hey, dev i loved your macarena gifs. What else will you be releasing soon? x

Hi anon!! I'm so glad you love the Macarena gifs!!!!! She's such a comfort fave of mine so this made me SCREECH!!! I'm not sure if you meant in general or just of her so i've done in general and this can act as a sort of upcoming gif pack list. Also not in any order just in the order that I remember them/see them in my drafts/on my wip list.

Macarena Garcia in Mi Secreto 3 Macarena Garcia in Mi Secreto 4 Macarena Garcia in Mi Secreto 5 Macarena Garcia in Mi Secreto 22 Macarena Garcia in Mujeres Asesinas Katherine McNamara in Sugar Katherine McNamara in Trust Katherine McNamara in Love, Classified Katherine McNamara in Finding You Katherine McNamara in The Stand S01 Katherine McNamara in Happyland 1x01 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 1x01 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 1x07 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 2x14 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 2x20 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 3x14 Katherine McNamara in Arrow S07 Katherine McNamara in Arrow 8x01 Katherine McNamara in Arrow 8x09 Katherine McNamara in Walker: Independence 1x01 Katherine McNamara in Walker: Independence 1x02 Katherine McNamara in Walker: Independence 1x03 Katherine McNamara in Walker: Independence 1x04 Katherine McNamara in Walker: Independence 1x05 Katherine McNamara in Walker: Independence 1x06 Katherine McNamara in Walker: Independence 1x07 Justin Johnson Cortez in Walker: Independence 1x01 Justin Johnson Cortez in Walker: Independence 1x02 Justin Johnson Cortez in Walker: Independence 1x03 Justin Johnson Cortez in Walker: Independence 1x04 Justin Johnson Cortez in Walker: Independence 1x05 Justin Johnson Cortez in Walker: Independence 1x06 Justin Johnson Cortez in Walker: Independence 1x07 Gabriela Quezada in Walker: Independence 1x01 Gabriela Quezada in Walker: Independence 1x02 Gabriela Quezada in Walker: Independence 1x03 Gabriela Quezada in Walker: Independence 1x04 Gabriela Quezada in Walker: Independence 1x05 Gabriela Quezada in Walker: Independence 1x06 Gabriela Quezada in Walker: Independence 1x07 Katie Findlay in Walker: Independence 1x01 Katie Findlay in Walker: Independence 1x02 Katie Findlay in Walker: Independence 1x03 Katie Findlay in Walker: Independence 1x04 Katie Findlay in Walker: Independence 1x05 Katie Findlay in Walker: Independence 1x06 Katie Findlay in Walker: Independence 1x07 Lawrence Kao in Walker: Independence 1x01 Lawrence Kao in Walker: Independence 1x02 Lawrence Kao in Walker: Independence 1x03 Lawrence Kao in Walker: Independence 1x04 Lawrence Kao in Walker: Independence 1x06 Mayra Serbulo in Texas Rising Grace Dove in Alaska Daily 1x03 Grace Dove in Alaska Daily 1x04 Grace Dove in Alaska Daily 1x05 Grace Dove in Alaska Daily 1x06 Grace Dove in Journey Of My Heart Triana Browne in Love At The Christmas Contest Roman Zaragoza in Ghosts S01 Roman Zaragoza in Ghosts S02 Jessica Matten in Tribal S01 Wesley French in Tribal S02 Jessica Matten in Burden of Truth Jessica Matten in Dark Winds S01 Kiowa Gordon in Dark Winds S01 Zahn McClarnon in Dark Winds S01 Amber Midthunder in Prey Julian Black Antelope in Prey Julian Black Antelope in Tribal S01 + S02 Kahara Hodges in Various Videos Caelynn Miller Keyes in Various Videos Carmen Moore in Nancy Drew Carmen Moore in The Flash Meegwun Fairbrother in Burden Of Truth S01 Meegwun Fairbrother in Burden Of Truth S02 Meegwun Fairbrother in Burden Of Truth S03 Meegwun Fairbrother in Burden Of Truth S04 Meegwun Fairbrother in Skymed Angeles Cruz in Malinche Angeles Cruz in  AquI En La Tierra Maria Mercedes Coroy in Malinche Braeden Clarke in Skymed Braeden Clarke in Outlander Braeden Clarke in Impulse Eugene Brave Rock in Dark Winds S01 Kheon Clarke in Skymed Aason Nadjiwon in Skymed Mercedes Morris in Skymed Praneet Akilla in Skymed Idris Elba in Beast John Boyega in The Woman King Daniel Kaluuya in Nope Ceren Yilmaz in Zumruduanka 1 Ceren Yilmaz in Zumruduanka 2 Ceren Yilmaz in Zumruduanka 3 Ceren Yilmaz in Zumruduanka 4 Ceren Yilmaz in Zumruduanka 5 Ceren Yilmaz in Zumruduanka 6 Demet Ozdemir in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 1 (shout out to the amazing tess for these episodes ily) Demet Ozdemir in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 2 Demet Ozdemir in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 3 Demet Ozdemir in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 4 Demet Ozdemir in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 5 Demet Ozdemir in No:304 54 Demet Ozdemir in No:304 56 Demet Ozdemir in Erkenci Kus 1 Demet Ozdemir in Erkenci Kus 2 Demet Ozdemir in Erkenci Kus 3 Demet Ozdemir in Ask Taktikleri Demet Ozdemir in Dogdugun Ev Kaderindir 1 Demet Ozdemir in Dogdugun Ev Kaderindir 2 Demet Ozdemir in Cilek Kokusu 1 Demet Ozdemir in Kurt Seyit ve Sura Hafsanur Sancaktutan in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 1 Hafsanur Sancaktutan in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 2 Hafsanur Sancaktutan in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 3 Hafsanur Sancaktutan in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 4 Hafsanur Sancaktutan in Dunyayla Benim Aramda 5 Dilan Cicek Deniz in Kusursuz Kiraci 1 Dilan Cicek Deniz in Kusursuz Kiraci 2 Dilan Cicek Deniz in Kusursuz Kiraci 3 Dilan Cicek Deniz in Kusursuz Kiraci 4 Dilan Cicek Deniz in Kusursuz Kiraci 5 Dilan Cicek Deniz in Kusursuz Kiraci 6 Melisa Dongel in Kusursuz Kiraci 1 - 6 Melisa Dongel in Ask Mantik Intikam 1 - 5 Melisa Dongel in Bizim Hikaye S02 Melisa Dongel in Sen Cal Kapimi 2 - 10 Melisa Dongel in Fazilet Hanim ve Kizlari 4 Jeff Satur in Ingredients Episodes 0 - 21 Hande Ercel in Azize 2 Hande Ercel in Azize 3 Hande Ercel in Halka Hande Ercel in Sen Cal Kapimi 2 Hande Ercel in Sen Cal Kapimi 3 Hande Ercel in Sen Cal Kapimi 4 Hande Ercel in Sen Cal Kapimi 5 Hande Ercel in Sen Cal Kapimi 6 Hande Ercel in Sen Cal Kapimi 7 Hande Ercel in Sen Cal Kapimi 8 Hande Ercel in Siyah Inci 1 Hande Ercel in Siyah Inci 2 Hande Ercel in Ask Laftan Anlamaz 1 Hande Ercel in Ask Laftan Anlamaz 2 Hande Ercel in Ask Laftan Anlamaz 3 Hande Ercel in Ask Laftan Anlamaz 4 Deniz Baysal in Fazilet Hanim ve Kizlari 2 Deniz Baysal in Fazilet Hanim ve Kizlari 3 Deniz Baysal in Fazilet Hanim ve Kizlari 4 Deniz Baysal in Fazilet Hanim ve Kizlari 5 Ayca Aysin Turan in Ada Masali 1 Ayca Aysin Turan in Ada Masali 2 Ayca Aysin Turan in Zemheri 1 Ayca Aysin Turan in Meryem 1 Ayca Aysin Turan in Meryem 2 Ayca Aysin Turan in Meryem 3 Ayca Aysin Turan in Meryem 4 Ayca Aysin Turan in Ariza 1 Ayca Aysin Turan in Ariza 2 Ayca Aysin Turan in Ariza 3 Ayca Aysin Turan in Ariza 4 Ayca Aysin Turan in Ariza 5 Ayca Aysin Turan in Ariza 6 Ayca Aysin Turan in Hakan: Muhafiz S01 Ayca Aysin Turan in Hakan: Muhafiz S02 Burcu Ozberk in Ask Mantik Intikam 1 Burcu Ozberk in Ask Mantik Intikam 25 Ilhan Sen in Ask Mantik Intikam 1 Ilhan Sen in Ask Mantik Intikam 25 Aslihan Malbora in Uc Kurus 1 Aslihan Malbora in Uc Kurus 2 Aslihan Malbora in Uc Kurus 3 Cemre Baysel in Ramo 2 Cemre Baysel in Ramo 3 Cemre Baysel in Ramo 4 Cemre Baysel in Senden Daha Guzel 1 Cemre Baysel in Senden Daha Guzel 2 Cemre Baysel in Senden Daha Guzel 3 Cemre Baysel in Senden Daha Guzel 4 Cemre Baysel in Senden Daha Guzel 5 Cemre Baysel in Senden Daha Guzel 6 Cemre Baysel in Senden Daha Guzel 7 Cemre Baysel in Senden Daha Guzel 14 Cemre Baysel in Baht Oyunu 1 Cemre Baysel in Baht Oyunu 2 Cemre Baysel in Baht Oyunu 3 Cemre Baysel in Baht Oyunu 17 Cemre Baysel in Sol Yanim 1 Cemre Baysel in Sol Yanim 2 Cemre Baysel in Elimi Birakma 1 Alina Boz in Elimi Birakma 1 Haya Maraachli in Qaid Majhol Haya Maraachli in Moment of Silence Maram Ali in The Platform 2 Shraddha Kapoor in Half Girlfriend Shraddha Kapoor in Street Dancer 3D Shraddha Kapoor in EK Villain Sidharth Malhotra in EK Villain Dorra Zarrouk in The Accused 1x01 Dorra Zarrouk in The Accused 1x02 Mayy Izzuddin in El-Brinseesa Beesa Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 1 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 2 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 3 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 4 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 5 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 6 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 7 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 8 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 9 Ana Brenda Contreras in Toda La Sangre 10 Ana Brenda Contreras in Dynasty S02 Ana Brenda Contreras in  Corazon Indomable 1 Ana Brenda Contreras in  Corazon Indomable 2 Ana Brenda Contreras in  Corazon Indomable 3 Ana Brenda Contreras in  Corazon Indomable 4 Ana Brenda Contreras in  Teresa 3 - 10 Amala Paul in Kudi Yedamaithe 2 Amala Paul in Kudi Yedamaithe 3 Bahar Sahin in Zalim Istanbul 2 Bahar Sahin in Zalim Istanbul 3 Bahar Sahin in Zalim Istanbul 4 Bahar Sahin in Gulumse Kaderine 1 Daniel Ezra in All American 1x01 (complete redo now im better at giffing) Daniel Ezra in All American 1x02 Daniel Ezra in All American 1x03 Daniel Ezra in All American 1x04 Jamie Campbell Bower in The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones Zeeko Zaki in FBI S01 Bill Skarsgard in Hemlock Grove S02 Elizabeth Lail in You 1x01 Elizabeth Lail in You 1x02 Elizabeth Lail in You 1x03 Elizabeth Lail in You 1x04 Elizabeth Lail in Countdown Joey King in The Kissing Booth 2 Jenna Coleman in Doctor Who 7x06 (Snowmen Christmas Special) Jordan Calloway in Black Lightning S02 Katie Stevens in The Bold Type 1x03 & 1x04 Josephine Langford in After Josephine Langford in After We Collided Josephine Langford in After We Fell Josephine Langford in After Ever Happy LaRoyce Hawkins in Chicago P.D. 7x03 Lewis Tan in Mortal Kombat Jessica McNamee in Mortal Kombat Jessica McNamee in The Meg Jessica McNamee in Upright S02 Lili Reinhart in Look Both Ways Lucy Hale in Ragdoll 1x01 Ozge Yagiz in Yemin 1 Ozge Yagiz in Yemin 2 Ozge Yagiz in Yemin 3 Remy Hii in Marco Polo 2x04 - 2x06 Camila Quieroz in Verdades Secretas II 1 Camila Quieroz in Verdades Secretas II 2 Camila Quieroz in Verdades Secretas II 3 Camila Quieroz in Pega Pega 2 Camila Quieroz in Pega Pega 3 Carlson Young in Scream 1x02 - 1x05 Willa Fitzgerald in Scream 1x01 Willa Fitzgerald in Scream 1x02 Willa Fitzgerald in Scream 1x03 Willa Fitzgerald in Scream 1x04 Willa Fitzgerald in Scream 1x05 Willa Fitzgerald in Dare Me 1x01 Willa Fitzgerald in Dare Me 1x02 Willa Fitzgerald in Reacher 1x01 Willa Fitzgerald in Reacher 1x02 Willa Fitzgerald in Reacher 1x03 Willa Fitzgerald in Reacher 1x04 Willa Fitzgerald in Reacher 1x05 Willa Fitzgerald in Dolly Parton’s Heartstrings 1x07 Marina Ruy Barbosa in Deus Salve o Rei 1 Marina Ruy Barbosa in Deus Salve o Rei 2 Marina Ruy Barbosa in Deus Salve o Rei 3 Marina Ruy Barbosa in Deus Salve o Rei 4 Marina Ruy Barbosa in O Setimo Guardiao 2 Marina Ruy Barbosa in O Setimo Guardiao 3 Marina Ruy Barbosa in O Setimo Guardiao 4 Marina Ruy Barbosa in O Setimo Guardiao 5 Neslihan Atagul in Kara Sevda 1 Neslihan Atagul in Kara Sevda 2 Neslihan Atagul in Kara Sevda 3 Neslihan Atagul in Kara Sevda 4 Neslihan Atagul in Kara Sevda 5 Neslihan Atagul in Kara Sevda 6 Neslihan Atagul in Kara Sevda 7 Neslihan Atagul in Dip 1 Neslihan Atagul in Dip 2 Neslihan Atagul in Dip 3 Neslihan Atagul in Dip 4 Neslihan Atagul in Dip 5 Neslihan Atagul in Dip 6 Neslihan Atagul in Gecenin Ucunda 1 Neslihan Atagul in Gecenin Ucunda 2 Neslihan Atagul in Gecenin Ucunda 3 Neslihan Atagul in Sefirin Kizi 1 Neslihan Atagul in Sefirin Kizi 2 Neslihan Atagul in Sefirin Kizi 3 Zahn McClarnon in Doctor Sleep Zahn McClarnon in The Last Manhunt Lily Gladstone in The Last Manhunt Zahn McClarnon in Reservation Dogs Zahn McClarnon in Westworld Zahn McClarnon in Hawkeye Zahn McClarnon in The Forever Purge Zahn McClarnon in Queen of The South Zahn McClarnon in The Son Zahn McClarnon in The Silencing Annabelle Wallis in The Silencing Annabelle Wallis in The Three Musketeers Annabelle Wallis in Peaky Blinders Annabelle Wallis in Annabelle Zahn McClarnon in Longmire

