#like its fine if you just play the online im not saying i wouldnt play it if i could but cmon
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remember when the girl who was thenmy best friend said that rockstar was basically ruining gta 6 for adding a female character ???
#i was like wtf#and she was surprised too that i didnt agree and i just thought i didnt get it at the time but#crazy how distancing yourself for even a few days can make you see thigns differently 🤯🤯#ALSO may i add she dids even PLAY GTA V like the actual history mode#like its fine if you just play the online im not saying i wouldnt play it if i could but cmon#why are you saying this LOL
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YEA THE "THINK ABOUT THIS ONE HIGHLY SPECIFIC FACT WITH MY BLORBO" DISEASE IS SO REAL,,,i have an oc who's my main guy hopping around in my brain and i go "yea she cant play the imposter (ඞ) in among us because lying to and killing her friends make her sad even though its a silly online game. she plays an absolutely Killer crewmate detective game though" (MEDIEVAL AGE CHARACTER BTW.) meanwhile any side character ocs i have even if theyre like. semi-important my brain can only come up with. "um. possibly Human idk. could Be"
also omg,,,scarlet and avery,,,KISSING?! 🏳️🌈😳WHAT!!! i cant believe there s vampire lesbins in,,,pap er teeth,,,the Lesbian Vampires comic,,,ur gona tell me theres vampires next,,,(very /lh /j etc btw pls do NOT read this as condescending!!!). also yeah one of my favorite parts of making fan content is just. deciding random ass things for the characters and world,,,my brain goes "Whats your source for this Information" and the source is i Made it the Fuck up!!
this ask got very long,,,it will get longer sorry. it is time for the Questioning™️ (same things as always apply!!)
how do paperteeth werewolves work? can they transform at will, or can they only do it under a full moon?
do they still have their weakness to silver? more weaknesses? supernatural abilities?
do vampire hunters not mind werewolves since theyre. u know. not Vampires or do they also not like werewolves?
follow up 2 that,,,do any of the vampire hunter group including her dad know trisha's a werewolf or is she just. chillin'. completely anonymous.
also i just realized. i have NO idea where paperteeth takes place. for some reason ive always just thought it was somewhere in europe. IS paperteeth's setting european??? i have no idea why i was so solid in my belief that theyre in europe up 2 this point,,,
WEREWOELVS!
ok so yeah these werewolves r more the ugh terrible curse that ruins ur life flavour, they cant transform at will, no benefits in human form like cool retractable claws or anything. they transform on the full moon & whenever they get extremely angry or scared, & its the gross horrifying painful kind like you get a new set of teeth every month kinda thing. they can avoid turning if they stay out of the moonlight BUT they feel extremely obligated to go look at it, and will get violent if kept from it, so its safer for the person to just turn than to throw themself at a basements brick wall relentlessly, all night- so you cant actually avoid it unless you wanna break all your arms every month, i mean the arms break either way but they heal when they turn back if theyre broken by turning. will eat anyone and anything except vegetables while a wolfh
weakness 2 silver in both forms, similar to a vampire. other injuries heal quickly but if u like killed it hard enough with a non silver weapon itd probably still die? it depends. like if u put a werewolf into a stainless steel blender, and the blender didnt break... itd probably stay dead, whereas if u put a vampire in a blender, i mean its hard to say, what counts as decapitation... if putting a vampire in a blender doesnt count as decapitation the vampire survives just fine. im trying to say werewolves are technically weaker than vampires, but theyre probably in a practical setting harder to kill, bc u cant just stake it and theyre huge. avery wouldnt know where to start with a werewolf.
depends on the vampire hunter! its not in the job description, but the kind of person who decides to become a vampire hunter is probably more likely to have a problem with werewolves. avery doesnt care about werewolves at all & wouldnt go out of her way to find and kill one, she's a little bit scared of them bc they spread their curse much easier than vampires (one bite is all it takes 2 pass it on) & she would find being a werewolf SO embarrassing.
(but she doesnt have to worry about that anymore bc i dont think vampires can become werewolves, i think werewolves can become vampires though. 4 a vampire the bite would heal immediately and i think vampires are a little bit too much of their own creature for werewolfness or whatever to recognise them as a suitable curse haver)
nobody except fish's family knows shes a werewolf!
&yeah! paperteeth takes place in scotland :)
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Streamer MC headcannons with the brothers 💞
"You were quite a known face on social media back in the human realm, playing games, doing unboxings, just vibin in general, fans around the globe looked forward to your streams a lot! However, considering the sudden (unannounced) invitation to the exchange program, you had to leave all of that behind out of the blue. It wasn't as bad at first, but you have to admit you do miss the feeling of being able to do goofy shit online. Luckily for you, with the advance technology of Devildom and some spicy magic, the internet had synced with the human realm, and thats when you decided to finally re-enter the streaming scene. How will the brothers react upon seeing your peculiar past time?"
Head empty, No thoughts aside from the brothers just bothering the MC while they stream so here you go haha
Warnings: None, just crackhead energy and a lotta mispellings
Gender: Neutral!
Hotel: Trivago
* [ ಠ╭╮ಠ ] Lucifer *
{How did he know about your career?}
I honestly don't see him as someone who goes on the internet a lot
(He screams boomer to me, change my mind)
He doesn't have the time either, he's too focused on work!
So him finding out is gonna take a while
But! He did find out the hard way when shrilled screaming was heard from your room when he was passing by with some paper stacks in his arms (courtesy of Diavolo)
This man felt his instincts kick in, he ran as fast as he could, papers forgotten, and he immediately slammed your door open. Splinters scattering around, your door definitely damaged, as his eyes held a glare and his demon form was out, wings spread in a threatening display.
He was ready to beat someone's ass as he had thought someone had hurt you in here.
But all hes met with is you, infront of your chair and PC, and a game over on the screen...
To say he was unamused was an understatement cause you just lost your internet priviliges for giving him a heart attack (He said it was because you were being rowdy and noisy but with what you saw you knew that wasn't the case)
Good luck tryna puppy-eye your way to his heart to let you continue streaming lol.
If by some miracle you managed to wriggle your rights back from his hands, he'd warn you not to be so loud next time.
You already learnt your lesson though~ (Hopefully)
{How does he feel about your streams?}
Not everyone's the same, so if you were the shy soft streamer who does more art streams or something akin to a podcast, you can bet that Lucifer will be putting you on while he works, he kinda knows your streaming schedule at this point and if you were running late, he'd force one of his brothers to take over your dish washing duties or any chores you were stuck with
If you were the loud obnoxious meme type, hed still try to watch out of curiosity, and as much as he appreciates that you were getting comfortable here in Devildom with how you laugh and joke around, he still can't approve of it. Its too loud, its much like his brothers energy and he has enough of that already, so he probably doesn't watch as much.
He has countlessly came to your room to shush you and at this point your fans had made a compilation of each time Lucifer had barged in to tell you off
Look he likes it when you scream, but not when hes in the middle of work okay--
At this point, chat has deemed Lucifer as dad and you as their mom/dad.
If he ever catches wind of this he'd definitely be teasing you in private for centuries to come.
Overall fine with it, as long as don't do something stupid on stream.
* ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ Mammon*
{How did he know about your career?}
I would say he found out by him crashing into your streams midway but that's too predictable, hence why you've Mammon-proofed your bedroom during streaming hours!
Thanks to our wizard daddy, you have managed to cast a simple lock spell on your door and as well as a sound proofing
You love your broke idiot, but you did wanna keep the tone of your stream today a bit more chill, you wanted to have a proper Q&A with your fans to hopefully clear any bad vibes around your 3 month disappearance.
When Mammon has learnt your door was locked he definitely was a bit pissy, he knocked on your door loudly even and was calling out for you to let him in, but to no avail.
Bro he's scared.
He usually was allowed to enter, and you usually answered if you did need to be left alone for a bit, so just leaving him hanging got his mind racing and he had to press up his ear on the wooden door to try and hear if you were okay
When this continues on he finally resorts to getting help, but the only one in the house ws Levi, so he kicks down HIS door.
Levi boutta summon Lotan for interrupting him honestly
But as Mammon exclaim you weren't answering and he worried for your wellbeing, Levi rolls his eyes and scoffs,
"Idiot Mammon, they're streaming don't bother them…"
Streaming? why didn't you tell him???
Rude much.
He did huff and now was forcing his way to use Levi's PC for a moment
Can Levi stop him?
Nah.
He was busy on his console, and if he stood up now hed be breaking his world record so he was at a terrible state so he just resorts to threats of him drowning the Avatar of Greed if he does anything stupid on his PC.
He immediately logs in to your streaming platform and he watches for a bit,
You were more dolled up now just to look decent on stream, and he felt this jealousy rise as you interact with your chat, especially to those saying I love you's and stuff, and you even said it back? the audacity! You were his werent you? Were you replacing him with these nobodies?
He huffs as he realized that those who paid got their message highlighted, and thus, he starts donating. (Mind you this was Levi's account...)
"Mcccccc Open the dooorrr"
"Ill behave i promiseeeee"
"Cmon pleaseeee?"
Chat is c o n f u s i o n
NGL, they thought Mammon was a creepy stalker and red flags were being waved everywhere
but as chat was pondering who the hell he was, you can only sigh and look at the camera with that unamused expression, but ugh! you just KNOW hes doing that kicked puppy expression of his, and maybe it really wont be so bad
So you snap your fingers and say, "Okay MonMon, its open, Im giving you 3 seconds"
Mammon wasnt deemed to be the fastest out of his brothers for nothing
As soon as you got to '2', you were already tackled by the white haired male and chat went wild.
Now that you've shown your life in Devildom, maybe its time to introduce chat to your boyfriend no?
{How does he feel about your streams?}
You get paid to sit infront of a camera, do I have to say anything else?
But really though, as much as he enjoys the thought of getting so much cash from something so simple, he prefers the joy of being able to proudly exclaim that he was your first man!
ohhhh he thrives on the salt of your overly attached stans
but for those who fully support you, he always feels so mushy and shy when they say the ship you guys so hard
The fanarts has him WEAK (he may or may not have saved a few)
You usually do streams alone, but now you've allowed the door to be left open to let Mammon join whenever
Chat pogs when he enters with so much confidence, only for it to crumble when you kiss his cheek on stream.
Overall finds it fun to spend time with you, but just dont play scary games cause Lucifer might hang him upside down on stream.
* ▘▂▝ Leviathan*
{How did he know about your career?}
He is honestly the most attached to his D.D.D and he catches wind of almost anything going down in the internet, so your 'revival' being hyped up was something he definitely saw and he was just s wo o o ned
His Henry 2.0? a famous streamer?
Were you truly a blessing gifted upon him or was he dreaming?
He definitely didn't bring it up at first as he didn't wanna make it a big deal, but you notice hes been more in his head lately, and you have tried asking him what it was but to no avail.
You have to corner this little snake if you want answers and he eventually admits that he knew of your persona online and was incredibly shy to ask you to stream with him
He's a streamer himself afterall but maybe he doesnt stream as much as you do nor does he have as large of a following, so his intrusive thoughts attacked him and made him think that maybe since he wasnt as famous he didnt deserve to be in the same stream as you
Please tell him to join you and gib him kiss U3U
He'll absolutely m e l t
But now, as you make the announcement to your viewers and Levi to his, the internet explodes as a special collab stream was hapening between the expert gamer and avatar of envy of Devildom along with the beloved exchange student and streamer of the human realm
Your usual viewers reach between 10-15k, but as you start stream, that number boosts higher and beyond
Before streaming though, Levi was incredibly nervous, he'd picked the games for you to play that he knew you would enjoy with him, but his mind kept racing about whatthe fans thought, he didnt wanna disappoint them
But you had to remind him that whatever they say will not matter in the end as this was merely for fun, this was YOUR stream and you guys were gonna do what you want and nobody can have a say on it. (Maybe except Lucifer)
You usually talk for him with your bubbly personality, and to calm his nerves, he hs your pinky wraped around his where the camera can't see it.
Regardless, his thoughts subsided as you two delve into your stream that lasted a solid 7 hours, you definitely promised your chat that you and Levi will be doing more streams together from now on.
Once the cameras cut and yall are left alone, Both of you collapse on bed, and despite you being asleep already, Levi was just far too giddy as everything dwells on him.
