guys i've capped my inbox for now (i probably won't reopen it) because i have 12 asks in there right now. here's the numbers though in case you're curious!

angel neil: 4 arson neil: 5 mafia front: 2 vampdrew: 1

thoughts on ruby sunday? i feel like the writers are rushing her relationship with the doctor big time, but otherwise, she's genuinely fun.

i will say i am a little teensy bit bitter about the fact that yaz waited three seasons for information she really never even fully got whereas 15/14 (what are we calling ncuti's doctor?) just dumped it all onto ruby first episode lol. but obviously not bitter at ruby, just sad for yaz. i recognize it was probably a very specific choice by RTD to show the doctor's growth though, so ill get over it

At only 3 full eps (including Christmas special) in, I think I'm gonna withhold any strong critique, but so far, I'm feeling the same qualms, friend! Don't feel guilty about it.

I think a lot of the problems we're seeing with narrative pacing and tone are to do with adapting a kind of quirky counter-cultural program (DW's a main staple of sci fi, but it still had that less crowd-pleasing, more weird unique low-budget vibe until now) to suit a mass-appeal streaming service. The nuance of the Doctor as a character and the franchise as a whole feels a little lost in the almost heavy-handed desire to "start over fresh" (the symbolism of the bi-generation and the time Fourteen is granted to heal before becoming Fifteen) and the urge to make a very quirky story more palatable both to mass audiences and to younger kids. There's a bit of dumbing-down in the dialogue, in the true danger of the stakes, even in the Doctor-companion relationship. Problematic elements have been scraped away to make for a safer environment of storytelling. And there are pros and cons to that method. Disney is sadly good at swallowing counter-culture and somehow spinning it to seem like they were on its side all along: "Look how diverse our new cast is!" Yeah, and that's totally laudable, but that's not to your credit, Disney.

Maybe some of my apprehensions have to do with how terribly self-conscious the show now is. For instance, it made sense for Maestro, an omnipotent and omniscient being, to wink multiple times at the audience, and to "know the theme songs" of characters beyond the fourth wall. But the Doctor? Doing a musical dance number? Adorable, fun, granted, just not very Doctor Whoey. Not the correct TYPE of "weird," LOL.

In short, the show feels good, the show is well done as a STAND-ALONE projet, but it doesn't feel like Doctor Who just yet. It feels like a buddy comedy with ultimately circumstantial similarities. None of this is to do with Fifteen or Ruby, but yeah, I think they're trying to hard to say "this is as much a reboot as a continuation! This is season one! The Doctor is happy and trauma-free again!" And yes I think that lends itself to rushing the relationship's development, and yes, in so many ways, no matter how this season does, Yaz deserved better. Frankly, so did the Master, and so did Thirteen.

Could I be wrong? Maybe Ncuti's Doctor is supposed to be unproblematically wholesome and socially adept. Maybe he's still our neurodivergent cryptid gremlin with a deep-seated sadness behind the smile and the almost alarming propensity for talking tepidly, flippantly, about the genocide of his own people. Maybe at some point Ruby's origin story is going to unlock the things the Doctor is ONCE AGAIN running away from.

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YES THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for sending me something off of the works in progress emoji ask game!! If anyone else wants to send something the list can be found HERE if anyone else wants to send some or reblog for themselves! As always, I love ask games, and I love fanfic, and I love our little Tumblr community and am so grateful that people are willing to engage with me. Thank you!!

💋 - snippet of a wip of your choice

You're getting a snippet from All the King's Horses (I know probably not the one people want lol) but I am SO EXCITED about it and I also just realized today is Wednesday not Thursday which means I have to wait even longer to share it so I am sad. George cleared his throat. “Matthew and I are going to head out,” he said, trying and failing to sound nonchalant.  Gabi looked up sharply, “Matty’s coming?” She asked, a smile playing on the corners of her mouth and George flushed. Polly had no doubt filled her in on their Cold War. “Yeah,” said George, “we’re still good to meet you at Jalapeño’s?”  “Yep,” said Gabi, “just waiting on Polly to finish giving meds.” “Cool, I think Ross and Waughty will be there first, they said they would get a table,” George said, hooking his backpack over his shoulder. “We’ll see you soon?”  “Sounds good,” said Gabi, flashing George a thumbs up with a glint in her eye. Matthew was standing by the entrance to the barn when George returned, wearing a pair of wayfarer style sunglasses and a well worn Kentucky Horse Park baseball cap tugged down over his curls. George swallowed a pang of disappointment, even sweaty and squished from wearing a helmet all day, George liked Matthew’s curls.  “Ready?” George asked and Matthew nodded, following him to the parking lot and climbing into the passenger seat of George’s truck.  George looked away as he did so, not wanting to get caught checking out his ass, admiring the way his navy blue breeches pulled tight as he hoisted himself into George’s lifted vehicle, the hop jump he had to do to get in only highlighting how small he was. George quickly banished the thought of how that meant Matthew would fit perfectly, tucked against his side.