Okay I know for a fact I missed some but like...... my brain and hands are tired and this is the second time i’ve typed this out so jasdkfjsdfajf

hihi!! i hope both of ur guys day is going good! This is my first time requesting so im a little nervous i read ur rules over like ten times (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠) can u pls do Kou, Nene, and Hanako reading their s/o a bedtime story >w< ty in advance :3

A/N: Omg hihi its been awhile since we last posted but we're here and alive still~!! Oh and also If it makes you feel any better, this is actually our first ask 😭??? So we're really excited and decided to have both of us write for it, aren't you a lucky anon?! Anyways I hope you like it! ⎯ Mod ☠️ Omg...a request...Hello! ^^ We added Mitsuba to the list, I felt like a silly fella while writing for him. His brain makes me insane. ANYWAY, I actually didn't write angst. I can't remember the last time I did that. Enjoy~ ⎯ Mod👻 (if tumblr eats this again, I will cry)

Content: Fluff, slight angst if you squint in Hanako and Mitsuba's part, no gender mention for reader aside from the word 'prince' and 'princess' being used. Summary: Reading their s/o a bedtime story

Characters: Nene, Hanako, Mitsuba, Kou

A story about a girl who gets saved by her prince, not in an ideal way like she wanted it to be, but nonetheless, still fell for them anyways. ⎯ Once upon a time I had my eyes set out for a fairytale of my own, wanting to feel like a hopeless romantic with the person of my dreams. But to think that the person I've been dreaming of was actually beside me this whole time... Perhaps instead of me, it was them that was hopeless in the end.

It was during when you stayed over at her house and weren't able to sleep, that she suggested she'd tell you some of the latest stories she's been reading about. Some that you've already heard of (either from her already mentioning it before or seeing it in the media) while others not so much.

When NENE talks about her stories she's very enthusiastic about it. Happy to even have someone listening to her rant on and on about something she's been dying to talk about for awhile, but it's even more special when it's her S/O ⎯ especially if they were the ones to ask her first before she even got the chance to herself.

Her stories lean more towards romance for obvious reasons. Loving the tropes to the story is one thing, but another would be because of how she likes to imagine herself in those sort of scenarios. Embarrassed to even admit it out loud, though it's already clear why she likes them so much.

And although at first she was telling the stories to you to get you to fall asleep, it sometimes ends with you staying up a little later due to her getting a tad bit carried away.

Oh but if you do end up falling asleep right before her? You won't ever see or hear about it, unless you were pretending to be asleep, but Nene is definitely the type to give you a shy goodnights kiss. Feeling brave only because you were asleep, but if not, she'd totally cover her face as she fumes at how embarrassing it is to get caught in her sly act.

A story about a commoner boy who had a princess that loved him dearly, despite his backstory and everything he deemed as 'unworthy' of their love, nothing ⎯ not even his words, could sway their view of him. ⎯ Time and time again you run and hide from me. Behind that wall of doubt and insecurities there's something that you clearly don't see in yourself that I adore so much. When will you finally come to terms and see things my way? Love yourself as much as I love you.

It's weird how you decided to nap in the bathroom. Especially his bathroom where he's poking you constantly until you tell him off.

When HANAKO is reading you a story, he has you sleeping and leaning against his shoulder. His hand occasionally shifting your head back in place when he notices you nodding off or about to fall, or maybe even just doing it to use it as an excuse to pat your head ⎯ who knows? Clearly not you.

But the types of stories Hanako tends to read to you depends entirely on his mood. Whenever he's feeling like a jokester, he'd tell you horror stories just to see your scared reaction as you cling onto him ⎯ or when he's feeling a little solemn, he'd tell the sort of fairytale that ends with bad endings to them.

Differing between those two genres the most. But on the more rarer occasions, does he switch it up to something else.

Something odd, something you wouldn't even expect from him. Something ... that perhaps convey how he really feels but is too afraid to admit it out loud? It honestly depends up to you to actually catch onto it. If not? Then you probably won't ever hear that story again from him.

A story where a ghost finds a human and wishes to stand by their side ⎯ A story where death will not part them, for they belong together. ⎯ I keep thinking that I could be good enough for you - that you could love me as more than 'friends', maybe I am a bit selfish for thinking this. Not that I could ever say it to your face.

Someone decided to be nice today and bless you with a sleepover!! At your own house of course.

MITSUBA didn't plan on reading to you but you told him a few stories of your own. He wasn't sure why he did it. Perhaps it was the smile on your face every time you started reading to him, so he returned the favor.

He wasn't sure what to read until he came up with his own idea. A short story about a ghost, since he knew that firsthand. A story with a ghost about falling in love with a human, a story he...

As he told the story, he could see your smile slowly disappear, almost as if you realized he was the ghost in the story.

"The ghost never told them how he felt."

And that was the last thing he said before being engulfed in your arms. He knew this feeling - he's felt it before. That warm feeling.

The feeling of love.

The feeling of an old memory.

A story where the knight doesn't get the girl ⎯ oh...I guess this is a different ending. A story where the knight gets the prince, and they live a happy life. ⎯ I didn't change the ending! This is how it was meant to be! I...I suppose if you prefer for the knight to not fall for the prince then...Huh? You liked it?!

KOU brought a book of short stories over to your house. He was super excited to be able to stay the night.

Unfortunately for him, you had the same book and it just so happened to be your favorite!

Kou told the story as it was written for a bit.

Until he got to the end.

The story was meant to end with the prince marrying a princess but Kou couldn't bring himself to say it. Perhaps it was because he was never the prince. He was always second.

But it seemed that you didn't mind. It does get a bit boring reading the same story over and over again, and you did like listening to Kou talk.

"I'm...really happy you liked it." He says, almost struggling to get the words out as you blush and smile.

Maybe this really was his story, and that's why he rewrote the ending. Well, you can't say it's impossible for that ending to happen.

Foraging for Witchcraft

One of the great things about foraging specifically for Witchcraft is that you're not restricted to just edible things. You can forage/find stones, clay, bones, herbs, water, fruits and vegetables, wood and more.

I've made a post previously about how important low-cost Witchcraft is. So consider this a follow-up of things you can find for your practice that are completely free.

Some useful tools that are simple to forage if you are near the sea:

-Sea salt

Just gather filtered sea water in a pot and boil until salt crystals form. Then put the salt on a baking tray and either leave to sun dry or put it in the oven. You can also make infused salts and black salt like this

-Sea shells

They are common for love workings but are also great for protection, grind them up and use them in a protection salt (obviously not one you're going to eat)

-Sand

Often used for ritual magic, especially dyed sands. Also good for spell bags, planting certain plants, keep it in Jars or boxes and Bury things in it for a freezer spell.

-Stones and crystals

Of course I love flint, but there are many different stones based on your geographical location that will be good for Witchcraft. Quartz is great for protection, it doesn't have to be clear in order to work. White quartz is just fine.

-Sea glass

Sea glass is such a great form of protection, with colours from green to blue to brown and even a very rare red piece. Being infused with the ocean's energies really makes it special.

Some tools that are simple if you live near a forest/wooded area:

-Branches

Fallen branches can work as wands, divining rods, kindling for a fire, and depending on the type of wood they have different associations. You can make your own broomstick from collecting enough branches.

-Moss

Moss is often overlooked in magical practice, but it is an amazing type of plant that you can grow in a jar terrarium or dry and use in spell work. It is often the first thing to grow over dead wood or old stones, and as such it is Hardy and useful for hard times and new growth.

-Plants

So, so many different plants. Some edible plants like wild garlic have great uses in kitchen witchery, some poisonous plants like hemlock can be an amazing kick to your death work or baneful practice. What plants you can Forage will depend on your local area.

-Bones

Animal bones are a beautiful way to incorporate death and life into your practice. I usually let the Bones that want to be used for my practice come to me- if I can't find any more in a spot there used to be loads, I take that as a sign they did not want to be used/found a better resting place. I could do a whole post on cleaning and preparing Bones for your practice but vulture culture on tumblr has you covered.

Things you can Forage if you live in a city:

You may be surprised that I've included urban areas in this list. Most of what you can Forage here is more commonly thought of as rubbish, but it has excellent magical potential nonetheless.

-Broken glass

Excellent for baneful workings and baneful protection magic. Please be careful when collecting it, wear gloves and use a sealed container so no shards escape.

-Coins

Find a penny, pick it up and all the day you'll have good luck. I always keep the pennies I find on the pavement as a token of good luck.

-Beer bottle caps

I love collecting these and putting them in little jars. Corks can do a similar job when it comes to magic- keeping something in that you don't want coming out. Like an urban salt circle. Put a lid on it.

-Weeds

While you might not be in an area with abundant foliage and wildlife, you will undoubtedly be able to find weeds growing in the pavement or on gates and buildings. Ivy has great binding properties, dandelions are great for protection, shamrocks for luck ect.

-Feathers

These are easy to find if you live near pigeons and other birds. Please don't pick it up if there is a bird flu outbreak in your area, and as with bones make sure to wash them before bringing them into your home.

Heyyyy I’m kinda new to tumblr but I love your posts and was wondering if you could do one where reader has some sort of chronic illness and is having a particularly hard time so Wanda cheers her up. Maybe like a cute breakfast in bed or picnic?

I was recently diagnosed with a couple and a, having a hard time. This would mean so much to me. Of course no rush and I totally get it if you can’t.

Also I saw in one of your replies where the anon asks to be doll and you greet them that way. Could I be sweetheart? I’m not sure if that’s how it works.

Hmmm… Well, let's see what I can come up with. Sooo… I'm not a doctor, and besides, that wasn't really my focus. The thing is, a lot of people find it hard to face dietary restrictions, when they have a condition and the outside world doesn't always make it easy, so I wanted to focus on that and also explain that it doesn't have to be impossible. You can still enjoy all the things you love, you can still eat delicious foods, while staying healthy.

Please, also note that I wrote this fairly quickly, so it may not be my best work.

I'm not sure if that's what you were hoping for, but I hope you like it.

