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Me busting into Elder Predator’s chambers to chew his ass out after he ignored my gauntlet call six times in a row (he was taking a much needed old man nap)
#big guy was knocked out#being an ancient yautja is exhausting#and then dealing with my bitch ass…#oh he’s gonna bite a good chunk of my ass off when he wakes up#pardon my behavior I’ve just been very dickprived as of late#it makes me say and do things I shouldn’t#also yes I spied on him and memorized the key code to break into his chambers#he knows this already unfortunately I leave my scent behind when I snoop around his quarters#I also shed so he’s always finding strands of my hair#and I leave very small gifts around for him in places I assume he won’t notice right off the bat#but his finely tuned observations detect traces of my phantom presence#he’s contemplating setting up a trap to catch me redhanded#yes I must answer for not respecting his personal space#especially to discipline me for my poor cloaking execution#now he can’t bring any Yautja women around cuz they’ll smell me there#but let’s be real he hasn’t done that in a long time#yautja#avp elder#elder predator
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(Heads up, Yowapeda is going on a bit of a hiatus for the next three weeks! So there will be no new chapter until 8/3!)
Ride 737: New pedals
Pag 1
3: New... “pedals”
4: Yeah
Pag 2
1: Try using them
You'll probably be able to use them!!
Pag 3
2: Huh
3: …..!! Be able to use them!?
4: The.... pedals!?
5: Rokudai-kun
Ye-yessir, teh
The senpai of my senpai, the “super senpai”!!
6: Sorry but could you please bring here Onoda's bike?
Pag 4
1: Yessir!! Right away!!
3: So fast
3: Here!!
Thank you
Thanks
He's really so fast!! As expected of his hardcore manager spirit!!
Pag 5
1: Waaaa.... I officially touched Back-ga-.... Onoda-san's bike....!!
Why are you being all bashful by yourself now, Rokudai....
2: I'll install them right away
3: Ah-uhm
4: Uhm.... actually
I can't accept them
7: Teh!?
Onoda-san refused them..!!
Pag 6
1: You purposely cam here to encourage us, you even offered me a drink – I can't accept the “pedals” too, in addition to that!!
2: You even greeted the first years
That's plenty, thank you so much!
Onoda-san....
4: Is that so?
Yes!!
5: I thought they would suit you, Onoda, but..
Pag 7
1: I- I wanted to see the new pedals, teh...
He said “he'll be able to use them”, I wonder what that meant
2: Maybe the shape is different?
Maybe they're difficult to use? Like there are two on both sides
How would you even step on them, teh
3: I actually got these for myself....
4: With my style of pedaling I tend to lose torque near the limit, so I tried using these
5: But it didn't suit me
So I went back to use the old pedals
7: And while doing so I suddenly thought
8: That you, Onoda... your pedals
Pag 8
1: How long has it been since you last changed them...?
2: Huh
6: The pedals used for bicycles racing are consumable
Pag 9
1: When you fall, they're the first thing that hit the ground, and they're shaved by the impact
2: The structure is simple but surprisingly useful, but still metal isn't perfect
3: They receive the torque and the force from the legs, so you can say the pedals are one of the most important part of a bike
And there's no guarantee they'll never break right during an important race
4: A race...!!
5: Of course you usually bring your bike to Touji-san, and I don't think he'd fail to notice something like this
6: But, has it ever happened before that your feet unfastened during an important moment and you had troubles because of it?
Pag 10
2: …. during the Inter High's third day... at the end...
Yes, it happened....
3: You fought in the Inter High twice
4: You ran in the prefectural qualifiers, every day you use your bike for practice
5: And you're overusing it now during training camp
6: When they'll break it won't be surprising
Onoda, sometimes.... caring... isn't just about the club members....
Pag 11
1: It's about your own bike, too!!
2: The pedals I received from Teshima-san on that rainy day during training camp onmy first year
3: I asked Touji-san to fix them on my new bike, since they were important to me
5: Looking closely, they're all ruined
Pag 12
1: The bike that connects me to everyone
And what connects me to this bike
2: The pedals
3: You went to the Inter High with the pedals I gave you, and you delievered our jersey to the final gate in the end
4: Twice
And I, who gave you those pedals, also am happy and want to thank you
5: But, it's enough
They carried out their role perfectly
Pag 13
1: Let them rest
3: Waaa it's already this late!? That's bad, I got a lecture tomorrow next period
4: I have to go back!
