing always blows me away with her writing. For Elucienweek last year she wrote an Elucien sex cult fic titled Both Forever and Rather Die that lives in my head rent free.
@howlingcaptaincommando is working on a really amazing pirate AU, Never Shall I Die, centering around Elucien, Nessian, and Feysand!
@vulpes-fennec has so many lovely stories, including her Prythian Fantasia WIP which centers on the Archeron sisters and their mates 😍
@popjunkie42 has yet to dip her toes into writing Elucien but maybe one day we can convince her 👀👀 That said she has so many amazing Feysand works such as Hate Me Instead and her current WIP Blossoming In Winter.
Likewise my dearest friend @wilde-knight has only written Elucien and Nessian, but I can't recommend her works and blog enough!! She's working on an amazing Princess Bride AU called Burnished Gold
@captain-of-the-gwynriel-ship is a die-hard Feysand, Elucien, Gwynriel, and Nessian! Currently they're working on a Feysand fic Five Minutes to Midnight which also features background Elucien!
@octobers-veryown creates so many wonderful moodboards for variuos ships and characters! I cannot recommend following them enough💕
And finally @rosanna-writer, @reverie-tales, @thesistersarcheron, and @starfall-spirit are my multishipping queens 🥰 On their blogs you'll find wonderful content for Feysand, Elriel, Elucien, and other ships as well!
#Oh god if I'm missing someone I'm so sorry#I got distracted so many times while making this#And now I'm just ready to yeet this task into the sun lmaooo#fic recs#elucien fic#feysand fic#elucien#feysand
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kingpin ⦾ eleven
pairing: robert “bob” floyd x ofc!emery young
word count: 3716
warnings: cavalier mentions of death/killing, emery gives bob cheek, morgan loves it,
summary: in which emery challenges the way things are done
author’s note: sorry updates have been mia for a bit, i found a new fic to hyperfixate on 🫠
ten | kingpin | twelve
Emery was tense for the rest of the afternoon. She understood the severity of the situation she was now involved in, and didn’t want to give Bob or Morgan any reason not to trust her. She had no idea how things would proceed from now on, but she was sure she’d find out at dinner tonight.
She got all of the reports that Morgan would need for Feathers and Dice, but also the reports Bob had asked for. Everything felt so tedious, but it was necessary. Now that Bob knew she’d uncovered something, she spent time combing through the other accounts. She found more payments to the FBY account, these ones less frequent and not as high. But still, they were there.
Bob told her to let her sister know something had come up at work and she’d be having a late meeting tonight, and had listened in on the call. It made Emery feel exposed – like she was untrustworthy. And in a sense, she was. Bob didn’t know her. She’d been hired to do a job and uncovered a huge secret. Exposed their previous accountant of stealing for at least the last decade.
Her head spun and she covered her face with her hands, blowing out a breath. She knew there was no getting out of this now that she was in it. She had to accept the new change in her career and roll with the punches. It was imperative that she adapt, not for her own safety, but for Natasha’s too.
Nat had been right – she’d read too many mobster romance novels, but maybe that would help. They had to have some truth to them, right? If Emery wasn’t helpful, they’d go after her family, and Nat was all she had left. She’d do anything to make sure she was safe and stayed as far out of this shit as possible.
Emery was in her head. She knew it. Bob knew it. And Morgan was attempting to set her at ease.
The car ride to Feathers had been quiet. Emery let her mind wander as Bob drove, flicking between the radio channels to find something that was playing music. He’d attempted to talk, but she’d only blankly stared at him in response.
Normally, she would’ve laughed. She knew this wasn’t normal, and she had no idea what the Floyd siblings would have in store for her. She guessed there might be some intense questioning, as well as a background check if Bob hadn’t already run one.
Now, she sat opposite the twins with her hands in her lap as Morgan harped on about the reports Emery had given her. Truthfully, Emery’s heart wasn’t in it. Her world had flipped upside down because she’d made a discovery and approached her boss about it. Now, trying to make small-talk seemed pointless, though she did understand Morgan’s excitement.
“I’ve never been given reports like this before. I mean, Decker always told me the businesses were doing great, but he always made me feel dumb. You explained things to me in a way I understood and highlighted the areas that I’ve been excelling at or lacking in,” Morgan babbled.
Emery’s smile didn’t reach her eyes. She appreciated what Morgan was trying to do, really, but there were more pressing issues.
Morgan gave Emery a small smile of her own, one Emery could only describe as pity. She reached for her Jack and coke and took a long sip before tentatively meeting Bob’s eyes.
“And what do you think of my reports?” Emery asked.
She watched him press his lips together, keeping his face carefully blank. He did that a lot, tried to hide what he was thinking. She hated that she noticed. Mostly, she hated that she cared what he thought. About her…or her reports.
“Very informative, but you knew that,” he told her, cocking his head slightly. Perhaps he thought it made him seem arrogant; cocksure. Emery thought it made him look younger, boyish. “How long have you known? Or rather, suspected that something was going on?”
“Since you interviewed me,” she said. “Nobody retires without a replacement. I was desperate and you saw that. I even told my sister that something felt off about this whole thing, but she talked me around. Convinced me that I could refuse the job. But I couldn’t and you knew that. We were both desperate, so I turned a blind eye until I couldn’t anymore.”
The skin around Emery’s left thumb had been picked raw. A skin tag pulled until a dot of blood pooled in the cuticle. It was a nervous habit she’d tried to break, but kept failing at.
“When did you first learn about the account?” Bob enquired. He leant his forearms on the table, leaning forward inquisitively.
“After my induction I logged in to double check you’d paid your outstanding bills properly and discovered it. It hadn’t been approved for payment yet, but it didn’t sit right with me. I did some snooping and couldn’t find anything, so I didn’t approve it. I wanted to have more proof before I said anything,” she confessed. “I also figured that if it was something sketchy, you’d have my work laptop bugged, so I rarely logged into it to do anything while I was working out my notice. When I came into the office more frequently, I kept myself busy with Feathers and Dice and discovered a couple of payments had been made from their accounts within the last month.”
“Is that why you approached me to get the payment approval process changed?” Bob asked.
“It’s too much responsibility to put on any one person, and I know it seems tedious, but clicking “yes” on twenty odd bills once a week isn’t strenuous. Plus, you then know where your funds are being spent and can assure suppliers they have been or will be paid on x date,” Emery stated. She didn’t miss the smirk Morgan attempted to hide behind her glass or the way Bob leant back in his seat. “Honestly, it’s good business practice. Anyone in their right mind would’ve had these procedures in place years ago, but you trusted a man who was close to your family and had access to your money. Having all access to the kind of money sitting in your accounts…it made me uneasy. So yes, I didn’t want that all on me.”
Emery reached for her glass and down the last of the contents. She felt like she needed another one, something to help take the edge off. Bob seemed to understand and signaled for another from the bartender.
“You’ve made your point, Ms Young,” he told her with a sigh.
“I don’t think she has,” Morgan intervened. “Emery only has access to our legitimate accounts.” She looked at Bob, seeming to have a silent conversation.
“Fucking hell, there’s going to be more of these transactions,” Emery said with a groan. “I’m willing to bet the last ten dollars I have to my name that FBY pops up a lot more frequently.”
“For fuck’s sake,” Bob snapped, quickly standing up and walking away. Emery watched him speak angrily into his phone.
“Coyote,” Morgan supplied. “Have you met him?”
“Briefly,” Emery replied. “He, Bob and Payback helped my sister and I move into our new apartment on Saturday.”
“Ooh, that’s exciting!” She exclaimed. “Penny came through then, huh?”
“She did,” Emery said with a smile aimed at the bartender who delivered her drink. “Payback is my sister’s boss.”
“Payback’s gym is legitimate,” Morgan assured her. “He answers when Bob calls, but he doesn’t involve anyone in our business. Your sister won’t know anything from him.”
“Or me,” she admitted. “I told her about my reservations about accepting this job offer, but she’s in the dark about everything else. I can handle fucking up my life, but hers? I’d never forgive myself if I dragged her down with me.”
“What did Bob make you tell her?” She pried further.
“That something’s come up at work and I’ll be staying late,” Emery replied. “I’m not going home tonight, am I?”
“I’m sorry,” Morgan apologised. “I wish things were different. You seem like a lovely girl, but someone finding out about us hasn’t happened in a long time. You’ll be staying at Bob’s place tonight. I would offer for you to stay with me, but I don’t get home until the early morning.”
“Is it only for tonight?”
“We’ve got questions that need answers. We need to make sure you’re in, but you have to make that decision yourself,” she told her.
Emery nodded grimly. “Do I even want to know what happens if I’m out?”
“Answer his questions. Be honest,” Morgan advised her. “He has his little background check that Coyote’s run. He needs to know if you can be trusted or not.”
“It’s not like I have a lot of options,” Emery mumbled. “This job came out of nowhere, offering a salary that I’ve only ever dreamed of. Consider my silence and loyalty, bought.”
Morgan laughed. “He only pretends to have a stick up his ass,” she said. “Things run better with Bob at the head of the table.”
“Old dog, new tricks, huh?”
Morgan laughed again. “I see why Bob likes you. You’ll be fine.”
Emery hoped so. She nursed her drink as she watched Bob pace back and forth, speaking to Coyote. His initial anger had been replaced with a calculated look, like he was used to dealing with shit like this all the time. Perhaps that was true, he definitely seemed more relaxed now.
“How do you deal with it?” Emery asked.
Morgan smiled softly. “I grew up in this life. Bob was always groomed to take over from dad one day, and I still wanted to be a part of it, but on a lesser scale. So Bob and I made a deal; I run Feathers and Dice with minimal interference from him and it’s all legit. It helps keep our noses clean if the IRS comes knocking.”
Emery nodded. “I assume this FBY account could really fuck things up if the IRS discover it?”
“They’ll definitely ask questions, much like you did,” she said. “It’s not pretty, but it’s good we no longer have Decker onboard and new procedures put in place. It shows we were clueless about it until it was discovered and have taken new measures to ensure it’s a lot harder for anyone else to do.”
“Can I go to the bathroom, or do I need a babysitter?”
“You can go,” Morgan assured her. “As a sign of good faith, I’m letting you keep your phone.”
Emery hesitated. “You don’t think I’ll run?”
“And go where? Bob knows where you live. I’m saying that I trust you, Emery, now go to the bathroom.”
Morgan sat back and wore a comforting smile that matched her brother’s. Emery excused herself and walked down the small hallway towards the bathroom, taking a minute to collect herself. She stared at herself in the mirror after splashing some water on her face, wondering how she’d let her get in this deep.
She grabbed a paper towel to dry her hands and face before throwing it in the bin and making her way back to the table. She slunk back into her seat under Bob’s intense, watchful eye, grateful he didn’t say anything.