Having a player 2 by his side now had never felt so intoxicating and he as just so lucky to have you.
{How does he feel about your streams?}
He obviously adores it, although some streams he wouldnt join just so he can play games on his own
He's still an introvert afterall, he needs his alone time
But he prefers that alone time with you, his Henry.
So when youre about to go stream, he kinda becomes a bit pouty, but with a simple promise of kisses (and maybe even more if youd like) he would let you go, but his attention would disappear from his game altogether.
He might just end up watching you instead
May or may not, at some point, just chat you and ask if its too late to join you
You do allow him to join you and play from the comforts of his room as both of you can simply play via internet, you give him the comfort to not turn on his mic or webcam either and you have no idea how he appreciates that.
Will definitely fight someone online when they start claiming you as theirs (-cough- stans) Please make sure it doesnt escalate to him summoning Lotan
Although the comments would often get to him, and as much as he can fight them online, he still does find himself pondering if they were true, so you need to give him a lotta lovin and reminder that he is your player 1 and no one else can ever fill that place.
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Wow 3 brothers this time, what an improvement, anyways hope yall enjoy! I think its pretty clear who I simp for depending o nthe length of each lol, but do let me know if you guys want a part 2 for the rest of the brothers, or even the undateables!
#Obey me#obey me fanfics#obey me x reader#obey me x mc#obey me Mammon x reader#obey me Lucifer x reader#Obey me Leviathan x reader#obey me headcannons#obey me shall we date
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Hello hi uh i hope you are doing well and are staying safe and sanitized during this whole pandemic, um I hope the matchup is still up, if not my apologies uh ig I'll get started :) (platonic or romantic is fine by me, I dont mind either or cuz I honestlydont know what I want heh...ya..) My name is Dioceline (any pronoun is fine by me but people usually go with (she/they), my nickname is Dio or Small as most of my online friends call me. I have been told that I'm very impulsive and funny but im also emotional and I stand up for what I think is right and know when to be serious. I usually take the lead of things if no one else feels comfortable enough to deal with it which has landed me into some trouble in the past but id do it again for my friends because frankly I love and appreciate them and I make sure they know it by drawing them things they love or write poems about what I love about them and what I find beautiful about them every couple of weeks. Im not very big on socializing in person but I'm very bubbly and eager to meet people online (my socialbattery does brain pretty fast so I I ti take a quick nap or go on YT for a bit before I can go back to being stupid), I'm shy at first in person but the longer you get to know me I start to get annoying and very touchy feely cuz I'm ✨touch starved✨. Im 5'7 and a half and I like to flex that I'm taller than most of my family because its known that Mexicans/Hispanics are short asf. I am a Capricorn but I don't really feel connected to my sign so I'll give you my enneagram and my mbti! I'm an Infp-T and my ennegram is 2 wing 1. My music taste is all over the place at all times and I listen to anything as long as the lyrics speak to me or the instruments sound good asf (guitars are my favorite instrument, any type of instrument with strings speak to my soul) but I have been listening to a lot of old rock singers/bands recently like Queen, AC/DC, Hombres G, ABBA, Roger Taylor, Bon Jovi, and a lot of other singers/bands. Now since I've been the middle child of 5 other siblings before my little brother was born I have developed a strange humor, it's very mixed and changes a lot but I adapt and go with the flow of anything as long as it makes people happy and laugh. I usually flirt in very awkward ways like throwing horrid pickup lines at friends or pulling the fuckboy face while saying that they look like the snack that smiles back. It's a form of breaking the ice with a people after ive concluded that I want them in my life cuz idk why but I do so ya (in a platonic way ofc). I tend to get a little overprotective and take the parenteral roll when I hear that one of my friends haven't ate or is being insulting and ir being made uncomfortable. Now for appearance, I smile with my eyes, have a cupid's bow and I have lip asymmetry on my left lip. I have a lot of beauty marks on my face and arms, I have dark brown hair and eyes. I'm on the curvier side, I have really big thighs and my chest is pretty big to so it makes it look like I have somewhat of an hourglass figure which is cool ig. I usually wear shorts and baggy sweaters that are 2 times to big for me, most of my clothes is black except for a couple of red and grey shirts/sweatshirts that I have in my closet. I love music, drawing, painting and pretty much anything to do with art. I also really like Chemistry/Science, English, and Philosophical talks, I like learning about the ocean and space but im to scared to actually go into the ocean and my family never really goes out cuz money issues and stuff but it's nice to see it on the internet. I also really enjoy the company of animals and plants :) ok I think that is all, sorry it was so long I tend to ramble and say things that aren't necessary. OH idk if this would help at all but I want to be a family therapist and will be joining the army next year after I graduate so I can get my degree without getting into terrible debt. Ok now I think that is all, hope you have an amazing day/night and stay safe!
Woah 😳, Why are yall so cool?
I think ima match you with....
C!Philza and C!Techno
Oh no, two protective anachists, what they gonna do
In all seriousness
These two are 100% very protective of you
One of them is always with you
Either making sure your safe
Or just making sure you dont do something to crazy
You play the guitar?
Expect to preform pretend concerts to Phil, Chat, Techno and all technos animals
If neither of the boys can be with you, philza's murder, Chat, as he calls them, would follow you from a distance
Phil would paint with you 100%
Techno wouldnt paint with you two, but he would watch
Philosophical talks with techno
But their like, in like the middle of the night
"Why do you think were here on earth"
"Woah, thats a good question"
Definitely would concern phil, when you two talk about the meaning of life out of nowhere.
They would definitely support your choice of becoming a therapist
And the military as well
Despite fighting for a government
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Video games (TikTok)
y/n films a tiktok of her trying to get peters attention while hes playing video games
pairing: peter x fem!reader
status: dating
y/n's pov
i was baking some cookies, folding the chocolate chips in the batter with a very hungry boyfriends beside me
"pete, stop undressing the food with your eyes" i teased, he flipped me around and started tickling me "PETE- RRR- . PUT M- D-WN, NOW!" i said between laughing, i jokingly tried to kick him but he was too strong.
"OK OK FINE" he laughs as well
"why dont you make yourself useful and roll the dough" i said, gesturing my hands to the empty pan
"ugh fiiiine" he grumbles, 10 minute later we successfully placed a decent amount of raw cookies in the oven "yayyy, now we can cuddddle" peter shouts in a kiddy voice, lifting me up again and leaves the gorgeously decorated kitchen
"PETERRRR" i squealed, laughing when he literally flopped onto the couch, peter wasted no time to grab me by my waist and land me on his lap, i was lying on the couch's arm rest, my back against it while im still on his lap,
"what do you wanna watch?" he plays with my hair "
"anything really- ooh wanna try watching a tv show instead?" i said my face full of excitement
"you just said anything but then you suggest something? and you say you're not complicated" he scoffed jokingly
"what? i just got the idea!" i replied to his offensive comment
"ok what about-"
"sorry to interrupt you peter, but ned is calling" karen suddenly interrupted which startled the both of us
"no problem karen" he said grabbing his phone from the coffee table, Mr Stark upgraded peters A.I not only to his suit, but to his phone as well like a few weeks ago so we're still trying to get used to karen being everywhere with us now
"hey man" peter answered
"hey pete"
"you're on speaker right now, by the way" peter warned
"heyyy biiiiitch" i said in a joking tone
"hiya biiiitch" ned replied causing us to all wheeze, inside jokes ;) "i was gonna see if you were free pete, but guess you're not right now" ned stated
"aww sorry man, its a friday you know that" fridays were always our day, whether we'd go on a date, or just hang out, maybe mess around on HQ. everyday after school we'd hangout all day maybe even sleep at one of our places and ned knew that but i guess he forgot.
"what were you gonna ask him though?" i said feeling bad, i was never the clingy type, clingy as in i wouldnt let him hang out with his friends or maybe not let him call if he was with me, we see eachother all week and sometimes weekend so i dont have to, and i dont like it
"the boys decided to play video games a second ago, so i wanted to ask him if he could join" and peters eyes lit up, but obviously tried to not to show it
its been a long time since the boys have played with eachother, everyone seemed to be busy with their own thing, ned with his extra hacking classes, peter with his spider duties and the avengers and the others have been busy as well
"o-oh" peter said trying to not sound disappointed "maybe next time then"
"no what do you mean next time? babe its been ages since you guys played!" i exclaimed
"but we were gonna watch a movie and eat cookies " he said feeling bad
"its fine, you can play with them, are you guys gonna hangout somewhere orrr?" i leaned into the phone asking ned
"oh no no its online so you could stay y/n don't go, i feel bad" ned spoke
"see? you dont even have to leave! unless you want to thats a totally different situa-" he cut me off with a kiss threading his fingers through my hair, i pulled him in closer tilting my side to deepen the kiss but he pulled away causing me to pouted, this literally been his weapon all the time now and i hate how he got that affect on me, he looked at apparently how 'cute i look when i pout' and kissed me again
"thats perfect actually, i feel better now"
"pete, you shouldnt feel bad for wanting to talk or play with your friends you know im not that type of person" i reassured him rubbing his head
"ok then" he gave in and i squealed, feel like im more excited than him! " BUT are you sure?" he checked
"yesss peter! yes *kiss* yes *kiss* yes *kiss* see?" he kissed me once again and said
"you're the best" and gently lifted me off his lap to go grab his controllers "im gonna go check on the cookies and prepare the next batch" i informed him leaving the living room
in 15 minutes, i took out the first batch, and placed the second, i looked over the kitchen door to see Peter looking attentively at the screen trying to contain his anger at the boys
"pete, i can basically see the smoke coming out of your ears let it out babe" i laughed going back to the kitchen to set the timer
"if you say s- NO DYLAN NOT YOUR FUCKING LEFT, MY LEFT. FOR FUCKS'SAKE" he sighed angrily
"LANGUAGE!" i teased looking back at him to see him turn around and cover his mike from the head set whispering "you've been spending way too much time with steve"
"what can i say? It's captain fucking America, i mean have you seen what the serum did to him oh AND bucky dont get me started on the man , hes such a baaaaabe" i said trying to edge him further, and I could tell it worked, he clenched his jaw tight.
but before he could do anything flash made a mistake in the game to which got his attention all over again his eyes widened and started screaming at the tv "TELL ME WHY YOU GUYS CONVINCED ME TO PLAY WITH THIS DUMBASS" he shouted clicking the poor buttons of his controller like his life depended on it, trying to save his team
I walked back to the kitchen laughing at how stupid these children are, while i was waiting for the cookies I scrolled through my photos app trying to find TikToks I saved to do later and came across a perfect one, it's about a girl walking to her boyfriend while he's playing videos games and see what his reaction will be, I found it pretty cute that he stopped the game so he could give her a hug and played again.
the girls face when she wanted to end the video melted my heart, I wanted to do it with Peter so I checked the oven again to see how much time I have left, 4 more minutes and its done. I walked to the living room again and acted like I wanted something from the tv stand but secretly I placed the phone there trying to hide it with a bunch of CD's and a plant
"NEDD, DUDE" peter shouted getting yelled at my ned telling him it wasnt his fault, "OK GUYS THATS GOOD THATS GOOD- oh hey bubba what are you doing?" peter switched his attention to me 'charging my phone'
"nothing babe just charging my phone" i said casually kissing his cheek on the way to the kitchen.
"oh ok, how are the cookies?" he asked, his voice echoing through the hallway
"just a few more minutes" i shouted back looking at the timer in the oven. a few minutes later the oven beeped and i took out the freshly baked chocolate chip cookies, yum.
"its done!" i informed a busy peter thats almost about to win the game, i kinda felt bad about what im doing since hes too focused and he could lose all the hard work hes put in, but im also intrigued curious to know if he'll get mad or not.
i put the hot cookies on the rack letting it cool, and placing the ones from the first batch in a plate to the tray that had two glasses of milk ready to be served. i quietly tiptoed to the living room, putting the tray in the table beside the couch.
"PETER- PETER- WHERE ARE YOU?" i heard dylan scream from the headphones
"trying to save THIS DUMBASS, HE'S NOT HEALING" peter replied aggressively clicking the poor buttons again.
