things that make me aboslutely batshit insane about this scene:
1.) sam being so willing to just straight up kill himself (i love u martyr boy <3)
2.) dean's absolute REFUSAL of that plan (the very soft way he says "for the last time, no" to sam when its just the two of them - i could survive on that alone for eternity)
3.) dean is willing to give up his most PRIZED POSSESSION, HIS PRECIOUS IMPALA, to a COMPLETE STRANGER, bc he's not leaving sam here alone to die
4.) sam trying so hard to get dean to leave, to get dean to live (but ultimately failing because if sam isn't alive dean doesn't want to be either in fact he'll make sure he isn't either)
5.) dean trying to use humor to make this all seem so casual once they're alone, as if he isn't sacrificing his life for the sake of his brother
I truly believe that if Sam was infected and Dean did have to kill him, he'd pull him into a big ol' bear hug, press their faces together cheek to cheek, put the gun at his temple, and pull the trigger to shoot both of them in the head simultaneously.
comes crawling back 24 hrs later heyyy haha hi i'm literally flat on the floor with how fucking nice everyone's been about yad(iym) ch1 i don't even know what to do with myself i'm so sjhdgkjgdsk????<33!!!!
i'm so overwhelmed my heart is so full and i'm so motivated to get ch2 done u don't even know :'))) thank you a kaJILLION times, i keep rereading comments and getting TEARY like a LOSER but it rly does mean sm to me, ty ty ty for enabling my brainrot and apologies for always being so Nervous and also Sentimental SDJGJK <33
+ speaking of brainrot i literally have like 50 asks to get back to with drabbles and brainrot and stuff omg i feel so bad, they're all so good and i'm so antsy to get back but i also rly want to focus up on writing this fic bc ik how long i take to write and i don't want to go a month between each update LOL so i will have to find some balance :'^)
Caleb out here with the Charisma stat of 16 and all the Honeypot training, I firmly believe in his ability to rizz.
Oh I do think I remember Liam alluding to Caleb's high Charisma being used in his Volstrucker training, and that just breaks my heart.
I do think that's part of why I find the thought of Caleb charming Molly/King so sweet, because we know it's genuine. Molly already saw Caleb when he was at his lowest, when he was at his most closed off and haunted. So it's little things, like the Nein telling Caleb to bathe, and Molly just smiling and saying, "I'm not bothered." And "Let a man be eccentric," when the others try to convince Caleb to buy new clothes.
It's so easy I think, to fall for Caleb when he's using his Charisma to its full extent--when he wants something from somebody, or has some ulterior motive. So it's very sweet to me, that Molly cared for Caleb from the start, when he tried so hard to push people away, deliberately tried to make himself as distant and defeated as possible. "How do you stay dirty all of the time?" "Most of the time I'm trying to. People don't pay attention to beggars so much."
So the thought that Molly has already seen Caleb when he was still on the run and in hiding, too terrified to let anyone get close--the fact that Caleb has nothing to gain by using his Charisma to try and maniplate Molly--"I should go right now...Look at this one. He's like a walking rainbow, what is this? Why are you with him? It makes no sense. He's a circus performer, he's not going to help you." It makes the way Molly falls for him so easily just feel so sweet and genuine. Molly looking at someone who believes he's beyond salvation, yet Mollymauk sees, "Caleb. Softness and light--"
So I do think it would maybe take Molly by surprise--but be a very pleasant one--if Caleb let himself be more forward, used that high Charisma to its full effect. It feels like we get a glimpse of that at the end of C2, and it's so sweet and silly and playful, I just love it. Something about Caleb being open enough to let others into his heart again, seeing Tealeaf's unabashed teasing and warmth and happily respond in kind. The way Liam literally describes King's flirting as, "Perfect," when the Circus Man and Magic Man say goodbye.
Just...Caleb knowing exactly what to say to get King/Molly wrapped around his finger, and absolutely reveling in the attention. The two of them trusting each other enough to know it's not just a game--
When he gets protective over Miri while she’s doing a partner activity during field day. “How dare he touch my daughter.”
When he realizes she loves the rice balls he made after he was too nervous to bring them out after all of the compliments Kazuki’s cooking was receiving.
When he finally finds his voice and cheers her on…
and then is so concerned and worried for her when she’s thrown off guard and trips and is worried he ruined everything.
When he looks to Kazuki like, “Let’s do this.” When Miri pulls him onto the field for the final activity because she has to find her family. (Which is a whole other emotional whirlwind don’t even get me started)
When he joins Kazuki in carrying her to the finish line…
and they all cross the finish line together…
and when he looks at Miri with that soft, gentle smile because he just loves her so much and is happy to see her so excited and full of joy.
When they take a family photo to commemorate their field day together.
When he’s smiling, carrying her home on his back, feeling so proud of her.
They’ve grown so much since taking in Miri I’m so overwhelmed with emotions. I love how Rei really starts embracing being a father in episode 9 – it makes my heart hurt with warm fuzzy feelings. He smiles so much in this episode I – :;(∩´﹏`∩);: (´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`)
I usually dont feel the need to post things like this but ive seen like a billion posts saying the same thing all with like a billion notes/likes whatever so im just gonna shout into the void and say: some people seem to have only taken in what scaramouche had to say about what happened between him and ei and have completely ignored what both ei and miko had to say on the matter and its genuinely so frustrating. Ei did not see humanity as a flaw or hated him because of it or whatever wording you wanna use its literally because he shed tears that she took pity on him and did what she thought would be best for him. Miko suggested literally destroying him but ei couldnt bring herself to do it. Obviously, scaramouche took this as him being thrown out because he was weak but thats not what actually happened at all. The story between scara ei and miko is genuinely so heartbreaking because of how unintentional everything was and yet ppl would rather just label ei a hater ig and move on
heads up i finally scrambled together enough brain power and caught up with cultivate and i am not going to be normal about it and im going to make it everyone elses problem <33