whatever it is you think is a skill or ability that everyone has: not everyone has it or will ever have it

sometimes people can't do thing. that's just how it is

he doesn't have a choice 🤷🏼‍♀️

kobra kid more like kinda mid

fun ghoul more like dumb fool

jet-star more like gets-left ⛽️

party poison more like queer

the most fucking hilarious thing is harrow giving up the rest of her theoretically infinite life (insofar as she rejects her lyctorhood essentially) because of GIDEON

she thinks she’s so smart but she’s so dumb over this girl

and as far as i can tell she hasn’t even worked out what she’s done and it’s been months she’s been a lyctor now. she has not pieced together that half a lyctor + weird things happening around Ortus = she rejected her cavalier (although maybe she just can’t idk)

like she’s so dumb and she can’t live without gideon and i am sobbing it’s everything

I really need someone to write a One Piece fic where Corazon doesn't die, but he is in a coma and so the silence he put on Law just never goes away, because Cora can't remove it without being conscious.

And Law knows that Cora is still alive because he is still affected by the devil fruit, but he doesn't know why he never heard from Cora again and why he never ended the effect of his devil fruit.

Of course he knows that a coma is the most likely answer, but there is always just a little bit of doubt in the back of his mind. He keeps wondering if Cora just forgot about him or if he's dead after all and him still being silent is just some strange coincidence.

And Law would have to deal with the daily challanges of basically being mute. He'd probably have to learn sign language.

Also he would constantly scare people because even his footsteps don't make a sound. There would probably be a ton of rumors about him being a ghost or something.

And then in Dressrosa Sengoku could finally tell Law the truth about Cora and maybe Law could sneak into the hospital and use his devil fruit to heal Cora and wake him up.

Then there would be a tearful reunion with a very confused Cora who finally releases the effect of his devil fruit and Law hears his own voice for the first time in over a decade and he's just sobbing.

(There is probably a better way to end this, but this was the best I could come up with)

Here's the thing, do I want Buck on the floor crying? Yes, because it would be fun to watch and Oliver should be allowed to let loose a little bit yk? But I truly just want Buck to do something for himself and stick to it. I mean, that man didn't even pick his own apartment. Do I want him hyperventilating screaming crying throwing up? Yes. But truly I just want him off the hamster wheel.

Me: omg how come I can never avoid spoilers

Also me: *scrolling through the tag on tumblr*

Okay don't mind me I'm in the middle of a Crooked Kingdom reread and feel overwhelmingly inclined to rant about Jesper Fahey because this fandom just doesn't give him the treatment he deserves. I'm specifically going to incoherently ramble about the scene in Crooked Kingdom where he, Colm and Wylan are being shot at because I feel like that scene is representative of Jesper's arc - but, before we dive into that, let me contextualise a few things first. Jesper does things for the thrill of it: he thrives off chaos and spontaneity, hence why he "always felt better when people were shooting at him". It's because the sound of gunfire "called the scattered, irascible, permanently seeking part of his mind into focus like nothing else" - and it also provides a distraction from his pain and trauma, because whenever he'd think about it, "everything in him recoiled. Trying not to die was the best possible distraction". Whenever anything to do with his past or his debt is brought up, "his hands returned to his revolvers" because he found himself "longing for the cool, familiar feel of their pearl handles beneath his thumbs". It steadies him as much as it possibly can when he's not in a dangerous situation, momentarily calling his mind into focus, an attempt at distracting himself from his afflictions.

Based off similar instances, the scene in Crooked Kingdom where he, Wylan and Colm are being shot at should have brought him that same satisfaction that any other shooting would. He "should be buzzing from the excitement of the fight. The thrill was still there, fizzing through his blood, but beside it was a cold, unfamiliar sensation that felt like it was draining the joy from him." What makes this situation so different to the others is that he can't ignore his problems and trauma now: it's staring him right in the face. Colm is right there. The thrill of the fight doesn't feel the same because "all he could think was, Da could have been hurt. He could have died." And we know that Jesper's debt would cost Colm the jurda farm Jesper grew up on, forcing him to acknowledge the reality of his problems: with Colm being right there, Jesper just can't ignore his afflictions because all he could think about is how his father would "suffer for his antics". If you ask me, this is so representative of his character arc as a whole.

This is further emphasised by how he's reflecting on the first time he spun Makker's Wheel right before this ambush, its intention being merely "harmless fun", but it ended up evolving into an addiction that "split [his life] like a log into two distinct and uneven pieces: the time before he’d stepped up to that wheel and every day since". The rush of a high-stakes situation is the equivalent of the "harmless fun" - it's a thrill that Jesper enjoys feeling, but in reality it's doing much more harm because it's preventing him from acknowledging and facing his pain. And he's indeed in so much pain: there's so much anguish inside of him, but he'd do anything to distract himself from it because the reality is just too painful.