"hey pete" i whispered softly slowly playing with his hair still standing beside him so he can look at the tv and definitely not because of the camera
"hey" he looked up at me briefly a small smile spreading across his face, he looked at me again confused to why i did not leave like everytime. "c'mere" his voice was low trying to remain calm from the stressful game he was playing. he pulled me in, making me straddle his lap and he kissed my neck then rested his head on my shoulder, his arms were wrapped around me securely not planning on letting go anytime now. i smiled at his reaction "so the cookies done?" he asked cursing quietly from the mistake he made.
"yeah i just put them in the rack, got some from the first batch though" pointing at the tray beside him even though he cant see me.
"really?" he looked around to see the delicious cookies then spotted them. "didnt know you were gonna get some alread- FLASH" he suddenly shouted causing me to flinch from the sudden noise, peter noticed, obviously since i was practically koala holding him and his eyes widened i could feel his heart pounding out of his chest, throwing the controller to the side he properly hugged me and whispered "im so sorry, i didnt mean to scare you baby im so sorry" rocking us from side to side.
"its okay, it was just sudden" i laughed trying to ease his nerves, still hearing the guys screaming from his headset "you should probably get back to them babe, i swear its fine" i massaged his scalp
"no no, i scared you! and i shouldnt shout like that from a stupid game, plus this is our night. ive played enough" he shook his head, holding the mic "guys its been fun....for the most part but i gotta go" i could hear dylan, flash, and harry shouting but ned didnt, he said bye to the both of us actually and peter signed off, throwing the controller carelessly again and fell backwards to the couch so where lying down.
"thank you" i kissed cheek, nuzzling my head on his chest while he played with my hair holding me close
"anything for you" he whispered hugging me tighter and turning us around so his body hovered mine, prepping my face with kisses, i tried to make him stop my laughter echoing through the apartment and he did grabbing my waist for us to sit back on the couch taking the blanket from the floor and huffed taking the remote from the ground, such a baby. he was giddy smiling like a child ready for our night to start "now wheres the cookies"
have a wonderful morning/afternoon/evening/night!
- quacksonlover
#spiderman#peter parker x fem#peter parker fanfiction#peter parker#peter parker fluff#ned leeds#mcu#marvel#sony pictures#imagines#peter parker x reader#fluff#peter#parker#avengers
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actually omg let me ramble more abt it all you've got me chatty now girlies....
like okay first of all omg for the record. its like- im typinf all this out and i pausing a bit. bc its like. sighhh OMG im re-reading stuff i write, and its like1? you know, some ppl take stuff soooo literally when it comes to like. ppl online talking abt their shows. like they take it with all such bad faith, immediately-
and so its like. sigh. i am putting a lot of disclaimers around the whole caitlyn being a rich cop thing bc, and all the other little comments im abt to make.... bc like literally!! sometimes (AND THIS HASNT HAPPENED YET, SO ITS LIKE SOIEGJSIGDSD) -_- you know when ppl get soo mad at u for even bringing sth like that UP abt their little tv shows? and its like oh christmas, help. like babygirl, im not trying to cancel it, like you keep saying- im just trying to talk more specifically abt these aspect and the bits of it i dont like / dont appeal to me o_o . and some genuine criticisms im having. bc i do still like the show well enough- its quite nice actstually :3 -but i just have some parts i wanna prod at. and which i mean ok im the sillygoose making up ppl now in my head, abt ppl who make up things but- you know what i mean my love </3
anyway in truth i AM still being realistic here like. its like- i wouldnt expect a netflix LOL show to be truly that conscious of, like, caitlyn. like cmon- no way.... and in general, theres a lot of stuff in the show that does have that sort of milk toast feeling about it, yeah? playing it safe; keeping it all marketable. make some stuff a bit more surface level without going too deep and make sure you depict things certain ways and etc.... like i didnt expect that much from it. and so im not horribly caught off guard. but nor am i, like, pleasantly surprised by its like progressiveness- think i stand by what i said, in the beginning, you know?
like. i feel like its growing on me. and i like the show, i do! i like the characters and i like the story and i like whats happening. but i do feel like... eh. theres a bit of it thats not entirely engaged for me, and thats fine. :3 it can just be a fun little ride and not everything has to be a banger. bc i rlly dont think this is. its- again its like i said in the beginning which i said already but sigpjsdhjs. not a lot of this is... THAT original, you know? which- im not saying sth has to be ORIGINAL to be good but its like... ehhh idk. idk how to say it best. i feel like its a lot of expected sort of worldbuilding from things ive seen before and dynamics to expect and whatnot and its all executed quite nicely but theres no.... i guess its just lacking a personal depth, if that makes sense? which i mention bc i feel like thats the sort of thing this story really needs to make it its own- because it IS a story about a corrupt world, but like what i said with it being so sanitised but also it being fast (a comment below on the pacing) and you know.. you know. its okay. :3 is wht im saying. :3 but its not spectacular. and
i think a bit of stuff .. hm. idk how to say it. im not sure on the pacing! bc i feel like its deffo going fast enough tht im not getting bored and idk it feels like its somehow. both at the right speed but also like... idk. it feels like we're missing so much stuff, still. i kinda wish they'd... take a bit more time? like squints. its so odd how theres such a major timeskip like that in such a short show which has so many little guys and its like eh idk. they do do the legwork to properly establish stuff but nonetheless. part of me wishes they'd have explored more stuff in the interim- bc its like O_O its like: i do feel how long the sisters have been apart, but also do i? idk bestie. not sure how to feel. part of me even feels, like... sigh idk. i feel like it might have been a better pacing decision to, like, have started the show right after the big time skip and give exposition abt the stuff pre skip through flashbacks bc its just an odd length of time i guess... an odd focus choice. if we'd been grounded in this timeframe for the whole show and really got to establish this status quo best... eh. idk. bc its like- sometimes some guys die too quick, or stuff is shaken up so fast its like. girl i never even got the chance to settle iwht what the normal was before so this really doesnt impact as much as it should, you know?
hmmm what else do ihave to say... hm. idk. not much i dont fink. tahts it for now. the music has been getting a little better and i stand by what i said vis a vis the art- its nice, yknow? the designs are all qutie nice. its deffo... its DEFFO, like, you know. i can tell this was from a video game. LOL. but thats okay doaky<3
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babbling distract myself :D
hi hi im in history now. im thinking about how im gonna type without my teacher seeing. class room is set up weird today bc of the last period doing;knbljvhiycgtuxfzdSZTDxyucfigoptoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooufry68tde574s6ztdxxxxxxxxxxxeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeddx
im feeling rlly tired and bored. im gonna do absolutely no work in this class. apparently we arent taking notes so idc. i wish i had earbuda for this computer. are there like reverse adaptors? like instead of a lightning jack its like the little stick jack for computers. then i wouldnt have to wear the over the head ones. i only like the rlly fat cushion ones. not the school computer ones. they make me look so much weirder. idk school is fine at the moment. ive been doing better w school work n stuff so thats cool. plus my parents r giving me permission for stuff so thats good too. idk if im gonna hang w my friend today. i feel like im socially drained maybe. like yesterday was rlly fun but then my OTHER friend (the gf of the first friend) came over which was cool but i didnt even get to hang out with her. i knew it was gonna happen too which is kinda the only thing i guess i dont like about them dating. they are both my best friends. they were both seperate ppl in my life yk? like they didnt even know each other but i knew them seperately yk? and im super super close w both of them. but now that theyre dating, i feel weird being close friends with him because everything makes her jealous. and im not blaming her at all bc im the same way but im just saying anything i do with him will seem flirty to her. she wont get mad at me for it either which makes me feel even more guilty. it doesnt help that he used to be in love with me for like 6 years so of course shed be bothered. idk i feel like a bad person. im being stingy yk. like he was my friend first. she was my friend first. now they have each other n its like ubjrfh berhbfj r. and my cousin is like my sister. i feel like she doesnt even enjoy my company as much anymore. i know she loves me its just sometimes i feel unwanted. like ill ask her if she wants to hang out and shell be like im sorry my social battery is done rn or shell say she has homework or that her mom doesnt want too many ppl over. but then our 2 friends would be over there not too long after and its just like dude just say you dont want me there? i would be less bothered if she just said that yk? idk maybe its not what im thinking at all and im just overthinking it. idk what else do i talk abt? ummmmmmmmmmmm oh i think im supposed to be writing an essay rn. to be honest i have no clue what im supposed to be doing in this class. i wanna go home. idk if im gonna go to my last period. i thijnk im just gonna go home. my friend tries to encourage me to go to the class but idk i keep saying ill go and i dont. its just chemistry and i dont rlly care abt that class. lets say i pass everything but that class. ill still be fine yk. so its okay. i suck at it anyway. ive been going to all my other classes. idk im rlly tired and my back hurts. i have such bad posture. i slouch all the time. ive been more aware of i and have been doing better but i always end up slouching at some point yk. i might just play a game online or something. im so bored and my friend is looking up something about peanut butter and jelly???????? idk what that dude looks up on his free time. i kinda wanna go through my familys facebook accounts. only the pictures though. bc i end up finding photos from years ago and it makes me feel so nostalgic.i like that feeling so much.nostalgia has to be one of the best feelings to feel for me. i love imagining that im still in 2011 yk? or anywhere up to 2014 or15. those were the best years for me. id do em over and over. i wish i didnt take advantage of my rlly young years. i know im still really young but once you hit 17 you kinda have that same minset for the rest of your life yk? like you hit a certain level of maturity by then that sticks with you or grows in youre adult years. if so so different from the way we think as 9 years olds yk?
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hello! i have to ask: what do you think about supernatural au's where monsters don't exist/monster hunting is not a thing? do you think the characters could even exist out of that realm? i honestly have conflicting views on this because on one hand i do enjoy the character dynamics but i also feel it would be wrong to just take away something that is fundamental to this show, idk though
i LOVE this question. thank you. im going to write a very long post now
obviously there are infinite ways to interpret a story, right? but sam and dean (and castiel too of course) as characters are completely inextricable from their backstories, and their backstories are inextricable from themes of transience, poverty, loneliness, violence, familial duty, masculinity, otherness, american protestantism, horror, humanity, and monstrosity. i dont think that it’s Wrong to take away the monster hunting as an element in the story, but i DO think it would be bad storytelling to do so bc the fact is that these characters w these personalities wouldnt EXIST without a few VERY crucial plot points/themes. and thats a GOOD thing!! say what u will abt the writers (and i do. i do) but the early seasons do an EXCELLENT job of building characters who are inseparable from their stories, characters whose every action is reflective of the Story itself in a bigger sense, characters who are interesting because of the way that they’re used to tell that bigger Story. there’s a sense of cohesiveness between character and theme and narrative, and removing one of these aspects would lessen the other two. that is the mark of good storytelling (that, in my opinion, distinguishes seasons 1 and MAYBE 2 from all the rest; although funnily enough i think castiel’s arc in s4 is the best example of what im talking about outside of s1-2. but anyways).
without these crucial themes and narratives, who ARE sam and dean? why do they even matter? what’s the value of them as characters? aus that strip away all those VERY important themes and plot points strip away the actual artistic value of the characters, and reduces them to objects of the audience’s emotional whims. the only reason u have any affection for these characters in aus is because you know and understand the source material, and you remember why those characters STARTED to matter to u in the first place. this is something that happens in a lot of fanfiction i think: the most essential themes of the original work are ignored for the sake of emotionally expedient scenarios where both writer and reader can clock out of having to do a bigger analysis of the story and just focus on, for example, a certain ship getting together and/or having sex, or a certain character getting a happy ending. and like i wont deny that theyre fun to read! they are essentially transplanting already-developed characters from their already-developed stories into a new fun scenario without the themes and narratives that actually made the characters compelling. and sure, sometimes a truly good author offers us a compelling new set of themes and narratives, ones that are interesting and make us think, but i’d argue that the characters in those rare good fics are 1. not...really the same characters from the show, since the story they’re in has been so completely transformed 2. basically shortcuts for the author to cut their teeth on writing original fiction. in any case, a vast majority of fics that remove the themes and narratives of the original story DONT offer a truly satisfying replacement, so the point is almost moot.
my answer, in short, is that aus without monster hunting destroy the character-theme-narrative cohesion that all good stories require, and by extension doesn’t require either author or reader to think critically about the story as a whole. you know that joke that goes around about supernatural just being a crate full of toys that we’re all sitting around and playing barbie dolls with? that is what the fics ur talking about basically are. it isn’t seriously engaging with a story as a piece of art, it’s grabbing a few barbies from a box and putting them in different clothes. and i think the fact that supernatural does fall apart both thematically and narratively so early in its incredibly long runtime is what allows people to treat it as a box of dolls, because most of the time it seems like the writers themselves treat the show as a box of dolls instead of a story that deserves respect and care and thought. so i actually do understand the urge to play with the barbies, so to speak, and to a certain extent i dont even think it’s a bad thing. but i DO think that sometimes, especially online, ESPECIALLY with a show like this where the lines between genuine engagement with the text and playing barbie dolls gets so blurred, people actually start to lose track of which is which, and THATS what irritates me. people start to view the ENTIRE STORY as just a way to see their personal favorite character do what they want that character to do. the character (and their emotional attachment to said character) becomes the whole reason for the story, instead of the story being the reason for the characters. playing barbie dolls is fine! but it DOES need to be balanced out with actual engagement, with literary analysis, with criticism if the story needs it (and my GOD does supernatural need criticism!), and there needs to be an understanding of the difference between genuine analysis and personal loyalty to a character.
like, not to be a snob or anything, but it is important to engage truthfully and fairly with a text. things arent good just because you want them to be good, and stories can only offer you genuine satisfaction and critical/artistic growth if you truly engage with them. engaging with supernatural means thinking/writing about monsters and the Other, and to remove monstrosity as a theme and narrative hollows out the story completely.