Warnings: Disease, dietary restrictions, angst, fluff, happy ending, domestic sweetness… I think that's it? If I missed anything, let me know

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You always thought of yourself as a healthy person. You had the normal pains and aches, got the flu or a stomach virus sometimes, but generally, you felt good. You never felt the need for any special check-ups, so you went grudgingly, only to appease your girlfriend’s mind. She worried too much. And she had lost so much too, that the fear of losing you as well, was almost crippling at times. That’s why you agreed. You just wanted her to feel more at ease. Everything was going to be just fine. Or at least that’s what you told her. But it was not just fine… High blood sugar levels prompted the doctor to take more tests. And it was a good thing he did. When he called you to his office, closing the door behind him, Wanda had started to play nervously with her rings, but at least he had the good sense to let her inside first, otherwise you feared your girlfriend would have broken down the door from worry. It turned out you had Type 2 diabetes. It was manageable. A lot of people lived with it and led perfectly normal, happy lives. You could too. But you had to make some adjustments to your diet. You had to monitor the disease and yourself, otherwise you could suffer serious consequences. When the doctor explained it all, gave you a list of recommended foods and also advised you what to stay away from, handed you a prescription for medication and advised on regular check-ups with him, as well as keeping your blood pressure low, it all seemed very simple. Except, Wanda spent the next week buried in research, giving away the cookies she had baked for you just the night before to the neighbours, making a whole new groceries list to accommodate your condition, it started to dawn on you that it wasn’t going to be simple. What made it worse, was the fact that suddenly everywhere you went, there was temptation. You would walk to work, passing by fast food places and burger joints, your colleagues would bring doughnuts to the office, you had to bring your own decaf and refrain from adding your favorite milk, random people would be eating sugary sweets, they’d be drinking all kinds of carbonated sweet drinks, or invite you to that steak house after work. Even just the air smelled like fried goods. It was everywhere. All the food you were meant to stay away from, right there, in front of your eyes. It was driving you crazy.

One afternoon, you were taking a walk in the nearby park after work to clear your head and you saw an ice-cream stand, a group of children waiting in line to buy their favorite flavours and for some reason you snapped. You could hardly wait to get home, and greeted with the sweet, loving face of your girlfriend, you broke down. You were shaking, tears streaming down your face as you tried to explain to her through sobs what had upset you so much and it broke her heart, to know that you were taking it so harshly and that she hadn’t noticed how much it hurt you. In the end you begged her to forget all those diets and just let you lead a normal life. The medication would help. And if you had complications – so be it. You didn’t want to live like this! Wanda calmed you down with kind, soothing words and she helped you out of your work clothes, picking out soft clothes for you to wear at home, trying to tell you that everything was going to be just fine. She would make sure of it. She tried to move past dinner as quickly as possible, seeing the unshed tears in your eyes, when you were met with the green salad and grilled vegetable she had prepared and she cuddled you on the couch, picking out your favorite movie to watch, until you were all sleepy and relaxed. Once she put you to bed, Wanda once again buried herself in research, but this time a completely different kind. She had her mind set that she would help you feel more at ease with your new dietary restrictions and showing you that the disease didn’t mean you couldn’t have a good, delicious meal. The next morning she woke extra early, running to the store to get all the things she needed for the special meal she had in mind and she came home, starting to prepare everything, hoping to be able to finish before you even woke up. When you did, you were greeted by your girlfriend sitting at the edge of the bed, a steaming cup of coffee in her hand. “I made it especially for you.” Wanda whispered as she offered it to you. “I got you vegan almond milk. Now you can have cappuccinos every morning.” She explained, already knowing what you were thinking. “Really?” You could barely contain yourself, sitting up, so you could take the cup from her hands and take a sip. “Is that sugar?” “Sweetener.” She explained with a smile. “And I have a surprise for you for lunch. So drink up, baby.” Wanda watched you go through your regular routines, and she smiled happily as she saw you finish your first cup of coffee, after 2 weeks of drinking nothing but plain decaf. She spent the morning with you, mostly talking and showering you with affection, watching you relax and feel more at ease, until she told you she’s taking you to the park. Suddenly you were feeling all the negative emotions from the previous day rushing back, but Wanda was quick to soothe you.

“I have something good planned for you, baby. I promise. Please, trust me?” She spoke and you couldn’t help but melt at her words, nodding slowly at her invitation to take you out. She had prepared everything in advance. All the food she had made placed in special containers and she quickly put them in a bag, grabbed your picnic blanket and the two of you walked there, hand in hand, while Wanda tried to distract you from your thoughts. As soon as you entered, you saw all the ice-cream stands and the little booths selling sodas and you felt yourself stiffen, but she settled you down on the fresh grass, choosing a spot away from all that, spreading the blanket and starting to take out all the little containers with a big smile and you couldn’t help but feel excitement. “For lunch, I have made you…” She paused for dramatic effect, holding the container. “Burgers!” She exclaimed, opening the box to show you her creation. “It’s a grilled vegetable patty, with a bun made from whole grains, entirely vegan, low-fat cheese and leafy greens. I made the sauces myself. Everything there is good for you. I promise it will be amazing!” She explained with pride and you could help but beam at her, hugging her tightly and burying your nose in her neck so you could breathe her in. She had made all this for you! To make you feel more at ease. To make you happy and you couldn’t help the warm, loving feeling that spread over you at her efforts. “And that’s not all!” She said with a wide grin. “Home-made lemonade, made with water, freshly squeezed or blended fruits, mint leaves and a squeeze of lemon.” She explained, as she pulled out a bottle. “I also have all your favorite fruits for dessert.” She said with a smile, one of her hands touching your face and stroking your cheek affectionately. “Thank you, Wanda! This is incredible! And it looks so delicious!” “Anything for you, love.” She said with a thoughtful smile. “I’m sorry it took me so long to notice how unhappy you were. I was so focused on getting you to eat only what was best for you, that I didn’t consider how hard it must be to watch everyone else eat all the things you shouldn’t. But I have several new recipes to try, and I promise, it will all be ok. You can have everything you like… With a twist.” She winked at you, making you laugh. “You are… Just marvellous. I’m the luckiest woman in the world to have you!” “So are you, my precious girl. Never forget that.” She smiled once again. “Now eat up, I want to know what you think.” She encouraged. As you took your first bite, you could tell the difference easily, but you also realized that it was absolutely delicious! You couldn’t even believe how much time and work it had taken her to research and make all that, but the end result was spectacular and you didn’t stop telling her that throughout the entire meal. The hours in the park passed by you quickly, while she fed you fruits, as the two of you talked or just cuddled on the blanket and as you decided to head home, gathering all your things, you couldn’t help but look at the place with a whole different view. The stands with ice-cream, sweets and soda didn’t look so tempting anymore. They were just regular things. “I’ll make you home-made ice-cream. I have a recipe.” Wanda whispered in your ear, when she spotted where you were looking and in that moment, as you took Wanda’s hand in yours, you knew that there was nothing you couldn’t face, while you had her by your side.   ______________________________________________________ Why wouldn't it work that way, sweetheart? If that's what you want to be called, than it's my pleasure.

Dark Red (Steve Lacy Inspo)

Pairing: Elliot (Euphoria) x Female!Reader

Summary: After weeks of being apart, the Reader and Elliot are finally reunited and plan to take advantage of their alone time- that is, until a dreaded monthly visitor decides to make an appearance.

Warnings: S*M*U*T, swearing, mentions of drugs and alcohol, mentions of blood and menstruating MINORS DNI.

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A/n: Guys look! Something that isn't a request or a multipart series! I'm posting something I thought of on my own, well actually I dreamed this exact same scenario and I needed to get it out into the world of tumblr 😌 be blessed.

When I was 13, I had braces put in and the orthodontist immediately gave me a list of foods that I wasn't allowed to eat. Chew candy, gum, coffee, chicken wings- the list goes on but 13 year old me took not being able to eat candy to a personal level.

I wore braces for nearly two years to fix the crooked teeth I had and, that whole time, I went without my favorite types of candies. I missed the sweet and chewy, mouth-watering flavors that would ease my preteen heartache and mestrual cramps.

That has to be as close to torture as you can get.

That need, the way that I missed eating candy for those two years, is a very similar feeling that I feel now as I watch Elliot's location ping on Life 360 as he turns onto my street. I can feel my blood pumping in my fingertips as I itch to reach out to the door, to whip it open so I can meet him in the driveway but instead I take a breath and sit myself down.

It's been too long since we've seen each other, too long since I've touched him, kissed his lips, tasted him. We've both been in this state of limbo, wanting and needing each other more than facetime has been able to offer us.

I'm on my feet again as soon as I hear the doorknob jiggle and I can't fight the grin that's slipping across my lips as Elliot appears in the doorway, stepping across the threshold. He drops his bags and scoops me up into his arms as quickly as he can, burying his face in the crook of my neck.

"Hi." I coo, dragging my fingers through his curls, loving the feeling of his body pressed so tightly against mine. He walks me further into the house, not bothering to let me go as he steps down the hallway and I already anticipate where he's bringing me.

A giddy laugh escapes me as he tosses me onto our bed, sliding down on top of me and quickly meeting my lips, ignoring the incessant meows coming from our cat in the livingroom.

"You have zero clue how much I've missed you." I whisper against his lips, keeping up with his quick and desperate kisses and I can feel my body heating up beneath his.

"Missed your lips." He mutters, hands reaching up to grope at my breasts, pushing the material of my tank top down to drag his thumbs carefully across my peaked nipples. "Missed these." He moans, immediately sucking one between his lips, tongue swirling around the hardened nub and I can feel myself growing wetter by wetter as he continues his torment.

"Fuck, just fuck me, we can do slow later." I beg, practically clawing his shirt off, tossing it onto the floor as I find his lips once more, his own hands now picking my pathetic excuse for a pair of shorts down my legs.

"Just what I wanted to hear." He whispers with a cocky grin, fingers soothing back and forth on my thighs before dipping further, hooking in the waist of my panties. "Stop holding back, I wanna hear you." He asks, careful fingers skillfully circling my clit as my back arches. "Come on, sweetheart. You wanted me so badly- show me how desperately you want me to fuck you."

"I'm going to rip my hair out if you don't fuck the life out of me right now." I groan, giving him a pleading, angry look which forces a laugh from him, his hands prying my panties away from my body and in an instant he's slipping out of his clothing.

"As you wish." He whispers, chasing my lips as I spread my legs to accommodate him but he just rolls onto his back and gives my butt a playful pat. "Get on top." I pout at him, lip jutting out pathetically at the thought of putting my thighs through the pressure of the repeated up and down that I'm getting myself into. "Put in the work, I'll make it worth your while." He offers, voice lingering with a teasing tone to it and I grin, slipping on top of him without another word.

Dragging his tip against my slit, he moans lowly, eyes widening as I sink down on top of him and the delicious stretch forces my lips to part in a silenced moan. I struggle to catch my breath and I can feel myself slipping, hands flattening on his chest as my head spins. Elliot chuckles breathlessly and proudly, hand reaching up to softly cup my cheek.

"Who do you belong to?" He asks, eyes not leaving mine for a second. I feel another wave of arousal wash over me as my lips tremble, skin pebbling in goosebumps as I try desperately to form the words sitting on the tip of my tongue.

"You."

"Damn right." He grins, hands slipping down to rest on my hips to help drag me calculatedly against mine, his cock slipping in and out of me with careful precision. He knows he needs to be gentle with me at first, to give me time to adjust before pounding up into me but, right now, all bets are off and his hips are slamming up into mine after only a few moments of adjusting.

I squeal loudly, upper body collapsing onto him as I try to keep up with his thrusts but the pleasure is too much. I can feel it in my fingertips, the way he continuously taps that spongy spot just right, forcing high pitched whines from me every time he slips back into me.

I cling onto him desperately, fingers fisting in his hair, lips dragging against the shell of his ear as he whispers quiet coos to me, his voice a completely opposite feeling compared to the roughness of his hands and pounding of his hips.

"You're taking me so well- fuck baby." Elliot moans, pushing me back up into a sitting position as his eyes gawk at the way he slips in and out of me. His lip tucks between his teeth, biting back the plethora of moans and curses that want to escape him and, if I was more coherent, I'd tell him to let all those noises out.

"You've gotta stop talking like that or I'm going to cum."

"Then do it." His thumb circles my clit and I can feel my walls clenching hard around them as I chase my high, biting into my lip as hard as I can so as to not disrupt our neighbors who are probably sleeping right now.

"Fuck, Elly, I-"

"Fuck, you're squeezing me so tight. Does that feel good?" He asks breathlessly but I can tell by the tone in his voice that he already knows the answer to his question. My lips part in a silent moan as I finally topple over the edge, body shaking against his as I dig my nails into his chest, trying to ground myself to reality the best I can.

"You're so good, Elly-"

"Fuck, don't move." Elliot freezes and it takes me a moment to understand what he said, my eyes now finally clearing up from the blurry haze that my orgasm caused.

"What?" I ask breathlessly, eyes following his gaze to look down at where he slips into me, hands keeping me fully seated on him as blood drips out of me and onto the base of his cock. "Oh my god." My hand covers my mouth as a mortified wave of embarrassment passes through me, my head spinning at the sight of my period that couldn't have come at a worse time. "Elliot, I'm so sorry- fuck." I can feel my lip wobbling pathetically and my eyes water, one lonesome tear trailing down my cheek.

"Okay, hold on." Elliot mutters.

"Are you mad?" I ask, taking his silence as a sort of disinterest and/or disgust but he shakes his head immediately, eyes lifting finally to look up at me, hands lifting to cup my cheeks in his large hands.