💌 - how many wips do you have?

Too many 💀 Officially in progress being actively update (at least in The 1975 fandom I'm pretending the other fandoms don't exist at the moment) I have five: All the King's Horses Make Way for Ducklings You Know Where the City Is It's Christmas (So This Is Gonna Be a Nightmare) On a Friday In terms of ones that exist and are actively being worked on but aren't ready to be posted / haven't been posted yet I a have five more: Tennessee Stella McCartney (the Nashville™️ fic) Now Is the Hour (The teen dad fictional!matty fic) Vampire AU (we're still working on a name) The End of SATVB Sick Fic One shot (name also TBD) That super secret fourth thing that I keep joking about So apparently all in all that's TEN WIPS and i did not realize it was that many and now I'm stressed... (Less work has gone into them - but I also have the infection verse fics where Baby Gatty gets together and Fictional!Matty is readjusting to the public eye after the chapter eight events of the A&E fic but I'm not emotionally ready to admit that I have 12 WIPs lol)

⏳️- wip you're planning on doing next

That is a very good question! I whatever fic gets updated on Tuesday will be determined by the poll that I still don't have the results for yet (it ends soon if you haven't voted yet!). Once the Christmas Fic is finished I would like to start posting another one of my in progress WIPs, I'm just not sure which one yet. I also want to FINALLY hopefully get the SATVB sick fic finished - I'm just worried people are going to be disappointed because I have taken so long to finish it and I'm worried it's been over hyped

Thank you SO MUCH for sending me this ask oh my gosh!! I'm so excited about my various projects (even if I'm a little stressed I hadn't realized there were so many lol) and I hope you continue to enjoy my posts in the meantime! I hope you have a great rest of your day and a great week!

❤️Ally

Updated my pinned post again so I figured I might as well do a song thing cuz. It's right there that I want to do it. I'm gonna do my favorite song of my favorite kpop idols

My #1 listen this year was 0x1=love song by TXT, I figured as much, if you haven't heard it I'm surprised you're here, but listen!!!! It's very good!!!!

BTS didnt come out with much this year sadly, but of 2021, my apple music replay says I liked permission to dance more, idc what everyone says, I stand by it. I love it a lot. It came out right after I had finished my sign language class last semester and I was So Happy to see them doing the sign for dance in their choreo. It makes me so happy.

Stray kids is hard, I really liked the no easy album, my favorite was mixtape: oh, but red lights was also fantastic. And then they dropped winter falls and Christmas Evel and well. I have many favorites this year, I liked all their songs this year.

Seventeen, I'll be honest I haven't listened to much but rock with you is one of the best songs I've ever listened to. I love it so much I can't recommend it more. It just itches my brain right.

Red velvet is another one I'm not even at the point of really trying to Stan yet, but bad boy, especially the English version, is great. It's not from this year, but I don't listen to them enough to have a recent from them

Oh my girl!!!! Y'know I thought dolphin or secret garden would be in my list, because I was sleeping on. All their other songs for so long, but dun dun dance is just. So good. I love it so much it just makes me happy even when I'm super sad, I love it a lot. Big recommend!!!

Dreamcatcher Dami grabbed me by the throat the first time I saw her and I only loved her more when I actually heard her voice (my first exposure to them was their lucky strike cover) and black and white is simply chefs kiss. I love it so so much!!!!! I don't know what it is about it but it's just amazing

Day6!!!!!! I love zombie an unhealthy amount. It was one of the first songs my friends showed me when they decided I needed to expand my kpop groups. It is so pretty and it's a mood and I just really really love it.

Another group I'm not really trying to Stan, weeekly!!! After school just makes joy happen, again I don't know what it is, it has to be laced with something.

Mamamoo, oh my goooood I love them. Especially hwasa, my queen. My favorite so far of their songs is probably where are we now? Its very different from what I usually listen to and I love it!!!!

Stayc is iconic, stereotype, stereotype is just perfect, chefs kiss, immaculate, I love it

Ok last for now, twice, scientist. I love it a lot. I am a super science nerd and the aesthetic was gorgeous and it was an adorable song and jeongyeon was just. So pretty. So pretty. I love her.

