Long time no post <3!! Been inspired recently again to share! Finally recovered from being sick (bad allergies and then a bad Flu) but I put myself to good use at least! I guess being sick made my heartbeat incredibly visible and fast. (normally he is but this was on another level) It was so loud I had to edit down the volume a little so it wouldn't distort in the file. He did this for days!!! And as much as I would not want to get a lady sick I couldn't help my mind being in the gutter and wished I had a woman who could have indulged. Nonstop incessant pounding! I usually get a ton of skips but he was just going and going and going. Didnt help with a mind in the gutter and imagining a woman 'treating herself' to my heartbeat for her pleasure. I would never object (or for vice versa either ;)
Also been suppressing this for months but ... I am really really craving/fiending to listen to someone. Never feel its proper to ask but oh man I could sit and listen to a lady's heartbeat for hours. I miss doing that regularly so so much! And it's been a very long time. Talking and listening is a gem as well!
TW: If you can't hear fast / irregular heartbeats, please don't listen to!
Hey,
I'm up with a new audio of my wild beating heart from 14th May.
Done again a little breath holds and some different breathes because I couldn't hold it as long as I wanted. I know, here is most of the beats fast not very spectecular. But when I breathed again normal, the different beat happened again short. Didn't expected that hehe
I can feel my heart racing. But, oh how it could be to have it stop but for a moment. So I might catch up and breathe. Untangle myself from the knots and the racing mind. Just let me know it's fine, it's just the mind racing. Thinking to much of the future and the work you have yet to put forth. Why it still persists incsnnot know, but it causes my stomach to flip in knots, the mind turning on the fear. Oh make it stop make it stop, it's not even the end of the year the body is already begging. Just one more step, one more day, breathe in and focus on the present not the impeding doom of the future. Relinquishing control is hard but necessary breathe in and out, for words to write will come in time, filling your soul filling you with strength and unyielding courage. Hold on hold on, dream sweet for the morrow will come, rest racing thoughts become peaceful make anew for a new dawn yet breaking.