Th- that's bad!
5: …. ah, but you refused these new pedals. I can't give them to you... you said
Ah- wa-
Ahh, what should I do
Ah-
6: Well it can't be helped
Pag 14
1: I'll forget them in the lobby and leave
4: Do your best during this training camp!
Yes- thank you so much for coming here!!
5: Say hi to the others for me, too
6: Share those with everyone and eat them
Pag 15
1: Thank you so much...!!
If you speak so loudly you'll wake everyone...
He....
He's such a nice senpai...
2: I could see ans feel the Sohoku bond, teh!!
Righ!! It's so strong!!
3: I'll change them now
4: The pedals!!
6: I wonder what kind are they, teh, these new pedals!
He said “you'll be able to use them”!?
7: Huh!?
These are the pedals!?
It's the first time I see them in this shape, the... the tip...
Pag 16
1: is round!!
Pag 17
1: The part where I put my feet is a round pedal...!!
2: Amazing, since this pedal is round
3: I can move my heel left and right
4: With incredibly wide movements!!
5: My ankles... and my knees are incredibly free to move!!
And also, these pedals...
Pag 18
1: They feel so close to the sole of my feet
2: I feel like I can turn my pedals so much more like this!!
3: Thank you so much, Teshima-san!!
Pag 19
1: Have you noticed, Hotshot?
Onoda-kun's....
Yeah, his pedals are new
2: “Speed play”
3: It's the only kind of pedal in the world that has the cleat and fastening mechanism on the side
4: Your legs' range of motion left and right becomes wider, so when you're swinging the bike you can still under all circumstances pedal at an high cadence and apply torque
It's perfect for Onoda's pedaling style
5: Was it Touj-san?
Who knows... I sense some kind of intention behind the guess of giving him those pedals
6: And from those donuts lineup choice, maybe
Pag 20
1: It was Teshima-san!!
2: Onoda....!! Pedal, until your limit
3: I told you before...!! I want to see
4: How strong you can become!!
#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal manga#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#yowamushi pedal translations#ride 737#no you don't get it i love junta so so much hes so important to me its not even funny anymore ;A;#i loved how imaizumi at the end of the chapter goes 'mhh this suspiciously sounds like something teshima-san would do must have been him'#lmao he knows him so weel#onoda refusing the pedals at first bc junta already did so much for them ;;i just love how much he's growing...#makes me feel like a proud mum- and i bet junta felt the same lmao#and junta going 'ah damn you didnt want these pedals :( well i guess ill just forget them here :D'#he's SO NICE AND WITTY I LOVE HIM#and you know who else loves him? rokudai and kinaka 'oh my god hes such a nice person *O*'#yeah babies i understand you im in love with him too#(nad many other ppl in this manga lmao)#gonna miss this manga for the next three weeks :')#but also thank you watanabe bc you took a break just when im most busy and then i go on vacation#you did it for me ily#gonna use this time to maybe finally catch up with reading spare bike or rereading ywpd from the mtb arc mhhh
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i have not listened to hamilton in like a week why is he STILL HERE
read the tags if you want to see me talk about musicals for a little TOO long
#this is no hate to you mr leslie odom jr#but i have most certainly listened to other musicians/bands more#anyways i'd say the rest is accurate#my bff and i have been doing a musical binge#started with wicked -> ride the cyclone -> shrek -> legally blonde -> falsettos#i cried twice at falsettos btw it's so fucked up (i loved it sm)#i've listened to wicked before but haven't actually *seen* it so that was nice#i've also heard a couple songs from ride the cyclone & falsettos b4 so i already knew they'd be good#and i've seen shrek the musical like 3 times bc i unironically love it#overall opinions: ride the cyclone might have my favorite cast of characters and i think falsettos might be my favorite musical now#fav songs (for funsies):#ride the cyclone: noel's lament / the ballad of jane doe / jawbreaker / space age bachelor man (insane song btw)#wicked: no good deed / popular#shrek: i know it's today / don't let me go / i think i got you beat / this is our story / what's up duloc?#falsettos: this had better come to a stop / i'm breaking down / four jews in a room bitching / a tight-knit family/love is blind#falsettos cont.: everyone hates his parents / falsettoland/about time#legally blonde: blood in the water / positive / ireland / chip on my shoulder / so much better / whipped into shape / take it like a man#legally blonde cont.: bend and snap / there! right there! / legally blonde / legally blonde - remix / find my way/finale#SORRY I OPENED A PANDORA'S BOX WHEN I STARTED TALKING ABOUT MUSICALS#i really should've posted this on my other acc oh well#okay i'm gonna shut up now im so sorry LMAO#falsettos#legally blonde musical#legally blonde the musical#shrek the musical#shrek musical#wicked#wicked musical#ride the cyclone
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I never tried the option myself bc it'd probably mean skipping the Reason You Suck speech at the end (fire for speedrunners though) but I Love that you can frame your Phoneys in 3, especially so if you've already killed the previous two. Like yeah couldn't send you off to die so i'll let the goverment do it for me 🧸 like its just Peak evil imo.