Ok I might do more later, and update things, cuz these are still from me as a new fan (except my top three). This became really just my favorite of the groups lol, BTS TXT and SKZ were just of this year bc I can't choose just one favorite at this point cjchdhndbd

1/n Hi again :D I was just scrolling through your blog and OMG?? You like House too? AND you actually know stuff about bollywood and the fact that it's called hindi and not "indian" and you know Ayushmann! I am Indian! asdjdjd and that's the country I was talking about when i mentioned foreigner syndrome! I am all excited but in reality India has sooooo many languages and I'm more fluent in english than hindi (I'm probably just as bad at you at translating hindi 🙈 eeek)

(again I will reply to all the asks in the same post but I will do one by one cause I have the brain of a mosquito and I fear I will leave things unanswered lol)

Hello!! :D I do like House, watched it this year for the first time as parto of my Hugh Laurie obsession phase lol djgkhdkfg I love it so much! :D And I looove Bollywood movies and Ayushmann so much! (I watched his entire filmography, even the not so great movies, in like a week and a half lol). I’ve done so much fan art of him too... it’s even a lil embarrassing how much I love him dkjfhgkf And I’m even learning Hindi cause I love the language so much :’) Tho it’s been a while since I do any revision or any of my “homework” for it... Need to get back to it but I’m sort of busy with Christmas present making rn lol

ksfhgfkg thank you! <3

Yeah Tokio in season 1 was ok, I don’t think I ever liked her, but she certainly didn’t bother me as much lol And yes! the love thing, writers in tv shows and movies are constantly making ever character fall in love and have a partner as if that’s the only thing that would make them interesting... The writers of lcdp sort of speeded the process up a bit lol I actually headcanon the Profe as ace :’) I did since the second he came on screen, and nobody can take that away from me, maybe that’s why I don’t like Raquel, tho I did at first! But I wanted her to stay the “enemy” type charater. I imagined she would be in charge of the investigation for the next heist too, and be sort of like a love-hate, flirty enemies with the Profe. But then they made her join him and to me, they fucked up. I guess it makes sense cause the show was suppose to end there, and season 3 and 4 (and now 5) weren’t on the table when they wrote that...

Oh I love Berlermo! :’D They’re such a powerful, complicated and sad couple, I love it so much! dfkghjdfg I do understand Sergio’s worry about them being together at the same heist, cause like, when the 3 of them were at the monastery, he could keep an eye on them, and make sure they weren’t doing anything too crazy. I think even with the plan, Sergio was the one that kind of brought them back to reality cause if Andrés and Martín were left to their own devices, they would have made such a crazy and non realistic plan, they would have died the second they went in lol. I mean, they are smart, very smart! But they’re also too emotional and get excited too easily, while the Profe is more of a perfectionist and wouldn’t leave anything to chance or to improvisation. Sergio’s plan might have been keeping them apart for the first heist at least, but it backfire a little when Berlín didn’t come out of it, and that sent Martín spiralling down and made him even more emotional and unstable, which wasn’t exactly the best for the second heist kdfjhgdfg

I do think, that if Berlín and Palermo had been together in both heist, first of all, neither of them would have died (at least in the first one, idk what’s gonna happen on this one, i think everyone’s dead but idk lol), and then, yeah, it would have been way more succesfull. Specially cause it would be more difficult for the rest of the gang (and the hostages) to stand up to two crazy bastards instead of just one lol

It makes me happy too! :’D I’m very excited for season 5 but I can feel how painful it’s gonna be lol My theory? Everyone dies. My hope? If they do die, I hope they die at the same time, in like an explosion or something, I can’t bear to think of any of them being aware that someone else is dead. I specially hope this for Palermo and Helsinki, both of them lost so much already, I couldn’t take it if one of them died first, and the other one had to deal with that loss as well, they better die at the same time in a fast and fairly painless way kdfjhgdfg

Yes, spanish is my first language. I can’t say I understand you falling in love with it cause I hate it lol (again, because I’m used to I supposed), but I do kinda get it cause I fell in love with hindi and I’m even going to the trouble of learning it lol which isn’t a trouble at all cause I actually have a lot of fun! And you with the lcdp interviews is exactly like me with any interview with indian actors lol I just go by context, the few english words I can get and the very very few hindi words I do know lol And I understand... nothing dkfjhgdfg

Oh keep them coming ;) I’m having a blast! You’re so very sweet, thank you!! <3 So glad you like my gifs dfkghdfg and yeah, I simply had to gif The Scene™ lol it’s too good not to, and I stopped the gifset before the crying cause my heart could not take it dkfjhkdfg

