It dawned on me a little bit ago that I haven’t taken my meds in like 4 days, cuz I fail like that constantly, and this explains so much about why I have wanted to curl in on myself and hide from everyone all day today. And why when my two coworkers asked to see my haircut (I wore a ballcap cuz I didn't wash it so it looks nasty) and I showed them my brain instantly went to, "they hate it. They think it looks stupid. They haven't blinked, they're just staring at you like you're a freak. They think you look hella stupid. They're totally gonna talk about you while you're not around. They're lying when they said it looks good and cute."

And also explains why I was damn near sobbing while reading a fic during my lunch cuz Michael's insecurities got the better of him, too and left him doubting his relationship with Alex.

Birds of paradise

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[Day 155] Sunflowers always face the sun

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So like. If sunflowers always face the sun and the majority of the sunflowers on scar's shawl are on his back and on the side does that mean scar still trusts grian with his back or he turned his back on him rejected him moved on or sometimes they wish they are by each other's sides again or are they allies or enemies this will be the death of m <- epic shower thoughts

Dear Joanne Kathleen Rowling,

meg baby, I promise we’ll all look the other way if you decide to strangle that chimera ant built bitch. I promise we won’t say nothing.

It is truly wild how much that, like, having a Following on any social media makes you this weird poppet onto which people project their weirdest hangups. Does the thing have anything to do with who you really are? Nope! But it sure says a lot about that person, the things they project onto you.

Like, my friend, this is a parasocial relationship you have with that person. It's just a negative one. Your obsession does nothing to them, and it's bad for you.

we're at it again🕺

So I’m reading The Green Knight for my Medieval English lit class and I went back and watched your Arthuriana videos for fun nostalgia, but I noticed when you were covering the Green Knight you called Arthur tired. Was there a specific reason why you did that or is that one of those things that, if you decided to redo that video, you would change? I just found it interesting bc the poem clearly states Arthur as boyish and his reason for initially accepting the challenge was pride.

The character of King Arthur that lives in my head has a little more "has been through the Arthuriana timeloop too many times" malaise than any proper characterization of King Arthur in the original stories. The story drifts and changes over time but Camelot always falls, because Arthur is a good king - some would say the perfect king - but that still isn't good enough.

wisdom i've accumulated in my almost-35 years on this planet: success = hard work + privilege + luck

never let this late capitalist hustle culture bullshit convince you that your lack of "success" is your fault.

this year has been kicking my ass so bad... a miggy for these trying times

i dont think i will ever forgive what the internet did to DID because please explain to me how "your sense of self is so torn apart you think youre multiple people" turned into "youre actually multiple people"

do you understand what i mean? please understand what i mean

one of my least favorite neurotypical customs is how long it takes to leave somewhere. My mom will be like “alright it’s time to leave” but we stay like 10 more minutes because people can’t stop talking. We get two feet before stopping again. We stand in the doorway for 5 minutes. It’s annoying and stressful and puts my brain in constant waiting mood.

Unpopular opinion about tbosas: I think that Coriolanus Snow loves Lucy Gray Baird.

A more unpopular opinion: I think that Lucy Gray Baird loves Coriolanus Snow.

That's the real tragedy. Their feelings were true. Always.

straya outfit swap

appointment with dr. lotty 💙 🧡