“What’s the first question?”
“Did you lie to me when you told me about your mother?” Bob asked.
“You can ask me anything you want, but I’m not talking about my mother.” Emery heard the waver in her voice and pressed her lips together as she stared at a spot on the table, trying to swallow the lump in her throat.
“I’m sorry,” Bob apologised. Emery didn’t have to look at him to hear the sincerity in his voice. “I have to ask, Emery.”
“What does your little background check say about her?” Emery asked, eyes watery as she glared at him. “Does it detail exactly what happened to her? Because the chances are high that you know more about her death than I do.”
“Ask your next question, Robert,” Morgan told him firmly.
Bob sighed and flipped open the folder Coyote had given him that detailed the extensive background check he’d run. “What do you know about your father?”
“Nothing,” she replied honestly, albeit a little rudely. Bob didn’t seem bothered by her hostility. “My mom never talked about him. She told me it was better this way.”
“Better how?”
“I assume she was protecting the innocence of her child,” Emery quipped. “Have you got an Ouija board? You could ask her yourself.”
Bob stared at her, his gaze feeling like it bore a hole in her skull. She shrunk back in her seat but refused to look away, no matter how tense things felt.
“I understand your hostility. I understand your frustration, but I’m only asking you these questions so I don’t have to kill you. You’re good at your job and the effort it would take to find a replacement, while trying to locate your predecessor, is extremely taxing. So, are you going to answer my questions, or do I need to dig your grave?”
Bob was calm. Too calm that his words didn’t seem to have any effect on Emery.
“I’d rather dig my own grave.”
“That can be arranged, Ms Young,” Bob assured her, barely batting an eye. “Any other family?”
“If I did, would I have gone into foster care? Would I have met my foster sister? Would I still be living with her? Would she be working for one of your lackies?” Emery fired back. “Everything you have from my background check is true. I was nine when my mom died. I was twelve when I met Nat. I already told you I put myself through college. You know I worked at a shitty cleaning company before accepting your offer. You know I have boundary issues, so why do you keep crossing them?”
“I need to know that I can trust you,” Bob stated.
“You don’t think that goes both ways?” Emery ran a hand over her face. “Everything you need to know about me is in that file. What do I know about you?”
Bob laughed and it rubbed Emery the wrong way. She glared at him while he threw his head back and laughter rang out. Morgan sat beside him with a placid look.
“I’ve told you everything you need to know,” he said, eyes still crinkled at the corners once his laughter died down, though his voice was laced with humour.
“What, that your twin sister is two minutes older than you and you run the fucking mob?”
“I also run our construction company,” Bob replied smugly. “I’m trying to do you a favour here, Emery. If I can’t trust you, there’s only one outcome.”
“I’ll take that shovel now, thank you.”
Bob gave her a bored, pointed look. “Why do you think I’m doing this? Do you think this is fun for me? That grilling you is how I want to be spending my Monday night?”
“I really don’t give much thought to you outside office hours,” she stated.
“Oh, so that’s why you called me on Saturday morning to help you and Natasha move?” The smirk never left his face. Emery wanted to reach over and slap it clean off.
“You offered to help,” she gritted out.
“And you said no,” he reminded her.
“So why are you doing this, then?” She decided to humour him. “Why not just kill me and save yourself the trouble? It would’ve freed up your Monday night, that’s for sure.”
“It’s hard to find good help.”
“Thanks, I think.”
Bob replied with a humourless smile. “I know you might be thinking many things about us right now…about me. About this situation. But you have a decision to make. If you say we can trust you, we will. You’ll be brought up to speed on every aspect of our organisation. I won’t make you do anything you’re not comfortable with, that’s not how I like to run things. The circumstances forced my hand and I showed my desperation, you’re not wrong, but I’m hoping you factor in your own desperation here.”
Emery allowed herself to glance sideways at Morgan who’d sat quietly while they’d been talking. Or rather, having a heated discussion. Emery had already confirmed her own desperation and desire to keep her sister out of it all. A part of her had needed to let her frustration out, and Bob was an easy target.
It was like Morgan had known. She gave Emery a warm, encouraging smile before Emery looked back at Bob.
“My silence is bought and paid for. I signed a contract, not a death warrant. And my sister stays out of this,” she told him.
“Natasha knows nothing?” He asked, sounding surprised.
“You think I’d still be here if she did?”
Dinner was a mild affair. Morgan ordered burgers from the place down the street, and Emery enjoyed a couple more drinks throughout. They’d allowed her to relax a bit more, pushing past the tense conversation that had taken place earlier. She wasn’t normally a huge drinker, but if there was ever an occasion that called for it, tonight was definitely up there.
Emery discussed the reports she’d run for Morgan with a lot more enthusiasm. There were a couple of areas that had plateaued, but Morgan was aware about them. They seemed to be the only areas Decker ever highlighted, but due to the nature of the businesses, so long as the majority were doing exceedingly well, they could afford for those specific areas to stagnate.
Bob sat quietly as they discussed business. Morgan would occasionally ask for his thoughts, but since they were her responsibility, he couldn’t fault her work. She proved time and time again that she knew what she was doing, that she had an eye for this kind of thing.
Emery excused herself to the bathroom a short while later. Using the facilities before washing and drying her hands. When she rejoined the Floyd twins, Morgan had to get to work, but Bob suggested it was time to leave.
“Can I go home or do you still need to make sure I’m not a flight risk?” She couldn’t help but ask.
“I have to check all the boxes,” Bob replied. “I don’t think you’d run. I don’t think you’d talk. My father still has a say in how this all goes, and if he finds out I cut corners that could have serious blowback on us, I’ll be digging my own grave.”
He tried to smile to lighten the mood, but Emery saw right through it. She saw the fear in his eyes. The way his Adam’s apple bobbed as he swallowed, like it was something he worried about constantly.
“Can I stop home to pick up a change of clothes, at least?” Emery asked as he stood up. At his full height, he no longer looked like a meek and scared little boy. His shoulders were squared as he smoothed a hand down his tie, eyes harder to read from the new angle.
“Coyote’s dropped some things off,” he told her, leading her out of the building, weaving through the tables.
Emery trailed behind him and ducked her head as he held the door open for her. “You mean he went shopping for me, or he broke into my apartment and picked something up?”
“I ask him to do something and he does it,” Bob said simply. “I have no idea how he interpreted my instruction.”
Bob’s car was no longer the only one parked out front. Cars were slowly pulling into the lot and filling up the spaces. Dancers or customers, Emery didn’t know, and she didn’t care enough to pay attention. Too busy occupied by the thought of a man potentially rummaging around her bedroom to find a change of clothes.
Emery climbed into the passenger seat of Bob’s expensive-looking Range Rover. She hadn’t paid much mind to it before, but now it made sense. The luxurious car, the perfectly tailored suits, the phone calls. She could only imagine what his home looked like.
“What do I tell my sister about where I am?” Emery asked once she climbed into the car. It was higher up than she anticipated and her skirt didn’t allow much give.
“Is she going to worry?” Bob responded curiously.
“I don’t know. Maybe,” Emery replied. “I don’t like lying to her.”
“So tell her as much of the truth as possible,” Bob suggested. “That’s what you’ve been doing with me.”
“I don’t appreciate the dig, Robert,” she retorted, pinching the bridge of her nose. “There’s no way I’m telling her I’m spending the night at my boss’ house.”
He chuckled lightly and started the car. “You embarrassed?” He teasingly asked.
Emery felt warmth in her cheeks. “It would mean more lying. Why am I staying the night with you, for example. I’ll never hear the end of it.”
Emery donned her seatbelt before Bob pulled out of the lot. She was grateful he didn’t press the questioning any further, staring out her window as they drove. Trying to think of something she could tell Natasha if she was asked.
“Can I ask you something?” Bob asked, breaking the silence that had fallen over them.
“Hm, sure,” she mumbled in agreement.
“What was she like? Your mom?”
His question was soft, tentative. Like he genuinely wanted to know, not just for the sake of knowing if she was trustworthy.
Emery stayed silent for a beat longer, the lump in her throat returning. “She was warm and kind. We didn’t have much, but she made sure I never wanted for anything,” she said, staring straight ahead.
She could see Bob glance at her out of her peripheral vision and wished he hadn’t. Silent tears rolled down her cheeks and she didn’t bother wiping them away.
Bob handed her a tissue, but instead of wiping her nose or tears, she started to rip it up. Needing to keep her hands busy.
“Please don’t ask me about her again,” she requested softly.
All he said was, “okay.”
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A mountain to climb
AN: It might have taken me 8 months to get to it, but here is something that @lauratang asked for last year as part of my Inspire Me event. I’m afraid this turned more angsty than the pure smut I had planned, and isn’t exactly what was requested, but I hope you all still like it. Blame the characters, I just work here. Anyway, without further ado, it’s time to return to Wakanda and see how M’Baku and Sabi are adapting to some significant changes. This is part four of the story so far.
Feel free to send asks about these two.
lauratang asked:
So, okay, first idea for your Inspire Me Event ❤️ First, I would to see some M’Baku x reader!
That man is just 😫🫠🥺 So how about some brat taming, maybe?
Maybe reader has been pushing his buttons all damn day, riling him up by bending over any chance she gets, swaying her hips every time she walks by, and constantly caressing his arms, chest and thighs, but as soon as he tries to reciprocate she leaves? And he just snaps? 😌❤️
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Relationship: M’Baku x Female Journalist Reader (Sabi)
Word Count: 4.3k
CW: Lots of Angst, Insecurity, Childish Behaviour, Teasing, mild D/S, under negotiated kink, spanking, pussy spanking, vaginal sex, crying, fucked unconscious.
You were bored. So very bored.
And restless.
You were sitting in the library in the palace at Birnin Zana, practising your Xhosa by reading through some of the official histories, but you couldn’t seem to concentrate, staring off into the distance every few minutes and sighing loudly.
What you needed was M’Baku. Your king. But at this moment in time, that wasn’t possible.
“I’m sorry, Sabi,” he’d said, as he’d slipped from the bed this morning. “But today is going to be very busy. I’d like nothing more than to stay here all day with you. Kissing you,” he leant over and brushed his lips over yours. You wound your arms, needily around his neck, arching your body up to his. “Touching you. Listening to your sweet cries. But I am King now, and I have many more responsibilities than I had before.”
You understood. You really did. But you missed the routine that you and he had had back on Gorilla Mountain. The warm, dry heat of the Golden City felt strange to you after all your months spent in the snow and ice of Jabari Land. You missed cuddling up to M’Baku under piles of furs as a fire crackled in the background. You missed the tranquillity that life without advanced technology had given you. Coming to the capital for a few days every couple of months was one thing, but living here full time was something else entirely. You felt like all eyes were watching you - the foreigner who warmed the King’s bed. The Jabari had accepted you as one of their own, but you didn’t know if the rest of Wakanda would follow?