This is where the tables come in: later in Crooked Kingdom, when the crew are being ambushed by the Khergud, Jesper "could feel the pull of East Stave" because he didn't have anything else to occupy his mind with. Then, the minute he thinks about facing his father, "the need to be at the tables was overwhelming" because he desperately needs to distract himself from the reality of his circumstances: "since Kaz hadn't obliged him with something to shoot at, Jesper needed a pair of dice and long odds to clear his mind". He can't use the ambush as a distraction, so the tables it is. As Inej tells him, "they feel like medicine. They soothe you, put you right for a time. But they’re poison, Jesper. Every time you play, you take another sip." This isn't the first time poison has been used to represent something that is preventing the Crows from healing - we also see it with Matthias, when he tells Brum in Six of Crows, "the life you live, the hate you feel - it's poison. I can drink it no longer". Just like how the exploitation of Matthias' grief and pain as a means of fueling hatred prevented him from healing because it kept exacerbating the anguish within him (he had to stop drinking the poison to do so), Jesper's addiction - and, by extension, the thrill of a high-stakes situation - prevents him from acknowledging the wound inside him and working towards healing it. It gets to the extent where “he had always thought of himself as lucky… what if he’d been bluffing this whole time?” - he’s gotten so used to suppressing his pain that he, in a way, loses sense of who he is. His façade has distorted his perception of himself. It's not until Colm arrives in the Barrel that Jesper is forced to acknowledge just how deep that wound is and how much it's festering - just like how he couldn't even feel the thrill of a fight properly because of the possibility of his father getting hurt.

That scene is one of many cracks that start to form as Jesper continues to bottle up all of this pain and trauma, until he finally breaks when Wylan proposes that he's such a good shot because being a Fabrikator allows him to direct the metal of the bullets. Jesper protests, asking Wylan why he can't "just let things be easy" - why can't he just let him keep ignoring his problems, when it's so much easier than facing them? But Wylan stands his ground, explaining that "they’re not easy... You keep pretending everything is okay. You move on to the next fight or the next party. What are you afraid is going to happen if you stop?" This is why Matthias calls Jesper “angry and frightened” - he’s afraid of stopping, because he knows stopping means that he’s forced to face the reality that he’s deeply wounded. This is when he finally breaks under the burden of his own pain, under the reality that he can't keep ignoring it anymore - hence why he chooses to put his share of the reward in Colm's name because, as he explains to Kaz, "I don’t think I’m ready for that kind of money just yet". For the first time, he's acknowledging his problems and working towards fixing them, no matter how much time it takes (because trauma and addiction don't just disappear overnight).

n e ways this ended up being significantly longer than anticipated but this is what happens when I start analysing these books: it snowballs out of control and suddenly I can’t shut up.

god I really do jeed to be writing.

Ok controversial opinion

Friends with benefits to lovers is better than Friends to lovers

protective ghost has me weak in the knees

Protective ghost has me melting. Like seriously I would feel so safe around protective ghost.

He’s protective in so many different ways too. He’s checking locks on doors and windows, keeping an eye on exits and on crowds in case there are any bad characters showing up.

Ghost incredibly violent in high stakes situations. He’s killing those trying to hurt you without second thought, he’s doing is quick and merciful. His only thought is keeping you safe

Unless of course he had failed. Then the protective ghost that you’ll see may or may not have trouble holding himself back from being the worst version of himself when it comes to getting rid of the problem

POV you met Kori "I only remember important people" Anders, Jason "Severe crowbar related brain damage" Todd, and Roy " I was blacked out for a unhealthy amount of my life" Harper.

They have no fucking clue who you are

waiting for ofmd s2 updates type mood

Hunter Pin Update!

EDIT: please read my new update pinned on my profile!

Hi everyone! I just wanted to pop in and say that I am actively looking into manufacturing my Hunter pin designs! I was so surprised at all of the engagement, and I want to work as hard as I can to make them real.

The issue for me is, I have nowhere near enough money! Pins require a lot of work and resources, including access to mailers, a good manufacturer, and pantone color books to best ensure accuracy. I want to purchase the latter so I can continue to use it in the future as well.

This can all add up REALLY, REALLY FAST though. And as someone with no selling experience, I am taking a lot of time to research so no one is disappointed or nothing goes wrong.

So, to acquire the funds to open my own, PERSONAL shop, I am offering donations to my Ko-fi and selling my Hexsquad sticker designs on RB! My Ko-fi Commissions will also be opening this week.

Being a full time college student with only a part time income (and pets and myself to feed), money is always short. So any support and shares will be 100% valued and appreciated!

NOTE: RB has not uploaded my designs yet, but they should hopefully be up at some point today. Please follow me there if you are interested in purchasing them or any other designs I may upload!

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