"Fuck no? I can tell by the look on your face that you're equally as fucking shocked, babe." He lets out a small laugh that has my anxiety soothing away, heart rate slowing just a bit. "I'm just thinking about how to slip out of you in the least messy way." He bites at his lip and I watch him think, my own thoughts running with the thought of 'how I couldn't have seen this coming?'. I don't know how I would've missed this. "Alright, hold on."

In a second, Elliot scoops me up in his arms, not bothering to slip out of me as he carefully makes his way to his feet, trying not to make a mess.

"I feel horrible." I mumble, tucking my face into the crook of his neck and I bite back the self-conscious words that want to escape me but I know better than that, Elliot would always make me feel better instead of worse.

"Why?" Elliot asks, stepping into the bathroom where he places me down onto the cold countertop, grabbing a towel before carefully slipping out of me. A small pout slips across my lips as he wipes my inner thighs up, cleaning them with a concentrated look on his face, brows furrowed and his tongue pokes out between his lips.

"You didn't cum." I huff, reaching out to shove him playfully but he just shrugs.

"But you did, yeah?" He quizzes and I feel his point hitting me in the face, a small, relieved smile slipping across my lips. "Good enough for me. I'm just glad to be home with you." He smiles, leaning back to he can flip the shower on and I can already feel the warm, comforting water soothing my aching muscles.

"Care to join me in the shower?" I ask, wrapping my arms around his neck, giving him a flirty look and a grin. His brows raise in a surprised look and he looks back at the shower while he nods eagerly.

"I would be an idiot to decline that invitation."

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Halloween Movie Watchlist

Hi guys! It's spooky season so I'm trying to come up with a list of horror movies and Halloween movies to watch to celebrate! I want to watch one movie a night, and I want to watch mostly movies I've never seen before!! I've got a small list of the classics/my favorites:

Hocus Pocus - if you're American (or I guess just acitve on Tumblr) and have been paying attention to Halloween media at all in the last decade, you've definitely heard of this one! In case you haven't: a teenager accidentally reawakens 3 child-eating witches and must stop them before they eat the youth of every child in town. Sounds a bit scary like that, but it's one of the absolute best family Halloween movies around

The Conjuring - my favorite horror movie ever! So scary, so well acted. The actual story is a bunch of scammers (with the Warren's being the biggest liars/scammers of them all), but the movie's great! Synopsis: a family moves into a new house and scary/supernatural things begin to occur, seemingly focusing on the mother.

Halloweentown - back to the realm of 'family friendly', this is another absolute banger from my childhood. A teenage girl learns she's a witch and must use her new powers to save Halloweentown, a magical place where Halloween is 24/7

The Vigil - I watched this fairly recently and I was very impressed! A Jewish horror movie about a young man who must sit watch over a dead body (which is a Jewish custom I'm forgetting the name of), but supernatural forces begin to haunt him

The Nightmare Before Christmas - back to the more fun ones, this movie is probably the most quintessential 'Halloween movie' in my mind, I think I've watched it every year since I was born! Jack Skellington, the king of Halloween, grows weary of celebrating the same holiday over and over. When he discovers a portal to Christmastown, he gets filled with excitement over something new and decides to try his hand at being king of that instead

The Possession - another Jewish horror story about a Dybbuk box, a box containing a malicious spirit, that finds its way into the hands of a young girl and begins terrorizing her family. Based on a true story! Based here being the operative word, but the owners of the box do seem to consistently say they were genuinely afraid of the box (although no deaths have been attributed to it as far as I know)

Fear Street 1994, 1978, and 1666: technically 3 movies, but all part of a series based off of the books by R. L. Stine. Phenomenal movies, I loved everything about them and want to own them on DVD. This story follows a group of mostly teens as they uncover the truth of the curse of Shadyside, a town where serial killers seem remarkably common. Also has excellent LGBTQ rep (sapphic) and genuinely some of the best storytelling and 'unraveling' I have ever seen (in my opinion)

The Exorcist - a cult classic for a reason, the movie that kicked off the exorcism movie craze that continues to this day (The Exorcist: Believer, anyone?). A young girl begins to display horrifying changes in personality and her mother is desperate to find answers, so she reaches out to a priest. I like this movie a lot, but it may seem kinda hokey to those more used to the more 'modern' special effects. I also love this one because they don't let themselves get bogged down on the specifics of the 'why' and the 'how', bad things happen to good people for no reason all the time (the explanation at the end of Hereditary really undid the whole movie for me)

Halloween - it's literally called Halloween, how could I not include it? This one is my favorite of the franchise because I, personally, really dislike gore (specifically painful body horror like in Saw and later installments). Not that there's anything wrong with those types of movies, just not my personal cup of tea. This movie is much slower and much more thriller type than you might expect if your only knowledge of the franchise is the latest (2020 +) movies, but it is masterful in its suspense and its overbearing, black, ominous, foreboding feeling it evokes.

Bram Stoker's Dracula (1992) - can't have Halloween without Dracula! This is my favorite of the adaptations, I love the music, the sets, the casting, the costuming. It's beautiful and grandiose and suffocating and terrifying (and not totally SFW so maybe look up some details before watching with kids) and also a bit long so keep that in mind. A real estate agent travels to remote Romania to settle a land deal for a wealthy recluse, only to find his life and the lives of those around him irrevocably changed when the mysterious man takes a keen interest in his fiancé

That's 12 if you count Fear Street as 3, or only 9 if you wanna watch them all together (as I usually do, I really love those movies), and I'm gonna work out a specific order if I get a few more suggestions. Please add on and give me your ideas! I'm trying to focus more on Halloween movies - some connection to the holiday or more 'traditional' Halloween monsters like vampires, witches, werewolves, and ghosts - but there's more than a few non-Halloween movies on there so don't be afraid to add your fav scary movie too!

whats your #1 most strongly held izaya opinion? (your metaphorical hill to die on so to speak) and also whats your #1 favorite thing about izaya

OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank u for the ask. let me see.....

i think it's that he is so fucking interesting. and i think there is a lot of mental illness hiding behind his weird freakish (affectionate) smile. for starters he absolutely has bpd and cptsd. i think having to take care of his sisters and not having his parents around growing up took a toll on him. yes shinra was the trigger for him to go crazy mode but izaya didn't exactly have a normal childhood before that either i feel.

the way i imagine it is he most likely had to grow up faster than what he would have wanted to and for anyone i think that would be really detrimental to their development. we really don't get any insight into how he feels about his childhood or his parents so i'm just going off of what we do know and my own brain it just makes sense to me...!

ughru...........i rly want narita to explore izaya's character throughout the years. not just his childhood either but i am so interested in what he was like during college too. i am just very interested in him really haha. (^□^)

but anyways i think that him seeing himself as a god or some other kind of omnipotent deity is just a way to shut off his human emotions and whatever else he deems unnecessary. because what good do they do him...?

(he's actually quite similar to scaramouche genshin impact hehe... unfortunately scara can actually cook so i have to dock a point there but whatever.)

(my writing is not as eloquent atm as everyone else i see on tumblr who analyze izaya like this i'm sorry but i hope you understand i think really hard about him as a person and how his brain works.)

now. my number one favorite thing about izaya.

the answer is simple: he is sickeningly cute.🤬🤬🤬🤬

he's getting people to join a gang and going around planting the seeds for disasters all throughout Ikebukuro and all this crazy shit and WHAT is he wearing? bunny(???) slippers. he's sulking over eating hotpot alone. he pretends to be a girl on the internet. i'd be a fool to not want to wife him immediately. he makes me feel like this.

also when he uses kaomojis it makes me wanna run around in circles he drives me CRAZY. 24 yr old man still typing cutesy like that... how could i not fall for him.

the thing about izaya is the whole town of ikebukuro thinks he's this really dark and brooding evil dude but that's because he wants them to! the truth is he is just some guy who's just trying to catch the hanamaru kindergarten reruns on tv. ughhhhhhhhhhh i love him so bad.

this is just me making fun of him but 3 million yen wheelchair?💀 i need to know the full list of "gimmicks" it includes cuz i just feel like no matter what it's not enough to warrant that price tag.

but again thank u for your ask. i rambled a bit here and there but i hope you enjoyed my answer. i had a lot of fun typing it ^_^

hello tumblr friends who live in my phone i just wanted to pop in real quick and let everyone know that I Am (somehow) Still Alive since i mentioned being very sick last month and did not want anyone 2 think i had finally Expired. wish i could say i'm doing better this month but while im definitely nowhere near as miserable as i was in April, i've been spending this month trying to deal with Sickness Aftershocks that have been making all of my long term autoimmune diseases/health issues in general flare up randomly really bad at pretty much completely random times and i also have a whole new fun set of similar feeling but definitely different and 100x worse physical health problems and its been extremely difficult to try and power through all of it like i'm used to doing for the 26 years i have been alive 😔 but i'm still hangin in there. idk how at this point lmao. subconscious fight or flight survival mode i guess. i'm like 99% sure i somehow caught one of the new covid mutations in April unfortunately despite the lifelong Agoraphobia and 3+ years of effort i've done to do literally everything in my ability to stay protected against it but. thats life i guess, u leave the house one or two times masked up hand sanitizer ready to go sweating from being overheated wearing clothes that cover as much of ur skin as u can stand and other people just Dont. so. i knew it would probably happen to me eventually i just was really hoping it would not! but. i will continue surviving as best i can because i dont have any other option or choice. but that is why i've unintentionally been distant here and online in general. it was already extremely difficult getting myself out of bed and taling showers and changing clothes and brushing my teeth and remembering to eat food and drink water before but now its reached a difficulty that i literally can't have any control over most of the time and its a lot of physical/mental/emotional effort to even tap reblog on a post online or respond to a text more so than it was previously. which again was already. very difficult to power through.

anyways! uh! yeah. life update i guess. i hope you guys are genuinely doing much better than i am this year and i hope you're all able to stay safe and as relatively healthy as you can. and please please please please at the very least wear some form of a face mask in public even if you're outside and not in a tiny building. i dont say that to shame anyone here i just feel like there are a lot of well meaning good people who arent fully aware that in the US at least the pandemic is very much not over and people like myself are suffering and dying because of that and we cant be the only group of people that are still doing our best to stay protected when we have to leave the house. if you're able to get some i highly recommend N95 type face masks because supposedly they offer one of the best chances of protection as long as you're wearing it correctly and it fits your face well; there's a really great non-profit organization called Project N95 that has an official website and a huge list of various face masks in a bunch of different sizes and types to order if you don't know where to find some high quality ones and they also have a form you can fill out and submit to request an order of free masks if you can't afford to buy them; their money donation pool goes towards providing masks (and some air purifiers i think?) to low income people/organizations/work places that doesn't have the funds or resources to constantly buy expensive batches of masks and their website is super detailed and well organized and has a long list of visual and written resources and information about different mask types, ways you can help keep yourself/your community safe, etc. so i highly recommend them if you are like me and are very stressed and anxious and confused about all of that information all the time. their site should be the at the top of the search results if you google N95 Project, it has a dot org site url so thats another way you can tell its the official site.

Gluten-Free Pasta Tips (coeliac & gluten intolerance)

First of all, hi to the new followers. I hope you’ve all found this blog useful so far, and I will try to keep content coming at a reasonable pace (spoons permitting). Today I’m going to recycle a post from my personal Tumblr regarding gluten-free pasta - what to look for in a good one, and how to treat it. After all, my last post was a pasta recipe and I have a few more to share over the next little while, so it seems fair to make those taste better for those of us with gluten issues.

(Side note: I’m actually getting tested for coeliac properly. I mean, I have issues with gluten either way, and I know that, but it’s probably important to know whether it’s coeliac or not. Wish me luck!)

There are some issues with eating gluten-free, especially when it involves things that are generally made with wheat flour, like pasta. Since pasta is one of those easy dishes for those of us with any kind of spoon deficiency, having a good gluten-free pasta is really useful for those of us whose issues involve gluten intolerance of any kind. I’d been picking gluten-free pasta the hit and miss way for years until my brain actually started working and I realised that, if I wanted to know what gluten-free pastas were good and which were bad, I should check the ingredients list, since the types of non-wheat flours used probably made a difference. I currently have three brands of gluten-free pasta in my house, from three different supermarkets. One is good enough. The other two are … much, much less good. (I keep them in case of emergencies.) After having compared the ingredients lists of all three pastas, I think I see where the issues are, so I’m passing along that information.

The worst of the lot is basically plain rice flour and about three different kinds of corn flour. There’s no ‘done’ index on this stuff - you maybe have a half-second of hot water between “al dente and a really weird texture” and “overcooked and falling apart”, and it tastes like cardboard. So if you’re only looking at rice and corn flour in the ingredients list? You’re probably not going to enjoy the pasta that results.

The almost palatable pasta is actually mostly corn flour, with some rice flour. Again, the index of ‘done’ is narrow as hell, but it might be palatable in a pasta bake, so long as you take a really generous view of what you consider ‘al dente’ when you’re putting half-cooked pasta into your pasta bake. It’s just kind of crap on its own, texture going from ‘soggy cardboard’ to just plain slimy in a very short time.

