Adorned with smoke on my clothes Lovelorn and nobody knows Love thorns all over this rose I'll pay the price, you won't

Love to think you'll never forget We'll pay the price, I guess

1989 (from the vault) sentence starters.

what if all i need is you?

love to think you'll never forget.

i'll pay the price, you won't.

but if i'm all dressed up, they might as well be looking at us.

if they call me a slut, you know it might be worth it for once.

if i'm going to be drunk, might as well be drunk in love.

everyone wants him. that was my crime.

we'll pay the price, i guess.

you're not saying you're in love with me.

it might blow up in your pretty face.

i'm not saying "do it anyway," but you're going to.

we're a shot in the darkest dark.

i'm holding out hope for you to say, "don't go."

i would stay forever if you say "don't go."

why'd you have to lead me on?

why'd you have to twist the knife?

why'd you whisper in the dark just to leave me in the night?

you kiss me and it stops time.

i'm yours, but you're not mine.

i was trying to see the cards that you won't show.

why'd you have to give me nothing back?

why'd you have to make me love you?

i said, "i love you," you say nothing back.

did you get anxious though, on the way home?

from the outside, it looks like you're trying lives on.

i miss the old ways, you didn't have to change.

i cannot be your friend, so i pay the price of what i lost.

truth is, i can't pretend it's platonic, it's just ended.

guess maybe i am better off now that we don't talk.

the only way back to my dignity was to turn into a shrouded mystery.

you were so magnetic, it was almost obnoxious.

i didn't come here to make friends.

when you hold me, it holds me together.

you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever.

you'd be more than a chapter in my old diaries with the pages ripped out.

i know that you still remember.

i broke my own heart 'cause you were too polite to do it.

you don't knock anymore, and my whole life's ruined.

you dream of my mouth before it called you a lying traitor.

you search in every maiden's bed for something greater.

baby, was it over then?

and is it over now?

did you think i didn't see you?

at least i had the decency to keep my nights out of sight.

oh lord, i think about jumping off of very tall somethings, just to see you come running.

if she's got blue eyes, i will surmise that you'll probably date her.

i was hoping you'd be there.

i was hoping you'd be there, and say the one thing i've been wanting, but no.

okay so hear me out

slut! (taylors version) (from the vault) is SO peeta coded like look at the second verse:

everyone wants him, that was my crime

I mean who wouldn't want him just LOOK at him and his beautiful heart but also ms. johanna said it best knowing everyone wanted to sleep with him

the wrong place at the right time

the freaking ARENA???? the most worst place ever but they totally were gonna finally come together then after 11 years

and I break down, then he's pullin' me in

THE NIGHTS ON THE TRAIN !!!!!!!!!!!

in a world of boys, he's a gentleman

this one doesn't need an explanation

okay and also the prechorus:

got love-struck, went straight to my head

got lovesick all over my bed

love to think you'll never forget

we'll pay the price, I guess

but yeah it's totally peeta coded aside from the fact that he's totally not a slut because he's been in love with the same girl his whole life lol

slut by taylor swift is such a huskerdust song and nothing can change my mind

Send the code, he's waiting there The sticks and stones they throw froze mid-air Everyone wants him That was my crime The wrong place at the right time And I break down, then he's pullin' me in In a world of boys, he's a gentleman Got lovestruck, went straight to my head Got lovesick, all over my bed Love to think you'll never forget We'll pay the price, I guess But if I'm all dressed up They might as well be looking at us If they call me a slut You know it might be worth it for once And if I'm gonna be drunk I might as well be drunk in love

LIKE HELLO???? THIS FROM ANGELS POV??? HEAVEN

👀

1989 (Taylor’s version) songs as BL/GL Characters - Part 2

I know places - Palm and Nueng (Never let me go)

‘Cause they got the cages, they got the boxes and guns

They are the hunters, we are the foxes and we run

Baby, I know places we won't be found and

They'll be chasing their tails trying to track us down

‘Cause I, I know places we can hide

[…] Just grab my hand and don't ever drop it, my love

Clean - Akk (The Eclipse)

Hung my head as I lost the war

And the sky turned black like a perfect storm

Rain came pouring down

When I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe

And by morning

Gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean

[…] The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud

But no one heard a thing

Wonderland - Top and Mew (Only Friends)

Didn't it all seem new and exciting?

I felt your arms twisting around me

I should've slept with one eye open at night

We found wonderland, you and I got lost in it

And we pretended it could last forever

[…] And life was never worse but never better

[…] So we went on our way, too in love to think straight

All alone, or so it seemed, but there were strangers watching

And whispers turned to talking

And talking turned to screams

[…] Didn't you calm my fears with with a Cheshire cat smile?