You’d pouted anyway, scratching the back of his neck with your nails, and watching him shiver at the sensation as his eyes closed. You’d hooked your leg around his hip and pulled him back onto the bed, back on top of you, and let needy whimpers spill from your lips.
“Sabi…” he’d growled out, warningly, and then it was you who’d shivered. M’Baku didn’t often overtly dominate you, mainly because you’d both break out into a fit of the giggles, but at that moment in time, something about his tone of voice, the way he’d held the tension in his body, caused your heart rate to pick up. “Now is not the time to play the brat.”
You’d known that he’d meant it. With a huff, you’d released your hold on him and he’d pushed himself up, giving you an indulgent smile as he did so. “Once I have finished I promise I will return as quickly as I can and you will have me all to yourself. We can go out for a walk, or just stay here. Whatever you want, my desert rose.” He’d given you a chaste kiss goodbye and then M’Baku, your lover, had been replaced by M’Baku, King of Wakanda, and you‘d watched him make his way from your suite.
You’d dozed for a bit after he left, dreaming of the way he touched you and worshipped you, and how you did the same to him in return. When you’d woken it had been with his name on your lips and an ache between your thighs that you couldn’t quench on your own. In the end you’d had to settle for sating your physical hunger, indulging in a variety of fruits and yoghurts that had been laid out on a platter for you, before washing and getting dressed.
Surely there must be something you could do to occupy you for the day, you’d wondered, which is how you’d ended up in the grand library. However it was nothing like the smaller, cosier one you were now used to and you found the differences too jarring. You let out another sigh and shut the book in front of you with a snap.
By all rights you should be thrilled to be here, especially in the privileged position you had. While you had taken a step back from your job, you hadn’t quit altogether, and were perfectly placed to provide the world with insights into this unexpected turn of events. Yes, the death of King T’Challa had been shocking and upsetting, but no-one could have foreseen the subsequent death of Queen Ramona and that Princess Shuri would abdicate her right to the throne.
However, despite the fact that you’d been born and raised a world away, these were now your people and Wakanda was your adopted home. If M’Baku asked you to present something to the rest of the world using your connections, you would, but there was no way you would do anything to impinge on the nation’s privacy by acting on your own. You respected him and the country he led too much to do that.
You were sad though. Sad for the loss of everything that you’d acquired, even if it was quite by accident, after catching the eye of the leader of the Jabari and becoming his lover. A working trip had turned into an extended holiday and had now morphed into something that felt much more permanent. However, the recent changes had made you doubt the foundations of it all. So much about your lives was different now. Yes, M’Baku loved you, and you loved him, but could your meeting of worlds survive this latest upheaval?
Shaking away your maudlin thoughts, you decided you needed to occupy yourself some other way, and what would be better than feasting your eyes upon any glimpse of your lover you could get? Although you knew he was busy, you also knew that most of the meetings and forums he was taking part in were not private ones with the leaders of the other tribes, held behind closed doors. No, today was all about visibility, with the opportunity for the common folk of Wakanda to meet and question their new King. With that in mind, you made your way along the corridors of the palace, familiar enough with it now to only take a few wrong turns, until you got to the viewing gallery that overlooked the great hall.
You picked your way along the rows of ornate wooden benches far up near the ceiling, until you found a spot away from the few others who’d decided to come all the way up here - most of the viewers were using the lower gallery, where they could get a better look at King M’Baku in all his finery.
However, you didn’t need to be close to know how he looked. You knew the texture of every piece of fur, of every feather, that adorned him. No-one else present but you knew how it felt to caress the soft skin that overlaid his strong muscles. No-one else had ridden one of those thick, wonderful thighs until completion. No-one else had had their inner thighs rubbed almost raw by the burn of his facial hair while pleading for more. You bit your lip as you drifted off into your own daydreams, inhaling sharply through your nose to fill your lungs with more oxygen.
In theory, you were too far away, too insignificant to the proceedings, for M’Baku to spot you, but as you looked down at him, your eyes roaming unabashedly over his form as he held court, his large body owning the throne he sat in, his own eyes darted upwards, capturing your gaze for a few heartbeats before he turned his focus back to the person asking him a question.
He was radiant and with the light shining in through the windows behind him he even seemed other-worldly. You ached to reach out and touch him, to feel the warmth of him under your fingers, but you’d have to wait.
Instead, you leant forward in your seat, resting your arms along the railing, and continued to let your gaze feast upon him. It was only when his eyes flicked back up at you again, but stopped shy of your face, you realised that the way you were perched pushed your breasts right up to the neckline of your top, almost threatening to spill over. You should behave with more decorum but an imp on your shoulder egged you on. You shifted again, slowly easing your top until it barely covered your nipples. At the same time you put the tip of your thumb in your mouth and took it between your teeth, ready to flash him a coy look the next time he glanced up.
When M’Baku’s eyes went wide, his nostrils flaring at the same time, you felt a flash of satisfaction. You continued to make eyes at him over the next hour, subtly shifting whenever there was a lull in proceedings, so that you almost exposed yourself on a number of occasions. When you saw your King squirm slightly, moving his legs so that the cloth that covered his crotch wasn’t so flush against him, your sense of triumph increased.
When the session came to a close you couldn’t help but tease him with one more thing. As the denizens of the city exited and M’Baku’s advisors rose from their seats to speak to him, you stood from yours. Carefully you climbed the steps that lead to the exit from the upper stalls, but just as you reached the top you ‘tripped’. Your hands went out in front of you, stopping you from actually injuring yourself, but you knew the action had caused the fabric of your skirt to pull tightly across your ass. Standing back up, you dusted off your hands and chanced a brief look over your shoulder. M’Baku was still in conversation, but his eyes were firmly fixed on you. You threw him a smile and made your way out, down the corridors and back to your suite.
Launching yourself down on the bed, you indulged in further daydreams of how your royal lover would behave once he returned to your shared chambers. Heat spread through your body as your thoughts raced. You didn’t know whether you wanted him to worship you or the other way around. Or what if he just lifted you in his strong arms and fucked you against the wall, his thick thighs doing all the work to make his hips snap up into you? Each thought was as equally delicious as the next, and you ran through them all in your mind as you waited.
And waited.
And waited.
With an exasperated sigh, you turned your head to look at the clock. An hour had passed since the forum session had ended and M’Baku hadn’t returned. Where was he? You pushed yourself back up and looked at the doors to the suite, hoping that just by doing so he would appear.
Nothing.
A scowl appeared on your face and you pursed your lips. What was taking him so long?
Frustration, both emotional and physical, welled within you and you rose back to your feet. A shower would be a good way to while away some time and, if you were lucky, he might return while you were part way through. Luck, however, wasn’t on your side, and by the time you got out from under the steaming spray - which to your mind couldn’t hold a candle to the hot springs of Gorilla Mountain - you weren’t just frustrated, you were downright cross. You needed M’Baku here with you and he wasn’t. He’d promised, and he’d never broken a promise to you before. You recognised you were being childish, but it still didn’t alleviate the hurt at apparently being forgotten. Once you’d uttered those three words to each other, back in his private room on the mountain, you’d thought this thing between you could work, but there was a vast difference between being the consort of a tribal leader and the consort of a King.
You were so lost in thought, pacing up and down and chewing on the nail of your thumb, that you didn’t notice the door to the suite opening. It was only when it swung closed with a loud thud that you became aware of M’Baku’s return.
You’d been waiting all day for this, but now he was here your thoughts were swirling too much. You were frustrated, your confidence was at rock bottom, and all you could do was blink at him blankly as he stalked towards you, a sly smile on his face
“I see you found a way to keep yourself occupied, my Sabi Star. Do you have anything to say for yourself?”
He reached out toward you, aiming to stroke your cheek with the back of his knuckles. His actions snapped you out of your stupor and all your emotions came rushing back in. For the first time ever, you stepped backwards, away from his touch. You were feeling hurt and your pettiness was winning out. You wanted him to be hurt too
“No.”
You ducked around him and moved towards the dresser and your jars of cocoa butter. You let the towel drop from your body, stretched, and then lifted one of your feet onto the stool and proceeded to start moisturising your body. From the corner of your eye you saw M’Baku raise an eyebrow, before he followed in your wake to stand right next to you, his eyes roving over the expanse of your bare skin.
“No?” he questioned, incredulously. “This morning you implored me to stay in bed, despite my duties, then you put on that ridiculous display in the public gallery, which, by the way, had the effect you intended, and you have nothing to say?” He stepped behind you, wrapping his large arms around your waist and nuzzled behind your ear. “Do you know how hard it was to leave you lying in our bed? Do you know how much I wanted to dismiss the forum and take you right there on the throne room floor? I burn for you, Sabi.”
You felt the truth of his statement, nudging up against the back of your thigh, but you were still in a petulant mood, so you slipped from his embrace and began to tidy up the room, making sure to bend over right in front of him as you retrieved your towel.
“Well, that’s too bad. Because I’m not in the mood.”
M’Baku let out a bark of laughter. “My love, you have never been a good liar, but at least try. In all the months we have been together, I have never known you not to be in the mood. Even when your monthly courses come you still wish to touch me, ride my thighs and worship my body.”
“There’s a first time for everything,” you shot back, but you didn’t look at him.
“Sabi, if for one moment I actually believed you I would accept what you’ve said and leave you be, but there is something else going on here. Why are you acting like this?”
All of your feelings started to bubble up. He was being too nice. Too sweet. You wanted his responses to match yours. You wanted some fire. You lifted your head and looked him straight in the eye. “I’m not talking about it, and you can’t make me.”
For a moment M’Baku just looked back at you, his gaze searching yours, but you knew the moment he realised what you were unable to verbalise. His eyes narrowed and darkened and he took a menacing step forward. You sucked in a sharp breath and took an instinctive step back. Fuck! He was so big and looked so dangerous. You felt a tingle start between your thighs.
“Do you really want to test that assumption, Sabi?” His voice, so deep it sent a pleasurable rumble through you in normal circumstances, lowered even further, with a sharp, menacing edge to it.
Your mouth went dry and your eyes darted around the room, searching for escape. However, before you could make a move, M’Baku proved why he was a formidable warrior. He moved faster than you’d think possible given his size, snatched you up and tossed you over his shoulder. You squealed and rained feeble hits down onto his shoulders with your balled fists.
“Let me go!”
A loud crack rang through the air and a sharp pain bloomed across your right buttock. It took you a second to work out what had happened, but then it was like something snapped inside you. You started to kick, shout and wriggle, but it was all in vain. In a moment, he’d sat down on the edge of the bed and manhandled you face down across his lap, his left arm holding you tight to his thighs.