The one I more or less like is rice flour, whole wheat rice flour, a little bit of corn flour, and a little bit of quinoa flour. This stuff stands up well in a pasta bake (or lasagne, since that supermarket - Sainsbury’s, for you Brits - uses the same basic mix throughout its gluten-free range) but also stands on its own topped with pesto or in the tuna broccoli lemon pasta from the last post. It’s got a really narrow index of ‘done’, but most gluten-free pasta’s like that, and this blend’s not as bad as the other two for that.

So basically for gluten-free pasta that’s reasonably close to your standard wheat pasta, you’re looking for a mix that’s a fair bit of rice flour but with brown as well as white rice flour, some corn flour but not too much, and some quinoa flour. Or at least that’s what my experiments have unearthed. Also, those of you who do cook with gluten-free pasta might have noticed that it gets incredibly starchy. The trick to dealing with that is use more water - and more salt - than you generally need, and try not to let it get to a full boil. That way your overly starchy water won’t boil over and make a burnt-starch mess of your stovetop, plus it pulls more of the ‘too starchy’ out of the pasta itself, helping the texture a bit. Also, take the pot off the stove a bit before it’s done and let it sit for a minute or two, then rinse in hot water. The water in the pot will cook the pasta that last little bit while off the boil, making it easier to differentiate between that weird texture al dente gluten-free pasta gets without overcooking, and the hot water you rinse it with will not only finish the job, but also wash off some of the excess starch.

It’s still not quite the same as a good pasta with plain old wheat flour, but if gluten gives you problems, that’s the trick - anything that’s not just plain rice flour and corn flour, in a bigger pot with more water than you might consider you need, don’t let it get to a full-on roiling boil, and rinse with hot water before serving. It helps.

Next up: another recipe, either for chicken broccoli pasta bake, stovetop sausage hotpot, or low-spoon chocolate fudge - I haven’t decided which yet. Suggestions gratefully received (though all three will show up eventually).

Tag how many mutuals you want to ask these 33 questions to

1).Name and nickname: Cameron but everyone calls me Cam of course

2).meaning of your tumblr username: its how my name would be pronounced in Japanese

3).What is one dream you have yet to accomplish?traveling outisde the country,,seeing the places I have on my travel bucket list

4).What accomplishment are you most proud of? having my own space both physically and mentally just an quiet and calm life

5).What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done and would you do it again? I went bungie jumping before and am questioning if ill actually do it again

6).What type of music are you into?: I listen to alot alternative rap rock n roll and dream pop, indie artist and some old school here and there

7).What's the most embarrassing thing you've ever done?public speaking infrontof my elementary class in an play

8).What’s the one thing that people always misunderstand about you? my whole personality

9).If a genie granted you 3 wishes right now, what would you wish for?To be an billionare but no known or famous, to be married to Rihanna lol and to have all of the hot cheetos i can eat without getting heart burns

10).If you had superpowers, which one would you have and why?: mines would be teleportation so I would never get caught lacking 😅

11).What is the strongest animal you could win against with just your bare hands and feet?I would say racoon when there not looking at me..sooo am going to sneak them pretty much

12).What is your strongest qualities?: trustworthiness, loyalty,observant and crazy still 😂

13).What's the best advice a family member gave you growing up?:never trust anybody..not even the ones close to you

14).if you could have an one night stand with anybody who would it be?..it could even be an mutual if you like or celebrity: i want be too spicy..ill let yall answer that lol

15).Ethnicity & Nationality and do you take pride in it?: Black Americana with a little bit of native American because my great great grandma was native I think 😑😅

16).hobbies or talents: I know how to write poetry but to shy to speak it.I've done martial arts Like Boxing,Muay thai and kickboxing plus alittle bit of Brazilian jiu-jitsu.I also love dancing and doing sports like soccer,Baseball and track and field.but lastly I love watching anime and tv shows/movies.

17).what is your fashion style: i love streetwear so pretty much alot of oversized stuff. i love to mix it up wearing comfy and cozy clothing just chilling i guess ,love matching colors together and i love pearls!.

18).What do most people overestimate or underestimate about you? i think most people underestimate me because am an slim guy the usual things and how petty I can get because i can get real petty for shits and giggles lol

19)..are you an lover or fighter: both at times i love intimacy and physicality if I have too lol

20).If someone narrated your life, who would you want to be the narrator?: Tyler the creator

21).What problem are you currently grappling with?: Anxiety

22).What's your favorite physical attribute about yourself?: My hair

23).What hobby/talent have you always wanted to develop?:playing the guitar

24).What’s the certain product you couldn’t live without? chapstick becuase my lips can get dry quick sometimes lol

25).what is one thing you would change about yourself: try to be more calmer and less anger at times

26).What personality traits did you get from your parents?: well i think i have there sense of humor and straightforwardness..no time for Bullshit

27).Which one do you prefer: being controlled or be in control?: well if were being kinky i like to be in control and for her to be in control if shes ontop lol

28).What are your phobias? spiders..spiders..spiders and spiders and i think i hate heights too especially i might piss me pants lol

29).What qualities do you want in a partner who will be with you for the rest of your life?: funny,smart,goofy,weird and needs to love anime or else lol.someone who isnt afriad to show there emotions on there sleeve to me ..someone am comfortable to talk too

30).Who is your role model in life? Idk never really had like an role model i know personally .

31).What are the things that drive you crazy? ppl who burp to much or loud,,eating with your mouth open.. people whos always gossiping ...overly loud people and ppl who always trying to start drama

32).Do you plan to have kids?:yes and i want twins or an daughter

33).Would you rather visit your ancestors in the past or meet your descendants in the future? going to the future because we already know what happened in the past..aint no way lol

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heloooooooo, i;m sorry you're not having the best day!

if you haven't drunk any water in a while, please have a small glass, and maybe put one of those vitamin c dissolvable tablets in if you're feeling under the weather, it might help.

if you've been sitting for a while, stretch your legs and maybe sit up straight to give your back a break, or get a pillow or something.

if you're cold, get a jumper or a blanket or something cozy, and have a snack if you're hungry!!!!!

i'm so sorry if things aren't going incredibly well for you this week or today or whatever time period it is, but i promise you it will get better and you will feel good again and you know tomorrow is another day, and it may surprise you by being an absolutely amazing day that you weren't expecting!

i hope you walk somewhere today and see a cat and are able to stroke it a bit and have a nice couple minutes with the cat, and then you get a muffin or brownie or some crisps or cake or soemthing along those lines and and eat it whilst watching gilmore ggirls or another comfort show, and the day's overall quality just goes up!

ummm, what else. i can tell you about my day. i have eaten my body weight in special k istg. the chokehold that cereal has on me is ridiculous. i realized that once upon a time is no longer on netflix and is now on disney+, with i dont have, which was pretty annoying as i am currently craving hook/emma interactions and cuteness. yk how sometimes you are really just in the mood for one specific type of cute couple will they wont they enemies to lovers interaction, from two specific people, and then when you realise it's not available to you it'sjust so annoying. yeah, that kinda sucked, but i just watched rory and logan episodes of gilmore girls and felt better :)!

also, i just bought shadow and bone, the first book from that whole series. i was wondering if you've read it? i've heard from some people on here that it is really good, sothat is something to look forward too :)!

ummmm, what else is there to ramble about. idk if you've noticed but i'm trying to distract you from any bad or not nice things that might be happening, and i am going to continue to do this until i run out of words in my brain. gotta cheer up my favouritr tumblr big sister!!!

i have been obsessively listening to maisie peters today! do you watch caitlin marie reacts an youtube? i love her and i just binged all her maisie reactions this morning and spent the rest of the day obsessively listing to her eps and watching live performances. if you haven't already, you should listen to her music! it's really good! i watched her performance with james bay of funeral so many times today, it's just so good! so yeah, that's what the music has been like today.

oh, also i was sitting on my bed, just listening to music, and i was sitting cross legged, and my cat came and sat on me, kinda facing outwards and stretching his whole body out onto my leg, which was really cute and adorable, but he is also a large boy and didn't get off for an hour so by the time he did, the leg cramp was ridiculous istg. it took me five minutes to be able to use it again. so yeah, that happened. he's very sweet though so i'll forgive him.

have you got any plans for the next week? if so, what type of things are they. it is currently a week off from school for me so i am going to laze around, study a bit, listen to music, and maybe see friends at some point. very lazy week :)

soooooo, yeah. i can't really think of anything else to day but i hope this maybe made you feel better and if you were already feeling better before reading this then i hope this kept your mood at that good level.

idk, the amount of rambling in this is riduclous, i should stop, so yeah, byeeeeeeeee

(also no pressure to answer this, i just hope it makes you smile)

hellooo izzy🥺💗

i'm feel a lot better now :) i ate smth and took a bath so :) and i'm pretty cozy in my blanket rn :)

right??? cereal is so good??? wtf??? oooh i haven't watched ouat so as i have disney+ i might watch it now :D and yes yes yess i totally get that feeling bestie!! sjsjsj u can always count on rory and logan to make u feel better lol<3

noooo i haven't read it :( tho it's on my tbr FOREVER aahh!! also i heard that shadow and the bone trilogy is not that good but six of crows duology is better?? idk anyway rn i am ready city of bones by cassandra clare it's good i think tho i am not getting much time to read :(

awww i noticed🥺🥹💕 ilysm for this<33 and i'm so happy that u see me as a big sister ilyilyilyyyy

i don't listen to maisie but maybe now i will :) also yesss i watch caitlin marie reacts on yt!!

omg hgfdsdfgh ur cat sounds adorable<33 u should share a pic of him🥺 and i'm sorry for the cramp izzy ily

aaah that's nice!! i don't have much plans but to study as my exams are from march 1 so yeah :')

AND YES YES YESSSS THIS MADE ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER ILYSM MWAH (and yes ik i think i already said ily in this like 10 times but hushhh)

and nooo it's not ridiculous at alll!! ramble whenever and whatever u want to me :)

take care of urself<3333

I was (unofficially) tagged by @bbgirlsteve to list nine of my favorite movies.

Gotta tell you, narrowing this list down was hard. I was a Film major back in the day, so I have a ton of movies that I love dearly.

Tumblr arranged them in alphabetical order, so below is the actual order, along with a little blurb about each!

(1) Requiem for a Dream (2000) This is my all-time favorite movie, and one of the few I view as being perfect. It's about four people going down the downward spiral of addiction and experiencing all of the consequences that come with it. It was the first movie I watched on my own when I was trying to be a Serious Film Student, and I was blown away by it. In particular, the editing style is remarkable. It uses over 2000 cuts, whereas your average film of the same length uses about 600 - 700. It's done in such a way to mimic a drug user's experience, going from rapid, frantic movements to slow calms. I must stress though, if you want to watch this movie, PLEASE exercise caution. The whole reason I found it was because it was on several Most Disturbing Films Ever lists, and it earns its place there. It's like a very long, drawn out sucker punch - painful, dark, and potentially will leave you laid out for a day.

(2) Legally Blonde (2001) On the complete opposite end of the spectrum, Legally Blonde is my second favorite. I'm sure most of you know it, but in case you don't: A "dumb blonde" goes to Harvard Law School to win back the boyfriend who dumped her. I love it because it works hard to subvert the dumb blonde stereotype - Elle is smart, hard-working, and above all has a good heart. This movie just has an overall positive message, plus it has a ton of female positivity, which the world needs way more of. It's my go-to sick day movie because it never fails to make me feel better.

(3) Coraline (2009) Ah, Coraline. A cautionary tale about a little girl who discovers a gateway to a perfect parallel world in her new house (except it's not so perfect). This one I love because it manages to perfectly marry the magic and pains of childhood with extreme darkness. Coraline is just a kid who longs for adventure and a family that pays attention to her, which hit home for me in a lot of ways. And then they come in with "oh by the way you have to have buttons sewn into your eyes." God, that moment still makes me shudder. Also, fun fact: Coraline held the world record for the longest stop motion animation film (100 minutes) for seven years until it was overthrown by Kubo and the Two Strings (101 minutes).

(4) Colossal (2016) Colossal is probably one a lot of you have overlooked. It's a got a very strange premise - a drunk, down on her luck woman is somehow linked to and controlling a kaiju that randomly appeared in South Korea? What? But this movie is so, SO good. After not really paying much attention to movies for a few years, Colossal was the one that made me take notice again. It's a masterclass in acting from both Anne Hathaway and Jason Sudeikis. Its premise, while strange, lends it a unique charm I have yet to find in another movie, even other kaiju or body swap type stories. And its another positive message movie - no matter how hard life or other people knock you down, you can get back up and keep fighting. I can't recommend it strongly enough.