Hope you have a good day/night/whatever it is when you see this! You are one of the kindest people I talked with in this fandom (probably cause I had a couple of very bad experiences the moment I joined lol but still) <3 <3

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I just found your blog and I'm so in love with it ( Q w Q)/💖 May I request headcanons of Lysander and Candy getting back together a few years after she has finished college? After meeting again they got back in touch and things kept moving forward from there and they got back to being a couple ❤️

Ouuu my favorite baby ;-; I’m still sad that he won’t be in MCLUL man

Also I don’t know when but at some point this turned into a mini one shot and I’m not even mad about it because I love him so much lmao definitely went a little crazy with this one ugh he makes my heart clench hope you enjoy it ;-;

Going by in-game canon, you lost contact with each other after breaking up and moving away, all of that. So I feel like the only logical way you’d get back into contact with him is either A. Trying to contact him yourself which probably fails because he may have a new number, and he’s not exactly on social media too often. And then B. You end up being acquainted with each other again because of Rosa and Leigh! Obviously Rosa is going to be throwing hella holiday parties, so Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, and then there’s the birthday parties, so of course Lysander pretty much HAS to go to these things, it would be strange if he didn’t considering he’s family lol And with you being Rosa’s best friend, you KNOW she’s gonna invite you to all of these. It’s pretty much fate that you two would end up back in each other’s lives at some point.

So let’s say it’s Leigh’s birthday, and you guys want to go out for drinks? Lysander isn’t much of a drinker but he hasn’t seen his brother in a while and it would definitely be nice to catch up.

You walk into the bar, find the table everyone is sitting at and walk over. You don’t realize Lysander is standing mere feet away from you because the first person you see is Rosa and Alexy who smother you in hugs before you even get the chance to greet anyone. You sit down, glancing over at Leigh “Happy Birthday!” You’ll say enthusiastically, before turning to your left and realizing that Lysander is sitting right next to you. “L-Lys?”

You don’t mean to call him by his nickname, it just slips out naturally. Having called him that for all of those years, it would feel weird for you to NOT call him that, You both just kind of stare at each other for a second, not meaning to be rude but just slightly shocked at the sight of one another. Why you’re surprised to see him, you aren’t quite sure. It’s his brother's birthday, why wouldn’t he be here for that? Yet even still, the thought of him showing up hadn’t crossed your mind at all. Lysander on the other hand, may have thought about it in passing. He did recall his sister in law telling him about how excited she was that you were back in town. Yet even with this in mind, seeing you in person sitting right next to him catches him off guard. How many years has it been since he last saw you? Last spoke to you? He’s not sure, but he does know that while you probably have changed in some ways, and so has he, you still look the same as you did before. And this makes him a bit nostalgic.

He snaps out of his daze finally, and gives you a small smile. “Hello, Y/N, it’s been quite a while… How are you?” You notice his voice is a bit deeper than before, but still smooth and clear sounding. His clothing style is a bit more casual, but still prim and proper, almost elegant. He still has his classic cravat tied around his neck, but this one is a nice navy blue color. ‘So different yet still the same,’ you think to yourself.

The rest of the night is spent chatting, laughing with everyone. Rosa brings out a birthday cake for Leigh and you all sing for him, blow out the candles, the whole shabang. Once that part is over with, you all enjoy yourselves by dancing, a few more drinks here and there, all in all having a good time. Lysander doesn’t exactly dance, but he does enjoy watching everyone look silly with their half drunk dance moves and whatnot. You decide to hold yourself off of a few drinks, not wanting to get too drunk in front of Lys lol you find your way back to each other that night, and at some point get into a nice conversation, not too deep but not awkward small talk either. You both enjoy hearing what the other has been up to, he’s happy to hear that you’ve finished school and received a new job. You learn that he decided not to keep his parents farm as time goes by. I personally feel like at some point the farm life just wouldn’t be for Lysander. He’s made it clear that he and his brother prefer the city life and that’s the entire reason they moved away. It would only be fitting for him to sell it off at some point to pursue his own dreams. You learn that he majored in music at a smaller college, and he now produces songs for various artists, and even a few small films. Occasionally he performs during open mic night at the bar when he’s feeling up to it . Unlike Castiel, he didn’t want to be put directly into the fame and spotlight.

The night ends, and you say your goodbyes to each other. Expect him to say something like “Goodnight Y/N, it was nice seeing you again.” It’s a typical response, you know this. But if you know Lysander, you’ll know that he genuinely means it.

Meetings like this will happen again and again at various other family events or random get togethers. Eventually when you two become a bit closer again you’ll exchange numbers, and that’s when you start seeing each other on your own. Maybe he happened to be on your side of town and wanted to see if you’d meet up with him for coffee? Or maybe you happened to bump into him at the grocery store, and you just decided to keep hanging out after that.