#luly talks#i do relinquish in the pain and the agony but dont get me wrong the thought of any of them 3 getting jailed makes me SO sad#rog esp since he's the one im writing about and the biggest nerve wreck#gingi voice they'll be the last one to pick the board game for prison-game-night..........#actually yknow i wonder if rog would end up almost believing it after all when you try to gaslight him for the shits and giggles#(as in: telling HE was victim of the bite of 87 and the like) he tells you to not do that bc his brain is already scrambled or something#so there's a chance perhaps he'd believe it if he had everyone constantly accussing him of it?#not like it'd matter much i have no hopes for the dsaf justice system i know its been 35 years since jack got framed but still#i just remembered when the option popped up i said ''god im really becoming steven 😭''#first time i made the joke too was when i said ''imagine your boss sucks so bad you turn suicidal'' no clue what the context was#OH YEAH JAKE SAYING HE'D RATHER FUCKING DIE THAN KEEP WORKING HERE yeah. poor guy.#anyway im derailing my own post again uhhh. yeah. yeah i dont trust any phoney is avoiding the death sentence#dsaf#roger jones#dsaf roger#btw just for the sake of yapping longer i truly cant decide whether harry or jake would survive better in the enviroment#probably jake to be honest. I mean Harry has a lot of experience inside freddy's but he didnt really live outside it muhc#jake is so confrontational though#hey did you guys watch the hit movie felon? sure that guy wasn't framed but. i feel like jake would end up w that attitude#except for. you know. everything else that happens in the hit movie felon.#hey actually forget about this game go watch the 10/10 movie Felon from 2008 starring Val Kilmer and Stephen Dorff#because its one of my all time fave movies and probably the saddest i've seen#not bc there arent movies that are more tragic but bc no movie was able to break thru my walls of idgaf and make me cry anyway#yeah you thought i couldnt bring up my movie fixations on my different fandom posts well you were WRONG in fact#im gonna go tag my other post i left untagged yesterday bc my ass was Cooking
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apparently i'm already halfway done my musicology degree??
#i wanna talk about me#between the course i did in undergrad and the frankly ridiculous number of courses i'm taking this semester#apparently i'm over halfway done already#i know the musicology portion is a smaller load than the library science portion but like#man it was weird walking into my advisor's office and him looking me in the eye and saying like 'oh you're almost done'#three courses is all i have left for a master's. Man#well i'm gonna spread those out over the next year and a half...and probably pick up an extra elective here or there while i can#cause idk man i like studying music history...even if i don't Have to i like taking the classes and learning#(esp if it's gonna be paid for by my fellowship as long as i'm still here)#well i need to figure out. how the hell to get in touch with a library science advisor now.#i emailed yesterday and haven't heard back#but i don't know what i'm doing for that degree going forward rn#other than. i guess taking 552. but i KNOW there's other specialty and elective courses i'll need to take too#and i want to take stock of what shit i'll have to take in summers too cause i know some of the courses are only offered in summer#(need to find out if any of my fellowship scholarship can go towards summer courses. i'm guessing not...)#weird. it's weird. i don't know what i'm doing here#anyway#meeting with my advisor went okay i at least know what i'm doing now re: the music stuff#didn't cry which is good but man i hate how my voice started to break more and more the longer i was in there#and when i talked about how i put too much on my plate this semester and am struggling to keep up with all the work#and he asked me if i've been reaching out to anyone for support. or if i had people to reach out to#and i just had to sit there like. uh#define. support?#i have a couple friends at least that i chat with about stuff like that sometimes but not always cause i don't want to bother them too much#but like. it's not like i can ask someone else to write a research paper For me#or it's not like i can control when my coworkers get sick and i have to cover their time in the office#and this didn't come up at all (and i'm glad for it) but jeez it's not like i can control global political conflicts!!#it's hard for me to focus on getting enough work done in small chunks of time in the best of times#let alone when my fucking hamster brain is on high alert for getting hate crimed in public if my necklace is too visible or something#idk. it's a lot man. i bit off more than i could chew this semester even before the world fell apart