“If you want to act like a child, be prepared to be treated like one,” he ground out, and with another crack he spanked you again, pulling another shriek from your throat. “Talk to me, love.”
“No!” you shouted back, still trying to twist in his iron grip.
Crack. Crack.
He peppered two smacks in quick succession, landing on the delicate skin at the tops of your thighs.
“Sabi….” he growled out warningly, but you just shook your head.
Pain spread across your ass and thighs as he spanked you, stopping every few smacks to implore you to talk to him, but you couldn’t. You didn’t have the words and your body’s reactions were confusing you, because as he continued, despite the fact that the pain should have increased, it didn’t. Instead you found yourself arching up into the contact. Your legs slowly moved apart, and when the cool air of the room flowed over you, you realised you were wet. This fact didn’t escape M’Baku’s notice either.
“Who’d have thought that this would have been the thing to get you going. But don’t think I’m going to get distracted yet.” With that he brought his heavy hand down again, and spanked you right on your weeping pussy. You yowled, but despite the sharp burn you wanted it again. You wanted his strength, his passion. Craved it. “Tell me what is wrong.”
Tears were running down your face, your chest heaving, and with a few more smacks the damn broke. You started to sob - loud, ugly noises of raw emotional pain - and in an instant you were turned upright and pulled into your lover’s embrace. Your fingers curled into the furs and leathers of his clothing, their familiar texture and smell surrounding you as he petted your hair and made soothing noises.
“Speak to me please, my love.”
God, you loved him so much, but you couldn’t find the words, so instead you turned your face up and pressed your lips to his.
“I need you. Don’t let me go,” you whispered against him before putting all of your emotions into your kiss. He returned it with rough ardour, his lips devouring yours, and you turned in his embrace so you could straddle him and press your body closer. The heat between you flared, the pent up energy and emotion from both of you fanning the flames higher.
M’Baku’s hands roamed over your soft, bare skin, stroking and groping, and when he touched your sore ass, the jolts of discomfort went straight to your core, morphing into more heat. Your own hands slid under his clothes, desperately trying to close any remaining distance between you. You rocked against his covered length, whining as it knocked against your clit and your impatience won out.
You slipped a hand between you, pushing up the leather of his skirt and freed him from the soft fabric of his undergarments. M’Baku grunted against your lips as your fingers closed around him, moving with purpose. Your thumb swiped through the precum that was dripping from his tip, smearing it all over, and then you were lifting yourself and angling him towards you. His hands moved to your hips, at first steadying you, but as your body began to engulf him, he used his hold on you to pull you all the way down until you’d taken all of his cock inside you.
He turned his face into your neck, gently worrying the skin of your throat with his teeth as you rocked your hips. Your fingers curled into any part of his own flesh you could find, the need to mark him as yours blazing in your mind like a klaxon. You felt feral. He was yours and you were his and you wanted the whole of Wakanda, the whole of the world to know it. Your movements increased in ferocity as you rose up and plunged back down on him, scratching him with your nails, and it was as though M’Baku knew exactly what you were thinking, as he urged you along.
“Yes, ododo mi. Take what you need. I’m here. I am yours. Mo ni ife re.”
The coarse hairs at the base of his cock brushed back and forth over your clit as you moved and you couldn’t hold back your moans and cries, so close to your peak you could almost touch it. Then, when you didn’t think you could take it any more, M’Baku moved his hand to grasp at your breast and rolled your plump nipple between his finger and thumb.
“Jẹ ki lọ, Sabi. Let go for me.”
You felt yourself shatter into a million pieces, only able to babble his name in between incoherent noises. The world shifted on its axis as M’Baku rolled you both over on the bed, easily manoeuvring you to where he needed you to be, so he could cage you in with his broad arms and continue thrusting firmly into you.
“I love you, my precious desert rose, who blooms in adversity and survives hardship. It is you that I want.”
Tears streamed down your face, your emotions ripped from the depths of you as M’Baku told you with his words and his body how much you meant to him.
“But you don’t need me,” you sobbed, your fears finally able to be spoken aloud.
“Isọkusọ! I will always need you. Always.” His hips snapped and you clung to his biceps. “I may have duties to carry out, and there may be times when I can’t be with you, but that does not change how I feel about you. How important you are to me. Say you believe me, ododo mi. Say it.”
You nodded vigorously, your lower lip clamped tight between your teeth until he thrust into you sharply, causing your mouth to open wide as you sucked in a breath.
“Words, ifemi. I need to hear you say it out loud.” The speed of his movements increased, and started to lose their rhythm and you suddenly found yourself on the cusp of orgasm once more.
“I b-beleive you. Oh gods! “
“What do you believe? Tell me.” It was clear he wouldn’t be satisfied until you did what he asked.
“You n-need me. Y-you love me! Oh! Ọba mi!” You crashed over the edge once more, tumbling in the waves of pleasure and sensation as you held on to your one and only constant, M’Baku. Your lover. Your king.
You were aware that he also reached his peak, his thick cock swelling inside of you, flooding you with the satisfying warmth of his spend, but then everything went black.
You came to surrounded by warmth and the sound of humming. As you blinked your eyes open you found yourself pulled to M’Baku’s chest, his arms around you as he nuzzled your hair and hummed in your ear. At some point he’d rid himself of his clothes, and your legs were tangled with his amongst the rumpled sheets. When the hair at the tops of his thighs brushed over your ass you winced and turned over in his arms.
He ducked his head down and brushed his nose alongside yours. “Welcome back, Sabi. I don’t believe I’ve ever fucked you unconscious before.”
You grabbed a pillow from behind you and smacked him over the head as the pair of you chuckled.
“Feeling better now, my love?”
A feeling of embarrassment crashed over you, and you tried to bury your face into his chest, but M’Baku was having none of it, tucking his finger under your chin and preventing you from hiding.
“I’m sorry,” you uttered, feeling your cheeks heat.
“Nothing to apologise for, Sabi. I might be the King, but that isn’t all I am, and I was so focussed on my new role that I didn’t stop to assure you that nothing would change between us.” He hand moved from your chin to brush over your hair. “That being said, I think that while I have all of these things to organise, that maybe you should go home for a short time. You’d have more company - things to occupy you.”
You cocked your head, considering what he was suggesting. “I suppose that wouldn’t be too bad. It’s not like it would take long to travel between here and Jabari Mountain when we wanted to. I’d miss you terribly, though.”
“And I too, my love, but you misunderstand me. I don’t mean our home together. I mean your home. You have been here for more than a year - surely you must miss your family, and would welcome the opportunity to spend time with them?.”
You looked at him in shock, your jaw dropping and your eyes going wide, not believing what you were hearing.
“You’re sending me away? After what we just did? You said you needed me!”
Had he just been humouring you? Inflating his own ego?
“I do need you, my love. But it isn’t just about me. I am not the one separated from my country, my culture. I have been selfish about keeping you here, and not giving you the opportunity to make a balanced decision.”
Had you been in a better state of mind, you might have been able to see the sense in what he was proposing, but in your currently fragile emotional state, all you heard was that he thought it would be better if you weren’t here with him. You pushed away from his embrace, jumped from the bed and ran into the bathroom, locking it behind you, ignoring his pleas as you sank to the floor and your tears began anew.
How were you supposed to go on?
Ododo mi - my flower
Mo ni ife re - I love you
Ọba mi - my king
Jẹ ki lọ - let go
Isọkusọ - nonsense
Ifemi - My love
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♥️ Steve Harrington Masterlist ♥️
This is a masterlist dedicated to things I've written about Steve Harrington.
Check out my Prompt List and my Character List in my Masterpost which is pinned for more info on who I write for and some inspiration for requests.
Lovebirds:
Summary/Request: “Reader going after steve after he falls into the watergate and confessing their feelings for him after they find him :’)”
Cheer:
Summary/Request: “Could you do something with Steve harrington x cheerleader!reader we’re he comes to her game to watch her perform and it’s all cute and fluffy!!!”
Favorite Song:
Summary/Request: “I was thinking like maybe the reader is adamant on stopping by her house so she can go through her cassette tapes and make sure she knows both his and her favorite song and he realizes why and he comforts her?!?!”
Middle Child:
Summary/Request: “Can we get something longer about Steve Harrington x reader but the reader is the “middle child” in the Wheeler family. Like she’s a year younger or so than Steve and Nancy but older than mike.”
Take A Break:
Summary/Request: "steve eating reader out slowly and sensually goodbye I'm going feral"
Sick Joke:
Summary/Request: "reader finally gets the courage to ask steve out but the only time she can is at lunch in front of his popular friends and they make fun of her and steve says some nasty shit reader is heartbroken but steve actually wanted to say yes"
Unrequited:
Summary/Request: "Hi could you write Steve x Harrington x Fem reader where they’re best friends and she’s in love with him and she thinks it’s unrequited because she thinks he likes Robin instead and it’s a whole lot of miscommunication but it ends with a happy ending? :)"
Let Go:
Summary/Request: "Could you do the scene were Eddie is walking with Steve in the upside down and Eddie brings up how reader went in right after Steve got pulled just like the nancy scene and that’s when Steve realizes he’s inlove. If not totally fine, love your work !!"
I've Been Here:
Summary/Request: "Hi! Can I request a Steve Harrington x reader fic based on “The King” by Conan Gray?"
Fighting For Your Hand: Part 2
Summary/Request: "Steve Harrington and Eddie Munson fighting for the readers attention and love, possibly with two different endings for each?"
Do What You Want To Me:
Summary/Request: "car sex with steve?"
Marked:
Summary/Request: "could you do steve harrington with a s/o that has a birthmark on their face? I have one on my right cheek and I was always insecure about it, i’ve grown to love it but sometimes you need that reassurance. So could you do one of him kinda comforting his s/o?"
Prepared:
Summary/Request: "okay i think we all agree that eddie cumming too fast is hot, but what abt steve cumming too fast??? mouth is salivating."
Picasso:
Summary/Request: "heyy omg🤭 could u do something abt steve leaving hickeys all over your chest n shit and the kids see them😭 i think they would be really funny abt it"
Cosmo:
Summary/Request: "The idea of Eddie or Steve laying in the readers lap while they hold a book in one hand, reading it, and the other hand is playing with their hair, with music blasting in the background, that's all I have to say"
Selfish Motives:
Summary/Request: "hi i was wondering if you could do something with steve harrington x gender neutral reader and sharing a bed for the first time? maybe the ‘there’s only one bed’ trope? either way, i’d just love to share a bed with him :) thank u!"
