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Good Intentions Part Twelve

It's time for your next payment, but no one seems to be in a good mood.

Rating: Mature, lemon, etc. Minors DNI!

Word Count: 5,000 words

Warnings: mentions of sex as terms of a bet, minor arguments, descriptions of poverty in the Undercity, unprotected piv sex, anal fingering.

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“Hey, can you take a look- Oh,” Arunn stopped short just inside the entrance of the Haven. “Are you going somewhere?”

You were, in fact. It was time to make another payment and you were already halfway through the door. There was no way to say no without giving an obvious lie, so you nodded. “I have an errand I need to run.”

“Today?” Arunn pressed, eyebrows arching sharply.

He had a point - the Haven was incredibly busy. Shockingly, the influx of work to be done was not due to a flood of Undercity residents desperate for release from Shimmer’s grip. Instead, it was because the Haven had become a make-shift community center. You had been helping people with job applications all day.

Jazper and his business contacts were preparing to open various establishments, and opening dates were drawing ever-closer. They had promised to employ as many Undercity residents as possible. Despite their doubts - ones you had admittedly shared - the people of Piltover’s Undercity were flocking to fill the positions. Maybe it was just from the novelty of being part of something new, but you sheltered a private hope that your work had left at least a few people free of their Shimmer addiction and ready to work toward a better future.

Either way, the Haven was full of hopeful job applicants who wanted to hone their application or interview skills, you still had Shimmer addicts to help, and your staff were all feeling overwhelmed. Leaving then made you feel like an absolute monster, but there was nothing else you could do. If your last meeting had proven anything, it was that Silco would not accept a postponement.

Still, you could hear the guilt heavy in your own voice as you said, "I'm really sorry, but… well, I can't put this off any longer. But it shouldn't take long. Not if I can help it."

Arunn's brows lifted even higher at your muttered addition. "Is everything okay? Do you need someone to go with you?"

"No," you refused hurriedly. And then you winced again. You needed to emphasize the importance of you leaving, but not worry him enough that he might follow you. It was a difficult line to straddle, and you seemed to be failing miserably.

So you forced a smile and a small laugh. "Just a meeting with one of the Haven's sponsors. They're a little intimidating, but nothing I can't handle."

"Are you sure?" Arunn asked dubiously. "Sounds like you could use some backup."

"Honestly?" You made a show of glancing around, ending with a pointed look at the stack of resumés in Arunn's hand. "I think the biggest help is if you could keep things under control until I get back."

He looked only slightly more convinced by your reassurance, so you kept going, shifting tactics to teasing. "Or do you want to go because you need some time away from the Haven? Tell you what: if you cover for me today, I'll make sure you have a chance to escape the prison for a while."

Your chuckling fell into a silence that had grown uncomfortable. Arunn was watching you with something like offense on his face. “I love the Haven. I understand how important this work is because I’ve been someone who needed that help. This place saved my life, and I would never call it a prison.”

“Arunn,” you faltered. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to imply that-”

“You better get to your meeting,” Arunn told you, already turning away from you. “I’ll make sure everything is okay here.”

Arguments sprang to your lips, but you caught sight of the clock as you moved to follow him. You really were running late, and missing your meeting would only mean that you would have to set aside another time to make your payment to Silco. So you left the Haven, guilt twisting uncomfortably in the pit of your stomach.

Even with the half-argument you’d had with Arunn, you were still distinctly worried that he was going to follow you out of concern for your well-being. So you took a more convoluted path to the Last Drop, quickening your pace in a bid to keep your travel time minimal.

Your sense of direction was good and you knew you would eventually end up at the Last Drop, but your journey took you through some unfamiliar sections of the Undercity. At one point, you passed into a section of the city where the air was so rancid that the buildings had bricked up their windows. Fortunately, there was an air station nearby where you could stand for a few blessed minutes, hacking and coughing until your lungs recovered enough to move on.

The steep incline of the road - little more than an alleyway between the windowless buildings - brought you to comparatively fresh air and a small square at the junction of several crooked streets. The middle of it was dominated by a large statue, one totally unfamiliar to you.

Despite the rush you were in, you paused to study it. The statue was of a large man with kind eyes. Rubble and metal streamed backward from the place where he stood, seemingly forced out of place by the large gauntlets that had been carelessly tossed to his feet. The man was dressed in what passed for casual clothing in the Undercity, plenty of belts and pockets in which to hang or store weapons or money so they couldn’t be stolen easily. His hands were bare, though, cradling a pipe that boasted glowing ‘tobacco’.

Vander, the Hound of the Underground and Hero of the Lanes, a small sign proclaimed in neat lettering.

With a name to put to the face, you glanced up at Vander once more. You had never heard of him, despite having worked in the Undercity for as long as you had. Still, you couldn’t help thinking that Vander looked like he had been an honorable man. He must have been, if the poverty-stricken residents of the Undercity had loved him well enough to dedicate the funds for a statue. The only person you knew offhand with enough money for that was Silco, and he seemed unlikely to put up a statue of anyone but himself.

A few children ran past, startling you out of your reverie. The next moment, you had started moving once more. You were still late and you had already spent too much time away from the Haven.

When you arrived at the Last Drop, it was still empty. Clubs usually were in the early afternoon. The only one there to greet you was Sevika, lounging in a booth with a glass of amber liquid in her hand.

“Took you long enough.” She jerked her chin toward the staircase. “He’s waiting.”

You nodded, not bothering to offer an excuse as you turned for the staircase. The perfunctory knock you offered at Silco’s door was left unanswered for a few moments; unusual for Silco. Still, he called for you to enter and you obeyed.

When you stepped inside, he was seated in the throne-like chair behind his desk. He made no move to turn around or look at you and you frowned. Silco liked his power plays, but they were usually more about making you wait while he finished scrawling instructions on the papers that littered his desk or giving orders to Sevika. This was new.

“Silco?” you asked. “Is this a bad time?”

The moment you asked it, you cringed. Even if it was a bad time for him, it was the only time you had.

“Come here,” he said, shutting the question down entirely without an answer.

You were hesitant as you crossed the open space in front of Silco’s desk. Did you think he was going to do something dangerous or violent? Not necessarily, but you had never seen him in a mood like this, either. But you found yourself standing beside his chair without anything bad happening, and your pulse slowed slightly.

Silco was relaxing in his chair. At least, that’s what you assumed he was doing. His posture was a touch less upright than normal, his head actually touching the headrest. It was a minor change, but still out of character for him.

Before you could figure out the best way to ask what he was doing, he gestured to the window. “Look at her.”

Obligingly, you looked, though you weren’t sure exactly which ‘her’ he was talking about. The day was surprisingly clear for the Undercity. You couldn’t see much of the buildings nearby, so you assumed he couldn’t. The sky overhead was a glum-looking gray, but it was paler than it typically was. Overall, none of it was overly impressive, so you carefully asked, “The sky?”

“Zaun.”

And the soft awe in his voice abruptly made sense. Silco was a practical man, too focused on reality to spare time for lofty ideals. But there was one area in which he could rival the most fanatical council member of the City of Progress: his zeal for the Nation of Zaun.

Fortunately, you were spared the effort of inventing an answer by Silco's continued reverie.

"She is changing. That sky was as dark in day as at night only a few short years ago." One corner of his mouth lifted. "How far we have come."

You frowned. The sky was still dingy and filled with soot on a good day, but Silco was acting as if the battle had been won.

“How far we have left to go,” you corrected, wavering when Silco finally looked your way. You gathered yourself enough to insist, “On the way here, I saw a half-dozen homeless citizens of Zaun. I passed through a stretch of air so rancid that the air station was almost at capacity. I understand that the sky is lighter and that’s good, but as long as Piltover continues to profit from the pollution produced to power their half of the city, we haven’t come nearly far enough.”

Your impassioned speech ended, leaving the office in silence. Silco seemed to be considering your words, which was more than you had hoped for. You wouldn’t have been shocked if he had killed you on the spot.