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tw for unhealthy/disordered eating in the tags
cause I'm a moron
#ooc#oh don't mind me just had the greatest of mornings#the bed frame keeps breaking on my side of the bed#which you know doesn't hurt my already fragile self esteem that I'm a fat whale and it's breaking cause of me#and it's not just an old frame#hubby is looking for new ones but oh I didn't mind crying in the shower while we ran out of hot water#watch me gonna not eat anything this week cause I don't need to my body can go back to eating itself#no big fucking deal#may not be on today we have lots of chores to do#and I have young royals to binge#and more crying to do ok bye#tbd
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writing poetry sometimes feels like you gotta cut yourself open to express it idk smear all your organs all over the page and hope somebody else reads something beautiful. is that like divination the way it's expressed in various places and things? I dunno. poetry never slides off your skin like water off a duck's back. it's from within I think. sometimes you have to tear yourself apart to get at the words and sometimes it just wells up from within and gushes out. always from somewhere deep inside. sometimes it's difficult and horrible and painful but the alternative would be worse. sometimes it's from sheer joy that must overflow into words. I think that's beautiful personally. skin splitting from joy. it happens, I think, to us all at some point. or maybe I'm just a creature of extremes. maybe that online test I did because a friend recommended it is true. it said my symptoms were high. I don't know. maybe it is true, maybe it's not. I read a book once where there was a character named Nathan Hill-and-Dale, and while I'm not nearly as extreme as he was portrayed, in my extremes, I know I'm a fairly volatile person. funny, for most people who see me IRL seem to think that I'm fairly calm. nope, I'm a volcano. watch out, even when I'm apparently calm I might blow up one way or the other. one of my residents' family members said today that I was young and bubbly and she was glad to see it because happiness is the prerogative of the young. a part of me wished I told her. I have actively tried to kill myself once; I have come extremely close to the same actions countless times including yesterday; I would sooner hurt myself than others; if I had my own choice I would simply starve. of course I didn't tell her. sometimes I think I'll never get better. at this point I would consider it a very high chance that I will either die by suicide or end up in hospital following an attempt. not now, of course. but despite my fierce love for my course it has stress associated with it and I think that it's very likely that no psych help on earth would fix my mental health enough for that not to be an option mentally in this short time. I think it's possible to recover from all of the things I struggle with. God help me, I hope it is. the real question is whether I will survive long enough to recover from them. and the answer? I know not. I was reminded of a past interaction with the boy today, where he called my name - I turned - his grandfather, a photographer, was waiting to see if he could get a decent photo, for we were at a church conference and he was trying to get photos everywhere. they were laughing. I could not help but laugh. that memory is tainted now, for he would not look at me now, let alone try to pull such a stunt again. I don't blame him. I don't blame anyone for it. I wonder what would happen if I blocked all my friends on discord; who would seek me out? part of me hopes people would, another part hopes they would not. sometimes I just want to be left alone to curl up and die. it would be easier. so much easier than living, and living, and living. I tried writing poetry just now. it felt like trying to cut myself open, I couldn't get the words out. it only made me feel rather wild. I'm desperate for change, for something. something. what is that something? I don't know. did you know I'm a sadist? I would not in a public place express the thoughts that led me to that conclusion. but I am. I wish I wasn't. there's an obvious solution to that. quick, and easy. so easy. too easy. I tried writing poetry, and then instead of writing anything coherent, I wrote this.