[…] It's all fun and games 'til somebody loses their mind

You’re in love - Nomoto and Kasuga (She loves to cook, and she loves to eat)

'Cause you can hear in the silence

You can feel it on the way home

You can see it with the lights out

You are in love, true love

Morning, [her] place

Burnt toast, Sunday

You keep [her] shirt, [she] keeps [her] word

And for once, you let go of your fears and your ghosts

One step, not much, but it said enough

New Romantics - Not Me Gang (Not Me)

We're so young, but we're on the road to ruin

We play dumb but we know exactly what we're doin'

[…] 'Cause baby, I could build a castle out of all the bricks they threw at me

And every day is like a battle, but every night with us is like a dream

[…] Baby, we're the new romantics

Come on, come along with me

Heartbreak is the national anthem, we sing it proudly

[…] The best people in life are free

[…] We need love, but all we want is danger

Slut! - Mhok and Day (Last Twilight)

Got lovestruck, went straight to my head

Got lovesick, all over my bed, love to think you'll never forget

[… ] Adorned with smoke on my clothes, lovelorn and nobody knows, love thorns all over this rose

[…] The sticks and stones they throw froze mid-air

Everyone wants him, that was my crime, the wrong place at the right time

And I break down, then he's pullin' me in

In a world of boys, he's a gentleman

We'll pay the price, I guess

[...] Half asleep, taking your time in the tangerine, neon light, this luxury

You're not saying you're in love with me, but you're going to

Half awake, taking your chance, it's a big mistake

I said it might blow up in your pretty face

I'm not saying do it anyway, but you're going to

Say don’t go - Kim and Chay (Kinnporsche)

Why'd you have to make me want you?

Why'd you have to give me nothin' back?

Why'd you have to make me love you?

I said, "I love you", you say nothin' back

Why'd you have to lead me on?

Why'd you have to twist the knife?

Walk away and leave me bleedin', bleedin'?

Why'd you whisper in the dark just to leave me in the night?

Now your silence has me screamin', screamin'

[…] I would stay forever if you say, "Don't go”

Now that we don’t talk - Todd and Black (Not Me)

Did you get anxious though on the way home?

I guess I'll never, ever know now that we don't talk

You grew your hair long, you got new icons

And from the outside, it looks like you're tryin' lives on

I miss the old ways, you didn't have to change

But I guess I don't have a say

Now that we don't talk

[…] I cannot be your friend, so I pay the price of what I lost and what it cost

[…] Truth is, I can't pretend it's platonic, it's just ended

Suburban Legends - Boston and Nick (Only Friends)

You had people who called you on unmarked numbers in my peripheral vision

I let it slide like a hose on a slippery plastic summer, all was quickly forgiven

You were so magnetic, it was almost obnoxious, flush with the currency of cool

I was always turnin' out my empty pockets

And when it came to you, I didn't come here to make friends

We were born to be suburban legends

When you hold me, it holds me together

And you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever

Is it over now? - Sand and Ray (Only Friends)

You dream of my mouth before it called you a lying traitor

You search in every maiden's bed for something greater

Baby, was it over when [he] laid down on your couch?

Was it over when he unbuttoned my blouse?

"Come here, " I whispered in your ear in your dream as you passed out, baby

Was it over then? And is it over now?

1989 (VAULT TRACK) SENTENCE STARTERS.

Slut!

flamingo pink.

sunrise boulevard.

clink, clink.

being this young is art.

moonlit swimming pool.

what if all i need is you?

got lovestruck, went straight to my head.

got lovesick all over my bed.

love to think you'll never forget handprints in wet cement.

lovelorn and nobody knows.

love thorns all over this rose.

i'll pay the price, you won't.

if i'm all dressed up, they might as well be looking at us.

and if they call me a slut, you know it might be worth it for once.

if i'm gonna be drunk, i might as well be drunk in love.

send the code.

he's waiting there.

the sticks and stones they throw froze mid-air.

everyone wants him, that was my crime.

the wrong place at the right time.

i break down, then he's pulling me in.

in a world of boys, he's a gentleman.

love to think you'll never forget.

we'll pay the price, i guess.

they might as well be looking at us.

half asleep.

taking your time.

in the tangerine, neon light, this is luxury.

you're not saying you're not in love with me.

but you're going to.

taking your chances.

it's a big mistake.

it might blow up in your pretty face.

do it anyway.