“You are correct,” he agreed eventually. “And I assure you that I have no intention of halting Zaun’s forward progress.”

“I would expect nothing less,” you told him, a smile tugging at your mouth despite yourself.

Silco tilted his head back, watching you from under heavy lids. “Perhaps it should not be a surprise. You yourself have caused some change in Zaun.”

That made you pull up short. “I- What?”

“Shimmer usage has started to drop,” he informed you. “The effects are most noticeable in the district immediately around the Haven, but there are impacts across the city.”

“Are you sure?” you asked, heart pounding so hard in your throat that your voice wavered slightly. “I would think it’s temporary at most. Maybe more people overdosed than usual and no one has taken their place yet.”

“Are you questioning how I monitor my business efforts?” Silco asked, waiting until you shook your head before he added, “I am certain.”

For the second time since you had entered his office, you thought there was a real chance that Silco would kill you. After all, he seemed certain that you had disrupted his drug sales. Nothing you had ever heard about Silco suggested that he would take that lightly. But Silco didn’t make any move toward murder, eyes turning back to the window as his head tipped back to rest on the seat once more.

You let out a shaking breath. Asking too many questions seemed like a good way to end up with a slit throat, but you had to push your luck if you wanted to move on. “What does that mean for us?”

Internally, you cringed at the way you had phrased that. You weren’t in a relationship with him, you had a semi-coerced business deal with a strong dash of blackmail. So why had you sounded like a teenager terrified that she and her boyfriend were breaking up?

Thankfully, Silco didn’t comment on it, though his lips curled once more. “Our deal will continue as it always has. If my Shimmer is not enough to compete with the efforts of a small philanthropic outreach, it is my fault, not yours. More immediately, it means that I am ready to accept your payment when you are ready to offer it.”

“I’m ready now.” Your small shrug was wasted on Silco, who seemed utterly fixated on the sky beyond the panes of his window.

“Good,” he said simply. “Disrobe.”

That was abrupt, but you did as he instructed. This was a strange meeting, and you didn’t want to be the reason it got any stranger. And yet… perhaps it was conceited, but you were a little taken aback when Silco didn’t watch you undress. Normally, he paid close enough attention that you could feel his eyes on you. That day, he just kept staring through the window.

You stood awkwardly when you were bare. Silco didn’t move and you were starting to feel flustered by his lack of attention. But then, you had offered to return on a different day and he had refused.

“...Where do you want me?”

Silco inclined his head. “Look out of the window.”

Your nerves were singing, urging you to peek carefully around the corner, but you knew what Silco wanted. So you turned, presenting him with your bare back as you faced the intricate panes of his window.

In your heightened awareness, sensations beat at you, each one demanding your attention. The ledge that lined the bottom of the window pressed into your thighs. You could feel the warmth of the weak sunlight as it emanated into the shadowed coolness of Silco’s office. The solidity of the wall beside the window met your hand as you reached to steady yourself. You could feel when Silco stood, sense when he moved closer. When he finally touched you, it was as if something under your skin rose to meet his fingertips, eagerly closing the distance between you.

Silco’s palm flattened between your shoulder blades, resting for a moment before he trailed his fingertips down your spine. The touch was slow, deliberately mapping all of the spots where you were the weakest for him. You found yourself widening your stance as he reached your tailbone.

Rather than continuing further down and to the places where you were starting to get uncomfortably warm for him, Silco stepped forward and pressed himself against the rounded softness of your ass. He was still buttoned into his trousers, but you could feel him straining behind the layers of cloth.

“Lean forward,” he instructed.

You did, one hand braced against the wall to keep yourself mostly upright while the other pressed against the glass. It was an awkward position, leaving you bent at the hips and leaning toward the glass in order to accommodate the space claimed by the bottom ledge of the window.

Of course, your appreciation for the position skyrocketed as Silco’s fingers danced their way up your inner thighs while he ground himself against the rapidly swelling lips of your sex. Those fingers traveled up and in, dipping into the heat of you before darting away once more.

“Are you ready for me?” he asked, his voice gravelly.

“Yes,” you confirmed. Your voice wasn’t gravelly in the slightest. In fact, it was nearly a squeak.

He pulled away from you, only far enough to free himself from the confines of his trousers. Even then, he stayed close enough that his knuckles brushed your ass as he unbuttoned the fastenings at his hips.

You were dancing in place, swaying back and forth even as you were keenly aware of how you were positioned for him. Your splayed posture was something you probably should have objected to, especially since it wasn’t the most comfortable, but all you could focus on was how intensely eager you were to feel him inside of you.

When Silco pressed against you once more, he had placed the tip of himself against your entrance. One of his hands was locked around your hip, holding you in place with a grip of iron. The other drifted to the apex of your thighs, parting your folds to tease at your clit. You let out a moan, trying and failing to buck against his hand. His hold on you was too firm for you to have any wiggle room.

Instead, you were pinned in place, hovering between the bookends of his hands and your own as he speared deep inside of you. His touches, minimal as they were, had brought an intense reaction from your body, which welcomed him inside with a flood of wetness.

You gaped, seeing the ghostly reflection of yourself in the glass panes of the window as you adjusted to the stretch. It seemed to be just as overwhelming for Silco, if you were to judge by the hiss he released as he buried himself deep. He was only a pale smudge in the reflection of the room provided by the window, too faint to make out any details, but the sound of his pleasure seemed to curl around you. You were surrounded by the soft static of an overwhelmed Silco. It was one of your favorite noises, and you eagerly pressed back against him.

Silco tensed briefly, then began to withdraw. Given the strangeness of his mood that day, you weren’t sure whether he was going to start fucking you in earnest or leave altogether.

“Hold on,” he warned, and that gave you all the answer you needed.

You had exactly enough time to adjust your handholds into a bracing grip before Silco started to methodically take you apart.

His pace never increased into something you would call ‘frantic’, but it was steady and firm. Each press forward left your hand pressing heavily against the window while each withdrawal pulled you away until you nearly lost contact with the glass entirely. You weren’t passively accepting him, either. The small movements of your body took on a rhythm that matched his: hips shifting forward and back in a perfect counterpart to his thrusts. You could only hope it was impacting him as strongly as it was you, or you would be in trouble.

Silco’s length pushed a little deeper on his next stroke, leaving you gasping as you clenched around him. He withdrew without missing the rhythm he had set, but you pushed back harder against him the next time he delved into you. As a result, he slammed into you instead of continuing the almost gentle glide he had kept up to that point.

You made a small noise, a mewling appreciation for the sensations that filled you and Silco broke his silence once more. “Do that again.”

Finally, a command you were eager to follow. When Silco withdrew and thrust back into you, your counterthrust left him spearing so deeply that you both let out matching gasps as your muscles locked down and pulsed around him.

“Finished already?” he asked.

You shook your head slowly. “No, that wasn’t… I’m not sure what it was, but I haven’t come yet.”

“A state we will rectify in due time,” Silco assured you - not that it had ever been in doubt. “For now, let’s continue.”

And that was all the warning you got before he picked up the thread of his previous pace, though you were now participating just as actively as he was.

The glass of Silco’s window seemed to be getting cooler against your palm, but the more likely explanation was that you were getting overheated with your rapidly approaching orgasm. Your breaths were growing louder, both from exertion and anticipation, and Silco was wringing little noises from you constantly.

“Sil- angh - Silco, I’m close,” you panted out, voice heavy with tension.

“Hmm…” he drawled, only a little unsteady. “Let’s see if we can’t push you over the edge.”

Silco pulled away the hand he had been using to tease your clit - a hand you had unknowingly started using as a support. Without it there, your body collapsed forward against the shallow windowsill. For a wild moment, you wondered if he had decided to kill you for the Shimmer decrease and would shove you though the window, but doing so with a terrible pun wasn’t really his style. Both of your hands pressed against the glass as you caught yourself, barely managing to prevent a face-first collision.