#tw suicide#tw suicidal ideation#tw sh#personal#puddleglum hours#tried writing poetry and the very act of trying made me desperately want to harm. i think i'll break my streak today. all the things have#been so bad today. not so much the individual things as they all stack up together. almost the worst most constant dysphoria ive ever#experienced. coincided with eating new stuff which was scary. weighed myself yesterday on dad's recommendation and found out i *believed*#id gained like more than double what i *did*. feel so disgustingly fat and heavy tho why can't i just stop eating. why is everyone#prolonging my existence. serious question. this includes myself. whats the good. im tired but not. and oh so disgusted with myself.#weak. stupid. failing. only a fool talks like this. oh but don't worry im safe. safe enough anyhow. oh look nothing's real that explains#something. but i am safe. aint me as gonna commit suicide today. don't worry about me. im ignorin my friend who's worried about me bc she#has her own struggles. im not gonna ad to them at this point. selfish enough i am already. ive been choking on disgust all day even through#my jubilation over reaching a fourteen day streak. funny i literally don't care now. gonna break it. unless i'm too coward to do otherwise.#i ought. i ought to do other things too. i don't know how long i can keep on going like this. pray for me.
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paid some bills and now I can't kill myself like I want too
#omg kiera no one cares#i want my money back u bitch#held at gunpoint by my parents to pay something which is what debt collectors should do#like oh your credit i don't even know what mine is i don't care at all#i just barely started making enough for taxes like last year you think i care or know about credit??#tell me you're gonna break my already fragile kneecaps if i don't give you at least 15 dollars
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In my constant brain rotations of “why are people in the west so hard on mecha aside from the fandom can be a bit unfriendly” I think one thing I realized as much as I hate to say is how mecha is sometimes treated remind me of the constant hatred superhero stuff gets.
It’s such a weird comparison because with mecha I do not know what the root of it was-and I’d love to know why but I feel there’s either no clear answer or there is one and it’s stupid-where as for superheroes in the west while there’s still a dedicated community the mainstream audiences have become tired of them due to over-saturation, which I understand, but it’s caused such a massive dismal to the entire genre of it much like mecha.
People think superhero stories can’t have any substance because it’s all about fighting and not about the characters- yet forget the SIGNIFICANT impact they had to so much pop culture. How superhero stories were rooted within comic popularity, how superheroes inspired countless of stories, even so far as reaching japan since so much early anime was taken off of western media which birthed its own genre of superheroes. It’s no different to how mecha help started up the anime industry making it one of the most important genres to japans history, yet most people don’t know it and belittle it.
Yet in superhero story cases it’s even WORSE when people are against it yet then go to see one superhero movie because it’s animated and put it on a pedestal and don’t bother to try other superhero content even though they consumed is no different from the norm. It’s the exact same shit when people watch eva and then think all other mechas don’t compare to it, when the genre always had darker, mature and emotional elements, just only a select few decide to canter to a audience who doesn’t even accept what genre it’s from which makes it all the more frustrating to deal with.
I’m someone who’s hardly into superhero stuff even if some of it catches my eye but it sucks to see that the situation is pretty identical to how mecha is seen, that I can’t help to feel sympathetic whenever I see some comic book fans upset at the mainstream audience even if they too can be a little hostile.
#meg text#to clarify I do agree 100% live action superhero movies especially the MCU got really stale#but that doesn’t mean those movies being stale should single out all superhero content when the stuff before is still GOOD#I was in a server that wasn’t mecha but someone was like “I hate superheroes” yet the discussion was just about a old Justice league cartoo#again- what’s so wrong about the animated ones? when they were from a time pre-saturation and people praise shit like spider verse?#I seriously cant tell if this is also a factor of the ever growing issue of people don’t wanna check out old things despite their importanc#*me awaiting the day someone unironically saids the boys/invincible/spider verse is a deconstruction so I can sigh in pain with actual fans#I hope to god that doesn’t happen but it feels like it’s close to why people already say superhero movies don’t have characters#and maybe that’s true bc I haven’t watched a marvel movie in ages but also I think you more so mean “characters being expanded upon”#because… every story has characters… just some can lack dimension and depth… but their still characters…#oh and it’s funny how it’s always these two that get singled out for focusing on action but shonen gets a pass 😑#action doesn’t equate to less characters!! How do people not realize this?#it’s fine if not your preference but fights can LITERALLY be CHARACTER DRIVEN#a lot of them are in fact because there’s always a purpose to these fights! Even if the meaning is sometimes barebone#also I know there’s gonna be a mecha fan who hates superhero who finds this post#and hate to break it to you but I’m pretty sure the super in super robot came from superhero and just not super powered#especially when a lot of the stuff Nagai made/worked on was him clearly tackling a superhero story from another angle#of course mecha isn’t entirely a superhero genre since we have “reals” but the 70s robots? Oh yeah meant to be superhero’s#and what I said above I think the comparison is warranted because the downplaying is unreal sometimes#will say between the two superhero’s probably have it worse because mecha honestly is more so “im curious but idk more then 5 shows”#because my god I can’t have some conversations irl where this shit doenst get unnecessary heated#had a whole English teacher who wouldn’t stop complaining about superhero movies last semester in college 💀 it’s that bad#that said mecha still suffers from people liking one show and shooting down the other it’s just not as prevalent bc mecha content is low#it’s not dead like others say but it’s mainly been gundam and people now just think gundam is every robot (which is PAINFUL but whatever)#moral of the story is don’t judge a book by it’s cover especially when that book is actually really important to fucking pop culture
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guysssss Crimson Rivers…!!!
