i need to start respecting my own boundaries more and make them more clear to people, especially family members, and start to assert said boundaries more so people dont just walk all over them.

fun fact: Them

i think one of the most disappointing things is to see that your childhood friends have grown up to represent the kind of people you're disappointed in

sooo today is my 16th anniversary with the husbando ♡

Just a few favourites, only a couple, I swear (Patreon)

There’s not a lot of Karmaland enjoyers on Tumblr, but I need everyone to see this clip of Quackity, Rubius, and Luzu in therapy anyways because I’ve never heard Quackity laugh this hard

I am once again missing people so much that my heart aches

I got invited to be part of a jjk zine kyaaa

pov you're any of the baldurs gate villains and you look outside your evil tower to see this standing at the gates waiting to slaughter your entire army

i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane

(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)

So I had the weirdest fuckkng dream last night?? It was an OMEGAVERSE dream?? (Try not to apply anything I'm about to tell you to your opinion of me please)

Basically I was an omega (god fucked me over in this life I guess he fucked me over in the next one too) and I had received a marriage proposal from this guy. So I was waiting at this Mormon church (my childhood religion) with my old boss (who may have been a stand-in for Bedelia??) and also Frederick Chilton and Jack Crawford, who I barely saw because he was on the phone away from our group discussing potential wedding arrangements and he didn't want me to hear so I wouldn't get stressed out. I think there were more people there, I remember thinking Abigail was also around but off doing something, idk what (It could also have been this mutual of mine, my dreams reassign faces pretty frequently. So someone will look like one person but in the dream I'll know it's someone else).

I didn't want to marry the guy so I think I was trying to convince everyone that he was gonna say no, and they kept expecting me to be all sad and mopey about it (I FUCKING WASNT K JUST WANTED TO GO HOME). So I was stressed about that and I went to pace in gym and the motion activated lights kept going on above me which was annoying. I was also wearing this stupid fuckkng red dress I used to actually own which was annoying.

My old boss/Bedelia ended up coming in and trying to cheer me up, which worked a little. That's when I noticed some things we left on a table, including this flower arrangement the guy had done himself and sent me. And I was staring at it because there was somethkng weird about it and k couldn't figure out what. But the longer I looked the more it started to make sense and suddenly I knew, just by looking at this flower arrangement, that my suitor, the guy who had proposed, was in love with me.

Like he actually loved me. Now I was still nervous but I was NERVOUS. Because what if he actually did say no for some reason?? What if he knew I hadn't wanted it at first when I thought he didn't really care about me?? I was fucking terrified

So at this point I had no fucking clue what was going on. I went and sat on a couch with Chilton in the lobby and he was on the phone with someone. Eventually he hung up and he looked super shocked and worried and he was like "Oh..." and I wanted to seem like I was in the loop so I smirked over at him and I was like "I know, right? >:)" and that only confused and scared him MORE (my favorite part of the dream by far)

I also think maybe Chilton was another one of my suitors and we were trying to throw him off so he thought the other guy would say no so he would reconsider his proposal? Either change his mind and not propose or propose faster? I didn't want to be married to him EITHER but whatever

Finally my suitor shows up and I'm fucking shaking. Like trembling head to toe. And you'll never guess who it was. It was fuckkng HANNIBAL LECTER. THATS WHO WAS FUCKING PROPOSING TO ME

AND I SAID YES.

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poking at my dear evan hansen hyperfixation with a stick. STAY BACK!!! I ALREADY VANQUISHED YOU!!! WHY ARE YOU CREEPING BACK INTO MY MIND!!!

posting on here is like my sisyphean boulder i'm constantly rolling tbh

anyway. two days ago i was on a bus with 30+ minutes left to my destination when a guy in front of me very abruptly got up and plunked his ass to the empty seat next to mine, introduced himself and asked for my number. i was so frazzled i just kinda went ... uhh... okay? and let him hand me his phone. and i feel... dumb for doing that and not having any sort of mental script ready and not even giving him a fake number, but he also ... called my cell on the spot to make sure it was the right number? so. lmao. what would have even been the right option. he stayed for another couple minutes trying to make conversation. we were on such a long stretch of road, and i had a window seat so when he sat down i physically had zero exit anyway. he got back into his original seat afterwards but i still feel like i was being an idiot days later. eh

verdict: :(

Thought Y'all would enjoy the note I found in my nightmare before xmas chain wallet from freshman year (grade 9) of HS.

I GOTTA vent a little and my bestie already hates my mom so i don’t wanna add onto that lmao anyway. Dear diary