Meanwhile, Silco was putting his newly freed hand to good use. He levered your leg up until it was supported by the edge of the window frame, leaving you open for him. The shift in angle made your body tense up and you gasped out half a warning before you were drowning in the pleasure that was trying to sweep you away.

It was difficult to hold yourself up with arms that wanted nothing more than to go limp, but you didn’t think Silco would stop if you concussed yourself on his window. No, his own pleasure was his highest priority. You managed to support yourself with numb limbs while the feeling of Silco working inside of you pushed you higher and higher. You couldn’t even see through the window anymore, though you couldn’t be sure whether you were blind with pleasure or it was fogged by the heat pouring from you and Silco.

When the pulsing of your muscles slowed - or, more accurately, slowed as much as your body seemed to be capable of while still being tormented by Silco - you were impressed to find that your leg was still on the window. Your core was still exposed to Silco, and you were almost embarrassed to realize that he had watched your orgasm tear through you. Interesting - you would have thought you were beyond shyness by then.

Silco, however, didn’t seem to be lost in anything other than your current activities. You felt a finger brush just below the place where you were stretched around him, then it was gone again. His steady thrusts kept you from focusing too heavily on that, but it all made abrupt sense when that finger reappeared, pressing firmly against your rear entrance.

Your mouth opened, but whatever you were going to say disappeared, washed away by the deep moan you gave as your body let him in. That lubricated finger sank deep even as he kept fucking into you. In the back of your mind, you were grateful for your recent orgasm. Doubtless, it was the reason he had entered you so easily. The forefront of your mind was occupied by how incredible it felt.

“Good girl,” he murmured from somewhere just behind your ear. “Letting me in so easily. How does it feel?”

“It- it feels… ooohhhhh…” Your nonsensical explanation seemed to please Silco immensely, since the slight pumping of his finger increased in speed.

“I’m close,” he reported. “Do you have one more for me?”

“I’m not sure,” you told him honestly. “Maybe.”

Silco seemed to take that as a challenge. The pace of his hips picked up, as did the occasional thrusts of his finger. You writhed at the alternating sensations, but Silco was nearing his peak faster than you were doing the same.

“Tou- touch yourself for me,” he ordered, the slight waver in his voice not detracting from his steely tone.

You complied, your fingertips finding and rubbing at your clit despite the awkwardness of the angle. The hand on your waist tightened as Silco’s thrusts stuttered once- twice-

He pulled out of you, spilling on the floor with a low and passionate growl. You had been right - you weren’t quite able to hit a second orgasm, but Silco’s dual withdrawal from you set off an aftershock so strong that you nearly considered it the same thing.

You recovered quickly and started to feel embarrassed about the way you were sprawled across the shallow windowsill, baring your most private parts to the office. You pushed yourself up on arms that trembled beneath you… especially since you still only had one foot on the floor of the office.

A gentle touch eased your leg down from the sill, catching it before your tired muscles slammed your foot against the cool wood of the floor. When you looked, Silco - leaning heavily against the wall - was watching you with an expression of mingled concern and pride. “Do you believe you will recover?”

“Eventually,” you admitted. “And you?”

“I am unsure,” he said, dropping heavily into his chair. His trousers were still unbuttoned, pale skin flashing between the panels. It should have given him an air of ridiculousness, but instead, he looked utterly satiated. “But it was well worth it.”

The office was quiet as you both caught your breath and you began to dress. Silco tossed his handkerchief over the mess on the floor as you swiped at the smudges your hands had left on his window.

“Two weeks,” you said, mostly in a bid to break that silence. It was starting to feel uncomfortably heavy. “Any certain time?”

“I was uncertain whether we should bother setting a time,” Silco said coolly. “You seemed to thoroughly disregard our schedule for this week.”

You winced. While you didn’t like the idea of being answerable to Silco, you did feel like he deserved some kind of explanation. “I ran into a slight problem in leaving the Haven. It won’t happen again.”

“Problem?” he asked, pausing in the process of straightening his tie. You nodded, focusing your attention on the shoes you were putting back on. Silco didn’t seem willing to let the remark go unexplained. “If there is a problem with the Haven’s security, I must know about it as soon as possible so I can take action-”

“No, nothing like that,” you interrupted. “I just had a minor situation with Arunn.”

“Arunn,” Silco repeated slowly, amusement on his face. “The ex-Shimmer addict you rescued from the streets? Yes, and how is your charity case turned assistant?”

A dozen replies fought to leave you, all varying degrees of bitter that would get you varying degrees of murdered. So you held them back and settled for, “Angry with me, thanks for asking.”

“And he tried to prevent you from leaving?” Silco asked.

“No, he- well, I was worried he would follow me,” you explained. Silco’s expression turned thoughtful, which instantly sent terror running up your spine. “But nothing to worry about. Like I said, it won’t happen again. I’ll figure out some way to handle things until we go back to meeting on a monthly basis instead of every two weeks.”

The air seemed to thicken in the room, as if you had dropped some kind of bombshell on Silco with that. Even the slight effort of focusing on your clothes was almost more than you could manage when you could feel Silco’s mismatched gaze burning into you.

“Is our bargain such a bad one?” he asked eventually. The question - deceptively soft and pleasant - made your nerves scream with tension.

“No, but-” Your heart gave a painful thump when you realized you really didn’t think it was a bad deal. “But I can’t be seen in public with you, or even coming to the Last Drop. It’s tricky to make payments.”

Silco nodded, slow and thoughtful, but didn’t say anything. You really didn’t want him to have too much time to think, so you took a step closer. “Can I ask you something?”

“I believe you just did,” he said. “But yes, you may?”

“Do you- Well, have you found out who attacked the Haven?” you asked, nervously twisting your fingers together.

“Yes, I have.” Silco’s face was impassive, though the skin around his lips had tightened almost imperceptibly. “The attack was ordered by a chem baron named Errul.”

“Errul,” you mused slowly. The chem barons were reasonably well-known to the people of the Undercity, mostly because their wealth was vast compared to the average resident. “Isn’t he supposed to be really lazy and kind of… friendly?”

“A front,” Silco told you. “A disappointingly successful one. In truth, Errul is one of the most ambitious and vindictive Barons in Zaun. Myself included.”

You nodded, but were at a loss as to how to continue the conversation. You didn’t necessarily want to ask Silco to kill Errul, but he had attacked the Haven and that had been the plan… Would it make you complicit to ask for some kind of a timeline?

Fortunately, Silco continued his explanation without waiting for a response from you. “He went into hiding as soon as the attack was completed. When he resurfaces, I’ll kill him.”

“I would like to know when that happens,” you decided, choosing practicality over sentimentality. No, you didn’t want to be directly responsible for ending a man’s life, but it would be nice to know when you could expect to lose the security guards who roamed the Haven.

One side of Silco’s mouth lifted, but the smirk came nowhere close to reaching his eyes. “Rest assured, my little philanthropist: when the Haven is safe, you’ll be the first to know.”

You nodded, filled with a sense of relief and a hint of inexplicable disappointment. “So, two weeks?”

“Two weeks,” he confirmed with a nod. When you moved to the door of the office, Silco kept pace at your side, as if he were escorting you. “Continue the efforts at your outreach. If nothing else, I relish a challenge.”

You studied him, eyes traveling between foamy green and fiery orange without finding anything concrete in either. So you simply nodded and turned to leave.

In the moment when you closed the door behind yourself, you heard Silco mutter to himself. It was almost inaudible with the noise of the Last Drop waking for the evening and the barrier between you, but it sounded suspiciously like, “I’ve always had a soft spot for revolutionaries.”

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Author's Note - Silco in a bad mood that isn't just him being straight-up pissy? I'd be worried, too! Especially if my hard work with Shimmer addicts was finally starting to pay off... Thanks for reading!

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masonshmason · 5 months

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Pretty sure I'm going to be homeless right after college and there's nothing I can fucking do about it.