Say Don't Go.

i've known it from the very start.

we're a shot in the darkest dark.

oh no, oh no.

i'm unarmed.

the waiting is a sadness.

fading into madness.

it won't stop.

i'm standing on a tightrope, alone.

i hold my breath a little bit longer.

halfway out the door, but it won't close.

i'm holding out hope for you to say, 'don't go'.

i would stay forever if you say, 'don't go'.

why'd you have to lead me on?

why'd you have to twist the knife?

walk away and leave me bleeding.

why'd you whisper in the dark, just to leave me in the night?

now your silence has me screaming.

don't go.

now i'm pacing on shaky ground.

strike a match.

it's not fair.

you kiss me and it stops time.

i'm yours, but you're not mine.

you're not there.

i'm standing on the sidewalk, alone.

i wait for you to drive by.

i was trying to see the cards that you won't show.

i'm about to fold unless you say, 'don't go'.

why'd you have to make me want you?

why'd you have to give me nothing back?

i said, 'i love you', you say nothing back.

i want you more.

i would stay forever if you say, 'don't go', but you won't.

Now That We Don't Talk.

you went to a party, i heard from everybody.

don't even get me started.

did you get anxious though, on the way home?

i guess i'll never, ever know now that we don't talk.

you grew your hair long.

you get new icons.

and from the outside it looks like you're trying lives on.

i miss the old ways.

you didn't have to change.

i guess i don't have a say.

i called my mom, she said that it was for the best.

the more i gave, you'd want me less.

i cannot be your friend.

i pay the price of what i lost, and what it cost.

what do you tell your friends?

we shared dinners, long weekends.

truth is, i can't pretend it's platonic.

it's just ended.

i called my mom, she said to get it off my chest.

remind myself the way you faded till i left.

i cannot be your friend, so i pay the price of what i lost.

i don't have to pretend i like acid rock.

i'd like to be on a mega yacht.

important men who think important thoughts.

guess maybe i am better of now that we don't talk.

the only way back to my dignity was to turn into a shrouded mystery.

just like i had been when you were chasing me.

guess this is how it has to be.

Suburban Legends.

you had people who called you on unmarked numbers.

i let it slide.

all was quickly forgiven.

you were so magnetic, it was almost obnoxious.

i was always turning out my empty pockets.

i didn't come here to make friends.

we were born to be suburban legends.

when you hold me, it holds me together.

you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever.

i had the fantasy that maybe our mismatched star signs would surprise the whole school.

i ended up back at our class reunion.

you'd be more than a chapter in my old diaries.

i am standing in a 1950s gymnasium.

i can still see you now.

i know that you still remember.

we were born to be national treasures.

you told me we'd get back together.

tick-tock on the clock.

i pace down your block.

i broke my own heart, 'cause you were too polite to do it.

waves crash on the shore.

you don't knock anymore.

my whole life's ruined.

i always knew it.

my life had been ruined.

Is It Over Now?

i slept all alone.

you still wouldn't go.

let's fast forward to 300 takeout coffees later.

i see your profile and your smile.

you dream of my mouth before it called you a lying traitor.

you search in every maiden's bed for something else.

baby, was it over when she laid down on your couch?

was it over when he unbuttoned my blouse?

come here.

baby, was it over then?

and is it over now?

when you lost control.

red blood, white snow.

blue dress on a boat.

your new girl is my clone.

did you think i didn't see you?

there were flashing lights.

at least i had the decency to keep my nights out of sight.

only rumors about my hips and thighs.

oh lord.

i think about jumping off of very tall somethings.

but no!

let's fast forward to 300 awkward blind dates later.

if she's got blue eyes, i will surmise that you'll probably date her.

you search in every model's bed for something greater.

was it over then? and is it over now?

i think about jumping off of very tall somethings just to see you come running and say the one thing i've been wanting.

i was hoping you'd be there.

Everyone wants her that was my crime

The wrong place at the right time

And I break down, then he's pullin' me in

In a world of boys, he's a gentleman

Got lovestruck, went straight to my head

Got lovesick, all over my bed

Love to think you'll never forget

We'll pay the price, I guess

Taylor Swift and Paying

'Taylor Swift'

Tied Together With A Smile: Oh, 'cause it's not his price to pay, it's not his price to pay

'Fearless (Taylor's Version)'

(no paying)

'Speak Now (Taylor's Version)'

Mine: But we got bills to pay, we got nothing figured out

'Red (Taylor's Version)'

(no paying)

'1989 (Taylor's Version)'

"Slut!": Love thorns all over this rose, I'll pay the price, you won't

"Slut!": Love to think you'll never forget, we'll pay the price, I guess

Now That We Don't Talk: I cannot be your friend, so I pay the price of what I lost and what it cost

'reputation'

(no paying)

'Lover'

(no paying)

'folklore'

(no paying)

'evermore'

Happiness: I guess it's the price I paid for seven years in heaven

Cowboy Like Me: I could be the way forward only if they pay for it

Cowboy Like Me: We could be the way forward and I know I'll pay for it

'Midnights'

High Infidelity: At the house lonely, good money, I'd pay if you'd just know me

Other Songs written by Taylor

Christmas Must Be Something More: What if angels did not pay attention to all the things that we wished they would always do?

