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avalovesindie · 2 years

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one of my least favorite neurotypical customs is how long it takes to leave somewhere. My mom will be like “alright it’s time to leave” but we stay like 10 more minutes because people can’t stop talking. We get two feet before stopping again. We stand in the doorway for 5 minutes. It’s annoying and stressful and puts my brain in constant waiting mood.

#Autism #autistic #I still live with my mom because life is hard #Actuallyautistic #actually autistic #neurotypical bullshit #Studying neurotypicals #Neurodivergent #neurodivergency #self diagnosed autism #self diagnosed #self dx autistic #Yes im self diagnosed

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shadowsbrainrot · 10 months

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if anyone tries to give me shit for being self dx i’ll just tell them that yeah my psychiatrist and my therapist believe me but are just unable to diagnose me bc healthcare literally sucks ass

#self dx autistic #self dx is valid #so so so valid #take that fakeclaimers and other assholes #they’re like yeah u have the traits we just can’t diagnose it ourself and the ppl who can charge insane money sorry :/#autism #actually autistic

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3ntity56 · 1 month

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Anyways as a diagnosed autistic I support self diagnosing autism.

#autism #i'm autistic #actually autistic #self dx #self diagnosis #self dx autistic

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averysmallcetacean · 8 months

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I really want to make some online friends so here are some things that I would enjoy chatting about :-

• cartoons

• crochet

• whales

• poetry (both reading and writing)

• chronicles of ancient darkness and pjo + hoo (book 4 of hoo is where i'm up to currently)

• judaism (I want to convert when i'm old enough (my parents are atheist and it would upset them if they knew))

There is probably some other stuff but that is all I can think of currently. I'm autistic (on waiting list) so i'm not always get a messaging people but i'll do my best.

Equally, if you aren't interested in any of those things, I did still like to talk about just general stuff (how you feel, how life is going, etc). I just really want to make friends.

Sorry if this comes across as weird

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raynedayys2 · 4 months

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Born to flap my arms & rock back n forth

Forced to bounce my leg instead.

#text post #neurodivergent #autism #autistic #stimming #fidgeting #self dx autistic #/j #/hj #in a perfect world I'd be able to stim without judgement

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xerospaced · 5 months

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If anyone, esp anyone diagnosed Autistic, wants to validate a very autistic but very not diagnosed chick who has done tonnes of research over years that like... my autism is valid even tho the system of diagnosing autism in adults (esp women, especially black women) has failed her...

I wouldn't say no 🙃

#mine #autism #self dx autistic #probably autistic #autistic #self diagnosed autism #self diagnosis #i never do this and am v uncomfortable seeking validation #but i am returning to my autism lvl 2 course and am gonna be heavy in autism content over the next couple months #and facing autism like every day when you failed to get a diagnosis due to inadequate assessment #and being misdiagnosed with bpd at 21 #makes it quite an emotional experience #like im on the outside looking in screaming BUT THIS IS ME #and just having to do the work and push down my feelings of the system failing me and being invalid #so yeah #anyone??#pls n thanks

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ndstrawberry · 2 months

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Ear plugs

I love ear plugs/noise canceling headphones

I wish I could wear them all the time

But I can't.

Because then I get bullied.

#vent #self dx autistic #autism #autistic #sensory issues #self dx is valid #actually neurodivergent #actually mentally ill #neurodiverse #neurodivergent #school vent

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nebulousboundsofthisworld · 9 months

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someday soon I'm gonna go absolutely feral over the way ADHD and (differently bad but still) autism are being talked about online currently. I can't even begin to actually express why bc on one hand I'm very very happy that ADHD/autism are being talked more about (one of the reasons I was actually able to be diagnosed with ADHD!!) but on the other hand there's sooooo much misinformation out there and there are so many people trying to strip any actual struggles from them and also there's not enough higher-support needs/higher level autistics being involved in this whole conversation and also ""autism parents"" still exist & misinform others & often abuse their kids for views and I'm just gonna scream!!!!!

#actuallyadhd #adhd #autism #self dx autistic

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xeroscribed · 9 months

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People tend not to realise that when you're neurodivergent you've heard these things all your life.

That you're no longer tolerable. Too difficult. Too much. That you're the reason for miscommunication. You're the problem. The one who needs to change up.

They think they can tell you and you should be able to take it lightly - no big deal.

All the while you've been trying your darndest to adjust and correct. And it's no easy thing, it causes anxiety, puts you on edge. Leaves you not knowing the weight of what you've said.

And you're sure you're improving, tho it may be slow. And you think that they'll notice and eventually let go. Encourage your improvement or just carry on.

But it's not good enough. The improvement not quick enough. The adjustment too slow. They'll never know what it's taking, how much of a toll. They want it overnight. They're losing their patience.

So you try harder still, and you hope it's enough. You hope that they'll hold out even tho it's rough. But they tap out before you can reach the sweet spot. And you're left in confusion and fear that you've lost.

Coz to them it's a choice. A decision you make. To be less than easy - more than they can take. So it's something they tell you, so matter of fact, they've had enough they've no choice but to take a step back.

But for us, it runs so much deeper than that. Triggers all of those similar painful flashbacks. Just another to add to the long list of friends who decided they couldn't endure you again.