Under the cut: poverty, panic, anxiety, corporate BS

I work at the university library and I get less than 20 hours a week. My disabled mom lives with me. We're both fighting tooth and nail to get better jobs, but I swear to fuck both of us have been applying to every single job opening we can, stuff that we've both done in the past, have a fuckton of experience, etc etc but the most we get is the interview stage and suddenly we don't meet the "requirements" even though they're right fucking there in our resumes. "Not a good fit". "Pursuing other candidates at this time."

Over.

And over.

And fucking over again.

We can't make rent. I can't take out any more student loans because I'm a senior. I likely won't have enough financial aid to cover December and January rent. Our apartment isn't renewing our lease after May. We don't make nearly enough to save up for furniture and deposits and application fees for a new place. I don't even know how long it's going to take for me to find a full time job.

I am so tired. And stressed. And I want to scream.

I have no idea what to do and I'm too exhausted to fill out a thousand fucking forms that don't even guarantee that we'll get help.

I can't even have a Snacksgiving because the people who run SNAP in my state fucked around with our benefits and even though I turned shit in two weeks ago it wasn't until I got on the phone with someone and sat with them for 30 minutes so we can buy food this coming Tuesday. Since they're closed for Thanksgiving. I'm glad they get to eat a Thanksgiving dinner at least.

I am so. Fucking. Tired.

#mason rants #cw: poverty #cw: mental health #cw: catastrophizing

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nordic-language-love · 1 year

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wow you're so cool! how do you keep up with (what i assume are all side hobbies on top of probably a regular job) all of the things you do in your logs, especially with adhd? I struggle a lot with executive dysfunction and would love any new tips! Also, moving to Japan, what prompted you to move and how?? Thanks in advance for answering, and also so cool!!!

Hahaha thanks for thinking I'm cool 😅 Well, I'm a part-time performing artist and aerial/pole dance instructor, so I'm always at the studio for teaching on Thursdays and Sundays if nothing else, and I'll typically train a bit before teaching and do some kind of stretching as part of my warm-up. Sometimes I go in on other days too because I'll need to cover classes or because I'll book on to classes. Having a commitment like a booked class definitely helps with motivation!

As for languages: a lot of the activities I do require minimal executive function (e.g. reviewing vocabulary on Anki, playing on an app, reading a fun little science article in Norwegian etc) and I often do them when I lack executive function elsewhere (e.g. when I've driven somewhere and I'm struggling to transition from being in my car to getting out of my car). So it's not really hard to do them even with executive dysfunction. I also try to squeeze in listening as a form of multitasking (listening to Japanese music or Norwegian radio while I'm driving/doing housework etc). And sometimes I hyperfocus! So I might study a language all day and not realise I've done it.

Sometimes having a strict schedule really works for me, so I might plan my day down to the minute. Other times it's too restrictive and I just kinda do what I want. At this point I've learned to embrace the bouncy brain and follow where my interests take me.

I've also learned to accept I might need to lower my expectations of myself just to get me started. A 1-hour exercise session seems daunting. 5 minutes "just moving" is a lot more manageable (and will very likely turn into a 1-hour session). I do this with housework too: rather than saying "I'm gonna unload the dishwasher now" I'll be like "I'm gonna take ONE thing out of the dishwasher and put it away". Giving myself permission to not complete tasks can help me get started (and often I do actually finish the task anyway).

I can also overcome executive dysfunction with the countdown method (when I remember to employ it lol). It's something I saw on tumblr, actually: whenever you decide you want to do something, count down from 5. By the time you've finished your countdown, you need to have moved in the direction of the thing you want to do. You don't have to start it; just move towards it. When I remember to do it, it works a good 95% of the time.

I do indeed have a job! I teach ESL on italki, which means I often have work to prepare the night before. I know that starting it too early is pointless, so I purposefully leave it until the last minute, because that's when I'll actually get it done. No "well I'll do it now so I can relax later". No feeling guilty for not doing it. I know and trust myself enough to get things once the deadline starts to loom.

As for Japan... it's a bit of a long story, but basically I've always wanted to live abroad, and I got a TEFL certificate in 2020. I looked at places I could go, Japan came up as one of the best countries in terms of pay and living standard. So, I sent out some inquiries, got an interview and then a job offer. Didn't end up taking it for a bunch of reasons, but then a few months ago they got back in touch asking me if I'd like to reopen my application and I decided to accept this time. So, off I go in January!

Anyway, that was an essay! My apologies 😅 Good luck with your executive dysfunction! It can be a real bitch to overcome, but it's possible with practice and trial & error!

#ask #adhd #executive dysfunction

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zenubi-scribbles · 1 year

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January 2023 Hiatus!

Hello everyone and Happy New Year! So sorry, I wasn’t planning an art halt. A job application from last year FINALLY contacted me. Interview next week, waiting to see if it’s another long time I hear the results, catching up and prepping my current job in case I do get this job, etc. I had to put a halt on my art and Japanese studies for now. I MAY post doodles and sketches, but nothing serious to concentrate on this stuff. So sorry to @recklesslycaffeinated, @monomori3, and that inspiring anon all still waiting on my sketch requests. I still feel bad I keep pushing all of yours even further back. I really want to make sure all yours are of similar quality to the other requests I finished prior. I don’t want to undercut yours to simpler sketches just to get them done. Thanks everyone for understanding and hopefully will resume sooner, not later than Jan. Who knows though.

#zenubi-scribbles #temporary hiatus #oh man I have to really halt art AND Japanese language studies #more work stress at my current job #love all of you people for understanding!#I'm torn if I want to hear from them very soon or not for a while #so much work stuff to prep out of my current job otherwise #I wish I could give all of you doodles for being patient

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ophillya · 6 months

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saw your # on the byung-chul han quote; I don't know anything about him except that interview. what's your thoughts on him?

first i must apologize as i have come down with a fever and i can't think of nothing better than to explain why i can't sit through one of this man's books. so sorry for like...everything you are about to read.

to his credit, i do like his takes on the dependance on techonolgy, but that too borderlines a pessimistic mindset which i can only describe as pathological in his views of the modern world.

this theme repeats a lot in my "criticism": his views on the world and "how things used to be" toes the line with traditional/conservative narrative which puts me off. and sure you might say 'oh but thats because his thoughts are based on his culture', that being south korean. isn't that a disservice toall the people in south korea who are putting their lifelyhoods in jeopardy to fight for a better society? (lgbt community and allies, feminists, etc.)

also he ovesimplifies key parts of his thought, using generalisations and stark comparisons to define each other. it lacks nuance and substance. we are dealing with freedom, control, etc. you can't call yourself a modern thinker without providing a proper analysis on them. or at least a good enough route for your "followers" to understand your views on them. i legitmately have no clue where he stands in pivotal views such the ones remarked, of which he bases a lot of his theory. like his "criticism" on neoliberalism. like dude im right there with you on this one, but give me the juice, give me the nuances, give me solutions. something!

because that's what ennerves me about his works: there is no point. this man offers NO practical or at least somewhat applicable solutions to the problems he "analizes" (more like highlights which news flash buster, we've been knowing the problems in our society ALL THIS TIME).

to conclude, as much as his thought has pushed forward some very interseting discussions, and he does have some killer quotes, he feels to me as reading badly done nihilim author in the sense that you can summarize his works with "everything sucks. the old days were better, have you thought about that? hope that helped!"

#also sorry about the typos im writing this with one eye closed #its also been so long since i dared to even touch one of his works tbh #maybe im miss remembering hmm

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thedarkmistress16 · 10 months

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question. how did you get your first job because the embarrassment of me telling everywhere i apply to that i have no experience during an interview is getting too much.

It was throwing the same online application to multiple locations in my area and a fast food joint picked me first for a location that wasn't even built yet after I was supposedly "done with training." Never again. And I was just as demotivated that I would find work afterward, too.