Official Alternate Releases

(no paying)

the lyric parallel that hurts the most is "you're giving it away like it's extra change but he leaves you out like a penny in the rain, oh cause it's not his price to pay" with "love thorns all over this rose, I'll pay the price you won't" / "love to think you'll never forget, we'll pay the price, I guess"

got love struck went straight to my head got lovesick all over the bed love to think you'll never forget we'll pay the price i guess!!!! but if im all dressed up!!!! they might as well be looking at usss and if they call me a slut you know it might be worth it for once and if im gonna be drunkkkk i might as well be DRUNK. IN. LOVE. 😩😩😩😫😩😫😩😩😫😩😫😫😩😫😖😣😣😣😩😫

KATIE! 💙 idk if you listened to the 1989 tv vault tracks yet 💙

But might I propose a crack-ish addition to the Spommy playlist? 😇

Cause "Slut!" reminded me of Erin's comment about Spencer 😹

And if they call me a slut

You know it might be worth it for once

And if I'm gonna be drunk

I might as well be drunk in love

(since like Spencer doesn't drink, but falling for Tommy is making him feel that way ?! etc etc it's kitsch, but you get me, right? 😹)

Got love-struck, went straight to my head

Got lovesick all over my bed

Love to think you'll never forget

We'll pay the price, I guess

-> this just feels them coded in a way I can't express... Also the "I guess" at the end is so Spencer to me lmao

Half asleep, takin' your time

In the tangerine, neon light, this is luxury

You're not sayin' you're in love with me

But you're going to

Half awake, takin' your chances

It's a big mistake, I said, "It might blow up in your pretty face"

I'm not saying, "Do it anyway" (Do it anyway)

But you're going to

That's all 🫶💙

i havent listened to 1989 yet (been busy as fuck) but signed, sealed, delivered 10/10 you've never been wrong

1989 vault lyrics

"slut!"

what if all i need is you?

if I'm all dressed up they might as well be lookin' at us

if they call me a slut you know it might be worth it for once

in a world of boys, he's a gentleman

love to think you'll never forget

we'll pay the price, I guess

you're not sayin' you're in love with me but you're going to

it's a big mistake

it might blow up in your pretty face

"say don't go"

i've known it from the very start we're a shot in the darkest dark

the waiting is a sadness fading into madness

halfway out the door, but it won't close

i'm holding out hope for you to say, "don't go"

i would stay forever if you say, "don't go"

why'd you have to lead me on?

why'd you have to twist the knife?

walk away and leave me bleeding

why'd you whisper in the dark just to leave me in the night?

now your silence has me screaming

it's not fair 'cause you kiss me and it stops time

and I'm yours, but you're not mine

i wait for you to drive by

i was trying to see the cards that you won't show

why'd you have to make me want you? 

why'd you have to give me nothing back?

i said, "i love you," you say nothing back 

i want you more but you won't say "don't go"

"now that we don't talk"

you went to a party, I heard from everybody

you part the crowd like the red sea, don't even get me started

did you get anxious though, on the way home?

i guess i'll never, ever know now that we don't talk

from the outside, it looks like you're trying lives on

i miss the old ways, you didn't have to change

but i guess i don't have a say now that we don't talk

remind myself the more i gave, you'd want me less

i cannot be your friend, so i pay the price of what i lost

so i pay the price of what i lost and what it cost

what do you tell your friends we shared dinners, long weekends with?

truth is, i can't pretend it's platonic, it's just ended, so

guess maybe i am better off now that we don't talk

and the only way back to my dignity was to turn into a shrouded mystery

guess this is how it has to be now that we don't talk

"suburban legends"

you had people who called you on unmarked numbers in my peripheral vision

you were so magnetic, it was almost obnoxious

i was always turning out my empty pockets

when it came to you i didn't come here to make friends

we were born to be suburban legends

when you hold me, it holds me together

you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever

i had the fantasy that maybe our mismatched star signs would surprise the whole school when i ended up back at our class reunion walking in with you

you'd be more than a chapter in my old diaries with the pages ripped out

i am standing in a 1950s gymnasium and i can still see you now

i know that you still remember

we were born to be national treasures when you told me we'd get back together

i broke my own heart 'cause you were too polite to do it

you don't knock anymore, and my whole life's ruined

"is it over now?

i slept all alone, you still wouldn't go

let's fast forward to 300 takeout coffees later

i see your profile and your smile on unsuspecting waiters

you dream of my mouth before it called you a lying traitor

you search in every maiden's bed for something greater

baby, was it over when she laid down on your couch?

was it over when he unbuttoned my blouse?

baby, was it over then? and is it over now?

is it over now?

your new girl is my clone

and did you think i didn't see you? there were flashing lights

at least i had the decency to keep my nights out of sight

i think about jumping off of very tall somethings just to see you come running

let's fast forward to 300 awkward blind dates later

if she's got blue eyes, i will surmise that you'll probably date her

you search in every model's bed for something greater

Hello!!!

