Genuine question for neurodivergent people out there:

I’ve been trying to figure out if I’m autistic/neurodivergent or not, and recently had more friends (who are on the spectrum) tell me that they assumed I was too. So it’s made me want to look into it again. I exhibit some traits (stimming, hyperfixations, infodumping, and some sensory sensitivities, plus a history with anxiety. Also a ton of my friends that I feel the most comfortable and happy with are neurodivergent), but have never felt like I have major issues with socializing or eye contact? If anything I feel pretty advanced at socializing. I was a gifted kid and am pretty socially aware, and and AFAB girl (so I know that could contribute to high masking). I know autism is a huge spectrum so everyone is different, but I wanted to know more about other peoples experiences since that seems to be a major commonality that I don’t relate to.

Long winded way of saying if you want to interact with this post in replies or my ask box, I’d super appreciate other peoples perspectives!

Jonathan: -is given a silver crusifix-

Jonathan: sigh Here we go again.

awetistic things {370}

forgetting comorbidity exists and getting imposter syndrome when you don’t have every autism symptom ever

it’s funny how every day i wake up thinking “wow i’m going to need caffeine to get stuff done today” as if the incoming anxiety of living in a world where we have to fight imperialism doesn’t give me enough adrenaline to never sleep again

Sicktember day 11: Emergency Room/Ambulance

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"D-Dearest," Gabriel’s voice shook as he whispered. "Do you know where we are?"

Liam head throbbed as he felt Gabriel’s cool hand cup his face. His eyes heavy, stinging with pain, fluttered open enough to see the tear stained face of his beloved looking at him with worry not suited for those beautiful eyes.

"I'll wager...a guess..." He felt so heavy as if gravity only focused on him.

"I k-know you don't like hospital but I-I didn't know what to do." Gabriel hiccuped, tears began welling again. "I couldn't get...your fever down and...uh...oh heavens, Jasper wife...the red-head..."

"Celeste." Liam rasped as he tried to sit up.

"Yes, thank you dear, I'm awful with names...oh don't sit up." Gabriel rested a hand on Liam’s shoulder easing him back. "Please, lay back, the nurse said you're quite dehydrated, conserve your strength." Gabriel let out a wavering breath and rubbed his forehead briefly.

"How'd...we get here?" Liam tried focusing on Gabriel but the fluorescent lights of the ER burned his eyes, the humming aggravating his head.

"Jasper drove us." Gabriel fussed with the blanket and then brushed Liam’s matted hair from around his pale face, his flushed cheeks the only hint of color. "He asked me to...text him..." Gabriel looked away embarrassed, "When you're released, he went to fetch his friend from work."

Liam nodded then winced as everything hurt currently. "Did...whoever saw me say when that might be..." He was happy he was already too dazed for his anxiety to bother him.

Gabriel shook his head, "You need fluids," He motioned to the IV, "and your fever must get under control." He rubbed his forehead again.

A pang of worry hit Liam’s chest, "Love, I'm not...going anywhere, why don't you take a cab home and rest."

"I'm fine..." Gabriel said wishing his voice didn't betray him. "I'm not leaving." He took Liam’s hand on his, rubbing the top with his thumb.

Liam’s dry cracked lips managed a smile, "I knew you wouldn't." He closed his eyes falling back into a dreamless sleep.

A scholar once tried to talk me out of working with my advisor because “he’s not a gender scholar. He doesn’t understand gender, and he doesn’t try that hard to.” And putting aside whether or not she was right on that point (she was not right about working with him), I think it’s such an eviscerating line and something I come back to a lot.

There’s not being that informed on something and not understanding it, and then there’s not even trying very hard to correct it.

i notice i tend to laugh when i'm nervous.

was feeling lightheaded for a while and ended up crying a little

felt a little better after that but it wouldn't go away. so i got off bed to see if it would go away, and it's sort of working but i also ended up worried that it might be something Bad

still feeling some stuff but hopefully it goes away

I have a question

I’ve seen a lot of different posts on differet things such as dissociation and maladaptive daydreaming and etc

And I have to ask, can y’all give me an educated guess on what the fuck i’m doing

Cuz i’ll either be playing out stories in my fantasy world thing, going on a mental rant or staring into space, unaware of the passage of time, 98% of the time you ask me something and i go, sorry, what?

Plz, i need to know

I hc Logan as some kind of nd. Not sure witch, because there's a lot of overlap, but yeah.

I just fucking love crying during school. Like wtf brain!?!??

i’m feeling weird today

When was the last time you slept

I’ve been recovering sleep after exams and the entire school year really! So I’ve been over sleeping. Consider some of the anons though.

idk if it’s bc it’s nearly 2am but i feel such an ache in my heart. i keep thinking about how i want to be more honest about how i want romance and love. i’m trying to publicly declare it bc honestly im embarrassed writing this but fuck it!!!