(5) Cat People (1942) This movie's premise is also pretty bonkers: A woman won't have sex with her husband because she thinks that she will turn into a giant cat and eat him if she does. However, do you like modern horror movies? If you do, you have Cat People to thank for them. Obviously, horror movies had come out before Cat People. It was made by RKO as a response to Universal's success with Dracula and Frankenstein, after all. However, Cat People set up a lot of things that would inspire later horror movies. In particular, its use of the idea that "What you don't see is scarier than what you do" and emphasis on subtlety rather than in your face scares is something you see coming from here. It's also credited as the source of the very first jump scare.

(6) Coco (2017) I love movies about music and/or that have good soundtracks. Coco falls into both categories, since it's about a little boy who wants to be a musician and ends up seeking out his musical ancestor in the Land of the Dead after his family rejects his musical aspirations. It is visually gorgeous - I legitimately think this is the prettiest movie Pixar has ever made, which is saying a lot. (The moment where Manny crosses the marigold bridge into the Land of the Dead comes to mind) I also love the way that the Mexican culture and music is seamlessly woven into the story. It truly transports me to a new world.

(7) The Ring (2002) Everyone knows the story even if they haven't seen this movie: It's about a video tape that kills you seven days after you watch it. And this is the single scariest movie I've ever seen. I first watched it when I was about 13. I watched it on VHS alone in the basement of my childhood house late at night (which definitely upped the scare factor). I actually thought the movie was over after they discover Samara's body in the well and stopped the movie. But then I decided I wanted to watch the credits because I wanted to see who was in the cast. And boy did I get a surprise. That single moment redefined horror for me. To this day, there hasn't been another movie that has scared me that badly.

(8) Tucker & Dale vs Evil (2010) Conversely, there hasn't been a horror comedy that hit all the right notes quite like Tucker and Dale. It's a spoof on your typical summer slasher movies like Friday the 13th or Wrong Turn, but done right. It takes every single slasher horror trope you can think of and turns it on its head. This movie made me laugh harder than almost any other movie. It's also made from a place of love, honoring the tropes and movies that came before it, and working with them to make an amazing movie.

(9) Zack and Miri Make a Porno (2008) Yes, this is a romantic comedy about two friends making a porno together. And it's good. It's hard to make me like romantic comedies. They have to have something that really sets them apart. Zack and Miri does this by leaning hard (hehe) into its premise. It's not ashamed, it gleefully shows off its cast in every sense of the word, and it still manages to create one of the most intimate sex scenes I've ever seen. (Yes, in a film about porn) Plus it's funny as hell. Just do yourselves a favor and don't watch it with your mom like I did.

Some honorable mentions:

The Omen (1976) Happy Death Day Ratatouille Us Pan's Labyrinth Candyman Stranger Than Fiction Wolf Children Cabin in the Woods Little Miss Sunshine A Quiet Place

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Tagging (no pressure or obligation <3): @justmyownreality @iantoya @therantingfangirl @obscurism @starnightcat @moonlight-alphafemale @mal-the-konohoe

And if you weren't tagged but want to participate, please feel free. I love talking movies!

November 1, 2023

Hard to believe its November! Where has this year gone?! I haven’t typed a bunch in a while because we are always so busy doing all of the things, but I made myself this velcro chore chart thing for extra accountability, and I am a stickler for streaks and crossing things off my list, so here I am! (A Tumblr post is on my weekly list)

This might be too much to share with you because its mental health related and it might shatter the fourth wall or whatever because I’m a parent and an adult and I’m supposed to have everything figured out, but lately I am having lots of fear around not being here to watch you grow up. I have no reason to really have these thoughts because I’m as fit as a fiddle, but I guess because I’ve had some people get sick and/or pass away in my circle of friends and family. But I guess my biggest fear of all surrounding these thought processes is that you will have to grow up without me and not know how much I love you and how much I cherish our days and nights together. You are a ton of work, there is no downplaying that fact, but you have brought about the most meaningful and life changing work of my whole life. Some days are really hard, but a lot of days are so great and filled with little magics and I feel like I am so good at being your mom. So the purpose of this little paragraph is just to let you know that if something ever happens and I am not here, I hope you can read this and know that if it was matter of fighting and trying to stick around for you, I would move the heavens and earth and mountains and stars to be here for you as long as I can. To be here if you need my help, or to listen to your stories, to share in your joy, or to just be your biggest fan and cheerleader from the closest you’ll let me sit in the stands. I tell you every day that I love you forever and always, no matter what, but I just wanted it here in writing in case you forget and need this reminder.

I love how you curl into me and say ‘I love you mama’ 5-15 times right before you fall asleep. I will pick you uppy as long as I can, even though you are getting quite tall (39”) and growing stronger and bigger everyday (31.5lb). I will never say no if you ask me to read to you, and Dada or I will sleep with you until you decide that you are ready to sleep alone. I didn’t know it at the time, but YOU and this exact brand of motherhood is exactly what I signed up for and better than I could have dreamed.

Yesterday was Halloween and you did not really want to go. You definitely did not want to wear your costume at all. You were crying as I helped you get dressed and said you wanted to stay home and watch Paw Patrol, and I told you that I hoped you could trust me and give it a chance and if we got out there and you still didn’t like it, we could take your costume off and come back home. Once we got outside and you saw that dada was coming too, you seemed happier, and then you were happier still when we got to Jace’s house and you saw him and Cami and Paula. You probably would have been content to just run through the leaves and stay in their yard until it got dark, but I asked you to trust me again and give trick or treating a chance.

It took you a few houses to warmup, meaning dada had to carry you up to the front door and hold out your bucket for you, but then you saw Jace and cami running around and after that I had to chase you up and down the streets. It got dark pretty quickly and our neighborhood is not well lit so it was a bit scary to think about losing sight of you! You got 68 pieces of candy (not counting whatever you and dada ate before we got home), and you even said trick or treat and thank you as you went up to people. It was fun to watch and your little “thank you” is super cute and sweet.

We got home around 7:45 and I don’t think you fell asleep until close to 9 because we stayed up to look through your candy and eat some and so I could make that reel to commemorate the day. You slept hard but woke up a few times in the night telling me that I messed up your trees. I asked you about it in the morning and you were talking about the farm toy rotation and said I took your trees and put them on the couch or something? I’m not sure, but its so funny when you talk in your sleep.

Today we just had an easygoing day at home. For the past few weeks you haven’t wanted to leave the house as readily as usual. I’m hoping its just a phase, but I also recognize that you need days to just chill and play at home so I can’t and don’t want to have things planned every day of the week.

A normal day:

6:30 wake up to the birds on your hatch sound machine. Sometimes you just want to lay up there and snuggle and “hide.” Some days you bolt upright at the first bird sound and you say “it’s morning, time to wake up”

Sometimes you go to the gym and play on your climbing gym while dada and I do our workouts, but some days dada has already done his workout and you and he play while I do my workout. He chases you, or hides with you, reads books, builds magnatiles, whatever your little heart desires. You’ll have a smoothie or are starving and eat 3 pancakes or French toast sticks or eggs.

8:30ish I have my breakfast. Sometimes you join me, but sometimes you are already done eating and just wander around while I eat.

We play inside or I convince you to go to the library or the park or the gymnastics gym or Pop and Deedees or more recently the AmFam pool area

11:30/12:00ish is lunch.

After that is done, sometimes 20 min, sometimes an hour and a half, we make our way upstairs to nap. For a while you really wanted to sleep in your teepee and that was not super comfortable for me or dada, but we would do it for you.

You’ll nap for 90 min or 2 hours. I have been sneaking out lately to work on programming or other random house projects that a bit easier to do when you are asleep.

Lately, you wake up still tired I think, so you are pretty sad and needs lots of hugs and love for 20-30 min after you wake up. Sometimes we read books in your room or watch videos on my phone, sometimes we hide in your downstairs fort, sometimes I can distract you with something or take you outside right away and then you are content to play.

6:00 dinner

6:45 bedtime vitamin and bath or shower, then books. The past few nights you have wanted to read Our Birth Story book that titi Nelly made for us, which has been very special and sweet to look through with you. It’s fun to hear what stories you are learning go with each picture and how you were growing in my belly and dada and pa buried your willow tree and how we didn’t have any toys in the backyard because we were waiting to see what kind of toys you would like.

Tonight was a tough one because the lights went off at 7:30 but you didn’t fall asleep until 8:20. You tossed and turned and were cold then hot and you didn’t like the blanket and your feet were too hot. You said “I love you mama” about 9 times and after you flopped around for the 10th time, I asked if you wanted me to sing you some songs and you said yes. This is my magic trick. I’m not sure why it works, but you ask me to sing the little blue truck song, which is me singing the words to Little Blue Truck Leads the Way (I have it memorized because we read that book every night for like 2 months straight), and it takes about 3 minutes. Usually by the end of that, you will be asleep. But tonight it took a few extra songs: Row your boat, twinkle twinkle, head shoulders knees and toes, and finally you are my sunshine. It feels so good to be able to do this for you. It feels so good that my arms and my voice and heartbeat are the things that help you feel safe and comfortable enough to fall asleep. I know you and dada have your own things for bedtimes and wakeups, but this is how it always works for us. Sometimes you fall asleep in 10 minutes, and sometimes it takes over an hour. Usually its closer to 30 minutes.

So anyway, this post was a bit unusual and next time I’ll share more about the funny things you do and say, but this needed to be said. I love you forever and always, no matter what. There’s no problem so big that we can’t solve it together.

Dear Bangtan and RMY lol

  I wanted to come back with a pun lol ARMY.  Hi, hello, hola! It is Thursday in the late afternoon and I went for a walk in the early morning and I have photos lol How are you all today?  I guess I will share with you small moments in the past days that made feel warm and alright even for a bit:

-I woke up one morning and for some reason I felt like hugging my sisters dog, Lolita. It was a slow morning and I woke up late on purpose hehe but I just went down to be at her eye level and I gave her a hug as I would to a regular person and it was interesting. Lolita was so warm but it was like she new I needed a minute and she stayed still and let me hug her until I was done. I never hugged a dog before just to pick them up lol but to take a minute and just be still in a hug really is nice. If you can, hug someone for a bit in silence, even if it is your dog. Hugs really do a lot.  After a minute Lolita started to wag her tail and her fur got all over my nose and I started to laugh. 😂

-singing to semi-charmed life by Third Eye Blind lol the melody is too catchy and it took me back lol

-for every person that passed me by through my day and gave me a pass to go first or to even go at the stop sign as I drove around town, I just said thank you in my mind and paid it forward by helping someone else out even if it was small.

-Kook singing Outro: Love Is Not Over. I watched the lives up to the CHUSEOK live because there was no subs after Kook’s live, but I was laying down in my bed and I closed the blinds and turned off all the lights and I just put my phone up near my pillow and I was chilling in the darkness and really just feeling the energy and calm vibe of the members lives and I almost cried to Love Is Not Over because I use to replay that track next to Hold Me Tight and it felt so melancholic and it was a nice evening just laying down and just listening. Nothing else mattered in that moment.

  That is my small list of things for this week. Lol I posted a video of it in tumblr lol but I saw the film THE BLACK PHONE and it is good. I can’t wait for October lol THE SPOPPY SEASON!!!!!!!! But, the film reminded me of a case I read about because of the characters and the way things turned out but it is too much to talk about here but I like how they had a lot of elements in that film with suspense, the spiritual, and a bit of a creep factor to it. Some parts reminded me of the film STIR OF ECHOES. I loved that film as a kid. I remember my parents having the the VHS tape of the film because my dad loved to collect all types of films and I got it out of his bag one time and played it on my own and I loved the suspense and crime aspect. It is a good but sad film. But, if you ever watched it, you might just like The Black phone. Be warned, the video I posted is meant for humor lol and it has a lot of cursing because of the scene from the film. 😂 It is just iconic. I never cursed that much as kid the way the character did in the film. Lol I started cursing since 3rd grade lol but this homegirl tops it 👌

  I also caught up to the latest season of Stranger Things and now I know why Running Up That Hill was coming up a lot in my feed. I have not seen the news or anything trending even up to today until I saw some things and damn they really did an amazing job of incorporating the track through the fight scenes. The scenes are epic in the sense that they have just the right amount of energy that went with the tempo of the track. It gave a lot of emotion to the scenes and I as digging it.Lol I binged the whole season in one day because I needed to honor my rest day and I spent it eating fries with bbq sauce and a burger while watching shows.  💪😆

  I shall now get into some of the lives. Hehe yes!!

-Joonie, I saw your live from your studio haha I didn’t get to see your recent one but I wanted to say that I am sorry I couldn’t stay healthy or be healthy lol I just couldn’t and I am doing better but something occurred and it was not the best time for me during august but at least I am here and trying.  I loved that you said that you are just getting by and I feel it, because it feels that way, but let’s do more than just get by, let’s live and enjoy things purely. 💪 FIGHTING!