Flamingo pink, Sunrise Boulevard Clink, clink, being this young is art Aquamarine, moonlit swimmin' pool What if all I need is you? Got love-struck, went straight to my headvGot lovesick all over my bedvLove to think you'll never forget Handprints in wet cement Adorned with smoke on my clothes Lovelorn and nobody knows Love thorns all over this rose I'll pay the price, you won't But if I'm all dressed up They might as well be lookin' at us And if they call me a slut You know it might be worth it for once And if I'm gonna be drunk I might as well be drunk in love Send the code, he's waitin' there The sticks and stones they throw froze mid-air Everyone wants him, that was my crime The wrong place at the right timeAnd I break down, then he's pullin' me inIn a world of boys, he's a gentleman Got love-struck, went straight to my head (Straight to my head) Got lovesick all over my bed (Over my bed) Love to think you'll never forget We'll pay the price, I guess But if I'm all dressed up (If I'm all dressed up) They might as well be lookin' at us (Lookin' at us) And if they call me a slut (If they call me a slut) You know it might be worth it for once (Worth it for once) And if I'm gonna be drunk I might as well be drunk in love Half asleep, takin' your time In the tangerine, neon light, this is luxury You're not sayin' you're in love with me But you're going to Half awake, takin' your chances It's a big mistake, I said, "It might blow up in your pretty face "I'm not saying, "Do it anyway" (Do it anyway) But you're going to (Up) And if they call me a (Slut) You know it might be worth it for once And if I'm gonna be (Drunk) I might as well be drunk in love

YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN: SLUT!

slut!!

something that never was

pairing: daisuke kambe x reader

playlist: even if it's a lie - matt maltese*, a soulmate who wasn't meant to be - jessica benko, the less i know the better - tame impala, id rather go blind - beyonce ( cadillac records ), the house we never built - gabrielle aplin*, i cant make you love me - dave thomas junior, i go crazy - orla gartland, blow my brains out - tikkle me, hidden in the sand - tally hall

warnings: angst, mentions of cheating,

summary: the coldness he radiates gets the best of you, ultimately leading to the end.

announcements!

i dont really see daisuke cheating unless it was a misunderstanding or smth, but i liked the idea of this fic. Let me know what you think!

you can tell i didnt write this in a sitting lol. Im vv sorry if it's hard to follow!

feedback is welcome and appreciated! requests are open!

There's a warm body beside you, yet the bed feels cold. The arm around your waist feels almost as foreign as the face in front of you. It hurts to look at him, to feel him. It hurts to even be around him. He's so beautiful but he feels like half the man he once was. It's disheartening.

Maybe the saying, what you don't know can't hurt you is correct because you were feeling the repercussions right about now. Curiosity really did kill the cat, and at this point, you don't even know how to get satisfaction from it. How does one bring up cheating to their partner? Especially when the partner is like Daisuke.

He likes to brush things off without paying a price except for whatever was in his bank account, the type to hand you a card and say 'go get yourself something pretty.' And it wasn't like he was a bad lover, in fact, it was very easy to fall in love with him. He has a charm about him that's magnetic, one glance and suddenly it's impossible to look away. Or at least that was your experience.

With the final confirmation that closing your eyes will do nothing other than bringing pictures into your head, you turn your back to him and try and distance your body from his. It doesn't do anything to help when he pulls you closer subconsciously, except for maybe it makes you want to cry.

You'd confront him tomorrow, you decided.

If you need to.

———

The pace you set is leisure and if kt wasn't for the poor nail bed quickly coming to nothing, it'd seem like you weren't completely losing your head. It's all you can think about. Daisuke out with some girl—who you know for a fact isn't his sister, and who is all over him. He didn't even make a move to push her off! He hates that kind of attention so if he didn't object it, then he was asking for it. He wanted the girl on his side. In fact, for someone who insists the other person sits across from him at a restaurant- he looked quite comfortable with her nearly in his lap.

Maybe you're overthinking this, y/n.

The door clicks open and your ears strain to hear the sound of Daisuke's dress shoes. He's rather indulgent when it comes to dressing wear and the shoes were practically silent, even with the short heel on the back.

"I'm home." He says to no one particular, taking off his trenchcoat and hanging it on the rack beside the door. He stops his path to the bedroom when he sees you frozen in place and staring in the living room. He merely quirks a brow, going to take off his suit and tie.

