this is a check in. how likely is it that since the last time we spoke you were put on a watchlist

incredibly! i've been up to some stuff 😁

bro did the apex community all collectively get burn out or what,,, where did everyone go,,,

art is soooo hard [Got too ambitious with a piece and now has to deal with the fact that despite the fact that I have super awesome lineart, my final vision for it is vastly beyond what i know what to do and i might explode when i have to start rendering. which is happening ritght now.]

Most people really don't seem to understand that friendship is a two-way street.

They expect you to wait on them hand and foot as they rant about and constantly pour on you either their issues or their passions and when you finally have something you'd like to talk about you get a "Man that sucks :/" or a "Cool" in return.

Find somebody who doesn't do that. Then you'll have your best friend.

my midterm is in 11 hours i already pulled an all nighter last night and this is going to be my second one after taking two 2 hour naps this afternoon. i have seven gojo shimeji running around my screen. i have two more units left to take notes on before i can actually study them. i am writing this and it's actually working. the neurons in my brains are firing and making connections because of my stupid fucking jjk jokes that i make out of every vocabulary term. i'm going insane im going insane im going insane

shameless plug to read my sensation and perception lecture notes in fanfiction form i guess. i ran out of my self-imposed time limit on twitter so i have to post this here now im sorry im not

Okay so not a factkin but I think this story belongs here and goes along with recent events.

This one time in a kin server, someone (who I’ll call Factkinner for coherency) befriended a mod. This friendship lasted long enough for Factkinner to know what Mod looked like. Randomly one day they saved a picture of Mod and took it to the “help and questioning” channel, and promptly stated they thought they kinned Mod because they felt connected to Mod’s appearance, and even began trying to use Mod’s name, pronouns, etc etc, the whole ordeal. Mod was weirded out but stated that since they believe you can’t control your identity, they would respect Factkinner, but could no longer continue their friendship. A day or two goes by (factkinner making a few more statements about their new “identity” despite Mod asking them to not talk about it in the server) and Factkinner storms into the chat harassing people and claiming they “never kinned (Mod) to begin with” and just said they did for attention and some other reason I don’t really remember.

Factkinner got banned from this server and now nobody really talks about it. Left a bad taste in my mouth for anything involving factkin. While I’m a firm believer of reincarnation, and believe it possible to be a person from the past, factkin are just so /weird/ about it, and it’s even worse when they claim to be someone who is still alive.

Fun fact:

Btw I have my own server with me, myself and I so that I can play Mudae in peace.

Girl... I aint reading all that

TIM???? MIDDLE CLASS???? THE BITCH GREW UP IN A MANSION AND WENT TO BOARDING SCHOOL OVERSEAS????? THAT AINT MIDDLE CLASS????

LITERALLLY AND I KNOW THIS STARTED ON TWITTER MADE ITS WAY TO TUMBLR AND I JUST SAW IT ON TIKTOK LIKE…

Repcomm anon again... I have officially decided that tumblr's problems with Kal'buir are just because of fandom's collective daddy issues. They hate every vaguely father-shaped character who isn't an obvious DILF or more perfectly wholesome than Father Christmas. If they put Kal in live action and made him hot, my bet is that fandom would be singing a very different tune. And it's not just Star Wars fans either - every fandom I've ever been in decides that the not-hot dads are problematic, neglectful, emotionally abusive, and probably physically abusive, no matter what the source material actually says. It's rather tiresome, if you ask me.

Anyway, Kal is the best and I love him

!!! thank you!!!!!! it IS it is tiresome!!!!!! oh my heck i -

repcomm anon you have taken the words directly out of my mouth. at least it isn't just this fandom that has daddy issues, that a relief in a way (though also kind of worrying if i'm honest), but oh my goodness i just - i may as well stop blogging right now, you've said all there is to say on the matter and you're so right

ifi made a minecraft server woulg you guys join. be honest

feeling Emotional rn bc i feel like i have no friends and i miss my old friend group ;-;

Sometimes I am reminded that people aren’t always aware that folks do not always treat or do treat people the same as in abusers don’t go around abusing everyone in their life. Most often abusers are kind and loving to some while in private with their partner or whom ever is their victim becomes a horrible human being.

This also goes to all sorts of flavour of shitty person, they ain’t always shitty, an asshole to everyone. That’s why when victims of abuse, harassment or have terrible experiences with someone speak out they are met with naysayers because to them that person wasn’t abusive or an asshole, etc. humans are complex even the nasty ones who may be good at hiding aspects of themselves because we all do this to an extent we don’t reveal ourselves fully to every single person.

How in tf do you just ASK people things w/o having anxiety just take over bc I CANNOT do it AUGH

u ever look back on a situation you were in and think to yourself “Damn That Was Kinda Fucked Up Actually.”

the online plural community is kind of not new-system friendly (from my experience) and it resulted in me being very selective with who i talk about my plurality with; even with friends, i've had questionable sys friends.

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