-2HRS to figure out the tattoo and 2 minutes to get it on your skin sounds about right. Lol But for all my big tattoos it only ever took me 5 minutes to find placement and about 3-5 hours to get it inked on. Lol quite the opposite. I feel like it is like cooking. You can spend so much time perfecting a dish only to have it in your stomach within like 20- 30 minutes if you eat alone with no disturbances lol but point is, it goes by fast. 😂

-Yoongi, you said you saw TOP GUN but like Joonie I have not watched it yet. I will watch the first one and then see the second and then I will tell you how I thought about it. Haha

-Also, Bangtan Y’ALL DID VLOGS??? LOL I AM SO BELATEDLY BEHIND. I am sorry if I am behind. Haha give me time. Haha

-I have not watched any dramas at all in awhile lol but I have been seeing Extraordinary Attorney Woo all over Netflix as recommended next to my horror movies list lol I can see the popularity of it. Hopefully I see dramas again. I have been watching these historical videos from YouTube from the user ROYALTY NOW STUDIOS. I love hearing about the history of certain figures in history and getting a clearer look into how they may have looked and could have looked in modern times. I learned a lot of things even thought I am not good with history at all. Lol I just got hooked into the Marie Antoinette video while I was eating lunch and then I started to binge the other videos they did. 😂

-Joonie I loved that you said this “I made things I wanted to listen to.” I want to hear what your energy is like this time around. I like that music is not just for the listener but that it is like someone sharing their playlist like you get to hear what they like listening to in their music. I don’t think everything has to be about what the listener would like. I think that the most spontaneous tracks tend to be the ones that surprise people. When they are not intended for anyone but just because the person who made it loved the way it sounded to them.

-Yoongi, you probably got this question already but I am just going to add to it lol Can you give even a little hint of where your tattoo might be? Not a big clue but just even a crumb lol At least I asked even if it goes unanswered. Haha

-JIMIN!!!!! I MISSSSSYOU. HAHA Joonie brought you up and I waited to say this once again. IT HAS BEEN A WHHHHHHILE SINCE I SAID THIS. HAHA But, I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL IN THE STUDIO!!! ALSO, SCREW IT IF YOU GAINED WEIGHT. WE LOVE YOUR MOCHI CHEEKS. 😭 I HAVE MARSHMALLOW CHEEKS. MY MOM CALLS THEM BON BON CHEEKS BUT IN SPANISH LOL don’t be a stranger because of YOUR CHEEKS. Haha I LOVE YOU. Make sure you eat well! FIGHTING!!!!! 🙂

-I realized that Hobi gives big REFLECTOR VIBES. Lol The “big ocean friend” gave it away more. I didn’t think about it until now, but Hobi does seem to get a long with a lot of people and has a personality that goes with the flow of the tides wherever they take him and who he meets. Reflectors tend to be the people who can get along with anybody and are known to be well rounded with other’s energies because they reflect what those around them give. It is different when you can say that you can make a lot of friends well as an extrovert to the idea of being an introvert that gets along with any environment and talks with many people in that environment and does it well Hobi has that introvert vibe. It’s a different way of seeing the term “friendly” it is not just an extroverted thing once you reframe it.  But, yeah Hobi has that vibe. He knows how to ride with the flow of the waves because he owns the ocean. Lol it is his territory. I really thought of that with “big ocean friend.” Hobi is awesome too.

-Hobi I LOVED YOUR CHROMATIC NAILS!!!!! I was happy to see that HOBIPALOOZA WENT WELL!!!!!! I AM STILL VERY PROUD OF YOU!😭

-Joonie, just to ask again, do you really fear ARMY leaving? I could go into a whole tangent with this because I wonder about those feelings you have. If I were to leave, how would you really feel?  Does it matter? I am not sure. Only you have those answers. I am just asking. I got to thinking about it because each day I feel like another person can replace me and any ARMY because of the many people that come into Bangtan once they feel like joining this all and this reasoning was what I would think about each time I felt like I should leave. In the bigger picture of things, if I, just one person leave you, would it really make you feel something? I know I can’t get an answer but at least I asked even if it is an empty feeling I get sometimes. I would feel it, but that is just one sided in my mind because I don’t really know how you really feel about it in its entirety. But, thank you for bringing it up. I got to express how I feel sincerely about it. ☺️

-Joonie, you said you would support us in anything, well, if I just wanted to be a rock for a day and just lay in the grass as the sun just radiated on me would you be okay with that? Lol I wanted to be funny with this. I know you meant it seriously. If I was just a rock would it be okay? Lol if you wanted to be a rock for a day I would support you too. Lol I would sit on a bench next to the grass and just yell: fighting! Lol in my mind this image is funny yet cute. 😂

-“I believe in the power of love.” My heart 😭 I know people don’t like saying things like this, but you said it and if you can inspire others to speak like this, that is what matters. People are afraid of fluff in their lives and I think it is time to bring that fluff out.

-Yoongi I think it is awesome that your Grandpa named you. I have never heard of someone being named by their grandparents lol It is always the aunt or the mom or the dad. 😂 You got a nice name, I got Jennifer lol one of the most common names next to Jessica. Lol Not to hate on the names but I met so many people with interesting names. But, I still honor my name. Lol I just like joking about my name from time to time.

-I had no idea that HYBE has physical therapist that is freaking LEGIT!!! I am happy they do. With all the things y’all do, I think it is awesome that specialists are on deck.

-Yoongi, your glasses look nice. MEGANE MIN SUGA!!!!!!!!🤓 yesssss!!!

-YOONGI!! I had no idea that people use IV Drips for their health. That is actually good. It is like having Pedialyte but through the blood stream and not orally.  Keeps your electrolytes and hydration in check when you can’t or don’t want to through other means. I read that you can also choose other nutrients to go in, but not sure how that works. I drink my IV I guess lol

-Holly is so cute. Lol I like how you don’t bother to move him and choose to respect his space. Lol The being squished on the bed got me because Nox does that to me when she chooses to lay down like a rainbow in the corner of my bed and I can’t stretch out like a starfish in my bed so I have to get the whole side of my blanket and I hold on to it and ball up into a small cocoon until she feels like going outside lol she wakes me up every day at 4:30 am. Lol I hope Min Holly is having a lovely day. Lol

-I need to catch up in so much I had no idea you performed THAT THAT live lol those edited videos make sense now lol I saw some small clips from ARMY and I was confused of what it was about. 😂 I feel like I went into the deep desert and came back with things left and right. Lol I need to hear the 2022 version of OVER THE HORIZON as well. I WILL. 🙃If I don’t get told about things, I won’t know. Lol Like you said, If you know you know and if you don’t you just don’t. 😂

-I think it is lovely that you went on a trip with your parents to Daegu. I think that going to places you once saw and lived hits a lot differently when you get older. Since you came to Seoul in 2010, that means that it was almost a decade since you got to see Daegu more thoroughly, again? That’s insane. Time does go by fast. I say this because maybe you went to Daegu from time to time, but I meant like actually take a trip with your parents there and fully see things. I have not been in Mexico in about 9 years. Almost a decade. My parents went there like two weeks ago to check on my mom’s mom and when I picked them up from the airport recently they told me about so many things that changed in my mom’s town. lol I have yet to go back and see things.😂

-I wanted to also say to Joonie, thank you for pointing out about the news. It is a nice mental health reminder you said and I admire it. I think a lot of people need to be reminded that they don’t need to be up to date with it if it becomes a problem for their mental health. My sister’s therapist even told her to stay away from looking at the news because it made her anxious. If you don’t see the news and don’t want to, you are not a bad person nor are you being ignorant. If you want to and you are in a space where you feel okay to digest it, then do so if you want to. Not everyone has to know about the news. We all already know that many things are happening and it is not any different than the next day. Sometimes we need that break away from it because it does get to your head at times. I have not watched it either the past two months and I only get glimpses of it here and there through YouTube and my feed but I put boundaries with it because sometimes I don’t feel up to seeing it. I already feel like crap about of many things and I don’t want it to always dictate my mind and thoughts. Like Yoongi said but in different terms, if you want to know you will know and if you don’t then you just don’t. Don’t fight yourself with it, be clear in it. Remember that like social media, the news puts out specific topics and news and it does not define the whole world. There is more to it than what is shown and controlled to be shown to you just like people in social media control what they want to show you and how you feel about it is up to you and you have the ability to choose how you feel about it.

-Jungkook, I am leaning into your lives now haha I wanted to first ask this: of all the years being termed a bunny, bun, and rabbit, did you just go with it because it became common to nickname you that, or did you ever see yourself as another spirit animal? I thought about it and I wanted to give you the space to ask you this if maybe you didn’t want to be seen as a bunny.  I was just thinking and wondering. I was like “here I am always thinking of Kook as a Bun, but was there a time when he maybe didn’t want to be seen or called in that image?” Well, regardless of the answer you only know, you are still our Kook. Hehe

-I thought the mattresses where a joke, but you actually had them lol I am crying but imagine the giant fort you could make with all those mattresses. Lol the JK. 2.0 AND 3.0 is GOLD.😂

-Jin, have yet to see your live, but on that a day I came into you live after grocery shopping and you were still live before I left and when I came back and you are now dubbed the live MVP! 3 HOURSSSSSS!!! WHATTTT!!! But I wanted to say that you are so funny when you are drunk. You just kept introducing yourself and repeating the same things. It reminded me of my family when they would go to parties and get drunk and I would have to hold them to go inside the house and Kook did exactly what I did: just say yes and agree to anything they said. Lol Taking care of drunk people was a part of my youth at times and I had some funny occurrences from time to time. I can see you are a talkative drunk person and I loved how Kook caught that and thought it best you did not stay because you may say some things you may regret the next day. Lol I heard a lot of things in my time. 😂this is not my first rodeo. Lol But, as long as you got back safe that is what matters. I am still not over you going down the sink area  again after Kook said you should go lol 😂

-Kook, you would express ship hair pins. Lol. 🤣

-ahhhhhh I can speak on my gluten intolerance expertise again muahahahha lol  my sister has a gluten problem and has had it for almost two years now and I eat a lot of what she eats and I can say that if it is recent that you found out about this, don’t quit foods you would normally cold turkey. Gluten issues vary and the symptoms vary per person and my sister tested the waters with what foods had the worst effect on her before she decided on what to fully cut out and what she could eat from time to time. If you have celiac disease or IBS this is not something to take into consideration but if it is just a gluten issue that does not pertain to celiac disease, then you could safely and carefully taste what gives you the worst symptoms in order to avoid it little by little. With ramen and noodles see which ones cause the most issues because not all have huge amounts of flour and there is gluten free options that you can order and even make deliciously at home. I would say to order the seasoning powder you would use in regular ramen and use that on the gluten free noodles. Try it out. It will take a bit to get use to certain textures because it will be different but there are some delicious options. My sister has pizza from time to time with regular flour bread crust and doesn’t really experience bad issues as she does with regular corn tortillas. She still eats bagels and even sourdough bread. In moderation she is peachy, but if every day it would be different. What you might want to question is what foods make your stomach feel odd, bloated, or even nauseated and how much of it and how frequently you eat it that it can cause that. You can possibly have ramen just not frequently as you would. My sister has even noodles like every few so weeks and she digests well.  Also, if you can try to drink things that help aid with healthy digestive tract flow so it reduces any inflammation or issues while you try out different foods if you do choose to try it out.  Reduce tea, sugary drinks, caffeine of any kind, and aim for things like apple juice, guava, cranberry juice, etc. I hope this helps a bit. My sister loves food and she was willing to try different things because she could not give up on food lol.

-About the photo concepts I was just astonished y’all were doing that lol I barely found out and I WAS LIKE WHAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They look so insane! I love that y’all are taking these photos on your own and figuring out the props and ideas by how you feel. I feel so proud to do it when I do it and I hope y’all felt that way doing your own photos. You said that you thought it may have been too conceptual but as a person who takes her own photos I am here to say that nothing is ever too conceptual when you are doing things this way. If anything, that is the whole point of self-taken photos. You go big and you saturate the theme and energy you are trying to give. I think that is what makes these type of photos powerful because it is all you and only you calling the shots and the vibe. It feels more personal and empowering. I love how each of y’all has their own energy to each concept with the lighting, props, energy, and the clothing. Even the way the body language in the photos I have seen so far feels more like y’all and less constricted. I don’t think you need to always be inspired by something or someone to take photos, just having the idea and willingness to express your body and mind in a photo is enough too. Your photos look stunning. I love them. I have yet to so the next ones lol bear with me as I catch up to you all. Haha

-Before I finish this letter, Kook. I hope you are getting your naps in. I know I have. Lol Please make sure you rest too, honey. Fighting Kook! Love you. 🙂

   Well, it is near 7pm now haha I paused a bit to eat dinner. Please have a lovely weekend and eat something delicious for me.😭 Please.🙏 I have some photos of earlier this day with a hint of clouds. 😇May the power of the HOTTEOKS be with you lol I thought of Joonie with the pancakes. Lol HOTTEOK POWER!!! HOTTEOK FIGHTING, MY LOVES! LOL Be safe and take care. I hope you can smile even for a bit today.  I purple you. 💜

With love,

Your Jenn 🌼✌️🐰✌️🌼

rules of ana because everyone must be reminded 🤍 & some thinspo + extra tips

1. Do not eat unless you are physically hungry. Learn the difference and stop yourself if eating for the wrong reasons.

2. Never eat just to finish a meal. ONLY EAT UNTIL YOU ARE SATISFIED!

3. If you binge, stop yourself as soon as possible. DON’T COMPOUND YOUR MISTAKE!

4. If you binge, punish yourself after.

5. Exercise 30-45 minutes at least 4 times a week.

6. If you gain weight from one day to the next, fast the whole day.

7. Substitute low cal or diet versions wherever possible to cut back on calories.

8. DRINK WATER, WATER, AND MORE WATER.

9. Get rid of all your temptations. Pack it up and take it to a local food bank. You don’t need it.

10. Eat slow. Appreciate every bite. Then when everyone is finished and you’re only halfway through your meal, you can leave with everyone else having eaten half the calories.