srsly has been on my reading list for so long and i finally started to read it a couple hours ago and OH MY GOD. i’m about to start like chapter 5 or sum and WOWIEEEEE. so fuckin intense and so fuckin gay i love it.
also, idk how i went this whole time not knowing it was a hunger games au. like!? am i just that good at avoiding spoilers or am i just dumb as shit?
TOTALLY RECONMEND IF YOU HAVENT READ IT!!
this fic is gonna get me so deep into the jegulous fandom, i’ve never read anything centred around them before. especially nothing reggie centred. i love my angry baby with all my heart now.
#crimson rivers#jay talks#OH MY GOD ITS A MASTERPIECE#jegulus#spoilers lie ahead:#IM SO INTRUEGED BY REMUS FOR ONE!#sirius having to deal with that just totally breaks my heart. i mean i know they all live in the end but STILL the TORMENT#james knowing he’s gonna die for reggie before he even falls in love with him?!#owh my god my heart#i’m already preparing for the emotional wreckoning this fic is going to cause ke#especially when reg is faced with having to kill james because. welp. james will hesitate#AHHHHHHHHH#it burns me#read it
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You know what freaks me out a little? Being Bakugou or Izuku's "one and only" BUT we are a previous ex (on peaceful partings) of one of their friends or each other. I don't even know what to do with that like Kirishima would prolly be cool with it but everything else makes my mind spin Xd
OH GOD... so much here to unpack, I don't even know where to begin (and hopefully you don't mind me exploring this)!!!
What does peaceful partings even mean in this case? Sure things might be mutual, but that doesn't give us the reason... and I feel like there's a huge difference in results if, when you broke up... they still loved you and just couldn't focus on your relationship, or you both just fell out of love (yowch!).
In the latter situation, I think things would be rough at first... but would start getting better at a very steady pace. With no hard feelings between you, and both Deku and Bakugo being somewhat reasonable people when everything makes sense... the only thing you'd all really struggle with is... the awkwardness of being face to face with each other while being on the other's arm.
Once that barrier is toppled, however, they're pretty happy for you (if not just a little bitter that you couldn't make it work. All internal though).
In the former case, though (which I almost think is more likely)... jeez.
Depends on some different factors obvs, but... I think it would definitely take a much longer time for things to go back to normal, and esp. if it was going from Bakugo to Deku or vice versa, vs. Kiri, who would probably hide his brokenhearted-ness extremely well (for your sake and his friend's.)
However it goes, Bakugo OR Deku, whether they OR you leave first because of their focus being elsewhere... it's never really about not being compatible, you know? It's just about timing... so I feel like seeing you w/ the other one isn't only hurtful because they themselves want you back... but because they're so close in both relationship and hero rankings... that it's almost as though their bro-code is violated.
And that's not something you can get over with just a quick chat. Truly, mind spinning is the LEAST of it.
Anyway, I think Bakugo seeing you with Deku would end up sparking his inferiority complex again... and Deku seeing you w/ Bakugo might be what finally severs the relationship past an irreparable point (and either way... your feelings regarding the whole thing are pushed to the back burner for a bit, no matter how much they love you). They'll always be allies... but maybe never again friends, and if they do reconnect, it's YEARS later, once all is said and done.