#writing this post was the most fun ive had all day thank u SO much for sending it#sorry i love literary analysis!! as if its my fault!!!!!#asks#crit#i guess?? i dont have much of a tag for analysis that ISNT criticism LMFALSDJFKL
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hello <3 since i got these asks at the same time i decided to combine my thoughts on them in this post. yet another annoying sjw essay from yours truly on this blog
before i get into these i think i need to preface why im like. i guess overly hyperfocused on a certain unproblematic base (same age au / platonic canon) for them and avoid the ped0philic content like the plague lol
tw for pedophilia ment, rape ment if that makes you squicky. ALSO THIS IS LONG AND RAMBLY
as i’ve mentioned a couple times already, ive been into the ship since i was 12, back when it was very very common to not only post untagged (nsfw) canonverse content of the two in writing and in drawing but also non con and the like, so you can imagine how bad my first impression online was. thinking back on it ...as a child i found it disturbing but didnt really register how problematic it really was?? (i know, but i also lived in the middle of nowhere and had no one explain this to me)
skip to 2014 aka me coming back to naruto at 17ish and i had kinda become hyper aware of the fact that there was an increasing amount of people online who had come forward with explaining how fictional problematic content, mostly pedophilia, had been used to groom them into starting relationships with adullts. it was also a time where a lot of people didnt believe these victims, not registering how common it was for minors to be online friends with adults who had no boundaries and no qualms exposing them such content. not gonna get into my personal life here but i was lucky to not having gone through this myself. like... it kinda was my first time truly realising how fiction can EASILY be used to manipulate others irl (and yes i will not argue this, if you dont think fictional media can form and manipulate people’s opinions on attitudes, countries, cultures and virtues, pick up a book about the effects of propaganda media at least once please)
i, being young, still liking the dynamic but not really the romance, would point this out here and there in the fandom and get into fights with grown adults in their mid 20s who assumed i automatically hated the ship(s) and tried to restrict their freedom of speech or whatever, heard everything from the “age of consent doesnt exist in naruto” to the “sasori looks like a child what does it matter” despite people clearly playing on him being older and experienced. it made me so upset that people were just consuming all this content uncritically and exposing children to it tbh?? not really just sos but a lot of minor/adult ships in naruto in general. and thats where i sat down and thought, i do not want to be a grown adult talking down to children that point out how unsafe the fandom is. theyre absolutely right in drawing these boundaries and calling out adults who defend the uncritical consumption and creation of this content. i do not want to consume or create content that predators could use to groom minors, and i absolutely do want to let younger people in fandom know that i am respecting their comfort zones and want them to have a safe and fun experience. after all, naruto is not an adult show and i think a lot of people forget that!!!! i am not perfect in that regard but its something that i, at the age of 23, am very passionate about and strive towards to.
and i guess thats where same age au was born for me and i have been sticking to it ever since.
so finally we can move to the first question
aside from the fact that we both dont like canon sos, i dont think it would work out even if i wasnt prejudiced to it anyways. in all honesty, 35 year old canon sasori is not a redeemable character to me, given the fact that he’s easily amongst the cruelest villains in naruto (torturing and killing and taxiderming people for his own fun personal gain, never for a goal that served anyone but himself. how do you redeem having over 300 corpses in your backpack that you felt absolutely no remorse for killing). sasori was legit one of the only cruel villains that didnt had someone else pull the strings, which sends a clear message on kishi’s part, who absolutely loves to redeem villains LOL.
being that old, he obviously had already been very manifested in what he believed in, even if it was shakey, to the point where the first crack in that world view (sakura and chiyo protecting each other) immediately had him give up on his life all together. that, in my opinion, is not a man who’s going to know what healthy relationships would look like, regardless of it being romantic or not. 35 year old sasori to me has the same appeal as an expired can of tuna and he’s probably very happy 6 feet under. he’s supposed to be a failed gaara in that sense that he had no one to look out for him and therefore was never going to experience anything but a bad ending in life. its fine that hes dead honestly, it wraps up his short character development the best IMO.
adding to that, seriously, sakura was obviously interested in knowing why he was that way, and called him out for being seriously fucked in the head, but it’s weird to me that people assume she had any interest in actively rehabilitating him, let alone starting a serious romantic relationship with him. sakura who’s not only very, uhm, immature and straight forward when it comes to her romantic viewpoints also, as a big bootlicker, wouldnt soil her standing in the village by starting anything with a disgraced and far too gone criminal like sasori. shipping that version of sasori with sakura intimately is still going to set her up for a huge power imbalance that would be difficult to handle imo, even if she was the one in the fight ultimately exerting her power over him. i would still look at it and think damn she deserves better than having to play therapist for man like that lol.
additionally, even if you ignored all of this, you cant really ignore that sasori had already known her as a child, and that had been his first and most impactful impression of her. i dont think that sasori would look at 35 year old sakura and see her as a grown woman and not the little green girl she was in the fight. plus, you easily fall into predatory comparison territory between the “childish” and “womanly” and i have seen way too often in fic just being boiled down to her now being fuckable. a lot of of ships do this and i would just like to remind yall thats it not normal for adults to want to start relationships with children they have seen grown up or known as a child when they themselves were fully grown adults. therefore, maybe if sakura hadnt met sasori before it would be less of a problem? but that also obviously defeats the point of the dynamic and the reason he died in the first place. so yeah, it sounds kind of doomed especially if you were to make it romantic.
WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE SECOND QUESTION
let me preface this that im not fundamentally against age gaps, even if im not super interested in it. after all, colorblind had a 5 yr age gap (with sakura being 21), even if, say, i wrote similar fics today i probably would make it smaller lol. i think it can be handled well if both parties have enough life experience to deal with it, and the author is cautious of where the age gap starts, i think a 10+ year age gap would be fine in a scenario where the younger party (i guess sakura) was at least 25-27ish, meaning she has completed most of her most formative life stages and probably had been in relationships before, meaning she would be able to handle it without having to fear a huge power imbalance. the older the younger party is the less the age gap is going to matter tbh .TsukiHoshino and AngelOfDeath10 both handle age gaps in their fics really well imo, so i do not mind reading about them.
unfortunately, a lot of people in this fandom think making sakura barely "”””legal””””” (18, not even 20 which is hilarious to me because the source material is obviously japanese) because they both cannot stand her being past her “prime years” of being young fertile and fuckable to much older men as well as thinking a 20 year old is automatically old enough to handle that type of relationship. ive seen a lot of unironic takes that believe it will absolve them of callout posts if they throw around age of consent and “shes 18 now suckers!!!” enough lmfao. absolutely hilarious. aging a minor up without aging the adult down seriously reeks of predatory “cant wait until youre 18″ narratives and thats why i find it similarly disturbing as straight up pedo shipping.
ultimately, sasosaku is and will always be a inherently problematic ship in canon, which is why i think it should always be handled a little more responsibly in fandom spaces, ignoring or outright excusing the main problem factor, which is sasori, isnt going to convince anyone that the dynamic in itself is well written and interesting enough to explore in aus, like giving sasori the redemption most of us wanted him to have by aging him down to a point in time where he was still realistically going to allow being positively influenced, similar to gaara.
so really, what i think is well handled age gap and how most people handle age gap in the naruto fandom are two different worlds at times lol
tl;dr
canon shippers have never been anything but gross when i was younger and i didnt wanna be like that, even if youre “smart”enough to differenate, actual creeps dont really care and might use your content to blur the lines, sasori isnt rly redeemable so romantic canonverse realistically wouldnt make much sense and is still iffy, age gaps are fine if they are handled well, but given that the dynamic doesnt really need the age gap to still work im not that invested on making that an essential part of my shipping experience.
thank you for reading and hope this makes sense!
#nonitxt#meta#another hot take from me#but seriously if you're offended over these#unfollow me lol idc#defending predatory content is not a hill im gonna die on in this life
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1,7,22 gender asks
How did you choose your name?
the most cringe way possible! back in time when i was like 8/9ish i played pokemon mystery dungeon explorers of sky. i named the squirtle i played as danichi and then i started using that as part of my online persona and oc names for the various rps i was part of. the most popular character was actually danichi tochira assf who is webcomic famous lmao. it eventually changed to just dani when i was still they/them and eventually daniel toad when i became he/him and neopronouns!
What is your favorite part of being transgender?
ohhhhh so much actually, whoever said being trans is suffering is a dumb bitch because i have never been happier than when i figured out that im just a little dude. my favorite part is probably the confidence it gave me, i used to hate myself so deeply and that started changing so much when i started playing with my gender. now i can say im the sexiest man alive and actually believe myself, now i feel like me outside of cosplay, idk i just feel like myself more often than not. i still have major disconnects with myself but thats a different issue entirely that im still working on
Do your neurodivergencies and/or disabilities affect your gender?
very much so tbh. i feel very disconnected from my humanity (most likely caused by the mental illness) and thats very much influenced how i identify in general, im catgender! im boy leaninf yeah but in the cat sort of way. i use neopronouns because they help me identify myself a little better, even if im the only one who uses them (and thats fine!) but the way my brain works just really changed how i viewed my gender overtime, i used to be a fuckin truscum and then i realized thats stupid, transphobic cis people wouldnt accept me even if i was a “”normal”” trans person so why not make them fear me why not have fun with my gender why not be a stupid little rabid cat!!!
thanks for sending the ask!! i have a lot of gender feelings especially because its been changing overtime and only becoming worse LMAO i should link my pronouny somewhere to show off how many pronouns i collected tho
#toad rambles#des tag#i will say i dont want to elaborate too much on my mental illness things because having that knowledge out there makes me a bit uncomfie#like if you know whats wrong with me vaguely im chill with that#but ive also had the issue of ive not been diagnosed properly with things i do have as well as the main neurodivergence but#idk no ones diagnosing it and currently a lot of that stuff is very personal to me and i dont like sharing that with others cuz i dont wanna#sound absolutely insane LMAO#idk my gender Does have a shit ton of influence from my mental illness init and im cool talking bout it cuz its fun!#will not elaborate on what those are tho uwu
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While I will absolutely agree that CB2077 isn’t the ONLY game doing all this bullshit, or that other AAA studios don’t deserve the flack CDPR is getting, I have to say that this is absolutely the perfect storm and I think people are FINALLY seeing the problems in modern AAA gaming. CB2077 might be fun to play, may have a good story, but it’s almost impossible to see because of the glaring issues. Which, honestly, is a good thing. I hope games change after this.