Literally don't do that if you can help it. Saying you have a GED is better than saying you literally have done nothing. When you have no experience you just have to advertise the shit out of yourself and your applicable qualities to that job and the positive impact you have on other people (in your community, household, etc.) and show that you will take that job seriously and show confidence and interest in yourself as well. No one wants to hear that you have no experience, of course- that makes you sound (1) sad and (2) undesirable as a candidate. Even if it's the truth, not all companies will want to train someone from the ground up if they can help it, but many do just to have some extra hands on deck so it depends on who you're applying for (like some jobs have specific experience requirements and others hire whoever and do the training). They do want to hear that you won't let the lack of said experience put you down and that you're willing to learn in that field/new skills with the help of that job.

That's how I got one of my last jobs, where I expressed I wanted to enhance a current skill related to the work. And also kind of just make conversation that relates to the topic too if the interviewer is easy to talk to? It'll help make both of you more comfortable and that person will be more likely to remember you. My degrees kinda match the jobs i've been in so if you have them, correlate them for your interviews! And if they don't, they look good on your file regardless (because for some reason the degree requirements for jobs just keep getting higher and more ridiculously ambitious 💢😫).

Brag about any academic and nonacademic achievements or clubs or (volunteer) events to show active participation.

And if you're unconfident in your abilities and have little to no experience, AVOID GROUP INTERVIEWS AT ALL COSTS.

That being said, signing up for hiring events (even for a seasonal gig, so look out for them now!) is a great way to get your foot in the door cuz they'll hire anyone minimally qualified to cover the rush. Even if they don't bring you on for part or full-time, some experience is better than none, yeah?

*whispers* (Also, jobs like to see an open availability- about every job wants peeps who'll work on weekends or just someone to squeeze into uncovered shifts so if you have the flexibility in your time table to do so, or are capable of taking any shift- completely open- be sure to express that in the interview! Just be sure to give yourself one day off in your schedule AT LEAST- the most two- you'll need it.)

Unfortunately, this also means tailoring your resume and interview questions toward each job you apply to, and it's exhausting as fuck. Yes, this also means fudging your resume in terms of applicable skills and references, but literally everyone has done it at one point so as long as you can back up what you're throwing down, you'll be fine. And yes, you do need to prepare interview questions to show that you're not incompetent about that company/line of work and that you're prepared for the things they'll throw at you (but usually they ask about you and decide if your disposition and personality is a good for for the company. Or they won't ask many questions if they already decided to hire you and requested the interview as a courtesy + to give you a once-over before hiring you 😐). My jobs admired the fact I brought my notebook of questions with me and that I wrote everything down in the interviews and early training days- it shows you're taking this seriously. Here are some free starters:

Minimum hours required to earn benefits and the entailment of said benefits (usually full-time; insurance, vacays, etc.)

Breaks and lunches (to clock out or to not clock out?) + time clock locations and functions

Schedule compromising + request off/call off/sick days notice requirements and exceptions

General procedures/daily responsibilities for job title (you will end up doing more than initially told or advertised- trust me)

Break room location? Lockers (B.Y.O.L.-Bring Your Own Lock)? Bathroom accessibility?

So take a break and love yourself please because going further into interviews with enhanced discouragement and a negative outlook on the situation as you are starting to feel now will only heighten the chances of additional disappointment and leaving interviews empty-handed. If you strongly believe the past will repeat itself, then you've already lost. Having a positive mindset goes a long way for these kinds of situations!

#ask for moi #i somehow got my last job by not revamping my resume after talking to the manager somehow so anything's possible #but hey at least you've been getting interviews. speaks more than never getting callbacks 😢

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kinetic-elaboration · 1 year

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January 11: This Week So Far

I made it through the first two tough days of this week, and to Wednesday, which is just a Normal Day. I am such a creature of habit, I get all worked up about any change to the normal day routine. So the early part of this week was rather stressful, in a low-key, I-shouldn't-be-stressed-about-this-thing-but-I-am way. Tomorrow I have a meeting, and Friday I have several events--all good/fun things like staff breakfast, lunch out, a TS meeting (counts as fun, we never do work during those), etc., and even the search committee meeting is something I'm looking forward to because I'm curious to hear people's opinions on the candidates--so today is really the only day where work was just 8 hours to work on whatever I want and after-work is just...well, admittedly most of my days are like this, but basically, free and open.

Work was pretty successful. I think I have already veered from Deluge to Drought, which makes me pretty annoyed at all the stress I let myself feel last week, despite my best efforts. But I am feeling more under control, which is good. After work, I did NOTHING (no regrets, except for how late I'll sleep). All in all, a very neutral day for the middle of the week.

On Monday, I had my rescheduled dentist appointment, which went very well. It was extremely efficient and my teeth were fine, which I always worry about at this point, just because I've had these teeth for nearly 30 years and you never know what they're up to. Then I stopped by the Food Lion on my way home and also the Starbucks. Somehow got a blister on my toe...extremely sad since I wasn't walking that much, but oh well.

Then Tuesday were the candidate interviews, which went very well, but did eat up a hug chunk of the middle of the day. I liked both applicants a lot, and I think that was the general consensus. We were up in the Faculty Library ("by tradition" lmao--okay, I have never seen a library person interviewed in the Faculty Library and I've been here for years and seen like half the current stuff interviewed but okay, a tradition from the vault), which was sort of disorienting actually. But cozy.

After work I went serious grocery shopping, which also went very well since I didn't have much to buy. I need to keep that energy up--no extraneous grocery purchases in 2023. The Mart is in the midst of some kind of huge rearrangement of its grocery section, which made stuff hard to find, but ultimately I got everything I wanted. I'm curious what it will look like when they're done.

So I have accomplished much this week... a couple more days to go. I should probably actually be productive after work tomorrow because I have some home-things I haven't done but... we'll see. I am very tired and want to sleep.

#the year 2023 #2023: rl

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bisexualhobi · 2 years

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This is likely outside your expertise but I’m wondering from a PR prospective, what you would look for in a applicant. I have an interview on Wednesday for a notable organization that’s very public facing. And I’m super nervous. I knownPR is not that same as HR, but I was wondering your thoughts?

hi babe omg! first of all so proud of you and i wish you nothing but the best - thanks for trusting me enough to come for advice... don't be nervous. if it's meant for you it'll happen!

okay so as you mention I've never worked in HR/recruiting but tbh I think what makes the difference for my organization and what they look for is someone that is a highly motivated team player. someone that can mesh with anyone and admit when they're wrong or when they don't know something. someone that isn't afraid to ask for help but also that will actively look to be helpful to others. PR is a highly communal profession - we rely on everyone else to get our job done. journalists, lawyers, influencers, agents, other PR agencies, etc. so make sure to show you are a sociable and likeable person but don't make it too over the top (no one likes an ass kisser).

if you have experience writing make sure to mention that too - being good at expressing yourself and developing good arguments and creative copywriting are big strengths. basically anything that makes you persuasive and helps you convince other people to listen to you.

any additional stuff you might want to share can include software skills - if you know coding or are super good at excel or photoshop that is always a great plus. the more software you know the merrier. even if it's something that doesn't necessarily have to do with PR if you show you're good at grasping programs that lets the recruiter see you're a fast learner and can adjust to using new stuff easily.

that's all I can think about but if you have more questions or need more tips don't hesitate to send me an ask or a DM off anon! wishing you the best of luck for this and I'm sure you will get it 💞

#asks

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imperatriceauxdiamants · 2 years

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hello, I think it's so sweet that you help so many people <3 I struggle with feelings of inferiority. I'm almost graduating uni and I have done 'nothing' with myself. No extracurriculars (and it's too late now, I feel) and I'm scared talking about myself and having to apply to jobs. I have no idea what I'm doing... I'm sorry for dumping this all on you

Hello babe,

One of my main goals in my life is to help out as many people as I possibly can, so I'm glad that I've helped at least one person on this planet! You gotta keep in mind, men in the same situation as you will go forward anyways even if they're not fully qualified. They'll apply to jobs they're not sufficiently qualified, because they're confident about learning on the spot. Us women are taking a TOO careful approach, we fear rejection, we fear difficulty and challenges, and it's time to change that. We are missing opportunities because of our insecurities and fears. You gotta have massive ovaries, apply anyways, ask around your friends if they know someone needs X thing you can do.