Scars:
Summary/Request: "Hi could you write a steve x fem reader where she has acne and scars and Steve is the best boyfriend ever by reassuring her how beautiful she is"
Often:
Summary/Request: "Okay but what if Steve and reader smoked and had rough sex while high🫠😶"
Barbie Doll:
Summary/Request: "Could i request sort of Steve x fem reader where reader is like Eddie and perhaps they’re good friends? Thank u ☺️"
Tipped:
Summary/Request: "Can I request a Steve harrington imagine, where him & reader (they are dating) they both work at scoops and some guy is flirting with reader is Steve gets really jealous and protective?"
Birthday:
Summary/Request: "Could I get either Billy Hargrove or Steve harrington imagine. Where it’s the readers birthday and the reader feels sad on her birthday and Billy or Steve throw a small party for them or something like that"
Can't Stand You:
Summary/Request: "Prompt: I've never wanted to fuck anyone this badly before."
Babygirl:
Summary/Request: "Calling Steve Harrington "babygirl" as a joke💕"
Hickey:
Summary/Request: "Steve Harrington giving you a hickey👀"
#steve#steve x reader#steve harrington#steve harrington x reader#stranger things#stranger things fic
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Hi!
Idk if this sent the first time, the wifi i’m using is really bad, but anyway…
I’m not sure if you’ve already done this, but I was wondering if you had any recommendations on books about Elvis? I’ve already read Last Train To Memphis but that’s just about the only one.
I’m a relatively new fan, but he’s so magnetic and interesting — I’d love to learn more about him 🫠🫠
Thank you!! xx
Hi there!
So, it's really a case of what you're looking for, because there are lots of different entries into the world of Elvis.
Heads up, first of all: Everyone and their elderly third cousin twice removed has written a book about Elvis. They all put themselves at the centre of Elvis' life and decisions to some degree or another. They all talk about his excesses and problems as if they were not just as heavily involved and partaking just as much. Some will quote conversations with Elvis as if they are verbatim. A healthy dose of cynicism is needed throughout. Also, don't bother reading anything by The Stanleys. This is my golden rule.
So, I assume you're going to read Careless Love by Peter Guralnick, but I'll recommend it anyway. It's a hard read towards the end, and Guralnick's own feelings kind of color things in contrast with the more 'objective' Last Train. Still, I consider it a must read.
If you're looking for more of an overview using more than one voice, I'd recommend Elvis and The Memphis Mafia by Alanna Nash with Billy Smith, Marty Lacker and Lamar Fike. They tell a good story, they are 'characters' in their own right, and they give you a strong idea of the vibe around Elvis. Disclaimer: facts are sometimes less important than a good yarn.
Like I said, most of his friends wrote about him at least once. Some are more entertaining and readable than others. Lots of people like Joe Esposito's books, such as Good Rockin' Tonight and Elvis- Straight Up, because he comes across as personable and more respectful. Just remember that he was reporting back to The Colonel and good friends with Priscilla, Lisa and EPE.
Same with longtime EPE employee Jerry Schilling's Me and Guy Named Elvis, but I like that he was quite different from the rest of the Memphis Mafia and this colours his stories.
I really enjoyed Larry Geller's If I Can Dream. While the man loves the sound of his own voice, he also gives an insight into Elvis' struggles in the mid-60s with losing touch with himself and the life he is living. He saw Elvis in a way that most of the other guys couldn't comprehend because of their backgrounds maybe. Some of his stories also have a weird surreal truly Elvis quality.
To get a glimpse into Elvis's upbringing and strongest relationship, Elvis and Gladys by Elaine Dundy is a good one. He makes much more sense when you feel you understand where he came from, at least to me.
In terms of the women, Linda Thompson's A Little Thing Called Life is a fun read. She probably got to a more intimate insight into Elvis as a famous boyfriend than any of the other women, including Priscilla, in my opinion. She knows how to spin a tale too. June Juanico's Elvis: In the Twilight of Memory is a swoonworthy dream. She is a great writer, and got to sample some pre-superstar boyfriend Elvis.
I also enjoyed Joyce Bova's Don't Ask Forever. It gives a view of how it must have been to be one of his side-chicks- Elvis had a new phone line installed in her apartment just for him and would try and get her to skip work (At Capitol Hill!) because her work was less important than his!
If you're interested in any of Elvis's work, I highly, devotedly recommend Ernst Jorgensen's Elvis: A Life in Music. This man is the one who should get all the credit for Elvis's legacy continuing so far. Forget EPE, RCA, Sony, all of them. He is the supreme Elvis historian, has scoured and catalogued the vaults for all Elvis' recorded material. He is involved with the FTD label, which rescued and released all the outtakes, alternate versions, studio banter, concert soundboard recordings, everything. He is my hero.
I think everyone has a different version of Elvis that they love, so if anyone else has any other recommendations, please chime in!
And remember, we don't read a Stanley.
Thank you for reaching out. Let me know what you end up reading next, I love a book discussion!
#elvis book recs#whositmcwhatsit#asks#you knew it wouldn't be short when you asked right?#i know i've probably forgotten tons#elvis presley
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Okay, I need advice or information or something because I'm very confused right now.
So the name "Neurodivergent Brain Goblins" comes from these bits of myself that I've named and given an identity to in order to help other people understand my brain.
I've had neuropsych testing done (4.5 hrs of testing, surveys, and forms). They agreed that I have C-PTSD and dissociative symptoms with a somatoform disorder, but they don't agree that I have DID because I don't lose time and don't have other personalities that take over/replace mine.
My brain goblins are their own people but also are just me. Mini little parts of me that sometimes control more of my life than I often do.
Reynold is my logic. He is my assistant manager who definitely wasn't given enough training and is more of a glorified babysitter than anything else 😅 I honor the amount of shit he puts up with every day. He is second in command and acts as a buffer to all the other brain goblins.
Then there is Jeff 🫠 I call him my ADHD goblin. Jeff loves buttons. He loves pushing them and watching them light up and hearing them make noise. Jeff also loves running around, jumping, making ridiculous noises, and seeing how many times he can do the same exact thing in a row before it pisses everyone else off 🤣 sometimes Reynold will give Jeff a tennis ball to go bounce against the wall for a while just so he can get some real work done.
(I'm not done drawing Jeff, but this is him so far 😊 he is a very mischievous little shit lol)
I also have Frank my OCD Goblin. He carries around an abacus instead of a calculator because 1. He is obsessed with numbers and 2. Physically moving the pieces to count calms his anxiety 😅. Frank loves simple repetitive tasks that he can do on repeat so he can count them over and over again. He often teams up with Jeff because of this and then they bug Reynold all day. Kind of a "hey! Hey! Hey check this out! Look what we can do! Hey!"
Bobby is my Autism Goblin 🤣 I love him so much but like sometimes I just.. he tries so hard and his effort is absolutely beautiful, but he just isn't good at any of it 🙃 he is the director of communication, so anytime I socialize Bobby shows up to help navigate talking. But like he just REALLY isn't good at it 🤣 the heart and soul he puts into it though is why he is still the communications director 🥰
I also have Manic Manny, Depression Dave, Sensory Sally. Though they like to work from behind the scenes. Their control is really strong but everything they do is by sneaking up and whispering in Reynolds ear and *poof* disappearing. He can't ever see them, but the weird creepy crawly feeling they give him makes him act on what they said every single time.
There are lots of other Goblins that work in this factory, but they are more like background characters? Like, everyone has a job, but most are just quiet office workers that help to keep the lights on 😅
If you have read this far thank you so much!! My question now is, what are my brain goblins? Is this DID or is it something else?? Tbh I don't really care what it is because these are my Brain Goblins and I love them no matter how much they annoy me 😅 but I also like learning information because sometimes it can really help me with managing life lol
#did osdd#did system#dissociative identity disorder#im so confused#they are goblins that live in my head#but those goblins are me#brain goblins#neurodivergent brain goblins#did
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just started asia super young 😅 funny how a show can seem super popular when you're out of the loop but when you finally start watching it's crickets
this is my first time watching a youku show, i like the pacing BUT I HATE the fact that they cut so much from the free eps (free is 1 hr vip is 2.5+ 🫠). so like the irresponsible working adult i am i committed to monthly subscription (that i WILL remember to cancel the day the finale airs 😁). the other thing that i find really disappointing is that free voting on the youku app doesn't count towards their rank, it's just for extra promo 🫠 apparently you need to pay separately through their site or have a weibo associated with a mainland # (acc to fans based in hk w weibo accounts they can't even vote. when the show is filming in hk. and conducted half in canto.)
but i WILL be tuning in even though im desperately confused about everything. i watched eps 1 - 3 using the free version so im gonna do a quick recap and hopefully start catching up with the extra content tomorrow 🙏
ASY PICKS (based on ep 1 - 3)
ults: gemini (hoàng huệhùng/huang huixiong) & albert (aihe)
these two...how could you not say cunt. gemini is a 99 liner from vietnam, a short king, his nose is pierced, his dancing is clean, and his vocals are great. does he speak chinese? no. but does he serve face? like his life depends on it (because it does). he's already on my list of survival show contestants who will live on in my brain in perpetuity. aihe is the other main slayer from the same audition group (medusa). just look at him. he walked out and i went bitch???? he's like if hu yetao and xue bayi had a baby that was mad as hell. he's an 03 liner from xinjiang, pretty good vocals, and great dance skills. had to use that shitty laptop pic bc it just radiates his whole vibe.
i like you!: vic (zhang shengxi), orenda (shuhao), walker (wang kun), kong sonhei (jiang xinxi), & karl (ting tzelong)
vic is a 2000 liner & and member of enone. his rank is so oddly low bc he gets pretty good screentime and is very talented?
shuhao is a 2000 liner. he wasnt a pick until he did his solo rap but he's the best rapper, undisputed, on this show. plus he composed & produced & wrote & arranged their group's whole audition song? kingie.
walker is an 05 liner with a musical theatre background. to me he has a very broadcaster type face - kind and open. i noticed him mostly for how he was taking care of his younger audition partner, it was very very cute 🙄(🥹).
xinxi is an 02 liner & a member of the yuehua brigade. member of the bg boyhood (all of whom are competing) and i believe the theme song center. but more importantly, he's my birthday buddy!😁🥳 i'll admit to noticing him first bc of the bday thing - i was actually pretty unimpressed by boyhood's audition. still, he's a very good/solid boy group member to have.
karl (ting tzelong) is a 97 liner with roots in canada & hong kong. he's a Fantastic singer and was the runner up in the mr. hong kong contest? don't think he can dance but that voice, singing or speaking...
i know you & ur fun: ollie
ollie (06, under yuehua) was on boys planet so im very familiar with him (side note but this show has so many former iqiyi show contestants but none from tencent 😭). honestly he's not a pick for me but i like his energy, he's a great variety member. also i don't want to see him lose so 😭 that said i've always thought he raps like he's reading a children's book but he's graduated to slam poetry🎉
hmmm: sky (zhao tianyi)
so. sky's audition was iconic. this 14 y/o kid sang, rapped, played the piano, synths, talkbox, did streetdance, and jumped into a split. he clearly loves music & is very intense about follow this passion. but 1) he's 14. 2) he clearly wants to be a soloist, thus far i can't see a single team player bone in his body. these things combined have put him lower on my list (i especially didn't really care for how he interacted with gemini during the team selection but we'll see if that continues in ep 4). but he's here currently for his talent.
keeping an eye out: archie (sin ching fung), hugo (wong singcheuk) & service (sun xiaowei)
archie (98) is a singer, he sings! but honestly so many ppl on this show are good & he can't really dance so...we'll see
hugo (03, apex member) ...in his audition he looked like a member of my token bg POW lol. he has a lot of potential i just need to see more
service (03) i saw some star potential in his audition, we'll see
#asia super young#asy#t watches tv#gemini#huixiong#aihe#vic#wong singcheuk#zhang shengxi#the way i already watched ep 4 but i already typed all this
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Okay, here we go!