Suddenly you can't speak and you have tunnel vision. It's unfair how calm he always looks—it's almost smug like he knows everything about you and more. Like he can read your mind and tell you your darkest thoughts and when you'll die because let's be honest, it'll probably be by his hand. Maybe you should back out now before you can say anything. Forget it all because what if you're mistaken? The more you think, the more weight is added onto your shoulders and the more it pushes you down, down further into the hole you want to crawl into. Maybe you should let it because all you want to do now is escape his piercing gaze. His eyes are studying you, taking in your form and the cogs in his brain are turning to find an explanation as to why you are standing there like a psychopath and not welcoming him home like you usually do.

You feel like you're drowning. Is the light getting dimmer? The black around your vision only seems to close in around Daisuke and you try to look anywhere else but his face. There's water in your ears, the popping of them only intensifies until you can feel it pounding into your head with faint static.

Am I going to pass out?

It's not until his hand comes down gently on your shoulder that the closing circle of vision widens out and suddenly all the imaginary water rushes from your ears. You glance down at his rings before back up him, barely catching the end of his words.

"Are you alright?"

He's never been one to beg, so you would have to answer now or he'll leave it be for the rest of the night and probably months after until you're like this again.

"I-can we talk?"

He eyes you suspiciously, narrowing his eyes and keeping his brow raised before nodding, slipping his tie off around his neck, folding it neatly into the palm of his hand. He gestures for you to start the conversation, going to the minibar curving around the kitchen and living area.

When you don't reply he urges you on, "Why so tense? Did something happen, darling?"

It'd seem like he didn't really care from how cold his voice was, but you've grown accustomed to the monotone to know that he truly is concerned for your health. He genuinely wants to know why you're acting so odd. It only makes this so much harder? You're wrong- you have to be. This must be a sick trick your brain has played on you. Or he must be playing some sick trick.

Anxiety settles itself into your gut and it seems like it won't leave anytime soon.

"Daisuke, are...- are you cheating on me?"

His eyebrows finally go lax but he doesn't look up from unbuttoning the cuffs of his white button-down. His fingers fidget at the buttons and instead of the previous loose form, his hand forms a fist.

"I- "

"Why—exactly, are you accusing me of this?"

His gaze sends chills down your spine. He's offended but he doesn't offer a defense. Suddenly your mouth is dry and you lose all your words? How exactly were you going to tell him you stumbled across him and some woman in a restaurant and practically stared them down for fifteen minutes.

You decide the bear it and swallow a lump that has formed in your throat.

"You were with a woman earlier this week snd well, the displays of affection that I saw were not very like you. You've been gone for long hours and even if you blamed it on the new job, Daisuke—you never tell me anything. Is she for a case? Are you using her for information? Go on, tell me about it. Give me a reason not to accuse you."

You regain your confidence but it falters when you meet his indifferent expression. You'd prefer it if he looked angry and the silence that fills the room is deafening and the tension suffocating.

"I can't tell you anything about our cases-"

"I'm your partner! What am I going to do? Rat you out to whoever is breaking the law? Why would I even how those connections, Daisuke?"

Daisuke inhales deeply through his nose like this whole conversation is a burden on him and you can't help but feel like a burden too. Was this relationship not worth the time to talk this out? One hand grips the bar and the other pinches the bridge of his nose.

"You aren't my partner, you're my fiance. My partner and I work together. So, no. I can't tell you about the cases."

You want to rip out your hair. This isn't about his stupid job or his stupid partner. This is about the dumb fucking restaurant and the dumb fucking woman who was hanging off him.

He can't actually be this dense!

"It's not about that! Either you aren't getting the point or you keep changing the subject because it's true!" Your voice rises in pitch, your confidence failing and turning more so into desperation. But you aren't crying yet. There are no tears and your eyes are dry and you absolutely refuse to cry in front of a Kambe.

It's like the beginning of your relationship all over again. A protective barrier around yourself so you don't get hurt and offended by his cold shoulder. Was it so bad to think you've moved on from that feeling? Why is it so difficult for him to just comfort you and push back those fears? Is he that emotionally stunted? You may not know much about his past and his family, but damn— at least you're trying to work through it with him. Can he put out a little more effort?

All he does is pour himself a glass. All he does... is pour himself a glass.

"You know what- forget it. If you're so entitled and so emotionally reserved that you can't even talk to me without a drink first, then I guess we'll talk about it another time—when you don't look like my voice gives you a headache."

Daisuke actually looks taken back by your words and you suddenly feel bad for hitting a sore spot. He may not have shown it often, but he doesn't particularly like not being able to show his true emotions; no matter the reason being.

"Y/N, wait.."