I think what's kind of interesting, though... is maybe going from Deku or Bakugo... to Kirishima or even Todoroki. Like, the two former boys spend so much time trying to prove themselves to the world (in an attempt to make it better for you)... that they just end up pushing you away.
It's not like they really think that Kiri or Todo are lesser men... but it IS odd to them since it becomes clear that you chose kindness and understanding over... waiting for either Baku or Deku to succeed in their goals. You never cared whether they were the strongest or not (they already were), just about how much they were willing to sacrifice for you. And Kiri, Todoroki, Shinso, WHOEVER, just happened to give you more.
#bakugo#deku#god sorry i got so into this#i wasnt sure how much i was supposed to put and then it was already written LOL#but anyway#just the other day actually i was thinking about bakugo begging you to wait for him#and i thought something like 'oh well he can ask but it doesn't mean he's promised forever'#and i think that's a lot of this#deku or bakugo breaking up w/ u thinking that you'll wait#and you do wait. and you do want them back. but ur not gonna like. sabotage your own happiness#when someone like kiri or todoroki offers it to you#or even bakugo offers it to you when deku becomes number one#or deku when bakugo lets work consume him#blah blah blah#but anyway they finally reach their goal and dont realize how late they really are#like ur already over them and committed to someone else#even if they tried to beg its too late#and given how they feel abt one another.... if it WAS the other....... devastating#like 'when did that happen? didn't they know they were... mine? waiting for me?'#sorry it aint work like that !!!!!!!!#mmmm i love this flavor#anyway i shut up now hope this was alright!#ask#anon#caitie things#bakugo thoughts#deku thoughts
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#GAH hate not knowing how ppl feel about me#bc i used to be SUPER close friends w this person like they were ~25% of th reason i came back to my uni town after moving away last summer#and i keep texting them like ' hey we should meet up sometime! ' and they respond ' omg YES 100% i have SO much i need to catch you up on !#unfortunately i am out of town every single day. also so busy. '#and like yeah okay college very busy life very crazy. but how are you out of town every single day and also why have you NEVER reached out#and i saw them in person at target and they seemed genuinely pleased to see me! and also said something like#' we gotta hang out i have so much to tell you!! *ill* message *you* ' in a way that seemed to convey guilt at ^^ all that#but then how in the WORLD do you happen to be driving out of town immediately after the one event i know we'll both be going to???#and also casually gracing over the fact i also mentioned getting dinner beforehand??#also i dont know any reason they wouldnt like me unless its one of those ' im autistic and didnt notice you getting fed up w me '#or if theyre just actually that busy or too anxious to see people or anxious to reach out or fucking whatever#and like even when i saw them at target they told me a bunch of stuff that i dont tthink youd say to a random acquaintance#which if they do still like me makes sense! bc we were super duper close once! but doesnt make sense if they dislike me/want me to go away#like UGH just either ask me to hang out or say yes to a hang out or tell me to fuck off already!!!!#oh and ALSO the one time we DID have plans we didnt set an exact time but they texted me at like 11 and said ok we can hang out now until 2#or they texted me at 11 and said ' i work at 2 but i dont think thats gonna be a problem also are you okay w hanging w my roomies too '#and i know their roomies so thats fine but i was like ??? WHAT shouldnt be an issue? r you gonna call off to hang out for more than 3 hrs?#or are you gonna friend break up w me so it wont take 3 hours#anyway i was like uhhh shit we didnt set a time so im actually at a tattoo place like an hour away w my roomie?#so we rescheduled for the next day when uh oh they hung out w someone who was exposed to covid so had to cancel again!#i cant think of a single reason they wouldnt like me except that they never did but we had an activity together so they were stuck w me#and they seemed genuinely happy to see me and also seem upset declining plans but like if thats true what the FUCK is happening????#anyway this was a mile long if you e read this far i love u if you have tips feel free to reply or dm me
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ok I mean nat's hypnotism is fucking terrifying actually like I don't blame zeke for getting freaked out by it lmao. just even the concept of it. like. nat is v sweet and nice with it with his friends but when he's using it for Nefarious Purposes I'm just kinda :)))))) yikes, man????