Episode 2 - (I Don't Want to Go to) Chelsea
Oh, I'm digging this remix!
Keeley's office is so cute
Keeley & Ted really are the same person, aren't they 🥰
I have a feeling I'm going to love Barbara
TED!!! That was very enthusiastic, even for this lot 😂
I'm glad we're gonna get more Trent this season
OMG, their collective 'no' for him to just agree. Hilarious
How can he honestly still be so clueless about the Football world? 🫣
"The fumes make me dizzy and I overshare. Please don't print that" Rebecca, you are so real 😂
Rebecca instantly changing her mind once West Ham is mentioned and Trent fully seeing it.... hmm... 👀
Zava dabba doo! OMG, control yourself, woman! 😂
The exact same thing switched between Ted & Rebecca? Brilliant move. And her admitting to it being because of Rupert? Yes!!
'Love that' spoken like a man who knows about shitty exes
Ted & Keeley bonding! I've missed it
Isaac scaring Keeley, amazing. Him wanting a shoe deal but just for shoes, amazing. He's moved on from his Rolos!!
Jamie stuttering around Keeley, boy's still got it bad, huh?
Of course Isaac is a body language boy!
CLENCHED ARSE!! OMG 😂
'I use body science' oh Jamie
That pitiful hum. I love you Jamie!
'It's called empathy, you dusty old fart' I think Roy & Jamie are my favourite pairing in this show, after Ted & Rebecca, of course
'I forget how skittish elderly people could be cause of the war' please never change!!
“And don’t you say a fucking word about it either, William” OMG poor Will! 😂
Oooo he's reading a book. Beard, I'm as shocked as you
Beard's screams!!
He's saying football without thinking... he's learning!!
This banter about wishes is just Brendan & Jason doing what they do best. I love to see it
'I just wished for that 30 seconds ago' Dani, please never change 🥰
This confusion about what is going on is my type of comedy
The boys being collectively upset about Roy & Keeley, so true.
And Beard's scream, Ted fainting... I love my boys
The collective 'aww' Poor Roy haha
'What's a CD?' HOW OLD ARE YOU, WILLIAM?! My god 🫠
Of course Beard has a set of keys to Ted's
How many times did they have to film Brendan running back in screaming before they could do it without laughing?? I can't not laugh watching it!
Roy boy is so angry, bless him
I see you Phil, trying your best not to completely crack up in the background 🤪
'Woo! I mean, fuck off, Trent Crimm' we must protect Dani at all costs
Is this us being shown that more people don't trust or believe in Keeley yet? 🤔
She's so precious, still not understanding why people would be proud of her 🥰
DEBORAH!!
Of course Deb doesn't camp. Who do you think she is?!
Ooo, Tish talk 👀
Nothing like being overly sarcastic with your mother. It's my favourite thing to do!
Her own mother telling her she should meet with her psychic because she's in desperate need of maternal guidance? Please never change, Deb! 🫡
This show is so good at the callbacks, Rebecca mentioning something about Rupert that she knows so well which we get to hear about later... more shows need to be like this!
Hannah & Jeremy together are just gorgeous! 'No, it's too late. Jinxed it' I could watch these two banter for hours
Everyone ignoring him, poor Trent 😕
Brett has been amazing in this episode, as with all the others, but a full scene where he doesn't say anything, but you understand everything... ALL THE AWARDS! The balloon popping is the icing on this scene
Babs is showing Keeley exactly what she thinks of her without saying it, that's cruel. Leave her alone!
I can see this relationship becoming something wonderful though
Believe, believe, believe. It's almost like that's what this show is about or something...
Mae & the bar boys are back! 🥳
Is that text foreshadowing that hiring her friend may not work out??? 🤔
I'm with Hannah, I could watch an entire show of just these three at games
'Jinxed it again' Hannah & Jeremy, again, marvellous!
The stadium being behind Roy may have made me tear up a little, not gonna lie 🥹
Rebecca grabbing Keeley's hand 🥹
Lip-reading massage therapists
SHE USED TO BE A BARTENDER! 👀
AND HE WAS MARRIED WHEN THEY GOT TOGETHER!!! 👀👀
I love backstories!!
Ted telling Roy like it is and him not blowing up at him?? Love to see it
Also perfect explanation of what a Hallmark movie is 🫡
Roy still being angry because of something written when he was 17? So real.
The boys being relieved they can talk again 😂
Them also not needing Ted to give them their pep talks at games anymore cause they're working it out themselves...I see what's happening... 🤔
Go on Rebeca! Be a boss bitch!!
I will say this everytime we see Rupert, but I fucking love Anthony Head 😍
I can never take my eyes off the screen when Hannah & Tony are on it
HANNAH'S FACE!! Truly a masterclass in showing everything without words
YESS! CHEW HIM OUT, REBECCA!!! We love an angry woman!!
Off Dani's fucking face! 'My face scored a goal' 😂
A sour-yell. Perfect
Her popping back round the corner, Hannah you comedy queen
Twat - Ooo, I do love an angry Rupert 😏
'May I keep the pen' I think I'm gonna like this Zava
Another Beard yell, I'm in love 🥰
Zava and Jamie are gonna clash big time. I'm excited
Jane still finds them threatening 👀👀
Roy's whole speech being basically a parallel for what they're setting up to be Ted's journey this season... interesting 🤔
That's another one done! This was one of my favourites, I think. Got back to the humour of the show a bit more.
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I miss RA so much when we don't hear much about him for a while. Not in an invasive way, in a "I really like hearing from/about him and when things are quiet or he is solely promoting work, I miss his personality". I wish interviewers were less annoying so I could watch old interviews but so much of the time, they just ask the same questions over and over and it's usually stupid shit like "wow ur tall how did u act in the Hobbit" or stuff that seems to make him (and me) uncomfortable like commenting on the "Armitage army" or making comments about his appearance. I think he's an interesting guy! Let me hear what he has to say about actually interesting topics! This is prompted by nothing particular but you're the only active RA blog I follow and I felt like I needed to commiserate.
I think we all feel that way anon 😭
I've said before that (in general) the questions asked by interviewers tend to be very relative & a bit boring - which, in all fairness, I can understand *a bit*. as much as we love him (and he should), he doesn't really have the brand recognition to the point where I would expect most people in a random survey of the population to know who he is just by name. so interviewers are naturally going to ask a lot more of the 'basic' questions - tbh I think most of them still go "oh, it's that guy from The Hobbit" in terms of how much they expect the reader to know. so yeah, it's shitty, but I guess I can understand where they're coming from in terms of doing their job. I don't agree with it but I can understand it
in all fairness as well, he has said in the past that the reason he doesn't so many interviews is because it's not his thing & he doesn't really enjoy them - he's said being on talk shows just really isn't in his nature, which I think most of us introverts can 1000% understand & sympathize with
but this is also why I've said in the past I wish someone would interview him using internet-submitted questions (like Audible did once). or just like - even an interview done by a fan. because while I'm sure that kind of thing would make him uncomfortable (re: because I think there's an assumption that all the questions would then be about his personal life) but at the same time I can think of so many fucking actual interesting questions just about his fucking acting process and job and characters that I deperately want to know the answers to that aren't the usual "so you're a method actor because you once voluntarily got waterboarded in the early 2000s, right??" 🙄
I wish he had a social media site *like* tumblr (note: not actually tumblr because then I would have to delete this blog 🫠) where like - there was an ask box. like with the sole purpose of us being able to fucking submit actual decent questions & every once in a while he could answer one or two if he wanted to
I feel like asking him questions on twitter is just like... bothering him & his mentions lmao. whereas a dedicated thing like an askbox is different from a mention or DM. it makes it more like a formal submission lol
so yes, I miss hearing from him when he's not doing interviews, posting on social media etc. too because he is a very interesting person & I have lots of questions I'd like answered but I also like to imagine that when he's not active on social media he's enjoying a chill life, sipping mojitos on a beach or doing a puzzle in a cozy cabin - or whatever you like - and enjoying not being at the beck and call of the public (even though I know that's a filthy rotten lie because the man seemingly never stops working in the background and I wish he would like. chill. just for a bit. for his sake.)
which is all to say in an extremely long-winded manner:
yes, when absent, I miss his public presence but also I don't begrudge it because I like to think he's just chilling & enjoying life in the meantime
#i'm so fucking sorry anon i started responding then life happened so this ended up in my drafts & i promptly forgot it was there until now#i also kinda went off on a tangent sorry but tbh y'all should know by now this will happen if you give me an opportunity lol#richard armitage
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ep 0 volume 5 spoilers/thoughts below 👇👇
huuuh interesting that the fake scenery from b7’s window was hellfire for deborah, but a big blue moon for ray 👀 i suppose the background changes depending on the sacrifice? this really shows that gray knows more about the sacrifices than he lets on, and he especially knows the reason why he chose them as a sacrifice…
….foreshadowing! considering everyone in this panel is dead lmfao
i dunno why but i really like this moment so much!! seeing gray take charge and make it clear to the angels that this is his experiment and they are very much apart of it….. it’s just so good
just want to say shin is so pretty??!!??!!?!?!?! we don’t talk about him enough and i think that’s a crime tbh. shin fans rise up
this is really funny and intriguing to me. the rules clearly state that all angels have to stay on their respective floors when a sacrifice is in the building, and i know eddie isn’t technically an angel here yet... but with how strict gray is, i’m kinda surprised gray appears to be fine with eddie hanging out with shin when shin is supposed to be, you know, working.
then again gray does have a soft spot for eddie, so maybe in the rules there’s a fine print beneath the “all angels need to stay on their respective floor*” rule that says “* except for eddie if he wants to hang out with shin :)”
i guess the “leaving their respective floor” rule is just something that needs to be broken by the b6 angel 😭
eddie and cathy whispering about danny is so cute and funny HELP
eddie being worried about shin 🥺🥺🥺🥺 ughhh i really love their friendship, so knowing how it ends….. 🫠
this is actually a pretty common feeling shin! if you take the murder part out of it, anyways
THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM UGHHHHHHHH I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! eddie really looks up to shin so much it’s adorable
and again with shin giving eddie a head pat 🥹🥹🥹 reminds me of zack with ray LOL, kind of a shame they never met shin…..
eddie has no idea what’s about to happen….. T___T
AND HIS REACTION TO FINDING SHIN 😭😭😭😭🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕💔💔💔💔💔
makes sense gray would think this way… but it still hurts 🥹
i am in SHAMBLES!!!!!! at least eddie is taking shin’s death way better than i am 😭
the last panel is really really powerful to me. shin’s ghost-like appearance on the other side of the mirror, with his back to eddie… it symbolizes he’s passed onto another life without actually saying it, and despite the barrier between life and death, eddie’s words still reached shin… 🥹
(shin's ghost is also sitting, almost like he's waiting for eddie to cross over as well... perhaps he already knows of eddie's fate and wants to be there to greet eddie on the other side? ..... or maybe i'm looking way too much into this panel...)
nice foreshadowing of danny’s ultimate fate here as well 👀 pretty sure he said the exact same thing to gray in the main story when the building was going down, and that’s where he got his answer… that yes, his desires did not make him an angel, but a human. a nice little callback to the main series, despite this being the prequel!