11. Drink water before and during meals. The more you drink, the less you eat.

12. Chew each bite of food 30 times before swallowing.

13. Cut you’re food into small pieces. It’ll make others think you’re eating more than you are.

14. Don’t eat anything white.

15. When you look at your food, think of what it becomes. Ice cream= saturated fat. Bread=carbs. Juice=sugar. You don’t want that crap in your body so DON’T EAT IT!

16. Decide before cooking how much you are going to eat. Cook only that amount so you can’t eat more.

17. Delay any eating. Tell yourself that you can eat after completing a task (ie. 30 minutes of exercise). Complete the task then reassess.

18. If a food has more than 3 grams of fat per serving and/or more than 3 types of sugar listed in the ingredients list, don’t eat it.

19. Do not eat before 7am or after 7pm. This guarantees you a 12 hour fast every day.

20. Stop all eating at least 3 hours before bed.

Get Strong. Stay Strong. Get Skinny. Stay Skinny.

remember hunger is always temporary

get your vitamins

there’s ALWAYS a low cal option

WALK WALK WALK

space out your exercise if you hate working out for long periods

study, watch tv, sleep, find excuses not to go to the kitchen

don’t deprive yourself because truly, yolo. have fun every now but when you’re done going out, remember the goal you have: being skinny, being pretty

watching videos of models- super triggering but not in a bad way

use fasting apps- fastic & life are my favs

get rid of social media. helped me get rid of my first 20lbs. i only followed ed related accounts on tumblr & twitter

go out but don’t go out to eat . having fun distracts us from food and gets us moving which means more calories burned

hopefully this helps. Love,

🤍Bella

How do you stay productive and up to your work/studies.. does your workflow drain your mental energy …asking for a friend🥲

Me, when I first saw this Ask, while ignoring at least ten real life tasks:

Me, knowing that I am enabled and driven to be an obsessive monster mostly due to my current situation in life and my personal recipe of brain soup:

Me, deciding I need to be a good senpai and just stick with practical advice:

I SHALL ENDEAVOR TO KEEP THIS TO THE POINT!! IT’S PROBABLY GOING TO GET LONG ANYWAY!! WE SHALL COVER MAKING FANDOM CONTENT! STUDYING, ESPECIALLY FOREIGN LANGUAGE! AND ADULTING, BECAUSE I HAVE TO EAT!!!!

OKAY SO!!! I AM KIND OF OBSESSED WITH KIMETSU NO YAIBA!!! I own up to this fact. I allow myself to run with it. Ultimately, FANDOM SHOULD BE FUN. Keeping it fun keeps my mental energy for it up. Don’t pressure yourself into anything, and have boundaries to keep yourself in the realm of what’s fun for you. That’s how I remain a happy monster living under a rock.

And I produce so, so, so, so, so, so much under this homey rock. PRACTICE!! I have! So! Much! Practice!! This means I go faster with generating ideas, doing research, and typing. Also, I broke the weeb scale a long time ago. Not only does a lot of my content pull from stuff I have been involved in since a pretty young age (specifically writing, drawing, and Japanese culture), but I have written so much meta by now that you can mention any scene in the manga and I can probably locate it from my collection in about ten seconds. PLANNING!! I never start writing until I see where I’m going!! I will develop something for minutes or years, but I have to generally see the whole picture before I start, even if there are things I will tinker with along the way. If my situation allows it I have been known to alter all my plans for the sake of writing like a monster for days due to a flash of inspiration, but when this isn’t doable, I pour that energy into writing outlines, which can help keep me focused for months, if that is what the draft calls for.

I STAY OBSESSED WITH ONE PROJECT AT A TIME Multiple WIPs? Cannot relate. When I say "WIP" I usually mean "the draft is done but I'm still stewing on edits." My current project at any given time demands that I finish it. Must not sleep or eat or—what do you mean I have to go to work? Arrrrrggghhhh---

Okay yes, but what if you don’t have ideas that possess you? What if you’re stuck? What if it’s, like, not fandom stuff, but homework?

BRAINSTORM!!!!! Brainstorming is a discipline you get better at. When you need to hurry and generate ideas, write down everything, whether in web format or list format or whatever suits you, as fast as you can, for a dedicated period of time. It doesn’t need to be super long, but aim for a little longer than comfortable; you’ll get to the brilliant ideas after pushing through the first layers of bland and overtly bizarre ideas. Brainstorming is a non-judgement zone, you write down E V E R Y idea, no matter how ridiculous. I also get hit with a lot of ideas in everyday life; sometimes it’s solutions to a place I may be stuck, but often it’s reconsidering how I’ve written something in the first draft or something that’s missing, and and I make a very quick note of it to go back to later. When I post fanfic on a schedule, I usually keep my thoughts relatively focused on the upcoming chapter to really let it stew, and I might come back to it several times between the updates. A lot of my ideas come when I'm doing mundane tasks like sweeping or showering. EDIT: If you're here specifically for writing advice, I have another brainstorming method I use especially when working out plot holes and how to get from Point A to Point B: ORATING TO MYSELF on selfie mode and seeing where my babbling takes me. It's a good thing my file sizes are too big to upload to Tumblr, nobody needs to watch me talking to myself while brushing my teeth, but some major takeaway: --identifying goals, plot constraints, character motivations --if tossing out an idea right away, identifying why (i.e., OOC) --approaching from many angles --skipping over parts that I need to figure out later --if I like a solution, asking myself what needs to happen to enable that solution --allowing some extreme ideas, which I might use in a lesser extent --jumping into character POV to walk myself through a problem the way the character would approach the problem --coming back to it in several videos as I continue digesting the problem Okay, okay, that’s great if you just want advice for writing tons of fanfic or Asks responses.

But what if you’re studying for a big Nerd Test? Or like, an actual school test you have to pass for class? Or studying a foreign language, or needing to memorize a speech? First, when studying a daunting amount of material, especially when a lot of it is trivial, prioritize between ACTIVE and PASSIVE knowledge. Passive knowledge means you’re familiar enough with something that you can choose it from multiple choice answers because you’re reminded of it, or you can listen and understand a word or phrase without actually being able to use it yourself. Passive knowledge is much easier to attain in huge amounts. Active knowledge is what you must produce yourself, and it’s going to require REPETITION and FOCUS and LOTS OF USE. The challenge is getting lots of info without wearing yourself out, thereby killing your motivation! Carving 15 minutes out of most days will familiarize you with something better than cramming for 4 hours and then not touching it again for a whole week. Even studying in 1-2 minutes spurts as many times as you can throughout the day will help build familiarity. For example, when I was at beginner and intermediate foreign language levels, I usually carried 25~50 flashcards with me to review at any open moment. Basically, any time you feel the urge to kill time looking at your phone, like waiting in a line or for a bus, you should make yourself go through the flashcards. DON’T JUST LOOK!! Use your other senses!! You want to learn kanji? You can't just look at those suckers, you really do have to write them, a lot, I’m sorry. If you’re using flashcards (for ANY topic, not just foreign language), write them with your finger on your thigh. USE KINESTHETICS AND TACTILE SENSES!! Writing things over and over, walking around as you read, chewing gum, keeping yourself more active instead of letting your mind wander as you just look at stuff. USE YOUR EARS TOO!!!! Read stuff aloud to yourself, record yourself, and play it back to yourself on repeat as you do other stuff. Get your brain super familiar with those patterns you want to memorize. Speaking of listening and active use, a lot of beginner language programs will be helpful to some extent, but only if used with dedication: active listening and speaking back, on a regular basis, and very repetitively. And for those of you who want to study Japanese? I am totally serious when I say to be the most annoying person in the room watching anime by mimicking everything as closely as you can, even if you have no idea what you’re saying. Voice actors are great models for parsing through grammar instead of muddling it together, and this gets your brain more familiar with patterns, so as you learn new words in book study (because for serious vocab acquisition, you WILL need textbooks), you’ll have a more intuitive understanding of how to actively use those words. Again, you must ACTIVELY engage with what you want in active recall, just passively watching anime doesn’t count, you silly otaku!!!!

And maybe you’ve got a friend who is fluent in your target language, and you both say to each other, “we should speak in that language in daily life”? Aw, that’s cute. And you never will, because it’s easier to use the language you already communicate with each other better in. Instead, set aside a SPECIFIC TIME, or even a specific place, where ONLY the target language is allowed, as a STRICT RULE. The amount of time will depend on your skill level and how exasperated you’ll find yourself trying to communicate. And your friend must be a jerk and follow the rules. Whenever I am in these situations in giving people English practice and they fall back into whatever language we usually use together, I make sure to blatantly lie, “What? What? Sorry, I don’t understand!” to force the person practicing into finding a way to say what they want to communicate.

Yes, that’s well and good, with practice you too can create massive works of fandom material and speak foreign languages. You can pursue your dream career as a demon slaying swordsman or make actual functional cosplay or cook things other people will actually want to eat! But hear me when I say, NO MATTER WHAT your dream or your hobby or your project is, THERE WILL BE DRUDGERY. There will be parts you just DO NOT WANT to do. MAYBE YOU DON’T REALLY WANT TO DO THE WORK TODAY. You WILL want to give up on what you’re trying to accomplish. Sometimes it’s good to take a break.

Sometimes it’s good to sleep. Sometimes, stepping away from it is the only way to get unstuck, or recover from burnout, or reassess why you want to accomplish this in the first place, or if you even still want to.

But, every time you step away, you run the risk of never coming back.

It takes practice to get through the drudgery. You get better and better at it, I promise. It’ll feel less and less daunting the more you get over these scary and frustrating and very unexciting moments, and it’s because you make your way through the parts that suck that you can really bask in your accomplishments later.

You really do just have to FORCE yourself to do it sometimes. And… dang it… SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO FORCE YOURSELF TO DO REAL LIFE PRODUCTIVE TASKS AND GO TO WORK.

NO, NO, NO, I DON’T WANT TO, WAAAAAH, NOOOOO!!!!!

As you can see, I allow myself a certain amount of leeway to be immature about stuff.

Sometimes that’s all it takes to get over myself and focus, however begrudgingly. I do set rewards for myself, and time frame goals. I also had to set a lot of rules for myself while studying for the Nerd Test in what fandom tasks I would and would not do, based on how much they’d distract or refresh me. When I have a lot to do, I PRIORITIZE MY TASKS, so I can be okay with not getting everything done. I also make LISTS!!! So many lists. And I have a strong preference for writing things on paper even if I'm confident I won't forget, even if it's a task I'm looking forward to on a different day, just because it fools me into feeling like I have more control over my life. I own the fact that I am obsessed and allow myself to be MOTIVATED by that. This whole Kimetsu Kitchen tag? It’s precisely because I was upset with myself for eating so much convenience food (and because I was sad that’s hard to win a ticket to the Ufotable Café in Osaka and I’ve missed out on a bunch of the fun looking collab cafes elsewhere). These cooking experiments have forced me to do a bit more planning, but that does makes me feel a smidge more control over my life, so that’s been nice too, even if I have failures. But like, yeah, my work does determine a lot of how my daily life goes, and it feels very chaotic. It can be difficult schedule-wise, but I stay committed to hobbies that I’ve been practicing for years, even if I am generally in a state of drudgery with them. But this is all I must hold myself to. I live alone, very far from the people I most wish I could see.

This works wonders for how productive I am, as I have so few interruptions. I’m a vicious introvert anyway and usually want to talk to no one when I get off work, where my social battery gets run pretty dry (but as far as mental energy is concerned, I probably have a lot of pent-up energy to write up or draw KnY thoughts that have hit me throughout the day). It’s not a stretch to say Kimetsu no Yaiba is the source of most of my day-to-day joy, and I’m grateful to experience having a mainstream obsession for once in my life; it’s like everywhere I go I don’t have to look far and I’ll find Tanjiro smiling back at me from a candy wrapper or something. But if you have distracting friends, family obligations, and attention-seeking pets that prevent you from living out the creative ideas that possess you, I’ve been there, and as someone with monster tendencies for following my whims I sympathize, but please don’t fault yourself for that. You’ve got really good reasons.