The entire process of getting into a relationship again is quite slow though. You’ve dated before yes, but he also doesn’t want that to be the basis of your relationship with him. You’ve both grown and changed quite a bit as people, and there may be things he doesn’t know yet that he’d like to take time to know before getting with you again. In a realistic timeline, you guys probably don’t end up dating until some MONTHS and months later.

When he finally does catch feelings though, it’s so much different than the first time. I headcanon that you were his first love, and maybe even his only serious relationship. I’m sure he’s had flings over the years, but none serious enough to make him fall deeply in love. Lysander isn’t the type to have multiple girlfriends anyway. His love for you now is a lot more intense, and real. It was real back then, but you were both young and still had a lot of learning to do. Your relationship isn’t 50/50, it’s 100/100. Equal yet FULL effort from both of you. You both just work so well together you don’t even really have to try to be a couple, it just kind of happens over time. You don’t even need to clarify to each other as to what you are because you both jus taking of KNOW already. It’s the kind of relationship that everyone aspires to have. You’re both just so comfortable with each other, and honestly getting back together with you was probably the best thing for Lysander because opening up to you is so much easier since you pretty much know everything about him already. Again, different but still the same.

Speaking of my mom, its odd, last year she was talking about how Yule (Christmas) had to he canceled because she couldn't risk catching covid from having a bunch of people over. She usually throws what she calls, munchie parties, and everyone comes over and hangs out and eats and stuff. She said the magic was gone there. She doesn't see, she IS the magic. She's the first sign of spring, and purple flowers, and spring faries, and sunlight through the trees. She could make a train wreck look like a ballet. She has this wonderful talent of spinning shit into gold. She could make the worst situations good. We lived through a lot of rough shit, but she was always there trying to make it better and it amazes me cause I dont know where she got it from, her parents weren't affectionate at all. Her father was so abusive he was the cause of my grandmother's brain hemorrhage that killed her from bashing her head in all the time. My grandmother was kind but very proper so affection just wasn't really one of those things she gave easily. I'm sure she loved my mom, but in many ways, lacked the ability to show it. My mom was basically a doll. Dressed up, trained and made to act right and sent to boarding school. By 10 she had a mental break down from all the abuse, she said she used to run in the snow barefoot in NH with her mom in her nightgown cause her dad would get drunk and shoot a gun at them. And I grew up to watch my mom get beat too but she was smart enough to get out eventually. I've also landed myself in abusive relationships but also got out but it scares me for my daughters. Hopefully the cycle doesn't repeat itself. But through everything we lived through, she'd make cake with broken fingers and black eyes and act like she was ok the whole time, she never let it show that she hurt because she was always trying to be strong for us. She'd make dinner every night almost. I literally ate mc Donald's like 10 times my entire childhood cause mom made sure we ate real food. She taught me to read, to speak, to cook and clean, to stand up for myself, to fear no one. Her infamous words "pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keeo going" I really don't know how she did the things she did. She had me at 38. I'm 31 and if I had a kid now it would be very very hard, let alone at 38. Jesus. I couldn't have even blamed her if she didn't keep me. I dont think I could at that age. She's what kept all of us together. Without her, ill probably never speak to most of my siblings again but most of us, with the exception of one, our oldest brother, he's a sociopath and would microwave his own baby let alone ever loving his mother. I swear that man is not my moms child. Switched at birth of something. None of us are perfect but nobody else acts like the career con he is, but the rest of us all have a common love for my mom so we at least come together enough to be civil to make her happy. But without her, there is no common ground really. I never knew my father, he died when I was 12. Three months before I was able to find him. Thats my luck lol. So mom has been my mom and my dad. Besides my kids, she's all I really have for family. I feel like I will feel so alone without her. Sorry. Just a lot on my mind and nowhere to put it. My fiancee lost his mom a year ago so I don't even want to talk to him about it because I know it'll just remind him of his mom and make him sad too. I'd get therapy but there's nothing anyone can do or say to make it better, when the time comes, it's just gonna hurt and that's really all there is to it and I'm gonna have to let myself be sad for a while. Somehow, I know I'll go on, but right now I feel like I wouldn't be surprised at all if everything just dissolved and the sun stopped shining and nothing existed without her. I'll be amazed when the sun rises again because I don't know how anything could exist without her, she's always been here. At least in my existence. I don't know one without her but it scares the shit out of me. I'm 800 miles away and I don't even like not being able to see her often. 😪