#like yeah zeke bro i get it#i do#quinn is also often subject to friendly nat hypnotism but quinn is unfazed because quinn is. quinn#i think quinn wants nat to do More Interesting Stuff with them under hypnosis while nat is just like :(((((((#but YEAH lmao. like. imagine ur a bastard. then this guy (????) just super sneaky pricks you with one of his claws (???!?!?!) then#the next thing u know ur outside in some secluded area n ur like what. n u have Bad Vibes so you try to bolt then this guy is like#no dont do that can you come over here and let me kill you? :3#and part of you is like ''dude no?? wtf??'' but oh ok ur body is already moving and now he is EXTREMELY close n ur like#nope do not want and you are panicking even though your fingernails are also scratching frantically at#your own neck trying to break the skin because Your Blood Wants To Be Out :)#like??? this guy wants to suck out all ur blood like ur a human juice box and your blood is FIRMLY on his side about this#n he's all up in your brain but he's kinda lazy with it bc ur comfort is not really his priority so he's really only manipulating you#enough to make you Not Run and just. regardless of ur own personal FEELINGS about the fact that your blood#needs to get out of your body and into his stomach. you are more frantic to make that happen than you are to not make that happen#and then you are dead :)#but i cannot emphasise enough that in this scenario you are a deeply unpleasant person#and nat is a sweet boy who has done no wrong in his life ever and just wants a little snack#c'moooon you're not gonna deny this poor sad little vampire a little snack are you :((( you monster :(((#but yeah anyway i just wrote a lil bit of Evil Nat Manipulation Time n he's very nonchalant abt it but as a reader and a writer#its just like#hey??? hey dude???? that's fucking horrifying jesus christ???#bruh????#Your Blood Wants To Listen To Him! Your Blood Yearns To Be Free! It Has Better Things To Do!! Release Your Delicious Blood Pls#you are fully abt to get murdered and your own blood is just absolutely rooting for the murderer which is very funny as a concept but#probably horrifying to experience#even ur brain which is like No Thank You!!!!!! also just has this horrible compelling ITCH in it that. just kinda makes you wanna :)#but yeah i lied earlier when i said nat doesnt use hypnotism for much. of course he fucking does lmao he's a lazy bitch and we love#him for that. bars are crowded. its not feasible to lure every creepy human piece of garbage out with ur wits and charm if you want to#eat them especially if you have no wits and charm and you are in fact a weird little gremlin of a man who unsettles people#just a quick little pinprick with a bloodied claw to get some garble all up in their veins n no one will notice!
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The fact Song Taewon apparently takes the time to collect useful monster parts and then carries them around to use in later fights is pretty neat, actually.
#reading sctir mtl i don't know what's happening#it dawns on me this is because he can't afford fucking WEAPONS suitable for his GRADE#he wants a weapon that won't break on an s-class he has to forage for it himself apparently#-oh no and his knife broke!#how's he gonna replace that!#(now I'm imagining him fretting over budgeting for a new knife while deliberately ignoring the gigantic knife bouquet shj sent him that#nearly took out 10 different delivery persons)#(the punishment paperwork is already underway)
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okay i was really going to try to keep the positive vibes but i have so much to say
#so i’m just gonna do it here in tags because it’s driving me insane#so many of the people saying they’re disappointed are like dynamite era onwards armys#being like oh we wanted to experience a real full kpop album comeback etc etc#like first of all even before y’all found them tannies were already not a typical kpop group#second of all??? a whole be album happened???#i know it was only 7 songs and a skit (and one of those songs was dynamite)#but like that was a full album comeback? and it was recent.#third of all like if you’re here (an army) for the ‘whole kpop experience’ then i’m sorry to break it to you bestie#but you’re in the wrong place. bts surpassed the genre of kpop years ago#i’m not even a bts popper i’m just telling you guys as it is bts are one of the world’s biggest artists.#not the world’s biggest kpop artists- the biggest artists period.#they abandoned the formula starting with dynamite and i don’t see them going back to it why would they?????? everything since dynamite#has only brought them more recognition and prestige so like??? what reason would they have to go backwards#okay fourth and last of all. i’m not trying to say that you’re not allowed to be disappointed or you’re not allowed to feel your feelings#if you feel that way then you feel that way#i’m just confused at the expectations y’all place on them#like if bts is the only ‘kpop’ group you’re into then how do you know what a ‘real comeback’ even looks like in this day and age????#anyways. i’ll stop ranting now none of this is coherent i just needed a place to get it off my chest and i’m not putting this shit in my#journal lol#.txt#negativity ish
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