But you're back on adrenaline just as soon as he felt a drop, pushing past him to get to your coat. You just needed to calm down before you said something you'd truly regret. Words tended to stay in his mind much longer than they were intended to.

"I'm staying at my mother's. Don't call me, don't text me, don't come near me until you're ready to tell me what the hell you were doing with her. "

When he doesn't say anything more and you can practically hear the cogs in his head turn, you make your way out there door, making sure to slam it shut.

You slip on the coat angrily, slamming open the door without sparing him a glance but waiting for him to say something. Anything. Were you being too rash? You shake your head and scold yourself, mentally. You can't just turn around now, not after an outburst like that. He has to learn something from this.

Irrational or not, hopefully, his true colors would show.

Rio & Buster

Rio: Hey Rio: Sorry for dashing like I saw a bill earlier Rio: Stupid drama called Buster: Whatever Buster: Can't be hanging with you all day anyway Buster: Got my own shit to do Rio: 'Course Rio: Just in case you thought anything real mad was going down, like Rio: I'm good Buster: Looked like you were determined to handle it, babe Rio: Needs must, you know Rio: won't bore you with a long story Buster: Yeah Buster: Long story or boring story? Rio: Ha, both Rio: Out here trying to change the narrative but Buster: If he's still being a cunt you can tell me Buster: I'll sort it easy Rio: Oh no Rio: That's already the issue lowkey Rio: one of my lovelier exes been giving him grief Rio: how that's my problem now is a little beyond me but that's the joys init Buster: Well I'll sort him then Buster: Who is it? Rio: Don't think you ever had the pleasure Rio: Timelines didn't cross, I guess Rio: I can handle it, all good Buster: I can have it now, no greater pleasure than knocking him out, like Buster: So can I Rio: Yeah, know you love a scrap, McKenna Rio: Not a big deal, he's just a twat, like all my exes, yeah? Buster: You said it Rio: 😂 Rio: Exes for a reason, babe Rio: doing something wrong if you've got loads of good ones Buster: Doing something wrong if you've got any, I reckon Buster: You girls always gotta label shit Rio: Nah Rio: just a timescale thing, init Rio: don't blame us if you can't sustain shit Buster: I blame them that they don't make me wanna Buster: Ain't my fault if they're only worth the night Buster: I'm always bringing my best Rio: Oh, babe Rio: Now I'm feeling bad for you Rio: how'd you manage that Buster: Shut up Rio: What Rio: I'm serious Buster: Distract yourself from your own drama however you want but leave me out Buster: I'm not looking for a pity party Rio: Not throwing one Buster: Don't say shit like that to me then Buster: I'm all good Rio: Alright, alright Rio: I'm just questioning what they're bringing if you're really that uninterested, that's all Buster: Trying to scope out the competition, is it Buster: Makes sense Rio: Please 🙄 Buster: I would've, but you left Buster: Gotta please yourself now, babe Rio: You're lucky I left when I did Rio: only so many casualties a girl can cause in a day Rio: well, it's sorted now so Buster: Like I'm scared of any of your exes Buster: Don't be stupid Rio: Not what I meant actually, so calm down the 💪 Rio: don't know how much more your 💔 could stand, babe Buster: You reckon you can hurt me? Buster: Don't make me laugh Rio: Easy Buster: Try me Rio: Some other time Rio: so busy rn, yeah boy? Buster: About as busy as you are scared, yeah Rio: Why lie about having your own shit then, babe? Rio: Was I meant to be gutted, awh Buster: I ain't Buster: I'm well busy and you're well scared Rio: Ha Rio: No Buster: Which part is hard to believe? Buster: 'Cause trust me Rio: I'm sure, McKenna Rio: so, what boring delights await you tonight then? Buster: She's here now if you wanna say hi Rio: You're alright Rio: had a day of letting my own down gently, never mind dealing with yours for you Buster: I wasn't asking Buster: I can handle my own Buster: She's enjoying that you've got jokes, is all Buster: Agrees that you're shit scared like Rio: Now I know she ain't real, like 😂 Buster: [sends selfie with girl] Buster: there's some fakeness on her for sure, but I ain't mad Rio: Eurgh, put it away Rio: Honestly Buster: What are you doing tonight then? Buster: Wow me Rio: Night's still young over here Rio: even if you in bed Rio: see where it takes me Buster: Please, I'm not a fucking amateur Buster: Got a whole house to play with Rio: Then hadn't you better get back to it? Buster: Probably Rio: Charming as ever Buster: No complaints yet Buster: Come over and join us if you're still close by Buster: See for yourself Rio: Hmm, think we'd both be passing if she knew we were cousins, like Rio: Save you explaining that one Buster: Not gonna