Stop being afraid of knowing yourself, you are SOMEONE, it's absolutely normal to have some likes and dislikes, hobbies, dreams, hopes, others LOVE to hear about tidbits of information about their friends or colleagues. You're not 2D, you're a whole breathing, speaking, creative, intelligent creature.

Start volunteering, it looks amazing on CVs. Very little effort for a lot of bang. Shelters, sports events, helping out senior ppl, helping out pets, etc. Google "volunteering [country or area or city]", or seek for fb groups. That way you'll meet new people, maybe new friends, share some information, learn from them, grow up as a person mentally.

I've received many CVs, as I'm involved in the interviewing process at my job, and a particular applicant didn't have much extracurriculars (I personally don't care much about them, I care more about the raw qualifications, to be honest) BUT this same person added the competencies and abilities their hobbies gave them! I found it to be a fantastic idea. Per example, "Painting (Attention to detail, observance, patience, mindfulness)". If you stay afraid and ultimately do very little, how do you really expect to progress? How do you expect gaining a good salary, buying the stuff you desire, travel around the world, treat your loved ones well if you do nothing?

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alicanta77 · 3 years

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How to adult: writing a resume

A resume is quite possibly the most important thing when applying for a job. Statistics show that an employer can decide within 6 seconds if they want to throw out your resume or not. I’m not saying that to scare you, I’m saying it so you know how important it is, and that you don’t rush this part of the application process or not spend enough time on it.

In the UK a resume is called a CV which stands for Curriculum Vitae which in Latin means “course of life”, and in contrast, resume in French means “summary”. In the UK a resume and CV are the same things, but that may differ around the world and it’s good to check what it is that your employer is asking for.

Layout

The layout will be the first thing that your potential employer will see, and that is what is going to need to differentiate you from other candidates. Whether someone is willing to put the effort into making their resume look appealing, says a lot more about them than you may think. If it’s boring or a mess, employers may think you’re lazy and wonder that, if you can’t put the effort in for something like this, what can you bring to the job?

First thing to remember: appearance is important

I’ve attached photos of a layout of my CV, and added false information so that you guys can get an idea of what I mean. (i will elaborate on what you can put in each section later on)

How to write it

When you are writing your resume and talking about yourself, remember, you are the most perfect person for the job and a fantastic individual. You need to make yourself seem incredible. Use words like “driven, optimistic, professional etc.” to describe yourself, and, if you know what job your applying for, cater your resume towards them. For example, if you’re applying for restaurant or bar work, then talk about how you’re good at acting under pressure and capable of learning things quickly. Know what the challenges of the job may be and put in qualities that would make you be able to deal with them.

An employer will always see and read a CV/resume before they meet you. This means that this is their first impression of you as a person, and it already needs to impress them. This begins with the layout but also continues very much through the writing.

Use some more inventive words to describe yourself rather than sticking to stereotypical ones, especially if you’re applying for a competitive job. Employers will be looking for someone who stands out from the crowd due to their resume. This doesn’t mean use a thesaurus on every word and make it sound ludicrous, but do try to expand the vocab you’re using.

Check multiple times for spelling or grammar mistakes. Then download grammarly and have that check it for you. Then get someone else to read it. Then check it again yourself. The last thing you want is a spelling error or typo, this could make your employer think that you were too lazy to even proof read, or that you’re not as professional or thorough as you make yourself sound.

DO NOT LIE

I cannot stress this enough. If you don’t have experience in a certain area, do not lie and say that you do. I have gotten work as a waitress/bartender without having any waiting or bartending experience. Apply for jobs where experience is either not necessary or listed as preferred. That way they won’t throw out your application simply because you don’t have experience.

If you don’t work well under pressure, don’t say that you do. Instead list a different quality, talk about how your dedicated to doing things correctly and like to make sure that things are done to the best of their ability. Or say how you work best with a team around you where each worker can support each other.

But do not give your employer the impression that you’re a master mixologist or as calm as a rock if you’re not. You’re not a sims character, you can’t master a skill in two days and you can’t cheat your way out of a stressful situation. You’re going to make mistakes, you’re going to get stressed and you’re going to receive a lot more support if you’re honest about being stressed in a new environment.

Do not waffle. Keep it short and to the point. This is who I am, this is why I’m great, this is what I’ve done, this is why you should want me. Simple.

If you waffle, you risk boring your employer with too much information. List things that are relevant. If you’re applying for a job as an Operations Manager, no one wants to hear that you used to play netball when you were 16. That only matters if you were captain of a team as that shows leadership skills.

Your employer does not care about every little thing you’ve done in your life that may possibly be of relevance, they care about why you can do the job you’ve applied for, and if they have to dig through loads of unnecessary information to find that, they may not want to put in the effort. Try to write nothing more than a couple of lines to each paragraph.

What to include

As I said before, attached above is a layout of what my CV looks like. It is up to you what sections you include, but again, try to not to keep it too long, and make sure it’s tailored towards the area you want to work in. I applied for hospitality (restaurant and bar work).

In the photos I have briefly written about what you can write

Professional Summary:

This is a chance for you to sum up you as a professional. This should be tailored towards the job field you are applying for. Make yourself sound perfect. Everything you say should make them want to hire you. Never list weaknesses, they will probably ask about them in the interview. If you want to say “Can be stubborn but...” or “Struggles with organisation but...” don’t. Seriously, NO. You can explain that in person, but never waste the small space you have to talk about why they shouldn’t hire you.

Skills:

This I bullet pointed to change up the layout. It’s a chance to list one or two more skills that make you suited for the job without taking up too much space in your professional summary. You can list some of the same things you’ve already listed, but make sure that over 50% of them are new. If all you can name are the same skills, your employer will think that that’s all there is too you. You should not run out of reasons as to why you’re perfect for the job.

Experience:

Any experience you have should be listed here. When applying for a first job especially, it doesn’t matter if it’s relevant or not. Any experience is good experience, especially when you’re young. Make sure to list the company you worked for, the date you worked and the location.

Include a small description of what you did in that job. Make sure it is no more than a few sentences, and that should be about your part of the job. Don’t talk about what the company does, talk about what you did for them.

This section can also include any interning you do, so if you’ve done work experience, put it here as interning. Same as before, include the date and location of where you worked. If you interned for a short amount of time, such as a week, then just put the month and year e.g. Intern - 04/19

For first jobs, this section can be nerve wracking. Just take a deep breath and think back over you life. You’ve always done more than you think.

Education:

Your school/uni. Include the name, location and any exams that you took there. You will also want to list the grades you received. Whatever your most recent exam was, list those subjects individually with their grades and any others just list the grades. e.g. GCSE - 2018 (A*-B) A Levels - 2020 - Maths (A) English (A) French (A)

The above is obviously tailored to England, so that may differ depending on the exams you take and it would be best to check that with someone who understands your education system.

Volunteering:

Any volunteer work you’ve done can be listed here. Try not to overload it, and keep it concise. Same as before, include the title, date and location and a sentence or two about what you did. If you were a school officer, put that down, or captain of a sports team then put that down. Also talk about your duties such as, organising team meetings, running sports drills, being responsible for a group of people etc.

These do not have to be related to the job your applying for, but the qualities that they should you have, do need to be.

Overall

Keep it short and to the point.

Use an eye catching layout.

Only describe yourself positively.

Do not lie.

All experience is good experience.

And most importantly: You are perfect for the job, now make them believe it.