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AAA studios have been like this and this sort of release has been completely normalised on all accounts by both the businesses themselves and fans because of the inherent reliance on modders (bethesda at the forefront of this), as well as the pushback every time companies actually go ‘uh we need a lil more time’ (although... they just shouldnt announce potential release dates, im even of the camp they shouldnt even start releasing the game until like 6 months out from their official date because they fuck it up every time. borderlands 3 being the only game i know of being in “secret” development and then announcing itself in march for a september release. game itself aside, thats how companies should do it). easily i can remember a lot of 2011 release games which have had the exact same issues as cp77′s release, and then every other game in between since. very rarely do you actually have a game that isn’t a fucked up mess of a pile of pixels. and it is always the customisable character ones that are honestly, genuinely, ugly looking at release. but you can definitely say its been happening looooooong before 2011, with unrealistic expectations, word limits, 11 month time frames, offloading sequels to smaller companies so they can suffer if it fails, etc etc. the entire system has been like this for so long... they dont know any real different nowadays.
i mean look. tlou2 released under crunch conditions this year, and was rewarded. it was ALL over the social media feeds, it was quite the controversy because, surprise surprise, the company promised they wouldnt do it uwu and then. bam ! crunch conditions. literally around that time too, bioware employees came out with a statement saying ‘man we wish dai FAILED so that back in 2014 we couldve proven crunch was a wrong practice’. they say this as well after having to produce da2 in 14 months, which just suffered from fans and journalism for reusing environments, because it was produced in 14 months, and honestly? no one pointed that out back then, bioware themselves pointed it out again this year, 6 years after release, that that game was produced in 14 months. rdr2′s release was hounded by stories of crunch, and they all disappeared into the night because... it was heralded as the best game of all time. that was 2018, 2 years ago.
i think too is that some people get kind of ... morally and ethically concerned. which is understandable. can you consume something when you know it was made under conditions like crunch? and i think one of the most confronting things about it is that 9/10, not only has your favourite company engaged in crunch conditions, they almost actively choose to continue with them. and then that’s a whole other bag of issues blown up over there when it comes to what is able to be consumed what isn’t etc etc
i think also like a mix of marketing, promises and then the expectations of what the game will be like have really had cdpr earn the ire of fans which is just like... you don’t believe what these companies are saying. you never should, esp when it’s their ceo’s saying it who don’t work on the actual floor. bioware itself is the main culprit of doing this to the point they finally came around with all the da4 concept art and teasing to be like ‘ummm but actually dont get invested?’. remember all that qunari lady fanart that bioware management was like ... please dont get attached? yeah. yeah. like at what point as well is there going to be heavy level of apprehension to approach this? and i can’t really talk either, i cracked open the door for mass effect again. i know exactly what kind of shit bioware will pull, i know they are teasing it already on social media, but mass effect is my ride or die series. that’s why people keep opening the door on letting these companies get away with it. and you can’t fault fans entirely either because this is down to a science of how to get money. i mean, fuck, mass effect andromeda’s entire advertising campaign HINGED on the n7 logo. for the nostalgia value. and i see text posts in the same vein of both ‘guys, disney isnt gonna fuck you if you consume every remake for nostalgia value’ and ‘its understandable why people do it’.
so then you have to go ‘well are fans as just to blame’ and then that’s a whole other argument.
i think also like. i personally havent run into aaaannnyyyyyyy of the issues that you see posted online. which is ironic bc 1) i play on ps4 and 2) its an old dusty ps4. in fact a lot of ppl i have spoken to who have had issues have played on pc. does this mean the glitches dont exist? ofc not, the vids and screenshots are right there. but like... ive had a basically unhindered experience so far, and i get where ppl are coming from (i do, i promise) where theyve basically found the game unplayable. is there also a standard of what ppl consider unplayable because ive played most AAA games at launch when they basically rushed to slap the box label on the game and called it a day until they work on patches. when ppl consider unplayable is also just... different per person. some people have a slight blur on the screen when turning too fast even in an MMO and decide the game is horrible and unplayable. some people can have broken quests and npcs not loading and falling through maps and still be fine. there’s no agreed statement of what makes a game unplayable either, which is why you read threads on twitter and someone goes ‘yeah this npc t-posed so i quit in the first hour’ with a dozen replies. everyone has different levels of it.
it’s a mixed bag of issues. im not excusing cdpr, but the ppl who worked on the game are honestly likely not the ones who pushed for a release. you’ve gotta look at sony and microsoft and ceo’s with bonuses coming up and the investors and shareholders and people who sit behind computers and read numbers detailing interest and demand and supply and how every single time they had to delay this game, the loudest (but smallest) bunch of assholes on like reddit and in the twitter threads complained that it was delayed AGAIN even though back in what 2015? they said it’ll come out when it’s ready. and yeah there are times when game delays result in a mismatched half assed sort of story (kh3... p5... ffxv... dai...) and then there are times when, if they need to delay the game... they probably need to delay the game. sometimes delays are bad sometimes theyre good sometimes you are sitting there like whew if you only didn’t try to be like THIS TIME this is the release date.
the ONLY WAY this will stop happening is, quite frankly, unionising. and everyone is allergic to that whole concept so like... this is “the perfect storm” as you put it. but it’s also not. people have been so disappointed over the last 2 years alone for gaming companies, the final product, the attitudes from higher ups, that i think cdpr is receiving a good few years worth of anger. i think theyre also on the receiving end of misdirection from american fans who still don’t fucking get the company isn’t american, because that’s another bag of issues as well. like we’re holding at least 8 bags of groceries out of the back of the car now, and we don’t want to take another trip, because there are so many little bits of this entire situation to look at. there’s so much back and forth.
i think the worst, but most realistic thing is: games won’t change. how they will social media wise will. maybe. assuming bioware gets their heads out their asses but... they’re going to be a lot more careful. i mean, hell, sony offered refunds. that was just a publicity stint. they dont give a fuck if the game was bad. as i said before, if they did, they would make all companies fix trophy problems, starting from like 2010 or whenever the trophy system first came out. they just don’t wanna fall in alongside cdpr being thrown on its sword. but the companies are gonna learn from this, get smarter, still do the same shit to their employees, still pay off journalists, still do media blackouts, etc etc. and we’re gonna be here in another year’s time, with another game, having these same roundabout arguments, and cp77′s issues are gonna fade into just a wikipedia article.
#replies#this got long so i threw it under a cut#i just like wrote as i was thinking too in between ovw sry lol#Anonymous
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my gender thing si like. my gender thing is like. okay im thinking about this and its like.................i dont really/can’t really socially transition because i would have to move away from every one and every thing i know to do it successfully (not because some people wouldnt accept it because SOME would . not my family but some other people maybe) but because i can’t handle the stress and anxiety that would come with making a major life change that could be dangerous like that. im just not. i just couldn’t. it would be just meltdown after meltdown i couldn’t do it. so i can’t socially do it and i can’t medically either because a) can’t afford it b) don’t like gross body stuff & try to think about it as little as possible c) medical anything even normal medical stuff is such a hassle it ALSO gives me anxiety basically i am too anxious to ever transition because i would have a heart attack or something idk............................ii am . like what if i am literally just some guy i have been asking myself that question for the past YEAR or more and havent brought it up even on here which is pretty much the only location where it wouldn’t rock a boat ive spent years keeping steady. because if i’m not ready i dont want to. get anything started. and im NOT in a place in my life where i can be ready in any location but an online community where the stakes are very low. i do everything slowly. i always have i can’t go too fast or i shut down. but what if im not a woman EVER. what if ive never been one because i really never felt like one i just felt like it was this thing i just sort of DID. not WAS. and i don’t MIND being one really it’s just like playing a character and i’m pretty good at it it feels normal but it doesn’t feel. satisfying. i can’t even say it doesn’t feel NATURAL when ‘perceived womanhood’ has been my default state for twenty-six years but im even judging how im sitting on the couch right at this moment because if i want mascness so bad why don’t i always display it? in the solitary comfort of my own home can’t i just sit and lie and talk how i want and it means whatever i want it to mean? which is FINE. but it’s not because like. i gotta prove it to myself or nobody else will ever believe it you know? and even though it’s so low-stakes on here to just wop an extra name and pronouns into the ring it feels so big. and i know you can go back if you turn out to be wrong. i know that. but ive spent years feeling the most satisfaction and elation in my own experience of ‘gender’ whatever that is when i was pretending not to be a girl. or pretending not to be a woman. and i only say ‘pretending’ because they were always SPECIFIC people. because it’s easier to put on a button-up and some boots and think about like. charley parkhurst or somebody and . idk channel that than try to be Me But I’m Definitely A Man. didn’t feel real enough . so i don’t know maybe i’m not that far down the masc spectrum after all and i’m just really attached to some kind of playacting i don’t KNOW . i do know that i get very disappointed when someone i assume is a trans man turns out not to be one in a work of fiction, but that’s such a stupid litmus test. like that’s not how you figure out if you’re trans, right? this is very long god bless you if you read all of it idek what im saying i just.........................did want to say it though.
#you cna read this in fact maybe please read it? im trying to figure somethign out and i could MAYBE use some input#just dont reblog it or be clowns#i say MAYBE use some input because i dont think i could handle an onslaught of it rn#ive just been thinking about this for a really long time and im not sure if im too in my head about it#it's gender stuff btw not anything scary . well. it's scary to me because it's Change and it's Too Fast (really slow but fast for me)
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owen harper’s badges
i was struggling looking for places to get owen’s badges (and just find out what the badges actually were tbh) so now that i have finished im gna share my knowledge with u all
if i missed any lmk and ill add them<33
lets start off easy dkjfh
red che guevara badge
this is a pretty common find
very easy to find ; ‘che guevara badge’ in ebay or etsy would do the trick
here is one: Che Guevara BUTTON PIN BADGE 25mm 1 INCH Political Student Cuba Face Revolution | eBay
uk subs badge
i love this band i will not lie 10/10 recommend
the photos we have of this are unclear - the badge looks mottled, like it could be khaki coloured in some photos, but there are no signs of badges like this online, so we could say its one of the more common black badges, but vintage, and has been weathered with time ? which honestly it looks more black in some shots than green
looking at different listings it does look like they fade to be greeny but i do not know
i dont have anything else to suggest so im going to blame it on weird lighting in the hub and move on
the plain black one is a common badge, one of the first things to come up when you type in ‘uk subs badge’ online (here is one for ur convenience UK Subs - Name Button Badge (rockbymail.com))
che guevara pop art badge (srry for lq image)
this one took me a while to find, but thats only because i made a spelling mistake and didnt realise for ages
id say its a pretty common badge, but it is out of stock everywhere- i put my email in on the site though so ill update the post if it comes back in stock (this site- Button, badge CHE GUEVARA - pop art | Tips for original gifts (ukposters.co.uk))
i managed to get one off of ebay, through a one-off auction, i dont imagine itd be too rare for that to happen again so just keep an eye out
manufactured by pyramid international, but is not on their site
8 ball badge
theres a lot of similar badges out there, and getting one slightly different probably wouldnt hurt that much
i managed to find an exact dupe on ebay (id drop the link but i got the last one)
this is a similar one: 8 Ball Pool 1 Inch / 25mm Pin Button Badge Black Snooker Billiards Hustler Fun | eBay
u can characterise it by the artificial reflection spot
crass anarchy and peace badge
to get an exact dupe of this badge would be pretty hard- i cant find a place that makes them with the red like owen’s instead of the black
because of this, im assuming that owen’s badge is a genuine one
if you want an exact one then keep ur eyes peeled on the likes of ebay, depop, etsy, etc one will turn up eventually
if ur lazy then a safe bet is probably just to get one made, or deal with it being a different colour (heres a link to one of those Crass - Anarchy & Peace - Button Badge - 25mm Punk Badges, Fridge Magnet Option | eBay)
john lennon badge
just a badge with john lennon on i found it pretty easily
John Lennon LP Cover badge Official Merchandise | eBay
siouxsie sioux badge
another punk icon i love siouxsie so much
this one took me FOREVER to find and it was so worth it i actually think its sick
this is the site i got mine from;
Siouxsie & the Banshees - Underwear Button Badge (rockbymail.com)
the clash badge
again... adore this band
i got the first one i saw on ebay, from this seller: THE CLASH Button Badge UK Punk Rock Band - London Calling, Combat Rock 25mm Pin | eBay, there is one left and i cant find another (red) for sale at the moment
there are a lot of similar looking badges out there, namely the same badge but with black text instead of red, which would work just fine (THE CLASH Button Badge - UK Punk Rock Band London Calling, Combat Rock 25mm Pin | eBay)
sex pistols im a mess badge
owen has good taste in bands
this one is pretty simple to find!! (was nice to have an easy one for a change)
owens looks to be light brown with blue text in some photos and then just look b+w in others; ur call
heres a link but if you look it up then youre almost guaranteed to find one
sex pistols im a mess | eBay
circle-a badge
kind of just ur bog standard circle a
if u want the exact badge then heres the link but ngl noones going to tell the difference between it and any other
Punk Rock Anarchy Symbol 25mm Button Badge (thevinylfrontierbarry.com)
i got my eight ball and sex and drugs and rock n roll badge (below) from the same ebay seller and they included a free one, and i love them for it
sex n drugs n rock n roll badge
pretty standard tbh
theres a few on ebay but if u google it then theres loads!!!