“father gray said it’s my turn on the xbox”
THERE HE IS!!!! ZACK’S FIRST OFFICIAL APPEARANCE IN EP 0!!!!
gosh it feels SO GOOD seeing zack again!!!!! it’s been so long……. missed this guy ☝️☝️☝️☝️
aaaaand that’s the end of volume 5! so we leave off on how gray discovered zack!
also imo, “the laughing reaper” is a much better name for zack than “the back-alley murderer”. laughing reaper fits him much better!
them… i will never emotionally recover 🫠
overall another really good volume of ep 0!!! i love seeing how everything builds up to the main story!!! i’m gonna be really sad when this story ends….. i will miss it </3
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Just some thoughts on the new season of FTWS. It’ll probably change once I finish the whole thing because we all know I’ll rewatch it all over again lol. I’ll update this post as I go :)
Episode 1:
Dane is mad annoying. That’s it.
Episode 2:
Wildest Dreams playing in the background carried this episode. And that playing while Bloom and Sky ride around on a horse is 🤌🏼
(This will probably be an unpopular opinion but oh well) Flora is annoying. Like girl, you’re new here. Don’t be injecting stuff on people you don’t even know.
Saaaam. What in the world is going on with you?
Stella’s yellow + purple outfit? Cute 🥺
Episode 3:
Trent Crimm, The Independent!! What are you doing at Alfea¿? 😂
I’m still not vibing this new Ben. I don’t think I’ve seen any works this actor has been in, but it just feels like he doesn’t fit the character.
Whyyy isn’t Saul concerned about Farah. Like damn man, Ao3 writers do a better writing job
Episode 4:
Rosalind is suddenly sentimental???
Episode 5:
Musa and Riven are actually cute ngl
I already knew the spoiler before I started watching. But damn. Hearing them talk about Farah’s death just hits different
Bloom vs Rosalind? 💀 definitely was not expecting that
Episode 6:
Saulllll. Why are you being so nonchalant
Kate Fleetwood stays slaying. You go, queen.
The little bulletin board behind Stella with the cast’s BTS pics are so cute
The Tribunal? Shook af.
I know Farah’s character confirmed it but are we really expected to believe that one of the most powerful fairies just… died?? Just like that? 😢
I’m sorry we were done dirty. This whole time she’s just been dead 😭
Not to mention I’m still annoyed with how there’s barely any reaction from Saul
Beatrix!!! Girl wtf
Episode 7:
Saullllll again wtf??
Beatrix??? Oh my god??
Well this gives me more questions than answers.
I need to binge read on Ao3 to make myself feel better.
Why do I need to binge read? I don’t have a therapist.
Ao3 🤝🏼 Spotify. Good luck to everyone else. Lmk what you guys are doing 🫠
#Fate: The Winx Saga#Fate#FTWS#Farah Dowling#Saul Silva#Bloom#Stella#Aisha#Terra#spoilers#Rosalind#Musa
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OMGGGGGG RYENNNNN I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️you write beautifully, majestically, elegantly, romantically, heartbreaking, exciting and if I could just find the right word to compliment you, I would🥹 you’re really everything #mytwin
I literally read the chapter as soon as I got off work that night it came out and then reread it again right after so I could find quotes and give you the review of a lifetimeeee. I also reread twice today leading up to me sending my review. Oh how I love 3tan and you sm ❤️🔥
BUT ANYWAYSSYSYS?!?!?!?! The jk reveal that they had something going on, but he still feels sm love for her even after breaking her heart (I wonder if it was him trying to let her go when she was leaving and the whole situation got misunderstood) but I really thought this revelation in the chapter would predict all the future angst of 3tan9 and then no happiness between yoongi and oc, but ofc I’m WRONG?!?!! (Happily) I really wonder how everyone will take the news of them messing with each other now
ALSO JIN AS BROTHER?!?!?!?!?!?!? I actually thought it was joon, but joon and hobi being yoongi’s studio mates actually makes sm sense and Jin is obviously the dream big brother. I remember oc said something about how they (jin) went through a lot w their parents and I wonder if that bonded them more to want to live together as adults.
I ALSO HAVE QUOTES FROM EVERYTIME I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN READING (some might not be in order as I literally re read 18 times:
“You don’t see what he does when silent, but you feel his jewelry slide against your ass when he leans forward to kiss the sore spot. “Careful, love,” he wisps into your skin. “ PLS IM ACTUALLY BITING MY PILLOW WHEN I REREAD THIS FOR THE 34TH TIME OMGMFIVAIXIA
“Something solid pushes into your nose before he stops, tearing his glasses off to kiss you straight into another plane of existence.” I NEVER WATCHED BUSINESS PROPOSAL BUT THIS DEF REMINDED ME OF THAT KISS SCENE THAT BLEW UP😭😭💔
“As you pull him in impossibly close, a thought pierces through you like lightning. That maybe—just maybe—he speaks through actions, because his mind already says too much.” There’s not much to say but🥹🥹🥹
“And you only feel the softest press of lips on your own. … Time bends when you’re pulled into the most tender kiss he’s ever given, and everything around you melts away. The song fades to background noise, but it’s still wonderful, hearing his distinct voice on recording while feeling his lips in person.” - I might actually cry. The tender kisses throughout the story have made me melt in ways I didn’t know was possible. I was already down for this couple BUT NOWWWW??? Yeah scoot over, I’m joining🙄🙄
“When he buries his head in your neck, he breathes you in…“I know I haven’t said my piece…But I’m really fucking into you, doll.” yooooooonnnnnnn😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠
on a serious note, I am actually married to yoongi and the way you’ve managed to put our real life marriage into exact words is frightening???🤯🤯
OMGGGG THE SCENE WHERE THEYRE IN BED HOLDING EACH OTHER AND SHE TELLS HIM THAT HES ALL SHE NEEDS AS SHES CRYING, BUT WHEN HE LIFTS HIMSELF UP, HE WAS ACTUALLY THE ONE CRYING🥲
“As soon as you loosen your hold, he pushes upward, and you realize with a visceral burn that those tears you felt weren’t yours…Raw at their edges, just as welled, his eyes hold the heavens inside as he continues to regard you like you’ll still run.”🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲😋
“And as a man that speaks through actions, Yoongi responds with a kiss reminiscent of moonlight.” This actually became my favorite quote ever. 🥲
“And why wouldn’t he? Jungkook probably talked about that damn ring he has on his chain—the same one you still have in your bottom drawer.” UMMM??? I DIDNT KNOW THEY WERE THAT SERIOUS??? HES STILL WEARING IT.
Lowkey nervous because JK never shows to back down from a fight and I feel like he’s gonna be here for a while trying to win oc back… or maybe not🧐 I will be back with later thoughts on what I think.
But alas… the quote that ruined me fully:
“Where’s my hi?”
HWCHWUVIEOCOSICJWJXJAICRKFOFOFSPZ IDK WHY BUT HIM SAYING THAT KNOWING HOW FLUSTERED SHE GETS OMGKGG. there will be a 1200 word analysis on these 3 words in ur inbox later… WHAT WAS THE REASON????
Also one quick question… will the future drabbles continue with them in their entanglement or will it be w their new sneaky, but confirmed relationship??
This was so long I’m sorry😭😭😭😭 but this was so good and fulfilling (as always) I can’t wait to read more of what you put out for us, you’ll have my support forever🥲🫶
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AHHHHH CHERRYYYY this is so fckinsfnfjfdnj amazing?? i have many many words under the cut because i am floored by everything in this review😭
OMGGGGGG RYENNNNN I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️you write beautifully, majestically, elegantly, romantically, heartbreaking, exciting and if I could just find the right word to compliment you, I would🥹 you’re really everything #mytwin
thank you, baby! you used a bunch of words that have me blushing fr fr. thank you so much for all of these kind descriptions, wow..
I literally read the chapter as soon as I got off work that night it came out and then reread it again right after so I could find quotes and give you the review of a lifetimeeee. I also reread twice today leading up to me sending my review. Oh how I love 3tan and you sm ❤️🔥
WAIT you reread it? twice?? that is a lot of words to go over holy heck.. but this review is certainly something and i am lucky af to have you reading along. wow.
BUT ANYWAYSSYSYS?!?!?!?! The jk reveal that they had something going on, but he still feels sm love for her even after breaking her heart (I wonder if it was him trying to let her go when she was leaving and the whole situation got misunderstood) but I really thought this revelation in the chapter would predict all the future angst of 3tan9 and then no happiness between yoongi and oc, but ofc I’m WRONG?!?!! (Happily) I really wonder how everyone will take the news of them messing with each other now
YEAHHH THE JK REVEAL!! it's a lot deeper than people ever imagined and that's what makes it heartbreaking.. and yoongi bowing out when he believes this is the better option?? it hurts. it hurts it hurts but then we get their actual exercise of communication. happy they decided to work things out after reader calls out yoongi so blatantly!
ALSO JIN AS BROTHER?!?!?!?!?!?!? I actually thought it was joon, but joon and hobi being yoongi’s studio mates actually makes sm sense and Jin is obviously the dream big brother. I remember oc said something about how they (jin) went through a lot w their parents and I wonder if that bonded them more to want to live together as adults.