tell her, am I Buster: She's not here to talk Rio: Just you, like Buster: 😂 Buster: You started it, babe Buster: I'm just being a hero how you like, making sure you're okay Rio: You on something good if you cocky enough to reckon you know how I like it, babe Rio: I'm all good, that's been said Buster: You're full of shit if you reckon I don't Rio: It's all just playin' Buster: Don't have to be Rio: True Rio: Shame you got other plans then, ain't it Buster: Make me a better offer Rio: Me, bitch Rio: I am the better offer and you know it Buster: Tell me where I can find you and we'll see Rio: Finish what you started Rio: Damn, so spoilt rich boy Buster: Finish what you started Rio: Touche Rio: though, don't think we can put it all on me Buster: I think you'll want it all when it comes down to it though, babe Rio: Just think? Rio: Unusual for you Buster: Trying not to scare you off again like Buster: Lot to handle, you know Rio: Ugh, how many times do I have to tell you that wasn't about you Buster: When you believe it, maybe I will Buster: Or you can just tell me what it was about and I'll shut up Rio: Tempting Rio: you are fucking infuriating Rio: I told you, ex drama Rio: didn't know you wanted the juicy details Buster: What the fuck's so special about him? Buster: You don't get rattled that way Rio: He ain't Rio: it's Rio: he's just a bit mental Buster: Has he hurt you? Buster: Seriously Rio: What? Nah Rio: He ain't here, back in the 24 ain't he Buster: Tell me what his fucking deal is, Rio. I'm not playing now Rio: Everything always sounds more dramatic when you try and explain Rio: It's sorted Buster: Not by me Buster: Just tell me Rio: Wouldn't know where to begin, babe Rio: was ages ago, he just gets mouthy sometimes when he's on one Rio: awkward when he comes at my next ex instead of me, like, that's all Buster: Not anymore he won't be. I'll shut him up for you Rio: Don't Rio: Seriously, it'll make everything worse Buster: Do you still love him or what? Rio: Fuck no Rio: just trust me, you don't want the aggro Buster: Like I said, give a shit Buster: Just tell me what you mean, worse than what, babe Rio: I don't know he just Rio: he's always there, whatever he's saying Rio: though we broke up nearly a year ago Buster: So he's a fucking stalker, yeah? Rio: Well, I don't know if we'd go that hard Buster: Rio Buster: Come on Rio: What? I don't wanna be dramatic about it Buster: Why the fuck not? Buster: He is Buster: And if I'm gonna kill the cunt I wanna know what for Rio: You aren't, let's get that straight Rio: it's not like he's a creepy stranger in the bushes, or whatever Rio: I did go out with him Rio: he just Rio: ain't moving on, idk Buster: A year ago Buster: And it ain't me you're scared of, is it? Rio: No Buster: So I'm just gonna scare him too, yeah Buster: And you're not gonna stop me Rio: No, Buster Rio: Please Buster: I can make this better for you, okay Buster: Just let me Rio: Or worse, like Rio: and for yourself Rio: it ain't like I don't appreciate the offer, or that I don't wish you could but Buster: You can trust me Buster: I ain't that stupid Buster: I'm not just gonna walk up to him on a busy street, like Rio: It ain't like you can kill him Rio: he'll just go back to it, trust me Buster: Not if I break both his hands Buster: Can't text you then, can he Rio: Be serious Buster: I am Rio: Alright, start thinking clearer then Rio: this is why I didn't want to tell you, there's nothing you can do Buster: There's always something Buster: What's his price for leaving you alone? We can find out Rio: That's silly Rio: how are you enforcing that Rio: can't force a guarantee from a scumbag, like Buster: Fuck's sake Rio: I know Rio: Forget about it though Buster: No Buster: But I'll have better ideas Rio: Alright, by the time we've vetoed all those, he'll probably be bored Buster: Fuck off Rio: Done Buster: Too easy, babe Buster: Give me a challenge Rio: That wasn't enough of one, like Buster: Nah Rio: Damn Rio: like punishment that much I know some people you could pay Buster: 😂 Buster: Bet you do Rio: Duh Rio: your neck of the woods is prime location for punters Rio: pass on your deets Rio: even be favourable, like, welcome Buster: That why you're still here, yeah? Rio: To get you hooked up with someone you wanna 'round 2 Rio: or to punish posh boys Rio: both works for me, like Buster: You could've already got option 1 done if you hadn't done a vanishing act instead Buster: Think on next time Rio: Buster Buster: Yeah? Rio: How drunk are you right now? Buster: I ain't even, babe Buster: Good to go, honest Rio: Hmm okay then Buster: Do you wanna get a drink? We can Rio: You bringing your friend or planning to let her have free run of your gaff? Buster: If you want me to tell her to go then she's gone Rio: Nah, you don't need to Rio: just let me know when you're out, yeah? Buster: 'Course