you didnt need me to tell u this
here is one: SEx n Drugs N rock n Roll 1 inch 25mm Button Pin Badge Punk Skin | eBay
and here is a holographic one because who does not enjoy a holographic badge SEx n Drugs N rock n Roll 1 inch 25mm Prism Button Pin Badge Punk Skin | eBay
yellow and black tongue stick out badge
this was one that i really had trouble with for some reason like i just could not find an exact match
i found a glittery one which honestly was very exciting for me
if you know where to get this badge pls hmu !!
manic street preachers badge
again, this is one i was unable to locate, unfortunately
this one was really bugging me so i made a post in forum to try and locate it, but i still came up empty handed. i think the best bet would be to get one custom made.
the text appears to be the logo on the front of their first studio album, generation terrorists (1992). i recommend btw.
like the last one, if u have any info on where to get one of these then hmu !! ill add it
sex pistols rock n roll swindle badge
this badge had me confused for a while ngl
for a while i was sure that it was a different band and spent uh. quite a while looking for a badge that matched that description and then i checked my list again and i had a lightbulb moment where i realised that there were two sex pistols badges and id only done one (i may be stupid)
not that this realisation changed much as i still wasnt able to track one down anywhere
i played around in some editing software and made a (pretty bad but shhh) template thingy? which u can use to get ur own badge printed somewhere idk
onto the final badge (thats if i didnt forget one)
go deh badge
original badge manufactured by london based brand better badges (known for being one of the biggest exporters of punk badges in the 70s and 80s)
i cant find a place to recover one of these badges - i can only find two pictures of it online (that arent torchwood screenshots)
your best bet would to be get one made i reckon
i also made a template thingy for this one in case u wanted to get ur own printed. the font i used was futura condensed bold in case u wanted to do ur own (instead of using my ugly little attempt)
bonus: the frankenstein patch
Curse Of Frankenstein Sew On Patch Hammer Horror Film Movie | Etsy
dont think i missed any but in case i did then let me know!!! ill try my best to find them
thank u for reading hope i helped ! <333
when i was identifying some of his badges this post by scarecrowprops on ig really helped (https://www.instagram.com/p/CLuW01IjliB/) nd also this post (https://iant0jones.tumblr.com/post/141100170804/owens-badges-on-his-lab-coat/amp)
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Hey lovelies.
Got you a Dewey x reader fic.
Reader coming out as ace (asexual) while Dewey is playing the guitar and the reader lounging on his lap. Fluff and angst ahead. All aboard! Fair warning... its quite long...
Hope you enjoy. 💜
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Safe
You and Dewey had been friends since kindergarten. You were as thick as thieves. Being able too see your best friend everyday since you two were roommates only made things better.
Dewey was a incredibly bouncy, happy person. That much you guys had in common. You both were as enthausiastic as you were chaotic sometimes. And when you were having one of 'these' days... the ones when you just woke up grumpy, you could find comfort in the small things in each other. He would give you one single look and knew what kind of day it was. It was on these days that Dewey proved himself being the man, the myth and the legend you believed he was. He would make sure your favorite tea was ready in the morning, with just the right amount of honey in it. And he would do anything to crack your mood up during the day. Including some 'sick' dance moves on random moments, and playing requests you had on his guitar always calmed your mind. In return you knew that playing guitar hero cleared his clouded mind, and spontaneous dance parties always made him smile.
Long story short, you'd be there for each other.
.......
The thing was that lately you came to realise that some things were different for you then they were for him.
You always pictured yourself with a partner as loving and caring as Dewey was. You just KNEW he was your favorite person in the world. It was just... difficult. The whole situation had been difficult. There had to be a person in this universe who wanted to know what made you tick. Besides Dewey. Right?
That was a question your head had been occupied with the last couple of months.
Of course you noticed Dewey going out. On dates. With actual girls.
He wasnt the most popular guy you knew, but damn... he had some charm in that authentic and warm personality he had. He also was kinda cute, you had to admit. But you were 101% cool with him dating. Even helping him pick out outfits and scolding him for forgetting garlic on date-night is a no-go. And when he wouldnt come home at night you would smile to yourself, because you was happy for the dude.
So why werent you out there? Dating? Again? You tried. Hell... you tried so SO hard to actually like people.
Liking wasnt the right word. Cause liking people wasnt that difficult. You could love the personalities of people in a heartbeat. Loved the way they laughed, or the freckles on their face, or the way they sat. You'd loved the way they talked about what drove them, what they were passionate about. You loved so many people. Yet you loved no-one.
You came to realise lately that you were kind of different. For instance: Dewey could swoon over a girl he saw for one second. One moment he was chilling with u at your local bar, the next moment you saw that sparkle in his eyes... And with a wink, a pat on your shoulder and a VERY bad attempt to moonwalk away from you, you knew you didnt had to wait up for him.
That was fine. Never bothered you actually. It was a signal you guys had created. Dewey also knew that when u werent in the mood or okay with leaving alone, you would put on a pouty face. That would be his que to get the random-chick's number, promising to call her, before excusing himself to her and drop back on the barstool beside you.
You liked it that way. He was free to go. As were you. He was your buddy. Your parnter in crime. That was the way it was.
You were just frustrated with yourself the last couple of months.
You could look at a man or a woman and be like: jeez, you are pretty. Look at that adorable face!
You would walk up there, talk to them. Now... that wasnt the hard part. The hard part came after that.
When you talked to someone, wether it be a beautifull quirky women or a handsome kind lad... there always came that moment that they would give a 'certain' comment. Or a glance up and down. Or let their hands wander little bit... and the magic would be gone for you.
Totally gone. Your mind would just go: 'nope'. You would find their smile attractive. But when everyone else's knees would give up at their bedroom eyes they gave you, and them saying something like: "you look like i could eat ya, wanna get out of here?" you would just feel nothing. Besides of getting noxious at the idea of them looking at you that way...
.......
Dewey noticed you getting more silent as you internly struggled with this a while. After 'just' men, you started some online research and tried something new. There was a period u had labeled youself as bisexual. But the label just didn't fit right. You tried the word: 'lesbian' for a month or 3.
Dewey had again proven to be an actual legend, after you told him you might not be straight. He was so pumped for you, buzzing with excitement and acceptance when you told him. He bounced up and down on the couch and offered to go to gay-bars together. You even had to keep him from hanging the actual rainbow-flag out of the window, to support you. Dewey suspected you had just been a late bloomer, so he was more then excited when you seemed to make some steps into the date-world, and wanted to make sure he helped you out were he could.
But that wasnt it either. Being bisexual or lesbian was not what made you you as well.
You had been desperately looking for a label to fit you but you couldn't quite put your finger on it.
........
Dewey would notice your online research by accident. He got up from his jamming session at the couch and ruffled a hand tiredly throw his brown locks. You was on a date. With... amy? Agnes? He couldnt quite remember. He chuckled, while opening your computer, hoping you'd been having fun.
He was looking on an article about ACDC he came across a while ago, when the google question popped up in the browser history. He frowed, but clicked anyway. "I dont feel sexual attraction towards people. What's wrong with me?"
A pang of guilt creeped through his chest. Did he totally miss all that? Y/n had fun with people in bars right? She was on a date right this moment... with... Anne, or whats her name again?
Dewey poundered, he would always see you laughing and having fun while chatting to strangers. 'God... you was so likeable it was super-easy for you to make new friends.' But after he put some more thought to it, he couldnt quite remember the last time y/n talked about having a crush. Or kissing someone. She didnt even talked about her date today enough for him to be able to remember her name. He felt a bit sad about it but Dewey had to find out what you were feeling, so he clicked through the rest of the history page.
.......
You actually tried to kiss Alma today, you'd been seeing her for a while... You two had a lot in common and you liked the way she practically buzzed with excitement when she talked about mountainbiking, smiling as she did so.
'it only seemed like the right thing to do' you forced yourself to think that... 'Alma deserved that much, right? She'd been so kind to me...'
After your date Alma reached out to softly grab you by your hip, pulling you towards her. 'Well... here goes nothing...' you thought as she brought her mouth closer to you.
But right when your lips were about to meet, it felt wrong. A panic rose in your chest and before you knew what happened you turned your head slightly and kissed her cheeck. You was infuriated with yourself. 'How could you! After date #3. Were you mad? What was wrong with you?!'
The girl in question seemed just as baffled as you. She smiled a sad smile to you, before giving you a side-hug and catching her train to go home.
You sighed, dropped your shoulders as you slumped home. 'Side-hugs are not good. They're not 'relationship-material', you fool." You wanted so bad to be 'normal...'
.......
By the time you was done walking home you reached a new low-piont in your self-esteem. Thats when you noticed u had a missed call. Dewey. You sighed. He had been SO happy for you to be dating. Enthausiastically helping you with your outfit and even what kind of perfume you should wear. You were not only a dissapiontment for yourself... but for Dewey as well.
You quickly wiped away a tear. Damn this. Damn this shit. Damn this day. You just didnt felt it. Again.
All you wanted to do was to jump into a hot shower, eat some pizza on the couch and lounge on the couch, revel in the safe comfort of Dewey.
You were not dissapionted by the smell of your favorite pizza already stalking towards you on the way to your front door. You smiled a bit at that.
Dewey had seen you crying through the window of your apartment and already planned to do something special for you, since you had such a hard time lately and he had been too oblivious too see it. So he decided to make you your favorite pizza, and just be there for you when your date didnt worked out.
You opened the door and was greeted by a dancing Dewey in his boxershorts and old band t-shirt. He was smiling at you while hopping of the cough while The Pretender of the Foo Fighters blasted through your appartement. He headbanged towards the speakers and you managed to get out a small snort. Your neighbours had to hate you guys.
Wiping your nose you tried to smile at him. But failed miserably. You stood in the middle of the living room feeling small and stupid. Your lip was quivering and you wanted to wipe the tear away that was spilling down your cheeck.
All in that moment Dewey was by your side, wiping away the tear that you inteded to brush away yourself.
You smiled sadly at him, through your tears and sobs. And you heard him mumble your name while pulling you into his arms. "Its okay love. You're okay. Im so proud of you." He started petting your head softly with his calloused fingers and holding you close. He knew this was a big step for you, and didnt asked any questions about your breakdown. Or date. He wanted you to tell him when you were ready. Untill then there were no words needed.
You got out of his loving embrace when you heard something beeping in the distance. "Dew! The pizza!" You smacked his arm and while muttering a "fuck" under his breath, he took a dive towards the oven.
He smiled a lopsided smile to you while striking a ridiculous pose, using the towel in his hands as a cape. He sing song: "i am the pizza heroooooo and i present you your favorite pizza, mylady...." You couldnt help but cackle at that. "Your a weirdo Dew... but thanx pizza-king."
.......
You two ate on the couch after you took a shower and dressed in your favorite sweats.
After Dewey had put away the dishes he dropped on the couch with you and grabbed his guitar. You went to lie with your head on his lap while he was tuning the strings. You listened to him fumbling with some wires and relaxed at the familiar sound and the rise of his chest above you. He played some chords untill there was a rythem in them and you felt your clouded mind become clearer.
You were relaxing against him when you heard him mumble your name... "hey y/n, wanna hear anything particular?" You shaked your head no.
He hummed in response, playing the tune of your favorite song anyway.
Dewey softly started singing:
"And i don't want the world to see me.
Cause i don't think that they'll understand.
When everything is made to be broken.