AHHHH it's not jin! it's none of the members ahaha. but them all in the studio hell yeah.. those scenes were super fun to work on. they did have some stuff with the family so maybe we'll hear more about that later.
I ALSO HAVE QUOTES FROM EVERYTIME I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN READING (some might not be in order as I literally re read 18 times:
“You don’t see what he does when silent, but you feel his jewelry slide against your ass when he leans forward to kiss the sore spot. “Careful, love,” he wisps into your skin. “ PLS IM ACTUALLY BITING MY PILLOW WHEN I REREAD THIS FOR THE 34TH TIME OMGMFIVAIXIA
GOODBYEEEE NOT THE FIRST QUOTE BEING THE CHAINS ON READERS ASSSSSSSS I LOVE YOU HAHAHAH
“Something solid pushes into your nose before he stops, tearing his glasses off to kiss you straight into another plane of existence.” I NEVER WATCHED BUSINESS PROPOSAL BUT THIS DEF REMINDED ME OF THAT KISS SCENE THAT BLEW UP😭😭💔
LMFAOOO so what's even worse here is that.. i've seen the scene you're talking about. but yoongi takes off his glasses much faster than what happens in that kiss. he practically rips them off and throws them on his counter i'm swooning FUUUUC
“As you pull him in impossibly close, a thought pierces through you like lightning. That maybe—just maybe—he speaks through actions, because his mind already says too much.” There’s not much to say but🥹🥹🥹
awhhhhhh this line, too :'))) it's so heartwarming to see that reader really is starting to read yoongi well. i just think that part of her character dev is dope as fck.
“And you only feel the softest press of lips on your own. … Time bends when you’re pulled into the most tender kiss he’s ever given, and everything around you melts away. The song fades to background noise, but it’s still wonderful, hearing his distinct voice on recording while feeling his lips in person.” - I might actually cry. The tender kisses throughout the story have made me melt in ways I didn’t know was possible. I was already down for this couple BUT NOWWWW??? Yeah scoot over, I’m joining🙄🙄
dear goddddd i warned y'all that kissing was a warning for a reason this time! i haven't counted how many kisses are in this one but i'm fairly damn certain it's more than what's in all the other chapters. and hahahah join the line get in wait ur turn i wanna be with them too LOLOL
“When he buries his head in your neck, he breathes you in…“I know I haven’t said my piece…But I’m really fucking into you, doll.” yooooooonnnnnnn😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠
HELP MEEEEEEE THIS DAMN LINE
on a serious note, I am actually married to yoongi and the way you’ve managed to put our real life marriage into exact words is frightening???🤯🤯
BABY PLEASE LMFAO don't tell yoongi i'm writing y'all fr ok i don't want him to perceive me like this ufhsfhsfh
OMGGGG THE SCENE WHERE THEYRE IN BED HOLDING EACH OTHER AND SHE TELLS HIM THAT HES ALL SHE NEEDS AS SHES CRYING, BUT WHEN HE LIFTS HIMSELF UP, HE WAS ACTUALLY THE ONE CRYING🥲
“As soon as you loosen your hold, he pushes upward, and you realize with a visceral burn that those tears you felt weren’t yours…Raw at their edges, just as welled, his eyes hold the heavens inside as he continues to regard you like you’ll still run.”🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲😋
OH MY GOD YEAH.. when yoongi props himself up and we can see his tears? nah. i was done at that point. absolutely fcking gone and there was no going back i actually cried there, too.
“And as a man that speaks through actions, Yoongi responds with a kiss reminiscent of moonlight.” This actually became my favorite quote ever. 🥲
oh stop. STOP ITTT i can't do this is it really oh lord i'm gonna actually hide now. honored!!
“And why wouldn’t he? Jungkook probably talked about that damn ring he has on his chain—the same one you still have in your bottom drawer.” UMMM??? I DIDNT KNOW THEY WERE THAT SERIOUS??? HES STILL WEARING IT.
Lowkey nervous because JK never shows to back down from a fight and I feel like he’s gonna be here for a while trying to win oc back… or maybe not🧐 I will be back with later thoughts on what I think.
DFSDFFJDF NOT ONLY IS THERE A REVEAL BUT THERE ARE LAYERS TO IT. there are certainly more things that need to be uncovered here but it's like. yeah. it seems - as of now and from what we can see - that they were pretty fcking serious.
and i totally get the nervousness surrounding jk! he's super competitive and he's clearly determined and stubborn if he's this successful right now. we shall see! happy to hear any thoughts or theories you end up having :D
But alas… the quote that ruined me fully: “Where’s my hi?”
HWCHWUVIEOCOSICJWJXJAICRKFOFOFSPZ IDK WHY BUT HIM SAYING THAT KNOWING HOW FLUSTERED SHE GETS OMGKGG. there will be a 1200 word analysis on these 3 words in ur inbox later… WHAT WAS THE REASON????
HAHAHAHAHH HE WANTS TO FIGHT. I JUST KNOW IT. MEET ME IN THE BACK OF A WENDYS SIR. down to hear the word analysis and screaming on this later i will not be mad at all LMAO
Also one quick question… will the future drabbles continue with them in their entanglement or will it be w their new sneaky, but confirmed relationship??
so.. this was the other surprise i was gonna wait to tell y'all. most of the drabbles are meant to be after this! (loosely-imagined, since the party is still happening) so you can read them as if they happen after 3tan9<3
This was so long I’m sorry😭😭😭😭 but this was so good and fulfilling (as always) I can’t wait to read more of what you put out for us, you’ll have my support forever🥲🫶
you are so damn kind, cherry! it was a pleasure to read as always and i treasure every word. you had so many good quotes and commentary!! super glad you decided to make it this way, no worries at all :D
#fantastic extraordinary amazing!!#🍒 anon#lovely people#3tanbro#3tan9#3tan spoilers#asks:3tan#*ryenfictalk#mailbox💌#long post
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Aaaahhhh the angst in lone blue egg>>>>> I kind of wanted it to last a little longer but that’s just me liking drama. I’m so happy these two stopped being dummies🥹 yes penguin jk I’m talking to you stop ignoring me. I hope you understand Rana is THE icon, she is the moment, so treat her right or… ehm.. I’ll be mad😡.
And we got rid of Marisol HALLELUJAH 🙌🏻🙌🏻. Okay I don’t know if we got rid of her. There’s a chapter left, we still might have to fight her. I don’t this story to end but I’ve seen an Owl Yoongi on your trello… okay, je suis calm. Totally calm.
As I was writing this I got whiplashed by the amount of pregnancy related asks that are now successfully giving me anxiety😁👍🏻. I saw the other day on Instagram a girl I know (she’s my age, that makes it worse🫠) just had a baby and I got a little freaked out. I refuse to enter that stage of my life when people start to settle down. No, never, foreveeeer we are young🥹. I’m actually really fascinated by pregnancy and the whole process but I’m way to scared of it to find it pleasant. The fact that you don’t know what exactly is gonna happen to you until you’re living through it… I think we deserve a free trial at least😫.My mom told me she had morning sickness for her whole pregnancy and that she couldn’t eat pizza the whole time because it made her sick (she’s probably still mad at me for that😂).
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Yeah, all these pregnancy asks are so funny. I did not have strong cravings but I had some strong aversions --including to a hobby of mine! Yep! I have this collection and anytime I looked at anything in the collection or even photos of it during my first pregnancy, I would get nauseated. It's that WEIRD? But I tested it over and over, it was impossible to ignore, I had to pack it all up and not think about it until I was a few months postpartum. I also cried multiple times in my first pregnancy at the smell of coffee, which I wasn't drinking. By my second pregnancy my doc was like omg just drink a cup of coffee each day, one small cup is fine, don't cry over it! It's weird what your body decides it needs or is a threat!
I'm seeing that same sentiment about Penguin Koo from many readers! It makes me wonder if everyone is just used to really long angsty stories from me or if I wrote resulution too quickly. I'm still working on these shorter length stories and how to pace them. Hmmm. But I'm glad you enjoyed it otherwise!
And yes, Owl Yoongi is up next, though I'm planning all the stories in the background since they're all intertwined. So the series will continue, and you'll see more of Penguin Koo and Rana as they appear in other stories!
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Missing 2022 🫠
missing 2021 🫠
missing 2020 🫠
Need to accept i iam a solitary person. Dreams and memories of my precious solitude. No longing no regret. Spoke on the phone today with my parents and the vibes were awful. My father trying to set up a weekly time to talk with me and me saying I can't guarantee it but sure go ahead and try. They sounded like a nightmare cold frigid British dystopia world or something. It was wearying. Unhappy.
It would have been alright continuing to work as a teacher if it werent for getting to know the children. When I was a middle schooler it was easy enough to blend in the background. I was terribly alone but when I went home i didnt need anybody, didnt feel like I needed anyone. My first year of high school my father decided i couldnt live in the basement room any longer, i had to come up to the room vacated by my elder brother on the rest of the house level. I begged and pleaded to no avail, and its a resentment I wont let go of bc it changed the whole course of my last four years under their roof. I could not retreat into my distance when I needed to. 👁️👁️👁️
But teaching the students I could no longer be invisible and this might have been a function of my youth, my age being closer to the students than to any of the other teachers, but it was the same isolation with a bizarre mix of too much knowledge and the students appreciating me in a way I didn't anticipate and had no way to deal with. I felt just as alienated and isolated by the school structure except when you're a teacher you dont get invited by a group of nice boys to eat lunch with them (you sitting silently) after you eat alone for 6 months. I was sort of in league with the students but obviously quite separate from them in age and also position, but could no more relate to the other teachers. Nor did I wish to administer discipline. I never wanted to believe the other teachers when they said, this is necessary. I'm still actually quite sure I dont believe them. Standard school discipline is a necessary tool at the scale and scope at which school takes effect upon children. The problem is the structure of their lives. But adults can't solve this bc the structure of their lives is also oppressive
I'm guilty of this myself but clutching what you love tightly to yourself is an act of evil
In actuality the loneliness of solitude bothered me in these times I am now nostalgic for and I am also, if I try, nostalgic for the few and far between moments of companionship.
I am ezperiencing a lot of nerve pain in my arms and I really need to see a doctor. I am concerned about medical costs (I don't have insurance right now anyway, though I hopefully will soon), concerned about the possibility that I'm experiencing the onset of chronic pain beginning at my rather young age. I have no money saved up and am struggling to find suitable employment. Fear about the pain in my arms makes it harder for me to apply for jobs because of the fear. I am scared of the dehumanizing workplace. I struggle to know where to begin.
The solution to human struggles is not to "accept that I am a solitary person", but I think what is the case is that I am scared of people. I am frightened when they talk to me. I am frightened that they will not recognize me as human in the way that I am human
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