#advice with felix #how to adult #i really hope this helps #and if you have any questions do not hesitate to ask #i'll be here to answer all of them #if you think of anything i may have missed or any incorrect info #please lemme know that as well #this is written very much off my own expereinces #so you may not be able to directly translate it for your expereince #but it should give you a good start #<3333

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heauxplesslydevoted · 3 years

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Hi there! We're changing things up a little this week :)

Not Yet Wed Questions

Note: Great Scott! This week, we are going back in time to MC’s intern year. Think of Ethan’s relationship with them at this point and answer the following questions accordingly. It is entirely up to you when in year 1 this takes place (pre/post Miami, pre/post CH 15, etc). Feel free to answer with dialogue or pictures or both :) Have fun!

No worries. All of this is off the record and HR will never know!

The setting for this answers is:

For Both

When I first saw them, I thought__________

What is your coworker's most used swear word?

Quick: What color are their eyes?

Three people at work your coworker hates?

What is your coworker’s strangest or most endearing quirk?

If they had a crush on anyone at work, who would that be?

(Bonus round! Feel free to skip.)

Never have I Ever:

come into work hungover

had a fistfight

been kicked out of a bar

gotten a tattoo

broken someone’s heart

been in love

For MC (Ethan is not there)

Where do you see him in five years (both professionally and in his personal life?)

What do you find the most impressive about him?

Last thing he texted you?

If he asked you out on a date, what would you say?

For Ethan (MC is not there)

Where do you see him in five years (both professionally and in his personal life?)

What specifically do you find attractive about her?

Last thing she texted you?

If she asked you out on a date, how would you respond?

Alright, post Book 1 but pre-Ethan fleeing to South America Ethan x Naomi coming right up! I feel like that time would have maximum tension because they’re trying to find their footing again after fucking the souls out of each other’s bodies and sending them into orbit, and lowkey falling in love sleeping together, while maintaining professionalism.

~v~

For Both:

When I first saw them, I thought__________

Naomi: I thought “thank God someone else is here!” I was in over my head with that patient, and I didn’t even notice that The Ethan Ramsey was the one assisting me until much later.

Ethan: I thought she had guts. You don’t see too many first day interns that are ready to jump into the fray like she did.

What is your coworker's most used swear word?

Naomi: He says Christ and any iteration of the word damn. Dammit, goddamn, goddammit, you get the gist.

Ethan: She says fuck.

Naomi: You’ve never heard me say that.

Ethan: She says fuck a lot, especially when she’s...*Ethan trails off and catches himself before he finishes that sentence. It’s a moot point all the same because now all he can think about is the young intern in front of him, hands pulling his hair, nails raking down his back, moaning the obscenity into his ear, into his pillows. He awkwardly clears his throat* Just trust me, I’ve heard her say it. Multiple times.

*and now he’s mad at himself*

Quick: What color are their eyes?

Naomi: Blue. They’re kinda hard to miss.

Ethan: Her eyes are brown.

Three people at work your coworker hates?

Naomi: He hates everyone, except for me and Naveen.

Ethan: Except for you? You think pretty highly of yourself, Rookie.

Naomi: Am I wrong? *Ethan doesn’t deny it, instead staying silent and Naomi smirks* Exactly

Ethan: I don’t think she dislikes anyone. I’ve never met a person like her, she makes friends with everyone.

What is your coworker’s strangest or most endearing quirk?

Naomi: He fiddles with his glasses a lot.

Ethan: She’s constantly biting her lip, especially when she’s really focused.

*she’s actually surprised that he picked up on that* Naomi: You notice that?

Ethan: I notice everything...about everything. It’s the nature of the job.

If they had a crush on anyone at work, who would that be?

*they both share an awkward glance before looking away and declining to answer*

Never Have I Ever...

Come into work hungover

Ethan: When I was younger, yes. But now that I’m older, I know my limits.

Naomi: No, because I don’t get hangovers due to my magical hangover cure.

Ethan: That god-awful drink is...surprisingly effective.

*the interviewer asks Ethan to elaborate on the time Naomi gave him whatever her hangover cure is, and he adamantly refuses*

Had a fistfight

Naomi: Yes, but in my defense I was drunk.

Ethan: *snorts* How is that a defense?

Naomi: I’m the daughter of an attorney, I usually try to resolve my issues with my words. But drunk Naomi is a little feistier.

Ethan: You mean you have a level of feistiness that I’ve yet to see?

Naomi: Oh yeah. Anyway, I was in college, I was drunk at a bar, someone spilled a drink on me, and it escalated. I think I broke her nose.

Ethan: An arrest record wasn’t on your file when we hired you.

Naomi: Like I said, I’m the daughter of an attorney, and the granddaughter of a DC judge. That has its perks.

Ethan: Yes, I’ve gotten into a fist fight before. I punched Nash in the face. And before that, i fought my old med school roommate.

Naomi: Ooh, what did he do?

Ethan: That’s not a story I’d ever divulge while sober.

Been kicked out of a bar

Naomi: Yes. Circle back to the previous question.

Ethan: No, because I’m an adult.

Gotten a tattoo

Ethan: Absolutely not

Naomi: I have a tattoo of the Cancer symbol on my left hip. It’s my zodiac sign.

*this stuns Ethan into silence because he’s seen her naked on more than one occasion and been...very well acquainted with the body parts below her waist, and for the life of him cannot remember a tattoo*

Broken someone’s heart

Naomi: No. At least, I don’t think so. I’ve had my heart broken, if that counts.

Ethan: Same as Naomi. I don’t think I have.

*they make a pointed effort to not make eye contact with each other, and Naomi bites down on her lip, letting the silence hang in the air. The alternative would be informing Ethan that he has indeed broken someone’s heart, and that just won’t do.*

Been in love

Naomi: I don’t know. Maybe? I thought I was in love with my med school boyfriend, but now that time has passed, I know that wasn’t love. At least, not the good kind. And there was a near miss after him, but nothing came out of it. The emotions were a lot stronger the second time around though, and i think it’s the closest I’ve come to it this far. I’m a hopeless romantic, so I hope I find it someday.

Ethan: No. Call me a cynic, but I just don’t see love as something that’s feasible and attainable. Putting that much trust and dependency in another person is not realistic.

For Naomi (Ethan is not there)

Where do you see him in five years (both professionally and in his personal life?)

Naomi: I don’t know what’s left for a man like Ethan Ramsey. He’s already done so much in the field of medicine, unless he reinvents the entire wheel and turns it upside down, which I can see him doing. I can see him writing more, publishing more research, and of course winning more awards. If he wasn’t so anti-administration, he could be running this place. Or maybe he’ll start his own non-profit.

Naomi: As far as his personal life, I don’t know. You heard loud and clear that he doesn’t really believe in love. I hope one day he changes his mind or finds a companion, because underneath his extremely prickly exterior, he’s one of the best men I know and he has a heart of gold. He deserves the chance to let someone take care of it for him.

What do you find the most impressive about him?

Naomi: From afar, Ethan seems very larger than life, but I think the most impressive thing about him is his dedication to not just medicine, but his patients. I’ve never seen him not go above and beyond for someone he was treating.

Last thing he texted you?

Naomi: “Please consult Diana in HR regarding your official diagnostic team fellowship application. I know this year has been unorthodox to say the least, but there are still some steps that must be taken before the start of your second year. Thank you.”

Naomi: I’ve never received a text message that long.

If he asked you out on a date, what would you say?

*her cheeks heat up furiously and she pulls her bottom between her teeth before answering, her eyes bright and watery*

Naomi: Am I a total glutton for pain for saying I’d jump at the chance?

For Ethan (Naomi is not there)

Where do you see her in five years (both professionally and in her personal life?)

Ethan: Dr. Valentine has so much potential and she’s going to be one of the greats. She’s going to be running the diagnostics team if she chooses to stay at Edenbrook, and I can’t see Naveen not trying to keep her here. She’s going to win awards, have awards named after her, publish research, lead trials, whatever. I hate to sound banal and cliche, but the sky really is the limit for her. I chose her for a reason, and I plan her helping her reach all of that potential.

Ethan: As for her personal life, I don’t know. Hopefully she finds someone that’s good enough for her.

What specifically do you find attractive about her?