I just want you to know who i am...."
You felt the tears behind your eyes prickling. With a soft poke in his chest you whispered with all the courage you had left: "...Dew... Dewey..."
"Hmmm...sweetheart, whats up?" He replied softly.
You sighed, rubbing your hand against your forehead, gathering some more courage. You muttered: "I ehm.... I think I need to tell you something Dew..."
He went to put his guitar away. Shifting slightly so you was lying with your head on his lap, and he could look you right in the eye from how he was sitting. He grabbed your hand ,that out of stress had been clutching your own sweater, and placed his hand around yours. Squeezing lightly in encouragement. He smiled at you. It was an understanding smile, full of love and patience. You could cry at that alone. But swallowed your tears away, there had been anough crying today you decided.
Dewey saw you swallow hard and brought your clutched hands to his mouth and kissed them. "You can tell me anyting babe. You know that right?" You hummed in response.
Knowing you could trust him but also feeling incredibly scared and anxious... you stuttered: "Dew... i think... there is a reason i dont... i think i might be..." he squeezed your hand one more time.
You took that as an encouragement and mumbled the words that were nagging you for the past few months, your nerves barely made your voice louder then a whisper: "I think... ehm... I might be asexual Dewey..."
You felt like you could throw up. Or cry. Or both. You actually were about to bolt and do just that, untill you heard a familiar voice bringing u back to the present moment.
"... y/n... love... youknow..."
You coulndnt even hear full scentences of what Dewey was saying. His voice fading away, your nerves making it hard to fucus. He noticed your absence and your shallowing breathing, your breaths becoming faster and shorter with each one you took in. You couldnt even look at him while saying that. You were a pathetic coward... and now he would finally see you for the freak and the outcast you were. He would be disgusted and think you were a robot and leave you... You took another shaking breath...
A feeling brought you out of your shallow breathing. You noticed familliar calloused fingers glide through your hair. Combing through it and massaging your scalp softly. A smile appeared on your face, his movement was slowly getting the darkness outof your head. Finally you dared to look up towards Dewey. He was softly humming to you. His voice always calmed you, definetly right in this moment. His humming grounded you, while he was softly playing with your hair. You felt his other thumb circle softly on your hand he was still holding.
He smiled a soft smile at you, whisperening: "Hey... your back with me princess?" You nodded slowly. Tears spilling on your cheeks once again. "y/n, sweetheart, i love you the way you are. Always did, and always will. You are you. And if that is being asexual, then that's totally okay and i will be here for you. Every step of the way. Im so proud of you..."
He wiped away your tears, and while you choked out a "thank you Dewey", he kissed you on your forehead.
"Im so proud of you coming to terms with yourself. You dont have to do anything you dont want, okay? Dont ever feel obligated to date anyone just to feel 'normal'. You are you, y/n. And you are enough."
You smiled at that and yawned. The emotions of today suddenly making you very tired. "Dew..." you mumbled sleepy.
"Yeah...?"
"You may do the head-massage more often... it feels nice"
He chuckled at that, pinching your nose playfully. "Thats a deal... now off to bed with you, miss platonic."
You chuckled sleepily. Admire-ing his bad jokes even at this time and moment.
"Thanx Dewey..."
"Anytime babe..." he awnsered.
You stood up, your head and body suddenly heavy with sleep. Your mind drifted for a moment, but came back to the presence of Dewey sofly poking your side. You giggled, he knew you were ticklish there, and you swatted his hand away when he tried to do it a second time. He chuckled at that, glad he made you laugh again.
You looked at the floor. Anxiety bubbling in your chest at the nagging question in your head. Could you ask him this? After all that just happened? Would he still take you serious if you did? It wasn't sexual but still as intimate as you could be, and you didn't want to seem like you weren't serious. Since... well... people... sometimes mistook cuddles for sex. You still felt anxcious and conflicted, but didn't want to sleep alone. You took a big breath, looking a bit tired and sleepy up at him. Heart thumping nervously in your chest as your hands started to sweat. You glanced at his face and when you saw a half smile creeping up his face you knew you could ask him anything.
"Dew.... would you..." you had to stop because a yawn was bugging you. You continued after wiping your face sleepily, still anxious: "would you mind sleeping with me tonight? I... just... really dont wanna be alone right now. I need some cuddles." You confessed, biting your lip as you waited for his response. Anxiety slowly spreading in your chest as you waited at his awnser.
Instead of awnsering with words Dewey got up from the couch and pulled you into a big hug, once again petting your hair while holding you tight. You sighed and felt the tension leaving your body as he held you. "Of course..." he mumbled sofly in the crook of your neck. You took a big breath through your nose, nerves calming as you were surrounded by the familiar smell of Dewey. A familiar smell of tea-tree-oil, a bit of sweat and a hint of pizza from your dinner. His body was warm and his stubble tickled your neck as he held you close. You felt safe in his arms, and less troubled. Your mind cleared with every breath you felt him take in as the two stood there together. His hands seemed to wipe every anxious, stressed thought you had away. His calloused fingers still combing trough your hair affectionately. You sighed back at him, relaxed by his caring touch: "Thanx Dew...."
......
When you lay in your bed, later that night you fell asleep quite quickly. You knew you wouldnt be alone. Dewey snored a little in his sleep, and you couldnt help but smile. Feeling safe in his strong arms as he hugged you in his sleep, you felt his calm breath on your neck. The last thing you thought before drifting off was: 'Its gonna be fine. Im gonna be okay. Dewey is with me. Whatever i happen to like or not like, feel or not feel...
Dewey is here. Right by my side.'
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our campus: chapter 4 (tom holland fanfic)
summary: frat!tom and reader go to the same college and y/n is tasked with being his tutor, they don’t really get along at first (because i love reader and tom hating each other trope)
warnings: none ?????
word count: 2.1k
a/n: so many texts and so much dialogue fuckin kill me also texts are bold
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“I don’t know what you did to get her to give you a second chance, but I need to warn you.” Ally said. Tom turned to look at her, they had only ever spoken when necessary for theater stuff.
“Warn me?” He asked.
“Y/N can make your life either very, very good or very, very bad. She has most of the professors in this school wrapped around her pinky. And she doesn’t make it obvious, but she’s the smartest person I’ve ever met. She can really help you if you let her.”
“Well, thanks.” He said awkwardly and turned back to his stuff.
“One more thing.” Ally said. Tom turned again and raised his eyebrows. “Don’t you dare catch feelings.”
“Seriously? No need to worry about that.” Ally scoffed.
“I’m serious, Tom. Don’t. She doesn’t need that right now.”
“Yeah, fine, I get it.” He said.
“Alright guys let’s get started.” Gigi said, signaling rehearsal was about to start.
* * *
It was finally Friday, and your phone was blowing up as you walked to the library. Class had gotten out late, so you were walking as fast as possible so you wouldn’t be late to your meeting with Tom.
Al
if Y/N is ok with it its fine with me
Iz
i still dont know how i feel about this
Em
pretty pretty please guys i really like this guy and he really wants me to go
You
what are we talking about i was in class
Al
harrison invited em and all of us to the delt party tonight
Iz
and i said we shouldnt go bc of what happened
plus isnt tom a delt? wouldnt that be a bit awk?
You
honestly i couldnt care less. after the week ive had im gonna too blacked to even realize where we are
Em
lets take it to a vote
aye
Al
aye
Iz
nay
You
im abstaining
Em
the ayes have it! delt BABEEEYYYY
ill have harrison put us all on the list
You
glad we got that sorted ill see u guys at mine at 8
You walked into the library, checking your watch and seeing it was 4:02. You bit your lip. Hopefully he didn’t give you any crap for being late.
You walked quickly into hlab, and you knew you looked like a crazy person. Your bag was falling off your shoulder, you had a coffee in your hand and your water bottle tucked under your arm, and your phone in your other hand.
You scanned the room and saw Tom sitting across from Max, both of them had books out.
“Hi,” you said breathlessly. Max slid over a seat so you could sit across from Tom. “So sorry I’m late, crazy day.”
“No worries dar-” You heard him start to say darling, but stopped himself. “No worries. It’s only 2 minutes after.”
“How long have you been waiting?” You asked.
“Max and I have been hanging out for a while, not a big deal.”
“Speaking of, I’m on alc duty for tonight so I better go.” Max said, did his stupid handshake with Tom, and walked out.
Hlab was almost empty except for some freshman. Most people don’t like studying on a Friday, who could blame them?
“So I got a copy of your lectures from this week. What do you want to start with?”
“I don’t care.”
“Ok, what is currently confusing you the most?” He thought for a second before saying “Astronomy.” You nodded.
“Great, grab your notes and your textbook.” He pulled out a notebook and his laptop, opening the online textbook. You pulled out your laptop and a pen and highlighter.
“May I?” You asked and pulled his notebook to your side. You went through his notes, circling certain things with the pen and highlighting others.
“These are really good, Tom. I like how you put question marks next to things that confused you.” He laughed.
“Do I get a gold star?” He joked. You rolled your eyes.
“So phases of the moon.” You started.
“Wait a second,” he said after you had been talking for a while. “You’re telling me that the moon doesn’t actually, like, change?”
“It’s all shadows.” You replied. He nodded and seemed to finally be getting it.
“The phases will most definitely be on your next lab, which isn’t open note, so make sure you memorize them.” You said. “Let’s move onto stats.” He groaned. “What?” You asked.
“Statistics is so stupid. Letters and numbers shouldn’t go together.” You rolled your eyes.
“Stats is easy, I promise you. This is the first unit, all we’re doing is descriptive statistics and graphing. Let’s start with some vocab.” You said, highlighting certain words in his notes.
Once you could see his brain was about to explode, you moved onto writing.
“There’s not much to talk about, just email me your most recent paper so I can go through it and look for themes we need to discuss.”
‘“Themes?” He asked.
“You know, on going issues that need to be addressed.” He nodded and emailed you his paper, which you would read tomorrow. You heard your phone buzz and took a quick glance.
Em
al dont be upset
Al
then dont give me a reason to get upset
what is it
Em
……….. It’s themed
Al
are you kidding? were not freshmen, i dont wanna go to a stupid themed frat party
Em
its blackout !!!! itll be fun i promise
You turned your phone back down and didn’t realize you had an upset look on your face.
“Everything ok?” He asked.
“Just arguing in the group chat.”
“Do you need to go?” He asked.
“No, no, just arguing about tonight.”
“What’s tonight?”
“Tonight is not related to political conflict, which is what we should be talking about.” He laughed.
“Do you ever have fun?”
“Excuse me?”
“I’m serious, do you ever have fun, or do you just go to sleep surrounded by planners and textbooks.”
“That’s not funny. There’s a lot more about me that you don’t know.”
“Clearly.”
“So we’re starting off with socioeconomic issues over time and the class strugle. Did you read the Marx chapters?”
“Yup. Didn’t understand a word of it.”
“Ok, let’s get into it.” You said and began rambling about the bourgeoisie and the communist manifesto. Politics was your favorite subject, you could talk about it for hours.
You were having a really good discussion with Tom. It was global political conflict, and he was able to connect the themes to both America and England, which made you really pleased.
You were pulled out of your discussion when your phone vibrated.
Iz
pickin up panera anyone want anything
“Jeez it’s already past 6:30, I gotta go.” You said.
“Oh, I’m sorry.” He said.
“No it’s not your fault, I get so into politics I lose track of time.”
“I can tell.” He said as you both packed up your stuff.
“Wanna grab some food?” He asked.
“Sorry, can’t,” you said.
“Why, got a hot date?” He joked.
“Maybe,” you said.
“At least let me walk you to wherever you’re going.”
“You don’t have to do that.”
“Well where are you going?”
“Congression Hall?” You replied.
“Wait, you live there?”
“Uhm, yes? Me along with practically every other junior.”
“What floor?”
“8.” You said.
“Should’ve guessed.” He replied as you started walking across the quad.
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Honors 8. I forgot you were in hc.” He was referring to the eighth and top floor of Congression Hall, which was reserved for the honors college juniors.
“Yeah.” You said simply.
“I’m on six, by the way.” He said. “That’s why I was curious. I’ve never seen you around there.”
“I’m not usually, I only really use it for sleep.”
“Of course,” he replied.
“I assumed you lived in a frat house.” You commented.