They say their piece, apologise, and move on with their day. While you sit and you wonder if one might ever stay.

It's no small thing to us who are always held accountable for every mistep and relationship downfall.

Just one question, would it really be so damn hard for another to consider their perception is marred? That what they're mistaking for negative intent, has nothing to do with what you intend. That your habits and mannerisms simply do differ from the masses of which they are oh so familiar. And that if they were willing to give judgment pause, they might see that their thoughts aren't so different from yours.

#xeroscribed #writing #poetry #free verse #original writing #the coffee table book #unplanned poem #tho im sure thats obvious #neurodivergent #adhd #self dx autistic #autistic

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xvenusbunnyx · 8 months

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the worst thing about being a self dx autistic is that some people won't even believe you :/ just because my struggles are hidden doesn't mean i'm not dealing with it. I would get evaluated if I could :(

#self dx autistic #actually autistic

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shadowsbrainrot · 1 year

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i’m gonna just start saying i’m autistic and unmasking i’m too tired for this tbh

im in my fuck it we ball era

#self dx autistic #self dx audhd #autism #adhd #neurodiversity #neurodiverse stuff #masking #my therapist says i should self advocate more so #it’s a bit frustrating bc she’s lovely but she’s not as informed as i wish a therapist was with autism #ahhhh #autistic burnout

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obscurestrauma · 1 year

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I think you're lying

#actually autistic #trauma art #vent art #ventcore art #stimming #self dx autistic #masking

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averysmallcetacean · 6 months

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science is trending yayayay!!!!

science is awesome

space is awesome

the ocean is awesome

whales are awesome

they're so cool

cetology is awesome

fun fact: bowheads can live for 200 years possibly even longer, we know this cause there are individuals who are still alive with harpoon remnants embedded in them that can be dated to 200 years ago!!!!

btw I can remember if I have mentioned this but a couple of months ago I saw SOUTHERN RIGHT WHALES, my favourite species!!!!! I SAW 2 GREY MORPHS, TOGETHER, AAAAAAAAAA, It was the best day of the year and I was there BY CHANCE

IT WAS AMAZING

#science #cetology #whales #southern right whales #grey morph #special interest #self dx #autistic #self dx autistic #cetaceans #yayayay #i love them sooooo much #Eubalaena australis #bowhead whale #zoology #marine zoology

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raynedayys2 · 4 months

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Wait, wait, lemme just start liking trains

And then they'll HAVE to diagnose me with autism.

#text post #neurodivergent #autism #autistic #asd #self diagnosed autism #self dx autistic #idk maybe being a white 5 y/o boy might help too #/sar #/j #/lh

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xerospaced · 9 months

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Ykno when life keeps teaching you that you're intolerable and undeserving of real respect and/or appreciation...

What are you supposed to do with that?

Coz I'm legitimately tired.

Fast approaching 30 and all I can see for my future self is solitude.

Coz being alone gets lonely sometimes, but I don't find it lonely by default.

What loneliness I do experience is mostly rooted in how unacceptable I seem to be than anything else.

That the connections I've tried to have or longed for that have failed me have singled me out as "different" or "difficult" and eventually done away with or avoided me altogether.

I am about to say goodbye to my 20s and I know myself better than I ever have and in this process of learning I have come to see that people cannot or do not wish to tolerate or understand me. Not much of me anyway.

And all the time spent learning to mask and adopting a facade of normalcy has only done me justice to a certain point. Longevity and prolonged exposure shows far too much of me and the mask is no longer enough to disguise the lesser loved aspects of my being.

I'm cool for now, for the moment. Great in short bursts. Fantastic for advice and a lil fun to be around. But get too close and peak behind the curtain and the enjoyment becomes uncertain.

I'm great, but not really. Better from a distance. Like Pointilism. The individual flecks are not worth the attention.

Actually, scrap that. Let's be real for a second. I'm not some great work of art. I'm more like one of those hypnotic spirals, with the assumption that those who perceive me are prone to vertigo sickness. Look too long and it's bound to lead to significant aversion.

I don't feel like a nice person anymore.

I don't feel loving or patient or tender.

I feel annoyed. Irritated. A deep desire to be unbothered.

And I fear that I am morphing into something even more repellant.

That I might be securing my path to seclusion.

I don't want to mask anymore.

I don't want to be judged.

I do not want to be critiqued and tweaked and warped into something lesser.

I want to be large and loud and bold and untethered.

And alone seems to be the only way I might possibly exist without reprimand.

#mine #cc rambles #self dx autistic #adhd #there's a voice in my head that repeats and all it says: leave me alone

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the-hyperfixations-of-isaiah · 1 year

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Autism is when you dissasociate because theres so many people talking at once and you can't focus because for some god forsaken reason you can hear electricity and then somehow you a way to leave the situation to blast loud music through bulky headphones and colorcoding turtle facts.

Autism is also when you want to share your special interests with the people you love and they don't care about it and tell you to shut up and feeling upset about it and have a meltdown like an hour later and wanting some deep pressure therapy but you have no service dog and nobody to lay flat across your chest so you pile up a whole lot of pillows to try and help it but nothing works.

#does this make sense #autism #autism swag #overstimulation #self dx autistic #turtles #autism problems #sad #literally lay across my chest

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