Ethan: A-attractive? *the word comes out in a squeak, but he coughs to cover it up* Why on earth would you assume that I’m attracted to her?

*he goes on a ridiculously long tangent about how inappropriate it is to be attracted to your coworkers, especially your subordinates, and how he would never jeopardize Naomi’s career on something as trivial as attraction, and anyone with an ounce of common sense can tell that he doth protest too much*

Ethan: But if I absolutely had to pick something besides her good looks, it’d be her spirit. She’s warm and empathetic and optimistic, and I’ve never seen someone care as much as she does.

Last thing she texted you?

Ethan: “👍” I sent her a message about her upcoming fellowship and she sent back a thumbs up. Just that. I was a little annoyed.

If she asked you out on a date, how would you respond?

Ethan: As um...flattering as that might be, I would say no. I am an attending, she’s an intern, my soon to be fellow. That is crossing too many ethical lines, lines I refuse to breach.

Ethan: And I would say no because Naomi is...just a good person. And maybe I’m being biased, but I don’t know if anyone will ever be truly worthy of her. But I can say without a shadow of a doubt that she deserves so much better than me or what I could give her.

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Useful and practical advice for everyone starting college

So... Yes, I graduated! To celebrate this, I thought it would be a good idea to pass on some knowledge to those new students starting college this year (I feel like a Senpai). If it was difficult for me, I cannot fathom how much difficult it's going to be for you guys starting this year with all the things happening around the world. So good luck and I hope this really helps you out!

Try to get along with everyone. Look, prior to entering college I was asocial AF. It's not that I was shy, I just didn't like hanging out with people. However, my time in college taught me that interaction IS a very important part of life. I will be forever thankful to my classmates, who approached me on my first day (I entered college mid-year with no experience in business or economics. I was completely clueless). They were very nice to me and tried their best to explained how the school works, what classes we will be taking, what the professors and exams are like and such. Without their help, I would have had a harder time trying to get used to college. Truth is, you WILL need help at several points in college. And if you're not on good terms with anyone, who will be willing to help you? No one. So don't be a jerk and try your best to be nice and genuine with everyone in the class.

Help your classmates. Just as you will need help, your classmates will also need help. Don't wait for them to ask you for help. Offer to help them if you can! This can help you make friends or find new study buddies. Do not underestimate the power of helping others. When you help people with something, it is very likely that they will help you back when you need to. They might even recommend you for a job or internship position just because you helped them.

Find one or two study buddies. Study buddies will make studying more bearable. The study material that you will get in college is nothing compared to high school. So having a few study buddies that can help you make summaries, explain and work together on assignments will make studying much easier! I remember I had a study buddy for one of my minors in which we had to learn 16 chapters. We divided the summary workload and took turns explaining the chapters we each summarized. We literally cut the study time in half because of this!

Keep in contact with your classmates and professors. Chances are you will be separated for some time during minors, study abroad programs or internships. But that doesn't mean you have to lose contact with them. I'm not saying you have to chat with them every day. But contacting them once in awhile is good. I have been able to help some of my classmates with some subjects and applications. I have also become one of my professor's running buddies. So keep in touch because you never know what good you can give and what good it might bring you!

Be persistent. I have had instances were my school coach has ghosted me AND the school completely. Putting my internship and thesis at risk. Shit happens. And when you see things taking a turn for the ugly, fight back with all you got to get things back on track. The truth is, college is a business. And it will continue with or without you. A bit toxic, yes. However, it is up to you to not let things go south! Take action. Contact your professor when needed. Contact the administration. Contact management. Be persistent!

Plan as soon as possible. Don't wait for the first class to get your curriculum and then plan a week later. Download the curriculum BEFORE going to that first class. Plan BEFORE going to the class. Bombard your professor with questions regarding the curriculum on the first day. Make changes accordingly. Execute that plan ASAP. Your worst enemy is time. But your best friend is also time. The sooner you start, the more prepared you will be for your exams. Read more about how I plan here.

Don't say "yes" to everything. Yes, I am guilty of this one. I learn fast. I'm young. I have lots of energy. I can do whatever I put my mind to. WRONG. This kind of thinking led me to severe burnout. I was helping my parents in their business. I was doing a full-time internship. I started my own business and had 9 clients. I was training for a marathon. Shit went down horribly at some point. I'm glad I went through that burnout because it taught me the importance and necessity to be balanced in life. And that my ability to say no is sometimes more important than my ability to say yes.

College is more than just learning theory. Look, classes are not the thing you should focus on solely in college. If there's anything more important than classes, I would say is your ability to network and leverage this to get experience in the field. That is what college is about. College opens so many opportunities, not because of what they teach, but because of the resources that you are able to get. I'm not saying go slack on your classes, but keep in mind that a lot of times, people don't hire because you have a perfect GPA.

Have a plan to be smart with your money AND stick with it. I had a plan to be smart with my money. And I did so for 3 years. But in my fourth year... I fucked up. Guys... stick to your financial plan and avoid goddamn headaches. Learn about budgeting,

Do not pull all-nighters. If anything all-nighters made me perform worse. Also, they completely messed up my sleeping schedule, which in return messed up my entire schedule. As a result, I would stress out because I was behind schedule and I did not have the energy to catch up. Guys, do not underestimate the power of a good night's sleep.

Time batching will be your best friend. Having a set day to do similar tasks is honestly, one of the best ways to work. One day I would do all my homework for the week. The other day I would only study. One day I would do all of my house chores etc. It's much simpler and effective this way.

Having a study routine will actually help you to pull a miracle. A lot of people swear by a morning or night routine. I swear by a study/ work routine. For real... why aren't work routines more common? Once I start my routine, my brain knows its time to work and study and will not get distracted. You can read about my study routine more in detail here.

You will get fat pretty fast, so exercise. You will not have a lot of time on your hands. You no longer have breaks to play sports, you don't need to go to gym class, you probably have a car now. Your sedentary life will pretty much begin in college. And because you have the money you will start eating out or order takeout. So EAT WELL AND WORKOUT. I realized that the weeks I ate healthily, were also the weeks I was more energized. So do these 2 things religiously.

Don't be too uptight. Relax and have fun. If you're the type A, teacher's pet kind of student... don't be afraid to loosen up a little bit. After my burnout episode I understood the importance of having fun once in awhile. Turns out that going to parties, clubs, having girls night out is a fun experience and you'll look back at those memories with fond!

Start applying for internships as soon as possible. THIS. Honestly. Apply early. Finding an internship position isn't hard. But finding the right internship place that will allow you to grow and learn and at the same time get along with the culture is MUCH MUCH MUCH harder! So take your time finding an internship. Go to as many interviews as you can. Don't accept the first internship position because it's the first you got. Look at it objectively and talk to others that work in that company. I had the opportunity to work for 2 days under the guidance of another intern before saying yes. Ask for a similar opportunity so you can test the waters before accepting the internship offer.

Taking care of yourself is harder than you think. Develop a routines. Stick to those routines. Develop a personal hygiene routine. A workout routine. Eat healthy. These things are easier said than done. Constantly work on these things. If you let one fall, others will start falling too. Self care is a work in progress so never stop improving yourself no matter how many deadlines you have!

Older students are a godsend. If you want to hear a goddamn unbiased opinion, please refer to an older student. The administration or professor might tell you a process or application goes a certain way, but the older students that went through it, know better as they literally had to go through it. The advice they will give you will be more practical than the advice the professors can give you. So listen to them carefully. They will also be able to help you with tips for exams, summaries or explaining. So be friends with them too!

Get a mentor. I was lucky enough to find 2 excellent mentors in my college journey. I became good friends with one of my professors, and she was the one that taught me all I know about personal investing. Honestly, she was the real MVP. Amazing professor, explanations were top notch, and really enjoyed her work. The second one, was my thesis coach. She helped me built my business and her expertise in the field helped me a lot in starting up. Don't be afraid to ask your professors or experts in the field to help you get started! Sometimes, they are eager to pass what they know unto someone. You got nothing to lose!

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