“Nah, next year.” He said with a wink. “Speaking of frat houses, there’s kind of this party going on at Delt tonight-”
“I’m aware.” You said, cutting him off.
“Ah, well, if you want I can get you on the list.” You smiled to yourself.
“No need, I’m already on the list.” You said.
“Oh?” He said, clearly embarrassed. “Because of delta nu?”
“Nope.” You said, not offering any other information.
“Well maybe I’ll see you there then.”
“Even if you do see me there, I will be pretending I don’t know you.”
“Why?” He asked, clearly offended. “I run that house.” He joked, trying to play off the embarrassment.
“No offense, but your reputation would not be good for mine.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Well I have a certain reputation in the greek community, and if people see me with you they’ll get the wrong idea.”
“The wrong idea?” He asked as you walked in the lobby of your building.
“Well, see, the thing is,” you said, stepping into the elevator. He pressed the button for six and eight. “I have certain standards. If people see me with you, they’ll think I’ve…”
“Wow, you are really uptight, aren’t you?”
“Excuse me?”
“Certain standards? Jesus christ, you’re not the queen, Y/N. And I don’t have a bad reputation. But god forbid I don’t live up to your ‘standards.’” He said, storming off the elevator without another word, clearly upset. You sighed. Good job, Y/N.
Tom got to his room and threw his stuff on the floor, collapsing on his bed. His head hurt from all the tutoring, and trying to focus on not staring at your lips.
delt juniors
Tom
aight important question guys
Cal
whats up tommy
Tom
do you guys know a girl called Y/N Y/L/N? shes a delta nu
Joey
dan knows her ;)
Cal
fuck, Y/N? what are you doing with her?
Tom
shes tutoring me stop buggin
Max
i know her which u know shes in hc with me
Liam
oh danny DEFINITLY knows her
Will
who doesnt know Y/N? shes a hot commodity
Tom
what do you mean?
Cal
shes like the perfect girl next door, totally hot and so smart which just makes her hotter
Will
doesnt help that shes a huge fuckin flirt AND can hold her alc
Joey
dan is being suspiciously quiet……..
Dan
shut up joe
Liam
care to share with tommy your story with Y/N, daniel?
Dan
i hate u all
fine
i was like in love with her freshman year
and i thought she was into me too
and we made out a couple of times but nothing else
the second she found out i was in delt she stopped talking to me
like complete radio silence
Tom
wtf? Why?
Cal
she doesnt fuck with delts
thats like common greek knowledge
Will
maybe its because shes gonna be dchi sweetheart?
Joey
nah theres gotta be something else
Harrison
well i just put her on the list for tonite
Tom
wait YOU put her on the list?!
Harrison
yeah i invited her friend Emily Gold and she doesnt go anywhere without Y/N and these two other girls
Cal
Ally Park and Isabelle Miller
Harrison
yeah howd u know?
Cal
theyre like those cool girls from high school everyones obsessed with that are just out of everyones league
Tom
wow american high schools are so weird
Dan
tom if u wanna get with her i wont be pissed
Tom
nah like you said she hates delts, and after three tutoring sessions with me i guarentee i am her least favorite delt ever
Liam
theres no fuckin way she shows up tonight
she wouldnt be caught dead at a delt party
Noah
wait you said Y/N Y/L/N may come tonight????
DIBS
DIBS DIBS DIBS
I CALL DIBS
Cal
noah u seriously show up just to call dibs?
Noah
yeah bro have u seen her? if she comes tonight and any of you try to cockblock me i stg ill deck you
Dan
pretty sure tommy has rightful dibs to this one
Tom
nah fam she hates me so fuckin much
let noah try his luck
i doubt she’ll even show
Max
she’ll show.
Tom
what makes u say that?
Liam
max does know her best
Max
she and ally and emily and isabelle are ride or die. they circulate who picks what party they go to and if its emilys turn and harrison somehow conviced her to go, Y/N wont miss it
Dan
she hasnt set foot in a delt house since freshman year, you seriously think she’ll show?
Max
five bucks says she does
Dan
youre on
Noah
i just wanna make it clear
that if she does show
D I B S
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200 QUESTIONS???? ALRIGHT HERE YA GO.
hope you enjoy me spending an hour answering all of these :)
200: My crush’s name is: N/A
199: I was born in: 2000
198: I am really: nice
197: My cellphone company is: idk
196: My eye color is: Hazel, can turn dark brown or light green sometimes
195: My shoe size is: 8
194: My ring size is: 7 I think
193: My height is: 5′3
192: I am allergic to: penicillin
191: My 1st car was: Toyota
190: My 1st job was: Baskin Robbins
189: Last book you read: Suicide Notes (highly recommend)
188: My bed is: galaxy bedding and is currently on the floor in my bed fram cause my friends broke it...
187: My pet: Black cockapoo and a white cockapoo named Abby and Molly
186: My best friend: is a hoe
185: My favorite shampoo is: herbal essence color me happy
184: Xbox or ps3: I perfer Wii, Wii U or Nintendo switch
183: Piggy banks are: cute, Mine is a ducktales cup
182: In my pockets: nothing rn
181: On my calendar: nothing rn
180: Marriage is: a good thing but not a necessity for a happy life
179: Spongebob can: get it
178: My mom: is a queen
177: The last three songs I bought were? i only buy cds for my car so: Lover, Hozier, Blink 182
176: Last YouTube video watched: The Office deleted scenes
175: How many cousins do you have? 8 but I only see four of them and two of them are adults with kids so i consider them more of aunt and uncle figures
174: Do you have any siblings? One older sister
173: Are your parents divorced? Nope
172: Are you taller than your mom? Nope
171: Do you play an instrument? Nope
170: What did you do yesterday? Sat on ass and watched youtube
[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: ye why not
168: Luck: yes
167: Fate: yes
166: Yourself: kinda
165: Aliens: yes
164: Heaven: mmmm yes i guess
163: Hell: yes
162: God: uhhhhh yes and no, kinda indifferent
161: Horoscopes: yep
160: Soul mates: yesss
159: Ghosts: ye
158: Gay Marriage: WHO THE FUCK DOESNT BELIEVE IN THISS?? ITS REAL
157: War: think it does more harm than good
156: Orbs: ye
155: Magic: ye i wanna be a wizard
[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs
153: Drunk or High: drunk, i dont do drugs and i dont drink yet but ill prob get drunk
152: Phone or Online: oo i use both but Online i guess
151: Red heads or Black haired: Black hair
150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes
149: Hot or cold: HOT
148: Summer or winter: Summer
147: Autumn or Spring: Both
146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
145: Night or Day: Day
144: Oranges or Apples: Oranges
143: Curly or Straight hair: I have straight hair but curly hair is also beautiful
142: McDonalds or Burger King: BURGER KING..I HATE MCDONALDS
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: MILK
140: Mac or PC: Pc
139: Flip flops or high heals:...High heels prob
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: SWEET AND POOR, IM ALREADY UGLY
137: Coke or Pepsi: NEITHER
136: Hillary or Obama: obama
135: Burried or cremated: cremated
134: Singing or Dancing: love both but maybe dancing rn
133: Coach or Chanel: Coach
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: idk who they are
131: Small town or Big city: Big city, i grew up in a small town
130: Wal-Mart or Target: TARGET
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Adam
128: Manicure or Pedicure: Mani
127: East Coast or West Coast: West Coast
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas
125: Chocolate or Flowers: Chocolate
124: Disney or Six Flags: DISNEY
123: Yankees or Red Sox: eww sports
[ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War:....does more harm than good
121: George Bush:....dont know enough to say but im pretty sure he was an awful human
120: Gay Marriage: It should just be called marriage, just because you’re gay doesnt make it any less or any more, its equal to other marriages
119: The presidential election:
118: Abortion: Pro Choice, no one has the right to tell someone what to do with their body
117: MySpace: i never used it cause i was too young but i bet it was lit
116: Reality TV: its funny af
115: Parents: are nice if they care about their child but if they are abusive or horrible then they dont deserve respect
114: Back stabbers: should be stabbed
113: Ebay: its nice
112: Facebook: full of idiots and boomers
111: Work: a scam
110: My Neighbors: they fine
109: Gas Prices: A SCAM
108: Designer Clothes: a nice but really $200 for socks, no mama
107: College: SHOULD BE FREE
106: Sports: fun but no one needs to make that much money for throwing a ball
105: My family: i like them
104: The future: is wild and idk at this point
[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: my mom like a few days ago
102: Last time you ate: at 11 today!
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile:
100: Cried in front of someone: my mom after i yelled at her
99: Went to a movie theater: i saw Onward when we were allowed outside
98: Took a vacation: went to disneyland last October
97: Swam in a pool: like almost two years sadly
96: Changed a diaper: when i was like 8
95: Got my nails done: never got them done because my mom wouldnt take me cause i was a ‘tom boy’
94: Went to a wedding: never
93: Broke a bone: when i was three, my big toe
92: Got a piercing: my nose in January
91: Broke the law: i guess i sped the other day
90: Texted: literally as im doing this
[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: my friend
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: the silence of being alone
87: The last movie I saw: Princess and the Frog
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Moving for college
85: The thing im not looking forward to:
84: People call me: Deanna (real name), Dean, Star (what yall call me) ton of others
83: The most difficult thing to do is: idk
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never
81: My zodiac sign is: Aries
80: The first person i talked to today was:
79: First time you had a crush: Ive had
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: my best friends
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: my friends over ft
76: Right now I am talking to: no one
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: hopefully being an animator
74: I have/will get a job: at disney
73: Tomorrow: doing nothing
72: Today: doing nothing
71: Next Summer: hopefully not on quarantine
70: Next Weekend: nothing special
69: I have these pets: 2 doggos
68: The worst sound in the world: ICE SCRAPING OR MOUTH BREATHING
67: The person that makes me cry the most is:
66: People that make you happy: my friends
65: Last time I cried: few days ago
64: My friends are: my world
63: My computer is: a Dell
62: My School: is a community college
61: My Car: it goes
60: I lose all respect for people who: are bigots, dehumanize people, republicans
59: The movie I cried at was: Onward had me sobbing
58: Your hair color is: Brown rn
57: TV shows you watch: theres too many
56: Favorite web site: tumblr or youtube
55: Your dream vacation: every disney park
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: i think when i cut my finger or when i went to the hospital for my chest
53: How do you like your steak cooked: Medium rare
52: My room is: disney themed and my safe zone
51: My favorite celebrity is: Tara Strong
50: Where would you like to be: Disneyland
49: Do you want children: ehh maybe
48: Ever been in love: nope
47: Who’s your best friend: my neighbor that ive known since i was 4
46: More guy friends or girl friends: more girl
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: making cake
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: my cousin
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: not really
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: ye
41: Have you pre-named your children: kinda
40: Last person I got mad at: my mom
39: I would like to move to: La
38: I wish I was a professional: animator
[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: Kitkat
36: Vehicle: Cars
35: President:
34: State visited: California, Nevada, Texas, Hawaii,
33: Cellphone provider:
32: Athlete: n/a
31: Actor: Colin O'Donoghue
30: Actress: Lana Parrilla
29: Singer: Joe Jonas, Taylor Swift
28: Band: Big Time Rush
27: Clothing store: Hot topic, Ross,
26: Grocery store: Safeway
25: TV show: Once Upon A Time or PPG
24: Movie: Princess and the Frog and Ratatouille
23: Website: tumblr
22: Animal: elephant
21: Theme park: disneyland
20: Holiday: Halloween
19: Sport to watch: hockey
18: Sport to play:..i do not play
17: Magazine: i dont read mags
16: Book: Kingdom Keepers
15: Day of the week: Friday
14: Beach: one i went to in Hawaii
13: Concert attended: Jonas Brothers
12: Thing to cook: chowmein and strawberry shortcake
11: Food: Chowmein
10: Restaurant: my fav Chinese restaurant
9: Radio station: I don’t listen to the radio
8: Yankee candle scent: Vanilla
7: Perfume: Vanilla
6: Flower: Rose or Larkspur
5: Color: Black or blue
4: Talk show host: umm i dont watch many but i guess Jimmy Fallon
3: Comedian: Jaboukie Young-White or John Mulaney
2: Dog breed: Pomeranian
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? ye
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